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Introduction to Warrior Tantra and Sexual Self-Defense TPP250

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Warrior Tantra PicIn this episode I share the original Warrior Tantra introduction lecture from early 2017

My Non Verbatim Show Notes

Our relationship to violence is highly distorted, very unrealistic, we have the horrors of the battlefield in military conflicts throughout the world

secret hidden violence of fathers abuse children and spouses

violence in cartoon, video games

is a such a thing as healthy or sacred violence, expressed in martial arts around the world,

principles and ethics of defensive fighting, to defend self, land, family, way of life, community, is tempered with a feminine wisdom

the ideal for all militarys nation states, who have at least paid lip service to the idea that we’re not trying to be barbaric, colonize, conquer, might is right, warlord organized violence to build empires, supposedly in the modern world we’ve evolved past that ideology

beautiful martial arts systems, at their core essence pushing forward that ethic, appropriate violence, sacred violence, not be abused for one’s own self gain

most spiritual traditions, discipline, being a warrior is different from being a soldier, being a defender of a culture, of your people, hoping will evolve to all people and all life

to be a spiritual warrior is to overcome racism, sexism, homophobia, borders and boxes, unnecessary antagony between lifestyles, regions, histories

many of the would be warriors, who have been trained to be soldiers now are fighting battles that are rooted in old paradigms of thinking where there was much less expansion of consciousness around love and acceptance and compassion, this is all the great spiritual battle that’s taking place all over the globe, for 1000s of years, impulse to create peaceful harmonious regenerative communities that are not expansionist, striving to maintain ecological balance, and the cultures using violence to conquer, colonize, take land by force, rape and pillage

the call to action for this brand, a lifestyle, an upgrade to both being a martial artists and being a tantrika to be practicing warrior tantra,

I’m hear to open up a discourse to merge sacred sexuality with sacred violence, I’m not a guru, I’m not going to have all the answers for everyone on their individual path

but what I will do with my training and my knowledge is to create a space where we acknowledge that the dimensions of combat and warfare are beyond our physical bodies

it goes into our emotional space, our intellectual space, our sexual space, many dimensions where we can be attacked so it is only reasonable, logical, sensible, to develop defensive tactics in all areas of our life

violation is very complex, and we can be violated through sound waves going into our ears, from light beams going into our eyes, wounds from physical violence that heal faster and more complete than wounds from sexual violence, it’s a continuum, and there’s multi dimensions

what you may or may not find in a martial arts studio or training system would be some of the more spiritual components that you would find in tantra or sacred sexuality where you’re creating boundaries and owning your space, on multi dimensional levels and mastering arts for self preservation and protection, in multiple dimensions of your being

there are places where you can go and learn how to be a better lover, be a master of your inner emotional state, spiritual trainings and traditions, sexual mastery wisdom traditions, and there are places where you can study the arts of defending the body, using weapons, blades, sticks, firearms, your own bodies natural weapons, in the original what I would say is the roots of tantra, these two, now polarized, are you a lover or a fighter, in the early days you were both, people were less dependent on military, state, government, police force, systems, people had to defend themselves and their community on a daily basis and it was really all down to earth

the arts of loving, the arts of fighting, all very deeply intertwined, every person was included in some of the earliest forms of martial arts training, this is what I believe we can restore is a very localized systems for teaching sacred sexuality and teaching self defense and martial arts, bringing it all together

self love self esteem, really the core of it all

it’s a positive feedback loop, a positive upward spiral of self love, conditioning your connection to the divine loving yourself more and more, having the physical confidence of training so that you can defend yourself in all kinds of battlefields, seen and unseen

defend your sacred self love and your integrity, bodily integrity, sexual integrity

the sanctity of the boundaries of your body image itself, we’re being attacked in so many ways, always attempting from billboards to boyfriends, to girlfriends to all the kinds of porn, you can develop a sense that these negative assaults on your divine self loving sense of perfection as you are, they’re attacking and corroding that inner essence of self acceptance and love and beauty

you could be a really good mma fighter or boxer or combat soldier and still have a brokenness inside that makes you susceptible to false leaders and fighting for the wrong reasons, its really an opportunity to balance those aspects and build a foundation of deep powerful, timeless eternal self love that will radiate a defensive field around you

through physical combative training and physical conditioning, combined with the spiritual, emotional, sexual defensive training and conditioning I can speak from experience I’ve had to defend myself in mortal combat scenarios, I had to fight for my life when I lived on the street, there were times, other compromised circumstance, I can speak from that experience of being a warrior on the street, and also as a survivor of abuse I’ve had to

escape kidnappings, escape from arrests when I was sometimes an outlaw, I’m here to help people avert those catastrophes

you should never have to defend your body from a lethal attack, and you should never have to defend your body from a sexual attack, I’ve done both, I’ve survived both and sometimes in the same context

we live in threatening world

if we have system of self defense that evolves and understands that new threats are emerging everyday, the martial arts systems that were developed 100s if not 1000s of years ago

in some of the tantric scriptures it was very explicitly warned that we were approaching a time where the threats of sexual violation by men are going to increase, by horrific, on a mass scale

the corruptibility of male sexuality by in very clear terms, its a state of possession

whatever scientific faith you wna tto have about whether or not the demonic realm and demonic entities and species are real or not real, that’s optional

I’m not going to impose any belief system around where these forms of sexual violence are coming from, but it’s just a matter of doing a bit of research on the data, that we are in a world that is more threatening to women and children than ever, on a mass scale

the most intrusive vector of these patterns of violence, it was television, now its the internet, its the effect of high speed internet pornography, is the bleeding edge of what in the hindu tantric scriptures, the sort of prophecies about this time, they didn’t predict the internet, the development of photography, cameras, films, but I dare say they would not be surprised that the intentions of the entities that they had been in combat with spiritually, that they wrote great epic scriptures and mythologies about, the need to have a spiritual warrior practice to defend against the entities that are hell bent on making hell on earth mainly through every form of violation imaginable

they are understood to be very creative, and merciless

and you see that in the porn that people are addicted to, that young boys are being initiated into as their default sexual education

it’s a very horrific, systematic, fracturing corruption of male sexuality, and the stats on abuse are just staggering

its propagating and spreading like a virus

the need for women and children to be trained in practical self defense and I say more importantly in practical self defense than in martial arts systems that were designed for a different era

they came from a different place and different time where the the threats were different

so my point is to say that, new adaptations of the martial sciences have got to be designed to meet the threats of the modern era

the idea that we were gonna be inundated with demons, hell on earth, infecting men, women have to take up arms to defend themselves and their children against these men, I call them rape zombies

the horror stories I hear from just people in the dating world, something is off, the men seem to be glazed over, hollowed out, and the shit that comes out of their mouth

and the acts they attempt to conduct in the bedroom, the psychology of date rape

that’s where we’re dealing with, these hollowed out shells of young men, and old men, who, in the tantric terminology, their heart chakras have been shut down in encrusted, not just blocked, but actually strategically infested and debilitated, by real trans-dimensional biological entities that are not necessarily transmitting through the tv set, this the great leap, until we have the science to prove it

you can compare my statements to your own personal experience, talk to women who’ve been abused, anyone who’s a survivor, who’s had to stare down that hollow, unloving, uncompassionate, manipulative, psychopathic, sociopathic, gaze of a predator

anyone who’s had that experience will most likely help people who haven’t had that experience, and help the perpetrators of these crimes understand that they have been hacked

whether from watching porn, or watching violent movies, or watching violence going on around them, its not that the demons jump through the television set, or through the screen from porn, it’s that we’re all vibration, we’re all frequency and vibration, in the unseen surrounds of our physical environment, physical body, potentially infinite overlapping dimensions where non human intelligent entities are always attempting to take up space in our energy field, thereby become parasites, and extract our energy in order to feed themselves and their families, live in their parellel dimension, sucking our energy from us, and I don’t like to use the words holy and unholy, but in order to be a defender of your body temple, and effectively protect those who are most at risk of sexual violation

there are skills and art forms designed by the tantrics 1000s of years ago to buffer those influences from the underworld, if you want to use a classic shamanic term

although its not technically below us, its not below the floor, it’s not down there per se, we’re in a soup of beings all around us at all times

if we engage in practices of self purification then we become less susceptible to the penetration and influence of all different types of being that are just swimming around us on or in the astral plane

the tactics of self defense, if in order to defend yourself you had to understand at all times there are intelligent parasitic entities floating around all of us, there are places where their ability to perforate and puncture our auric field our energetic shield, that’s around our body, it can be trained and conditioned and developed to be less penetrable

obviously if you just do an experiment and go down to the local dive singles bar, and you do some practices of meditation to attune yourself to your own energy field, you can start to sense attacks from people’s eyes, from people’s words, from billboards, messages all around you, its more than meets the eye

what’s happening is when you react to people places and things around you you consciously or unconsciously shift your vibration in that shifting of vibration you are then potentially susceptible to these attacks

they always say, dress warm in winter because you’ll catch a cold, it’s not actually that your temperature will give you the cold, its that the cold viruses are all over you and all over the place everywhere and your immune system, when it’s not compromised by your body being cold, it has the power to just continually fight off all those attacks, and you don’t even know it you’re just happy and healthy and you’re not sick you don’t have a cold, but the cold viruses are all over you, and what it is that protects you is the health of your immune system

if you drink alcohol, your immune system is being debilitated by your drunkenness

the point is that to walk through this world as a spiritual sexual warrior you have got to own and love your space and develop that fine tuned awareness of what causes you to compromise your sexual spiritual auric immune system

if you have a strong sense of purpose and you have a strong connection to the earth and to the divine, however you structure that from whatever tradition, you will become practically immune to all forms of attack, most forms of attack occur when your energy is skewed

a lot of women who get repeatedly raped and end up in repeated abusive relationships, when they’re questioned and speak honestly about these patterns, there’s a really sort of self destructive, self sabotaging urge to just be put out of the misery of existence, and so just falling into every trap, falling into ever more cascading emotional, physical, sexual violence its heart break to watch those patterns unfold for people

you can’t just put a gun in their hands, or even just teaching them physical combatives, although when a woman shoots a fire arm, something magical happens, that’s goddesses’ honest truth, there is a beauty in that experience of for the first time and I speak as a survivor, the first time being able to feel like, wow, there is a range of defensiblity of my body temple that doesn’t depend on my physical size, it’s the great equalizer

this program of training, is going to address all of these ranges of attack, classically in martial arts you have close range, mid range, far range different words in different systems, for example if someone’s approaching you, a side kick to the knee is what Bruce Lee would say, the longest weapon to the nearest target, you wouldn’t wait to elbow them, appropriate distance would be throwing out that kick

a billboard is one form of attack, a billboard presents a body image that is an unrealistic ideal that would require plastic surgery, enhancements, or reduction or whatever, hyper representation of physiques, just not representative of average people, that’s a form of an attack

on all genders, all genders are kept in this constant inner battle of whether they’re going to be loved based on how their body looks, and whether they’re going to be successful in world of power and money and wealth based on how symmetrical their facial features are, what their voice sounds like, things that are superficial, its difficult for most people to measure up to those so called standards

to be a warrior against being punched in the gut by the site of somebody you think is more attractive than you, to be set off course and out of balance, its an attack that will leave you open and then susceptible

that feeling can lead to you going to the bar, having a drink because you don’t feel good about yourself, and then you wake up the next day in a hospital because your drink got rufeed, or whatever, stories of compromise they all cascade and get worse, the more abuse anyone experiences, the less power they have to stand up and rebuild that protective auric shield around all these negative influences

worst of all, there’s all these ranges, all these avenues of attack coming at us from the external world, but the real curse is when they get internalized, and they become voices in our own heads, and we start to listen to what we think is our own, multifaceted self

you see someone walking down the street talking to themselves and their crazy, meanwhile whether or not you move your lips or make sounds, if you’re having a dialog with yourself when you look at the mirror, or you do something that makes you feel stupid, that you should be embarrassed about, instantly their comes the voice which not always is the most friendly voice and is sometimes your worse enemy

the world I want to live in is world of rape free zones

conditions that are conducive to rape are studied and analyzed and designed against

I would love to see a feminist revolution that takes all the weapons, power, land education systems, everything back from the patriarchal power structure with a swiftness, an abrupt insurrectionary uprising of women who organize together in sex strikes, and build new nations with new boundaries and reclaim the maternal birthright of really meticulously designing male egos that are in service to the earth and the elder councils of women who they adore and fear as all boys feared the wrath of their mother, doesn’t get much simpler than that

the distorted relationship we have with organized male violence, from street gangs to the mafia, every single cult of violence that men have organized and lead, only exist because mothers have been prohibited from sustaining a nature prehistoric tendency to collectively design how they want male aggressive energy to flow through their designed social ecosystem

its a horrible perversion of force on this earth for their to be male violence of any kind that is not guided by the wisdom of priestesses and elder women who are sustaining traditions of goddess worship that connect every bodies mind body spirit and sexuality to the divine wisdom that is feminine, is compassionate and nurturing

it is possible that every act of sexual conduct that a male engages in in his entire life time could be absolutely a blissful meditation

imagine that boys and young men and young adults and elder men, all lived with the same fear and humility towards all women and the divine feminine, never having been allowed to develop a self serving ego, and being kept in a constant state of bowing and being in prostration to that feminine power, as the superior and highest supreme power that’s what the schools of tantra that we’re drawing from in this warrior tantra program are all about and its my pretty well studied opinion is that every problem we’re facing in the history of the planet is the result of the perversion of that power dynamic

I don’t know a lot of female rapists or child abusers

I don’t know a lot of women who are designing weapons of mass destruction or cutting down trees on a mass scale, these are all symptoms of a power structure that has been hijacked not by the sacred masculine but by the toxic masculine

that if not kept in prostration to the divine feminine, will become a horrific evil menace to all life on earth

its the stories the mythologies, the cursing of women through religions that have feared women in the wrong way, there is a good way to fear women and the divine feminine, fearing that you won’t have the stamina to please them fully, that should be the primary fear

the way to solve that fear is to train your nervous system to be able to hold and embrace ever more powerful waves of divine feminine sexual energy, the kundalini shakti energy

that is the task of men, to be in prostration and in fear of the goddess in a manner that makes them want to put down axe, put down sword, grab your cock, with guidance of elders from long standing traditions, how to become a god, a peaceful loving, compassionate, gentle, caring earth worshiping, goddess worshiping powerful warrior who is capable of conducting defensive violence among many other things, but at the beginning and end of the day you’re there to kiss the feet of the mother goddess in all her forms, we’re a long way from there being positive peer pressure between men to be a better love, a more dutiful lover, a more prostrate lover

there was a time when all the cool people we’re doing it, the in crowd was doing it, goddess worship, prostration to the divine feminine, the glory to be accessed by ritual love making, where the impulse to harm and to rape and abuse was so well buffered so that a woman could trust that while making love to a man she was making love to the divine masculine aspect, that he has ritual invoked and through his practice of goddess worship he is essentially earning the access to be able to be possessed by the divine feminine energy so a woman can feel safe because she’s in the vibration of the goddess that has been invoked ritually by her lover

don’t have to believe any of this spirituality, any of these esoteric principles, we could all be starting from scratch

if every spiritual book instantly disappeared from the planet and we all just had the world we’re living in now, the technology systems, the political systems, erased all the mythology, if we had to start from scratch its a very simple reboot

the men who are careless recklessly unconsciously taking and not giving with their primordial sexual drives, if their in the reptilian brain with the remorselessness of that lower level of animal instinct, there are other animals that are compassionate, that are loving, it’s not just to say that humans are compassionate and all animals are below us

within all of our neuro anatomy, there’s a potential to devolved into an uncompassionate, self serving, sociopathic mode,

we have to acknowledge that in this modern world, it’s gotten worse, this tendency for males to conduct themselves in an uncompassionate way, it’s being rewarded, by media, by male peers, by the law in lot of places still, women as property and rape toy,

some places in the world where it’s safer to not be married because if you’re unmarried and you’re raped you can press charges but if you’re married you’ve joined a rape contract and you’ve signed up for it, so most likely you’ll be prosecuted

the world is extremely warped and the violence that’s being done on every level is all coming back to that fundamental distortion of the relationship to the human mother and the divine mother, circumcision

lack of breast feeding you so the hostility of men against women, nature, and animals, it’s very systematically built into most of the males walking the earth today, those who’ve been circumcised, those who have been deprived of on demand breast feeding, they are the enemies of life on earth, and for a reason, if you were an intelligent demon lord who wanted to come to earth and figure out how to make the most pain and suffering for all of life and really make a game show or a casino out of watching the misery unfold, the debauchery and hellish extreme violence, the raping of infants in places in Africa where there’s a mythology that they are less likely to have HIV/AIDs so they’re preyed upon in horrific cults of infant rape

female genital mutilation, all of these sores, all of the abuse happening on native american reservations, extremely high rate of alcoholism and these clusters of child sexual abuse where public officials come into work in government office job, and complain about how their child bit their penis while they were engaged in routine servicing

it is a very designed hell on earth that we live in and the forces that we’re up against, they don’t, in my experience they don’t respond to treatment with pharmaceutical drugs, with bibles, with exorcists, in my experience, my personal experience and in my studies, what we’re up against, what we’re doing with is such a merciless insidious force from the darkest pits of creation, its should be no surprise that in tantra the supreme goddess deities are the warrior goddesses the one’s who’ve adapted to address the ever evolving strategies of the demonic realm

mythology of kali and durga main warrior goddesses par excellence, there’s a lot of symbology there, a lot to read between the lines

and if none of this spiritual language works for you, watching this, there’s an even simpler frame of reference which is bonobos and chimpanzees, that’s a whole new mythology where if we had to scrap every spiritual text, every wisdom tradition, go observe behavior of chimps and bonobos, very close primate cousins, we happen to have more in common with bonobos than chimps, on dna level

however more exposure and contact and study was done with the chimps so they became the model to justify patriarchal violence and rape

I speak with boldness and confidence about my personal revelations about who and what is running the show of sexual patriarchal violence on earth, and who really owns this casino, who really owns this rape culture, it’s not the best attempt humans have made to figure out how to get along, and to share resources and to love each other and make love to each other, this is not the pinnacle of our consciousness around power and gender and sexuality,we’re living in the mass global entertainment driven patriarchal paradigm, it’s not progressive

you could say there’s more empowered roles for women in cinema, more queer roles, all that is a step in the right direction, towards our primal mode of loving, acceptance, equality, egalitarianism

Basic Preparedness and the Prepping Pyramid TPP246

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Basic Preparedness Prepping Pyramid
The term prepping refers to the process by which you incrementally increase your level of preparedness for emergency/disaster on a continuum from short-term self-reliance to long-term self-sufficiency.

The term preps can be defined as tangible items or systems that you acquire or build and use in prepping. While some people may include intangible things such as weapons training, drills, skill development, etc. in their definition of preps, for the purpose of this piece, the focus is on physical items.

The stereotype that survivalists live alone in underground bunkers in the middle of nowhere is rarely accurate. The media sensationalizes the extreme cases, but the reality is that a holistic family oriented survival plan involves several locations and several different scales. I’ve organized the list below in order of scale from the smallest to the largest caches of preps in a pyramidal model to represent overlapping zones.

1. Body

2. Bug Out Bag

3. Bug Out Vehicle

4. Workplace/School

5: Home

6: Bug Out Location

Body

Preppers promote taking some level of responsibility for your safety and security by not only developing self-defense, first-aid, and other survival skill sets, but by carrying implements, tools, devices, and supplies on your person at all times. Having preps on your person isn’t only so you can help yourself and your family, it’s also so you can help others in need.

What you carry on your person is often referred to as “Every Day Carry” or “EDC”. On this scale your preps will include an array of smaller survival gear items. The number of items you carry will be determined by the amount of pockets, belt accessories, carabiners, etc. you’re comfortable with. Fashion and function can be hard to reconcile, but it’s worth an attempt. Many people walk through the world without care or thought of the potential for anything to go wrong. The expectation that something bad will “never happen to me” is a symptom of what is clinically called “normalcy bias”. This is a psychological tendency to avoid considering and logically preparing for disruptions in modern business-as-usual life.

Unfortunately if we encounter bad guys on the street, chances are police won’t arrive on the scene until the incident is over. If we’re in a disaster situation, emergency medical responders may not be able to get to us in the time it takes to die or become seriously ill from preventable causes such as bleeding, dehydration, infection, etc.

Items often carried every day by preppers may include some of the following:

cutting tools, fire making tools, multi-tool, parachute cord, led light, compass, first-aid items (band-aids, alcohol pads), whistle, water purification tablets, emergency medical info card, list of emergency contacts, bandana, cell phone with additional charged battery, flash drive, notepad, writing utensil, “forever” postage stamps, prepaid phone card, cash, checks, herbal energy pills, p38 can opener, water bottle, pepper spray, misc. legal self-defense implements…

Bug Out Bag (BOB)

The “Bug out Bag”, a.k.a. “BOB”, is the survivalist slang for what is more officially known as a 72-hour emergency kit. However, the critical distinction is that a BOB must be in the form of a back-pack that can allow you to move on foot, hands-free.

On this scale of preps, you may have some of the same items that you’d have for EDC, however in greater lengths, quantities, container sizes, etc. as you’ll have the main column of the bag, plus many extra pockets, compartments, straps, clips, etc.

Here’s a list of some of the items often found in or attached to BOBs.

More fire making tools, more parachute cord, flashlight, batteries, candles, first aid kit, extra medications, hand crank/solar emergency weather radio, signal mirror, toilet paper, tweezers, toothbrush, misc. toiletries, sun block, bug spray, warm clothes (kept dry in a large zip lock bag), rain gear, gloves, hat, sun glasses, mess kit (eating dish/utensils), lightweight pot for cooking/boiling water, salt/spices, three days worth of dry food, hooks/sinkers, wild edible plant identification books, bigger water bottle, water filtration devices, 5 gallon collapsible water jug, small bottle of bleach, folding shovel, wire saw, sewing needles and floss, pen or pencil wrapped with duct tape, pen or pencil wrapped with fishing line, full size notebook, envelopes, plastic bags, garbage bags, survival manuals, entertainment devices such as books or games, documentation package (including emergency contacts, local emergency service provider phone numbers, evacuation procedures/plans/packing checklists, multiple evacuation routes, encrypted bank account, social security, etc. numbers, list of family medications/medical conditions, etc.), maps, sleeping bag, space blanket, tube tent, therma-rest pad, tarp, poly sheeting, legal self-defense tools carried in accordance with local law…

It helps to separate and categorize your items into zip-lock bags and distribute the bags into to different pockets and compartments for easy access. The bags also help keep your gear dry.

This sounds like a lot of stuff but if properly organized and compacted a lot of it can comfortably fit in/on a large camping pack. Depending on the nature of the situation, you may want to drop a lot of weight so you can cover more ground on foot. In Saving Private Ryan, the scene in which the translator joins the unit shows how a combat-inexperienced soldier tries to pack everything he was issued in his bag for the mission, and is made to leave most of it behind by his fellow soldiers. This is a useful bit of insight demonstrating that “the more you know the less you need,” and that you have to be realistic about your ability to haul more than the bare minimum.

Your normal commuting vehicle (which may or not be your “Bug Out Vehicle”) should always contain your BOB so that it will be accessible wherever you drive. Storing it in the trunk also ensures you’ll never forget it at home, and when you need to lighten the load and take a few items out, you can lock them in your trunk or locked box in a flatbed truck.

Of course if you’re riding a bus, if you are a passenger in someone else’s vehicle, or riding a bike, it won’t be feasible to bring your BOB with you. In those situations you’ll be relying on EDC, or a smaller backpack with a selection of items from your BOB depending on the situation. For example, if you’re hiking, you’d want to grab a selection of items from your BOB and put them in your day pack.

Most importantly, every member of your family should have a BOB, and every BOB should contain the same version of the documentation package. In an emergency you’ll then be able to co-ordinate your response based on documented protocols that everyone has the current printed version of.

Bug Out Vehicle (BOV)

Your “Bug Out Vehicle” may be a huge 4-wheel-drive monster or a compact car. Older diesel trucks are preferable as they have less electrical components that can fail, and they can be converted to run on veggie oil. Whatever you prefer and have the means to acquire can serve as your BOV, though traditionally it’s a truck or SUV. All that’s required is that it be stocked with extra preps and be equipped with accessories that will optimize performance and provide redundancies in evacuation scenarios.

Besides simply scaling up some of your preps (such as a 5 gallon bucket of dry food that preferably doesn’t require cooking, one or more gallons of water, a larger first aid kit, etc. the following are some preps specific to the BOV:

Flares, basic tools, spare parts (headlights, belts, bulbs, etc.), quarts of oil, extra fluids, map books, solar power system, power inverter, spare tire, snow chains, jack, blankets, tent, boots, entrenching tool, books, gas can (keep empty unless it can be stored safely and securely), more legal self-defense tools transported in accordance with local law, any other large utility/emergency items that don’t fit in or are not appropriate for your BOB.

Every family vehicle should be to some degree prepped to function as a BOV, even if there’s one larger vehicle that’s designated as the main BOV.

Workplace/School

This refers to the place where most of your time is spent outside of the home, wherever that may be. The goal would be to get your colleagues or co-workers on-board with prepping so that they collaborate and pool resources to ensure that there are preps on-site. Whether in a basement, storage closet, or under your desk you should try to get some amount of food/water/medical supply storage set up. If nothing else, try to convince whoever’s in charge to at least have emergency kits on-site that are sized appropriately for the number of people in your office, dorm, etc.

Most likely if done right, you can store a lot without it being a nuisance and have some sense of security knowing that if you end up stuck there, you won’t die of dehydration, starvation, or mild injuries.

Home

Without being too extreme, you should see your home as your fort. It’s the place where you let down your guard at night and go to sleep. It’s the place where you raise your family, or are being raised by your family. It’s where you should feel the most safe and secure, and where you should have the most control of your survival. Again, many of the prep items you’ll want at home have been listed above, but here are some preps that are unique to the home:

large water tanks, rain water catchment systems, months to years worth of long term food storage in the form of canned foods and dry foods including your favorite grains, legumes, seeds (for eating, sprouting, and planting), nuts, spices, dried herbs, dried fruits, etc. in 5 gallon bucket/mylar bag/oxygen absorber kits on a rotation system so you “eat what you store and store what you eat”, sprout jars, green house, permaculture garden (food forest if possible), irrigation systems, herbal medicine cabinet, organic recycling center (i.e. compost, vermiculture, humanure, etc), guard dog(s), livestock, food dehydrator, canning equipment, solar power system with battery bank, more legal weapons, low and high tech security systems, toiletry reserves, fuel reserves (gas, firewood, etc.), generator, full camping gear for the whole family, bigger/more specialized hand/power tools, fire-proof lock box for important documents, back up computers, back up external hard drives, lots of useful practical/instructional books and videos, cash, precious metal reserves, large self-assembled or store bought emergency kits…

Bug Out Location (BOL)

The “Bug Out Location” a.k.a. “BOL” or “survival retreat” is your ultimate destination in the case of forced or voluntary evacuation from your normal place of residence. Ideally it would be far out of the urban and suburban zones though not necessarily totally isolated. For those who can afford the luxury, the BOL is a piece of rural land that you own and have put some kind of legal temporary or permanent inhabitable structure on (trailer, teepee, yurt, cabin, house, natural building, etc.)

If you don’t have the luxury to buy land, you may discover that you have relatives living in the countryside, or friends living on farms with whom you can pre-arrange to stay with under an agreement that you’ll pay rent, or do work-trade.

No matter how you gain access to a temporary or permanent living situation for you and your family, what matters is that you have a plan in place. The plan should ensure that you have a main BOL and several fall back locations if the main location is inaccessible, and have multiple routes to each location. It’s also important to work out a system whereby if members of your family or group reach a certain rally point, there’s a predefined way to “post” inconspicuous communications about who’s reached that point, when they got there, and where they left to.

In terms of the scales of preps, the main BOL will often have the largest stockpile of preps when you factor in the ability to hide or bury large caches and the ability to establish permaculture edible forest gardens, ponds, springs, streams, swales, wood lots, wind power, solar power, micro-hydro systems, etc. Ultimately the ideal BOL would be a rural homestead. However the extent to which it’s developed by the time you need it will be determined by how much time, energy, and money you can afford to put into it while you’re not actually living on it.

In rural zones, the land itself is a prep. The more you do to prep the landscape, the more yields you’ll produce that are regenerative. In an apartment or small urban lot, you’re usually not able to access and produce renewable resources on the scale needed to be self-sufficient. Urban preps are generally only going to serve for a finite period of self-reliance until the supplies run out. It’s worth noting that in both urban and rural contexts, self-sufficiency is rarely achieved on a household level, rather it requires the functional interdependence of a small community.

Ideally if you’re “bugging out” to your BOL, you’ll have taken as many of the preps from the smaller levels of the pyramid with you so you’ll be combining preps as well.

The BOL is typically seen as the end point of the game where if you’re successful at making it there alive you’ll be relatively safe, secure, and supplied. However, most preppers acknowledge to varying degrees and extremes that to be prepared while being surrounded by the ill-prepared is a recipe for disaster. Generally, the higher the population density, the greater the risk of being jumped, besieged, or raided. So the more remote you are, the less likely the ill-prepared will be to expend the energy to find and take your provisions. There’s a trade-off though which is that the further you are from at least a small town, the fewer services are available. Also, without neighbors (who you may need to rely on to save your life someday or even just barter with) your survivability and quality of life might be diminished.

Re-Establishing a Culture of Preparedness

No individual, family, or group is an island. Ideally the largest step of the prepping pyramid would be a culture of preparedness wherein redundancy is built into every system that the population relies on for basic survival. It’s not utopian, a hundred years ago it was common sense. According to prominent prepper Stewart Rhodes in episode 602 of The Survival Podcast, “during the Cold War, this country had enough grain to feed all of its people for three years in the event of a nuclear winter, now they have enough to feed all of us half a loaf of bread.”
Our ancient and recent ancestors had the wisdom to live by the ways of the ant, not the grasshopper (see Aesop’s fable “The Ant and the Grasshopper”). In the modern survivalist movement, it’s accepted that winter is coming again as it has in the past and will in the future.
Apocalypse would be an easy way out, but in all likelihood, the world will continue to cycle with nature, not end. We’ll have to choose to be prepared. Moreover, it doesn’t take TEOTWAWKI (“the end of the world as we know it”) for any individual or family to experience an acute localized disaster. Be it a job loss, an injury, death of a loved one, etc, when the s**t his hit your fan, it’s your preps that will carry you through in a state of relative comfort and help buffer desperation.

Jack Spirko of The Survival Podcast has provided numerous planning and strategy tools such as the “threat probability matrix” and notion of “disaster commonality” (see episode 166) to help people identify the threats that are most likely to occur in their personal lives, location, climate, etc. and understand that in many ways the fundamental preps and planning needed to survive anything from the “mundane to the insane” are the generally the same.
It’s important while prepping to be creative and make it fun-based not fear-based. Thanks to the modern survival movement there’s a fail-safe principle built-in which essentially states that whatever you do to be prepared for disaster should improve your quality of life whether or not s**t hits the fan! The best example is growing some portion of your own food.

Just avoid panic buying. As with Permaculture the best solutions are small and slow. Continually incrementally add to your preps when grocery items go on sale, when you get extra cash, when you can score something on Craigslist, when there’s a yard sale, etc. Start small, make it fun, get into the groove and you’ll enjoy having a more sensible lifestyle that actually empowers you to be an evermore safe, secure, confident, and dutiful cosmic citizen, community member, and family member.

Beta Testing Innovations in Hypnotic Trauma Healing with Ravyn Ryder TPP220

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In this episode I’m joined by the illustrious and alluring Ravyn Ryder, a highly accomplished guidess of so many things pleasurable, shamanic, entrepreneurial and much more. In this episode we do a bit of an experiment whereby I volunteer to help beta test her innovative therapeutic modality involving eroticized hypnosis for healing. We catch up a bit on her endeavors, commiserate about the need for healers to do self-care, then she facilitates my opening up about deep childhood trauma, ill-fated sexual initiations, negative hard wiring through early stages of masturbation, how I may be able to use hypnosis techniques to re-parent myself retroactively, and much more.

This was a bit of a preliminary session in that it was mostly for me to open up to her so that should could take my input and go back to her alchemical laboratory formulate a program customized for my exact needs. So this is technically part one of what may be a multi-part series where she demonstrates the scope of her offering. I, of course am thrilled and honored to be blessed with this opportunity to be a part of her creative evolution, and I’ve been wanting to explore the hypnosis field much more as my experience has been minimal to date.

The hope is that our spelunking the sexual underworld and taking a proactive and constructive approach to confronting the collective subconsciousness of rape culture will lead to healing and transformation for all victims, perpetrators, and the future generations.

Please visit her website and check out her recent blog post on the effects of porn:

https://ravynryder.com/spirituallyscientificsexblog/effectsofporn

About Ravyn:
Ravyn Ryder is an Erotic Artist, Writer, and Sensual Educator. She has worked in the past professionally with men, women and couples as a Sensual Bodyworker, Dakini, Dominatrix, Courtesan and Long-Term Companion.

She is the creatrix of Body Ryding®, a sensual massage training sequence used to empower women by teaching erotic body slides, full body massage and the art of seduction.

She is a trained Tantric Educator and is a certified Practitioner and Trainer in the Art of Bondassage®. She has studied Swedish, Thai, Lomi Lomi, and Tantric massage with amazing healers all over the world.

She has worked with Shaman’s in Central and South America doing entheogenic medicine work in constant pursuit of personal growth and eager humbleness to learn more about the divine inner and outer universe. She has just recently returned from a 4 month stint in Central America and with a desire to shed light on both the beautiful and ugly complexities of healing with plant medicines, she is working on her first novel—an intimate memoir of her recent experience.

She has a degree in Behavioral Science with a minor in Marketing. She is a certified Life Coach, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Practitioner and is trained in Neuro-Linguistic Programming. Along with bodywork and training, she offers personal coaching to men, women and couples desiring to cultivate more pleasure in their lives.

Sexorcism the Tantric Opera Episode 11 “Psychedelic Goddess Worship”

 

Sexorcism the Tantric Opera Episode 10 “Warrior Goddess”

She’s not easy prey
Holding pepper spray
Scanning her surrounds
Ready to stand her ground

Repelled by wild screams
Can’t get within arms reach
Rape artists beware
Fights like a momma bear

Predators
Will be on the run
Now that
She’s got a gun

You will learn
To stay away
Now that
Her dog is trained

Warrior goddess
Righteous rage, counter-offense
Warrior goddess
Fighting back, sacred violence

Our typical date
Is firing at the range
Then we hit the pads
And work on hand to hand

Fighting back to back
Loving eye to eye
Together we feel safe
Our love we fortify

Spiritual First Aid for Sexual Assault Survivors with Alexandria Baker TPP177

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In this episode I’m joined again by Alexandria Baker, a southern California sex educator, Hatha yoga instructor, ethical luxurious natural beauty and skin care entrepreneur, model, and performance artist.

In our previous episode she shared all about her personal journey, background:
https://tantrapunk.com/sexy-mindfulness-in-lifestyle-and-livelihood-with-alexandria-baker-tpp149/

I was eager to learn of her recent world traveling adventures and sadly discovered in the course of the podcast that she had experienced sexual assault. She boldly shares about the experience, I do my best to apply comforting and empowering stories from my personal battles with surviving sexual trauma. We compare notes and agree that much more loving, care, safe space is needed culturally to seriously address the the plague of abuse.

Please visit her website and Youtube channel at:

https://www.fromalexandria.com/

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCcTemJEFn3GVpGuCbJnu6Yg

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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin podcast episode number 177 I’m being rejoined by Alexandria Baker who is a Southern California sex educator Hatha Yoga instructor ethical luxurious natural beauty and skincare entrepreneur model and performance artists and we didn’t episode called sexy mindfulness in lifestyle and livelihood and that was supposed to number 149 so I encourage you to reference that and go back and check that out to get more of the origin story of Alexandria’s super heroic efforts in the world and we’re about to hear an update from from her recent Journeys have brought into studies and I’ve only been getting beautiful glimpses on Instagram here and there so this is going to be exciting exciting round of updates from who I hope will be a regular correspondent here on the 5 chest it was a pleasure last time and it is a pleasure now and yeah but when was that that was back in April so a lot has happened since then and we ended our last podcast on a bit of a teaser discussing the center for positive sexualities first conference that I was speaking at and that has come and gone and it has created this magical little nest in my heart of and something that I am now starting to really give birth and rice to riches giving more guided meditations and being able to present mindfulness with sexuality and these fears that perhaps might not have been acquainted with it before but what was so nice about that conference was that I was just one of a few people who actually brought up the topic of mindfulness and so it was a crowd that was someone acquainted with being Mindful and present having a sense of spirituality with the sexual and there are some who are very Green Cemetery need to it and others who were like yeah I do this all the time but it was a really Welcome Avenue for this mental and spiritual exploration and so to see people tuned in and then dial into themselves as I was talking about connecting with your sexy self in a spiritual way was just so awesome and beautiful and this is a great time to continue to develop them right to spread the seeds and let this let these eggs hatch into a beautiful birds that I can fly so that was the conference and since then I have been traveling to Europe and West Africa to meditation and yoga and it’s been a beautiful blessing and really really tough challenges well we can get into that yeah please do yeah I’m riveted knowing that you get to travel so much and and I’m all have questions but I love for you to just keep rolling in to give us like the the chronology you know and the itinerary and all that good stuff I was so I left in the middle of the end of July to go to Malta for a month and there it was really about developing my personal practice and it is very focused and driven and really into my body and inhabiting the space and what is a teeny tiny Island that’s below Sicily which is below the boot of Italy and there’s some things going on but at the same time it was also I felt very isolated and so it was a challenge to not have a bunch of friends around that I can just call and hang out if it was a time till I get my books in writing and really work on myself so there were parts of it ever really hard and lonely but also turning Inward and the connecting with the spiritual finding myself my core and from there I moved on to Madrid Spain and I was in the church for a few weeks and I started to do more of my performance training which is primarily with the Leroy which is a suspended suspended ring that was awesome and I have all the little there around southern Spain went back to Madrid from Madrid to Lisbon Portugal I was there for three nights then Portugal fluid to the car Senegal I was there for a few weeks and I went to The Gambia and kind of so this is a country that’s on the western side of Africa and north of that is a little sliver of a country The Gambia I was there for a week return to Senegal back to Lisbon for a little less than a week I was in Spain I want to travel to Barcelona and explore in North Eastern side of spade and go into the south of France and clear out in the mountains and come back down drove down there for a while continue to teach you take classes that was a journey of about four months of teaching and falling in love with myself and other people and practice medicine allowing myself to and it sometimes not allowing myself but just being totally gutted and exposed to the core and having these really intense experiences and I’m not really beautiful and some that were really hard but you’re all that I’m doing my best to slam girl from it took to be able to find gig type work I can sit around the world so I’m curious if you could elaborate on the the planning and forethought and design that went into kind of brought it sound, it sounds almost like you were you booked almost like a chore to do your teachings intimate in to provide your offerings and I’m wondering if that was something you did kind of in advance or if it was just you go to a place and you ask around and you put up with you know a sign and a window or I don’t know I’m so curious how you how you get to be blessed to the level of being able to just take a shower on the road and in not as so they have a booking agent or not yeah I have no idea of the sounds great. Sounds like a great way to have a vacation travel go to business totally that’s absolutely but it was and when it comes to travel I’m a bit of a wild woman I have an idea of the types of things that I would like to do or what I want to experience or maybe these I have a huge list of places that I want to see so I’ll think okay I want to go to this beach so how can I make it happen that’s not what happened for this trip my initial intention for going out to Spain which was Miley main point was to go to school but with the beautiful ways that FAFSA and other the economics of University goes it didn’t work out and instead of just like being super bummed about it or coming home early as I did come home early but I was planning on staying out there for a year I messaged one of my girlfriends who I am connected to through performance and asked her about I I I sent her a message and ask where should I go in Africa I’ve never been I want to experience that I want to explore maybe Morocco Egypt and I’m going to be in Senegal on these dates does this work out and it worked out perfectly and she has an organization the gambian marine and Environmental Conservation and initiative which is dedicated to protecting and preserving The Gambia through immediate action and Community Development that I’m just so behind I love it I love watching her grow and seeing her journey and the things that she’s doing for for her country and I said okay how can I be a part of this what can I do and she’s a dance instructor so she has connections at Studios and with interested people who like to move back active and it was just a beautiful Snowball Effect of I connected with one studio and then I looked an air B&B to stay out for the week and then the hostess happened to go to a studio just their instructors left to go back home the week before so it was like why all of these things are happening in a really beautiful amazing way because I I just allowed things to happen not to say that I was 100% okay with school not working out and it wasn’t a bummer because in many ways it was but I moved past that move through that and thoughts okay what what can I do now what do I want to do I want to teach yoga I want to teach meditation I want surf I want to spend time on the beach I would like to do dance classes and I really really want to be a part of this organization and let every way that I can and we made it happen my friend’s name is yandere and she’s at our house Superwoman so a lot of the connections and West Africa came through her bikini is it there nice to have friends that’s what friends are for booking you on Amazing Adventures in elderly severe so what is that how does from what from what I understand you were on a trajectory of doing but what would you call it a kind of Orthodox medicine degree to be able to use that stuff is that still in the works or how does that affect that that life goal and my ultimate career goal is to be an osteopath so that’s why I would do the same things as a doctor but it’s a few more months of Hands-On training so that I can diagnose and treat with my hands so it’s more holistic and looking at the whole person then me not being in school during that time that I was in Europe in West Africa pushes through States up at least a year at this point because some other plans have changed but what was all so wonderful about that instead of going for credits just to increase like on The Bachelor level now I’m looking at getting my master’s degree in an exercise science so that I can have the prerequisites completed for medical school and now I have an additional degree and I’ll be able to be a way better yoga instructor with more information about how the Body Works in just whole body systems and more and more practice with that that’s what I love and I’m happy that I’ll be able to be at better practitioner and provider yeah I’ve always wish I had more time to well I guess I will say I’m looking forward to when I’m successful enough to wear certain certain responsibilities and precious in my life for our or minimize to where I can actually catch up to a lot of self-study that I wanted to do including anatomy and physiology and all the systems in and I was just fascinated in the the exposure that I had had in standard education I guess and certainly when it applies to healing in all of this super esoteric yoga guy actually have a book called esoteric systems of the body or something and esoteric anatomy of the body and it’s just I’m salivating too real to say two in it goes over all these esoteric traditions and but it has all these maps of the body in maps of different Energy Systems and I just can’t wait to see how they said the size it just so much beautiful scholarship and I would like to yeah I’d like to compare notes cuz you you move in that direction so is that something that you have already begun kind of studying on your own how would you say that like I’m curious if you could talk just about some of the things that excite you about that field some of the things that you’ve already discovered there and absolutely and before we get into that book sounds super yummy and I definitely want to have a good title of it again in the author so that I can get my hands on that and we will certainly pick up rhino but now that I’ve taken you years off of formal education in a university setting I am turning to my notorious and I trainers and teachers and really asking questions about okay when I do when you told me to do this particular movement on the pole where is that coming from to understand that it’s not just my ankle that’s attaching to this large metal rod it’s I’m the movements coming from my head been so when and how to stop move or shift my my abdomen and my shoulders like what positioning do I need to be internally make V to get the quality of the movement’s correct so that I can be safe and also look pretty while I’m doing it so to have a deeper understanding and a physical level is right now the intention that I’m holding when I go into my practice in my training so that I can not only do this well but I’ll be able to teach her that at a certain point unlevel so really leaning into the support that I have been doing as much as I can turn a too much for the others and dial-in on my health practices I I’m trying to consume as much as I can on my own and with the help of me awesome well me and all of the community here at Township on podcasts will be your Study Buddies cuz this is so stiff for everybody wants to up level the stuff and I actually this it makes me think a lot about the difference between more traditional modes of teaching a martial arts and Healing Arts and sexual Arts it’s it’s like they used to be understanding by students that there would be riddles and mysticism and levels of knowledge and you couldn’t just show up to meet up for free or for five bucks and just start picking the brain of the master pack all of their secrets and if they don’t give it to you in a timely manner you’re going to get him a bad Yelp review and so I feel like God now if ever teach anything I have to be armed with so much Western Scientific backup knowledge because people will want to interrogate you and know what if this interests but from a personal level I would say that most of my students have been very very humble and very very they’re interested they want to know where I get my information from for sure I mean some of them do others are just I can help me get into this meditative state so that I can go to sleep that’s all I want but I actually really enjoy the ones who are challenging me and they want more information and they want me to like be on my game and I’m young and there’s only so much knowledge that I contain in this vessel at this point so sometimes it’s the journey where we learn together and all that you know I might not know this now but I’ll look it up and then I’ll send him a message later and we’ll talk about it in the next class and that encourages me to see where my edges are Beyond it and have only had a couple I have had some private students but they were also my friends who were giving me a really more of a hard time about back to the scientific studies that they wanted proof about certain things I couldn’t give a solid example but yeah I’ve had to take deep breaths and okay well this is what I know at this point and we’re going to do this practice together and it’ll be as good as I can be in as good as we can be together and it’ll continue to get better but for now we both need a little bit of patience challenging well I appreciate your approach to that night I can often feel the same the same way that it’s it’s a it’s an artificial I just feel like there’s thanks to you the capitalist system that has broken himself into pieces we don’t have a way of learning we have opportunities to learn this important kind of fun public knowledge a lot of it would have been very public knowledge and a lot of I mean just imagine if everybody if you’ll go was if it was a yoga studio at every playground for recess and that that was part of a routine and so the cultures where meditation and mindfulness and spiritual practices that were I guess you could say more embodied than just sitting still and listening to someone yell at you or something more of those worn by the practices since they’re so lacking people are or seeking it out and discovering it later in life or maybe having only limited access and what not so it makes sense that I mean it gets the tragedy is that you as a as a certified instructor as someone who is basically gone through a sort of whatever however many hours of a crash course or bootcamp to digest the mythologies and the the Arts and Sciences of so many different competing modalities so many different conflicting modalities and to kind of trying to create these these humble and Valiant yet Valiant attempts to tube to package this material and take for us to individually transmitted to other people it’s a lot to ask and in certainly the older you get the more experience and and and I guess in some cases appropriate kind of seniority you would have in a meritocracy of life experience knowledge but but I do I do like your approach to softening that interrogator vibe in that way of saying let’s learn together because really we should have all learn together and a healthy way and and it gives me gives me some hope I’ve been are very interested to see how you been evolving and so yeah some of the things that we had Vibe down before was the sexuality education the sexual health and and wellness and also psychedelics sexual shamanic therapy treatments and all that good stuff but I spent some interesting developments in the end of General feel that I’m just curious where you’re where you’re at with all that stuff because that was something that we rushed upon as well yeah we did we did talk about that when we when we might but as far as recent developments I’ve been knot on top of what has been happening in the Psychedelic science field lately my focus has been in other direction but what’s happened but what can you tell us about that then I can give my opinion so much love and affection for Rick doblin of the multidisciplinary association of psychedelic studies maps the biggest non-profit pharmaceutical drug development company that’s really ever existed in that continues to just blow my mind with their integrity and their their duty of care rather than take an approach wear your pants during the government to release all restrictions on administering these these compounds to the masses however over the counter or through prescription rather than having that that huge liability and risk it it’s that there’s another way to do it which I had not considered in which they are totally dialing in right now and it makes so much sense and what that is is that rather than having an individual who is who who is in need of the therapeutic value of this of these medicines rather than having them take dosages in like a baggie with their little vial of their little canister and take that and then go out into the insanity of chaos of their existing home life and the existing world then that the idea is that the legal space for the for the administering and for the consumption of the medicine is in a is in a therapeutic context in a clinical setting that is conducted by trained facilitators who may or may not have various medical or academic therapeutic sort of state license credentials but who have at least done with maps is created which is their own custom curriculum for providers of various types types of back and then there’s a line out the door for people who want to get training to train who want to be the trainers if they want to train trainers and they want trainers to be able to go out and create clinics all over the place so that when they get the through the final phases of proving that for one MDMA is safe under certain conditions within certain dosage ranges and then say that but it’s not going to just be mass-marketed and cranked out on conveyor belts and that the drug store is going to be to have access to this medicine in a legal manner you will have to have it be it’ll be in a circumstance where your facilitator doctor therapist Shaman excetra invites you to a space where there are certain medical and procedural practices or protocols being observed very very strictly and then you receive the dosage and that’s putting an only in that setting you’re not giving more to take home and follow up and take two and call me in the morning so contain the containing that risk is so profound to me because that is what I believe is the appropriate way a ceremonial weigh-in modern clinical ceremony away if you will they’re doing their best to bring in the ceremonial and ritualistic element is best they can make they don’t have to do this in a hospital they can create their own clinics in that clinic Canby sacred geometry it can be modeled as it competes should have Ford Explorer texting water and see what I see you to bring the Shivering so that I think that kind of expresses my you know where it would I do so much more so many other amazing doors that have open for them and doors that they thought would have been slamming their face Network gently open to their shoes surprised and so I just encourage anybody to follow up listen to the research Rick doblin on psychedelic Salon podcast in and catch up to to his work but I feel like he is the exception of Bilbo Baggins see if it looks like a hobbit I just can’t get over it and he’s made it through all these years and hasn’t been embroiled in Scandal or controversy and you know I’ve I just think he’s a rare a rare as I don’t know him personally but I will say that Tim Might you know he’s going to benefit me and my colleagues and my fellow survivors and so I think that’s just really interesting and something that you’ve you might consider you know looking into at some point how because I guess I should say one more thing is that this training for specifically for my cats are male female double counselor or dynamic of being at NADA guide per se but being a sort of facilitator for for a treatment I study subject or a client as it were to to have a beautiful experience that is balanced by a masculine feminine energies and if those people are are trained in these certain protocols they developed but that once you have that training done then you were then free to riff off and create your own style to verdigre and also it will be very easy to extrapolate to other medicines other compounds and it’s it’s the container that they’re creating so with all I said I love to hear from you how you feel about what I said in and what comes to the to the surface and for you to react to yeah I really look that and Maps the multidisciplinary association for psychedelic studies is so near and dear to my heart. And mrs. Mason person I’ve only been passing but being around him and hearing how he has affected and touched so many lives and every beautiful positive way gives me so much respect for the work that he and his colleagues and everyone that has to do with our organization similar ones gives them so many pops and I really really appreciative for the work that they’re doing because some people have a sense of understanding of what these compounds are capable of as far as the benefit but now that there is not scientific backing of okay he’s this makes you feel better a week down the line because of this mechanism of action that happens within your system in your body that’s amazing that this is now proven like the proof is in the pudding and that pudding is being offered and it really important container and contacts as you were mentioning it really does just take one bad incident one person said I did this awful thing while I was on she said but while I was under the influence of psilocybin for the government to decide okay well now that’s not going on the road to perhaps legalizing it exciting but obviously it’s bad so we’re not going to and the way that Max is doing it and creating these safe spaces in containers and vetting process to make sure that the set and setting are all in line. They have their ducks in a row to then administer and go through the therapeutic process makes it so that we can understand what’s happening on a scientific level and get the benefits on that personal level and the people that their training I I I one day be able to experience this extensive training so that I may also be able to offer myself and not be as helpful as I can be in in this way because not only are they impacting the people that they encounter what’s in these clinical settings but they’re forever positively alternative I I did send a training so that I would be pure support and just be there for someone who is having any sort of difficult psychological and maybe even physical experience and Ice Festival setting but going beyond that I learned to just be there for people when they’re having something that’s challenging and the way that you talk to someone when they’re experiencing something that can be really difficult will make or break the moment and we don’t have to have trips that are just really horrible and bad and make us afraid of it because there’s a way to know strutting around it with that love and support and having an experienced person there to let you guys jerk you’re tripping understand whatever it is that you need to go through Southern even taking that knowledge outside of a psychedelic experience but with loss and with trauma were just having a bad day you don’t need someone to tell you what to do necessarily but just be there and that makes me really big difference so I learned some awesome life skills through an organization. Maps has created and I’ve learned a lot from maps and not to see what amazing things they’re doing is super cool right on so how do you feel evvie great to hear how you feel about where you where you want to what time will somebody said to me once find what breaks your heart the most and that’s your life purpose to devote yourself to be teach it to do to be in service so I’m curious now if you were travels have have fun how they’ve added to revolve your your sense of purpose in your sense of where you want to be what you want to be doing and where and how and why I’m sure you’ve had some it’s about dates to just your your whole meta-narrative whole framework of reality today really embracing the things that have totally gutted me is what I’ve been living through this month I’m going to be absolutely Frank and give a trigger warning because what I’m going to talk about has to do with sexual assault and Trauma but first blanket statement my trip was wonderful and beautiful in many ways and what happened at the end doesn’t detract from anything that was beneficial or amazing and I still continue to travel and do what I did but my second time around in Lisbon I was I entered into an agreement with someone who is a stranger but a friend of someone I trusted a friend of a friend so as we’re talkin meeting for the first time and learn that needs a massage therapist being a yoga instructor and Super Active I’m like all right what you give massage Let’s do an exchange I haven’t had a massage and a very long time I can totally sit so the time comes for his part of the exchange to happen and I’m receiving this massage and just loving the nice touches and I get into a nice meditative a sweetheart just like vibrating state of enjoyment like not even on this plane and what ends up happening is I get sexually assaulted and moving through that and just having my whole world shaking it was like I was a Snowman in this snow globe in all of this all of the snow off the bottom had been settled things were really chill it was fine I felt like I was in a good place and when that happened that Globe was shaken up and after I was assaulted I immediately felt with my throat get sore and like I started getting really bad head congestion and the physical manifestation of what just happened to me on a physical psychological spiritual level was wholly apparent in my mind and my body at without me really being able to saying like this is how I feel right now because of this some of that came up but it was like I was transported back to the processing level that I was at maybe when I was early twenties was a teenager even I was so out of my body and out of my element in a country where I didn’t speak the language and it was super hard that was I was off my I was off-balance felt horrible and I was just I felt like I was doing so much on my own and I didn’t really have anyone to turn to for support and even when I was talking to my mom about it or my family about it or some friends some people were good at just being a bit like sitting there with it and holding space and letting me processor letting me talk about it I needed and not telling you what to do not telling me how I should feel that just letting me move through it and kind of figure out this trip experience on my own but most of the time it was well you shouldn’t have been in the room with a stranger or as soon as this happened you should have done this or I would have done this or now you need to do X Y and Z like that’s it’s coming from a positive Place most of the time but it wasn’t helpful as I continue to feel better from it and have more Lucidity towards what happened in my emotions and my processing and recognizing that it was actually normal for me to have a day where I just wanted to be in bed and like randomly cry and not want to talk to strangers or wear sweaters when it’s hot outside I just don’t want my body exposed that’s a normal response to an abnormal situation and as I’m thinking what what would I have wanted the people around me to do for me what did I need what how how could if I was a friend how would I support her or him then that went through this experience what can I do better and we don’t I I really only know how to be there for someone who’s been assaulted and been through this trauma because I have and really the training that I received from xando the organization that’s where that part of maps to sit with someone and not guy not tell them what to do but just let them process and figure it out in the support of space I like learned that and I had to be taught that in a different kind of contacts to be there for someone who has been assaulted and we need more of this Hunter training that will help us be a better friend better advocated better cursing in relation to anyone who has been through this and cousin when it comes to a medical contacts that guy I am doing my best to be much more sensitive and much more caring so that I can not be an imposing figure out where someone who’s telling someone how they need to handle their life but just we we all have this innate deep wisdom into what we need to move through things and survive sometimes we need someone to say you got it you know what to do I’ll be here for you you’re not going to fall and if you trip I’ll help you get off it’s okay so with that learning in that understanding a bit more of an understanding its myself and what I needed I am there’s there’s something that certainly and development in love or text you create a container or more a different kind of sensitivity training that isn’t just for it professionals and certain contacts but for anyone who wants to be I support not sure what that looks like 100% but something has got to come out of this something good absolutely will one of the most dramatic results that I experienced at a very tender age was luckily I mean I was running screaming crying spitting gagging I’m glad to be alive but totally in shock and and just devastated and I ran for I don’t know a couple of miles it had to be at least two to go to where I thought I would find the one the one member of my street family gutter Punk tribe who is my the want the the the woman who I was so enamored with and who I will do I beg to take my virginity and and she was just my my queen goddess protector very thin how lucky I was that I found her and that she was there and she just let me curl up on her lap and and cry and like everybody else on the street had been through it and people would walk by and just be like oh yeah your cherry pop welcome to the life you know who you are you know and so and I you know I heard it was interesting just looking back at the the response of those of those folks and just kind of having my flashbacks you know a bit here in in and I would say that it was a blessing coz she she was just a spare changing where I thought you would be on the sidewalk and she just went up she just I was there curled up crying and just kind of nestle into her and she continue to we just were there until very late and we’re just doing what we used to doing what you do what you was doing and luckily she had a place that she was staying so she could have bring me there and let me take a shower and have me lay down and and seal from that point from the extreme of being literally having my life threatened and and being assaulted that’s a combination that is is extra debilitating the to go from being totally spleen out like that with the you know sort of near-death sexual assault experience surviving it escaping finding her and then being in her care for at least that night and those critical hours were I don’t know I don’t know if you know like if I would have gone straight into a squad car or something or straighten to email into it or just not had found her if she wasn’t there I would have gone so much further down into I can’t even imagine it from that cuz I was one of the first and most extreme circumstances I don’t know what is right for you and I don’t know what the most healing or best most appropriate thing is he for you now in this moment or you know there’s no judgment or no would have should have could have hindsight 20-20 I can just say what what what I’ve appreciate about what was helpful for me and how lucky I felt knowing that I guess relative to other people or other conditions where you know I would if I had woken up in a hospital and didn’t even barely remember what happened in only bits and pieces came back over time you notice all kinds of different scenario so I just want to I guess in this moment say thank you to the Angelic spirits that created the synchronicity so that my the pendulum from extreme trauma went to a pendulum of Me Bonding and getting closer with somebody who I feel most comfortable with and who I who could make it possible for me to in a way not hate myself forever and just be like yeah you know what there’s no escaping it there’s you or it was bound to happen and you’re lucky to be alive and we’re here for you and now now you’ll just have to be that much more Street Smart yeah I should have known better why didn’t I do this you know and then and then the and I had already been a martial artists and I’d already been in that was the it’s even more devastating when you think you’re a badass and you like yeah I know all my moves everything but then all it takes is someone to just let you be slightly relaxed and be within your your your inner Zone and then if they’re really have like 50 times as much muscular strength as you there’s not much that you can do no matter how much of a ninja you you tried to be and that that’s probably the biggest hardest thing is to like forget for me forgiving myself for being lured into a defenseless State okay well what if I wasn’t here to be a ring fighter a cage fighter I was here to be a sexual shamanic fight and that I had to have that that knock out that technical knockout had to happen for me to to redouble my efforts into know why I’m here what I would have to know their know their weaknesses and their pattern if I’m at war with this greater monsters entity that is the The Intergalactic Spirit of sexual abusers that is all about animated into some multi-headed monster well I’ve got to expect that that it’s going to knock me down a few times before I knock it down and so in that sense if it was the battle but not the war in it and in it and now all of the battles that I lost Stephanie now is that I feel like yeah you were low-level like a larval demonic perpetrators who who who took cheap shots at me when I was barely developed at all like there’s no sport there there’s no dignity for you there now when we go into the bigger Arena the triumphant attitude and vibe that I want to have it puts in a context of like will coup if you were a spider and you and you really got embarrassingly knocked out like in 2 seconds when the first punch in the ring and everyone laughed at you and it was the most shameful and images demoralizing thing you if if you didn’t notice till I get up and fight and win that round but if you quit your career and you walked off and you spent all your you know you if you built up so much of your life to be a career fighter and you just like fold after one loss then that would be the real tragedy but as long as you take that experience and you learn from it and you and you really study the mistakes and you really look at animals saying this to you like I’m not being paternalistic to you but I’m saying like a zit a sexual shamanic spiritual Warrior that’s what I’d the archetype I’m trying to build here let it go let it we let us all have nothing but winning streaks just because I had the shameful embarrassing sexual exploitation kind of Journey with being a warrior that doesn’t mean that I’m it actually is is is life-affirming and invigorating and I believe that we will we will be assembling teams that will make safety and numbers more more of an established more common kind of Paradigm where we just I mean I’ve even joke let’s just what I would love to just walk back to back for the rest of my life with and with other even it’s like two people you could be walking crab legging back-to-back everywhere you go to the SIP to the mall to the store you know to get on the bus to get anywhere just that level of a vigilance will be what my heart craves and then in a group of people you could all be shoulder-to-shoulder and walking in a circle and just linking arms and slowly moving to this treacherous reality and and I would love to have that that level of full-time Vigilant 24-hour rotating watches total perimeter Security on a rape freezone but right now we’re just going to win a world where if you were just in our loan bodysuits and we’re really for its everything is left to chance and Mercy by those who are willing to do to cheat yeah so I don’t know how you feel and there’s no obligation to respond and I just wanted to share with you what what I at this moment would I have what I feel is the most done revitalizing in in NC refund invigorating as this this work on full of so thank you for acknowledging what I had and we’re also sharing your own experience and I hate that that happened to you and that it happens to people and these creditors feel they can get away with certain things and they know that they can because he do live in a society that is permissive to a lot of behaviors and a lot of things are just so underground that I think they like it’s so outside of everything around for many people that they don’t even believe this these types of experiences that we experienced happen or they find a way to to blame the Survivor because that just makes it make more sense to them like I don’t know it couldn’t have been this other person’s fault but it does and I I wish we could all be so hyper-vigilant for each other that this would eradicate all of me demonic slugs how you speak of but what has been super powerful for me healing and tough as well as speaking about it talking about it letting if I’ve taken a few weeks off of my Instagram social media because things have been not very easy another ways my grandmother passed away but I had the next day after it happened happened on October 23rd and so on October 24th I just wrote it all out and I let it be something that I opened the floor to questions into dialogue and it’s so much more powerful for me this time around because I have been able to control the narrative I have been able to control what I’m putting out in the world in this in this way I was violated but now it’s up to me to shift things in a direction where I have some control again because this hardest thing about this assault wasn’t the violating act in and of itself it was feeling so alone like after I kind of I wasn’t I didn’t outright tell my buddy who’s friend had assaulted me like your friend assaulted me but I said yeah he made me really uncomfortable and appropriate your friends and asshole and I’m going to leave for a while so I went and took myself to dinner and I came back to an empty apartment and I didn’t see him until the following evening I’m already in a country where I’m alone and I wasn’t expecting to we’re we’re not romantic with each other at all or just friends but I wasn’t expecting to not have a friend not have anyone there like he doesn’t have any necessary operation to me but it was really hard and I wasn’t until many many many days after the assault happened that I was able to snuggle up to a person I felt comfortable with just being and cry and let myself be sad and but myself start to emotionally process this because after it happened it was just kind of like Warrior mode and okay I let my defenses down I thought I could trust someone out and now I have to just be as hyper Vigilant as I can on my own because I’m on my own for weeks now it’s just up to me and what this brings to mind is I read it fucking High School part of the trilogy by KISS Girl with the Dragon Tattoo Guardian Salter and list of characters such a warrior amazing badass and she takes her revenge in a way that’s also why I finally beautiful brutal and not that that’s what I want to do I wear that’s what I feel I need to feel any sort of Vengeance but it’s me now taking charge of the narrative while letting people know that you can I’ve been an athlete my whole life I’m a strong person pretty emotionally strong I have traveled around the world for the most part really safely and intelligently just doing things on my own but it still happened and you can be really tough and really smart and your defenses go down and words someone abuses whatever crack say find in your armor and it happens it doesn’t it doesn’t say anything about you as a person that doesn’t mean you’re weak doesn’t mean that you’re not good enough it doesn’t mean you’re stupid it just means that this person isn’t a squirrel and they took advantage and they did something that is written wrong and it’s so sad and horrible at this happens it’s something that happened and I think that I didn’t even to talk about it put it out that way and I know because people have have talked to me after I was just really open about it and saying that I don’t feel like I have to beat myself at 4 having that last drink with someone that I felt that was my friend and then getting assaulted by them it wasn’t my fault this person did this to me it wasn’t my fault that I was in this area with I’m protected in some way it’s a set of circumstances that led to this horrible event but this. Other person the person who acted on me made the decision not me the victims not to blame and that’s something that I’m really just trying to emphasize with people who were like I certainly had mostly mostly men say you should have fought him off you should have screamed you shouldn’t have been there in the first place and it’s just repetitive if you can’t equate what happened to me because it was a situation where maybe you would have felt sexually charged being in a room by yourself with a woman you can’t make someone compared me to or compare the situation truck by like if I leave my bike on a busy Corner unlocked and someone takes it like that’s my fault so you being in a room with someone where you’re getting a massage and he’s a man or a woman you sent it is you putting on steak out on the table for a hungry dog like of course this happens like no you when you’re a professional you don’t go into this profession to assault people hopefully you going through it to heal people and if you’re claiming that you’re a Healer and doing something that’s the office that you’re a bad person and it’s not your clients fault that you’re a Apple I think that out of that and hoping to shine a different kind of night on this thing that happened to me I hope has been helpful in some way to other people because at least been helpful for me I’m glad you have a positive attitude and everything you say I’m totally aligned with in some days are easier than others today is a good day yeah I guess I would ask if you comfortable sharing since the the the date of the incident how would you describe the just the like as if you were mine you know I guess what I’m going to I’m wondering is the emotive expressive did you feel like you wanted to do something cathartic in a form of art or expression or did you if you felt like a total void in your creativity or how has how has the more subconscious send more energetic flow and effects been just cuz I feel like that’s doesn’t everybody wants to fix the problem specially man you know they want to get it over with or did you go to treatment are you in therapy now you know who are you dating again whatever and it’s like that’s on the surface of what you think about this order from the cerebral like I want to feel more expensive what coping strategies that you have developed on an energetic level or just you know how your dreams how are your how do you how are you sleeping to the colors of like seem to ebenflow from grayscale you know there’s just the more you poetry of surviving an experience to those are the things those are the guess the neglected aspects of the Arc of violence is like the those unknown language bull currents that that are flowing deeply so I don’t know if you can put words to that or maybe you will put song to that or dancer expressive movement or something to spend the most healing for me has been r y favorite mode is with the written language I write a lot I create a tree and I have investigated my mind and my heart and my spirit and my soul and my past present and future with word reading it for myself I had a cleansing ritual this past weekend where I wrote all nine different pieces of paper something that was holding me past that I wanted to let go of and from letting go what what I want to welcome in something in the present that was not serving that I wanted to release and welcomed something in its place and something that an image of the future that was pervasive in my mind that I wanted to release and replace with something different and it was a day where it was raining gray I had been feeling really bad that we can do is just a depressed not feeling productive for positive about the Future III all type of week now and I wrote These nine different things from three different time Ingles and I have a metal offend I put frankincense and copal resin and I let each paper away fire from The Stick of Palo Santo after I read it out loud and I dropped it in and I did that nine times until I was through with my stack of paper when I let it burn and I stood in this amazingly scented smoke and just let it swirl around me until it wasn’t that it was a smoking so much anymore and I put it out to Washed by the rain and I just stood there I felt like I was letting go of some of the things that we’re really holding me back and I as much meditation as I can do it as much time as I can spend on my yoga mat I was still getting these Cyclospora palliative thoughts of things that were harmful and things that would come up in dreams that were scary and I had the chance to face it speak out loud say it is no longer welcome here not replacing it the things that are positive and from that point forward I have felt a burden lifted and a light in my life shining that has been missing since this happened and also feeling like it sucks to not have someone who I can really turn to on a on a person-to-person level III not to say that I haven’t had friends who are being fully supportive because I have butt not someone that I feel really gets it and it was something we’re finally felt okay I didn’t feel like I was broken or damaged for not having that and I could be a support to Myself lyrics and I could State myself and enjoying my body for the sake of bringing about pleasure and I could and and I hadn’t danced in a while I think yeah I’ve been pretty sporadic that I had really been embodied in movement and all this week has been back in the studio feeling like I can’t get in my body again in a way that’s awesome Tech and not shaking from something scary that happened but just like okay I’m coming back so I have been welcoming myself back with movement and I released everything with word and I’m looking forward to seeing what else I can create what else will come from this what else someone might be inspired to bring forth through this all right I love collaborations and experiments and just exploring these beautiful artistic Realms with others and I’m sure that I will love what comes from this wise words so often you hear the trait kind of Silver Lining glass half-full kiss kind of from nuages and Isabel positive thinking and informations and appreciate the sincerity in in the way that you feel the way that you have it’s it’s it’s a very deep and Redemptive where do you express this in I want to applaud you for having this I hope you can applied yourself for having been that it’s it’s basic knowledge that what your what your your level of clarity and level of purposefulness and and healthy response I is it’s weird because the temptation to cool and sink deep into an abyss that’s that’s really how they beat us you know that’s really what they want and if we stand up to the after effects and we don’t fold in and I keep telling myself on my dude don’t let this triggering moment crush you like a tin can and and if you just don’t let anything crush you like a tin can you you help other people there’s so many canned responses to on all sides of these events in whether they are often ways to just hide from deeper truths or to avoid through formalities just avoid a deeper responsibility of care and I would say that what I pray for for all of us and all the survivors in the past and future survivors that will be is that the culture that will the human culture gets to a point where we we have Survivor leave from work from school from all of their duties that we have do we have families and parents have budget set aside for if these things happen so that a buffer can be created from any financial responsibility for any any give me the time that it takes I I just all I care about for myself as like I would consider a high level of success and wealth just to just to be able to press a button hypothetical button or a magical imaginary button when I need it’s like okay no one needs to know exactly what I’m going through in this moment but it could take a few days or a few weeks or a few months I don’t know but I want to always be able to put everybody and everything on on a on an elegant pause An Elegant hold and don’t worry about me I’m not going to kill myself I just want to go on to cannabis, and meta bait alone somewhere and in the worst thing is is it to me the worst thing is that Guillotine always coming down on my head of when the bills are due how much money is available to me and so is his chronic that hamster wheel ism is it safe to have sex with your sexual abuse trauma Survivor is like you’re on a hamster wheel of razor blades you know it’s it’s not pleasant and it’s not easy to go through the motions of traffic and stress and workload it’s all mostly bulshit anyway you know what I mean even if it’s for a good cause it’s still so wrapped up in 8 hour work days and deadlines and being on your you know responding to emails in like no one wants to get an auto reply that says PTSD meltdown see you whenever by and I certainly haven’t been able to only a few cases only a few chapters in my life have I been blessed to be able to actually sink into the Stillness to actually retrieve the Stihl Parts cuz they’re just right there you know but you’ll never will never be able to slow down enough I mean I don’t want to say the never hear it the way that they’ve rigged this whole reality is it like oh you got you were bolitas and you were bullied and on the playground or well you’ll never have time to actually deeply consider how that affects you because she hears the next thing to do on your to-do list on your pile of things to do at your desk with her to school or work or whatever or you or or becoming a parent and just seeing that I know parents who were trying to recover from all kinds of abuse and Trauma and and it’s beautiful that they have this vicarious Joy A New Hope full refreshing view of a potential for a more safe and Morris Saints I’d life for people care in her present but even that is still takes they still need a vacation to be able to really sink in and it just has hamster wheel Rat Race even if you’re not aspiring to be the most richest most famous most Fast Company fast money entrepreneur and you just are going kind of with the flow that flow is not designed to give us any real deep space time abundance to two kind of connect a bunch of dots and rinses reflects so I just been praying that what if we don’t single-handedly wipe out all demonic parasitic sex demons on Earth in our lifetime that it very least we change the Paradigm of people knowing that okay this this this disgusting disease perversion of mostly male Egos and male sexual sexuality is is not going to go away maybe not go away really anytime soon but our cultural adaptive strategies to it existing can be a lot more intelligent and they can be a lot more and it can be precluded to mean the way that we the way that we can quarantine Ebola we can quarantine this as a culture but it takes it takes a way more in enlightened approach to what we’re going to need to do to to not only prevent possible circumstances and I even would say that something that this is not a game this is about by no means to to for either of us as survivors or to anyone else who are survivors if it’s not too along that line of thinking of of like you’re saying about well that the cliche is asking for it by whatever means that by whatever measure but what I would say is that I would say we are all asking for it when we do not create social sexual containers were there are there are referees for overseeing all every single sexual act that happens between two people because this Cult of private and idea that who’s in order to enter if I want to have sex with this woman I can’t let her know that and some appropriate sort of dance of a way I have to intoxicate her kind of push her into the night late at night so I know when the buses stop running I know when she’s going to have to rely on me for a ride wherever I’m going and it’s like that is the whole modus operandi is that people are not comfortable being sexual in groups therefore they lose the buddy system when when they get aroused and it’s like no you need the buddy system more in bed than you do crossing the fucking Street everybody that we need to be able to say oh yeah naked stuff sure butts grabbed 10 people to hang out and enjoy it with us and then you will be 10 million times less inclined to see what you can get away with because no one can hear the screams or no wonder we’re too far away from you know the light or whatever those those files circumstances are that these that these mostly men are there rape artists and II when I first heard that term I was shocked and mortified and Intrigue they don’t know what they don’t know about how sweeter and better and more gratifying it is to actually earn the affection that you still desire and earn the the the touch that you would like to have or that you would like to share with someone else so it’s going to be a long road ahead for sure and and I’ve got your back and I’m glad that others do and I will say that those are the best and kindest words and most invigorating words that I can come up with an LSA that at this point in our conversation I want to give it back to you to share all of the thoughts and feelings that you feel called too and to also please do if you’d like to share some just words directed at our listeners who will be looking to engage with your work and connect with you online and enough so hopefully offer support and various ways to your ongoing projects and interview going through these These Times of healing and yeah oh you it is it is all you know where some share and hearing I’ve got your back is powerful and invigorating an absolutely kind listening really hot outside what you have gained from this as positive I know it was it was probably pretty tough to hear some of it for many of you and thank you for I can threaten listening I I can turn out no matter what it is your experience think you’re not alone if you want to reach out to me at any time I am accessible yet my social channels on Instagram I’ve got an email on my website and and if you want to throw this up somewhere where your listeners can take away those magical channels please that would be great I am performing around Los Angeles for the next few months until I complete my next. So that I can come back and teach people to teach other people continue to spread this wonderful yummy yogurt business and I’ll be hosting several workshops in the coming months so throw that up on Instagram when dates are finalized but I’m super excited about it and I hope that you are too because it high going to be as authentic as I can make it and really becoming more fully embodied with whatever it is we’re experiencing and yeah I’m I’m here for you I need some of you see this I look forward to it be awesome shoot me a line and I thank you again for having me back thank you yes always welcome anytime and wishing you absolutely the best for you homecoming adventures and now I hope our iPads cross and lsbn touch the name of the book that I mentioned earlier esoteric anatomy of the body is consciousness by Bruce Berger so now more than ever I feel compelled to redouble my studies and my understanding of how to how to move blockages and move yeah move move foreign objects that get lodged in our energy field through these whether they were I’m just getting a visual right now that I guess I want to I want to throw in at the very end of here I’m seeing now like a medical kind of schematic drawing that shows how when it could even be just sexual harassment verbally it’s just like when when an attack or assault happens to to a person’s energy field it’s it’s like there is a a wound surface abrasion it can be just like you know affecting the astral body in a similar way is that they have you no First Responders would know okay is it a burn is an abrasion is it a contusion is it a puncture is it an impalement and these are all terms you know you learn what tools to apply in a first aid situation and to identify them and in all cases if there is a breaching of the outer barrier of the skin the protective layer that key sir organs in our blood and all of our precious vulnerable cellular material however the breach occurs whatever the nature of the breach is it becomes a moment of opportunity for opportunistic organisms to infect that that area and so when I think about the emotional body that he has to about the delicate sexual body the these levels of our being set when when when we get wounded in these ways it’s an opportunity a tragic opportunity for dormant dormant material dormant pathogenic material in other parts of our astral body to sniff that out and to go and try to reactivate themselves it’s an opportunity for just whatever was in the room at the time to jump in I’m bored and to be a stowaway on your ship of your being and there is the introduction of exactly what was a particulate matter of the perpetrator themselves and that can be transmitted to sound waves from their words the creepiness the there’s multiple different categories of infectious material that opportunistically takes advantage of these the weakening of that of of the immune system of our of our total of all these levels are being so I feel like the the duty that we have talking about healing talking about psychedelics talking about orgasm talking about touch and movement as it’s it’s what we’re constantly doing is fighting off these infections and some of them are deeply lives with us and get get stirred up by new trama and some of them are just all around us all the time circling all of us on the subway and on the dance floor and it’s at the bar and say the the Heart and souls of the work that were talking about it were hoping to exude I believe is that were going to just create more and more robust and resilient systems that can be ever purified and will purify the culture and purify ourselves and you know will come back and be reincarnated and do this again and again and again and and just create those light tendrils and let them be less hindered and let the harmonies of our yeah what the harmonies really be sweet and and and beautiful and let this this really vile ugliness kind of get more quarantined in eventually composted yeah absolutely alright then where you have a wonderful night and then just want to put it out there feel free to Lean on Me call text last Christ high fives you’ll be hearing from me all right you have a wonderful deep restful nursing sleep then is going to be late so have a good night thank you for listening to the touch of Time Podcast please go to www.crunch.com and cook on the Donate button to help support the show in addition of sustaining and improving the podcast your donations will help establish permaculture goddess Temple after bite ecological employment for single mothers Please Subscribe and share your favorite episodes if you have questions or comments feel free to leave a voicemail at 818-275-1593 or email band at Tantra Punk. 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Mixing Healing, Loving, and Martial Arts with Miriam Elyse TPP144

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In this episode I’m joined by the deeply powerful and empowering Miriam Elyse for a conversation about the intersections of healing, loving, and martial arts. She shares her personal journey into her studies and practices of acupuncture, tantra, and Kalari an ancient Indian martial arts form. 

We discuss the need for training the body to be strong and defensible and our hope that modern spirituality movements will reclaim and embrace sacred warrior archetypes. 

About Miriam:
Miriam Elyse is a licensed Acupuncturist, certified Tantra Yoga practitioner and founder of Pleasure as Medicine. She has her Master’s degree in Science and Chinese Medicine, and has been practicing acupuncture for 11 years. Miriam began studying Tantra Yoga for her personal healing during Acupuncture school and she noticed how both traditions emphasize the healing effects of sexual energy. 

When she was a young woman she experienced sexual harassment that made her feel unsafe and ashamed of her body. Through intensive yoga training at the age of 18 she was able to experience power and sensuality own her body which reconnected her to her inner strength. She took on a meditation practice at a young age and began studying with healers from Native American and Tantric traditions, which now strongly influences her work.

Today Miriam has a private practice in southern California specializing in women’s sexual health, teaches monthly Tantra workshops and leads group retreats helping people reconnect to the wisdom of their bodies and remove barriers to love and pleasure.

You can find her at:
@pleasureasmedicine on instagram
Pleasure as Medicine group on Facebook.
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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin hello dear beloved swapna Township Punk podcast episode number 144 I’m being joined by Miriam Elise who is a Healer and lover and martial arts student and I’m very excited to have her on the show to talk about her personal journey and the weaving together and mixing of these art forms mainly in the area of calliope at 2 which is arguably the world’s oldest organized martial arts form out of Kerala India and there’s a beautiful tradition of goddess Temple worship and massage and just holistic health and body work and all kinds of deep spiritual wisdom connected with the the martial art form which am I actually after having been a martial artist student and scholar and of sorts of combative arts for most of my life I had not encountered Heart by name directly although its influence so many martial arts throughout the world I hadn’t really discovered it vary directly until just this last couple of years so I’m very interested to find other folks out there especially in the tundra world who are seeking these roots and really emerging the handle of the Divine with feather need to have a lower chakras dialed in and having some physical security and situational awareness and also just the beauty that comes with them martial arts training isn’t just always about violence it’s also about just self-discipline and really developing one’s self and being able to avoid Violence by mastering it so I would that said please enjoy a mistake Marion please tell us about how you became the beautiful educator and a practitioner of all things loving and healing and self thank you so much I started it at a very young age and it came from my wanting to kill myself when I was young middle school experience lot of sexual harassment and I went home every day to an emotionally abusive family situation and I learn meditation at the age of 13 help me find another way to another way besides this world that’s in front of my eyes every day at 6:15 in 5 minute grace and Power in my body and my Sensual Body for the first time as a developing 15 year old yoga with something that really help me connect myself and went on to get my certification to teach school at the age of 22 then just knew that I wanted to be a Healer I wanted to help people facilitate healing for themselves and sure was what I chose because it it combines the body the mind and the spirit and doesn’t leave any out which I loved about the system of acupuncture and you know I’ve always had a lot of Sexual Energy my whole life I’ve had a lot of Sexual Energy running through me and it was 25 or so and the only thing that was really different between another yoga class that I could tell is that they mention Sexual Energy using the classes I would just start glowing more and more people would come to me asking about sexual health libido their relationships and it just so happens that my practice to pay more more focused around helping people heal intimacy issues on sexual issues lack of being able to orgasm and so I jumped into studying Tantra. so you know my background feels like it was this organic progression where I I started off searching for something to make me feel better in my body and my daily experience that I was really struggling and I really didn’t feel names of kids make fun of me and you know developing the power in my body is feeling this is the world about me and then bringing my sexuality into that country yoga and and recognized and there’s there’s a place for me to Channel all of this Sexual Energy channeling it into my body through my breast it’s going in every direction when you can focus it and channel it if it sounds very intentional power which is really me to study Tantra yoga so have you have you been able to mix or find the sort of parallels between acupuncture and Tantra yoga and any other modalities that you’ve you’ve come across like I’m curious how those intersect ever it’s beautiful to see just people kind of making her developing their own Styles everyone’s finding their own path and merging different things to to find what works best and so if you can talk about that and maybe how you’re able to apply that in your services with Pleasures medicine yeah that’s a great question and for a long time that was my self in Creed at was the thing that I was racking my brain trying to understand the crossover and immediately it’s it was obvious to me because I’m Chinese medicine and Tundra both both of those kind of philosophies and systems of understanding the body and believe that your sexual energy is root of your life force energy comes from the kidneys is also a newborn and it has little bit some change throughout your life from you know poor poor sleep schedule too much you know for men accusation has all kinds of an experience while sitting Tantra yoga sexual cultivation practices building Sexual Energy and then holding it or moving it to different parts body and something else that I love about about acupuncture that was based in Dallas to philosophy we believe that you know generated by so for some reason the woman is seen as this kind of pleasure machine this Honeypot The Source the source of energy of creation is this feminine the seven enforce that births all of life and it’s believed in acupuncture where is a man is sexually pleasing a woman he is actually building his own energy sources by giving her pleasure mean goddess worship here giving a woman the one in ten even medical as acupuncture Honors that you know it’s on her something that seems to be more I don’t know what it’s all it’s all esoteric but it just I just love that it actually talks about sexual pleasure and Sexual Energy is being something that’s healthy which is how I got to my business name medicine Tina for a lot of us in the last missing link between a lease or a pressure release to being something that can actually heal us and heal the people that were with is so many of us have these negative beliefs and around sexuality or anything that sets pleasure Aces hedonistic and Hedonism in fat and he miss him is something that is going to make you selfish and make you want to take everything for yourself and not can I sync starting to reframe your your relationship to pleasure just like things that normally so the substance of things they determined take people away from God or can cause addiction and causes Extinction one of them being masturbation another one being sex and alcohol use them in small amounts in your Puja in your worship so the idea is that you know if I can be intimate with this substance and use it as way to get closer to what I truly want which is an India that’s Enlightenment closer to God part of my life and I just I love how there’s there’s medicine even in what some people think is a poison and so you know pleasure as medicine what what do you have in your life that gives you pleasure that you can use in the right way in order to heal you in order to get you what you want being close to God or just more self-love right so that you know this to be an interesting question for you I’ve joked about this with other friends to be kind of try to reverse-engineer those those five elements you’re talking about and really try to understand the the logic behind it or at least Wonder but the logic behind it cuz there’s you know there’s some different schools of thought but it seems like it could be boiled down essentially to Trent basically ritualized transgression of cultural conditioning that limits your your free experience of the senses and not feeling Bound by it or being neurotic about social rules that sometimes they’re serving the interests that that maybe aren’t your own and they. Just give me the kind of break free from that and I don’t know if you would agree you know word for word with that that approached her that thesis but friends of mine We’ve joked about how in the modern world so it was fishing to Modern Western world breaking those five addictive or those transgressive things are probably things like having a day without a cell phone or not checking your email your Facebook or or having open relationships or something where you’re being challenged to look at something that you really phobic about her that you really addicted to I’m wondering if you if you’ve ever kind of had that thought experiment about what if there is a way to extrapolate since you know some of those things the grain officiants not so much unless you’re you know straight vegan is not necessarily as much of a taboo right so as I give you kind of ever wondered about how you might extrapolate that to Maps out onto the modern lifestyle and then in the West I like that you know I like that idea, I think that’s definitely a spiritual practice on its own is yourself of things that normally take you away from presents I think something different about in order to get you to where you want to go instead of instead of them being forced to block you is that all of these things has power to that like no alcohol for example has has the power to numb you and release your inhibitions right but when he says that the alcohol you infuse it with Mantra See you first Infuse the Montreal you let the the molecules of this this liquid Viagra West with the ceiling mancha and then the alcoholics else increases your circulation and opens you up open opens your body opens your mind opens your eyes with this Mantra movie ideas that you’re using a lot of power and meech meet you know eating meat is your eating another animal you’re eating like a living animal and you get more like potentially more energy from eating a bite of meat and you do from eating a vegetable I guess that’s controversial and open to discussion also between. Quarries in India want to be reborn as one one of the ones that get to smoke all day and masturbate and just eat without any of the strictures of yeah it’s like that that’s the kind of renunciation that drives with my punk rock I like I’m actually faster to buy them because it is said it said that they each and copulate with the dead bodies and disgusting oh my God what I understand is when they’re doing a say they’re even sitting on top of the dead body they’re eating it or having sex with it or whatever and they’re chanting a mantra at the same time so I can be with God here then I’m free if I can beat you with God if I can still feel God’s presence the Divine in my body when I’m doing the most horrible disgusting thing then nothing has the power to take me away from my God awareness well that’s well she definitely need to have some consent forms for that to happen in the modern world it somehow makes it beautiful for me oh yeah I can understand the poetry and honestly I think we’ll have all the things that we donate our organs in our bodies to in the name of science you know how can we how could we judge Wright how can the West judge with all of the you know that practices that we vivisection and you know all the stuff so it’s definitely always a mind-expanding experience to have these conversations in wow so I coming back into your journey and your practice I would love to hear about your how calorie has entered your life how you discovered that and integrated it and just so I understand you you took a trip and you’ve done some study directly in India with actual Masters and so it’s very heavy of a very unique perspective that I want to hear bow India trip was two years ago and it was when I was really really introduced to kalaria is living at a place and they had three classes every day one at Sunrise mosquitoes so you know I experienced getting up going across the highway to get some chili running backs to Calera practice before I was even awake and Drew Ali watching the Masters craft a beautiful balance between call masking fluid graceful tree I really just had this this deep understanding washing a class one day that I wasn’t how it seems like it seems like a lot of the movements are designed to move cooling energy throughout your body movements when your spine is moving all around here normally would make me feel very high and disembodied and bringing it straight down in jumping on the ground on the earth and I just fell in love with it as a way to move move energy for your body my my understanding of of Martial Arts kalari yoga any physical practice that requires you to sweat in your body and steal your pain and feel what happens in your muscles when they’re shaking and you have to push forward anyways is the warrior mindset something really sitting there and she has that balance between being a war art and Art of War and an art of healing and it’s interesting cuz those two things right Warren healing seem to be such a dichotomy but in reality I think of what I’ve been through to get through your deepest pain that you experience the greatest feeling I’ve struggled the most should I’ve had to be in my own life after I killed myself so somehow warn healing do go together right and this this practice of kalari weather Atlantic I know there’s other martial arts that have this beautiful dance to them that like half of metaphor example is both a dance and an art of fighting and it feels like being able to keep your focus being able to keep your mind still while your body is doing these really extreme movements is part of just training yourself to be a warrior in daily life and it’s incredibly important to have that grounding and that’s pierced focus and determination especially if you’re doing sexual practices you know practices that strong really strong energy if you don’t know how to hold that the container energy in your body and your nervous system it’s likely that you’re going to experience negative side effects of negative effects of what can happen to one’s ego if they do suck their sexual energy without really you know clear self-awareness yeah I totally agree in and I would say that this is a pretty much lifelong martial artist that I consider just the doing the combative movements in dance formats really keeps you rejuvenated and keeps you flexible keeps you strong and agile and graceful and I’m careful of like you said aware of yourself and it has just flowed very naturally for me and so it’s just been delightful and exhilarating to know that really the the roots of pretty much all of the Eastern martial arts can be attributed to these roots of kalari and so you know the goddess Worship in the temple is in the secret Temple design and knowing that some people were using you know they were worshipping the goddess and celebrating Divine femininity and Earthly and divine forms and when people came to threaten their way of life they had the means to defend and fight off and and not always successfully because you know it’s a stairs ruined temples many temples and ruin still today but and the suppression of the the more matriarchal aspects of it but it hasn’t been totally concur until he destroyed so I’m just thrilled to know that that we’re hopefully there will be as much I mean my my prayer is that there will be as much adoption and embracing of the these defensive strategies and if the health value in the combative value of them as we have absorbed in the west all of the yoga and now well not all of it but we’re Seekers are discovering a vast array of scriptural knowledge and yogurt practices that have just only really recently begun to accelerate in the sexual Dimensions with with the more left-hand passage path yoga or Tantra yoga and read Township so this seems like it’s the next wave of integration from you know we’ve already got all these karate Studios already got all this Kung Fu and we don’t have the sacred sexuality practices but we’re we love yoga and we love meditation and we love dancing so hopefully yeah this can be a new a new sort of path forward so do you have a you have thoughts about just Visions for how your involvement with Clary may I understand you’re just bring students through Retreats two different teachers in your kind of facilitating more engagement right with this system yeah yeah and just as you’re talking to eena to come in and what you’re saying something about say kalari you mentioning that Clary is a strength for protection rights protects a Continuum from one extreme to the scale be needed protecting something you love any other extreme would be something that you hate feel like a lot of the way inside a better perspective about anger beautiful it is to use that anger the power in the healing potential and using something you love him against fighting cuz it’s saying I’m against fighting that’s about the heart and Clary has the potential to change the way that are our Warriors are martial artists in our culture coming up I have this Retreat and Kawaii why I’m collaborating with two other incredible amazing yoga teacher and then one more Central aspect of it so necessary strength along with surrender the two opposite Parts together and so having a more sensual sex positive practices about worshiping Beauty worshipping the sacred feminine flower rituals are actually vegetables and then having those strong practices we are confronting your own in the physical body you know and it seems like such a whole way to heal a sexual body actually a year from now next year I’m planning on taking a group on a pilgrimage that unchecked pilgrimage in India studying with Larry Master every day and is the benefit of having a strong physical practice with some sensual opening expensive practices beautiful yeah thank you so this is the dimension of really healing and bridging and reconnecting the this Continuum of calling sacred violence when a when a mud mama bear has to defend her Cubs that’s righteous Rage that’s where we have the capacity to Anchor access and direct our nervous systems for defending others in defending ourselves like you said out of love and protection and I feel like it’s a real it’s been a real kind of cognitive dissonance I guess or just a disconnect for people in the The New Age kind of Dino gets a lot of biggest stereotyped a lot but but really there’s there certain aspects of the so-called New Age movement that have lost that groundedness and sort of them I mean there’s like if I could get personal for a second I’ll say now I’m as it as a survivor of sexual abuse and his one who has had almost all of the women and all of the partners in my life be survivors of rape and abuse I don’t share some of the the more kind of Airy fairy ideas a tow if you just vibrates that you were Invincible as you walk down the street with no situational awareness and no tactical training and no skills or even pepper spray or any awareness of your surroundings and you’ll just be immune to attack in and I don’t want to be paranoid or so you don’t have so much PTSD that that I can’t that I start to have no delusions of threats that aren’t there but the statistics and the just the you know the people who do the the work of addressing chronic issues of violence against women sexual assault they I don’t think that they consider themselves to be super and lighting their spiritual but I respect their Spiritual Development when it comes to this stuff more than I would say people who could just kind of Vape they pray but they don’t move their feet you know they say tie up your horse before you kneel down and pray you know so it’s kind of like having that physical realm dialed in and I’m just curious if you have encountered that a backlash or sort of shining of the solstices you can’t talk about fighting in war and we’re supposed to be beyond that right we’re supposed to be just floating in the clouds in the sky it does actually and it really does resume I mean you know my first like I was saying my first practice my first spiritual meditation session age to learn how to just live in this world of light that I created my own head right but it was also I was also escaping it was like I was seeing and my mother I mean bless her to my mom’s amazing she she’s going to take me to yoga and I have a very close relationship with her and she ain’t no more comes from the school of thought that you may think positive and positive things will happen and is less comfortable with less she doesn’t she looks quiles as comfortable with really getting down into the shadow work in the nitty-gritty band that might be hurt her path that’s different from mine but what I’ve found for my own life is I spent so long you know trying to run from what I didn’t feel good sugar coat it spiritually bypass it by just thinking that I could change my reality with my mind but there was a couple korfez there’s there’s a couple trama beliefs pains you know of course are RNs from you know early childhood most people have something is like an anchor in their Spiritual Development keeping them from getting until I touched my rage you know it wasn’t until I touched my pain met face-to-face you know I had a vision one time of screaming at the top of my lungs as a lion is staring me in the eyes roaring at me meeting you face to face and I’m not going to I’m not going to pretend you’re not there I’m not going to let you know just try to dance around you I’m just going to meet you with all that I am show up for that with all my power and there’s so much power that’s locked in the body at slots in your ability to really stand strong and protect yourself you know and if you’re kind of lost in the mind and daydreaming around situations trying to keep yourself safe by thinking positive I do believe in some situations in a lot of situations that’s helpful on the street thinking oh my God I’m going to get so they’re going to look at me they’re going to take advantage of me or they’re going to want to start a fight I’ll be driving that to you I definitely believe that that’s true but what’s more powerful I believe is is walking in a walking with the speaking sauce but carrying a big stick like you have the tools with the necessary in case anything’s going to happen because you want to cause fighting not because you want to bring conflict to you but that actually adds to your confidence of saying okay you know what I am I hope I never have to use this but I have this in my tool-kit and I’m protecting something I love you know and there’s a lot of spiritual bypassing that’s going on in in our community and I recently a few months ago maybe a year ago I Rossini recognized is that I have been spiritual bypassing and wasn’t even aware of it to not feel my pain I was really uncomfortable with actually experiencing anger and so all of my where would show up as disconnecting I would just disconnect I would go silent I would shut down my relationships can only go so far and Smit of human civilization must be controlled fire all of a sudden we can control so much and that’s what works with anger is a beautiful thing about these martial arts and it’s killing us power and learning to control it in a way that actually is healing beautiful I was so amazing so have you Clary is I guess in my I have not formally studied her I’m just kind of academically and athletically studying it and I actually what I what I have what has it come to me sort of as a I guess you know how certain teachers will come to your life and come into your life through certain kind of indicating that there’s there’s more maybe some form of cosmic guidance it’s happening that it wasn’t just you going out and seeking something and thinking that you like having in your your your Serta small egoic mind having a good idea or vision and not knowing how blessed it is or how to find it is but just going for it but then something that comes from a very serendipitous kind of entry point your life gives you more pause and reason to think hey this is may be a sign or maybe you’re saying with that kind of having that kind of experience will this is an interesting something to to just put out there to think about time is it what what a form of martial arts that came to me a combative form very tactical very strategic and very efficient and streamlined as far as the movements and not not so much about the the Beauty and the dancing but more just about like extremely direct and extremely Just Close Quarter is what it’s called pekiti tirsia Kali and it’s a meditation of the the more Artful more sort of Dancy performance art kind of tradition in the Philippines of stick fighting and knife fighting and they have a specific kind of short sword that’s used but the the pekiti tirsia Kali Wing or branch of it was kind of honed for very extreme close quarter combat in a big chain with the V on military uses it and it’s actually one of the few militaries in the world that still uses a legacy traditional martial art with knives as well and sword so it’s just it’s at it was a fascinating martial art when I enter my life through through my instructor and he was bringing up in class talking about the Naga and the snake and we were using the sort of Yoni triangle is the pattern for the footwork and it just I knew he was also studying Tantra and so I wasn’t sure he was kind of blending and kind of mixing with his own sword Earth on what work for him as far as medicine metaphors you know but actually when I started looking into it more it turns out that there’s a hole. Of time where there was peaceful trading going on between India and the islands of the Philippines and so they were basically delegates of what probably was a some car a permutation and then to resist cultural exchange so they’ve got the snake iconography built into it there are the yantra type figures built into it and it’s just an interesting Rabbit Hole to to to look at how the fighting Arts from India and some of the Sanskrit language is well some of the mantras and whatnot are actually embedded and now the Filipino Marines are essentially whether they’re paying exact tribute to at their they’re walking breathing embodiments of the fierce Goddess from India and it’s amazing and so you know when I am in its it should be no surprise that the Filipinos and using their combative Arts they’ve with the indigenous tactics that were embedded previously and with the merging of these principles they fought off almost more successfully than almost any other indigenous population the world their history of success against the Spanish the Japanese and the Americans it’s pretty there like The Undefeated Champs of the world I feel like that and then I discovered that there is an Indian military officer who went to the Philippines to train with their top pekiti tirsia Kali Master the military I believe you would say he’s a high ranking military officer who is like the the Grand Master of that system of Pookie Trisha and so there was a guy like a members name of key went from India the Indian military to go train with the bikini Trisha military in the Philippines and now he does women self defense in India for women in girls who are just them obviously in India at some of the most highly most grotesque victims of sexual and and political social and marital violence and whatnot so yeah I just wanted to kind of see that out there in the conscious too or just sort of feedback loop and I’m just I’m really excited and curious to find again anybody out there whose Creuset mixing these arts and I’m studying these is lineages and whatnot so kind of with that said my question for you is do you feel that it’s your calling or maybe something that you could kind of advise or facilitating some way just a sort of merging of the the whatever color you or any other self defense strategies and actually integrating really practical self-defense seminars and training so that really you know young women can be essentially raping reproofing their lifestyle with you know what some of the more creative and some of the more the more Artful aspects of Glory but also some of the more street fighting tactical self-defense Maneuvers that you know you can’t really always carry around a sword and shield and do acrobatics it’s a different time you know different laws in different you know enemy so just curious if you if you think about that help you can start really giving people the tools to do to the Practical self-defense to see no friends my life who have been actual we Thai kickboxing instructors woman whose off it’s so important to learn those things especially you know for young woman in that it may be putting in the dangerous area something that that I am capable of helping people that have been teaching people women and men as you begin to move differently when you begin to have a new relationship with your body and strengthen your core strength in your stomach open your chest you stand differently every day from more of a stable Centerpoint and the way that that affects your mind the way that having that strong stable Center at strong core begins to affect your mind waiting think about yourself and also the way that people perceive you when you walk up to them that alone is a self defense tactic it’s also a demanding Respect by the way that you move by the way you hold yourself example you know there were studies done of people interviewing for this high-powered job and the people interviewing for the position and they had no five of them stand in the bathroom before hands in Warrior one with your arms up in the air your chest lifted your legs spread out wide and big smile on your face next Sammy like this for five minutes in the bathroom right and they had the control group and then the group I don’t know what I’m trying to say is the people who had done that practice of standing with their arms we are with their chest open with their legs spread while we’re all to be more confident more likeable and more fit for the job yeah just sending that way for 5 minutes and so that that makes you wonder really like the way that were sitting the way that we’re holding our power really does affect a lot more than were conscious power is not understand what they’re with their blockages are there mental blockages let me bring this into the body where does that live in your body and then doing breast and exercises and you know different yoga distance taxi change the physiology that story that belief that Spirits have locked in your physiology scientific physiological ways to heal and wasted to defend yourselves how to kickbox somebody in the head after 6 I’m sure also studies that would that would support the idea that the more self-respect that you have through self-defense training of whatever kind whether it’s more of a performance art or a sportive or Tactical but the reality is if you have a weariness of your intuition and you’re listening to your body in your avoiding really I am and I think that this is this is definitely not me saying that sort of typical really demeaning adage about how we know what was you were asking for it based on what you were wearing or you were kind of that whole that whole really sort of sad and demoralizing really misogynist view is it’s it’s not that I’m certainly not wanting to step into that territory it all but you know Point like to make adjust it as a scrubber myself as someone who has fought off Violet actress I’ve been in I’ve survived Mortal Kombat on numerous occasions just being on the street and you know I can say that the if you don’t love yourself if you don’t have a strong core like you’re saying a really you know really built up strong sense of self and purpose and your role in the world value for yourself then it’s easy to be seduced into the traps that Predator set you know and there’s always like a there’s always an intuition that can be heard before an incident happens in and it’s often reported that if you you had some nine sense that something bad was going to happen but if you desire attention or desire love that you’re not getting or just let your guard down and there are so many sharks out there in all situations whether it’s business or sex or just bars any words yeah it’s important to build that build up that strengthen in your eye feel like to avoid like what you’re saying that the conditioning a psychological spiritual and physical conditioning can make you avoid really bad situations that leave you exposed and so that’s you may never have to I mean like even Bruce Lee after he after he became a world famous martial arts instructor he was only ever reported to have been in one incident of physical combat where he was walking down the street with some of his friends in and some somebody Camp to him and he used his classic blade kick to the to the me to to make the longest weapon hit the nearest Target he sorted the mugging and the guy probably lamps off if you were going to do but just this the more you train the less you’re going to fight cuz you’re going to avoid stupid situations and stupid people and not do so many stupid things and then you know you have so much more respect for yourself and martial art training must have seen this type of training seems like it’s it’s more for us than it is against anyone you know it’s more for you than your attacker yeah you’re the most people yeah we aren’t we can be our own worst enemies and we conquering our own inner demons with the rigor of the will of them self development you know it really was photos well on yeah I’m so glad again thank you again so much for for being hoping to have this conversation it’s it feels like it feels like this is going to really help add value to what is what has been you know that that very kind of a wet noodle spirituality I love it yeah has so yeah I want to respect your time and just see if you have any additional thought certainly tell us about how folks can get connected with you and you know any offerings that you have people should know about any final words that you like to share that be great I really appreciate this opportunity just to talk and you know open up open up our minds together and then you know share share passions like this is really good experience and she know for those you this evening if you want more information on me or who I admire you know working with me my website is Miriam at least Stockholm but Sam i r i a n e l y s e. Calm and I have like my personal story and then I also some running this Retreat and Kawaii like I was mentioning let’s go to the first week of August and really really excited that the three of us coming together we we’re just all really deeply passionate about what were what were creating and what we’re offering and it’s going to be unlike any other any other retreat so really excited about that and that’s a tantra yoga immersion. Com check out our website and then upcoming it has really been announced yet but I’m probably too excited to not announced it so India next year 2019 in March going to be cold facilitating a two-week a ton truck journey through India with the Clarion structures and really deepening into emerging and actually are more sexual Tantra practices with the more traditional left hand pass at India Indian touch with everything I have going on right now thank you so much for doing all that and hopefully yeah when whenever you have time certainly after these smiles Johnson please I hope it will be in touch and you can continue to share your journey with us I really appreciate it and this is so needed and yeah so do you have any last words of wisdom you want to share before we wrap up thank you again for having me all right man will thank you again and we will definitely be in touch soon so have a great wonderful rest of your evening the township Time Podcast please go to www.crunch.com can cook on the Donate button to help support the show in addition to see me and improving the podcast your donations will help establish permaculture goddess temples up here by Tycho logical employment for single mothers Please Subscribe and share your favorite episodes if you have questions or comments feel free to leave a voicemail at 818-275-1593 or email event at Tantra Punk. 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Sacred Yes Sacred No with David Bruce Leonard TPP31

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tp-david-bruce-leonard-picIn this episode we discuss David’s work at the Earth Medicine Institute where he provides healing programs that incorporate both the loving arts and the martial arts. We then discuss some of the ethics and dangers of sexual healing work followed by an overview of some of the  benefits of and precautions  for the practice of semen retention.

David’s Bio:
David Bruce Leonard is a deep ecologist, body-worker, Qigong practitioner, acupuncturist, martial artist, and plant lover. He has studied medicine with teachers in Asia, North and South America, and Hawai’i. David believes that our health and the meaning of our lives are inseparable from our interactions with the natural world. He has worked in a bank, done marine whale research, and has been seen in public attempting to dance Argentine tango.

David is available for workshops and consultations in the creation of men’s groups and support circles. Private coaching sessions for men or couples are available. He can be reached via his website www.EarthMedicineInstitute.com.

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Com and our journey together will begin okay so David Bruce Leonard at the Earth medicine Institute how are you doing today welcome to the tundra Punk podcast well I’m baby myself pretty well all right all right well I was introduced to your work by a dear friend of mine and I I’ve been looking at your website and excited about all the books that you’ve done and I’m very new to you and all of your great works in the world but I’m very excited I think you’re doing a lot of the stuff that I aspire to be doing in my my pets so if you don’t mind give us a kind of some background how did you get to where you’re at now and spend as much time as feels natural and then we’ll go from there and talk about some of the specifics I mean like you I’m very interested and sacred sexuality and also self-defense I think a lot of those pieces were War because I was beating up a lot of the kid so ocean traumatized as a young man and well later on when I’ve always been sort of sexually precocious when I ended up in high school I I just part of my shadow and part of whatever you want to call that there’s a part of me that really wanted to be loved and accepted by girls when I started dating so I kind of fell into that and then became very interested and sacred sexuality and eventually that became clear that was a piece of piece of shadow in the shadows the parts of ourselves you don’t want to look at it so I started doing some work with that part of myself and began writing and it’s been an ongoing process awesome so you’re in what you’re not one of the Hawaiian Islands right now so and then do you have a dwelling at that Institute site is it that works no actually I take care of my mom so I’m in on Maui and my mom is elderly and I lived with her and take care of her I’m just here for her so I want us to be as good as I can make them awesome awesome it’s so that the facility is you have like a like a Healing Center and Training Center kind of Temple Sacred Space or no we do not miss is here depending on which island them on cuz I teach on on Kauai and Maui and the big island and Oahu so this place is I use on Maui as different facilities and places on the big island and on Kauai and Oahu also but no I’m kind of medicine Institute we have been different instructors on different islands and and then when I travel I also you know I teach another places also oh that’s cool yeah I’m actually I’m really looking into and considering that kind of more of a flexible kind of gypsy model for instruction and holding in creating space for especially the darker kind of Shadow work I don’t know if this is something that you’ve encountered or that you’ve considered but there is I guess I would say for my personal experience there’s there’s a lot of potential liability when you’re opening up these deep wounds and people and you just never know what kind of support they’re going to need you can try to be very supportive but I feel like a lot of drama and personality conflicts and issues and liabilities can accumulate in one fix location I don’t know if that’s something that’s like a factor that you consider or or do not the sacred sexuality week each is erotic body work but it’s talk to couples so I don’t actually do erotic body work on clients that’s not part of what I do I train couples to work on each other I’m so in some ways that’s what it mitigates a lot of the liability because I don’t do I don’t do any erotic touching people I know people do when I think it’s fine work is just not what I choose to do Andy self-defense work is is it is an already existing system called Fast offense which I I began to learn about the roots of that back in the mid-80s and I’ve been tracking it ever since and I become certified in that a few years ago and said that work is already very established and is actually very little liability with a self-defense piece huh yeah so mostly I like right now I’m working on a series of of instructional video tapes for couples so they can learn to do a rouse work on each other so the work itself code can be therapeutic I mean theoretically it’s therapeutic if it’s done with couples but I don’t work as a therapist with people who been traumatized sexually that not with the erotic Body Works and ends with the self-defense would you work with that Banda legal issues with a picture right it’s a very tricky work and we have to be extremely squeaky-clean specialist men doing this work so right right will this is against is so exciting for me to hear that you’re bringing these two worlds together because I feel like every time I start to open my mouth as myself a sexual abuse Survivor and you know a victim of different forms of non-sexual physical emotional violence building the sacred Warrior Peaceful Warrior masculine archetype within myself as a as a response to buy wounding every time I start talking about that with people who are more on the the new age sort of trip they get sort of shut down to order they get very hostile to it because it’s it’s bringing in you know the notion of fighting in combat in and that’s something that they would just rather iick neglect or ignore as part of the reality that were in and and I think that’s not really holistic good for trail in the world you know the wonderful and beautiful and peaceful place and it can be a very violent dangerous place and we ignore either one of those possibilities that are parallel that created the work that fast was originally part of service model mugging which was created by a man than that Thomas he created fast because he was sexually assaulted as a repeatedly in an orphanage and that was how all of this work came about so I think it and I think it would take somebody like that who’s been through hell and back and come out the other side to really create something as brilliant as well as what we the now in the past offense so I can totally see why you’re doing the work and you know why I do the work and one that created the the self-defense work right eye I was exposed to his material when I listen to something it was called the self-defense Show podcast and I don’t know it’s been defunct for years I don’t even know if it’s still available online but they interviewed him and I heard that years ago and I was totally stoked on it and I picked up his book defend yourself I think it still hurts very good yeah it’s filled with those you know the powerful statistics and yet his story would just bring you to tears and and I have always since I have known about the adrenal stress response training in the model mugging and all this revolutionary scientific street self-defense combat kind of restructuring martial arts to a more practical indirect kind of format I was very have been very excited about it I haven’t myself been able to access the certification training but you want to talk a little bit about exact or actually go into detail going to death why is the fast combatives different than going to a a karate in a dojo years and there’s nothing like this work that I’ve ever seen it’s a it’s a combination of it’s in some ways it’s a huge it’s a it’s a ceiling in Sacred Space ritual disguised as a self-defense class let me back up a little bit because I have a belief or an observation that trauma is created in a hide rental in state and pretty much all that I can imagine is created and that that state is imprinted on a body in that biochemical response in adrenal response I believe there are two ways to address or two more than two ways for the two ways that I can think of off the top of my head that might be effective in addressing trauma one is to recreate the adrenalized state in Sacred Space and give them give the body a different physical outcome which is what we doing fast wee wee is scenario-based so we will recover after a lot of work a lot of preparation we will recreate a situation that was originally very traumatic we recreate the state in the person going through it and then we allow we train them to move their body in a way that I believe rewires the limbic system if it takes on a new imprint around that it basically because of trauma is like a tape Loop like a record that skips for those of us that are old enough to remember records that keeps repeating and if it’s as it is playing in the background in our bodies and it often creates a kind of hyper-vigilance it really kind of drives the bus of Our Lives when we recreate the original trauma and give the body a different outcome it’s I believe it is changes the set point of the trauma and let’s the trauma take a backseat is still there you know but it no longer drives the bus are you familiar with Peter Levine’s work no he was a book called waking the tiger and he does the exact same kind of work only cycle more psychological song about self-defense the same thing with people have been traumatized in a sacred container and then gives the body a different physical outcome to the trauma that we do the same thing in mankind project which is a men’s initiation project group I’ve been involved with will take again a traumatic situation we we recreate a scenario and then with allowing the full physical force in the body to give a different outcome to that to that trauma I believe it changes the set point in the nervous system and allows people to integrate what happened better right right well yeah so kind of even though it’s not therapy it’s a form of therapeutic work that it’s disguised as a self-defense class and then the other way I think that one can do that his can treat trauma is again in the Sacred Space but in a very parasympathetic relax space a meditation space which would be sacred sexuality and I find you no different people gravitate towards different forms of that I also see what kinds of amazing things you can do if we are willing to step back through our our integrity work as man and create a container or space that other people which other people can heal I think it’s incredibly powerful Rite Aid instructor for 18 years he created fast because he he’s so well he left he left model mugging his do some political issues that he decided he would rather not deal with which I think was a good move on his part and he really Innovative so he took model mugging which is originally for solid days of tranny they turned it into a 4-Hour class and honestly Bill him as well as being a very dedicated Warrior genius he took the the model mugging work any concentrated concentrated it added men to the mix of men can also in this work and added weapons and really kind of brought model mugging and Matt’s work into the 21st century and said what we do is we you know I have a suit I have people I work with female instructors and then the female instructor is just as important as the male instructor because she is the the voice that she is not the healthy voice the voice of the healthy healthy feminine in the woman so when the scenario is going on she’s always behind the woman she’s always giving her information feedback guiding her when when women after they’ve taken the class when they have been assaulted and their body goes into autopilot in the statistics are incredible like the statistics of it’s like 99.5% of the people to go to the class when faced with a physical violent altercation when he’s women against rape powerful men they win they say they can hear the woman’s voice in their head going through it so yeah so we do so the female structure is just as important as the mailing is the guy you know people think it’s about the suit and it’s not really about the students about the teaching modalities in the pedagogy that is involved in rear I believe rewiring people’s limbic systems awesome yes this is a conversation ever wanted to have for a long time and I’ve I’ve actually kind of on a low budget adapted what I know of these principles certainly not using the name or selling it but just with my own no dating partners and friends you know whoever I meet I’m going to give him a can of pepper spray and explain to him how to properly deployed and how to how to hold it and when to have it ready for deployment in and if we you know hit the pads and do some some striking techniques on the pads and then I’ve just got myself a motorcycle helmet and some knee pads and actually found it with that where where are you where are you normally in the LA area Los Angeles I’m do some training would be fun it’s really good just really awesome you know that when is martial artist you know we like to think you know where NC techniques and stuff and then I’m not talented but I’ve been training a long time and like a three-year-old you know everybody know how talented they are kind of comes unglued around adrenal stress cuz we’re not used to yeah do you want to talk a little bit about that or what you want first if I’m going to say for all of the things were talking about regarding the fast combatives to me at it I’m seeing it in my mind’s eye because I’ve watched the videos and night and I’m an Enthusiast of it but to put the picture together for people who haven’t seen that do you want to come to describe what a minute or two of the of the takedowns and the we bring people into a container of salt container depends on this is just women sometimes it’s women and men and we teach them body language in queuing how to deescalate situations 90% of the fast work is about D escalating a situation so that it doesn’t go to a violent confrontation and they don’t have a lot of statistics and techniques and not but it is reasonably simple once you learn how to avoid a violent confrontation and get home safe and Alive you know once that so we do that we teach body language cueing what creditors look for in situations how to see violence situations when they’re on the way and avoid them and if there is a verbal confrontation how did the Escalade that confrontation I think the stats that bill gives is that I think seventy or eighty percent of assaults on women are done with only verbal intimidation no physical intimidation no exit by intimidation but 90% of verbal confrontation scan BD escalated or maybe higher with just words alone and it’s a matter of body language and what were putting out to the world that’s what we teach first cuz obviously you know if we can avoid violence that’s the best option I was just watching a video the other day and he said he said the speaker said violence is a last resort but when it raised our Resort is the only Resorts the only choice violence is always the last choice but when it is our choices becomes the only choice and that I believe that’s what we do in fast so once it’s clear there is absolutely no way to avoid a violent confrontation then we train peoples on large muscle groups to go into action and when were adrenalized when we’re a high adrenaline state which is basically in any confrontation we lose peripheral vision we get tunnel vision we get we lose fine motor control you know car keys and things like that and and we and we also get time to scotian and auditory exclusion we can’t hear so what that means is that we don’t have all our Resources with us what we do have continued to have is large muscle groups and so we teach people these large muscle movements big movements that are extremely effective that they don’t even have to remember because they won’t remember be able to remember the fine motor skill techniques that they will be able to remember these big muscle groups on my training partner here was about six months ago she was down and the beach here and she was attacked by a guy to come out of nowhere and punched her in the stomach or not and she’s not are the female instructor Sabrina that I work with and she she Palm healed in the face and broke his nose she kneed him in the groin she kneed him in the face and then she stomped on his head and then called the police and this is a very traumatic thing but her body did it automatically think about it you just did it you know and that’s that’s what we’re looking for so we we basically take a student and we teach them to deescalate a violent situation once it’s really obvious there’s there’s no way out of the violence if no way around it we teach them to cut loose with very very powerful techniques that basically finish the confrontation very quickly and because we do it in the hydranal and stayed the the the student it goes directly into the limbic system it becomes on autopilot goes right into muscle memory and so and we have to actually part of the training is when they’re in the adrenal stay when they’re done with the quote on quote we have them put your hands up and look around and we should call nine-one-one or go get help because they might forget to do that as a maybe other people in the situation you know so for me this is like I said it’s genius and Peyton Quinn and Bill kept are geniuses in my in my in my mind because they have that they’re not afraid of bucking the the martial arts system they just want to go for what’s true and what really works rather than going with tradition and you know people playing tag in their pajamas. I’ve been and what Bruce Lee said was you know Kung Fu is is is like a beautiful form of feather dusting when it comes time for I’m glad you I like to two point that that kind of stuff out and I think the the one of those things so I’ll try to say to people as you know those you see those Aikido Masters that have all that fine motor control and a state where most people would be very adrenalized but the thing is they are Masters and they come from a cultural tradition where you don’t just go one or two nights a week for a couple hours after work to have your hobby or these are everyday all-day training other people and not everybody makes it there an issue it’s not a they don’t I’ll make it they have to weed weed people out the students so the what you see in the movies with all this finessed technique of like a lot of time in indigenous healing Traditions or however we want to call it you know how to be sewn underground and so I I say that’s kind of reflected in how we how I approached this kind of thing even though you know today will will it will post the events publicly on Facebook and things like that there is still a ring to it that is about you’re not waiting for us to be given our our approval by by Society you know we just know that it’s important so we do this and and so like I’ve been doing this constantly one of my goals that I set out of certain point was that at least you know once a year there would be a community gathering around love sex intelligence and the rest of the time you know we haven’t online for him but very important for that hole project has been and which we’ve stepped it up in the recent months to make sure that hopefully like every month we can do something is to to say that the community around learning about how to how to harmonise our relationships how to defend our sexuality into something that is you know how uplifting our spiritual path is something that needs to be done you know with with with more support and so that’s why it’s it can’t just functioning online capacity so that’s something I’ve committed to we have we have been actually our next events is focusing squarely on sexual initiation I’m pink resented by someone named y’all Lila Espinosa is looking at how to tweeze mower practices that she learned in Peru you know have informed her own healing and and then creating her own initiation but yeah I also you know as an astrologer I work with people and often it is around relating I’ve done a little bit of like you know support for people I think what happens is you know when when you become a central figure in any given Community people will come to you when they’re in crisis and this is what has informed my my the work that I do around you know Rites of Passage is responding to crisis from a place that seeks to get to the root of what is causing the crisis which in so many cases is that there is a lack of of support and people therefore will resort to self initiation just something I’ve had to do in my own life and and see it so much the case for some of the other people and there’s another psychological shifts that occur when people an emotional shift that occur when people feel a sense that they’re being held that they are being that they can fit they can let go and have a safe space to go into those wounds and begin working on them and of course it would help if we had a little more guidance and how to do that but thought comes over over time you know we have to work from where we’re at and so that’s something that I’ve been in in the my own process of of my own work around here figuring what those things are with those tools are and Tom yeah like I said I’m not an expert but I can at least Point people in some directions I guess what we’re looking at here is that there’s an underground space very intentional underground space that is more conducive to kind of freestyling or rolling your own ceremony and just holding the light and and letting those who it call who are called to it you know it would become integrated into keep it at the gala Therrien and flowing so that you don’t have cult of personality and politics and all of the scenester Hipster things coming in and that’s always up in it and he has to be on guard against and whatnot so I see there’s that unfoldment in that development and then there’s people who are also working like stay in the social work field who are informing their peers and colleagues in those sectors with these Neo shamanic techniques or nonviolent communication or your where it’s legal and accessible and permissible you know legally again to be able to put people on amor I guess like prisons prison you Lila has a very and I’ve done some I interviewed her in the past and I’m a big fan of what she’s doing and I know she has a strong background in clinical social work and is feeding back into that sector the wisdom of of the Amazon and and Beyond and so is that something that you have I just thought I remember reading somewhere you know or talk to you at some point about how this is this is like you could be hired by the more formal above ground and sectors of social work or Community work with where you can be brought in to bring some of the stuff that would normally be or I guess it’s just that it’s a very interesting Cutting Edge of an intersection and I if I’m not mistaken that’s that you you are like sort of partially in that world 2 of of social work or is that something I understand correctly yeah I’ll I will string this conversation back and see where where I where I am placed social work as well as all the modalities of counseling and healing you know like they are all part and parcel to supporting and upholding status quo capitalist system so I’m going to like you know like you know also haven’t been in the punk scene also had a big enough impact on my my party now 13 m in terms of healing these wounds we have to look at that and I we can’t we can’t say like that are healing is going to be independent of the world that is reeling and suffering from the continuation of this system as it is and so that’s where for me like bringing capitalism into the equation is is something that’s real tricky it’s something that I feel needs to be kind of understood. You know we we can’t just rely on having sting services that we can pay for because that creates a gap you know where some people are going to have accessible abilities to to the healing and others won’t and that’s that’s not healthy for anyone and and also that it doesn’t address the root cause of why we need social workers to begin with and why we need counseling and all of that so I really like the notion of cultural healing that’s where more where I would be comfortable in any way kind of looking at myself as any kind of healer I don’t think we we can really heal individuals that’s really something that you know a person will need to and it’s not like they can be facilitated to do their own healing work but nobody can fix us we have to fix ourselves that’s that’s more I think a more powerful Paradigm to be apart of but you know I I I have worked in the realm of I focused therapy and you know I have spent quite a bit of time around the spirit plant medicines and seeing how the plant medicines have assisted and I do I do continue continuously work to increase my knowledge and wisdom around working with us plants and and that also brings us back into that hole realm of discussion around you know ancestors and working with them or perhaps that’s something we haven’t really touched upon but maybe she said it’s just that in any form of healing that we do I guess for me the important thing that I really try to bring into whatever I do connecting back with her ancestors and healing the trauma of how we were disconnected from those ancestors and how that plays out in any kind of sexual wounds or emotional wounds that we carry and so that’s something that I I I feel like the role of initiation and ritual can can really do and that’s that’s been its Province ever since people began doing patrols I think it’s to build upon the legacy of their ancestors and to draw and their their help and support cool said that yeah thank you for helping me understand the other parameters a little better and and 100% there with you I have I have been because I live in the United States where there’s different laws around no prostitution in in how that affects the healing with sexual touch and pleasure as medicine and stuff like that is a lot more yes I understand in in Canada there’s there’s a lot more interesting legal space in order to do Hands-On Sexual Healing work relative to the US where it’s completely off limits in so I because of that adapting to that reality and also is a permaculture designer myself I have to think very deeply about how to navigate this issue of for-profit healing work that kind of in most sectors is about like you said I’ll put in my own words it’s like they want to know if if the if you’re at a time of time robot that supposed to be producing a set amount to be a productive member of the of the GDP then then if you’re not functioning properly than the the goal of the mainstream social work or psychotherapeutic or psychiatric Fields they’re trying to get you back into the rat race as soon as possible and they’ll do that with drugs with talk therapy or whatever that is about avoiding through tissue which is the disconnection from urethane from a healthy holistic wild habitat you know a night as a primitivist I see that you know the solution to your Neurosis is to retry belies and Get Growing your own food again in and rebuild that fabric so you know there with you on that tension about right livelihood in and taking money for healing and what is he doing so I really like what you said and that just is going to it’s going to help me a lot looking at healing the cultural level and healing the if I’m understanding right and I’ll put a couple my own words on it but I feel like we’re trying to build the scaffolding or were trying to design the context for people to take the responsibility of a personal healing and gone to that journey and so if you if what would you say are some practical skills are tools from all of your things that you would teaching and training and a things that you discovered in your own journey to where you’re in power tools for empowerment that you suggest or are resources that you suggest people Explorer to if they’re called to do the cultural healing work weather for profit or non-profit. Some dance between the two or it and then what what are some recommendations for people who are on their own path and aren’t necessarily called to do the the cultural healing yeah I mean it’s it’s a pretty vast subject that one but I think that a few points that I could think about and talk about our that I’m going to this idea of bringing you back in the station rights and recognizing that in the absence of them what do we have you know we are we are sadly in there without initiated Elders so many of us and if there are any of Elders that hold that ability to to guide those those ones are those are worth their weight in gold you know there really is people that we should try to lift up and and give them their recognition and see you know and then in the absence of that it’s like we kind of by default Our Generations people that will have to hopefully fulfill that and reach a place where we can actually help upcoming generations to go in a way that they don’t have to completely go it alone and and figure it out on them on their own the way that so many of us have had to and so there is a movement around Rites of Passage I sit on the board if you passageways which is a network that focus is squarely on you no Rites of Passage for you coming of age from all different walks and and and modalities you know some of them are our Boys to Men oriented some of them are girls to women some of them are starting to incorporate non gender binary kind of approaches as well which is good and and this whole focus on bringing back the ancestors into looking at Rites of Passage is is starting to happen and something that I focused on and so that’s that’s a resource you know people can go to youth passageways. Oregon and look at what programs are out there and they can also think about how they can add to that list and bring in things that are needed around especially around sexuality and relationship which is often I noticed kind of a big gap in a lot of programs out there you know because they’re confined confined or constrained by the conservative values where they take place and you know what school system is you know this is one of those places lagging for that kind of thing so it’s a role that I think that many people who understand the need can step into and cultivate as career paths you know and some people are pig figuring out how they can weave their credentials says on Sexual Health Educators or sexual therapist or sexual trauma or no trauma-based therapists you know into this realm of initiation and that’s that needs to happen on a on an increased level the other I see a lot of because of what I was saying around looks really don’t how many Avenues to learn other than through you know what the books in the workshops and offerings around sexuality thoughts unfortunately are not rooted in in people’s only need two lineages generally speaking you know so the whole Tantra movement is pretty much so you know a cultural appropriator of New Age fight version of those Traditions that would have been squashed by Christianity especially and so I think there’s work to be done there and as much as possible Retreat retrieving reconstructing are reconnecting with our own ancestral Traditions which I’m sure you know had their own knowledge wisdom around how to how to raise healthy harmonious individuals with healthy sexualities from from the vantage point of how what little I do know has been has been done in indigenous cultures and without wanting to appropriate for them from them I’ll just give way of examples out of that you know in and certain cultures that are studied like the Mayan culture and I think to some degree on certain places within Creek culture there’s examples of how as societies you know that the children are raised from an early age 2 reach a point where they understand how to how to harmonize with the other sex and how to to look after each other and that’s just a very basic principle that I feel like you know that’s that’s worth kind of learning how to integrate into our family structures if we have children that were raising just to keep in mind that you know there is a need for them to learn skills around things like consent and around being responsible with with one’s sexual energies and and I needs to start before they reach that age of adolescence where they’re just harder to connect with if you haven’t built up that Foundation so that’s something that I think about will do you so if I if if we check out that the organization that you mention is it would that be good place to find and something like a more enlightened or more conscious like sexual education curriculum or guidebook do you know if people were working on something like that so if I know if you know parents who were going through the puberty of their child that they have something that’s not just this cold clinical Western and even though that sort of evolving a little bit you know with things like a sack didn’t and whatnot I see a lot but the The ancestral wisdom and you know the ceremonial Rites of Passage you know how does it how does the Modern Family say okay well you’re about to start feeling you know hormonal Energy’s how do we give you know create even if it’s just within their family or their Community yoga or whatever is something more than what’s being offered in the normal sex ed or what they’re listening in gangster rap music and watching on sitcoms obviously you know it’s enough for lack of lot of alternative options it’s one one place to look and we’re always looking for others so whenever we discover something then we will see to auditory resources and we are trying to vet those resources and those organizations to make sure that they really are you know at least there’s some some level of you know safe recommendation that we can give for those those organizations we’re not we’re not in the position to really kind of completely you know set standards but we are trying to we have a code of what we call it a cross-cultural protocol so we do look at that aspect that you have for what we’re talking about that’s you know if that’s another layer that we will hopefully get to eventually and I do know that there are people within our Network who are really strongly focused on this particularly around girls to women kind of education and and Rites of Passage and some of the Boys to Men once but I think it’s also something we need to to enhance as well oh that’s great yeah that’s that’s that’s what I wanted to hear so that I can just refer people to this ongoing and so and then the LSI is kind of its there’s a Facebook I’ve been interacting with the the Facebook group for a while so is that something you recommend people plug-in I mean that’s the goal of that is to feature blogs and generate discussions from those blogs and also to establish a resource of services as well as information and so that’s you know running on in a very limited volunteer capacity and so you know it’s something that I hope will eventually become a very powerful resource but already it’s you know it’s been feedback that I’ve received that you know even just the the group that we have on Facebook somebody posted recently. You know it’s really help them in their in their path which is nice to hear and I’ve heard that a few times and I try to curate that group in such a way where it’s like you know it’s trying to generate discussion and it’s it’s trying to be a safe space where where people can get into some of those I’m intimate revealing is of what what’s going on in their lives one of the things that kind of came out of love sex intelligence local as a connection with Tamara and the love school that they have which is a very congruence philosophy to love sex intelligence and they’re their work to try to create or with to create safe spaces for people to to share stories of what’s going on in their intimate lover sexual lives and and B witnessed in a way that is non-judgemental where they’re not being flooded with advice but more just being witnessed which is kind of connected to that whole framework for Rites of Passage itm witnessing each other and so it’s it’s trying to also look at how you know communities can succeed in their in their goals which might include you know like being more sustainable or being an alternative to the systems around us and also being a part of a more peaceful kind of culture through filling this hole that is often where things go wrong where people are are are not feeling safe to talk about these these human experiences around wounding around are our hearts and our sexuality so I’ve been part of a Practice Group here that has been circulating also to other parts of BC and I think it’s a really it’s a really powerful movement to be a part of yeah we’re getting close to an hour or so I have to take a few more minutes and I’m get a couple thoughts and feelings some responsible for 1 something that his is coming up for me that I think it’s really empowering is this like idea that wouldn’t it be nice if some of us started to think of ourselves as aspiring Elders I’ve never thought of it that way until this conversation and there’s a little spark of joy and me that that says you know puts in context the the punk rock lifestyle that I had of live fast Die Young and just you know if it’s not throwing yourself into the meat grinder of insurrectionary activism you know with this sort of Death Wish you know this martyr complex or whatever it’s like those are really unsustainable archetypes to follow and they leave a lot of people when they get to my age in about 35 like in a sort of existential crisis that will the revolution didn’t happen and I didn’t get killed I didn’t die in the gutter you know I mean what am I going to do now and it’s like well maybe it’s time to become an aspiring Elder and you know clean up your act and and then start to think about how you’re going to make it easier cuz I there’s a lot of things that I had to go through that I would seriously love to have no one else ever have to go through and if you know if we can live in that. you know that is what you’re supposed to think that I think of you say you know you can you can learn from the wisdom of Elders who have gone through and made the mistakes that you’re probably going to go through or you can just be hard-headed and learn all your lessons the hard way but I mean we’ve had to learn a lot of hard lessons in the absence of the eldership but I think if we take on that there’s a yeah me too. It seems obvious but really the way you put it his medicine for me to think you know it’s a dignified path to be an aspiring Elder and then it makes you not be so how do I can help you defeat that that that grinding pressure that oh my I’m going to lose my looks and I’m going to lose my energy and I’m going to be in the state of deprecation towards death and that’s very much the greatest fear of the western manicured Uno photoshopped airbrushed identity like you’re not really giving any hope that aging will be of any benefit in here just marginalized further and further so I thank you for that serve very much still give that time sacred eldership dignity not a light title to hold I think the true Elder wouldn’t really feel comfortable in it cuz it’s defining attributes of an elder that is really one that can help that role be the best it can be is one that is is really accountable is really present isn’t so on the move that if you can’t you know be relied upon to be there for the people that it serves now needs to ideally be in the in the fellowship of other Elders to kind of keep it in in in check in a way like we have to watch for the Cole group kind of phenomenon where people you know place a lot of weight on that person and in a way that can privilege them in certain ways and also lead to potential like power distortions and things like that you know it’s it’s only human that people will make mistakes and so having that kind of accountability of other people and also that time yeah you have people heart or a different there’s always like in every phase of life with the lifecycle there’s there’s like the maturing phases and so there’s like you know there’s a baby elder there’s enough adult Elder and then Senior Elder and so it’s just we have to learn at each stage of Life how to become the mature version of what that stage is and says just something to think about as well and it’s good to to get your feet wet early on in life so that you know we can have deep roots and and the and those are the kinds of people to like in the Tamara situation out of the black community they have a circle of Elders who are basically people who have grown with a community enough that they know the people in their community and then they serve a role as potential kind of like the Matchmaker but you know in a way where people can approach them in and ask them like you know I’m interested in this person and they can help you assess whether this is the right time or what is a good or bad idea and you know they can kind of that. Whole courtship in a way that you know really I think I wish there were more of those people around here don’t you let me relax you know learn the hard way what does that we’re just not compatible certain people in The Matrix the I mean yeah I’m not I’m not a political scientist of the Matrix but I will say that what got me peaked on the ecstatic trance dance group ritual ceremony festival thing was it really when I saw I think it was maybe the second movie or maybe it was the second or the third but there was a scene where they’re just getting down to like Juno Reactor I think was a soundtrack of a butt there is something beautiful about seeing the different the warrior culture Guided by elders and of course there’s different the archetypes playing out in Conflict split that to me was took it further than then the Star Trek Federation is a futuristic Elder guided Council guided kind of reality so that was kind of fun but yeah so that’s what came to mind when you’re at we’re talking about that be so cool if you’re early sexual oracle’s who you go to you know if we’re going to give you insights and maybe even have name your child for you or something cool like that you know be so cool but right on then will I worry about at the hours so do you have any closing touch you want to share or any other resources or should we just I’ll post the the links that you mention and I’ll definitely encourage people to stay informed and keep an eye out for your anything coming up you have any appearances or anything exciting like that coming up you want to mention I think yeah I think I covered a lot of it and I just wanted to maybe plant a seed while I have the airwaves here about something that I’d I’d eventually like to work on presenting which is around insert Intercultural relationships and also decolonizing our relationships as well and just thinking about how how we can heal some of these ancestral traumas and use that has as as a means to strengthen our relationships and also our society right on I’ll be looking forward to everything that you’re you’re expressing in the world and I hopefully yeah maybe sometime in the future we can talk about skill sets for Beyond Christian monogamy that would be a great topic so yeah how would you feel about that maybe we can sometime in the next few months follow up with something like that. Maybe by the by the time I’ll have more of a personal lived experience to a base conversation around that I think you know in terms of people who are already I don’t know how many listeners here are on a Christian spiritual path without that many but if the energy and gnosticism and sacred marriage not going to the alchemical top in the in the Gnostic tradition but I I wouldn’t make any claims to be an expert in that area but it’s definitely something to look at cool alright then we will be in touch and will follow up sometime in the future and thank you so much so be I really enjoyed it and I know it’s taking us a while to get this to get this done but I think it was perfect and I couldn’t ask for anything more so you have a wonderful day. 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Defenses Against Sexually Transmitted Demons TPP14

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tom-denney-tposIn this episode my dear Vietnamese spiritual warrior goddess friend Maya and I discuss the biology and ecology of various types of demons, how they interact with humans, and how to defend against their transmission during sexual activity.

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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin hello dear beloved’s welcome to Township Punk podcast episode number 14 this is a conversation I had with a dear friend Maya who is a Vietnamese Warrior goddess spiritual Warrior goddess friend of mine who has a lot of very interesting insights into the Demonic realm and ways that we can have self defensive strategies for our bodies our minds and our Spirits welcome Maya we have a few questions for you about your insights into the Demonic realm and you have some interesting experiences that you share with me in the past and I would absolutely love to have you share those with the listeners and so I’ll just kind of go back over some of the stuff I remember we’ve talked about you have had have you had experiences that you would describe as feeling completely overtaken and sort of classically possessed okay so would you care to describe in whatever detail that you’re comfortable with it before New Year’s I was at the Santa Monica train station at a really late hour and at the wrong time because police officer who I think was also cuz that’s because he was on a lot of you must have been on a lot of medications but he just came in very roughly into the cafe I was buying food it and he put my hands behind my back and push my head near the ground and arrested me and in that moment a master who later healed me explain to me that a demon had stabbed my astral self with the really sick poll about 1 and 1/2 inch in diameter and since then my eyes were a little hazy I couldn’t see straight it was like I was always dreaming or just wanted to go back to sleep and I walked really stiffly it was like my joints were locked up and my head was heavy so there are certain times when I was driving my head would just Bob down because bob up and down cuz it was just so happy to hold left so that was my most recent 6. So what would you say that was the most extreme state where you feel like you’re not in control of yourself are there any have there been on any other instances where you felt completely unable to control your your body in your voice and are baby to that extent to that extent there any other instances where you felt like you were you we were purposefully possessed so what I’m trying to lay out is a sort of system for categorizing the various degrees of possession that there are where the extreme would be the mothers that stabbed and killed their own babies like that would be I would consider the most extreme some of the most extreme ancestors of this isn’t this woman also doesn’t say a say a career psychopath criminal either she’s a normal person with a normal life and for some reason with you know very little precedence for spontaneous violence in her own mind comes out of his way I don’t know what came over me of that was you know there’s that glazed over effect that happens if people you know even just people with anger management issues and they they go into a rage and they see red and then they don’t know what they did afterward so like that would be to me something that if we’re going to start seeing if we’re going to start if psychotherapist are going to take their system for categorizing pathological behaviors and they’re going to then have to do the match up game of species of demonic parasitic organism and its dominant mode of behavior once it gets control over a person so yeah so long story short the voices in the head in the impulses and just alien life-forms alien impulses that you yourself and your essence of knowing right and wrong and knowing you know your own sense of boundaries and sense of Ethics have you had experiences of feeling like there were alien thought-forms put simply which which we can say or demonic spam robot pop-up windows in the mine stream you know nothing unwanted unwelcomed fearful anxiety anxious any even like you know what whatever you have going on that you feel is like not serving you and not something that you asked for true to yourself if you have that type of a degree in your experience yeah I feel they were many times where I knew I knew it wasn’t my thought and to just end it all it always had to do with hanging with a belt or ropes somewhere in the closet or on the Rafters outside. Always appeared as well as a really strange thought of taking cleaver knife and just and just facing it towards your face and just cutting your face and 1/2 yeah things I just didn’t couldn’t make sense out of where is there any those alien produce Tennessee’s that you don’t feel come from your essence when you remember the events as they happen or the the imagination of the events were there any patterns in what happened in you internally or externally leading up to that so taking a pharmaceutical drug for example could be one thing that induces an increase volume of these things or being in a toxic relationship or being drunk or you know what I’m saying like is there have you noticed any patterns are like okay I will if this happens then this is trigger kind of a thing or is it just totally on a turn and spontaneous when I started taking the antidepressant then I would have increased thoughts about doing that and before that the thoughts would just come at random moments I could ever really predict him if you have these thoughts before you started taking medication and they increased as the result of taking the medication I would personally to do so that means that whatever alien attached parasitic organism that is hacking your mind stream and your visual field and your other like sensory inputs auditory and whatnot has already said that but there always waiting for the opportunity to exploit your weakness in the weakness in the Integrity of your field and that is built based built with love fundamentally that’s the building block of the field of protection your security perimeter around your fragile mind you know your fragile mind stream that pure river that should be flowing with no malicious creatures in there it’s protected by the Integrity of a field of love that is like created around it from utero from In Utero to death and if we were protected with Love by our communities and our families and our relationship to Nature then we will be impenetrable for the demands of the lower astral plane demonic creatures if that’s you know for is one way of thinking of it and we’re basically vulnerable to them so whatever had gotten into you earlier in life that would be responsible for projecting these things into your mind stream they did the application of that pharmaceutical drug is actually it’s it’s giving them more power over you in some way in that what we would do without the scientific research that’s needed you know we can only postulate that either it multiplies itself or it grows and it’s one organism that you know I’m saying like either either it has the the resources to create Offspring rapidly and reproduce like discrete units of itself or if we’re like it it’s like it it was small and so we can only put in this many minutes a day of unwanted thoughts you know when to you because it was like it didn’t have a lot of power but then something happens when you take the drug and then it itself as one entity grows and gets more power because it has more strength is in itself either that could be what’s happening or it can be that or did its reproducing itself some more of it or able to get in there and they take turns this is the kind of behavior analysis that was going to be needed to be able to know scientifically how to combat this infection is what’s happening on his level so that’s my commentary on what you described you know and that’s a good thing that I’m hearing and have you ever had met you. Dennis is going to but have you ever experienced methamphetamine that’s another question now okay good because it is that doorway opening to the max or that weakening of your field there is there there’s a has been popularized by Breaking Bad well I don’t know exactly what the effects are of that series I’m so disconnected from the TV world right now but I can as with anything and probably has effective Lee discouraged it but perhaps who knows what percentage it’s encouraged it I mean the movie why don’t I don’t I won’t say the name but I’ll say that it’ll be careful what you document because you could be responsible for glamorizing and replicating it but I don’t know what I don’t know anything about the show I haven’t watched it but I know there’s a lot of other films influenced me that were like kind of carelessly glorifying stupidity and drug abuse but anyways so next question is you’ve had the physical possession the mental possession how about like have you felt have you ever had any Outburst of like vocalisations or glossolalia you know speaking in tongues English none human language sounding Stuff vocal cords So Cal League vocal positions that perhaps I haven’t had that but I’ve experienced that with patients cuz I used to work at a mental or no I just I used to work at a convalescent hospital and one of the patients that was possessed he would actually that demon transferred to another patient after he left and she was a Spanish speaker and of course she was speaking to me about the bike that I had recently lost cuz it was stolen and she was like oh you want another bike just steal one but she said that all in Spanish and she just kept telling me like take me take me I’m yours if I should know my name but normally she doesn’t know my name that’s very very interesting so you’re saying that you had already sort of identified and been interacting with this like very let’s say unpleasant sort of character in a person that was previously much different so it was a sharp contrast so something is animating this human being to behave in this obnoxious Manner and you get to sort of get to know it a little bit and then the guy dies and then shortly thereafter coming through the apparatus the vocal apparatus of another living person in proximity seizes their vocal cords in speaks in their dominant language right or whichever in their language and you able to sort of recognize it is that you’re saying that’s fascinating okay I’m going to just meditate on that for a second and think about another question next week or that’ll be something for another that’s a whole I guess I’m going to say that’s a whole lot floor of the NASA of spiritual ecology that will one day exist will be dedicated to studying transference Hospital transfer yeah definitely so okay maybe now if you care to tell the story about you know the the dream in the ex-boyfriend deal or former lover is a taxi oh okay so I’ve been dreaming that this ugly demon with really big thing big mouth just took a big bite out of my neck and right shoulder and the dream also was well that was going on the demon was also penetrating me and I wake up and the ex-lover it turns out he had without permission you know just started the act of intercourse and and I asked if he did me but he was just like no no but I mean he could have been dreaming too and just starting it without realizing it but it was in that moment that I realize that he was most likely possess did you tell him that you had that experience and ever or you just how did you did you react uncomfortably when waking up and did he how did he respond to your describe how can I use very very Clueless you just kept denying that he had done anything wrong and just completely acted like nothing happened and it was okay to do what he did I’m sorry to hear that it’s on one of those degrees of violation that’s like very common so did you come to some kind of resolve with him where you just kind of like all that’s cool I mean where you like how I know it was is a strike against the whole relationship you know it’s three strikes and you’re out did you feel that tell me the attempt to make it up to you in any way or will he didn’t take any they didn’t apologize ever but you made it it was it was clear to him that you were with your body language in your verbal language that you were that that wasn’t cool and he was just like whatever oh okay but that was but were you able to then I guessed it the relationship continued and you were just like okay as long as he never does that again you know or kind of thing or from that point would you say that was his his Unruh remorseful response was sort of a breaking point that ultimately was like the a Breaking Point it was a Breaking Point yeah absolutely blacked out drunk sleeping with the partner you know if you don’t have those boundaries you know cuz I’ll speak from experience and say that I there is a susceptibility to possession during sleep for sure with you know Amplified with any alcohol consumption especially large you know alcohol consumption or to the point of being blacked out your sense of self is completely blocked in whatever you do is the behavior of of gremlins possess patience they’re possessed people that walk around the streets and their hands are usually in this formation which is I love you up right in sign language but upside down I’m told it’s a negative connotation they walk around with this hand gesture and they’ll touch almost every leaf that they can I seen it in two people but I’m sure that there’s more that do it but do you know what that means I don’t know yeah you know I’m glad you said that because part of understanding this fully would be I’m going to take most of the day to that’s going to be collected about the reality seriali the scientific phenomenon scientifically provable phenomenon of invisible intelligent entities able to basically hack into human nervous system and produce thoughts and in emotions and feelings and even on an advanced level it’s the ability to manipulate entire situations involving multiple people and inanimate objects at this fact of this forthcoming scientifically provable phenomenon of demonic possession so called her formerly called demonic possession Skid Row going to Skid Row or to the psychiatric of course that’s where the people who were the most possessed have ended up you know or they they they guess is probably like a few look at the the revolving door between the mental ward and the street so pretty much you’re talking about the same Keef either in or you’re out but you’re because it had turned subtle gestures have got to be an important indicator for distinguishing where is this who’s doing this and who’s not doing it and then her other patterns of behavior that are also in related is also patterns of their particular profile of abuse their particular medications how do you create these linkages to what’s a friend of the demon actually exist on a plane a reality where its ability to manipulate people is more like octopus tentacles where do you have the central bring you know unit of the body in one area but they’re able to actually use cord like tentacles to go into people and to have this effect so that it could be one multiple yeah so if you’re doing a specific pattern gesture could it be this Fred the demon have a carbon copy of himself in every single one of those or is it Fred has 50 million tentacles and every time every time the weekend person opens up in friends competing with John because John is work getting something else out of people and making them do Behavior X and Fred’s doing Behavior why what if you just did a study of people’s hand gestures and maybe give gave them like art supplies you know what I mean and then really see if there’s something else going on but all right we’re going to say that you’re here for you I mean I know you said technical but a few days ago like last week I was walking outside with my cousin out the Nae Nae in the neighborhood I know I felt like a Senegal reached inside my ear into the back of my brain but there’s it was just air but for the rest of the week or like a giant Q-tip and for that week is really just hard to think even though like you if I got a like a CAT scan or something in my brain nothing would come up like and also how I told you about how I think that it is my stuff mom or my my dad’s girlfriend has made a voodoo doll of me because there are certain times when I feel like a needle like a giant needle has gone through my ovary or just like certain parts of my head will feel really funny like that was very specific like I could pinpoint it down to someone’s punching me or something but I mean there must be a science in Voodoo in itself and how it affects other people and I still can’t solve it and I still can’t solve the how if it were you no confirmed how would I fix it yeah I’m glad you brought that up cuz we talked about that and there’s a lot of wealth in the world I think whatever problem is making somebody have ill will towards you could be solved with money like how would you like to live you know on the beach in Maui and have everything paid for in just sip coconut in or whatever you want to do it let’s just say what is it what do you really want like what would be the Fulfillment of your wildest fantasies I mean we can’t guarantee you the Ultimate Dream Lover per se but we can put you somewhere where people that you want to be around that you might be a good you know cool to select enter Find Your Dream Lover from anywhere in the world you go anywhere in the world this is the big prize you know on the game show and all you got to do is spend you know a few days in this laboratory experiment with your niece and you say cuz you’re at and and we’re going to sit down together and we’re going to see if you cooperate with the study then you get to have you know the money that will sell like a problem since like you’ll probably forget about making someone else’s life hell for a reason you’re doing it right you can be distracted by your own you know, so let’s say we have the power to do that and we could bring her into a laboratory and you you know I have some ideas about the kind of study I would design around that tube to be okay you can’t tell us that you’re not doing as you have busy part of the deal if you have to eat what you have to admit that you’re doing this and was assuming that that that it’s a certainty no religious your suspicion isn’t she she is going to see you go through with this offer you say hey are you doing voodoo on me for some reason and because if you are don’t worry about it I’m not going to be punished or actually going to reward you for telling us about how you did it and if they okay well yeah I guess I have to stop doing it and I will give you the surprise you take David surprise and go be distracted and do things to be happy and that would solve the problem and you know you can go on living your lives and no persecution know you know charges everything just be honest so let’s say we’ve got her a nut in you in the laboratory and we’re going to study what’s happening inside of you with instrumentation and we’re going to study what’s happening inside of her with instrumentation and have her do what she does you know would what from now if you can describe like you said the some of the things that you felt were happening that could be that could be being initiated or intended you know by her if the kids can you describe what you could imagine being the results of a study or how you would design what kind of what kind of procedure could you imagine having like let’s see if she going to sit there and manipulate an object and have that object be like a doll or is he just going to sit and pray and meditate what if we put stupid. All because all you really need is the most recent picture or a video of the person you want and there was this one time in a restaurant I felt really funny this older lady was there with her family and she try to take a picture with your phone and it was always so that I was in the background and I tried covering my face and everything but she still persisted in almost waited until I uncovered my face and from that point on that was when I was feeling a lot of pain in my in my ovaries in my uterus probably like wishing you ill will against like having any kids which is totally fine cuz I’m not going to have any kids and also my head like just felt like sometimes is being punched or squeezed or like something like the head of a needle is just being you know slowly poking into it is and also sometimes I felt like a marionette also with the even after the cop thing had transpired I would walk around like so like a puppet and almost and with one of my close friends whose very connected to me she started feeling the same things the same like chronic headaches in the marionette kind of walking sometimes when we would spend time with each other just cuz I think it affects it affects people you’re connected with as well not only yourself so how about if you can talk about the your understanding of how the chakra system is what what’s the where does the chakra system fit into this let’s say we’ve established so far in this conversation that so-called demons are real and that they behave a lot like very intelligent mind hacking parasites and seem to have an organism’s Make nature which means that they would have to reproduce somehow and they have life spans and they need to consume different inputs and have different outputs at their biological machine they’re not just a robotic machine and they’re not just a ethereal Vapor anatomically engineered you know biomechanical entities that are intelligent and have actually more dimensional in some ways we have more dimensional command in maybe parts of our realm and in other ways they have more dimensional commands in parts of the around that are inaccessible to us so I’m sure I kind of feel like there’s entities it that spend so many dimensions that you can’t even begin to Fathom it in and so they completely intersect everything here and they could you know pick up objects and make things levitate you know switch on and off lights and all that kind of stuff but that’s pretty rare you don’t every demon wishes I could have the power to do that everything rich is it has the power to like pick up that knife and put it in somebody’s hand you know what I mean or pull that trigger or whatever and some of them I guess it is a constant battle it is a constant resistance the will to not do wrong with the urge to do wrong is the Frontline Battlefield between the Demonic at the interface between your Essence which is everyone I believe you know Meme must have become really fully you know psychotically possess your pretty much resisting the urges that would make bad things happen resisting urges that would result in negative consequences are opening in strengthening your chakras to help others you’re leaving yourself vulnerable for like you know parasites to attach to so even the best healers are the most sick to the point we were talking about how they’re real and they’re biologically so what is the chakra system have to do with all this system each pertaining to a body system so that whenever say a possessed person injures someone else in a certain say they cut their skin then they it technically the Demonic parasite would be attaching to the 5th chakra so you can or you can relate when someone has a pain that’s annoyingly you don’t getting their organs or intestines you know that that’s a demonic parasite on the third chakra and so you can pinpoint based on a person’s injuries or pain which chakras they’re damaging and which ones you can heal can you describe a bit about your training in the system and specifically what have you been I sort of told I guess about mulatto people are taught about the chakra system but not a lot of people are taught and the most people chakras probably everybody’s chakras to one degree or another are actually habitat for malicious organisms that are constantly trying to get an ever-increasing foothold on you and will stop at nothing to get that if if you fail at being loved or your country Community feels that loving you you know if you you could have been love but then for some reason become an asshole and then you become susceptible and you get more chakra parasites what was explained to you in your friend that you found the research you know that that chakra parasite 101 outline of that module of learning the chakra healing I did was called human Universal energy and it basically says that when you have an illness or pain that means that that chakra system that certain chakra is damaged and because it’s damaged that also means or can’t mean it could be a physical pain and or spiritual pain that a demonic parasite has attached so our training was we would meditate for a long. Of time to strengthen and open your chakras and then from there we could treat strategically place their hands first on the 7th chakra to maintain their overall health and then to whatever other chakras or body areas that needed attention for certain amount of time and so we would be acting as the vessel for energy it’s not like the Chinese system where you use your actual energy to go through someone else but we’re just the middleman for the universal energy to go into us and into the person’s damaged chakra yeah so a lot of people would get demonic parasites there’s a two-part process where are you you identify you kind of pry it out and the second part is you pull it out and just release it from the system and last week when I went the first part of the the healing then they stopped early cuz they said I just had so much bad energy so I have to go in today but should be better in one of our conversations we were kind of comparing notes in on a parallel journey of experience and personal healing and then study and experimentation you know to degree in I think you were you’ve been experiencing things a lot more formally than we’ve been involved in different healing modality traditions and we’ve been DIY hacking around you know everyone has to be comforter online hacker you know you you’re being hacked so you better get in you know be able to hack them back and get your mind back so one of that one point we had this exchange where I have just about had just been doing somebody work where I was having this very extremely tangible feeling experience SimCity no sense that I mean it’s almost like being a mind you know what I mean like that I think about you see my name and you see a body worker in a sec if I told hey Ma hey mine come over here and in demonstrate to these people what I’m talkin about I want you to mine that your has someone is laying down their stomach and you were giving them a massage and then all the sudden as you’re massaging them you start to bump into the nest you know of creature and you deserve it and then you realize it’s a it’s an emergency this person’s under attack and you just discover this and you become the hero and you decide that the best thing that you should probably do is try to remove them and they don’t see that they’re like causing pain you know that they’re in a place where they’re doing something harmful and you start reaching into that mess and it’s like you’re reaching into a beehive pulling out trying to get them all out of somebody you know you like red ant hill or something like that but as the Healer you have the confidence that you will not be that you have the allies and the strength and sort of the armor you know I’m in the disinfectant spray and you know all of your all of your trinketry and what not that’s going to protect you and then gives you the ability to actually survive with your own like you said the best healer or something or the spiritual Cesspool Vortex so you better and I know that I’ve met a lot of psychotherapists who are so whacked out because of the work they do you know what I mean like they can’t keep a relationship they can’t they’re just neurotic about everything they start to become yeah like the transference happens and so anyway going back to what I experienced I care I pulled I was like I was having experienced okay I’m like actually in an in an ester of things been what have I wasn’t fruitfully sure the time it’s like I’m not seeing it I wasn’t medicated myself so you know we’ll keep that vague but I was let’s say third eye closed shut my third eye was shut you know relatively compared to be a relatively speaking I’m sensing with my intuition it’s only this should just throw this out there the sidebar it’s like intuition plus third eye being open means that you see more of the fabric or the what’s giving that it’s intuition like what the information that’s in those those higher Fields so I’m I’m feeling that I’m pulling something out I know I’m pulling something out I’m physically feeling it crawl into my arm and sees my muscles and try to Lodge itself like scabies you know what I mean it’s like scabies they Lodge themselves underneath the surface of the skin and they lay their eggs under the skin and their whole life cycle is occurring where you’re scratching to get below the surface of the skin where they’re burrowing all around in the place so you know that the burrowing nature of the Demonic organisms you know to do that and so but I wasn’t sure the time am I pulling out one long like giant like tapeworm kind of a thing or am I pulling out only a few at a time and let’s say in a patterned you know to see if the say it’s a mental disorder by neurosis and radek mental disorder caused a pattern behavior and you going to have to wonder if it’s like okay if if one engages in that pattern behavior every time they do that they’re out there giving a food pellet to the Demonic parasite writes like do this it’s going to make you feel bad about yourself and that’s what it’s really all about like eating disorders every disorder is like how to make how do I make a person feel bad about themselves because when they feel by themselves I get a food pallet so whatever they’re susceptible to do to feel bad about themselves I’m going to crank that up to the Max and then but so in that burrow where they’re doing that in their little nests the question is her my question has been like when I feed the koi fish the food pellets go out there and then it’s like a Feeding Frenzy of multiple fish trying to get at that that resource it’s not just like one big fish that’s sitting there by itself along with no competition and no Offspring and nothing no babies to feed and no it’s just like one thing that sits there and then it has the ability to manipulate your you in various ways and get you to do what it wants to do so it gets you to to put out this 2 to practice you old enough for its consumption I think more realistically that it is that there’s multiple like more of a freedom a Feeding Frenzy when you do something you wish you hadn’t done or you do something that makes you feel bad or you do something it’s like sexually pathological makes you feel good but it’s like a shallow good feeling you’re actually doing harm and but you’re feeding these things and I asked you on time cuz you were going through a sort of surgical extraction and an exercise in a surgical exorcism extraction procedure and asked you cuz I was curious and I was doing it for the second time is it one big one or it rots of little ones and you said both then if you want to talk a little bit about that like you were this will this anything you kind of know about like if you were a zoologist are you were you know you’re studying the distorted demon Kingdom like the animal kingdom and you be like yeah you know I’m out there doing my exploring and kind of identifying and making different the taxonomy kind of a thing right you see there’s ones like this didn’t want to look like that as long as it smell like this one it’s not like that and just things that differentiate them in your mind from all the different experiences you had personally where you be at what you personally how you would identify it if you were if it was a lineup for if I can’t see them the most strongest the biggest ones smell like sulfur and I’ve had certain like on a tip not typical but one night I had one follow me like on the road home at the parking lot and Ikea work usually people associate that’s not cemeteries but it was following me everywhere other than that the facial expressions of people are either blank with their eyes or you know almost pitch-black or smiling in a very Sinister way grinning I guess you could say summer angry out some life like non-stop the people under attack are constantly whaling cuz the pain never stops and yeah and another thing I noticed is the head movements head movements are very very quick almost unnatural you know like in the scary movies they always do that but they they really do that and they won’t really blink it’s almost as if the person forgot how to Blink cuz he’ll just stay open that’s what I noticed behind the scenes behind the mask of the human form the sort of the Matrix means what are the Men in Black plus the Matrix customer matrix totally sums up the world of interaction between human and Spirits degree any bumps as you had or like to say that you saw the demon of that X or the former lover can you describe an officer to schedule UPS cuz they were going to go and the demon was dark-skinned must’ve well when I say a big mouth with big fangs I’m saying like a circle and it’s like a circle mouth like a parasite with them really big razor sharp teeth and another one that my friends my girlfriend’s they’ve seen in their lives is a tall man with a hat and a trench coat in Carolee see his face is kind of like you know those people described him as the boogeyman but I mean they’ve seen him standing around just like in the midst of a crowd but no one else sees them or in their houses or you know in dark parking lots and when you get near you know there won’t be anyone there how would you describe the nature of what has do you feel like you have your chakras are infected with Paris theme demonic parasites my chakras are damaged cuz of demonic injuries and and black magic or so I guess I could say it does feel sometimes like there cuz my headache it shifts and it moves unnaturally in that could be parasites that are just moving and just trying to eat away at your brain you know what your spiritual rain so okay I never asked you when you were having your session or after such as they could you could you ask the healers to describe to you and then convey to me what they saw and there’s a new procedure so if you could like describe that one procedure just like as if I never heard of any of this stuff and you’re just now telling someone what the procedure was and then you’re like yeah it was mostly invisible to me but what they told me afterwards that they were doing this and they saw this well yet like I was saying with the power of intense meditation you start to see and feel things the pain of others so I think a lot of the healers have have treated for so long that by now they know which attack was from a demon or from a I’m pretty sure the master of the center knows I like exactly what happened see exactly what the demon looks like but I haven’t had a chance to talk with her okay I think that’s about it wasn’t any last things do you have any thoughts on or practice any form of goddess worship okay what do you do for defense and protection against now we have these categories demonic parasitic infection demonic attack or like assault like injury sorry Yet demonic injury demonic possession demonic infection parasitic infection those are good categories okay so I guess defense strategies and infection what I do when I feel not good or I feel like I have an infection I will you got a bunch of Rue you plug off the small leaves and you blend it and you filter out that water and you put it in a soap bottle and after shower you put it all over you for 3 5 or 7 days and it does make you feel a lot better and my aunt has a set of like it looks almost like Tai Chi exercises your breathing in and breathing out you don’t get a bad and good energy and I just haven’t remembered them and of course there’s meditation and the injury I mean you don’t know it’s so and so it happens really but I mean of course self-defense would help with that and of course infection probably lessen the number of sexual partners you have because you never know what sections you might be spreading down there not only physically but spiritually if someone has if you say you know someone has issues or someone has a lack of love and doesn’t display any respect or love towards you that and itself is bad energy and so when you engage with them you not only leaving with you know you’re not just leaving with your body you leaving with your body plus perhaps a couple of demonic parasites that afterwards you start feeling the same way of that person and it just continues on a chain okay and if we can just talk for a couple more minutes on this this is like yeah where I want to go for a minute for the men out there help help the men understand how important it is to conduct the the act of Love Making in a ritual and ritualized manner that really anchors in the highest intentions in and is about building honor and trust and respect and boundaries and communication like what I am trying to share with my being you know exposed to in a good way being found by and embraced by the sacred sexuality modern 66 Rowdy sort of movement and we have to like what you’re saying the advice is something would be something like first to be warned that this is happening you know exactly the way you described it would show a hundred percent agreement about and then knowing that now if you didn’t know that already here’s what you must demand from your you know lover male or female or old you know where any configuration before you allow your sexual intimacy to occur with one or more people you have to do X Y and Z to make sure that you’re safe and always you know and we can the STD stuff is we don’t have to go into the medical stuff of course it’s in the other conversation but the spiritual spiritually transmitted demons is there sexually transmitted demons are spiritually transmitted diseases I think they both do you know you can get make the point do you have advice for men and women or Crap wherever you want and are all gen I guess advice for a specific specific advice for men and any other advice you want to give because I think men need to have this ingrained how to conduct themselves using an ethical procedure and a sort of some skillfulness and some Artistry to be able to make someone feel safe and also the biggest challenge is going to be figuring out how you how the male who’s filled with the cultures demons you know where all carriers of the cultural demons you know and we could be saintly in our lives and saves like and still have pornographic programming and still have all of these issues that are societal and so to what I want to be able to master and teach is the ability to really conduct myself and in a state of grace that makes transference and possible because the the the the love lover of like shiv like unconditional real true Pure Love is something that that will incinerate these demons like you’re creating it when you effectively sort of Sakrete your own love biochemistry and you create this Cosmic energetic vibrational light Love Field of energy then you are effectively frying the demons and that that is the end of when the Kundalini plunger effect starts to happen and you get the coiled serpent actually like hydraulically douching out the chakra system and that’s being caused by this influx of it’s like you’re using each other’s bodies to open a valve to Divine energy and divine energy is what douches the chakras in a hydraulic peristaltic Serpentine movement kind of way so that’s I don’t know if that’s something that you have a answer that you practice and about me to see no give only as much detail as you want but he would like to be able to save somebody look how do you know I know you’re a sweetheart and I love you and that you’re loving me to the best of your ability and it’s cute and Charming that you fumble around and make mistakes and I forgive you cuz I know you’re trying and then I was at Centex so you have permission to enter me and and use are or share will share each other and experience pleasure for with and through each other for the purpose of pure hedonistic pleasure and the purpose of healing in the purpose of strengthening our bond as friends and you know this life journey together in and for relaxation for obvious reasons but I know that you are also as much as those intentions are there I also know that you are this entire reservoir of demonic entities what are the cultures programs that are living inside of you and trying to like transmit themselves so because that is a fact of your existence we need to engage in this procedure that’s going to guarantee that we have created the field of have fun of Love energy that will be that that they will have to evacuate from you they’ll have to Scurry away from because it will consume them in the fire you know and so do you have you effectively convey that how do you convey that knowing what you know which is what I like most women or not having a conversation anything like this with the people that they allowed to penetrate them right so how do you do that that’s really tough to bring up to the mail because a lot of males are not spiritually in touch with themselves are the subjects so you just usually not mention that part that just mention you know that you’re not emotionally ready for a stage like that and that our generation this culture kind of just throws away the sacredness of sex and you have to make that point clear cuz a lot of people forget that you and you can have to earn it you can’t just first date I paid for your dinner so yeah and it’s also a very tough to be sexually spiritual or spiritually sexual and a generation that’s like I told you before was so technological where we make every decision objectively when you know you need a little subjective to correlate with your heart anything more like have you had any can you recall any situations where you’ve been able to have satisfactory results with somebody because you train them to be the proper whatever you like you know like there’s no one way but it’s your way and that’s what matters right yeah there has been where I am we both meditated for bit and then you know the heat arrows and that we both decided you know it wasn’t the right time or place to go through with it and that’s success when you think of both of your priorities and if you’re both ready for it I saw yeah I do think meditation together with your partner is really essential in my life so I’m a bad example I guess because or I’m I’m like a Mite my case doesn’t count because I danced so much it’s almost like I don’t not dance ever since things like that like it’s happening while doing the dishes gardening watering plants something is wiggling cuz I’m usually listen to psytrance you know or podcasts are both in so I don’t have a problem with this but I feel like most people do have a problem with this and so I’m trying to think of how do I prescribe The Sweet Spot formula if I’m like an extreme case to one into the other and it’s like so here’s my thing dance at least three times the duration of the Intercourse that you have and you should have a healthy relationship or the potential they ever have the bishop dancing together and dancing especially you could I get supply that I mean doesn’t always have to be at 5 minutes I’m in you know it’s have a quickie you know in the in the the the the Janitor’s Closet you know in the office or what you’re obviously not going to dance for three times that 5 minutes before you do that but overall on average you know and and it should be the point should be made that dancing and meditating not everyone wants to dance which is a freaking problem I need the Tantra task Force’s going to solve that problem to visibility because if you don’t dance you can’t disinfectant purifying and he’ll in my and you can dance in whatever way you could answer your freaking toes I don’t care but do something that makes you feel good in your body and sharing that with somebody before before lovemaking yasso dance and sexuality any thoughts you know if you look at BM Tango salsa but you out the Motions of Love Making hand and hand but the problem is with a partner who has two left feet and just refuses to dance it’s okay it’s much more fun with than actual dance partner though dance to meditate and I made love or meditate and dancing meatloaf like we said regimented and restricted to eight counts them used dancing with a Goldman so it doesn’t lend itself to that or just freestyling but I’m just saying I guess the answer is no but I didn’t put them ideally yes I need to step up their game at 7 use you to step up on the dance floor at the game is on the dance floor not on the the TV it’s not on the TV or the console yeah so I was cool well I think that’s a great. I don’t even there right there thank you in whatever way you could answer your freaking toes I don’t care but do something that makes you feel good in your body and sharing that with somebody before lovemaking yeah so dance and sexuality any thoughts you know if you look at the Tango salsa but you out the emotions of lovemaking they go hand-in-hand with a partner who has two left feet and just refuses to dance free reduced Tina the type of dance where you just jumping up and down but that’s fine but it’s okay it’s much more fun with than actual dance partner though I meditated and I made love or meditated and dancing made love like we said regimented and restricted to eight counts and usually dancing with a gold men so it doesn’t lend itself to that could you imagine or just freestyling but I’m just saying I guess the answer is no but I didn’t but ideally yes ideally yes that means you to step up on the dance floor at the game is on the dance floor not on the with the TV it’s not on the TV or the console yeah so I was cool well I think that’s a great idea and they’re right there thank you. 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Awaken the Kali Within TPP12

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awaken-the-kali-slideThis episode is an audio recording from a Kali invocation workshop in Los Angeles in January 2014

KALI- The Goddess of self Empowerment, of time, change, death/rebirth, fierce rage, annihilator of evil forces, the redeemer of the universe as well as the benevolent mother goddess…

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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin hello their beloveds welcome to the touch of Punk podcast episode number 12 this is a collie invocation Workshop called Awakening The Colony within that a different Sufjan it did in Los Angeles in mid January 2014 hope you enjoy it take care of Namaste is kombucha gastrica it is unfair to the Mount you breathe in through the nose and you breathe out through the mouth and wants traded to you keep your hands in the fridge so you could come inside and two fingers on top yet you take a deep breath driving up to breed everybody can join if you hadn’t breathing in every chapter has a sound attached to it a beach sound to awaken Equity project affects the 3rd so then we are chanting on think about you know that you are Awakening these to check on the 6th and 7th to Paris we can keep your hands comfortably like this or you can put it in the money whenever you can come do the OM chanting nine times breathing in read too much ego energy energy of manipulation of superficiality Lego it’s too superficial guarantee to get the hell out of here but you know it’s happening at such a large mass Consciousness that you’re moving away from truth of our inner soul and moving away from Soul itself all the manipulation and the superficiality and so we need goddess Kali the fears God is she gone to the sword of truth and she / is now all the infusions and I’ll get it to her story afterwards but before I share a story about her share another story so this separation comes from this Duality consciousness disqualifies that kind of the kind of selfishness and Eagle base behavior is causing this kind of Separation to the separation that we see in the outside world is also the separation within within us so first we’ll start with looking at the separation that is there within us to split that is there and then I’ll go on to tell the story about goddess Kali so this is a very short story and it is about a boy going to kill you Houston hundreds of years ago in a monastery in Japan in the village in the mountains very beautiful and his job in the ministry was to go and get the water so he would put a stick on his on his shoulders and Obi One for 2 and one for sure you would go down the mountain and Phillip water and he would go like you know singing his Mantra chanting and doing walking meditation or something like that so once was a sitting by the water and suddenly start tearing sound of crying one of the fox was crying so one of the fox was a crackpot in can cracks in it and the other part was home so the Crock-Pot was crying was really looking very depressed and miserable and you asked me why are you crying and the fox said I do feel guilty that because of because it mean you have to go up and down the hill extra because I cannot hold the water that you put in so I lose half of the water on the way and I feel like I feel so ashamed about myself for being so broken start smiling and laughing he said my dear you must be paying attention when you go back home I want you to pay attention and Libras and see what is around then it starts working again singing and then the crackpot notices that on the left side when the craft where the crock pot was entire body is green and filled with flowers and the other side was dry what is math the crockpot realises that my Brokenness you can’t do so many flowers so I would like to do an exercise have a short exercise if you all can you have your paper and then otherwise I’ll give you I want you to write down make a list of the whole part and the crackpot the positive qualities you think you have and the negative qualities so-called negative qualities that you think you have just a few and then I’ll tell you what to do around guys they just throw acid on their face and lose the entire face during hospital for sometimes traveling for months is when I saw she’s barely Fourteen and she can hardly breathe chest drawers in her nose and her mouth is mostly closed now so she has to only take liquor through straw in her mom her whole life is gone is that but still of course she’s alive and when I see something like that my black just wants to buy it and I feel like how is it possible that there are so many people in this country and such a small handful are being able to do what they are able to do so I personally feel that there isn’t enough rich in this world and the kind of Rage that is going to bring more like medicine in the world kind of races going to stand up and see that is enough these are our boundaries you cannot abuses like this Monsanto feeding people like crappy food and I’m sure he has a lot of many many people on his hands how is it possible that a little girl from Pakistan 14 years old where the girls are not even allowed in that Village to come outside their house she’s able to stay at gunpoint with Taliban and still say I am going to get myself education I support education for women she’s 14 she’s living in the country or at least in a village that they have no freedom and where is here in America we have like a million times more freedom than them and I’m sure it has its dark side and maybe Beyond on hundred percent free but we have so much freedom and why is it that in spite of the freedom that we have to go out and create an appropriate evaluation that this is not okay why is it that you’re still so complacent and that I feel is because there isn’t enough arranged so I would like to share the story of goddess Kali and she’s probably the word Golly means dark black so she is considered to be the dark goddess and ironically enough she is also considered to be the most compassionate goddess she’s really really fierce if the weapons and her hands were not in a she also has a tongue sticking out she has a Garland of head around her neck she’s wearing a skirt made with hands these are all of course symbolic of something so primarily she is the goddess a fridge she’s Fierce she stands up for justice she does not put up with bulshit she’s a lover of Truth and she wants to with her sword she has a sword in her left hand with her sword she wants to slash a weight cut off anything that is creating that is coming from the eagle that is created the separation and usion in us and that is going to violate the boundaries of her children that is going to abuse her children she’s going to say this is not okay don’t you dare come close to my little girl you’ll be so freakishly sorry so the mythological story behind the archetype of goddess Kali is very interesting so how’s it been millions of years ago and they were gone and there were demons and there was often fights Wars happening between gods and the demons and of course God would always with God’s word more powerful but there was this one demon his name was he was more powerful than any other demons he was infinitely more powerful and then on the God and all the demons saw the gods get really worried oh my goodness we’re going to be destroyed and then they decide oh my goodness will have to go to the most most most powerful one and that is goddess Durga goddess Durga is also one of the forms of goddess Kali and she’s very strong she’s a warrior she rides on a tiger and a she’s the warrior goddess but even she knew that truck to Beecher is very very very powerful so even I need a words in of me that is even more powerful than door. So from her eyebrow comes Carly and she is like this blood sucking blood hungry thirsty and she’s ready to slash down all the demons and her tongue sticking out so what happens with enough to BJ’s if you attack him he’s a demon to cut him when his blood clots and it falls on the ground every drop of blood is going to create even more of the pictures so he’s kind of he feels like he’s infinitely powerful and Lucas Bengali is even more powerful than him what college does is not only does she slay off all the demons she also brings up all the blood to the blood that drops she drinks up all the blocks are there are no more of the beaches and she destroys him but she gets so possessed so possessed by this mad rage but she’s becoming Unstoppable she just keeps on destroying so even after all the demons I destroyed she keeps on destroying so what happened is Lord Shiva who is her husband he goes down and lies down on the ground Belen chili kind of way and she was about to step on him and her mad friends and then suddenly she wakes up all of her state of possession and she realizes oh my goodness I need to stop so she stops so message is that why is it called me and she will always go hand-in-hand. Husband and wife Carly is this raw Untamed emotional power of the Senate is that all of us have and sheba is the masculine aspect also within all of us whether you’re a man or woman she buys the Consciousness she buys the truth when she was with self-awareness what’s the message here is when you let your rage Unleashed your Ridge to fight for justice to find the demons whether they are the internal or external demons but in combination with to do it in combination with Shiva means to do it consciously when anger comes I become present to that anger I don’t repress it I don’t go around killing someone from it of course this is more better for wrinkles what should I do instead anger consciously I use that anger with love like Foundation she was lying down she buys Consciousness true love compassion so the foundation on which I’m going to express my emotions to give me that far is truth I’m going to channel my anger in a way that serves the truth that serves Justice that serves and that is why this Fierce goddess the so-called fears angry goddess is actually one of the most compassionate mothers of autistic in Indian mythology so that is the Paradox that I find really powerful she buys the Consciousness she buys the light so you’re going into that dark space you’re going to the Shadow with this light by your side and you showing your throwing this light on these dark areas and you realized oh my goodness look there is that Billy from my childhood that says oh that is why I’ve been attracting all these terrible relationships oh my goodness and Scotty comes out during the full moon but very often during full moons I get very emotional and I heard from a lot of people they also get very emotional and then the veil between the unconscious world in the conscious world steripen search on the unconscious mind you’re able to enter into your unconscious but you know what is one of the most healing and Powerful things that you can do surrendering to that pain because when you’re crying it out maybe I’m crying out I don’t even know why I’m crying make him crying on the child with pain that when I still like oh my goodness I was rejected by my father by my by my mother or I was abused by this person so maybe I deserve to be abused so I’m dropping all these relationships but I’m getting abused so in that sense and the colony awakens within and when you do that journey into the deep deep dark with the presence of Sheba and is true and it’s love you put light in these dark parks and she’s / is a w with the swords the inner demons the inner dragons the inner Shadow so Liberation supports his powers second is Liberation towards the penta City fiercely honest and fiercely attending that I don’t be angry person I have a friend who has a line here has been angry since China he has a line cure and I see anger in his eyes but she never gets angry and he tells me I never get angry but do you know what I’m saying a joke to him sometimes love this is the very little laughter because his energy stuck in Anger which is not willing to feel and then anger comes from another child with abusive experience but instead he was willing to on this anger and feed it and process it he would not go around being angry all the time and he doesn’t even realize you know people can see it so when you own your anger when you own your fear when you own every emotion you grow in your attempt to sit in you can show up more as this you would like me to be and so nice wholeness the gift of wholeness is the same thing I think in some ways you know hold this is the marriage of the unconscious with the conscious the dark with light the Sheba which ft it’s the marriage so I’m boarding the Kali because bellettini patriarchal world and a lot of us have been so deeply condition by patriarchy that we don’t even know most of us a lot of things are running just masculine and feminine energy has to be depressed and like oh my goodness that’s not good enough you have to hide Your Shadow for the marriage of the Shadow and the lights that’s bringing us more into her holness afrezza creativity trust me when you do good in our journey into the shadow World you’ll need to find some of the most beautiful treasure is there your creative artist known as a creative artist and we all know that sometimes we create some of the most phenomenal art when we dive into those dark places and come back with the treasures that are there in in Hawaii like perfectly trained dancer but has never been through too much pain or suffering or this kind of you know as not Mendes Shadow sometimes you might find their dance to be like beautiful to your eyes but it does not touch you very deep inside your soul or when someone asks that depart within themselves the darkness and the suffering in the plane and the Brokenness and then me and you are comes from there within oh my goodness you might not have your PhD but your art is going to touch people’s Souls the deepest part of their souls so and fearlessness of course Carly McCauley for this is you your your rage brings so much courage and finally unconditional love because she cuts of the eagle because she cuts up the illusion that we are separate we start realizing our Oneness and right on the bush it has been released a funeral home the childhood you know the healing the the messages that come from the childhood trauma like I’m not good enough cutting out all those that shoot what’s Reigns is love you know so you’re growing and conditional love when you act when you’re willing to embody every every emotion how do I access the stating that the divine feminine has been suffering since a long time and she’s being depressed you don’t feel something from your personalized calling to directly you can think of Designing Women in Africa for being raped at 5 or 6 years ago is it happened in Delhi we should be together the second part worship worshipped as a god mother that is why I only change change change change. William Howard Holly energy but not loud as you can okay worship me a new life creation and yeah and cheese changed, it is. worshipped as a god I want to be a mother Osborn from me New Creation Jaden can also be forward assault I never have done this done I’m going through a few months of depression and like where the hell is my life going I do this done it’s a longer performance my bad my life just changes overnight everything looks so different but that is something about the metaphor of Breaking Chains open there’s something about Awakening or invoking the power of the archetype which is so infinite and that reminds me how infinite I am from inside why do I go around walking the Earth walking all over the Earth like feeling so limited Phoenix Artisan power just right so far as to get in touch with my nephew had to get in touch with this kind of animal is powered everyday in the morning how differently would we live our life you know somebody who was really depressed this would be if I was in boarding got a star. I’ll be the soft-spoken version of me Altoona right but I don’t want to stay stuck in this archetype on the timer like this all the time somebody wants to come in abused messages no somebody come shopping with me I do this what I do with my body becomes me because my psychology right so you change how you holding your body is going to change your psychology it’s going to shift your Consciousness it’s going to shift how you show up in the world whether it’s your work your personal relationships everywhere Sears Auto in the city if people Define people sometimes somebody stuck only in the victim archetype somebody step only in the Savior archetype want to see the word saving and I’m getting chronic fatigue syndrome because I’m like not taking care of myself so inviting all the different archetypes is also important sometimes we don’t know that we are running mostly like meet you know masculine energies or following masculine principles and there’s that kind of you know imbalance so how do you rehabilitate that balance between the masculine and The Feminine so how do you embody more in your day-to-day life collie Veronica shepsky so why don’t you must be more familiar with this name sexy because you know Shiva Shakti but these are all names of the same goddess the goddess of empowerment this is her even more Fierce part which gives debts and reboots and because she’s able to give death that is why you’re able to be reborn and that is why you become more free and become more creative there is nature the philosopher he shared very something very interesting about the Journey of human beings he called the three Metamorphoses of the spirit so he said that when the human being is born in the beginning as a child of course you have a creative and free and then of course the social conditioning starts but you have to do this job to live like this or like that so the first stage is you are a camel you know doing things that you’re supposed to be doing a lot to carry this way then walk okay and you know you’re working like the camel then the scammer gets an opportunity to fight these dragons and in order to fight these dragons this camel has to become the lion or the lioness so you need to find that Carly within or whatever so basically the Dragon City presents the shadow lot of people will just go on living this normal superficial life everything is fine in my life and all of a sudden one day cancer heart attack you know whatever in the hospital for a few years or the journey into the shadow is inevitable lot of people who resisted fighted deny it If you deny it and it probably wouldn’t be with you in some other way and it’s going to take you there it’s like if you’re going willingly with a smile with love then you’re going to be dragged there because everybody has shadow shadow is a part of life so sorry if I awakened the Lioness Within Myself and I bravely fight this Dragon which means I am willing to meet my shadow and dance with it and learn from it and grow from it I’m willing to meet my own death I’m willing to meet aspects of myself that need to be given death in order for me to be reborn which means the example that I gave that as a child if I was abused and if I’m constantly attracting abusive relationships as an adult and not looked at my shadow and I’m not try to him Buddyfight if polygons and possesses me and she has me going to the Deep darkness and he’ll that shadow of being wounded or abused as a child and I become free from it I become free from this dragon and lo and behold I can attract a new relationship that comes more from a place of empowerment that makes me feel more free that makes me feel more loved than Irish so if the Lioness or the line is able to fight this dragon and Tom’s Victorious then this lioness once again is turned into a child by a child transform ya and a child is creative child knows how to play you know a lot of times when you have too much trauma kind of makes you heavy Olympic stain the unconscious it makes you happy you cannot play you cannot love I’ve dated an american guy who is like emotionally Sonam down because of whatever he went through childhood that he could not laugh I could not laugh and I was like he’s such an awesome person but I cannot be with him because I’m not able to love with him you know cuz once you if you freeze one emotion if you freeze anger you freeze fear like you’re talking about the fear of facing the fear that was amazing what have you just shared with me so if you keep your anger Frozen and Hayden and say the photo I don’t have any anger it’s like only wish the garbage under the rug what happens is all the emotions come from the same space they’re all energy when during your fear you’re also going to repress your joy it also going to depress your creativity and you’re going to depress your ability to love freely so that is why the child is innocent child has free child can be creative but from my personal experience I can say that when I was a little girl I was of course infinitely creative you could just play a radio and I’ll just start dancing after song had been doing the last couple of years sometimes when people ask me to perform to a new song so that creativity is a treasure but I like a child that you become an even more because when this child or the Scandal goes to the process of facing his or her Brokenness you’re taken down deep into the dark you know and dad is where you meet your deepest treasure and then when you come and you share your heart with the world your art will have soul stories you aren’t will have messages that you channel from the Divine just because you became so broken open that Divine wisdom and Divine Light and Define creativity started flowing through you then the songs that you will right after going through your journey of Brokenness that will bring so much more healing and empowerment to the woods so that is why I appreciated my creativity is a child was really amazing but now I feel having gone to the journey of Brokenness and health issues and whatever now I feel that I am able to still share much more do persol Treasures through my heart now I’m able to stand up and say like you know what if my art is not going to elevate. consciousness of the society or leave the society this world a better place that I would rather not do it if it’s going to bring down the consciousness of the woods and I don’t want to do it not just for the sake of your entertainment she looks like a Demon Slayer she looks like she has this sword in her hand or left hand has been the sword and all of their things to destroy a lot of pictures that say that her right and is actually getting Boons and it is getting blessing and she’s telling people with this hand do not fear so she’s very paradoxical she comes in, so a lot of things out of your life you know what are you doing the past burden you’re carrying a social conditioning you’re carrying this, sounds very cold and heartless because she’s 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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin hello dear beloved so welcome to Tantra Punk podcast episode number 6 this is a conversation that I had about radicalism activism and spirituality with a dear friend and Mentor Arena so I hope you enjoy it and learn a lot and I mistake I’m going green now is especially my talk to her mainstream Consciousness from buying green products to trying to get more to this abstract concept is Mother Earth where you know it’s kind of a whereas from a more traditional cultural perspective it’s actually experiential and something is very real and very different types of feminine energies and all of that I think it’s becoming more apparent green Consciousness and you know the re-emergence of the goddess in a in a very abstract symbolic an on-and-off and commercialized way you know what this better nothing great but there’s a different deeper need to to go back further in time and to reconnect with deeper roots of connectedness I think you know to to the planet and Consciousness and energy and Divinity and there’s definitely a lot of time-tested methodologies and techniques and kind of sacred modalities to for people to in modern modern people who are there ways you can teach people in modern society how to find that within themselves within the plant cells have a long introduction but I just wanted to tie in the context of why this is relevant to going green and I think it is important to I look at things in this way so do you want to kind of give him the directions yourself what you’re involved in a little bit about your your background and and then we can get into some pointed questions sure my my name is Rita Desai I know my background is in social justice organizing my my academic back on his in economics and politics and I was organizing mainly in the area of workers rights and and anti-corporate campaigns and it’s something I mean social transformation social justice is something that I am very very passionate about I mean I can talk a little bit about this later but my most fertile rewarding work was in India where I was coordinating a campaign that was resisting the rise of corporate retail chain you know because of the destruction of could have on agriculture sector in India and also because of their wave of Twitter material culture that is that it is bringing currently and that it would it would just reinforce and you know it was through 2006/2007 an end and working on the campaign and I’m meeting with a large amount of success in this campaign that I realized will external at the end of a year-and-a-half I was completely burnt out and and stressed out and just not really a nice person which is when I came to realize that something needs to change because if I’m really hoping to build no transformation in the world that have to be sustainable so it’s through through through my head of organizing pass into what I called in a lot of ways external organizing that I came to realize I can’t do this without putting myself in my own self development my own well-being into this work until I so and so I am now doing what I call Inner transformation linking inner transformation to social transformation work where I am I’m bridging spirituality with social justice and within this process really going down going through my own spiritual path which you know which you brought up sort of the rise of the Goddess now this is something that’s something that I’ve been studying something that I’ve been teaching in terms of reconnecting to you know my feminine power and and and helping to teach women to connect to their feminine power as one of the greatest sources of Our Own Strength confidence Health Vitality connection to the Earth and also a power of 4 for social transformation what I’m doing now is is is is consciousness-raising and in personal personal transformation for this larger social transformation now that was great that was perfect thank you for sharing all that and down actually one or two before moving on I think you mentioned before that you hadn’t been able to work with friend on Toshiba is that correct oh yeah when in India we it was a campaign ad campaign is called India FDI watts and so we worked we assembled a pretty broad constituency of groups individuals that were either directly or indirectly affected by the country of a multinational corporation still Vandana Shiva was definitely a big partner in in the campaign and Lord of the work that she has been to bang around you know around fighting corporations and agriculture sector of the WTO and various other trade agreement that and also genetically modified seeds as an Arbiter had a lot of respect for her work and I’m also the fact that she so commonly on they’ll promote the concept of egocentrism which is something you don’t think that we hear the women’s lives after the sixties and if it kind of subsided in the main thing before before I became to sleep with a clear we’re even had the sensitivity to be looking for it I think that’s a huge issue and you know kind of set up Helsing Academia and hasn’t had a lot of water but I think one of the people who really put that to the end of Praxis and release you know Alexa Hands-On practical application and wanted to give you a few questions here and we Define spirituality for people who literally have just lived their whole life and I left brain and everything comes wrapped in a package and goes into a garbage can or recycling bin and very thin rational linear reality that you know the Matrix and that doesn’t separate or seperate holy place to experience you have a quick definition of spirituality that you can use to get people dancing well I guess for me spirituality is in the broadest and maybe in the most basic sense is is turning inwards is you know is turning inwards and recognizing that we have an inner life you know that that isn’t necessarily all based in the brain and an in a lot of ways to connect connecting to the heart and understanding you know the truth and of the heart and listening and understanding what it means to actually live through the heart you know I I’ve been thinking about this a lot in terms of how to talk about spirituality with people involved in social justice movements and involved in the last because it because it’s interesting that that in a lot of circles and definitely in a lot of circles that I was a part of you know it’s part of the labor movement and producer organizing there is this this this notion that you know that going inwards that’s that personal transformation that spirituality is something that is only for the elite to do when you know when in reality it the entire all of the structures that we’re sort of critical of you know capitalism is based on materialism the entire structure is based on finding fulfillment from material objects and and everything that is external to us we do we don’t need that I mean this is something that that we’re actually turning away from in Western culture right now this this constant consumption is constant need to find happiness in something external ourselves and so for me I mean spirituality is really just to to turn to turn inwards in to find you no understand what happiness is from within 2 2 too costly open to Greater levels of love and you know and truth from within ourselves and really sort of transcending the ego and and and and examining you know what examining you are how we have been taught and programmed in a lot of ways by Society by the media buy our parents you know and so for me it’s too sweet to go inwards and to really find Freedom by coming to higher levels of consciousness that come from inner truth as opposed to the outer truth and so I mean that’s and in the end you know what it really practical terms that means it means personal growth and I’m committing to one’s personal growth so you know there’s they ancient Priestess traditions in India and the goddess traditions in India what they would say that you know these bees were women who devoted their lives to to God or to a higher power and really that that means what it means to devote yourself to God or to vote to devote yourself to you know a higher power and means nothing more than to devote yourself to your own personal growth and to always you know understand that that that this life is it’s for for for growth is it for development you know we’re not perfect none of us are perfect and so-and-so spirituality for me as understanding this end and constantly you know developing ourselves I’m going into work to do this Slavic radio going inward Guided by the heart and grows in Kirkland almond overall pretty comprehensible 14 I like working definition Cosmic Dimension but it’s not a sort of like point A to point B with here in a spaceship and go to the other side of the Galaxy it’s like lit murder Consciousness into higher dimensionality so that space and time the way we can see them in four dimensions you know it’s transcended in and there is no attic of the cosmos end of reality that include and get transcend space and time and figure out a way to making music people to understand I think from what you’re saying experience and going inward your body into like a vehicle to travel through Dimensions early and have greater access to knowledge and greater access to healing energy and insights and all kinds of things that coming through from different song more than more than what we you don’t scientifically except to be the physical limitations of putting two ancient teachings of Tantra are our bodies are microcosms of the universe you know within a sweet contain the the greater universe and so we have tremendous. Tremendous capabilities within us if we if we are if we actively to tap into this and work with the energy that we have are the energy of the universe that we have within us but for most of us if we don’t do that you know and I mean it really is I mean you’re able to reach higher higher levels of consciousness and and you know interconnectedness in and and different dimension at the same time I mean from it from the perspective of you know actually creating real change I think spirituality is that what should also be looked at it something very practical you know in terms of spiritual tips to do physical exercise to take care of yourself to take care of your body to live healthy you know to to be a happy in relationships tune to know how to rid had to know how to have healthy healthy and happy relationships a lot of the teachings that that I am learning that I transmit are based on ancient sword of principles and ancient wisdom how to how to how to live and how to live happy you know and then of course you know as you know to sort of one piece with one piece of the Baseline things are are taken care of cuz we need a strong Foundation to be able to reach them of the higher-level dimensions because if you don’t have a strong Foundation if you’re not able to actually live in the world you know I’m function in the world then there’s also not it is supposed to be coming store that’s it it’s very hard to put practice into action it’s hard to bridge the spiritual with the social you know if it’s all up in the sky yeah I think it’s like at all I mean some of that Carly Ln truth but like what I Look At You No Going Back even before civilizations emerged to be able to create text and writing systems and to be able to go to fight and reproduce culture in anything but a oral traditional way I mean cuz I said for the 99% of human history we all lived in tribal shamanic cultures where medicine men and women wood would they would keep a lineage of teaching and wisdom of thicker plants and sacred rituals and chanting and techniques to enter into ecstatic altered state and be able to see the future or be able to harness some sort of healing energy would be able to direct healing energy and agricultural portal into these other dimensional so what other types of things another current running through it and running through ecology in the earth’s ecosystems yeah it’s really nice you’d like for modern society to not have you know either the demonic and under more different ways in in City culture I’m interested in like ways that people can see there’s not and really like to disconnected from the daily you know Community either they’re sort of religious or spiritual person on your like separate from the community in it true in some cases with the people that like you know really what the reason it does not receive any of this is so that they can maintain I was thinking of the teachings in the traditions and that sort of Doorway to the portals but they’re their function is to be Distributing that that information and energy and wisdom throughout the whole culture that everybody has some you know practical means to have access to these things that are beyond our normal sense isn’t our normal day-to-day life and fill I said you as an instructor and cuz I know I experienced the workshop and I was blown away because a lot of stuff that I hadn’t courtesy erratically believe in or around her stood or heard about functional experiential physical reality for my body and my spirit in the moment this time I really love to for you to just kind of briefly outline some things are not necessarily because things out the top of your head where you could just say like at 5 tonight or whatever but you know way antenna count liquid calendar do this gesture whatever anything like that. well I think it’s very important for it has been a very important for me to have to have sort of like a daily practice that I do every morning and then I should have that I’m just a planned and doing for me you know and and and for women and for men definitely for women and dance is is one of the best way to start to open your feminine energy you know it’s it’s it it’s a great way to sort of to get the energy up I mean at the end of the day everything that that I’m doing you know is about increasing our energy is about getting like raising our energy so that we have more energy to email to do what we want to do to most of the people are listening to this are engaged and you know social transformation or activism so even physical exercise if people are in exercising physical exercise anything that is really going to hurt to get your energy up your your body even in shape this is this is important sort of a more mental maybe psychological level two to start to examine just to start to to try and stay in a state of observations you know I exist as I think it’s and might be easier said than done is it comes with practice you know but two try to someone says if you’re watching your thoughts you’re watching your emotions you’re watching what’s going on in your life to try and stay in the state where your observe bank and it allows for this sort of space or the scats of Detachment that allow that that’s allowed for Freedom you know in in store in the way that that you actually that you react in a certain situation so and you know along with this to to examine the deeper sort of roots the root the roots to various situations I think a lot of times you know we can get caught up in the story if you know this person did this or that did that happen and I felt like this and I bet you know whatever it mean to not to sort of break out of this pattern of the stories we have to really get to the routes of what the issues are in a lot of us are carrying around you know deeper a karmic issues block that would carry from childhood that are the roots of a lot of the experiences that we have in our daily lives today especially if we haven’t gone back and heal this or examined this you know this is being tired process of self-transformation it’s healing and when we talked about so do you know this new era of Consciousness that is coming with new paradigm that with that we’re entering into it’s very important that we ourselves are healing the past you know that there was that were there were breaking from the past that were within us you know asking. So that’s possible to sort of embody light and love and an end and some so we can bring in this sort of in-body the new Consciousness bring in the new Consciousness and so I mean just being active about your own healing process your own to the growth process in out so I’m very you know this is this is sort of people feel differently about these things I have a spiritual teacher you know I study with Master’s and Anaya this is for me my past and I think you know it’s it’s it’s a huge huge resource to to go out and seek teachers and see communities of people who are also on you know a spiritual journey it’s it’s because it’s it’s very you know it’s a very it’s a new way of living in a lot of ways we’re not we don’t live in a spiritual society and culture right now so so to sort of open up to a lot of maybe they were the resources that exist in your own community and I’ll and find something that resonates with you one thing I would say is that a lot of times when we talk about spirituality we think that spirituality is meditation and it’s it’s not just meditation and in fact meditation is sometimes the last stage of a very deep spiritual path because it takes a level of deep concentration to to read some of sight some of these higher States and meditation for me I mean a lot of What I Do Is Dance Dynamic meditation these practices about her I said that I said it showed which I can’t really demonstrating over the phone but you know why would you knows I would I would just emphasize I mean art is healing spiritual so so yeah I mean I would I would I would I would I would you know today is is for everybody to come out the most important thing is if you are open and you want transformation and you want changed to open to it and to trust the process and to trust that you you know we’ll find what resonates most with you but you no interest in terms of started the basics I mean it’s it it it it dies at the beginning it it boils down to living a healthy life you know taking care of yourself taking care of your body taking care of your emotional states you know so can you give a brief rundown of I need the first time I think I got really in touch with it on a experiential level not like a very open-minded I’m very one of them out there people that I actually know but for some reason I had like for a long time since elected to do the work to try to connect with the experience of that other truck assist on and it was a having a thing double jointed or not it was like what it means to me or how I can tap into it and you know it was in your Workshop believe in it but the other for the whole point of the movie of you know there’s a lot of religions that are based on beliefs but there’s a lot more don’t it’s not like oh you’re you’re lucky to have a once in a million years once once in a million lifetimes like Vision or something that’s what I like more about the sort of holistic open field of spiritual practice and development is it that are okay and that aren’t like it’s okay for a new spiritual experiences for people to write their own and then also youth borrow from traditions and try to instead of traditions in Italy like in your case if you’re able to you know find Masters that you resonate with so that you can start on a path cuz I mean you know you don’t want to be a jack of all trades and master of none and I think that’s like in California like everybody’s like fraction of a thousand different you know that’s a really modern Western sort of the highest states are the ones that put themselves to the most action you know you can find out if you it makes sense and then you show me some pretty quick way to get in touch with that I’m thinking like that Morristown luminous color settle energy field yeah it’s based on the the chakra system in the chakra system is one of the most ancient sources of knowledge of how you know the energy that exists in the universe and how we are connected to it to the energy that exists in the universe we have seven basic chakras and each of these suckers for the vibrate at a different at a different frequency and they’re all connected to to a certain energy in the universe is the root chakra muladhara chakra it’s it’s it’s between the believe the anus and the forgetting that it is basically there are genitals and this is the the chocolate that’s connected to the Earth to stability it’s the color is red it’s considered ones out it’s all so this is where a lot of our health issues facing this chakras right below the belly button this is called Succasunna chakra it’s orange the element is water it’s more of a male chocolate such a girls sexuality of passion at the at the at the belly button this is our solar plexus this is fed to pigs called money put a chocolate that check up fire it some or other personal power these passages about her at The Witcher based you know in martial arts they’re all for the focus on this chakra building confidence power this is our ability to live in the world are ability to make money the people who are ruling the world have very strong money put a chakra the above that is at the Heart Center is on a hot the chakra this is such a higher emotions of love it’s also consider more female chakra at the throat is sore should the chocolate is a chocolate creativity of our inspiration and it’s it’s more of a female chocolate let me have a vaginal check where this is at the third eye this is intuition it’s also Focus concentration the check up higher purposes and then above this we have the crown chakra which is our connection to Universal energy sew in they took the different levels of the chocolate cancer the position is is closed where they’re blocked they’re not functioning and then they’re open which means they are functioning and under emanating which means you can actually give me through through your chakras cuz they’re operating at such a high level by and large amounts of us in society today live at the like the first two chakras you know a lot of the spiritual work that’s out their focus has an opening that’s at the higher chakras but but but lacks in front of the ground it like that the lower chakras and it’s very important to to have to be operating at the lower chakras in order to be living and in the world and functioning in the world so a lot of the work that I do and you know that and also the teachings of the school Universe energy Arts it’s based on first making sure that our lower three chakras are clean their functioning and you know that we have a solid Base by which to work from for higher-level Spiritual Development and it’s always let me know we’re always liked working with all of them too so do you know to 2 to be balancing but it is right now and especially for especially for activist that especially for Spiritual people activating funny porchuck Road that’s what I’m working on a lot and I think that’s the checkered to live in the world to have power to have to make money in a lot of us think that money is bad when money is just really energy and it you know an end with it I mean an ancient civilizations with you to do math and that’s a good for people that shift in this society and culture has become so corrupt you know so to be able to sort of transform the world to really transform the culture of of money and and within a lot of us is it sits in his opening up to our own personal power own ability to attract you know situation then and then careers or you no work that that we can live on so this is everything all the practice as a visualization meditation they’re all based on on opening to these chakras having a rigorous schedule of initiations and exercises and things to do, push pushing to the limit so that you can find yourself but I might the path that I’m on is not the spiritual path of you know taking it slow it is definitely when you need to but it’s also very much about raising energy concept of increasing our energy that I were able to do more in the world that were able to be more highly effective but at the same time we’re in alignment with the highest good with ourselves in a with universal energy and the idea is to to build community you notice to build spiritual communities and it’s the school’s very well-established in Russia they have you know they have thriving communities of all throughout Russian and South America and Europe but to start to build you know this this Consciousness in a sustainable way in El Sol so in a way that it is it is in a holiday and really seeing results in your daily life and it’s you know it’s it’s work to Spiritual Development personal personal growth it’s work you know and it does take willpower and and should have disciplined action to do it that doesn’t mean like I don’t want to give the conception that you don’t have personal power and it because it’s all driven by yourself by your own sort of willpower you know that you you you get what you want what you are what you want to put into it and it’s always a self-driven process and it’s not based on Doctrine or Siri it’s always sort of operating in the Universal thanks you know so it’s always changing and Dynamics with sometimes drives me crazy when we have when we organize something like two days before you know two weeks before something but it’s it’s it’s a beautiful process yeah it does look like the Exxon Valdez oil spill and just like thinking of that the spiritual oil spill in the last several thousand years of patriarchy and it ain’t no expansion of Empires and weapons technology horrible things that had spilled site toxic horrible toxic violin the karmic ocean of our Collective human existence on this planet and night you know it’s easy I think for people to seems easy for people to just continue to live their life in the latter in the rat race and Yelp bear the saloon and just kind of keep moving along and it never that never really knowing what what it was like before you know what we’re an island called a dominator culture before that emerged you know if he has no perception of it out of sight out of mind and it just becomes and there’s a whole story of how we really being not to be a part of a harmonious and peaceful. Is it called you know reconciling this destructive negativity Southwest 2000 years ago extreme destruction and Corruption it just seems like I believe in the idea of progress linear progress so that while we started out as primitive Savages and we’re only you know we’ve gone through some dark times but we’re only getting better but become more alienated for myself and for my community through more devices and more interfaces that are totally artificial and antithetical I mean I think I definitely do know the internet spiritual communities to find each other in Tukwila link for the inlet in a competition the Ecology of competing ideas like we have we now if if if we can sell something better to people so then the system sell a product to their material appetite then we can really think do this massive cleanup jobs of Karma and do this massive play crafted like you said like a lot of the reason that we need to be Warriors in the you know I’m going to put the ice I’ve heard that word in the end I’m I’m putting I’m saying it in a conversation out idea of becoming more using spiritual power and power a lawyer for the past to be able to do this work of cleaning ourselves and cleaning the planet and cleaning our values that really like you know materialistic values it’s really important that we we do like Master the stuff and and and really apply the time to ability spiritual communities in spiritual culture so that we can opportunity to what do you think about starting to wake up. I think it’s the cool thing about to come out of the coma of consumerism of the responsibility to participate in not just stopping things that actually healing things and doing that like literally on all levels to know what do I think about that process yeah I mean just the idea we haven’t talked to you much about like that Karma and the ice that idea of it but you know the spiritual this Collective karmic not or like why should people get spiritual just so they can you know cuz a lot of people are selling that angle you know but have a better more fulfilling personal life vs. the people start the grass that scented like yeah I am I need to take responsibility for like the last several shutting down either so you know if it’s such a cutie ask and but the more Synergy we create together on these in a spiritual community I have a rapid impact female quickly I mean I I think we’re approaching a time where we are changing as a resolving as you know a race or as a species where it will require healing our past or passed our individual paths and also of you know of of the of the world today I mean that’s the thing is once you want want it does go down the path has appealing and and transforming and does go down the path of having healthy relationships and more success and you know an dentist in her happiness it’s a natural process that you want to give that that you want to do you want to have other people live in this and it’s it’s kind of death it’s almost like Maslow’s hierarchy of needs and self-actualization you want to start getting back it’s just a natural process the reason that we don’t have that right now you know the reason you can see this clearly in like it with all of the stuff that came out about George Bush’s daddy complex when was carrying so much baggage so much you know pain within ourselves then this manifests in what we protect in a world so and this is also why a lot of people don’t want to open up to it you know don’t want to go down the path so so really too I mean it’s completely it’s very connected to enter into this new era to enter into a new era of Peace of love will require that we are healing our past to embody in for the greatest level of peace and love within ourselves so that we are creating we want to see an end when we were us when we’re talking about stealing I mean this does going to take it we we heal our family, we go back in two generations and he’ll you know and break out of the cycle that is that has been carried over from our parents from our grandparents and really start to break even come into a new way of existence you know this is the sort of deep healing that happens by Ice it’s kind of like I asked you feel it do you feel the changes that are happening to feel the shift in Consciousness with new energies coming cuz a lot of people feel it a lot of women feel the rise of the visit of the divine feminine it’s it’s something just that should resonating with people because it’s how the Earth and the energy of the earth is Shifting because who knows male energy has become is it and it’s not specific to manage mail energy within men and women has has reached its point that they can’t go any further and so naturally to rebalance we have you know the feminine energy that is coming back and we feel the Swiss ourselves cuz we’re connected to the universe you know and then we’re a part of bringing this back to the universe so so it’s so sudden I disable just become harder and harder and you’ll see it when people don’t commit to their own personal healing and fur it’s going to become harder and harder to exist in this world because because the world is changing because the energy of the earth is changing the energy of the universe is changing it’s getting it’s it’s it’s it’s getting it’s increasing basically which is why I threw you know the spiritual practice we’re increasing our energy to be able to be in alignment with this and is and is part of that it requires it requires you know examining and healing our karmic blocks and and everything that we carry from childhood and NBN before so sore families the beginning think you for listening to the touch upon podcast please go to www.crunch.com and cook on the Donate button to help support the show indigenous sustaining and improving the podcast your donations will help establish permaculture goddess temples every bite ecological employment for single mothers Please Subscribe and share your favorite episodes if you have questions or comments feel free to leave a voicemail at 818-275-1593 or email been at Township Park. 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Awaken the Kali Within Workshop

Awaken the Kali Within

KALI- The Goddess of self Empowerment, of time, change, death/rebirth, fierce rage, annihilator of evil forces, the redeemer of the universe as well as the benevolent mother goddess……

Another world is not only possible, she is on her way. On a quiet day, I can hear her breathing.”
― Arundhati Roy, War Talk

The time to come into your authentic power as an individual with personal dreams and goals as well as your vision to change the world and live your deepest soul purpose to serve the universe, is not somewhere in the future, it is in the here and NOW.

YES, IT IS TIME TO AWAKEN THE KALI WITHIN

It is time:

– to not just worship the idol, but become HER

– to stop complaining about whats going on in the world; to stop walking around the earth feeling so little, so limited, so disempowered and helpless when we have this dormant forces of raw limitless inner power in the form of Kali residing within each of us

– to stand up for your own being, for your own body, mind and soul that are being polluted, manipulated, abused and devoured by corrupt agencies of power as well as meeting the inner shadow

– to tap into that rage, that has been repressed into our unconscious, because that rage is going to be the key/the doorway to your Divine Infinite untamed inner power and wisdom!

-to stand up and scream and use the power of our voices to prevent our Mother earth from being further abused and polluted

Imagine every so-called ‘ordinary’ person walking the face of the earth becoming a true embodiment of KALI,

Can a handful of corrupt people continue to dominate these empowered embodiments of THE FIERCE GODDESS WITHIN?

WE WILL BE INVOKING THE GODDESS KALI AND LEARNING ABOUT HER THROUGH

RITUAL DANCE/MOVEMENT
STORIES
ART
POETRY
VOICE/ SACRED CHANTS
AND MEDITATION/YOGIC BREATHWORK PRACTICES

TO BECOME HER, EMBODY HER!!!