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Erotic Hypnosis for Men’s Tantric Sexual Mastery with Ravyn Ryder TPP264

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In this episode I share an erotic hypnosis program created by Ravyn Ryder for men to develop tantric sexual mastery

Please visit her website:
https://ravynryder.com/

About Ravyn:
Ravyn Ryder is an Erotic Artist, Writer, and Sensual Educator. She has worked in the past professionally with men, women and couples as a Sensual Bodyworker, Dakini, Dominatrix, Courtesan and Long-Term Companion.

She is the creatrix of Body Ryding®, a sensual massage training sequence used to empower women by teaching erotic body slides, full body massage and the art of seduction.

She is a trained Tantric Educator and is a certified Practitioner and Trainer in the Art of Bondassage®. She has studied Swedish, Thai, Lomi Lomi, and Tantric massage with amazing healers all over the world.

She has worked with Shaman’s in Central and South America doing entheogenic medicine work in constant pursuit of personal growth and eager humbleness to learn more about the divine inner and outer universe. She has just recently returned from a 4 month stint in Central America and with a desire to shed light on both the beautiful and ugly complexities of healing with plant medicines, she is working on her first novel—an intimate memoir of her recent experience.

She has a degree in Behavioral Science with a minor in Marketing. She is a certified Life Coach, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Practitioner and is trained in Neuro-Linguistic Programming. Along with bodywork and training, she offers personal coaching to men, women and couples desiring to cultivate more pleasure in their lives.

Loving Big in the COVID-19 Era with Alexandria Foxxcroft TPP258

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In this episode some joined by my esteemed colleague in mindful preparedness Alexandria Foxxcroft for an exploration of strategies to remain calm, peaceful, and loving amidst the chaos

About Alexandria:

Alexandria is a health educator and proponent of positive sexuality and mindfulness. With her skills and interests combined, she lovingly guides herself and others to deeper, more meaningful levels of pleasure and intimacy while holding space for life’s modern demands. You can find her art, life, and play on: https://www.instagram.com/alexandriafoxxcroft/

My Non Verbatim Show Notes:

always a pleasure to collaborate and talk with you

what I’ve been up to since we last chatted on the podcast, I’m not living and performing vegas

volunteer at positive sexuality conference, that’s how we first got to talking

come full circle

as we are facing something completely unprecedented, corona virus, las vegas pretty much all shut down, casinos closed, hotels empty , strip is quiet, many people out of work, staying home, grocery store shelves are empty, some people panicking, upset, other peoples treating it summer break I get to rest, haven’t had a break from work for 5 years

for me, household, partner and I have enough to get us through some time, staying out of public spaces the best as we can, safety practices, staying connected to family, to loved ones, really enhancing my mindfulness practices, more yoga, more water, more baths, indulging in little things, those treats that might not seem all that important, really taking care of myself, stress lowers immune systems, be gentle with myself and others, think about that, everyone is going through this

we’re all experiencing these new stress levels, horizon, that’s not clear, extend a smile, be kind generous, take care of number one

I do really appreciate that being mindful of the media that we consume is very important right now, easy to get swept away, find trusted sources to check in with a couple times a day so you’re informed, don’t let the fear get in the way of your ability to respond with thought and intelligence

stay occupied, attending to our basic pleasure needs, something I am welcoming into my life as well, its a nice time to kind of say, I don’t need to be afraid, I don’t need to shy away from sex work and being an online presence that can show a healthy sexy intelligent spiritual way of holding my own in a sexual manner, being able to support your cam workers and entertain yourself and help them keep food on the table, past couple days been home thinking about ways to make money and keep the public engaged, keep myself engaged, account on chaturbate, played on that a bit last night, new platform for me, so many things that go on with it, mad props to everyone who’s able to do it and have fun with it, will leave that link with you, we’re all stuck in side, it’s nice to have some fun

drop in tune out check in

as you sit there or you’re laying or you’re in a state where you can come to pause, just enjoy that pause, feeling your breath, feeling your body, coming into awareness, just yourself, recognizing that you individual are part of this global universal collective, you person listening are a link in this beautiful web, multicolored, multitextured multipatterned fabric that makes up our entire being, attune to yourself, give yourself that love compassion, that permission to be, to be still, to be tender, to be nervous, happy excited, anxious, loving and loved, however you are, you are allowed to just be present with that, know that whatever is happening within your being, some one else is experiencing that as well, move outside of yourself and offer that love to someone, someone who’s easy to give love to, parent, child, friend, lover, teacher, stranger, offer them love however they are,

gentle quite acknowledgment, I see you, moving on to another, someone who when you think about them, feelings not so easy to touch on, acknowledge them as a human, encountering whatever life experiences they will encounter today, they are part of this beautiful tapistry, they are part of our story, offer them love, acknowledge their existence as part of this whole as we pass others, think about others through our day, acknowledge them as human just as we are, offer them love, peace and compassion, you seeing them will lead us through these dark times

it will help bolster you against anything that comes your way, every individual has a story, their own psychodrama, no need to take it personally, just acknowledge them as human, a link in this chain, take care of yourself let them take care of themselves, just be, be present, give yourself permission to slow down and recognize yourself as this beautiful beam of light, may not feel it but you are it, breath, breath connects us to our source, connecting to source allows us to align, allows to make decisions with more kindness, this is what we need right now, we call you to be your highest self so you can respond intelligently to anything that comes your way, in closing I uplift you I see you, may you feel held and not alone, inhale, exhale to release all doubt and all worry, inhale compassion and peace, namaste

Seeking the Soul of Local Tantric Energy with Reverend Priestess Sandivel TPP240

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In this episode I’m joined by iX-Chel

For a conversation about what she’s been up to of late, her new insights into male sexual continence and energy cultivation, her thoughts on sex workers’ empowerment, her upcoming retreat, and much more!

About iX-Chel:

Reverend Priestess Sandivel, best known as iX-Chel Sandivel, is an intimacy mentor and guide. An Elite Tantra Educator and former Nike Elite Sponsored Runner, she was born in Mexico City and raised in Southern California. She is passionate about creating safe and expansive experiences that allow the human spirit to evolve with ecstatic awareness, confidence and self-love through her mentorship programs, personalized retreats in the tropical jungles of Mexico and playshop events all over the world.

Though movement practices, cultural experience, tantric breathing techniques and ceremonies, Sandivel supports others to discover a profound, ever lasting and orgasmic love within.

Adoring the Beloved Within: www.sandivel.com/retreat

Lab Report: Shaktification as Non-Invasive Demonectomy TPP232

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sexual-healing-with-psychedelic-goddess-worship In this episode I share a lab report from mid 2019 which documents an important break through in my sexual healing with psychedelic goddess worship research. The mixed and mastered version of the Psychedelic Goddess Worship track on the Sexorcism the Tantric Opera album proved to have powerful potentials to induce what I’m calling “shaktification as non-invasive demonectomy. My (non-verbatim) show notes are below.

Non invasive is used for surgeries, the body is not penetrated

Man cave, goddess temple lave, unclinical lab, produced an album to create the vibrational landscape for a non-invasive demonectomy on my self

multiple sessions, increasing doses’

could solve the problem of how do you induce a non-invasive demonectomy, that’s effective, unlike the techniques of the dominant paradigm of exorcism, the catholic church and their protocols

with an understanding, time does not heal, if untreated the infections only get worse and in the case of men, there’s a higher potential of survivor-perpetrators

for women, less likely to harm others, but will often harm themselves, that’s the handy work of the demons that were inserted into them in acts of abuse and molestation

demons express themselves in female survivors much less as sexual offense

in males, less divine feminine grace, cults of gang rape, women don’t usually form thug cults of rape

don’t know of any witches who are known to have done that

but men, gang up and bully runts on football team, and geeks in the classroom, they gang up and rape the cheerleaders, their so susceptible and when you get survivors in that mix, its that much more of a cascading effect

it should be axiomatic, if that infection doesn’t get disinfected immediately, than you are harboring, just like Geiger shows us, is the “face huggers”, that’s what he’s talking about, it’s all demons, their parasites, inject themselves into human host, sexual aliens, if there was a xxx Giger, that’s me, showing what’s going on

gotta figure out how to interrupt the larval cycle, to interrupt the propagation

some times sexual penetration is appropriate, however there are times when it’s not

there’s a magical power that flows through, the goddess kali shaki, and the magic mushroom, what I can demonstrate and have footage of, is capturing the rapid seizure like convulsions that occur with the shakti is invoked, not just shivers, not just normal kriyas, a controlled seizer

a presence of mind, it’s possible to surrender, but be prepared, yoga, martial arts, dancing, landscaping, know my body and have agility to phase in and out of possession states

not faking, not faking, not a parlor trick, not a magic trick, not putting on a show

I have the ability to shut it off, goddess has been earning trust from me so I can surrender more
use elbows to brace neck, stay ahead of the sense of more intense movements

set and setting for combat training, you could use padding, or train on the beach

design consciousness of low impact, the sand absorbs impact, avoiding pavement

expecting to trash around, expecting to be taken for a ride, do due diligence to be warmed up enough

not be in a contortion to snap their neck, people doing jiu jitsu, they’re aware of when they’re in danger, and maneuver out of it

gotta be bad ass ninja warriors

it’s possible, I’ve proven to myself, that adding more people is beneficial, but in the dilemma of when you can’t add anybody, what do you do, well this seems to be it, maybe not the only thing, but could be more effective than calling the local priest exorcist

they did the deeds themselves and now they’re gonna do the exorcism, you brought the demons you’re not taking them out

sexorcism that doesn’t involve any inappropriate touch or any touch at all

it happened to me to a degree never before experienced

it’s happened before, but not to this extent

she’s like an infinite array of octopoid, insectoid, she has the ability to move you in a lot of different ways

she’s going in and doing a demonic abortion

what she’s doing is what an abortion doctor would do

as sad and heartbreaking as it can be, that’s what goddess kali is doing the demons in the chakras, she’s sucking and pulling them out

these are fully formed, although I do see often that there are multiple life stages, there are hatchlings, old ones, etc. we don’t know how long they live

shamans probably have a clue, but we’re grasping in the dark, but that’s what’s happening

if you watch sexorcism the tantric opera where there’s a lot of hand laying on people, sometimes just the aura, it’s a lot of handy work, but what has been achieved to an extreme with me, is that with the track “psychedelic goddess worship” singing the mantras along with it, its raiding the demon nest, allowing kali to do the demonectomy, extracting these violent creatures, shifts in the amount of demonic load, measurable, this is like colonics

I think I made an important discovery, a hands off, solo, non-invasive demonectomy, you may want to try this yourself and go from no medicine, to cannabis low to high dose, then mushrooms low to high dose, and experiment with the music, looping the track psychedelic goddess worship in setting where you have people watching over you, and you’re surrounded by cushions, and you have martial arts/yoga background, be agile like a cat to prevent injury, if that’s you and you’re suffering and you’ve not found healing in toxic relationships, in psychiatric drugs, or yoga postures, or vipasan, or being saved by Jesus, or getting an exorcism, or singing hare krisna, or doing a detox, I say try everything else , this is a last resort

these are things that I”ve seen that will turn you white, like Winston from Ghost Busters

old school orthodox sri rama krisna order kali worshipers say things like think about it, people go to kali when they’re crushed, when they’re hating life because “it least there will be peace”, they’re harangued by demons, you go to the kali temple and there is peace, hopefully not a patriarchal priesthood

I emphasis female kali priestesses in my work, trying to get back the secret mantras, and decode the art,

the braminization of the goddess, “she was a tribal deity who was absorbed into vedic pantheon”

she was/is a village goddess

decolonize your tantra

get back to psychedelic village level goddess worship

occupying armies, languages, soma, occupying, absorb goddesses take them away from the people then feed it back to them and it’s all corrupted, bastardization by priest craft, put in empire of ego, male ego

I bow down to women who are priestesses, sorting it out, pagan villager medicine woman shamanism craft, that’s what we want to get all the way back down to

the pure hearted matriarchs of the village, witch craft

I’ve said it enough times now, how to translate this, we need to give a voice to the witches and let them do it laboratory conditions

I’m just the messenger, the source is the dakinis and yoginis, who are in state of grace simply because they dont’ have a penis that can be weapons

I don’t have a clue about what was really going on with the cult of the 64 yoginis but there seems to have been a ratio of men to women where women are quite obliged to run the show, quite obliged to minimize and intelligently design with the shiva energy, operating within their coven

I will only get better and better at doing the scholarship on these claims

women are blessed and women are cursed and we need to address this without the backlash

we can be brothers in prostration to the goddess, and experience our masculinity in its most potent form

we’ll get hardest erections when we worship the goddess

ritualized sexual matriarch, that’s probably a useful simplified term

a more rapid depiction

high dose mushrooms, safe-ish setting

looping the track psychedelic goddess worship, mixed and mastered version

never before got as far

turned into an astral battlefield, astral combat, very much like scene in big trouble in little china, when Lo Pan fights Eg Shen, astral avatars battle on their behalf

I got into contortions, spontaneous mudras, like speaking in tongues with your hands, never been trained to do, never done before, seeing my fingers become like black widow spider legs, beautiful sacred geometric formations, like weaving a spider web, as I invoke her more and sing her in more, I become what looks like a mix of black soldier fly and cobra, slithering sounds, autonomically happening the more I surrender, seeing myself as sort of dragon fly mixed with black widow, seeing now how you can allow yourself to be, in a benevolent manner, but possessed, so she can devour demons through you

co-presence between dimensions, I had to think omg this is the fly, I’m Jeff Goldbloom, but that was so gruesome and hideous, but this was beautiful, how could that be re-imagined so it was totally beautiful…so the triumphantness of the incredible hulk, still shocking and bizarre, but whats’ the more beautiful transformation where you see it as totally beautiful and elegant, nothing horrific about it, what would that be, there’s a shape shifting character.

it’s like super mario brothers when you get the tanuki suit, you jump on the mushroom and then basically you become big, you go fast, you have super powers you jump high, game play is enhanced, and with the tanuki suit you get this magic item, this feather, if you get it you can jump and almost fly, you get lift off like a helicopter, its been a long time but the thing I’m pointing to is, imagine you have the power to shape shift, as powerful as incredible hulk but not as nasty and freakish as the fly, it’s not like a horror movie like Freddie Kreuger, nightmare on elm street part two where he comes out of the guy and just sheds him, that’s the ugly version, that’s not what I’m talking about, she’s elegantly sharing my space, I am her she is me, queen bee, cobra snake, transitioning to that with the beauty and elegance of the tanuki suit. Maybe in the Star Trek movie where Kirk ends up getting it on with a shape shifter, she was totally hot, she was actually a beast that can shape shift, imagine that you could totally shape shift into a creature and have it be seamless

it’s possible to invoke the goddess and for her to embody you, and not just putting on make up and pretending to be her iconic formation
I normally see her outside of me, this time more than ever, she enveloped me, I’ve been enveloped by her, clamped down on me, fucking me to purify my chakras, but still being outside of me, penetrating, workign through me, she can swim through me, but like being enveloped by a jellyfish, about to get teeth into my chakras

but this way, she is in my like thundercats

another bad version is like the Edgar suit from Men in Black, demons wear me like the Edgar suit, but Kali wears me to extract the demons from the Edgar suit so I can just be Edgar again, then she’s in the suit, but not possessing to do harm

Sufiana didn’t report becoming the insectoid being, but she described herself rolling out her tongue and hissing, the deity possession trance state, the shamanic healing state

I documented that process later, being very limited financially, very limited with legal sanctioning if at all, having some blessing and bold outlaws to join forces with me, not me manipulated a cult, but me offering educational tools, not involving my dick

I keep my pants on for people who are not my lovers, is that fair, that’s probably a fair way to say it, if you’re my client my pants are on, if you’re my lover, that’s negotiable

back to the non-invasive…able to move massive chunks, being rattled like a freight train, by her, squeezing and working with her to do the contracts, she’s doing the work of the abortion doctor, while I’ll in contracts and pushing out at the same time, it’s so harsh, but you know there have to have been abortions throughout time in crude conditions, certainly not modern legally sanctioned conditions, where the intent was to kill the fetus during the contractions of labor

she’s an insectoid alien goddess, with blackskin, and bejeweled eyes, like the tantric scriptures say, read the 1008 names of Kali and you’ll see the depictions

I need artists to help me with this, graphic novelists, visionary artists

if you could see a woman in labor, shaking convulsing, contracting, seizures and convulsion and simultaneously a female abortion doctor reaching in so as not to leave pieces inside trying to get everything out in one whole piece and eating that thing, but it’s not a baby it’s not in the womb, it’s demons in the chakras

an interplay between goddess kali as the hungry abortion doctor, it’s her doing what she’s evolved to do which is eat demons, I’m serving my demons to the goddess,

an interplay of surrender, and the embodying of the goddess through allow her energy and body to enter your body in a way that is non invasive, she is invasive but in a good way and in a welcomed way,

but no instruments, no cutting devices, no fingers, hands, sexual contact by humans, that’s the best way to describe what’s happening
been in this state many many times, what was different this time was the force

this was the first time I was able to do what I wanted to do all these years, was able to carry it out, to a potent degree, get a massive chunk of demonic biomass, with love and power and strength and courage of the goddess inside of me, her power to purge me, with her mandibles, ready to feast, and it being a much much bigger portion, to the degree that I got the sense that her stomach was full, it had only been oderves up to this point, they were just taking out small grains of rice with chopsticks, she was going in their with her salad tongs to get massive platefuls at once, she got so full, I felt like okay I’m exhausted, she’s full, but after these big chunks got out, hadn’t happened before

very light, blinding to the 3rd eye, sheaths my vision, no more seeing the demonic monsters coming out of me, that make alien look like bambi, all of it, once this massive chunk was taken out gets replaced by this beautiful white light, scaring me, did I damage my optic nerve, I’m just seeing pure white, fuck, there’s some kind of damage…no this is the loving light, dont’ freak out and panic now, go with it, enjoy

instructed to use my own hands, placed fingers against root chakra at the perineum, while the white light was there, use the power to seal the chakra, using massage, using this light healing energy, to use mudras, palm chakras, finger chakras, to do this healing work, like cauterizing a wound, the shakti through palm chakra and finger chakras whill the white light is there, wow, fuck yeah, anatomical surgical orthodoxy, what we think about when we talk about a chakra tune up

these analogies to auto mechanics and surgeons are very apt

you’re doing the work with her, auto-non invasive demonectomy

I had the power and free will to move my body, re-adjust for comfort, drink some water, get up and just make sure the door was locked, again, not ideal conditions

there you have it, what I’ve been working on for years, one of the most glorious since 5.5 year ago initiation with Sufiana

I would like to just be living in the world that we created, to never have been separated by financial duress, within the realm of reasonable periodicity, with medical staff, scientists, medical researchers, the Bangladesh UN security force, that’s what I fantasize about, having the support to do it right

this is like version 0.0001 of the technology, this is not ready, I don’t know what it’s ready for, if you’re suicidal right now and it’s a question of you killing yourself and you dabbling into what I’m talking about, I’m willing to take that risk, this isn’t medical advice, this isn’t therapeutic/psychiatric advise, I’ll make all the disclaimers, in the spirt of YOLO, (actually its not yolo because you live many times) don’t do this in the spirit that everybody wants to see the machine elves that Terence Mckenna talks about, this is a little more extreme than that, do this because it’s life and death for you right until we get the point with research to where so mild version exists, like salsa there will be mild, medium, hot, warning label, extreme hot

if you want to dabble because you’re an extreme case of demon infection, they’re in those hard to reach spots, there’s that song where my demons hide, you want to know, It’s possible to find out, I’m not gonna tell everyone to follow my path

Kali Mandir satsang, a lot of these scriptures, don’t think that they’re all agreed upon by all the priests and priestesses, there are things that are written in stone, but a lot of the scriptures were people exploring and taking notes, like a yogi could be saying “when I said this mantra, at this place and this time in this way, I got reversed gang banged by hot astral dakinis, and I don’t know if this will happen to you, this is me I’m doing me, you do you, I don’t want to implant thought forms and skew it, and contaminated the control group, I’m just trying to build on my own research, I love what the yogis say, talking about female astral non human entities, coming down purifying his soul and doing all this healing work, sounds like what I’m talking about and if he were on mushrooms he’d be able to describe in greater detail, or maybe he was a yogi that attained an endogenous psychedelic state

nothing new here, I’m saying things that have been suppressed for by patriarchy demonic war lords for 1000s of years, but were open source tech as sexual shamanic witchcraft, held by cultures of the world, just business as usually to maintain a shamanic community

when its a matter of infestation of lower chakras, there’s some modality that’s not creepy, predatory or abusive, to somehow empower people to have auto-non-invasive demonectomy sexorcism, auto invasive demonectomy sexorcism, I’ve milked my own prostate, kali possessing me, shards of light coming in, healing, demons coming out, most stunning gorgeous arrays, beauty is subjective, every woman and aspiring woman who ever put on make up with the intent to beautify herself, what every single one strives for is what can be seen when you invoke the goddess with these mantras, and with 3rd eye open with mushrooms

me doing me, phenomenologically, in my own bubble, the most beautiful feminine facial features, and graceful sensual movement, and just every woman or aspiring woman aspires to be, that’s what I’m given, that’s what I’m seeing and if it wasn’t for seeing that I would have ended me life a long time ago on this journey, the brutal beautiful truth is that you gotta go through hell to get to heaven, for the sake of what I’m saying now, I’ve seen the most grotesque creatures I could ever possibly imagine, and take all the monsters ever made in art and film and multiply that by a hundred, and you maybe will get close to how freakish and grotesque and disturbing and mortifying, miracle you’re not catatonic seeing this, the antidote to that hideousness, that makes it tolerable, to look at it as you’re pulling it out, the unpleasantness of removing a tape-worm, the unpleasantness of disinfecting that wound with that pus in it, and all of that, I know there are places in the world where there are blood parasite or urinary tract parasites, pulling a barbed fish parasite out of your urethra, that should feel pretty hideous and I bet that what I see in these ceremonies induces a similar level of mortification, disgust that you would have if you had to do that, while I’ve had to endure that hideousness, if you ever see the electron microscope of blood parasites, imagine if they were just, if you were in a realm where you were shrunken down to be in a massively dense cluster of all kinds of different blood parasites the ones with the circular mouths, and the ravor sharp thorny looking teeth, and weird suckers and pincers, the most alien, bizarre, monstrous, aquatic looking, arthropod looking blood parasites, imagine you were shrunken down a million times and being eaten alive but what, in scale wise becomes these giant giant monsters, then that’s what it feels like and looks like in there, I’m afraid to teach anyone to do what I have done because I fear that they would ever come back from that state of visual disturbance to where they wouldn’t just immediately slit there own wrists and literally rip there own eyes out,not knowing that they can’t reach far enough in to pull their pineal gland out, are you gonna crack open your head and pull your fuckin 3rd eye out and stomp on it, that’s what you’re gonna wanna do if you fuckin see the shit I’ve seen, omg, its nothing the shamans of the amazon don’t see every fucking day, it’s business as usual to have to confront these grotesque forms of life, if you know that you are bigger than them and you step back and you go no I’m not the shrunken millionth of a size me inside of of their world, their inside of my world and I can step up to them like standing up to a bully and I can exorcism them and I can purge them with the medicine, of course you have icaros in south America , and you have mantras in India, how to have syncretic shamanism, sacred sexuality and healing work, lets bring the best of the cultures and not be left with the patriarchal douche-baggery of suppressing the feminine

seeking the path of the goddess here we are, here I am

I get to see the antidote to that hideousness which is the extreme beauty

what makes it all worth it is the sweet beautiful blessed honor of beholding and being imbued with and making love with and being possessed by and suited up by, I have been suited up by the most loving most beautiful, most exquisitely constructed bioarchitecture deity, I don’t know maybe you gotta be the kind of person that things ants and bees are cute

this is the way to look at it, if you’ve ever thought of how in cartoons they’ve made ants and bees look pretty and feminine, and then sexualize that and m ake it into a super hot, goth, metal, sort of like, matrixy club, goth industrial club, shining latex, everything we think about the dark erotic, she is the dark erotic cartoon bee spider, just a cuteness and sexiness and a otherworldliness and an alienness, how many sexy beautiful loving aliens have we seen in sci fi, someone tell me, some show me some, I’m sure they’re in different comics and things, some of the arists they’re doing it, they’re bringing it, astral ecology with Tom Denney, his artwork is the cover of my book, you only have to wait until my book is released to see what I’m talking about, the beautiful feminine alien insectoid goddess who will turn you on, turn you inside out, but but you right back together, surgically restore the soul parts, tuck your chakras back in to your astral body, kiss you goodnight, tuck you in, all the works, the motherly maternal aspect, the sexual healing dakini wild, again, I’m saying nothing new, because you go to an orthodox kali puja and they are saying kali we love you you are the mother, you are the lover you are the friend, and not at all invoking, you hear the word mofo all the time in this culture, all over the world, I don’t know what’s going on there, this is not a Fredian Oedeple kink or neurosis, this is very different and it’s it’s own thing, I kind of went through my messiah complex already, at first I wanted everybody to fuckin know this, because it defeats the tyranny of all patriarchal world religions, more powerful more profound, more radical, more anarchistic, more revolutionary than any prophet, any christ, any saint, in buddha, any yogi,none of them delivery this unless they’re deep into the worship of kali or the tantric goddesses, of which kali is often considered to be the mother matriarchy, the queen bee of the many goddesses of the tantric pantheon, which is influenced with the vedic pantheon but has interplay ultimately with the village goddesses

the beauty is out there, the truth is out there, the beauty is in her, the truth is in there, you’ll see her the way I see her in Tom Denney’s book and on the cover of my book and I didn’t commission him to do that, he did that because he is tuned in as an artist, the way Terence Mckenna describes it to be an artist who sees the future, who can tap into the astral plane, or have the astral plane tap into them, wish me luck

pray for my protection, I’ll be doing my best to sheriff the perimeter of our reality and clean up the infection sites and to fortify the souls of the next generation and to really hospice the souls of this generation, where I am feeding and nourishing many goddesses and keeping myself as humble as possible with as small as a physical footprint of property ownership as possible, with as few possession as possible, and if surrender my money and wealth as it comes through as I have been doing to my beloved priestesses and trust that as long as they hold the sword above my hands and my head and they chose not to let the sword fall on to my arms and onto my neck than I will be continuing to do my work in a good way, and they will be the beneficiaries, they will be my sexecutioners if the time comes, each with their sharpened swords, ready to take a whack, so be it

Wisdom for Practicing Ethical Magic with Michael Bonner TPP186

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In this episode I’m joined by my new dear friend Mike Bonner for a discussion about ethical magic, sex magic, consciousness, love, fantasy, romance, pansexuality, and much more.

 

He does a beautiful job laying out both fundamental and advanced concepts for navigating the color spectrum of magic. He also provides very practical down to earth skill sets and tools for keeping your magical practice on a healthy course.

 

This episode I know will stand as a perennial resource of wisdom to help up and coming seekers avoid the many pitfalls that result from unchecked egoic tendencies in all areas of life. This is a true gift of heart purification!

 

About Mike:
His super power is to help others discover their own personal power and awareness and claim it, through magick, psychology, nature, tantra, and self exploration. Bonner has been studying and practicing magick, tantra, and psychology for over 15 years.

 

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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin podcast episode number 186 I am doing an episode with a new dear friend of mine Mike Bonner who I’ve connected with my social media and is he’s been a listener and fan of the show and we have so much in common I was a long time coming to get this podcast done and we will be many more forthcoming I’m sure you will fall deeply madly in love with all of his wisdom and insights and really enjoy the subject matter which is really foundational to averting catastrophe and and and staying on course for a really beautiful magical manifestation of all kinds so yes again I hope you enjoy and namaste find and reach their own personal strength and power and to be better solves I did a lot of self-discovery over the years it just slipped through a lot of different different I guess variables you can say like through magic to Tantra through I just communicating with people also just kind of going back to my younger years just kind of you know I know that you come from a Punky background and I was in that as well with some coffee stuff and all this kind of such my grandmother had a son used to do this all the time when I was kid so I watched them to all these things and it was really intriguing and I knew that they were actually doing something because I actually didn’t really know what they were doing it’s like seven or eight years old that I care I don’t I don’t mess with anything dark like that I practice a lot of Earth Magic and Sex Magic white magic things like that just trying to use all that energy that I get to build in there and get to like thrusting into creativity that goes into music or I also do hair I do have a barber and a hairdresser and so a lot of it comes out that way and that was also a way that I discovered I guess kind of what I can do for people on they told me that I helped them a lot and I did I I didn’t realize what I was doing at the time when I was working on my client says as a new Barber and hairdresser I just was a very curious person and I wanted to basically just kind of find out everything about the person that I could not in a creepy way either I just felt that the interaction was so personally it’s a vicious open up to you so I I I tried to listen even even even now I’d like to try to listen as best as I can to what people are actually saying whether it be through their words or their body language cuz I believe both are and I think they’re both equally as important I think we’ve all been sitting in front of somebody when they’ve been saying something on their words you know are coming out but their bodies actually saying something else not just desire to me is a real test connection I think within that person solves so I started noticing that another people then I started asking myself is you know I was doing these things too and so I just started to really look into that and also what people were telling me about you know I could see them and work on conversations go away for a month or two or whatever it was and they live out you know this thing that we talked about her and that’s when people say thank you so much I guess I never really thought about it until that point and that’s kind of as a young adult I’d say about 19 or 20 so I started looking more into the different types of Magic the different types of Tantra which I didn’t realize I was already doing all so you know people have this really funny way of how they think about Tantra the nights I think a conversation for another time cuz that’s a whole other topic I guess that’s that’s really my intro all that all sounds very good to me thank you for sharing that apologies for some of the background noise right now but I know are so we talked about it before one of the reasons why I wanted to say hey we should talk about this around feel like something has been missing as far as really laying a solid foundation for what different best practices of ethical magic really are and what some of the the the core principles that people may may be overlooking and just anybody who is sophisticated it has a long-standing practice study and expiration going to various traditions and they’re all that always intrigued me so I love to hear you help us understand some of the 101 aspects of what it means to even embarked on the path of empowering yourself to feel that you’ve been you could achieve magical powers to help with whatever comes to mind if you call yourself different terminology for magic and basically I people can call themselves whatever they like forgot my my what I believe are the real foundations of magic is accountability and responsibility I think those are two very very very strong pieces of the foundation that also translate into into life. I think but when you’re actually practicing magic you know if you’re going to set out to do some kind of ritual or spell whether it’s something that you want to do of your own making and will or you know of something that’s that’s been around for a while or whatever is the intention you have to have to State your intentions first and foremost it’s one of them what’s important things to do even before creating a Sacred Space in a circle for yourself on I like to start there it can take 10 seconds or I can take 10 minutes or longer it is whatever you want whatever your intention or your intentions are super super clear and just try to be really specific and remember that accountability and responsibility the second thing I think you have to do always right after Arby’s just asked for protection whatever it is you like to call upon whether it’s God or gods or goddesses or deities or you have specific helpers that you like to use Envision yourself in some way than protecting you or something of what I what I like to do is basically I I I surround myself in the circle of these big Rose Bush’s basically with these big thorns and these really really sturdy branches and he’s really beautiful roses and everything from the outside can almost see him that’s that’s what I do and I think that’s really really really really have to start so set your intention ask for your protection and pretty much from there on you can start so you can create trade environment I would say either that’s what I like to do if I have the time on the fit something big that you want to put a lot into whether it’s something that you’re manifesting or or celebrating or whatever it is that you’re doing you’re looking for some answers you know what whatever that is you like also candles or Pinot pillows and blankets or whatever is going to make you comfortable to make you feel is going to be I really actually love to to listen to dancing dance select Lisa Gerrard, magic and you said is my soundtrack goldfrapp for me is another one and she’s an insanely powerful witch and and gives us spells and rituals in front of our faces visually and and threw her words and people don’t even realize it so I’d that’s kind of what I like to do when I have the time to spend on relief. Like I said I know you’ve talked a lot about how important it is to open up chakras and it is really important to do that through the kind of ducks are doing a breathing and end this is really really really opening every single cell and poor and hair and everything in this body that work together because we’re meant to experience a lot of different things and then people are are afraid they’re afraid of everything and it’s it’s actually quite a shame that so many people lives in fear of of change of fear of themselves exterior of identity which I think there is a huge lack of these days you know what social media being so so big and what it is you know I know it’s obvious to state that you know it’s a Time suck her and it’s you know all it does is it really makes people feel bad about themselves and in technology you know we’re more connected today than we ever were and we’re also super disconnected. Only with ourselves but with everything else around us you know I really believe I really do believe that there are three types of people and I think I’ve I’ve talked to you about this before been in the world there’s they’re really honestly I’ve tried to break this down to the most simple simplest form and inform me like I said the three types I think that are out there are aware people people like us people who are trying to be better through our mind body and spirit helping ourselves helping each other helping the environment helping everything Universe all that kind of stuff you know we have to be aware of the soldiers I don’t know how else to tend to say that and then we have the masses who are basically just these zombies these are the people you know that are walking off cliffs to get a picture of walking into the streets and they’re just you know they’re consuming and they’re they’re literally eating each other’s faces while we are standing right in front of them and they have no real awareness that there are doing this they’re just sort of this spoon-fed weird overgrown lump is of sorts in now and I don’t know if there are any if there if there’s any help for that. The masses you know which I like to call the zombies and then let’s just let’s go for the 3rd I believe that the other ones are vampires vampires and those are the parasites up there those are the people that just really latch on I mean it is what it is it’s a vampire is Parasite you know we’ve all come across the state if they want to suck you in and they they need to suck you into all that they created the but are you know I just I basically don’t really pay a lot of attention to that eventually they just get bored and move on so that’s kind of how I died deal with that I guess since we’re talking about three years cuz three such powerful number another another thing that I really believes and is that we have three different brains and I know we talked about this before I made you laugh about this but I do believe that we have three different brains one is our head which is the the Periscope with the feeding tube attached to it if you remember correctly. I just we can go on and on about it you know for all of our logic blocks us from a lot of things and it it also thinks that that it tells us reason but what it does is it ends up talking us out of some really good things also and then we have the second brain which I believe is your heart that’s pretty pretty simple that’s where all the emotions come from that’s that’s where all the pier emotions come from it’s it’s it’s whatever you’re doing whenever you get those feelings of of just being so incredibly insurance so happy and and it’s almost childlike you know these childlike feelings of swords and then I want to move on to the third Friday which is your guts and that’s responsible for all the the intuition that most people just choose to ignore that were frankly I think they just don’t hear it sometimes or maybe most of the time I also think that’s where are most Primal South comes from and I try to use those three brains separately to identify different I guess emotions that come from something situations that happened you know I think you have to be pretty clear about where that is coming from to be able to physically pinpoint if it’s if it’s if it’s all in motion if it’s something that I was trying to tell us they’re just not aware of and I like to when I get to talk to people when they’re sitting in my chair or if I’m having a coffee with some water or whatever I mean I’ve I’ve had some great conversations with people just sitting waiting to get my car washed you know all these little connections I I believe in synchronicity also I think synchronicity is is is a real thing and it’s a huge thing and I think that also coincides goes along with magic you know magic is a a change of consciousness within yourself and also be able being able to to change the rib that Consciousness around you it all kind of goes back and points to the same kind of thing you know when when we’re in tune we not only are better people for everything around us but specifically for other people and I think that’s really important and you know cuz the world that we live in right now is just like I said earlier so full of fear and and come and paranoia and I think that everybody just needs to kind of take a step back and really be accountable and be responsible for yourself in hey we’re not be a little responsible for other people to sometimes I don’t think it’s such a bad thing is to also from previous especially bad is part of the ocean that I have kicked her out for a while I really am not going to stay the name of this this fellow but I will say that I was interested in studying a a very accomplished black time trick magician who has very interesting thesis about the difference between white magic and black magic and into to paraphrase what one of the things he said it was basically that you can if you were if you were to truly be a projectile practitioner white magic then you would not attempt to influence the outcome really evenie evenie life of that because that would be so presumptuous to assume that you have the almighty waste God and therefore Could Do no harm and everything you do is going to be perfectly each of the life but more but more realistic see that that’s that’s wishful thinking is my any more realistically it’s it’s it’s a safer intellectual place to own that if you were trying to make any adjustments on the outcomes of anyone’s life your own & Beyond then actually physically a black magician because you are defying the the natural order of things and it’s all semantics my grandmother they were really trying to influence and actually make these things happen good most of the time it was not good and they did and they did it you know I’m with white magic and and and Earth Magic and sex Magik I I don’t I mean I guess influence I guess is the word we can use for now you’re sort of just taking all of this energy bill topping in one way or another if you know however you felt it up and then being able to use that into I don’t know if I don’t know if I would say influence I would say uh manifestation really some people call it prayer some people call it meditation whatever you want to call it I just feel I don’t know I feel like with with those types of magic in the lighter stuff you’re more of asking verses asking and kind of directing your you’re not you’re not really pushing for this this this intense outcome so to speak I mean there’s a there isn’t there definitely has been crazy intense outcomes with different things that I’ve done before but for me I can only speak personally I out of my experience those who have come out of liver a surprise when they did and then I ended up feeling things are experiencing things I’ve never done before I knew that I hit these other levels out of magic so I guess I don’t have never heard I’ve never I’ve never heard that argument but I do understand what what he’s saying by that answer or might my response to that make any sense I think we’re really getting somewhere because you know the simple I guess the shore most likely people who think they’re doing only white magic are doing great magic and people who think they’re only doing Blackmagic are also do it yeah I know I get I totally did I just have never heard it put that way I can only speak from my experience at all I think that’s where the influencing comes comes in the play is that I’ve noticed and gray like you said or black it is it’s usually a demand for something whether that’s a strong demand or a light one or or whatever it does that make sense what you just said right there is so pivotal because if you like I would love to have to be instrumental in in training a new the Next Generation magicians who who who understand you are not understanding of what the parameters of black magic are to eat I don’t want to do it or I don’t do it and do it for someone to trust that you really don’t do is like how do you define it so you know that intuition brain the gut-brain you know something doesn’t feel right doing something that you maybe you’re questioning to a point you know you that much then I would say stop I mean the same thing goes for like when you’re learning a haircut. funny things when it comes to Magic but also it’s that intention and I mean all four of those to me are before you do anything and I guess you know kind of going back to the house he was in a sort of saying that the white magicians are black and black or white and you know all of this is your job to be to be really responsible in in what you’re doing and what you’re asking and what your intentions are I mean it literally all just goes and points back to the same thing when I look at it you know I’m always very very very careful and I’ve been practicing the stuff for sale like I was really honing in on some stuff and then I ended up being a moving to the desert like I do know we talked before the last couple years and not that really propelled me into a whole other level of magic that I’ve never even knew I was capable of and that’s that’s what sort of solidified the the power that I have is things like I said to help other mothers finders in to claim it and and share my practices and what’s helped me put my mind at ease and not not in not just my mind or my brains and all three of them but but my my soul and everything else has is well you know I I’ve always believed this I believe that people really really really have to Value themselves and I mean really value themselves cuz it’s a direct reflection of how you interact with everything around you not just the other people but Adam Wilson you know that our sins and everything and I feel like a lot of people don’t value themselves these days for whatever reason it is and then like I said where you can sell you endless consuming society and in the end it didn’t they just bursting at the seams with human child basically it’s their eyes and ears are being consumed by you know the Kardashians and the news and the biscuits and you know just all this crazy shit instead of putting other things in in there you know turn the TV off so you can have the internet than the TV bundle in the whole deal I always tell them you know that’s a lot but I am one of those weirdos and every single time I got the same response it’s what do you do what do you do with yourself I don’t understand what you do explain to them exactly what I did or whatever I’m not going to I’m not going to tell the poor girl at Time Warner one network to the other all right where we exactly where when you realize that when you got cut off but if I could bring us back to where to elaborate on and I was going to say the one I love about how you framed the distinction between the white and black magic Continuum is really about what the ad if I’m understanding correctly and I’ll kind of rephrase this is like the step-by-step would be the intention and then the call the intention is to do no harm and to do good or to do well or to heal or to manifest positivity or something of us open generate so positivity as he has the intention and then instead of instead of imposing your your sort of self-promoting self-aggrandizing or somehow that comes from what are you but I believe in a lot of that comes from Eco you know about asking and asking and away and also just trying to coddle it enter to she also harness it at the same time you know there’s a gentleness to it and also the black magic in the darker Arts I find it very demanding when they’re asking its atom and it’s a hey. I feel like a lot of it just comes from the ego you know it isn’t that is what I think is like I’m going to make this happen this is going to happen because I say I’m a powerfuel I I’m this powerful I’m blah blah blah you know when I when I come to my own personal power I let it speak to me I know that sounds corny and whatever but I do you know I left I let it talk to me I mean the other day I was brushing my teeth in the bathroom and I had a really really funny experience on the window is directly behind me and it looks up into these really beautiful trees and I was just brushing my teeth tonight I got whatever it was I didn’t really pay any trees with the branches coming up looks like basically he’s like Kevin Lee really amazing earth Spirits they just look like these pillars with these what their hands up into the air in the sun was coming through for me to be able to recognize that as I’m just one daily brushing my teeth and you know doing whatever to see something like that I think it’s really Spectacular Now and Then that led needs some thinking and then I’d like to writing and then that actually led to sort of I guess you’d call it a vegetable that I said last night I didn’t even really plan on doing on from just brushing my teeth looking up and being just being open and aware enough to accept things like this when when the earth is giving you something when a person or another being I don’t feel like there are coincidences with the black it’s like these definitive I guess like miles to basically justify and validate that your accessory is working does that make sense other assorted from distinction I’m thinking trying to access my normally very inefficient left brain I’m trying to figure out almost mathematical or algorithmic type of thinking to this mechanical or robotic but I think the juxtaposition of the news actually really quite wonderful I feel like magic can be an if-then type algorithm where you basically about what is an if-then a recipe is an algorithm in the algorithm is the recipe so there you have it so it’s the thing of it that way I’d say where we are on this graph for this this these branches that are coming out from a tree or a sort of thought bubble you know this series of steps and process uses that the the intention now I’m kind of seeing how the way to it’s not like it gets completely Amorphis because the intention could be to raise a million dollars for charity which which has elements of it that are are very parameterize do you know you have the not be a dollar amount you have the the sort of limiting factor that it be for a nonprofit organization for some charitable cause that you would hope will be auctioned charity than it would have some wedding on what its value is what is what is a specific charity and what do they do for people that Community whatever it is you know animals once again to that in ten and then your accountability and responsibility to that attention to that make sense so the intention let’s say if it was to save the polar bears you would focus on the help and try calling on not just got all that stuff you know put the energy out there throwing out a million tentacles at one time you’re not quite a fishing that but like you’re trying to zap and you’re trying to get an end open these channels up and try to reach other people I’m in spine that. Sort of tap into their goodness as well you know and end end it’s all I can kind of see what the intention is to save the polar bears do to do all the stuff of course you know you want to be able to hit this goals and that is obviously important but I think that the weight of it needs to go back to what the what the reason and why why you’re you’re why you’re doing this why you feel so strongly about it to me that’s more to me that’s more important you know cuz when it’s with all of that projection and all of that even when you’re when you’re putting that out there too I just I feel like it’s it’s just better all the way around energetically speaking we have it well yeah because you could ask for billing and maybe it cost you a hundred million and if you would have just said get the job done you would have been really really really specific cuz I have been many times when I’m sure it’s going to happen again because I really focused on the on X y&z now I know I was really really really sure let’s go forward a little bit and woe holyshit all this stuff wow okay this is this is incredible you know I’m just asking you know asking for things and not being afraid to ask so I got all these two I got all the pieces but I didn’t quite get them in the order I wanted them in right is that make you know what I mean weather at make the Joker’s like you had your prayers are answered but it’s distributed you know they are dropped but they’re broken in two packages across time and space you have to like hang on to that key that you found in the gutter for like 5 years in that door that you can’t open that you thought you should be able to the keys in your pocket it and then reveal their working towards towards something good it was in a different order or it was just not quite like I said I thought I was even more than I had to go back and look at my writing it look at and that’s my accountability in my responsibility to myself and University anyway I know I mean I know it’s a little tiny things but things has lasers with the order of the universe and that’s why I say you know I will always go back to accountability responsibility and intention and that has actually helped me with those actually put those into everyday use all the time in my life and it and it really really does Century because I’m always stand under them sesef creepy way but you know I just I want to be accountable for my actions for the things that come out of my mouth which is why I choose my words you know in my tone and my delivery very carefully you know I want to be responsible not just to myself but but two other people of the earth you know animals everything I want to be responsible to the magic I want to be responsible to people are saying that that I you know she’ll balance somewhere I don’t I don’t I never considered myself you know I just have to kind of go you hear it enough times from people you got to start looking into it you know and I’ve always been really humble about not just like my hair dressing as well and it’s cool to have been able to the Catalyst that field my inch extend a check and intent ra and yoga and just self-exploration with my mind body and spirit you know and it’s cool like I said what such an intimate exchange that I’m having with my clients in my relationships whether it’s been you know 6 months or 20 years I’ve been doing this 23 years and I literally get to practice my magic everyday all day not just when I’m at work it seems to be more concentrated when I’m at work because obviously you know that I protect myself every single day at work at 10 in the morning I’m up at like 5 or 6 I can’t just get up and go like I need to have a really slow the morning and and just spend some time with myself 3 years ago and she’s like I know it’s going to sound stupid but really she was telling me that I did a really good job and I was able to just walk away from it and not be angry and not be anything and you know if anything I felt that stunted and at their age they’re never going to really have the chance to kind of play another way and I think that it was because they didn’t want to be another way but but what I was saying was she wanted me to be aware of it and I was but I didn’t I didn’t see it through her eyes and never get to see each other selves exactly how other people see us and we never will you know and so she said you know you need to look at yourself in the mirror tonight for 30 seconds straight in the eyes and tell yourself thank you you’re a badass and you should have really fucking good job. Cutting salon or if I you know help somebody out that day or whatever I got a phone call from a client with her friends you know after we talk after we took whatever and they are thinking I have to be really humble you know I’m not passing out and I’m not handing out like free I don’t want I don’t like unsolicited advice you know it’s so one of the first things I do ask people not just with my work and I could be the hairdressing barbering star that could be counseling or are you know just just helping people with magic just keep it really clear it really really really really clear about what your intentions are. Yeah that really setting in and like I said not in a weird obsessive way but they put it really does make you rethink your reactions or even you know have not having a reaction to something is a reaction and I think a lot of us need to practice on a lot more you know not a not having a reaction to something even even possible yeah yeah and don’t keep it on Harrison into some fire you know I mean I try to walk that person away from the fire cuz I don’t know I just I think I truly believe that everybody deserves to be happy it starts with ourselves that it actually it’s that needing that wants to become a better man for myself or and it flows out if you and is infectious you know toddlers but I really do believe it has to be that first and foremost thing you said it’s important to note that says in this some kind of an outline here it is said your ability to stay accountable really if we if we look zoom into that word we’re talking about accounting it brings to mind the notion of a ledger and unassertive bookkeeping and so the bookkeeping is your book of spells so if you if you crave cast that magic spell and you do you set your intention and then you you see that it might be going walk or something but you have the ability to go back to that date and you do it on a spicious days of the calendar so that you can know where to where to go back to it are you confusing software you can search for it but to be able to if you if you just you just verbalize it you may not remember which I constantly have so many different books and actually you know I have one that’s kind of a general one that I’m constantly have about three or four that I’m kind of working at one time always you know one of them is for my partner and I specifically for both of us you know one of them is kind of a general one one is from me and my interactions with yellow lines notebook pads you know like the legal ones and so I just write down a lot of stuff I’m not a writer I just I just ride a lot of things down your bullet point things to make things all kinds of stuff you know you you can you already know or you trying to collect what that smell is what that ritual is what you’re trying to do put it all down and then once once you actually do everything you can either form at it before you know if you want a bullet point the different steps that you want to do like I say if you’re doing a spell the ritual that you created for yourself I think that’s completely fine you want to give things objects meanings you want to you know do it do I’m all for that you know I don’t care what it is you use I like to use a combination of different things that I’ve collected throughout the years symbolize different stuff for me and also I like to use a lot of different crystals in a lot of different God where we going with this I’m so sorry Vizio creating your own ritual is what I was saying there we go and just put a little bit of the power of writing it down so you can go back and check on it and might get the answer you could actually addressed it you know you could be right in a mandarin constitutional freedoms and yeah right down all the stuff cuz I actually do have a cooking diary that I do cuz I like to call so and so I take notes of every single thing that I do and it’s also just really good to go back and review or you know even just to kind of go back and read these books and see you know it’s a really interesting way to tell my own story to myself you know no one really gets to look at these except you know every now and then my I’ll show my boyfriend are you know maybe I’ll show up page or something or two or you know whatever it is I share a lot with him the one that I have I’m supposed to mean I was just really cool Connection in the synchronicities that we have together having said that I’ll come right down and write down your rituals in your spells you know if you eat your your journey as a magician really I mean we do this weekend with our card since you know so it’s basically keeping sort of your own it’s kind of like a journal in a report card and a bunch of other things all thrown in together you know and then again I think it’s just an interesting way of contacting some books that are like 15 years old has moved back to the city of December to write thank you notes bass like it’s all me I can all you know I can see and I can feel that it’s all me but just to watch the evolution of but just the awareness and the openness because I really really really might my 30s for me were about being really open and I thought I was open and I wasn’t certain ways but I was so closed off and scared and invulnerable most mostly on a sort of an emotional level would certain Dynamics and I just was like fuck it you know this I really really really want to know what this is like I want to know what that’s like I want to know what it’s like to really still open and so I had to learn that the process of letting go look at myself as a work in progress as we all are letting letting go was like one of my biggest lessons in keeping things simple Letting Go being present I’m old I don’t take anything personally and I used to take as I was a fucking crazy ass young double Scorpio and pass shit and I I just would be exhausted and I didn’t have time for myself so I had that was another thing that actually made me focus on myself and go okay this is going back to I have to be able to take to help myself and I can’t I can’t complete all of my energy and all of everything that I have two other people all the time you know if there’s a limit there’s a limit that I can get especially like in a work setting are in a social setting is for a social and I am actually quite an introvert I really prefer just like mellow chill kind of stuff you know I was going to say just one that I would like everyone to try to practice is to just really not take anything really personally because ultimately you know I am the only person who’s responsible for my own feelings whatever they are it is a matter of somebody says something to you that’s true or not or whatever it is I get to choose how I feel about everything absolutely that’s one of the Four Agreements Don Miguel Ruiz Four Agreements don’t take things to do your best dentist that take things personally and celebration I have for you so I think this was a good intro and I think too kind of I’d like to just give you one more sort of topic to explore for now and then we can leave it also is a bit of a cliffhanger we can come back I think there’s a lot of stuff more to unpack future episodes so I think that would be good to just have to have this be the very beginning intro kind of introduction to to your pear diamond and I appreciate this is a gold mine this is that I feel like you’re this is such a like I found the end of the rainbow here this is this treasure all about is is beyond I don’t even have words for it I mean I listen to your podcast for a really long time you know any what you know and then we ended up messaging somewhere along the line and I’m just saying is that I’m very thankful that I got to connect with you just just even sending you a note that one time or whatever it’s just all these things that we’ve had I’ve always enjoyed them seriously thank you I mean I know and I can I listen to your show and I know the time of people that you have on all the time for me to be part of this I mean even just one time is is really cool for me to be able to share this stuff with you with you and and everyone who listens to you so I just want to say thanks again I’m super super green food you’re welcome and thank you and if they have mutual honor him and blessing and I would say yeah the thing that’s on my mind for you know something soon to refund a bit now before we close for this this first episode we something that is the sort of throws a monkey wrench into the the very elegant logic that we have worked together here to kind of layout in Spanish of the sizes is what I would I have explored is is sort of the how to be accountable and responsible and ethical with the desire to pursue or seduce someone in the how that well you were sexually stimulating yourself and fantasizing about a sexual outcome with a potential partner that there is like for me I have a sort of framework work checklist where where I do want to have some clear intention in and released released that monitor my vibration around the energy and certainly of the conduct my own conduct in the Fantasy Realm because it is I believe a a a karmic casino to be fantasizing sexually and so you got to be with what are your thoughts on that can be it’s murky territory when we look at what’s the difference between it all that well the grace World of Magic here so we have please take away about what the intention as you know see if you see incredible person whether that be attached that’s that’s usually the person you want to buy what is the most important question is he this and it hit me the right way whatever it is you know like I said that’s really really ask yourself why practice is a bunch a lot of different things are where they are on a spiritual level you know versus someone who isn’t that all I mean to did you did you have liked it with your question were you thinking more about someone who is more open and spiritually aware or in touch with you know themselves and everything around them or are you speaking of just sort of like more social let me have I guess I’ll share with you a little bit of a little bit of intimate details about how I solely what year is this to me I feel like this I very very rarely use pornography of any kind as the visual aid or stimulant for myself because you know when I was a lot younger and a lot hornier and a lot less sophisticated spiritually I would say if I dare say then he was just fodder but the thing is what I and I was also jaculating constantly without any so and that was because of the Paradigm that that I was them at that that area of acid images of human consciousness in the West the surface ship that we’ve talked about before it right so that said to me that what I like what I know now if I would have known then what I know now I would have said to myself to have a practice more like what I have now wishes to Safeway when I fantasize about a future sexual encounter it really has got to actually in my mind be a very plausible realistic potential outcome with someone who is it is accessible by some believe with me and so I’m not really jerking off to dead people and I only brought enough to movie stars and people who unless I really really believe that what I want to do is structure my destiny to encounter them and have us have a mutual Very sensual erotic Mutual exchange I don’t really waste my Prada I don’t waste my see that as my Jing I’m not going to spill my seed in where to put a spell that has really no it’s not really a meritorious or whatever the word will be it doesn’t really it’s not part of my destiny so and this is just me kind of putting my thoughts into the into the original question for Texas is that I feel like the I would either they’re up there are people there are always a list of people who I’m attracted to in my life who are in weed ovarian degrees of proximity to me and in Space the time I suppose but maybe hey sup maybe some of them are are in committed monogamous relationships and therefore I’m also risking the the karmic consequences of of like astral home-wrecking by have a responsibility in that situation is just about being responsible on a sexual and a spiritual and in a personal level and in on a friendship level if that’s where it is too you know I mean I I’ve had experiences with other with other people before and even if it’s going to be a one-time thing from for me or for us or for whatever it is I’m very clear with one wants if that makes sense I don’t just let somebody why don’t open the door. Not physically but you know what I mean just open open the door and let them walk in and when wander around you know I’d I’d like to say okay look you know I am and I’m really really Frank here I have told you guys before it’s like look you know in my mind I’m going okay I know this is probably be like a one-time thing doesn’t happen all that often or it happened all that often but I would say with hey look I’m not looking for pornsex I’m not looking to get off like I want to actually have sex with an nnn if you don’t know what that means you know really that I can cut if you’re willing if you’re willing I can kind of show you a different way of going out this an interesting really super clear that’s where that double fucking Scorpio comes in you know I just I can’t lie and I’m very very very direct and I will say that in my experience I have it’s been it’s been really fine with that and sometimes it’s been really great or like let’s say you know you end up meeting somebody and there’s a connection there’s a little bit of a friendship and then it goes there sexually and then you realize that’s okay I don’t want to be in a committed thing with you or I’m not you know any in a space where I could be in a relationship whether you want to or not that’s just you know what it is to be able to be emotionally irresponsible not to yourself and accountability to the other person as well and yourself I want to have a really good hopefully intense on whatever level sexual experience with somebody that’s problem with most men is that most people I would say in general but they’re just so used to getting off by using corn by using this by using whatever and I just I feel like it when you get it really really really in tune with yourself you’re going back to say it with what you were saying like I just don’t want to spill my seed and then wasted I I feel the same way but at the same time like there have been several times were the sex that I have with my boyfriend my actual partner is incredible and it just keeps getting better and better and better and sometimes I mean we don’t set out for this but like it will end up coming like six times over you know some hours or whatever it is and it’s like holyfuck like Jesus Christ and then you know it’s almost like that sort of Monex states where you just had sex had nowhere you everything just is talking to you the leaves it wasn’t just getting off you guys were able to connect on levels where you really took each other separately and together to other places I mean this I have had some experience with this man his name is Johnny Ray he’s he’s really seriously the best person I’ve ever been with I’ve never been with anybody like him he has experience in the matter with him have been just utterly mind-blowingly shocking in a really good way swear he’s actually aided me in seeing certain things while doing sex magick and while doing some other stuff like that I’d like that I actually saw even though my eyes were closed I saw these things I went places you know really interesting and I took a long time to kind of develop but like I I I don’t know I I find again I just think that like you don’t you just say you have to really be responsible but it do whatever is right for you is what I’m saying like I said if if you’re if you’re in a situation where if it feels right that that you’re going to come again then go for it you know if you can try that you don’t try to do all that cuz that’s because it makes the experience more intense and there’s so much more than just like I said then getting off you know another program to do and and there are a lot of times to ejaculate at all and still have an equally razee go to experience you know a lot of full body in touch with your actual magic right there you know well I think on that note I don’t think we could end on a better a better note in a better place to conclude I think that really is a great a great introduction and this is this smoking hot material and I can’t wait to to keep exploring I’m more of this and zooming into various aspects so for now we’ll see it are there any specific ways that you would like listen this to reach out to you how can I go get a nice haircut it’s the same it’s Mike Bonner hair so m i k e b o n n e r and then hair hair at gmail.com on Instagram I do tarot readings to I don’t claim the psychic I’m not really really really try to connect with people on listen to them that’s what I try to do this first and foremost well I got to say it has been an absolute treat and Prejudice is like such a bicycle synchronistic to be able to just have this Pockets out there than have it find people and then and then all the sudden we’re we’re already talking when you’re adding a lot to to this this archive this is sort of the akashic record that I’m not curious to hear so thank you so much again and I look forward to next time I will yeah everybody have sweet and sweet dreams and a good prayers and magic spells and we will help keep each other accountable and responsible and also remember that intention with everything just intense so important did all right all right I will take you with you Google talk to you so I would actually like to share and I now just thinking of it I have an example of a personal and almost perfect example of a white magick manifestation which will then I’ll create a ritual around this that’ll be done free for a year basically starts in November that’s the the month I was born and so for me not on the same calendar as everybody else when they do their resolutions and all that kind of stuff you know in January I mean frankly it just doesn’t mean anything to me November my birth my own personal earlier anyhow having said that I have been working on just trying to manifest and think about him focused a lot of energy on what I want out of this coming year and sometimes it happens before November sometimes it happens during and and this time it took a couple months and so anyhow I woke up yesterday morning and the first thing on my mind was what I heard was this is just the beginning and I have I just move back to LA from being out in the deserts the high desert in Southern California for the last two years I needed a break from everything the city in and then what not and are all the noise and everything that comes and goes around it that clutters us up so I went out to the desert and a long story short I really needed to clear a lot of things Within Myself And also physically all that all my environment you know that is so beautiful and quiet and pretty desolate out there but it’s booming with life you know you sit there for just start looking and listening and you can just literally see everything breathing, there is a lot of movement actually I’m in that Stillness so when I had woke up yesterday that that raise this is just the beginning was really really strong in my head and the next one was come to life on my desk and just wrote what was coming out so and manifestation for the year which is so cool how that happened yeah I was I was actually kind of Blown Away by it at the end of it just because I felt like I’d gotten such a good I don’t know I guess I connected with a part of myself and I really listened to to to whatever it is or whatever they were trying to say to me in an hour or whether it was part of me as well I don’t know the point is that it’s I feel really really great and humbled that it came out so I’m just going to read you what what this sort of white magick manifestation isn’t this is just the beginning come to life it is the real you that speaks through your rebellious Sacred Heart in this living your life not the monkey mind the mind is not much more than a swirling canopy of Habitual reactions your monkey mind is not to run the show at the moment it might have a lot to say and at times it seems very convincing but it’s not the one in charge remember are three different brands one that had drained brain scuse me the mines brain which I like to also call once again the Periscope with the feeding tube attached that brain is responsible for logic and reason number two are other brain is the heart the heart brain you know the heart responsible for our emotions the death of things and our reactions to things I believe is Our God’s are intuition brain I believe it’s also very Primal and Saul so it didn’t stink you know I’m going to focus on the hearts and intuition brain and remember to the monkey brain rest gets us into trouble and the additional thoughts and creative and energetic Awakening is happening it is so far beyond what the mind is now capable of controlling others might not like it because it means change coming to life tends to do that however it is now and the only real choice I have to make is how to deal with it coming to life means feeling treating the space and just doing it don’t hold back and this process I will uncover the Artistry of the universal Creator and creators I will honor the sacredness of Life by exploring it without restraint and that includes the flow of my feelings I don’t have to do anything with them other than Express them learning how to access feeling allows you to learn how to access intuition creative inspiration and internal guidance I have chosen to come into a body and live consciously within it even in times of pain know and trust that there will be also ecstasy and Bliss as the process of healing and Awakening continues the message is be alive there’s no going back no falling into old ways I have crossed the threshold from an old way of being in an old life and try as I might I cannot return besides it won’t be the same as it used to griever celebrate do both move on there’s a new adventure awaiting me now and I want even deeper connection to my own instincts my body feelings intuition magic and everything I will trust and embrace it and it will trust and embrace me in return. 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Spiritual First Aid for Sexual Assault Survivors with Alexandria Baker TPP177

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In this episode I’m joined again by Alexandria Baker, a southern California sex educator, Hatha yoga instructor, ethical luxurious natural beauty and skin care entrepreneur, model, and performance artist.

In our previous episode she shared all about her personal journey, background:
https://tantrapunk.com/sexy-mindfulness-in-lifestyle-and-livelihood-with-alexandria-baker-tpp149/

I was eager to learn of her recent world traveling adventures and sadly discovered in the course of the podcast that she had experienced sexual assault. She boldly shares about the experience, I do my best to apply comforting and empowering stories from my personal battles with surviving sexual trauma. We compare notes and agree that much more loving, care, safe space is needed culturally to seriously address the the plague of abuse.

Please visit her website and Youtube channel at:

https://www.fromalexandria.com/

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCcTemJEFn3GVpGuCbJnu6Yg

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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin podcast episode number 177 I’m being rejoined by Alexandria Baker who is a Southern California sex educator Hatha Yoga instructor ethical luxurious natural beauty and skincare entrepreneur model and performance artists and we didn’t episode called sexy mindfulness in lifestyle and livelihood and that was supposed to number 149 so I encourage you to reference that and go back and check that out to get more of the origin story of Alexandria’s super heroic efforts in the world and we’re about to hear an update from from her recent Journeys have brought into studies and I’ve only been getting beautiful glimpses on Instagram here and there so this is going to be exciting exciting round of updates from who I hope will be a regular correspondent here on the 5 chest it was a pleasure last time and it is a pleasure now and yeah but when was that that was back in April so a lot has happened since then and we ended our last podcast on a bit of a teaser discussing the center for positive sexualities first conference that I was speaking at and that has come and gone and it has created this magical little nest in my heart of and something that I am now starting to really give birth and rice to riches giving more guided meditations and being able to present mindfulness with sexuality and these fears that perhaps might not have been acquainted with it before but what was so nice about that conference was that I was just one of a few people who actually brought up the topic of mindfulness and so it was a crowd that was someone acquainted with being Mindful and present having a sense of spirituality with the sexual and there are some who are very Green Cemetery need to it and others who were like yeah I do this all the time but it was a really Welcome Avenue for this mental and spiritual exploration and so to see people tuned in and then dial into themselves as I was talking about connecting with your sexy self in a spiritual way was just so awesome and beautiful and this is a great time to continue to develop them right to spread the seeds and let this let these eggs hatch into a beautiful birds that I can fly so that was the conference and since then I have been traveling to Europe and West Africa to meditation and yoga and it’s been a beautiful blessing and really really tough challenges well we can get into that yeah please do yeah I’m riveted knowing that you get to travel so much and and I’m all have questions but I love for you to just keep rolling in to give us like the the chronology you know and the itinerary and all that good stuff I was so I left in the middle of the end of July to go to Malta for a month and there it was really about developing my personal practice and it is very focused and driven and really into my body and inhabiting the space and what is a teeny tiny Island that’s below Sicily which is below the boot of Italy and there’s some things going on but at the same time it was also I felt very isolated and so it was a challenge to not have a bunch of friends around that I can just call and hang out if it was a time till I get my books in writing and really work on myself so there were parts of it ever really hard and lonely but also turning Inward and the connecting with the spiritual finding myself my core and from there I moved on to Madrid Spain and I was in the church for a few weeks and I started to do more of my performance training which is primarily with the Leroy which is a suspended suspended ring that was awesome and I have all the little there around southern Spain went back to Madrid from Madrid to Lisbon Portugal I was there for three nights then Portugal fluid to the car Senegal I was there for a few weeks and I went to The Gambia and kind of so this is a country that’s on the western side of Africa and north of that is a little sliver of a country The Gambia I was there for a week return to Senegal back to Lisbon for a little less than a week I was in Spain I want to travel to Barcelona and explore in North Eastern side of spade and go into the south of France and clear out in the mountains and come back down drove down there for a while continue to teach you take classes that was a journey of about four months of teaching and falling in love with myself and other people and practice medicine allowing myself to and it sometimes not allowing myself but just being totally gutted and exposed to the core and having these really intense experiences and I’m not really beautiful and some that were really hard but you’re all that I’m doing my best to slam girl from it took to be able to find gig type work I can sit around the world so I’m curious if you could elaborate on the the planning and forethought and design that went into kind of brought it sound, it sounds almost like you were you booked almost like a chore to do your teachings intimate in to provide your offerings and I’m wondering if that was something you did kind of in advance or if it was just you go to a place and you ask around and you put up with you know a sign and a window or I don’t know I’m so curious how you how you get to be blessed to the level of being able to just take a shower on the road and in not as so they have a booking agent or not yeah I have no idea of the sounds great. Sounds like a great way to have a vacation travel go to business totally that’s absolutely but it was and when it comes to travel I’m a bit of a wild woman I have an idea of the types of things that I would like to do or what I want to experience or maybe these I have a huge list of places that I want to see so I’ll think okay I want to go to this beach so how can I make it happen that’s not what happened for this trip my initial intention for going out to Spain which was Miley main point was to go to school but with the beautiful ways that FAFSA and other the economics of University goes it didn’t work out and instead of just like being super bummed about it or coming home early as I did come home early but I was planning on staying out there for a year I messaged one of my girlfriends who I am connected to through performance and asked her about I I I sent her a message and ask where should I go in Africa I’ve never been I want to experience that I want to explore maybe Morocco Egypt and I’m going to be in Senegal on these dates does this work out and it worked out perfectly and she has an organization the gambian marine and Environmental Conservation and initiative which is dedicated to protecting and preserving The Gambia through immediate action and Community Development that I’m just so behind I love it I love watching her grow and seeing her journey and the things that she’s doing for for her country and I said okay how can I be a part of this what can I do and she’s a dance instructor so she has connections at Studios and with interested people who like to move back active and it was just a beautiful Snowball Effect of I connected with one studio and then I looked an air B&B to stay out for the week and then the hostess happened to go to a studio just their instructors left to go back home the week before so it was like why all of these things are happening in a really beautiful amazing way because I I just allowed things to happen not to say that I was 100% okay with school not working out and it wasn’t a bummer because in many ways it was but I moved past that move through that and thoughts okay what what can I do now what do I want to do I want to teach yoga I want to teach meditation I want surf I want to spend time on the beach I would like to do dance classes and I really really want to be a part of this organization and let every way that I can and we made it happen my friend’s name is yandere and she’s at our house Superwoman so a lot of the connections and West Africa came through her bikini is it there nice to have friends that’s what friends are for booking you on Amazing Adventures in elderly severe so what is that how does from what from what I understand you were on a trajectory of doing but what would you call it a kind of Orthodox medicine degree to be able to use that stuff is that still in the works or how does that affect that that life goal and my ultimate career goal is to be an osteopath so that’s why I would do the same things as a doctor but it’s a few more months of Hands-On training so that I can diagnose and treat with my hands so it’s more holistic and looking at the whole person then me not being in school during that time that I was in Europe in West Africa pushes through States up at least a year at this point because some other plans have changed but what was all so wonderful about that instead of going for credits just to increase like on The Bachelor level now I’m looking at getting my master’s degree in an exercise science so that I can have the prerequisites completed for medical school and now I have an additional degree and I’ll be able to be a way better yoga instructor with more information about how the Body Works in just whole body systems and more and more practice with that that’s what I love and I’m happy that I’ll be able to be at better practitioner and provider yeah I’ve always wish I had more time to well I guess I will say I’m looking forward to when I’m successful enough to wear certain certain responsibilities and precious in my life for our or minimize to where I can actually catch up to a lot of self-study that I wanted to do including anatomy and physiology and all the systems in and I was just fascinated in the the exposure that I had had in standard education I guess and certainly when it applies to healing in all of this super esoteric yoga guy actually have a book called esoteric systems of the body or something and esoteric anatomy of the body and it’s just I’m salivating too real to say two in it goes over all these esoteric traditions and but it has all these maps of the body in maps of different Energy Systems and I just can’t wait to see how they said the size it just so much beautiful scholarship and I would like to yeah I’d like to compare notes cuz you you move in that direction so is that something that you have already begun kind of studying on your own how would you say that like I’m curious if you could talk just about some of the things that excite you about that field some of the things that you’ve already discovered there and absolutely and before we get into that book sounds super yummy and I definitely want to have a good title of it again in the author so that I can get my hands on that and we will certainly pick up rhino but now that I’ve taken you years off of formal education in a university setting I am turning to my notorious and I trainers and teachers and really asking questions about okay when I do when you told me to do this particular movement on the pole where is that coming from to understand that it’s not just my ankle that’s attaching to this large metal rod it’s I’m the movements coming from my head been so when and how to stop move or shift my my abdomen and my shoulders like what positioning do I need to be internally make V to get the quality of the movement’s correct so that I can be safe and also look pretty while I’m doing it so to have a deeper understanding and a physical level is right now the intention that I’m holding when I go into my practice in my training so that I can not only do this well but I’ll be able to teach her that at a certain point unlevel so really leaning into the support that I have been doing as much as I can turn a too much for the others and dial-in on my health practices I I’m trying to consume as much as I can on my own and with the help of me awesome well me and all of the community here at Township on podcasts will be your Study Buddies cuz this is so stiff for everybody wants to up level the stuff and I actually this it makes me think a lot about the difference between more traditional modes of teaching a martial arts and Healing Arts and sexual Arts it’s it’s like they used to be understanding by students that there would be riddles and mysticism and levels of knowledge and you couldn’t just show up to meet up for free or for five bucks and just start picking the brain of the master pack all of their secrets and if they don’t give it to you in a timely manner you’re going to get him a bad Yelp review and so I feel like God now if ever teach anything I have to be armed with so much Western Scientific backup knowledge because people will want to interrogate you and know what if this interests but from a personal level I would say that most of my students have been very very humble and very very they’re interested they want to know where I get my information from for sure I mean some of them do others are just I can help me get into this meditative state so that I can go to sleep that’s all I want but I actually really enjoy the ones who are challenging me and they want more information and they want me to like be on my game and I’m young and there’s only so much knowledge that I contain in this vessel at this point so sometimes it’s the journey where we learn together and all that you know I might not know this now but I’ll look it up and then I’ll send him a message later and we’ll talk about it in the next class and that encourages me to see where my edges are Beyond it and have only had a couple I have had some private students but they were also my friends who were giving me a really more of a hard time about back to the scientific studies that they wanted proof about certain things I couldn’t give a solid example but yeah I’ve had to take deep breaths and okay well this is what I know at this point and we’re going to do this practice together and it’ll be as good as I can be in as good as we can be together and it’ll continue to get better but for now we both need a little bit of patience challenging well I appreciate your approach to that night I can often feel the same the same way that it’s it’s a it’s an artificial I just feel like there’s thanks to you the capitalist system that has broken himself into pieces we don’t have a way of learning we have opportunities to learn this important kind of fun public knowledge a lot of it would have been very public knowledge and a lot of I mean just imagine if everybody if you’ll go was if it was a yoga studio at every playground for recess and that that was part of a routine and so the cultures where meditation and mindfulness and spiritual practices that were I guess you could say more embodied than just sitting still and listening to someone yell at you or something more of those worn by the practices since they’re so lacking people are or seeking it out and discovering it later in life or maybe having only limited access and what not so it makes sense that I mean it gets the tragedy is that you as a as a certified instructor as someone who is basically gone through a sort of whatever however many hours of a crash course or bootcamp to digest the mythologies and the the Arts and Sciences of so many different competing modalities so many different conflicting modalities and to kind of trying to create these these humble and Valiant yet Valiant attempts to tube to package this material and take for us to individually transmitted to other people it’s a lot to ask and in certainly the older you get the more experience and and and I guess in some cases appropriate kind of seniority you would have in a meritocracy of life experience knowledge but but I do I do like your approach to softening that interrogator vibe in that way of saying let’s learn together because really we should have all learn together and a healthy way and and it gives me gives me some hope I’ve been are very interested to see how you been evolving and so yeah some of the things that we had Vibe down before was the sexuality education the sexual health and and wellness and also psychedelics sexual shamanic therapy treatments and all that good stuff but I spent some interesting developments in the end of General feel that I’m just curious where you’re where you’re at with all that stuff because that was something that we rushed upon as well yeah we did we did talk about that when we when we might but as far as recent developments I’ve been knot on top of what has been happening in the Psychedelic science field lately my focus has been in other direction but what’s happened but what can you tell us about that then I can give my opinion so much love and affection for Rick doblin of the multidisciplinary association of psychedelic studies maps the biggest non-profit pharmaceutical drug development company that’s really ever existed in that continues to just blow my mind with their integrity and their their duty of care rather than take an approach wear your pants during the government to release all restrictions on administering these these compounds to the masses however over the counter or through prescription rather than having that that huge liability and risk it it’s that there’s another way to do it which I had not considered in which they are totally dialing in right now and it makes so much sense and what that is is that rather than having an individual who is who who is in need of the therapeutic value of this of these medicines rather than having them take dosages in like a baggie with their little vial of their little canister and take that and then go out into the insanity of chaos of their existing home life and the existing world then that the idea is that the legal space for the for the administering and for the consumption of the medicine is in a is in a therapeutic context in a clinical setting that is conducted by trained facilitators who may or may not have various medical or academic therapeutic sort of state license credentials but who have at least done with maps is created which is their own custom curriculum for providers of various types types of back and then there’s a line out the door for people who want to get training to train who want to be the trainers if they want to train trainers and they want trainers to be able to go out and create clinics all over the place so that when they get the through the final phases of proving that for one MDMA is safe under certain conditions within certain dosage ranges and then say that but it’s not going to just be mass-marketed and cranked out on conveyor belts and that the drug store is going to be to have access to this medicine in a legal manner you will have to have it be it’ll be in a circumstance where your facilitator doctor therapist Shaman excetra invites you to a space where there are certain medical and procedural practices or protocols being observed very very strictly and then you receive the dosage and that’s putting an only in that setting you’re not giving more to take home and follow up and take two and call me in the morning so contain the containing that risk is so profound to me because that is what I believe is the appropriate way a ceremonial weigh-in modern clinical ceremony away if you will they’re doing their best to bring in the ceremonial and ritualistic element is best they can make they don’t have to do this in a hospital they can create their own clinics in that clinic Canby sacred geometry it can be modeled as it competes should have Ford Explorer texting water and see what I see you to bring the Shivering so that I think that kind of expresses my you know where it would I do so much more so many other amazing doors that have open for them and doors that they thought would have been slamming their face Network gently open to their shoes surprised and so I just encourage anybody to follow up listen to the research Rick doblin on psychedelic Salon podcast in and catch up to to his work but I feel like he is the exception of Bilbo Baggins see if it looks like a hobbit I just can’t get over it and he’s made it through all these years and hasn’t been embroiled in Scandal or controversy and you know I’ve I just think he’s a rare a rare as I don’t know him personally but I will say that Tim Might you know he’s going to benefit me and my colleagues and my fellow survivors and so I think that’s just really interesting and something that you’ve you might consider you know looking into at some point how because I guess I should say one more thing is that this training for specifically for my cats are male female double counselor or dynamic of being at NADA guide per se but being a sort of facilitator for for a treatment I study subject or a client as it were to to have a beautiful experience that is balanced by a masculine feminine energies and if those people are are trained in these certain protocols they developed but that once you have that training done then you were then free to riff off and create your own style to verdigre and also it will be very easy to extrapolate to other medicines other compounds and it’s it’s the container that they’re creating so with all I said I love to hear from you how you feel about what I said in and what comes to the to the surface and for you to react to yeah I really look that and Maps the multidisciplinary association for psychedelic studies is so near and dear to my heart. And mrs. Mason person I’ve only been passing but being around him and hearing how he has affected and touched so many lives and every beautiful positive way gives me so much respect for the work that he and his colleagues and everyone that has to do with our organization similar ones gives them so many pops and I really really appreciative for the work that they’re doing because some people have a sense of understanding of what these compounds are capable of as far as the benefit but now that there is not scientific backing of okay he’s this makes you feel better a week down the line because of this mechanism of action that happens within your system in your body that’s amazing that this is now proven like the proof is in the pudding and that pudding is being offered and it really important container and contacts as you were mentioning it really does just take one bad incident one person said I did this awful thing while I was on she said but while I was under the influence of psilocybin for the government to decide okay well now that’s not going on the road to perhaps legalizing it exciting but obviously it’s bad so we’re not going to and the way that Max is doing it and creating these safe spaces in containers and vetting process to make sure that the set and setting are all in line. They have their ducks in a row to then administer and go through the therapeutic process makes it so that we can understand what’s happening on a scientific level and get the benefits on that personal level and the people that their training I I I one day be able to experience this extensive training so that I may also be able to offer myself and not be as helpful as I can be in in this way because not only are they impacting the people that they encounter what’s in these clinical settings but they’re forever positively alternative I I did send a training so that I would be pure support and just be there for someone who is having any sort of difficult psychological and maybe even physical experience and Ice Festival setting but going beyond that I learned to just be there for people when they’re having something that’s challenging and the way that you talk to someone when they’re experiencing something that can be really difficult will make or break the moment and we don’t have to have trips that are just really horrible and bad and make us afraid of it because there’s a way to know strutting around it with that love and support and having an experienced person there to let you guys jerk you’re tripping understand whatever it is that you need to go through Southern even taking that knowledge outside of a psychedelic experience but with loss and with trauma were just having a bad day you don’t need someone to tell you what to do necessarily but just be there and that makes me really big difference so I learned some awesome life skills through an organization. Maps has created and I’ve learned a lot from maps and not to see what amazing things they’re doing is super cool right on so how do you feel evvie great to hear how you feel about where you where you want to what time will somebody said to me once find what breaks your heart the most and that’s your life purpose to devote yourself to be teach it to do to be in service so I’m curious now if you were travels have have fun how they’ve added to revolve your your sense of purpose in your sense of where you want to be what you want to be doing and where and how and why I’m sure you’ve had some it’s about dates to just your your whole meta-narrative whole framework of reality today really embracing the things that have totally gutted me is what I’ve been living through this month I’m going to be absolutely Frank and give a trigger warning because what I’m going to talk about has to do with sexual assault and Trauma but first blanket statement my trip was wonderful and beautiful in many ways and what happened at the end doesn’t detract from anything that was beneficial or amazing and I still continue to travel and do what I did but my second time around in Lisbon I was I entered into an agreement with someone who is a stranger but a friend of someone I trusted a friend of a friend so as we’re talkin meeting for the first time and learn that needs a massage therapist being a yoga instructor and Super Active I’m like all right what you give massage Let’s do an exchange I haven’t had a massage and a very long time I can totally sit so the time comes for his part of the exchange to happen and I’m receiving this massage and just loving the nice touches and I get into a nice meditative a sweetheart just like vibrating state of enjoyment like not even on this plane and what ends up happening is I get sexually assaulted and moving through that and just having my whole world shaking it was like I was a Snowman in this snow globe in all of this all of the snow off the bottom had been settled things were really chill it was fine I felt like I was in a good place and when that happened that Globe was shaken up and after I was assaulted I immediately felt with my throat get sore and like I started getting really bad head congestion and the physical manifestation of what just happened to me on a physical psychological spiritual level was wholly apparent in my mind and my body at without me really being able to saying like this is how I feel right now because of this some of that came up but it was like I was transported back to the processing level that I was at maybe when I was early twenties was a teenager even I was so out of my body and out of my element in a country where I didn’t speak the language and it was super hard that was I was off my I was off-balance felt horrible and I was just I felt like I was doing so much on my own and I didn’t really have anyone to turn to for support and even when I was talking to my mom about it or my family about it or some friends some people were good at just being a bit like sitting there with it and holding space and letting me processor letting me talk about it I needed and not telling you what to do not telling me how I should feel that just letting me move through it and kind of figure out this trip experience on my own but most of the time it was well you shouldn’t have been in the room with a stranger or as soon as this happened you should have done this or I would have done this or now you need to do X Y and Z like that’s it’s coming from a positive Place most of the time but it wasn’t helpful as I continue to feel better from it and have more Lucidity towards what happened in my emotions and my processing and recognizing that it was actually normal for me to have a day where I just wanted to be in bed and like randomly cry and not want to talk to strangers or wear sweaters when it’s hot outside I just don’t want my body exposed that’s a normal response to an abnormal situation and as I’m thinking what what would I have wanted the people around me to do for me what did I need what how how could if I was a friend how would I support her or him then that went through this experience what can I do better and we don’t I I really only know how to be there for someone who’s been assaulted and been through this trauma because I have and really the training that I received from xando the organization that’s where that part of maps to sit with someone and not guy not tell them what to do but just let them process and figure it out in the support of space I like learned that and I had to be taught that in a different kind of contacts to be there for someone who has been assaulted and we need more of this Hunter training that will help us be a better friend better advocated better cursing in relation to anyone who has been through this and cousin when it comes to a medical contacts that guy I am doing my best to be much more sensitive and much more caring so that I can not be an imposing figure out where someone who’s telling someone how they need to handle their life but just we we all have this innate deep wisdom into what we need to move through things and survive sometimes we need someone to say you got it you know what to do I’ll be here for you you’re not going to fall and if you trip I’ll help you get off it’s okay so with that learning in that understanding a bit more of an understanding its myself and what I needed I am there’s there’s something that certainly and development in love or text you create a container or more a different kind of sensitivity training that isn’t just for it professionals and certain contacts but for anyone who wants to be I support not sure what that looks like 100% but something has got to come out of this something good absolutely will one of the most dramatic results that I experienced at a very tender age was luckily I mean I was running screaming crying spitting gagging I’m glad to be alive but totally in shock and and just devastated and I ran for I don’t know a couple of miles it had to be at least two to go to where I thought I would find the one the one member of my street family gutter Punk tribe who is my the want the the the woman who I was so enamored with and who I will do I beg to take my virginity and and she was just my my queen goddess protector very thin how lucky I was that I found her and that she was there and she just let me curl up on her lap and and cry and like everybody else on the street had been through it and people would walk by and just be like oh yeah your cherry pop welcome to the life you know who you are you know and so and I you know I heard it was interesting just looking back at the the response of those of those folks and just kind of having my flashbacks you know a bit here in in and I would say that it was a blessing coz she she was just a spare changing where I thought you would be on the sidewalk and she just went up she just I was there curled up crying and just kind of nestle into her and she continue to we just were there until very late and we’re just doing what we used to doing what you do what you was doing and luckily she had a place that she was staying so she could have bring me there and let me take a shower and have me lay down and and seal from that point from the extreme of being literally having my life threatened and and being assaulted that’s a combination that is is extra debilitating the to go from being totally spleen out like that with the you know sort of near-death sexual assault experience surviving it escaping finding her and then being in her care for at least that night and those critical hours were I don’t know I don’t know if you know like if I would have gone straight into a squad car or something or straighten to email into it or just not had found her if she wasn’t there I would have gone so much further down into I can’t even imagine it from that cuz I was one of the first and most extreme circumstances I don’t know what is right for you and I don’t know what the most healing or best most appropriate thing is he for you now in this moment or you know there’s no judgment or no would have should have could have hindsight 20-20 I can just say what what what I’ve appreciate about what was helpful for me and how lucky I felt knowing that I guess relative to other people or other conditions where you know I would if I had woken up in a hospital and didn’t even barely remember what happened in only bits and pieces came back over time you notice all kinds of different scenario so I just want to I guess in this moment say thank you to the Angelic spirits that created the synchronicity so that my the pendulum from extreme trauma went to a pendulum of Me Bonding and getting closer with somebody who I feel most comfortable with and who I who could make it possible for me to in a way not hate myself forever and just be like yeah you know what there’s no escaping it there’s you or it was bound to happen and you’re lucky to be alive and we’re here for you and now now you’ll just have to be that much more Street Smart yeah I should have known better why didn’t I do this you know and then and then the and I had already been a martial artists and I’d already been in that was the it’s even more devastating when you think you’re a badass and you like yeah I know all my moves everything but then all it takes is someone to just let you be slightly relaxed and be within your your your inner Zone and then if they’re really have like 50 times as much muscular strength as you there’s not much that you can do no matter how much of a ninja you you tried to be and that that’s probably the biggest hardest thing is to like forget for me forgiving myself for being lured into a defenseless State okay well what if I wasn’t here to be a ring fighter a cage fighter I was here to be a sexual shamanic fight and that I had to have that that knock out that technical knockout had to happen for me to to redouble my efforts into know why I’m here what I would have to know their know their weaknesses and their pattern if I’m at war with this greater monsters entity that is the The Intergalactic Spirit of sexual abusers that is all about animated into some multi-headed monster well I’ve got to expect that that it’s going to knock me down a few times before I knock it down and so in that sense if it was the battle but not the war in it and in it and now all of the battles that I lost Stephanie now is that I feel like yeah you were low-level like a larval demonic perpetrators who who who took cheap shots at me when I was barely developed at all like there’s no sport there there’s no dignity for you there now when we go into the bigger Arena the triumphant attitude and vibe that I want to have it puts in a context of like will coup if you were a spider and you and you really got embarrassingly knocked out like in 2 seconds when the first punch in the ring and everyone laughed at you and it was the most shameful and images demoralizing thing you if if you didn’t notice till I get up and fight and win that round but if you quit your career and you walked off and you spent all your you know you if you built up so much of your life to be a career fighter and you just like fold after one loss then that would be the real tragedy but as long as you take that experience and you learn from it and you and you really study the mistakes and you really look at animals saying this to you like I’m not being paternalistic to you but I’m saying like a zit a sexual shamanic spiritual Warrior that’s what I’d the archetype I’m trying to build here let it go let it we let us all have nothing but winning streaks just because I had the shameful embarrassing sexual exploitation kind of Journey with being a warrior that doesn’t mean that I’m it actually is is is life-affirming and invigorating and I believe that we will we will be assembling teams that will make safety and numbers more more of an established more common kind of Paradigm where we just I mean I’ve even joke let’s just what I would love to just walk back to back for the rest of my life with and with other even it’s like two people you could be walking crab legging back-to-back everywhere you go to the SIP to the mall to the store you know to get on the bus to get anywhere just that level of a vigilance will be what my heart craves and then in a group of people you could all be shoulder-to-shoulder and walking in a circle and just linking arms and slowly moving to this treacherous reality and and I would love to have that that level of full-time Vigilant 24-hour rotating watches total perimeter Security on a rape freezone but right now we’re just going to win a world where if you were just in our loan bodysuits and we’re really for its everything is left to chance and Mercy by those who are willing to do to cheat yeah so I don’t know how you feel and there’s no obligation to respond and I just wanted to share with you what what I at this moment would I have what I feel is the most done revitalizing in in NC refund invigorating as this this work on full of so thank you for acknowledging what I had and we’re also sharing your own experience and I hate that that happened to you and that it happens to people and these creditors feel they can get away with certain things and they know that they can because he do live in a society that is permissive to a lot of behaviors and a lot of things are just so underground that I think they like it’s so outside of everything around for many people that they don’t even believe this these types of experiences that we experienced happen or they find a way to to blame the Survivor because that just makes it make more sense to them like I don’t know it couldn’t have been this other person’s fault but it does and I I wish we could all be so hyper-vigilant for each other that this would eradicate all of me demonic slugs how you speak of but what has been super powerful for me healing and tough as well as speaking about it talking about it letting if I’ve taken a few weeks off of my Instagram social media because things have been not very easy another ways my grandmother passed away but I had the next day after it happened happened on October 23rd and so on October 24th I just wrote it all out and I let it be something that I opened the floor to questions into dialogue and it’s so much more powerful for me this time around because I have been able to control the narrative I have been able to control what I’m putting out in the world in this in this way I was violated but now it’s up to me to shift things in a direction where I have some control again because this hardest thing about this assault wasn’t the violating act in and of itself it was feeling so alone like after I kind of I wasn’t I didn’t outright tell my buddy who’s friend had assaulted me like your friend assaulted me but I said yeah he made me really uncomfortable and appropriate your friends and asshole and I’m going to leave for a while so I went and took myself to dinner and I came back to an empty apartment and I didn’t see him until the following evening I’m already in a country where I’m alone and I wasn’t expecting to we’re we’re not romantic with each other at all or just friends but I wasn’t expecting to not have a friend not have anyone there like he doesn’t have any necessary operation to me but it was really hard and I wasn’t until many many many days after the assault happened that I was able to snuggle up to a person I felt comfortable with just being and cry and let myself be sad and but myself start to emotionally process this because after it happened it was just kind of like Warrior mode and okay I let my defenses down I thought I could trust someone out and now I have to just be as hyper Vigilant as I can on my own because I’m on my own for weeks now it’s just up to me and what this brings to mind is I read it fucking High School part of the trilogy by KISS Girl with the Dragon Tattoo Guardian Salter and list of characters such a warrior amazing badass and she takes her revenge in a way that’s also why I finally beautiful brutal and not that that’s what I want to do I wear that’s what I feel I need to feel any sort of Vengeance but it’s me now taking charge of the narrative while letting people know that you can I’ve been an athlete my whole life I’m a strong person pretty emotionally strong I have traveled around the world for the most part really safely and intelligently just doing things on my own but it still happened and you can be really tough and really smart and your defenses go down and words someone abuses whatever crack say find in your armor and it happens it doesn’t it doesn’t say anything about you as a person that doesn’t mean you’re weak doesn’t mean that you’re not good enough it doesn’t mean you’re stupid it just means that this person isn’t a squirrel and they took advantage and they did something that is written wrong and it’s so sad and horrible at this happens it’s something that happened and I think that I didn’t even to talk about it put it out that way and I know because people have have talked to me after I was just really open about it and saying that I don’t feel like I have to beat myself at 4 having that last drink with someone that I felt that was my friend and then getting assaulted by them it wasn’t my fault this person did this to me it wasn’t my fault that I was in this area with I’m protected in some way it’s a set of circumstances that led to this horrible event but this. Other person the person who acted on me made the decision not me the victims not to blame and that’s something that I’m really just trying to emphasize with people who were like I certainly had mostly mostly men say you should have fought him off you should have screamed you shouldn’t have been there in the first place and it’s just repetitive if you can’t equate what happened to me because it was a situation where maybe you would have felt sexually charged being in a room by yourself with a woman you can’t make someone compared me to or compare the situation truck by like if I leave my bike on a busy Corner unlocked and someone takes it like that’s my fault so you being in a room with someone where you’re getting a massage and he’s a man or a woman you sent it is you putting on steak out on the table for a hungry dog like of course this happens like no you when you’re a professional you don’t go into this profession to assault people hopefully you going through it to heal people and if you’re claiming that you’re a Healer and doing something that’s the office that you’re a bad person and it’s not your clients fault that you’re a Apple I think that out of that and hoping to shine a different kind of night on this thing that happened to me I hope has been helpful in some way to other people because at least been helpful for me I’m glad you have a positive attitude and everything you say I’m totally aligned with in some days are easier than others today is a good day yeah I guess I would ask if you comfortable sharing since the the the date of the incident how would you describe the just the like as if you were mine you know I guess what I’m going to I’m wondering is the emotive expressive did you feel like you wanted to do something cathartic in a form of art or expression or did you if you felt like a total void in your creativity or how has how has the more subconscious send more energetic flow and effects been just cuz I feel like that’s doesn’t everybody wants to fix the problem specially man you know they want to get it over with or did you go to treatment are you in therapy now you know who are you dating again whatever and it’s like that’s on the surface of what you think about this order from the cerebral like I want to feel more expensive what coping strategies that you have developed on an energetic level or just you know how your dreams how are your how do you how are you sleeping to the colors of like seem to ebenflow from grayscale you know there’s just the more you poetry of surviving an experience to those are the things those are the guess the neglected aspects of the Arc of violence is like the those unknown language bull currents that that are flowing deeply so I don’t know if you can put words to that or maybe you will put song to that or dancer expressive movement or something to spend the most healing for me has been r y favorite mode is with the written language I write a lot I create a tree and I have investigated my mind and my heart and my spirit and my soul and my past present and future with word reading it for myself I had a cleansing ritual this past weekend where I wrote all nine different pieces of paper something that was holding me past that I wanted to let go of and from letting go what what I want to welcome in something in the present that was not serving that I wanted to release and welcomed something in its place and something that an image of the future that was pervasive in my mind that I wanted to release and replace with something different and it was a day where it was raining gray I had been feeling really bad that we can do is just a depressed not feeling productive for positive about the Future III all type of week now and I wrote These nine different things from three different time Ingles and I have a metal offend I put frankincense and copal resin and I let each paper away fire from The Stick of Palo Santo after I read it out loud and I dropped it in and I did that nine times until I was through with my stack of paper when I let it burn and I stood in this amazingly scented smoke and just let it swirl around me until it wasn’t that it was a smoking so much anymore and I put it out to Washed by the rain and I just stood there I felt like I was letting go of some of the things that we’re really holding me back and I as much meditation as I can do it as much time as I can spend on my yoga mat I was still getting these Cyclospora palliative thoughts of things that were harmful and things that would come up in dreams that were scary and I had the chance to face it speak out loud say it is no longer welcome here not replacing it the things that are positive and from that point forward I have felt a burden lifted and a light in my life shining that has been missing since this happened and also feeling like it sucks to not have someone who I can really turn to on a on a person-to-person level III not to say that I haven’t had friends who are being fully supportive because I have butt not someone that I feel really gets it and it was something we’re finally felt okay I didn’t feel like I was broken or damaged for not having that and I could be a support to Myself lyrics and I could State myself and enjoying my body for the sake of bringing about pleasure and I could and and I hadn’t danced in a while I think yeah I’ve been pretty sporadic that I had really been embodied in movement and all this week has been back in the studio feeling like I can’t get in my body again in a way that’s awesome Tech and not shaking from something scary that happened but just like okay I’m coming back so I have been welcoming myself back with movement and I released everything with word and I’m looking forward to seeing what else I can create what else will come from this what else someone might be inspired to bring forth through this all right I love collaborations and experiments and just exploring these beautiful artistic Realms with others and I’m sure that I will love what comes from this wise words so often you hear the trait kind of Silver Lining glass half-full kiss kind of from nuages and Isabel positive thinking and informations and appreciate the sincerity in in the way that you feel the way that you have it’s it’s it’s a very deep and Redemptive where do you express this in I want to applaud you for having this I hope you can applied yourself for having been that it’s it’s basic knowledge that what your what your your level of clarity and level of purposefulness and and healthy response I is it’s weird because the temptation to cool and sink deep into an abyss that’s that’s really how they beat us you know that’s really what they want and if we stand up to the after effects and we don’t fold in and I keep telling myself on my dude don’t let this triggering moment crush you like a tin can and and if you just don’t let anything crush you like a tin can you you help other people there’s so many canned responses to on all sides of these events in whether they are often ways to just hide from deeper truths or to avoid through formalities just avoid a deeper responsibility of care and I would say that what I pray for for all of us and all the survivors in the past and future survivors that will be is that the culture that will the human culture gets to a point where we we have Survivor leave from work from school from all of their duties that we have do we have families and parents have budget set aside for if these things happen so that a buffer can be created from any financial responsibility for any any give me the time that it takes I I just all I care about for myself as like I would consider a high level of success and wealth just to just to be able to press a button hypothetical button or a magical imaginary button when I need it’s like okay no one needs to know exactly what I’m going through in this moment but it could take a few days or a few weeks or a few months I don’t know but I want to always be able to put everybody and everything on on a on an elegant pause An Elegant hold and don’t worry about me I’m not going to kill myself I just want to go on to cannabis, and meta bait alone somewhere and in the worst thing is is it to me the worst thing is that Guillotine always coming down on my head of when the bills are due how much money is available to me and so is his chronic that hamster wheel ism is it safe to have sex with your sexual abuse trauma Survivor is like you’re on a hamster wheel of razor blades you know it’s it’s not pleasant and it’s not easy to go through the motions of traffic and stress and workload it’s all mostly bulshit anyway you know what I mean even if it’s for a good cause it’s still so wrapped up in 8 hour work days and deadlines and being on your you know responding to emails in like no one wants to get an auto reply that says PTSD meltdown see you whenever by and I certainly haven’t been able to only a few cases only a few chapters in my life have I been blessed to be able to actually sink into the Stillness to actually retrieve the Stihl Parts cuz they’re just right there you know but you’ll never will never be able to slow down enough I mean I don’t want to say the never hear it the way that they’ve rigged this whole reality is it like oh you got you were bolitas and you were bullied and on the playground or well you’ll never have time to actually deeply consider how that affects you because she hears the next thing to do on your to-do list on your pile of things to do at your desk with her to school or work or whatever or you or or becoming a parent and just seeing that I know parents who were trying to recover from all kinds of abuse and Trauma and and it’s beautiful that they have this vicarious Joy A New Hope full refreshing view of a potential for a more safe and Morris Saints I’d life for people care in her present but even that is still takes they still need a vacation to be able to really sink in and it just has hamster wheel Rat Race even if you’re not aspiring to be the most richest most famous most Fast Company fast money entrepreneur and you just are going kind of with the flow that flow is not designed to give us any real deep space time abundance to two kind of connect a bunch of dots and rinses reflects so I just been praying that what if we don’t single-handedly wipe out all demonic parasitic sex demons on Earth in our lifetime that it very least we change the Paradigm of people knowing that okay this this this disgusting disease perversion of mostly male Egos and male sexual sexuality is is not going to go away maybe not go away really anytime soon but our cultural adaptive strategies to it existing can be a lot more intelligent and they can be a lot more and it can be precluded to mean the way that we the way that we can quarantine Ebola we can quarantine this as a culture but it takes it takes a way more in enlightened approach to what we’re going to need to do to to not only prevent possible circumstances and I even would say that something that this is not a game this is about by no means to to for either of us as survivors or to anyone else who are survivors if it’s not too along that line of thinking of of like you’re saying about well that the cliche is asking for it by whatever means that by whatever measure but what I would say is that I would say we are all asking for it when we do not create social sexual containers were there are there are referees for overseeing all every single sexual act that happens between two people because this Cult of private and idea that who’s in order to enter if I want to have sex with this woman I can’t let her know that and some appropriate sort of dance of a way I have to intoxicate her kind of push her into the night late at night so I know when the buses stop running I know when she’s going to have to rely on me for a ride wherever I’m going and it’s like that is the whole modus operandi is that people are not comfortable being sexual in groups therefore they lose the buddy system when when they get aroused and it’s like no you need the buddy system more in bed than you do crossing the fucking Street everybody that we need to be able to say oh yeah naked stuff sure butts grabbed 10 people to hang out and enjoy it with us and then you will be 10 million times less inclined to see what you can get away with because no one can hear the screams or no wonder we’re too far away from you know the light or whatever those those files circumstances are that these that these mostly men are there rape artists and II when I first heard that term I was shocked and mortified and Intrigue they don’t know what they don’t know about how sweeter and better and more gratifying it is to actually earn the affection that you still desire and earn the the the touch that you would like to have or that you would like to share with someone else so it’s going to be a long road ahead for sure and and I’ve got your back and I’m glad that others do and I will say that those are the best and kindest words and most invigorating words that I can come up with an LSA that at this point in our conversation I want to give it back to you to share all of the thoughts and feelings that you feel called too and to also please do if you’d like to share some just words directed at our listeners who will be looking to engage with your work and connect with you online and enough so hopefully offer support and various ways to your ongoing projects and interview going through these These Times of healing and yeah oh you it is it is all you know where some share and hearing I’ve got your back is powerful and invigorating an absolutely kind listening really hot outside what you have gained from this as positive I know it was it was probably pretty tough to hear some of it for many of you and thank you for I can threaten listening I I can turn out no matter what it is your experience think you’re not alone if you want to reach out to me at any time I am accessible yet my social channels on Instagram I’ve got an email on my website and and if you want to throw this up somewhere where your listeners can take away those magical channels please that would be great I am performing around Los Angeles for the next few months until I complete my next. So that I can come back and teach people to teach other people continue to spread this wonderful yummy yogurt business and I’ll be hosting several workshops in the coming months so throw that up on Instagram when dates are finalized but I’m super excited about it and I hope that you are too because it high going to be as authentic as I can make it and really becoming more fully embodied with whatever it is we’re experiencing and yeah I’m I’m here for you I need some of you see this I look forward to it be awesome shoot me a line and I thank you again for having me back thank you yes always welcome anytime and wishing you absolutely the best for you homecoming adventures and now I hope our iPads cross and lsbn touch the name of the book that I mentioned earlier esoteric anatomy of the body is consciousness by Bruce Berger so now more than ever I feel compelled to redouble my studies and my understanding of how to how to move blockages and move yeah move move foreign objects that get lodged in our energy field through these whether they were I’m just getting a visual right now that I guess I want to I want to throw in at the very end of here I’m seeing now like a medical kind of schematic drawing that shows how when it could even be just sexual harassment verbally it’s just like when when an attack or assault happens to to a person’s energy field it’s it’s like there is a a wound surface abrasion it can be just like you know affecting the astral body in a similar way is that they have you no First Responders would know okay is it a burn is an abrasion is it a contusion is it a puncture is it an impalement and these are all terms you know you learn what tools to apply in a first aid situation and to identify them and in all cases if there is a breaching of the outer barrier of the skin the protective layer that key sir organs in our blood and all of our precious vulnerable cellular material however the breach occurs whatever the nature of the breach is it becomes a moment of opportunity for opportunistic organisms to infect that that area and so when I think about the emotional body that he has to about the delicate sexual body the these levels of our being set when when when we get wounded in these ways it’s an opportunity a tragic opportunity for dormant dormant material dormant pathogenic material in other parts of our astral body to sniff that out and to go and try to reactivate themselves it’s an opportunity for just whatever was in the room at the time to jump in I’m bored and to be a stowaway on your ship of your being and there is the introduction of exactly what was a particulate matter of the perpetrator themselves and that can be transmitted to sound waves from their words the creepiness the there’s multiple different categories of infectious material that opportunistically takes advantage of these the weakening of that of of the immune system of our of our total of all these levels are being so I feel like the the duty that we have talking about healing talking about psychedelics talking about orgasm talking about touch and movement as it’s it’s what we’re constantly doing is fighting off these infections and some of them are deeply lives with us and get get stirred up by new trama and some of them are just all around us all the time circling all of us on the subway and on the dance floor and it’s at the bar and say the the Heart and souls of the work that were talking about it were hoping to exude I believe is that were going to just create more and more robust and resilient systems that can be ever purified and will purify the culture and purify ourselves and you know will come back and be reincarnated and do this again and again and again and and just create those light tendrils and let them be less hindered and let the harmonies of our yeah what the harmonies really be sweet and and and beautiful and let this this really vile ugliness kind of get more quarantined in eventually composted yeah absolutely alright then where you have a wonderful night and then just want to put it out there feel free to Lean on Me call text last Christ high fives you’ll be hearing from me all right you have a wonderful deep restful nursing sleep then is going to be late so have a good night thank you for listening to the touch of Time Podcast please go to www.crunch.com and cook on the Donate button to help support the show in addition of sustaining and improving the podcast your donations will help establish permaculture goddess Temple after bite ecological employment for single mothers Please Subscribe and share your favorite episodes if you have questions or comments feel free to leave a voicemail at 818-275-1593 or email band at Tantra Punk. 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Abolishing Circumcision as a Form of Child Sexual Abuse with Nurse Courtney Garner TPP159

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In this episode I’m joined again by the one of the most experienced and highly qualified tantra practitioners I know, Courtney Garner, for a heart and gut wrenching (but absolutely necessary and long over due) discussion of the shadow of circumcision.

She has done some deep research and has created an amazingly entertaining and informative video to share her factual findings, thoughts, and emotions.

Please watch it here:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2eSa9k5R3mM

We broadly cover:

  • the historical roots of practice
  • theories of it’s motivation and it’s rise to dominance in the western medical paradigm
  • the shadowy history of the sex-negative medicalization of the practice
  • why it’s ethically, medically, psychologically, and sexually questionable to say the least
  • how to manage and care for natural penises with foreskin
  • myths about hygiene
  • personal anecdotes that help illustrate the benefits of being uncut
  • and more!

About Courtney:

Courtney Garner- Mindful Living, Tantra, and Sexual Healing Expert
Authentic Tantra® Practitioner & Tibetan 5 Element Healer, Nurse, Board Member IATE

https://www.absolutetantra.com/

Courtney is a highly effective Mindful Living and Sexual Healing Expert providing instruction and support to bring mental balance, emotional fulfillment, and awaken all forms of pleasure in our lives.

She accredits her contagious joy to being “refined by the Fire.” From early experiences of trauma, she has cultivated spiritual integrity, compassion for others, and a passionate love of Life!

As a nurse and Tibetan Tantra practitioner, she’s woven Western medical knowledge with Eastern holistic methods to expand the scope of health and wellness available to the public. Courtney guides her clients through a spiritual adventure, with concrete understanding of the body’s physical and energetic synergy. She focuses on empowerment through building body awareness, and having a healing system in place to maintain spiritual health.

Currently, her mission is to share the art of catalyzing spiritual growth by integrating sexual energy, and using this power to further our conscious evolution.

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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin podcast episode number 159 I am with Courtney Garner again of absolute Tantra. Calm and we’re going to talk all about circumcision today it’s been a subject that I am very passionate about but I have sadly or unfortunately been somewhat of a coward to to speak out a lot about this I am at my mother blessed me to remain uncut and and I have some stories about my experience with that a growing up in this mostly cut culture and will probably get into a little bit of that that anecdotal stuff later I buy just wanted to say that the main reason this is happening is because Courtney put together a fantastic video that is so fun entertaining and educational and just really no-nonsense straightforward important facts and some of the most obscure and pertinent facts to really understanding I think what you could call it a really kind of Insidious conspiracy that’s been going on and you know you there so many different Insidious motivations that that need to be looked at and anyone I feel we will get it wait but we’ll get into that I’m going to stop myself from going to soapbox but this is just please continue listening please go to the video go to the web page for this podcast episode or just go to her website or YouTube and definitely look at this video and and hopefully every time you or someone you know is about to go through the process of making this decision to not do it blindly into have as much of the as many of the facts and as much awareness is is possible on this is really the best now I’d say go to Resource so with all that said Courtney thank you so much for making a video and for doing all your great work and you’ve given your background before so why don’t we just get started right with them if you know maybe some updates from you how you’re doing what’s new what’s planned in a few in the near future and I will get into really your research on that video and and what you’d like to share with people there Courtney I’m guessing find more about me at Absolute Tantra. Calm and I’m really happy that bin appreciate this video because I made it because I wanted people to have the information and I know that that’s a big thing that’s lacking around circumcision nobody talks about it cuz I’m really excited to share with you guys that information today but I’m a full-time Tantra and struck Michael living expert and every day I’m just working to give us more knowledge about our bodies about our spiritual health and how that’s a necessity pressed into breaking her everyday life means no worry about her spiritual healthy guys how we feel how we can process promotions and lately I’ve been working on making my myself actually making myself more accessible to people in person so I’ve been doing a lot of healing sessions lately going to people’s events still that stuff is something I’m up open to do more of a really thrive on Connection in person connection I reached out to people and sharing information so that’s why we get along so well because we both love to teach and share about what we know will help other people so I can have this life I live in that we’re growing up and as we learn we have the ability to to share and that’s a gift so and I did as much as we can in the future you guys can fight wingsnmore webinars I know that’s something that he would ask me to do more of those so I will just going to be a challenge with no activation button are coming up in a couple months so look at my website for updates that’s awful absolute country. Calm so yeah that’s that’s update on me and still living here California enjoying the sunshine and join the peaches really connecting with nature out here and making that a part of my daily practice so yeah yeah so maybe I will get started so do you want to talk about just the your motivation and more about your motivation and it’s just a process kind of a behind-the-scenes for that video and then we can get zoom in on some of the the concepts and the history and what not in the video was I found out about the infant circumcision about the trauma that I’m from doing research and you know being concerned about men’s sexual health and I really had no idea that something so normal so common and you know kind of prescribed some something recommended is so harmful and causing us on and sew for me is like if they knew if I could just share this information with people they knew that it was damaging and it wasn’t just about you know having a penis that looks neater and is less prone to infection what they’re doing that I think they would change their minds and so that was my motivation at first released a infant boys they give them the chance to grow up intact give it a chance to grow up with your full sensation when having that contribute to their connection with themselves connection with sexuality was the feminine energy and I think having a foreskin contribute to all of that the goal for this the video that I’m going to get you was really for us to be able to share and if you ever have anybody that’s having a baby boy and you you know you’re not sure if they’re going to circumcise or not just a wire do is send them the link and they watch the video and I’m very confident that they will change their minds if not email me your heart make a survey circumcision hotline don’t do it. Don’t know cuts very simple but it changes the course of that man’s life how he how he perceives pleasure how you perceive connection Harper has his own body and of course there’s a lot of men that are circumcised right there and have a wonderful Sex Lies they have a great connection with your penis and I want to celebrate that also this is you know not in any way to make men feel as if they are incomplete or lacking something without foreskin but it’s too late down the facts that it really does cut out 70% of your sensation and a lot of other things are going to get into later but if equations of it is real so we want to treat it seriously don’t just brush it off as some elective surgery that you don’t make your your child’s penis look better as he grows up right now that’s a thing to understand that right and is it okay for me to mention that you have a background in nursing so you actually have someone would you say that that you’re back on nursing helps inform your medical perspective on this issue so you actually are in a position to argue very intelligently about hygiene about all this stuff really appreciate that you have that sums curious if that was a played a role in your in your chest to your lens you know protein is the reason that I love human body and I love to understand it and know how to heal it would have to be in there so bringing in Tantra to that was not an extra layer of understanding and knowledge and now I might be able to work with the energy so that we can heal the body so bringing my nursing into that I’m thinking about yes hygiene and affection and then also relating it to the homologous structures of a woman’s body and how we perceive that cuz if we can open ourselves up and look at each other instead of separating you know this is what men do this is what women do when we can use each other’s each other’s forms of Reflections do you like Hey Okay so the only is sensitive where am I sensitive like the young Edie the nipples are sensitive nipples to be sensitive or not just you know meant to be there and when we can open ourselves up to seeing the potential by reflecting off of each other then we’ll both have will both expand from there I think it’s it’s good to look at the other body so yes my nursing the knowledge that I have about the human body how to heal infection which one thing about the milly fashion about healing illness in the body and now with the understanding of Eastern healing tactic a healing techniques Eastern medicine now I can see how to go to the root of the issue so that I feeling the symptoms you know taking supplements can go to the root of it and where is the energetic and balance that’s going on and so that helped me to understand also with circumcision that you have parts of your being that need to be connected in order to feel whole right we have our spirituality and sexuality we have our emotional part in that all needs to be integrated with her mind when we engage in sex when we want to have a whole experience seeing how the brain damage seeing how the procedure of circumcision traumatize has the Babies R A normally causes changes that is an obvious sign that of course you are going to be in misalignment if you are not able to feel at peace in a Philip field one with your pleasure I’m so yeah that’s that’s really what I would have comes down to his connecting all those dots feeling feeling at peace feeling at one with your pleasure feeling cold with your body no matter what it looks like awesome yeah so this is something I believe I first heard from Devi Ward she at one point and one of her podcast definitely been a few years now but I believe She interviewed somebody who had some scholarly research that could basically pretty convincingly prove that there’s a correlation between the more patriarchal Dominator or like conquering cultural relative to circumcision in that there’s a correlation that just male violence is attributed could be attributed in large part to Justice to be a little less scientific a little more a little more spiritual psychological that you know I guess you could say I definitely would imagine that if I had that original trauma at Birth or near birth and if that was my first impression of the hostility and the violence and the aggression the world that I would probably pretty resentful and want to or just be more susceptible to to the seduction of evil doing it whatever that make might be for a culture it just seems like a way to really set people up to be if opposed to Nature opposed to to life in into just be easier to manage is soldiers or whatever so I don’t know if that’s that’s kind of a if you encountered much of that or if you have that intuitive sensor if you have thought you were an astronaut Abby great was that because these changes that have been is a doctor call doctor doctor call tanara he’s done a lot of research on it actually found some of his documentation of his research on circumcision. Org so I guess not go there and do your own research but he was talking about the solar change it on the brain that they saw after the procedure on these babies wear with reasoning emotions perceptions so just thinking emotional processing is a problem there and we know it’s a society that we have a major issue with toxic masculinity with men not being able to process your emotions be able to connect with emotions and a lot of it has to do with the space that there and write the environment that they’re in the that allows space for men to be vulnerable to be emotional but just a naturally if you think about how difficult it is versus how easy it is for a woman to connect right what do we do what is what patterns do we have in our society that we still can contribute to that and I definitely believe that the regular routine circumcision contributes to our are men’s lack of emotional connection or ability to process it and that’s one of the things that if you think about in the in history how they gain control over men rice Russia attacking sexuality with women how you gain control over women attacking a sexuality it’s a major part of our existence is how we got here so when that’s threatened it’s just a part of us and we are majorly blocked when our sexual or sexual energy is block it so yeah it’s a definite control device whether it’s intentional or not I think that that’s definitely part of our our societal issues that we want more emotionally bulb one of them want men to be able to full space for our emotions emotions rights of course we want you to be able to do that for yourself first and I think that will be a lot more accessible to do when a man has a sore skin intact and has also had the environment to cultivate that so there’s factors of course in though you know the way you grow up but without the initial trauma of being an infant and you got here like you just got here a week man and bonding with your parents your mom is your number one caregiver you know you trust the most you just got here a week and they put you in the spice and lock you down and the anesthesia that they use has theirs is not tested to be a hundred percent effective and baby still show paint you know pain is we can’t do it for them we can see the signs of it and it’s grimacing screening till they pass out and those are signs that they’re feeling pain and then next thing you know they have this this bandage around your penis and a big part of them is gone really interesting part about the foreskin is that it’s the most sensitive part of a man literally has special tissues inside the tissue that that they actually throw away or are they sell we’ll get to that later but they’re special cells and that she does not anywhere else but it allows a man to have his orgasmic sensation with just a foreskin and of course it’s going to ask you is pleasure going to add to his sensitivity so yeah wow there’s the other so much amazing important and say in this and so I guess it’s hard to kind of organized this but so so yeah we pretty much covered the I’m getting a little bit of a glimpse into the trauma of it and I think now the the the next logical place to go with this after kind of setting that that tone is to just try to understand put this into a historical and cultural context and I think what was people am assuming that were people the kind of cognitive dissonance people have about this it’s just that they don’t have really any clue about the origins or really how how it relates to just a cross-cultural perspective where we don’t you would think that you would compare to other coach and save why is everybody doing this if if all these people are still if a huge population percentage of the world population is still doing absolutely fine naturally what what’s the comparison here and there’s just obviously that this Narrative of everything and Western Medical Science being the most tested in the most proven and everything else is primitive relative to whatever we believe is The Cutting Edge no nope no pun intended but it’s actually a really anomalous a really anomalous and kind of bizarre cultural form of expression in I mean you could compare it to clitorectomy or or stretching earlobes or putting plates you know there’s so many ways that people modify the body in traditional settings however that form of modifying the body is not is nowhere near as widespread as ear piercing and tattoos and haircuts and dying the skin and stuff like that so it’s a very I’m just wondering if now if you would if you talk about what you’re sort of broad overview is of the origins of his practice and how it became so monolithic and in medicine and all that stuff today can Muslim cultures as far as religious reasons a lot of people do it for cultural reasons but as it stands there are our country will the US has the majority of their males are circumcised and that number has decreased last five seven years and I think that’s also because of education but the the use of it for LeSabre cultural reasons even historically the bris it was she was ceremony Packers right but it started off as just a Nick flesh you know the cause of blood sacrifice didn’t actually cut off the fool for skin on it so that itself has developed you know into what it is today but in the western culture in 1870 dr. Kellogg the same guy that made Corn Flakes he was a person that really did not like sex sex was bad. It was sinful masturbation was definitely something that’s going to send you straight to hell and then also just sex in general was depleting to the human form it was like a succubus draining something you should definitely avoid major brain fog and all that so he came up with a campaign to decrease the likelihood of boys masturbating I’m in that included by changing your diet so he thought that plane Foods grains and nuts those kind of things reduce your desire but things that were flavorful increase your desire so I thought that by giving voice clicks and is Bland cereal is going to help reduce their desire also teach you how to get you full and you I guess I guess for him. When masturbating you did that this guy has no marriage he had children that he adopted but his wife and him slept in separate rooms never had no, sex and so this is the guy that’s making a protocol and for me when I under when I realized this was kind of this is how it started in the US as a regular procedure when he talked about it in his book about purpose of using not using any anesthetic because the pain associated with that is going to be in a really make an impression on the baby boy that make you never want to touch his dick again and it’s going to buy some that was the purpose of it and now how do we get from from its starting this way to stop masturbation where now we know that masturbation is not so much stronger pain is more kind of you know marketed in the court and Industry is encouraged to just you don’t masturbate so it’s not I don’t think that’s the reason to dip the reason definitely is for normalcy everybody does it the end of the Corn industry most of the penis is there are cut it looks neater understand that that’s what they say and so as young men growing up as young women growing up actually just see me images of the penis is that we do see there you know they look neat natural and to us that becomes too good at becomes the you know the normal and natural Tina now has a bad rash looks like it’s some it’s a the ugly one but in reality it’s it’s how you’re born and it has a lot more function and special special function to it that really makes it valuable and some rest you can see and you just kind of cut it off without having a grounded a really good reason to do it then that’s where the hole is is that people are still doing it without really knowing what it is you still allow people send me that it’s better because it’s easier to clean and it looks better to them but I feel like that is is not enough reason I’m to cut up and listen to the part of your body that’s it that seems like a real a real disconnect and I believe did you make did you make the analogy one point about how the what other place on human bodies is moist and needs to be cleaned up so why would we not let’s another male thing to use a man right then you can be messy you can I get some dirty socks and maybe a little smelly and you’re so cool as a Lawman we’re supposed to be clean smell great clean and dry all that and so we will be going up on what with a lot more Yoni shame and awareness of sentence moisture and all that and also because you don’t have a white hole where his men who especially the men who are circumcised they don’t have the sense of a wet hole they have been exposed but if they were to be more natural part of the foreskin the reason for it is it keeps the glans moist so you have the sense of this moist soft delicate tissue on your body and I think that’s a really good analogy for to drive with women because hygiene so you know it’s a natural thing for us all to be aware of and a simple thing like that could make up man with a natural penis just feel good I know that talk to men with Napa penises in car their insecurities in the past has been you know girls maybe don’t want to give them oral sex or they feel like it’s extra skin is is extra skin is not nothing else and I was just an awareness but if we can’t allow people to understand what it is and why it’s great it’s just like the yummy lips would you tell your you know what to tell a woman that her extra skin in her labia majora our lady Lenora was ugly and that she should trim it off would you tell her that you know other girls have no clitoral hood and that looks better and so you should do that like no we wouldn’t do that and I feel like that’s the lack of empathy that we have for these male bodies is understanding how sensitive it is I agree and so yeah I feel like I don’t did you did you come across this at all in your research and if not I’m I just it’s just kind of my my random armchair Siri but I feel like the the the utility of their of there being a sort of cultural conspiracy to makes it to normalize circumcision it seems like it came out of the area and it and and places in the world where perhaps there wasn’t as much available water to wash with and for soldiers who are Marching and and perhaps didn’t have any the expediency of not having to have a responsibility to care for your foreskin and and cleaning and drying the glands and all that it seems like it would slow down battle and soldiers in war and that’s just my my picture for conspiracy theory about how they’re probably trying to streamline you just remove any obstacle to trench work that surviving a trench warfare because it is already I mean well any form of warfare with your Marching for days and you may not have you don’t we wouldn’t a general would not want the liability all right man we need to hike 15 miles out of the way start sit water so we can all wash your junk you know I don’t know I don’t know if that’s it but it seems like station Fort Fort cock Spa on iPod worn itself right or create new habits if anything it creates new habits based on the the need for them to survive even like his think they say in Romans with the boys they had little boyfriends when they are out at War and that was definitely a different change in their their normal society and they did it to adopt a war so even now let’s see if the circumcision they’re doing something to adapt to war and especially with the penis if it is infected if it’s irritating but you really can’t do anything right it kind of puts you makes you miserable so it’s a distraction so it doesn’t make sense for them to find a solution for according to those times, but right now where I am why do we need to continue this procedure and we can’t really find I can’t really find a good reason but I know what the damage it does and part of that damage just you know I’m keeping men the glass ceiling of connection right yes it is. I was probably a spectrum from the more Moline to the more benevolent or sort of benign just visit a couple of things to come to mine one is never attribute malice to what can be explained by incompetence so it could be just that you know the if there was any justification which and I don’t think either you or I would have would agree that that is a that is justifiable to do that cuz so I call your men are really empathetic and feminine and they don’t want to go in March for days and be wasting their their Gardens in her family while maybe that’s a good thing I know and then yes oh it did there’s that I mean there’s two sense of there could be there could very well be these beasties agendas well that’s a very the way that you do the research you’ve done pretty much exposes that they’re there is Extreme anti pleasure hatred of pleasure which to the extreme levels of just dr. evil kind of stuff and then hiding in the guise of Medical Science and that’s another thing that that hurts so much cuz it’s like another betrayal and a stab in the back to be trusting doctors and have them be demented Twisted sexless freaks that are hurting people I’m a skilled and that’s not the first time this has happened I mean even let it the guy who put lead in gasoline and is responsible for so much like one of the most ecocidal Maniacs it’s ever walk the earth like I said documentary on the history of his legacy and science just one you would think it came out of some conspiracy theory but yeah I think the not everybody is doing this the parents that are signing up for this they don’t really have any clue about these agendas and they’re just going through the motions right and didn’t you have some research about there being even Financial incentives by a sort of circumcision industrial complex of sorts do you want to talk about that that yeah yeah the soap for skin part of the motivation which is not a surprise right because his money behind everything so there’s products that use fiberglass of those are the cells of the foreskin those are the cells going to give you this nice you know very useful look anti-aging is a big interest rates at use industry so there’s ice cream that you use you appliances like you know any level eight and Tiny face rain but it is made with the cells of course can baby foreskin so think about all these regular routine circumcision if we were to stop them then where’s the market for the foreskin cream like that’s millions of dollars maybe billions of dollars that there that they’re going to lose so just like any pharmaceutical company that if they were going to you know if your taking medication off the off the market that they lose money through that hole that hold medication another reason to you know promotes problems and give him a big give him a fix for it so you know what circumcision if we were to yeah if we were to take off that that that Supply then how would they meet the demand for a product that we can you know you don’t get it one way and that’s by harming a baby so that’s why I think that’s a huge motivating factor and the reason why I still exist because we have too much sense for that I believe you guys you don’t go on so so easily without giving it more of a thought process ends really considering wants to use the foreskin that would love to know how it is to have it oh yeah there’s ears markets out there to do facials for it you know just got your biohazard bags full of some baby foreskins he’s just off to Europe for something kind of creepy kind of catabolic but we’re doing so you’re basically putting the emotional trauma of babies on to our faces for us to look better like ice exchange or making basically brought that up and I just feel like all the animal rights people all of the human rights people I mean this is it it feels like and also the approaching and the removing tasks from animals and just it’s it’s this only leads in One Direction which is trafficking if that’s gay. I mean it sound level that’s going to be part of it yuck I just can’t I can’t believe it well Olivia had something else to share if you guys the funny fact about dr. Kellogg so he had a lot of other crazy ideas one of those crazy ideas was understanding that diet affect you or your mood and things like that so he thought you know what’s changed I change the person but he wanted to hook people up to accommodate a colonoscopy so she’ll two flushes your whole bottle system with water but then the next thing he does need injection yogurt from your esophagus and your anus at the same time he fills you up with yogurt but this is a procedure that he proposed tested to get done to have you know as a regular medical procedure on thank God that one. You know knock. I got to be towed and they didn’t approve that one but that was never mind that we you know that he’s operating from so just a fanatic and even if it wasn’t you know him just his his hand the reason that this is this today just knowing that he was a pioneer of it and support it and give it some medical basis which is what people you know what people look for and that’s kind of the the the delusion she was thinking that when someone gives you medical basis for a procedure that it’s now safe and yet you can trust it do your own research if it’s yourself know your own body how do you feel and really think about that because you can’t trust anything. That’s when your motivation that’s not in your best interest right and I’m going back to contemplate consent if it’s a child who does not have the ability to be to have informed consent in your apparent than the responsibility to do this research because you were taking your basically that is really the most core trauma that men carry it the who have that who had that procedure done so I wonder if you know I’m I’m just got to be parents out there who’ve gone to the experience of realizing that they made a mistake after they did some research later and then just I wouldn’t want to live with that thank you I mean yeah so so be great to get into some of the the more than myth busting my ass bigger things and I’ll share a little bit about my life history this is the first time I’ve ever really access these memories are shared them with anyone but but I can remember vividly the first time when I had a urinary tract infection when I was maybe five six maybe probably five or six years old and I just remember having no shame in public about squeezing my my junk and as hard as I could and screaming and that my mom you know help what’s going on and and and it was just to let you know that the run-of-the-mill garden-variety urinary tract infection and we had to go to the doctor and the doctor I didn’t feel any shame or anywhere nice around around that but basically what I had been doing without better instruction or knowledge or training was that I would just be urinating through the foreskin without rolling a back and I have done that just out of habit without having really any other brothers or any other reference point for uncircumcised men so that was just can’t you know it was that important important to provide that instruction I realized and I but I went to that and then I was told from that point you have to roll the skin back and you have to keep it clean and dry and you and I even this is interesting to is like I sit down when I pee and I wipe the tip of my penis so that when the force been forcing goes back down I’m not leaving you know droplets of urine sitting in there to get funky and so that’s something that should just be okay that’s a no-brainer I mean that that eliminates in precludes 99.9% of anything that could possibly ever really go wrong it’s just accept that there’s some healthy natural moisture and that it is important to to bathe regularly and another the best reason to be anti-war so that we can have more uncircumcised men one kind of memory for my past growing up and then ever since then it’s it’s not been a problem and then I think there was a time when I at some point in early life was I don’t think I was really made fun of maybe I felt a little bit protective like I would maybe choose a stall in the Boys Room in school or whatever where I wasn’t exposed as much as I would notice that I was different but when I asked my mom about why that was you know she said I was not going to mutilate you that this is how you were you were born this is how your Nature Made You know she wasn’t really religious I shouldn’t say this is how God intended you but when I think about it this is how God intended as it were born perfect and you want to use that religious car you going to play the religious card then what why did it go I made a mistake is that possible in your book I don’t think it’s possible that you broke so how about using that back right back at you with the Perfect Design do you as a nurse or someone now that you study this and with men I don’t know if any of your male clients are suffering from this I know some dinner actually going with like reconstructive surgery options and stuff but I’m just curious if you have now if you’re going to kind of put together for yourself a a list of recommendations you know if her parents and stuff Here Pay Here’s to make it easy for you to make the decision to leave it intact you got to just have these basic bits of knowledge you know about about hygiene really if you feel like you found your working on something where you can make it easy for people yeah I think that’s that’s something that I definitely should get to because even to do my research I didn’t realize how widespread the ignorance was just like Paris to First Look up and taking the information openly and see okay now I have all this information and if I want to continue to heal could you have a circumcision and what are your reasons would that what is your intention and I think act asking yourself those questions will help to make the right decision of the healthiest decision for your baby cuz remember this is not about you circumcision is not about you at all it’s about your child and child care concentric Ben said he can’t stay don’t cut on my dick like I can’t you so it’s a lifetime decision that you’re making for your child so take it that seriously and will do everything you want me to mention Ben or something I just if so if you when you’re describing the people the procedure when you’re when you’re describing the people that procedure of cleaning there is there is you looked at you you found some information about what’s what’s generally clinically recommended for a yeah a term for a for what when you’re supposed to basically you do need to do some age-appropriate work to make sure that the foreskin develops properly and there’s a bit of a if there’s if there’s there’s some extra steps in the process that could be observed to make it a more seamless Afrin no pun intended to seamless missing the process yeah but the foreskin naturally retract on its own and usual start to do with you know between ages of 2 and 6 start to separate the foreskin is attached inside to the penis and so you can’t force your traction are you really shouldn’t but it’ll start to AutoZone and usually that’s when we start to see some smegma like cheese and soy sauce sauce around that or I feel dirty but it’s just it’s natural so that’s skin sloughing off then as a man used by the time he reaches 18 he’s able to fully retract and that will happen at its own pace so each each bodies different there’s not like a set time when a man says like okay right now I’m at my horse that should be retracted so just really pay attention to your body and when you when you do clean it the reason the foreskin is there to protect right so when when you clean it thoroughly fact you want to make sure it’s clean it’s dry and I say treat the foreskin like a vagina when we watch a vagina we don’t put any harsh soaps in it use if anything when you can use soap and water warm water and the gentle you know brushing up our fingertips but you want to put put it back when you’re done so you clean it you dry it and you put the skin back because it’s kind of like putting back on your protective protective sheet and that’s to help keep it moist which keeps the tissues healthy and sensitive and when a man is you know when a man is circumcised when he’s cut there is no sense it there’s no protection there it’s overtime and overtime gets less less than to do I saw the foreskin is there to keep that since its you keep a little bit of moisture in on so don’t always know that that’s that’s natural and it’s part of the glory of the foreskin is to be moist and to be charged it to be able to stretch and move provide lots of sensation awesome yeah so now it be great I’m sure we haven’t got through some of the the shadowy stuff and some of the medical stuff let’s talk about the fun stuff and why it is I can see how I can talk forever about the fun stuff you know what I could say a few things but I’ll let you continue a ninjas what why is there mutual benefits for lovers when it comes to the foreskin remaining attacks like I said it has a special cells in it and there are highly sensitive to come to light touch but also sensitive to the stretching of the foreskin so they have your foreskin like an accordion like flesh as it’s going in and out of the woman as soon as in and out the stretching is opening and closing it’s stimulating you exponentially stimulating versus if the person is not there and what it does to is lemon for skin helps the seal in the lubricant do you guys think about the way up Mushroomhead works it kind of goes in and out on it and you know for some women that might make them dry up faster or are you just really matter but eventually it does pull out a lot more moisture than the natural penis natural penis feels up the kind of shields seals up the connection and keep the moisture in and what you have also with that moisture so I want you to picture of unni picture a natural penis inside he’s filled up that connection right so now we just have this dance of the Yoni lingam together and inside of this this pocket the Yoni you have the flu at the other foods of the lingam and the flutes of the Union mixing together and this is a different level of energy in food exchange that you’re getting when that happens so there’s that keep you in Wister and then there’s also be the first in bunches up on the G-Spot and it helps women to get more pleasure internally so internal internal orgasms are little more elusive to the female body so we to get internal organ orgasms the natural penis actually makes it a lot easier because of foreskin bunches up it creates more friction more pressure and because of the sensitivity of the foreskin excelled think about two matches your other come together in the mix a big flame vs. without the foreskin you don’t have to match the kind of house you know the match and so with the foreskin because it’s so sensitive and highly erogenous like a clitoris would be there be able to join these these highly orgasmic how do you write his bones together and create more so that’s that’s why it’s great because you have two bigger Rogers of tissues that are joined forces and just fax a natural penis is not as good not going to be as highly erogenous as far as highly righteousness as a natural penis and that’s just because lack of nerve endings right that I mean an intermittent issue is not there anymore so it’s a it’s a there’s two factors even there because not only are you deprived of that 70% but you’re also dumbing-down and deadening whatever percentage you have left through all of that chafing and all of those jeans and all of it all that so I I just can’t imagine what it would be like in end I’ll say I have well it’s it’s it’s a lot of voltage even without anyone else around you know to be playing within and working that end and it was when you know I actually something came up for me just now that I hadn’t thought about in a while is that I-84 number of years in my Virgin during my Virgin years is a boy had a lesson I would actually hump thing is I would hump the bed and I would make love masturbating with a really highly developed fantasy sort of architecture but I was using my hips and I was grinding the bed and I was really holding and grasping and imagining a full body beloved in my fantasies and so I wasn’t just whacking off just with that shut that we wrote the shaking the dice motion that everyone makes fun of them just know I seen it too many times that doesn’t prepare your whole body for for all this so for me to have that so we didn’t text you this where’d you get braces private the Segway for the practice vagina so it’s not only does it feel smooth and you don’t need lube and it hits its it has its own and you can masturbate for hours without chafing with boob and obviously coconut oil and whatnot it adds great sensation to experience in and what not but on but yeah I will say from from first-hand experience it is a practice vagina and I can’t help it if they write themselves and then so yeah that ability to Tekonsha see how things and all you can say that I’ve been in relationships where if my partner consented to me having humping on her legs and her ass and wherever her breasts you know when she wasn’t fully in the mood but she was consenting to that just being especially when I was like 18 19 and I was I had to get off every morning every night and so it wasn’t it wasn’t a big deal and I remember clearly just that it was a consented routine that I would just take care of myself by grinding and humping on whatever was available as long as I was to you know bothersome with it and so anyways just a million reasons why having a practice vagina works and if it’s nice that you get with your foreskin that you don’t get without it and let you can just when you masturbate right your foreskin whatever Lou better precum comes out like it stays in there longer so you get to use that natural lubrication and our natural lubrication is a very slippery slippery and think so it’s the better better look for us than you know even the best oils so the 14 also it’s just meet so perfectly for your pleasure that I still see why we wouldn’t want to have it but you have to practice the practice vagina other things that I feel like it does for men is it gives them access to the level of sensitivity that we feel so if we think about how sensitive the clitoris is sensitive the tissue of the vagina are and a man who has a weather has been circumcised right over time his glasses been Catalyst not as sensitive as it used to be he masturbates in a hand that is also not the silkiest thing ever done with maybe you lotion in their products that are also not as silky as a wet vagina or his only pretend so overall we have experiences and habits that are developing less sensitive to what you know a woman experiences with her silky wet hole cuz that’s really what it what it is and so when I say treating you know empathy for the vagina for the Yoni I mean that’s the level of sensitivity that we feel cannot really be accessed without the proper amount of nerve nerve endings to feel that amount right so foreskin can do that and the smoothness the gentleness that you guys within himself he can now relate that to when he’s sliding in a woman but without that I thought that experience of the lacking a lot of men and it shows with how they have sex how rough it is also important is that too but it really is if you would feel what you were doing and you felt sensitive we felt it then I thought everything was going on so I think that’s part of it be with the Oni and understanding a level sensitivity that we’re dealing with very true I can attest to that well well this is been a wreck and what it feels like 5 minutes went by I can’t believe time is my flight leave early on a roll but yeah I like to give you time to share more thoughts whatever else you might have I don’t know if I missed anything just from the general outline of the video but I definitely I mean you put together so amazing effects and it just so it’s so well done I could I just say I really applaud you for that level effort you could tell that you’ve spent so much time really Anderson so much passion and purpose in this so I think there will be a whole generation of boys who will be thanking you for sparing them from this barbaric practice and I see you know you don’t. If I say I guess I should say if it is your spiritual religious practice tonight I don’t mean to I’m to put that down but I will say that really the the for me this is just my soapbox on this is that religion and spirituality should be something that people have full consent to be to choose animation be given as many options growing up to explore what works for them and just literally forcing someone in that vulnerable and innocent State into a direction of you unchangeable or virtually unchangeable Dogma that’s a really unfair it’s very unfair so there’s people who do it later you know you can always do it later if you want to and a person’s more mature although yeah let’s you get into law the ethics are but that’s my final thought on this for now and I’m just want to really encourage people to watch this video it will bring everything we said fully to life and something you can it’s appropriate you can share with the teenagers with schools it’s not it’s not too raunchy or any way inappropriate for four people I’ve ever believed to to learn from Sao yet what do you want to any other points that we missed that you want to touch on and then of course you can direct people back to all your websites and all that good stuff yeah I just wanted to just touch on men that are circumsized and that feel for all men are circumcised really because it’s a lot of times with you know you put out a message a video like this with a purpose to in the procedure and people will will watch and they may feel like oh no I’m broken or they might for them is highlighted that they you know they are missing their foreskin that’s not my intention is to draw weirdness so that we are habits fall into alignment with our greatest good our greatest potential our greatest happiness so even if you are if you’ve been circumcised or no most men out there are because third of our world population circumcised things you can do to regain sensation regain wholeness spiritually to fill hole with your body if that’s something that you feel and do my research I have learned that there is a group of men who feel a little chit in Italy on recall over there feel like you’re missing some I feel void may be mutilated even because they do not have a foreskin still giving a license to those guys and saying yeah like there’s there is help for you on their support for you and it’s it’s a valid feeling that you have cuz a lot of times those things can be in the Overlook ter you no thought of as it’s just in your head but no it’s not this it’s real shit and there’s definitely people out there like bin myself that support you and support you in your healing and in people who have been circumcised have a great sex life that’s also very real and so you’re one of those people that are happy with how you feeling your body then that’s that’s beautiful but also be open to sharing the knowledge so that maybe the next person you know they circumcise circumcision would you know do more harm to them so don’t think just because you’re fine they are both is fine that’s what I’m saying different types of promise if people don’t have any awareness of, and maybe they’re great in their happy and having a great sex life but be aware and know that there is space for anybody that feels like they’re in need of healing in support and as far as restoring still there surgical ways to do it right and I’m a nurse always say non-invasive first so I would never tell you that surgery because usually it’s not as it’s not going to be the same as your original that’s because you know special sells bundles of cells in the foreskin that you can’t you can’t replace on but you can grow more nerves in skin that you do have and you can stretch the skin you have so they have creams for that they have stretching devices where it’s just pretty much consistent daily stretching but in reality you know you guys have to think about this if you really wanted your your foreskin the one that you will get your own back would be visually it would help you see your penis cover it and it would help with the protection help moisture help take away the callus from the glands and have more Sensation that waved but it would tip it would take a lot of diligent so anything you do you know Reawakening with just take practice support diligence but anybody can increase the sensation in the penis so I just want to let you guys know that just takes some structure instruction and support that’s all it’s all you need for all this stuff for that I’m sure Ben’s really familiar with being using conscious awareness of your touch and then including that with the killing methods of specific I’m in order to weaken more unnerving to stimulate the growth of more nerve endings so that he can feel more so that’s that’s doable guys it all the time so do not think that you don’t have any you know don’t limit your own potential and yeah that’s that’s pretty much all I want to share about that there’s I am going to be talking about a little bit more about this tomorrow again it’s going to be a chapter on Instagram so you can stay up-to-date with me on my discussions to just show us where we going to talk about healing to talk about connection Consciousness X all that stuff things we need to do better and feel better but yeah I just want you to share this video I stayed over three three little baby penis is in my family so far cousins and such and I’m happy that they’re intact and they’re going to get to experience their holness so if I can do 3 then I challenge you guys to at least you three to you yeah I know you don’t have information that you know then will spread the word spread the word that way that’s a great that’s a great concept that text you I’m thinking what we’re saying that it said it would be cool if there’s some sort of petition or pledge or just a Ticker on the website it says this is how many people play just not to perpetuate this practice and you know you can be cool and some something like that I mean I’m sure it’ll it’ll evolve on its own somewhere I know there’s a guy who created a comic book superhero called for skin man I believe and I heard an interview and say comic book and yeah there’s definitely is definitely spirited passionate activist out there to connect Griffin and people who were who were really doing the Grassroots kind of activism stuff and hopefully hopefully I’ll be able to get more involved but certainly for now this is again yeah thank you for that video it’s why we’re having this conversation it’s long overdue on my end and the others healing and redemption in recovery and in all forms and I got it. Do you like brother to do so there’s ways to resensitize any tissue in the body where there’s been numbness or trauma so that’s we really have the ability to use mind over matter to her awareness to whatever is left in an area so yeah I think we should still lots of healing for everybody and and all that good stuff so so yeah your absolute Contra. Calm and at township with Courtney on Instagram and yeah that’s that’s amazing so thank you so much keep doing all the great work that you’re doing and we’ll hopefully have you back again in the future sometime soon to talk about new and exciting adventures and I can’t wait to see what you come up with next in really can’t wait for you to have a Hollywood or discuss Discovery Channel production budget to take your Curiosities you know I ain’t too with really hate you know cuz you already doing really amazing production value stuff just hacking it together it seems like on your own but if it was a real production house was behind you then I could see a lot more miss being busted a lot more truths being exposed and all that good stuff so I’m going to pray for that awesome thank you so much for being a part of a wonderful evening and we’ll be in touch soon all right have a good night podcast please go to www.crunch.com and cook on the Donate button to help support the show in addition to sustaining and improving the podcast your donations will help establish permaculture goddess Temple after bite ecological employment for single mothers Please Subscribe and share your favorite episodes if you have questions or comments feel free to leave a voicemail at 818-275-1593 or email Brent at charger Park. 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Sexy Mindfulness in Lifestyle and Livelihood with Alexandria Baker TPP149

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In this episode I’m blessed to be joined by Alexandria Baker for an exploration of the many sexually and spiritually informed and empowered dimensions of her lifestyle and livelihood. She’s a southern California sex educator, Hatha yoga instructor, ethical luxurious natural beauty and skin care entrepreneur, model, and performance artist.

She’s one of the most impressive tantric renaissance women I’ve yet to discover. She shares her personal story of healing, liberation, and empowerment and we discuss the positive impacts she’s having with all of her endeavors. She’s on the forefront of changing the old sex negative paradigm as she brings the healing light of mindful sex and love into the scientific, medical, entertainment, and natural product sectors and beyond.

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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin podcast episode number 149 I’m being joined by Alexandria Baker of from Alexandria. Come she is a Southern California sex educator Hatha Yoga instructor ethical luxurious natural skincare and beauty products entrepreneur she also does modeling and performance are and she reached out to me as a podcast listener and fan of the show I’m to connect and talk about sex in mindfulness and she’s going to be doing a presentation at the upcoming positive sexuality conference which I believe the registration is closed so may not be able to get in for that but hopefully I don’t know if you’ll be getting a recording of that or just just in general a good plug to connect with the the center for positive sexuality the episode previously that Alexandria connected to from the podcast was the one I did with Emily Pryor where we talked all about that hurt past and the history of the the center for positive sexuality which is a great resource and something you should definitely connect with so yeah with all that said I just like to get it started with Alexandria you sharing your your personal background and how you have become ethical luxurious proprietress of so many wonderful things in the world oh my goodness thank you so much for having me on your show first of all then I have been listening intently for about a year and a half maybe two years and this has been a great guide to my journey in my Awakening especially as it relates to sex in mindfulness and I a little bit about me I grew up on the edge of a very health minded yet religious town and I had to make my own pass and figure my own way out when it comes to relating to myself in relationships and sex and we never had any sex ed class in sexual relationships were something that we’re seeing that as deviant so that he didn’t fit with my mindset and it was pretty hush-hush but I’m glad to have had a partner who is offsets a metal frame and so we were able to explore it safely and lovingly which one another and as I grew up and matured and sound different ways of relating to others on a deeper level meditation yoga became primary practices in my life and with that I was able to you start diving into Tantra and bringing meditation into the bedroom and a way of baby centering and focusing with my lover is sad that has allowed me to experience sex in a way that is transformative an incredibly healing and beautiful container of self-discovery and meeting a higher self and allowing and sharing this with the person or the persons who are are held in that beautiful container of intimacy has the background as far as this texted mindfulness-based my ethical vegan body products it’s a bit different where I grew up dealing with a lot of allergies and skin issues I had pretty bad acne throughout high school and my first few years of college that Led Tech old hatred unfortunately and feeling myself as less than and it was really frustrating because I wouldn’t know what these flare-ups what these bumps what these rashes were coming from and as I became more in tune with myself in my center and focusing on my eating practices and being a bit more cleaner and more aware of what I was putting into my body orally I noticed that there are certain things that would trigger my allergies and from they’re growing up as a pescatarian and I realized this was one of my triggers and I cut out of my diet and wheat was another trigger as with soy and these were things that were primary parts of my diet and as I was looking at the ingredients on skin care that I was purchasing these were primary ingredients on the backs of these natural products not so much fish oil base emulsifiers and its present in a lot of stuff and a lot of things that I would find at the grocery store so I set out to make my own yummy low ingredient allergen-free body product so that I could take charge of my house and my skincare as I was doing with my diet and I love how I can get into the kitchen and create something with my hands using products that are natural from this Earth mango butter and Argan better than hemp seed butter is really delicious things that are full of wonderful antioxidants and vitamins and amino acids that will help heal and regenerate the skin and sensing it with wonderful organic acid call essential oils that are designed to take you on a journey and so I am someone who is very much attracted to things of the senses especially with sent and this became part of my practice that I would then bring into the bedroom and massager with sexual lubricant so that I Ed Sheeran with myself on a personal level but also with lovers and with friends so that we could all enjoy the process of self-care and self-love that comes from using products that are made with love with house and goodness in mind for yourself ads there are and allowing us to share that self-care practice those beautiful thank you so much Bravo and that you deserve a round of applause for that it’s always so texting when a person’s business is the journey of self healing and exploration and there’s a whole country edition Nike archetypal tradition of the Wounded healer where in order to understand whatever you are elements or issues maybe you sort of Blaze the trail to did the discovery and then you’re always from that wound or that one being like you’re saying the you know they’re conscious the way it affected your your self concept in to be able to transcend that and then leave from that place of healing very personal place that always has a much more how much deeper story to connect with four people who were enjoying the products so I appreciate that you were weaving it with the sexuality peace and and Tantra and I feel like that is the direction we need to go for people to put as much give as much personhood to their lower half of their body is to the upper half friend that know the public Parts in the private parts need to be more Eric Moore cared for with all this so that’s wonderful said you want to talk about as a sex educator what what types of offerings do you have enough in that area I would love to I want to bring two people and what I do bring to people is caring for the soul and caring for the south in the partners and being extremely communicative in line for with the individual that you’re seeing in the SEC space as well as yourself and eventually that concept of individual melts away and you become one and the one becomes this everything and to really bring that concept little by little Earth the person’s ready to just dive into it I want to share that beauty and that loves because from there we can have a higher vibration out in the world when we see that everyone’s connected everyone is this love everyone has that part of themselves that is from that the higher order and it’s also about going into the practices of kink in a mindful Safeway and being conceptual Mulberry microwave with communication and being safe in all rounds possible so I work with Planned Parenthood and I also work with the center for positive sexuality so that we can get the how fast facts out there making sure you’re getting your STI checks and being a safe and productive as possible to keep you and your community healthy and also diving into you Kingston leaves sectors of sex that we don’t necessarily talk about his friends or in in a larger sense anyway that’s outside of the internet really so I’m I’m trying to move this conversation in a way that allows people to recognize that sex is beautiful sex is natural we’re here because of sex and every day there millions of sexual encounters that were happening and even if half of those or not his love and positivity how much more Blissful would this world be I can only imagine and we’ll help you out that’s amazing so you are really in a deeply embedded in the does the infrastructure to bring this to people so again I applaud you for that it’s it’s definitely that piece of being able to get as wild as you can possibly imagine but also be anchored in the medical health aspect of sexuality is a rare thing to find a fun place you know why there’s these types of nonprofits exist to help people have safe guidelines in DUI yeah what are some of the without obviously you know disclosing anything to to confidential or private do you want to talk about some of the patterns of issues that you are helping people confront some of the things that you feel are like most in the Forefront of modern times of what people are dealing with and what feels like it needs the most care and attention these days for me when I work with women I share a lot of how do I tell my partner that I want X Y and Z and it’s you talk to them we have these conversations and we do so in a setting where everyone is able to feel her and everyone is able to have their needs met via communication and via the practice and it’s as I was going through my own sexual experiences and listen to my friends talked about their own women and I I don’t want to overgeneralize by I am a woman I identify with she her pronouns this is the perspective that I can give women have been told to be in a more submissive role and to be the ones who are the acceptors of the actions put upon us and that Austin time sitting or laying or attempting to be present with things that are painful things that are degrading things that don’t make us feel good at the end of our experience or through our experience and so what oftentimes happens is that we check out we lose touch with this part of ourselves that when conscious can illuminate so much within us that extends outside of the bedroom and so what I want to do and what I aim to do is turn people on to that Consciousness and that excitement and Zapp part of themselves that wants to be present and aware of the sexual experience and when it comes to Healing traumas that often times needs to be done solo and so we’re going to feel just your fingertips touching your clavicle or what it’s like to caress your own cheek how it feels to tug on your earlobe or touch your toes spread your toes with your fingers to the beautiful experience of self massage that doesn’t even have to do with genital contact and then once you’re comfortable with feeling and experiencing our bodies moving onto or moving in tear touching touching are genitals and really experiencing that Yoni pleasure and breast massage and feelings that are on my nipple so that we can become conscious with the sexual Awakening and that can then be brought into the sphere with partner Partners if that’s what the person wants and so that comes with knowing yourself so that you can then communicate oh honey I feel better when you touch me lighter I appreciate that you’re so enthusiastic but let’s think our breathing so that we can slow down and when we’re able to communicate our once in our needs in a loving way that shows that we like what our partners doing or maybe need to shift it so that both of us can enjoy the sexual experience can be fulfilling for all parties involved awesome well I just kind of have been on a journey as Siri speaking at they have a very very effective way of bringing people into that that a conscious State and you know something that stands out for me that you mention and we’ll gets kind of more into the the realm of classical Shamanism I guess you could say would would be that he knows very Translating that notion of checking out when you feel kind of misused or abused or that that process is what is often referred to in that shamanic you know that this course is being where the soul starts to break apart in what you’re actually losing alcohol at some people call it so lost some people call it Soul theft if the intention that is predatory on the end of somebody harming someone else in really it’s like your slices of your of your deep tissue of your soul or are being broken apart I mean there’s different metaphors for it it’s kind of amorphous because you can see it’s part of the astral plane or it’s sort of a different dimension of our being but you know what when when I hear you speak about that it it really reminds me that it’s not it’s in addition to really predatory kinds of abuse it can also just be like you’re saying very subtle forms of Disconnect where it’s kind of abrasions if not you no fractures but there’s a different degrees of wounding on the Flesh and there’s different degrees of warming on the soul so it’s so important to have that communication yeah thank you for doing that work and do you also in your practice do you also bring in yogic exercises and and what kind of two obviously tantric breathwork and meditation visualization chakras Kundalini kind of experiences has really loud me to connect with the power of the brass and the practice of life force and when we’re able to get in touch with that and not fear it but be able to really experience the belly breaths and feel like chest expand in our clavicles rise within Halen our shoulders are ribs pulling and connecting us to that deeper awareness that we can bring into all avenues of our life and when we are able to do these breathing exercises and that’s actual around with our cells are with our partner that helps us connect and experience that unity in that one that’s done that aliveness of the world in ourselves and with certain Austin as I’m certain slow as you can get into a delicious juicy practice and I have recently been doing is incorporating the Yoni egg into my practices and I also do aerial arts and so bringing this into my performance and bringing it into my personal yoga practice has been a deeper Awakening in a deeper way to get in touch with with my divine feminine in a way that I am so so grateful exist so when I can bring that to other people and show them that our sexuality are being very sacred and there are these practices that really help us connect to that design beautiful essence of our feminine and of our every Universe we can hear ourselves and she’ll each other and Heal the World I totally agree with that and yeah this is this synthesis of more clinical sexological sector of like what you’re doing and Planned Parenthood and what a lot of sex educators are doing in high schools and college settings and you know about for everything from gender studies and basic awareness of politics and language of gender and in and that Roman and then addressing Rape Crisis centers and just bringing more Consciousness to all these different car in points where people are either Contracting diseases or having unwanted but unplanned pregnancies or experiencing abuse I feel like the the future opportunity or potential would be that people like you doing what you doing what will actually sort of get through that that filter in that mesh of the western clinical mindset which is you know I’ll save kind of just as a little side note here that it’s it’s really challenging sometimes to bring the deeper spirituality peace through that framework because understandably these more clinical models they want to be cross-cultural they want to not give her any particular practice which could alienate anyone or offend anyone so it’s always got to be super you know white coat medical clipboard and you know charts on the wall but what what I think will happen is that there will eventually be chakra charts alongside the muscular and skeletal and me all the anatomy chart going to clinical office and it’s why I believe yeah it’ll be people like you were going to be able to bring more mindful in the mindfulness is probably the best way to translate without getting too mystical or we were so how does that is that I love to know if you have been able to sort of ethically hack if you will that and Bridge you know probably a friend of your word but yeah any luck with that Kylie it’s actually really exciting and I think that my education has and continues to find me for being able to flirt with a associate clinical medical and also going into the more spiritual BGC practices and More in line with the kids in the key Delaney and experiencing things and energetic mediums within our bodies and working through ceiling that way but there’s also that when they hear anything that has totally turns them off and I get it I understand so there is a way to connect with that secular standpoint and my aim in life is to continue receiving education so that I can be the highest level practitioner in all rooms that I can be and my background is in Psychology and wonderful University that I went to allowed me to do studies that were I certainly more colorful than what most have probably done there but I was able to internet of yoga studio and I did my final thesis on psychedelics and sacks Professor was not super enthused about it but she was like okay well if you can do it do it and I did it and I learned a lot and I also was able to present it and present these fabulous studies super shout out to Maps doing awesome work and present these studies to people who hadn’t heard of psychedelics outside of just drugs are bad don’t do them kids here is your brain on drugs and explain how to fry and clay static and is able to link these parts of ourselves that we might not have touch with on a daily basis I am learning in finding ways to integrate the research with experience and with people’s conversations with me and what I see out in the fossil or Elmer out in I do performance also in the club scene and so just taking it within all of these different sectors that I live and I working but bring it back to something that will allow Society to see it in a way that is valuable and has the research behind it and so I love research I love studies I love being able to show data and show that mindfulness practices when done repeatedly on a consistent basis do you have it leads to Lasting positive change and anxiety reduction and increases people’s ability to socialize and helps with all sorts of Health markers that lead to longevity and a more positive outlook on life and currently the Western American model is one that looks at symptoms that looks at Ole Miss it looks at things that are wrong and we need to heal from totally I get that but what I want to do and what I have been doing in my research is looking at what what do we do what who are the people who are most successful and happy in their relationships and who are the ones who are the most resilient who steals from unimaginable traumas to go on to do things that are able to lie to last and change not only in themselves but also in the greater world what what are those characteristics and how can this happen to that type of human potential I’m so sexy psychedelics is another way so is talk therapy in for some medication is necessary and it’s not necessarily the route that I don’t but I have certainly seen cases in which it has helps a person clear away the clouds so that they can practice and they can get into these ways of being that help them live without the drugs or Pharmaceuticals I should say and why my journey is one that is towards Madison I’m aiming to become a doctor but I don’t just want to be an MD I want to be a DL a doctor of osteopathy so that I can treat the whole person with the ability to look at what’s really going on socially culturally it’s far as the diet there their exercise practices how what’s their stress level like so that I’m not just looking at these markers on charts but seeing them as a whole human being and able to help them gain independence day that control over their life what galaxy did you come from Mississippi out of this world I can’t thank you enough and crazy cuz this is really a synthesis of of all of the Maverick Rogue research that I have been conducting and and you know it at risk and so you know it’s it’s if I if I’m a kind of just the man to little bit about why and just to validate the work you’re doing this is so important because you know I can I’ll just kind of give a bit of a of a sidebar here so I have been somewhat religiously following Maps as work mainly through listening to all the episodes that have ever been released of the Psychedelic Salon podcast which has been cataloging And archiving not only the vast array of Terence McKenna talk switch your you know kind of comedic and entertaining is business in for his informative but also the history of maps and what in a lot of Rick doblin material and many other that the women’s Visionary Congress which is my favorite nonprofit in the world which brings in genetic research in practitioners amongst women in the underground really mostly in some some above ground as well or I don’t know exactly the balance of it but it’s it’s it’s so important for this type of work that the Psychedelic sexual healing in my in my sort of field or camping or to be in a and a higher conscious way medicalized not in a way of the way we medicalized anti-masturbation devices and drugs to kill libido and gay people and then that’s a whole nother shadow of Medicine of the medical establishment right is the when repression is codified in In The End by doctors and so many torture devices that have been created in the net and that shadow of this but in the more conscious and positive Ana where and spiritually informed manners that were talking about we really need as Country Acres and healers and King stirrers and everyone else who’s going into these these really funky places where we need a lot of help we need to work out a lot of issues together you know that the containers the spiritual safe containers that are designs for ceremony and ritual there that’s equally if not more important than the safety of the label on a drug in the warning label on a bottle of pills that mean that’s that’s what’s so interesting about what Maps is doing and the sort of this what Rak Rak razam kind of notice there studies that there’s the shamanic and this is shamanic psychedelic shamanic path of a revolution towards me no consciousness freedom of Consciousness and unconsciousness as a human right and then there’s the Psychedelic medical research which is about legalization in standardization of Doses and things that do not always an awesome opt-in cell or sell them work with you know the natural setting of shamanic ceremony where you’re taking a natural form of a plant and not a synthesized dose of a plant or something you know other material and so there’s a real it’s just a real important need to kind of find that happy medium for everybody where we can provide clinical medical safety and even things were sick if you’re going to do wild wild Kink or wild psychedelic shamanic ceremony in anything involving opening up deep wounds in the soul you should have maybe not an ambulance parked outside but certainly someone with first aid training yeah these are some of just stay she so do you want to talk about what you have planned for your sex in mindfulness presentation I think probably touched on how many things but if you don’t got to spoiler alert spoiler but just I’m just curious are like what you were what you were kind of synthesizing and in your your general kind of outline approach to initiating people in reducing answer to your medicine this is a secular conference room so I want to bring them a practice of mindfulness that they are able to connect with no matter what their background is so there will be some aspect of getting in touch with the body through the breast and getting in touch with the body through being aware of what is touching you and going into what mindfulness is what sex and mindfulness has to do with each other how we can bring mindfulness into the bedroom with ourselves are with our chosen partner and what cactus’s look like with the ones that we choose to have these experiences with as far as health concerns are the positive benefits meditation and other mindfulness practices that bring you into awareness of the present moment has been shown to give the practitioner lasting benefit as far as attention span and anxiety reduction and reducing like we had a depression it’s it’s really a beautiful thing and so I am going to do my very best to bring this to those who are attending the conference and choose disturbances I should say experience so I couldn’t help but notice on your Instagram that you’re very generous with your sensuality in in the photographic form that’s different Miley and which is exciting and for myself what I have been seeking in business partners and co-creative collaborators into people to share this so I would I believed to be a sexual Angelic Mission I mean that’s not the most secular words but you know there’s different words in different cultures for Heroes I mean hey we got nothing but super heroes coming out of the Hollywood you know Meme machine and so why not have sexual healing superheroes who have you know I’m super powers and that’s what we were cultivating with with with you know it’s time to practice is what they literally actually translate to two superpowers there was what they were called City uses you know how we would see the word now and in country scriptures but bringing this back to you know what I’ve noticed with your work and what how you present yourself online is but you were not daring bravely to seduce all hoof size fall upon you to be entranced in Enchanted to want to explore know you more and it would have that means clicking a like button and Court a follow or posting comments it’s an invitation to the world to engage with you and in that way and so many women and men but you know I’d say women are are they the ones with the multi millions of followers just on Instagram for one who are displaying the way that we would see animals in the wild the display with certain postures and certain gazing techniques and there’s this whole dance with the camera that is you know rhotic and I feel like it’s extremely powerful magic in a lot of people are not really fully conscious about how literally how much damage or how much killing big they can be doing with that power and certainly the people who own that Machinery have been for many you know for since photography existed they’ve been using it to sell poisons and unsustainable Prada the opportunity that I see you representing you know it’s very rare is that you have the Consciousness piece all these pieces put together and you are doing the seductive you know lens case with the lens in projecting yourself out to the world so you know I have more more time pack about that but I would like to pause and give you space to just share about how that feels for you and what your aspirations are in and what you’ve experienced so far and kind of like your take on that hole dimension of from sharing yourself a part of the entertainment industry for about five years now and it started with modeling and moved into Go-Go dancing and Performing Arts as far as the dance goes and now I’m finding a way to intersect all of that when I first started I was often times to eat only black girl on set the only one who needed my color foundation and as I excluded I felt I needed to find my own way and ice and so I began to take greater charge as my image in my presence and really be authentically myself and learn the makeup skills are in the hair skills start doing the costume designing but my partner at the time is a photographer and we started to have our own shoots with with models that we would find for my friends and then start to take a more more material charge of the performers who were a part of these other events that we were hosting or hoping to run and the Rave scene and doing things with other sectors of entertainment and as I began to work with Insomniac who hosts edc’s around the world I started to meet people who were more in line of my way of thinking of we can bring Beauty and light and figure and positivity into other people through the sphere through the space and Consciousness in many ways and within certain areas of the scene when I say seen I mean we’ve seen its Consciousness it’s really beautiful to get to share these experiences with people who also want to show love and give love and help people connect to love being onstage hundreds of thousands of people and there’s no doubt there is but there is something that is entry linking everyone and that we are all part of the same something and if so so beautiful and these experiences have connected me to photographers and other models who have shown me the ways of being embodied and being sexy but also being intelligent about it and that comes from other things that are part of my background but you’re presenting the parts of myself are presenting my whole self in a way that I can be proud of I used to be so nervous to post just my friends and I hanging out at the beach tonight and I want to share with people and show them that you can you can have this balance in this wonderful multi-layered expression of yourself where you are the academic are you are the physician or you are the teacher whatever role you give to yourself but you can also be in our bodies sexual person and allow all parts of yourself to come together so that you can you don’t have these conflicting parts of your person where you have to hide and you feel that sex is the shadow unfortunate part of yourself but bring it bring it to light and that’s the direction that I’m hoping to take this the modeling in the Performing is showing people that you can see your full authentic self and there are people who will accept and appreciate and receive healing from seeing that because they are given that permission to also do it and I do my best to be an online presence that is uplifting and cheerleader for the people who are doing this beautiful badass work beautiful awesome sex workers to the Educators to those who are just like having to like your post because I think you’re fabulous like here we are and ask to feed everyone the internet is expensive beyond all measure we can all be uplifted and shine and experience wonderful things from each other After experiencing ourselves and there is no room for competition in my sphere it’s all about love I encourage comments that will lead to good conversation not this I don’t want any of the call out the S I don’t want anything where people are putting other people down and we’re all trying we’re all doing our best let’s do it in a way that helps us learn helps us wake up and evolve and just in Courage other people to do the same Standing Ovation vs this is the kind of leadership this is the kind of sexual political leadership that we’re all starving for something that I share with you by email is that I’m no yeah technically in a business sense recruiting talent for a project which I feel is feel like an evolution of alt modeling you could say and evolution of all modeling would be to bring in role modeling where you’re not just looking quote bored and sad which is the direction that is given for a lot of people out of modeling set if you think of it from a tantra perspective in a magical respectively sake what are you what vibration are you cursing or buy you cursing or blessing us with your vibration and so there is people with Consciousness who want to do role modeling and actually want to teach something with they’re like oh yeah you want to look at my body great well here’s here’s me doing something useful to serve nature or served Humanity that is going to be actually a contagious meme of positivity and you’re going to learn something while you’re in a state of of arousal with my likeness and that is Magic that is like liquid cyber sex magic that is so powerful and so potent and it’s been used like I said what commercial has everything so why not why not promote the things that are most spiritually enriching invaluable and practical so like I would love to see for example in your case you’re making your beauty products in your lingerie and making instructional cooking shows and like DIY yeah right it would be if it’s always fun and Indian people used to staining that level of arousal you’re really actually from an early Mystic programming orner associative conditioning perspective you actually have literally melting there neurons and hardwiring them back into a position where the associate the positive constructive Behavior with what we all want to feel which sexual arousal like almost literally all the time and so I think that’s the magic potential and I see I’ve been torturing Myself by subscribing to all of these Instagram profiles of the models with millions of views and I just scan through and I see there is there literally doing absolutely nothing and nothing like they’re just standing someplace tonight and I appreciate especially when it’s doing nothing in nature but you could be doing something and be doing that something in it in a constructive setting and then and then the world will be changed literally overnight I mean if if if a fraction of the models on Instagram just did it like what would Vin Diesel did he did like a tree planting charity fund drive and so he leveraged is social capital of sexual Capital to get people in to Z Astic about nature and that’s the kind of stuff I think it’s just so so ripe to be explored and so you’re already fully inviting that yourself and I can only just see what would happen if more of the you know the resources that are going into production of art of all kinds really going that direction so you know that is my my public service announcement about this project that’s just my prayer at with this conversation is I don’t know what our individual or Collective Destiny will be but I do know that the the ingredients the natural ethical luxurious ingredients for all of these wonderful things they’re already being in there already in that cauldron and Emma and so again I I I thank you so much for it for reaching out and for sort of reinvigorating me in a sparking me that often Fades when I get really to moralize looking at what I’m up against and and then Jim’s come out diamonds in the Ruff and you certainly one of them so I I was send out those words of affirmation and also the the call-to-action that yeah everyone out there listening be your own erotic Rockstar model at the school ethical everything anything make a sexy naked find use the social media constructively and then we’ll all Rising tide will it will float all boats and lifts All Ships and so yeah so that Best Buy my closing words and prayers and please if you would take as much time as you desire to to balance the energy that says that I’m sharing if you will thank you so much for having me on this has been such a pleasure to explore how this works with your thoughts and to hear how oh my gosh I love that this has been a spark to you and that you are really wanting to continue on with your project of highlighting these beautiful fabulous women in light Warriors who share to heal through this form of social media and however else it’s presented in a very sexy and body play I love it I love it so much and I’m excited to see where that goes and I am so encouraging of any and all people no matter your expression Shine Your Light Let It Be bright there may be detractors there may be people who want to get you down but that’s part of the process and I am here there are people here to uplift and support you and encourage that Health in that gross mindedness is that is what is going to heal the world that is part of what heals the world and we can embody this beautiful sexy Miss with these more concrete practices of planting trees and sharing how we keep herself as free of STDs and STIs as possible and taking care of our health in other ways and these other wonderful practices that help our world go round and and ethical sustainable way I encourage it and invite all of you for interested to check me out on my personal Instagram at Alexandria Foxcroft looks like the animal with two x’s and Croft as in Laura Croft and that’s Alexandria Foxcroft on Instagram Alexandria Foxcroft. Cam is my site and or call begin luxurious body products from alexandria.com and from Alexandria is also my Instagram handle for that please come start a conversation with me I want to get to know you see what you’re doing Wachee support you on your journey and how do you be a part of mine because it is all lime and we are here to uplift and support and to love love is what it’s all about I think you again one last question for you are you do you have a YouTube or we will you be planning to do YouTube where you can give us more than one minute at a time on Instagram sped up yoga experiences in a little bit about who I am and he can find me on youtube.com from Alexandria I believe it is funny couple check cool and it’s pretty nail yes well I hope everything that we’ve spoken about that’s from your wheelhouse no life and I’ll certainly be a sharing that and I’m following that yeah I am from Alexandria but it looks like the channel URL is a jumble of letters and words American confined that and then and then also I don’t know if we got this but the two for people to connect with you wearing your sex educator and sounds like you’re doing sort of a practice of of coaching and counseling how would they is with a disconnect with you through your website from alexandria.com or is there another way to SeaWorld in those types of thumb Lance so you can connect via the website from alexandria.com or my direct email is Alexandria at from Alexandria. Calm and I will get to everyone who is interested in that Sexual Healing as quickly as I can and as fully as I can great awesome yeah I guess it’s 11:11 and that’s an auspicious time to say goodbye for now and I’ll see you next time we won today all right take care of podcast please go to www.crunch.com can cook on the Donate button to help support the show in addition is to see me and improving the podcast your donations will help establish permaculture goddess temples every by Tycho employment for single mothers Please Subscribe and share your favorite episodes if you have questions or comments feel free to leave a voicemail at 818-275-1593 or email bad at Tasha pump. Com Thomas gay