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My First Vedic Astrology Chart Reading with Arun TPP290

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In this episode I’m blessed to have my first vedic astrological chart reading by my new brother in tantra, Arun!

About Arun:

I am an Engineer professional and the founder of Successful start-up called eduladder.com

Born in Vedic astrology family Kerala. Travelled across the country and got lucky to meet and live with a lot of masters from different disciplines matha Chaithanyamai on Narayanagurukula and Sahadev.

My spiritual therapy and teachings are mostly based on Vedas and astrology this video is describing what and all you can get to know from an astrological chart and its basic ideas.

I also use Crowley tarot card.

These data can be used to reveal more about your relationship status your career choice and much more if you want a personalized reading and increase your energy based on that to live your life in the fullest then you could connect with me by both online and offline.

https://arunsyoga.in/

My Non Verbatim Show Notes:

A:

4th path of tantra, vedic astrology, energy transcendental state, shamans, herbs, help to reach particular state, without medicine or drugs can reach point

social conditioning

truth nature of human, true nature

some conditioning, social issues, not able to reach true potential

sometimes using drugs without the advice or true shaman or tantrika, drugs can push you back down, have to take again and again in order to stay here

TP: 4 paths of tantra, in order in a health y path, resonance with astrological energies, mindful, holistic, use of substances, stay sharp conditioned

A: exactly

here have natal chart, scroll down,

see

TP: 12 numbered titles,

A: all the rectangle, each on we call houses, 1st, 2nd,3rd, etc.

each house will be having 30 degree each,

center is where you stay, your soul, which got a body, stays in your body, that is ready to be expanded to the ultimate, through your body, that is the reason

while ..birth, planets positioned in particular part of the sky,

in 4th house, venus,…

5 th house sun moon jupiter

TP: if we’re taking the indicator being the location and time of birth, certain quality or state of gears, of the planets of universe, stars, a certain measurable quantifiable, state of energy is directly making a point of contact to space/time coordinates

scientific manner, if other babies born in that location, not exact point, vicinity, at the same time, we’d all have the same chart?

Scientific, a way to explain that, what is the external world, what is the process if you could put it on a flow chart, animation or something, beam of light from galaxy, unfolding from within, what’s happening, doesn’t start in womb, it’s at that moment

A: there is no possibility of the same chart for two people, not possible to birthed in same place at same time, taking, lines in globe,

TP: longitude and latitude

A: different from person to person, time moves, planet also moves, two different chart for two different people

TP: one more question, makes sense, perfectly, one question, don’t say to be a troll, trying to understand the logic and math of it,

what case would be made if twins born?

A: there will be seconds between, twins can’t come out at the same time

TP: math, fascinated by it, after studying crypto, map mathematical proofs onto nature, find confluence of where you have spirals, interesting patterns that actually scale, fractals,

also from natal chart,

15 degree more, 15 degree less, correcting, sometime human error can happen, half a day, one more chart

human error

understand everything from the links

in your chart I can see,

saturn is dominant energy

as planet, prominent planet

energy has a problem, it will make you to work very hard, look at your life, you can see, hard working scenarios, dragged into , even though you don’t want to, some kind of push, that happens, pushed into hard working scenario, happen because of saturns prominent energy

venus, is staying on the bindu, the planet, associated with sexual energy

actually helping, the way you have started, the way you are into, basically you are in transcendental state, capable to transcend sexual pleasure, into wisdom and understanding

as you start to evolve,

start to understand different dimensions of existence, able to go through dimensions

there is some scenarios, force you to do hard

TP: recap, saturn and venus, so if i understand, saturn energy has the effect of causing episodes of hard work that sort of abnormally hard work, certainly had long chapters of life, pushed to work harder than necessary, hopefully made me a better person, sexuality, transcendental quality, something transmutation, extra sexual alchemy power by nature?

A: venus is friendly planet for you,

sexuality you have, help you to transcend yourself into something better

also you could help others to transcend themselves through sexuality, in built quality

previous karmas, had on previous birth, thing which is helping you to use the sexuality to transcend yourself into a better your

immense power, use that to transcend yourself and help others to transcend themselves

karma, very young, something to do with sexuality, past karmas, nothing to be worried about,

helps you to reach higher state of spirituality

TP: compelling, that would validate the path that i’m on,

preset

astrology, in the west, the cards you’re dealt in this lifetime, born,

may be very attractive, or smart or both, or strong, everybody has different cards they get

in that sense, it’s god or its random, in astrological sense, cards you’re dealt, in this life time, chosen by karma, forces interplaying, free will, gods, demons, goddesses, factors, choosing very intelligently what cards you’re dealth

one of those cards, increased sexual alchemical potency, from karmas in past life, card dealt to me through karmas of past life

A: dharma house, 9th house,

dharma, clear in your chart

mars, staying on 7th house

what i can see, you like intellectual and creative women as partners

met a woman from 2011-2018

she can help you more deeply

TP: lovely question, no pun intended, constellation of shaktis, who i love dearly and i call myself a heart gardener, there’s never just one, maybe a little bit, ensemble cast, movie of my life, women are ensemble cast, not one lead role character

who ever’s in the best mood and being nice gets my attention

i chase some of them and some of them chase me, and i run away from some of them and some of them run away from me, nature of life

A: you met a woman, who can help you more deeply

if you contact with her again, you could talk with her, or she could help you more,

something, i feel there is some energy blockage, which i can feel from your presence over the phone, she can help you to release it completely

if you can do it also it’s fine, as you evolve in your life, jupiter comes

TP: you can sense blockage, if i find the smart lover she will be able to help me unblock my energy

A; deep something you feel, that can be released by lover, that lover you met already, time period 2011 to 2018

TP: so there’s a woman i could have met between 2011-2018, has the keys to unlock my energy

A: yes

TP: alright, cool, i have a few suitors in mind, be nice to know i can stop looking there, i have to go through my phone, hey i just got a reading are you the one

A: you can feel actually, somebody came into your mind, crowley tarot,

TP: exciting, why not, roll the dice

A: i can give you clue,

TP: big bucks no wammies

A: card came out, indolence and oppression

8 of cups, 10 of …

TP: don’t know if i should be elated or deflated

A: what i can see, sunset, and water, this is a clue

how to carry this heaviness, until 2036, organically it will go out

TP: 2036, 16 years from now, what happens then

A: this blockage will automatically dissolve

if you want to dissolve it before, you have to get that woman which you met, from 2011-2018, one of the lovers you had, and the clue is, sunset and water

TP: wow, okay, well i have some fantasies brewing in that department, i don’t want to wait 16 years, so i guess, i’m gonna explore that much more, yeah

A: you have venus, you could transcend this energy more deeply, you can do that

TP: awesome, appreciate that, very interesting, exciting

A: you have the shakti power, power of shakti, so whatever reason you put forth yourself as shakti worshiper, that reason will get dissolve, and you will become the shakti alone, feminine path, spirituality

one of the power, this is something which will happen to you, yoni worshiper, i have send you sexual posture for you, this posture can help you to connect more intimately with your lover, that is there on the link which i have sent you

TP: exciting, don’t think you get assigned a sexual position in a normal astrology reading

A: 2000 years of reading history in my ancestors, exactly the path of tantra, is a science which helps you to have the materialistic pleasure also the spiritual ecstasy of spiritual liberation, only science gives you both things

other religions, sexuality is a sin, something wrong, only can do spiritual practices if you have money

tantra helps you evolve self, a very wealthy person, as well as very mindful, spiritual evolved person, science help you reach that

this is the path of that, nothing wrong in that

picture i have shared you will give you more deep intimacy, lover would like to see you get excited

TP: that’s very beautiful,

made very good argument for what’s missing in the western culture, separate sexuality from spirituality, health, medicine, from personal development, intellectual/emotional

one of my tantra teachers, initiated by indian tantric priestess, talk about, everything has to go through all the chakras,

another teacher said, all paths go through the sexual chakra, there’s no way to bypass the second chakra, for purpose of circulating kundalini energy

if you want to go from root to crown, no detour, if you’re messed up sex chakra, distorted or blocked path to higher consciousness

other religions anti sex, detours, get lost, never find way to destination, in tantra, it’s a well defined path, greeted and welcomed through it, love to hear you talk about maybe next time, talk about the primal, shaktism of indigenous tribal south asian villagers, held tradition of goddess worship, no shame about nudity, lightness of skin, no bramin, no sanskrit, no rigid traditions, uncontaminated, indigenous, shaktism, where the energy flows naturally and was never disrupted by colonialism

can you find people now?

A: there are 2-3 communities, existing in india, one is in kerala, some tribes in north east, 2 things i got chance to live in these two places, basically what they’ve done, there will be hut , all the people live surrounding the hut, when woman wants, goes to hut, stays here, men will come and she will have sex with who ever she likes, no shame about what is happening there, don’t have that kind of consciousness, sexuality as a sin

no marriage problem

no son who don’t have father, everybody don’t know who is father

TP: shared paternity

every man feels responsible for children of village, no body considered an ophan

A: yeah exactly

existing still in india, north east, and south east part of india

TP: definitely a topic we’ll have to explore more deeply on another episode, right now, looking at rat yoni position, wildest position i’ve ever seen, gonna have to be practicing some serious…

made a joke, people think i’m a little bit too..people who are ascetic and pious about asexual yoga, i mock them

seems like yoga, stretching, flexibility, so you can be still, meditate longer periods without aches,

i imagine, i would want to have all this flexibility and strength, postures so i could have more fulfilling love making sessions, be in love making positions for longer,

sexual yoga, control ejaculation, not be unconscious about that, maintain erection, control ejaculation, strong, stable in positions, graduate in level of adulthood, sexual mastery, i’m seeing here

can’t wait for the world to see

now foregone conclusion, this position will have to be in tantric porn videos

you’re now a coproducer, in your chart to be a porn director?

A: thing is like people can have more deep intimacy through sex, its the other way around, dogma, sex is really fun actually

TP: playtime for adults, can you speak to , what’s your analysis of why and how the forces against freedom of sexuality, what is there logic

A: sexuality may connect you with somebody else which may not be welcomed into the family, wealth

TP: that’s very astute, exactly what i believe also, male patriarch control transmission of wealth, control sexuality of daughters, they would make illegitimate heirs, political between families, arranged marriages

A: exactly

TP: in your words, love to hear you describe what is going on in this rat yoni position, i thought i had a wild sexual imagination, i was underestimating the potential, can you describe the position

A: man is laying, holding the woman upside down, his tongue is on the vagina, of the woman, same time, woman is on the mans cock

this is kind of very deep intimate play, where you could have really deep exchange of energy, for this, both of you has to be a yogi, otherwise you’ll fall

TP: yeah, i want to describe in my words

most auspicious number is 69

so basically for those who can imagine, i have made very explicit xxx hardcore tantric porn about 10 years ago, first professional production, still well kept secret, doubt anybody will find that, in that we did various, some 69 action, what typically happens, the male is laying on back, female on top of him, they’re head and feet are inverted towards each other, achieve access mutually to engage in oral pleasure, seeing in this yogic, adaptation is that the male is sitting upright with an erect spine, legs out in front, its like you’re taking the normal 69, on the dial of a clock, that would be, basically if you were laying flat together, male suddenly sat up, 180 degrees laying flat in 69, then male partner sits up to 90 degree angle, woman is lifted up into the air, looks like head stand

what is yoga posture, woman by herself, inverted posture, legs spread freely, wow

A: don’t remember that name from that particular yoga, this don’t have a name actually, this is basically, each yoni is a representation of one animal, elephant, horse, mongoose, monkey, each yoni has one sexual posture, something which helps them to connect more deeply and intimately

you can perform this position, perform womans other position

this would be two positions will be there when sexual act happens,

TP: i don’t want to dwell on this, we can move on, definitely feel like, what you’re opening up, a lot of things i’m unaware of, notion that your sexual organs have deep personality, and preferences, better alignment with other people, match making, compatibility, like dating, tastes, eat, music, movies, if you understand scripts and patterns for sexual energy, the personality of your second chakra, how could avoid, getting to know that, if this helps you to understand that, very interesting

A: intimacy will take you more deeply, actually reach the core with sexuality, match making very important, taste in sexuality, partner some other taste, no fun

4 important planets: venus, mercury, saturn, mars

venus associated with sexuality, saturn with hard things in your life, capability to transcend sexuality to wisdom, important things which will guide your life, reduce the bad effect of the saturn,

yoga, kriya, see particular yoga posture, done, practice kriya, automatically eliminate bad effect of saturn from you, can help you decrease the hardships, being given to you by existence

TP: exercise i can do to optimize and to correct these issues, resolve with certain postures, mudras,

A: yeah like mudras, you can follow, to reposition all these energies into proper places, saturn energy, what is happening, whatever comes out of life, thought process, pushes, that will become like something else after some time

this is how life will evolve, if you can control that thought in the way you want, hardship, your life can be reduce, some postures will help you to remove those problems, you can see in my video, youtube channel,

if your practice well, reorder energies residing in you, sharper life, sharp sexual ejaculation, go really deep as well

posture which have shared with rat yoni, something a normal personal can’t perform, have to be a kind of yogi in order to perform those postures, evolve you as a being like that

TP: training and practice

A: everything require training and practice otherwise 5 or 10 minute job

TP: 5 pump chump

A: that kind of sex actually elevate energy, higher state, higher state is natural state of human beings, because of other things we came down to be, nothing like higher state, organic state of human being

TP: this is a lot to make one very good, in depth podcast episode, we’ll consider this to be one very good overview

got me as a client, excited to share this, second indian man vedic astrologer who has piqued my interested in why it’s not enough just to go to yoga studio with mat, pants, fitness routines, more deep interlocking gears of spiritual technology, machine, machine, clockwork, soul, mind, karmas, all interconnected, holistic, more holistic than being presented in the west, all mysticism beyond the yoga studio experience

i’ve been yoga classes where all they do is tell you how to move your body and breathe, then been in classes where they optimize your as radio transciever for signals from all over the cosmos, fine tune yourself

like a radio handset, all devices have programming that you have understand, or you can’t interoperate, what if you bought an internet connected device, no manual, couldn’t get it to turn on or connect

preconfiguration, customize, settings of your own device, powered by electricity, connected to signaling networks, to far reaches of universe,but not configured, yogis/tantrics developed training technology to understand, configure, connect to divine, planets, connect more deeply, with a lover, or family, or community, or farm animals, plants in garden, cycles of nature, a built in infinite capacity to optimize dynamics, you just are not gonna encounter that in the west, even by going to a yoga class

one other indian astrologer, who left an impression on me, explaining to me, possible, devadasi, consort, astrologically born, preconfigured to have voracious appetite for pleasure, be happy, not sex slave, almost volunteering to do craft she was born to do, very interesting precedent, astrologically proven to be born, happy fulfilled, dharma, exalted sex worker, i could imagine there being legal protections, if my dharma astrologically is to be a sexual worker, it’s my dharmic civil rights, astral human rights

A: everybody is different, each one is different, only thing i feel is morality, whatever you do for your happiness should not be disturbed another, violating somebody else, that is something immoral, doing whatever you want to do for your own happiness that is good, that will not disturb anybody

astrology is like blueprint, these are teh energies working on you, make stronger, very indepth life, tantra is all about, everybody has to live life deeply and intensively, get something out of life, other wise life looks very blank

A: this is like therapy, if somebody wants to get involved in intensity of life, through tantric practices, astrology is gateway, the opening, truly get connected deeply, could drop me email, i can work on chart, almost 3 hours to derive all datas from chart, take another 2-3 hours to explain everything to somebody

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This video features Maya Rati as the shakti who receives the devotional worship and puja intended to seek the boons of Goddess Kali to bless my hands to heal the victims of abuse

Listen to the track “Bless My Hands” on Spotify

Song Lyrics:

To find the brightest light
You must enter the sacred darkness
To ascend
You must descend

Kalika will you bless my hands
To heal abuse victims
In your name I must give not take
With your love I shall liberate

Liberate our souls
Our truth will be told
Liberate our souls
Our truth will be told

I grant you power
I grant you grace
I grant you protection
I grant you love

O destructress of the sins of the three worlds, auspicious Kalika, they who recite Thy mantra possess the powers of the Three-Eyed One in the palm of their hands

I’m so ready to embody you
My beloved Kali
Come, oh won’t you come
I bow down to thee
My beloved Kali

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Alien Lover Goddess: Behind the Track Commentary TPP273

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In this episode I share the backstory of the soon to be released track Alien Lover Goddess

My Non Verbatim Show Notes:

This new thing, which is a track that I produced, that I am madly in love with, and I’m gonna give the back story now, the dual serpenting, kundalini timelines of creativity and magic in a time of chaos

going back to late december I get a text from one of my dearest beloved brothers of punk, metal, and psytrance

been in the trenches in metal and punk, the real trenches of madness and violence and alcohol abuse, bad, crazy madness, chaos, we survived that in those trenches together in band, then reunited on the dance floors of psytrance

both of us discovering that this medicine of a music is so healing for us, a lot of refugees from punk and metal, transcended and ascended from the mosh pit to the stomping of the psytrance experience

magical bond with those who have the background, went through 80s and 90s era punk and metal debauchery, not spiritual, political but disembodied

shamanic trance, sonic driving, how beautiful the transformation, bromance, with dear beloved brother in musical combat

he one day sent a text, want to produce a track for compilation of california psytrance producers, fuck yeah

unprofessional, amateur attempts at making beats and tracking, mentor, nuno cabral of ninesense and manipulation, a cofounder, angel investor of spiritual capital into tantra punk

back bone, co producer, his efforts along with calvin from photon AD, those two men…if tantra punk is the feminine shakti, they were the shiva that brought form,

all in the romance of myself and sufiana, build sonic temple for the vibrations of her sanksrit singing and bollywood dancing,the beauty and magic

tantra punk has been not without this musical romance, musical adventure story of the worship of the goddess sufiana, goddess in the flesh

I want to be careful not to over deify, or devi-fy, but what is a horny geek boy to do with what’s ever left of my horny geek boy hanging on to the last vestiges of that youthful enchantment with the female mystique, before it’s more and more of a struggle to maintain testosterone, and feel the newness of new relationship energy, excitement and love, and romance, to not take it for granted, to not take women for granted, to feel in love all the time

psytrance is a huge part of sustaining that love, that bass, powerful way to keep romantic love alive, story of me and sufiana

the story of tantra punk, the woman the myth the legend, and the man who humbly worships that woman, that is the story of sufiana and tantra punk, it’s laced in the sexorcism the tantric opera documentary series

all in devotion not just her, but the teachings and the wisdom of the ancient shaktism path of tantra that she exudes and represents and brings into modern times with a beautiful voice and humanness, human frailty, imperfections

all that said I was ask to make a track, and building upon the successes of and failures of 3 albums, after 3 albums of proto, like garage days type albums, hope I can say garage days are over-ish, hopefully have matured in still very early stages of being a wanna be psytrance producers, aspirant, with help with real wizards of this tech

I did make a track for this compilations, in the words of osho, wildly possessed

my holidays were spent in a beautiful sacred place

I broke a taboo, my toes were touching a beautiful kali painting that a friend made while listening to one of my podcasts, I was giving deep report on my union with the goddess kali, while listening she painted the most exquisite wild orgasmic depiction of Kali ever and that’s saying a lot if you know what I’m talking about

she made this piece sent it to me for safe keeping, had it as the center piece of whatever environment I’ve been in ever since

I’ve been told you’re not supposed to even point your feet at the goddess altar, but I accidentally broke that taboo and noticed it and thought whoa, this could be very assuming and potentially narcissistic to say, but we all want to be loved on the by the goddess when we discover her and chant to and invoke and sing the praise and hymns to her,

the most endearing moment, at a beautiful kali temple, one of the most charming devotees, I had to discipline myself not to fawn over, was saying good bye to everybody and leaving after the puja, having just a slight bit of technical difficulties with the mechanism of the door, she said something so beautifully, “i believe that ma does not want me to leave yet”

I’m like oh my fuckin god you, I know the feeling where you just want to have this pronoiac, conspiracy theory where she’s there with you at all times, thick and thin, good and evil,

you could say the same thing about christers, jesus freaks, everything is the wrath or the blessing or whatever,

its sweet and charming and endearing for me as mostly a skeptic, and having been secular most of my life to be like okay, I love that feeling of like, yeah maybe there is goddess watching over us from a distance, goddess in us, invited to possess us, and what sufiana brings which is the genuine article, I can only be like Indiana Jones marveling at the work of art, revelations, or shit

in the words of a great black magician, the ah ha quickly becomes the oh shit

under estimated the truth of these ancient wisdom traditions

we have those types of experiences all the time

priceless moments

so I admit that I maybe over extrapolating my union and connectedness when I say I’m starting to dig into producing this track

channeled felt the flowing through, have felt like a ouija board effect, what is moving my hand, cadence of notes something I’ve never heard before, but later find a chant online, they’re singing the notes and cadence of notes of what I was possessed to produce on the fl studio platform, melody beats, been there, I am opening up , I am a devotee, this is my sonic goddess temple

the experience of being, opening up allowing this to happen, feeling being animated, sort of like the calypso in beetle juice, not scary, fun, bizarre, anchor into that moment, the dinner party, possessed, making beats for the goddess and loving it,

intoxicating otherworldly melody, notice oh shit my toe is touching this painting

benevolent version of ghost busters 2, art is magic, painting she produced will be unveiled at some point, sacred and private to me

for whatever it’s worth maybe maybe not, it was exquisite to feel I’m here by the cemetery, auspicious time of year, heart energy into his track day after day after day, artist zone, tuning everything else out, kind of a loner, solitary sovereign person, didn’t feel deprived of human connection, happy to go deep with track go deep with goddess, attempting to create this cartography of the beautiful flesh of the goddess, her heart of hearts, her layers of beauty, density, wisdom, ability to elucidate and shed light on demon nests in chakras and soul, simultaneously overtake them, consume them dissolve them, emboss herself out into these beautiful blackberry feminine alien insectoid black widow, dragon fly, queen bee architectures of aliennes and beauty, and that is what my attempt with a number of my kali puja on psytrance tracks have been an attempt to do, enjoying cannabis in the process

fun part of psychedelic trance when you’re not on the psychedelics when you’re producing it, you’re almost like painting in the dark because you kind of know okay I want this to harmonize with this and I want this to collide with this and create an emergent property of

vibrations and sound and percussions , don’t know exactly how all

you’re building that ride, can only imagine from futile state, designing sonically in a soberish state, with the thrill and excitement of what magnificent mystery is gonna unfold when you can enjoy it and go for a ride

after you do some solo beta testing, refine revise, how you need to garden and design, adapt and refine it through iteration

timeline, not too much of a deadline, let it flow natural phases bass tracks, melodies

calvin, his method of producing a track, the heart of the track a million things layered on top of each other, the most dense experience, you’ve been entraining to trance loops, the kundalini starts to move through ear drums, you’re buckling up into this astral vessel, getting acclimatized tot he sound of the thrusters, the rudders, however you want to think of it, percussions, lower frequencies, then you’re moving, then the melodies is whats coming through your field while you’re going into hyper drive, through worm wholes, through vortices, designing a theme park ride of inner journeying, outer worlds, inner worlds

heart of track, not always, advice I took to hear,t at least know where to start, you could, just have melody come to me, humm it record it, then map it out on to melody, keep dressing it up, to where all layers are happening, continue to add a few, most intense points, most intense passages, build all that up, then it’s a graduated experience, drops, build ups, lazers, effects, you strip them down, then you’re basically doing, when you’re making love, as per my how to love like a god training course, theirs a beauty in teasing a vagina with your penis, varying the strokes, speed, thrusting patterns, phasing in and out, of more and less stimulation

peak of psytrance experience, I’m making out , both of my nipples are being sucked, being enveloped/penetrating, something’s tickling or penetrating other parts of me, and I’m getting a foot massage, and I’m under a water full, orgasmically, creating this massive big bang ultimate experience, approaching those vistas, high points of these mountain tops, peaks of the psytrance experience if you just throw that in someones face, it doesn’t work the same

that’s the whole dance,,the foreplay, in a track the intro is the foreplay, and outro is the after glow, the climax is somewhere and there may be multiple

having those heart thumping eargasmic experiences, I strive to achieve that with better form, structure, sound engineering, mechanics, this track at this point is the crown jewel of my productions

maybe it will be the last I’ll ever do because I get wiped out with corona, or the internet gets wiped out because of collapse, whatever the case may be as of last night I’m reassured that my union with the spirit of the dark goddess through the process of creating the track, through the beta testing on myself, also testing with dmt, chanting the mantra of the track through the dmt samples, the simulator, the flight test, can I break through event horizon, terminal velocity, get into orbit, if I can hold on with this track through the turbulence, breaking through, mantra protects me as I get into the orbit, habit of flight testing tracks, so many subtleties, things out of tune, out of phase, still learning, things out of whack, mixing, the deepest bows ever to nuno, this time I went ahead and paid extra, still gave a sweet deal, please is surrender, I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing, just the thesis, the concept, I gave him the stems so that he could mix them in his own way, did some real fuckin wizardry to save my ass and make this digestible to the ears to engineering specifications that I could only ever dream about understanding, the best thing I’ve ever done

I do want to say, my goal my aspiration is to be like I could play my favorite psytrance producers tracks in a playlist with one of my tracks and have it not be a real fuckin disappointment

doesn’t have to shine any more than that

5 years of feeble attempts moving at least on the right direction

its gotta be a monster,

my intention, a beautiful divine feminine monstress

we deliberated about whether or not the chanting in my other tracks, there’s people who might absolutely love this experimental project of vocal psytrance, some people hate, continuum, sweet spot we agreed on, I’m maybe done doing vocal psytrance using the english language, I don’t want to denigrate previous works

in order for me to have any real acknowledgement or hope to be spun by djs on dance floors, it can’t be a sing along pop duet, rarely you see that fly

trance people aren’t into weirdness of psytrance, dark psy

most positive sense, tantra punk music is ahead of its time, in a cynical sense, dear brother said, I love you dude but it’s too much to ask for people to vibe with this, yeah you’re right, I enjoy its for myself, why don’t you do real psytrance, skip the vocals, release instrumental tracks

all tracks were stories to tell

now I can produce instrumental psytrance or just try

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asked to produce something, accountable to design of a producer,

work with those design constraints

sweet spot that was agreed upon

get away with thrive, I want to produce tracks where I’m integrating mantras because I feel and experience the power of what mantras do to purify the mind, heal, magical powers, invoke goddess, cultivate mastery of love, choose your own adventure, design your trip, more of lucid dreaming experience of psychedelics with mantra

terrence mckenna gets into that, books on hidden psychedelic history of yoga

modernization of these ancient harmonics

exquisite vocalist, prolific bollywood film soundtrack singer, look at her discography, beyond profound

almost infinite, goes to show how much love and devotion there is to these traditions

I’m chanting one of her mantras every day, spiritual practice wake up spend 15-30 minutes with her production of a vedic mantra, fierce form of shiva, effect of please heal me, liberate me, pluck me like a melon from a vine, how permaculture can you get

with fierceness of the 3 eyed one, fierce form of shiva, and there’s deep story and mythology behind it, I’m just a rocker, a hesher, metal head, loves metallica, loves slayer, wore patches, went to shows, worshiped the albums

journey as musician, feel into amazing exquisite intoxicating dark riffs

sacred geometrical sonic forms, ancient mantras sung by priestesses, this is a deep death metal groove, melody that I was shredding on in basements as a teenager with my bc rich warlock, spider looking, kali looking guitar, shredding on these dark enchanting melodies in c#, though not in 432, next best thing, jamming om frequency death metal, now tuned to be dead on

transcendental death metal love, death, cynic, disincarnate, arch enemy, in flames, evolution fo crude trash death to transcendent death metal so deep in my heart, these are my roots

played track for my homie, listen to the harmonies, these are death metal harmonies, death metal channeled from these places

tantric mysticism, homage to the hell realms, you can’t fight your demons without going to where they live, visiting with them ,hanging out, partying and dancing, giving love and nectar of the goddess, bring the goddess to your demons, for them to be transformed and evolved and for them to be released

visions, what if demons, as miserable as you are, doing the drudgery, do they really i want to be imprisoned in your chakras, making hell for you, we think that’s what they want, the hierarchies of the demonic realm, a lot of the ones, larval pests being farmed, maybe enslaved by more insidious masters of them as puppets, sad but true metallica demonology, all the death metal album covers, alien giger, landscapes of living hell, very tantric, described in tantric scriptures and hymns and chants to goddesses, seek goddess, beauty in darkness, reason to apply yourself to inner heal realms, explore, bring shakti love to them

this track, sometimes I ask myself, I could wake up in the morning and say is it possible to love the goddess too much ever, today will I be excessively exerting myself beyond reasonable limits, to try to seduce, impress divine goddess energies, forms of goddess I’m so enamored by, is it possible to over love somebody, not in possessive way, manipulative, controlling, jealous, a way of true giving a good way to approach life

love embedded in this track, is it her love is it my love is it our love is it divine cosmic love, is it a love that invites and creates seats at a table of a feast of divine loving energy

allowing demons into the ceremony, been a practice for me and transformation for me,

ask demons wearing the masks of my traumatic memories, to put down their masks, observe order of ceremony, take seats in amphitheater of goddess worship so that we can all be blessed, transformed, divined by her presence, chant together in this invocation, form an alliance, discover that we want the same thing

we don’t want ben to suffer, we don’t want to live in ben’s traumatic history forever, we’re bored with that, that’s an old story, we want to collaborate to be in a state of grace and meditation

kali mandir, where else do you want the demons to be, out there wreaking havoc like loose rabid dogs, maybe not be lap dogs, be gargoyles, train them, we feed you but you obey us

opportunity and challenge of this realm, massive infestation fo demonic entities, will borrow in, take possession, do harm, don’t know another way, same you could say about slums, given no other alternatives/opportunities you have criminality, decline in compassion, increase in uncompassionate self serving, I can see the faces of the rapists and molesters that attacked me throughout my life, there was a quality of love they were deprived of and they went septic inside, but my goal and hope is that by feeling into the healing energy of the goddess, nectar of healing love and abundance can be rained down upon all of these beings

so the first mushroom trip with this track, hell froze over, exquisite journey and experience to see this frost, entered this realm with the track

psy salon, listening to someone talk about their trip is about as interesting as listening to some talk about there dreams, you do you, but place for trip reports

build theme park, build ride, don’t know how its gonna feel what needs to be tweaked, don’t have all the lights wired up, don’t know what its gonna look like, test with magic mushrooms, use mantras to invite deity of devotion into the ceremony, that’s when the all the lazer light show, astral 3rd eye lazer light show, other worldly realms

getting first nintendo game tantra, snow field realm, insectoid alien larval multiheaded monster realm, gargoyle, monstrosity, infinite, kaledescopic, growing, the way you look at a mold, infinite interwoven textures, matt of black old, millions of snarling gargoyle heads bat faces, in your face, growing, expontentially increasing in number and size, getting in your face, trying to gross you out, being obnoxious

goddess comes down, removes them, dissolves them, some of the mantras, seeing with mushrooms, potential for these wild evil beasts to become tamed, disciplined, in formation, a mercenary army retrained, re organized, incentivized, not to work for demon lords, but to work for humbling power of the goddess in trade for her love

that’s a take on militarism that is the warrior goddess mystique of tantric shaktism par excellence, that is the chandi, whatever you think about time and culture boundness, martiality, divine feminine goddess, reformed demons, counter intelligence to get evil demon armies to not work for gold, booty, rape and pillages that the kings of the demonic realm would give them, she offers a better form of payment, which is the intoxicating love of her shakti, it’s a fucking beautiful sexual erotic love that you don’t get from the bible, too sex phobic, homophobic, eroto phobic, no offense intended to people on that path, pray hard, have a sexual relationship with jesus christ, if you’re mature, an erotic being, haven’t sexualized your spiritual practice told not appropriate, taboo, out of the box thinking that you can do

experience of having gone to these places, first experience, hell freezing over, I’m in this normally really nasty place of my inner demonic realm, over grown from all the punctures of my astral body, rape and abuse of childhood and teens, being breached and over grown, festering, snarling, frothing, beastial, then this track as soon as it comes on, this frost, ice age comes over the hell realm, I see all these demons shivering cold, frozen, start to feel affection, maybe you didn’t mean to do all that harm, didn’t know what to do with yourself, or maybe enslaved, against your better nature, yearning to evolve into a divine nature, transmute and alchemize from larval demon to butterfly angel, transformation comes form shakti nectar, tantric scriptures

you’re welcome here, put down your masks, be your true self reveal yourself as you truly are, we will honor the beauty of your form, the texture of your face, the ferocity, oh wow how many teeth do you have in there, even if they appear deformed, sit back and watch you zoom in around my 3rd eye I see the sacred geometry of the hell realms, I bow down and say that is your domain, how about if I honor you as a work of art of creation that you are, you stop tormenting me, and we dance together come out and show me your dance, dance for the goddess we want the same thing, we want to be saved feel the salvation of the goddess, we want the same thing, more I talk dirty to these foul creatures, the more liberated they become, and so I’m freeing the demonic slaves trapped within my sold, watching them break free like rats escaping a sinking ship, they want freedom to, do you want to be consumed by the goddess, be loved, be transformed, who the fuck am I, young middle age man, coming from the cutlure of wayne’s world, what do I know about any of this stuff, that the ancients studied and marveled over for millennia, I’m just this american dude on a bogus journey, excellent adventures, I don’t know how it all works

provision interpretation, the demonic realm wants to be a invited to a party

kali mandir, welcome them into the ceremony, quarantine them, you can be here, you will be fed by the goddesses love, if you want to sacrifice yourself to be consumed by her, you’re welcome to do that, be in observance to the structure of the ceremony, don’t be biting peoples heads off, keep your nastiness in check, come and do the yoga and meditation prostration, mudras, everyone is ever more blessed

its an armistice, what needs to happen between all the warring religions and cultures

watching star trek, undiscovered country, way they depict the klingons, that fanged, sharped edged, the classic dante’s inferno esque aesthetic of warrior, people who I know have called out potential underlying racist tones around some of star trek species if you will, shelve that for this moment for this art history of sci fi, acknowledge that, not the biggest trekkie, when I was watching that, the work they did with lights and shadows, even conan the barbarian, war lord, temples of toxic masculine, evil violent, warlike, armored, that whole barbarian mystique, aesthetic, there is beauty to it, art form to it, look at all the creatures in nature that have defensive anatomical structures, is that evil, scorpions, bees, is that evil or just survival, adaptation, evolution, ecology

appreciate the beauty of parasites as freakish as they can feel , as threatening as they may be, be in balance with them, indigenous cultures have struck a balance, most resilient, have worms in them, genetic coevolved balance with dark evil creepy crawly, taking that into psychedelic journey, tantric mantras, warrior goddess tradition, a matter of a dance with war, not a genocide, not a massacre, not a kinetic warfare of bombs, bullets, fires, all of that decimating death, colonization, but a dance

primitive warfare, stages of ritualized symbolic warfare, put on beautiful battle regalia, steeped in shamanic mystique, all symbolic, like historic reenactments

looks like combat but not killing each other

sweet spot, that was in ishmael, and movie instinct, zooms into those boundary assertions of tribes doing symbolic warfare, applying that anthropoogy to these trips

can we dance rather than being ripping each other apart limb from limb and chewing each others heads off, and infecting each other with poison, a lot of animals that are predators, they would rather flee, choose their battles, mortal combat is a last resort, I eat you or you eat me, not a lot of frivolous energy wasted in violent combat in nature, food chainy

back to first trip, hell freezing over, frost coming over being,s I see you out there freezing, in this frosted over hell realm,

almost like say you were at war with another nation, natural disaster, all the sudden become refugees, look at them, what were we fighting over, you’re so vulnerable, so in need of the shelter we can provide because we were hit by calamity, light and dark, inner battle field

another memoir from the astral battle field

if I can put this cryogenic spell on these nasty gnarly demons so they can be chilled so I can invite them, now you are in a state where you’re willing to negotiate, I’m not just cowering and letting you destroy me and devour me, superior adjudicating power of the goddess invoked through this track all here hanging out, now can welcome your ceremony can really begin, come up one by one come up drop mask like getting a hug from Ama, getting loved on by erotic goddess who has been traditionally named Kali, a bring a bit of my own anthro informed politically spiritually correct informed spin on things

it struck me that there are people who are going to question me, hate me doubt me, want to troll me, because I’m a white man in romance with hindu tantric goddess kali, I have done the work to prove that you can be a cultural appropriator, not a cultural mis-appropriator, paid the devotional dues to be able to parade and prance around proudly to wear the kali yantra on my neck, have it on my logo, benefit corporation of giving back and being in service in her name, continue process of navigating, enjoy, struggle, suffer in pursuit of acknowlegement and success, appreciation for my story, if I can help people, be of service, great, earned the right ot use her name, those who are very possessive of her, and want to tell me the correct version of her story, what she is and what she is, how I’m permitted or not permitted to interact with her, or talk about her, or be in love with her, or kiss and tell about her

I’ve been scolded cursed, endorsed encouraged for my use of the word goddess kali in my works, she’s central to it, the heart of tantra that I know, what else can I do but get up in the morning and say is it possible to over love, her the women, and men and all the demons who want to be in that energy field of her as an invoked deity

haters of that, is it possible to not hide her, not through any form of trickery

considering this time of great peril, spiritual correctness, cultural appropriation,misappropriation, take an approach of wayne’s world, bill and ted, unassuming, the less pias that I am about this and the more, whoa radical dude, did you see the goddess, she was fuckin hot, what a babe, I’m a just a bro dude or whatever, rather just be that, or I’m the most evil twisted insidious, mansplaining, entitled, toxic masculine douche bag ever, can I just start there, and there’s only one direction to go from there, I’m a gonna claim that, that’s me, can’t do much more harm than that

if I say oh I’m the saint, I’m the priest, I’m the shaman, I’m the chosen one the blessed, bestower of wisdom, shit doesn’t stink, guru,

tantric training, supposed mythical elder of the lineage, legendary dude, he was the mystic guru who did not luxuriate in the hero worship, was opposite, deliberated left fish guts hanging in his beard, to turn people off at his hideousness so they would not bother him, could just enjoy blissful samadhi meditation state, free of shackles of other peoples hounding attention, attitude, there’s always gonna be more grace in the humility of hermitage, build your temple on the highest most hard to access cliff, mountain, so that only the most devoted will distract you from your studies and meditation, practice of divine loving making with, don’t want to say dakini consort, because of the gender politics I’ve discovered, but saying your beloved

if I go around as I have, what are the limits of me representing kali, a lot of share holders have stake in the corporation of the zeitgiest of the archetype the mythology, everybody fights vover the direction everybody wants to be the CEO of Kali, ceo of the worship of kali, want their brand, lineage to be supreme and reign above all others, less violent subsects of hinduism than other religions, but same fight, she’s mine no she’s mine, this is how she is dressed, this is what that scripture meant, academic to non academic struggle, then me in the mix, I’m just a bro dude, wayne and garth

at a certain point some of us in the anarchist movement started to favor words like autonomy

same way government doesn’t want to invoke the magical powers of the word crypto, because it sounds cryptic and criminal and surreptitious ninja, you can feel the tone when only government agencies white wash and euphemize ther term crypto currency by calling it virtual currency, easier to embrace, far less threatening, don’t look at the crypto math, crypto wars are still raging, we don’t want you to know when we have back doors, powers that be, powers that be, super threatened by crypto, popular implementation fo strong public key cryptography applications, aka bitcoin, aka everything else that has been a tool of empowerment and sovereign, financial technology, file storage

fear of crypto is why you hear governments saying virtual currency

appropriate spin doctoring, good euphemisms, and evil euphemisms, staters gonna state, non staters are gonna have to adapt ot that fact of life

anarchist movement, certain point, that word has been so trashed so abused so misused, can’t get over the stigma, too strong, energy required to try to restore a state of grandeur, was a state back in early 20th century, anarchism was household name thanks to labor movement, huge percentages of the working class, meant a lot to have a movement of anarcho syndicalists

anarchism as a word, anarchy, phases but ultimately demonized, the shadow of lawlessness chaos disorder

temporary autonomous zones, autonomy, expresses self governance, autonomy is proactive, anarchy is negative,

when hyper intellectual, anarchist intelligensia, writer, speaker, collective member, semi prominent for a time in global anarchist movement as a thinker, wouldn’t say thought leader, tiny little moment of my life where it meant everything to me, clawing my way through the establishment to install my brand, height of college years, toxic male ego, mansplaining, terrible I was so bad, but had a bit of charm, people handed me the mic, assignments to write, had a bit of a niche, come from those trenches of discourse, forced to contemplate things like, do we rebrand anarchy to autonomy, lot of places it felt like that was the way to go

in perfect world you wouldn’t have to water down or white wash the intensity of a word that you love that represents something fiery and passionate, to tame that, socially acceptable, new word, loses some fire and passion but could be appropriate strategy, without being too much of evangelist, to on board, rather than convert, at least invite people, not hiding/tricking, duped into letting defenses down to be seduced into an anarchist cult which did happen, on guard against that as well

applying this all to the goddess kali a lot of titles, people believe that they hold the deed to the canonical origin stories of appropriate dress, sexuality, taming the goddess, domesticating the goddess, discourse of feminist tantrikas, the goddess was captured and trafficked into the bramanical priest cults of orthodox hinduism, made into royal figure, fitted with modern, ancient now, modern then taking ancient primordial, 10s of 1000s of years old, tribal deity, dragging her out of her wild ferocious naked sexually voracious state of nature, forcing her to be a devadasi in these king built empire temples where she becomes a museum artifact, told to shut up and stop being as wild and free as she is, cultural engineering, social engineering, spiritual engineering to tame the goddess and make her into this demure, over clothed docile mother, take away her sexual potency, irrepressible sexual potency that was etched into the deepest tantric scriptures, etched into iconographic, burning coal that could never been fully grabbed and control, that’s the beauty to me of what persists of her wildest, not fundamentalist, student of anthro of most primordial, premodern, jungle based, pagan shamanistic roots of goddess kali, connecting with deep nature, deep astral nature of this foce, deity, presents herself to me, whether you like it, or are repulsed by the sexual nature,

unless something or someone stops me, or if she abandons me, I’ll probably shut up because I’ll know I pissed her off

while she continues to bless me with her beautiful presence in the ceremonies I design in honor of her, go to temples where people are worshiping her in her fullness, and she blesses me I will continue to feel like my compass is pointed in the right direction, on the right path, she is my north star, if that disappears I know I must change something

one foot over the next

not going to say that she guided me to make this semantic manuver

you want to impose an authoritarian dogma of what I can or can’t say or disclose or express about my experience with this deity there are people who would like to kill me, cut my tongue out, sew my mouth shut, I go to the extreme telling my truth about my experiences, cats out of the bag, jenies out of the bottle, can’t undo that, live with that, hopefully remain graceful enough so I don’t undermine or discredit myself in a major way that can’t be forgiven

it’s not for the people who are already haters, I’ve done this manuver, it came to me, what is a classification of the goddess that does not bind her to time space and cultural biases, in a more benign sense, styles and preferences, principle over preference is one way to think of it, other people another time another place, had their own pathways of discovery of her as a phenomenon, goddess is relative to god, word games, semantics, very tricky, what’s the most generalized, non denomination, not dogmatic free from all culture boundedness to describe what I was experiencing, as if I never knew that kali existed, she appeared to me before I knew what to call her, that’s what you’re seeing, oh that’s that, chicken and egg

what if all historical references to describing this force of nature that can be accessed through various means, what if there was no name, and I had to come up with not a name, a classification a taxonomy, a plant has a latin name that describes something about what it is, describes what its related to, how its structured, there’s an elmetn of what its most closely related to, how it’s differentiated from other similar related plants, edible quality, the most distinguishing characteristic that’s encoded to the latin, not a cutesy name like we have common names

plants with so many different folkloric names who’s gonna fight over which is most popular at a given time,m power struggle, tug of war, which of names of a plant are gonna be in vogue, very fleeting,

felt an inkling to say, if kali is just the common name what would be the scientific, more taxonomy based latin type name that when you hear it and when you read it and use it, you’re actually descriptive more than it is a sort of term of endearment or a way to just reference somebody, what if instead of frank, more like a native american name, relative to clan, now names, smith, chandler, shoemaker, there were names that had partial significance and meaning relative to your clan, family, lineage, descriptive of what trade you were in, what is the macro nature of this deity I’m experiencing, how can I put into some words

I love this track, I can’t say which artist produced it, graham handcock, alan watts, one of those epic voices sampled in psytrance, one of the most epic moments, there are many and we all know in the movement the most exquisite ones that we connect with , track where sampled english vocal phrase is the world “alien god” the way it’s built up, the craftspersonship of how it’s installed at that moment, fucking awesome and when I think about that world alien god, immediately removes the all the bullshit baggage that I get when I think about jehovah all the horrible deeds done in the name of jesus, I think of god, least interesting, most tired stale, unenchanting word, goddess for me is a sexier sounding word, I love women, I’m most hetero, I love that goddesses can be adored for their sexual aspect, disdain I feel, as a punk, no gods no masters, still repulsed by word god, rarely say it, if that’s your thing live it up, more power to you, but when I hear goddess I instantly for get about the negative feelings of god, beautify, gorgeous, enchanting, as a molecule of sound, frequencies and syllables, resolves that conflict in me, soothed by it, dissolves negativity

alien god, that’s interesting that’s cool, qualitative, shift opens up to be more than one, more far out, anybody could say there was a time before monotheism, very mundane, many pantheons swapping god goddesses, sprites, angels, demons, height of greco roman domain, all religions allowed to persist so long as there was some altar devoted to the deities fo the roman state, tolerance

hyper centralization around monotheistic concept of god, unheard of, violently resisted and faught against, don’t want to pick a side in that battle of the first few hundred years of the christ movement

but alien god, that’s cool, being with wherewithal beyond mind, father is god to child, as gods of sky that we believe are creators, cocreators with divine consort, mrs god, duality form, shiva shakti, it’s a like a fractal ratio of wherewithal, insights, omnipresence, more compelling to think there’s an ecology of empowered being with different, like animals different eyes, hearing, everyone is a god of their domain, dogs are the gods of smell, humans really arent’ the god of that much, hopefully compassion at our best, kind of rounded off, no defensive tools, not fastest, not strongest, mediocre, averaged out relative to goddess of gifts bestowed upon almost every other animal

relative to humans, it’s not hard to be a god among humans

funny thought experiment, union article from years and years ago, science proves that human infants less intelligent than slugs, slugs have consciousness to be completely masterful within their environment, funny intuitive, pulp comedy thing, of pulp humor, but its just interesting to think about, hierarchy, layering of goddness, and goddessness, the gendering of higher dimensional entities, the word alien we all have a romance with that world, a real fetish for it, whether an abductee, whole life wrapped around the true belief that whatever happened happened, the mystique of alien, the word, sci fi, sector of human consciousness, world is magical and alluring, terrence mckenna alien love, we all yearn for that, seeking, humanity wants to connect with this higher dimensional, thing, distraught with existential crisis, artisans of sci fi, had their way with the dance of that world

alien love, alien god, psychedelic journey otherworldly places, dimensions, exciting, stuff of enigmatic, explorations of a more adventurous psyche, the pursuit of alien is like the fountain of youth, endless curiosity, hopefully doesn’t result in becoming super neurotic shut in conspiracy theorist or cult that kills themselves, extreme opposite end of what I’m talking about, healthy romance of alien love and alien gods

thought form birthed out of enchantment with that track, how come I’ve never heard anyone say alien goddess, what is my whole trip about, its about exploring loving being loved on being a naturalist explorer, exploring new species, drawing them, documenting them, as simple down to earth humble as I could really be, I’m a like a supernaturalist, there you go, no longer in search of but in the deep study now having discovered, and having created a pathway of access to alien goddesses, astral dakinis, sky dancing shamanistic, sexy the pole dancers of the stars, the pole dancing of the cosmic galactic forces, alien goddesses that have been written about, painted about, fantasized about, mythologized about for millennia, transcendent power of me saying wait a minute I’m not gonna stop talking about kali, not gonna forget about her,e bu I can get a little chuckle from her, get a little wink from here, what would be a latin taxonomical name, a few iterations, back of a napkin, formulas of words coming out, alien lover goddess, what is kali, if kali wasn’t named, if I never heard that word and someone said what are you fucking doing over there, dancing smiling, blissful grin, then going and being ravaged by this divine beautiful erotic being, what are you experiencing over there, I don’t know if she’s ever had a name or in history or ever been spiritual worked into a religious pantheon, if I had to describe what I experience, otherworldly beyond anything on earth, comprised of organic architectures, alien insectoid, black widow dragon fly, queen bee, anti black soldier fly, shape shifting, beautiful goddess of love, alien lover goddess

it is not just an otherworldly alien to this dimensions, not just female alienness, she is not just an alieness, a powerful creatrix alieness, ie goddess, power to create, power above us, above myself, bow down to, prostrate to this higher goddess, otherworldly, supernatural, powerful, divine in terms of higher intelligence, not just divine as in maternal love, you have lover, as in erotic

sex\y warrior goddess, alien dakini, numerous ways you can encode, enscribe these experiences, elegant simplist, psychedelic goddess worship is a compression, simplification common denominator, distillation of a lot of complexity in 3 words

a similar spell word craft magic, , power of transcending culture boundness of word kali, very contentiousness, no contentiousness around what I describe as my epxerince of an alien lover goddess take her or leave her, love or hate, dismiss pursue, I’m just doin me over here, im open enough I’ll make pornography showing this action with myself with others of pure heart who are seekers and believes, conduct shamanic pornographic ceremonies, operating in a manner of highest integrity to avoid cults of personality, and exploitation and abuse, and be in constant study of those patterns and pitfalls shadow of all gurus, reading up, not trying to rubber neck

innocently stumbled upon accounts of the shadow the hugging saint ama, could be total inflammatory, exaggerated fake news, but somebody has put out extreme accounts, unknown to public and devotees, secret transgressions of hugging saint ama, no grounds to believe or disbelieve endorse or not endorse, even if completely fabricated, as much as we can hate on osho for his misdeeds and misconduct, or defend him like a kool aid drinking brain washed devotee

no where to hide from potential to have success as a spiritual leader, tretcherous thing to happen I want to be the dude, geoffry labowski, wayne and garth, unassuming bro dude, keanu reeves as neo the chosen one, ultimate warrior or all time, humble shy, doubtful hesitant, had to overcome to self into power and mastery, wasn’t a cocky john wayne, prick, the way thiat the spoof satire genious of kurt russell, jack burton in big trouble in little china, he went out of his way to spoof the impotency of a cocky american western sort of cowboy attitude that was the whole tongue in cheek joke of that movie, to make fun of that, the less of a piased proud priest shaman, spiritual authority I can be, the more of a keenu reeves, not necessary with the looks, I don’t claim that, but hey why not for him to be a default role model for me growing up, of course I was a devotee of him,m growing up

I could choose to have the douchy cockiness of action here archetypes or the more down to earth types I’m gonna stick with that and see if I can continue to pursue my love of the alien lover goddess, kiss and tell, make the art, encourage people to explore these pathways in ways that wont’ get us in trouble with those who want to fight over these words

elegance of phrase, alien lover goddess, be free, free here, tug of war, pulling hair, pulling her legs, ripping clothes off putting clothes on, the telephone game of cultural history

reboot rebrand for my own enjoyment own sense of freedom from those judgments

alien lover goddess, it just rolls off the tongue doesn’t it

make psytrance, sans english, use sanskrti instead

so I took tot he interwebs and thought okay what is the sanksrit word for alien, is there such a word, that would suffice, squirrely language I know very little about

first started out with totally minimal knowledge, escalated my support ticket to interwebs, then to sufiana, bona fide sanskrit, writer, speaker, scholar,, going back to childhood, then her studies at university

dancing on the backs of giants, adapt alien lover goddess to neo tantric mantra

these building blocks of sanskrit sacred geometrically sound forms, because of advancement of global literacy and the interwebs, anybodies perogative, studied morphemes in college, don’t know what percentage, words that have none of the latin based descriptive elements, prefixes suffices, cool to learn at ripe age in college, learn to parse words, you can create your own words, create neologiisms, language as extensible technology, make new words to suit discoveries

mckenna new words to describe new experiences, to grapple with hem in discourse, constantly need to be creating new words to expand to the envelope, phenomenological categorying of experience

be an archivist of their own journey, podcast, music, poetry books art, so other people can connect with that we have a common language even if its brand new, we can build on top of that

sanskrit, interchangeable, interoperable, I’m just hacking, when a hacker starts out barely able to logon get online make a network connection, that’s me with sanskrit, moving slow and breaking things

patching together piecing together, arrived upon, goddess is devi, love or desire as kama, as in kama sutra, one of the several fundamental elements to the experience of human life, its element to human experience in sanskrit, hindu tradition, tantra, not so celibrated, not necessary carnal pleasure, kama is the mortal enemy of othordox sex negative sects of christianity, yet core opportunity and engine of tantra in that its your furnace, first and second chakra, the energy the creativity you want to design with that, flow with that, dont want to hate on, shame or trap lest you have big problems in culture, abuse trauma all that bad stuff

kama devi, no brainer, finding the appropriate word for alien, when you watch ancient alien series you see how sophisticated the sci fi of the vedas gets vimanas, flying space ships, wars in the sky, there’s gotta be a perfect word for the what terrence mckenna describes, organico-metallic, you go on these mushroom trips, super advanced hyper space age architectures, hypermetallic forms, cybernetic alien organism, mechanical machinery feels very elegant, well designed, sustainable, green, earth friends, space, friendly galactic friendly something about it, the futuristic elegance of ecological design, using resources that are abundant and sustainably harvested from outer space

new I was gonna score the appropriate sanskrit word, magical mystique of we what we hold for the word alien in english

sufiana helped with translations, don’t know how to describe, might have two dots here, dot on the bottom, transliteration, she was the one who could interpret that in seconds

she could do the computation, to produce, she may have never encountered that sanskrit word ever, not a common word, cited, we know or guess that the context of the use of this world, arcane scripture, one word out of a million verse, may have ben used in common language in oral space, studying ancient texts approximation of what I would want to describe, the word thanks to sufiana: antariksam

she was on board, contracted with her to record some melodious singings and chantings of the phrase, not the proudest thing, whoa dude, check out this riff, alien lover goddess, om namah, I bow down to, kama devi, the pleasure lover goddess, antariksam, from outer space, alien lover goddess

om namo kama devi antariksam

melody of mantra that came to me, emergent property after layering the track

more primitive in most of the tracks I’ve done, I had not had the multidimensionality in the design of the music to decouple the melody of the words or the chants or the mantras from the lead instruments basically they were just matched, had people say its kind of obvious you’re stuck in this pattern, make up a melody, words or vocals are totally its like two guitars doing the same thing when they could be doing something at least slightly different

as emergent property, coincidence, synchronicity, layered over mantra, unexpectedly it clicked in, didn’t knowingly anticipate, dumb luck, smart luck, seemed to work, layered it over, don’t know until you turn the lights on, run the medicine, immersion experience, never thrilled with early mixes, nuno mix, happy with it, thrilled by it, can’t promise anything

I get more than a wink from dare I say goddess kali, when I sing this hymn and mantra to her in the medicine space, the loving on that I experience with this track and this mantra, its beyond anything ever up to this point, a lot of other tracks have been yes devotional but also in combative mode with demonic realm, fighting the nasties with full force and ferocity, there’s big love from her in those sonic journeys you’re also on the battle field, sex on the battle field, okay,

gay lovers of historical warrior clans, having massively glorious orgies after surviving a battle, gotta be some of the most passionate sex that’s ever happened, contrast that to rape on the battle field, notion of okay up to the point of this track, the sexual romance on the astral battlefield with the goddess, I’m fighting demons, she’s the reenforcement, air strike, big guns, coming into love me, make love to me, while we’re both in vicious combat with demons who will not succumb to her power, and would rather fight than surrender

this track is about the surrendering demons, willing to be enlightened by her presence, disciplined, not converted, counter intelligence operation, be successful

when you have people who are turn coats who join forces with you documentary, 3rd eye spies, different informants, double agents, if you successfully turn an asset from a foreign intelligence agency to spy for you, because double agent, secret agent, how do you ever trust that that they’re not tripple agenting

so laughable, revolving door of allegiance, it’s a fuckin shit show

we’re going to so far what’s happened demons on this battlefield, this track seems to have an effect of titling the fuck out of them, like footage when they tested LSD on soldiers, acted like bonobos, turns them into cuddly, peaceful, care bears, it backfired, the psychedelic experiments, mk ultra, whatever, these chemicals are supposed to create these bezerker warriors

this track, of all the journeys that were so combative, there’s a time and place for them, they got me to this point, they saved my life, those astral battle field wars had to be fought, goddesses had to do their slaying

cost benefit of peace vs war, in the wild, violence in the wild, among proto neolithic tribes, wouldn’t you rather just dance this off, have a dance a thon, less blood, death, disease, tragedy, all that hell

important achievement in herstory of psychedelic goddess worship, there is a promised land, dimension of the astral plane, an armistice, a treat, a peace, the undiscovered country of peace, alignment of incentives, perhaps once you kill off the hawks, you’re left with the doves,not gonna say this track is gonna unite the religions of the world

at this time of apocalyptic end times zombie apocalypse mystique

last night having gone into this beautiful redemptive peace play, parade of home coming demons who’ve been enslaved to be soldiers against me and my chakras, watching them come out of these fox holes and having them surrender, and their surrendering is being embraced and celebrate, provision trust that they will not abuse, they will be allowed under supervision to set up their new demon state in a more democratic manner, blossoming

anybody could say new world order conspiracy, illuminati, spirit, UN does acknowledge very orthodox religious figures for their peace work

really vibing with the experience of the arc of the star trek film, the undiscovered country all about the different approaches to peace and conflict and warfare, that’s what we all hope for, a humbling, a tolerance, ability to have lasting peace and tolerance that is strong and sturdy and stable, alignment of incentives, peace love, tolerance, ability to live abundantly and have adequate resources, tragedy is when warlords, barbarians, toxic male egos take over and pervert balance, endless combat, waste of energy we could be doing more fun things

if we lose track of fun, bliss, magic, glory of harmony, lose memory of that, ala archaic revival, lost in seemingly infinite war, I’m not so utopian to believe we can achieve infinite peace

psychedelic goddess worship, alien lover goddess more lasting inner peace with more love if you like this music and you sing this mantra

what I experience in these journeys, experience such a revelatory, palpable, embodied, multidimensional visual experience of what’s not acknowledged in monotheistic abrahamic religions

this moment, there was a time 5 years ago, last moments of my warrior energy to fight the glorly of revelation on earth of goddess kali, that was my braveheart, my own feeble and humble attempt to aggrandize and decorate my journey with this fight to liberate myself, and liberated the stories of the goddess, the revivification of witch craft and goddess temples, battle to reclaim space for the goddess on earth, is a fight, can’t just be prayed for, has to be prayed and fought for

tantra teacher, Shawn Roop, ex-military, jedi combat training, stuff of men who stare at goats, that was his real deal

the last thing he said to me, at the end of that training was to the effect of, don’t lose your masculine sharpness, penetrating warrior spirit, acknowledges that in me, don’t let anyone take that away from you, don’t be afraid of it, don’t lose that

I appreciated that acknowledgement, I think I saluted him too, that’s why I wanted to train with him, he’s the warrior tantrika

if you didn’t want me to want to be macgueyver, the a-team, gi joe, you reep what you so, say that not in a threatening manner, but as a patriot to the spirit of all life from the forces of enslavement

prominent black magician, uses every tool in the tool box, says there’s no such thing as black magic, if you were a true white magician you would do nothing, because you would surrender to the divine intelligence of higher entities would not claim your own godhood on earth, and you would not defend yourself through astral combat and you would not oppose your enemies and manuver around your enemies using craft, be able to heal life with one hand and take it from the other, ambidextrous between the left and right hand path of tantra

and it is only people who have that depth of understanding and who aren’t bliss bunnied out, and totally delusional about utopian pacifism

I listen to field craft survival podcast, mike drop podcast, I would have joined the military, would have been some form of warrior, but thankfully I’ve chosen my own path, less like commandos and navy seals and rambos, more like the pliskins, more ending up being like a warrior who chooses my own battles

don’t have official training, regalia, equipment, of those enlisted, Shawn Roop acknolwedged in me the spirit of warrior defender of the divine feminine on earth

in that grey swirl between yin and yang, attempt to show there is the seed of darkness in light, duality merges, Alex Grey says its more like a spiral, sacred hall of mirrors, documentary, tantra, tantric soup that we’re in

not gonna be a, utopian pacifist, and also not a soldier in any one else’s army, not taking orders from anyone or anything but the dark green magician witch priestess and the goddesses who they have introduced me to

that’s me doing me, you to do, thanks to Vanessa Soulxo, Voodoo you and voodoo me

the sacred dance of being a spiritual warrior in pursuit of peace and not afraid to choose your battles and choose them wisely

with love and a big heart, desire to see maximum surrender, maximum alignment of incentives

Sufiana Praying at a Temple

Tantric Feminism and The Embodiment of Goddess Kali with Sufiana TPP272

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In this episode Sufiana blesses us with a powerful exploration of her life story of resistance to patriarchy, her embodiment of the divine feminine, and the principles of tantric feminism

Tantric Parenting and Fierce Womanhood with Rhoda Shapiro TPP213

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In this episode I’m joined by my first tantra teacher Rhoda Shapiro for an exploration of her new book and her perspectives on tantric parenting and motherhood. We’ve been intending to do a podcast for quite a while and it quickly became clear that this was the perfect time and well worth the wait. It was a great honor to be able to transmit her wealth of knowledge and high vibe energy through the podcast.

It was a blessing to get a behind-the-book perspective on her evolution as a writer, leader of women’s circles, mother, actress, and much more. I truly believe her book will connect with a wide audience and do wonders to raise the tantric vibration world-wide.

It was very timely for her to be on the show to provide insight and advice for conscious tantric parenting and motherhood. The questions she answered came straight from a new mom listener who will be adapting and applying the empowering information immediately.

Time flew and we agreed we’ll have to schedule more podcast adventures soon to provide a broader overview on her personal development leading up to her book, explore tantric birthing, and much more!

For a more in depth perspective on my appreciation for her role in my tantric path, please listen to my podcast where I share an essay I wrote in her praise:

Words of Praise for my First Tantra Initiatrix Rhoda Shapiro TPP154
https://tantrapunk.com/words-of-praise-for-my-first-tantra-initiatrix-rhoda-jordan-tpp154/

About Rhoda:

Rhoda Shapiro has worked for a decade as a tantric educator, training women to step into their power by way of meditation, movement, dance, expression, and yoga. She has facilitated women’s circles and taught workshops throughout Los Angeles and in the San Francisco Bay Area. Rhoda’s YouTube channel, which has amassed thousands of subscribers, features yogic practices to empower both men and women. Rhoda is also the Founder/Editor-in-Chief of The Milpitas Beat, a Silicon Valley-based newspaper. She lives in the Bay Area with her husband, Eric, and their two sons. She is the author of Fierce Woman: Wake up your Badass Self, which was just released by Llewellyn Publications.

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https://www.amazon.com/Fierce-Woman-Wake-Your-Badass/dp/0738760927

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Rock Your Cock with Evolved Masculine Coach and Tantric Punk Larry Fredrick TPP207

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Larry Fredrick picIn this episode I’m joined by Larry Fredrick a highly experienced and accomplished evolved masculine coach. He shares the intimate details of his journey of personal growth through the catharsis of the early punk rock movement, transcending a failing marriage, getting into self-help, pick-up artistry, and ultimately a diverse array of spiritual and sexual mastery programs.

He has a down-to-earth perspective on learning and teaching practical self-improvement skill sets for men. With over 10 years of advanced training and practice he’s developed the “Rock Your Cock” program for men to really step into their power from a place of heart-centered, mindful, and spiritual consciousness.

I was most intrigued by his stories of experiencing authentic traditional tantric initiation in the jungles of India and his explanation of how he’s been able to adapt the teachings and apply them in his own love and sex life, as well as transmit the teachings to his students.

It was a deep honor and pleasure to have this opportunity to speak with a fellow rocker who’s living the dream as a tantric punk, has worked directly with many of my heroes, and who embodies forms of tantric magic that you can’t learn from books alone.

About Larry:

Larry Fredrick is an award winning international educator. He’s also a sex coach;
licensed and certified in Erotic Blueprints, Sexological bodywork, Neurolinguistic
Programming, Hypnotherapy, and Somatic Sex Education.

Larry works with men who want to clearly find and express their desires so they can
feel empowered in finding passion, pleasure, and juicy hot sex. He has traveled the
globe, from the mountains of Peru to Tantric temples in the jungles of India, training
with some of the top names in the fields of self transformation and sexual education
including Jaiya Ma, David Deida, Michaela Boehm, Destin Gerek, Satyen Raja and Joseph
Kramer.

From having issues with erectile dysfunction, performance and social skills, to
becoming a multi-orgasmic man with the skills and techniques of a confident lover,
Larry helps men step into their full erotic power so they can have more confidence in
the bedroom and in their relationships.

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/embody.awakening.1
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/embodyawakening/
Website: http://www.embody-awakening.com/

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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin double dribble Evans welcome to Township Funk podcast episode number 2 0 7 buy a very Frederick who is a masculine empowerment coach and he has a lot of interesting and exciting offerings that we’re going to talk about we go back to having met through Destin Garrix Network and the weekends or weekend men’s Retreats that I’ve been apart of and he is taking that further and done the training and is now yeah Mexican apartment coaches work with Dustin Garrick he’s worked with Jaya and provides for blueprint training Psalm Isadora and others and that we have some interesting choices of Common Ground coming from a punk. Background and we’ll have lots to talk about regarding the relationship interplay between the punk at 6 and attitude and the Tantrum and so with that said Larry do you want to just give us kind of an overview of your personal Journey leading up to all of these exciting offerings at you right now well I mean my bias is long so I’m just going to cut to the meat I am on a masculine empowerment coach I have a program called Rock your cock which is on my website it’s exactly what the title says it’s to help me and be in there talking show up to women and masculine way and also be in their heart and be in their mind being there in their spirit so it’s connecting the lower chakras the higher chakras and it works through blocks and sexual techniques and on communication relationships so that’s the program that I’m offering the listeners they sign up on my website but I’ve also travel all over the world work with a whole bunch of teachers it’s been a long journey from a failed marriage sexless marriage to know I having an amazing hot juicy sex with an amazing woman I mean our house right now doing this podcast on so I think we should just get right to the question you might have been possible thank you that overview and I would say you have for me a lot of a lot of this work started with a path to Liberation through the punk rock movements I’d love to have to have you start there seems like an earlier chapter of your life when when you were mainly involved in that scene in that community and so I left it here just what that was like what that was like for you and how that’s kind of was a in a precursor to or foreshadowing a more spiritual path yes I would say that the punk movement was when I was part of the punk scene it was and I was not on the spiritual path I was graduated high school in 1982 and that was kind of the heart of the punk movement so when I would go out with my friends they would be to some of the Seas really small tiny little clubs and what I liked about the punk movement is that it was about redefining everything including what music you know like you didn’t even have to play an instrument to play an instrument and you also didn’t need what was an instrument instrument could be a power drill and instrument could be you know something that that you bang on and make noise you didn’t have to sing you didn’t have to look a certain way you could just go out there and express emotions so it was like in a really cathartic and sort of Rage driven and you know for a young man it was a way to kind of experience now on a more spiritual level two experience on a visceral level of emotions in a group of people yeah I hear you on that and that’s something I would like to ask you is as if you had since your contract negotiations and in Journeys in Adventures you I’m sure you have both experienced than just been coming across people who are core very much about inviting the shot the energy and Awakening Kundalini energy and a lot of sometimes erratic kind of krias and sometimes more graceful dance forms but I always like to make the comparison that the Kundalini energy is really well leather it up in the punk rock circle pit and sometimes even the mosh pit but there’s also like a activation going on that’s doing some stuff on purging and purification you have any thoughts on I’m not sure though I mean I know what I have learned over the years is a fellow I’ve done a lot of working in different states cramps and there’s definitely a trance that happens when you’re in a group of people listening to music whatever that music is an. The emotions that come out become magnified when they’re when it’s not just you feeling that emotion but a whole group of people feel emotions that are brought out in a punk rock club or different than in a tantric Puja but they’re still emotions and they’re still magnified by being in the group that is a great way to say and Selso and very inclusive way to say you had mention also that you do hypnosis so this might be a good time maybe a little out of the timeline to mention it here but we were talking about France dates and Altered States do you want to talk a bit about what he described for people who may be haven’t had an xtatic group emotional cathartic experience like what is that what how would you describe that in terms of your knowledge of how the brain works and how the nervous system works and and how Altered States were when you’re in a group of people doing the weather is a tantric Puja or a rock concert or even going to Vegas there’s a lot of things that are basically you go into a State of Trance when your mind is overloaded so if you’re overloaded by the sounds of slot machines going off at noises and sounds and smells your ear mind starts to get overloaded and then it becomes suggestible so we’re overloaded it when I live in Los Angeles I mean I’m overloaded as soon as I walk out of my house there’s there’s things that are overloading my mind which means that my mind is very susceptible to Suggestions by advertisers people that may not have my best interest so when you go into a trance State you were open and you could be open to positive suggestions or negative suggestions as a hypnotist I’m I’m trying to say I’m trying to see if you’re in that trance state with a hypnotist URI your ear assuming and I know that will not working with you I’m sitting in container with your safety mind and your best interest in mind so what I’m going to put his suggestions that are positive as opposed to suggestions that if you eat this hamburger from Carl’s jr. you’re going to get laid or whatever other suggestions people are putting in our head through our everyday hypnosis with that I don’t know if that makes sense yeah totally not exactly what I was supposed I’m getting out of here so I’m curious so from going from that earlier Punk type of initiation what what were some of the Catalyst I know you mentioned it a sexless marriage and so what was that process like of transforming your life pass into Seaking Tantra discovering it and then you can give us the sort of them chronology of the different works that you’ve been involved in 4 years old so I’ve had a lot of Life of different stories and episodes but I think one of us when I was in the midst of my marriage I was also sort of dissatisfied with my job and I went to I went to a therapist who was going to put me on medication and I said you know I’ll fuck that I don’t want to that’s not the route I want to go I want to take them medicine so I decided to look into hypnotherapy as a way of you know kind of working on myself like I figured that I could use positive thinking that use hypnotherapy to give direction to why was starting to feel kind of lost in a marriage and a job and it worked I mean a super powerful and I found that I was attracting when I was when I was starting out I was attracting a lot of men who either word at social anxiety or or problems relating to women a lot of guys that were in a computer Gamers and then they would just like really in their head and I found that they were drawn to me because I also I totally understand was a computer gamer I was addicted to World of Warcraft I was psychic Total Computer gamer I’m that was my way of escaping which is also a state of hypnosis so first I use it as a way of working on myself and then I just found that I naturally Drew clients for men who were going through the same thing I was in which is basically get out of your head and into your body and you know take all the negative stories all this all the self steam issues all the confidence issues in and a really men are powerful and in most of them we work hard and sometimes we forget that there’s so many negative stories like to impart positive confidence power and is just to show up those were some of the things that I was doing as a hypnotist and also letting them most of them were able to get over their shyness or their social anxiety and really feel much better about themselves and show up show up for women better now that you know that was just the beginning that was where I started I’ve got a lot farther since since I started out that is very interesting I’m very concerned about the new generation as well younger generation coming up through the video games in that level disconnection if you don’t mind before we move forward into more of the time and spirituality and sexuality episodes in chapters you know what would you say if you were if a person listening now is really hooked on gaming and not and not really taking care of their body and not taking care of their their relationships and I’m kind of getting sucked into that realm do you have any advice just off the top of your head that you would share or recommend that they contact you or I’d love to know about more resources for people in that situation too big essential secret for all of it and it’s not just kids on video games cuz I’m working out with about messing with about twenty-five men and it’s all they’re all it’s all the same as we’re in our heads we’re not in our body it takes like it it’s it’s like a gradual moving into our bodies and in feeling our bodies are so much numbness like I find the men that I’m working with right now I’m working with them and then they are like I’ll take a breath and they say what do you feel and if they will I feel relaxed bulshit you don’t feel relaxed you feel your body you feel the tension from being hunched over a computer over a car it’s like they’re not feeling their bodies so they’re not feeling their own their own bodies are not filled their emotions if shut it all down and they’re not showing up for the women in their lives thank you for doing that work and I would say myself I was I was very much a gamer growing up as a child but I guess luckily for me to games weren’t that controlling so I spent plenty of time by the time I matured sexually life my actual life became the video game that all of the BB King the real game that the video games were kind of like training for so I hope that that art of development can be kind of you know did you ever get that sense that there’s an appropriate role for four games of all kinds and then once life really starts going you should be out there and living it right but I mean I think everything is I’m not against games go and you know video games are awesome but I’m against retreating into your head into like a fantasy world so you’re not dealing with your own body your own emotions you’re not dealing with reality you’re not dealing with opportunities in front of you so you know there’s nothing wrong with video games is nothing wrong with whatever drugs or alcohol or whatever it is people use to get out of their bodies and into their you know whatever Escape people need but if you live there and you’re not you’re not connecting to the real world was obviously that’s not what I’m I want I want men to choose I want men to be a body grounded Power full sewing up in the real world and feeling their bodies feeling they’re motioning and feeling their sexuality because they’re missing out that you know that there’s a lot of men having sex or fucking but they’re not feeling like the full range of what’s possible in orgasm which even even what men consider orgasm I mean it took me a long time to reach to the point where I’m really like blown the lid off of what an orgasm is I I can I could lie in bed next to my partner and we haven’t even had sex and I’ll just be like convulsing in like shaking and in like complete pleasure that would could be nonstop until I finally so you know what I want to go to sleep so I didn’t even know what was possible an orgasm all right well yeah I get there I get your point I think so I think there could be a sweet spot of having your cake and eating it too guarding the video games and if you really develop yourself in in the physical and spiritual and sexual aspects then by all means enjoy the video games that I would take that to be some good advice and so now we’re getting into that more advanced sexual Spiritual Development so what happened next in your journey as far as your discovery of Tantra did you find out fire and go to a workshop or did some mystical Guru approach you and traveling trip or what was that that was very very much a guy into TV and video games and and I got involved in like the pickup seen you know there’s did the pickup artist scene and at which why don’t want to get into that but I was listening to a podcast and I found out about this workshop and it was a tantra Workshop didn’t you didn’t the guy named such Young Living Canada who is still I still involved with his great awesome teacher and it was a it was a 3-day workshop and involving Connection in communication between men and women and it was sort of a Puja but again none of these words and if you did I wouldn’t have known what it was what it meant I was totally not into anything that I considered spiritual chakras or any of that stuff I would not have gone which is it was called I think was called sex passion in Enlightenment something like that was a 3-day workshop and I went to that and it just blew my mind I mean making eye contact with different women and I’m all of the things that came up all of the emotions that came up all of the you know that the self-reflection that came up and reminder that there’s a story I told him another podcast but I might as well tell the story I was I was paired up with a woman and she looked me in the eyes it was like eye contact and all she said to me is I trust you this was just the lines that a woman was supposed to say to a man I trust you and I received that you know the woman sang to me I trust you and I I was on the ground like crying for I don’t I don’t even know how long are in a ball crying because I realized I was not a trustworthy Matt which is why my marriage is all fucked up I was not a man that a woman can trust and I sort of made it like I sort of question what what is it like to be a trustworthy man what is what is a trustworthy man that’s what a woman wants no more than a big cock they want a man’s dick trust I mean so it in terms of becoming a sexual Manner and I realized I had a lot of inner work to do and then I realized that what I was learning was Contra and then and then that set me on a whole other path which is actually why I was attracted to Dyess blueprints because she talks about different blueprints one of being energetic and I realize that I was an energetic and I didn’t even know what that was I didn’t even know that was a thing but now that I’ve coached for the blueprints it’s like I wasn’t energetic in my shadow which hole explain later but I was at I was an energetic was kind of didn’t know I was and therefore I lived in the shadow of the energetic well I just was a beautiful story and I think yeah but I’m glad that that offering existed and you were able to connect with it I do I didn’t get involved myself in the pickup scene and I I guess I kind of I feel like I avoided it as as a Pastime personally but I have met some people recently you know who was part of their the early attorney as well and so if you don’t mind talking about it I love to hear a little bit more but if you’d rather not that’s fine too but I’ll just put that out there for people who don’t some of the principles of it I think there is maybe it has a bad reputation as being manipulative and really selfish and kind of way to use kind of trickery and and tactics of Deceit and so that’s that’s like the negative impression I have it although I’ve been enlightened that there’s more to it and it’s actually a past 2 in development and evolution that’s that has a very respectable depends on who you train with or who your buddies are but do you want to talk about that is there anything Redemptive that people should know about that but I think there’s an idea is that we can change as men that we can learn skills we can learn skills like presents we can learn how to communicate better that these are skills that we need to learn that we’re not just some men are what are called Naturals but a lot of men are not and that there’s ways to teach it to the ways to learn it there’s ways to improve so the idea of men like I mean there’s a lot of ego and in terms of no I’m good I’m good I’m okay you know I’m I’m doing alright like the idea of the pickup is that actually wherever you’re at you could be better and pick up does use a lot of NLP which is neuro-linguistic programming that’s kind of a another reason I got interested in it and a hypnosis in a lot of the things that you know now that I that I teach it there was a lot of things that I learned from being in that scene especially the ideas at these are skills that could be learned in that they can be taught so we don’t have to be satisfied with where we’re at as men and that there are ways to break down and improve their very well said I appreciate that if somebody was had missed out on getting into the pickup seen earlier do you recommend that people go and read certain books or watch certain videos or find certain meetups is it still something that you would include in your programs for men now or was it something that you kind of see is like all well it was a means to an end or stepping stone I’m curious if you would still endorse that movement somehow we’ll see I don’t know what the movement is up to now I think there’s a lot of no sketchy kind of characters in there and a lot of like exploiting a lot of marketing and a lot of I think taking advantage of men who want to improve I mean I would recommend myself because hitch hook I’m taking what I learned from pick up from hypnosis and other things and spirituality and I’m not teaching not teaching men to go out to bars and pick up women but I’m teaching men to be the kind of man that wants to go to the bars they’ll be more attractive to women don’t I don’t teach lines or anything like that cuz I found they don’t work but works is doing the work on yourself so you show up as a more powerful attractive man and I think that what the pickup is exploiting is is they need which again I finding working with men is like we want the Magic Bullet and we want it fast and we want it like Surefire and we want it without doing the work like we want we want that they promised a lot and you know like the magic pick up line is going to make them horny and a lot of it’s bullshit really but if you get involved if it doesn’t wake you up and turns it over these are things that I can improve I I can improve my posture I can improve how I make eye contact with person and I can improve my listening skills I can improve how I show up and then these things help build confidence and then when confidence is building then you naturally become more attractive person and more attractive to women those again great points I’m glad that that were talking about that something I I guess kind of worried and hasn’t again been that personal to me but I feel you on that so so now where would you say you want to start bringing in the official trainings that you did the Special Operations that you’ve done with some of the sum of the key players in the modern Neo Tantra and movement sounds like you’ve been you know getting out there and so when did your formal or more formal training ministration start in Gaston go from there after I did that work with Sachi on the path of the Warrior Stage so I did a lot of work with him which included shamanic journeys to Mexico meeting doing doing meeting shamans and I can’t even like going to some of the the magical crazy stuff that happened in he he was he was into David data so I got involved with David data in one of his teachers Michaela boehm might I work with her and so these are different different forms of Tantra and none of them call themselves Tantra but then I got involved in like I met Psalm Isadora and she’s much more of a the more traditional like old school country from India or the cheap there’s a whole Neo Tantra movement which comes from Osho and a lot of the teachers teach this this form of Tantra that is basically from Osho when he came to America and I do know it’s like I can’t talk forever about talks so much about it but some really I really clicked with her because she she she brought in this like traditional chanting in Sanskrit and it was just beautiful rituals and I like the ritual of it I like the I like the kind of formality of the ritual so she told me about a temple that you did too in India and if it came to my mind and then she passed away so I never got a chance to go to this Temple but then I did with another teacher Don Cartwright took me to this Temple because it’s hidden you don’t know where it is and it’s like an old-school ancient country Temple Heating in the jungle and if you can give you make it there by got initiated basically it was like 2 weeks class of of learning how to chant incense sounds great and there’s is 108 goddess statues and you have to do a ritual to each one it’s it’s kind of like you’re just immersed in this ancient language there there’s flowers everywhere and smells and and it’s just kind of mind-blowing I was basically magic school it’s like I learn magic and but that sounds weird is it there there’s a hundred and a goddess statues in in like they’re all sexual and there’s that there’s a Temple there that’s like the Yoni Temple so it’s basically goddess worship and I have to learn these these these rituals and you just immersed in it and it is going into a trance basically your this thing is in the jar there’s no toilet paper there if you eat with your hands and it’s like a whole other world it’s like going back thousand years and and then at the end do you know I basically was initiated into the srivijaya lineage but what’s interesting about it is I did a ceremony with kaniche where I was basically the one of my wishes was to bring this woman I was seeing on this journey with me and I’m in our house right now it’s been 3 years and we were just kind of seeing each other but I wanted her to be part of this journey and then for Valentine’s Day after coming back from the temple I did this Pooja that I learned there in the temple that it’s like a secret ancient ceremony and I learned it And I memorized it and I practiced it and I prefer I did it to her on Valentine’s Day and she said that blew her mind like like like to have it wasn’t that it wasn’t the ritual of it but to have so much attention paid on her like all the details that you know you have to have and tastes all five senses I touch different parts of her body different pressure points and pleasure points and did chanting and took like 2 hours but it said she said that blew her mind you know like to have that kind of ritual performed on her and I could never do it again it’s like I could not remember all of that all of that stuff I learned I have to go back in my arms again but it was almost it did feel like I had received some kind of transmission and I like I was I’m talking about it I don’t really talk about this I’ve never actually really talked about this because there’s some feeling of I don’t know if people are going to believe me or am I showing off or what it what exactly am I saying and yet I’m also feeling like a vibration in my chest that I went through this experience was pretty incredible I mean hidden country temple in the jungles of India and initiating in the bringing that to my girlfriend yeah it is putting me in a trance as I talk about it well me too I’m having an adventure in my mind too and I love that you shared that and I feel blessed that you feel comfortable sharing those details with me and I’m sure there’s you know you can write a whole book just about that that cycle that you did there but you know I’m I’m flashing through all of the experiences I’ve had doing fujas and rituals and ceremonies and just everything that I’ve experienced in in the westernized Neo Tantra version where think there’s always a number of people who’ve had those more authentic traditional classical country experiences in India or in other parts of other parts of the world and bring that back and are able to bring that transmission and that energy carries forward for people who work for just you know in some meat up in somebody’s living room on in West play or something and actually it is it transmits but I love hearing the stories of the actual experience is cuz we really I don’t think we have many places in the US where where goddess worship and the ritualised procedural practice of worshiping and asking for blessings and protection from the deities I don’t see that happening a lot I send in the meet-up send in the township groups what not I think there is more of a focus on more secular personal development and just you know how to be a better relationships and this kind of undifferentiated one missense of bliss but I’m actually way more interested in this otherworldly transdimensional intelligent entities deities and beautiful Divine spirits that have personalities and very distinct archetypal Personalities in that that’s what you’re talking about and so I’m thrilled to always hear more about what those practices of the ones that seem to not get through the mesh into the West as often as like the multi-orgasmic even the Kundalini stuff which I’ve heard you know a lot of Kundalini people approach Kundalini without without paying homage to its is a feminine Shakti goddess aspect of it so much so yeah I’m glad you had that experience and then that you bring that forward and certainly that we just go from talking about the gimmicks of pick up Artistry which you know it’s like I think of pickup artists I think of con artists I think of like confidence scams and then evil going from from that Vibe of that world to this experience you talking about and translating the beauty and magic of these experiences in Matt’s and then having the proof in the pudding and applying it to turning on and really worship thing and giving to this beloved you yours like I hope that those people who are trying to buy the magic pills and by the secret pick up lines and all that they actually would hear this and and and be inspired by what you’re saying you say there’s like a way way deeper Richard passed to towards some pleasing women and in being a God you know being like the guy who gets her off the best and the guys will never forget that that can come from it a deeper more of my spiritual face so thank you very much that was my you know my my Applause and praise for it for you sharing that and so do you want to then go from there to how you started to apply that if you start to want to teach Tantra more formally and start building your own kind of phone programs did you do some other trainings if you go to work with diarrhea right after that or what was next time you’re you’re sort of Business Development path of Tantra make something clear like this I’m listening to this I’m not expecting men to go into the jungles in like wipe their ass with their hands because there’s no toilet paper you know what and then come back and do a 3-hour ritual to the woman in order to get laid that’s not what I’m saying that I did that but what I teach man is to put their attention and make make like or you can make an ordinary day exciting and ritualistic so like I’m going we’re going to San Diego this weekend and we’re sitting we’re going to turn it into a ritual at an adventure and I’m going to I’m going to pay attention to my woman as opposed to like the pickup artist seen I think there was a lot of like Don’t Buy Women drains their they’re not going to respect you if you if women don’t respect men who are nice guys and all that in you could be nice to a woman you could pay attention to a woman you could be attentive to her needs you could have your balls intact it’s not like if you’re if you’re nice to a woman or you please a woman or you pay attention to her that you’re giving up your balls that’s like the thing that I didn’t like about pick up cuz I love sharing my woman with some attention so you don’t like what I did was was a super elaborate version of that and yet there’s ways to pay attention in minor ways every single you all the time and so I try to make ordinary time with her you know beautiful and sacred and in treat her like a goddess even if I’m wash will just washing dishes you know like make that a ritual washing dishes so the dishes are done so we can go to the bedroom and we can fuck you know it’s like let’s let’s make washing dishes a ritual let’s make washing dishes set let’s make washing dishes away press to get that out of the way so we have space in our lives and two to pay attention to each other and dropped into a space of Sacred Love and that does not require you going to the jungles I just requires the shift in in your perspective I love it seems like there’s always going to need to be some ratio of people who have had the deeper immersive experiences in the classical traditional timeshare temples and then bring that back and you know it’s like everybody’s not going to be a shaman but we need to have a sweet spot kind of ratio so thank you for having that experience I’m certainly some point wanting wanting to to be one of those folks who can have a deeper experiences and then transmit them and translate them into a more modern contact so so yeah thanks for that clarification and and that makes a lot of sense so so yeah what would what was your next step word some building the confidence not only to please your own lovers but to teach bring this magic and medicine and and then skill sets to Two Men and develop more of a practice of your own let me guess it was very important to me because I went through his program it’s a whole new program that was videos as you know cuz you’re in the videos but so there’s a lot more aid for teaching men and I’m running man through this program I now that I found this in again when I was part of the pickup seen and he was at some some he was speaking at one of them I don’t remember how I ran into him but then I kept running into him like every single week I would go to event and they were all different events that when was The Burning Man event and when was it Astro van with a pick up a bed and was like who is this guy Destin I should call him and talk to him and I went through his program and I became multi-orgasmic so it was like wow I read that might actually work and all of that and it didn’t work but Justin’s program work and now I’m not like a coach like now I am authorized to teach his two other men because he really breaks it down he went through 6 logical Body Works which I actually also went through that trade-in so I see where it comes from I see the roots for it I see why it works and how it works and the bottom line is it works it’s like you can take a man run him through this step by step program in at the end he he’s pretty much has control over his orgasm and it worked for me and it’s working for the men that are going to the program I know it works I mean he’s done it with hundreds and hundreds of men so that was one official training I got and then and another training I got is was why is blueprints with shock yeah I mean that I learned about Jaya Jaya to Destin one of his podcast actually I had seen joy around I seen her she used to promote our books at different events different sexual advance and I would see Jai I kept seeing her also but then I was listening to an interview that just ended with her where she was talking about what she called The Erotic Blueprints and I was in another relationship where I was bringing all my Tantra training in my you know I gazing into this relationship and I thought it was great you know I was having orgasm but the woman wasn’t and I thought well am I what’s wrong and then just kind of said there’s Blueprints and I’m unenergetic like that’s why I love this time. I happen to be an energetic and I can I can really tap into that and I can have these incredible experiences but not everybody is an energetic and then she said then there’s a sensual there’s a sexual there’s a kinky and there’s a shapeshifter and I realized while the woman that I was with was very sexual and I’m sexual also but it was not my primary blueprint so I was speaking to her as an energetic like expecting her to have the same kind of contract experiences but she wasn’t a wire that way and and then sometimes she would just like to just want to like you just want to fuck and I was like what I want to connect first one I gave you like really just want to go there right away so now I’m learning to speak the other person’s language and understand my own language and the woman I’m with now super super sensual that’s why she loved that couch I get because it was all about taste and smell and sound with all the senses so that really turned wrong because of who you was designed to be a sensual experience we’re all over essential were lit up and I know how to I know how to speak the language of a sensual and one of them is example making sure for a sensual if things are out of place if dishes are done at the house is dirty she can’t drop into her body she can’t really experience orgasm so for me clean up the houses is for play because that’s what my that’s what my partner wants she wants all that stuff out of her head because the sensual will get into their head start worrying about stuff and then you know of a few years down the line the partnership is not working out they’re not understanding why they’re not there there they both think they’re having sex but when is having one is not getting their energetic fed and the others not getting their Central fat or their sexual fat so learning the blueprints was like to learn that I was in energetic like blew me away because then I realized it is a thing in that it’s not weird to have these orgasmic experience is just looking into someone’s eyes but it’s also know it may not be the way another person the person I’m with name me not experience it the same way and I can’t force them to have that experience I appreciate that work that was done. Can you say kind of from your training and where you work with her and Emma studies of for blueprint I’m not aware of the podcast before I don’t have it on the top of my head, the backstory of how how she would describe the the process of discovering these beasts different patterns do could you say something to what what to your your recollection is like her kind of backstory around that if if you would let me hear backstory things I mean her backstory she was also sexological bodyworker which is we all have in common me giant Destin we’ve all been trained by the same teacher Joseph Kramer and sexological Body Works and child learn after hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of hours working with couples that there was different couples were turned on by different touch like the man might be turned on by certain kind of touch and the woman might be turned on by a different kind of touch and they weren’t the same so the man expected the woman to respond the way he was responding and then just started to break it down and realized that a sensual is turned on by a completely different sort of touch than the sexual is and they’re actually if you want to know what your blueprint is if you go on my website you can take your who is there is emails that you’ll get I will explain all the blueprints so my website is in-body awakening.com which is e m p o d y m body which is hard to spell under the dash awakening.com hopefully you’ll have this written somewhere so it’s a for sure that’ll be on the Awakening., there’s a quiz on the bottom you can take the quiz for free and then you’ll get emails that looks plain all of them it’ll tell you what your blueprint is and then you’ll get emails at hotel look at 5 different emails that will explain the is the superpower of each blueprint and the shadow side of each have a shadow site to find that out and then again yeah go on the website take the quiz and then you can book a session with me and I can talk about how how you can implement this in your sex life because the blueprints is just one part of my program cool alright well thank you for sharing that and also I think it’s a great point to make that people who have been in this field in this movement and its industry and have done that level of work a game that sense of Mastery and then these emergent properties of being able to distill these kind of macro counter and that’s where that that wisdom and in comes from is that that richness of experience so I appreciate your hearing about that and I know there’s a number of other systems that people have developed to categorize various kind of powder and sand and styles of relating and there’s love languages that you know all kinds of different different metrics and tools that have been developed to kind of self analyze and solve correct and in in an ad so glad that there is more of the sexual and Amore essential systems that are being developed and so yes and then after that now where does that where does that bring us to within in your historical chronological timeline are we getting close to where you’re at now or where was there more happening before we get to the present but no car now what your you can go into the details of the the rock your cock program it sounds like it’s probably drawing on all the influences but that I don’t want to skip over anything before we get there so yeah what where where else what else do we need to cover it to get to the present read marriage I started to want something else got involved in the pickup scene from their got involved in Contra through Sachi on and then became a hypnotist it so it is it’s not like this happen overnight is was 10 years and then you know traveling with Sachi on and seeing these shamanic having the shamanic experience has started to open me up to this other world of that as an energetic at first I would have been like so skeptical because that’s that’s what the shadow of the energetic is it’s like because I was an energetic I was denying that there could possibly be everything have to have a scientific explanation and everything we was bullshit and Kippy and you know I’m coming from the punk background you know those hippies like I had but that was my shadow side because I was actually completely once once I got opened up and started to experience things myself it was like boom I’m in energetic I can feel energy I could I actually have these experiences that I can’t really describe in that not everyone has to believe know if they don’t believe it that’s fine I’m not going to try to convince anyone all I know is I’ve had some incredible experiences so so it was from pick up Tantra hypnosis and then then starting to find the teacher including traveling to Canada traveling to India going to Peru having different a Mexico having different experiences and I think my primary influences then became Destin enjoy shampoo mentored me and taught me their system the system of sexual self-mastery for men so men can become multi-orgasmic and the the blueprints which is like the love languages for the bedroom and what’s nice about it is I can teach this it’s like this is exactly what the pick up pick up Community says I could break it down I could teach it plus I had hypnosis to it so like a high anchor in so you remember the stuff and in fact I’m filming a whole I’m feeling a whole Erotic Hypnosis thing in the middle of filming at we have it work where I put my partner and she’s never even done it before on film where she becomes she has these just from listening going into hypnosis you basically has hypnotics orgasms and I put her on the bed in a hypnotic BDSM session I teach you guys how to do this so this is my own stuff that I’m adding offering a lot it’s like 10 years of all of these different trainings come together into my one Rodger cock I survived that sounds great siding and I can’t I’m jealous that you that you got such a great name for it I got it how did I how did that slip by me all this time you noticed it’s funny it’s funny cuz originally and have more of like a mask you act like I was masculine and Power Man in and he’s kind of names and I just said no fuck it rocks your cock cuz that’s what men want you know even though I’m teaching them spirituality and all this other stuff that’s not going to get them excited rock your cock it’s like yeah because that’s the end result I’m offering the end result rock your cock and that means more than just about getting your cock it’s not about getting your cock hard it’s about showing up as a man in his masculine energy and it is feminine so it’s like I’m being done being sneaky cuz I’m also teaching men to be in their feminine to to be in their heart but not going to get him in the door you know what gets him in the door is it’s about your cock about being a man and it’s about showing up in that way but in order to do that you need to embrace your family and you need to be able to have have experiences trance-like experiences which again you can do through breathing which I teach to help self hypnosis so but yeah the name your cock cuz that’s the end result income for the Shiva and you stay for the shock to you no thank God it’s it’s it’s Punk is Rock You Know rocks you rock it you know it’s it’s about showing up in in in in playing her instrument and just playing it however the fuck you want to you know you don’t have to go and take formal lessons in in school you just you just rock it because it’s natural I love that you. That’s it what’s the point right to get to where things flow naturally and you’re not fighting anything and you’re not having to count all people who are more than the more I guess you could say the the less edgy the less sexual the less explicit but the more kind of family-friendly Orthodox Temple Tantra experiences are going to be a lot of ritual as an end in techniques and tools that that are about you counting beads and Counting chance and getting using all of these Scott all the scaffolding and all of these handrails sort of to build the capacity to have full attention in your body and then eventually you are less reliant on on those techniques and it just you just like a martial artist it’s just there when you need it and you just keep time keeping that refresh so yeah I love that idea that I think we’re kind of stripping away layers of domestication we’re getting back back to a more and body Primal state where it wasn’t we weren’t overcoming so many neurotic not than patterns and things in and it would just be a more natural more that’s also the punk rock thing you know I would say as well as they shed this formalities boxes the first module of my program because it got to clear our our modern the roses and there are blocked because it’s like the about stuff like I don’t believe that any of these you can learn sexual techniques but until you get that’s why it’s modular like I teach Advanced sex techniques but I don’t teach that until you get past your blocks and learn how to be present to your body and your breathing and then again you don’t need to do all the fancy he learn Sanskrit stuff all you need to do is learn how to breathe and feel your body I’m stripping it down I’m I’m not I’m getting rid of all the do you know the esoteric because I know not again not everybody’s an energetic I want everybody to be able to relate to my program so I guess I’m not it’s not part of my even though I did all that stuff I’m not going to teach anyone how to chant in Sanskrit I’m going to teach a man how to breathe into their body so they can feel where they have tension in their body and where they can open up and start feeling their emotions thank you again for everything I think we’re about a good point to wrap up if you want to share some final words of advice final insides and then again where people can go to find your work yeah well my website again I already said it is in body – awakening.com and are they can take the quiz for free and then if you want it there to sign up for a session and when our strategy session where we can talk about how we can use the blueprints and how I can work with men specifically and I would put Township punk in the comments because I think that your audience is in particular audience and I would work with the men that come from this podcast different than men that come from another podcast so I would create an individual program although my I have a module program this whole setup is I would modify it according to my listeners and have a one-hour session with them so that’s embody – awakening.com take the quiz and sign up for a strategy session with me awesome well thank you so much man has been a pleasure to talk shop with you and I’ll still be able to have that a resident so I think sometimes people can lose a grounding this and that sort of bullshit detectors at the punk rock movement I think gives us a very good protector and I can tell that you’re upgrading from that place if a healthy skepticism in and also but open-mindedness to and avoiding Dogma avoiding too much too many rules and in too many I don’t think I don’t think you’re going to fall into the style of a cult leader or become a cult leader yourself in a in a bad way so thank you for your offer doing all that work you’re doing and for glad we got to have this conversation and we will be publishing this in the next couple weeks or so getting through a backlog of a previous guess that’s what I will send you the link and we will hopefully be able to talk more again in the future all right right on cool alright well thanks so much again and have a great day thank you. 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In this episode I’m joined by de Vie Weinstock, a Consciousness Catalyst who teaches people to dare to be present with the wholeness of their being. We explore the vastness of ancient tantric lore and philosophy as well as the practicality of personal tantric practice beyond the genitals. Together we discover new hopes for positive transformation and conscious evolution!

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“What can be said about consciousness that has chosen to devote itself to an endless intimacy with presence? Devotion to the truth is not confined the stories of the world, or the stories of success. Who are we when we go beyond the stories —which are, after all, only stories? Then we are left with the conscious experience of this moment, whatever it may be. We are left with the unadulterated wholeness of the self, as it is, in ‘the world’ as it is.”

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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin hello dear beloved welcome to Township Punk podcast episode number 94 I am on Skype with 2 V Weinstock of dare to be present. Calm and she is a Consciousness Catalyst and we have been dialoguing over various social media platforms for a while now and she’s blessed me to have listened to a number of my podcasts and I’m always open to especially folks who are for putting in some time to listen to The Back catalogue so to speak you have to actually bring perspectives and and really fill in blanks in and always just bring their own and treat it like an open Forum so I appreciate the vu4 for reaching out and wanted to share I’m not I will I will let you fully describe your intentions and first if you would just start off by telling us a bit about your background and and your offerings and then we can talk about your desire to bring some of your perspectives into this form so with that said please go ahead tiny here and what I offer it’s called dare to be present and I work with people in supporting them in their process of Awakening and I feel we’re all in some sort of process of Awakening cuz it doesn’t end and I feel it’s a kind of evolutionary imperative if we make it collectively revolutionary Drive evolutionary drive and I’m here to support people consciously and intentionally in that process and it grows out of my own experience in studies really extensive studies and very much my own experience which is relevant because I’m pointing people back to their own experience were in a culture that is extremely mind focused and it’s basically awarded to be disengaged from our own experience and get all kinds of book knowledge I went to Harvard so I’ve got that whole book knowledge academic first-hand story and that just being a peek example of where our culture is at of overvaluing the analytical knowledge part of the mind to the detriment of the absolutely essential lived experience so my lived experience beyond all the studies I’ve done relevant to what I offer is that I’ve literally been in a state of meditation for over 20 years so extremely deep immersion into meditation very extreme time I’ve been in the world through that I have not gone and become a Hermit in the Himalayas I am chosen to be on that path of meditation immersion in the world which is not easy but it’s also related to the topic of your podcast on your work of Tantra because Contra is the hole so the path of Tantra is not going to say oh well if you’re a spiritual person you should have been the world in terms of what I offer I work with people one-on-one I sometimes offer groups I work with them in person in Ohio or in the Ohio area sometimes in LA and also over the Internet with video or over the phone and it’s there’s talking there’s some meditation it’s basically giving guidance into what is the person’s next step and next steps in Awakening to their precious inner being around Tantra I’d like to say when I when it’s appropriate that the sexuality Pieces Just one-seventh of the major chakra pie so I think nothing it’s seems bloated or over-represented in the so-called West in some people would say it’s because people are obsessed with it and other people say it’s because that’s where the the triage of the wounding is most needed so that the sort of the healing of the second chakra is what the West needs more than other places that say in the world might need it or other cultures might need it so yeah you were you have some sort of feelings in in opinions and I guess I don’t know if it would be like a form of A Treatise but by all means would be great to have a new perspective on balancing the balancing of the did the different modalities in in currents of energy within the ton truck systems Stout is to talk for a perspective that isn’t necessarily focused on the sexual act like in the service I offer I don’t mention Tantra anywhere and it doesn’t get into sex at all unless it’s something that a person is concerned about her asking about in which case it’s simply talking about it so just to be clear in terms of how I work with people that being said why I reached out is because there is this understandable but none the less worth pointing out overemphasis in the West in terms of Tantra that well it’s like a special way by having sex right and as you’re pointing out yeah that is valid but it’s also leaving Chris Watts leaving certain people because if someone has that preconception which is very easy to have then they’re like well I’m single or I don’t have anyone to do this with or like there is a self-limiting thing based on that perception of well I can’t engage in the path of Tantra because sex is not available to me which is a lot of people even if sex is available then whether or not is Tantra good question so there’s this other piece which goes well what is Tantra regardless of whether quote-unquote physical sex is in the picture not not to dismiss physical sex but the one word that sums up Tantra is yes it’s like the simplest explanation of Tantra because it’s a spiritual path and it’s a spiritual path that is not going down the division trip and so many spiritual paths are still doing that plenty of yoga pass or doing that I mean I’ve been at these meetings at these circles and I see it first-hand of a spiritual trip of let be divided and at war with ourselves and so the largest view of Tantra is it’s all included we don’t have to try to cut off certain aspects of herself and that’s why sex is emphasized because historically it’s been so cut off it still cut off and still is still very cut off but I think that’s part of why it gets emphasized because it’s one of the most glaring examples of an aspect of ourself that has been demonized but one of the things I very actively right about and work on with my clients is something like emotions quote unquote negative emotions which is another example where angers bad lust is bad. A. A. Depression is bad and that’s another aspect we had a question be like wait a minute the whole point of the spiritual path is Unity is wholeness how do we get there how does that work if we’re trying to get to wholeness by trying to cut off basically essential parts of our self practices do you do teacher do you utilize for does integration Integrations of those repressed aspects and the demonized aspects first step is awareness cuz they are too taboo like like lust for example it’s a good example it’s considered taboo or anger anger is a really good wet like I’ve heard that so many times from people of they think not just stick but they believe that anger is not spiritual is this strong belief it’s like no anger isn’t spiritual what is that what is that belief why is that belief in there so the first step is awareness because with these embedded reactions with these embedded repressions there is a leap to just denying the feeling like it’s too hot it’s like too hot to touch you know and so that first step of a practice of becoming aware of them and going well what are the feelings and noting them so there can be something like literally writing down the feelings like just writing a word that like oh there is anger or is there is depression and something like that might look very simple or it might even look useless but it actually isn’t because it’s bringing in this new pattern workers I can notice something nothing bad is happening by noticing it so there’s a new pattern being created there by first just bringing awareness to whatever’s there in the Eastern country Traditions kind of give permission to express the various aspects of the human personality through these characters and the stories in mythological archetypes in different states of Consciousness in people may or may not actually feel in the ability to evoke or invoke or feel possessed by and therefore have a sort of thumb the patron saints of these different emotional Expressions is that something you you get into it either sort of symbolically or more literally I guess you could say bring two archetypes that embodies the emotions or what exactly are you referring to yeah just well for example I think probably the most well the most dramatic that Dede that that is used in a lot of just Neo Tantra and classical timeshares is to if you need to express rage in a healthy way than you would call upon the pooches and sudden the practices to bring yourself into the the field of the collie energy or the goddess Kali and that would be your sort of phone Serta prefabricated safe container to let all of that rage be expressed without the well without it basically sublimating into other more more well leaking out into other areas of your life where you’re not really conscious he’s fully present for it so that’s certainly a lot of what I’ve experienced and in workshops and in trainings and whatnot is just to be able to identify when you can make your own of course but the the sort of from the toolkit the township provides one of them and assorted Friday obviously permutations change across space and time but is I’m just wondering if that’s something you you say all right now get into your Kali Rage or if you need to you know if you’re feeling broke and hungry and homeless you need to invoke them or a goddess of abundance or a god of abundance or if I’m just wondering if you play with any of those those templates for someone who resume with it like it sounds like for you that my really resonate in which case it’s a meaningful safe container and medium and Kali the braids for that so is Shiva these archetypal energies symbols ever we want to look at them Daddy’s however they’re represented they can be exactly in the way you’re speaking of these meaningful channels so that being said if someone were to work with me and that angle it would depend on if if they’re sympathetic to that because my focus in the dare to be present work is to make it very accessible to a person where they’re at so I would only bring up that kind of method with someone to was predisposed to be into these archetypes and a lot of people aren’t a lot of people you’re about Daddy’s like that and they just think it’s mumbo-jumbo and I’m not at all going to go down that road with them because I meet people where they’re at so it does that totally depends on the person said that cuz that seems it seems like a in a way there’s a there’s a I mean I have I have ethical concerns with the the way that people would say that there doing Contour teaching Township but there really time tree is a it’s all about these specific practices of worshiping mostly the goddess originally and then that that sort of you could say got bastard has been corrupted and became a very patriarchal power over not really in greatest service to the goddess form of Steel spiritual practice but it’s just a shifted into a more picture cool pear diamond and then the the three historical roots of goddess worship have been marginalized and you know so that’s that’s really in a notice in a nutshell that’s how I’d see what what time she really is so when I see people saying that they’re teaching Township but they’re glossing over or sort of making making a just sleeping over that process that was the court process of spiritual relationship to a goddess of devotion then I got a question it to be able to like what you’re saying you’re not you’re not really guiding people there especially if they’re not ready for it or they’re not into it and you don’t even you’re not calling and Country so it’s I’m curious how your and I respect that so I’m curious how do you apply the sort of principles of Tantra to the modern world where people are not likely to buy into the notion of these you know very vast lineages of mythological deities that are just dizzying to try to even begin to understand you to be absolutely clear I don’t bring up the word Tantra at all in my work unless it’s somehow relevant it comes up in a few of my writings probably they’re not even on my website so it’s it’s not something that I’m using as a word explicitly but the other part of it is the question which is fertile ground right now if we want to go into which is what is Tantra and I don’t know if you and I ended up looking into that book and mention it to use absolutely one of my favorite books of all times and I recommend it to anyone who’s interested in Tantra it’s contract Quest and then it’s something like I forgot the subtitle at subtitle something like a journey to Absolute love or something like that tante request by Daniel o d a o d d i e r and it’s a true story of his journey to find a ton truck master and she goes on this journey in the Himalayas and she goes through all these tribulations and then he finally gives up like okay I’ve tried I’ve almost succeeded so he gives up and then he finds her and if I’m remembering her name correctly it’s something like Lalita Devi and she’s this Patrick Master living alone in the woods and it’s such a beautiful story and it really goes into what I consider to be Tantra witches I mean it goes into some of the sexual aspects to but in terms of how it talks about consciousness of a very embodied consciousness and a very very intimate relationship with the senses with being embodied in the sensual world so you know if you want to go into it is worth questioning and discussing of what exactly is Tantra because how I see it it’s not dependent on any sort of worship of an energetic archetype that we give a name like Collier Shiva how I see it it is first of all if the path to Total Awakening so it’s a certain kind of spiritual paths that emphasizes inclusion rather than exclusion where are some of the traditional things in many spiritual paths that are considered taboo or off-limits do not have to be off limits and Tantra and the signature and then is that if they’re engaged in very very consciously then they’re not us in that kind of language and so that’s how I view Tantra and I mean I’m not here to say my view is more right than yours that’s not the point at all but what I hear is that you’re feeling or believing that it rests upon worshipping a certain energetic form it’s interesting because you know I always enjoy the conversations because it’s it’s it’s kind of a archaeological Adventure I mean the the most I guess where I start in my inquiry with the available information we have is that there were a hunter gatherer or gatherer Hunter South Asian peoples who were who had black goddess figurines that are going back in the archaeological record at least 20,000 years and if yes if my sort of I guess I feel like what I’m personally feel like that everything that became organized scriptural do Orthodox Hinduism today that we would look at it it’s it’s sort of a an interesting the story the sort of natural history of of the dark goddess is one that goes back a long time in India before so many different waves of conquest and colonization and a word it’s often uses brown one is a Shannon and before the caste system before civilization before Agriculture and the way that if there to be some some story or movie that’s actually would be kind of telling that story of what happened to the primal practices of indigenous goddess worship and how all of these different trappings of of domestication really sort of from required of it a lot of different fractions fraction fractioning of archetypes you know before there was wealth and riches and a class and poverty in a class until before the caste system you didn’t have all these different permutations of of Glamour course we all want to be rich and glamorous and famous and we all want to be blessed by the the goddesses is a fortune in your fortune and wealth and we just take that for granted and also even the scriptures of the contras in the scripture did the all of this sort of Orthodox Hindu scriptures it’s very much based on a time of war and conflict and even is has a club to beat the Bison demon so because it was a threat to the crap so as much as we would take even jirga and believe me I I fear to say this but it but it’s just a detached sort of the knowledge and Analysis of it it’s everyday I guess everything before I before I dare say anything I regret I want to say that when we peel back the onion of archaeology you know there’s a different context for every story so I’m not I’m not pushing that it on anybody I’m just I feel like it’s it’s really the heart of Tantra that hopefully the benevolent this goal that that it has or that we hope it has you know which is to be to help us become the most compassionate benevolent loving wholesome Divine an Earthly connected Angel beasts animals that that’s sort of not everybody practicing these esoteric Arts has the best intentions and so yeah it’s it’s interesting dance with the light in the shadow and now we’re in the west just discovering that it’s possible for sacred sexuality to to exist in again that’s kind of why it seems like it’s the where Township where the sort of the vacuum of a lack of wisdom around sexuality that the tantric wisdom around sexuality is finding a a sort of being siphoned into the second shot and to get beyond that which is part of the division and it’s there still in segregating the Tantra to a sexual act is we are in a culture that you know this of course and probably most or all of the listeners Duty or your listeners do that it’s very very sexually repressed and so keeping Sexual Energy in the bedroom even if it’s Concord tantric Sexual Energy is still not going to this other dimension and this other dimension like one of the things I’ve explored for example I have plenty of practices that I do myself and for example this very basic beautiful fundamental and essential meditation on the brass is one of the most basic or possibly the most basic meditation basic not in a negative way but Central even just that can become a tantric exercise and it has nothing to do with the genitals I mean it could but in its purest form let’s just leave them out for now cuz it’s going to the store and direction of a difference I mention a larger hole where we can experience the brass as making love with the universe is easy to look at that logically even what does it do it moves in and without giving us life is giving us energy is this relationship with the hole with the Earth with the universe whatever the whole is I mean really it’s the Earth as far as we know it but we don’t know if the Earth would exist in a vacuum you know if the Earth was not in the universe we are not even be possible so something like that can turn into a deep meditation. it can be sexual without being genital because sexual and sexuality is not in any way limited to the generals and so that’s an example of a kind of practice where it can happen just through intention where it’s understanding the movement of breath as a kind of sexual act with the universe which is what I said it’s like really radical because if you take that to its greatest scope it’s like if we tune into that we’re walking around making love with the universe but actually I love that you’re saying that because I feel that every man who is homophobic and Spins I don’t know a huge percentage of his energy making obscene jokes with his other homophobic male friends who are all supposed to be straight and aren’t supposed to be thinking about sex acts with men however every other joke that they make is an explicit joke about how their friend is wanting to do some explicit sex act with another man so it seems to be this pattern of a lot of men who are fighting that Curiosity to explore the kind of contact and they’re constantly it’s it’s very it’s like usually you would call it a Freudian slip but it’s like it’s like a Freudian Niagara Falls there for 40 and Avalanche just every other line coming out of this jocular sort of mentality this jock mentality that I’ve distanced myself for homes in Retreat from but with all that said what I love about what you just said and you may never have thought about this but I think it lends itself to this is that they’re so afraid of the idea of being penetrated by anyting and they’re always saying you’re a cocksucker well you’re a breath sucker how do you like that you’re making love hilarious you taking in the breath in your lungs are being penetrated and you’re just yeah I mean all of that fear of penetration and exchange with their mouth and oral it’s it’s very interesting so I’m going to I’m going to have to find a way to use that to break some of these curses because of hottest women who are breathing in right all men are breathing and also and that’s the receptivity and it’s the vulnerability and part of what I’ve been looking at personally as well as collectively cuz I’m a woman is how does it become safe to be our full sexual beings in the culture as it is and maybe the answer is it isn’t. You don’t like me cuz I wouldn’t want to push it because safety is the really really important point but this thing about vulnerability right so it’s like in terms of the wholeness of okay well you know let’s still keep sexuality in this little corner over there okay well maybe let’s call this little corner Tantra and I’m not dissing in his just like I think it’s great that there’s this opening up in certain parts of the culture II spiritual sex and Tu Amor whole sexuality all that end as I go about my daily life in this world there still like oh yeah and it’s still there over in that little corner like it’s not safe as a generalization for a woman to have her full Sexual Energy has just talking about energetically it doesn’t look safe for her to have her. Actual energy activated in public and I don’t mean any kind of physical thing I don’t mean she’s he’s dressing differently I’m talking about purely energetically and maybe it’s a misconception maybe it is safe and I’m just not aware of that you know because I am speaking energetically but that is a really fertile question of how can it be made safe within the larger culture or needed answers a cat and we just need to focus on the subcultures I don’t know yeah well if it’s it you know if maybe you could spend some time speaking from that perspective about what I guess I’ll I mean I’ll say that if I were to be asked what what ways are are is the fullness of a woman’s sexual energetic Freedom collapsed in limited by this sort of pseudopod Victorian American sex phobic society would be you can’t smile it man because they might take it the wrong way certainly have to be aware of what your how how short your skirt is how open your top is an even how your hips are swaying and what message is that transmit and then the tone of your voice and also many other unconscious aspects of nonverbal communication with your taking his cues and course how much alcohol you drink what time what time of day it is when the sun’s coming down what neighborhood you’re in all of these are all just off the top of my head you know behind each one of those collapsed Expressions is a predator waiting to exploit that weakness or that of owner ability I should say not weakness so yeah that was what do you think what are you How would how do you help women with let’s say and Men navigate and create a safe safe for more sacred wholesome culture container for being able to smile and even give compliment I could imagine a woman give me a compliment to a man and him not having sexual fantasies immediately afterwards or if she if she were to say don’t take this the wrong way but I like what you’re wearing to are some things nice awareness and acceptance and on both parts both for men and women being able to become very aware of our sexual desire and awareness is a kind of meditation so just the practice of being aware there’s a pause there so for example personally one of the things I’ve recently on that subject is like how the hell do I feel safe with a lot of sexual attention being directed at me from guys who want have sex that’s been like so I’m like how it how can that feel safe while it doesn’t feel safe so even in that instance if for some reason I were to work with those guys when should be really funny and interesting but of work within meditative practices cuz none of my practice involves physical sexuality ever I don’t work on that level so anyway it would be to be able to first become aware of for example sexual desire because with strong emotions is a kind of emotion with strong emotions like that there can be a jumping to action where maybe the guy isn’t even fully aware of what he’s feeling that interest up of okay KO that’s sexual desire and for women to because that’s of course one of the stereotypes is like oh well the woman is just supposed to be wanted not what I mean yeah it’s been shipped at some but I still feel it I still feel that. It’s still there that the woman is supposed to be the sex object she’s not supposed to talk too much he’s not supposed to speak her mind too much and yeah there’s plenty of people pointing that out but look who’s President you know there’s plenty of people speaking to that but it’s and it’s still definitely in the culture if not it’s not obliterated yet where the woman is supposed to be the one who is desired the the recipient of male desire but women have desire to just like news flash news flash so anyway one of the first step is that inner looking right because the reaction can go oh I just want that person or I just jumped to some sort of outer activity whatever it may be no tender or whatever or calling or whatever and there isn’t that step of awareness of acknowledging oh I have sexual desire wherever it is the matter woman and said that again can be a first step cuz it’s bringing in a light of awareness before an action is taken so what are some ideas that you have if you are too if you were business and and labors of love and most altruistic your intentions were to scale what would be some of the Transformations that you would that you would say they call the Blue Sky budget if you had a blue sky budget and everyone’s attention or lots of people’s attention and how would you describe a more whole township-based world for us to work and play with in Envision on a regular basis what it would be like to be in enlightened culture in an enlightened culture what would that be I mean it doesn’t even have to be called enlightened how about just like very healthy but it sounds good and letting culture the problem with the word Enlightenment is that it’s all locked and stuff like that but there would be the principal of freedom where we can go around as our whole self as our whole selves where we don’t have to go out with all our masks on I don’t know if you’ve noticed this people walk around with really intense masks psychological masks that I mean I don’t even know if they let them down for people close to them I think some people do but it would be where we can go out in public and be who we really are which is including our sexuality including our natural being were absolutely nature bound and that if there’s issues that arise in that we can consciously work through them and so it would be a culture where first of all Consciousness is the centerpiece it’s recognized as the centerpiece that awareness is the golden key to reality beyond that it would be a playground really I mean like when we look at the Earth it’s so beautiful and I’m not talking about a Utopia I mean life has its work and its hardness so not envisioning a Utopia but when we look at the Earth it’s so beautiful and it’s just creating apparently effortlessly and the dirt is integrated into his creative process is essential to Shadows essential and we’d be remembering that total connection with life and co-creating that sounds good to me so do you want to talk a bit about your about Ohio if your if you’d be interested in that I don’t know much about it I’ve been there a few times and it it it seems like kind of a Haven for somewhere between back to the land and maybe just yeah it seems like a happy medium between really far out rule local food economy type of living in and the spirits it’s yeah like I’m or we’re all kind of Westside LA but not too remote and sounds like a lot of cool stuff is going on there and if you’re interested too kind of I don’t know if the spiritual Chamber of Commerce kind of thing is going on there but you know for you but I’m just curious what’s if you’re seeing if you’re there because more of this more of your ideal lifestyle is accessible there or if if not where have you found some of your ideals most exemplified in you recommend a tour guide of the new paradigm certain people and I don’t know if it’s localized here I mean I’m here because I happen to have falls in love with the place I’m not married to Ohio I’m here for now for the first table future I do love it I wouldn’t call Ohio and then light in town really what I see as hopeful in terms of really the new Earth is a good term for it is any of us who are aware of the darkness of the slave Matrix that so many people are mentally enslaved to and there’s certainly plenty of people enslaved here in Ohio so and realizing that humans we as humans have tremendous potential we really do like we we could have a really amazing earth culture that’s working well with the lands that’s not slowly killing ourselves off you know what that is really as possible so the Hope or where I see that new paradigm represent is really is in the people who are aware of it or wear it because there’s plenty of people who are not where is simply depressed and really really stressed out really really hooked into the mental slavery of the system and they don’t see it how it can be some other way but there’s some of us and I’m sure you were one of them we do see how it could be different and I don’t know if we’ll get there but the path is that if it’s our service so the path is okay well there has to be some kind of critical Awakening like maybe like a hundredth monkey kind of thing and that’s that’s the Cutting Edge that really is and part of and healing is part of it you know whoever’s doing meaningful healing work that’s absolutely serving it and the permaculture people you know the people who’ve got the Practical point of view of how do we have physical systems that are regenerative that’s totally part of it so there’s there are the people who are doing those different pieces so that’s rather than a specific human I like where I’m at but more than that it’s really it’s I see the Hope in nature and those of us who do clearly see that you know it is possible we could collectively awaken this is a possibility and what are some hopeful trends that you’re seeing you know anywhere locally or Beyond or online or yeah positive hopeful trends that she might p.m. reserving like I don’t have children but I love children I’m not going to have children but I love children and you don’t ever see a child I’m like you know they’re not coming out of the wound Shackled that the dark trajectory is that if it just keeps getting darker is like babies will come out of the room they’re already Shackled if you know what I mean but immunization should all the shots poisonings with that in a do you have a just wanted to take a side note here I feel like a lot of people don’t take pregnancy as seriously as they probably should as far as you know of distancing themselves from Psycho Drama and toxic relationships and unfortunately a lot of times it ends up being their baby daddy toxic relationship and yeah there’s there’s a lot of fun of child abuse going on in utero on every level so yeah that’s just it I guess a question if you if you do any work of that nature with clients or if you’re being a part of that movement 2 kind of buffer these toxic influences of all kinds to woman’s pregnant sore yeah when it when a woman is pregnant that’s I guess I just always feel really heartbroken when I see the whole cycle of that whole cycle just not well for one starting with not having a clear intention during the time of conception which is number one no error to be kind of frivolously copulating and not really having a strong attention doesn’t mean it has to be and I’m not I’m not saying it has to be with one person one married partner that’s governed by the Lord Jesus Christ or anything but certainly if your I mean well that’s kind of the most I would say some most ancient most the one of the most essential reasons for a sacred sexuality practice is to protect the the the conception the moment of conception and the process all the processes of development thereafter to invoke the right desirable protective energies and and I will go in on some coaches would have DD’s around that knowing that it’s not just the unless you’re a scientific rationalist atheist to believe that everything is just a did back in the spiritual I mean if your taking using the word sacred you can’t be an atheist because there is nothing sacred to an atheist. That’s what being an atheist is put on the sacred Pro pedestal in that case well yeah before I eat before I go on a soapbox I guess you know the more I guess a specific question would be how are you finding that your work or your studies are involving this this you know people were really wrecked you know if people are really wrecked in their life and they’re being Reckless about about the potential of being a container for life there’s a lot of not just your own car make purification but for your own sake but the responsibility to be a good ever purifying womb space vessel and I’m not going to be the guy to tell women how to do that so I need a safe container so of course a woman who’s pregnant that’s a very specific crucial Time end we’ve all been wounded and so absolutely part of the intention and part of the Derby present work is to create these safe containers where it’s a meeting where the meeting safe where the whole person is welcome so we all need that because of the culture were in and then be on the meetings be on the safe containers of the meetings where a person’s full self is welcome for the individual to be able to create safe containers for herself or himself and that’s important also and that’s different methods where for example creative methods can be a great way for that to happen where someone for example can do a creative exercise such as writing where they know they can destroy the writing afterwards if they want to and in that writing they can say absolutely anything at all they can say things they can write things that they would never tell another person. they would never repeat again but it’s a way of liberating certain aspects of themself and that becomes us a container that’s just one example there’s many others so that stays can container that safe container those safe containers of time and space which can happen through a method are really essential and then the other part of that is one of the things that I put out and things I share online occasionally is about overpopulation and conception things like that which is a really really really important Global issue so that’s part of the collective you is okay our population keeps going up we’re not in good relationship with our resources so that’s not a good equation like it’s like three new babies born every every second or something like that that’s not an exact number but it’s really really really high something like that like 1 2 3 every second and that has to be addressed on some level and as long as it’s still taboo on some level to talk about sex and how babies are made. Going to be a logical progression because so much of sex and sexuality is in the closet still and we’ll so you know we can’t talk about that we can’t talk about you know hey a guy doesn’t need to ejaculate to have an orgasm for example which of course you knew about and I mean that kind of thing that’s one of my other Visions for an unladen cultures that kind of thing it’s like everyone would know that and they would learn it in safe totally non perverted ways it would not be a perversion it would be like hey this is this is something that it’s really good to know and right now it’s like oh my God that’s you can’t you can’t change someone that it’s like you know that’s one of the Visions like imagine if from this point forward every conception was conscious intentional and wanted that would transform the world right there absolutely yeah that’s an interesting I get other so much in jio money spent and so many think tanks just grinding the gears trying to figure this out and it’s really scary man I was thinking about this just the other day was watching this documentary called the fourth world saying that the population the global population of people in slums is probably going to Triple in the next few decades so and I have to wonder why is that well it’s because of these the dogmas and limits around contraception in education and that’s a religious problem at the at the core you know the religious dogma and so I imagine it if the pope decreed that in jaculation is the only way to limit the profuse suffering of people who are born into extreme poverty in you know I mean that’s that’s that would be an interesting turn of events yeah but that’s why one of the reasons why this really really bizarre taboo against acknowledging what creates every single human being is so destructive it’s like it’s really crazy it’s really really really crazy and so in terms of the Times review and the wholeness of Tantra and Tantra leading the wholeness it’s great it’s fine it’s worthwhile that there’s more of a dialogue now about sexual practices of Tantra and that excellent one of Yes Men can learn to have multiple orgasm without ejaculation ejaculating is really really really helpful so that’s highly highly relevant and also in terms of respecting that sexuality I wouldn’t even say can be sacred I would say is inherently sacred so those are essential end we also absolutely need this broader piece of take away the taboo on the fact that we are all sexual beings . We are all sexual beings there’s no one who isn’t a sexual being there’s all sorts of sexuality but we all came out of it therefore we are all sexual beings and that taboo have to be with it it just has to it’s like one of those absolutely essential pieces if Humanity isn’t going to keep going down a really dark path on the the biomedical physiological side of this I just this is the first time thank you so much as a result of this conversation I know have taken this Great Leap Forward to find the actual clinical terminology for a phenomenon that I have been preaching about for a long time which is that if you want less unwanted children and less overpopulation you have to basically extend maternity leave so that mother is can breast feed on demand as long as the children want to because that is the Nature’s Best contraceptive so yeah so here’s that I’m going to read this right there I’m going to just read a bit of this right now because this is the perfect moment to to seed Consciousness with this idea is called lactational amenorrhea laminaria is the temporary post-natal infertility that occurs when a woman is Anna Maria not menstruating and fully breastfeeding breastfeeding and fertility so that’s the English translation I guess you’re calling and breastfeeding and fertility for women who follow the suggestion to meet the criteria listed below laam is 98% effective during the first six months postpartum breastfeeding must be the infants only or almost only source of nutrition feeding formula pumping instead of Nursing and feeding solids all reduce the effectiveness of Lan the infant must breastfeed at least every 4 hours during the day and every 6 hours at night the infant must be less than 6 months old the mother must not have had a. After 56 days postpartum when determining fertility bleeding prior to 56 days postpartum can be ignored and to take full advantage of L am at his best at the baby’s face not be covered when feeding what is that trying to tell us which Ian Lee covering the baby reduces the babies access to oxygen in visual contact with the mother which trains the baby to speed up the cycling process and this reduces the time. Rendering Less La and less affected I’m just going to break down and cry right now I can’t breasts in public call the police or whatever alerts a store manager or whatever they do yeah that’s so this is and and let it and let it think that it’s just died and gone to hell I’m okay so the next thing is even even more telling says if not combined with barrier contraceptives spermicides home if not combined with barrier contraceptives spermicides hormonal contraceptives or intrauterine devices lactational amenorrhea lactational amenorrhea method Lan may be considered natural Family Planning by the Roman Catholic church so it would be time to let maybe the pope is in his likely to agree that we must train men to withhold ejaculation however the the possibility is it stated here that a natural Family Planning method such as Lan would be Church approved not the current pope seems like actually a pretty good guy from what I’ve heard and leader of the free the nipple movement so that LAN show me the way he can do it is exactly the way your previously suggesting is women need to have full leave for a certain amount of time after they have a child and what are the things I’ve studied for years and they sure about with women on occasion is fertility tracking which is so is something that women can do so men can learn how to orgasm without ejaculation so they don’t need to ejaculate and what women can do is learn to we can learn to track or cycles and there is no drugs involved there’s no chemicals involved and it’s really empowering because we can do it’s really pretty simple we can do that with taking our temperature daily before getting up and then also by tracking our cervical fluid and it can be really accurate if it’s done properly and so for example like in college I want the morning after pill kind of broke and if I’ve been doing the tracking at the time is before I got into that I would have been able to know whether or not I needed to even do that because when women tracking mail Partners can do that along with them if they wanted but it’s really would be our responsibility as women we can know exactly how many days were fertile and it’s only going to be like it’s going to be like at most maybe a third of the month or if there is a cycle something like that something like maybe Max 8 days and that’s not an absolute quote but it’s something like that where I mean it’s just for the simple reason of like sparing a lot of stress of how many women of freaked out maybe pregnant and if we’re tracking we can know whether or not that even worth considering so it’s called the fertility awareness method and there’s some good books on it and I learned it on my own just from the books and it’s not the Rhythm method which is not accurate cuz that’s projected path Cycles on to Future Cycles which is not a good idea cuz the next cycle the next women cycle can be totally different it’s where you actually know the women will actually know what phase of fertility she’s in and then can choose more responsibly how to deal with pregnancy throw or if she wants to conceive it help conception to because then she’ll know I’m most fertile Denso it helps with with and then a really cool thing is even if a woman is sexually active she can know within a few days when she’ll get here her. Which is really is great to be an engine has no concern about pregnancy or if she’s not having sex is really helpful and cool to be able to know I know my. Is going to start within these three days or something so this is great fertility awareness method wow oh we have this has been quite an adventure with a lot of different inquiries in I just want to say is we’re getting close to a good time to wrap up if you have any other important messages you want to share and certainly you know feel free to promote your services and your website and everything and then I look forward to the next adventure I want to start just this mean point that inspired reaching out to you which is this view of Contra as a spiritual path to wholeness into Awakening that is not dependent on whether or not there is any physical sex happening it’s not dependent on that and it’s this invitation to allow ourselves this Consciousness that Embraces every aspect of ourselves and in turn actually every aspect of our existence where there isn’t any aspect of ourselves that we need to make evil or Macon to the devil and we can really embrace all of who we are whatever that may be so that’s the time trick message and then the other piece is that what I offer is called dare to be present and it is supporting individuals in being able to learn how to be with themselves and learn how to explore their inner being the thoughts the Motions the inner body how to bring awareness to this inner self. Has been massively neglected in a very extremely driven culture because that inner self is always there and it’s what gives meaning really is what gives any of the meaning in our life so if anyone wants to reach out about that the site for dare to be present my sight is dare to be present. Com present present and I got a newsletter a send out some inspirational writings so anyone is welcome to sign up for that and I offer a free connection call where we would chat on the phone for 20 minutes or so and just be able to connect in the moment in that time and there’s no further obligation beyond that and then I share a lot of presents perspectives on Facebook so if you go to my site there would be present. 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