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Coronavirus, Joan Rivers, and The Princess Bride TPP235

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Joan Rivers Reality Tv Show Permaculture Installation

In this episode I tell an epic survival romance story to commemorate victims of the coronavirus and urge folks to do their best to prepare for this and all threats to their survival…

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My (non-verbatim) Show Notes: 

2012 respected consultant on emergency and disaster preparedness and permaculture design

my partner and I landed a well paid gig for permaculture /preparedness survival make over for Joan Rivers’ Joan Know’s Best reality tv show, rest in piece, rest her soul, amazing important wise elder matriarch of the entertainment industry

honor and blessing to work very closely with her, for that day of shooting, brought out big stake truck, moved our chicken tractor, and mini pond, and mini herb spiral, faux backyard permaculture set up

there had been an earthquake in la, mild but enough to feel it, a few things fall of the wall, they might have captured footage of it during the reality tv show filming, the producers after that real earthquake said, we should actually do a subplot within an episode on disaster preparedness, what it would look like for Joan, daughter and grand son to do an emergency prep process

they had a scene showing they needed batteries for flash lights, doing intuitive inventory of what you need to survival, if there was a disruption of systems of support, critical services cut off, would you be able to render your own first aid, provide food water shelter clothing, they got footage of the family going through the motions seeing how unprepared they were

they went to an amazing local survival equipment wholesaler/retailer, it was like disney land for preppers, they were a company they supplied first aid kits, fire extinguishers, water storage tanks, tools, camping gear, I could go on, their catalog was like porn for me, you go in there and wish you could buy everything, just want to live there, if you were an employee and shit hit the fan you’d be stoked, they should have had guns though, maybe someone should establish a gun store right next door to defend it in a shift hit the fan

so I was living out this romance novel story out on this land, peak of a man’s love life, beautiful romance, crashed and burned in a very archetypal and mythical the arch of the whole relationships, set foot on her property to establish permaculture systems which she had wanted for years, just didn’t have the right person to help, there was an opportunity she put out to the spiritual community that she had this land and wanted to make it productive, I hit her up and said this is what I’ve been trained to do and I’d be happy just to have a place to pitch a tent

it was the end of 2011, lots of 2012 energy, wow if I could be bugged out on some land in the mountains where you’re tucked away in the wood lands, less zombie pressure, higher income bracket, going from where I was at the time, when I met her I had been doing an urban survival permaculture training center garden, I built on top of an parking lot at a big punk warehouse artist colony venue

I developed the rugged outdoor survival life style, in the middle of south central la, surrounded by gangs

I wasn’t trying to scam on her, wasn’t hitting on, it just kinda happened, I was attracted, I respected her, she was almost 20 years older, loved the heck out of her, we did beautiful things together

I was grateful to get the fuck out of the urban center, it was sweet spot, in the mountains, but sill close enough to the city to do gigs and stay in my band

but I wanted to live on the land focus on the land, first building my little camp, sproutables as stable food, I still have embarrassing footage of documenting the projects as they went along

as I got my camp established I started to make a masterpiece out of the land, did the permaculture design, set up composts, garden beds, earth works

this was my dream, that I had been cooped up literally in urban projects, now I got to have this giant canvas

I was filled with love and light, and at the peak of virility

I can’t help getting into the romance, we had this banter, it was quite charming

very much the as you wish, sweet wesley, princess butter cup, princess bride kinda thing she’s like a millionairess, owning her property, in a house that she built with her ex-husband, and with their ill-fated marriage and divorce left her with the house all to herself

a shamanic priestess in her own right, I was drawn for the ceremonial opportunities happening there

at one point she had been developing feelings for me, I begun my tantric path and was resolute in being open and non monogamous, doing long trial periods and setting up agreements where we put leases on each other’s bodies, not just permanent access, it’s gonna be metered out and we’re gonna hold true to contracts

that’s not the most romantic part of the story, sorry that’s my virgo, living and learning hard lessons of getting trapped in toxic relationship situations

she was thrilled to see her property come to life, thrilled clip fresh greens, harvest chicken eggs, she was a crack chef, holistic lavish parties

she was healing, in a cycle of healing with some issues that forced her to stop working, she was really actually, for me to come in there at a time where she had so much liquid capital for so many decades of her professional career, and I get there, having come out of the south central punk ghetto, having really figured out survival, minimalism, living outside, I had just come out of that sort of self imposed ranger school if you will, in some ways very extreme and comparable to that, in some ways I’m doing a disservice to ranger school graduates by saying that

I had seen of the colony reality show seasons, sophisticated social experiments, group of volunteers, strangers, with skill sets, put into social experiment of urban survival post disaster, constructed scenario, global pandemic outbreak, they were put into a survival theme park, they peppered in all these different tools and supplies and equipment, had to ration food, solar power, water purification, latrine, living quarters, defend perimeter, it was like a survival obstacle course staged by the producers, of course they hyped the sexual drama and politics, lots of stage, but overall done very well, really brought out patriarchal douche bag in one of the characters, they probably played it up but this guy played a real jerk, if they had a yogi there and they got that guy chilled the fuck out they would have been happier

I was fresh off the urban survival experience and watching the colony season, I wanted to put myself through that, the experience of deprivation, like a full time drill, I was on extremely tight budget, I was very very very poor financially, that was part of the drill, it made it all work

she was brought down to my level even though she owned property, the cost of heating that place, the water bill, commuting, family expenses, it was stress inducing, so for me to be able to come in there with very sophisticated simple and elegant techniques for living frugality, eating sprouts every night, and what I called ben feed, own trail mix, not paleo and bad for teeth and gut though, thought it was great that was no added sugar, but too much carb and dried fruit sugar, so not the best wisdom at that stage, but able to subsist

sprouting grains and legumes make them healthier, less toxic, less carbs

so between fresh chicken eggs every morning, fresh greens and herbs eventually fruits and some berries

I pretty much brought sustenance to her from my humble 5 gallon buckets and mylar bags, I was nourishing her and providing for her and at that everyday it was like farm boy fetch me a bowl of sprouts, as you wish

it led to a moment where she was commiserating with a couple of fellow elder priestesses about her empty love life, and I walk by them, when they saw me and they heard her talking about her woes, they said that’s your man, he’s right here on your doorstep

when we sat together and talked love the first time, I said, something to the effect that I’m like a reference book at the library, you have to share me

another thing she said was that she did test me though, there was an epic project that had to be and I knocked it out for her, and that was part of it too

also she said she fell in love with me when she saw me leading a group of other men repairing her teepee,

she seemed to have been sniffing out the alpha pheromone, though I’m not overtly alpha in terms of being agro or competitive

I felt it for her and she felt it for me, and it was negotiated to be openish, we had a sacred contract ultimately for a period of months of monogamy

we were successful, she was the sales and marketing and spokes model and I was the inventor, builder, introverted, designer, not people person

she was extraverted, our videos still exist where you can see how charming she is

it was the peak of our romance and success together, me building my wares and her selling them, legally registered by new cottage food law

cottage food paradigm shift

we were one of the first, we were rockin, had permaculture workshops, I was in the process of starting an officially recognized permaculture design course with a novel at-your-own-pace format for low income people

we had meet ups, workshops, other instructors coming in, weddings, we sold 150 amaranth seedlings to a wedding production as wedding gifts to all the attendees, can’t imagine how prolific those plants have been, amaranth is my spirit plant

glorious achievements, romance novel come to life

we started going to classes at that survival equipment store, I got my first aid training there, we went there together

we also did the cert training at the local fire station together

we were getting into tactical permaculture, vision of creating seed pellets to be used in airsoft guns so that you would know by what was planted where the kill zones were, better avoid where all the wild flowers were clustered

we had a legitimate, top tier tactical training marksman involved with the project, we started to draft out the ultimately survival permaculture tactical theme park design, motes, edible perimeter defense like sugar cane, blackberries, imagine stick fighting training with sugar cane, or chewing on your night stick while being a warrior defending your goddess temple community, sugar cane staff, for a bit of extra blood sugar if you need to run or fight, imagination runing wild, but it was starting to happen, archery, martial arts training gear, kicking post in the office, talk about warrior goddess temple, permaculture goddess temple, the whole 9 yards, a lot of people have beautiful memories of the time as well, it was epic

so we had started to work with the survival store, and one of our sex magic rituals yielded the mascot of the brand I had established years ago

she had to reel me in and tone done my zombie apocalypse rhetoric, she advised some re-edits on my basic preparedness manual to take out the zombie talk, smoothed out the edges so she could see to other high class soccer moms

I rebranded a more family friendly business card, and the survival store had the business card on their bulletin board, her handy work of getting the business card out to people

so the Joan River’s production crew searched for survival training, found the store, went there and asked if they do home consulting/installation, I believe they said no, but oh here’s this business card from those nice friendly homesteader folks that shop here and trainer here, so they gave the production staff the business card

we got a call, I didn’t even know who Joan River’s was, I think she got the call, and she seemed keyed up, of course Joan has a big place in my heart since space balls, but I didn’t know her name

she was like hey they want to pay us to do this thing on the show, there were some things they were pushing on that I thought would be poor representation, I was worried that we’d be made fun of, make a joke of, and my colleagues would tear me apart of I miss represented the art and science to the masses, preppers and permies can be pretty vicious in terms of political correctness, and one-upmanship, ego bullshit,

but I decided to go along with it, nothing was a huge violation of the principles and science, one thing I really didn’t like but let it slide

I don’t think I’ll burn in hell for selling out

the shoot went well, the chemistry was great, we lucked out, because it was 50/50 if we were gonna be the laughing stock, if you’re Joan Rivers’ laughing stock and she’s gonna bully you mercilessly with her lines, you’d have to have thick skin, I expected since were the crazy wingnut survival freaks, doing this backyard makeover

ultimately it worked out well, in our favor, because the whole series was that Joan had moved in with her daughter to drive her crazy and try to control her life with her humor and divaness, that was the premise of the whole show

it worked in our favor because Joan was authentically on board with us, she got it, she asked about our backgrounds, I said I’ve been a survivalist since I was on the street as a young teenager, saw dark things and had to learn to survive

and my partner grew up more holistic, ranch, rustic, agricultural life, farmer relatives, americana

we clicked so Joan even said you look good together, the most golden compliment you can ever get, what can’t you do if you can impress Joan river’s visually that was a huge compliment all thought one of her staff thought I was my partner’s son, lots of funny moments

they have a whole day of footage and only use a few minutes

so joan hires us to do the consultation and backyard make over and she’s thrilled and gung ho to have us appear to be tearing up the lawn, we’re going to be growing vines all over the place, build a chicken run, turn the pool into a living edible natural pond and fish farm, and so the great thing was that joan was totally on board with everything and stoked and gung ho, and the antagonism was with her daughter

the lines that joan said I couldn’t have paid her a trillion dollars to say, about when the shit hits the fan the neighbors are gonna be lined up down the block to get my eggs, we’re gonna be sustainable, and she was sincere, she was old enough to have a clue about self sufficiency and hard times

it was a beautiful experience, here we are now years later, 8 years later, no longer in that relationship, no longer on the property, I can only hope since we parted was in a pretty ugly meltdown, I love to hope we’d be able to not rekindle but reminisce on what was mostly good

it was pretty acute collapse at the very end after wild success in love and business and the sky being the limit, if what we did for joan rivers was good enough for her even as a joke that’s a pretty good endorsement, we did we teach for the local government emergency committees

got a business loan, we had a mascot, a brand, we were selling buckets of survival food, sprouting kits, trainings, its damn shame, it all comes down to monogapathic behavior, she could follow the letters of our agreement which gave me freedom to be a healer

I told her I was gonna be a yoni worshiper and healer and that’s my path and training before we met, and you’re gonna have to come to terms with that, it doesn’t mean that I’m even that I’m having sex with anyone I may be touching people they may be touching me, that’s where I really fine tuned my deal with women, looking at what are the actually permanent irreversible risks to having an open relationship, incurable stis, sexually transmitted infections, that’s the only permanent way of affecting negatively a primary partner that you have, you’ll heal a broken heart, you’ll get over feeling upstaged and deprioritized, if there’s longevity and strength and security in the relationship, everything else that’s emotional you’ll heal from even it seems so traumatic, what you can’t escape from is incurable stis, to me I say, my deal is like look what we have to design around is that one thing and we can have our hearts open as wide as we want, and our legs spread and our pants off, to the world of everyone else, as long as we understand and acknowledge that how much faith do we really place in just using condoms, do we have boundaries around outercourse, or dry sex, or non fluid bonded sex, there’s ways to intelligently avoid the risk of stis, I know this breaks some hearts, and there were times when I was not willing to reciprocate this in my younger life, but by then I had realized the beauty and the nourishment of a diverse sexual, romantic, and sensual cornucopia of lovers, and patients and clients for healing, and friends, and the idea that would sacrifice all of that to keep one person from losing their mind, it was a horrific melt down of her feeling like she was losing me and losing control of me, I take full responsibility for what I did that was inappropriate, immature, not of high moral character in the process of how this went down,

we would still be friends, we would still together I would still be on that land, still be taking care of the trees I planted, all the life I brought to that land, I would still be stewarding that and would still be in her words the man of the land and we’d still be living happily ever after

I was showing her through my permitted actions what I needed to be happy, fulfilled, and doing my dharma

it came down to one moment that really shifted for me when I started to really branch out, it wasn’t because I was bored with her or sick of her

there was a video that was shot, my experience of modeling for a camera to do tantric session work with a total stranger to me in that day, when I saw myself in that footage, I’m not vane at all I have the least vanity about my appears, I feel unphotogenic, and as JS said, I have a face made for radio,

its not just oh im shy about it, I really break the lens from a lot of angles and I know that, I design my content with that in mind, its not like oh I need to be a star now but when I saw the video, tantra for couples using the five sense

I saw the energy, the level of focus, such a fan of Jean Claude Van Damme, loved his controlled, metered, measured, self contained manner, from spiritual practice and martial arts practice, the refined shiva healing energy you could see it in the grace of my movements

I may not be a 10 on the surface, with big muscles, perfect teeth, perfect smile, photogenic, a-list actor material, that didn’t matter, I could consider myself a 6 on the surface and what was beneath the surface was resonating and emanating so beautifully to my soul, I can really do this work and have it be really compelling, this really does confirm that this is my calling and my path, and remain open

I’ve never cheated, I’ve prenegotiated or precommunicated my intentions, ended one relationship before having sex with a new person, I’ve cheated emotionally if you want to use that dirty word that id on’t like at all, I’ve indulged myself in pleasures with other people emotionally that I didn’t communicate or invite my current primary partner to be a part of and for them to wonder about that was painful for them, still not technically a cheater, I have not hooked up with someone and had sexual intercourse with them without previously ended the relationship before them, I have that gold star on my shoulder for not being a cheater,

but she was not gonna go by the original agreements that we had even though I was not willing to renew the sacred contract, she could have had her take and ate it too, it was just really sad, if she would have been able to share tiny slices of the cake with the understanding that I would not be jeopardizing her health, and that I could have the discipline either not to do anything that could involve transmission of stis, or have barriers, or have testing done, there’s just so many ways that you can navigate that one ultimate deal breaker and there was just no negotiation whatsoever, so it melted down in a very rapid and ugly manner, maybe some day she’ll be on the podcast to ball break me back on that

it was a power couple par excellence, we were doing business together, living together happily, it was really tragic and sad that that happened, I guess this was the time for that story to come out, its relevant to current events because that was the peak of me teaching survival and preparedness, obviously I haven’t stopped living that way since I left, I’ve always maintained ample food, water supplies, first aid, kept healthy and fit, glued to the news, evacuation routes, positioned advantageous in terms of zombies, my career path collapsed losing that space, I still sold some supplies and kits, it really stopped when I had the sexual shamanic spiritual emergency, all that is to say it’s been 8 years since I was at that peak and I have done my solo survival, haven’t been imposing it on people either, roomates, that don’t give a fuck thinks you’re paranoid, every prepper knows what that feels like, family, co-workers, getting people on board its painful for everybody, and it takes those moments of oh there was an earthquake oh shit who do we call, now its time to take him seriously

it’s like you’re crazy paranoid prepper until one moment when the lights go out or there’s a tremor then I’m the savor, whatever, honestly we are like ambulance chasers, its like oh now you’re ready okay what do you have to put on the table, how much money will you put towards buffering this for next time, because it could be the next one big time

so anyone paying attention to the coronavirus outbreak, it will have an official name soon, exposing corruption in government response, digital quarantines, limited by gps, apocalypse 2.0 its crazy, studying this, trying to be ahead of it, maybe I’ll be one of the first to go, you never know, you could be the strongest person, with muscle, and twist an ankle and die in 3 minutes without air, 3 hours without shelter, 3 days without water, 3 weeks without food, 3 months without love

those are your enemies and that is the battlefield, those time frames of conditions that can kill you so I could go at any time, all of my preps could be nullified by anything

but I have done my homework and due diligence, to have a clue and be woke about this stuff

now is the time for people who are having that acute moment of waking up to the vulnerability and all of our taken for granted, normalcy bias, it can’t happen to me

still cognitive dissonance around this virus, I don’t have the medical knowledge to have a strong opinion or a lot of facts to back up any claims about how scared anyone should be where ever they are, I know the places in the world where this is being taken very seriously, that is the sci apcalyptic experience, where everything that preppers do to be ready to either quarantine themselves, or escape the quarantine but do it ethically and go somewhere where you will be ethically quarantining yourself, but to be rounded up in camps is the preppers last, that is the ultimate thing to avoid, you’re subject to rape, search and seizure, being exposed to the virus, exposed to risk of incarceration if you resist or don’t comply, state’s measures are very corrupt

chinese doctor tried to alarm officials of the virus, is now dead of the virus, and was forced by police to sign some fake confession that he was fraudulently alarming the public

there’s been all kinds of fuckery in every country around these kinds of things

I’m not telling anyone to panic, it’s just for me, the modifications that I will make to my lifestyle are pretty minimal because I try to stay away from crowds anyway, I try to do more fist bumps than hand shakes, and when I hear some body snivel or cough I got into a controlled, germaphobic, hypochondriac high alert mode, of don’t touch your face, you can scratch your eye with your knuckle, your knuckle doesn’t touch door knobs, and when you cough and sneeze you can do it in your elbow

I’m not giving medical advice, for myself I look at this and go okay this is cycle of opportunity for me to preach and teach about basic preparedness, I guess what I will do to not be too heavy handed, I’ll put a link in the show notes to the podcast episode I did where I read that basic preparedness manual that has pretty much all of the fundamental procedural building blocks of how you can be better prepared for anything, when the shit hit’s your fan , not the fan

job loss, injury, cut off from income, its not just end of the world event that’s going to force you to institute your procedure and protocols for preparedness It could be something simple

it’s not gonna become the zombie apocalypse show, but it’s the right time to tell that story, so many mythical moments, I loved that woman, I loved that land, for a farm boy like me, that’s as good as it gets, it’s a damn shame the way it went down, but if I’m 80 years old in rocking chair and people ask me what some of the peaks of my life were, I’ll be like well, I’ll tell you story next time there’s a little tiny earthquake that makes you want to prepare for the next one, or next time there’s an outbreak I ‘ve got a story for you, this will be the story I tell

survival and preparedness getting back to the land it can be romantic it can be beautiful it can only get more polyamorous, it can only get less monogapathic, but for all intents and purposes if it was good enough for joan rivers, hopefully what I’m saying is good enough for you, to want to say yeah, what am I gonna wipe my ass with if there’s not a sycamore tree near by and I’m out of toilet paper, how am I going to look at ways to improve and enhance the number of gallons of water that I’m storing on site because a gallon per person for day is a low estimate of what you’d want to have if you were cut off from the main, or the main supply is contaminated, I think it’s worth it to take this moment to really figure out what strategies you may need to have in place

if martial law at any scale or you could just by happenstance, they’re quarantining people now all over the world, different directness of exposure to this virus, for all I know, for all you know, we could find out tomorrow that you were in a place where somebody had a confirmed case, then you’d get a knock on your door, and get taken away, don’t quote me, I’m not making official public service announcements, I take this very seriously, I ain’t going out like that if I can help

like everything else, it too shall pass, but even if it doesn’t graze your life and doesn’t put a dent in your routine, it’s a moment to commemorate

how often do you put yourself through the meditation of lights out, food supply cut off, income cut off, possibly being injured, possibly being infected, being affected by a war zone, unexpected disruptions in all that you take for granted on a daily basis

if you meditate on the vedic pantheon, you should also meditate on shitting hitting the fan, and shit hitting your fan

there was a guy who was the closest thing to a purple breathing hippie yoga master tantric on the survival podcast

there’s an anti-woo-woo bias, as you can imagine by the more conservative, libertarian, and to some extent more christian ranks of the survival movement, yet there is this interesting interplay of the bush hippie and jar head, the bromance, I’m in that dance

but there was this hardcore survivalist prepper yogi on the survival podcast, I’ll be reaching out to that guy

this coronavirus is a catalyst to do your drills, check your inventory, audit your physical preps and your plans, your protocols and procedures, and just be ready for things to get possibly worse, because of this virus or any other viruses, this is just another not so friendly reminder, goddess bless all the souls who’ve already passed from this virus, and let’s do our best not to join them in the big fema camp in the sky

namaste

Born Positive: Transcending the Stigma of HIV and AIDS with Shawn W TPP222

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In this episode I was blessed to hold space to hear the deeply moving story of a born HIV positive man. He shares intimate insights into how various institutions within society can bring out both the best and worst of the human soul. He’s endured, survived, and transcending immense pain all while pursing fulfilling and nurturing sexual access,  true love and acceptance. It was a sincerely humbling honor to learn of his struggles.  I feel invigorated to continue to grow and evolve and support the acceptance and empowerment of all oppressed and marginalized people.

About Shawn:

Shawn W. was an awkward 80’s baby born in the wilds of Florida with one goal in mind: survival! Hear about some of the crazy adventures he endured including sex, drugs, and living with HIV.

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Hacking Group Romance as a Porn Director not a Cult Leader TPP200

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In this episode I’m joined by a mystery guest for a wild comedic adventure into the repressed caverns of my erotic mind. She holds enthusiastic and giggly sacred space for me to get on a roll lamenting about the current state of monogapathic culture. She helps me get through a lot of catharsis in exploring my life history of drama and madness surrounding opening up to more inclusive group sexual and romantic encounters. With her gracious support, I’m able to take liberties in the manner in which I share some of my most passionate and taboo-breaking fantasies. With care and consideration for ethics and holism, I attempt to induce a few laughs as I graphically depict my experimental designs for hacking group romance.

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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin pillow their beloveds welcome to Township Punk podcast episode number 200 I just got back from an East Coast tour with the punk rock metal band and I’m thrilled to say we had a great time and did very well and I made it back in one piece and this is an exciting episode 200 Extravaganza where are some of my backlog recording this and this was one of the one of my favorite ones that I had to choose from for the episode 200 and I think you will really Joy it is definitely something different it is it is a my first summer unintentional extended comedy monologue with a a wingwoman of sorts and she’s holding space for me to bring forth into a level of of hilarity that I don’t normally I don’t know don’t normally summon and don’t really feel as is often appropriate but once you get on a roll when you start to really stimulate somebody’s Funny Bone verbally then it’s it’s hard not to to just run with his so it may be offencive it may be a little over-the-top and in that what we’ve come to appreciate about that classic stand up comedian form is that you’re able to get away with exposing truths in a very heated very sometimes aggravated state of mind and people cathartically get off on someone else saying what speaking out there are deeper taboo thoughts so if this is the first episode you’ve heard of mine it is definitely uncharacteristic of most of the rest way I tend to joke here and there but really really typically try to be pretty reserved and really focus on a I’m more of a dialogue with a guess this in this case it’s it’s almost completely One Direction all but her being there is absolutely essential in order to get that Dynamic flowing and it certainly in the sense of Comedy it really helps I don’t know how people can just write write comedy in their own inner sanctuary and not have that that reverberation in that that feedback and and dynamic but anyway this is a lot of fun and what we’re talking about what I’m talking about. Manly and she’s helping hold the space for me to really mansplain in an unethical way really is talking about the the bloopers and Antics and Folly and what I’ve learned from attempts to hack this notion of group romance and really learn from a lot of mistakes and really create sort of personal interpersonal living breathing think-tank research experiment out of how to best overcome the limitations that we have in most modern patriarchal monotheistic minago Pathak cultures where our options are very limited and our experience and Expo are two other modes of loving and healing and relating romantically they’re completely systematically cauterized by these Disneyland archetypes of monogamy and whatnot so I get into the higher level kind of macro cultural analysis and critiques and then we get into a lot of really fun really absurd ridiculous and playful visual kind of comedic audioporn take to get through some of the designer ideas of how to how to be hacking group romance and I’m really this is it from my perspective a a male centered male-oriented you could call it phallocentric you could say I’m being a chauvinist here but really I think it’s about making sexual gratification in the feeling of love and connection amongst people be as egalitarian as possible and really work with what you have within your your orientation your identity your group of friends and just explore those boundaries and really gamify group romance and hopefully this really stands is a introductory Treatise on why it’s important to explore these things and what the the payoffs are so hope you enjoy it this is definitely for me one of my top favorite episodes of all time because of where we where we get to in the end of Vibes of it you know I hope that it leaves you rolling on the floor and also curious and also emboldened to take more adventurous steps in the future of your love life all right thank you very much if you’ve been with me along waist episode 200 thank you for for being with me and enjoy this historic episode thank U Namaste and they would not be comfortable with you hacking the storylines of of compulsory monogamy and telling stories very festive stories about what it’s like to like not be in patriarchy and like it she does she know yeah that’s what good for sale teacher reflect a picture or no one’s happy everybody’s miserable and just whining about it new relationships breaking out and being her and then just repeating the cyclist over and over is very defeatist like cry about level of times but at least you’re feeling something at least you’re not a total sociopath narcissist like don’t even care spending to steal it self-inflicted stuff too cuz you just like wanting holding on to like the painful stuff I guess we’re like people that aren’t making like the best for you but it’s sad and it’s like Basin and being married and being screwed if you lose that Financial Lifeline life support so there we have listed this is the in permaculture design Geoff Lawton and it likes to use this teaching to a witches that when it comes to like agriculture what you’re talking about gardening earlier today but it’s like this so if you only plant one crop in a field that’s a lot like fishing with a single line where they know that if that crop fails or that line breaks your your your Sol and so the smart Fisher person would say I let me fish with a net so that if one or even several of those lines break with internet I still have a functioning device here so that’s what you could systems do and that’s why polyculture in gardening and Horticulture polyculture means multiple different phrase things as opposed to monoculture so you can make this analogy very happy to monogamy and monoculture and still what’s resilient in an ecosystem diversity right the more diverse ecosystem the more resilient it is the more flexible adapter is in more abundant and flourishing it is so monoculture monogamy monotony it’s and then that’s why people are living in this wounded heart broken real disaster of a reality and it’s just profit people that make the Laurie handlers cuz it seems like I’m she said in her podcast if this was a easy the country cafe or sex and happiness she said to podcast over the years she makes an excellent point that she’s over his doesn’t not interested in the heartache that sells and wants to crack break your heart open to love everyone pretty much and to have new experiences and to be open to new experiences and so have a very regenerative heart and I would like the concept of being a heart Gardner so like I’m trying to I have not just one heart that I love her that I tend I have a garden that I attend of many hearts and some of them need more attention at times some of them you know every more self-sufficient some of them could tell me to get lasted for cough and don’t even want want me like even looking at them and everything in between so then you know being a heart Gardner and trying to keep them all alive and and not neglect them and be responsible for like letting them Blossom letting them rot on the vine either you know anyway so there’s so much to learn and so much to sing about so sincere singer I’m a singer we’re going to think about this stuff. We also actually I need to have experience to know where the fuck were talking about so that’s where we begin with what where does the authentic Journey actually begin and that’s where we and I just watched Breakfast Club where they were it’s like this painstaking process of socially engineering the truth out of what how and what circumstances virginity was happening or not happening so we all have virginity is two different things even if we popped her cherry City this week so so we’re at the precipice of The Virginity of your experimental lesbianism is it a few dedicated to your not identified as a woman now what do you mean what I mean is that my I’m very interested in the notion of you having sex with a woman if you if you want to sit at one point I was very blunt and I asked you and I risked I risked being considered a British attend to try to do that so it’s basically asking if I’m if you’ve ever had if you would have ever had sex with a woman and if not would you like to and you said you would like to but you like to what you say roll around with me first right I think that’s yeah so that could be arranged so basically you know that’s compromised that’s that’s how you have probably that’s the beginning of it is like what do you need what a minor needs how can we meet in the middle somewhere and so well this is what is so interesting to me and what I am going to share is like my design concept that I put a lot of effort into trying to figure out which is this is that okay if we really break the stuff down what we don’t have what we have a lot of experience of as children is being gently yet with with I would say lowercase authoritarianism weird we are compelled by adults to share toys and we learn against whatever maybe that jealous or envious nature or selfish nature we learn to to actually eventually Delight in the gift of sharing something with others so that we actually realize that there’s this abundance of my face you know it’s not like hopefully it’s not like you don’t eat the toy in the toy is something that doesn’t get destroyed after one use of the toy I’m so that you can hand it on and and let other people experience so what somewhere along the path of puberty we get program to lose that fundamental sociability and Collective position of like the toys that we would be sharing on the playground and once we develop and grow and have her own public Parts in appropriate age appropriate settings to explore Inn Express in which we all know is lacking in this culture and that’s why we have abusive all kinds cuz we don’t have rice passage and we don’t know when we are to do wet when howl with himself in a healthy way or holistic way I should say so we’re we are fumbling in the dark trying to figure this stuff out and somewhere we get cursed with these imprints of monogamy that is compulsory compulsive Naga me bound up in Notions of being a prince and a princess and all of these socioeconomic status oriented ways of like something being mine a person me owning that person this status symbol so there’s I’m not saying anything for you know this groundbreaking to indict these memes and this culture architecture and you know they have spoken to like many people feminists just look at feminist anthropology in the critique of domestication in the in the critique of civilization and patrilineal descent and the the the the way that wealth and land and power is handed down from a meal bloodline Emil name Inlet that’s why you control you would need to control the female sexuality and reproductive freedom in order to guarantee that your son gets your land in and not someone else’s so that’s that’s the patriarchy connection and we want to what super tall that perverted and silver and actually compost the patriarchy is she so I don’t think there’s a there’s no there’s nothing more subversive then then then opening up relationships because once you start buying less because old do do we need to each have our own garage filled with tools from big box stores or can we all share one fucking tool set amongst us all lovers sharing each other’s bodies it’s not rocket science and it’s not rocket science way they have made it so difficult to be relating sexually openly with computers with a peer group and neighborhood of adults because they want us all to be in our little boxes buying one of every that have everything and not sharing anything and therefore it cuts into their bottom line so we are doing our best to compost the patriarchy to be subversive and actually have a lot of fun doing it it’s not a dip revation and sacrifice to have more fun sexually with more people it is a little bit more requisite of time for emotional care and tenderness for sure it’s complicated and it is and is medically important to be but if it’s as if you can play any video game that you play any board game you can gamify Sexual Health in a group you can end in the end not to do bring it to the light and be like okay well we match here like literally HSV expressing in one part of the body can match to that and another person other parts of body and you can pretty much pretty much know you’re safe at that point there’s there’s ways to gamify these things so that you know curses can be blessings in yet make it very used that’s who we need to design the user-friendly interface for people to connect and 4 shame and not even just the end of course the STI status stuff but also people who just have body issues about so we can be mixing and matching his stuff and yeah. There’s an app for it kind of a thing you know in this world so so we’re getting there and you know you pull the card and you know people who so it will and that’s why that’s the reason to do yoga so that you can hold these sexual positions forever because he like baby words said when a man basically two pair of fruit to fear fear for his baby Ward and I’m mixing a couple of I’m adding a couple together of her if you’re beautiful phrases but basically if I were Davey word I would probably say something like if I if I was balls do you know when your balls deep in me I want it to last forever I want your penis in my vagina forever and I can’t Rainman how to make that possible and actually there was a good scene in Jerry Maguire where she asked for him to she’s don’t ever stop fucking me in a kind of like kills the mood when he says I think I’ll have to stop at some point and then they fucking break up with a douche no sorry to tell you I love you tons hear me okay forget about it Interview with the Vampire okay stop me somebody for the cold water on me right now all right yeah it was Saved by the Bell you is just batteries going to last all night long you’re you’re you’re getting okay so it’s yours work as graphic this is where he’s going to get more perverted this is building it up so building and Outdoors like what is it why does this matter that’s why why am I trying to have so much fun packing monogamy and the shame and the pain and the jealousy and the limitation it’s just it’s false it’s completely insane and in deranged and and I will not tolerate it for one more second my life and in that spirit I say I’ve done the boyfriend-girlfriend thing I’ve done in monogamy thing I’ve done a jealousy thing and then a hard brake thing so if somebody enters my life and is attracted to me I go out how this is interesting erotic energy flowing in my direction how can I not manipulated not abused if not not not heard it or harm it but actually let it flow through my little garden design of more pleasure and then also this is the thing where I feel like I’ve made an important hack an important this is because this is been going back to how we learn to share so this is as an adult with adult content adult appropriate settings of course but really bring it down and that’s why I am a huge fan of psychedelic sexuality because it inhibits the neurotic aspects of the ego and if you’re going to trust in space and you have referees and you have good guidance and going on in people are observing and being Sheriff’s that to the boundaries when the people are you know any in there Altered States but would you with the beauty of it is that you get to explore again and you get to explore bodies and he could do store your own body and it’s not a story about who’s owns this and who’s rights to this and fuck where’s all the paperwork and did I swear to it tonight so that’s and it doesn’t have to be an orgy of people fucking very sloppily very carelessly when you get into the tantric practices of massage wherever it’s about it’s really the best things really happen with the most intentional experts killed manual and leading up to of course different forms of penetration with genitals but it’s underrated how much how much pleasure and how deep deep healing we can be with their hands with each other in and really there’s no excuse not to be doing that cuz you’re not going to make babies and they just called outercourse or mutual masturbation went on so that’s where rather than rushing from first base to second base and all of that hyper rush to the Finish Line stuff fit culture this culture is trained to do you actually can start out saying okay it could literally be a fun and fulfilling and safe Friday night for a group of friends 2 take each other to take their clothes off and use their hands to induce different types of orgasms in each other consensually and into explorer that and so that’s where I say the games of politics becomes like whose are you fucking that is long as you if you if you keep that off the table a little just long enough and this is what so at what I have there is like a Zone that is safer emotionally and medically to play in in groups to actually start to rewire and meltdown those belief systems so that you have a clean slate in in your capable of exploring slowly and building on the new Pannu template that you design and we’re very plastic a blank brain can be reformatted we can 3 format is hard drive as many times we want there’s no limit to it and we were it’s absurd to think they were stuck in a 2000 year old paradigm I’d rather be in a 200,000 Euro Paradigm cuz that’s where the real phone was happening anyway but we’re going to get to the Primal Anarchy of lovemaking groups in just a minute now so break here’s how we break from breakthroughs goes invisible prison cells in our minds about monogamy and so I figured it out like how I would like to conduct a ceremony words like okay this is my penis here and there’s people that want to play with it and put it in different parts of their bodies and hopefully have a good time with it and if it really like Gibson gets them there and brings them there and then delivers the goods then they will become deeply deeply addicted to that experience and Anna on a level that is that is beyond any extreme passion of any terrorist has any ideology the amount of passion that and I would say a woman from in my experience the level of chemical spiritual just that’s what we should be living for men who love who love women is like for them to be taken so far out and so far in that they will want to kill other people who take threatened to take that experience away from them I every other women that you’ve ever known that you might never know so that’s where we have this conundrum which is like it is so good like I want you to be obsessed with me but I do not want you to be obsessed with me you know cuz that’s right cuz I’m going to kill myself if you’re not obsessed with me but I’m going to run away from you and run into the street if you’re obsessive me so either way I die do you know yeah and I had to run in the street to avoid women who are obsessed with me and it’s no joke cuz otherwise I would have thought they didn’t love me if they weren’t a homicidal maniac it’s right so there’s a way to disperse that energy and it’s like oh wait a minute he’s fucking me but I’m making out with a woman and looking into her eyes and who do I lose what it oh my God is I don’t know who is fucking me right now but it feels great and I agreed to it like I signed off that anyone can fuck me tonight with this and that and this so like I don’t know who to write the check to you know what I mean like anymore it’s just too much just don’t stop so I’ve been there and I’m never going back to the the the hell rounds it is about diffusing that pleasurable experience across so many different Souls that it’s impossible to Tribute it to one person and really I believe that this is not an astoundingly long wide penis that I have that I think is perfectly shaped to do what it was designed to do and I’m happy with it whatever yeah I’ve gotten good reviews so far in life women who wanted to kill other women because they were so possessive of this thing that it’s just like always wants to do is just be warm and wet and love them that is so I have a beloved partner and you know I would kiss your boobs goodbye and tell him to be good every day knowing if she was like why I never did anything bad to anybody ever and I realized that was the pure essence of innocence is Brett’s cuz like you can never say that they ever do anything bad to never manipulated anybody they never play games with anybody they just give and give and give you know so anyway that’s another story if we could only all aspire to be as innocent as a breast but never do anything to hurt anybody ever never had to be told to be nice just what is nice you know x-ray sexual Zen state that people would have to meditate for years if they didn’t eat mushrooms to figure that out like become a breast and live in the consciousness of breast in this and just experienced pleasure and give pleasure and don’t fucking overthink it you know it as long as everybody is of legal age and sound mind and knows what they’re signing up for essentially we can work out the details but I’ve been in those moments where it’s like yes what’s making this woman lose her mind and ecstasy is 80% the emotional connection with other women that she is sharing and then I am there to be basically a prop to the beautiful. Theater of feminine understanding and that is when I understood For the First Time The futility of women trying to squeeze blood from a stone to make bullheaded dumb men who would rather be playing video games or breaking shit or glowing sit up or doing something fucking mindless and heartless for fun and just acting them and making them be a woman when they’re not a woman because they can’t explore sexual intimacy with other women because they’re afraid of the taboo of lesbianism and because it would be against the rules and whatnot so when melted down and was in a sensor Moniz were psychedelic ceremonies wear them all of these stories were melted away and it was just women in fucking ecstasy the agony and ecstasy and using my cock is a prop but also as an energetic current in a source of love and that my refinement was allow me to be in that space and I realize that it’s like it is so cumbersome to be responsible for a woman’s orgasm in a love making session why would I want all of that burden on myself it’s like I have to at my age I have to think about not coming too fast beat not losing my erection and in trying to make a sincere emotional sincere present connection with the person who I am kissing is with that is enough for me to have to do it now I’m responsible for her squirting and I like coming in the same say when I saw the leveraging of all these other women and how freely flowing the orgasms come when the openness in the connectedness is there with other women so so like I said I’m not taking a step back and now if anybody wants to come at me they’re going to have to go through that that ate a form of of grade school of learning in or black ass like that you’re going to come at me do you want to fuck me you need a black belt in loving me to get in and if you go into any Karate Dojo they’re not even said hey I want to do what you do can you hand me your black belt right now please here I’ll give you a beer can I buy you a beer and then you give me a black belt no stupid you’re so stupid Bibb so what was the quote from the movie UHF which is very a so you definitely watch UHF to understand where my sense of humor comes from but yes I’ll good good so so we’re solving this problem and creating these designer experiences and so what I realized is that the impulse for a woman to have this one-dimensional relationship with a man’s cock so that she wants to possess it so as you’re a very own the way for me to logically very very simple-minded lycee what is the how do you prevent that is to say well you will learn to get to know my cock at exactly the same time as another person and you will only have a 50/50 relationship with whatever you do you say like you would with your best friend and I had her saying in people may not like to hear me say is cuz it sounds good feed it to your best friend first feed it to your best friend first and I didn’t even think about the secondary effect of that which for me that was just that was just like I’m going to know that you’re not going to lose your mind with jealousy when you can just say here actually you can I’ll let you go first so that would be the the the tantric taboo test of transgression against yourself like that Siri you’re going to lose your mind will feel into that and start simple we’re going to dance together and you’re going to watch just that and is that make your blood boil what happens after your blood simmers down do you start to like so now it’s like whatever that point is where that demon comes out of jealousy you were going to rub the shit out of your clit until it goes and tell you what you’ve you become a demon Whisperer with your clit and me and everybody just wants to create more and add more locks to the fire and you transmute that negative emotion into a positive motion and then in the probably will be called conversion the opposite we don’t have a word for it we do not have a word except for that one which no one knows it set designer neologism but we don’t have the band singing about how good it feels to watch their wife get fucked by Adam Ant And so yeah here we come back full circle so we will be so we’re going to we’re going to have these experiences we’re going to sing about it and and so this is the this is the what the the the climax of this conversation will be in my opinion is is when I talked about how the it’s not just a theoretical Gaiden guiding principle to say oh yeah we’ll will like yeah okay you flip a coin and I have sex first with the person who wins that round and then I stopped having sex with you and hopefully it didn’t lose my wind in 5 minutes cuz I was so fucking turn on by the sexy after they all I got another $5 and it’s over for me for like they’re already like forgot every system anyway cuz they’re tearing each other inside out and everything and I’m just watching and trying to like make it come to live again and finally it will eventually but you should know I’m getting That’s The Hampsterdance the Tantra hence the sexual Jedi Knight training so that you can breathe breathe through and in have the orgasms without losing the love don’t be a 5 lb jump so hit the two feminists so I think I’m going to say okay if she’s dying to give me a blowjob then like we time it for like okay like we’re going to play your favorite song and it’s going to be about the same equal thanks to to her favorite song and you going to eat each other’s favorite songs and I’m like hold each other’s heads and massage each other and just be like holding each other from behind and Miss Priss massaging each other that they take turns but there’s still a potential in that for for jealousy to arise in forever and for it to be I mean I just thought of a way to actually literally short-circuit everything in a really beautiful elegant circuit and so here is the design and I will try to verbally explain unless they can so I love the idea of two women’s hands clasping together around my cock and massaging it gently up and down as they face each other and our eye gazing intermittently so the visual so far is is that the dear beloved goddesses or I are facing each other so actually agency kneeling I’m I am laying on my back and they both are kneeling with their literally as clothes into my armpit is possible so that I can reach Below in between their legs and butt so I can have a hand on each clit and vulva fingers is a good middle finger on the clit and to end so if I’m cuffing the vulva and able to use my longest middle finger to be stroking the each clit simultaneously in patterns you know singer sew and I’m basically playing streams is like playing guitar and make a solo I’m playing shift I have this is because the end of vocalizations or what I’m tuning for it you know so so it isn’t this beautiful instrument of a playing these two young hearts that are kissing each other and like I gazy and exactly is so I’m making sure that they’re not feeling left out in that apartment while I’m being stimulated and everybody is being stimulated sexually and everyone is feeling a part of a closed circuit that is meeting everyone’s needs and in and there’s no favoritism there’s no hierarchy the really so thin and if anything I am as the man in my back and that is what time trick Kali worshipping actual full fully pornographic and I hesitate to use that word was fully glorious erotic depictions of the circuitry of how this stuff works so if it’s if you’re not approve any 3 I mean if you’re not so sexually stunted then you would just understand that these icons are just road maps to the spiritual terrain of understanding the energetics of Shiva Shakti god goddess energy so we’re designing with that and we’re creating a maximum hydraulic energy flows in in in a way that is very egalitarian actually inhibits the growth of the ego and that sense of so-and-so I’ve experienced this in not that exact formation but that’s why I aspire to be a porn director so that I can I can work with people who are very comfortable taking Direction and are not going to lose their minds and so I actually had this conversation today they’re what makes me not a cult leader and what prevents me from ever becoming a cult leader is this one fundamental thing right but I have to study cold it is to know how not to be a quote later cuz otherwise I would just be cranking out so much Kool-Aid day Kool-Aid would have to invent a time to punch flavor you know I got to be sponsored by Kool-Aid the Kool-Aid man oh yeah it would have it I make my own Kool-Aid Man Township anyway after dark okay I wanted how they’ve not sued like I have all of the libelous memes and they feel bad for the Kool-Aid guy I didn’t fucking poisonous people man I don’t mean to be making fun of them and I really got to get serious about not making a joke out of the people who died in the massacre Crazy Eights it’s it’s it’s public domain now to make a joke to either the expression people say don’t drink the Kool-Aid it’s because people at Jonestown were by a charismatic cult leader who was it was an extremely right with it skips a generation maybe but that’s how memes get formed yes so I mean that’s how they sort of deprecated the roots and you say things that we don’t know how does the reason we’re numb it so they don’t drink the Kool-Aid means don’t consent to a groupthink. Virus that makes mass suicide be acceptable and so they poisoned the Kool-Aid punch and that’s how everyone can scented make give it to their kids and everyone is like this is fine and some people try to protest and they were silenced and some people try to run away and it was a nightmare and it was absolutely what I would I must not allow myself to become as a priest that uses sexual mind manipulation and coercive tactics to trade love and affection attention and orgasm for 4 unquestioning devotion into the point of suicide so that that’s the extreme case that that we that is a litmus test for if you were going down that slippery slope but I actually tend to want to study the mental illness of sociopath sociopathy narcissism and I would like to consider myself a benign I’m the benign narcissist I know that that is a character flaw that I am not how we going to like defeat by doing the past limitations as many times that night and I’m going to roll with it and I’m going to say yeah I will be like Howard Stern and I will be I’m going to if I’m going to be this personality I’m going to make a bonsai tree out of my own ego if I can and have other people help in the process but but things going going back to the to the cult thing and what me what gives me the authority to design this orgasmic Orchestra what why and how do you not just become a colder than soy everyone you meet is basically in that on that game board now how am I going to manipulate you to be in this in this position that I would like you to be in to fulfill my fantasy of engineering all this town truck stuff and and if I’m if I’m this is well that’s spit out the Kool-Aid don’t swallow I think what we’ll get to that for sure that’s going to be a we’re going to get to that but can’t forget that we’ll save that for the for the most triumphant moment the climax is when we’re going to use that it’s so precious now after it’s been built up so ever since a joke that’s going about 2 it’s going to explain come on your face it’s going to come on yesterday and you’re going to beg for it and so hits is it is I’ve had people beg me to come in the third eye and it was hard to resist but this is going to be almost as good as that sharing you this one liner inside joke and just a minute but to wrap up this sort of dark out thing that we were doing with the coal thing is that it how do you know how do I hedge against being the creepiest man every like people think that Barney the purple dinosaur because he and forgive me if I’m butchering the facts here but as far as I know he’s doing what I considered to be taboos for me which is charging women money to have sexual penetrative intercourse with them above all without protection and making that into a to me that’s not a scalable business model and you can ask your doctor wife but Barney I mean I get it and I get that that’s the love thing being cultivated generated so I think I don’t know whether I consider that good pressure bad press for modern Neo Tantra or what not but I’d love to have them on the podcast I’m sure it’s going to happen and I can’t say that I was a fan of the art form of Barney the purple dinosaur but but but I would love to get to the full story and also talked about the ethics and this medical the medical duty of care that comes with sexual and pinch of intercourse with anybody so anyway that’s the sad but who were talking about okay what if you were intrigued and maybe turned on by me talking about these erotic circuit boards then you also have to be somewhat red-flagged and starting to cringe and go where how old is this get arranged in what are the incentives and how do you how do you manage the Eagles and how do you who’s in charge it’s like you can’t it’s a scary thing but you wouldn’t work but that’s why when I went when I say what I realized for me the aha moment in my sexual career was that if I want to have out-of-the-box sex I have to pay lots of money for it from professionals who have trained her nervous system to do theater performance of sexuality as escorts or as Dom’s or as porn performers because they’re good sports they’re not spoil Sports about any of the stuff for the most part if they’re treated well and respected and then contracts are here too and they know what they’re getting into and hopefully they’ve matured and hopefully their brain has developed to its full capacity IE the age that it takes to actually I don’t say that to you exactly so you better know there’s a dimension of Ethics when it comes to harvesting teenagers for your for whatever Annette and I have had some of the best sex in my life as a 30 year old being fucked up fucked senseless by teenager in a row in a monogamous relationship and I will I will tell you that it’s it some it was worth the daddy issues that I had to deal with it was worth reparenting her and it was worth every bit of emotional kind of awkwardness that there wasn’t some of the an Amex because she was such a good full spirited Prime late night it was funny cuz I was like I want to settle you down and basically like I could teach your making a kid with ADHD sit in class is like no she wants to fuck wildly she wants you to perform more than you possibly ever could even at 30 and and she and she is not she doesn’t need these esoteric practices too heavy multi-orgasmic she’s fucking coming or brains out like so hard and I and I couldn’t sit her down the aisle still enough to do any of the practices that I thought were going to be so enlightening and went in the great thing is is it a fuck it like it is certain point you just say no guru there’s a song about it’s like no guru no no scripture No play just in the Dow of the thing so anyway so that’s a side note to say there is a sacred place for adult for fully mature brain develop adults to be having sex with teenagers and and I know that it can be done because I’ve done it but it also takes you can’t just treat them like a commodity please you got to you got to think about pedagogy Nikki learned from the person that you’re teaching teaches you things to like a circle so then so we’re talking about these ethics and where I wanted to just close that point about how I do my best to not be a cult leader I thought I figured it out pretty simply and correct me if I’m wrong but basically it’s it’s I dare you to to indict me for the the criminal and civil liability of misconduct for for for structuring a certain way so this is how I this is this is very simple as this is like this I said that this is a different the difference from a cult leader is that I’m a porn director I pay women to be directed and then I pay whoever I want to I will I will I will choose performers who I resonate with for whatever we would like to do together to make beautiful art and and I will compensate them and pay them to take time out of their lives to be a part of my design and to be directed by me they’re not paying me for healing for enlightenment for direction for guidance and I’m directing them and Meghan gratifying myself and taking their money in convincing mind fucking them and taking more of their money and more than money until they don’t talk to their friends because of and that’s how Colts are basically extractive from their students the colors are extracting from their devotees the difference is how many colors do you know that actually give their devotees money I will pay you oh now I’m making corned a porn director and I am more karmically correct than the fucking Guru who is fucking having people kiss his feet and take your money so who would have thought that the corn directors were the most enlightening Yogi’s to ever attempt to be divine and I have my favorites and I’m a fan of some of them I want I want to see the names but right now but that cuz I wouldn’t want to leave any out you know what I mean bless you all for paying people to direct them into your Twisted fucking fantasies and giving them that dignity like hats of their not wondering about it cuz there’s that was having a conversation today it’s like a buyer’s remorse if I say to you I’m just saying if you remember when you had to if you were old enough to know that there was a day when when when your allowance equals one CD for $15 so humorous if you never had experience this is important I think this is important teaching is important teachable moment is that is that and I don’t want to be today. Take care no man’s planning anything in them to have fun here but this is like this is this is late so here’s the funny thing though you think about I remember what it was like when I had to convince myself that amusing that a CD that fucking sucked was actually good because I paid money for it and I would not let myself suffer the indignity of having made a mistake so I was in a state of denial and delusion so so so feeling this isn’t meditation okay everybody think of something that you paid money for that you discovered was in the zoo is suboptimal and you used mental gymnastics to convince yourself that you actually liked it even though you knew deeply that you didn’t like it but it was called buyer’s remorse it was called the sunk cost fallacy of sunk cost fallacy is that because you invested something into this you have to continue beyond the point of no return because you can’t live with yourself other ways so that is this Twisted perverse placebo effect that happens when it’s like I went to the sex guru to get healed and he said for 9999 I would get here and but I but I could also upsell to the bonus extra double healing deluxe super Cosmic Crystal trademark excetera right thing and try before you buy money back guarantee accessories that you’re all of his legal he’s in fine print all the stuff but there is but that’s where it is we’re expecting to have some result that you paid money for and you will question whether or not okay did I was a hole in my heel did I pay enough money to pay more and some money and it is it distorts things and you did it it did contaminated in a way for that so I’m skeptical that I can be done right in that sense and that’s just me so what I say let’s work in the garden together my time equals your time and now we’re planting trees equals an hour of Yoni massage your prostate massage and therefore it’s a flat equal everybody has the same it’s his first come first serve you know and orgasms for work shirts that was my hand jobs for Humanity and helping a tree with two or so you’ll see it yeah it’s a white paper was written so is he ever gets faster so so that’s how I’m not going to be a cult leader is that I’m not going to charge people money to be Pawns in my game of or are you going to be players in my Game of Thrones Township Township twister you will get paid handsomely to be in my theater my game of Township twister and you can quit you can get any time you know that’s that’s that’s the thing to you won’t be like oh if I walk away now you know that then where I’m not like what I paid for I’m I’m already invested so much forever so so many different dynamics of of incentivization happening in this thing is so anyway that that was I think it is important to lay that out and and this is probably the first time I’ve articulated it on the podcast but I just was having this conversation today with this answer the CD metaphor thing where it’s like you know it did that it’s it’s a problem that way so so that’s I will not be extracting money from people in that in that way I’d rather pay them to be in my in my Productions and feel better about it that way so getting back to the fun stuff in the production itself so imagining that that would be the way from now on where I’m like if you want to that’s basically what I just described about that circuit of three people as a minimum to starting point is like that is the that is first base now you know that’s first base because getting into the circuitry of actual intercourse that’s where it required that’s where we get into the medical the medical responsibilities aspects and we get into more of the karmic sharing we’re really swapping scum he’s on an astral level at that point more so than if it’s an outercourse thing and you can’t go back once you know I don’t want to sound like a prepaid only sound like a six- future but but they were right about this mean you’re not wrong about everything they’ve had no sex for anybody ever. Is not the solution to people having sexually transmitted demons running rampant all over the place and it’s about making them your friends and making them work for you not against you and making them expose themselves properly and in you know where it’s not a pure realm we are not going to be perfectly protected in fear we can strive for that and we can use Kundalini and Prana and mantras and all of our medicines in purgatives and things to create a cleaner vessel to make more harmonious more resonance more signal-to-noise ratio and that is what to me this is all about and why we are missing out so badly to not be like I see this if God is wanted you got it for not created to nipples I can’t suck both nipples at the same time I tried some women I can do it on I’ve done it and you can do it some women is possible but for the most part so what does that mean what are you do do you limit God or do you just find someone else to be on the left or right side of you you know what is the big deal so when I think about this math equation how many erotic how many out of the box meaning not really the selective like subjective nuanced little erogenous zones that people get overtime in our lives but the out-of-the-box everybody is wired this way count how many erogenous zones you have and how what is the minimum number of mouse penis and genitals or fingers are human appendages required to simultaneously stimulate all those places it’s more than one person I can tell you that much you know so I just want us to start there and be creative in 2N to learn how to understand that we’re missing out and we should be wanting to gamify maximizing human potential for orgasmic pleasure because that is exorcism orgasm equals exorcism in some cultures who are Les Les Mis Sara Lee poetic about the floury discourse of symbols about sex life like a Latin American Shaman is said about her sexuality in the end in her how she explained why monogamous marriage was not really a thing in a culture that permitted extramarital sex and it was that in her mind and I am not going to say her name to cool her but I will say to paraphrase the essence of this wisdom is that to her mind it was just like an orgasm is like taking out the trash and that is not that’s not to say that it is mundane or a chore it is that it is a responsibility of hygiene in your household of your body Temple you need to have orgasms they need to be fulfilling need to get the job done and that is the exorcism aspect of it so the howling screeching all of these things that are considered that witches were burned forming figli sounds that those are the sounds of actual Holiness the set of holy the sound of Holiness is a woman’s orgasm and so let’s make those come more abundantly and let’s utilize map map the erogenous zones out of the box and then map the additional ones that are my favorite song and when you talk to me like this and this certain place I’m in the back of my head there whatever and then everyone has their own map so we can learn each other’s maps and if you don’t know your own map then you can ask people to help you there’s people who would love to lick and kiss and touch you and head to toe to find and explore you and and from a breasted state of consciousness D nice and yes I like to will you bring out the best in me that’s all I think that’s all you guys add that I can’t top that is the way to end so then really that was we didn’t even know that we put the icing on the motherfuking cake by saying you bring out the Best in Me so there was a documentary about at the peak of my desire to become a a rock star in the the crust Punk metal genre grindcore all that fun stuff I was studying that I wanted to understand and clock the music industry so I was watching every documentary I could find understanding music marketing and all the stuff and then I found this great documentary about about Jimi Hendrix and and I believe it was his fiance at a time who later became his wife if I remember correctly and she was talking about the time where he was building momentum and getting lots of gigs but still underground and she said something that stuck with me forever and if this moment which is it basically the hidden tension was used turn Express yeah we we all knew he was going to get sign or we all knew that you was going to take off he was going to blow up and so she said it was just about if someone puts put the icing on the motherfuking cake you know and I know and I felt that we we’re ready for that and we did some we had some we had some ice and get put on a motherfuking cake we did you get you always want more but I look back and I don’t think we could handle more so we got what we got and now I’m on a different I have a different cake I have a different cake mix and I don’t know if it’s that time I don’t know if it’s time to put the icing on the cake or not yeah I don’t know I mean the cake it’s getting cold she heard it mean if you’d if anyone has icing out there can it please be stevia-sweetened go Steven Johnson I don’t know how to hack them will work on that today I know it’s actually what I heard is that it’s a weird additive that they used to cut it because it’s so super sweet that you would basically died of sweetness if you didn’t like the step on it with some other things so I think that’s why I love growing Stevia and having a leaf to munch on and put in the tea because then you know is nothing else being put into it and it’s just as powerful you don’t really need to if you had the the live leaves one leaf enough will be enough to knock your head off for an hour so yeah I know on that snow yeah we’re going to put this devious fresh leave puree motherfuking icing on the cake I will put the icing on my own motherfuking cake that reminds me in 1 minute I just when I thought we couldn’t go out with a bigger bang this is going to be at because there was a a ritual ceremonial I called we called apart emoni where was the Psychedelic birthday party and we smeared cake all over each other and had to basically devour for the birthday gal of her own cake and it was just nipples and asses and I wanted to be in after from there I was my breasts Elsa. Playing for sure that brother and brother best me for sure but that when I got to put the icing on cake my damn self so don’t let anyone fucking tell you that you’re not none of me if you feel like it I mean I think we’re done I just can’t I’m going to fucking drop my phone right now when I might drop my phone on the couch citizen of the count but oh shit it’s next level add icy Cipher geise that’s going to have some cake with that icing okay thank you for listening to the touch upon podcast please go to www.drudgereport.com and cook on the Donate button to help support the show in addition is to see me and if you want a podcast for donations will help establish permaculture goddess temples every bite ecological employment for single mothers Please Subscribe and share your favorite episodes if you have questions or comments feel free to leave a voicemail at 818-275-1593 or email been at Tantra Punk. Com Thomas Day

Defenses Against Sexually Transmitted Demons TPP14

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tom-denney-tposIn this episode my dear Vietnamese spiritual warrior goddess friend Maya and I discuss the biology and ecology of various types of demons, how they interact with humans, and how to defend against their transmission during sexual activity.

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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin hello dear beloved’s welcome to Township Punk podcast episode number 14 this is a conversation I had with a dear friend Maya who is a Vietnamese Warrior goddess spiritual Warrior goddess friend of mine who has a lot of very interesting insights into the Demonic realm and ways that we can have self defensive strategies for our bodies our minds and our Spirits welcome Maya we have a few questions for you about your insights into the Demonic realm and you have some interesting experiences that you share with me in the past and I would absolutely love to have you share those with the listeners and so I’ll just kind of go back over some of the stuff I remember we’ve talked about you have had have you had experiences that you would describe as feeling completely overtaken and sort of classically possessed okay so would you care to describe in whatever detail that you’re comfortable with it before New Year’s I was at the Santa Monica train station at a really late hour and at the wrong time because police officer who I think was also cuz that’s because he was on a lot of you must have been on a lot of medications but he just came in very roughly into the cafe I was buying food it and he put my hands behind my back and push my head near the ground and arrested me and in that moment a master who later healed me explain to me that a demon had stabbed my astral self with the really sick poll about 1 and 1/2 inch in diameter and since then my eyes were a little hazy I couldn’t see straight it was like I was always dreaming or just wanted to go back to sleep and I walked really stiffly it was like my joints were locked up and my head was heavy so there are certain times when I was driving my head would just Bob down because bob up and down cuz it was just so happy to hold left so that was my most recent 6. So what would you say that was the most extreme state where you feel like you’re not in control of yourself are there any have there been on any other instances where you felt completely unable to control your your body in your voice and are baby to that extent to that extent there any other instances where you felt like you were you we were purposefully possessed so what I’m trying to lay out is a sort of system for categorizing the various degrees of possession that there are where the extreme would be the mothers that stabbed and killed their own babies like that would be I would consider the most extreme some of the most extreme ancestors of this isn’t this woman also doesn’t say a say a career psychopath criminal either she’s a normal person with a normal life and for some reason with you know very little precedence for spontaneous violence in her own mind comes out of his way I don’t know what came over me of that was you know there’s that glazed over effect that happens if people you know even just people with anger management issues and they they go into a rage and they see red and then they don’t know what they did afterward so like that would be to me something that if we’re going to start seeing if we’re going to start if psychotherapist are going to take their system for categorizing pathological behaviors and they’re going to then have to do the match up game of species of demonic parasitic organism and its dominant mode of behavior once it gets control over a person so yeah so long story short the voices in the head in the impulses and just alien life-forms alien impulses that you yourself and your essence of knowing right and wrong and knowing you know your own sense of boundaries and sense of Ethics have you had experiences of feeling like there were alien thought-forms put simply which which we can say or demonic spam robot pop-up windows in the mine stream you know nothing unwanted unwelcomed fearful anxiety anxious any even like you know what whatever you have going on that you feel is like not serving you and not something that you asked for true to yourself if you have that type of a degree in your experience yeah I feel they were many times where I knew I knew it wasn’t my thought and to just end it all it always had to do with hanging with a belt or ropes somewhere in the closet or on the Rafters outside. Always appeared as well as a really strange thought of taking cleaver knife and just and just facing it towards your face and just cutting your face and 1/2 yeah things I just didn’t couldn’t make sense out of where is there any those alien produce Tennessee’s that you don’t feel come from your essence when you remember the events as they happen or the the imagination of the events were there any patterns in what happened in you internally or externally leading up to that so taking a pharmaceutical drug for example could be one thing that induces an increase volume of these things or being in a toxic relationship or being drunk or you know what I’m saying like is there have you noticed any patterns are like okay I will if this happens then this is trigger kind of a thing or is it just totally on a turn and spontaneous when I started taking the antidepressant then I would have increased thoughts about doing that and before that the thoughts would just come at random moments I could ever really predict him if you have these thoughts before you started taking medication and they increased as the result of taking the medication I would personally to do so that means that whatever alien attached parasitic organism that is hacking your mind stream and your visual field and your other like sensory inputs auditory and whatnot has already said that but there always waiting for the opportunity to exploit your weakness in the weakness in the Integrity of your field and that is built based built with love fundamentally that’s the building block of the field of protection your security perimeter around your fragile mind you know your fragile mind stream that pure river that should be flowing with no malicious creatures in there it’s protected by the Integrity of a field of love that is like created around it from utero from In Utero to death and if we were protected with Love by our communities and our families and our relationship to Nature then we will be impenetrable for the demands of the lower astral plane demonic creatures if that’s you know for is one way of thinking of it and we’re basically vulnerable to them so whatever had gotten into you earlier in life that would be responsible for projecting these things into your mind stream they did the application of that pharmaceutical drug is actually it’s it’s giving them more power over you in some way in that what we would do without the scientific research that’s needed you know we can only postulate that either it multiplies itself or it grows and it’s one organism that you know I’m saying like either either it has the the resources to create Offspring rapidly and reproduce like discrete units of itself or if we’re like it it’s like it it was small and so we can only put in this many minutes a day of unwanted thoughts you know when to you because it was like it didn’t have a lot of power but then something happens when you take the drug and then it itself as one entity grows and gets more power because it has more strength is in itself either that could be what’s happening or it can be that or did its reproducing itself some more of it or able to get in there and they take turns this is the kind of behavior analysis that was going to be needed to be able to know scientifically how to combat this infection is what’s happening on his level so that’s my commentary on what you described you know and that’s a good thing that I’m hearing and have you ever had met you. Dennis is going to but have you ever experienced methamphetamine that’s another question now okay good because it is that doorway opening to the max or that weakening of your field there is there there’s a has been popularized by Breaking Bad well I don’t know exactly what the effects are of that series I’m so disconnected from the TV world right now but I can as with anything and probably has effective Lee discouraged it but perhaps who knows what percentage it’s encouraged it I mean the movie why don’t I don’t I won’t say the name but I’ll say that it’ll be careful what you document because you could be responsible for glamorizing and replicating it but I don’t know what I don’t know anything about the show I haven’t watched it but I know there’s a lot of other films influenced me that were like kind of carelessly glorifying stupidity and drug abuse but anyways so next question is you’ve had the physical possession the mental possession how about like have you felt have you ever had any Outburst of like vocalisations or glossolalia you know speaking in tongues English none human language sounding Stuff vocal cords So Cal League vocal positions that perhaps I haven’t had that but I’ve experienced that with patients cuz I used to work at a mental or no I just I used to work at a convalescent hospital and one of the patients that was possessed he would actually that demon transferred to another patient after he left and she was a Spanish speaker and of course she was speaking to me about the bike that I had recently lost cuz it was stolen and she was like oh you want another bike just steal one but she said that all in Spanish and she just kept telling me like take me take me I’m yours if I should know my name but normally she doesn’t know my name that’s very very interesting so you’re saying that you had already sort of identified and been interacting with this like very let’s say unpleasant sort of character in a person that was previously much different so it was a sharp contrast so something is animating this human being to behave in this obnoxious Manner and you get to sort of get to know it a little bit and then the guy dies and then shortly thereafter coming through the apparatus the vocal apparatus of another living person in proximity seizes their vocal cords in speaks in their dominant language right or whichever in their language and you able to sort of recognize it is that you’re saying that’s fascinating okay I’m going to just meditate on that for a second and think about another question next week or that’ll be something for another that’s a whole I guess I’m going to say that’s a whole lot floor of the NASA of spiritual ecology that will one day exist will be dedicated to studying transference Hospital transfer yeah definitely so okay maybe now if you care to tell the story about you know the the dream in the ex-boyfriend deal or former lover is a taxi oh okay so I’ve been dreaming that this ugly demon with really big thing big mouth just took a big bite out of my neck and right shoulder and the dream also was well that was going on the demon was also penetrating me and I wake up and the ex-lover it turns out he had without permission you know just started the act of intercourse and and I asked if he did me but he was just like no no but I mean he could have been dreaming too and just starting it without realizing it but it was in that moment that I realize that he was most likely possess did you tell him that you had that experience and ever or you just how did you did you react uncomfortably when waking up and did he how did he respond to your describe how can I use very very Clueless you just kept denying that he had done anything wrong and just completely acted like nothing happened and it was okay to do what he did I’m sorry to hear that it’s on one of those degrees of violation that’s like very common so did you come to some kind of resolve with him where you just kind of like all that’s cool I mean where you like how I know it was is a strike against the whole relationship you know it’s three strikes and you’re out did you feel that tell me the attempt to make it up to you in any way or will he didn’t take any they didn’t apologize ever but you made it it was it was clear to him that you were with your body language in your verbal language that you were that that wasn’t cool and he was just like whatever oh okay but that was but were you able to then I guessed it the relationship continued and you were just like okay as long as he never does that again you know or kind of thing or from that point would you say that was his his Unruh remorseful response was sort of a breaking point that ultimately was like the a Breaking Point it was a Breaking Point yeah absolutely blacked out drunk sleeping with the partner you know if you don’t have those boundaries you know cuz I’ll speak from experience and say that I there is a susceptibility to possession during sleep for sure with you know Amplified with any alcohol consumption especially large you know alcohol consumption or to the point of being blacked out your sense of self is completely blocked in whatever you do is the behavior of of gremlins possess patience they’re possessed people that walk around the streets and their hands are usually in this formation which is I love you up right in sign language but upside down I’m told it’s a negative connotation they walk around with this hand gesture and they’ll touch almost every leaf that they can I seen it in two people but I’m sure that there’s more that do it but do you know what that means I don’t know yeah you know I’m glad you said that because part of understanding this fully would be I’m going to take most of the day to that’s going to be collected about the reality seriali the scientific phenomenon scientifically provable phenomenon of invisible intelligent entities able to basically hack into human nervous system and produce thoughts and in emotions and feelings and even on an advanced level it’s the ability to manipulate entire situations involving multiple people and inanimate objects at this fact of this forthcoming scientifically provable phenomenon of demonic possession so called her formerly called demonic possession Skid Row going to Skid Row or to the psychiatric of course that’s where the people who were the most possessed have ended up you know or they they they guess is probably like a few look at the the revolving door between the mental ward and the street so pretty much you’re talking about the same Keef either in or you’re out but you’re because it had turned subtle gestures have got to be an important indicator for distinguishing where is this who’s doing this and who’s not doing it and then her other patterns of behavior that are also in related is also patterns of their particular profile of abuse their particular medications how do you create these linkages to what’s a friend of the demon actually exist on a plane a reality where its ability to manipulate people is more like octopus tentacles where do you have the central bring you know unit of the body in one area but they’re able to actually use cord like tentacles to go into people and to have this effect so that it could be one multiple yeah so if you’re doing a specific pattern gesture could it be this Fred the demon have a carbon copy of himself in every single one of those or is it Fred has 50 million tentacles and every time every time the weekend person opens up in friends competing with John because John is work getting something else out of people and making them do Behavior X and Fred’s doing Behavior why what if you just did a study of people’s hand gestures and maybe give gave them like art supplies you know what I mean and then really see if there’s something else going on but all right we’re going to say that you’re here for you I mean I know you said technical but a few days ago like last week I was walking outside with my cousin out the Nae Nae in the neighborhood I know I felt like a Senegal reached inside my ear into the back of my brain but there’s it was just air but for the rest of the week or like a giant Q-tip and for that week is really just hard to think even though like you if I got a like a CAT scan or something in my brain nothing would come up like and also how I told you about how I think that it is my stuff mom or my my dad’s girlfriend has made a voodoo doll of me because there are certain times when I feel like a needle like a giant needle has gone through my ovary or just like certain parts of my head will feel really funny like that was very specific like I could pinpoint it down to someone’s punching me or something but I mean there must be a science in Voodoo in itself and how it affects other people and I still can’t solve it and I still can’t solve the how if it were you no confirmed how would I fix it yeah I’m glad you brought that up cuz we talked about that and there’s a lot of wealth in the world I think whatever problem is making somebody have ill will towards you could be solved with money like how would you like to live you know on the beach in Maui and have everything paid for in just sip coconut in or whatever you want to do it let’s just say what is it what do you really want like what would be the Fulfillment of your wildest fantasies I mean we can’t guarantee you the Ultimate Dream Lover per se but we can put you somewhere where people that you want to be around that you might be a good you know cool to select enter Find Your Dream Lover from anywhere in the world you go anywhere in the world this is the big prize you know on the game show and all you got to do is spend you know a few days in this laboratory experiment with your niece and you say cuz you’re at and and we’re going to sit down together and we’re going to see if you cooperate with the study then you get to have you know the money that will sell like a problem since like you’ll probably forget about making someone else’s life hell for a reason you’re doing it right you can be distracted by your own you know, so let’s say we have the power to do that and we could bring her into a laboratory and you you know I have some ideas about the kind of study I would design around that tube to be okay you can’t tell us that you’re not doing as you have busy part of the deal if you have to eat what you have to admit that you’re doing this and was assuming that that that it’s a certainty no religious your suspicion isn’t she she is going to see you go through with this offer you say hey are you doing voodoo on me for some reason and because if you are don’t worry about it I’m not going to be punished or actually going to reward you for telling us about how you did it and if they okay well yeah I guess I have to stop doing it and I will give you the surprise you take David surprise and go be distracted and do things to be happy and that would solve the problem and you know you can go on living your lives and no persecution know you know charges everything just be honest so let’s say we’ve got her a nut in you in the laboratory and we’re going to study what’s happening inside of you with instrumentation and we’re going to study what’s happening inside of her with instrumentation and have her do what she does you know would what from now if you can describe like you said the some of the things that you felt were happening that could be that could be being initiated or intended you know by her if the kids can you describe what you could imagine being the results of a study or how you would design what kind of what kind of procedure could you imagine having like let’s see if she going to sit there and manipulate an object and have that object be like a doll or is he just going to sit and pray and meditate what if we put stupid. All because all you really need is the most recent picture or a video of the person you want and there was this one time in a restaurant I felt really funny this older lady was there with her family and she try to take a picture with your phone and it was always so that I was in the background and I tried covering my face and everything but she still persisted in almost waited until I uncovered my face and from that point on that was when I was feeling a lot of pain in my in my ovaries in my uterus probably like wishing you ill will against like having any kids which is totally fine cuz I’m not going to have any kids and also my head like just felt like sometimes is being punched or squeezed or like something like the head of a needle is just being you know slowly poking into it is and also sometimes I felt like a marionette also with the even after the cop thing had transpired I would walk around like so like a puppet and almost and with one of my close friends whose very connected to me she started feeling the same things the same like chronic headaches in the marionette kind of walking sometimes when we would spend time with each other just cuz I think it affects it affects people you’re connected with as well not only yourself so how about if you can talk about the your understanding of how the chakra system is what what’s the where does the chakra system fit into this let’s say we’ve established so far in this conversation that so-called demons are real and that they behave a lot like very intelligent mind hacking parasites and seem to have an organism’s Make nature which means that they would have to reproduce somehow and they have life spans and they need to consume different inputs and have different outputs at their biological machine they’re not just a robotic machine and they’re not just a ethereal Vapor anatomically engineered you know biomechanical entities that are intelligent and have actually more dimensional in some ways we have more dimensional command in maybe parts of our realm and in other ways they have more dimensional commands in parts of the around that are inaccessible to us so I’m sure I kind of feel like there’s entities it that spend so many dimensions that you can’t even begin to Fathom it in and so they completely intersect everything here and they could you know pick up objects and make things levitate you know switch on and off lights and all that kind of stuff but that’s pretty rare you don’t every demon wishes I could have the power to do that everything rich is it has the power to like pick up that knife and put it in somebody’s hand you know what I mean or pull that trigger or whatever and some of them I guess it is a constant battle it is a constant resistance the will to not do wrong with the urge to do wrong is the Frontline Battlefield between the Demonic at the interface between your Essence which is everyone I believe you know Meme must have become really fully you know psychotically possess your pretty much resisting the urges that would make bad things happen resisting urges that would result in negative consequences are opening in strengthening your chakras to help others you’re leaving yourself vulnerable for like you know parasites to attach to so even the best healers are the most sick to the point we were talking about how they’re real and they’re biologically so what is the chakra system have to do with all this system each pertaining to a body system so that whenever say a possessed person injures someone else in a certain say they cut their skin then they it technically the Demonic parasite would be attaching to the 5th chakra so you can or you can relate when someone has a pain that’s annoyingly you don’t getting their organs or intestines you know that that’s a demonic parasite on the third chakra and so you can pinpoint based on a person’s injuries or pain which chakras they’re damaging and which ones you can heal can you describe a bit about your training in the system and specifically what have you been I sort of told I guess about mulatto people are taught about the chakra system but not a lot of people are taught and the most people chakras probably everybody’s chakras to one degree or another are actually habitat for malicious organisms that are constantly trying to get an ever-increasing foothold on you and will stop at nothing to get that if if you fail at being loved or your country Community feels that loving you you know if you you could have been love but then for some reason become an asshole and then you become susceptible and you get more chakra parasites what was explained to you in your friend that you found the research you know that that chakra parasite 101 outline of that module of learning the chakra healing I did was called human Universal energy and it basically says that when you have an illness or pain that means that that chakra system that certain chakra is damaged and because it’s damaged that also means or can’t mean it could be a physical pain and or spiritual pain that a demonic parasite has attached so our training was we would meditate for a long. Of time to strengthen and open your chakras and then from there we could treat strategically place their hands first on the 7th chakra to maintain their overall health and then to whatever other chakras or body areas that needed attention for certain amount of time and so we would be acting as the vessel for energy it’s not like the Chinese system where you use your actual energy to go through someone else but we’re just the middleman for the universal energy to go into us and into the person’s damaged chakra yeah so a lot of people would get demonic parasites there’s a two-part process where are you you identify you kind of pry it out and the second part is you pull it out and just release it from the system and last week when I went the first part of the the healing then they stopped early cuz they said I just had so much bad energy so I have to go in today but should be better in one of our conversations we were kind of comparing notes in on a parallel journey of experience and personal healing and then study and experimentation you know to degree in I think you were you’ve been experiencing things a lot more formally than we’ve been involved in different healing modality traditions and we’ve been DIY hacking around you know everyone has to be comforter online hacker you know you you’re being hacked so you better get in you know be able to hack them back and get your mind back so one of that one point we had this exchange where I have just about had just been doing somebody work where I was having this very extremely tangible feeling experience SimCity no sense that I mean it’s almost like being a mind you know what I mean like that I think about you see my name and you see a body worker in a sec if I told hey Ma hey mine come over here and in demonstrate to these people what I’m talkin about I want you to mine that your has someone is laying down their stomach and you were giving them a massage and then all the sudden as you’re massaging them you start to bump into the nest you know of creature and you deserve it and then you realize it’s a it’s an emergency this person’s under attack and you just discover this and you become the hero and you decide that the best thing that you should probably do is try to remove them and they don’t see that they’re like causing pain you know that they’re in a place where they’re doing something harmful and you start reaching into that mess and it’s like you’re reaching into a beehive pulling out trying to get them all out of somebody you know you like red ant hill or something like that but as the Healer you have the confidence that you will not be that you have the allies and the strength and sort of the armor you know I’m in the disinfectant spray and you know all of your all of your trinketry and what not that’s going to protect you and then gives you the ability to actually survive with your own like you said the best healer or something or the spiritual Cesspool Vortex so you better and I know that I’ve met a lot of psychotherapists who are so whacked out because of the work they do you know what I mean like they can’t keep a relationship they can’t they’re just neurotic about everything they start to become yeah like the transference happens and so anyway going back to what I experienced I care I pulled I was like I was having experienced okay I’m like actually in an in an ester of things been what have I wasn’t fruitfully sure the time it’s like I’m not seeing it I wasn’t medicated myself so you know we’ll keep that vague but I was let’s say third eye closed shut my third eye was shut you know relatively compared to be a relatively speaking I’m sensing with my intuition it’s only this should just throw this out there the sidebar it’s like intuition plus third eye being open means that you see more of the fabric or the what’s giving that it’s intuition like what the information that’s in those those higher Fields so I’m I’m feeling that I’m pulling something out I know I’m pulling something out I’m physically feeling it crawl into my arm and sees my muscles and try to Lodge itself like scabies you know what I mean it’s like scabies they Lodge themselves underneath the surface of the skin and they lay their eggs under the skin and their whole life cycle is occurring where you’re scratching to get below the surface of the skin where they’re burrowing all around in the place so you know that the burrowing nature of the Demonic organisms you know to do that and so but I wasn’t sure the time am I pulling out one long like giant like tapeworm kind of a thing or am I pulling out only a few at a time and let’s say in a patterned you know to see if the say it’s a mental disorder by neurosis and radek mental disorder caused a pattern behavior and you going to have to wonder if it’s like okay if if one engages in that pattern behavior every time they do that they’re out there giving a food pellet to the Demonic parasite writes like do this it’s going to make you feel bad about yourself and that’s what it’s really all about like eating disorders every disorder is like how to make how do I make a person feel bad about themselves because when they feel by themselves I get a food pallet so whatever they’re susceptible to do to feel bad about themselves I’m going to crank that up to the Max and then but so in that burrow where they’re doing that in their little nests the question is her my question has been like when I feed the koi fish the food pellets go out there and then it’s like a Feeding Frenzy of multiple fish trying to get at that that resource it’s not just like one big fish that’s sitting there by itself along with no competition and no Offspring and nothing no babies to feed and no it’s just like one thing that sits there and then it has the ability to manipulate your you in various ways and get you to do what it wants to do so it gets you to to put out this 2 to practice you old enough for its consumption I think more realistically that it is that there’s multiple like more of a freedom a Feeding Frenzy when you do something you wish you hadn’t done or you do something that makes you feel bad or you do something it’s like sexually pathological makes you feel good but it’s like a shallow good feeling you’re actually doing harm and but you’re feeding these things and I asked you on time cuz you were going through a sort of surgical extraction and an exercise in a surgical exorcism extraction procedure and asked you cuz I was curious and I was doing it for the second time is it one big one or it rots of little ones and you said both then if you want to talk a little bit about that like you were this will this anything you kind of know about like if you were a zoologist are you were you know you’re studying the distorted demon Kingdom like the animal kingdom and you be like yeah you know I’m out there doing my exploring and kind of identifying and making different the taxonomy kind of a thing right you see there’s ones like this didn’t want to look like that as long as it smell like this one it’s not like that and just things that differentiate them in your mind from all the different experiences you had personally where you be at what you personally how you would identify it if you were if it was a lineup for if I can’t see them the most strongest the biggest ones smell like sulfur and I’ve had certain like on a tip not typical but one night I had one follow me like on the road home at the parking lot and Ikea work usually people associate that’s not cemeteries but it was following me everywhere other than that the facial expressions of people are either blank with their eyes or you know almost pitch-black or smiling in a very Sinister way grinning I guess you could say summer angry out some life like non-stop the people under attack are constantly whaling cuz the pain never stops and yeah and another thing I noticed is the head movements head movements are very very quick almost unnatural you know like in the scary movies they always do that but they they really do that and they won’t really blink it’s almost as if the person forgot how to Blink cuz he’ll just stay open that’s what I noticed behind the scenes behind the mask of the human form the sort of the Matrix means what are the Men in Black plus the Matrix customer matrix totally sums up the world of interaction between human and Spirits degree any bumps as you had or like to say that you saw the demon of that X or the former lover can you describe an officer to schedule UPS cuz they were going to go and the demon was dark-skinned must’ve well when I say a big mouth with big fangs I’m saying like a circle and it’s like a circle mouth like a parasite with them really big razor sharp teeth and another one that my friends my girlfriend’s they’ve seen in their lives is a tall man with a hat and a trench coat in Carolee see his face is kind of like you know those people described him as the boogeyman but I mean they’ve seen him standing around just like in the midst of a crowd but no one else sees them or in their houses or you know in dark parking lots and when you get near you know there won’t be anyone there how would you describe the nature of what has do you feel like you have your chakras are infected with Paris theme demonic parasites my chakras are damaged cuz of demonic injuries and and black magic or so I guess I could say it does feel sometimes like there cuz my headache it shifts and it moves unnaturally in that could be parasites that are just moving and just trying to eat away at your brain you know what your spiritual rain so okay I never asked you when you were having your session or after such as they could you could you ask the healers to describe to you and then convey to me what they saw and there’s a new procedure so if you could like describe that one procedure just like as if I never heard of any of this stuff and you’re just now telling someone what the procedure was and then you’re like yeah it was mostly invisible to me but what they told me afterwards that they were doing this and they saw this well yet like I was saying with the power of intense meditation you start to see and feel things the pain of others so I think a lot of the healers have have treated for so long that by now they know which attack was from a demon or from a I’m pretty sure the master of the center knows I like exactly what happened see exactly what the demon looks like but I haven’t had a chance to talk with her okay I think that’s about it wasn’t any last things do you have any thoughts on or practice any form of goddess worship okay what do you do for defense and protection against now we have these categories demonic parasitic infection demonic attack or like assault like injury sorry Yet demonic injury demonic possession demonic infection parasitic infection those are good categories okay so I guess defense strategies and infection what I do when I feel not good or I feel like I have an infection I will you got a bunch of Rue you plug off the small leaves and you blend it and you filter out that water and you put it in a soap bottle and after shower you put it all over you for 3 5 or 7 days and it does make you feel a lot better and my aunt has a set of like it looks almost like Tai Chi exercises your breathing in and breathing out you don’t get a bad and good energy and I just haven’t remembered them and of course there’s meditation and the injury I mean you don’t know it’s so and so it happens really but I mean of course self-defense would help with that and of course infection probably lessen the number of sexual partners you have because you never know what sections you might be spreading down there not only physically but spiritually if someone has if you say you know someone has issues or someone has a lack of love and doesn’t display any respect or love towards you that and itself is bad energy and so when you engage with them you not only leaving with you know you’re not just leaving with your body you leaving with your body plus perhaps a couple of demonic parasites that afterwards you start feeling the same way of that person and it just continues on a chain okay and if we can just talk for a couple more minutes on this this is like yeah where I want to go for a minute for the men out there help help the men understand how important it is to conduct the the act of Love Making in a ritual and ritualized manner that really anchors in the highest intentions in and is about building honor and trust and respect and boundaries and communication like what I am trying to share with my being you know exposed to in a good way being found by and embraced by the sacred sexuality modern 66 Rowdy sort of movement and we have to like what you’re saying the advice is something would be something like first to be warned that this is happening you know exactly the way you described it would show a hundred percent agreement about and then knowing that now if you didn’t know that already here’s what you must demand from your you know lover male or female or old you know where any configuration before you allow your sexual intimacy to occur with one or more people you have to do X Y and Z to make sure that you’re safe and always you know and we can the STD stuff is we don’t have to go into the medical stuff of course it’s in the other conversation but the spiritual spiritually transmitted demons is there sexually transmitted demons are spiritually transmitted diseases I think they both do you know you can get make the point do you have advice for men and women or Crap wherever you want and are all gen I guess advice for a specific specific advice for men and any other advice you want to give because I think men need to have this ingrained how to conduct themselves using an ethical procedure and a sort of some skillfulness and some Artistry to be able to make someone feel safe and also the biggest challenge is going to be figuring out how you how the male who’s filled with the cultures demons you know where all carriers of the cultural demons you know and we could be saintly in our lives and saves like and still have pornographic programming and still have all of these issues that are societal and so to what I want to be able to master and teach is the ability to really conduct myself and in a state of grace that makes transference and possible because the the the the love lover of like shiv like unconditional real true Pure Love is something that that will incinerate these demons like you’re creating it when you effectively sort of Sakrete your own love biochemistry and you create this Cosmic energetic vibrational light Love Field of energy then you are effectively frying the demons and that that is the end of when the Kundalini plunger effect starts to happen and you get the coiled serpent actually like hydraulically douching out the chakra system and that’s being caused by this influx of it’s like you’re using each other’s bodies to open a valve to Divine energy and divine energy is what douches the chakras in a hydraulic peristaltic Serpentine movement kind of way so that’s I don’t know if that’s something that you have a answer that you practice and about me to see no give only as much detail as you want but he would like to be able to save somebody look how do you know I know you’re a sweetheart and I love you and that you’re loving me to the best of your ability and it’s cute and Charming that you fumble around and make mistakes and I forgive you cuz I know you’re trying and then I was at Centex so you have permission to enter me and and use are or share will share each other and experience pleasure for with and through each other for the purpose of pure hedonistic pleasure and the purpose of healing in the purpose of strengthening our bond as friends and you know this life journey together in and for relaxation for obvious reasons but I know that you are also as much as those intentions are there I also know that you are this entire reservoir of demonic entities what are the cultures programs that are living inside of you and trying to like transmit themselves so because that is a fact of your existence we need to engage in this procedure that’s going to guarantee that we have created the field of have fun of Love energy that will be that that they will have to evacuate from you they’ll have to Scurry away from because it will consume them in the fire you know and so do you have you effectively convey that how do you convey that knowing what you know which is what I like most women or not having a conversation anything like this with the people that they allowed to penetrate them right so how do you do that that’s really tough to bring up to the mail because a lot of males are not spiritually in touch with themselves are the subjects so you just usually not mention that part that just mention you know that you’re not emotionally ready for a stage like that and that our generation this culture kind of just throws away the sacredness of sex and you have to make that point clear cuz a lot of people forget that you and you can have to earn it you can’t just first date I paid for your dinner so yeah and it’s also a very tough to be sexually spiritual or spiritually sexual and a generation that’s like I told you before was so technological where we make every decision objectively when you know you need a little subjective to correlate with your heart anything more like have you had any can you recall any situations where you’ve been able to have satisfactory results with somebody because you train them to be the proper whatever you like you know like there’s no one way but it’s your way and that’s what matters right yeah there has been where I am we both meditated for bit and then you know the heat arrows and that we both decided you know it wasn’t the right time or place to go through with it and that’s success when you think of both of your priorities and if you’re both ready for it I saw yeah I do think meditation together with your partner is really essential in my life so I’m a bad example I guess because or I’m I’m like a Mite my case doesn’t count because I danced so much it’s almost like I don’t not dance ever since things like that like it’s happening while doing the dishes gardening watering plants something is wiggling cuz I’m usually listen to psytrance you know or podcasts are both in so I don’t have a problem with this but I feel like most people do have a problem with this and so I’m trying to think of how do I prescribe The Sweet Spot formula if I’m like an extreme case to one into the other and it’s like so here’s my thing dance at least three times the duration of the Intercourse that you have and you should have a healthy relationship or the potential they ever have the bishop dancing together and dancing especially you could I get supply that I mean doesn’t always have to be at 5 minutes I’m in you know it’s have a quickie you know in the in the the the the Janitor’s Closet you know in the office or what you’re obviously not going to dance for three times that 5 minutes before you do that but overall on average you know and and it should be the point should be made that dancing and meditating not everyone wants to dance which is a freaking problem I need the Tantra task Force’s going to solve that problem to visibility because if you don’t dance you can’t disinfectant purifying and he’ll in my and you can dance in whatever way you could answer your freaking toes I don’t care but do something that makes you feel good in your body and sharing that with somebody before before lovemaking yasso dance and sexuality any thoughts you know if you look at BM Tango salsa but you out the Motions of Love Making hand and hand but the problem is with a partner who has two left feet and just refuses to dance it’s okay it’s much more fun with than actual dance partner though dance to meditate and I made love or meditate and dancing meatloaf like we said regimented and restricted to eight counts them used dancing with a Goldman so it doesn’t lend itself to that or just freestyling but I’m just saying I guess the answer is no but I didn’t put them ideally yes I need to step up their game at 7 use you to step up on the dance floor at the game is on the dance floor not on the the TV it’s not on the TV or the console yeah so I was cool well I think that’s a great. I don’t even there right there thank you in whatever way you could answer your freaking toes I don’t care but do something that makes you feel good in your body and sharing that with somebody before lovemaking yeah so dance and sexuality any thoughts you know if you look at the Tango salsa but you out the emotions of lovemaking they go hand-in-hand with a partner who has two left feet and just refuses to dance free reduced Tina the type of dance where you just jumping up and down but that’s fine but it’s okay it’s much more fun with than actual dance partner though I meditated and I made love or meditated and dancing made love like we said regimented and restricted to eight counts and usually dancing with a gold men so it doesn’t lend itself to that could you imagine or just freestyling but I’m just saying I guess the answer is no but I didn’t but ideally yes ideally yes that means you to step up on the dance floor at the game is on the dance floor not on the with the TV it’s not on the TV or the console yeah so I was cool well I think that’s a great idea and they’re right there thank you. 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