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Yoni Squirting for Sexual-Spiritual Health and Wellness with Grace Diaz TPP237

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In this episode I’m joined again by Grace Diaz to learn all about yoni squirting!

About Grace:

My passion of healing began at the age of ten, when my father, a Reiki Master of 20 years initiated me as a Reiki Master in Medellin, Colombia. For years after arriving back to the United States, I began teaching Usui Reiki all over the east coast.

Reiki lead me to Tantra. I was initiated and certified into Shakti-Pakti-Tantric-Yoga by my mentor Tafari Sudra, in 2011, and it allowed me to heal my 10-year eating disorder through what I believe was a neuroplastic effect.

My organizations, Yoni Grace, LLC and The Vaginal Voice Foundation along with my book, “How to Use the Yoni Egg for Sensual Healing” were created to share the wisdom I experienced with Vaginal Yoga and Yoni Eggs.

In 2011 I began distributing Yoni Eggs to women worldwide while educating them through what I was taught through interviewing over 5,000 women in Yoni Egg focus groups.

I host Vaginal Yoni Egg Yoga events in the Las Vegas, Los Angeles, Miami Beach, New York, Denver, Bogota and Medellin, Colombia and even in Istanbul, Turkey.

I also certify women in Vaginal Yoni Egg Yoga training for their at-home businesses.

My Vaginal Yoni Egg Yoga events are one of a kind and focus on helping women embrace their sensual wisdom for spiritual and physical wellbeing.

Please visit her website at:
https://yonigrace.com/

 

The Revolt of the Cum Slaves with Bitch Goddess Grace Diaz TPP209

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In this episode I’m joined by Grace Diaz who is standing strong in her Bitch Goddess power to tell a story of rebellion against the forces of patriarchal narcissism, manipulation, intimidation, and abuse. In this scandalous sexpose, she takes a constructive, conscious,  proactive approach to raising awareness about the larger cultural issues. Her demands for justice transcend her own personal gain, and she’s working to support and liberate all women.

The issues that are brought up are raw and extreme, but the sad truths must be brought to the light. I bow down to her courage to speak out, and it’s an honor to hold space on the podcast for her to share her story. We’ve been through a lot of powerful material together on the podcast and our sense of solidarity increases every time.

About Grace:

My passion of healing began at the age of ten, when my father, a Reiki Master of 20 years initiated me as a Reiki Master in Medellin, Colombia. For years after arriving back to the United States, I began teaching Usui Reiki all over the east coast.

Reiki lead me to Tantra. I was introduced to Shakti-Pakti-Tantric-Yoga by my Guru Tafari Sudra, in 2011, and it allowed me to heal my 10-year eating disorder. Our organization, YONI GRACE, LLC was birthed in 2012 when I felt the burning need to share the wisdom I was experiencing through Yoni Breathing.

In 2012 Grace began distributing Yoni Eggs wholesale worldwide and teaching thousands of women how to run a Yoni Egg business from home!

Grace hosts Yoni events in the Las Vegas area and internationally. In 2016, she was privileged to be hosted in Istanbul, Turkey. There, Grace and 35 Muslim women participated in a weekend workshop of the Yoni Egg practice with Yoni Yoga. Her classes are one of a kind and focus on helping women embrace their innate sensual wisdom for spiritual and physical wellness.

Please visit her website at:
https://yonigrace.com/  

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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin hello dear beloved’s welcome to Tantra Punk podcast episode number 2 0 9 this is a very interesting show again with Grace Diaz who is going to tell all in a sort of very a very scandalous sort of sex pose a talking about issues that she has been confronting that or you could say or within and Beyond the me-too movement and different experiences and insights having overcome some pretty heinous treachery on the part of an individual who will remain unnamed but who she is in a sort of psychic battle with for the soul retrieval shamanic healing work needs to happen for her to restore her her true dignity and her her highest glory and grace as independent Sovereign woman in charge of your own destiny and I’m very proud to be instrumental however I can to support that process for all women and certainly I am a a defender of the only Temple because I myself have been a Survivor and in ways have been violated and abused in and taking advantage of often or in many ways that women who have been victimized and who are survivors have so I have that compassion I have that ability to commiserate and I also am on a path of personal healing and transformation that would continue to inform me about the importance of composting the patriarchy starting with myself and really figuring out ways that I can always be getting stronger hopefully always be getting wiser but also be giving back and also be helping in any way I can and just hoping for the best sort of case studies and caseloads to be applying myself too and I think that Grace’s is absolutely outstanding as one of the women who I dearly respect and honor and believe in the work she’s doing is so important to where she’s doing and I feel like when you tell we need to give prayers and help part the seas to make this path of empowerment and Liberation continue smoothly and for all of the all of the forces that are working against this movement of Liberation for them to be on all the forces seen and unseen for them to be really bound and and kept really in a place of safe distance for their own healing and transformation in processing so that there’s not a constant depletion of energy having to fight all these uphill battles with the Patriarchs who have so much the the the game board skewed and their favorites like such a rigged game in this casino of patriarchy and the more you peel back the onion just the more Sinister it gets so this episode gets into some pretty raw territory and I hope you can bear with it and understand that this is serious business in you know you start taking on these Empires and you got to watch your back so send his prayers with do this together like do you like the revolts of the dancers at the Jabba the Hutt bar and be like Princess Leia and use that chain let’s use those change to choke out our oppressors and give free all right with that said thank you very much enjoy the show Namaste good morning I’m glad I am live on my YouTube I made it my dogs don’t bark in the background how are you been I’m doing very well yes so that’s exciting new developments going on and just thrilled to be alive and just thrilled to hear about this expose that she have planned and I’m trying to think about what to call it it’s as trying to think of something like mess with a bitch goddess and you get the… I can say this now because I didn’t have I don’t have this password anywhere but literally one of my password was I’m a bitch goddess yeah make it make your passwords or a long complex daily affirmation that only you understand that’s a good one Beauty forced to give the positive reinforcement I like it okay so let’s talk about it so I got my letter in the mail so I’m going to fill in everybody who doesn’t know what’s going on when I’m talkin about I know you know the details so I’m going to just cover in a really you know like just just so everybody knows what’s going on so I was in a relationship for 6 years I was pretty much unaware that the disproportionate power dynamics were a problem I at the time when I was in relationship to this person who you know like the whole thing with the with a female movement and and fighting against like a charcoal abusive power like I was cool with they’re being disproportionate power dynamics because I thought that I joined that power source and it was going to be and it was like my power to you know what I mean like I didn’t know that that power is going to be used against me and so a lot of people say and I’m talking about an older gentleman that you know a prominent attorney in in Maryland former judge and I was in relationship to him for 6 years very beautiful relationship until I really started discovering the like I was I was basic basically a narcissistic supply for him and I didn’t know that I was a narcissistic supply for him until I stopped supplying him because I started growing beyond my young twenty-two-year-old naive self at the time he was like in his late sixties and so I was with him because I thought that he could help me because he was helping me and he was so adamant about supporting me and helping me go through school and helping me you know start my business and everything like that and so I thought that I was joining the disproportionate power source and I want to make that really clear because there are a lot of women these days that join it’s it’s like it’s like you joining an institution it’s like you you think that the institutions going to be on your side you know if you’re not here if you think you are you know what I mean and so that’s where I was coming from I was coming from you know like everything’s honest and transparent everything’s authentic everything is being spoken aloud between me and my partner and so I am just like many girls I believe you know who put themselves in these situations and everyone’s like no don’t do it like you so much older than you more money than you he has so much more legal power than you don’t do it don’t do it and I’m like why would I not do that like she can she can really help me and he does really love me so you know… You’re the antagonist to telling me not to do it you know what I mean when really what a lot of these people are trying to do is really help you and nnn because this unfortunately did SKU against my favor and I am you know if you didn’t see my other coming out video I talked about a gag order that I received once me and him broke up and I unfortunately signed it under duress I was very I don’t want to go over too many of the details but pretty much that’s like the backstory and so anyway so I opened an investigation with this against the person because a lot of the behavior that they wanted me to hush about a lot of illegal activity and he was he’s just afraid that I’m going to speak out and so here I am speaking out because he put me in a position where you wanted to silence me two years ago by me being depressed about what to do about this having no legal aid or support at all and so I decided to open an investigation and put the power in my hands and really take care of this motherfucker so that’s the backstory well congratulations for stepping out in and breaking the silence and I know that all is divine blessings will be coming your way to help with all that’s needed and this is just the tip of the iceberg and it’s the entire imagix think of a Jabba the Hutt and I just think they were all in this Cult of Jabba the Hutt because this Dynamic with young women and club culture and I know it’s all throughout Vegas and you just see I’m in Vegas is sort of the the Dream the ultimate Global masculine dream of being able to be a guy who is successful in business or what whatever and then basically is able to have this pseudo Harem of of skimpy skimpy dressed model-esque women who were pretty much just either totally vacant mentally or they or even if they’re not that kind of have to fake it and play like that because who would actually be entertained by people in that this guy sounds like an actual like he has redeeming qualities and then he’s not the the the the lowest slug sloth of a of a male that’s ever lived which makes it more painful I’m sure because then there is some attention City to it and even more heartbreaking because if he was at if he was just a bastard through and through then it wouldn’t be it will be probably less painful to go through but this is what I’ve learned with my research with dealing with narcissists there’s three different kinds of narcissists there’s the ones that like Donald Trump it’s like out your face and everyone knows it and then there’s the covert narcissists like The Bill Cosby they talk about you know like morality that talk about empowerment empowering the community and then they’re actually like raping women behind the scenes you know and so that’s the category in which I would put this fellow into and he is a covert narcissist and even though he on the service doesn’t look like the lowest scum in my opinion I really believe that specifically these types of covert narcissist build their whole lives assembling a a portrait of how good they are because internally they believe they know actually that they are the lowest scum you know like that’s there at least obviously nope no human is scum like there’s no City like I personally don’t believe that any human being even though you may have done some of the worst things ever like on a soul level on a on a on a truce like the ultimate truth level every person has a spirit and soul and we’re here basically trying to demonstrate her lessons were here to try to demonstrate our understanding our our Consciousness pass you know the stream of Consciousness that we’ve been through for so many lifetimes maybe perhaps and I don’t believe that you know any person is is release come we’re just trying to figure things out and so obviously he’s not scum like deep down inside he believes he is like that’s what a covert narcissist really believes on a very unconscious level you know he doesn’t he doesn’t even know that he thinks about himself but that’s why he’s put his whole life and trying to be a legal superhero you know especially till like the black community and everything like that and and look what he was doing behind-the-scenes he would he basically and my my response to this investigation because I do have to submit a response to which is basically just talking about how all of his efforts go into selecting women to be with that are disproportionately less educated than them that are disproportionately significantly younger than than them like I’m 45 years younger than him you know like that’s a lot that’s a lot that’s like Beyond what’s even normal for like large gaps you know disproportionately like even even me being Colombian like like no one in my family knows anything about law here you know what I mean like no one no one in my family knows like the court system necessarily like how to actually like do things you know because we’re not really from here and then and I really do think that that actually is a turn-on for a lot of these you know that getting that narcissistic Supply getting that narcissistic Supply specifically for this person like that was that’s a turn-on to have someone disadvantaged to be with because you don’t pose a threat to them yeah I hear that mean I think it’s the same archetype of the whole mail-order bride thing and you know I watch the documentary all about how in Southeast Asia the new cash crop isn’t race anymore it’s young women and families will basically cultivate their daughters to be sold off either into urban brothels or there’s a s’more sort of what I would call a lighter form of sex trafficking and then documentary they show that end this Village in Thailand every year they have a foreign husband of the Year festival and men compete and they go there they go they’ve basically they bring the wives that they exported these young women they exported them out of their village community as a cash crop export products and then the ones that were the most well-to-do and whatever the most handsome or dashing whatever it is they come back in a group several and they come back with their wives that they took out of the Village Inn compete for a sort of crown and there’s a big party in Festival like a traditional big let you know that kind of Festival event and you see that that I think I watched that guy the interview he was like 3 time winner in a row or something like that and just take this is such gnarly Twisted abuse and you know if anything they should just like take all that power and wealth in literally don’t take the woman out of her family and Village and take his ass over there and have them a Keisha pekid by their Village back from the corrupt government he could actually help people instead he’s just parading around and taking her to Disney World or whatever so and fucked up a thirty-year-old now you know when I was 22 at the time and I was with this individual I basically I didn’t understand I didn’t understand how this could go against me like I didn’t understand the stage that I was playing you know according like Shakespeare and everything like I didn’t understand my stage like I didn’t understand that it was so our groneck then about this whole situation the most ironic thing is that I am a female empowerment like leader so it would get it like how could I not you no speak out break my silence against this mother fucking stupid gag order contract that really attempted to just Sally my work solely my you know my voice and everything and and so anyway and so it was you know I just I just really didn’t understand what I was getting into and now this this man I’m just so grateful that women are really stepping out women are really biting their voice because this is true like there’s so many needs to women and and I I don’t even like labels I don’t even like killing myself necessarily A me too but that’s really the category that I feel most identified with because I feel like this all happened in secret and my only voice is coming out publicly and talkin about it my only voice is to be able to say Hey you know I went through this and I right now I’m trying to fight it by holding this person accountable and what interesting actually about this individual’s response regarding this investigation that’s going on is that he’s really just trying to portray me as being hysterical as me being hysterical that’s really all he has he says that I’m trying to extort him that I’m trying to threatened him and all of that and so honestly you know whenever you whenever the disempowered party uses their power really was interesting about this whole situation now with the me-too movement is that now the power Dynamic is starting to be a little bit more even-keeled and that is so frightening to the other to the abusive party you know what I mean and so I’m just I’m basically just talking about this like even talk about this right now it’s like I’m a little nervous like I’m a little like but even just talking about it like I’m it’s scary you know what I mean and I’ve silenced myself I’ve gone along with the stupid contract for like 2 years and me finally get into this place where I can’t even talk about it even in this vague sense is scary you know and I didn’t do anything wrong I’m not doing anything wrong but I have this fear of speaking out against this gag order contract. I don’t abide by I don’t respect it I don’t believe it I was in such a horrible place and everyone knew it I had no legal support at all and so yeah and so basically you know me talking about this this is very very helpful and I appreciate it band and it’s a little scary but I’m very grateful that you’re letting me you know talk about it with your audience to so my viewers are saying that they’re bored with me talking about this they’re saying they’re bored I’m thrilled because this is this is the kind of fun this is the boldness that is that if it’s take if you worship the fierce goddesses then you will be emboldened and you will stop taking shit and you will let the sword of truth / down the Egos and the demon real estate the demons in and as far as I’m concerned you know this whole concept that you can use the apparatus of the state I mean I’m an anarchist and I believe that human beings are intelligent enough and and sweet-hearted enough to at the right scale of a village basically solve our problems collectively and have consensus in our decision-making did not have the shadow authoritarian violence backed forces of the of the Empire to protect the private property and wealth of elite classes I don’t believe in any of that shit and even if you got it from a doing good things if you’re going to use it to I mean I see this all the time it’s it’s rampant in the activist communities it’s rampant in that the punk rock movement that I’ve been in at everybody has every man every man has got their hands in the cookie jar of minors and also like I can specifically remember times in my life when I had a lot of young women all around me because I’m in a band and you know there’s this weird disproportionate population pyramid in the punk rock scene where it’s like most of the bands are made up of men and that’s likely changing to an didn’t beautiful movements right girl excetra where it where women have formed all girl bands and creative niches within the genre but but that was a backlash to but basically the standard. I’m in that in the music scene the name a punk is it it’s like it isn’t a pretty somewhat balance ratio of young men and young women teenagers who get into the scene when they’re you know when they’re rebelling against their parents and they’re going to high school and they’re sharing mixtapes and things to make it into it but then because of the inherent sexism in the scene it’s really only men who teach each other to play instruments for the most part and and so they dominate the the actual bills on the shows and they dominate just being the musician so what happens is because the guys stay in the bands by the time everyone else grows out of it by the time they get real jobs and have real families like they stop going to shows I stop partying all the time so you’re left with this this population pyramid where it’s like a lot of Aging Men playing their instruments being the rockstars and there’s no women who who follow them up that age curved it’s only man staying in the band so they only have access to all the time women so I’ve been in that reality for decades now and I’ve outgrown those you know that there’s there’s not there’s not a lot of women there are some and believe me I worship them their goddesses they’re bad asses vocalist and guitarist bases drummers you name it but they’re also fighting an uphill battle to not be raped and not being molested and abused and sexually be respected in the scene and I cherish them all and I’ve worked with many of them I play in bands with women and they kick ass and they fucking prick everybody to shame but this the point I’m making is that I’m from another sector this is like you could be the most self-righteous you know conscious political activist whatever and really most guys as far as I’m concerned don’t even know how to not put their hands in the cookie jar because it’s it’s so if that women can be young and seductive and they can be it in blacked out and there’s just like recipes for disaster everywhere it sounds like you had a not as debaucherous of a of a journey is I’ve been apart of what I’ve been a part of a lot of these abuse allegation Community resolution issues where we didn’t use the government or the state or lawyers because we were anarchists and we believe that we saw her Camino problems together as a community and people sometimes got beat down people some cat X got run out of town people sometimes were given opportunities to earn Redemption by doing service work in the community and working and rape crisis centers and actually getting re-educated from the ground up so I’d hope that there would be pressure from a larger community and yes the me-too movement but they scab that image when you saying that you feel you know nervous it’s like I think we’re at a Tipping Point where where the the thousands of little fish make that big one giant fish and together they all and swallow the one bully fish that was bigger than each of them individually right and thank you for saying all of that I am so what’s interesting is that one of the people on here just said so what do you want I think that’s a really good question like I should focus on what what do I want from that situation so what do I want from the situation so I don’t really believe that this covert narcissist ever going to apologize is ever going to recognize how much of a fucking bully he is how much of his patterns you know and in all of that I don’t think he’s ever going to acknowledge that in previously what I wanted was for him to cease this three-year timeline because I’m on the contract he specifically constructed a three-year timeline even after we broke up to have me hanging on a string because he purchased things for me you know I purchase a vehicle we purchase certain things for me that were really his and so he was just giving me money to pay for the things that she got me that I wasn’t ever responsible for paying anyway and so he just kind of was giving me little chunks of it 3 years out and you know I really argued to just have one you know just just close everything out just pay for everything one lump sum he could have done that but you can give it to me you got to just close down his account like the car payment for example just close that and so what he did was he did the 3-year timeline to keep me hanging so originally what I wanted was just get rid of that that 3 year timeline because it was suffocating me I couldn’t I couldn’t I just felt like I was under his under under his word like under his Timeline under his contract under his thing you know and I didn’t like that so what I want now now that this three-year timeline is pretty much over why I feel more comfortable talking about it is I just really want to share this message with women I really I really want to be comfortable sharing my story which I’m not still which is why it’s so vague and everything I want to be really comfortable sharing my story I want to relate to women that it’s okay to fight against the grain I want to call wish my book How The vaginal voice reclaim your story which is basically the story in more detail and lessons and and and breathing and had a really transmute at all that’s really what I want I really want at least use the lesson that I have all the pain that I have felt I want to use it in some way to translate it so that other women can kind of take my Consciousness and apply it to the bullshit they may be going through with other narcissistic you know Outlets other narcissistic men and women even so that is a very weird too cuz I think a lot of survivors of all kinds of abuse in trauma find that purpose and it’s the only way really to transcend whatever degrees of self-doubt or shame you know to it it’s take it takes a lot of boldness to overcome that shame for sure by speaking out about it but I keeping it inside and letting it Eat You Alive and you know I don’t I don’t talk about it publicly but I need to get comfortable doing that you know and I’m so anyway so I just want to say this to all the men that are following me cuz I have a lot of you know if you want to lift a woman up you will reap so much positive Karma I mean you will reap so much positive even another man children if you lift them up but if you if you intentionally strategize a way to suppress and oppress someone that is so going to come back to you like so much harder I mean this the person that I’m talking about May potentially not be able to practice law anymore I mean I don’t know what the consequences will be one of the specifics that I would like to highlight that is being investigated right now is that when I went when I attended one of his speeches cuz he gave speeches all around Washington DC and Baltimore actually really Nationwide but memes specifically in those two places so I went with him one time to DC and he was getting up an actual speech on police brutality he and I were driving back from the Washington Monument where he gave his you know his thing and he had someone else he was living with somebody else at the time you know he feel like a decade he was with somebody else already and I knew that already together for several years but he always wanted me to be quiet when this other person called because he was trying to give the illusion that he was always by himself obviously he wasn’t and so my phone made a noise in the car and I was already pissed at him it was already towards the end of our relationship and and so he he swung his hand at me and it smacked me in the face he was trying to I think you’re trying to get my phone or maybe he really was trying to hit me I’m not really sure but either way he smacked me in the face so hard that it gave me a bloody nose and so she immediately said it was my fault like the first thing you do if you have a bloody nose is you say my bad didn’t mean to do that that wasn’t what I was trying to do something that communicates you weren’t trying to do that you know what I mean at minimum if not apologize as well right he just kept on saying how it was my fault the whole time because he knows I should have known I knew my phone should have been on silent it was my fault so that’s what’s being investigated right now is was he intentionally trying to hit me you know what I mean cuz that would that’s the mean that would be a really big deal so because he didn’t apologize because he said it was my fault even at the time I I stayed quiet and I didn’t record it I mean four years I didn’t say anything because I just took it as he’s just angry just stay quiet just you know he’s just upset just you know it was a mistake but that was me really covering up all of this narcissistic skewed power Dynamic situation you know me playing along with it and so when I opened up this investigation also you know what fuck this I’m going to really tell tell the story like it really what I just said it just like this I reported it right and so that’s what’s actually being that’s I think the main thing what I believe is the main thing is being investigated from him along with many other any other things that I think should also go looked at but it looks like this is just being highlighted which you know is is fine I guess but yeah so what’s interesting is that this person even though he’s a lawyer he completely lied and made up a story and his response back about it that just made me look hysterical and he said that I was trying to grab the wheel and you try to protect yourself from me actually and that’s why he hit me I feel like a courtroom drama is such a theater of bullshit art anyway it’s just it makes me think of what you just said that it makes me think that it’s it’s a it’s a tragedy that the people who actually represent their clients and have to tell these ridiculous stories that are the that you know I mean I’m going to take your word for it because I just have that bias I’m sorry I take I take women’s words after I take I take one with the word what is it what’s that word you say not unquestioningly but I’ll give you the benefit of the doubt in this in this case I give you the chance to the doubt and we’ll start there and then it and then it’s funny because I was just thinking right now so you just described your telling of that incident and it makes me want to see in a courtroom it’s like the future of of courtroom drama okay like you have a Hollywood production crew and they get models and actors in and it a whole production crew together to actually make a historical re-enactment docudrama of just that that scene and then after the after you get to show yours your docudrama this evening we get to watch his it’s like you’re screaming for swerving and people are like like women walking with the with their carriages and dogs suffer like screaming and running and having to jump into the fountain and oh my God yeah just like any narcissist portrayed himself like the victim and even though so not a victim I mean this man is millionaire I mean he’s very highly educated he’s in the position of power in the community he’s a mentor to like other officials in the community other governmental officials and you know it’s it’s really the biggest question that I have is why would someone like that want to be in a relationship with someone so societally disempowered like like myself I mean I was in a societal no position at the time like I was I was really a nobody you like what would turn you on like that’s what I really want to know like now that I look at it from hindsight like why would that really turn you on if you would someone like that and it’s because of the power Dynamic it really is what turns them on it’s that they have more power that’s it so has nothing to do with the other person right to have somebody be your equal obviously it takes half your power away when you can be when you don’t see them as your equal or they don’t stand up for whatever reason in your case not because you were extremely introverted or shy but probably more just that you were younger and figuring out life and you know then that’s another another for predators that’s I think you’re kind of yours it’s just it’s honestly Brown like it’s really disgusting yeah well that’s it’s really an and I was practically homeless at the time as while I was living out of my friend’s closet shuttle walk-in closet that was empty and I was that was where I stayed was with my friend I mean with interesting if I got it I got a question for you will come back to it so what’s interesting is that in this does have to do with my particular role in the situation but what I did which I hope every woman does the situation of really anyone who’s in a disempowered situation you have to use the tools are being given to you in order to lift yourself up and so I did start my own business he tries to take full credit for that he also tries to take full credit for my bulimia being healed you know he he always and that was actually one of the reasons why the breakup was was so like a seal the deal like he kept on saying to me you know I was really what I was writing my book and I started publishing it and I was talking about my bulimia being here. He started saying to me I healed it you know that it wasn’t it wasn’t you it wasn’t your practice it wasn’t anything that you were doing I healed and he said it so many times it was just so it just it just made me like see him clearly for the first time you know and so my advice that really anyone in a disempowering situation like that is really just to use whatever tools and resources are being provided to you use them to your benefit and I was able to walk away with the business I was able to walk away with more education I was able to walk away feeling in this order that I had I was able to walk away with more confidence with more understanding I was able to walk away also at with with with a reputation and my reputation it is working with women and now is working with men to doing the lingam breathing thing I just started doing that like a year ago but they’re saying leave the trauma well that’s about it so yeah so that’s that’s pretty much everything been you know I’m I’m I’m still trying to get comfortable talking about it I’m still trying to make cheese with the situation so the if we were to this is all say what you had a couple questions weren’t you know talking about what is what is it that these men in the end I think it’s just you know a kid in a candy store if you can get to that point I mean from my perspective I think what happens is most men in their horniest and most viral life years are also the most broke the most pimply the highest pitched voices and the most socially awkward and really unattractive to women as they’ll ever be so it’s really it’s a really bizarre mind-fuck to be a horny teenager and have no game and have only certain jocks with clear skin be the ones who get to be the prom King and they tend and they tend to do what people call peaking in high school meaning you think you’re that you know King of the Hill and you can hear the king bully or whatever the king jock and you get to be the prom king and you get you in the popularity contest and you get laid on you know on prom night or whatever but then after that you kind of go downhill and you just kind of lose your your mojo and you just join the workforce and you just reminisce on the old football days or whatever and you don’t really continue to strive and to achieve and to impress women maybe you’re locked into a sexless marriage and you know of any search Just For Men is about impressing women like on a subconscious level is that like whatever it is that like the power game like trying to get power I think you’re getting that you’re getting at it for sure which to me I have my psychoanalysis on myself and I can try to transpose this and and project it to a degree around me after my you know brother Circles of men’s groups and Tantra Meetup to know that it’s like the trauma I think with men is that because their ends up being a very disproportionate level of sexual starvation during your Peak years of sexual of what should be your sexual prowess and really only a handful of men get to experience that glory and then what happens is you just rot inside and you become obsessed and it takes maybe many failed marriages and many decades to become a professional success and then finally once your boner start getting soggy have money you have power and now your voice is a little bit lower your skin is in his pimply and your face isn’t do you don’t have baby fat on your face anymore and so you are becoming more attractive to women but also you have a SOG your boner and and honestly the aura of younger women in their Prime in their fertility Prime gets men’s dicks hard after they’ve gone soggy in 40 and above years so that is like this this weird kind of like sick joke that that Creator create Rick’s goddess I don’t know God whatever like Evolution whatever it it makes this interesting inverse situation and it really makes everybody lose in the modern Paradigm because if we were to acknowledge the Arc of male testosterone and also acknowledged The Arc of female fertility then we would celebrate older women being cougars and fucking younger men who are more Vero and we would celebrate older men getting your dick hard with younger women who are who are more fertile and that would solve a lot of problems are you interested in dating in your fountain of youth exactly you’re the Fountain of Youth there you go man who is making a lot of powerful decisions that I could be a feminine softener like I could saucin him a little bit because he was he probably is like he usually very hyper mess he let you know and he still is hyper masculine very hyper masculine and I did it it did turn me on to know that I was with a powerful man and I could be some type of Aid to him in my naivete well I will yeah I’ll tell you I’ve been in this is actually an awesome so we’re getting into some really you know I’ve got Goose Bumps thinking about this because this is the truth and the Heart of the matter that we have to explore to be honest as a culture about these Dynamics cuz that look at the Dos Equis commercial and I’m like yeah give me a fuckinbreak you know come on what is this really about is this guy or earned the respect of these women are those all his granddaughters you know what the fuck is going on here you know we all have that like sort of what the fuck is this guy doing at this bar with his 10 granddaughters what is it like you know what the hell is no ionic and it’s it it is really disgusting and disturbing because he used to an innocent with a narcissist will do to try to position his environment to mirror his power back to him and so he would say things like that to me like oh you know it’s it it turns you on that you know people see us and they think that you know I’m taking advantage of you and it turns me on to know that you know the real story and you know that I really take care of you and I really love you and I really all these other people were looking at us on the outside you know fuck them I was like that’s what I felt like I feel like this is proportionate power dynamics between us I didn’t see them because I thought I was part of his power now like I I thought I was he was part of my power and I was part of his power that’s what I thought with joining forces with him you know what I mean and in my naivete in my in cuz that’s what he led me to believe and what’s interesting is that he used to say to me a lot used to say you know I it’s about protecting me you don’t protect me baby it’s about protecting me for acne protect me when I would you know carry drugs with him and travel with him and put the you know the drugs up my pussy for him and do all this illegal bulshit with him he used to say Protect Me protect me like me take the hit like basically he was he was grooming me for years to take the hit for him you know and I always knew that and I hated that I hate that you would put me in that position but as the subordinate in that situation as the you know as as the the less or equal one I I would give you what you would say and I didn’t have family around me I think would also would also made him want to be with me is that I didn’t have family around me I didn’t have a man I didn’t have anyone around me you know I live around me a little bit of the time but she didn’t really do anything either like no one did anything like no one did anything and you know the whole the whole relationship with him grooming me to protect him so that I could take the hit if something ever happened I’m leaving out a lot of details that’s well that’s a very good stuff very interesting now I don’t think anyone forward after hearing about you shoving drug drugs up your pussy to protect the man is I mean in and I can commiserate because I will tell you I was in a similar relationship Dynamic with a woman who is ridiculously wealthy beyond my wildest imagination and I was in a relationship Dynamic with her that was very powerful sex magical power couple manifesting you know really the living the dream and she was almost 20 years older than me and I would say there was a real sincere beautiful love and adoration mutually going on but there’s also some subtle undertow currents going on of me basically waking up one day discovering that I had been tricked into being a come slave and that she was harvesting my seed in order to rejuvenate her Essence and that is something known to the Chinese Taoist and there are women who were empresses in The the more classical ancient age of Chinese sexual Kung Fu amongst the Imperial class and women were were known to actually like men alive with their pussies and kill them by sucking and Driver season almost dead I was like a tripled up and I had to go to hospital no it wasn’t that bad but you made you come like ever they all the time so nuts what will swallow it into the into the fine tissues it for a for vaginal canal and you know otherwise but you know mainly it’s it’s the way it gives you gets absorbed in Mexico older women are lusting and they getting these passionate make it into heat you know wild passionate fiery heat for the Young Bucks seed and the Chinese knew that it may take out get this the Chinese we have this it it’s something some people have tried to myth busted but supposedly there’s this mythical Cult of the white tigress and the white tigress Cult of essential Chinese types of yoginis you would say they understood these Dynamics and they had an astrological clock work of how they would ingest in I don’t know why but nothing just sit in their ass but at least they in the mouth in the vagina they were ingesting taking in male semen but they knew that they need to have a certain ratio of older more refined more semen retention men they were so they would have an older guy at a certain phase of the moon and then 10 younger guys at it another phase of the moon and basically they were figuring out how to like nurse themselves as if this is like a you know I mean it really is that guy that the semen is filled with nutrients that’s what is called Baby battery you know that’s not us that’s no joke another stick important nutrients in there and so it should be a beautiful Dynamic and when you look at what they’ve done with that culture you know they understood these things and if you were a man and you didn’t want to be you no SEC drive your semen you have to learn semen retention to survive the Wrath of the fucking and so it’s like this said that they call it the flowery Battlefield you know him and that’s how they eat that’s how they collided with poetic language of the war of the Sexes but sexual Kung Fu flowers Battlefield in are they had they had no, that’s for the Jade egg comes from when we were talking about sophisticated sex with Warriors we can figure it out again and you have kind of like yeah you’ve broken free and now you are like resurrecting that the power of the witch witches to actually run this stuff and I don’t I don’t blame her but it was sad because of a certain point I was like you know I’m learning more about Tantra I’m learning at that I’m getting to a point where I need to stagger my my release you know a little bit and so that was just to see if she lost her fucking mind as if I took away her heroin and it was just like she went crazy and it all went downhill and we broke up and it was extremely ugly and there was total Madness cuz you just wanted to come last that was a part of it then and then she wanted me to reverse my vasectomy in and I said no you are doing black magic and I can feel that you’re doing black magic to try to get Knocked Up by me so that you can keep me for around forever which I am I told you I’m polyamorous is not going to happen oh my God it’s like I hope I hope no one’s hearing this everybody to shut this off and deleted file or not we have got to come clean about these secret bedroom psychodrama the monado Pathak he used to do now since we’re talking about this so he used to say to me when we were having sex and mind you he always had to be on top of me always he always wanted to be looking down at me or you will say to me at the hot the climax of my orgasm he would say you know you want to get pregnant he would say you know I want to get you pregnant you know you’re my come slave you know your he was just sleeping ideas into me to make me fall for him all the time and then again making that power Dynamic more skewed as much as possible and so me being naive at the time I took everything he said no but he’s my man you know I love him he’s my man if he wants me to be his come slave I’m going to be home slave like I literally like I just took I didn’t think about anything he was saying to me as being a ways of positioning me to be more submissive to him to be I mean I knew that I knew that I knew that I was being submissive to him you know because he was my man and everything and and I loved him and anything you said to me I just wanted to make him happy I just wanted to make him give him what he wanted I didn’t see it as that black magic that you were talking about and so some of the things you would say to me sometimes some of the things you would slip in I would look at myself and be like does he did he really say that does he really want me to do that in me you would start talking about my friend you know you want to lick her pussy and like trends that I really didn’t want to do that with like friends I really didn’t have any interest in having threesome with or anything like that I’m so he would just slip things into me slip slip things in my psyche specifically when I was about to come like that’s really important you know and cuz you’re so you’re highly suggestible at that time like you can take any suggestion and in real you’re taking it in like your brain waves are or like sleep weight like when you’re dreaming there like your brain waves are in a much more you just absorb more when you’re in that frame of mind and so he would say that to me and now looking at it in hindsight he was really was just trying to brainwash me really you know I mean this was every day for years you know what I mean he always forced me to smoke weed before we had sex I didn’t want to I was like I don’t want to and I really do believe that now the issues that I have with marijuana like I really stepped back to that situation because he used to he literally stuff like physically coerce me like physically like he didn’t like push me but he would like to kind of would like even if he would just really like put me in situations and be like okay just take it just take a hit just do it and then he would want to have sex with me so that my mind would be even more open to suggestions from creep adelic shit and now I realize we’re going to have to name this podcast abolishing come slavery or you’re both of the come slaves cuz we both what your focus becomes today yeah okay alright fuck it is going to fly it’s going to fly just like that we’re going to we’re going to I was going to think of something very prudent and the moment you know she wasn’t on your team Edward and I would have died for I would die for him I would have littorai I love this man so much I was going to name my baby after him I’ll do a braid my baby’s hair just like his hair I was going to do all this stuff to just honor and commemorate him forever I was even trying to get a mural done of him on the side of a building in Baltimore that I just thought he deserved it that he did so much for the community but he deserved it but again behind the scenes he’s fucking up women did you receive the Malcolm X did you see the Spike Lee Malcolm X film with Denzel Washington I think you should really really watch that like really soon because that and show Girls as I mentioned before Showgirls will give you that sort of that cynical view on the the underbelly of Vegas for sure and kind of like bolster your your it’ll kind of inoculate you against a lot of the Vegas bulshit but if you see if you are shot Malcolm X it’s really a great film and you learn so much from it you know I can’t say from my studies how historically accurate is but it is really moving and like one of the things that they expose is this is the corruption of sexual excesses by spiritual leaders who claimed to have certain values and certain intentions and certainly preach certain values intentions but courser total Hypocrites and end up knocking up their servants or knocking up there just you know all these politicians Schwarzenegger it’s like it’s such a such a shitshow behind the scenes and and I think that you and I are or are seeking enlightened spiritual sexual Enlightenment within movements that at their best actually give us the tools to talk about this stuff and to be more honest about this stuff and you know I’m a little bit skeptical and weary of the country Colts and the the cult of personality around gurus and and what not but I do feel like it is the yoginis who are who are taking the power back and stealing the fire back and building their own temples in creating your own spaces where if you fix if I if you ask me where what would you ask if I had a conversation with this gentleman your cum Mass if you will I would say dear sir, Master I’m here to speak on behalf of your former come slave and and what we’re talking about now is like how you could have had your cake and eating it too and now you’re in you know some you know you’re in some some big trouble with with people who care about this stuff now but the thing that I would love to see is it like okay what if the women had the Deeds to the land what if the women manage their wealth collectively knowing that men are useful for physical labor some of them are useful for intellectual Pursuits and in service work but ultimately you know in a culture that worships the divine feminine life-giving aspect of Nature and the Oni and the wounded musically every everybody I mean women or in service to the womb regardless because they have to manage your menstrual cycle you have to manage your just rescuing like you don’t get a choice not to be a Yoni worship that your devotion is to your Yoni Temple you have no choice men have the option of whether to trash it and pollute it and abuse and rape it or they can be trained by women to have a sympathy and compassion towards the Oni and to actually devote themselves to building the temples that that that feed and nurse is stolen and in Steward the land so I imagine that a benevolent form of make sure where women are in as a sort of ecologically wise form of power that they would there would not be this shacking up to older men you have land and have money and have power but that power would not be granted to those men in the men would always be in a dynamic where they have to come and serve the temple to have to come and serve the goddess and they might get the blessing of a sexual experience if they planting of trees that day or Dig Inn recipes with build and rescue no cancel all of their effort and all of that you so you want to be you know like a hyper-masculine dominator will go dominate that pile of wood with that Axe and then and then will fucking Bayview down and and then we’ll fuck you fuck her brains out you know so that’s I’m I would ask the judge if there ever is a judge to adjudicate this matter to say can you please Institute matriarchal ecovillages for these men actually don’t take themselves in so they can have like an ethical you know what would it be you wouldn’t be a common slave you would be a cam princess to come Queen if I’m got it I’ve had I’ve had witches intelligently harvest my semen for Magical ritual purposes and offerings to their devoted. He’s so it’s like we can all become slaves if we devote ourselves property to the right you know the right being so you know on the other side of the veil but we we got a long way to go for sure this is the tip of the iceberg and you know if he in in his lawyers and the signs and errors and representatives and you already had it I listening to this. Gaston like you know I’ll see you let’s meet the stance on the astral plane and I’ll introduce you to some of the humbling dakinis who are going to make you want to repent you know and there’s hope I promise ya ya I loved it then so I really agree with everything you said I think the Met charcoal ecosystem is definitely the way it’s it’s a problem solver for many many problems not just come slaves problems but like the environmental issue I think you know the beauty of man like me being single right now in wanting you know like company and everything and and and you know I I I I still yearned a man like I still yearn to be in a relationship but I mean honestly like I just I’m at the point now where I’m really every man has their purpose you know what I mean just like I’m sure a lot of men who date multiple women like every woman has their purpose and so sometimes like you just most of the time we just need a man around like you said for intellectual conversation and a lift heavy things and I think that’s very honorable like I mean I that was what else what like what else can can we ask for you know what I mean like we don’t need all of this extra bulshit that you’re trying to do you know like that’s really all I need right now as I just I just want an intellectual conversation just like this and I need help lifting some heavy things and I would love to provide my Yoni goddess energy to you in exchange for any of the help she would like to give me you know well are we still are we still on the air do I get to do we get to Publix at live is that if I could I said official proposal because I said no and then and I’ve got like you know Mister the dream team of a stunt cocks and like there’s you need help I need a lot of help lifting things here I need to bring my trapeze in there’s a lot of women can’t make it by themselves you know what let me say this is going to sound a little random but honestly me going to this healing process I have been batting men away because I’ve just been here like I’ve been a little bit more short with with people like with my words and you know just trying to keep things limited cuz I’m I’m healing I’m not healing anymore it right now like I’m out of it but the first two years of moving to Vegas was brutal and and honestly you know yeah I just I just really I just really needed help I just really needed support and you know I’m I feel a lot better now I feel a lot lighter now but yeah I I still need help we all all women need a man even the lesbians and everything like we all we all yearn for that masculine energy to protect us provide for us in touch even if it’s our old masculine energy but it is I was starving for it for so long then I was so miserable for so long healing and trying to get over this trying to make sense of it and try to use the lesson and some benefits away and come out like a phoenix and make it work and you know we as I still want to be with a man Even though this happened to me even though I was traumatized even though all of this I stole urine I so would love it and I don’t want to go to a sperm bank I don’t want to have to go to a sperm bank 2 have a baby and everything like that but you know it’s it’s just like I mean I understand I’m at the I’ve gone through such a brutal initiation that I actually understand the women going to the sperm banks I understand the women the lesbians the bushes I understand that I really do I really do if I was not who I am and that was in some other situation maybe I would have stayed you know like a lesbian going to a sperm bank cuz I would have hated to be with a man cuz I would have generalized my situation to all men think of the boxer little bit I think I have a lot of gay men who are who are beautiful and who are obsessed with me and in a good way and I would love to have that proposed to them that they ate for a few nights of fertility out of the month that they be straight for pay and we get them in the mix because you know I’m clipped but but I can see that’s the thing like if we understand the opportunities in the opportunity to create a ritual around around conscious conception it’s not it doesn’t have to be like this this horrible curse of a contracted like oh my God I have to compromise so much just to get my biological clock that’s ticking me off faster and faster for women you know past 25 it’s time to get busy and it’s like I like to see a world where you don’t have to compromise any of your integrity and your sovereignty and leave your power and have your wealth and that you can have the designer motherhood to designer Parenthood within a community of Enlighten people and there’s just like a currency of love affection and sexual gratification that is not found by and nausea Mystic Street marriage contracts which only serve the state thus there’s a documentary called divorce court I think is what it’s called it’s all about it’s literally goes into the racket of how much money the state makes on the revolving door in and out of every marriage the state to accept money and they have ripped it there they read the whole thing so that all will give you these benefits so that you pay us to go into the end of the agreement and pay us to break the agreement we know there’s a 50% divorce rate for first marriage 80% on second marriages and it doesn’t get prettier after that End of Innocence yeah Gene Simmons from Kiss I watched a documentary he did on finance because he’s one of the most successful multi product line branding marketing Geniuses of the whole Remy’s the most enterprising Rock God ever more than any other good people just kill themselves with heroin and booze but he said in the beginning of his talk you said you know what’s the number one cause of divorce can you guys do you know what he said I said the divorce is marriage so number one cause of divorce marriage he was flipping the script just to be like it’s so doomed it’s so fatalistic like why even bubble and he said how shameful it is for society to accept this notion that for example like a young gold-digging wife and I don’t not see if not to say this to put you down but I think the same thing and something happened to Anna Anna Nicole Smith. I think she tried to like hijack the wealth of a super rich aging I think it was like an oil Mogul or something like that, or what his distinguished but basically he died so soon after they married because he was so decrepit when they first met that the courts actually said you know what we’re not going to give you all this money his family like please tell him I said no fucking way so that’s the end then I know there’s a there’s this hope yeah I I I believe that’s heard some I’m cuz I thought I saw a documentary in like the last 24 hours of her life or something and she was like taking all these shots and like oh my God I was just taking shots Lake oh she was it was like I think what it was was that she was representing some machine she was like taking like some kind of fat moderation shots or something like that and they were like causing I think they cause like an abscess and actually got infected and I’m really maybe butchering this so I would say nobody please you know don’t think I’m a massage this cuz I might put these facts but look it up if there’s a pattern that were talking about and this is like we’re getting deeper into these things that people are uncomfortable looking at and it’s like I know about this culture of of young women club club type stripper bartender dancers who strategically positioned themselves near the local football team so that they can be the one who gets knocked up and the baby daddy is Rich and she gets to take that DNA test to the bank and that was you know and like why wouldn’t you I mean if I were an intelligent cunning woman knowing that I lived in the skewed patriarchal situation I could shake it and get you know I pretty much turn a man’s head and like seduce him to impregnate me and I will be poking holes in condoms with pins you know I’m just being right but that’s like I don’t I don’t want to take you know that’s that’s that’s a fear and respect response you know that and there’s reasons why I almost refused to be intimate with a woman alone because I don’t want her to be a story about how I was there was any discrepancy you know in these situations which is a benefit like if we can move towards a paradigm where social sexuality is the norm then there will be no more he said she’s is there will be people who will be adjudicated the truth based on a triple entry Ledger of the truth so to speak like it’s not just what somebody says happened and what another person says that it didn’t happen it will be like we were all there that didn’t happen you know and then you just need to cool out but I think it’s just like you can’t go wrong with like eight handed massages while you’re you know making love I got it I just think that attention and so I respect the women like you were doing Yoni workshops with other women and their I’ve interviewed women have done nude yoga classes and it’s just like something magical happens when people adults in groups get just get naked and then they get raw and then I like while I don’t have to be fighting everyone I don’t feel so defensive and it’s just take some time and that’s what yogurt is good for and breathing and meditation and you get to that point where were you all feel like you’re one organism and you just want to be with you Joseph Pleasure P that octopus of pressure and like these creepy freaky things like the things that you’re talking about in the things that I’ve been through I would drag women they wouldn’t have a word attached to me and I would drag both of us out into the middle of the street to get witnesses can I get a witness funny vine Ivan I was a guy was a come slave yeah and it was like that if you if you only knew how legendary the public meltdown of that relationship was it was just like it was Jerry Springer on steroids and just the deceit getting worse and worse I had to literally run in the middle of the night to the edge of the property line to hope that the neighbors would see me screaming can I get a witness stomach hurts. We have a new pack it’s become slave pact slaves are definitely going to be a matter of like finding the people who are comfortable and have had enough of these traumas and privacy to like question I call it the cult of the couple or I might borrow that from someone else but I heard that term when I said yeah the cult of the couple that’s where all the fuckary happens if they call we were the madness happens in once you start opening up that container you know yes there’s going to be more Dynamics and possibly more drama but the thing is at least the drama will have more bullshit colors in more referees and people to say hope you’re you’re distorting the facts like you’re you know and just nonviolent communication goes a long way but but yeah we work yeah but the word last night I had a milk through it was in the Meltdown and it wasn’t totally of this would be we could melt through I love your neologism let’s melt through all of this bullshit together and I will I will come to the rescue so to speak and be you know a posting up for definitely part parts of my schedule as much as possible in Vegas for a lot of fun and interesting reasons but have no fear and if I if I have to like put some from somebody straight for pay or other straight men in the in the stunt cock rotation then you know you will be at the thought crossed my mind very organically for the first time and I am as natural as they come I mean I don’t I don’t like doing things in an unnatural way let alone comes conceiving a child but I’ve been you know what I mean. That was the essence of why me and my ex broke up was because he led me to believe for many years as you wanted to have a baby with me and you would say things to me like oh that gets my dick hard whenever I was talk about it you would literally say to me that gets my dick hard he was really just trying to deepen my pussy go deeper in my pussy open up my trust in him more and be more submissive to him and I’ll never leave him cuz I think he’s thought that I was just going to leave him to have a baby with someone else cuz our relationship was so it messed with the time you didn’t want me to leave and so I thought about it very organically for the first time it just crossed my mind and I am so not the type to go to a damn sperm bank I mean the way that a man the way that it would it would degenerate I would think like the moment you ejaculate the sperm start Sox’s oxidizing it starts to generate so it’s not even worth it even though I’m sure they have practices to fight against that and conserving but I’m sorry if anyone you know as an advocate and come on the show and talk about it but I think it’s really disturbing myself to like I want to have a baby like I want to I want to raise a child that I want to I would even adopt you know and so I burned anything literally I was able maybe I can just get find someone who went to the sperm bank and have a relationship with that like I was trying to really think about it I was like what do I do you know what I mean and I’m not even the tight then so I can’t imagine other women who have been in similar situations where you know I can’t imagine yeah I’ve will have actually helped the former lover of mine who was absolutely heartbroken that I got a vasectomy right around the time that we are falling in love and she said she would do anything to reverse it and she wanted so badly and I was honest and I said look you know I have like a II my jeans are like spoiled and polluted and ruined by some evil demonic hierarchy From Another Dimension and I’ve seen that so deep in shamanic ceremonies that I just know that it is my absolute duty to no longer perpetuate this DNA on Earth and like a monk’s make one that’s a huge that’s a spiritual thing to own you know I mean I’ve seen on iOS away that demons crawl on the family DNA bloodline the way like a spider web time alone you know so this intergenerational trauma is no joke and I see it as like the way that we humans are capable in our worst states of perversity towards nature we’re capable of really abusing plants and animals by domestic getting them in a way that really makes them unsuitable in the wild like we went over domesticate them and we make them weak and susceptible to pests and disease and we have to be their caretakers Ever After because of that that’s like sort of the double-edged sword of domestication while we are also as human beings being domesticated by entities from the Demonic realm and that’s why schizophrenia is rapid that’s why you have these degenerative disorders and all these things are basically the handiwork of entities that are farming us from the astral plane beyond our perception and put if you take a third eye opening psychedelic then you will see what is stowing away in your chakras and you might discover that like oh yeah this like pattern of sexual abuse in a family is actually a burrowing creature that has nested within one generation to the next and they for all we know they’re like hyperparasite they’re basically a hyperspatial parasite and so you know I know that there’s things like attached to my soul that I need to purge in this lifetime ritually through the Tantra and basically not let them have another generation you know I would not let them have that low-hanging fruit like they already cracked and hacked the DNA of my bloodline when I asked my mother about like hay like what have you not told me about a lot of things you don’t she’s like yeah basically everyone our family has problems you know I think my mother was abused as I think that it’s like well I’m about to shine a light on all this bullshit and part of it is like being responsible so if I were you I mean I say we go on a world tour of the humblest most Serene indigenous villager populations of people who have been making Ayahuasca for thousands of years and look in their eyes and you see the purity of their soul and if they would do you the favor of allowing a fresh Soul strain to be repopulated you your room then we might have a chance but like you know I’ve listen to Catholic Exorcist who I take very seriously because it’s busy as loony as they might be you know they have some some perspective on the truth and one of them this guy Brother Carlos who has that got demons website I just absolutely love him because he’s like the Chris Farley Exorcist she’s like totally like an over-the-top like slapstick comedian ridiculous but but he takes very seriously and when you say something like that all humans have demons except for Jesus Christ because he was the Immaculate Conception in other than that I don’t know you said Adam and Eve and Jesus Christ were the only humans who don’t have demons because we inherit demons from our ancestors and from our parents not to mention any said demons enter freeways one inherited through your bloodline to you did something evil and you invited them into an evil act that contract with them or should I get something negligent and naive and ignorant a man and One locking himself out and raping his own and being possessed though he may not feel like he his Free Will was involved then his negligence allowed for entities from the Demonic realm to possess him and therefore intend to him and it’s not going to be it’s not going to be easy to do that removal work and so if you’re an exorcist you an exterminator and you know how these things function and you know how they brew and you have to do is squeeze the last of them with all of your all your might you know in the mighty name of the Lord Jesus Christ I cast you into the abyss that’s what he could have like a million times a day and I don’t know if it works but I will tell you what like some deep territory what it looks like to have conscious conception and to protect that contain of the Egyptians they knew about this that thing how to ritualize the protection of the womb space population and the intention for conception because that is a you’re bleeding and in this week coming in shark-infested loans Interstate know when we’re getting it on that’s why they afraid of masturbation they do know that when when you raise that arousal energy hitting the dinner bell to all of those dark horses how do you how do you invite the Holy Spirit accompany me to the bedroom and you can have that love and go up that is a whole nother conversation for another episode that really that’s the essence of what why I’m here doing any of this it’s like we have got to get really honest about abuse abuse that happened and only we’re going to do is to talk about it come together and support each other and really compensate for each other’s weaknesses and and like not exploit each other’s weaknesses but actually like really authentic Lee don’t like meet you with your needs where you’re at if your young woman if you’re an old woman you know if you were a email frigid if you have vaginismus if you remember so many things that affect the womb so many things affect women in like the last thing you need is like some guy to come in and manipulate you and trample you and caress you and leave you like worse off than he found you and like back after thinking you took a step forward you know that’s why we got a break so can you hear me by the way then yeah I can still hear you I think you know I’m sorry that was a long rat what I have to do and I love it I love it I just I think that’s the connection breaking because I actually left my home but but like I heard what you’re saying it and it is really appropriate for what we’re talking about later because the connection is breaking up and I think it is because I left yeah that’s that’s cool I think we’re well beyond the healthy stopping point and it was there a stretch but I think it was worth putting especially if anybody who is like your enemy now because of what you’re doing I would love for this if it’s fucking a let’s all talk about all those kids so thank you very much we need we need to make another conversation about this because the humans are was ruining everything indeed yes indeed by yeah that’s a nice to finger and so is there anything that you would you like to have the editorial if you want to hear this you can just double-check know do you want to have that final Eden Prairie reviews The Shocker right if you want we can do that I will not understand until you hear my edit am I you can okay cool alright then well then it’ll be a couple who love you too. Take care of this going to be out in a couple days thank you thank you for listening to the touch upon podcast please go to www.crunch.com and cook on the Donate button to help support the show in addition to see me and if you want to podcast your donations will help establish permaculture goddess Temple after bite ecological employment for single mothers Please Subscribe and share your favorite episodes if you have questions or comments feel free to leave a voicemail at 818-275-1593 or email event at Archer Park. Com Damas de

Grace Diaz is Too Hot for Vegas and Too Hot for Y00T00B TPP205

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In this episode I’m joined again by the illustrious Grace Diaz for an exploration of her adventures and battles online and in Las Vegas as she brings the glory and wildness of the Goddess where she’s needed the most. She shares her frustrations with being betrayed by fellow exotic dancers who sabotage her rise to glory, and her unexplained unexpected deplatforming by Y00T00B.

She’s working hard to raise consciousness and intends to form a union of empowered exotic dancers in Las Vegas. We discuss some different governance and business models exemplified by various women led sex worker organizations and brainstorm on how best to move forward in a good way. It’s definitely a revolution that’s time has come, and we deeply resonate on the value of the healing magic of tantra and the need for it to be accessible in modernized legit goddess temples. The patriarchal bullying that Vegas is based on will be subverted by conscious yoni and heart centered activism.  We cover all of these topics and many more!

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https://yonigrace.com/  

About Grace:

My passion of healing began at the age of ten, when my father, a Reiki Master of 20 years initiated me as a Reiki Master in Medellin, Colombia. For years after arriving back to the United States, I began teaching Usui Reiki all over the east coast.

Reiki lead me to Tantra. I was introduced to Shakti-Pakti-Tantric-Yoga by my Guru Tafari Sudra, in 2011, and it allowed me to heal my 10-year eating disorder. Our organization, YONI GRACE, LLC was birthed in 2012 when I felt the burning need to share the wisdom I was experiencing through Yoni Breathing.

In 2012 Grace began distributing Yoni Eggs wholesale worldwide and teaching thousands of women how to run a Yoni Egg business from home!

Grace hosts Yoni events in the Las Vegas area and internationally. In 2016, she was privileged to be hosted in Istanbul, Turkey. There, Grace and 35 Muslim women participated in a weekend workshop of the Yoni Egg practice with Yoni Yoga. Her classes are one of a kind and focus on helping women embrace their innate sensual wisdom for spiritual and physical wellness.

Healing the Shadow of Sisterhood with Grace Diaz TPP148

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In this episode I’m joined again by Grace Diaz for a conversation about healing the shadow of sisterhood. I noticed a heart breaking social media post where she disclosed a recent story of betrayal within her inner circle of trusted women and since I’ve been caught in the crossfire of so many catastrophic falling outs among spiritually empowered women I felt the need to reach out and invite her to discuss these issues at length. I hope our efforts to raise awareness and provide idealistic solutions are of service to the greater good.

Please visit her website at:
https://yonigrace.com/  

About Grace:

My passion of healing began at the age of ten, when my father, a Reiki Master of 20 years initiated me as a Reiki Master in Medellin, Colombia. For years after arriving back to the United States, I began teaching Usui Reiki all over the east coast.

Reiki lead me to Tantra. I was introduced to Shakti-Pakti-Tantric-Yoga by my Guru Tafari Sudra, in 2011, and it allowed me to heal my 10-year eating disorder. Our organization, YONI GRACE, LLC was birthed in 2012 when I felt the burning need to share the wisdom I was experiencing through Yoni Breathing.

In 2012 Grace began distributing Yoni Eggs wholesale worldwide and teaching thousands of women how to run a Yoni Egg business from home!

Grace hosts Yoni events in the Las Vegas area and internationally. In 2016, she was privileged to be hosted in Istanbul, Turkey. There, Grace and 35 Muslim women participated in a weekend workshop of the Yoni Egg practice with Yoni Yoga. Her classes are one of a kind and focus on helping women embrace their innate sensual wisdom for spiritual and physical wellness.

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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin hello Jay beloved’s welcome to Tantra Punk podcast episode number 148 I’m being joined Again by Grace Diaz for it what I would consider to be a sort of emergency follow up Podcast of she was just on the show very recently and I happened to notice an Instagram post where she was calling out for support and an understanding and compassion dealing with the situation that I will I will leave relatively vague but I’d just say that a pattern that is emerging as pretty Insidious and I’ve noticed it more and more recently and so I felt like I wanted to address this but basically we get into it a whole discussion about just the shadow of Sisterhood and how there’s a real fault lines in in a lot of different Dynamics between women in the patriarchy this is just such a recurring issue and I feel like a lot of I guess just speaking from a male’s perspective a lot of men would just dismiss the so-called cattiness or cat fighting of women and just attributed to menstruation or whatever you know whatever means of just not taking it seriously and it’s a lot of people just end up in the warring factions and + communities and there’s not a lot of real people not really having each other’s backs and having a lot of empathy and so just people get in the game camp and schisms and happens and you know politics and and you know Ford offices in a non-profit organizations whatever it’s it’s all across the board and I feel like I’ve gotten to Tantra because I believe it I can harmonize people in and just said that you go and get people really working in Harmony and creating beautiful Mondelez is Corporation and I have discovered that it can also be a breeding ground for a lot of Shadow behavior and certainly some some people would say that men are the the Lesser species and in the sense of the amount of the amount of really meticulous meanest and conniving and cunning around just controlling and manipulating social dynamics and really they’re kind of big just want to figure out who the alpha is and then follow orders and instead get shit time and that’s that makes it a lot simpler so you know that’s kind of the kind of funny that way but more and more I have just covered these incidences where women who are arising in two forms of benevolent leadership and trying to get you know build brands or build movements or build organizations there is just as some this competition in the sort of you know prom queen pageant really vitriol that happens and I just feel like there’s a way for everybody to win and to rotate positions of being in the Limelight and that everyone can be brought up together and that the only true hierarchy that I believe in is like one of Merit and an elder ship and you should be able to salute your elders if they’ve gone further down a path in you and the people that want to just cheat and cut in line and take what they have an urn it’s it’s important to I don’t know how to reconfigure some of the stuff and then just bring it to the light and so you know when you see when you made that that post you know I wouldn’t I wouldn’t necessarily want to get too specific about places and things that you know are I really would would expose anybody’s weaknesses or or what not but it’s just a general Trends in and how we react to it and what the solution can be and just being aware of it because a lot of people I think just to see everything is isolated instances and made her take a side or they don’t but the patterns are the bigger patterns are really corrosive to the harmony that were really trying to create an end what you’re doing I believe is extremely important it’s so pivotal so the people that was specially the women who are doing Really Brave and paradigm-shifting in and really threatening to The Establishment in the status quo. The women are doing those kind of tasks and that kind of work I feel like deserve extra support and extra humility when people are working and in service to just really understand that you know hey if you were some how to say it like a Logging Company Executives and you know you were Shady poisoning rivers and stuff then by all means you should be you should be treated accordingly by disgruntled employees but you know if you’re trying to fight the good fight and do something good I would hope that people would have a different approach to knowing that that also goes for single mothers by sea men and relationships with single mothers and they just put themselves first and I just can’t I can’t believe stuff like that happening just absence of awareness at work how how difficult it is to be a woman in this patriarchy and entrepreneur or mother or mother an entrepreneur and it’s like where where are the Warriors going up to understand this disorder from the needs of stuff so that’s that’s my kind of long intro perspective on why I wanted to reach out again cuz we had just talked to him recently but I saw that and it was I was in a place where I had just been in in the depths of being aware of a of a a really corrosive kind of meltdown in a community and I seems like it happens every day so we just got to talk about it and get some awareness out and I’m very grateful for you even allowing me to have a platform to speak on this because I’ve been dealing it with it my whole life starting with my mother and it’s it’s it I think that’s actually the roots of women’s insecurities women do with the way that that I’ve seen the whole female and jealousy turning into trying to hurt this person who’s usually oblivious to it it’s you know it sounds from from the mall you know and like I talk about this openly with my eating disorder that that I’ve had actually I think you know in an interview and you know I just never felt good enough I just never felt like you know I was enough for her I always felt like you know she was just like Ultra perfectionist with me and I had to really like always try to be like as good as I can and it was never enough you know and like I just wasn’t a valued person because I didn’t you know clean the floor while or I didn’t you know it like 4 years old you know clean the bathroom while like literally any better and there is actually a lot of like good that came in it because I work really hard but at the same time like just that subconscious psychology you know like that’s their you know and that’s something that I’ve had to work with at least between me and me and not messing with my mom but just my own internal relationship that I have with women you know and that’s kind of where I believe this starts from and a lot of the women that I have been encounters with in regards to this have had similar stories and you know it’s really sad because what I see what happens is that there’s a lot of unconscious projecting of this unhealed wounds and it doesn’t have to just be with the mother it could if it may not be at all but that’s usually what I seen it could it could be you know another really deep seeded world if it could be you know sexual molestation you know we talked about that it could be it could be so many different range of things where the woman just didn’t feel adequate enough and now she feels like you know what she sees another woman striving it’s almost like it brings up that insecurity in her that she hasn’t resolved yet and she actually sees her as like a Target as like an enemy of someone who’s trying to put her down she is really really unconscious and the most fascinating part about this is that is usually happens between women who admire each other you know that’s usually how it starts and that’s something that I’ve seen in just like my own friendship so I just talked to my friends being like hey like this happen to me and showing while that happened to me too and it was usually with someone who admire them and then you know like things get really sensitive and you can feel it you know like as women like everything is so like detail and so specific to the body language and to the energy being projected and the smallest little thing a woman will pick up as as being you know and sometimes she’s not trying to hurt you but the woman who’s being is not necessarily trying to hurt her friend she’s for example maybe saying hey you know I think blah blah blah or not to give to any specific examples but you know it could be seen like her opinion of something very likely feel like when it has nothing to do with with the woman’s insecurities can actually threatened her you know can actually you know if she feels like you know hey I think I’m going to win this competition I think I’m going to do this I think I’m going to be able to write this book I think I’m going to be able to you don’t have this project I think I’m going to be able to something that’s just like it can trigger that insecurity that she hasn’t met yet and now she can become a Target unfortunately and it’s usually you know both of them are usually on especially the woman who is really just trying to do her thing you know and she thinks she has the support her friend and it’s just so sad you know one of the things I really wanted to emphasize when talking to you was my experience in turkey that I had with 30 women I was doing a Yoni egg Retreat it was one of the best experiences of my life and it was one of the best examples that I’ve seen of Sisterhood in my life it was in it was in the Middle East and it was a women who are Muslim and you know you would you would think that women who are sexually repressed it was it was so fascinating to me you know cuz this culture is is is genuinely sexually repressed you know women are sexy and you know even like female genital mutilation is like ramp it over there and you know there’s so many issues revolving not just sexual empowerment but just female empowerment. You know but what’s what was so fascinating was it was the first Workshop or an in this case it was a weekend you know Sacred Circle and it was the first time that they all wanted to put their Yoni eggs together you know holding hands being together 30 women I’ve never had that experience in my life every single time and just to give you know everybody I guess the history on what I do I’ve been obsessed with with Yoni egg you know wisdom and in the practice because of how is really need to bring healing into my life and going back to my eating disorder using Yoni breathing so that’s usually what I do you know I’m in my circles that I’ll post a Yoni breathing meditation a Yoni egg you know like educational you know you know few hours of it depending on how long the workshop is and then we’ll go into actually putting the egg in and doing yoga with it you know so I was going to do the same thing in the circle and everybody has their egg and I was like okay one of the time we’re going to go to the bathroom and they were like no no no that doesn’t feel right there were like we need to put this in together and you know there was probably like three or four women in the group who really were not comfortable with that and they all paid a lot of money like to be there I mean I flew out there you know so it was it was like women were really really serious about doing this they came forward pay for the weekend event and and now they’re sitting the circle and a few of them a handful or like I don’t really feel comfortable doing this all the women like literally like stood up like they sat down with them they looked at them in their faces how are you going to come here and and not take advantage of this opportunity to really confront your fear which is now being you know manifest after you not wanting to put in your a was like they were so direct and they were so like in their face but with so much love and I was like I wouldn’t even have done that I have I have not felt that level of Sisterhood in person at least it was just so profound I just felt so grateful to witness. And you know they peer pressure them in and they did it and they were they all at the end we’re happy that they did it together that brings tears to my eyes cuz I’m I’m watching the mental movie of this unites your speaking word by word and and that every every detail you just share. It just breaks off my heart because what I what I hear and feel and sense from that is that the confidence they had to confront that was the confidence you would have to remove a parasite from your flesh like as if it was part of you as if they were one being and they were identifying what was not working about their Collective unified sense of health and wellness and it’s just like you wouldn’t hesitate to intervene if something was out of whack with your personal body and and it’s a different it’s not like they were trying to get them get her to do drugs or to do something that would put her you know of that different kind of but this kind of peer pressure where it’s kind of like a symbiotic unified sense of Consciousness that’s another level so thank you for sharing I really and really hit me in the woman… Women that were opposed to it initially they mentioned being raped they mentioned having you know vaginal pain on a regular thing they’ve mentioned miscarriages they’ve mentioned on healthy you know Intimate Relationships I mean an end to have that bravery and love to sit down with their sister and almost almost kind of force them to do it you know there were like we’re doing this and you’re going to do it with us and we love you and it’s just going to happen and you’re going to have to step up and you know do it nnn because it just seems so culturally acceptable to to already have that stamps like that’s what I get this when I saw it was already like such a mugshot like matriarchal hype energy like already slick so present the women just yelled it and and they didn’t even really argue they didn’t even say well you’re not respect no it was like they didn’t even really say anything they just didn’t it you know and and at the end you know I was I was so perplexed by this at the end I obviously you know I was like hey how does everybody feel you know where where where is everybody right now you know we did have a prayer circle literally holding hands as we were putting the egg in believe it or not like this is the first time you know I was I was really able to take it to this level and it was transformational even for me you know as someone who’s been doing this at that time it was already like 6 years in volume 100. You know and it was it was it was profound I have never really experienced that end in I yearn for that other woman I actually urine for that level of Sisterhood as a woman who who believe that this is you know I think that’s some of the issues that that are coming up with this and I do think that this is more of like a contemporary like American thing cuz like I said the only time I’ve seen different was in the Middle East and even when I go back home to South America rice when I go back home to Columbia The Hit The Sisterhood there is very strong as well I’ve never actually let a Yoni egg Circle in Columbia cuz I’m usually there with my family and you know during Christmas and and I just haven’t had that opportunity yet but but I do think that this is more of like a present-day you know independent woman you know I want my own opinions on things which is which is totally valid and and and we’re fighting the good fight like you’d like you opened up you know saying you don’t like where and it’s unfortunate that we even see it as a fight but I think that that is part of the issue I think that you know we just feel so entitled to our own and we’re really forgetting that we need to munity and I was actually just listening this morning I was soaking in the tub and I was listening to dr. Northrup dr. Christiane Northrup audiobook she’s actually running the forward to the second edition of my book how to use the unit for central healing which I’m like super honors reservations thank you thank you so much she mentioned basically that’s what heals addiction is community you know like any any addiction she was mentioning countless examples of of different you know experiments and surveys and and their word is all leading to the same thing both experiments and in you know what people and even animals and how call basically like you can give heroin to like a rabbit and you know like the only thing that’s going to win it off of it is if they actually get touch and affection and that stimulation as opposed to just being stimulated you know and so I think it’s that is similar that’s similar to what you know what we’re talking about right now is that the wound that inspires female animosity and in jealousy and you know hopefully hopefully we won’t need to let you know hurting them but that it does happen a lot I really do think it’s it’s it is the community you know and the best example that I can give was the one that I had in Istanbul and you know really accepting women’s like really accepting your sisters were you know because at least for me that would Inspire that post that that inspired now this interview was that I actually was trying to hold one of my friends accountable for something in a similar fashion you know I was really just trying to say hey I love you but it has to be this way or no way you know like this is this is how I do things and I can’t change that and if you don’t want to do that that’s fine but I just can’t continue forward you know in this relationship and that transpired targeting I mean I don’t want to give examples but unfortunately I do think that that is necessary like it can get so you can you can you can try to like the woman in survival you know she’s really trying to protect this wound that hurts so much and it and I really do think that it’s worse than patriarchy is worse than than even male oppression you know even though I I I think that historically that women have these wounds because we have been oppressed in general in the power and I do that I do think it’s related but you know when when you don’t have anybody you know when you don’t even have it for example going back to patriarchy and and female animosity when you don’t have anybody you at least your sister you know and if you don’t even have that you know it’s it’s it’s it’s a really sad world and women really need each other like there’s no other way for women to actually get into Power you know even if it’s just self-empowerment it doesn’t have to be running the company could just having self-esteem you know self-esteem and having self-confidence you know you really do need the blessing of a woman even the even you know even if it’s just saying hey you know I see you you know something like that and you can still make your choices and Go in different ways but with respect and that’s something that that a lot of women that I have been talking to I talked to him I talked to a lot of women on a daily basis since many years ago I get calls daily at least sometimes up to 10:15 calls a day usually on average it’s like one or two you know maybe three and it’s usually around the Yoni egg that usually leads into a conversation about why she’s getting it that’ll lead into the top two reasons that I’ve heard why women get you any accidents to heal sexual trauma you know and usually women don’t have anyone to talk to about it with so this is this is going really deep and yeah I almost like I’m going to cry because it’s I hear your voice yeah please and take take a few breaths so I’ll chime in a bit and just kind of add what I can to this from my perspective for for a minute yeah it’s really demoralizing when people who you allow Into Your Inner Circle who are able to know so much about all your weaknesses and all of your vulnerabilities and your passwords and you are everything in a business it’s it’s the words it’s the worst case scenario one of the worst case scenario is to to extend trust and acceptance in and faith and take a risk and gamble with just integrating new people and trying to be open and receptive than and then not being able to always Comfort people at the level needed to keep them feeling very secure about their role in organization about their future about you know they’re there their they’re good standing and what not and I know it’s just a pattern inside of all of us the Wii Wii character caricature eyes them with the cartoon idea of demons but if you just want to think about fine negative thought-forms if I realize I feel like that it’s like a formula bit the the more time a person spends like you’re saying untouched or uncared-for in a communal kind of ceremonial affirming of all the relationships like refreshing and rebooting all of the Dynamics of relationships and some kind of beautiful ceremony that’s really bonding and unifying like every second from the end of one of those like in your Workshop or you could be a psychedelic ceremony or someone in ceremony as like as soon as walks away from that moment of unity immediately those mind we’d start to grow and those everybody is starting to be possessed and and and deceived by thoughts of their own betrayal or just to sort of General paranoia that comes from you know really like you said childhood being never being we never condition to receive an adequate amount of of affection in group sort of community ritualistic bonding initiations excetera excetera you can compare to other cultures but it’s it’s such a it is time to me I see the solution is being well if we’re so depleted and we’re so prone to become so shadowy when we don’t feel really connected with each other then we just have to accelerate the frequency of those bonding experiences to offset that that pattern and if so if you let people just sort of fade into their own mindscape they’re susceptible to attack and you don’t know who they are the next day they could have had a million thoughts of insecure and it just builds and builds a compounding interest and snowballs and then it blows up and if somebody is I mean I’ll say it in my case I experienced that I think we all experienced that sensitive like who who deserves to be the I mean I don’t want to be at the top of anything I don’t want to be the necessary the best anything I would just like to really be financially free and independent and just in my zone kind of like gardening and talking and hanging out with cool people that I enjoy but I don’t I’m not trying to be really to the alpha or the the King of the Hill or that you know whatever but but even just in the field and I see different you know you any Bits & bytes impossible to resist the urge to compare yourself to anyone else is trajectory and say you know whose work harder to earn this or that title or or not end up minutes normal but and I feel like it’s it’s I’m aware of that myself and there’s but there’s a difference between acting out those thoughts and feelings and then actually having a really self critical analysis for you’re like yeah this thing the stuff like I do not want this to to actually transmit through my mouth or through my words are on social media I don’t want to become a troll online I don’t want to poison the community I want to deal with this stuff you know in with with a real confidential counselor or you know I’m totally private or just between me and giving it up to the goddess and some sort of purging ceremony but know how fragile all of these Dynamics are and really trusting you know that we can all come up together so I don’t know if that any of that stuff you know resonates with you if you want to respond to any of those thoughts conversation is very delicate because to some extent both sides are valid you know they’re there are wounds that have not been healed or SEALS or even acknowledged but we have to be very aware as as we become more conscious about why we feel the way we feel and then why we may be projecting those feelings that way that we are and why we may be projecting them to certain people I think that that’s where the introspection comes in what one of the best ways to deal with these situations is really not to take it personally in to see that the woman has a bloom and for it to for you to have complete compassion for her I mean that’s been the only thing that’s ever really helps me you know even with the women that I felt that have betrayed me you know in the past close personal friends close personal girlfriend you know that I open up my heart my home 2 and the only thing that I can really tell women that has helped me is basically saying that hey this woman obviously has she don’t wanna wear how she’s projecting it and you know how he meant compassion for her because she really needs it that’s really the only thing that’s going to actually help both people you know one of the things that happened to me recently that I also talked about in social media that relates to this a lot that I think would be very helpful for women is I was actually out of I don’t I don’t know if you like Tony Robbins I I know he’s going through a lot of stuff right now with the song me too movement and everything yes I agree I agree I think he’s a wonderful person I think he has a lot to learn in that regard but I could do still think he’s a wonderful person and I do admire him so I found a couple months ago and I you know why I got like there was like sixteen sixteen thousand people there you know what I save money and everything I went and I saw him and I sat in the first row right so I fly out to like La I’m in Vegas lights go out from Vegas to LA and it was like the whole thing for me I went to lie by myself it was like like my own personal like like business vacation thing I was just so excited and you know I’m going there and I am in the first row he’s about to step out there all these leading up people you know for like two days leading up to Tony Robbins and you know so it’s it’s finally time that he comes out on stage and they have fire they have like all these things like in anticipation of her coming out so as as I’m sure you can imagine your people get out of their seats and it was almost like a concert like people like stand up against the stage you know and you know so I got up and I was and the woman next to me blonde woman probably middle-aged you’re so tall beautiful woman she says to me she said don’t stand so close to my husband so mind you this was extraordinary crowded I shouldn’t even notice that she was sick but but she or her husband were even right there you know I wasn’t interested in looking at her husband but you know again she was projecting her insecurity and fear that I was standing close proximity to him I’m totally oblivious to the whole thing I see instantly what’s going on because I was out because I was so oblivious and she was so passionate about it I was like well it’s obvious and I was so excited but I had really know like I almost Chuckles you know what I mean like I was I was kind of like like wow this is so silly you know so I just looked at her and I said I said listen you are so beautiful and you have nothing to worry about like it was something like I was just so like last two days ago about it you know and she literally like it was like she wasn’t expecting that at all I’m 29 she was she was middle-aged I understand like that and that’s that’s usually that’s the classic typical scenario you know when it comes to this female animosity thing you know and so really I what I what I said a woman is you have to really have that level of it just going right over you you know that was like you know it and I was so grateful that happened the way it did because it was such a great example now you know and I have to admit you know if I was in a sour mood or something I would have probably gotten said I would have you know it would have been different but because like I mean I invested so much to go to I was so excited to see him to see Tony Robbins it was like it was like I was just so grateful that I was able to actually like how that experience actually you know and she actually sat down like she actually ended up sitting down and she was totally you know it was diffused so yeah that’s a real example for women if it’s if you’re ever caught in a situation which like I said is very popular unfortunately maybe that’s something we can talk about as well I don’t know if this had you know that I’m sure you’ve experienced in various degrees I don’t know how recently necessarily but just in general it seems like I mean if you could if you could make a just off the top of your head up your head a sort of General list of most sort of thumb most damaging to least damaging like sort of a handful of the issues that come up and I’m just wondering like for me I would imagine I’m just Ramon experience tears I may have seen them I’ve seen the most literally psychotic behavior violent psychotic behavior they could get people in prison for felony assault and things like that is spitting me all the Jerry Springer stuff not to be crude about it but really it’s like the the fighting over the modern patriarchal construct of a man as the the only legally bound entity that is responsible after becoming a baby daddy to pay child support and whatnot so they’re fighting over the scarcity of the economic security of a having a man is seems to be a huge culprit and then runnin down the list in my mind is is just things like who is the most influential women amongst Tech circle of friends or within it some sort of organization and then you know how women are constantly comparing each other and throwing throwing each other under the bus routes of to whatever the beauty standards does your are and then I don’t know if so what would you say a man just to kind of for people to especially man who maybe aren’t clued into this and they just play whatever they’re doing they’re playing video games and not and not paying attention but how do we in my spiritual practice is that we are when we are at our best we are when we really like really deal with those ones that we can actually radiates we are like the beauty of who we are resources come come to us like almost almost you know without effort like we don’t we’re actually like pushing some away cuz it’s like okay there’s so much coming at you you know like when you’re really radiating it doesn’t matter how old you are it doesn’t matter your ethnicity or anything like that like when you are really vibrating a high-level you attract people to you you know you attract resources and those are resources you’re attracting friendships you’re attracting you know all of this energy to you and what’s interesting in the example that you were talking about like in peace Sharky and you know men wanting to take the lead and and all of that is that usually women are the proxy to a man’s power like where the symbol of a man’s power you know it is is that you should listen and that essence you know we’ve been really giving our power to manage by putting other women down through this female enema putting other women down through through these scenarios that we talked about we actually still are feeding the Beast you know like we’re actually you know Sisterhood is probably the best way of healing this whole female oppression you know like that that’s that’s been what I’ve seen that’s like an in and I’m I’m really kind of having like a piffany with all of these experiences that I’ve had with women in in this topic you know because like for example going back to the woman at the swing Robbins event you know without me really knowing she may not have that she you know she she may think twice again about you know what a woman stands close to her her husband trying to be like oh you know what you know I don’t have anything to lose I’m good you know your life forever and that’s how how Robbins ask of you to insert that neuro associative conditioning hack unplanned and I didn’t even like really know I didn’t even really think about it and then once I really thought about it I was like Wow and then I saw her when I see when I saw his text sit down I was like okay while like I think that this was a lot bigger than what I thought because it was almost like there was no no no defensiveness anymore it was completely I mean she got really close to me surrender I mean she actually stopped at that point you know probably was her insecurities the whole time is that she was out of her feminine you know and not knowing it you know like not really knowing that she was out of her feminine cuz she was in this defensive you know fight fight or flight mode and responsiveness and reaction in all of that so so yeah I mean women women really when you stepping into your family than you really know who you are and you can really be honest about your wounds and actually would like an open heart and have compassion for the people that have really betrayed you because it’s happened so many times and I can’t even even with you let you know this is happened I have a lot of women the reason why I was so inspired to talk about this is because I have so many women say to me and sometimes I don’t I’m not even talking about this mention that they just don’t trust women they don’t trust the intentions and they are scared of even having female friendships because of this pattern I mean it’s real it’s an all of us you know like if it’s one person it’s the tribe you know and it’s really a societal issue that I think needs more attention I think patriarchy is obviously a big thing but I actually don’t think that this gets talked about enough in regards to how this is actually causing some of the problem you know some of the problem with what we’re trying to really resolve which is you know women being finally in a place of respect . You know and so yeah like like this this conversation right here is for us for women who really have put up that front you know they want Sisterhood they want they want connection they want to feel safe they want to feel secure in a circle in a group and they’re having problems with it because it says this has happened to them so many times and it’s almost like a trauma will you say another effectors is it a when would say I love you talking about the radiance because it’s it’s really not you can’t really fake that you know me it’s pretty it’s pretty transparent when you try to fake it but when when you’re in the zone and you are radiating and you have spiritual practices and sexual cultivation practices then then you’re absolutely right here at your high vibrating bright magnet for all things sometimes. Sometimes you can bad things in people’s people who were wanting to Nestle up today energy who haven’t kick-started it in themselves or boots to have to hit rather but I feel like something maybe a pattern is also that when people who have been in that survival mode and that defensive mode their whole Lives who won to be empowered in community and Sisterhood or Brotherhood when they have access to the authentic energy the first time they met know there’s voices inside I’m going to last the bubbles going to burst this isn’t real I can’t trust this this is a scam I’m being manipulated and then those voices take over and say you just you just sabotage the golden opportunity and if you would have just done some of the maybe the practices you know the grounding practices and the are so many ways that we can set that is precisely what starts female animosity is actually getting that opportunity believe it or not actually getting that opportunity and and it actually measuring up and it actually being authentic the more authentic it is the more painful it is it’s it’s it’s so complex wow it’s so complex and if so in what did Jesus say he said by the end of the night one of you is going to betray me and he I mean you have to have that level of I mean it’s it’s it’s it’s it’s really that historical I mean it really really is I mean even Jesus like I said if Jesus crucified by one of his beloved mean it’s it’s really up for it I mean anybody can go through this do you know speaking about yeah in the in Mary magdalene’s gospels are there per se at one of the one of the Dead Sea Scrolls that revealed evidence in multiple fragments but evidence that that they were lovers the Jesus and Mary were lovers and that she was not a prostitute though I don’t have any problem with that myself but I know there was this bitter and broiled bitterness amongst the mail disciples who that they were lamenting that they would Jesus preferred her and he loves to kiss her on the and then they blank that out but we have to assume it wasn’t the hand John Lennon sing and her for the Beatles breaking up you know she was totally responsible which gives her a lot of power you know nnn in many people’s eyes she is responsible and that is again that’s like that negative like you’re giving her you’re giving her that power that you know she really liked even if she was the reason you know that is that is that so much power you know right there and you’re actually not looking at the man and saying you know you had any power at all I mean you’re actually disempowering him completely and giving her all the power and you don’t even know you’re doing that you know by like blaming her and like you know you know Jesus leaving or whatever that the story was you know so it was like like we have to heal our wounds or else we’re actually really going to be first really pushing away we really what we really want which is Union you want connection I mean that’s how are telomeres Grohl I can epigenetics like it’s even study that you have longer life span based on the length of the telomeres which are at the end of your chromosomes and you know it’s it’s through really feeling this like full expression of who you are you know in connection to basically your environment you know and so that’s like that’s that’s what this is about and by pushing it away we’re actually again we’re feeding that that that monster that is actually creating the illusion just Connection in the first place you know we’re actually getting into that without install unconscious and it’s so like I really don’t think it’s talked about enough so you know and at least for me like where I see the most is that we could be because I’m a woman but it’s in my email relationships you know that’s where I’ve seen it the most played and it happens really fast and see it happened really quickly you know a woman gets The Other Woman sees her a friend a close friends another good thing in this whole really hit home for a lot of my Latino sisters or know anyone who admired Selena best friend and she was like her one of her she was she was a co-worker but she was like leaving like her fans like this fans Department you know for like years and years and years of Janet up literally because of jealousy chilling her you know and now has like a martyr you know so it’s like you can’t really kill the spirit of the person anyway like that at the end of the day you can’t the jealousy isn’t going to sabotage them it’s not going to I mean it may it may be painful for the for the person but it’s not you’re not actually doing anything with this you’re actually just again feeding its really self-sabotage are really hurting yourself cuz he’s in jail for life you know and she still holds true to her story that you know it was because Selena did blah blah blah you know so she’s still holding on to that that Peter patter you know what I mean it’s it’s it’s a root chakra a juvenile thing you know and hopefully with this conversation absolutely yeah you know something comes up as you’re saying that to for me is I’m really glad I was really powerfully imprinted by the movie La Bamba when I was really young kid and it puts into perspective that sibling rivalry over success and opportunity and and as I watch that movie again as I’ve grown and I see the threads about Shamanism and just the fracturing of culture through enslavement to the agricultural system and I know the Bob the brother becomes a biker drug dealer and and he wasn’t given as much attention by the father cuz he was a step sign and you see Richie being such a authentic pure-hearted loving soul gentleman and in the end he was rewarded karmically it seems by all of his virtue and all of his righteousness and nobody would just sink further and further into the Vicious Cycle of resentment and self-destruction inverse almost proportionally to the success of his brother and wow what a what a lot I can say. You know if anybody anybody is a male wants to watch that to get it a real good sense of the male side of this girl recommended and you know something else I’m thinking as you’re speaking is it if I had all the time in the world I wouldn’t hurt your everybody into you know just just tickle them with words and affection until there’s just nothing but absurd Bliss coming out of them and unfortunately the biggest problem is we have no time to pay attention to really drop in to address people so everybody expects that oh yeah we’re all supposed to get up by an alarm clock and rush to get ready to go and be somewhere at work or do whatever and it’s there’s not enough time for even almost not enough time for personal hygiene let alone hygienic romantic relationships let alone that multiple Dynamics amongst people who are all struggling a different stages of wealth in call Cyn Love & Eric’s it’s this is not have time so how do we create more time out of buffer that those the time scarcity you know working from home is a good way to start directions I mean that’s a whole nother conversation I feel like I have a lot to say that I could say about it but does topic it’s it’s really close and dear to my heart I’m hosting I will say this I am hosting a sister Circle in honor of Union in Sisterhood on the summer solstice of this year is going to be I’m actually hosting a retreat is going to be June 22nd through the 24th here in Las Vegas and you can get more information on my website Union grace.com but it’s going to be actually hell’s specifically on June 23rd which was or which is my grandmother’s birthday and she’s like the highest example that I’ve ever had in my life and female you know reads like Angelic like Grace you know like a woman like just always Serene in the midst of a storm like just complete like I mean I owe you know so I’m so grateful that I’m going to be able to actually commemorate her on this special day really like hosting a prayer circle during this retreat in Las Vegas again June 22nd to the 24th of this year 2018 so awesome awesome yeah if you and we got another few minutes to go and be great to just say some words of prayer as you know for all the men lie women who have wandered away from the campfire of Sisterhood and community and are just I mean once you kind of burn Bridges and then you’re left alone it can only get worse from there so I will just pray that reconciliation occurs really as fast as humanly possible and then don’t just you know tear up a whole community and then sneak off into a new location where your unknown and just repeat the patterns and really try to find the people who were who are willing to provide the empathy and compassion has to be my formative words you have any other everything just want to share advice and share for people on both sides you don’t people being victimized by a sort of saboteurs he’s unconscious territories and then the saboteurs themselves what do they do next after they burn Bridges what about the male role when it comes to female animosity like like men don’t usually pick up on those little things because it’s such a it can happen so fast women and I think really the best thing to do is always acknowledge both parties always what you said you know reconciliation compassion you’re really kind of being someone who can hold like a safe container as a neutral party but by both like acknowledging both and holding accountable both parties I think that that would be like if that’s if that’s if any man feels lead to actually do that between two women I mean you would really be doing a huge you know so I suppose I feel like maybe it dates me to say this but but back in my day everybody especially women kept a private Journal where they processed their emotions and then they would look back on stuff and they will be like oh my God I can’t believe I was thinking that I was so wrong it was only like a day later that the truth was actually revealed I’m so glad I didn’t flip out because I would have lost everything but now people spew their first reaction to things online which lasts forever and creates massive multi cascading black magic effects and then you can’t undo that damage you can’t say oops I was wrong I’m so sorry and because you have to defend yourself and you just constantly become more fortified and defensive about positions that you took when you could have just you know put it into your private journal and do the exercise of writing something out so you can make sense of it and connect the dots and go while I’m actually really a reading and pack I’m actually completely irrational about this and maybe I’ll just like ripped a page shot in Burnet or just I didn’t really well and so I don’t know I hope that that that can be a thing of great. oh yeah I’m so grateful then thank you for allowing me to come on and talk about this and hopefully you know you to continue to do what you’re doing a good way and shift the Paradigm and bring more more beautiful I think just you know postage posting pictures of what works and then letting that that vibration radiates through I’m really moved by that seeing a lot of his nude yoga action throughout the world and just seeing a bunch of women creating Mondelez together all smiling and laughing and you know honoring their teacher in really yeah I’m just the harmony is it possible in and I’ve seen you know through timeshare through yoga and sacred sexuality and you swim in circles and there’s a lot of it I am thrilled to be in this time I mean rock on thank you so much I was so awesome so you only grace.com any other places that people should go or just go there and get connected with everything craze it was recently recently I ain’t it was my name Grace Diaz but I actually just changed it to Yummy Grace so you can do a lot of the Yoni egg practices and you breathing practices so how to use the Yoni egg for Central healing everyone check it out and men are never going to go back this sets the standard this these practices so please you know don’t wait till about don’t wait till Valentine’s Day make everyday Valentine’s Day and get yourself on board with this definitely still talk to you soon you for listening to the touch upon podcast please go to www.crunch.com and cook on the Donate button to help support the show in addition to sustaining and improving the podcast your donations will help establish permaculture goddess Temple every bite ecological employment for single mothers Please Subscribe and share your favorite episodes if you have questions or comments feel free to leave a voicemail at 818-275-1593 or email event at Rancho Park. 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Training for Better Love and Sex with Yoni Egg Athlete Grace Diaz TPP142

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In this episode I’m joined again by Grace Diaz for an enlightening and invigorating conversation about her new book How to Use the Yoni Egg for Sensual Healing and the broader implications of sexual training and athleticism.

She helps us understand the wide array of beneficial effects of a dedicated yoni egg practice and we compare notes on our efforts to bring more consciousness and skill to the arts of love. We discuss how men need to transcend porn addiction and show up in the bedroom with an attitude of worship and devotion towards the orgasmic potential of their beloveds.

Grace also shares some of her teaching methods and offerings for seekers to be coached and trained. She’s currently helping to bring the light of love to Las Vegas and will be organizing more classes and trainings soon.

Please visit her website at:
https://yonigrace.com/  

About Grace:

My passion of healing began at the age of ten, when my father, a Reiki Master of 20 years initiated me as a Reiki Master in Medellin, Colombia. For years after arriving back to the United States, I began teaching Usui Reiki all over the east coast.

Reiki lead me to Tantra. I was introduced to Shakti-Pakti-Tantric-Yoga by my Guru Tafari Sudra, in 2011, and it allowed me to heal my 10-year eating disorder. Our organization, YONI GRACE, LLC was birthed in 2012 when I felt the burning need to share the wisdom I was experiencing through Yoni Breathing.

In 2012 Grace began distributing Yoni Eggs wholesale worldwide and teaching thousands of women how to run a Yoni Egg business from home!

Grace hosts Yoni events in the Las Vegas area and internationally. In 2016, she was privileged to be hosted in Istanbul, Turkey. There, Grace and 35 Muslim women participated in a weekend workshop of the Yoni Egg practice with Yoni Yoga. Her classes are one of a kind and focus on helping women embrace their innate sensual wisdom for spiritual and physical wellness.

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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin podcast episode number 142 I’m joined by Grace Diaz who recently released the book called How to use the Yoni egg for sensual healing and she’s been a guest in the podcast before I would do that episode all about healing Eating Disorders with Yoni breathing and I’m glad to have her back she did something very cool which who is broadcasting live on her Instagram when we’re having this conversation and actually I lost the first few minutes of it so we’re going to just get right into Where We Are 30 in motion with the conversation and I hope you enjoy it and please do check out her work she’s an amazing country Kia and healer and distributor of all these wonderful healing Tools in in toys for your personal Sexual Healing Revolution alright with that said please enjoy completely cuz I can feel you can physically feel your muscles more contrasting gripping squeezing one of the one of the things that has really helped clear my energy as well like if I’m if I’m trying to energetically with detox if I’m actually trying to implode or plant like an idea using Yoni breathing is be like okay so I’m doing this why I’m so I’m going to just also show you guys so there is literally like the vaginal Canal is literally a suction tube you know and when you strengthen I don’t want to like minimize it by calling it at tube but just realistically like that that’s like just to let get the idea okay so you’re basically strengthening this cord that connects you to the universe and you’re learning to actually like suction and grip and pull the energy upward and Beyond you know so for me when I started doing his practice it just it just completely healed me like a completely healed me I can say that hundred percent it completely healed me now my my thing has been managing it like managing the energy like being having that conscious moment to moment to moment you using what I’ve learned consciously regularly like that’s been my thing you know what I mean and one of the things that I tell women when I do like these interviews is that being a goddess being like a young like a conscious woman all of that is really challenging like that’s not easy that’s probably the hardest path I’ve ever walked like it’s if you start feeling more you start knowing more you’re getting one touch with your body more you you can feel with off you can feel it’s on you know and being conscious of your own well-being and your objective and your goal in and using your energy to directed accordingly towards your intentions like that has been like the biggest issue you know like being really conscious and aware with your Sexual Energy that’s where we are you know you know that’s that I mean I talked about this before on my on my Instagram as well you know you know male impotence want one of the things that a couple men have shared with me they volunteer this information I’m like wow where did this come from is there life so intimidated by what you do I am like what I’m like why am I just hearing this for the first time you know and then and then another guy said it to me and then someone else that it’s me and I was like me working on myself as a woman has been like what I want is a woman is to be seen as an hour out I want a strong woman to be seen as like an ally as opposed to being a threat you know like it shouldn’t be threatening you know like I’m working on myself so I can share that and she and I can you know attract the right the mic the right men to me even like the right relationships. Like women but yeah I’ve had it I’d had you know I mean I don’t really know what I’m going with sharing this but pretty much like I’m just highlighting how working on my energy so much I guess has really emphasized you know people who aren’t you know you’re initiating yourself into your own body temple in the path of that is there still Power and Light and healing energy starts to build up and some people that’s like you’re attracting flies you know it’s like a light that attracts flies and I can understand that in fact I was actually thinking about that exact sort of thing recently just about how a woman who’s really in her power sexually and is doing his practices and developing mentally the Consciousness but the the sort of strength and the athleticism of tantric sexuality and healing practices it is intimidating and it is it something to bow down to but it’s something also to be compelled to rise up to and to create a quality that you’re talkin about if men are used to a paradigm where women are just kind of infant alized I’ll put it in so many different ways and it’s kind of like well if a man is like infantilized like the way they would do foot binding in China to limit a woman so it’s like if you’re a man and you your performance sexually isn’t judged because a woman either isn’t allowed to talk back or because she isn’t allowed to discover and to know better that she could actually be having sex with herself or her female friends or with men who can last longer cuz they do the work but if you keep women in the closet under the patriarchal Paradigm then then they they can’t really rise up and Rebelle sexually with their there you know what they went with your true power coming into being that forces men to actually not be lazy about their practices as well so I think that’s kind of a challenge it’s like being lazy paninis with being actually comfortable and old men to approach me like with their whatever their their cat calling like whatever like I feel really comfortable just saying Hey brother I’m not really busy right now thank you you know like I said offended like some of these women are like oh my God likes me to ncat calling. Me to end you know like socializing men and women you know sexually like being comfortable having these conversations you know and I’m so I’ve just noticed that you know the men that I extract you know I’m just I’m just really it’s really easy for me to just kind of Durex where I want to take that conversation maybe I do want to talk to them that I want to see who they are you know you know it or internet but I just like okay who are you you know that’s you know you’re coming up to me and so who are you you know sexual capital and if you if you can if if someone is approaching you with interest of any kind you can always direct them to somehow enhance and and help them in their path of self-development you know that’s a real gift it’s a blessing or something you know start the conversation so maybe I’m not you know that the match for you but here’s what you can do to go and hear you give him some advice if they’re coming up to you and it’s it’s like not working I love a man that you know works his mission or whatever you know even if I’m not pursuing this gentleman that I just said now that seed has been planted in his Consciousness a woman who is comfortable you know with her energy and now he knows and hopefully now he goes and maybe Works cuz he was properly stimulated yeah it’s always an opportunity and I appreciate you saying that cuz I know that there are women who I’ve known and enjoy my life who will get really jaded and cynical about the energy coming towards them but the ones who really at the end of the day feel more blessed and feel more light and free or the ones who actually just kind of play with that incoming mail energy and can kind of trick them and kind of it would not you I’m not not in a bad way but I’m will just work with that energy and actually instead of just trying to be hostile towards it actually Master it and actually just do a little bit of psychic Aikido or Jiu-Jitsu and kind of turn the energy around and make it productive and useful in some way ya ya talkin about Jiu-Jitsu I’m actually taking jiu-jitsu classes Bolivar not very beginner but the concept of Jiu Jitsu of basically deflecting energy back till your opponents that you’re sparring with or whatever so that you don’t use your own energy to drain yourself and you can last longer and everything not only applies to like lingam breeding lingam practices and everything but for like removing your Yoni egg believe it or not so basically just to ship to hear is to talk about the Yoni egg really quick that I literally hear about almost on a daily basis is how am I going to take my Yoni egg out how am I going to remove my Yoni egg has been inside for like 3 days worst case scenario like a couple days you know and it always comes back to relaxing like the vaginal muscles I just being relaxed being you know not Contracting in a state of fear or flight on my God my eggs not coming out which is really reflecting some usually some some Trauma from sexual trauma was some like inability maybe they were you know sexually violated and they thought you know taken you know I don’t think we actually talked about this my last podcast but kind of relaxing and letting that go is the number one thing that helps to release the egg when they feel like it stopped so it shows how how the energy flows you know if we just kind of give a real step-by-step overview of what let’s see if a woman for the first time is hearing about or his started here about this Yoni egg phenomenon work if you were to kind of give us an outline for essay a workshop where she gives a star with the elevator pitch yes can initiate us into the the mystery and wonder of the Yoni egg practice have buffet in the shape of an egg that is used internally in the vaginal Canal women insert it preferably nice and warm after they cleaned it exists they just infected it they have built a certain relationship with it where they are consciously infusing their intentions into it and once they’ve done all that which I can expand on this well they inserted and two things happen the weight of the stone strengthens the vaginal Canal but also energetic play the stone is amplifying all function of of the of the Yoni I should have a vagina so usually have expressed is women start feeling more women start learning what I call vaginal muscle memory where they’re able to like what I described earlier consciously manipulate their vaginal muscles because you know typically for a healthy which I guess I can Define but like you know a healthy vaginal Canal it will come out every time you go to the bathroom like every time you have a bowel movement without but what I was describing earlier regarding in opting out is usually when there’s like some pain tension vaginal tension vaginal pain and you know usually they feel this even before they’re using their eggs so they’re kind of like aware like this is something that has to come into the practice because I was already there and do Yoni egg is really expecting that it’s kind of highlighting that so that she can work on that and I said yeah every single time I’m on the phone with with someone who calls me like oh I can’t take my reading practices with them and assure them that it will come out I relax them and on the phone it comes out every time every time I get these calls the able actually come out on the phone but but yeah that the young egg is a really powerful practice for enhancing a woman’s sexual Consciousness she starts feeling the energy flow in her you anymore an example of that from me is I can actually feel my like which ovary is menstrating cuz it’s either one over here the other most women don’t know that but it’s usually one or the other on the left or the right one so I know which side of my body I need to kind of relax you know like a freaking was driving I’m not going to put tension on like my right leg like I can feel my menstration happening on that side if that makes sense into that area so much more she probably took the signals are probably suddenly being sent but if you’re not really tuned in just like any other you know practice if you were to do meditation on an area that’s for any you know anyone any sex if you were to have us a knee injury and you needed to put energy there and you started to focus on it then you will start to develop that fine that fine perception of sensation so it’s that’s amazing it’s great sure that you’re able to tune in that way and just probably do way better at self care and maintenance inspire me the most and make me the most passionate about this practice is the orgasmic Enlightenment part of it like literally feeling the pleasure you know like like the innocent pleasure of of what’s naturally received in in your genitals you know like on a physical level you know like just feeling that sensation or I could be the wind blowing it could be you know like not to get too personal but you know I feel like it’s kind of appropriate but like for example I’m a big fan of hair like you know like pubic hair like I think it’s healthy I think it’s healthier or Castor oils and it to keep the skin youthful you know it can actually keep skin like younger like smoother like more moisture I like all of that you know it’s like a barrier and so I’m like an avid you know like hay like don’t like sushi don’t laser like a whole thing off like that’s just like crazy right but anyway long story short and it up doing a photoshoot and like I deduct shaving my Yoni it was like the first time like I said I could feel like I could feel everything like it was like it was like tender tender skin that was newly exposed and it was like I was literally like I felt like I was like generating like orgasmic energy like from walking you know you know pretty much like that’s the level or two that’s that’s the extent to which you can be sensitive you know like in in your room and so that’s what I was going back to what I was saying earlier like walking this walk is is really challenging like it’s very beautiful it’s very Awakening it’s very inspiring is very motivating but is it also called you to really be responsible with your Sexual Energy cuz you just feel it that much more you know that you’re just more aware of the world around you at large you know let alone your intimate with someone and they’re actually inside of you and and you can put one woman said to me be more of a participant than a recipient you know I mean what exit is actually I should say that I guess throughout my years in Tantra I feel like I’ve been with women who now I know we’re kind of just dabbling because I was with a woman recently who was a serious Yoni egg athlete and she would keep it in you know she would cycle through it being in and hold it in you know for just as she’s walking around and just to find muscle tone that she created with that it really gave her a sort of dexterity that was like having several hands worth of strength and grip and it’s dirty and it was said that to me was it that that was intimidating but it actually gave me a real just a new experience of how powerful a woman can be and also what it really actually for the first time is so interesting it to me it was such a it was so it’s like so obvious but what was so interesting about it is that I could really feel the Primal essence of her body really just beyond any language Beyond any culture beyond anything you know cerebro it was just a really Primal Instinct rule carnal effort to extract a seed extract sperm from me you know that and I have got a vasectomy so we wouldn’t have to worry about that happening but it was just I was like for this is so beautiful she is going so hard with so much intensity with all of this power and all the strength to just for me to surrender and release and to give her body with what is needed for the species to continue and that level of enthusiasm sogc my biggest issue and I like that you call that Yoni egg athlete I’m going to go with that as a young athlete pleasure it’s really it comes down to you know the men not lasting long enough you know like coming really fast and pretends not being able to really connect with me and them coming to the table with their intentions which is jacking off coming and I am left high and dry and I am a mountain and a bigger picture and you know when you feed the fire and it keeps the world you know what I mean so it takes two to tango and so I feel like you know is a man who who considers himself a sexual athlete in that I do the work I’m going to consider to be like I’m in my I mean it was funny people it’s like it’s like having a six pack in your in your PC muscles you know what I mean you’re doing a kegels and you’re doing the Celtic birth multi-orgasmic you know long cycles of in jaculation and edging and drawing energy are okay well actually I have a video that is on my website and it’s free but it is marked explicit so you have to check a box as it you’re 18 or older to watch it but it’s like an hour-long of injaculating orgasms up into each chakra and explaining what the chakras are about and how the energy can you adjust the activation of actually sending directing explosive orgasmic energy harvesting and cultivating and drying it up sippin it up through the you know some people called the Cobra breath but you know there is a way to sustain the waves of orgasm as a man that goes more from that sharp you know quick sharp peak of the genitals these two actually smoothing that out into a stroke of energy is Tantra Punk. Com and what’s the general sneeze that’s that’s like an affectionate term that I think about it at 6 ologist in country cuz used to talk about just I mean you can make that analogy also with the disc clitoral orgasm so that like if you’re training a woman to have more of a deeper full-body longer-lasting Arc of a new no vaginal orgasmic experience then you want to put a separate and put in the context it just rubbing the clit what’s a even with those the sex toys that women are kind of use over using and making themselves numb just kind of burn it burning out the clip with rubbing with friction it causes that really easy relatively he’s into it to induce quote General sneeze works just like a reflex and for a man if all he’s doing is rubbing one out he’s just inducing that reflux and not actually spreading it out and harvesting it and you don’t like you say breathing it up to the heart if you think of the heart as a magnet for the sexual energy and your connecting that high voltage sexual energy into that you create like an electromagnet and that’s when you get into the Magic in the sex magic so you know if you’re not if you’re not actually applying this energy towards manifesting your Visions for your future than your kind of just spilling it into the cause Into The Ether and there’s there’s a there’s a lot of wasted Prana that’s just goes and it just gets that Prana gets get consumed by the lower aspects of ourselves and that’s why you have all these pornaddict universo pictures of women in Golden Consciousness please tell me what your help or in his kind of affected your your past and your clients and their works I guess the the main variable or like you know like it’s basically a guy and then the girl doesn’t really feel it still feels cheated on feels like he’s indulging in for not her feel sexually shame she feels bad about it she like she’s not good enough she’s not pretty enough and her either wasn’t affected like as a woman and she does know and that’s a lot of women actually believe it or not I believe it I believe it is yeah neologism trying to create memes that will actually compete with the you know what we’re up against but hey I think Kundalini is the new money shot in the township born Revolution so you know stay tuned so yummy Yoni eggs how to use Yoni eggs for Central healing right for Central wound healing but I thought that was just too many people wanted me to put them in there somehow but I decided that I need a suggest simplify it reduce Siri find it and so that’s still what it is still Sexual Healing using and yeah my practice is I suggest daily use like like your goddess friend and I really believe in the progress that women make when they use the Yoni egg on a regular basis and they are Yoni breathing in addition or a conjunction rather with that usage without foxes really enhances their connection to their body so their bra to their pleasure to do they are as a woman as a person as a spirit as a as a feeling Source an expression Consciousness and she’s able to to learn to direct your energy so that helps women do that also describe the book is it what kind of format is it in and and what can people expect if they pick it up just called how do you say on 8% real healing I’m holding it right now it’s a it’s a square book and it has the rose quartz On It featuring The Rose Chords it’s on Amazon it’s on Amazon is also my website Yoni grace.com and it was number one new release of the new age division is what all congratulations that’s awesome a whole one stop shopping center for all things sacred sexual healing and training practices and I’m just thrilled that you’re holding us face and gorgeous pictures by the way everything is lovely in thank you so much I hate you I work really hard but I’m actually hiring right now like I’ve been trying to bring on women I just moved to the area I’m trying to bring on women who like one because I already doing their own business and they have questions and they don’t know I really do this like a successful example I do actually have a certification for his for women who want to sell you two guys and they want to educate the women you like is actually mainly about educating them and you know here this is compliments. You know take this information to this so I’m teaching them how to do that chorus I’m really sorry about that it’s called Yoni egg mid white you know what the age of Jeff’s water so you can you share it just any of the stories of the top of your head if people who have women who have just had total Transformations and just knew yeah I knew Chattanooga leases on life with his practice wow which way do I go with that the first time I came to mind is I think the most powerful wine women who like I just started my business like seven years ago so this problem 6 years ago like I was still like beginning right and so was the first time like I ordered eggs I go getting AIDS manufactured feel like the first time and you know that it takes so long I can take months and months before you are what you know what you ordered so anyway she was waiting on some weight first month second month like anything after that like maybe you know you do want to talk to your doctor and say hey you know I want to strengthen my vaginal muscles I’m going to have an easier time being let me do this you know to let you know leave it up to them but hypothetically you know if you’re doing we miss it will help you I’ll just say that like it will help you but anyway so she basically had was pregnant with twins her package was you know delayed to a certain time where she could really do her Yoni breathing first I guess like for her like she started running breathing like her entire pregnancy and eggs came a couple months later and they really helped her to catheter muscle City spent that when she actually went into labor she was like literally 30 minutes never thought about that never thought about how it would absolutely help with recovery and help with preparation and that’s great I want everybody in the world to know about how beautiful this is cuz I like I said I was I was just a fan of it I believe it was like oh that’s great yeah I know people used toys and there’s all kinds of toys and that’s great and then it’s got you know healing properties in the stones and the crystals that’s all great but literally having someone absolutely just completely rock my world and just like give me a real you know really it made it into into such a a match of willpower in a match of stamina and just the the the force the beautiful powerful forcefulness that she was able to express in so many different ways it was just like really so beautiful to behold and yes it makes a man want to figure out how to really rise to the occasion in some curious if you have stories are you know of women who have just kid off totally changed the game under the sheets with and then it’s like they they’re their man maybe they just was too much of a too much of a struggle to keep up or the man was like wow I need to actually become a master of my own equipment so that we can actually have this professional level excite me of activity happening are there a view of stories at all if men who said like you saved my marriage kind of thing here thank you so much kind of stuff like that solutely so there are a lot of women just from the break that were telling me that they were wetter like the first time in years I think we really try and make sure they have a lot of pain during sex to the really dry on the Yoni egg witness for them and from the beginning you don’t like the first week or something like you know they’re feeling this and so that really help with their with their relationships you know what their sexual relationships I had one girl she calls me from New York periodically just helps her feel so much more juicier much more she’s just like driving you know how every time I talk to her so and then there’s the women and I’m still trying to track this but there’s a lot of women who say that they have a they have an easier menstrual cycle as well like it’s just I’m not necessarily painful but they’re more aware of like the cramping like they’re able to like relax with the contraction logo instead of like tracking holding it being in pain pills you’re not wrong. Like that’s why I like you need to relax relax with it with it it it it is hard like a massage like the cock if you were as if you were kind of on some kind of massage roller or just like what it what a massage would feel like on the outside of the skin is it kind of feel like that as it’s moving and azure is it moving your kind of playing with gravity imagine your you know using gravity and using just musculature and just kind of playing with a right and then that does that feel kind of like a massage on internal massager how does it feel oh yeah it’s an internal massage that’s a beautiful way to put it I had one woman say it was an internal hog attack so yeah it’s not like it was a bear hug you know that I basically enhances like I have some women he’ll joke around when I talk to him about it and I’m good with that you can always be better even if it actually especially if you’re celibate hey I have been I have been for you know seasons in my in my life you know awesome so what else would tell me more about your overall experience all of your offerings and services as a business and what you have kind of on the horizon what’s going to be continuing to develop so that’s an interesting question when you see okay okay I’m going to be talked about for the first time I think I may have mentioned it in a few videos that I’ve done but I’ve been working with men for the first time recently and that has been really fulfilling for me I really have to pee like opening up my channels while I’m opening up their channels like it’s been really beautiful like that’s actually been something that I really wanted to do and I feel safe doing it like I don’t like saying this is not ideal but you know I do feel like safe through a computer with them because I have had bad experiences you know unfortunately and that’s why this work is so sacred and that’s why I work so hard because there’s all that. I hate to say it but you know when people don’t understand but I am happy to do it actually that is good to know yet because you know there’s there’s I work with a lot of gay and bisexual men and I’m someone you know I’m somewhere on the Spectrum and I got many spirits going on I can appreciate all aspects of the human form in the many forms it takes but I know that there’s there’s only I straighten straight men who are pretty vanilla or pretty kind of just meet me at 8 o s guys you know they’re not they’re not so enthusiastic about working directly with me or watching my videos because they might feel like they might they might catch queer if they watch my videos or something hands are kind of afraid more women who are there to facilitate and entice that Journey for men and make it you know really an easy sell for them I appreciate that the women were doing that because it’s really really important to stop raping to stop abuse and to stop misuse and you know if it’s not abuse its misuse if you know the way really straight guys you know so thank you for doing that work it’s a pleasure and you know that you’re improving their love lives and potentially against saving marriages if that’s the thing in stepping up so is that something people can just go to your website and booked a session or how do you how does that work but there is a screening process you know if I engage with you and I have any mail us a check she does all my emails support canceling and rescheduling and wanting to be fine and then again and then telling me all this problems in divulging and I was like well you know and then you know I have a I do at this one actually do have a cancellation policy where I I’ll keep a sound like you know there’s a lot a lot to deal with him before we work together you know that there are situations like that and so I will not work with you I love to see a world where we have temples where there’s a lot you know if a man is a secret of sexual initiation add a new level hands on hands off you know what section is everyone you know how long has Spectrum but you show up you be a warrior you help clean up trash you help grow you know the garden and plant trees and actually be of service and then you will get spoiled with the love of the takhini sue you know have the the different levels of interest in in-service and education so I’m hoping that eventually will move out of that points are you in Vegas now is that right for on and off for a couple of years and I actually co-founded the Las Vegas Tantra meetup group that there’s there’s it’s it’s stop it I want to go yeah well it’s I haven’t you know I did before I kicked it off I did the first few the first few classes at the pole fitness studio and it was great to just sort of Emergency the world’s there and and and Luna together but it’s been taken over since I left them back in LA but I would definitely yeah be so thrilled if you were to come in here and do some yoga you should totally get connect with some with the current organized person and just yeah I guess I can imagine we have please tell me what what brought you to Vegas and are you on a mission to bring your healing energy to the belly of the Beast or what what’s your angle well you know the I guess exactly was having this conversation with another another Las Vegas resident who’s doing tantric healing work and it’s like it’s interesting Paradox because it’s a place where women are really empowered sexually yet they’re still sort of a very shallow form of of male attention that’s coming through and it’s not really it’s not really as is spiritually Advanced as it could be so yet there’s a lot of spiritual lightworkers there so the people who can bridge the gap between the worlds of sacred sexuality and the sort of you know just kind of excessive party Indulgence you know the archetype of Mystique of it there’s so much potential there there’s so much Financial potential and so much spiritual enrichment that can happen so I’m always curious to find more people who are sexual lightworkers who or you know are there medicine really to to this that will work with my former lover called a adult Disneyland right so you’re at please tell me what what is your if you don’t mind if it’s not too personal what what what is what brought you today to send City so there’s no state income tax here so I just saved money having a business that was the main reason the quality of life is cheaper than where I want you know that is why I did notice that things are way cheaper and has so many incentives in the industry to to keep people around and that’s it that’s great that’s amazing so are you are you finding clientele there are you reaching out and teaching them hoping to teach classes and Lee seeking control I just run my online business if I happen to meet somebody around then I will work with them well that is very very interesting because I can just imagine that synchronicity and Serendipity will the right people at the right time will will show up and there’s so many I mean could you imagine if all the strippers and lap dancers and you know they were all what do I distribute to this population yeah meditate yeah we will all the all the listeners will be praying for you to succeed because that’s a beautiful I’m the others I know that other country cuz who have really done well you know they’re bringing the light so you’re in good company and with a good president so I was actually when it well she is she goes by the podcast pseudonym magic fucking pussy and for reasons of privacy she likes to stay Anonymous but she’s been on the podcast number of times she’s been in you know some of the we did our thing we made a lot of magic and made a lot of love and brought the Tsar are sort of alchemic one of our All chemical tantric children is the Las Vegas Tantra Meetup that was kind of birth for that so I’m glad to see it’s still going and I would love to see you just more more people connect to that but yeah so I will definitely do that so what else it’s so if you you’re starting or you’re you’ve just realized how long how long you been there for I have any I think it’s going to be a year in June okay so yeah you could kind of going to stablish so what is the if there were local what’s a women you know to start with local women who wanted to connect with you and actually would say do you know what are you going to want to do workshops and actually you know get spaces organized so you could do obviously for that meet up where you can start your own meet up or you could do you know your own marketing to get people kind of connected to to what you have to teach but I mean I would love to see yeah you you feeding back from that online business into the local the local market there you have a do you have a timeline for when you want to start branching out more you know what my books now that’s published I can actually feel comfortable sharing the unions are more broad-scale because there’s an actual manual now with it before I just started selling them even though they also a lot of the women so you need to get their eggs for me that is so cool to be a proprietor of Yoni eggs thank you so much you were going to be so blessed I can’t imagine how good you know your life is going to continue to be and how good you’re just sort of facilitating so much pleasure and so much healing I really applaud that thank you a lot actually yeah I saw that easy pass this is Bernard I really need support here I need to hire somebody so far it hasn’t worked out with the last few women because it needs to be packaging is a skill you know and I really need to build a team that’s really good the game well it’s will call that in and hopefully yeah that you find the right person who is just a total believer and totally shows up and in the right way and thought about any insurance cuz you can can be more trouble than they’re worth sometimes and not all of them have the best intentions but you might find that’s a good way to kind of lower-risk get somebody kind of trained and skilled with your business and if they work out keep them on long-term you know internship is a feeling something that I need you I didn’t worked out with some of the University’s here because this is like I’m in my home so they they don’t want to send insurance yeah it’s a restaurant that’s what I was told I’m actually still looking into it I asked one of my girlfriend she’s she does are yummy art like in my book like half if not almost all of the New York is her drawing and I’m sure she’s just like amazing she does like my brochures she just all the yummy aren’t for my brochures my boss said please come do Yoni art and was packaged and she was like I just signed an apartment New York we’re also your YouTube channel is totally blowing up I see you have amazing a list of videos on there so we’re getting tons of use and just amazing making it look really good what you doing in the next it’s yeah thank you for being a spokesmodel for this form of wellness and fitness it’s just beautiful yeah I do maybe one YouTube video awesome is that is it been a lot of good feedback you feel like you made the loyal fan I don’t like I’m directing more videos to men you know just kind of feeding their Consciousness giving them some ideas you know so I’ve been kind of branching into that direction for the first time I’ve been working with women like doing Yoni egg practices like 3 years for like 5 plus years and now I’m starting to really Branch off from work with women more so if you’re good with what you’re going to come back and get this is a lot more a lot lighter and more you know just more playful than the last one a little heavier but I’m glad we got to kind of follow up on and connect on a on a motor on a lighter note as it were and give some a little bit of more exposure to the beautiful things you’re doing and certainly where where should people go to connect you want to give that that URLs and all that good stuff yeah so they can go to Jonnie graze.com 9 degrees. Org they can go to YouTube and they can look up Gracie asked myself that he’s putting Yoni breathing the find me will be the first person that comes out by the Yoni egg or even all of those three tears are how you can find me Instagram graceful empowerment you know and then on Amazon it’s only $2 I really even if you don’t get ever get an egg and even from men as well if they want to understand like just vaginal vaginal like energetic like physiology my book how do you like it’s a simple read they do it with their practice step by step but it’s also very like Literature Like and poetic and intended to really honor like I don’t really use the word like vagina and it’s too much I don’t you know you certain vocabulary so it’s it’s a much lighter read like you said so yeah that is so awesome that is exactly what I’m looking for and I will after that you know when the standard was set as high as it was for me and this was not too long ago I really am going to insist and this is what I was looking for I just want to be able to insist it’s like hey you know we owe it to each other whoever you know Partners lovers maybe it’s actually not only just this is part of the inner work it’s part of Fitness part of Sexual Health and Wellness Center why why not deliver your A-game and in just sort of have done the homework in the home play to be a real powerful energized and skillful lover that goes for everybody so no excuses anymore we got this book out it’s ready as two bucks come on I want to give do you know what it would have Valentine’s Day gives a birthday gift you know and if you’re a man and you feel like oh I mean I don’t want to be crude but hey some people say all this goes both ways your quote dead lay if you’re a dead lay on either side get with it get with the program yeah that’s why I wrote it and it took me six years to write cuz I was trying to perfect it I mean although that’s an illusion obviously we can talk about that all day but you know I was really generally trying to honor the sacred texts you know of sacred scripture and teaching and sharing so I really worked on it for a very long time and I did a lot of like surveys with the women who are using the eggs and just got you know a poll of information so and it really supported a lot of my original theories are hypotheses I should say of the oniac when you use it regularly for women doesn’t matter how old you are you know where you are if you’re sexually on it’s it’s an it’s a beautiful living breathing you know conscious stone that works with you and harmony with you so awesome awesome I’m not no thank you again so much grace I guess we’ll call tonight and blessings and best wishes and prayers and good luck with everything and hopefully we’ll be in touch and you take very good care of a good night. 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Yoni Breathing to Heal Eating Disorders with Grace Diaz TPP62

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grace-diaz-picIn this episode I have the honor of speaking with Grace Diaz a high priestess of feminine spirituality and sexual healing, education and empowerment. She share’s her story of early shamanic initiation as a sexual healing priestess and her epic transcendence of eating disorders with tantric yoni breathing.

She graciously holds space for me to open up about my personal wounding with eating disorders and we compare notes on our efforts to refine and synthesize diverse healing modalities.

Please visit her website to access her services and learn more about her great offerings:

http://gracefulempowerment.com/

Grace’s bio:
My passion of healing began at the age of ten, when my father, a Reiki Master of 20 years initiated me as a Reiki practitioner. At the age of 19, I moved to Medellin, Colombia to intensify my Reiki studies. On this 5 month sabbatical my father initiated me as a Reiki master and we began co-hosting biweekly Reiki retreats to promote spiritual growth for our community. Upon my return to the United States in 2010, I began teaching Reiki all over the east coast.

I was introduced to Tantra, sacred sexuality, in 2008, and began practicing it full-time to reclaim my Highest Self. During the fall of 2011, I became initiated into Shakti-Pakti Tantric Guru Yoga and started hosting Tantra workshops and retreats. Currently, I am pursuing my PhD in women’s sexual health in order to spread the wisdom of sexual healing.

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Com and our journey together will begin hello dear beloved’s welcome to Township Punk podcast episode number 62 I am interviewing Grace Diaz who has amazing insights and offerings in the world of Tantra and we’re going to emphasize on specifically the Journey of transcending eating disorders and how that relates to the work that that you’ve been doing and would love for you to just Begin by giving us a bit of background about your life story and then how you confronted and encountered these issues in what you have to offer and now it’s in terms of support for people on on their spiritual like that thank you God for having you in the show so complete with or to start during I guess the beginning you know I was I had many dreams when I was younger starting line the Egyptian I had a recurring dream that the time has nightmares and I was initiated actually during my dreams as a young girl into the sexuality you know you can call him Spirit guides or it was it was basically a Rapture asexual Rapture that I had during dreams was when I was younger all the way up until the age of 12 and so I told my mom about these dreams and she immediately freaked out you know she she thought I was getting raped in my dreams pretty much and that actually was what was happening to some extended it was a very physical experience that was completely real in the sense of how he feel kneel during The Waking Life and so that was my my initiation into Entre you no looking back on it now and just being totally coming by it and so I my mom you know she called at the time she called a pastor from the church they came and they literally blast my room with holy water and believe it or not I never had that and so since then I mean not even to spend I think I’ve always been a very sexual creature but especially since then my curiosity of sacred sexuality just magnified and I became curious about what happened to me and I wanted to really understand that more and I wanted you like you mentioned been transcend to the highest level that I experienced such a young age in terms of the eating disorder that actually happened around the same time I was around the age of 12 when I started charging and I started developing at a very young age females now I’m looking at a very young age about dispatch no real in my opinion it’s very real and so I was developing very very young and and I just was growing very quickly and it scared me and I started purging so I could stay and it became both bulimia and anorexia and an obsession with working out in Baxley all three of those it was a death sentence yeah I was pretty much killing myself and I was very nutritionally do you know week in that area and so no one knew about it when I was growing up I’m also going to be in descendants I am from my lineage and in our culture in the Latin culture women are very sexualized at a very young age you know and the gender Norms are the gender orientations gender types are much more binary and in our culture they’re much more established that you know that the men are very much showing the women are you take care of a men’s and and their healers you know that you know all the herbs that you know dinner in 5 minutes for 20 people you know they’re very established there’s home women if you will and so and so anyway so my mom and my grandmother and my family was also Mom even thought of course that from you when I was twelve I’m sure that that probably at the time help me to be more body conscious of myself which kind of let into my eating disorder and I have a member at at 9 my mom was waxing me like my arms and my sideburns my mustache and so again I was I was very specialized I was I was very and it was in good intentions and now it’s hot just how do you know how to stick my chest out my mom was in my aunt you know I remember like they were showing me like stick your chest out you know how we would walk you know by guys and things like that and so that is the Latin culture in the Latin culture is very sexual it’s very passionate and all of this contributed to my perception of my body and so I at 12:30 and 10 years into it every day I had an obsession with everything I eat to the extent it became so serious that I was even trying to breed a certain way it’s a calorie burn burn more calories and I mean it was ridiculous and you know just this horrible it was really like I think about eating disorders now as a mental disorder you know because you’re not thinking about anything that even your own self-interest but in Mystic station that is an allusion in that isn’t even really true When developing like I mentioned so quickly I think that the issue was at the time there was really no cultivation around how to manage that and how to handle that it was you know it was all about being asked to go being a sexy and sensual and erotic and everything like that but not really you know the part of thought and show and I came in to Tantra probably you know I don’t know maybe 17 18 years old when I started really learning about Tantra and I was reading a book called jewel in the Lotus still one of my favorite one of my favorites and yes I can be nuts at around 7 p.m. so when I read that I just was eating it all up I was just and I just loved it so much and it just I just felt so connected to everything that were saying you know I’m in my other interviews I talked about how I was also initiated a level 2 Reiki practitioner you know and then at 18 master and so all of this to my my journey and you really understanding sacred sexuality and just you know the whole genre of of energy transformation and Transcendence and so yeah I was I was just totally impasse line just you know like a sexual resonate so much about that because I feel like you are so blessed to have gotten a hold of that book at that age I’m curious how did that book into your life that book entered my life through one of my dear close to stir fry and Ariana and Ariana was also one of my initiator I’m going to just shot her out I just love her she’s one of my like sacred always be moving into her place I was moving out of my mom’s place I was moving into her place tonight and just externally Progressive and when she studying everything that she studied she had like a whole wall of books that were probably ever seen in my life and my Nest at home I was just so eager to learn more you know and like I mentioned my past experiences with my dreams and eating disorder and you are coming to town very hungry to learn more and I also had that background of Reiki you know I had that background of energy healing energy projection energy Consciousness all of this and I am still into it I still referencing you know even to this day and so I’m running about energy and yang energy and the masculine and feminine and it’s beautiful you know dualistic principle that ultimately leads into the Trinity you know that there’s really a middle to which is like the silence and so I just started really trying to identify who going back to Tasha and how I healed my eating disorder I later came into yummy breathing which is something I know I think everybody who know who’s familiar with me at work they know they probably have heard me speak about you and I can really go into that because that is I think it’s not just a cigarette addiction it could be in a relationship addiction could be any type of imbalance you know and so for me it was in my throat you know I really thinking about it and find site now because when a woman has four notches woman cuz I know men have to but when there’s an eating disorder it’s what it was but specifically with my throat chakra I know that I know that it was like one of the things that I noticed after healing my eating disorder until tonight and I’ll talk about like how I did that but I had a voice singing and I actually had a better voice after I was able to totally heal my eating disorder you know my throat chakra open you know and search on in a woman especially a balance in her sleep I learned that from a another beautiful woman who I follow on the internet her name is dr. Sara Gottfried absolutely love her she is like an orgasm do you know hormone like wise woman and you know along with many other wisdom says she has orgasm that’s how I found her called orgasmic Vitality something that you’ll find her that way if you put Sara Gottfried orgasmic boosted I can totally feel that and in terms of the serotonin healing your appetite you know it was I was able to kind of animal is the most tragic when it comes to an eating disorder is you become totally just connected to what your body is saying you know you don’t listen to intentionally avoids me to every opportunity you can to just neglect what your body is saying because you know you’re in your shed and you’re saying to yourself I know that I need to start my order to stay at this week you don’t want to lose weight and you feel hungry every single day and actually believe it or not that you have to have in order to have an eating disorder it like it’s something that is really tragic but I believe it or not it was actually something that help me I know that I’m not at all trying to promote him at all but, it in owning it as a growth experience that allows you to teach and heal others it’s like you’re reclaiming your big and it’s not in vain I totally get that yes absolutely absolutely and so yeah and so listen to the body is very low priority for anyone who has an eating disorder the way that I was able to heal my eating disorder using the contract with listening to my body that was chronically and fatally in that bulimia and anorexia and so I started Johnny breathing I learned during breeding from another beautiful Mentor Safari Sutra and he taught me only breathing and Yoni breathing is very simplest inhale grips for vaginal muscles from then it would be gripping there same PC muscles that a woman would that you hold your urine with us a muscle pain exhaling releasing the grits and this gives you hear he’s two hemispheres is you because you cannot avoid did the level of body Sensation that manifest from you do that I mean what’s this I called I used to do it all day long like literally I will get high off of it I would do you know and giving myself permission to actually have that experience in so doing that day after day after day and at that time I was also a relationship for the very first time in a while to and so I was able to kind of use the energy and I was able to have the most glorious orgasms you know. Where I was able to Experian stock and not that you know I still don’t experience it but at the time I had the luxury of time of literally dedicating the other day and night to this and so. It how I healed meeting before I’m in with time I noticed I didn’t even actually believe it or not but I didn’t notice I feel my eating disorder and so my boyfriend noticed it you know he said to me how are you doing with this like anyone who’s very deep inside you know cuz it’s really hit and it’s really something that you don’t want to talk about the same around it and their assessment you know when people find out that you do this it can be some of the most it can be hard to keep a shame that always for me it was some of the people shame that I could ever feel so it wasn’t something I really like talking about so I remember he asked me to lunch after I started yelling and I said you know why I can’t believe I haven’t noticed that I haven’t heard in like months probably in and I didn’t even notice I’m so that’s when I started paying more attention I started doing my Yoni breathing more and I noticed I could join the workshops that would do the webinars that we do the young a conference call that we do we really promote money for women it’s it’s a musical and again going back to eating disorder really pertaining to the throat chakra that moaning really stimulate the thyroid gland that’s in that third shotgun again for me personally I feel like that’s how I healed my eating disorder was really when you inhale grip XL release of the Brethren the contraction together that mon comes out during that Excel and so I mean that shaking up with that chakra to really just mantle a lot of the blockage that I had in my throat you know I wasn’t talking about I wasn’t speaking about it I had a lot of baggage in that area and through it’s simple I mean such a simple practice such a glorious practice such a powerful know any moment of the day and for me change my life it was I was able to not only kill my my bulimia which is something that women for some reason and I’m sure there’s other people while listening to this have had Eating Disorders I was always told it was something I couldn’t deal I was always told all the therapy I went to all of the meetings I would go to it was only something that they said you know what we’re going to help you cope with this but we’re letting you know right now that most people never heal a little and on top of that out of all of the mental disorders and again eating disorder is actually characterizes that an eating disorder is specifically anorexia is the most out of all the mental disorders like I still can’t believe that I’m just actually talking about this is just so I’m just feeling so much gratitude but yeah that that is how I was able to thank you so much for sharing that and and giving those practical tools and insights in that hope and inspiration if I if I’m a I’d like to share a little bit about why it’s so important to me in my life that you’re doing this work and see if you might resonate with some of the insights that I’ve found as I’ve been dealing with that end in approaching this this issue to kind of help just further the discourse in and give more more different perspectives in in lights on what’s actually happening in the mechanics of the process in what what I’ve seen you do is you’re actually bringing into energy work the time to work and reconciling that with the limitations of the clinical sort of the limits of the understanding of it which doesn’t have the esoteric wisdom involves right that’s kind of the problem so is that is that okay with you if I kind of give you a something to yeah my my my little brief narrative is that anorexia destroyed my my family and and I’d say it pretty much probably was one of the single factors in effectively ruining my life you know for many years in and I didn’t really discover that until recently when I was kind of guided through shamanic ceremonial psychedelics my ceremonial workers like that the fracture point was that my sister might my my single mother was busy trying to put food on the table and my eldest sister was basically effectively my surrogate mother who is who is raising me and she was I would say from an esoteric perspective just brutally attacked by transdimensional parasitic organisms that lodged in her chakra system and induced her into the anorexia so-called disorder and she wasted away and I didn’t know what was going on until she was institutionalized in a mental hospital in Westlake at the point of near-death and then she sort of got adopted out of the family from that hospital to go live with the Christian family we’re kind of she became a real hyper fundamentalist Christian out of it and it did save her life but it was definitely like alienating an extreme in a way that kind of made us drift apart but I really descended into hell from having lost her as my mother like I was completely like turned into just a monster of rage and in confusion and in sadness and then everything bad that happened in my life I really traces back to that so I feel like I have a bone to pick with this this issue and it’s been a journey to try to understand and I think you know what it is very a case very interesting that you had that earlier life experience of a sort of energy clearing Exorcism of your sleeping area and not actually having some real tangible effective like something was there and then it got escorted out and then the symptoms in the problems start dissipated very rapidly or instantaneously so there’s something that happened on a spiritual or invisible level and when so yeah when you I guess the spiritual Traditions shamanic and Christian and Catholic and other Traditions would say a bad Spirit has come to take your life force your Prime now you’re being parasitized in an attack spiritually and a procedure of extraction has to occur in order for your natural energy to flow properly and for you to have your full Vitality into be a whole person and so and I often hear this sort of denial of the entity of entities being involved in this process is like it’s not that something is lodged in your throat chakra is that something is eating your life force that has nested in the throat chakra and pranic healing which was adapted partially from Reiki has actually taking that leap of synthesizing esoteric Christian exorcism methodologies and different forms of Tantra and Chee Kong and what not to actually create a modality that says orgasm energy pumping like you’re saying this hydraulic pressurizing of air in breathing and pumping is actually pushing out like a plumber would clean out a clogged drain that has not only just inert blocked like it’s not like it’s Concrete in there it’s like a bunch of organic material that’s riding into King and attracting foul you know if organisms you know that could be called demon so hot so that’s that’s become my thesis for addressing this stuff in the work that I’m doing so I’m just curious now and I appreciate you letting me give that kind of visas but does any of that resonate with any of your training or any of what you want I was hesitant to call them demons but they were and I know that you are and I know that they were I saw that and they were just black vapor pretty much and they had eyes and they were everything demonic that you could describe and so as my very first stream all the way to my last it’s progressed and just seeing them more like just being able to visit visibly make out their features and so initially I didn’t actually see anything look like I was in the black void and I was just feeling like it was almost like I had no relatives like reception I I wish is experiencing something and it was happening to me and I have no way of understanding what it was when I had my last stream at the age of 12 I had three only three dreams may happen 1011 I’m sorry at 1 with 10 11 12 so that those are three dreams they haven’t won theater very strong and if I close my eyes I see the entire thing cuz it was so real and so yeah they they they were demonic beings but believe it or not been made that I have come to terms with that experience I will never felt traumatized I never felt taken I never felt a genuinely never actually felt any that I’m conscious of at least any negative feelings about it I was you die I was shown what sexual rape wives at a very young age I was shown the the the forcefulness of of sex at a very young age and I had like I said I just I felt initiated comes like thinking about it a decade after you know and really and having lots of conversations about it I I saw it as being initiated into the sex I mean in that and the connection that you made between some deposit some parasitic deposit in my throat I have never made the connection I’ve never thought about it in that way is that possible absolutely I’d have to really meditate on that some more it’s really give it more thought and to see how I feel and you know everything to this day you know I I I don’t I am I’m so cleaned of the of the eating disorder I’m so cleaned from it that it’s almost like I don’t even resume to like I don’t really I don’t want to say I don’t remember what it was like having eating disorder I don’t want to say that cuz I do I really remember it I hated when I used to do it I hate it I hate it purging I just I hated myself for doing it so much and I like I said you have to force yourself you don’t like doing it you don’t like vomiting over toilet bowl after every meal and being obsessed with how to do it and how to get away with it to be able to see and I mean it’s it’s it’s like you know it’s really it’s exhausting and energy absolutely. And so I feel so blessed to have come upon the Contra energy again not my first Awakening was a jewel in the Lotus but do you know I I am very grateful and I hope that this interview and everyone is listening to this and they haven’t even thought her know that there is absolutely awaits you absolutely. That’s the point of even talking about that either maybe a behavior that you’re choosing to act upon but it’s not who you are and I think the other important thing to really highlight is what’s your intention with even doing it you know from you it was being attractive to the opposite sex from you was being attractive it was that sexualization that which I am not trying to discourage I think that that there’s a way to be sexualized and that’s important there’s lots of different cultures that have different rituals for sexualizing jeans and and they put them together and they have a rite of passage and I think that’s important because it had its place but I I was I’m very grateful that it was the sexual energy that was able to clean me out like you said like a to use like like pushing drunk out of a tube and cleaning out that way and I actually believe or not that’s how I have above all the way down my crown I would see the immense Cyclone of energy of white light energy just entering my crown and keeping its way down to my Yoni and clenching it gripping it’s so tight and as I would exhale I would literally push everything out of me and that was how I was able to clean my tubes do you know Mona the vibration that that variability in the pitch that you know that you have to be comfortable doing well you know okay so I want if I can follow up on a few things here because I feel like the the the conspiracy of the pharmaceutical industrial complex to keep people in the belief system of disempowerment and that they’re hooked on drugs that affect their brain which is if you listen to anything that Grace is just said it’s not in your brain neurons if that’s an aftereffect that’s it the way you think about it is happening after you’ve already had this astral body you know the sex happening and whether we call it demons parasites bad spirits or or whatever we call it the fact is that this Anatomy the energy Anatomy is something that we can have agency over and we can do organic free 0 side effect exercises that are ancient proven techniques that were to purify and disinfect then I’ve been using the plumbing metaphor for a while now but has as I hear you talking about the moaning in the new pressurizing and pumping I feel like if you’ve ever what are you when you can when you can let’s say some tomato sauce or something or some vegetables your canning them you’re wanting to kill all of the bacteria inside of the jar in a pressure cooker and so if your throat had some you know parasitic entities that were hell-bent on making you painful and miserable and you pressure cook them and move them out with this energy work and this hydraulic pumping PC muscle pumping all that it’s like well that saved you a lot of money I have to say that this is the thing with all medical industry a lot of a lot of the people in this industry are learning how to heal people some of these individuals are really generally trying to ignore people we don’t know nothing no stuck in a certain regimen using no different medications and even I think I’m hoping for the day that I can stop using either because I’m sick and tired of taking so many of them are definitely in terms of the Duke Energy practice know there’s different energy practicing and Yoni breathing for me was one of them that that really saved my life and so I think that it could I think that it depends on becoming more conscious of how you direct the energy in your body I personally believe that being able to generate the energy in your body becoming conscious that you can generate energy in your body and how you generate it and what that energy looks like its color its frequency of vibration it’s emotion it’s smell even all of this you can actually contribute to the formation of about energy through your Consciousness and so how you direct it is also set number two and the intention for why you direct it is also part of this one so all of this can can be different practices it doesn’t have to be so many other touch with many of those women and it’s not always going to be earlier now he even call me in South America right now and you know just to bring it back home whatever energetic classes now whether it is Tantra or maybe you know it could be but you know that you can generate the energy necessary in order to transform the thing that people can run and how they directed and the intention behind that direction I think it’s also the power. No doubting you know I’ve done tantric healing work on women with eating disorders and been able to see the before and after effects of kind of kickstand jump-starting a person’s Energy System that has been depleted like your battery is really low and so the lower your battery gets the harder it is to get the upper hand on whatever is trying to bring you down and just Eat You Alive so you know this is for the people who are not as far along this path into maybe here in the stuff for the first time I I hope it really you know this is just hard melting and empowering you know one thing I want to say to In Praise of what you’re talking about is like the dimension of feeling free and and facilitated and accepted into having orgasmic vocalizations weather during sexual play with partner or Solo or just doing this energy work Hanna Park I mean you’re such a taboo around pleasure in the sound of pleasure and people think you were crazy or they think you were perverted or something but this is a big one of the biggest especially for him and for men’s ability to it to bring their full sacred masculine into the bedroom and access the feminine nectar’s they’ve got to be able to make these beautiful vocalizations and it’s like that dimension of Sonic repression that’s in every household in every public space you know that it’s like I want to get a a big school bus and take adult field trips out into the wild so everyone can go and just moan their guts out and might come back so I thank you for that for bringing that in Overlook that and and yet another another word that I would that I feel like it’s coming to me at as you’re speaking about this one that would I think helped you know Alexa to know how you feel about this I’ve heard it I’ve heard it mentioned before but it’s like a way to transcend the disconnect between Sexual Energy sexuality and The Healing Arts for people who think that you know massages should have genitals owns be totally off-limits otherwise it’s you know illegal and a violation of Ethics not stuff it’s like the word that I’ve heard use of the phrase that kind of bridges that those energies in a therapeutic way it’s just that simple concept of or energetic hygiene she know which kind of question is that will are you practicing energetic hygiene or you all funky you know I mean to you meeting in shark-infested water if your hole and your hygienic you’re not going to attract those whatever you want to call him since the unfriendly is that are going to opportunistically take advantage of a funky you know it absolutely essential for sure and go back to it or we should have eyes and kind of like to experience that again I was and I will keep on feeling great you know and then it was almost like it was almost like I I just felt like I arrive like I died I felt so strong and I felt so healthy and then after maybe like I said a couple years and after that 30 year of Jenny’s practice like literally day and night like pretty much like any breathing in a powerful way maybe a year later you know I took I noticed that I weekend in my tractor you know I noticed that when I came back to my practice I was weaker in it I couldn’t you know really inhale all the energy that I wanted and you know it’s my body I couldn’t you know really so I think my at my know my final note would be you know if you’re really going to do this be consistent with a chair because I’ve noticed in my own personal life that lifelong undergoing maintenance process for sure will well I did this is like the fastest 45 minutes of my life I think we’ve just been real quick but I’m you have so much more offers if you want to talk about your offerings and your websites and I’ll people can connect and start getting if you if anyone who wants me wants to learn more about you and you’re breaking the best way to do it is probably just go to YouTube and look up the Yoni breathing and you can put my name in which is Grace Grace and we can put my my organization’s name which is graceful empowerment and then you’ll find all of our breeding videos we probably have about least half of them are just dedicated to you we are website is graceful empowerment. Com we actually have a webinar that’s coming up for women and it’s learning to use the Yoni egg doing Yoni yoga yoga with Yoni breathing so we’re doing the try out of foxes that just go extraordinary well together they’re they’re like literally one Advanced we hold your hand through the entire month-long of exclusive videos that the last one is female ejaculation using a drilled Yoni egg which is vaginal weight that’s made of crystal ends in the shape of an egg start orgasming and one of the experiences that many women have is actually female ejaculation and so again yeah that’s the weather June 5th of this year 2016 Surly eleven are that we only do once a year could women all over the world and it comes with a free young age and a free leather pink journals and two books the one that I mentioned earlier orgasmic Enlightenment and the other one which is the young egg manual so that is coming up to volume graduated cuz I don’t want to go back after I’ve heard so many horror stories of you know Tantra Jacques with your caught with their hands in the cookie jar that need to be you know well kollywood you know cut those arm right off but it’s very easy stir needs to be at a Yelp for male country has to get caught with your hands in the cookie jar done with making a dating website for women who are like commenting and completely Hide Your Shadow and nobody you had a horrible experience with you can actually Warn and protect people they’ve had to create third party websites like don’t date these douchebag. Com from all these websites making their profile and say yeah there needs to be some brave souls that say I’m willing to to be scrutinized and I’m willing to have you know testimonials and I’m willing to check myself and have a Guardsman I will and I might I’ve talked to some country good goddess you know initiate or women who are so repulsed by what they’ve experienced with men that they just have almost lost faith but I have said I promise I’m going to get the funding to pay you to be the Advisory Board where you license man and they have to be inspected and they’re there were conditions have to be inspected and they needed no man should be doing this stuff alone for a lot of reasons so anyway and I’m going to definitely let you know and then we’ll have a big banquet mixer mingle we have and thank you so much this was definitely a very very fulfilling conversation about my my journey so I really appreciate this the space but thank you oh no no no thank you thank you thank you for listening to the touch of Time Podcast please go to www.drudgereport.com and cook on the Donate button to help support the show in addition to sustaining and improving the podcast your donations will help establish permaculture goddess Temple after bite ecological employment for single mothers Please Subscribe and share your favorite episodes if you have questions or comments feel free to leave a voicemail at 818-275-1593 or email event at Tantra Punk. 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