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Jason Tantra Blissful Profile

Seeking the Heart of Gay Tantra with Jason of Tantra4GayMen TPP289

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In this episode I’m joined again by the charming Jason Tantra, the co-founder of Tantra 4 Gay Men. He’s stepped up into a leadership role in holding sacred spaces world-wide and online for gay men to share in the glory of Tantra.

Please visit his website at:
https://www.tantra4gaymen.com/

About Jason:

Jason is the founder of Tantra4GayMen, and a pioneer of Tantra for gay and bisexual men in the UK. Trained as a counselor and as a spiritual medium, and after years of professionally working with male survivors of rape and abuse, Jason met Tantra in 2006. He immediately knew that his life purpose had become clear. Since 2008, with his husband Ingo, Jason has pursued his life as an exploration of sexual and spiritual liberation. He has done this by creating events and trainings that express this: Events where men who love men can let go, explore love, and find ways to freedom where sexuality meets spirituality.

Over 10.000 men having been through Tantra4GayMen’s work. Its two yearly Festivals are beautiful wonderlands where sex meets spirit, bringing together facilitators from the cutting edge of Tantra in a context where men can love men without holding back. Its Tantra Diploma offers a one-of-a-kind transformative experience for those who want to live Tantra as a path of personal development leading to total freedom. Currently, Tantra4GayMen is expanding these events into the USA, and Jason and Ingo are working towards their vision of a community of open, free, conscious and aware men that are happy and in love with the very world they live in and themselves.

My Non Verbatim Show Notes: 

JT: thank you for inviting me back

talking in preamble, how’s it going, not been great, 2.5 months, look what’s happened in last few days in your country, complete horror, the world for me just doesn’t feel like a happy place, talking june 2

TP: feel you on that, hard to highlight things, generally would have been positive, hopeful, tone of shadow around everything, do feel like this, anchor moment, wound keeps being exposed

tantra teachers, she talk about, start doing shadow work, wounds go deeper, generations, trauma, goes deeper and deeper

tantra/tantra4gay men, tool kit for these times

JT: gay/bi/queer men who love men, like other pockets of society, we know what isolation is, we get it, for me, never felt so isolated in childhood, early adult life, until found places I could be accepted, many years to fully evolve, understand realize I had choice about kind of person I wanted to be

this crisis happened, for me,

just panicked about men maybe living on their own, high proportion of our community live on their own, home, apartment, months, uk things starting to relax slighting, everybody still in lock down, no bodies going anywhere, world not happening as it used to be

in SF, about to do a weekend, rug got pulled out,

biggest fear, I didn’t want to hear that anybody in my community had harmed themselved because they didn’t know how to cope, first panick

performed a bit of a miracle

what I did, messaged, all my tantra teacher, and associated contacts and friends, not a time to talk about money, time to be in service, in the middle of march, created free special online program for all of community in the app

5200 members in app around globe, managed to get 40 teachers, over the 10-11 weeks free program, ran over 600-700 workshops, over 10000 participants, incredible numbers, need, incredible spaces

many different tantra teachers from around the globe, yoga classes, poetry, bedroom disco, quality of holding together through adversity

so many of my community, been affected in jobs, relationships, home, structures of lifestyle, wake up in morning, low level anxiety, teeth clentching

emotional state day to day roller coaster

free online program, migrated into subscription service, sparkly app costs a lot of money per year

giving away discounts, promo codes to make it accessible to everybody regardless of whether they can afford it

global collective community, don’t have to suffer on your own

even in times of incredible difficulty and hardship, don’t need to do it on your own

people want to love you, hold you, care about you

share with you through this experience

TP: beautiful amazing, redeeming, resilience of human spirit,

epicenter of the outbreak of politicizing the virus, can’t believe how much extra suffering and death being caused by virus being political football, fog of war

still see beauty of things like what you’re doing

diy spirit, deeply radical humanitarian, grass roots, deep bows to the architects of internet to give us ability to do this

applaud you, deep bows, foresight to build online community

infomercial promo walk through

JT: talk about before that, far more important than our sparky app

low day, low moments, stuck in my apartment in bristol, not interacting with anybody other than online, emotional roller coaster, beyond that, my belief in love

can even withstand what this pandemic, crisis, event though huge amounts of suffering, misery,

still believe in heart, strength and quietness in love, stronger than negativity, something about love

for me there was like how can we physically manifest that

role as human beings to be love in action

spiritual teachings, consciousness, matter, is our job as humans to find ways to be the truth of who we really are

in the ways that we are…with people and our selves

sometimes worry some spiritual practices very lovely, ethereal, inner, work needs to happen

but for me, truth is, how deployed, integrated, displayed, how they manage to catch behavior before they react

watch themselves watch what’s going on

bigger spirituality

often in my workshops and retreats, profound orgasmic experiences, literally feel like orgasm and universe, same thing, traveling through space and time, for me afterwards, the whole universe has fucked them or they fucked the whol universe

for me an experience, not the truth of what we’re really looking for

maybe had amazing love making session, 6 months ago, year ago, 5 years ago, experience becomes less embodied as time moves on

for me amazing experiences almost a biproduct of what tantra offers

ability to have profound amazing fuck experiences, but actually the truth of those, is how they were integrated into your life, moment to moment

energy, being, learning that your being is running the show, operating the show

for me, is the experience, is the truth of who we really are, actually one big orgasm, state of bliss trying to understand itself on this thing called planet earth

for me, bliss love, truth all kind of similar qualities of the same thing I’m pointing to

how we bring that down here on this thing called planet earth

climate change, 50-100 years left, real issues, people we put in power around the world

for me what tantra does, alchemizes, changes perspective, back to a truth you can’t forget, weekend of tantra, can’t go back, can’t undo experiences

humans, come a long way, quite a long way to go

TP: eco sexuality, eco spirituality, inherent in tantra, always love the way people express that, brad amberheart, poetic integration, exploring nature, planet, fabric of cosmos, deepest roots of tantric scriptures, attitudes people had to abundance of nature, abandonment of hierarchies of yoga and bramanism, ecological radicalism, tantra heyday, like berkeley 60s event, full circle to that

medibations visualizations seeing world leaders having a tantric dancer come and bewitch them, seduce them into shakti vortex, having them be an expression of that

electric jesus, jonathan talat philips, all these leaders, rulers, egomaniacal, one big giant snowballing bad mood, curse of dictators in permanent bad mood,

spiritual practices, moving, dancing,

tantra4gay men global synchronized disco

giving back, service, apply, deploy

if you’re doing tantra you’re probably producing net positive energy outflow, gives you extra budget to spend on charitable loving acts

JT: first part, something about, contraversial,

TP: tantraversial

JT: we end up believe what’s being presented in front of us is the truth, come to america often, friends, people, news channel on 24/7, caught up in story of what’s happening on tv screen, that is their reality, spiritual journey of tantra is being able to see what’s going on

and not necessarily needing to get involved with it, not saying we should ignore the worlds problems, understanding we have choice, choose who we want to be with things happening

gay men, generalizing, being a sexual being, didn’t know the word gay existed, knowing I was different wasn’t good news

at age of 18, if I could take a tablet to turn straight I would have done it

not welcomed news at age of 18

america, religion done a lot of damage to sexuality, expression

repressed, clamped down, never know, alternative way of being

celebrate

brad amberheart, good friend, love brad, such a poetic way, way of speaking,

the point I’m saying, for me, what I’m wanting to bring in tantra, vehicle for freedom, actually if you see an animal in the zoo, suddenly open up the gate, so conditioned, in box, perimeter, doesn’t know the gates open

same as humans, all conditions to live a certain life, believe certain things, don’t know there’s something beyond

don’t really understand human potential, have clues, but not fully understanding

for me, what I’m seeking to do in tantra is enable people who’ve had so much experience, intimacy, spirituality, multiple orgasms, becomes normal, being in a state of orgasm, becomes normal way of being, then look at the world

hold orgasmic energy, state of bliss, knowing, love, truth,

power in that, that no body can take away, no outside circumstances can ever move you from that place

is that the spiritual journey

know the truth of who we really are, beyond the experience being presented in front of us, then have choices how we want to interact, deal with problems, and things we need to deal with

TP: beautiful, promise of tantra I have learned, you can transmute pain, trauma, suffering, fuel for fire of pleasure, magic, prayers, blessings, creating ceremonies, reclaim, ritual, paganism,

talking about politics of the world we live in , curious, I’m not into politics, anarchist, idealistically, consensus, direct democracy

curious, have any ideas, notions about, leverage points of queer people, different political power, mission to initiate people with power, and to empower them with shakti, shaktipat, kundalini

possibility of everybody, leading from a place, smell a flower and have orgasm, continual compounding orgasm, lacking in political leadership

JT: my mission as if I can help men, that’s my audience, find the truth of who they are inside themselves, whatever their life is meant to be, can than manifest

if you know love, know your own process, I know when I’m reacting from fear, anger, a place of love, a place of conditioned value system, having developed that awareness, gives you choice, choice is freedom

poliitcal, structures that we have, not about choice, not about freedom

agree, many political structures, not interested in evolution of humans, different values, priorities people put above that

we are, I don’t know if we’re waking up to it

but look at history of human nature, levels of politicization, kept people living in certain boxes, frameworks

not okay to have opinion, think something different outside of system,

many countries around the world that have done that

I’m after personal liberation in side

know it so much, so powerful inside of you, what happens outside doesn’t touch you in the same way

a lot of men I work with, have many issues before can get to that

working through, in classroom as it were, men that are confused, lost, that are dissatisfied, men typically come to tantra because they’re unhappy with something, or know or believe there is something better

tantra deals with sexuality makes it an easier sell than a meditation weekend

TP: done a lot to lather up the orgasmic energy, lot of hope and positivity

to be fair to the path there a bit of shadow exploration I’d want to throw into this

something you said right now, how people find this path, really is small fraction

tantra teacher from south africa, put it well, if you’re on a crusade to try to enlighten everybody on the tantric path, I got news for you, basically its like, at any given time on earth, percentage of humans alive, spiritual seekers, very small, of that percentage the people who actually make it a few steps before turning back is even smaller

the people who do make it there, do their best to hide

build your temple on the highest mountain

other narrative, make it accessible, easier to at least get access to filtering and initiation

not be ripped off, raped, molested, abuse, financial abuse, fraud, spiritual industrial complex

cherish the work your doing

polishing gems

something came to mind, point of acknowledging beauty of these art forms

thread of tantric scholarship around notion that rama krisna, rebooted tantric kali worship, for a whole new wave of accepting of the dark goddess, sexuality, wildness, transgression of dark goddess energy of tantra, socially/culturally engineering to be more acceptable, orthodox households

scholars argue, he was a flamboyant gay man, devotees, I’m not the scholar, something for people to look into, interesting and deep study

when I’ve been exploring that rabbit hole, rama krishna cult of kali in tantra, one of the gurus of lineage, giving satsang, the people who show up at kali temple, usually there, in some form of despair, acute life event, or series of events, brings them to the feet of the dark goddess at kali temple, in shambles, at least there will be peace, there will be love

other traditions, sex negative, homophobic, have to deny parts of yourself to be loved, tantra temple bring whole self, baggage, sins, homosexuality, still get fully love, healed, peace

JT: one questions I’ve had, why do gay people exist, has nature fucked up and made it wrong, trans, gay women, all different permutations, humanity, labels, why do they exist

wonder, consciousness wants to know it’s truth in this density of matter, in every single permutation it can possibly muster up, no 2 humans ever the same

part of the exploration of truth is this planet, could be every single permutation of itself , so it can know truth at every level

love the fact that trans agenda has come up in last few years

everybody worthy of love, everybody is love

society needs to evolved, challenge ego, ideas, normal, okay, love does not discriminate

conflcts that go on for me, invitations go move into deeper stages of love,

america last 2 3 days, absolutely horrific, the way its been handled horrific, can’t feel love, compassion, apology

understandably people are pissed, really angry

feel whole situation needs to find resolution in love

politics, tricky ground, america has not answered a lot of social issues it has, people are pissed, angry, rightly so, they know there’s a truth beyond the structures of society

TP: on point, pretty moderate, things could be said more extreme, I’ve been on front lines of resistance, carrying a variety of different flags,

chills, people who’ve really hurt other people, seeking the heart of tantra

salvation for sinners, people who intentionally, sociopathic, harmful, narcissistic, if love is this vibration, give it a personality, hinduism, devis, deva, personalities, all pointing to ineffable vibration of love, om mantra, resonance, if you’re hurting people because you don’t know how to love or weren’t loved enough

tantric temple recalibrate love compass, do less harm, become a healer

JT: diana ross, chain reaction, we’ve seen that in different times in history, invitation right now, change more love to happen, other thing, always said in teachings, human beings don’t change from a place of comfort, always change from place of suffering, what’s motivation to change, if miserable, isn’t working, something isn’t right, questioning, what’s going on here

wonder whether misery is a good thing

original tantra, tantra I teach is neo-tantra, osho, his body of work, my teaching lineage, comes from work that he created, teaching for 15 years, evolved and developed methods/ideas

psychotherapy, large proportion in my work, want people to learn how to integrate, give words to experience so rest of body and being can integrate

original tantra, ingo, years of academic information, original tantra for me, born out of dissatisfaction, that said at the time that only people of a high class and men, were worthy enough to access spiritual teaching, and soul evolvement,

tantra, a spiritual journey could be accessible to everybody regardless of caste

spiritual journey available for everyone

original tantra, different rituals

often people think original tantra is the best, is the more authentic, more amazing, some of original rituals, vegetarian or vegan, hold a piece of meat for next 5 days, and see how we get on with that , as a meditation, don’t know about you but if I was going to sell a workshop with that as the primary ritual, don’t think I’d have many takers

talk about the tantra that I and other people offer is of its time, the tantra we’re teaching now is of its time, we need to learn who to be okay with sexuality, have relationships with our body, understand the truth about orgasm and bliss, deal with the crap that gets in the way of shame, judgments, guilt,

some methods about moving people through a spiritual journey of where we are in 2020

TP: totally agree with that, notion of intelligently consciously triggering yourself with transgression activities

aghori sadhu, eating from skulls, extreme deprivation, acts of rejection of orthodoxy

to your point on adapting that best intentions of transgressive stuff, bicuriosity, ritual container, what is it that’s holding you back from experiencing double love and excitement,

taking phobia, turning it loving ritual container, it your point, tantra as tool kit for adapting to repression of your time, mean something different to everybody of every different culture

difference between eating rotting flesh in graveyard, and piece of art that signifies, it, if it gets the job done, maybe you don’t have to do the life threatening things

Tantric Quest, book, description of his experience of encountering wild yogini, heart of transgressive, jedi training, she was his yoda, sexual initiatrix

are there gay tantra books for men that narrate that process of initiation, not necessarily with indian, gay man guru, that would be pretty stellar, book you give coming of age literature about tantra

JT: didn’t have that tradition in england, when we came of age, think it was a bottle of alcohol, the world needs a good gay tantra book, on my to do list, one day, when stopped manifesting and creating, moved on to the next stage, curious around how we pass knowledge on to each other, are books the right way of doing it

talking about that app, curating and talking about experience of tantra, practices, things you can do, a lot more accessible, absorb knowledge books v online

feel something should be recorded for the time purposes, kind of put together, the world does need a good gay tantra book, don’t think there is one, or haven’t seen one

TP: cliff hanger, just talking other day, did meet up called kundalini monologues, love idea of curating the online museum of gay tantra, website, database, ways for people to be searching content

JT: app, talk about spiritual things, have to go back and talk about business/organizational

TP: got 7 chakras to distribute that load,

JT: chakras could do with a vacation

app with developers 18 months, alternative to grindr, scruff, wanted to appeal offer, another way to do this thing called a gay life

different way than what’s being proported by different apps out there,

asked ingo, husband, co-founded/co-runs tantra4gaymen

went shopping, ingo, finance director, said I could spend some money, bought off the shelf app, 10s of thousands of dollars to run every year

for people curious about tantra, wanted to know more, also to me an online, loving, caring family, global

5200 men, mostly uk, usa, europe, astralia, south africa, click on members near me, find local tantra men, big news feed, free content, goes in dailiy, articles videos, questions, pictures, people we buy it from, shocked, our audience so involved, statistics off the scale

global tantric community of men, keeps us all together, profiles, messaging, members near me, topics, article, writing, recordings, could go on about all of that, all for free, easily downloadable in tantra for gay men app

TP: that’s so amazing, a lot of things are flashing for me, something niche, overexemplifies the technology platform

attention, marketing,

if gay men in the tech industry, IT, webdev, are they covering this app as a news item, free press/pr for fact that it’s breaking chart numbers, gotten people reaching out, wow I want to create a plug in

JT: could always do with more, gotta get the word, out, anybody’s listening has avenues for that to happen, I’m all ears

how do we finance, all functions features, free, want them to remain tree, launched academy, miracle, 40 teachers, premium subscription $25 a month, tantra love academy, inside app, 120 live workshops every month, collective of 40 teachers, each doing 2 or 3 workshops about everything

yoga, tantra,

really the best tantra spiritual teachers in our kind of community, offering workshops as part of academy each month

promo code, 1 month free subscription

TP: love and creativity from gay community, light years ahead, very impressed, super excited

bored and frustrated with apathy a lot of sectors in the straight world, more balanced, flowing, creative energy, queer communities, more invigorating, more fun, west hollywood more fun, follow the fun, get over it

JT: why do I do all of this, for me, it comes back to my belief in love, that is the ultimate truth,

vocation, dedication of my life, help men find that truth, or find their own truth inside themselves, thanks for having me

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Sequioa and Ziji

Gay Tantra in Canada and Beyond with Sequoia and Ziji of Men in Touch TPP288

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In this episode I have the great honor and pleasure of exploring the diverse and complimentary paths of two gay tantrikas in Canada, and discussing many intersections spirituality and sexuality

About Sequia:

I view life as a school for love.
My life intention is to live in the heart of union…in the eternal oneness of now.
For over 30 years I’ve been sharing with others the practices I find most helpful to get out of the overloaded, busy mind, and connect more with the heart, breath and body, where unity and love live. It’s all about High Level Wellness…in body, heart and soul.

I have a special passion for sharing with other men what I’ve been learning about the deeper dimensions of intimacy, including full-body sensual massage, many practices drawn from Yoga and Tantra, and more recently the profound “Into Me See” of eye-gazing meditation and “We Space.”

Learn more at growinghealthier.com and menintouch.org

About Ziji:

Ziji is a facilitator at Men In Touch, teaching men skills and practices to deepen intimacy and integrate spirituality and sexuality. In addition, he is a tantric bodyworker, yoga instructor (RYT), organizer of the Ignite Festival (ignite-fest.com), and amateur queer scholar. He makes a home in Coast Salish Territory, Vancouver, and spends as much time at the nude beach as possible! Find him at gaymassagevancouver.com

My Non Verbatim Show Notes:

TP: why not rainbow tantra

S: vietnam veteran, out of air force 1972, bee line to berkeley

very free very open

discovered, alternative spirituality, blossoming then TM, massage, holistic practices, hatha yoga, beginning to become known, fringey

explore sexuality, tantra, contradicted all the catholic upbringing I had

spirituality/sexuality same energy expressed in different ways

opposite of christian belief

body impediments to spirtuality

intrigued 80s, bay area, aids epidemic, helpful if gay brothers were aware of practices that didn’t involve penetration, fluid exchange, much more about subtle energy,

started workshops, 1987, 33 years

thrilling to watch men discover more layers of intimacy

Z: I’m much younger, about almost 4 decades, grew up in different context, calgary, alberta, suburban, typical suburban conservative culture

turned to spirituality, early 20s, tibetan buddhist

monastery 2 years, nova scotia

separate from sexual life

moved to vancouver, 8 years ago

exploring, alternative things

going to sequia’s workshop, men in touch workshop about massage

attended that workshop, transformative experience, all this stuff I had learned, practice, in that non sexual context of spirituality

unified it with whole other dimension of being, becoming more important to myself

starting to discover power of sexuality

met about 7 years ago, had profound connection

personal, year or so, invited to co-teach

co-facilitating, weekly classes in vancouver, retreats, rural areas, every year festival, last 3 years, annual festival ignite festival, a lot going on, a lot of fun

S: mostly what I came to experience, sexual explorations in bay area, men

level of intimacy felt shallow, getting hard, getting off, didn’t satisfy something in me, seemed like fast food

intuition, past lives, knowingness something more, keen to keep exploring tantra, one workshop, bay area 70s

berkeley guy about my age, joe kramer

same classes, m chia, multi orgasmic man

microcosmit orbit, fascinating, moving energy, both sexual and spiritual

joseph, convo, similar interests, created body electric school, life changing for many people, pioneering, presenting workshop around conscious sexuality

less sexual more meditative and sensual

met wonderful guy in sf, body work as I had been, different kinds of movement classes, yoga for gay men, dance like stuff

doug fraiser, conversation, decided to collaborate, events called light tough retreats for loving me, weekend retreats bay area, near seattle

full body sensual eroticism, more meditative than goal oriented

ziji, been collaborating, delighted where he’s been taking our work, I’m 75, ziji 34, radical direction, just dozen guys at a time, ziji, taking it virtual, planet wide

z: mostly been working with classes retreats, beautiful containers, men go deeply, came across other modality, other container, festival, different experience, more people, usually not one container, people are popping in and out of workshops, different experience, neither better than other

offering ignite festival, last 2 years, in person, vancouver, this year got cancelled, covid, decided to do it virtual

ignite festival, online, unexpectedly all over the world, joining festival,

people from every continent, really quite and amazing experience to have that

always been more local, regional, beautiful experience

inspiration came to us, do offer really truly global festival, partnered with man in berlin, singapore, each taking 1/3 of the world, 24 hour a day festival, people can join in

invite many teachers, plurality, organizing it

invite teachers from body electric, not necessarily around sacred sexuality,

emotional, embodiment practices, etc.

no plans to be doing this kind of thing, silver linings of covid epidemic, new models, new ways of connecting

S: I would say focus of everything we do is exploring for me, many levels of intimacy, men tendency go for groin, pleasure of that so obvious in male body

ziji and I both discovered, emotional communication, meditative presence, loving kindness meditation, self, partner, group setting, level of compassion into intimacy, whole realm rarely considered

realms of intimacy, exploring

TP: great to hear,

both of you familiar with gay tantra, william shindler, one of my favorites, recommend for any seeker of tantric path how well, beyond sexual components, spiritual development components, transliterated for people not versed in hinduism, sanskrit, or yoga

get a sense of what they would be signing themselves up for

interesting point made, astute sanskrit scholar, one of foremost folks to have facts straight, promoting idea, notion, false dichotomy

paraphrase, within divine marriage, channel divine masculine, divine feminine, whatever ratio, share with partner or group

no reason people of same sex can’t feel obliged to consider themselves the complete circuit

no mention of gay in the tantras

temples sculptures, you see female bisexuality in service to men

have you explored or found interesting artwork, statues, classical tantra, guidance for people of diverse sexualities to explore these archetypes, energies in same sex context

S: tantra, oral tradition, guru to disciple, sexual aspects, less overt, less widespread, left handed path, less widely known, haven’t come across much in ancient writings, not scholar

not much written reference, studied with rudy balantime, swami rama, india, background in tantras, rudy bisexual, late 70s, tantra tradition see shiva shakti as symbolic, not literal,

man and woman can embody, so can to men, two women, inner alchemy, not matter what our plumbing, embody, all aspects of gender, express in love making, no matter gender of partner

exercises, meditations, inner marriage, inner shiva/shakti

Z: agree with everything, different dimension, concept of queer erasure in history, so often queer love is seen as counter/dangerous to narrative of normal society, to different degrees in different cultures, my own personal historical knowledge, from western tradition, prechristian cultures, also a lot of cultural differences the way we talk about relationships, queer love relationship would perhaps be quite different

spoken about quite differently , modern readers, may see or understand what is being written,

the story of achelles, partner, long stories about these too, never referred to them as fact they had sex, lovers per se, so often express their love for one another, brotherly love, comrades in arms

kind of like, from a historical perspective, how do we read history, to what degree are we imposing on history

missing from what’s been written, complicated topic

experience of tantras, not much written down, aware at least in tibetan context, guru disciple relationship, incredibly intimate, seldom written down

tibetan contenxt, patriarchal, male teacher, male student, would not be surprised, if using sexual energy as one of transmissions of teaching

homosexuality in tibetan monasteries well documented, not in ancient times, last 100 years, more exposed to the world

definitely happening, question of how do it get spoken about

TP: thank you so much, so well said, maybe somebody has been studying, great project for anybody who’s got researchto

lesbian desire in ancient and modern india, high on my book list, hope that will shed some light on good stuff

it breaks my heart when I hear people say, I want to do tantra but it’s only for straight people

curious about, what is the tantra community scene, millieu like in canada, different laws around sex work, cannabis, maybe other entheogens, a bit of a report on if anything very interesting about cultural climate, setting your in, insight into that life style there

S: started life in us vietnam vet, fell in love with vancouver in late 80s, smitten by city

90, still in love with city as years ago

somewhat more permissive culture

cannabis, tacitly accepted,

laws about sexuality, less enforced

hasn’t been kind of religious fervor that often occurs in us around laws around sexual behavior

erotic massage, began in berekley, felt safe, here feel even safer

appreciate that aspect of our culture here

Z: I would say, also in terms of sex work laws in canada, we’re currently scandanavian model, not illegal to sell sex work, somewhat illegal to market, buy, anything beyond selling is considered illegal

vancouver pd, statements, don’t enforce bilays pertaining to sex work, definitely see it quite differently,

not an idea system, decriminalization, main ideal target, overall

generally find, I feel much more comfortable being here than in america

more pacific northwest, more people from seattle, portland from anywhere in eastern canada, even alberta

can’t speak for rest of canada, some folks doing gay tantra in toronto,

a little bit happening in montreal as well too, it’s happening, it feels like most of the gay tantra work is still happening in other parts of the world

men in touch, also on forefront, canada as whole, doesn’t yet feel like a bastian, so speak of gay tantra

S: moved up from california, quite a bit less advanced around alternate spirituality, new map, tantra, has really changed in last 10 years,

going through facebook, social media,

part of whole west coast culture

southern california

vancouver very much part of that

put down, all the fruits and nuts roll west,

west coast much more progressive, in canada as well as us

TP: good to know

people up there already make some use of that intel, hoping that canada will lead north america in full legalization of sex work, know of efforts to keep rocking that boat,

I was a little bit more excited than I should have been, fine print, not friendly to both sides of transaction, consumer buyer, sex buyer, consumer of erotic services

lobbying, grass roots stuff, ?

S: in general we have to really hand it to the women, women in sex work, activist, most vocal, done the most to even get us this far, continues, women are most severely impacted by sex work laws, urgent crisis and need, safety livelihoods

Z: pushback, people are pushing the govt

if it’s every gonna happen in canada, be with more progressive govt

sex work law is always kinda not most important, not on minds of middle class, most people, base of these parties, unfortunately gets shelved

S: people hassled by police, walking the streets, neighbors call

other than that, when sex work is not in peoples faces who don’t want to see it, police not being proactive to go out and enforce it, different from us, entrapment

TP: fosta/cesta, tantrikas doing body work, whole spectrum everybody posting ads, backpage, craigslist, shut down, witch hunt, the internet policing of marketing on line, light touch, don’t bother you, hang shingle on line, not creating public nuisance, out of side out of mind

Z: have my own website, private practice, gaymassagevancouver.com

pretty obvious what it is I’m offering, not that cloaked, don’t feel afraid about that, more the effect is in, there’s still stigma, in our society around it, for example, would not want my neighbors knowing about the work I do, not illegal, but people can still make life very difficult

tread carefully around, not being public nuisance, not legal perspective, neighbors, land lords, have a lot of power over me as a renter

how much canada can have an effect on us

previous prime minister

decriminalized homosexuality, 1969

test lab for us, more progressive policies, us politicians, hmm looks like it’s working, maybe we’ll try it down here

TP: thanks for sharing, chills, wow, what an epic and brave, want to book up on history of that moment, rare, goes back, that was the magical year, a lot of good stuff happened

curious to what extent, language, tool kit, together, separately, neo tantra, extrapolating from modern gurus lineages, dance with translating teachings to offerings in modern world

adapt, relanguage, gay tantric perspective, notion of helping facilitate kundalini activation, initiation, riding the snake, wild ride of energy

why and how it erupts, orthodoxy around straight, tantric practices, not short cut but juicier way than sitting with hands folded, by yourself

how would you approach it, romance with kundalini shakti vibe

S: close to my heart, introduced to kundalini, Baba Muktananda, guru traveled world several times 70s and 80s

activating people’s kundalini, directly through shaktipat

had taste in that experience about kundalini awakening,

own that this is very phallocentric, perspective, like to view, with other gay men, entire energy body as phallus, penis, let energy build up from pelvis to crown

ejaculation out the crown of the head, fountain flow, energy thighs, genitals, through chakras, caress energy, up the middle, up and out

partners, massage table use that format, take people into new consciousness, kundalini as useful metaphor probably is that be definitely energy does shift, working with that intention, instead of conventional ejaculation

TP: really healing and sweet, people feel like they’re not gonna be missing out, or left out or excluded

heteronormative schematics

really encouraging

Z: my take on that is, just to kind of also balance that out, important to be having energetic experiences, also large portion of our work, different dimension, learning how to deepen intimacy, different quality, not usually as intensely sensory, energetic in that way, much more, other skills we’re trying to encourage, what does it mean to really be with somebody, be energetically kind of connected, recently last couple years, new concept of we space meditation, subtle states of shared consciousness, could include touch, not required

to me, my interest is more like, that feels to me like the real interesting part, one thing to have personal experience within own body, somebody’s massaging you, activating you, energetic release, beautiful experience, fruition of that, gone through kundalini awakening, has to have some sort of effect on us, when we moved the energy that way, can come into deeper states of clarity, stillness, presence,

fruition, communicates beyond just personal experience

TP: awesome, vagina monologues had pansexual tantra meed up in la, kundalini monologues, hopefully will take off some day, great time, different stories, so many, wow, lot of good stuff, definitely some horror stories too

Z: key, how do you create safe container for people to be experiencing these experiences, enough structure, to digest experience, otherwise, profoundly disorienting kind of experience

S: one of the tools learned early on in 70s, tantra workshop, same sex, all male tantra workshop, stan russell, tools used back then, eye contact, breathing together simple

80s, body electric, incorporate a bit of that, never as much as I wanted, eye gazing powerful practice in and of its self

we space meditation, promoting form of meditation

gazing into partners eyes, can be done on zoom

being with partner, holding eye contact, attempting to describe verbally, what’s going on

consciousness

quite an altered state that that leads to, ziji and I teaching

roots in tantra tradition, nothing to do overtly

connect deeply with romantic partners, total strangers

TP: beautiful thing, ancient practices techniques, occultism, cult of personality

west wants to secularize, messier, problematic, end up with more generalized, less cultural bound experience

adapted things like orgasmic meditation, may have had tantric training, indian gurus, to make it compute average multicultural western mind, strip away mythical archetypes, hindu mythological structures

we’ve salvaged in the west, western neo tantra, kundalini tradition, yoga asanas, general teaching, rarely offered, some experience, always seeking more, mudras, yantras, mantras, fundamental profound primal role, vibrations, sound, bija mantras, activating chakras, so much of that stuff, sometimes is very bound with religious dogma, archetypes, can also be more energetic, an anatomical energetic way of teaching

integrate or have reference upon mantras, mudras, in your offerings

S: tm, mantra based, Baba Muktananda kundalini awakening, om namah shivaya, so hum,

powerful, chanting of them find very transformative,

a little reluctant, people in west, wary, religiousity, hesitant to bring in too much, turn people off, almost always do oming, mantra, om

men in cirlce hug, ah sound, o, m, carry on for a while, quite wonderful, blend them, hear them unify over time

profound

Z: personal background with tantra, not in hindu, tibetan buddhist, a lot of esoteric tantric teachings within

takes quite a bit of, understanding, background structure, communicate, what this tradition is trying to say, very personally rewarding, feels like a lot of pitfalls, possible misunderstandings that can take place, generally speaking I find, my work I really informed by that, not explicitly referring specific deities, mantras, esoteric sadhanas, or whatever

S: creating sacred space, one of ingredients we invite men to join us in, letting go of ordinary chit chat, most contant non verbal, set out of busy urban life for whole weekend, movement touch, conscious breathing, nonordinary state of consciousness, I hope informs the rest of their lives, states of consciousness are available,

TP: definitely so many different schools all over the east, probably all agree on, path of integrating pleasure for spiritual development, does the work of a 1000 mantras, touch, centeredness in moment, sensate focus,

advanced yogis, alluded, quality of attention and focus is what you’re going for, the actual prescribed numbers of repetitions, grading on the curve, lowest common denominators, to make sure they get in the fold

Z: one of last few tibetan teachers, trained in pre chinese, tibet, very revered, visiting monastery, giving teachings, one nugget

two paths to liberation the path of pain and the path of pleasure, most people take the path of pain, just laughed,

we are all about exploring the path of pleasure

TP: that says it all, love that so much

so great so fun to have round table on this, invite you back anytime, more deeply, promote, things available, to broader community world wide through internet, good to promote that stuff, shout out, for website

Z: main website, menintouch.org, ignite festival, ignite-fest.com, each have own private practice, gaymassagevancouver.com, sequia, growthinghealthier.com

Joel Brierre yoga

The Taboo Bending Path of an Entheogenic Yogi with Joël Brierre TPP282

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In this episode I’m joined by my new entheogenic yogi brother for an exploration of his radical personal journey of transformation, and his taboo bending offerings spanning diverse wisdom traditions both ancient and modern

About Joël

Joël Brierre is a Yogi, teacher, psychedelic integration specialist, and IMHU trained spiritual emergence coach. He began his relationship with psychedelics as a teenager in an exploratory manner. Marveling at the chance to explore the unexplored, Joël began training with Curanderos in Peru in 2001 where he further pursued these heightened states of awareness. Eventually shifting his focus into a deep and devoted yoga practice, he began teaching yoga and meditation and soon moved on to India to study in an ashram setting in Rishikesh. From there he traveled all around the world, soaking up knowledge and sharing what he’d learned. He was reintroduced to plant medicine in 2009 while living in the Caribbean, and began to incorporate this into his yoga practice. From there he went on to study with various guides and facilitators of differing lineages and practices With this combination of knowledge, Joël now leads retreats and workshops around the world on the plant medicine and yoga connection. With over 10 years of teaching and multiple teacher trainings, Joël is certified at 500 ERYT. Joël mainly works with the compound 5-MeO-DMT in it’s pure form as well as in the venom of the Bufo Alvarius toad. This compound is said to be the most powerful entheogen on the planet, allowing participants to experience a non-dual state of awareness in which they cease to view reality as an individual and are completely absorbed into the infinite. Joël believes the toad medicine’s effect of a non-dual experience is congruent with the Samadhi states that can be attained through yoga. He assists individuals through pre and post integration using a program he derived from the Yoga Sutras of Patanjali.

Please visit his website at:
https://www.itsallsource.com/

 

My Non Verbatim Show Notes

JB: originally from washington dc, growing up, crack epidemic, crazy

turbulent time

awesome parents, parents, new age practices, yogic practices, experimenting in modalities

spiritual lifestyle

knucklehead, learn lessons head on, take longer to learn up

after quite a few life lessons, stints in jail,

2003 moved to Virginia

started bartending

couple years, did nothing

didn’t want to be in scene from before

over it, over drug addict/dealing lifestyle

no idea what to replace with

excessive drinking, eating, working day and night

eating and drinking a lot, very angry person

had been slim, got into heavier set around that time, above 200 lbs, miserable

felt no power to change, no will to stop the way I was eating, drinking

didn’t enjoy it, toxic relationship,

one day re-read, book, way of the peaceful warrior

first time, good book, second time, hit like ton of bricks, ready for it

what am I thinking

took reigns, took control of self

inspiration, determination, got out of relationship

exercising, eating more healthy

different relationship,

young lady decided to get me to go to a yoga class

laughed off idea, man who works out going to yoga class, even knowing what it was all about

still ingrained toxic masculinity, felt triggered, wanted to reject

got me to go, lay semi conscious

fed humble pie

I felt it, lasted for weeks after class

physically and mentally

started pursuing deeper,

bikram yoga, going to a couple classes every week, enjoying it, feeling lacking something

other modalities, hatha, vinyasa,

taking practice deeper

2008 moved to virgin islands

things started to unfold

st. john,

caribean, fathers haitian

took me right in, 2/3 national park

tree house resort, around since 70s

lived in a place, lived like never never land from Hook

tree houses connected to each other like ewok village

lived with 2 teachers, practicing everyday

a few spiritual awakenings seemed like psychotic breaks, could only relate to psychedelics

refraining from substances, little cannabis here and there

abstain from alcohol

had experiences that reminded me of psychedelic experiences

in 90s, really into psychedelics

parents got me casteneda books, leary, huxley

deep thirst for adventure into unknown

virgin islands, experiences, more than slightly psychedelic

kriya yoga, kundalini

3:30 get up, practice from 4:00 to 7:30

reintroduced to medicines by two teachers

trepidation at first, had a lot of bad trips

hardcore psychonaut, 15-20 tabs of acid,

¼ ounce of mushrooms

go hard back in the day, medicine would always try to show me things I wasn’t prepared to see

issues, things gone unnoticed, present, front and center

lot of anxiety, jump back into realm of oddities

this time different, sacred setting, meditations, chants, opened the space

found myself in this beautiful space

anxieties, using breathing, surrendering, finding this is a whole different game

spiritual practices, geography to make my way through this much

looking through emotional patternings

why they were there

ego attachments

contacted dad, develop relationship with him again

lot of pride, identified with previous criminal drug dealer self, wanted to get as deep into it as I could, glorified, process of letting go of story

after out of business for years, convicted felon, see how holding on to story, speak for present life

re-introductions to psychedelics and medicines, catalyst to take everything to where it is now

traveling, lived in india, ashram, few awakenings

wasn’t working with any medicines in india

move to australia, sydney, opened studio

powerful urge to work with medicines

seeing shamans faces in meditations

mom and I went to peru, worked with san pedro cactus, mother tried to bring healing to 18 year old self

see, introduction to that lineage, re-introduced in australia, deep calls,

message to peter gorman, put out book,

sapo my soul or something like that, contact him, very connected down in amazon, asked if still had connections

next day, young lady, gf of a friend, from mexico, bringing curandero from peru, coming to do sacred ceremony

fell right in, started working with him, became fire guardian, sweat lodges, learned what I could from him

moved back to carribean

moved back to states

all of that still churning, evolving

manifested in combining medicine into yoga retreats, had been holding retreats for 10 years, started in bali

6 years ago, bringing medicine in

wasn’t confident to serve professionally

serving dmt to friends

bigger ceremonies, facilitating

evolved to integration

put there for a reason

psychedelics are deeply rooted in hindu mythology and in yogic philosophy period, what is soma, entire passages of vedas, singing worship to goddess of soma

agreed to be psychedelic potion of some sort, which substance not agreed upon yet

understood that connection

started using patanjali’s 8 limbed path of yoga sutras, direct application for psychedelic integration

extract juice, extract message from abstract experience

helping your growth

re-introduced to 5me0 dmt

first tried back in 2000, don’t remember

this time, ahhh

experience was the culmination of everything I’d every learned and studied

pure full body, full spirit understanding of samadhi, full cessation of self

god molecule

draw within for few weeks

stopped teaching for a while

ceased to teach classes there, let go of slots

something wasn’t fitting anymore

wasn’t feeling I was doing what I was here to do by teaching a 90 minute vinyasa practice

still beautiful, wasn’t want I was interested in teaching

more satsangs, lectures, workshops

call to take medicine service deeper

trained to serve with Shipibo tribe

clear message, no, this isn’t the medicine you came here to serve

5me0, fear

not sure if you’ve seen someone on 5me0 , very strong experience, has resulted in death

tried to resist, push out notion, no no, creep its way in,

I realized, I needed to learn more

reached out to quite a few other known , respected by me or peers

talk share notes, information

trial and error

help self and beautiful wife,

retreats, focus work on retreats

idea, taking someone out of daily life, growth seldom happens in comfort zone, but make sure they’re comfortable

make sure they’re received very lovingly/warming

prep with participants weeks before retreat starts, online meetings

individual prep work

seeing where holding resistance, suffering

5 yogic principles of suffering

holding container, holding space for whatever they need

making sure nothing for them to worry about or think about

everything taken care of

scary or daunting deep work, feel supported, feel held

get to feel into themselves, expansiveness, great mystery

support of group, support of us, tools at our disposal to handle anything that comes up

purging experience, things need to come up to be released

solid warm safe container, face what they need to

after that, setting in place what they’d like to see in their daily life

doing this work is process of elimination

what do we put in its place

how do we want to operate, respond to loved ones

taking advantage of state of neuroplasticity

using very very well defined system for psychdelic integration, tryptamine sutras

using this system of self inquiry

each participant gets own practice, prescribed daily session

instead of getting swept back up in old routine, have something they can do everyday 10-15 minutes, piece of reading, something to draw back to experience

nurture what is growing

integration very hands on

there for all participants after experience

touch in personally afterwards

about creating lasting change

TP:

amazing, I could listen to you talk forever, every rabbit hole, exquisite, connecting dots

have a lot of catching up to on systems you’ve woven together

what comes to mind is my first, broad set of questions

I just imagine, I’m listening to your story, fuck yeah, amazing, what we gotta do, positive side of postmodernism, syncretism, fusion

mixed martial arts, what about mix healing arts

haters on cultural appropriation, fallacy of appeal to tradition, taboos

hearing voices, indigenous or non indigenous

you have this integrity, hear it in your voice

testimonials will be where it all shakes out

positive life transforming experiences, speak highly of you, that’s what matters at the end of the day

to bring to question

I’m sure you’ve had some push back along the way, wondering if you could talk about strategies

to keep bringing it, integration of different modalities

JB:

to be expected, only came out of psychedelic closet about 4 years ago

social media, caught kick back from yoga community first

came to realized, system of yoga, far more riddle with dogma that I ever thought possible

push back, you don’t need foreign substance to show you enlightenment

all in you

yes true, but always bring up fact that this substance already exists within us, endogenously

believe responsible for mystical experience

in dark, after day 5 or 6, pineal gland will secrete Pinoline, in turn that will secrete down

lungs are main factory of dmt

no science to show from pineal gland

simply means to bring vision

vehicle of mystical experience

ego loves to advance itself in spiritual practice

it will make its way up just with awareness

attaching to progress, lineage, paradigm

take something outside of that paradigm, receive it as attack on world view, views on life, start to lock up there

all paths lead to source

spiritual practices are like thorns used to remove other thorns

they’re all systems and we have to accept that any spiritual practice is by definition a system of the ego

individual

pure source can’t come through as undifferentiated word

filtered through subconscious and minds of humans

analogy bling monks feeling elephant

all feeling small part of big mystery

when start thing that ways not right to do it, that’s when things get questionable

holding on too much

challenge people who say psychedelics are a short cut

may be lessor in time, but not a short cut

are we gonna limit to fabricated experience of time

where our awareness goes there is no time

experience by time shorter, a lot of experience in one

responsible use/proper integration

extremely powerful tool for self inquiry

used for millenia in every different culture

we like to identify with image of enlightened one, pure one, noble one, the yogi that does not need to seek happiness, unswayed, impervious to emotion yogi

I feel this archetypes no longer serves its purpose, drive for rishis mystics and sages, to get consciousness to where its at

hardcore discipline

eventually spiritual practice becomes our own prison, our own maya, just as quick as a shopping mall can

our practice can take us to the top of the mountain, but if you want to

jump into cave, real wholeness, pure mystery, let go of everything, including your beliefs, including spiritual practice

great saying, if on your path to enlightenment you encounter the buddha, kill him, cut him in two

any systems, any time we create systems around spiritual practice, we are both helping and inhibiting ourselves, a bit of a paradox

these systems are needed are for the ego, not bad not a wrong thing to work with and use the ego

whole movement, kill your ego, crush the ego, ego’s not amigo

have to have ego to have human experience

ego is necessary

ego wants to hold on to its identifying with spiritual practice

not bad to play with the ego, have systems for the ego

not like we can jump straight from here to enlightenment, we’ve gotta get there

ego’s gonna fight us every step of the

way if we don’t give it some sort of system

mantra is essentially a way to keep the mind focused on one thing while our awareness can simply merge into the everythingness

have to let go of even that

real myster, true mystery, source itself, beyond our understanding

beyond words, language, can’t be encompassed or understand within any practice

that’s really why I resonate with vedanta, spiritual practice but without walls…but they all have their own walls at the end of the day

TP: wisdom, best peaceful arsenal of tactical concepts, approaches to these issues

people held back by rigidity of dogma, could be from any of these traditions/modalities

amazing neurolinguistic ninjitsu tactics

can’t think of too many instances heard accounts of yogis, spiritual masters, very anti entheogen, can’t think of many accounts of people who were experienced with it, its usually people who are not experienced who want to say I’ve already been there, I’ve already been there, wink nudge, I’ve heard that one before

interesting where that bias comes from

counselor for someone exploring entheogens, irrelevant to their life if you can’t talk about the same landscape, can’t just assume that you’ve been there

straussman came out

had more time ahead in career, after a certain point, the longer you live, that’s less you have to lose

quite a grace

get to a certain age stop trying to impress people

different life stages

different thought forms around relaxing and finding your path

sample different things, duty of care, safety, being held

opportunities to find your path

not first person I’ve heard say, they felt intuitively called to explore serving aya

it’s not most scalable medicine

applaud you, you’re called to serve dmt,

shamans of global village

rak is dear friend

takes em on a ride

I think I found the one, you’re one who’s gonna devirginize my 5me0 virginity

bufo toad tattoo, bucket list

you got a new client

JB: we call them participants

5me0, in sync with the evolution of consciousness

been around, remember, it was legal until 2011, ordered off internet back in 2000

church of toad of light, 80s

being used, wasn’t catching like it is all the sudden

dr jerry, dr octavia, toad blew up

it is, reminder for us

if we look at whats alive in the meme of society right now with consciousness

big questions being asked

AI, singularity, roots of consciousness, where we’re going in evolution of consciousness

no dual experience

other entheogens can

this is a real non dual full immersion into the infinite

complete cessation of self

into wonder of existence

loosen grip on control of it

to allow us to begin to see what we really are

showing, the toad is reminder that we are the medicine

work with the pure molecule, synthetic, less harmful to toad population

not presence of addition 11 alkoloids,

7 of which cardio toxins, know to harm elderly

drama in sonoran dessert

toad is reminder that we are the medicine, don’t feel we need to continue pillaging toad population, toad goes underground for 9 months out of the year, the only toad that produces 5me0dmt in its secretion, believed because it does go into the dark for 9 months

shows us if we go into the dark we can start producing this medicine ourselves which we do

medicine is reminder we are the medicine

making lasting change

having an experience, using responsibly working into daily life

TP: what’s process of getting to the pure molecule, fascinating, all about protecting threatened and endangered species when they become fad psychedelic experiences

JB: made in lab

people say oh that’s not natural, that’s fake enlightenment

over attaching to specific idea

shulgin, I’m I not a manifestation of god, am I not a fraction of the infinite, I’m making these with beautiful intention, am I not nature creating, so I really agree with that

all about where it’s coming from

we know where it’s coming from, it’s made with love, tedious process to make

becoming more widely available

disappeared for a long time

TP: more on naturalistic camp in general, but if it can protect wildlife, probably the way to go

I’ve had beautiful experiences

permaculture, every plant is native, it’s native to planet earth, a lot of bias

fascinating, sounds like you can feel better about

with a bit of time left, kind of journey personally, kind of going with flow of initiations, initiatrixes, initiators,

transcend trauma, be in recovery, I don’t have a very othodox path, with yoga

felt natural for me to gravitate towards unorthodox tantric

open minded, open ended

now I’m kind feel like I didn’t do the

like go to college take fun electives first, gonna have to catch up on more orthodox yogic practices

getting older, landscaping, taking its toll

at a point where it’s important to have asanas, daily practices, haven’t disciplined myself to do

going for sexier stuff

how you frame, language around sexual yoga, tantra, different currents of thought

JB:

funny you said with asana, something, more than a few months, kinda stop practicing more than a year ago,

body kept telling me, stop doing this

cut it down

kept getting injured, mind keeps making it goal oriented practice, opposite of what yoga should be

cut it to very classic simple, basic poses, hold for long time, deep breathing

disagreeing with body, tried adapting in every way

trying to identify with being a yogi so much that I felt I had to hold on to asana, if I wasn’t practicing then I wasn’t a yogi

very odd part of unfolding

comfortable with in last few months

take care of body, exercise, trying to get exercise from asana

no longer resonating with me

not serving me

might again at some point, my real philosophy, keep your practice fluid, don’t hold on to something too much, fine balance to be found between discipline and holding on to a practice that’s not serving you

discernment

sexual practices

experience with classical tantric lineages

studying there, sexual part of tantra, shut that out, my sexuality was an issue with me my whole life

early bloomer, experiencing desires at young age, most people at that age don’t experience, tormented by them

when I became age to be practicing, there wasn’t a whole lot of control,

committed relationships, step outside of relationships in sneaky ways, cause pain cause hurt suffering, I’d feel guilty and wrapped into so much shame

with yoga practice eventually drank kool aid, yogi should suppress all sexual desire turn it into creative energy, draw upwards the spine, yogi doesn’t need sex just a distraction

I really ate that up, put sexuality and urges, completely rejected them almost

so many practices to draw that something up for something different, that wasn’t sexual instead of just understanding its something that’s very alive in me

opening up far more recently

shedding off shame

how much shame around sexuality did I have

trying to hold myself to that monk image, when it just wasn’t me

sexuality and intimacy is a spiritual practice itself

observing oneself in the midst of those, some of the deepest works I’ve ever done in life

investigating that, how it’s making me feel, wonderful

lineages

haven’t been working with

interesting, I am feeling drawn to investigate classical tantric practices again

growing aversion to structures out of fear of dogmatic tendencies

now its just having to find that balance remembering the structures are there for a reason

not over identify with practice, don’t take in everything hearing, swallow it whole

TP: meta narrative neo tantrikas, path to total liberation, embodying all the chakras, kundalini shakti, towards total freedom, have to build to the fire to have the fire burn, it is those practices, you can want there to be nice big celebratory bonfire, but it doesn’t come out of nowhere, this dance you’re talking about

can drive self crazy as man, with the whole when to ejaculate

sometimes the most liberating thing is to not fuckin care

JB: online people post/comment, only way is semen retention anything else is just being dead

jc it must suck to be you

we get in our heads so much get militant about spiritual practice, only path for everyone

what’s working for me right now at this moment must be the only thing that can work for everybody

because somewhere in their head they are bitter that other people are having orgasms and they’re not

animosity, oh you’re just wasting your energy

of course wonderful peak orgasms can be come to without ejaculated

something to be said for that release as well

I don’t think we always need to hold everything in, I don’t think we need to torture ourselves, like these yogic teaching and disciplines taught us for so long, no longer feel it’s necessary

relax in certain areas, does not mean cease to use critical thinking, tools

wounded healer archetype no longer serves its purpose, we no longer need to beat ourselves down to rise our selves us, no longer need to take from ourselves and exhaust ourselves to serve others,

beginning to slowly remember and realize we draw from an infinite well

TP: invite you back sooner rather than later, zoom into more of these topics, really well spoken, a lot of stuff we could commiserate about

if I could put in a bit of commentary to close my thoughts

the opportunities that we have to experience all kinds of different extremes

if your’e adventurer, seeker, psychonaut, yogi, tantrika, why not explore extremities of different practices

cave divers, have a line to follow back to a point

not get lost in someone elses trip

hold on to that

powerful aspect of mind hacks

if you’re a trip reminder yourself you’re on a substance and it will wear off

be flexible to embrace different aspects

sounds really healthy

applaud efforts to dance with different modalities

appropriate experience for folks

final thoughts direct people offerings

JB: in closing I would say, line to hold on to, engaging in exploring into the unknown, line we hold on to is the stillness at the center, learning to cultivate awareness of that stillness ability to navigate through spaces

get back to eye of storm

cultivate, always there to drawn on as we engage in wild wild adventures

email joel (at) itsallsource (dot) com

itsallsource.com

retreats on website

kaivalya kollectiv, beginning of a mystery school based around everything we’ve just been talking about

hope to see you all soon

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An Eco-Sexual Healing Meditation for the Planet with Gay Tantrika Brad Amberheart TPP278

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In this episode I’m syndicating the intro to a powerful meditation circle led by Brad Amberheart

For the full meditation please go to: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/gay-tantra/id1493225929

About Brad:

Brad Amberheart is a Tantric sex coach and erotic workshop facilitator who works primarily with gay men. His primary passion is working 1-on-1 with men who are ready to explore erotic ecstasy as a pathway to a higher understanding of who we are and why we’re here. Brad has also led transformational erotic rituals at international Tantra festivals for people of all genders, including the Hawaii Tantra Festival and the Tantra Love Fest in Glastonbury, UK. Between 2017 and 2020, he wrote more than 120 concepts for conscious evolutionary Gay Sex videos and worked on 7 gay erotic film sets to coach male erotic models in how to convey a deeper sense of heightened sexual freedom and expression on camera. His latest endeavor, as of January 2020, is the launch of his podcast series, Gay Tantra, which is the first podcast series in the world devoted fully to the experiential practice of Tantra, Sexual Magic, and Erotic Mysticism for men who have sex with men. To listen to his podcast, watch his gay erotic videos, or book a Tantric Sex coaching session in person or via video conferencing, please visit bradamberheart.com

 

 

Sexorcism the Tantric Opera Episode 17 “Bless My Hands with Maya Rati”

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This video features Maya Rati as the shakti who receives the devotional worship and puja intended to seek the boons of Goddess Kali to bless my hands to heal the victims of abuse

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Song Lyrics:

To find the brightest light
You must enter the sacred darkness
To ascend
You must descend

Kalika will you bless my hands
To heal abuse victims
In your name I must give not take
With your love I shall liberate

Liberate our souls
Our truth will be told
Liberate our souls
Our truth will be told

I grant you power
I grant you grace
I grant you protection
I grant you love

O destructress of the sins of the three worlds, auspicious Kalika, they who recite Thy mantra possess the powers of the Three-Eyed One in the palm of their hands

I’m so ready to embody you
My beloved Kali
Come, oh won’t you come
I bow down to thee
My beloved Kali

Sexorcism the Tantric Opera Episode 16 “The Lost Art of Lingam Massage”

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This video depicts a tantric lingam massage featuring Maya Rati and the track Holistic Debauchery

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Alien Lover Goddess: Behind the Track Commentary TPP273

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In this episode I share the backstory of the soon to be released track Alien Lover Goddess

My Non Verbatim Show Notes:

This new thing, which is a track that I produced, that I am madly in love with, and I’m gonna give the back story now, the dual serpenting, kundalini timelines of creativity and magic in a time of chaos

going back to late december I get a text from one of my dearest beloved brothers of punk, metal, and psytrance

been in the trenches in metal and punk, the real trenches of madness and violence and alcohol abuse, bad, crazy madness, chaos, we survived that in those trenches together in band, then reunited on the dance floors of psytrance

both of us discovering that this medicine of a music is so healing for us, a lot of refugees from punk and metal, transcended and ascended from the mosh pit to the stomping of the psytrance experience

magical bond with those who have the background, went through 80s and 90s era punk and metal debauchery, not spiritual, political but disembodied

shamanic trance, sonic driving, how beautiful the transformation, bromance, with dear beloved brother in musical combat

he one day sent a text, want to produce a track for compilation of california psytrance producers, fuck yeah

unprofessional, amateur attempts at making beats and tracking, mentor, nuno cabral of ninesense and manipulation, a cofounder, angel investor of spiritual capital into tantra punk

back bone, co producer, his efforts along with calvin from photon AD, those two men…if tantra punk is the feminine shakti, they were the shiva that brought form,

all in the romance of myself and sufiana, build sonic temple for the vibrations of her sanksrit singing and bollywood dancing,the beauty and magic

tantra punk has been not without this musical romance, musical adventure story of the worship of the goddess sufiana, goddess in the flesh

I want to be careful not to over deify, or devi-fy, but what is a horny geek boy to do with what’s ever left of my horny geek boy hanging on to the last vestiges of that youthful enchantment with the female mystique, before it’s more and more of a struggle to maintain testosterone, and feel the newness of new relationship energy, excitement and love, and romance, to not take it for granted, to not take women for granted, to feel in love all the time

psytrance is a huge part of sustaining that love, that bass, powerful way to keep romantic love alive, story of me and sufiana

the story of tantra punk, the woman the myth the legend, and the man who humbly worships that woman, that is the story of sufiana and tantra punk, it’s laced in the sexorcism the tantric opera documentary series

all in devotion not just her, but the teachings and the wisdom of the ancient shaktism path of tantra that she exudes and represents and brings into modern times with a beautiful voice and humanness, human frailty, imperfections

all that said I was ask to make a track, and building upon the successes of and failures of 3 albums, after 3 albums of proto, like garage days type albums, hope I can say garage days are over-ish, hopefully have matured in still very early stages of being a wanna be psytrance producers, aspirant, with help with real wizards of this tech

I did make a track for this compilations, in the words of osho, wildly possessed

my holidays were spent in a beautiful sacred place

I broke a taboo, my toes were touching a beautiful kali painting that a friend made while listening to one of my podcasts, I was giving deep report on my union with the goddess kali, while listening she painted the most exquisite wild orgasmic depiction of Kali ever and that’s saying a lot if you know what I’m talking about

she made this piece sent it to me for safe keeping, had it as the center piece of whatever environment I’ve been in ever since

I’ve been told you’re not supposed to even point your feet at the goddess altar, but I accidentally broke that taboo and noticed it and thought whoa, this could be very assuming and potentially narcissistic to say, but we all want to be loved on the by the goddess when we discover her and chant to and invoke and sing the praise and hymns to her,

the most endearing moment, at a beautiful kali temple, one of the most charming devotees, I had to discipline myself not to fawn over, was saying good bye to everybody and leaving after the puja, having just a slight bit of technical difficulties with the mechanism of the door, she said something so beautifully, “i believe that ma does not want me to leave yet”

I’m like oh my fuckin god you, I know the feeling where you just want to have this pronoiac, conspiracy theory where she’s there with you at all times, thick and thin, good and evil,

you could say the same thing about christers, jesus freaks, everything is the wrath or the blessing or whatever,

its sweet and charming and endearing for me as mostly a skeptic, and having been secular most of my life to be like okay, I love that feeling of like, yeah maybe there is goddess watching over us from a distance, goddess in us, invited to possess us, and what sufiana brings which is the genuine article, I can only be like Indiana Jones marveling at the work of art, revelations, or shit

in the words of a great black magician, the ah ha quickly becomes the oh shit

under estimated the truth of these ancient wisdom traditions

we have those types of experiences all the time

priceless moments

so I admit that I maybe over extrapolating my union and connectedness when I say I’m starting to dig into producing this track

channeled felt the flowing through, have felt like a ouija board effect, what is moving my hand, cadence of notes something I’ve never heard before, but later find a chant online, they’re singing the notes and cadence of notes of what I was possessed to produce on the fl studio platform, melody beats, been there, I am opening up , I am a devotee, this is my sonic goddess temple

the experience of being, opening up allowing this to happen, feeling being animated, sort of like the calypso in beetle juice, not scary, fun, bizarre, anchor into that moment, the dinner party, possessed, making beats for the goddess and loving it,

intoxicating otherworldly melody, notice oh shit my toe is touching this painting

benevolent version of ghost busters 2, art is magic, painting she produced will be unveiled at some point, sacred and private to me

for whatever it’s worth maybe maybe not, it was exquisite to feel I’m here by the cemetery, auspicious time of year, heart energy into his track day after day after day, artist zone, tuning everything else out, kind of a loner, solitary sovereign person, didn’t feel deprived of human connection, happy to go deep with track go deep with goddess, attempting to create this cartography of the beautiful flesh of the goddess, her heart of hearts, her layers of beauty, density, wisdom, ability to elucidate and shed light on demon nests in chakras and soul, simultaneously overtake them, consume them dissolve them, emboss herself out into these beautiful blackberry feminine alien insectoid black widow, dragon fly, queen bee architectures of aliennes and beauty, and that is what my attempt with a number of my kali puja on psytrance tracks have been an attempt to do, enjoying cannabis in the process

fun part of psychedelic trance when you’re not on the psychedelics when you’re producing it, you’re almost like painting in the dark because you kind of know okay I want this to harmonize with this and I want this to collide with this and create an emergent property of

vibrations and sound and percussions , don’t know exactly how all

you’re building that ride, can only imagine from futile state, designing sonically in a soberish state, with the thrill and excitement of what magnificent mystery is gonna unfold when you can enjoy it and go for a ride

after you do some solo beta testing, refine revise, how you need to garden and design, adapt and refine it through iteration

timeline, not too much of a deadline, let it flow natural phases bass tracks, melodies

calvin, his method of producing a track, the heart of the track a million things layered on top of each other, the most dense experience, you’ve been entraining to trance loops, the kundalini starts to move through ear drums, you’re buckling up into this astral vessel, getting acclimatized tot he sound of the thrusters, the rudders, however you want to think of it, percussions, lower frequencies, then you’re moving, then the melodies is whats coming through your field while you’re going into hyper drive, through worm wholes, through vortices, designing a theme park ride of inner journeying, outer worlds, inner worlds

heart of track, not always, advice I took to hear,t at least know where to start, you could, just have melody come to me, humm it record it, then map it out on to melody, keep dressing it up, to where all layers are happening, continue to add a few, most intense points, most intense passages, build all that up, then it’s a graduated experience, drops, build ups, lazers, effects, you strip them down, then you’re basically doing, when you’re making love, as per my how to love like a god training course, theirs a beauty in teasing a vagina with your penis, varying the strokes, speed, thrusting patterns, phasing in and out, of more and less stimulation

peak of psytrance experience, I’m making out , both of my nipples are being sucked, being enveloped/penetrating, something’s tickling or penetrating other parts of me, and I’m getting a foot massage, and I’m under a water full, orgasmically, creating this massive big bang ultimate experience, approaching those vistas, high points of these mountain tops, peaks of the psytrance experience if you just throw that in someones face, it doesn’t work the same

that’s the whole dance,,the foreplay, in a track the intro is the foreplay, and outro is the after glow, the climax is somewhere and there may be multiple

having those heart thumping eargasmic experiences, I strive to achieve that with better form, structure, sound engineering, mechanics, this track at this point is the crown jewel of my productions

maybe it will be the last I’ll ever do because I get wiped out with corona, or the internet gets wiped out because of collapse, whatever the case may be as of last night I’m reassured that my union with the spirit of the dark goddess through the process of creating the track, through the beta testing on myself, also testing with dmt, chanting the mantra of the track through the dmt samples, the simulator, the flight test, can I break through event horizon, terminal velocity, get into orbit, if I can hold on with this track through the turbulence, breaking through, mantra protects me as I get into the orbit, habit of flight testing tracks, so many subtleties, things out of tune, out of phase, still learning, things out of whack, mixing, the deepest bows ever to nuno, this time I went ahead and paid extra, still gave a sweet deal, please is surrender, I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing, just the thesis, the concept, I gave him the stems so that he could mix them in his own way, did some real fuckin wizardry to save my ass and make this digestible to the ears to engineering specifications that I could only ever dream about understanding, the best thing I’ve ever done

I do want to say, my goal my aspiration is to be like I could play my favorite psytrance producers tracks in a playlist with one of my tracks and have it not be a real fuckin disappointment

doesn’t have to shine any more than that

5 years of feeble attempts moving at least on the right direction

its gotta be a monster,

my intention, a beautiful divine feminine monstress

we deliberated about whether or not the chanting in my other tracks, there’s people who might absolutely love this experimental project of vocal psytrance, some people hate, continuum, sweet spot we agreed on, I’m maybe done doing vocal psytrance using the english language, I don’t want to denigrate previous works

in order for me to have any real acknowledgement or hope to be spun by djs on dance floors, it can’t be a sing along pop duet, rarely you see that fly

trance people aren’t into weirdness of psytrance, dark psy

most positive sense, tantra punk music is ahead of its time, in a cynical sense, dear brother said, I love you dude but it’s too much to ask for people to vibe with this, yeah you’re right, I enjoy its for myself, why don’t you do real psytrance, skip the vocals, release instrumental tracks

all tracks were stories to tell

now I can produce instrumental psytrance or just try

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asked to produce something, accountable to design of a producer,

work with those design constraints

sweet spot that was agreed upon

get away with thrive, I want to produce tracks where I’m integrating mantras because I feel and experience the power of what mantras do to purify the mind, heal, magical powers, invoke goddess, cultivate mastery of love, choose your own adventure, design your trip, more of lucid dreaming experience of psychedelics with mantra

terrence mckenna gets into that, books on hidden psychedelic history of yoga

modernization of these ancient harmonics

exquisite vocalist, prolific bollywood film soundtrack singer, look at her discography, beyond profound

almost infinite, goes to show how much love and devotion there is to these traditions

I’m chanting one of her mantras every day, spiritual practice wake up spend 15-30 minutes with her production of a vedic mantra, fierce form of shiva, effect of please heal me, liberate me, pluck me like a melon from a vine, how permaculture can you get

with fierceness of the 3 eyed one, fierce form of shiva, and there’s deep story and mythology behind it, I’m just a rocker, a hesher, metal head, loves metallica, loves slayer, wore patches, went to shows, worshiped the albums

journey as musician, feel into amazing exquisite intoxicating dark riffs

sacred geometrical sonic forms, ancient mantras sung by priestesses, this is a deep death metal groove, melody that I was shredding on in basements as a teenager with my bc rich warlock, spider looking, kali looking guitar, shredding on these dark enchanting melodies in c#, though not in 432, next best thing, jamming om frequency death metal, now tuned to be dead on

transcendental death metal love, death, cynic, disincarnate, arch enemy, in flames, evolution fo crude trash death to transcendent death metal so deep in my heart, these are my roots

played track for my homie, listen to the harmonies, these are death metal harmonies, death metal channeled from these places

tantric mysticism, homage to the hell realms, you can’t fight your demons without going to where they live, visiting with them ,hanging out, partying and dancing, giving love and nectar of the goddess, bring the goddess to your demons, for them to be transformed and evolved and for them to be released

visions, what if demons, as miserable as you are, doing the drudgery, do they really i want to be imprisoned in your chakras, making hell for you, we think that’s what they want, the hierarchies of the demonic realm, a lot of the ones, larval pests being farmed, maybe enslaved by more insidious masters of them as puppets, sad but true metallica demonology, all the death metal album covers, alien giger, landscapes of living hell, very tantric, described in tantric scriptures and hymns and chants to goddesses, seek goddess, beauty in darkness, reason to apply yourself to inner heal realms, explore, bring shakti love to them

this track, sometimes I ask myself, I could wake up in the morning and say is it possible to love the goddess too much ever, today will I be excessively exerting myself beyond reasonable limits, to try to seduce, impress divine goddess energies, forms of goddess I’m so enamored by, is it possible to over love somebody, not in possessive way, manipulative, controlling, jealous, a way of true giving a good way to approach life

love embedded in this track, is it her love is it my love is it our love is it divine cosmic love, is it a love that invites and creates seats at a table of a feast of divine loving energy

allowing demons into the ceremony, been a practice for me and transformation for me,

ask demons wearing the masks of my traumatic memories, to put down their masks, observe order of ceremony, take seats in amphitheater of goddess worship so that we can all be blessed, transformed, divined by her presence, chant together in this invocation, form an alliance, discover that we want the same thing

we don’t want ben to suffer, we don’t want to live in ben’s traumatic history forever, we’re bored with that, that’s an old story, we want to collaborate to be in a state of grace and meditation

kali mandir, where else do you want the demons to be, out there wreaking havoc like loose rabid dogs, maybe not be lap dogs, be gargoyles, train them, we feed you but you obey us

opportunity and challenge of this realm, massive infestation fo demonic entities, will borrow in, take possession, do harm, don’t know another way, same you could say about slums, given no other alternatives/opportunities you have criminality, decline in compassion, increase in uncompassionate self serving, I can see the faces of the rapists and molesters that attacked me throughout my life, there was a quality of love they were deprived of and they went septic inside, but my goal and hope is that by feeling into the healing energy of the goddess, nectar of healing love and abundance can be rained down upon all of these beings

so the first mushroom trip with this track, hell froze over, exquisite journey and experience to see this frost, entered this realm with the track

psy salon, listening to someone talk about their trip is about as interesting as listening to some talk about there dreams, you do you, but place for trip reports

build theme park, build ride, don’t know how its gonna feel what needs to be tweaked, don’t have all the lights wired up, don’t know what its gonna look like, test with magic mushrooms, use mantras to invite deity of devotion into the ceremony, that’s when the all the lazer light show, astral 3rd eye lazer light show, other worldly realms

getting first nintendo game tantra, snow field realm, insectoid alien larval multiheaded monster realm, gargoyle, monstrosity, infinite, kaledescopic, growing, the way you look at a mold, infinite interwoven textures, matt of black old, millions of snarling gargoyle heads bat faces, in your face, growing, expontentially increasing in number and size, getting in your face, trying to gross you out, being obnoxious

goddess comes down, removes them, dissolves them, some of the mantras, seeing with mushrooms, potential for these wild evil beasts to become tamed, disciplined, in formation, a mercenary army retrained, re organized, incentivized, not to work for demon lords, but to work for humbling power of the goddess in trade for her love

that’s a take on militarism that is the warrior goddess mystique of tantric shaktism par excellence, that is the chandi, whatever you think about time and culture boundness, martiality, divine feminine goddess, reformed demons, counter intelligence to get evil demon armies to not work for gold, booty, rape and pillages that the kings of the demonic realm would give them, she offers a better form of payment, which is the intoxicating love of her shakti, it’s a fucking beautiful sexual erotic love that you don’t get from the bible, too sex phobic, homophobic, eroto phobic, no offense intended to people on that path, pray hard, have a sexual relationship with jesus christ, if you’re mature, an erotic being, haven’t sexualized your spiritual practice told not appropriate, taboo, out of the box thinking that you can do

experience of having gone to these places, first experience, hell freezing over, I’m in this normally really nasty place of my inner demonic realm, over grown from all the punctures of my astral body, rape and abuse of childhood and teens, being breached and over grown, festering, snarling, frothing, beastial, then this track as soon as it comes on, this frost, ice age comes over the hell realm, I see all these demons shivering cold, frozen, start to feel affection, maybe you didn’t mean to do all that harm, didn’t know what to do with yourself, or maybe enslaved, against your better nature, yearning to evolve into a divine nature, transmute and alchemize from larval demon to butterfly angel, transformation comes form shakti nectar, tantric scriptures

you’re welcome here, put down your masks, be your true self reveal yourself as you truly are, we will honor the beauty of your form, the texture of your face, the ferocity, oh wow how many teeth do you have in there, even if they appear deformed, sit back and watch you zoom in around my 3rd eye I see the sacred geometry of the hell realms, I bow down and say that is your domain, how about if I honor you as a work of art of creation that you are, you stop tormenting me, and we dance together come out and show me your dance, dance for the goddess we want the same thing, we want to be saved feel the salvation of the goddess, we want the same thing, more I talk dirty to these foul creatures, the more liberated they become, and so I’m freeing the demonic slaves trapped within my sold, watching them break free like rats escaping a sinking ship, they want freedom to, do you want to be consumed by the goddess, be loved, be transformed, who the fuck am I, young middle age man, coming from the cutlure of wayne’s world, what do I know about any of this stuff, that the ancients studied and marveled over for millennia, I’m just this american dude on a bogus journey, excellent adventures, I don’t know how it all works

provision interpretation, the demonic realm wants to be a invited to a party

kali mandir, welcome them into the ceremony, quarantine them, you can be here, you will be fed by the goddesses love, if you want to sacrifice yourself to be consumed by her, you’re welcome to do that, be in observance to the structure of the ceremony, don’t be biting peoples heads off, keep your nastiness in check, come and do the yoga and meditation prostration, mudras, everyone is ever more blessed

its an armistice, what needs to happen between all the warring religions and cultures

watching star trek, undiscovered country, way they depict the klingons, that fanged, sharped edged, the classic dante’s inferno esque aesthetic of warrior, people who I know have called out potential underlying racist tones around some of star trek species if you will, shelve that for this moment for this art history of sci fi, acknowledge that, not the biggest trekkie, when I was watching that, the work they did with lights and shadows, even conan the barbarian, war lord, temples of toxic masculine, evil violent, warlike, armored, that whole barbarian mystique, aesthetic, there is beauty to it, art form to it, look at all the creatures in nature that have defensive anatomical structures, is that evil, scorpions, bees, is that evil or just survival, adaptation, evolution, ecology

appreciate the beauty of parasites as freakish as they can feel , as threatening as they may be, be in balance with them, indigenous cultures have struck a balance, most resilient, have worms in them, genetic coevolved balance with dark evil creepy crawly, taking that into psychedelic journey, tantric mantras, warrior goddess tradition, a matter of a dance with war, not a genocide, not a massacre, not a kinetic warfare of bombs, bullets, fires, all of that decimating death, colonization, but a dance

primitive warfare, stages of ritualized symbolic warfare, put on beautiful battle regalia, steeped in shamanic mystique, all symbolic, like historic reenactments

looks like combat but not killing each other

sweet spot, that was in ishmael, and movie instinct, zooms into those boundary assertions of tribes doing symbolic warfare, applying that anthropoogy to these trips

can we dance rather than being ripping each other apart limb from limb and chewing each others heads off, and infecting each other with poison, a lot of animals that are predators, they would rather flee, choose their battles, mortal combat is a last resort, I eat you or you eat me, not a lot of frivolous energy wasted in violent combat in nature, food chainy

back to first trip, hell freezing over, frost coming over being,s I see you out there freezing, in this frosted over hell realm,

almost like say you were at war with another nation, natural disaster, all the sudden become refugees, look at them, what were we fighting over, you’re so vulnerable, so in need of the shelter we can provide because we were hit by calamity, light and dark, inner battle field

another memoir from the astral battle field

if I can put this cryogenic spell on these nasty gnarly demons so they can be chilled so I can invite them, now you are in a state where you’re willing to negotiate, I’m not just cowering and letting you destroy me and devour me, superior adjudicating power of the goddess invoked through this track all here hanging out, now can welcome your ceremony can really begin, come up one by one come up drop mask like getting a hug from Ama, getting loved on by erotic goddess who has been traditionally named Kali, a bring a bit of my own anthro informed politically spiritually correct informed spin on things

it struck me that there are people who are going to question me, hate me doubt me, want to troll me, because I’m a white man in romance with hindu tantric goddess kali, I have done the work to prove that you can be a cultural appropriator, not a cultural mis-appropriator, paid the devotional dues to be able to parade and prance around proudly to wear the kali yantra on my neck, have it on my logo, benefit corporation of giving back and being in service in her name, continue process of navigating, enjoy, struggle, suffer in pursuit of acknowlegement and success, appreciation for my story, if I can help people, be of service, great, earned the right ot use her name, those who are very possessive of her, and want to tell me the correct version of her story, what she is and what she is, how I’m permitted or not permitted to interact with her, or talk about her, or be in love with her, or kiss and tell about her

I’ve been scolded cursed, endorsed encouraged for my use of the word goddess kali in my works, she’s central to it, the heart of tantra that I know, what else can I do but get up in the morning and say is it possible to over love, her the women, and men and all the demons who want to be in that energy field of her as an invoked deity

haters of that, is it possible to not hide her, not through any form of trickery

considering this time of great peril, spiritual correctness, cultural appropriation,misappropriation, take an approach of wayne’s world, bill and ted, unassuming, the less pias that I am about this and the more, whoa radical dude, did you see the goddess, she was fuckin hot, what a babe, I’m a just a bro dude or whatever, rather just be that, or I’m the most evil twisted insidious, mansplaining, entitled, toxic masculine douche bag ever, can I just start there, and there’s only one direction to go from there, I’m a gonna claim that, that’s me, can’t do much more harm than that

if I say oh I’m the saint, I’m the priest, I’m the shaman, I’m the chosen one the blessed, bestower of wisdom, shit doesn’t stink, guru,

tantric training, supposed mythical elder of the lineage, legendary dude, he was the mystic guru who did not luxuriate in the hero worship, was opposite, deliberated left fish guts hanging in his beard, to turn people off at his hideousness so they would not bother him, could just enjoy blissful samadhi meditation state, free of shackles of other peoples hounding attention, attitude, there’s always gonna be more grace in the humility of hermitage, build your temple on the highest most hard to access cliff, mountain, so that only the most devoted will distract you from your studies and meditation, practice of divine loving making with, don’t want to say dakini consort, because of the gender politics I’ve discovered, but saying your beloved

if I go around as I have, what are the limits of me representing kali, a lot of share holders have stake in the corporation of the zeitgiest of the archetype the mythology, everybody fights vover the direction everybody wants to be the CEO of Kali, ceo of the worship of kali, want their brand, lineage to be supreme and reign above all others, less violent subsects of hinduism than other religions, but same fight, she’s mine no she’s mine, this is how she is dressed, this is what that scripture meant, academic to non academic struggle, then me in the mix, I’m just a bro dude, wayne and garth

at a certain point some of us in the anarchist movement started to favor words like autonomy

same way government doesn’t want to invoke the magical powers of the word crypto, because it sounds cryptic and criminal and surreptitious ninja, you can feel the tone when only government agencies white wash and euphemize ther term crypto currency by calling it virtual currency, easier to embrace, far less threatening, don’t look at the crypto math, crypto wars are still raging, we don’t want you to know when we have back doors, powers that be, powers that be, super threatened by crypto, popular implementation fo strong public key cryptography applications, aka bitcoin, aka everything else that has been a tool of empowerment and sovereign, financial technology, file storage

fear of crypto is why you hear governments saying virtual currency

appropriate spin doctoring, good euphemisms, and evil euphemisms, staters gonna state, non staters are gonna have to adapt ot that fact of life

anarchist movement, certain point, that word has been so trashed so abused so misused, can’t get over the stigma, too strong, energy required to try to restore a state of grandeur, was a state back in early 20th century, anarchism was household name thanks to labor movement, huge percentages of the working class, meant a lot to have a movement of anarcho syndicalists

anarchism as a word, anarchy, phases but ultimately demonized, the shadow of lawlessness chaos disorder

temporary autonomous zones, autonomy, expresses self governance, autonomy is proactive, anarchy is negative,

when hyper intellectual, anarchist intelligensia, writer, speaker, collective member, semi prominent for a time in global anarchist movement as a thinker, wouldn’t say thought leader, tiny little moment of my life where it meant everything to me, clawing my way through the establishment to install my brand, height of college years, toxic male ego, mansplaining, terrible I was so bad, but had a bit of charm, people handed me the mic, assignments to write, had a bit of a niche, come from those trenches of discourse, forced to contemplate things like, do we rebrand anarchy to autonomy, lot of places it felt like that was the way to go

in perfect world you wouldn’t have to water down or white wash the intensity of a word that you love that represents something fiery and passionate, to tame that, socially acceptable, new word, loses some fire and passion but could be appropriate strategy, without being too much of evangelist, to on board, rather than convert, at least invite people, not hiding/tricking, duped into letting defenses down to be seduced into an anarchist cult which did happen, on guard against that as well

applying this all to the goddess kali a lot of titles, people believe that they hold the deed to the canonical origin stories of appropriate dress, sexuality, taming the goddess, domesticating the goddess, discourse of feminist tantrikas, the goddess was captured and trafficked into the bramanical priest cults of orthodox hinduism, made into royal figure, fitted with modern, ancient now, modern then taking ancient primordial, 10s of 1000s of years old, tribal deity, dragging her out of her wild ferocious naked sexually voracious state of nature, forcing her to be a devadasi in these king built empire temples where she becomes a museum artifact, told to shut up and stop being as wild and free as she is, cultural engineering, social engineering, spiritual engineering to tame the goddess and make her into this demure, over clothed docile mother, take away her sexual potency, irrepressible sexual potency that was etched into the deepest tantric scriptures, etched into iconographic, burning coal that could never been fully grabbed and control, that’s the beauty to me of what persists of her wildest, not fundamentalist, student of anthro of most primordial, premodern, jungle based, pagan shamanistic roots of goddess kali, connecting with deep nature, deep astral nature of this foce, deity, presents herself to me, whether you like it, or are repulsed by the sexual nature,

unless something or someone stops me, or if she abandons me, I’ll probably shut up because I’ll know I pissed her off

while she continues to bless me with her beautiful presence in the ceremonies I design in honor of her, go to temples where people are worshiping her in her fullness, and she blesses me I will continue to feel like my compass is pointed in the right direction, on the right path, she is my north star, if that disappears I know I must change something

one foot over the next

not going to say that she guided me to make this semantic manuver

you want to impose an authoritarian dogma of what I can or can’t say or disclose or express about my experience with this deity there are people who would like to kill me, cut my tongue out, sew my mouth shut, I go to the extreme telling my truth about my experiences, cats out of the bag, jenies out of the bottle, can’t undo that, live with that, hopefully remain graceful enough so I don’t undermine or discredit myself in a major way that can’t be forgiven

it’s not for the people who are already haters, I’ve done this manuver, it came to me, what is a classification of the goddess that does not bind her to time space and cultural biases, in a more benign sense, styles and preferences, principle over preference is one way to think of it, other people another time another place, had their own pathways of discovery of her as a phenomenon, goddess is relative to god, word games, semantics, very tricky, what’s the most generalized, non denomination, not dogmatic free from all culture boundedness to describe what I was experiencing, as if I never knew that kali existed, she appeared to me before I knew what to call her, that’s what you’re seeing, oh that’s that, chicken and egg

what if all historical references to describing this force of nature that can be accessed through various means, what if there was no name, and I had to come up with not a name, a classification a taxonomy, a plant has a latin name that describes something about what it is, describes what its related to, how its structured, there’s an elmetn of what its most closely related to, how it’s differentiated from other similar related plants, edible quality, the most distinguishing characteristic that’s encoded to the latin, not a cutesy name like we have common names

plants with so many different folkloric names who’s gonna fight over which is most popular at a given time,m power struggle, tug of war, which of names of a plant are gonna be in vogue, very fleeting,

felt an inkling to say, if kali is just the common name what would be the scientific, more taxonomy based latin type name that when you hear it and when you read it and use it, you’re actually descriptive more than it is a sort of term of endearment or a way to just reference somebody, what if instead of frank, more like a native american name, relative to clan, now names, smith, chandler, shoemaker, there were names that had partial significance and meaning relative to your clan, family, lineage, descriptive of what trade you were in, what is the macro nature of this deity I’m experiencing, how can I put into some words

I love this track, I can’t say which artist produced it, graham handcock, alan watts, one of those epic voices sampled in psytrance, one of the most epic moments, there are many and we all know in the movement the most exquisite ones that we connect with , track where sampled english vocal phrase is the world “alien god” the way it’s built up, the craftspersonship of how it’s installed at that moment, fucking awesome and when I think about that world alien god, immediately removes the all the bullshit baggage that I get when I think about jehovah all the horrible deeds done in the name of jesus, I think of god, least interesting, most tired stale, unenchanting word, goddess for me is a sexier sounding word, I love women, I’m most hetero, I love that goddesses can be adored for their sexual aspect, disdain I feel, as a punk, no gods no masters, still repulsed by word god, rarely say it, if that’s your thing live it up, more power to you, but when I hear goddess I instantly for get about the negative feelings of god, beautify, gorgeous, enchanting, as a molecule of sound, frequencies and syllables, resolves that conflict in me, soothed by it, dissolves negativity

alien god, that’s interesting that’s cool, qualitative, shift opens up to be more than one, more far out, anybody could say there was a time before monotheism, very mundane, many pantheons swapping god goddesses, sprites, angels, demons, height of greco roman domain, all religions allowed to persist so long as there was some altar devoted to the deities fo the roman state, tolerance

hyper centralization around monotheistic concept of god, unheard of, violently resisted and faught against, don’t want to pick a side in that battle of the first few hundred years of the christ movement

but alien god, that’s cool, being with wherewithal beyond mind, father is god to child, as gods of sky that we believe are creators, cocreators with divine consort, mrs god, duality form, shiva shakti, it’s a like a fractal ratio of wherewithal, insights, omnipresence, more compelling to think there’s an ecology of empowered being with different, like animals different eyes, hearing, everyone is a god of their domain, dogs are the gods of smell, humans really arent’ the god of that much, hopefully compassion at our best, kind of rounded off, no defensive tools, not fastest, not strongest, mediocre, averaged out relative to goddess of gifts bestowed upon almost every other animal

relative to humans, it’s not hard to be a god among humans

funny thought experiment, union article from years and years ago, science proves that human infants less intelligent than slugs, slugs have consciousness to be completely masterful within their environment, funny intuitive, pulp comedy thing, of pulp humor, but its just interesting to think about, hierarchy, layering of goddness, and goddessness, the gendering of higher dimensional entities, the word alien we all have a romance with that world, a real fetish for it, whether an abductee, whole life wrapped around the true belief that whatever happened happened, the mystique of alien, the word, sci fi, sector of human consciousness, world is magical and alluring, terrence mckenna alien love, we all yearn for that, seeking, humanity wants to connect with this higher dimensional, thing, distraught with existential crisis, artisans of sci fi, had their way with the dance of that world

alien love, alien god, psychedelic journey otherworldly places, dimensions, exciting, stuff of enigmatic, explorations of a more adventurous psyche, the pursuit of alien is like the fountain of youth, endless curiosity, hopefully doesn’t result in becoming super neurotic shut in conspiracy theorist or cult that kills themselves, extreme opposite end of what I’m talking about, healthy romance of alien love and alien gods

thought form birthed out of enchantment with that track, how come I’ve never heard anyone say alien goddess, what is my whole trip about, its about exploring loving being loved on being a naturalist explorer, exploring new species, drawing them, documenting them, as simple down to earth humble as I could really be, I’m a like a supernaturalist, there you go, no longer in search of but in the deep study now having discovered, and having created a pathway of access to alien goddesses, astral dakinis, sky dancing shamanistic, sexy the pole dancers of the stars, the pole dancing of the cosmic galactic forces, alien goddesses that have been written about, painted about, fantasized about, mythologized about for millennia, transcendent power of me saying wait a minute I’m not gonna stop talking about kali, not gonna forget about her,e bu I can get a little chuckle from her, get a little wink from here, what would be a latin taxonomical name, a few iterations, back of a napkin, formulas of words coming out, alien lover goddess, what is kali, if kali wasn’t named, if I never heard that word and someone said what are you fucking doing over there, dancing smiling, blissful grin, then going and being ravaged by this divine beautiful erotic being, what are you experiencing over there, I don’t know if she’s ever had a name or in history or ever been spiritual worked into a religious pantheon, if I had to describe what I experience, otherworldly beyond anything on earth, comprised of organic architectures, alien insectoid, black widow dragon fly, queen bee, anti black soldier fly, shape shifting, beautiful goddess of love, alien lover goddess

it is not just an otherworldly alien to this dimensions, not just female alienness, she is not just an alieness, a powerful creatrix alieness, ie goddess, power to create, power above us, above myself, bow down to, prostrate to this higher goddess, otherworldly, supernatural, powerful, divine in terms of higher intelligence, not just divine as in maternal love, you have lover, as in erotic

sex\y warrior goddess, alien dakini, numerous ways you can encode, enscribe these experiences, elegant simplist, psychedelic goddess worship is a compression, simplification common denominator, distillation of a lot of complexity in 3 words

a similar spell word craft magic, , power of transcending culture boundness of word kali, very contentiousness, no contentiousness around what I describe as my epxerince of an alien lover goddess take her or leave her, love or hate, dismiss pursue, I’m just doin me over here, im open enough I’ll make pornography showing this action with myself with others of pure heart who are seekers and believes, conduct shamanic pornographic ceremonies, operating in a manner of highest integrity to avoid cults of personality, and exploitation and abuse, and be in constant study of those patterns and pitfalls shadow of all gurus, reading up, not trying to rubber neck

innocently stumbled upon accounts of the shadow the hugging saint ama, could be total inflammatory, exaggerated fake news, but somebody has put out extreme accounts, unknown to public and devotees, secret transgressions of hugging saint ama, no grounds to believe or disbelieve endorse or not endorse, even if completely fabricated, as much as we can hate on osho for his misdeeds and misconduct, or defend him like a kool aid drinking brain washed devotee

no where to hide from potential to have success as a spiritual leader, tretcherous thing to happen I want to be the dude, geoffry labowski, wayne and garth, unassuming bro dude, keanu reeves as neo the chosen one, ultimate warrior or all time, humble shy, doubtful hesitant, had to overcome to self into power and mastery, wasn’t a cocky john wayne, prick, the way thiat the spoof satire genious of kurt russell, jack burton in big trouble in little china, he went out of his way to spoof the impotency of a cocky american western sort of cowboy attitude that was the whole tongue in cheek joke of that movie, to make fun of that, the less of a piased proud priest shaman, spiritual authority I can be, the more of a keenu reeves, not necessary with the looks, I don’t claim that, but hey why not for him to be a default role model for me growing up, of course I was a devotee of him,m growing up

I could choose to have the douchy cockiness of action here archetypes or the more down to earth types I’m gonna stick with that and see if I can continue to pursue my love of the alien lover goddess, kiss and tell, make the art, encourage people to explore these pathways in ways that wont’ get us in trouble with those who want to fight over these words

elegance of phrase, alien lover goddess, be free, free here, tug of war, pulling hair, pulling her legs, ripping clothes off putting clothes on, the telephone game of cultural history

reboot rebrand for my own enjoyment own sense of freedom from those judgments

alien lover goddess, it just rolls off the tongue doesn’t it

make psytrance, sans english, use sanskrti instead

so I took tot he interwebs and thought okay what is the sanksrit word for alien, is there such a word, that would suffice, squirrely language I know very little about

first started out with totally minimal knowledge, escalated my support ticket to interwebs, then to sufiana, bona fide sanskrit, writer, speaker, scholar,, going back to childhood, then her studies at university

dancing on the backs of giants, adapt alien lover goddess to neo tantric mantra

these building blocks of sanskrit sacred geometrically sound forms, because of advancement of global literacy and the interwebs, anybodies perogative, studied morphemes in college, don’t know what percentage, words that have none of the latin based descriptive elements, prefixes suffices, cool to learn at ripe age in college, learn to parse words, you can create your own words, create neologiisms, language as extensible technology, make new words to suit discoveries

mckenna new words to describe new experiences, to grapple with hem in discourse, constantly need to be creating new words to expand to the envelope, phenomenological categorying of experience

be an archivist of their own journey, podcast, music, poetry books art, so other people can connect with that we have a common language even if its brand new, we can build on top of that

sanskrit, interchangeable, interoperable, I’m just hacking, when a hacker starts out barely able to logon get online make a network connection, that’s me with sanskrit, moving slow and breaking things

patching together piecing together, arrived upon, goddess is devi, love or desire as kama, as in kama sutra, one of the several fundamental elements to the experience of human life, its element to human experience in sanskrit, hindu tradition, tantra, not so celibrated, not necessary carnal pleasure, kama is the mortal enemy of othordox sex negative sects of christianity, yet core opportunity and engine of tantra in that its your furnace, first and second chakra, the energy the creativity you want to design with that, flow with that, dont want to hate on, shame or trap lest you have big problems in culture, abuse trauma all that bad stuff

kama devi, no brainer, finding the appropriate word for alien, when you watch ancient alien series you see how sophisticated the sci fi of the vedas gets vimanas, flying space ships, wars in the sky, there’s gotta be a perfect word for the what terrence mckenna describes, organico-metallic, you go on these mushroom trips, super advanced hyper space age architectures, hypermetallic forms, cybernetic alien organism, mechanical machinery feels very elegant, well designed, sustainable, green, earth friends, space, friendly galactic friendly something about it, the futuristic elegance of ecological design, using resources that are abundant and sustainably harvested from outer space

new I was gonna score the appropriate sanskrit word, magical mystique of we what we hold for the word alien in english

sufiana helped with translations, don’t know how to describe, might have two dots here, dot on the bottom, transliteration, she was the one who could interpret that in seconds

she could do the computation, to produce, she may have never encountered that sanskrit word ever, not a common word, cited, we know or guess that the context of the use of this world, arcane scripture, one word out of a million verse, may have ben used in common language in oral space, studying ancient texts approximation of what I would want to describe, the word thanks to sufiana: antariksam

she was on board, contracted with her to record some melodious singings and chantings of the phrase, not the proudest thing, whoa dude, check out this riff, alien lover goddess, om namah, I bow down to, kama devi, the pleasure lover goddess, antariksam, from outer space, alien lover goddess

om namo kama devi antariksam

melody of mantra that came to me, emergent property after layering the track

more primitive in most of the tracks I’ve done, I had not had the multidimensionality in the design of the music to decouple the melody of the words or the chants or the mantras from the lead instruments basically they were just matched, had people say its kind of obvious you’re stuck in this pattern, make up a melody, words or vocals are totally its like two guitars doing the same thing when they could be doing something at least slightly different

as emergent property, coincidence, synchronicity, layered over mantra, unexpectedly it clicked in, didn’t knowingly anticipate, dumb luck, smart luck, seemed to work, layered it over, don’t know until you turn the lights on, run the medicine, immersion experience, never thrilled with early mixes, nuno mix, happy with it, thrilled by it, can’t promise anything

I get more than a wink from dare I say goddess kali, when I sing this hymn and mantra to her in the medicine space, the loving on that I experience with this track and this mantra, its beyond anything ever up to this point, a lot of other tracks have been yes devotional but also in combative mode with demonic realm, fighting the nasties with full force and ferocity, there’s big love from her in those sonic journeys you’re also on the battle field, sex on the battle field, okay,

gay lovers of historical warrior clans, having massively glorious orgies after surviving a battle, gotta be some of the most passionate sex that’s ever happened, contrast that to rape on the battle field, notion of okay up to the point of this track, the sexual romance on the astral battlefield with the goddess, I’m fighting demons, she’s the reenforcement, air strike, big guns, coming into love me, make love to me, while we’re both in vicious combat with demons who will not succumb to her power, and would rather fight than surrender

this track is about the surrendering demons, willing to be enlightened by her presence, disciplined, not converted, counter intelligence operation, be successful

when you have people who are turn coats who join forces with you documentary, 3rd eye spies, different informants, double agents, if you successfully turn an asset from a foreign intelligence agency to spy for you, because double agent, secret agent, how do you ever trust that that they’re not tripple agenting

so laughable, revolving door of allegiance, it’s a fuckin shit show

we’re going to so far what’s happened demons on this battlefield, this track seems to have an effect of titling the fuck out of them, like footage when they tested LSD on soldiers, acted like bonobos, turns them into cuddly, peaceful, care bears, it backfired, the psychedelic experiments, mk ultra, whatever, these chemicals are supposed to create these bezerker warriors

this track, of all the journeys that were so combative, there’s a time and place for them, they got me to this point, they saved my life, those astral battle field wars had to be fought, goddesses had to do their slaying

cost benefit of peace vs war, in the wild, violence in the wild, among proto neolithic tribes, wouldn’t you rather just dance this off, have a dance a thon, less blood, death, disease, tragedy, all that hell

important achievement in herstory of psychedelic goddess worship, there is a promised land, dimension of the astral plane, an armistice, a treat, a peace, the undiscovered country of peace, alignment of incentives, perhaps once you kill off the hawks, you’re left with the doves,not gonna say this track is gonna unite the religions of the world

at this time of apocalyptic end times zombie apocalypse mystique

last night having gone into this beautiful redemptive peace play, parade of home coming demons who’ve been enslaved to be soldiers against me and my chakras, watching them come out of these fox holes and having them surrender, and their surrendering is being embraced and celebrate, provision trust that they will not abuse, they will be allowed under supervision to set up their new demon state in a more democratic manner, blossoming

anybody could say new world order conspiracy, illuminati, spirit, UN does acknowledge very orthodox religious figures for their peace work

really vibing with the experience of the arc of the star trek film, the undiscovered country all about the different approaches to peace and conflict and warfare, that’s what we all hope for, a humbling, a tolerance, ability to have lasting peace and tolerance that is strong and sturdy and stable, alignment of incentives, peace love, tolerance, ability to live abundantly and have adequate resources, tragedy is when warlords, barbarians, toxic male egos take over and pervert balance, endless combat, waste of energy we could be doing more fun things

if we lose track of fun, bliss, magic, glory of harmony, lose memory of that, ala archaic revival, lost in seemingly infinite war, I’m not so utopian to believe we can achieve infinite peace

psychedelic goddess worship, alien lover goddess more lasting inner peace with more love if you like this music and you sing this mantra

what I experience in these journeys, experience such a revelatory, palpable, embodied, multidimensional visual experience of what’s not acknowledged in monotheistic abrahamic religions

this moment, there was a time 5 years ago, last moments of my warrior energy to fight the glorly of revelation on earth of goddess kali, that was my braveheart, my own feeble and humble attempt to aggrandize and decorate my journey with this fight to liberate myself, and liberated the stories of the goddess, the revivification of witch craft and goddess temples, battle to reclaim space for the goddess on earth, is a fight, can’t just be prayed for, has to be prayed and fought for

tantra teacher, Shawn Roop, ex-military, jedi combat training, stuff of men who stare at goats, that was his real deal

the last thing he said to me, at the end of that training was to the effect of, don’t lose your masculine sharpness, penetrating warrior spirit, acknowledges that in me, don’t let anyone take that away from you, don’t be afraid of it, don’t lose that

I appreciated that acknowledgement, I think I saluted him too, that’s why I wanted to train with him, he’s the warrior tantrika

if you didn’t want me to want to be macgueyver, the a-team, gi joe, you reep what you so, say that not in a threatening manner, but as a patriot to the spirit of all life from the forces of enslavement

prominent black magician, uses every tool in the tool box, says there’s no such thing as black magic, if you were a true white magician you would do nothing, because you would surrender to the divine intelligence of higher entities would not claim your own godhood on earth, and you would not defend yourself through astral combat and you would not oppose your enemies and manuver around your enemies using craft, be able to heal life with one hand and take it from the other, ambidextrous between the left and right hand path of tantra

and it is only people who have that depth of understanding and who aren’t bliss bunnied out, and totally delusional about utopian pacifism

I listen to field craft survival podcast, mike drop podcast, I would have joined the military, would have been some form of warrior, but thankfully I’ve chosen my own path, less like commandos and navy seals and rambos, more like the pliskins, more ending up being like a warrior who chooses my own battles

don’t have official training, regalia, equipment, of those enlisted, Shawn Roop acknolwedged in me the spirit of warrior defender of the divine feminine on earth

in that grey swirl between yin and yang, attempt to show there is the seed of darkness in light, duality merges, Alex Grey says its more like a spiral, sacred hall of mirrors, documentary, tantra, tantric soup that we’re in

not gonna be a, utopian pacifist, and also not a soldier in any one else’s army, not taking orders from anyone or anything but the dark green magician witch priestess and the goddesses who they have introduced me to

that’s me doing me, you to do, thanks to Vanessa Soulxo, Voodoo you and voodoo me

the sacred dance of being a spiritual warrior in pursuit of peace and not afraid to choose your battles and choose them wisely

with love and a big heart, desire to see maximum surrender, maximum alignment of incentives

Sexorcism the Tantric Opera Episode 15 “Om Namah Shivaya”

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This video depicts a tantric breast massage in a salt water bath featuring Maya Rati and the track Om Namah Shivaya, lyrics are below:

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From my Shiva
To your Shakti
I will support you
When you need me

From my Shiva
To your Shakti
I take your pain away
With divine healing

Om Namah Shivaya
Om Namah Shivaya
Om Namah Shivaya
Om Namah Shivaya

Close your eyes
Where ever you are
Take a deep breath,
Feel my hands on your heart
I hold you close
From behind
Warmth from my breath
Sends shivers down your spine

I turn you around
Look into your eyes
Kundalini awakens
Your smile grows wide
In the moments
When you feel alone
Remember our dance
Is your eternal home

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Earth Blessing Guided Meditation with Vanessa Soulxo TPP267

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In this episode I’m sharing the audio track from a guided meditation video by Vanessa Soulxo

About Vanessa:

Vanessa LeMaistre is a Spiritual & Soul Empowerment Activist. Her platform provides a self-improvement/positive lifestyle brand to customers who are looking to feel whole within themselves. Vanessa has overcome a lot and believes if she could, so can you. Vanessa is very inspirational and she aspires to inspire. She provides inspirational youtube videos on her youtube channel: www.youtube.com/uareart and on her social media platforms she promotes exerts and positive affirmations from her upcoming book. You can find her on social media platforms such as Ig, snapchat, Twitter under the name: vanessasoulxo which is also the name of her website domain. Her Facebook is her first and last name: Vanessa LeMaistre

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Alexandria Foxxcroft

Loving Big in the COVID-19 Era with Alexandria Foxxcroft TPP258

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In this episode some joined by my esteemed colleague in mindful preparedness Alexandria Foxxcroft for an exploration of strategies to remain calm, peaceful, and loving amidst the chaos

About Alexandria:

Alexandria is a health educator and proponent of positive sexuality and mindfulness. With her skills and interests combined, she lovingly guides herself and others to deeper, more meaningful levels of pleasure and intimacy while holding space for life’s modern demands. You can find her art, life, and play on: https://www.instagram.com/alexandriafoxxcroft/

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always a pleasure to collaborate and talk with you

what I’ve been up to since we last chatted on the podcast, I’m not living and performing vegas

volunteer at positive sexuality conference, that’s how we first got to talking

come full circle

as we are facing something completely unprecedented, corona virus, las vegas pretty much all shut down, casinos closed, hotels empty , strip is quiet, many people out of work, staying home, grocery store shelves are empty, some people panicking, upset, other peoples treating it summer break I get to rest, haven’t had a break from work for 5 years

for me, household, partner and I have enough to get us through some time, staying out of public spaces the best as we can, safety practices, staying connected to family, to loved ones, really enhancing my mindfulness practices, more yoga, more water, more baths, indulging in little things, those treats that might not seem all that important, really taking care of myself, stress lowers immune systems, be gentle with myself and others, think about that, everyone is going through this

we’re all experiencing these new stress levels, horizon, that’s not clear, extend a smile, be kind generous, take care of number one

I do really appreciate that being mindful of the media that we consume is very important right now, easy to get swept away, find trusted sources to check in with a couple times a day so you’re informed, don’t let the fear get in the way of your ability to respond with thought and intelligence

stay occupied, attending to our basic pleasure needs, something I am welcoming into my life as well, its a nice time to kind of say, I don’t need to be afraid, I don’t need to shy away from sex work and being an online presence that can show a healthy sexy intelligent spiritual way of holding my own in a sexual manner, being able to support your cam workers and entertain yourself and help them keep food on the table, past couple days been home thinking about ways to make money and keep the public engaged, keep myself engaged, account on chaturbate, played on that a bit last night, new platform for me, so many things that go on with it, mad props to everyone who’s able to do it and have fun with it, will leave that link with you, we’re all stuck in side, it’s nice to have some fun

drop in tune out check in

as you sit there or you’re laying or you’re in a state where you can come to pause, just enjoy that pause, feeling your breath, feeling your body, coming into awareness, just yourself, recognizing that you individual are part of this global universal collective, you person listening are a link in this beautiful web, multicolored, multitextured multipatterned fabric that makes up our entire being, attune to yourself, give yourself that love compassion, that permission to be, to be still, to be tender, to be nervous, happy excited, anxious, loving and loved, however you are, you are allowed to just be present with that, know that whatever is happening within your being, some one else is experiencing that as well, move outside of yourself and offer that love to someone, someone who’s easy to give love to, parent, child, friend, lover, teacher, stranger, offer them love however they are,

gentle quite acknowledgment, I see you, moving on to another, someone who when you think about them, feelings not so easy to touch on, acknowledge them as a human, encountering whatever life experiences they will encounter today, they are part of this beautiful tapistry, they are part of our story, offer them love, acknowledge their existence as part of this whole as we pass others, think about others through our day, acknowledge them as human just as we are, offer them love, peace and compassion, you seeing them will lead us through these dark times

it will help bolster you against anything that comes your way, every individual has a story, their own psychodrama, no need to take it personally, just acknowledge them as human, a link in this chain, take care of yourself let them take care of themselves, just be, be present, give yourself permission to slow down and recognize yourself as this beautiful beam of light, may not feel it but you are it, breath, breath connects us to our source, connecting to source allows us to align, allows to make decisions with more kindness, this is what we need right now, we call you to be your highest self so you can respond intelligently to anything that comes your way, in closing I uplift you I see you, may you feel held and not alone, inhale, exhale to release all doubt and all worry, inhale compassion and peace, namaste

Kali Painting

Kali Sahasranama in Sanskrit and English Read by Sufiana TPP257

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In this episode I share the recording I commissioned from Sufiana of the 1008 names of Goddess Kali, including both the Sanskrit and English

 

Shroom Goddess Kali

Love Poetry as Practice Meditation for the Moment of Death TPP248

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In this episode I share a poem I wrote which serves as preparatory meditation for the moment of death

Notion of preparing oneself to have an intentional thought form intentional desire at the moment that you transition to another form, at the point of death

if that is an acute moment, if it is a circumstance where you have the foresight to boot up a vision a meditation and run that, there’s supposed to be, some mystics say, that’s what’s going to determine where you go, if you come back, how you come back, all of that kind of stuff

how could it do any harm to have some practice in that arena, you could put yourself into extreme circumstances and actually simulate, jump into freezing lakes, give yourself a near death experience and practice your transitional meditation, I’m not promoting or endorsing

if you’re not going through the life review, maybe you’ll get an imagine in edgewise, or get to focus on or pause or something

I’d have to dig into the topic of actual near death experiences, versus perceived, the fear of your life being taken, versus seeing the light, going through the tunnel

I don’t think I’ve had a going through the tunnel experience myself, I’ve gone through physiological states of shock, lots going on there

the west is far behind on death studies, no reason to be morbid, just doing a lottery of what’s on my spreadsheet to share, daily content, daily podcasting, short sweet, little riffs I’ve captured in notepads over the years, worth storing for myself and now sharing

as an invitation to you the listener, if you could chose the final memory that you meditate on before you transition to a state where you want to get to access these memories anymore

if you were expecting to be passing over, passing through is there a time a place a moment that was so filled with grace, so filled with beauty that you’d wan to anchor in to that feeling, that would be the quality of spirit, for the life you had, what would that be, maybe write it down

I woke up in the middle of the night and wrote this as a love poem, shared it with the personal involved, charming endearing, depicts a moment you’d like to carry with you into eternity

could interpret in emo goth way

people spend a lot of time making horror movies in imagination about death

for me, ongoing until this moment is upstaged by a different moment, if I’m fearing death, if I’m being killed, if I’m dying I’ll want to remember this moment

Tiny Bamboo Hut Love

i remember the feeling of timeless cosmic perfection that was ambient as we embraced under the moon lit gaps in the roof of my tiny bamboo hut. turning my head to see her shadowy profile, i sipped the pristine dark beauty of her smile with my eyes, and with silent excitement i studied the statuesque shape of her ear and thought to myself she could have been the buddhas mother, the ancient serenity of pure natural love made me wish to stay in this state of sensual “beditation” forever. for the first and only time i could imagine what it would be like to be an immortalized ascended being, floating in the ether, gazing into the stars, singing sacred verses and chants learned ages ago from many past embodied lifetimes in primitive and advanced cultures from distant planets. together with my beloved consort, freed from the limits of the flesh, but granted the boon of everlasting access to the quantum impression left by one of our most blessed earthly moments. the mystics say you will be seduced by demons who control the gates of the bardo with fears, doubts, and distractions at the moment of death, but if you can hold in your heart and your mind’s eye, a vision of pure loving transcendence, then they by divine law the demons, your demons, will be forced to drop their swords, kneel and bow to you as you transcend the cycle of samsara and earn your place among the gods. don’t wait to your last day on earth to build your transcendent visionary meditation, hold the vision everyday they say. and i say, my ticket to fly high into the divine realms, is the memory of that moment, beholding her with all of my kind attention and adoration, under the moon lit gaps in the roof of my tiny bamboo hut, nestled into a garden, a garden nestled into a concrete jungle, a concrete jungle nestled into a coastline, a coastline nestled into a continent, a continent nestled into an ocean, an ocean nestled into a planet, a planet nestled into a solar system, a solar system nestled into a galaxy, a galaxy nestled into a yoniverse, a yoniverse nestled into our love, our love nestled into a magic shroom trip

Jessica Moon In a Boat Smiling

Mindfulness, Nature Immersion, and The Pacific Crest Trail with Jessica Moon TPP241

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In this episode I’m joined by Jessica Moon for a conversation on mindfulness, nature immersion, and hiking the Pacific Crest Trail for 5 MONTHS!

About Jessica:

Jessica Moon is a Stress Management Coach who focuses on Mindfulness and Nature Immersion as vehicles for powerful healing and evolution. From many years in corporate America to hiking the Pacific Crest Trail, Jessica has a broad range of life experiences that has provided her the insight to guide and transform in her one on one coaching practice. She is an advocate for mental health awareness and diversity in the outdoors, and active in building her local community.

Instagram: @jessicamoonco

My (non verbatim) notes:

TP: Jessica Moon, old dear friend, along the ride of tantra punk journey since very beginning around 2013, was shocked to find that name hadn’t already been turned into some sort of persona online, hopefully I’ve done my best

she’s way beyond a supportive friend, an inspiration, somebody who’s kept me on a very ethical and conscious path, has given me lots of great feedback

talk about her path, eco psychology, forest bathing, many ways to look at benefits of spending time in nature, deep personal journeys of long distance hiking

extra bonus, you might recognize her silky voice as the voice of the outro on all of my episodes, does a wonderful job of doing the wrap up details, its a treasure to have that mystery voice be on the podcast

JM: working on getting people outdoors, help people see benefits of being immersed in nature, millennials , anyone can benefit, remove barriers to help people really benefit

start when I younger and in college I was a sexual health peer mentor for my university, worked with my peers to educate them on health topics, disseminated health and hygiene products through the outreach center, help become more empowered

after graduated, joined nature center, help plan ecological programs and events, natural conservation for the city, got to work with variety of people

it was a very beautiful experience to be intimately connected with these people, very active motivated hikers, some people who’d never spent time even at a park

really wanted to help people have a more enjoyable, more intimate experience with natural world

then got into corporate world, for about 5 years, it was good to learn a lot of skills, but definitely aching, stress, heaviness of not having that immersion that I used to have

caught up in career, societies idea of success, lost connection with self, deep connection with natural world

year, decided to hike pacific crest trail, had been training, reconnecting with mountains, beaches, when I took the leap, and left for the trail, such a transformation from being immersed in the wilderness, back country for 5 months, feel completely at peace now that I’ve had that experience, affirmed, not everybody can take that much time off their life

but any amount of time is so beneficial, now that I’m back, into the science, philosophy, how to get more nature time into our busy lives, liberating motivating

TP: want to get into the drama of this whole arch of preparing, doing some permaculture the other day, mentioning we were gonna talk about this, the PCT, how do people survive, you can’t bring a semi truck water tank that drives behind you, what are the amenities on the trail, he said people will send selves care packages, I don’t really have a clue

JM: the resupply logistics, first, instead of one really long trip, think of as series of 3 to 5 day, sometimes more than 7 days depending on snow, how quick you hike, generally 3 to 5 days, given that , hiker hunger, metabolism working so hard, never felt hunger like that before, if you think about it as you’re going town to town, long series of small backpacking trips, you can self packages ahead of time, my strategy was I resupplied in town, if you’re lucky, supermarkets, sometimes just gas station, generally you know, or if you didn’t ask around, anticipate that, if you go get into a town with a big grocery store, buy food, ship it forward, only did for really small towns, didn’t want to eat pop tarts and snicker bars, backpacking food, if you don’t go really expensive route, has a lot more nutrients compared to options like instant ramen, after a while, can’t eat this any more, try to mix it up, hit up bulks, blessing to find bulk section, keeping an open mind, would have been hard if I had any dietary restrictions if I was vegan or gluten intolerant, I would have done more sending myself ahead of time, its really not that much cheaper or convenient to send yourself the boxes ahead of time, you’re tastes change

you don’t have a car, last thing you want to do is walk more

TP: from prepper survivalist world, lot of people in fantasy land, vision of how their gonna be so fit, prowess, bad ass, when zombie apocalypse happens, but they’re not conditioning in the mean time, but the experience of doing this endurance drill, makes me think everything has to be so tightly economized, efficiency, variables to consider, you’re probably better prepared for anything to go wrong, then people who make a whole life style out of being a prepper, tripping me out

could you tell me about some of the sort of dietary life hacks that you came up with, as some one doing this frugally, out of necessity, on a budget, how to have healthy food and not junk food

JM: does take a toll, body type can’t just eat anything, when I was on trail, I was like omg I can eat chips and candy, I really felt terrible, I really need to take care of myself, I was like okay I really need to change the trajectory of my nutrition, took a lot of supplements, glucosamine , multivitamin, try to pick up juice shakes, I needed that because when you’re on the trail, you have to consider weight right, weight expense and convenience

for example, you can get tuna packets, just a staple for hikers, thing about them, not terribly expensive, but not cheap either, on cost, in the circle of the through hikers, most people agree it’s about $1000 a month, on a tighter budget its possible to hike less, you’re gonna be spending less time in town, if you’re a social person its a fun part of the experience to explore the town

if you’re on a tight budget its definitely possible to do the hike on less, buy the food in bulk previously

dehydrating food at home and sending forward, people get sick of the same food, but you can spend a lot more on the trail as well, stay in hotel, one bed vs 6 hikers, or alcohol, or deserts, depends on person, average person not super luxurious is about $1000, barrier to entry is not accessible to everybody, it is a big trip, felt very privileged that I had opportunity

TP: bullet points, staple macro nutrients, can feel you on the weight and price, on that path as urban survivalist, trying to figure out what my pallet will enjoy and what my guts will handle, I could have the most Bourgeoisie, organic fresh catered diet to the maximum degree of what I know is the ideal, but if I did that I wouldn’t be able to do anything else, joke about “whole paycheck”

but I do believe in my heart of hearts that there are life hacker ways to have extreme frugality, but have extreme nourishment, bulk, group buys, I’m curious for you, fats, proteins, carbohydrates in that framework, stuff you could tolerate the longest, didn’t make you sick, sweet spot of weight and cost, ramen doesn’t cut it

JM: biggest thing for me, that I bough dehydrated vegetables, basically a soup mix, in bulk, just add it to everything, find the vegetables that you like, if you have a dehydrator, I would say incorporating vegetables into your diet no matter what, can eat dried meat, jerky, bison bars, sausage, tuna or chicken pouches, but if you just have that, you’re lacking that balance,

really enjoyed dried, pre prepared beans, really not that expensive, compared to bison bar, or higher end nut butters, just dried beans, make sure they’ve been dehydrated as cooked beans, they’re like bean flakes, if you’re vegan or something, or if body can’t tolerate fat anymore, its really high fat out there, powered humus also an option

sunflower seeds are really cheap

also drink powders, couldn’t handle the sugar, protein powders keep you full

cheeses work really well, lactose intolerant, but a popular lunch was a flour tortilla, summer sausage, and hard cheese

things like spam, powdered eggs, dehydrated milk, I really enjoyed dried veggies, dried fruits

chilli mangos was a treat, new technologies for much lighter, dehydrated and freeze dried veggies and fruits

really liked raw stuff, everything was so dry, and processed, but things like nutritional yeast, everything but the bagel package, sauce packets, miso soup, chicken noodle soup, powdered taco mix

lots of sodium and preservatives, but they’re light, cheap, last a long time, if in a pinch they have something to offer

I just bit the bullet and got green juices, or super food mixes whenever I could afford it

avoid ramen, so many other things available, entire bagels, last for a few days, instant rice and potatoes, always a staple, nan flat bread, corn tortillas don’t last very well, whole slices of bread, couscous was really popular

you have you’re good old trail mix, mixing it up and making it different, you really start to despise it

TP: shifting into more paleo and keto trend if you will, and so I’ve been experimenting a lot with build seeds, grinding into a more palettable form, powdered tahini, from bulk sesame seeds, grinding down to pumpkin seeds, mixing with coconut oil, like bread and butter, get that experience but it’s low carb, more protein, then having that fat, thinking about weight factor

were people bringing tubs of coconut oil or was it just too much weight, olive oil or other oils, calorie dense but you can’t eat that that much of it

JM: lots of oil, add a scoop of coconut oil to your meal, delicious, add more calories, seen people carrying full glass bottle of hot sauce, to spice things up, seen someone carry a glass jar of coconut oil

when for lighter right

went for single use coconut packets, a light way to incorporate into meals, trying to avoid highly processed carbs, I don’t make me feel that great

nuts, sunflower seeds, chia hemp and flax seeds also in my diet

they’re just delicious

TP: sprouting seeds and recycling water?

JM: read about a woman who sprouted just in a tupperware, poked holes, put a piece of cheese cloth, had fresh greens all week

broccolli, peas, lentils, alfalfa, also there was a time where there was a bunch of rain, miners lettuce foraging in oregon, what if I just threw some of that in to my ramen

TP: what level of foraging is legal/desirable, plant ID nerds, not gonna survive 100% but hope they wouldn’t be too restrictive about that kind of stuff

JM: I really can’t say, if we’re allowed to, it’s a protected trail, but in oregon you have to have a permit to forage for wild mushrooms, also, I definitely eat the huckleberries on the trail that were everywhere, just so many

TP: some things are invasive too, its a benefit

JM: thank you these giant berries we’re going into the trail

if I had a little more confidence in local flora and fauna, know for sure you can’t hunt, if it was permissible I’d totally lead a group, let’s get launch, wild mustard, miners lettuce, local invasive plants, didn’t have personal experience foraging, other than the berries

TP: people not yet in romance with nature yet, remember when I didn’t feel a romance with nature, grew up playing in woods, at the beach, wasn’t a deep yearning to connect with something I’d never known, didn’t feel deprived, took it for granted, video games started to eat my childhood, I don’t want to say disenchanted, I can commiserate with the people who feel like they feel more excitement from video games, socializing, hipster strips, when go out to nature I’m bored, cynical earlier in life, then rekindled romance through gardening, seeking healing, would love to have you in your words, help people feel into the shifts and transformation and deep soul tissue healing that’s happening, if you could romanticize the journey

JM: I think just to start it off, if you’re not in love, or find yourself bored, but you’re stressed out, want to work on health, nurture it better, just like to share, some of the research that is, where we are right now with nature immersion is where yoga was, in terms of more mainstream, widespread, growing body of research combined with intuitive understanding, tipping point, health researchers, government, very progressive, bring nature to people’s every day lives, it can lower stress hormone levels, reduce nervous system arousal, enhance immune system function, decrease anxiety, improve mood, help with aggression, accelerate healing

highly stimulated in this world now, if you want to try, give it a chance, big study, 20k people, people who spent 2 hours a week in green spaces, parks, neighborhood with a ton of trees, just hanging out and removing yourself from urban environment, traffic, noise, any kind of natural environment, either all at once or spaced out, like taking 10 minutes on launch break, fresh air, giving self space

attention restoration theory, allows brain to restore, allows cognition, your brain giving it space and time to relax, when you go back to desk or work, cognition levels are much better

little things like that, if you’re not someone who gets super excited, its such an easy thing, give yourself 10 minutes, 2 hours a week spread out, try it

when we make something important, our health, mental health, emotional states, spiritual states, at very least, relax and think, relax and not think, taking time to do that, make it important, have that connection with natural space it will begin to show itself to you

a friend that is not trying to tell you what to do with your life, or unsolicited advice, they’re just there, allow you to work through whatever you’re going through

natural world all of the patterns that exist in that space are things that as humans we’ve evolved with, all very familiar

one quote I really love, from scientist who was a pioneer for forest bathing Japan, “we are visually fluent in the patterns of the natural world, because we evolved in the scenery of the natural world we can process its patterns easily, it is this fluency that relaxes us”

TP: stress less, talk to the nature painting, talk to the landscape

JM: with my own business, researching so much, why isn’t this more popular, why isn’t this more well known

allow attention to restore our brains, to chill out, thinking tests better, in New York, some crazy busy place, even just looking at pictures of nature, videos, listening, put on headphones listen to nature sounds

all of that is beneficial, so it’s like why not

not the most stimulating, in terms of instant gratification, but if you make your health, mental health, emotional state, a priority, 10 minutes a day for you to level up

TP: PSA for gamers, as of just very recently Santa Cruz has joined Oakland, decriminalize entheogenic plants and fungi, the whole suite of plant derived entheogens, still federally highly regulated, but just like cannabis, this movement is growing very fast, #decriminalizenature, I feel like for me what shift was the romance with nature 10xed when I started to integrate dancing in the garden with psychedelics, because all of that dopamine you’d get from slaying dragons in a video game world, you’ll be that thrilled just watching the flow of nature, and being a part of it, and doing your own shadow work, and having nature spirits help you with that

don’t want impose that narrative on our work

JM: hemp will save the world environmentally

TP: what are some of the more cinematic moments

JM: very very beautiful views are conducive of these type of moments, knowing that when you’re looking out on this beautiful landscape, mountain peaks, feel very small, but very connected, look out and see all these pieces of me, subatomic particles, everything is me, and I am it, really grounding type of experience to have, look out, wow all the issues I’m struggling with or limiting factors, or negative head space, all that just dissipates, because you put things into perspective, look into the night sky, see the stars, and you just, sense of awe, and admiration, and deep respect, when you are just so connected, just in tune

TP: I feel that, live for those vistas, any times where equipment failed, or got soaked, freezing, suffer through a night, moments of triumph

JM: I would say nature is cruel but powerful mistress, so like, in the same way that it will guide me into this revelation about absolute awe adoration, at the same time I’ve been cold, and hungry, and so defeated, but I think those are the moments when we’re struggling, going through change, extreme internal conflict due to weather and terrain, you’re able to grow, I have so much respect for nature, those experiences teach you how to tap into your grit, drive is more important than intrinsic motivation, which is fleeting, tap into own tenacity, hardship

when things are gravy at home, stressed out from work or life, but physically when you are drenched, no placed to put your tent, or snow, post holing thigh deep, on side of mountain gotta get off but sun is setting

even just being out there and pushing yourself is honestly the best way to make a transformation, quickest and most impactful way

meditation is very powerful and important, but holy moly I just did that, very immediate evolution when you experience that kind of physical challenge

just think about it, anytime you get pummeled in the ocean, I respect you so much, I will not through trash in you, I’m just a naked human, a flesh bag

TP: break up, death of loved own, quitting smoking or drinking, seems like any kind of major shift or transition even if its just a week, sounds like you’re a great person to be an evangelist for this, and it’s not a pill that you just take and pay big pharma to have you on a pill for the rest of your life, hopefully get off anti-depressants, I can feel that

we’ll have you back to talk more about your business, thought about doing meet ups, I was just exposed to night hiking, maybe we’ll be looking forward to what you have to offer, more than welcome to promote

JM: for now, instagram up, jessicamoonco on instagram, hoping to launch officially next month if you are stressed out, want some mindfullness guidance and encouragement to get out doors, definitely check me out, jessicamoon.co forthcoming

TP: heart ached when you told me you were in a corporate career, didn’t hear the exhuberance in your voice when you told me about it, glad it served you well for business administration, training for solopreneur, blessings to everyone who thrives in that environment, having known you at the peak of your youthful enthusiasm for exploration and breaking rules and being a rebel, I’m so thrilled to know that everything is coming full circle for you.

I had similar story of it being incongruent with spirit/soul being in a cubicle, but knowing when I was in corporate environment I was mining the experience so I wouldn’t just be a broke ass hippy, I’d know how to take a penny and make two pennies with out

JM: thank you so much for having me, thank you so much for your attention and hope we can get out doors, level up, hope you have a beautiful week

TP: been a treasure and blessing, much love to you and all your beloveds

Ben and Joan Rivers building a chicken coup

Coronavirus, Joan Rivers, and The Princess Bride TPP235

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In this episode I tell an epic survival romance story to commemorate victims of the coronavirus and urge folks to do their best to prepare for this and all threats to their survival…

Please listen to this episode for practical preparedness tips:
Basic Preparedness and the Prepping Pyramid TPP246

My (non-verbatim) Show Notes: 

2012 respected consultant on emergency and disaster preparedness and permaculture design

my partner and I landed a well paid gig for permaculture /preparedness survival make over for Joan Rivers’ Joan Know’s Best reality tv show, rest in piece, rest her soul, amazing important wise elder matriarch of the entertainment industry

honor and blessing to work very closely with her, for that day of shooting, brought out big stake truck, moved our chicken tractor, and mini pond, and mini herb spiral, faux backyard permaculture set up

there had been an earthquake in la, mild but enough to feel it, a few things fall of the wall, they might have captured footage of it during the reality tv show filming, the producers after that real earthquake said, we should actually do a subplot within an episode on disaster preparedness, what it would look like for Joan, daughter and grand son to do an emergency prep process

they had a scene showing they needed batteries for flash lights, doing intuitive inventory of what you need to survival, if there was a disruption of systems of support, critical services cut off, would you be able to render your own first aid, provide food water shelter clothing, they got footage of the family going through the motions seeing how unprepared they were

they went to an amazing local survival equipment wholesaler/retailer, it was like disney land for preppers, they were a company they supplied first aid kits, fire extinguishers, water storage tanks, tools, camping gear, I could go on, their catalog was like porn for me, you go in there and wish you could buy everything, just want to live there, if you were an employee and shit hit the fan you’d be stoked, they should have had guns though, maybe someone should establish a gun store right next door to defend it in a shift hit the fan

so I was living out this romance novel story out on this land, peak of a man’s love life, beautiful romance, crashed and burned in a very archetypal and mythical the arch of the whole relationships, set foot on her property to establish permaculture systems which she had wanted for years, just didn’t have the right person to help, there was an opportunity she put out to the spiritual community that she had this land and wanted to make it productive, I hit her up and said this is what I’ve been trained to do and I’d be happy just to have a place to pitch a tent

it was the end of 2011, lots of 2012 energy, wow if I could be bugged out on some land in the mountains where you’re tucked away in the wood lands, less zombie pressure, higher income bracket, going from where I was at the time, when I met her I had been doing an urban survival permaculture training center garden, I built on top of an parking lot at a big punk warehouse artist colony venue

I developed the rugged outdoor survival life style, in the middle of south central la, surrounded by gangs

I wasn’t trying to scam on her, wasn’t hitting on, it just kinda happened, I was attracted, I respected her, she was almost 20 years older, loved the heck out of her, we did beautiful things together

I was grateful to get the fuck out of the urban center, it was sweet spot, in the mountains, but sill close enough to the city to do gigs and stay in my band

but I wanted to live on the land focus on the land, first building my little camp, sproutables as stable food, I still have embarrassing footage of documenting the projects as they went along

as I got my camp established I started to make a masterpiece out of the land, did the permaculture design, set up composts, garden beds, earth works

this was my dream, that I had been cooped up literally in urban projects, now I got to have this giant canvas

I was filled with love and light, and at the peak of virility

I can’t help getting into the romance, we had this banter, it was quite charming

very much the as you wish, sweet wesley, princess butter cup, princess bride kinda thing she’s like a millionairess, owning her property, in a house that she built with her ex-husband, and with their ill-fated marriage and divorce left her with the house all to herself

a shamanic priestess in her own right, I was drawn for the ceremonial opportunities happening there

at one point she had been developing feelings for me, I begun my tantric path and was resolute in being open and non monogamous, doing long trial periods and setting up agreements where we put leases on each other’s bodies, not just permanent access, it’s gonna be metered out and we’re gonna hold true to contracts

that’s not the most romantic part of the story, sorry that’s my virgo, living and learning hard lessons of getting trapped in toxic relationship situations

she was thrilled to see her property come to life, thrilled clip fresh greens, harvest chicken eggs, she was a crack chef, holistic lavish parties

she was healing, in a cycle of healing with some issues that forced her to stop working, she was really actually, for me to come in there at a time where she had so much liquid capital for so many decades of her professional career, and I get there, having come out of the south central punk ghetto, having really figured out survival, minimalism, living outside, I had just come out of that sort of self imposed ranger school if you will, in some ways very extreme and comparable to that, in some ways I’m doing a disservice to ranger school graduates by saying that

I had seen of the colony reality show seasons, sophisticated social experiments, group of volunteers, strangers, with skill sets, put into social experiment of urban survival post disaster, constructed scenario, global pandemic outbreak, they were put into a survival theme park, they peppered in all these different tools and supplies and equipment, had to ration food, solar power, water purification, latrine, living quarters, defend perimeter, it was like a survival obstacle course staged by the producers, of course they hyped the sexual drama and politics, lots of stage, but overall done very well, really brought out patriarchal douche bag in one of the characters, they probably played it up but this guy played a real jerk, if they had a yogi there and they got that guy chilled the fuck out they would have been happier

I was fresh off the urban survival experience and watching the colony season, I wanted to put myself through that, the experience of deprivation, like a full time drill, I was on extremely tight budget, I was very very very poor financially, that was part of the drill, it made it all work

she was brought down to my level even though she owned property, the cost of heating that place, the water bill, commuting, family expenses, it was stress inducing, so for me to be able to come in there with very sophisticated simple and elegant techniques for living frugality, eating sprouts every night, and what I called ben feed, own trail mix, not paleo and bad for teeth and gut though, thought it was great that was no added sugar, but too much carb and dried fruit sugar, so not the best wisdom at that stage, but able to subsist

sprouting grains and legumes make them healthier, less toxic, less carbs

so between fresh chicken eggs every morning, fresh greens and herbs eventually fruits and some berries

I pretty much brought sustenance to her from my humble 5 gallon buckets and mylar bags, I was nourishing her and providing for her and at that everyday it was like farm boy fetch me a bowl of sprouts, as you wish

it led to a moment where she was commiserating with a couple of fellow elder priestesses about her empty love life, and I walk by them, when they saw me and they heard her talking about her woes, they said that’s your man, he’s right here on your doorstep

when we sat together and talked love the first time, I said, something to the effect that I’m like a reference book at the library, you have to share me

another thing she said was that she did test me though, there was an epic project that had to be and I knocked it out for her, and that was part of it too

also she said she fell in love with me when she saw me leading a group of other men repairing her teepee,

she seemed to have been sniffing out the alpha pheromone, though I’m not overtly alpha in terms of being agro or competitive

I felt it for her and she felt it for me, and it was negotiated to be openish, we had a sacred contract ultimately for a period of months of monogamy

we were successful, she was the sales and marketing and spokes model and I was the inventor, builder, introverted, designer, not people person

she was extraverted, our videos still exist where you can see how charming she is

it was the peak of our romance and success together, me building my wares and her selling them, legally registered by new cottage food law

cottage food paradigm shift

we were one of the first, we were rockin, had permaculture workshops, I was in the process of starting an officially recognized permaculture design course with a novel at-your-own-pace format for low income people

we had meet ups, workshops, other instructors coming in, weddings, we sold 150 amaranth seedlings to a wedding production as wedding gifts to all the attendees, can’t imagine how prolific those plants have been, amaranth is my spirit plant

glorious achievements, romance novel come to life

we started going to classes at that survival equipment store, I got my first aid training there, we went there together

we also did the cert training at the local fire station together

we were getting into tactical permaculture, vision of creating seed pellets to be used in airsoft guns so that you would know by what was planted where the kill zones were, better avoid where all the wild flowers were clustered

we had a legitimate, top tier tactical training marksman involved with the project, we started to draft out the ultimately survival permaculture tactical theme park design, motes, edible perimeter defense like sugar cane, blackberries, imagine stick fighting training with sugar cane, or chewing on your night stick while being a warrior defending your goddess temple community, sugar cane staff, for a bit of extra blood sugar if you need to run or fight, imagination runing wild, but it was starting to happen, archery, martial arts training gear, kicking post in the office, talk about warrior goddess temple, permaculture goddess temple, the whole 9 yards, a lot of people have beautiful memories of the time as well, it was epic

so we had started to work with the survival store, and one of our sex magic rituals yielded the mascot of the brand I had established years ago

she had to reel me in and tone done my zombie apocalypse rhetoric, she advised some re-edits on my basic preparedness manual to take out the zombie talk, smoothed out the edges so she could see to other high class soccer moms

I rebranded a more family friendly business card, and the survival store had the business card on their bulletin board, her handy work of getting the business card out to people

so the Joan River’s production crew searched for survival training, found the store, went there and asked if they do home consulting/installation, I believe they said no, but oh here’s this business card from those nice friendly homesteader folks that shop here and trainer here, so they gave the production staff the business card

we got a call, I didn’t even know who Joan River’s was, I think she got the call, and she seemed keyed up, of course Joan has a big place in my heart since space balls, but I didn’t know her name

she was like hey they want to pay us to do this thing on the show, there were some things they were pushing on that I thought would be poor representation, I was worried that we’d be made fun of, make a joke of, and my colleagues would tear me apart of I miss represented the art and science to the masses, preppers and permies can be pretty vicious in terms of political correctness, and one-upmanship, ego bullshit,

but I decided to go along with it, nothing was a huge violation of the principles and science, one thing I really didn’t like but let it slide

I don’t think I’ll burn in hell for selling out

the shoot went well, the chemistry was great, we lucked out, because it was 50/50 if we were gonna be the laughing stock, if you’re Joan Rivers’ laughing stock and she’s gonna bully you mercilessly with her lines, you’d have to have thick skin, I expected since were the crazy wingnut survival freaks, doing this backyard makeover

ultimately it worked out well, in our favor, because the whole series was that Joan had moved in with her daughter to drive her crazy and try to control her life with her humor and divaness, that was the premise of the whole show

it worked in our favor because Joan was authentically on board with us, she got it, she asked about our backgrounds, I said I’ve been a survivalist since I was on the street as a young teenager, saw dark things and had to learn to survive

and my partner grew up more holistic, ranch, rustic, agricultural life, farmer relatives, americana

we clicked so Joan even said you look good together, the most golden compliment you can ever get, what can’t you do if you can impress Joan river’s visually that was a huge compliment all thought one of her staff thought I was my partner’s son, lots of funny moments

they have a whole day of footage and only use a few minutes

so joan hires us to do the consultation and backyard make over and she’s thrilled and gung ho to have us appear to be tearing up the lawn, we’re going to be growing vines all over the place, build a chicken run, turn the pool into a living edible natural pond and fish farm, and so the great thing was that joan was totally on board with everything and stoked and gung ho, and the antagonism was with her daughter

the lines that joan said I couldn’t have paid her a trillion dollars to say, about when the shit hits the fan the neighbors are gonna be lined up down the block to get my eggs, we’re gonna be sustainable, and she was sincere, she was old enough to have a clue about self sufficiency and hard times

it was a beautiful experience, here we are now years later, 8 years later, no longer in that relationship, no longer on the property, I can only hope since we parted was in a pretty ugly meltdown, I love to hope we’d be able to not rekindle but reminisce on what was mostly good

it was pretty acute collapse at the very end after wild success in love and business and the sky being the limit, if what we did for joan rivers was good enough for her even as a joke that’s a pretty good endorsement, we did we teach for the local government emergency committees

got a business loan, we had a mascot, a brand, we were selling buckets of survival food, sprouting kits, trainings, its damn shame, it all comes down to monogapathic behavior, she could follow the letters of our agreement which gave me freedom to be a healer

I told her I was gonna be a yoni worshiper and healer and that’s my path and training before we met, and you’re gonna have to come to terms with that, it doesn’t mean that I’m even that I’m having sex with anyone I may be touching people they may be touching me, that’s where I really fine tuned my deal with women, looking at what are the actually permanent irreversible risks to having an open relationship, incurable stis, sexually transmitted infections, that’s the only permanent way of affecting negatively a primary partner that you have, you’ll heal a broken heart, you’ll get over feeling upstaged and deprioritized, if there’s longevity and strength and security in the relationship, everything else that’s emotional you’ll heal from even it seems so traumatic, what you can’t escape from is incurable stis, to me I say, my deal is like look what we have to design around is that one thing and we can have our hearts open as wide as we want, and our legs spread and our pants off, to the world of everyone else, as long as we understand and acknowledge that how much faith do we really place in just using condoms, do we have boundaries around outercourse, or dry sex, or non fluid bonded sex, there’s ways to intelligently avoid the risk of stis, I know this breaks some hearts, and there were times when I was not willing to reciprocate this in my younger life, but by then I had realized the beauty and the nourishment of a diverse sexual, romantic, and sensual cornucopia of lovers, and patients and clients for healing, and friends, and the idea that would sacrifice all of that to keep one person from losing their mind, it was a horrific melt down of her feeling like she was losing me and losing control of me, I take full responsibility for what I did that was inappropriate, immature, not of high moral character in the process of how this went down,

we would still be friends, we would still together I would still be on that land, still be taking care of the trees I planted, all the life I brought to that land, I would still be stewarding that and would still be in her words the man of the land and we’d still be living happily ever after

I was showing her through my permitted actions what I needed to be happy, fulfilled, and doing my dharma

it came down to one moment that really shifted for me when I started to really branch out, it wasn’t because I was bored with her or sick of her

there was a video that was shot, my experience of modeling for a camera to do tantric session work with a total stranger to me in that day, when I saw myself in that footage, I’m not vane at all I have the least vanity about my appears, I feel unphotogenic, and as JS said, I have a face made for radio,

its not just oh im shy about it, I really break the lens from a lot of angles and I know that, I design my content with that in mind, its not like oh I need to be a star now but when I saw the video, tantra for couples using the five sense

I saw the energy, the level of focus, such a fan of Jean Claude Van Damme, loved his controlled, metered, measured, self contained manner, from spiritual practice and martial arts practice, the refined shiva healing energy you could see it in the grace of my movements

I may not be a 10 on the surface, with big muscles, perfect teeth, perfect smile, photogenic, a-list actor material, that didn’t matter, I could consider myself a 6 on the surface and what was beneath the surface was resonating and emanating so beautifully to my soul, I can really do this work and have it be really compelling, this really does confirm that this is my calling and my path, and remain open

I’ve never cheated, I’ve prenegotiated or precommunicated my intentions, ended one relationship before having sex with a new person, I’ve cheated emotionally if you want to use that dirty word that id on’t like at all, I’ve indulged myself in pleasures with other people emotionally that I didn’t communicate or invite my current primary partner to be a part of and for them to wonder about that was painful for them, still not technically a cheater, I have not hooked up with someone and had sexual intercourse with them without previously ended the relationship before them, I have that gold star on my shoulder for not being a cheater,

but she was not gonna go by the original agreements that we had even though I was not willing to renew the sacred contract, she could have had her take and ate it too, it was just really sad, if she would have been able to share tiny slices of the cake with the understanding that I would not be jeopardizing her health, and that I could have the discipline either not to do anything that could involve transmission of stis, or have barriers, or have testing done, there’s just so many ways that you can navigate that one ultimate deal breaker and there was just no negotiation whatsoever, so it melted down in a very rapid and ugly manner, maybe some day she’ll be on the podcast to ball break me back on that

it was a power couple par excellence, we were doing business together, living together happily, it was really tragic and sad that that happened, I guess this was the time for that story to come out, its relevant to current events because that was the peak of me teaching survival and preparedness, obviously I haven’t stopped living that way since I left, I’ve always maintained ample food, water supplies, first aid, kept healthy and fit, glued to the news, evacuation routes, positioned advantageous in terms of zombies, my career path collapsed losing that space, I still sold some supplies and kits, it really stopped when I had the sexual shamanic spiritual emergency, all that is to say it’s been 8 years since I was at that peak and I have done my solo survival, haven’t been imposing it on people either, roomates, that don’t give a fuck thinks you’re paranoid, every prepper knows what that feels like, family, co-workers, getting people on board its painful for everybody, and it takes those moments of oh there was an earthquake oh shit who do we call, now its time to take him seriously

it’s like you’re crazy paranoid prepper until one moment when the lights go out or there’s a tremor then I’m the savor, whatever, honestly we are like ambulance chasers, its like oh now you’re ready okay what do you have to put on the table, how much money will you put towards buffering this for next time, because it could be the next one big time

so anyone paying attention to the coronavirus outbreak, it will have an official name soon, exposing corruption in government response, digital quarantines, limited by gps, apocalypse 2.0 its crazy, studying this, trying to be ahead of it, maybe I’ll be one of the first to go, you never know, you could be the strongest person, with muscle, and twist an ankle and die in 3 minutes without air, 3 hours without shelter, 3 days without water, 3 weeks without food, 3 months without love

those are your enemies and that is the battlefield, those time frames of conditions that can kill you so I could go at any time, all of my preps could be nullified by anything

but I have done my homework and due diligence, to have a clue and be woke about this stuff

now is the time for people who are having that acute moment of waking up to the vulnerability and all of our taken for granted, normalcy bias, it can’t happen to me

still cognitive dissonance around this virus, I don’t have the medical knowledge to have a strong opinion or a lot of facts to back up any claims about how scared anyone should be where ever they are, I know the places in the world where this is being taken very seriously, that is the sci apcalyptic experience, where everything that preppers do to be ready to either quarantine themselves, or escape the quarantine but do it ethically and go somewhere where you will be ethically quarantining yourself, but to be rounded up in camps is the preppers last, that is the ultimate thing to avoid, you’re subject to rape, search and seizure, being exposed to the virus, exposed to risk of incarceration if you resist or don’t comply, state’s measures are very corrupt

chinese doctor tried to alarm officials of the virus, is now dead of the virus, and was forced by police to sign some fake confession that he was fraudulently alarming the public

there’s been all kinds of fuckery in every country around these kinds of things

I’m not telling anyone to panic, it’s just for me, the modifications that I will make to my lifestyle are pretty minimal because I try to stay away from crowds anyway, I try to do more fist bumps than hand shakes, and when I hear some body snivel or cough I got into a controlled, germaphobic, hypochondriac high alert mode, of don’t touch your face, you can scratch your eye with your knuckle, your knuckle doesn’t touch door knobs, and when you cough and sneeze you can do it in your elbow

I’m not giving medical advice, for myself I look at this and go okay this is cycle of opportunity for me to preach and teach about basic preparedness, I guess what I will do to not be too heavy handed, I’ll put a link in the show notes to the podcast episode I did where I read that basic preparedness manual that has pretty much all of the fundamental procedural building blocks of how you can be better prepared for anything, when the shit hit’s your fan , not the fan

job loss, injury, cut off from income, its not just end of the world event that’s going to force you to institute your procedure and protocols for preparedness It could be something simple

it’s not gonna become the zombie apocalypse show, but it’s the right time to tell that story, so many mythical moments, I loved that woman, I loved that land, for a farm boy like me, that’s as good as it gets, it’s a damn shame the way it went down, but if I’m 80 years old in rocking chair and people ask me what some of the peaks of my life were, I’ll be like well, I’ll tell you story next time there’s a little tiny earthquake that makes you want to prepare for the next one, or next time there’s an outbreak I ‘ve got a story for you, this will be the story I tell

survival and preparedness getting back to the land it can be romantic it can be beautiful it can only get more polyamorous, it can only get less monogapathic, but for all intents and purposes if it was good enough for joan rivers, hopefully what I’m saying is good enough for you, to want to say yeah, what am I gonna wipe my ass with if there’s not a sycamore tree near by and I’m out of toilet paper, how am I going to look at ways to improve and enhance the number of gallons of water that I’m storing on site because a gallon per person for day is a low estimate of what you’d want to have if you were cut off from the main, or the main supply is contaminated, I think it’s worth it to take this moment to really figure out what strategies you may need to have in place

if martial law at any scale or you could just by happenstance, they’re quarantining people now all over the world, different directness of exposure to this virus, for all I know, for all you know, we could find out tomorrow that you were in a place where somebody had a confirmed case, then you’d get a knock on your door, and get taken away, don’t quote me, I’m not making official public service announcements, I take this very seriously, I ain’t going out like that if I can help

like everything else, it too shall pass, but even if it doesn’t graze your life and doesn’t put a dent in your routine, it’s a moment to commemorate

how often do you put yourself through the meditation of lights out, food supply cut off, income cut off, possibly being injured, possibly being infected, being affected by a war zone, unexpected disruptions in all that you take for granted on a daily basis

if you meditate on the vedic pantheon, you should also meditate on shitting hitting the fan, and shit hitting your fan

there was a guy who was the closest thing to a purple breathing hippie yoga master tantric on the survival podcast

there’s an anti-woo-woo bias, as you can imagine by the more conservative, libertarian, and to some extent more christian ranks of the survival movement, yet there is this interesting interplay of the bush hippie and jar head, the bromance, I’m in that dance

but there was this hardcore survivalist prepper yogi on the survival podcast, I’ll be reaching out to that guy

this coronavirus is a catalyst to do your drills, check your inventory, audit your physical preps and your plans, your protocols and procedures, and just be ready for things to get possibly worse, because of this virus or any other viruses, this is just another not so friendly reminder, goddess bless all the souls who’ve already passed from this virus, and let’s do our best not to join them in the big fema camp in the sky

namaste

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The Sacred Sexual Healing Path of Gay Tantra Teacher Brad Amberheart TPP233

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In this episode I’m joined by Brad Amberheart

My new gay tantra hero has joined me for a deep exploration of all things gay and tantra. He takes us on a journey through his journey, a cinematic adventure behind the veil and into the inner sanctum of a magical priest of love. I felt lifted out-of-body and into the clouds while experiencing his eloquent narrative of personal evolution, healing, empowerment, transformation, and transcendence.  I was in the perfect mood to shove off the shore of normal waking consciousness to dance within the erotic consciousness of Brad’s historic evolutionary path towards bigger and bigger love.

About Brad:

Brad Amberheart is a Tantric sex coach and erotic workshop facilitator who works primarily with gay men. His primary passion is working 1-on-1 with men who are ready to explore erotic ecstasy as a pathway to a higher understanding of who we are and why we’re here. Brad has also led transformational erotic rituals at international Tantra festivals for people of all genders, including the Hawaii Tantra Festival and the Tantra Love Fest in Glastonbury, UK. Between 2017 and 2020, he wrote more than 120 concepts for conscious evolutionary Gay Sex videos and worked on 7 gay erotic film sets to coach male erotic models in how to convey a deeper sense of heightened sexual freedom and expression on camera. His latest endeavor, as of January 2020, is the launch of his podcast series, Gay Tantra, which is the first podcast series in the world devoted fully to the experiential practice of Tantra, Sexual Magic, and Erotic Mysticism for men who have sex with men. To listen to his podcast, watch his gay erotic videos, or book a Tantric Sex coaching session in person or via video conferencing, please visit bradamberheart.com

 

My (not verbatim) show notes: 

Tantric sex coach, erotic workshop facilitator for gay men, host of gay tantra podcast

Gratitude to tantrapunk podcast for invitation, a month ago, searching for gay tantra podcasts, closest that came up was tantra punk because of interviews with Jason Tantra and others, listened to quite a few podcasts, deeply touched by transcendental eroticism, self pleasuring that encouraged men to cherish our own bodies, and use orgasm for healing

right when just about to contact tantra punk, I got an email we found one another at the same time

sitting in same bedroom in grandmother’s house, live in western north carolina, talking today from home of ancestors, family lived for 5 generations, same cedar tree I decorated with lights over the holidays that was my height when I was twelve, now the same age as me, gigantic cedar tree that I can go in and hide and masturbate if I want to, right in the front yard, I think that’s a good frame work for what I’m about to tell you

grew up in very conservative religious background, lucky enough to have parents that were open sexually, even though 70s, father was deeply wounded emotionally and spiritually by the Vietnam war, I came into a world of turmoil and chaos

parents thought sex was a very important part of life, educated to embrace sex and its beauty

went to church, encouraged to wait until marriage to engage sexually, parents didn’t subscribe to that

even though baptist church, it was quite moderate. The horror stories about fundamentalist religions weren’t a reality

always cared for, always loved

when got into high school, more than before, became problem child

asked questions you’re not supposed to ask

Jesus never got married, how old was he when he did, is there anything in the bible about him having sex with anyone, because you’re not supposed to have sex before marriage, does that mean that Jesus never got to do you want me to die a 33 year old virgin, nailed on a cross

pleaded with youth minister to talk, he looked at me with kind eyes, I feel like a lot of people are asking the questions you’re asking but you’re the only one with courage to ask, I wonder what Jesus’ sex life was like

he got married, after wedding we all looked with longing, maybe he’s getting some now

still what really impressive, miraculously I was not shunned, encouraged to explore curiosity

curiosity is a foundational root of what it means to be on a tantric path

heard of tantra first from sister, she said, have you ever heard that there’s certain guys in the world that instead of ejaculating, they use that energy for other things and have these trippy experiences

didn’t hear the word again for many years, didn’t have sex with anyone all the way from puberty until I was 22 years old, partly because of religious upbringing, and partly because of craving, longing, excitement related to men, attributed it to admiration

if I would see a hunky guy there was a certain excitement

also noticed going on dates with women, it was done from a place of attempting to please relatives, to convince them I was normal

greatest obsession was to study all day saturday, for international science fair, studied sun spots through a telescope every day, instead of having sex

while every body else was exploring sexuality if they were lucky, I was at the library, I was a total nerd

went to church every sunday, even when parents quit going, I was the spiritual leader of the family, always asked to say the prayer

what’s more relevant, I remained disconnected from other people sexually all through college

I was religious but at the same time rebellious

celebrate new years in florida with my cousin

I wonder what jesus’ sex life was life, I’m 22, I don’t really want to die a virgin

willing to find any woman who’d be willing to experiment with me

wasn’t able to find anyone that wanted to go to bed with me

story going on in my mind, maybe people who go to bed with people of same sex was because they couldn’t get in bed with someone of the same sex

the story I got about homosexuality was not pretty, not positive, not encouraging, it was scary

tantra, in retrospect, for all the years that I wasn’t having sex I was pursuing other passions and putting a lot of energy into really creative work

how did I ever get on a tantric path, all the times masturbated by myself, I was on a tantric path, I was harnessing my energy and putting into what I cared about even when I wasn’t having sex

learned how to take self into fits of excitement and ecstasy, at that age I ejaculated a lot, so I found every creative way to shoot my cum all over the place

I became my most devoted and delighted sex partner

I had a lot of fun by myself, didn’t know til in college, most guys masturbate with their hand

I actually found it much more pleasurable to fuck the bed, I would writhe and squirm all over soft sheets and make noises into the pillow, I loved ejaculating onto the sheets, didn’t realize that not everybody did that

cultivating an ecstatic whole body practice

when I did find a willing, exuberant, excited sex partner, the ecstasy I had been cultivating on my own 9 years, was over the top with another human being, on top of a wonderful man’s body in Alaska, marvelous orgasm after orgasm for hours, must have ejaculated 4 or 5 times, I was still 22, now looking back, years of whole body jack off fun by myself became the foundation for years of euphoric sexual bliss with other men

the tantric path made itself known to me, overtly around the year 2000, I was 26 years old, had been in a corporate job for several years, traveling back and forth to Siberia, environmental consult to gold mining companies, had no sex life

Still investing in what I really cared about, didn’t have sex partners other than self

sit in closet, get high smoking pot, get out a stack of porn mags, started to noticed even though all my porn mags had women in them, they also had men, loved to seeing men’s cum, loved seeing to men and woman together, undeniable theme

one night jacking of in the closet by myself and said, wow I live in a city of 100,000 people, there must be someone else out there who would love to do this with me right now

ventured out of closet, went to a bar, chatted up the cutest guys I could find and I had hours and hours and hours of mind blowing sex as often as I liked, if there had been any guilt or shame or trepidation, I took 9 years to get over it

when I came out the closet, I came out with flying colors

tantric path continued, something was happening that was not normal, not typical

I would be making love with a guy, no penetration with first 20 or 30 partners I enjoyed, always face to face body to body cock to cock lips to lips, over the top orgasmic, wasn’t any penetration but would find that, would allow self to completely lose myself, didn’t have to hold on to earthly reality, go flying, when I would come to, the men I would be with would be like, “dude I have neighbors”, what do you mean what do they have to do with anything, well you’re making a lot of noise man, what else would I do I’ve waited 9 years to enjoy this

they would enjoy it but they would try to shut me down

I hear this from friends when they make love with women, always concerned with how big it’s gonna be and how loud

at present moment I hold play parties for people of all genders, last play party, all of the noise that came out of my house was the screaming orgasms of women, didn’t hear men making any noise, windows were open, screams going through whole neighborhood

I told everybody in the beginning, it’s spring time its hot windows open, if you’re going to scream and orgasm, consider that a blessing to the people who live here, whatever you’re facing aim that energy into the earth, that it can bless this ground that has suffered so much for so many generations and so that the people near by can be blessed, consider the people on this continent that are hurting and let your waves reach those people

and I heard a lot of screaming from women, because, frankly I don’t know how many places in the world we have sanctuary to really allow that unstoppable orgasm to come out, I really feel it has frightened men for a long time, it frightened many of my sex partners early on

I had never been with anyone, I had only been with my ecstatic self, when nobody was home in my parents house, I was shouting hallelujah, I was screaming because it felt so fucking good, I didn’ tknow anything about holding it back

learned about body electric school in 1999, had been hearing more about this tantric thing

workshops where guys rubbed on one another’s cocks, and they would see colors, and visions , and maybe speak in tongues

room full of men would go into whole body orgasmic bliss but nobody ejaculated

it was really trendy in the 90s, a lot of people talked about it, wow I did it and I saw colors

I could travel back and forth in time, very different than what I was seeing in porn, to this day when I watch porn, still haven’t seen one that shows people having a transcendental experience, where they’re flying above the oceans and swimming with the dolphins while they make love

still waiting, when I make love I get to swim through oceans, I get to hear the whales, I get to smell the salt air, I get to travel through the world and its what I want for people to know more anything is that in addition to being a fuck load of fun to have sex, it’s also a vehicle that connects us to everything alive on the earth, and everything that ever has lived, no such thing as death, people that came before are here alive and we can visit with them, this is the potential of our sex, that I’m not hearing spoken about except out of my own mouth,

my tantra speaker spoke about it when I finally tantra, after the body electric school, where I went to workshops where men rubbed on each other’s cocks like a magic jenie bottle and transcendental experiences

when I was invited to my first tantra workshop I said well what is it, is it a tantra massage and he said no, it’s tantra

you mean tantra is different than massage, he said yeah it is

I went to this workshop in a log cabin, with some one to this day I consider to be one of the most authentic and resonant lineages of tantra that I have found, rudolph valentine

we do this tantra workshop in a log cabin, it’s hot, but there’s a pond and we bathe in a pond

it’s great we’ve done it lots of time, you should come, so I did

12 men there, all got naked, lined up on bank of pond, farm pond with frogs in it, every few minutes, hear them and nights sounds, crickets, we all line up, leader motions for us to take step forward, 12 men take a step into this pond with water up to our chest, remembered grandmother, I remembered her saying she was baptized in a pond, as soon as that thought came to me, the workshop leaders invited us to get into a circle, the two of them got into the center of the circle and they invited the first person to step in to the center of the circle, I thought are they really gonna do what I think they’re gonna do, I decided to go first, I stepped into the circle, one of them put his hand behind my head, the other held my hand, they both looked at me and I knew what was happening, they nodded as if to signal are you ready, I shook my head,i let out a wail, I stood in the middle of this pond with 9 men surrounding me, and two holding me in the center, and I wailed, I felt the sorrow and the disconnection of how I had been to be loved and cherished by a spiritual community and the pain of how it felt to be disconnected from your spiritual roots, in my heart I had a prayer that this time I would embark on a spiritual path that would hold everything that I am and allow me to be everything that I could be, and had room for every part of me, all of me the slut the priest, the father the son the man the woman everything in side of me the dark the light I wanted that path that could hold me, that was what tantra was, that was what tantra meant

I nodded, and they immersed me in the water and I had my second baptism, the first time was inside of a church when I was 6 years old inside of tank, they put you in this paper robe, and they bring you up out of the water and the whole church can see you all wet, with this paper clinging to your body

here I was in the pond, naked being baptized, this is the way to do it

moments in the workshop: looked at one of the teachers and said I’m so glad that I finally met my teacher, what do you mean, you’ve already had a teacher, what are you talking about, because you told me about the person that taught you everything, everything you already need to know about tantra was already taught to me, who was it, he said, your grandmother

my grandmother was a master at finding light in the darkness and master of turning obstacles into means, when I finally did meet my tantra teachers, 28 years after I first met my grandmother they told me the same things that she had, they were just the first to put it into words, my grandmother always had plenty when there was nothing, she had joy even when she lived in hell, she found heaven in hell, I’m sitting right now in the house that she lived and died in

my tantra teachers told me that tantra is the consummation of the inner marriage and while some of us look for a partner outside of ourselves to marry, most of us skip the essential step of finding that partner within ourselves first, I had a lot of time to practice that inner marriage, it’s a never ending relationship just like any marriage

shadow work, all of those pieces of ourselves that we think are ugly that we wouldn’t want others to know

its an instinct, there’s a part in us that isn’t always happy

part of us that feels angry, part of us that feels scared, there’s a part of us that feels enraptured, a part of us that feels enraged, the further we walk on the tantra path we’re prompted to see that there’s a place for all of this, to find the marriage of these opposites, the ultimate journey of what tantra really is all about

one more thing I want to add, I happen to be a gay man, I really love the word faggot, I embrace that word as part of my magic, and I happen to be a faggot who really loves to make love with women who love faggots, have had ecstatically joyful partners who were female, I had to embrace my delight and love of other men, before I could allow myself to be the complete faggot I am in bed with women

had precisely two maybe three ecstatic female lovers, they are female lovers that really love gay men,it’s really helped me to see the perfection that a lot of men who have sex almost exclusively with women, also have the complete right to enjoy sexual freedom with other men without necessarily having to put a label on it

visually when I look at women’s bodies, I can admire them I can appreciate the embodiment of the goddess and yet its way different, it’s not like a look at a woman and go I really want to have that right now, I really only objectify men

what happens with women, I approach it as an opportunity to commune with the divine, pathway that connects us with the divine, it no longer matters how old they are, how fat or thin they are, kinda fem or kinda butch, doesn’t matter what gender they are, if you’ve found source of your erotic expression in yourself and you love erotic expression for the pure excitement and sake of erotic expression it is possible to journey ecstatically and cathartically with a wide diversity of partners, some people ask me, how can you have sex with someone you’re not attracted to

one of my primary lovers is twice my age, I’m in my 40s, one of my lovers is in his 80s, we have some of the most transcendental experiences that I have with any partner, I make love with people not because of the way they look or how old they are, but authentically because I want to commune with the divine, I like to travel I like to transcend time and space, I get a lot of insight and guidance for what I’m gonna do with my life when I’m in that state, that’s why I make love

people say what type of person are you into, what type of person turns you on, I say a person who’s fuckin as excited as fuck to make love with me, that’s the kind that really turns me on, if they’re excited, I’m excited, if I’m excited they’re excited, there’s a resonance, that transcends appearance, age, social class all that bullshit

women, I’m really grateful for women because, making love with women was like, a later stage threshold that I crossed because that was when I really recognized, wow, I can have a transcendental erotic experience, and be a faggot with a person of any gender, I can, it can’t just be anyone, it has to be someone who knows we’re on a journey, and we’re connecting with something bigger than ourselves, if a woman just wants my dick its not gonna work, lots of time I don’t even get hard when I have sex, if I’m in a cathartic whole body state nobodies paying attention to how hard my dick is, that would be a liberating lesson if more men in the world were able to feel that the ability to connect ecstatically with the divine and another human being is completely independent of what they’re cock is doing, that’s radical

some of the most whole body orgasmic states I’ve ever experienced and witnessed were with people who’s cocks weren’t hard, don’t get me wrong I love hard dick AND there are a lot of ways to go into cathartic whole body ecstasy

homophobia…i barely use the word anymore, don’t often feel like I’m battling homophobia, which is a beautiful place to be

our world really does shift with the shift of our inner perception, the transformation of ourselves and planet using sexual pleasure, what I’m really asking of people to invite ourselves to consider that ecstatic sexual pleasure is available to far more of us than we’ve ever dreamed

we feel we need a partner of a certain type, in reality if we join with other partners who recognized that we have the opportunity to fly, to sail through the skies and the seas, experience realities beyond what we see, what meets the eye, we have the opportunity to go into multiple realities, the future on planet earth is that we’re going to see a world more filled with people who are excited about having sex with a variety of partners, less focused on getting hard, ejaculating, and fulfilling a whole checklist of what they think needs to be done to have great sex, and focusing more on oh my god, we have an energy field right now where if we introduce the faintest intention, that is going to manifest, as soon as we say it is done

10 years ago I spoke the impossible, I was in a native american ceremony with 100 queer people and I was asked why I came and I said I want to see the day when our people can fuck and enjoy the fuck out of each other and squirt our seed inside of one another and know we’re actually healing one another not killing one another

full on sexual delight was some how equated with death

I want our people to be able to share our medicine free from fear, healing each other not killing each other, I had no way of conceiving how that would be possible, today there are multiple opportunities for people to enjoy sexual pleasure with people of all genders like never before free from fear, a lot of people are using Prep, they’re taking something that allows them to free themselves from the acute anxiety that has for all too long accompanied them and their sex

not an advocate, or promoter, nor do I discourage people to use things things

the world has transformed, we have sex with each other for healing and health

its what brings us life

what’s coming up, the most exciting thing happening in my tantric path, is the gay tantra podcast

12/31/19 I issued the first episode, it was pretty hard core, it was a hard core sex scene, interspersed with sacred magic, to alert people that raunch, kink, and downright ass fucking is integrated with magic and health and healing, followed with talk with 8 other men, with how tantra relates to sex among men, created an exercise people can do

I’ve contributed to the creation of over 120 evolutionary gay erotic videos, all on my website:

bradamberheart.com

on the home page, I have links to the evolutionary gay erotic videos, gay tantra podcast, soon more links to upcoming events world wide

Jason Tantra and partner, created an app, that allows conscientious gay men who are exploring other realms of sexual magic and healing to meet each other, created at the same time as the gay tantra podcast, master of mind of universe created the gay tantra podcast and tantra4gaymen app at the same time

even if you’re not gay, you just occasionally like to suck dick, listen to the gay tantra podcast

event’s coming up, will be posted on website, announced on gay tantra

series I’m most excited about is a series that teaches people how to use , or harness their sexual pleasure as a tool to connect with higher sources of wisdom and information: transcendental sexuality

receive insight, new knowledge, and information

super excited some of the videos I created are still being edited

it’s a really evolutionary time to live on earth, it’s an evolutionary time for men who are exploring conscious sexuality with other men, unifications happening through colleagues, Jason Tantra, Davey Wavey, collaboration on videos

a network has been created that’s spanning the globe, super excited about gay tantra as a platform

each month an exercise as part of the series, free guided sexercises, more to come

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Story Telling, Mindful Sexuality, and Theta Healing with Alex Mill TPP231

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In this episode I’m joined by Alex Mill for a delightful exploration of her multi-media and multi-modality artistic and healing works. She shares her background in story-telling through film making of all kinds.  After many great accomplishments in the industry she tells of her yearning for deeper spiritual practice, thus her path of developing her skills in the healing arts. We learn about the science and practice of theta healing and her unique integration of ancient mythological and cosmological concepts of divine masculine and feminine energy. It was exciting to hear her way of explaining esoteric concepts in very down to earth and easy to compute terms. Ultimately our discussion ends with a brief inquiry into the role and future of machine learning and artificial intelligence as a means to shed light on humanity’s strengths and weaknesses.

About Alex:

Alex has merged her 10 years of storytelling experience as a filmmaker, with her personal spiritual explorations of how the sexual energy is capable of raising our level of consciousness, and created the field of Mindful Sexuality. Tuning into her clients’ personal narrative, Alex has helped people all around the world to craft a Life Story they’re grateful to experience and proud to share. Using a unique mixture of Theta Healing, Egyptian, Chinese and Indian Tantric mind/body/spirit practices and a dash of modern scientific understanding, she’s teaching people how to heal from old personal stories and how to embody their highest, true potential.

Event at Liberate Hollywood on February 3rd at 7pm —
Different Desires, Shared Pleasures of the Divine Masculine & Sacred Feminine
https://www.eventbrite.com/e/different-desires-shared-pleasures-of-the-divinefemininesacredmasculine-tickets-90244045369

https://www.masterofstory.net

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC1hjrR8b6JFGqnC6dzd04VQ

https://www.instagram.com/_master_of_story_/

https://www.facebook.com/masterofstory/

https://www.imdb.com/name/nm6550157/

My (non-verbatim) notes from the show:

Mindful sexuality coach

Entire background in film making, narrative, story telling

All about people’s personal stories

The way we exist in our own language, is literally shaping and forming how we see our reality, our worldview

Through sexual energy, connect mind and body

Look at the first relationship that gets messed up, our own mind, body and spirit

After 10 years of film making, no matter how much worldly success, or achievement, not finding fulfillment

Not finding right collaborators, giving too much, getting too little

Not able to contribute what was inside

Through personal practice, always ended up being the relationship coach in circle of friends

Love working with men, there’s a lack of emotional awareness or emotional access to the depth of purpose within people

Sexual energy, life force energy that we were made of

Learn to tap into that energy

Mind-body practices helped first to be able to tap into what my purpose is, mission in the world

Discipline, inner drive for a life-time practice, not just a hobby

Done enough healing so I can go back to the world and contribute and give to others

Lived for past seven years in London, currently in Spain

Assistant directing, commercials, indy films, music videos, big studio films

The filmmaking side is not about me, it extended my field of vision

Such levels of collaborations, I know it’s going to shape the world

There’s a calling to bring a level of awareness and consciousness to the film making community so we are creating content for soul fulfillment

We’re putting screens into the hands of children

Grew up on movies, in the 90s

Relationship misalignments, coming from deeply ingrained story telling narratives that are not useful, might be entertaining, has to be crisis and making, up, and those in real life were not serving me

New ways of story telling, educating people, film is so accessible and fun way of connecting

We’re watching people emoting from our very safe space

Learning how to be a human being through those characters

Excited to bring knowledge back to the film community

Current project, calling it a bingeable Netflix type thing, choose your adventure type story, made of completely eccentric and genre mixing bits of short pieces told from perspective of four characters

Issues tackling, parent child relationships, human ai relationships, media relationships

What if for 20 years, complete ban on all human reproduction, 2040 we’re deciding who will be the next parents, what would a completely adult society look like, massive chunk of adult society are turning back to childish ways in good and in bad ways.

It’s multi platform, planning to take beyond just film media, maybe a video game outlet or a book outlet or anything that contributes

More people bringing in vastly different talents

Open up to something that is gonna be a shared achievement

Culture impact, that can affect political changes

Never want to have political career but wish to see political changes

Issues of sex money and power

Theta healer, abundance guide

We are living in an abundant universe, beyond money, beyond addictive relationship with money

Living up to full potential, giving gifts to the world

Good grip of how you are showing up in the world

I still like having 1 on 1 clients, that’s the most in depth work that I get to do

Fascinated with group healing sessions

Realized, it always starts from healing

We are always digging into deeper and deeper issues of what’s behind

Deeper healing is always needed

Through group healing sessions I’m escalating

Tap into the power of collective consciousness so we don’t feel isolated with our problems

Whatever we call our pain, our suffering, our issues, very shared issues and problems and feelings

During the summer planning to put together retreats, that’s the mixture of deep 1 on 1 and deep group work

Pinnacle of my summer

Making profound shifts and changes in people’s lives

Anything that I teach is about the practice

Not just learning information, take it into your body and make it into a life time practice, changing from within showing up to yourself and in relationships differently

That has such a beautiful ripple effect, you get to see you’re not just for yourself, you have the resources and the access to give back to other people

technical background, theta healing course in London

Gorgeous goddess of theta healing in London, taught so much

https://www.annakitney.com/

Such a beautiful journey, to be able to see it from a lady

Unusual to see women in such powerful positions, she can instant heal people in front of you

The science behind it, it’s out of a lot of people’s price range to do biofeedback training

The crash course training of the visceral experience of how different brainwaves feel in side you, you get to control and dip into different states of consciousness, different brainwaves

They work as an orchestra

Beta alert
Alpha light, meditational state, relaxational
Theta deep meditational
Delta deep sleep
Gamma, high alertness state of bless and joy

all of those 5 different brainwaves, at all times we are operating on all states in different amounts,

just like an orchestra, some times someone takes a solo, doesn’t mean other 4 or 5 aren’t present

to utilize one is a skill that none of us are taught

religiously follow work of Joe Dispensa

https://drjoedispenza.com/

We all have the ability to go into these states, it’s just the practice that we’re lacking

A lot of conditioning, programming, before age 7, in a theta state, things are deeply ingrained, they start to operate us, your conscious ability to chose your response instead of an automatic reaction, that conscious ability is filtered for most people, by layering and layering

Theta healing, the practitioner maintains a brainwave state, the client doesn’t need to, so it’s not hypnosis

Traditional sessions the client doesn’t need to be in the state

Through quantum entanglement we are so interlinked, intimately interlinked

It can be misused, it can be manipulated, healers have a such a powerful position, have such a responsibility to take to guide them on a journey

I explain everything that I’m doing, I guide people through so that when the step up, they’re not dependent on the practitioner, they leave the session with the ability to practice on themselves.

Real scientific background that we’re catching up with.

If you’re more feminine inclined, then intuitively you’re getting the power, your’e getting the ability to connect with yourself.

Work on whatever is holding you back, clear those old programs and replace them with useful ones

Regarding super powers, super heros, villains, good guys and bad guys:

When you’re a bad guy, i would imagine that consciously you’d have to relinquish your judgement, when you’re not judging anymore you open yourself up to be the empty space to receive powers from way beyond yourself, you become this earthly channel of energies that are superceding your own personal self centered consciousness

Go beyond the self, which ever deity you chose you’re tapping into powers that are way beyond normal average human functioning, we need to be able to recognize that this judgement is the only thing that’s holding us back from becoming those deities

Looking within, going inwards and embodying those powers within us, those are our birthrights, those are facets of the consciouness that we are

Look at world through lens of feminine masculine energy, duality consciousness, polarity consciousness, shifting to paradigm of unity consciousness, using them in dynamic merge, embodying those messages within ourselves, standard disclaimer, do not equate to masculinity and femininity, not dependent on gender, orientation, preferences, sexual identity, cosmic forces, shiva the pure light of consciousness, that’s incapable of experiencing himself, that’s the masculine energy, and the pure experience of reality that is always moving, always dancing around this conscious energy, that’s shakti, that’s the feminine energy

When you’re becoming the space, when you’re becoming your own manifestation, directionality, omni directionality,

or use for relationship problems, feel into which energy is missing or lacking and you can substitute

that’s the cosmic part

I’m fascinated with mythology

scientific and mystical explanations of religion

I love sacred geometry

To communicate what i’m doing to people with no knowledge, the language of these two energies is very accessible

For very down to earth problems, were you in your masculine or your feminine, how are they showing up in your every day relate

balance

show up for partner in more heart centered more unity consciousness way

from the scientific point of view, we’re electromagnetic beings, so our body, our cells communicate with each other with electricity

heart and mind, electromagnetic field

whatever you learn from mythological, or geometrical, or the woo woo side of explanations of what the feminine and masculine cosmic energy are, they exist within your own body in a scientific, measurable, biological, biochemical way, they show up in your biofield

the electric force is the direct communication between your cells, the magnetic force is this curving energy field around you that’s swirling, that’s omindirectional, whenever you want to use it, whenever you want to tap into it, whenever youw atn tto have a direct access to something, electrical forces are triggered in your body

when you want to attract anything

when you feel how energy moves in your body, that’s another element

utilize those forces within you
that’s the scientific part

when we have the more left brain inclined explanation of whatever has been out in story form for 1000s of years and now were discovering that breathing exercises work in a specific way because they literally open op energetic channels within your body, your prana tube, your energy tube within the center of your body is intimately interlinked with your spinal column

whenever you learn how to mover energy through your muscles around your spinal column you’re tapping into your kundalini, prana life force energy

starting to communicate very old paradigms and give it a more scientific language

shifting from the paradigm from duality consciousness into unity consciousness

the feminine side use to be the mythological narrative, now we’re giving it a more left brain more masculine understanding

bioelectricy, chemistry, dna, gene expression

merging storytelling side with scientific side

Study the way we have put together AI, reflecting back to how our consciousness is creating us

AI, studies with chimpanzees, have amazing visual memory, whatever they are using their consciousness for is developed in different ways

Our memories, our ability to retain data and information was compromised in favor of language, or collaboration, social connections, social connections

AI bridging the gap of the more technical, more linear, more streamlined functions of consciousness such as memory, computing, data

The more creative functions, the more creative, emotional, they are something that AI is incapable of doing

If we learn how to code those things into AI, but what we’re learning from what machines learn by themselves, they have a specific skill set that’s way better than the human skill set

Instead of trying to craft AI that’s closer to the human experience, it’s more exciting to harness the asset of AI that we are incapable of reaching, maybe we can learn from AI

ending with silence

vipasana meditation

silencing self judgment,

listen beyond doubts and fears

whatever you meet is the infinitely powerful self of yours

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Crypto-Tantrism and Financial Continence with Lawrence Lanoff TPP229

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In this episode I’m joined by my revered crypto-tantric adept Lawrence Lanoff for an adventurous exploration of the intersections of crypto and tantra. He helps provide deep ancient and modern wisdom for surfing the big waves of changing times and maintaining a heart centered, and cool headed space of love, compassion, and fun.

We share insights on navigating the stormy crypto-currency markets and integrating new evolving trends of decentralized finance, stable coins, and other emerging crypto apps and tech.

I also share a great piece written by the musician Ben Lee on the Tantric Yoga of HODL:

https://steemit.com/cryptocurrency/@benleemusic/the-tantric-yoga-of-hodl

About Lawrence:

Lawrence is an award winning filmmaker, successful entrepreneur and early technology adopter who’s been investing in cryptocurrency since 2011.

He has directed and produced 11 feature films. Lawrence led a production team that won a Chicago Film Festival award and a United Nations Global 500 Award for writing and creating the documentary “We Can Make a Difference”.

Lawrence co-founded Lip Ink, generating upwards of $100mm in revenue and numerous product patents.

Lawrence is a best selling author, world renowned life coach, and was a featured expert in Neil Strauss’ New York Times Bestseller “The Truth”.

Please follow up with Lawrence here:
http://www.lawrencelanoff.com/

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Sexorcism the Tantric Opera 01 Post-Ceremony Interview TPP228

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In this episode I’m sharing the post-ceremony interview from Sexorcism the Tantric Opera Episode 01 “Erotic Ghostbusting”.  It’s a trip to re-listen 3 years later and compassionately judge myself for how I walked a narrow path to sustain integrity to my bold claims. Life has not been a beach since then, in some ways I’ve flourished, in some ways I’ve floundered, but I’ve made progress, and as any aspiring scientific explorer knows, the process of proving out theories can be painfully slow. All in all, every breakthrough big and small will always be sweeter the fewer and further between that they are.  The wisdom of the shakti energy of transformation can be fast, but it can also be slow. Trusting, keeping the faith, and holding on for dear life to the integrity of scientific methods and medical study ethics is the name of the long game…

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Sexorcism the Tantric Opera 01 Pre-Ceremony Interview TPP227

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In this episode I’m sharing the pre-ceremony interview from Sexorcism the Tantric Opera Episode 01 “Erotic Ghostbusting”. The episode included a beautiful and powerful selection of clips from the full interview and I’ve been holding on to the whole interview for a while with the intent to eventually publish. After re-listening I feel that I’ve held true to the values and principles spoken over 3 years ago now. While I’ve told my story many times, each context brings different energy, passion, purpose, and insight to the transpersonal and universal themes contained within. The moment in my personal evolution that this interview documents is, in a classical tantric sense, as timeless and permanent as an ancient stone, yet as fleeting and transitory as a rain drop over the ocean. I was blessed to be held and heard in this interview and I will return to this moment if I ever feel led astray from my core. It’s impossible to resist change of all kinds, but the spirit of resistance will always adapt to survive.

Earth Blessing Meditation with Vanessa Soulxo

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Sexorcism the Tantric Opera Episode 14 “Om My Goddess”


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This is a Tantric devotional/instructional love song that teaches the core methodology of honoring each other as God/Goddess and entering into sacred union to achieve a state of divine grace and experience ecstatic altered states of bliss. The lyrics and melody were channeled in a ritual goddess worship session. It felt as if it was dripping into my crown chakra vortex, as if shakti was secreting it like nectar.

I made a demo version of the track with all acoustic instruments, and my dear bro Nuno remixed this version as Ninesense.

Please sing and dance along with your lover:

Om my goddess
Om my god
Om my goddess
Om my god

Om my god/dess
You’re beautiful
I love you
I thank you

Patriarchy has denied
Shamed and brutalized
We must resacrilize
Body temples as divine

Sit on my lap
Legs around your back
Look into my eyes
Breathing synchronized

Cycle up the spine
The energy inside
Open the third eye
DMT will flood your mind

If you want to see the light
You must last all night
Pray between my thighs
Meditate while I’m inside

Sexorcism the Tantric Opera Episode 13 “The Lost Art of Yoni Massage”


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This video depicts my personal style of providing yoni puja, or yoni worship including sacred spot (g-spot) massage, featuring divine goddess Maya Rati

“Women are divinity, women are life, women are truly
jewels.”

-The Yoni Tantra

Tantric Parenting and Fierce Womanhood with Rhoda Shapiro TPP213

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In this episode I’m joined by my first tantra teacher Rhoda Shapiro for an exploration of her new book and her perspectives on tantric parenting and motherhood. We’ve been intending to do a podcast for quite a while and it quickly became clear that this was the perfect time and well worth the wait. It was a great honor to be able to transmit her wealth of knowledge and high vibe energy through the podcast.

It was a blessing to get a behind-the-book perspective on her evolution as a writer, leader of women’s circles, mother, actress, and much more. I truly believe her book will connect with a wide audience and do wonders to raise the tantric vibration world-wide.

It was very timely for her to be on the show to provide insight and advice for conscious tantric parenting and motherhood. The questions she answered came straight from a new mom listener who will be adapting and applying the empowering information immediately.

Time flew and we agreed we’ll have to schedule more podcast adventures soon to provide a broader overview on her personal development leading up to her book, explore tantric birthing, and much more!

For a more in depth perspective on my appreciation for her role in my tantric path, please listen to my podcast where I share an essay I wrote in her praise:

Words of Praise for my First Tantra Initiatrix Rhoda Shapiro TPP154
https://tantrapunk.com/words-of-praise-for-my-first-tantra-initiatrix-rhoda-jordan-tpp154/

About Rhoda:

Rhoda Shapiro has worked for a decade as a tantric educator, training women to step into their power by way of meditation, movement, dance, expression, and yoga. She has facilitated women’s circles and taught workshops throughout Los Angeles and in the San Francisco Bay Area. Rhoda’s YouTube channel, which has amassed thousands of subscribers, features yogic practices to empower both men and women. Rhoda is also the Founder/Editor-in-Chief of The Milpitas Beat, a Silicon Valley-based newspaper. She lives in the Bay Area with her husband, Eric, and their two sons. She is the author of Fierce Woman: Wake up your Badass Self, which was just released by Llewellyn Publications.

Book Links:
https://www.amazon.com/Fierce-Woman-Wake-Your-Badass/dp/0738760927

https://www.llewellyn.com/product.php?ean=9780738760926#utm_source=homepage&utm_medium=banner&utm_campaign=fiercewoman0819&llewbid=1111&llewzid=342

Sex, Drugs & Mostly Yoga with Kara Leah Grant TPP211

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In this episode I’m joined by a brave and courageous tantrika who shares a love for psychedelic spirituality and has been on a path of evolution set in motion by powerful transcendent drug experiences.

She shares her intense story of spiritual growing pains, navigating love and relationships, tantric initiation, and ultimately owning her power to teach and transmit the practices of tantra.

We talk about the differences between Yoga and yoga, the role of asanas and tantric practices in the path of self-realization and liberation, neo-tantra vs. classical tantra,  the role of psychedelics in aging and maturing spiritual practice, the interplay between the chakra system, the nervous system, and the endocrine system, the intersections of biomedical science and tantric art and science, and much more!

About Kara-Leah:

Born and raised in New Zealand, Kara-Leah is an internationally-renowned retreat leader, teacher and author. She has impacted millions of people over the last decade through her articles, books, videos and teaching. Passionate about liberation in this lifetime, Kara-Leah practices and teaches an every day path of awakening – the path of the Awakened Heart Warrior. This path is grounded in Tantra and focuses on dissolving layers of the conditioned mind into deeper and deeper heart-felt presence. Kara-Leah’s work, through her teaching, writing and retreats, focuses on using the process of compassionate inquiry to reveal conditioned mind, and so help people to drop down into being-ness and presence. She is the author of two previous books, Forty Days of Yoga and The No-More-Excuses Guide to Yoga. She can often be found dancing in her living room for no reason at all.

Website: http://karaleah.com/
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/karaleahgrant/
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/karaleahgrant/
Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCRVrL82Cv0H0tQzFrhuH2RA?

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Com and our journey together will begin hello David Lovitz welcome to Township on podcast episode number 211 I am here with Carly Grant and she is a touch of teacher and author and we’ve been connecting by social media and my interest is piqued with the title of her book sex drugs and most of the yoga field notes from a Kundalini Awakening has a very similar structure and and serve residents with the title of my forthcoming book and looking at so far the outline of the book I haven’t had time to fully enjoy it but to be able to get a sense of what How Deep The the rabbit hole goes it’s really exciting and I can’t wait to hear more about it in this will just kind of be the the primer and the incentive to go deeper in the future with her works better love to have you tell us kind of all about your personal background and then we can get into the evolution of this this writing that you’re doing and what you have offering what you working on the future gifts from my ex and a background I’m in my early forties now and then finally experienced in my life and for the Whistler ski Town it was an impact time of dance holidays and club and working and Hospitality sucking out the Mountain hiking in the mountains around America convergence are included to the practices and tell me if it’s a nightclub that may just like all of my possessions if I didn’t have enough self a wenis or knowledge to work with what was coming up so those things also. and I was at 4 time music please to Ocean blonde with my partner engaged in my fiance I just took me to the edge we took on the Friday night not a whole lot you know what your headaches to see on Friday night and then I may be going to a yoga class on acid which is doing mines post three times and is it a super teacher kind of looking at me funny and that just began this is skating unfolding shift in my perception of reality that long story short went from Bliss Wellness instant downloads of everything to eventually starting to go into deep trunks where I was speaking a foreign language my fiance he we can do it like I lost touch with reality and waking up in the psych ward guy what the fuk just happened to me inside that it was like trying to psychosis and then life post psychosis where I’m coming from that is very interesting and exciting and I’ve certainly had wow definitely profound otherworldly experiences where I was completely disconnected with consensus reality and ended up in some very bizarre situations in can commiserate on that as well but it sounds like also somewhat glorious do you want to talk about what insights that were happening and how long was it last thing in and just yeah can you can you even almost in a way channel the that you were at that time to to give us some some fun insights about the other side yeah absolutely on the fishing on his side so that happened was right on the new moon that experience and it was a Sunday morning that it began on Friday and sedated the Friday night and saw it was about five day experience to those who are astrological things happening in the sky and then a month later to my fiance ended up breaking up with me right side face before and that triggered a stick and experience of psychosis so I had two experiences and what was you gave me an opportunity to see how the stick and experience is triggered by my own emotional defense mechanisms and the way that I couldn’t handle the grief and I ended up disassociating and because I’d already my psyche was already right John is already to reduce a multi-dimensional reality inside that stick in his time there was a list of the translate State Police of the crate is coming through the wasn’t the language Exeter so going back to the experience it was extraordinary how to put it into words we just kind of go back and feel it was it was as if I dropped into knowing you know it just old things worth knowing is one way to describe at like anything that I needed to know I was at my fingertips I could just reach out and it was like I knew every witch every song every book dissolve at one point in the journey but it was also via quite strongly and other points and because the experience was being held by the the challenging relationship I was in a lot of ciaran Tiara coming up going to couldn’t communicate with my fiance cuz I was so worried or afraid of what he might think of what I was going through and he was looking at me like I was crazy and I can feel that so the whole experience was are the light with all of this fear of speaking truth and this way that I was kind of responding to his description of me as such so the where lots of different visions that came around the nature of reality and it was it was so the child that the world is different from what we told school and what we told and Society was being confirmed and just a little Winston’s to like it’s never about what we want and it’s always about what we need that I need for always be Mitch witch simplistic or like me what does it mean it’s not really a big deal everything just seems so important and so profound and so when I was trying to communicate this with my pain. He was just my voice doesn’t make any sense in like one thing I remember quite clearly as he was wearing glasses he needed glasses and I was trying to tell him that in the future we wouldn’t need to wear glasses that we were shifting into the what I was saying in the future and what was actually happening now and so I keep trying to take his glasses off him and tell him he didn’t need them of course he saw he needed them so it was like I had an ability to steal through time but it was very hard to ground that into recognize what was actually real for right now since I was really confused child and suddenly having all of these talents will gifts or abilities, and have no understanding or no way to put them in context or to ground them or two to use them it was incredibly confusing and since you’re fine and you’re very Blissful at the same time in like a deep sense of relaxation is well it was all happening at once interesting very time shake that distinction contrast between the Bliss and the terror and it’s a magician that I follow sometimes online and and he’s talking about really deep really edgy taboo kind of exploration spiritually and he says he’s a one-time very often you know the aha moment turns to oh shit and like I can I can get that sense xhilaration but also that the terror and so wild so cheap do you feel like you had any Transmissions from beings or entities or deities or anything of that nature any kind of like encounter type moments now there wasn’t any specific mbodied other beings that came true it was more like just the same to the wholeness of the Wonders and just knowing that would come through around like I knew that I had to return to New Zealand and I knew that I knew that was related to my mother and I related to my life Jenny what was required. The whole time. To really encourage my memory as much as I could with what I had to see it and then when I begin to do is to attempt to pass out to determine would like to see been truthful Vision or was that psychosis was at the the same scar I mean I was so laid him down with him scar is still so they will what was coming through so it was a real challenge for me to go right what was real and what was just the delusions that I was still laboring under and can I tease out the gold while sleeping the wrist and so it was more so in any language is a particular form of breathing like a hissing where I was speaking even as I was inhaling and exhaling and I had a beer and I was I remember quite clearly watching that passion and the other language that was coming through very much later like last year when I went and saw hitchhike on a hooptie section when she went through things was that I was missing a past life that I’ve had in the Egyptian mystery traditions in so that life was getting confused with me being here and now and now but if we not still. Join us we buy different lifetimes will bleed into the apparent here and now in a way that’s not useful because we haven’t eaten most of the ability to walk in those different Realms 2 walkthrough time whilst leaving things with a minute today yeah that’s very interesting actually was in a meditation group but I went to the one I think maybe just one time I went to this one particular group where they had this skill said that they would apply which was basically this really intentional really highly focused laser focused rotational I gazing where the train meditator would do the sort of left eye to left eye eye gazing with everybody who came to the meditation Circle and there were also practicing or tradition of meditating with your eyes open but they the masters of this path or the adepts of this path they would cultivate I can’t remember the exact methodology that they were following but it was replicable and it was it was very reliable that they could do this in and they would basically be able to once you lock into the eye gazing with them within a few may be a couple minutes of intense eye gazing you start they start to melt away and you start to see them change colors and phase through various genders and and and personalities and and and bodies and faces from there multiple lives and they’re basically scanning and seeing you so it’s almost like you’re you sure it’s almost like you just wear like a deck of cards you know or a deck of it and you just have whatever is in the current consensus reality on the surface of it but if you have one of these meditators going to shuffle your your lifetime Persona ask you no cards and then it’s a real powerful experience so I’m very much in a position to to validate your experience has it in for people who are I don’t know I don’t know how busy I’ve been such a Believer for so long now I just can’t even imagine people who would say that multiple lifetimes or reincarnation is is to woo woo or you out there just makes total sense to me and I’ve had enough I haven’t had what I think some people mainly love Ayahuasca people I know they will the ones who who are the sort of facilitators of Ceremonies some of them I just say a number of them who I know they kind of report this pattern of them if they do the medicine path you know rigorously honestly for however long it takes basically they will start to get through their get through the Karma’s of the current lifetime start going back to previous lives sequentially and then also I think can currently doing work for on behalf of the people that they’ve had car make and take them it’s with over multiple lifetimes so it’s kind of like a you just start polishing one layer after next you know going to this is so anyway that’s very just saw my thoughts to it to validate that experience and I could see how you know that I mean I would like to ask you if it was LSD that cause disorder abrupt jarring Rift and so having comparing your other mainly psychedelic experiences and Explorations do you feel like how do you personally feel in your heart about LSD is that your friend is it your enemy is it your lover is your Trickster yeah I know it was my initial instincts is it was the only state that hit that had triggered at but it’s just so I can go by myself feeling like that differently united life with my partner and I wasn’t going I didn’t think again really into the spice when juicing translate state tax return connect Museum to wake light on after the second episode I didn’t say I would just stop drinking so I can place on anti-psychotic medication so she created Everything Gold fangs because I was really we are you doing anything that might trigger I was seeing a man and he hit some ice and he was going to type it and at that stage in relationship I was still quite greater than my share of triggering my psychosis again triggering psychosis again so I chose to take some don’t much like really small dice it enabled me to really witness and hold the intense emotions that would trigger it and that relationship was a very intense challenging relationship gave me the ability to witness and feel emotion and why I hadn’t even had prior and not react to it was I watching the rolling waves coming and fully feeling of adjusting out in it and so that’s when I started to realize I yeah I see that the usefulness of at least a. At this point in time when it’s not something that I just feel like I need to do any more percent but I have used it again and it has thing fascinating to see what unfolds in the nature of the psyche and your reality I’m sorry I just feel like it’s definitely my friends and I’m curious about it but it’s it’s not one of my allies necessarily oh thank you for sharing that yeah I kind of feel like when I was more of Gonzo psychonaut in early stages in my life and I will go pretty far out with that luckily unlike some of my friends who who had the the misadventure The Misfortune to over like literally not to point of causing any physical damage but overdosing on LSD can happen easier than people anticipate and it can have dire long-term consequences and I’m glad that you obviously reconciled and in and had the other skill sets going to worry didn’t just cause long-term issues but I know people certainly and I think we all probably know some people that they weren’t intending to but it’s easy to overdo it and so yeah I’m glad that are you able to to get to where you’re at but I would save myself to I just I learned a lot from it but but as a I guess I’m way more interested in the time-tested shamanic guided and I would say like I I I don’t feel I like to ask you if you feel like this comparing to the other medicines really I think it’s more of a it’s like the nuclear option you know of and it has a lot of risks associated with it I was saying beautiful things can happen but I just don’t feel like there is a a a spirit guide that’s assigned to that medicine from the greater sort of bureaucracy of Spirit guides and I’ve obviously mother Ayahuasca the sort of Grandfather peyote and grandfather which Yuma and then maybe you know giggly Elvish alien creatures for the mushrooms or whatever but still whatever it is there’s some sub something usually there according to my experience is another people were at work but it just feels like with acid there’s just not there’s not a a sheriff of that realm somehow there’s not right it’s just kind of like you’re on your own I don’t know if that’s it maybe you meet God or you get to see the guide her you’ll meet the deities that you studied if you’re very religious but but you could also get jumped by demons and not get your mind back for like this lifetime so my students it’s worth noting went to when I did at the at least I think I had a quarter for 10 it wasn’t even strong stop imported tonight interesting take at it feels like the whole structure of it and it doesn’t feel like there’s any particular guy with it where is cannabis and mushrooms and it was very much feels like I am communing with a being the plant you know I feel that being with me with the communication begins with the intent and withholding the material which is very different psychedelic Jenny it’s the container and the context and the intention and integration the goal of these things that we wreck around it a crucial and we are so many people that have just taken it with what do none of that so that way they do start to encounter these more terrifying aspects of the psyche of the archetypes of the underworld and what if they don’t have a framing or ways to work with it inside that’s when things can get really not like exploring Consciousness even a ground of a triangle that is safe for a psychic how to manage Instagram those are very good points and I actually it makes me think that we have a lot of a lot of policy and a lot of I think good wisdom that says that you should probably not be drinking alcohol or taking hard drugs or psychedelic set at early stages in life before your brain starts to fully mature and what not but this gives me a sort of food for thought that something I’ve never considered that there be like an age range were there be an upper limit bracket is well aware it’s like okay you have to wait till your message to start doing it but then at this age later you better stop doing it cuz it will be more trouble the FBI could do more harm than good I feel like if there’s one substance that for me it’s kind of like yeah have your fun with acid when you’re when you’re invincible and you’re in your you know late teens or early twenties and what not and taper it off over it’s over time because it can be you can be destructive I think more than the necessary and safe I think safer and and as we’re agreeing both have any more guided more support experiences that have been nurtured for thousands of years with you know even if we’re not in the Amazon or in the the traditional ceremony I still feel like the relationships that previous human beings have built have created a sort of like a landing pad pad for those those helper spirits on Earth and who knows with where we’re at with acid maybe maybe that will eventually happen but but it’ll be up to the youngins is there any way not to put it that down hopefully if anybody’s listening this and they are there really strong Advocates of a regular ongoing serious LSD used and then by all means come and represent that that side of things but with all that said I’m curious now can you tell us about how how did the Tantra proper come about into your journey yoga was going to be cheap out of my recovery let me know when the doctors to speak to a concert with some kind of spiritual experience and then I needed to really deep in my yoga practice I did that and ended up teaching started teaching in 2006 when I was asked to teach inside I didn’t get no matter what because I felt that Judy an obligation to my students and I started reading into studying the traditions of John cheever Ray that I really felt like all that’s woman I can learn from because the way that she taught there is something spontaneously in my practice around that time I went to LA in 2010 to do my teacher training was Sheba and she had Christopher Tompkins who was a tantric practitioner in Scola come on that training and Cheech the Tantra philosophy and practice portion of it and that was when I was introduced to Tantra and it just felt like coming home and Chris he gave us this particular practice which is just a daily a very simplified version of a daily practice that he found and he has been collecting from Kashmir primarily like literally hundreds and thousands of tired so he told us his practice and then he also initiated us and at the time I didn’t realize the importance of that I didn’t you know it was just to make it just a site this thing it wasn’t really a big deal so I came home and just keep doing that practice sporadically for about five years still not really going into 6th until I didn’t want people to think that’s what I was doing so I just quietly and I decided I wanted to do a thousand a practice practice to become a master serious as I want to master and ask legal commitment to show up every single day and then I dropped the ball for various reasons. I made it to 617 days and then drop the bull and I’m now on my 15000 days in a row and today is his it’s just revolutionize my experience of yoga my understanding of it of Tantra and it’s initiated such a date process of literally burning through some scars in, like I feel and about a year ago they internal guidance is like a Caillou really stinks this down time for you to step forward and teach it which not quite scary actually because it’s a whole different way to teach it’s a whole different thing that I’m teaching and then I’m transmitting and because I hadn’t had any contact with Chris and I don’t have it at 8 to hear and use a lymphocyte a big part of me was like can I do that if I can get my hands on and studying and living it I guess but I’m not sneaking with a lineage at this point in time but it’s time you need to skip forward again this side over the last year my experience has been enormously and I will and I have been reading every book I can get my hand on on edits it’s been an extraordinary experience to to Really grasp what it was where it came from how is lost as such and what it means to us and a modern lives now how can we practice the coordinates of the tundra Traditions arrives sorry it’s on you being the last stand up and say I know this stuff and I’m teaching the stuff that I’m bringing it through that’s what I’ve been doing to the last how to use well yeah this is very interesting I find it at it’s is I guess it shouldn’t be a surprise but it is it is a surprise I mean I guess the only way I can kind of reconciled is that the Wilderness is a beautiful documentary called yoga woman and it goes into just how much effort women had to exert resisting patriarchy in order to establish schools led by women to teach yoga around the world like it wasn’t it wasn’t it was a man’s a very patriarchal very hyper masculine secret control thing for a long time and then I don’t know why you wouldn’t expect that you would most people not like in the west they think o yoga that’s that that’s that thing that chicks do you know where something is like actually know I was a super you know control tightly-controlled Cult of male priests that were doing this so that they could you know experience forms of advanced practice that required bodies they were basically able to endure these extreme austerities and his extreme really religious Pursuits but it wasn’t necessarily that was very it’s in the very closed off and I I wasn’t too aware of that history somewhat somewhat sensitive to it knowing a bit about tantric history but just that film yoga woman puts a lot of perspective or you’re like while we take a lot for granted about how westernized things have got but I bring that make that point about that film because it’s it’s it what seems to have happened and I love to have your perspective on this but it seems like this false dichotomy between Tantra and yoga or tantric yoga or yoga or however however people want to mix it up it’s basically that the the more fully integrated Township practices for one within Tantra you have a lot of Shadow work a lot of left hand path a lot of black magic and so when I miss my understanding is a basically Christians and Muslims Came In Waves over the course of centuries and in the process of wanting to colonize and take over and exploit the people in the land of course they’re also having this moral Crusade against the darker forms of Tantra and then now in the modern world of India is the more sanitized versions of yoga are all that really remain above ground and then this country scriptures in the country practice is most of the darker practices have been have been at least band and there’s anti black magic legislation that I’ve read about and a lot of the that the Tantra Mantra practitioners are just selling black magic Services as a sort of snake oil saying in the Glorious more profound shaktism and goddess worship and what we would consider to be the more benevolent and benign path of Tantra that we I think in the west kind of whitewash the darker side of it but it’s it’s like it’s like it’s the whole thing was made Taboo in the whole thing kind of got tainted I suppose in in Worcester wrist and the Glorious aspects of it were sort of sanitized and so like I would just keep saying things like the modern yoga that we know on the in the west is basically the the kids version of Tantra because you’re not caught the whole set of teachings that go along with all the chakras in your not taught taught about the sexual aspect of Awakening Kundalini and the end of the ritual worship of the Goddess that like it’s funny because you say I mean I’m just looking at this in a macro sense of the telephone game at the store should a happens with coaches over time and what we end up with in the modern world in the west and it’s like the the yoga that that I have experienced in yoga studios in classes and with the yogis that are really a bad that I’ve met like again as you mentioned you could go almost decades in yoga and never even hear the word Tantra once and you could also and then even more disturbing to me when I did find honcho is that you could go years into Tantra and never hear the word goddess or Shakti so it’s like now I’m very curious and I know this was kind of a soapbox a little bit for me but I’m also just kind of it’s always interesting to me that moment where are Yogi discovers Tantra and then realizes wait a minute what what why was this why was this in the track at the at the at the movie store it’s like behind the curtain that you’re not allowed to go into and then you discover your like wow I’ve been I’ve been missing out or I’ve been I’ve been denied access somehow so I’m curious just if you could talk about with your mind you reconcile these two words and and in your studies what you feel like is the now that you’re teaching how it how do you tell people ask you what’s the difference between yoga and Tantra I mean the first thing I always wanted for defined as what do they mean by yoga do they actually mean Asuna what do they mean by liberacion this is Chris thing I always wanted to clarify mean someone uses the trip between yoga which is half ways to self-realization alliteration and the tools of yoga which included Asana pranayama chanting meditation but deliberation and if it’s basically a phone or text or identified with doing the perfect posture the very thing that’s me to deliver I do is actually taking you deeper and delusion and illusion Chandra is a methodology or an approach to yoga so if y’all get is self-realization Tantra is an approach to self realization and it’s the fast way it’s like the way that cuts through the bullshit need the thing that is most effective most powerful most recent and my I only do it now for physical reasons it’s like there’s no need for any any other capacity Liberation in so yeah can someone asking me about what’s the difference between a month is not a difference between tantrum you’re the one that it’s an approach to yoga and then I also want to clarify that means you’re actually interested or are you interested in joining us because but it’s not Liberation so don’t confuse I really appreciate that you mention how this is the the way to cut through the bullshit and also that it’s the antidote to living in the Kali Yuga because that’s something that I read in very scholarly works on classical Tantra and the you are very rarely hear people talk about that in Neo Tantra workshops that this is a very tactical and strategic set of really designer tools that that are specifically designed in the way that I liked reading about it was this point being made exactly to your point it is for this time that were in which is extra delusional and extra demonic and just as bad as it can possibly be and maybe it’s going to get worse before it gets better so you better have these very effective tools and basically it’s almost it’s it’s the way that I’ve read about it is that I mean to be a little bit rude even I would say that in the the happier go lucky or Golden Ages in the other wheels of the cycles of time they could be lazy and get away with it because they didn’t have as much Flack and they didn’t have as much resistance and they didn’t have to fight back as much so but from those time more more abundant Divinity on Earth and more benevolence in the cycles of time and then they had the time and they had the luxury to cultivate the tools get the tool kit that they were creating for us to use in this time to fight back in to defend ourselves spiritually so it’s kind of like if we can find this stuff on Discover it and work it and put it to use then we can get through this like karmic swamp that were in now and then if we can survive it as a species that we will have as according to the prophecies according to the this this way of thinking is cosmology then you know our progeny will really inherit a more beautiful time of your more beautiful more Golden Era and but it’s cement what we’re just in the the bottle next year we’re in the in this this Dark Age and so it’s just that he has an interesting concept that all this is a gift that we need to unpack you know it’s basically like a it’s like a time capsule or not Time Capsule but it’s basically like a it was as if they they buried these these these caches for us in the scriptures for us to discover and Unearthed and then apply them almost like we’re you know where Navy SEALS or special forces or something of that nature is kind of way I see it so I appreciate that you that you said that for us cuz I think a lot of people they don’t want to acknowledge they don’t that’s too it’s too much Shadow work for them or they don’t want to I don’t want to kill the five or killed be a buzzkill talking about that that part of it or are you using yogurt to liberate yourself right United Liberation is not about making life better it’s about Liberation to about truth about realization and what I’ve noticed is I need a cheap knowledge he’s for working directly with Consciousness so as one’s a wenis and ability to sense the subtle becomes more more refined prices began working with Consciousness for the someone who’s coming into practice who is living there and then in order to become aware of what is happening in Chinle for themselves I guess it’s just an assignment of being able to be a weird one securing on the inside me and I can start to do the most subtle practices near me because of the point that we apply the practice itself is not the thing the print just simply create the conditions needed for the process of dissolving and unwinding to begin to Heaven prices of dissolving unwinding samskaras in comas and that will happen when we learn how to get out of the way and hold the space which is the whole point of the practice the same as the process that creates the conditions for the process of Liberation to be put into action if you will and then we just have to keep showing up and surrendering rating go and letting it happen and there’s something else that is it in the contract that I just come across recently that like because these practices were secret they weren’t in the cheeks the written down but the chicks are only a loser and describe some of the practices they don’t describe the real secret the real case that was just like you said that they would come a time when it was necessary for these practices to no longer be a secret and actually to be spread far and wine and I feel like we need those who actually care about Liberation most secure about waking up they need to know what’s going on for the my need to know what tools to use I need to know I had a navigate there in the world have never got Consciousness and they need to understand what happens psychologically when people begin to dissolve the SAS guys and comments from previous in this lifetime of course as well and that knowledge I think is it just not out there very much at all okay now I think for anyone listening who hasn’t read it acquires many books or baby hasn’t been down this path so far I could imagine that you’re wondering that you would love to hear now I would love to hear can you go into detail about you know if it’s not too much of a secret now that we’re talking about kind of open sourcing this technology and in the modern world so it’s what is your what is this daily practice look like that you’re doing and then you could go to go from there and say describe I would love to hear in your words what is the outstanding difference in the the the tantric practices that that for Liberation that you are teaching that you have learned in your practicing now cuz it’s 8 for me it’s so interesting every time I try to explain what this is I have to start almost from scratch it’s just like such a naturally kind of elusive infinite con concept and so are every person who brings it brings their definition to me I feel like I’m that that blanks later that that empty cup you know so I don’t so I’m not projecting my headline ocean. It is very obvious just reeling to hear how other people articulate this bass you know a very personalized thanks so please but I’ll meet you before we doing this practice at that rate and so the practices is to warm up links with a blockages are for the brace retention and then it moves into a clearing and a diagnostic running a diagnostic in the clearing on the system using State exams at the chakras and placing them placing the Munsters The Sounds in that area is another way inside its checking in to see what’s clear once blocked what’s going on what’s Happening stage three is the disorder of the dates of the practice and this involves mujras and involves Chun Chang and involves visualization and involves invoking the chassis Shakti and Shiva and uniting them in the hospice and that’s the third stage what I’ve noticed is it’s it’s not super intense car has like three things. I’m out of the system out of the field when that is happening which is simply sitting back and watching what unfolds now that you’ve laid the foundation and done all the other stuff so watching the movement of Shakti Kundalini Prana watching at move around your body watching what the bridge does watching the thoughts of flight paths watching the feelings that come out and staying the witness or consciousness of that important really win the dissolving and the release saying in the unfolding that’s when Visions come through strong emotions in Cecil line healing deep trauma order that stuff will unfold and that last part of the practice so it’s so powerful that mean to keep Knology in the more you do it the more it will be in trigger the prices which is the road to innovation it’s beautiful and it brings me back to my first Tantra classes with Rhoda Jordan who is my initiatrix into Kundalini Shakti energy and rotating the spine and using the Moochers and mantras and movements that were dance movements and various expressions and also the guided visualization so I feel like you could come in off the street and have no esoteric leanings be a total skeptic be a total materialist rationalist agnostic atheist whatever and you could have this very palpable introductory-level I call it like a chakra tune-up a chakra tune-up you know like you were getting your Prana oil changed in your getting your. You know your chakra spark plugs kind of reline and what episode people have this and it is it can I think the the Austin is can be like a good warm-up or a good cool down but in the center or the heart of of a tantra yoga experience it is this massaging and moving of the Kundalini Shakti energy and using the sound to activate and facilitate like a a very unrestrained and very unrestricted flow of a tenor he’s so everything seems like it’s some working in concert in harmony to allow that energy to flow with his little obstruction is necessary it goes to the places where it’s needed most and isn’t just being wasted trying to blast through your stiff neck or something like that you know so I’m feeling just to get for people to get a visual of what were what were you talking about what this what all this is like if you had to if you had to explain it to explain this stuff to somebody who is it super scientific rationale extended believe in any of the magical or mystical or Cosmic elements how would you describe the you note to a doctor what what it is that you’re doing or if you had to do you were doing a corporate retreat in there like we need to know what this is going to entail on like a biomedical level could you translate it to those terms could I change my nothing that right b i g u is a lot to do with that option within the sound is vibrational I mean I really just want people to try it to do it but if I needed so I wouldn’t be able to but it also takes medical terms that I do feel like that’s possible now when it probably wasn’t possible 20 30 40 years ago with the way that science is advancing and quantum physics in particular in their understanding of Neuroscience in the wedding Neuroscience is beginning to understand the brain in different ways and met mystical experience and understand that how to change your mind by Michael Pollan and he’s got some great Bryant Brian science in there that looks like it’s just you know the way that people are frightened the world normally feel like science is stronger and stronger and stronger people just going to get on that label is which is going to really help with the spread of these practices when people start to realize how powerful they are as Technologies for working with Consciousness with working with the Brian working with the nervous system all of us. Will you articular that very well yeah thank you I don’t get it I think it is important cuz it said put some point I’m 100% in agreement with you and the way I would wear that to it is to say that it hits the the woo-woo and esoteric and far out practices of acupuncture and acupressure they’ve been completely accepted into the fold of Western medicine now it will at least to the extent that you can you can put that on your you know on your standard American list of therapeutic things that are basically covered with your help with your health insurance is not considered too far out as alternative medicine and so you know if we can take those Meridian is in those energy lines in if there is also the data backing it up because if there’s enough research done in besides that using the scientific method and they can say well even if even if the actual mechanics of it the quantum mechanics are still somewhat elusive at least we know that there are results in those results are measurable and so it can be validated and and recognized and acknowledged and so I think that the tantric healing particula. The trauma healing modalities will eventually get to that point that acupuncture acupressure is and there will be charts of the chakras in next to the anatomy charts in in the doctors every doctor’s office will just have the sound and I think the only thing that I would add to what you said about just trying to bridge that gap for people who may be total Skeptics is that I was fascinated when it was brought to my attention that the the major are crows and there’s obviously debates about exactly how many there are some people say there’s multiple third eye permutation chakras is obviously just as is many different maps of the chakras is there are lineage is a tantra almost but we’ve kind of mostly agreed upon their being seven major ones but basically it’s it’s it’s been noted in end hypothesize that there actually is situated literally on top of or within or basically at least in terms of the the Distribution on the body there pretty much right in alignment with the endocrine system glands and so the pineal gland that all of that basically going going up and down the spine of the endocrine system and that makes a lot of sense because if in the in the chakra system teaching country you’re talking about these essential personality and information processing organs that the truck was our will that’s exactly what these glands are doing or 10th processing intense amounts of information and also really defining and in programming our experience of reality on a chemical level so that’s that’s definitely very interesting to think about that enter play and so this was a really really awesome expiration and just kind of bringing it accident the fundamentals of Tantra but also helping to to put into context the need for a think you’ve given one of the best polemics so far that I have heard on this podcast about why to get deep into the deep the practices and and really the case for taking yoga to that taking the Austin is to the next level of the tantric practices and so appreciate that and I want to say yes so do you want to just spend sometime kind of giving us if you like to share a sort of closing meditation walk us through some of what you would have to offer an in it in a a training you know take your good however many of you several minutes or more you like to give a sort of either a signature meditation or something just completely spontaneous that would be great but and also either before or after give us your final words in your website links and where people can go to get the book and also anything else you want to say about the book anything else UTI you care to say I’ll let you just take over from here yes it’s Six Flags in my siaga it’s a meanwhile of my recovery from that experience Awakening / psychosis and and understanding of what a treaty was so that’s available on Amazon only online book stores you can get on my cell as well and I have a I have a retreat coming up in Mexico September 29th to October 4th at so I can Hotwire it activation plaid Entre for the modern world I will really be able to join this practice we’re going to take him to practice and really looking at how do we embody unconditional love right that’s the awakened heart Unconditional Love and Truth which is the warrior standing in truth and bringing that 4th and 2 + communities because my senses this world is that the more of us that are able to embody unconditional love in penis after the shift will be on the planet and nothing feels more important than that and grounding it and Tantra practice in an understanding of time should I visit a solid foundation the people to take that understanding and stick back into the communities of one of the limitations to do wish I could. Pointed a wenis one that just came through spontaneously once upon a time that I’ve been using for number B is now so whenever you want to have you sitting and standing with driving how if you’re listening to this podcast just bring your awareness to your breathing just starting to notice what it feels like to breathe really noticing the feel of the breath and your nostrils you might feel it down the back of your throat maybe you feel it under your collarbone so and your rib cage possibly all the way down into your pelvis even your tailbone just noticing nursing what it feels like to braid what does it feel like in your body when you breathe you keeping your wenis on your breath also become aware of your whole body whole body awareness in the crown of your head all the way down to the soles of your faith goodnight is saying what the brakes feels like in your body but all such feeling your whole body front of the body back of the body right side of the body left side of the body and just noticing you noticing any Sensations any pain need a duplex for Delaware to bring the way of your whole body Men start to become aware of the ground underneath the Earth maybe getting a sense of sending root down into the ground just feeling what it’s like to sit on the ground on the Earth getting a sense of the soils underneath you maybe having a sense of the Bedrock with a water table deep it down still aware of your breath we are of your whole body Rosa down three play aware of the earth ground feeling yourself reaching down into as deep as you can go and then retaining awareness of breath awareness of body weenus of ground expensive opening up towards the sky beginning to expand your wenis outwit and upwards all the way to all the way to the Earth’s atmosphere beyondmenu all the way to the Moon Beyond maybe all the way to the planets to Sun and even issue expand outward upward to the sky to the infinite Universe still aware of the ground still aware of your whole body and still aware of your breath holding all of them New Orleans Saints All Saint Grant body sky now you sound tourist center of it all even as you remain aware of it all sending out so much love to you all thank you so much being for this opportunity to stake into share thank you so much yes I was beautiful and always appreciate meeting new folks doing this great work and learning new ways of articulating this mysterious technology but this was one of the best one of the best times I’ve had learning and getting acquainted and appreciate it so much and hopefully we will be in touch and you always feel welcome to come back anytime you have things you like to share updates and yeah looking forward to turn off Liam’s sharing and in supporting each other’s efforts I’m going awesome again for you feel free anytime to reach out in the future and I wish you the best of luck in all of your endeavors and will talk to you hopefully soon thank you so much I took care that is a r a l e a h. Com listening to the podcast please go to www.crunch.com and cook on the Donate button to help support the show in addition to sustaining and improving the podcast your donations will help establish permaculture goddess Temple every bite ecological employment for single mothers Please Subscribe and share your favorite episodes if you have questions or comments feel free to leave a voicemail at 818-275-1593 or email event at Township Park. Com Thomas Day

Rock Your Cock with Evolved Masculine Coach and Tantric Punk Larry Fredrick TPP207

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Larry Fredrick picIn this episode I’m joined by Larry Fredrick a highly experienced and accomplished evolved masculine coach. He shares the intimate details of his journey of personal growth through the catharsis of the early punk rock movement, transcending a failing marriage, getting into self-help, pick-up artistry, and ultimately a diverse array of spiritual and sexual mastery programs.

He has a down-to-earth perspective on learning and teaching practical self-improvement skill sets for men. With over 10 years of advanced training and practice he’s developed the “Rock Your Cock” program for men to really step into their power from a place of heart-centered, mindful, and spiritual consciousness.

I was most intrigued by his stories of experiencing authentic traditional tantric initiation in the jungles of India and his explanation of how he’s been able to adapt the teachings and apply them in his own love and sex life, as well as transmit the teachings to his students.

It was a deep honor and pleasure to have this opportunity to speak with a fellow rocker who’s living the dream as a tantric punk, has worked directly with many of my heroes, and who embodies forms of tantric magic that you can’t learn from books alone.

About Larry:

Larry Fredrick is an award winning international educator. He’s also a sex coach;
licensed and certified in Erotic Blueprints, Sexological bodywork, Neurolinguistic
Programming, Hypnotherapy, and Somatic Sex Education.

Larry works with men who want to clearly find and express their desires so they can
feel empowered in finding passion, pleasure, and juicy hot sex. He has traveled the
globe, from the mountains of Peru to Tantric temples in the jungles of India, training
with some of the top names in the fields of self transformation and sexual education
including Jaiya Ma, David Deida, Michaela Boehm, Destin Gerek, Satyen Raja and Joseph
Kramer.

From having issues with erectile dysfunction, performance and social skills, to
becoming a multi-orgasmic man with the skills and techniques of a confident lover,
Larry helps men step into their full erotic power so they can have more confidence in
the bedroom and in their relationships.

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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin double dribble Evans welcome to Township Funk podcast episode number 2 0 7 buy a very Frederick who is a masculine empowerment coach and he has a lot of interesting and exciting offerings that we’re going to talk about we go back to having met through Destin Garrix Network and the weekends or weekend men’s Retreats that I’ve been apart of and he is taking that further and done the training and is now yeah Mexican apartment coaches work with Dustin Garrick he’s worked with Jaya and provides for blueprint training Psalm Isadora and others and that we have some interesting choices of Common Ground coming from a punk. Background and we’ll have lots to talk about regarding the relationship interplay between the punk at 6 and attitude and the Tantrum and so with that said Larry do you want to just give us kind of an overview of your personal Journey leading up to all of these exciting offerings at you right now well I mean my bias is long so I’m just going to cut to the meat I am on a masculine empowerment coach I have a program called Rock your cock which is on my website it’s exactly what the title says it’s to help me and be in there talking show up to women and masculine way and also be in their heart and be in their mind being there in their spirit so it’s connecting the lower chakras the higher chakras and it works through blocks and sexual techniques and on communication relationships so that’s the program that I’m offering the listeners they sign up on my website but I’ve also travel all over the world work with a whole bunch of teachers it’s been a long journey from a failed marriage sexless marriage to know I having an amazing hot juicy sex with an amazing woman I mean our house right now doing this podcast on so I think we should just get right to the question you might have been possible thank you that overview and I would say you have for me a lot of a lot of this work started with a path to Liberation through the punk rock movements I’d love to have to have you start there seems like an earlier chapter of your life when when you were mainly involved in that scene in that community and so I left it here just what that was like what that was like for you and how that’s kind of was a in a precursor to or foreshadowing a more spiritual path yes I would say that the punk movement was when I was part of the punk scene it was and I was not on the spiritual path I was graduated high school in 1982 and that was kind of the heart of the punk movement so when I would go out with my friends they would be to some of the Seas really small tiny little clubs and what I liked about the punk movement is that it was about redefining everything including what music you know like you didn’t even have to play an instrument to play an instrument and you also didn’t need what was an instrument instrument could be a power drill and instrument could be you know something that that you bang on and make noise you didn’t have to sing you didn’t have to look a certain way you could just go out there and express emotions so it was like in a really cathartic and sort of Rage driven and you know for a young man it was a way to kind of experience now on a more spiritual level two experience on a visceral level of emotions in a group of people yeah I hear you on that and that’s something I would like to ask you is as if you had since your contract negotiations and in Journeys in Adventures you I’m sure you have both experienced than just been coming across people who are core very much about inviting the shot the energy and Awakening Kundalini energy and a lot of sometimes erratic kind of krias and sometimes more graceful dance forms but I always like to make the comparison that the Kundalini energy is really well leather it up in the punk rock circle pit and sometimes even the mosh pit but there’s also like a activation going on that’s doing some stuff on purging and purification you have any thoughts on I’m not sure though I mean I know what I have learned over the years is a fellow I’ve done a lot of working in different states cramps and there’s definitely a trance that happens when you’re in a group of people listening to music whatever that music is an. The emotions that come out become magnified when they’re when it’s not just you feeling that emotion but a whole group of people feel emotions that are brought out in a punk rock club or different than in a tantric Puja but they’re still emotions and they’re still magnified by being in the group that is a great way to say and Selso and very inclusive way to say you had mention also that you do hypnosis so this might be a good time maybe a little out of the timeline to mention it here but we were talking about France dates and Altered States do you want to talk a bit about what he described for people who may be haven’t had an xtatic group emotional cathartic experience like what is that what how would you describe that in terms of your knowledge of how the brain works and how the nervous system works and and how Altered States were when you’re in a group of people doing the weather is a tantric Puja or a rock concert or even going to Vegas there’s a lot of things that are basically you go into a State of Trance when your mind is overloaded so if you’re overloaded by the sounds of slot machines going off at noises and sounds and smells your ear mind starts to get overloaded and then it becomes suggestible so we’re overloaded it when I live in Los Angeles I mean I’m overloaded as soon as I walk out of my house there’s there’s things that are overloading my mind which means that my mind is very susceptible to Suggestions by advertisers people that may not have my best interest so when you go into a trance State you were open and you could be open to positive suggestions or negative suggestions as a hypnotist I’m I’m trying to say I’m trying to see if you’re in that trance state with a hypnotist URI your ear assuming and I know that will not working with you I’m sitting in container with your safety mind and your best interest in mind so what I’m going to put his suggestions that are positive as opposed to suggestions that if you eat this hamburger from Carl’s jr. you’re going to get laid or whatever other suggestions people are putting in our head through our everyday hypnosis with that I don’t know if that makes sense yeah totally not exactly what I was supposed I’m getting out of here so I’m curious so from going from that earlier Punk type of initiation what what were some of the Catalyst I know you mentioned it a sexless marriage and so what was that process like of transforming your life pass into Seaking Tantra discovering it and then you can give us the sort of them chronology of the different works that you’ve been involved in 4 years old so I’ve had a lot of Life of different stories and episodes but I think one of us when I was in the midst of my marriage I was also sort of dissatisfied with my job and I went to I went to a therapist who was going to put me on medication and I said you know I’ll fuck that I don’t want to that’s not the route I want to go I want to take them medicine so I decided to look into hypnotherapy as a way of you know kind of working on myself like I figured that I could use positive thinking that use hypnotherapy to give direction to why was starting to feel kind of lost in a marriage and a job and it worked I mean a super powerful and I found that I was attracting when I was when I was starting out I was attracting a lot of men who either word at social anxiety or or problems relating to women a lot of guys that were in a computer Gamers and then they would just like really in their head and I found that they were drawn to me because I also I totally understand was a computer gamer I was addicted to World of Warcraft I was psychic Total Computer gamer I’m that was my way of escaping which is also a state of hypnosis so first I use it as a way of working on myself and then I just found that I naturally Drew clients for men who were going through the same thing I was in which is basically get out of your head and into your body and you know take all the negative stories all this all the self steam issues all the confidence issues in and a really men are powerful and in most of them we work hard and sometimes we forget that there’s so many negative stories like to impart positive confidence power and is just to show up those were some of the things that I was doing as a hypnotist and also letting them most of them were able to get over their shyness or their social anxiety and really feel much better about themselves and show up show up for women better now that you know that was just the beginning that was where I started I’ve got a lot farther since since I started out that is very interesting I’m very concerned about the new generation as well younger generation coming up through the video games in that level disconnection if you don’t mind before we move forward into more of the time and spirituality and sexuality episodes in chapters you know what would you say if you were if a person listening now is really hooked on gaming and not and not really taking care of their body and not taking care of their their relationships and I’m kind of getting sucked into that realm do you have any advice just off the top of your head that you would share or recommend that they contact you or I’d love to know about more resources for people in that situation too big essential secret for all of it and it’s not just kids on video games cuz I’m working out with about messing with about twenty-five men and it’s all they’re all it’s all the same as we’re in our heads we’re not in our body it takes like it it’s it’s like a gradual moving into our bodies and in feeling our bodies are so much numbness like I find the men that I’m working with right now I’m working with them and then they are like I’ll take a breath and they say what do you feel and if they will I feel relaxed bulshit you don’t feel relaxed you feel your body you feel the tension from being hunched over a computer over a car it’s like they’re not feeling their bodies so they’re not feeling their own their own bodies are not filled their emotions if shut it all down and they’re not showing up for the women in their lives thank you for doing that work and I would say myself I was I was very much a gamer growing up as a child but I guess luckily for me to games weren’t that controlling so I spent plenty of time by the time I matured sexually life my actual life became the video game that all of the BB King the real game that the video games were kind of like training for so I hope that that art of development can be kind of you know did you ever get that sense that there’s an appropriate role for four games of all kinds and then once life really starts going you should be out there and living it right but I mean I think everything is I’m not against games go and you know video games are awesome but I’m against retreating into your head into like a fantasy world so you’re not dealing with your own body your own emotions you’re not dealing with reality you’re not dealing with opportunities in front of you so you know there’s nothing wrong with video games is nothing wrong with whatever drugs or alcohol or whatever it is people use to get out of their bodies and into their you know whatever Escape people need but if you live there and you’re not you’re not connecting to the real world was obviously that’s not what I’m I want I want men to choose I want men to be a body grounded Power full sewing up in the real world and feeling their bodies feeling they’re motioning and feeling their sexuality because they’re missing out that you know that there’s a lot of men having sex or fucking but they’re not feeling like the full range of what’s possible in orgasm which even even what men consider orgasm I mean it took me a long time to reach to the point where I’m really like blown the lid off of what an orgasm is I I can I could lie in bed next to my partner and we haven’t even had sex and I’ll just be like convulsing in like shaking and in like complete pleasure that would could be nonstop until I finally so you know what I want to go to sleep so I didn’t even know what was possible an orgasm all right well yeah I get there I get your point I think so I think there could be a sweet spot of having your cake and eating it too guarding the video games and if you really develop yourself in in the physical and spiritual and sexual aspects then by all means enjoy the video games that I would take that to be some good advice and so now we’re getting into that more advanced sexual Spiritual Development so what happened next in your journey as far as your discovery of Tantra did you find out fire and go to a workshop or did some mystical Guru approach you and traveling trip or what was that that was very very much a guy into TV and video games and and I got involved in like the pickup seen you know there’s did the pickup artist scene and at which why don’t want to get into that but I was listening to a podcast and I found out about this workshop and it was a tantra Workshop didn’t you didn’t the guy named such Young Living Canada who is still I still involved with his great awesome teacher and it was a it was a 3-day workshop and involving Connection in communication between men and women and it was sort of a Puja but again none of these words and if you did I wouldn’t have known what it was what it meant I was totally not into anything that I considered spiritual chakras or any of that stuff I would not have gone which is it was called I think was called sex passion in Enlightenment something like that was a 3-day workshop and I went to that and it just blew my mind I mean making eye contact with different women and I’m all of the things that came up all of the emotions that came up all of the you know that the self-reflection that came up and reminder that there’s a story I told him another podcast but I might as well tell the story I was I was paired up with a woman and she looked me in the eyes it was like eye contact and all she said to me is I trust you this was just the lines that a woman was supposed to say to a man I trust you and I received that you know the woman sang to me I trust you and I I was on the ground like crying for I don’t I don’t even know how long are in a ball crying because I realized I was not a trustworthy Matt which is why my marriage is all fucked up I was not a man that a woman can trust and I sort of made it like I sort of question what what is it like to be a trustworthy man what is what is a trustworthy man that’s what a woman wants no more than a big cock they want a man’s dick trust I mean so it in terms of becoming a sexual Manner and I realized I had a lot of inner work to do and then I realized that what I was learning was Contra and then and then that set me on a whole other path which is actually why I was attracted to Dyess blueprints because she talks about different blueprints one of being energetic and I realize that I was an energetic and I didn’t even know what that was I didn’t even know that was a thing but now that I’ve coached for the blueprints it’s like I wasn’t energetic in my shadow which hole explain later but I was at I was an energetic was kind of didn’t know I was and therefore I lived in the shadow of the energetic well I just was a beautiful story and I think yeah but I’m glad that that offering existed and you were able to connect with it I do I didn’t get involved myself in the pickup scene and I I guess I kind of I feel like I avoided it as as a Pastime personally but I have met some people recently you know who was part of their the early attorney as well and so if you don’t mind talking about it I love to hear a little bit more but if you’d rather not that’s fine too but I’ll just put that out there for people who don’t some of the principles of it I think there is maybe it has a bad reputation as being manipulative and really selfish and kind of way to use kind of trickery and and tactics of Deceit and so that’s that’s like the negative impression I have it although I’ve been enlightened that there’s more to it and it’s actually a past 2 in development and evolution that’s that has a very respectable depends on who you train with or who your buddies are but do you want to talk about that is there anything Redemptive that people should know about that but I think there’s an idea is that we can change as men that we can learn skills we can learn skills like presents we can learn how to communicate better that these are skills that we need to learn that we’re not just some men are what are called Naturals but a lot of men are not and that there’s ways to teach it to the ways to learn it there’s ways to improve so the idea of men like I mean there’s a lot of ego and in terms of no I’m good I’m good I’m okay you know I’m I’m doing alright like the idea of the pickup is that actually wherever you’re at you could be better and pick up does use a lot of NLP which is neuro-linguistic programming that’s kind of a another reason I got interested in it and a hypnosis in a lot of the things that you know now that I that I teach it there was a lot of things that I learned from being in that scene especially the ideas at these are skills that could be learned in that they can be taught so we don’t have to be satisfied with where we’re at as men and that there are ways to break down and improve their very well said I appreciate that if somebody was had missed out on getting into the pickup seen earlier do you recommend that people go and read certain books or watch certain videos or find certain meetups is it still something that you would include in your programs for men now or was it something that you kind of see is like all well it was a means to an end or stepping stone I’m curious if you would still endorse that movement somehow we’ll see I don’t know what the movement is up to now I think there’s a lot of no sketchy kind of characters in there and a lot of like exploiting a lot of marketing and a lot of I think taking advantage of men who want to improve I mean I would recommend myself because hitch hook I’m taking what I learned from pick up from hypnosis and other things and spirituality and I’m not teaching not teaching men to go out to bars and pick up women but I’m teaching men to be the kind of man that wants to go to the bars they’ll be more attractive to women don’t I don’t teach lines or anything like that cuz I found they don’t work but works is doing the work on yourself so you show up as a more powerful attractive man and I think that what the pickup is exploiting is is they need which again I finding working with men is like we want the Magic Bullet and we want it fast and we want it like Surefire and we want it without doing the work like we want we want that they promised a lot and you know like the magic pick up line is going to make them horny and a lot of it’s bullshit really but if you get involved if it doesn’t wake you up and turns it over these are things that I can improve I I can improve my posture I can improve how I make eye contact with person and I can improve my listening skills I can improve how I show up and then these things help build confidence and then when confidence is building then you naturally become more attractive person and more attractive to women those again great points I’m glad that that were talking about that something I I guess kind of worried and hasn’t again been that personal to me but I feel you on that so so now where would you say you want to start bringing in the official trainings that you did the Special Operations that you’ve done with some of the sum of the key players in the modern Neo Tantra and movement sounds like you’ve been you know getting out there and so when did your formal or more formal training ministration start in Gaston go from there after I did that work with Sachi on the path of the Warrior Stage so I did a lot of work with him which included shamanic journeys to Mexico meeting doing doing meeting shamans and I can’t even like going to some of the the magical crazy stuff that happened in he he was he was into David data so I got involved with David data in one of his teachers Michaela boehm might I work with her and so these are different different forms of Tantra and none of them call themselves Tantra but then I got involved in like I met Psalm Isadora and she’s much more of a the more traditional like old school country from India or the cheap there’s a whole Neo Tantra movement which comes from Osho and a lot of the teachers teach this this form of Tantra that is basically from Osho when he came to America and I do know it’s like I can’t talk forever about talks so much about it but some really I really clicked with her because she she she brought in this like traditional chanting in Sanskrit and it was just beautiful rituals and I like the ritual of it I like the I like the kind of formality of the ritual so she told me about a temple that you did too in India and if it came to my mind and then she passed away so I never got a chance to go to this Temple but then I did with another teacher Don Cartwright took me to this Temple because it’s hidden you don’t know where it is and it’s like an old-school ancient country Temple Heating in the jungle and if you can give you make it there by got initiated basically it was like 2 weeks class of of learning how to chant incense sounds great and there’s is 108 goddess statues and you have to do a ritual to each one it’s it’s kind of like you’re just immersed in this ancient language there there’s flowers everywhere and smells and and it’s just kind of mind-blowing I was basically magic school it’s like I learn magic and but that sounds weird is it there there’s a hundred and a goddess statues in in like they’re all sexual and there’s that there’s a Temple there that’s like the Yoni Temple so it’s basically goddess worship and I have to learn these these these rituals and you just immersed in it and it is going into a trance basically your this thing is in the jar there’s no toilet paper there if you eat with your hands and it’s like a whole other world it’s like going back thousand years and and then at the end do you know I basically was initiated into the srivijaya lineage but what’s interesting about it is I did a ceremony with kaniche where I was basically the one of my wishes was to bring this woman I was seeing on this journey with me and I’m in our house right now it’s been 3 years and we were just kind of seeing each other but I wanted her to be part of this journey and then for Valentine’s Day after coming back from the temple I did this Pooja that I learned there in the temple that it’s like a secret ancient ceremony and I learned it And I memorized it and I practiced it and I prefer I did it to her on Valentine’s Day and she said that blew her mind like like like to have it wasn’t that it wasn’t the ritual of it but to have so much attention paid on her like all the details that you know you have to have and tastes all five senses I touch different parts of her body different pressure points and pleasure points and did chanting and took like 2 hours but it said she said that blew her mind you know like to have that kind of ritual performed on her and I could never do it again it’s like I could not remember all of that all of that stuff I learned I have to go back in my arms again but it was almost it did feel like I had received some kind of transmission and I like I was I’m talking about it I don’t really talk about this I’ve never actually really talked about this because there’s some feeling of I don’t know if people are going to believe me or am I showing off or what it what exactly am I saying and yet I’m also feeling like a vibration in my chest that I went through this experience was pretty incredible I mean hidden country temple in the jungles of India and initiating in the bringing that to my girlfriend yeah it is putting me in a trance as I talk about it well me too I’m having an adventure in my mind too and I love that you shared that and I feel blessed that you feel comfortable sharing those details with me and I’m sure there’s you know you can write a whole book just about that that cycle that you did there but you know I’m I’m flashing through all of the experiences I’ve had doing fujas and rituals and ceremonies and just everything that I’ve experienced in in the westernized Neo Tantra version where think there’s always a number of people who’ve had those more authentic traditional classical country experiences in India or in other parts of other parts of the world and bring that back and are able to bring that transmission and that energy carries forward for people who work for just you know in some meat up in somebody’s living room on in West play or something and actually it is it transmits but I love hearing the stories of the actual experience is cuz we really I don’t think we have many places in the US where where goddess worship and the ritualised procedural practice of worshiping and asking for blessings and protection from the deities I don’t see that happening a lot I send in the meet-up send in the township groups what not I think there is more of a focus on more secular personal development and just you know how to be a better relationships and this kind of undifferentiated one missense of bliss but I’m actually way more interested in this otherworldly transdimensional intelligent entities deities and beautiful Divine spirits that have personalities and very distinct archetypal Personalities in that that’s what you’re talking about and so I’m thrilled to always hear more about what those practices of the ones that seem to not get through the mesh into the West as often as like the multi-orgasmic even the Kundalini stuff which I’ve heard you know a lot of Kundalini people approach Kundalini without without paying homage to its is a feminine Shakti goddess aspect of it so much so yeah I’m glad you had that experience and then that you bring that forward and certainly that we just go from talking about the gimmicks of pick up Artistry which you know it’s like I think of pickup artists I think of con artists I think of like confidence scams and then evil going from from that Vibe of that world to this experience you talking about and translating the beauty and magic of these experiences in Matt’s and then having the proof in the pudding and applying it to turning on and really worship thing and giving to this beloved you yours like I hope that those people who are trying to buy the magic pills and by the secret pick up lines and all that they actually would hear this and and and be inspired by what you’re saying you say there’s like a way way deeper Richard passed to towards some pleasing women and in being a God you know being like the guy who gets her off the best and the guys will never forget that that can come from it a deeper more of my spiritual face so thank you very much that was my you know my my Applause and praise for it for you sharing that and so do you want to then go from there to how you started to apply that if you start to want to teach Tantra more formally and start building your own kind of phone programs did you do some other trainings if you go to work with diarrhea right after that or what was next time you’re you’re sort of Business Development path of Tantra make something clear like this I’m listening to this I’m not expecting men to go into the jungles in like wipe their ass with their hands because there’s no toilet paper you know what and then come back and do a 3-hour ritual to the woman in order to get laid that’s not what I’m saying that I did that but what I teach man is to put their attention and make make like or you can make an ordinary day exciting and ritualistic so like I’m going we’re going to San Diego this weekend and we’re sitting we’re going to turn it into a ritual at an adventure and I’m going to I’m going to pay attention to my woman as opposed to like the pickup artist seen I think there was a lot of like Don’t Buy Women drains their they’re not going to respect you if you if women don’t respect men who are nice guys and all that in you could be nice to a woman you could pay attention to a woman you could be attentive to her needs you could have your balls intact it’s not like if you’re if you’re nice to a woman or you please a woman or you pay attention to her that you’re giving up your balls that’s like the thing that I didn’t like about pick up cuz I love sharing my woman with some attention so you don’t like what I did was was a super elaborate version of that and yet there’s ways to pay attention in minor ways every single you all the time and so I try to make ordinary time with her you know beautiful and sacred and in treat her like a goddess even if I’m wash will just washing dishes you know like make that a ritual washing dishes so the dishes are done so we can go to the bedroom and we can fuck you know it’s like let’s let’s make washing dishes a ritual let’s make washing dishes set let’s make washing dishes away press to get that out of the way so we have space in our lives and two to pay attention to each other and dropped into a space of Sacred Love and that does not require you going to the jungles I just requires the shift in in your perspective I love it seems like there’s always going to need to be some ratio of people who have had the deeper immersive experiences in the classical traditional timeshare temples and then bring that back and you know it’s like everybody’s not going to be a shaman but we need to have a sweet spot kind of ratio so thank you for having that experience I’m certainly some point wanting wanting to to be one of those folks who can have a deeper experiences and then transmit them and translate them into a more modern contact so so yeah thanks for that clarification and and that makes a lot of sense so so yeah what would what was your next step word some building the confidence not only to please your own lovers but to teach bring this magic and medicine and and then skill sets to Two Men and develop more of a practice of your own let me guess it was very important to me because I went through his program it’s a whole new program that was videos as you know cuz you’re in the videos but so there’s a lot more aid for teaching men and I’m running man through this program I now that I found this in again when I was part of the pickup seen and he was at some some he was speaking at one of them I don’t remember how I ran into him but then I kept running into him like every single week I would go to event and they were all different events that when was The Burning Man event and when was it Astro van with a pick up a bed and was like who is this guy Destin I should call him and talk to him and I went through his program and I became multi-orgasmic so it was like wow I read that might actually work and all of that and it didn’t work but Justin’s program work and now I’m not like a coach like now I am authorized to teach his two other men because he really breaks it down he went through 6 logical Body Works which I actually also went through that trade-in so I see where it comes from I see the roots for it I see why it works and how it works and the bottom line is it works it’s like you can take a man run him through this step by step program in at the end he he’s pretty much has control over his orgasm and it worked for me and it’s working for the men that are going to the program I know it works I mean he’s done it with hundreds and hundreds of men so that was one official training I got and then and another training I got is was why is blueprints with shock yeah I mean that I learned about Jaya Jaya to Destin one of his podcast actually I had seen joy around I seen her she used to promote our books at different events different sexual advance and I would see Jai I kept seeing her also but then I was listening to an interview that just ended with her where she was talking about what she called The Erotic Blueprints and I was in another relationship where I was bringing all my Tantra training in my you know I gazing into this relationship and I thought it was great you know I was having orgasm but the woman wasn’t and I thought well am I what’s wrong and then just kind of said there’s Blueprints and I’m unenergetic like that’s why I love this time. I happen to be an energetic and I can I can really tap into that and I can have these incredible experiences but not everybody is an energetic and then she said then there’s a sensual there’s a sexual there’s a kinky and there’s a shapeshifter and I realized while the woman that I was with was very sexual and I’m sexual also but it was not my primary blueprint so I was speaking to her as an energetic like expecting her to have the same kind of contract experiences but she wasn’t a wire that way and and then sometimes she would just like to just want to like you just want to fuck and I was like what I want to connect first one I gave you like really just want to go there right away so now I’m learning to speak the other person’s language and understand my own language and the woman I’m with now super super sensual that’s why she loved that couch I get because it was all about taste and smell and sound with all the senses so that really turned wrong because of who you was designed to be a sensual experience we’re all over essential were lit up and I know how to I know how to speak the language of a sensual and one of them is example making sure for a sensual if things are out of place if dishes are done at the house is dirty she can’t drop into her body she can’t really experience orgasm so for me clean up the houses is for play because that’s what my that’s what my partner wants she wants all that stuff out of her head because the sensual will get into their head start worrying about stuff and then you know of a few years down the line the partnership is not working out they’re not understanding why they’re not there there they both think they’re having sex but when is having one is not getting their energetic fed and the others not getting their Central fat or their sexual fat so learning the blueprints was like to learn that I was in energetic like blew me away because then I realized it is a thing in that it’s not weird to have these orgasmic experience is just looking into someone’s eyes but it’s also know it may not be the way another person the person I’m with name me not experience it the same way and I can’t force them to have that experience I appreciate that work that was done. Can you say kind of from your training and where you work with her and Emma studies of for blueprint I’m not aware of the podcast before I don’t have it on the top of my head, the backstory of how how she would describe the the process of discovering these beasts different patterns do could you say something to what what to your your recollection is like her kind of backstory around that if if you would let me hear backstory things I mean her backstory she was also sexological bodyworker which is we all have in common me giant Destin we’ve all been trained by the same teacher Joseph Kramer and sexological Body Works and child learn after hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of hours working with couples that there was different couples were turned on by different touch like the man might be turned on by certain kind of touch and the woman might be turned on by a different kind of touch and they weren’t the same so the man expected the woman to respond the way he was responding and then just started to break it down and realized that a sensual is turned on by a completely different sort of touch than the sexual is and they’re actually if you want to know what your blueprint is if you go on my website you can take your who is there is emails that you’ll get I will explain all the blueprints so my website is in-body awakening.com which is e m p o d y m body which is hard to spell under the dash awakening.com hopefully you’ll have this written somewhere so it’s a for sure that’ll be on the Awakening., there’s a quiz on the bottom you can take the quiz for free and then you’ll get emails that looks plain all of them it’ll tell you what your blueprint is and then you’ll get emails at hotel look at 5 different emails that will explain the is the superpower of each blueprint and the shadow side of each have a shadow site to find that out and then again yeah go on the website take the quiz and then you can book a session with me and I can talk about how how you can implement this in your sex life because the blueprints is just one part of my program cool alright well thank you for sharing that and also I think it’s a great point to make that people who have been in this field in this movement and its industry and have done that level of work a game that sense of Mastery and then these emergent properties of being able to distill these kind of macro counter and that’s where that that wisdom and in comes from is that that richness of experience so I appreciate your hearing about that and I know there’s a number of other systems that people have developed to categorize various kind of powder and sand and styles of relating and there’s love languages that you know all kinds of different different metrics and tools that have been developed to kind of self analyze and solve correct and in in an ad so glad that there is more of the sexual and Amore essential systems that are being developed and so yes and then after that now where does that where does that bring us to within in your historical chronological timeline are we getting close to where you’re at now or where was there more happening before we get to the present but no car now what your you can go into the details of the the rock your cock program it sounds like it’s probably drawing on all the influences but that I don’t want to skip over anything before we get there so yeah what where where else what else do we need to cover it to get to the present read marriage I started to want something else got involved in the pickup scene from their got involved in Contra through Sachi on and then became a hypnotist it so it is it’s not like this happen overnight is was 10 years and then you know traveling with Sachi on and seeing these shamanic having the shamanic experience has started to open me up to this other world of that as an energetic at first I would have been like so skeptical because that’s that’s what the shadow of the energetic is it’s like because I was an energetic I was denying that there could possibly be everything have to have a scientific explanation and everything we was bullshit and Kippy and you know I’m coming from the punk background you know those hippies like I had but that was my shadow side because I was actually completely once once I got opened up and started to experience things myself it was like boom I’m in energetic I can feel energy I could I actually have these experiences that I can’t really describe in that not everyone has to believe know if they don’t believe it that’s fine I’m not going to try to convince anyone all I know is I’ve had some incredible experiences so so it was from pick up Tantra hypnosis and then then starting to find the teacher including traveling to Canada traveling to India going to Peru having different a Mexico having different experiences and I think my primary influences then became Destin enjoy shampoo mentored me and taught me their system the system of sexual self-mastery for men so men can become multi-orgasmic and the the blueprints which is like the love languages for the bedroom and what’s nice about it is I can teach this it’s like this is exactly what the pick up pick up Community says I could break it down I could teach it plus I had hypnosis to it so like a high anchor in so you remember the stuff and in fact I’m filming a whole I’m feeling a whole Erotic Hypnosis thing in the middle of filming at we have it work where I put my partner and she’s never even done it before on film where she becomes she has these just from listening going into hypnosis you basically has hypnotics orgasms and I put her on the bed in a hypnotic BDSM session I teach you guys how to do this so this is my own stuff that I’m adding offering a lot it’s like 10 years of all of these different trainings come together into my one Rodger cock I survived that sounds great siding and I can’t I’m jealous that you that you got such a great name for it I got it how did I how did that slip by me all this time you noticed it’s funny it’s funny cuz originally and have more of like a mask you act like I was masculine and Power Man in and he’s kind of names and I just said no fuck it rocks your cock cuz that’s what men want you know even though I’m teaching them spirituality and all this other stuff that’s not going to get them excited rock your cock it’s like yeah because that’s the end result I’m offering the end result rock your cock and that means more than just about getting your cock it’s not about getting your cock hard it’s about showing up as a man in his masculine energy and it is feminine so it’s like I’m being done being sneaky cuz I’m also teaching men to be in their feminine to to be in their heart but not going to get him in the door you know what gets him in the door is it’s about your cock about being a man and it’s about showing up in that way but in order to do that you need to embrace your family and you need to be able to have have experiences trance-like experiences which again you can do through breathing which I teach to help self hypnosis so but yeah the name your cock cuz that’s the end result income for the Shiva and you stay for the shock to you no thank God it’s it’s it’s Punk is Rock You Know rocks you rock it you know it’s it’s about showing up in in in in playing her instrument and just playing it however the fuck you want to you know you don’t have to go and take formal lessons in in school you just you just rock it because it’s natural I love that you. That’s it what’s the point right to get to where things flow naturally and you’re not fighting anything and you’re not having to count all people who are more than the more I guess you could say the the less edgy the less sexual the less explicit but the more kind of family-friendly Orthodox Temple Tantra experiences are going to be a lot of ritual as an end in techniques and tools that that are about you counting beads and Counting chance and getting using all of these Scott all the scaffolding and all of these handrails sort of to build the capacity to have full attention in your body and then eventually you are less reliant on on those techniques and it just you just like a martial artist it’s just there when you need it and you just keep time keeping that refresh so yeah I love that idea that I think we’re kind of stripping away layers of domestication we’re getting back back to a more and body Primal state where it wasn’t we weren’t overcoming so many neurotic not than patterns and things in and it would just be a more natural more that’s also the punk rock thing you know I would say as well as they shed this formalities boxes the first module of my program because it got to clear our our modern the roses and there are blocked because it’s like the about stuff like I don’t believe that any of these you can learn sexual techniques but until you get that’s why it’s modular like I teach Advanced sex techniques but I don’t teach that until you get past your blocks and learn how to be present to your body and your breathing and then again you don’t need to do all the fancy he learn Sanskrit stuff all you need to do is learn how to breathe and feel your body I’m stripping it down I’m I’m not I’m getting rid of all the do you know the esoteric because I know not again not everybody’s an energetic I want everybody to be able to relate to my program so I guess I’m not it’s not part of my even though I did all that stuff I’m not going to teach anyone how to chant in Sanskrit I’m going to teach a man how to breathe into their body so they can feel where they have tension in their body and where they can open up and start feeling their emotions thank you again for everything I think we’re about a good point to wrap up if you want to share some final words of advice final insides and then again where people can go to find your work yeah well my website again I already said it is in body – awakening.com and are they can take the quiz for free and then if you want it there to sign up for a session and when our strategy session where we can talk about how we can use the blueprints and how I can work with men specifically and I would put Township punk in the comments because I think that your audience is in particular audience and I would work with the men that come from this podcast different than men that come from another podcast so I would create an individual program although my I have a module program this whole setup is I would modify it according to my listeners and have a one-hour session with them so that’s embody – awakening.com take the quiz and sign up for a strategy session with me awesome well thank you so much man has been a pleasure to talk shop with you and I’ll still be able to have that a resident so I think sometimes people can lose a grounding this and that sort of bullshit detectors at the punk rock movement I think gives us a very good protector and I can tell that you’re upgrading from that place if a healthy skepticism in and also but open-mindedness to and avoiding Dogma avoiding too much too many rules and in too many I don’t think I don’t think you’re going to fall into the style of a cult leader or become a cult leader yourself in a in a bad way so thank you for your offer doing all that work you’re doing and for glad we got to have this conversation and we will be publishing this in the next couple weeks or so getting through a backlog of a previous guess that’s what I will send you the link and we will hopefully be able to talk more again in the future all right right on cool alright well thanks so much again and have a great day thank you. 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In this episode I’m joined again by Shonagh Home, the mushroom priestess who never ceases to amaze! Our conversation topic this time is the launch of her Manifesting 101 course which she graciously allowed me to experience.

It was perfect timing for me to take the course as I was in the eye of the storm of transformation and the wisdom bestowed through the course served as the psycho-spiritual scaffolding to build a ramp towards greater freedom and abundance in alignment with the divine. Without it I could well have continued digging a deeper tunnel straight to the demonic underworld. I sh*t you not!

This course contains some of the most important words to live by, and while it draws upon a wide range of esoteric and mystical themes, the no-none-sense practical applications that are provided will put any skeptic in check.

This course serves as the functional of anti-malware/anti-virus software on your computer. It works its magic weather or not you make a firm commitment to embark on a path of magical discipline or not. It won’t do the work for you, but it will without a doubt expose your weak, lazy, and self dooming patterns of mental and verbal behavior. If you do take steps to implement the teachings into your future, be prepared for the

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Shonagh Home is a shamanic therapist, teacher, writer and poet. Her specialized private sessions and retreats are probing and revelatory, assisting clients to break chronic, self-defeating patterns, and move into empowered personal sovereignty. Shonagh is an international public speaker on the subject of visionary shamanic-spirit medicine, a voice for stewardship of the honeybees, and a teacher on the subject of Traditional Foods. She is author of the books, ‘Ix Chel Wisdom: 7 Teachings from the Mayan Sacred Feminine,’ ‘Love and Spirit Medicine,’ ‘Poetic Whispers from the Green Realms,’ and ‘Honeybee Wisdom: A Modern Melissa Speaks.’

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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin hello dear beloved Walking the Tightrope on podcast episode number 203 I have yet again what a my favorite previous guess Shawna home on again now to talk about another training program that she is providing online through their website and after I completed and we did we had discussed Her Sacred mushroom practicum course and so much to learn from that and so much to to apply from that and really I feel like it’s going to be a module with in my coaching and counseling programs that I offer for private individuals really that that’s for them to a lose their psychedelic virginity per say I want this to be a prerequisite for that I want to I want it to be a sort of four other colleagues and peers who would might be doing ceremonial work with me in any capacity that they have that under their belt so to speak and that we’re speaking the same language and and that was really my prayer from when I first read love and spirit medicine wish that I knew actually the first time I heard you Shana on a podcast on the Psychedelic salon at was maybe 2013 when I first heard you one of your early talks mentioning the rigor of scholarship that you put into reading different books on mushrooms of course finding out a lot of the officers were men and then feeling compelled to write a more heart centered feminine more personal exploration and after reading that and knowing you done that work I really just knew that you were going to be the one to the go to Modern chamonix Priestess to usher in the paradigm shift that is going to involve The Mystery of the mushrooms for the modern world so this is the fact that you made that that mushroom practicum course that is really the answer to my prayers and and followed up from that if that wasn’t enough of you also put together an equally astounding and an in-depth and comprehensive course on manifestation which takes a lot of the more best celery kind of new agey stuff that has more Mass Appeal right now have more Pride adoption than then not save the Psychedelic work people can resonate with that and I’ve had a lot of priming on these topics but you bring into it a far more advanced mystical and far more advanced mythological and folkloric wisdom to it that you don’t get so much in things that are trying to be all about just it’s all about Quantum stuff it’s all about human potential stuff and they kind of stripped out the the personalities and the and the the sort of I think about engaging with helpers and keeping negative Spirits at Bay and all of that actual Witchcraft and more folkloric type of wisdom you really bring all that back into the science of manifestation see but it’s the best of both worlds that’s my sort of review after having gone through it and I’ll say before we open it up for you to share all about it I will just say that you had gifted me access to the program and I went devoured it and binge listen as I was going through a pretty serious transition and transformation in my life and there was so much moments where I was where I had to wear it called me out on being a slacker on principles that I had been aware of but that I had not been fully keeping in good posture with let’s say a lot of the stuff having to do with the syntax and the word choice and the justice spellcraft that it is to think the language that you think in the language that you speak in the portents the importance of monitoring that and having a being assertive guardian of your own Magic Magical spellcraft if you don’t have that Consciousness or even if you do and you don’t have these reminders that that that was really extremely powerful and then there’s so many other dimensions and so many other kind of lineages of wisdom and resourcing that you had pulled into this program that was really extremely moving in in and really it’s so far I feel like it’s since that was maybe a few weeks ago when I when I had that experience and I already noticed positive habits and positive reframes in end way way better buffering of reactivity to things and really having a sort of sense of being helped the sense of that experience tweaking subtle settings in subconscious patterns of thought and and visualization so that you don’t have to put all of your focus on these principles and practices they should happen kind of in the desktop background but actually be instead of all the malware that we’re running off and against ourselves it’s actually cleaning up a lot of that malware and actually doing functions that we set it out to do like actually and I love the way you said it we have these mines let’s play with them you know that’s have fun playing with us exploring it so I’m really in that good mood and things are flowing and said I could say I was a tribute a lot of my future success to to this dude thinks you against Hannaford for joining us in if you want to tell us about what led up to this this program and and certainly some of the highlights that you share personally in it and then kind of break it down so we can know what to to looks what to expect from it okay well thank you so much oh my goodness I made it really so appreciate your your kind words and your enthusiasm and it’s so obvious you you listened and you applied what I was sharing and I just so very much appreciate your just your enthusiasm thank you so much all right so I’ll tell you this course came so I have been working with the mushroom now for almost eight years and I encountered mushroom Spirits in its first year of monthly mushroom Journeys that I was doing was called to do and they became like my advisers and one thing that was repeated over and over to my sick Aries skull was get my mind right dear get your mind right is it constantly and you know I have this is interesting I read about this astrologically I’m an Aries but I have a Virgo rising and and and I’ve been a chronic worrier for a long long time and it and and oh my God I have moved beyond that and in a big way for the most part the stuff doesn’t go away but you learn how to manage it properly but one thing I read about Virgos so Virgo is the last sign of Summer and so when you have the last sign of any season like for instance Gemini’s the last sign of spring. Sign is called mutable so it’s mutable not quite Springvale it’s not quite summer but yeah it’s going to be summer and won’t be necessary spring for long it was mutable Virgo OK where’s our summer button Falls coming so it’s this mutable sign and I read that Burgos can can can be chronic worriers and the reason being is that what comes after summer is fall and fall is when things start to die back anyway for me that me a tremendous amount of sense I was like okay okay this is very interesting cuz this is kind of part of my wiring right and anyway and then also text a lot of self-doubt now I am definitely a self-starter and Visionary and all of that but it would be sort of you know the wee hours of the the night when you’re alone special that stuff tends to creep up on you when you’re in bed in your mind is supposed to be at rest and then we’ll would give me at least in the past of every reason why this wasn’t going to work why this is going to fall apart of why I screwed it up for you on and on right like this crazy he’s negative voices that so many people live with and it’s so again we’re back to that mushroom sang to me for you know a long time get your mind right here and and I really I have apprenticed myself to those Spirit teachers I think of them is tutelary spirit and something that has been impressed upon me these past eight years with that medicine is it is all about the power of the mind and and and so what happened to me after a couple years or two or three years poetry was starting to really flow from me and and now when I am called to the mushroom which is maybe once a year it’s a big night and I just go in with my recorder and poetry just flows forth and and and it’s also happened when I went to Scotland and I spent time in the stone circles those are are are located on these geomagnetic hotspots and we’re mostly water and so you’re within that frequency and it will activate a lot go a lot within you just us the mushroom can as well and so so so there was a lot of poetry coming through me then as well and when I say through me it was very much channels and it would come out like I would just speaking into a recorder or I would type it out very quickly and every word rhyme there was no editing necessary it was pretty wild and so and I find they play with words as as the mushroom doesn’t touch with the number of people are like you out yet to find that also you know with it with the mushrooms in Alaska show me people who work with that medicine become really fascinated with language fascinated with with words and an end so in any case so Within These poetic messages also teach me about country training the mind and I’ll tell you also 6 years ago on my 50th birthday I just thought I was going I didn’t do any mushrooms for just a couple years I was going to do 7 for some reason anyway and inside width on a friend’s farm and I was in her greenhouse and these beings came through and just kind of had me for the rest of the journey and I recorded it and one of the beings was studying The Matrix of my mind centrally and stroking its beard sang What a mess what a mess because at the time I was I realized you no looking back I could be so negative you know I mean and it’s hard of course not to look at what’s playing out on this planet which has been playing out for quite some time it’s kind of just look around and go on my God we’re fucked like that’s what I was saying at the time and this being she said if she thinks she’s fucked then so it shall be and and so I listened to that the next day when I was going through the recording and and I just applied deposit and it was just like okay wait a minute wait a minute I know being is trying to get me to realize the power of my voice to power of my thoughts in mind and the power of my voice and and it was a sobering moment for me and indents and kind of the beginning of Korra of I would say a deepening of of this understand and getting a better understanding of kind of how my own mind works and and reality that that I create for myself as a result and and I know you know there was that movie The Secret and they’re all that stuff and in the power of whatever it’s called I don’t know but it’s all the fasting stuff and and you know there’s actually there is great power in it in that but actually think this is very old and I know it’s very old because eventually I found a rising which you can find online deathly free it’s called as a man thinketh and it’s by a fellow named James Allen and he wrote 2021 Pages back in 1905 he was basically riffing off a line in the Bible pretty old book and this line said something to the effect as a man thinketh so he is and so James Allen clearly this haunted him and he really really pondered this and he wrote that just got to putting his thoughts out there on the effects of our thinking on the circumstances of our life the effects of our words how that affects our health our body and and the power of thinking 808 a clear mannered way and in other words he said something and I’m just going to quote the very first one of this isn’t the very first this is around the beginning of of his book this chapter is called effect of thought on circumstances and he writes a man’s mind may be likened to a garden which may be intelligently cultivated or allowed to run wild the weather cultivated or neglected it must and will bring forth and so there’s more to that and you know this culture biodynamics that you and I love stock that he is he’s making the analogy that that the mind is its a garden right and so you know traditionally one would tend ones garden and so the mind has to put forth it can’t not so we can if we are not disciplined in terms of our sinking then it it it it runs amok and I mean I’m just I so see in my own life how my own thoughts would would would result and circumstances in my life that would would confirm shall we stay with the way I was thinking or My Philosophy right and and and then my own patterning would continue to repeat themselves I get caught in this is kind of mind Loop and and so his book is amazing it’s a free pdf not really book is 21 Pages you can also go on YouTube and you can listen to it for free and it’s a living person’s voice is not the may I sing and and there’s tremendous wisdom there and end and so we are we are raised from birth we show up here the veil comes down we forget where we were before we came we forget what we are and we are raised by folks wherever they may be for under the spell to whatever degree and then we are cells fall under that spell and then oh by the way then we are indoctrinated in these really deplorable quote on quote education system is run by the Prussian education system in think we spoke about that before that Prussian education system is worldwide and it is all about indoctrinating children into adults who function in unquestioning compliance and it makes them predictable okay and so we’ve all experienced that and then we have a course in media which is also highly controlled and and all of this is it’s it’s constant repetition and so we’re really being programmed from birth and I think you and I have talked about the word government from in Latin it’s go burn witch things to control and momenta is mine and so and were raised in playing with words a cult sure and so really what this has been for me this work with a with mushroom and this work I have had to do with my own mind is a sense of kind of deprogramming essentially deprogramming from all the conditioning that I myself have received and it’s amazing I mean this conditioning it’s it’s ingrained and and and you know I went to a small convent school run by nuns from Nursery School through 7th grade and we were raised to be proper young ladies which failed miserably for me but I can still see that response you know like where we are trained like dogs to respond to Authority in a very submissive way and end so for us fiery and and forthright and opinionated oh my goodness it’s still shocked and upsets me you know when I kind of see myself by catch myself you know the rare occasions I don’t know it was some kind of authority and you realize oh my God that’s just still so deeply ingrained so anyway charge the kind of course talked about this about how the mushroom would help to delete the program and I love how you referred to as malware with system our mind system really is malware and so this stuff takes discipline it takes practice there is no magic pill you know and send this is precisely what James Allen talks about as well like you got to work on this really hard. I cannot recommend his his book enough his writing it’s it’s it’s so it makes such perfect sense and and he writes about fear and doubt that that they always result in failure always result in failure and that you have to be essentially a kind of warrior of your own mind you know and and so and no one else is going to do this for us and there’s no magic pill of course something like the mushroom will certainly help open your mind to the possibility it’ll open your mind to treatment can open your mind a tremendous Insight ultimately the ball is in our court and so something else that the beings been explaining to me first of all we’ll date they speak of the mind is a wand and they have said that actually the Holy Grail is in the mind and I’ll tell you my main teacher Brew join with Johns Hopkins trained MD who walked away from a very illustrious career to be a teacher and he was very young young and very much amiss. He was just a fantastic man and a tremendous influence on my life my life she told great stories you told a story just to give you a copy of an ID on the power of the Mind here and just what we’re all packing without even realizing it he told story about these Studies have been done on people with multiple personalities and there was a woman I looked up to study and found it who has diabetes type 1 insulin the whole deal should true personalities though the other was healthy and so one body one mind and of course she couldn’t do this she didn’t know she was doing this right this is such a mystery to the multiple personality thing but she would go into the personality that he had diabetes and you know she had to take her insulin and and of course they were they were they were testing her blood everything Wendy healthy personality took over her entire body responded and adjusted itself to accommodate the healthy personality no diabetes none so and oh by the way she had two menstrual cycles each month one for each personality and so again she wasn’t doing that consciously should no idea she was even doing that but what that says about what the mind is capable of is pretty extraordinary and also is Celtic Women as a or a gallic woman release better term I mostly Scottish and Irish there so we had in Ireland long long ago The Bard’s the Druid class they were men and women the priest priest S-Class and those people were deeply deeply learn it in terms of the power of the mind right and they would study for 15-20 years and nothing was written down everything was memorized and so it’s it boggles the mind to even think of how you would memorize is very very complex sonnets and stories and and you know that there were that the Poetry was in deeply and coded right so in other words we are like Whisper of what we once were including the way we use our mind like I really know there’s a lot of talk about how we’ve all been dumbed down and and you can say that but really when you start making the air since you know what the Ancients it’s mind-blowing so we’ve got work to do or I’ll say I had and still can’t get work to do you know and explain to me what is dire Everett this whole thing’s Electric it’s electric they said your spirit is electric and also because I am a medium I bring these beings through with they would explain to me when I would bring them to you on the medicine I always required amount of water and so and they would call my vest my body a vessel will a vessel is a container and what are we mostly but water will what does water carry but it’s charged it carries charge and so we are the charge for this body vessel each one of us at Wheaton spirit this body our spirit is Electric in our body carries. Well when I would do that medicine and other beings would come in that those were different currents of electricity and so I would require more water to accommodate the extra current in me and then you have to be careful because you don’t want to fry your nervous system with all that electricity so Connecticut’s they were explaining to me see all of this I got in the mushroom you know they were explaining to me hear your thoughts like well we know shots fired neurons fire they are electric and so every time you think of something you’re charging it and and by the way so we’re mostly water are spirits electric will every electrical cord wire has in a field around it a magnetic field and that field either repels or tracks will we all have an energy field around Aura around our body and that either repels or attracts and there’s certain people who are highly sensitive who can either see or feel your energy field and they can feel stuff in it that reflects that stuff in the fields reflex what’s going on in the psyche of that person and of course we know the alchemical maxim of as within so without and microcosm and macrocosm in so so whatever is held in mind is is is felt in the energy field and and and and reflected in New York field and then and then you magnetized to yourself accordingly and so yeah I said it I just had a vision of visual Kei when you’re saying that my neurons were firing at that will it first I saw a pigpen of course from Charlie Brown and the Flies orbiting him and the end what he was attracting of that effort that’s a shamanic metaphor used before and then I was thinking why I was so there are people who it will probably all of us if we’re in a funk then we basically I imagine being the equivalent of walking fly paper if you were in a negative vibration you’re attracting negative tests that say from the Astros playing who were who are being just by the laws of these of these mechanics like you’re saying the way the Synergy of the way these is systems actually work it’s just effective these things being drawn in and attracted and then I thought well then you could also be on have a more positive walking the beauty way is he might say and you could be attracting hummingbirds can send you could be more like a more like a bird bath vibration and you be attracting all these beautiful benevolent to sip a synergistic beings as opposed to piss in that you could have to but that’s an interesting point this idea if we extrapolate that principle of your either always there’s just the two poles of attracting or repelling on certain on a certain Atomic level and if we are unquestionably inarguably composed of a medium that has that field around it then the only thing that we don’t know without the mushrooms that say showing us or the guy selling us is when we repel or attract what are we what are we bringing in or what are we pushing how do you know if the SATs that was an important I hope to add something you know to the visual visual illustrate it will the state that point I don’t know if that if that sounds like it resonates put on because they’re afraid of the taboo of lesbianism and because it would be against the rules and whatnot so when I melted down and was innocent ceremonies were psychedelic ceremonies were they all of these stories were melted away and it was just women in fucking ecstasy the agony and ecstasy and using my cock as a prop but also as an energetic current in a source of love and it my refinement was allow me to be in that space and I realize that it’s like it is so cumbersome to be responsible for a woman’s orgasm in a love making session why would I want all that burned on myself cuz like I have to add my age I have to think about a not coming to fast beat not losing my erection and in trying to make a sincere and emotional a sincere present connection with the person who I am experiencing this with that is enough for me to have to do now I’m responsible for her squirting and coming of the Saints sake when I saw the leveraging of all these other women and how freely flowing the orgasms come when the openness and the connectedness is there with other women so so like I said I’m not taking a step back and now if anybody wants to come at me they’re going to have to go through that that ate a form of of grade school of learning in orbit black you going to come at me if you want to fuck me you need a black belt in loving me to get in hand if you going to any Karate Dojo they’re not used hey I want to do what you do can you hand me a black belt right now please here I’ll give you a beer can I buy you a beer and then you give me a black belt no stupid you’re so stupid amphib so what was the quote from the movie UHF which is very a so Daddy definitely watch UHF to understand where my sense of humor comes from but yeah it’s good so so we’re solving this problem and creating these designer experiences and so what I realized is that the impulse for a woman to have this one-dimensional relationship with a man’s cock so that she wants to possess it so as you’re a very own the way for me to logically very very simple-minded lycee what is the how do you prevent that is to say well you will learn to get to know my cock at exactly the same time as another person and you will only have a 50/50 relationship with whatever you do you say like you would with your best friend and I had her saying in people may not like to hear me say is cuz it sounds good feed it to your best friend first feed it to your best friend first and I didn’t even think about the secondary effect of that which for me that was just that was just like I’m going to know that you’re not going to lose your mind with jealousy when you can just say here actually you can I’ll let you go first so that would be the the the tantric taboo test of transgression against yourself like that Siri you’re going to lose your mind will feel into that and start simple we’re going to dance together and you’re going to watch just that and is that make your blood boil what happens after your blood simmers down do you start to like so now it’s like whatever that point is where that demon comes out of jealousy you were going to rub the shit out of your clit until it goes and tell you what you’ve you become a demon Whisperer with your clit and me and everybody just wants to create more and add more locks to the fire and you transmute that negative emotion into a positive motion and then in the probably will be called conversion the opposite we don’t have a word for it we do not have a word except for that one which no one knows it set designer neologism but we don’t have the band singing about how good it feels to watch their wife get fucked by Adam Ant And so yeah here we come back full circle so we will be so we’re going to we’re going to have these experiences we’re going to sing about it and and so this is the this is the what the the the climax of this conversation will be in my opinion is is when I talked about how the it’s not just a theoretical Gaiden guiding principle to say oh yeah we’ll will like yeah okay you flip a coin and I have sex first with the person who wins that round and then I stopped having sex with you and hopefully it didn’t lose my wind in 5 minutes cuz I was so fucking turn on by the sexy after they all I got another $5 and it’s over for me for like they’re already like forgot every system anyway cuz they’re tearing each other inside out and everything and I’m just watching and trying to like make it come to live again and finally it will eventually but you should know I’m getting That’s The Hampsterdance the Tantra hence the sexual Jedi Knight training so that you can breathe breathe through and in have the orgasms without losing the love don’t be a 5 lb jump so hit the two feminists so I think I’m going to say okay if she’s dying to give me a blowjob then like we time it for like okay like we’re going to play your favorite song and it’s going to be about the same equal thanks to to her favorite song and you going to eat each other’s favorite songs and I’m like hold each other’s heads and massage each other and just be like holding each other from behind and Miss Priss massaging each other that they take turns but there’s still a potential in that for for jealousy to arise in forever and for it to be I mean I just thought of a way to actually literally short-circuit everything in a really beautiful elegant circuit and so here is the design and I will try to verbally explain unless they can so I love the idea of two women’s hands clasping together around my cock and massaging it gently up and down as they face each other and our eye gazing intermittently so the visual so far is is that the dear beloved goddesses or I are facing each other so actually agency kneeling I’m I am laying on my back and they both are kneeling with their literally as clothes into my armpit is possible so that I can reach Below in between their legs and butt so I can have a hand on each clit and vulva fingers is a good middle finger on the clit and to end so if I’m cuffing the vulva and able to use my longest middle finger to be stroking the each clit simultaneously in patterns you know singer sew and I’m basically playing streams is like playing guitar and make a solo I’m playing shift I have this is because the end of vocalizations or what I’m tuning for it you know so so it isn’t this beautiful instrument of a playing these two young hearts that are kissing each other and like I gazy and exactly is so I’m making sure that they’re not feeling left out in that apartment while I’m being stimulated and everybody is being stimulated sexually and everyone is feeling a part of a closed circuit that is meeting everyone’s needs and in and there’s no favoritism there’s no hierarchy the really so thin and if anything I am as the man in my back and that is what time trick Kali worshipping actual full fully pornographic and I hesitate to use that word was fully glorious erotic depictions of the circuitry of how this stuff works so if it’s if you’re not approve any 3 I mean if you’re not so sexually stunted then you would just understand that these icons are just road maps to the spiritual terrain of understanding the energetics of Shiva Shakti god goddess energy so we’re designing with that and we’re creating a maximum hydraulic energy flows in in in a way that is very egalitarian actually inhibits the growth of the ego and that sense of so-and-so I’ve experienced this in not that exact formation but that’s why I aspire to be a porn director so that I can I can work with people who are very comfortable taking Direction and are not going to lose their minds and so I actually had this conversation today they’re what makes me not a cult leader and what prevents me from ever becoming a cult leader is this one fundamental thing right but I have to study cold it is to know how not to be a quote later cuz otherwise I would just be cranking out so much Kool-Aid day Kool-Aid would have to invent a time to punch flavor you know I got to be sponsored by Kool-Aid the Kool-Aid man oh yeah it would have it I make my own Kool-Aid Man Township anyway after dark okay I wanted how they’ve not sued like I have all of the libelous memes and they feel bad for the Kool-Aid guy I didn’t fucking poisonous people man I don’t mean to be making fun of them and I really got to get serious about not making a joke out of the people who died in the massacre Crazy Eights it’s it’s it’s public domain now to make a joke to either the expression people say don’t drink the Kool-Aid it’s because people at Jonestown were by a charismatic cult leader who was it was an extremely right with it skips a generation maybe but that’s how memes get formed yes so I mean that’s how they sort of deprecated the roots and you say things that we don’t know how does the reason we’re numb it so they don’t drink the Kool-Aid means don’t consent to a groupthink. Virus that makes mass suicide be acceptable and so they poisoned the Kool-Aid punch and that’s how everyone can scented make give it to their kids and everyone is like this is fine and some people try to protest and they were silenced and some people try to run away and it was a nightmare and it was absolutely what I would I must not allow myself to become as a priest that uses sexual mind manipulation and coercive tactics to trade love and affection attention and orgasm for 4 unquestioning devotion into the point of suicide so that that’s the extreme case that that we that is a litmus test for if you were going down that slippery slope but I actually tend to want to study the mental illness of sociopath sociopathy narcissism and I would like to consider myself a benign I’m the benign narcissist I know that that is a character flaw that I am not how we going to like defeat by doing the past limitations as many times that night and I’m going to roll with it and I’m going to say yeah I will be like Howard Stern and I will be I’m going to if I’m going to be this personality I’m going to make a bonsai tree out of my own ego if I can and have other people help in the process but but things going going back to the to the cult thing and what me what gives me the authority to design this orgasmic Orchestra what why and how do you not just become a colder than soy everyone you meet is basically in that on that game board now how am I going to manipulate you to be in this in this position that I would like you to be in to fulfill my fantasy of engineering all this town truck stuff and and if I’m if I’m this is well that’s spit out the Kool-Aid don’t swallow I think what we’ll get to that for sure that’s going to be a we’re going to get to that but can’t forget that we’ll save that for the for the most triumphant moment the climax is when we’re going to use that it’s so precious now after it’s been built up so ever since a joke that’s going about 2 it’s going to explain come on your face it’s going to come on yesterday and you’re going to beg for it and so hits is it is I’ve had people beg me to come in the third eye and it was hard to resist but this is going to be almost as good as that sharing you this one liner inside joke and just a minute but to wrap up this sort of dark out thing that we were doing with the coal thing is that it how do you know how do I hedge against being the creepiest man every like people think that Barney the purple dinosaur because he and forgive me if I’m butchering the facts here but as far as I know he’s doing what I considered to be taboos for me which is charging women money to have sexual penetrative intercourse with them above all without protection and making that into a to me that’s not a scalable business model and you can ask your doctor wife but Barney I mean I get it and I get that that’s the love thing being cultivated generated so I think I don’t know whether I consider that good pressure bad press for modern Neo Tantra or what not but I’d love to have them on the podcast I’m sure it’s going to happen and I can’t say that I was a fan of the art form of Barney the purple dinosaur but but but I would love to get to the full story and also talked about the ethics and this medical the medical duty of care that comes with sexual and pinch of intercourse with anybody so anyway that’s the sad but who were talking about okay what if you were intrigued and maybe turned on by me talking about these erotic circuit boards then you also have to be somewhat red-flagged and starting to cringe and go where how old is this get arranged in what are the incentives and how do you how do you manage the Eagles and how do you who’s in charge it’s like you can’t it’s a scary thing but you wouldn’t work but that’s why when I went when I say what I realized for me the aha moment in my sexual career was that if I want to have out-of-the-box sex I have to pay lots of money for it from professionals who have trained her nervous system to do theater performance of sexuality as escorts or as Dom’s or as porn performers because they’re good sports they’re not spoil Sports about any of the stuff for the most part if they’re treated well and respected and then contracts are here too and they know what they’re getting into and hopefully they’ve matured and hopefully their brain has developed to its full capacity IE the age that it takes to actually I don’t say that to you exactly so you better know there’s a dimension of Ethics when it comes to harvesting teenagers for your for whatever Annette and I have had some of the best sex in my life as a 30 year old being fucked up fucked senseless by teenager in a row in a monogamous relationship and I will I will tell you that it’s it some it was worth the daddy issues that I had to deal with it was worth reparenting her and it was worth every bit of emotional kind of awkwardness that there wasn’t some of the an Amex because she was such a good full spirited Prime late night it was funny cuz I was like I want to settle you down and basically like I could teach your making a kid with ADHD sit in class is like no she wants to fuck wildly she wants you to perform more than you possibly ever could even at 30 and and she and she is not she doesn’t need these esoteric practices too heavy multi-orgasmic she’s fucking coming or brains out like so hard and I and I couldn’t sit her down the aisle still enough to do any of the practices that I thought were going to be so enlightening and went in the great thing is is it a fuck it like it is certain point you just say no guru there’s a song about it’s like no guru no no scripture No play just in the Dow of the thing so anyway so that’s a side note to say there is a sacred place for adult for fully mature brain develop adults to be having sex with teenagers and and I know that it can be done because I’ve done it but it also takes you can’t just treat them like a commodity please you got to you got to think about pedagogy Nikki learned from the person that you’re teaching teaches you things to like a circle so then so we’re talking about these ethics and where I wanted to just close that point about how I do my best to not be a cult leader I thought I figured it out pretty simply and correct me if I’m wrong but basically it’s it’s I dare you to to indict me for the the criminal and civil liability of misconduct for for for structuring a certain way so this is how I this is this is very simple as this is like this I said that this is a different the difference from a cult leader is that I’m a porn director I pay women to be directed and then I pay whoever I want to I will I will I will choose performers who I resonate with for whatever we would like to do together to make beautiful art and and I will compensate them and pay them to take time out of their lives to be a part of my design and to be directed by me they’re not paying me for healing for enlightenment for direction for guidance and I’m directing them and Meghan gratifying myself and taking their money in convincing mind fucking them and taking more of their money and more than money until they don’t talk to their friends because of and that’s how Colts are basically extractive from their students the colors are extracting from their devotees the difference is how many colors do you know that actually give their devotees money I will pay you oh now I’m making corned a porn director and I am more karmically correct than the fucking Guru who is fucking having people kiss his feet and take your money so who would have thought that the corn directors were the most enlightening Yogi’s to ever attempt to be divine and I have my favorites and I’m a fan of some of them I want I want to see the names but right now but that cuz I wouldn’t want to leave any out you know what I mean bless you all for paying people to direct them into your Twisted fucking fantasies and giving them that dignity like hats of their not wondering about it cuz there’s that was having a conversation today it’s like a buyer’s remorse if I say to you I’m just saying if you remember when you had to if you were old enough to know that there was a day when when when your allowance equals one CD for $15 so humorous if you never had experience this is important I think this is important teaching is important teachable moment is that is that and I don’t want to be today. Take care no man’s planning anything in them to have fun here but this is like this is this is late so here’s the funny thing though you think about I remember what it was like when I had to convince myself that amusing that a CD that fucking sucked was actually good because I paid money for it and I would not let myself suffer the indignity of having made a mistake so I was in a state of denial and delusion so so so feeling this isn’t meditation okay everybody think of something that you paid money for that you discovered was in the zoo is suboptimal and you used mental gymnastics to convince yourself that you actually liked it even though you knew deeply that you didn’t like it but it was called buyer’s remorse it was called the sunk cost fallacy of sunk cost fallacy is that because you invested something into this you have to continue beyond the point of no return because you can’t live with yourself other ways so that is this Twisted perverse placebo effect that happens when it’s like I went to the sex guru to get healed and he said for 9999 I would get here and but I but I could also upsell to the bonus extra double healing deluxe super Cosmic Crystal trademark excetera right thing and try before you buy money back guarantee accessories that you’re all of his legal he’s in fine print all the stuff but there is but that’s where it is we’re expecting to have some result that you paid money for and you will question whether or not okay did I was a hole in my heel did I pay enough money to pay more and some money and it is it distorts things and you did it it did contaminated in a way for that so I’m skeptical that I can be done right in that sense and that’s just me so what I say let’s work in the garden together my time equals your time and now we’re planting trees equals an hour of Yoni massage your prostate massage and therefore it’s a flat equal everybody has the same it’s his first come first serve you know and orgasms for work shirts that was my hand jobs for Humanity and helping a tree with two or so you’ll see it yeah it’s a white paper was written so is he ever gets faster so so that’s how I’m not going to be a cult leader is that I’m not going to charge people money to be Pawns in my game of or are you going to be players in my Game of Thrones Township Township twister you will get paid handsomely to be in my theater my game of Township twister and you can quit you can get any time you know that’s that’s that’s the thing to you won’t be like oh if I walk away now you know that then where I’m not like what I paid for I’m I’m already invested so much forever so so many different dynamics of of incentivization happening in this thing is so anyway that that was I think it is important to lay that out and and this is probably the first time I’ve articulated it on the podcast but I just was having this conversation today with this answer the CD metaphor thing where it’s like you know it did that it’s it’s a problem that way so so that’s I will not be extracting money from people in that in that way I’d rather pay them to be in my in my Productions and feel better about it that way so getting back to the fun stuff in the production itself so imagining that that would be the way from now on where I’m like if you want to that’s basically what I just described about that circuit of three people as a minimum to starting point is like that is the that is first base now you know that’s first base because getting into the circuitry of actual intercourse that’s where it required that’s where we get into the medical the medical responsibilities aspects and we get into more of the karmic sharing we’re really swapping scum he’s on an astral level at that point more so than if it’s an outercourse thing and you can’t go back once you know I don’t want to sound like a prepaid only sound like a six- future but but they were right about this mean you’re not wrong about everything they’ve had no sex for anybody ever. Is not the solution to people having sexually transmitted demons running rampant all over the place and it’s about making them your friends and making them work for you not against you and making them expose themselves properly and in you know where it’s not a pure realm we are not going to be perfectly protected in fear we can strive for that and we can use Kundalini and Prana and mantras and all of our medicines in purgatives and things to create a cleaner vessel to make more harmonious more resonance more signal-to-noise ratio and that is what to me this is all about and why we are missing out so badly to not be like I see this if God is wanted you got it for not created to nipples I can’t suck both nipples at the same time I tried some women I can do it on I’ve done it and you can do it some women is possible but for the most part so what does that mean what are you do do you limit God or do you just find someone else to be on the left or right side of you you know what is the big deal so when I think about this math equation how many erotic how many out of the box meaning not really the selective like subjective nuanced little erogenous zones that people get overtime in our lives but the out-of-the-box everybody is wired this way count how many erogenous zones you have and how what is the minimum number of mouse penis and genitals or fingers are human appendages required to simultaneously stimulate all those places it’s more than one person I can tell you that much you know so I just want us to start there and be creative in 2N to learn how to understand that we’re missing out and we should be wanting to gamify maximizing human potential for orgasmic pleasure because that is exorcism orgasm equals exorcism in some cultures who are Les Les Mis Sara Lee poetic about the floury discourse of symbols about sex life like a Latin American Shaman is said about her sexuality in the end in her how she explained why monogamous marriage was not really a thing in a culture that permitted extramarital sex and it was that in her mind and I am not going to say her name to cool her but I will say to paraphrase the essence of this wisdom is that to her mind it was just like an orgasm is like taking out the trash and that is not that’s not to say that it is mundane or a chore it is that it is a responsibility of hygiene in your household of your body Temple you need to have orgasms they need to be fulfilling need to get the job done and that is the exorcism aspect of it so the howling screeching all of these things that are considered that witches were burned forming figli sounds that those are the sounds of actual Holiness the set of holy the sound of Holiness is a woman’s orgasm and so let’s make those come more abundantly and let’s utilize map map the erogenous zones out of the box and then map the additional ones that are my favorite song and when you talk to me like this and this certain place I’m in the back of my head there whatever and then everyone has their own map so we can learn each other’s maps and if you don’t know your own map then you can ask people to help you there’s people who would love to lick and kiss and touch you and head to toe to find and explore you and and from a breasted state of consciousness D nice and yes I like to will you bring out the best in me that’s all I think that’s all you guys add that I can’t top that is the way to end so then really that was we didn’t even know that we put the icing on the motherfuking cake by saying you bring out the Best in Me so there was a documentary about at the peak of my desire to become a a rock star in the the crust Punk metal genre grindcore all that fun stuff I was studying that I wanted to understand and clock the music industry so I was watching every documentary I could find understanding music marketing and all the stuff and then I found this great documentary about about Jimi Hendrix and and I believe it was his fiance at a time who later became his wife if I remember correctly and she was talking about the time where he was building momentum and getting lots of gigs but still underground and she said something that stuck with me forever and if this moment which is it basically the hidden tension was used turn Express yeah we we all knew he was going to get sign or we all knew that you was going to take off he was going to blow up and so she said it was just about if someone puts put the icing on the motherfuking cake you know and I know and I felt that we we’re ready for that and we did some we had some we had some ice and get put on a motherfuking cake we did you get you always want more but I look back and I don’t think we could handle more so we got what we got and now I’m on a different I have a different cake I have a different cake mix and I don’t know if it’s that time I don’t know if it’s time to put the icing on the cake or not yeah I don’t know I mean the cake it’s getting cold she heard it mean if you’d if anyone has icing out there can it please be stevia-sweetened go Steven Johnson I don’t know how to hack them will work on that today I know it’s actually what I heard is that it’s a weird additive that they used to cut it because it’s so super sweet that you would basically died of sweetness if you didn’t like the step on it with some other things so I think that’s why I love growing Stevia and having a leaf to munch on and put in the tea because then you know is nothing else being put into it and it’s just as powerful you don’t really need to if you had the the live leaves one leaf enough will be enough to knock your head off for an hour so yeah I know on that snow yeah we’re going to put this devious fresh leave puree motherfuking icing on the cake I will put the icing on my own motherfuking cake that reminds me in 1 minute I just when I thought we couldn’t go out with a bigger bang this is going to be at because there was a a ritual ceremonial I called we called apart emoni where was the Psychedelic birthday party and we smeared cake all over each other and had to basically devour for the birthday gal of her own cake and it was just nipples and asses and I wanted to be in after from there I was my breasts Elsa. Playing for sure that brother and brother best me for sure but that when I got to put the icing on cake my damn self so don’t let anyone fucking tell you that you’re not none of me if you feel like it I mean I think we’re done I just can’t I’m going to fucking drop my phone right now when I might drop my phone on the couch citizen of the count but oh shit it’s next level add icy Cipher geise that’s going to have some cake with that icing okay thank you for listening to the touch upon podcast please go to www.drudgereport.com and cook on the Donate button to help support the show in addition is to see me and if you want a podcast for donations will help establish permaculture goddess temples every bite ecological employment for single mothers Please Subscribe and share your favorite episodes if you have questions or comments feel free to leave a voicemail at 818-275-1593 or email been at Tantra Punk. Com Thomas Day

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oṃ bhūr bhuvaḥ svaḥ
tatsaviturvareṇyaṃ
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Proof of Love Ep. 7 Tantric Sex with Ben Tantra Punk Rebroadcast TPP193

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Ben Tantra Punk PicIn this episode I share a rebroadcast of my interview on the Proof of Love podcast, below is the original show notes, please subscribe to Proof of Love!

What can one say about a crypto tantric episode other than wow.  This is our spiciest Proof of Love yet! Ben Tantra Punk joined Stephanie and I to discuss this ancient practice.  In between a few laughs and blushes, we get a great overview of tantric lovemaking, how it’s different from regular lovemaking, the history of why there is tantric sex in the first place, and the joys of the female orgasm.  We went a bit over on time, but I don’t think you will mind with this subject matter! We need more love in our lives, and this episode will show you how to put some of these teachings into practice, even if calling each other goddess in bed is a little uncomfortable.

About the Guests:

Ben Tantra Punk is a sex worker, feminist porn performer, certified permaculture designer, certified tantric counselor, author, film maker, and recording artist. He’s found healing and empowerment through sacred loving arts, ecological gardening, shamanism, ecstatic trance dancing, martial arts, and open source technology. His ongoing independent short film series, Sexorcism the Tantric Opera, was launched in early 2017. It tells his story of recovery from childhood sexual trauma, adolescent sex trafficking, and the path of a wounded healer. His first book, Psychedelic Goddess Worship: Erotic Memoirs from the Astral Battlefield, is planned for release in late 2019.

He loves to help tantric seekers discover the infinite source of divine love from above, the eternal power and wisdom from the Earth below, and the bliss of conscious, healthy, diverse romantic relationships in between. He provides private coaching and counseling sessions online and in-person, and teaches publicly via livestream on the Ethereum powered SpankChain camsite at: https://beta.spankchain.com/TantraPunk His writings, music, podcasts, videos and contact info can be found at https://www.TantraPunk.com.

Do you have a burning question, or a show idea for us?  Please email us at tatiana@proofoflovecast.com!

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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin podcast episode number 194 I am being joined by Brian s gross of BSG public relations and he is such a jaw-dropping about page I just decided I really do this but I decided I definitely want to read this to really put the context in here because with with it that the merging of the technology space in the adult industry space and actually to give a little bit of backstory on this we connected now it’s been about 4 years or so since first actually started putting out a press release and seeking really advisement and consult consultation within the the the pr companies within the adult industry to see if there was any possibility to get some traction doing this sort of shamanic pornography and feminist porn kind of brand that I’ve been trying to develop mixing my music and video production and ethics and politics into media and so I have really been kind of putting The Feelers out into the space and Brian gave me some feedback back in the day and we have serendipitously reconnected recently and so I thought why not let’s have a butt supposed to connect in in this podcast domain and again I’m astounded by what he’s accomplished in some of the parallels in our Journeys here so I’m just going to go ahead and read the about page and then we’ll get started with the interview so Jared is BSG public relations takes a precise and strategic approach to promoting all facets of entertainment and efficient and motivated staff handles everything from intricate details of executive with City to positioning our clientele within compelling and effective media campaigns Street marketing teams and Creative Marketing efforts BSG public relations handles all avenues of communication is bringing your study to approach to marketing media and public relations with Creative Solutions that furthers the message & image of our clients we handle everything from the intricate details of executive publicity to positioning clients with compelling media campaigns we look to broaden and brand artist companies and products multi-level publicity campaigns combined with knowledge and background in every facet of entertainment media and communication the most importantly always putting the client first Brian Gross president of BSG PR has been in the service of media and public relations for over 26 years gross has been employed by company said Steve American recordings Warner Brothers records reprise records Elektra Entertainment Group Vivid Entertainment Group and such organizations as the Lollapalooza tour Brian Gross was an executive producer for Rio TX the search for Adam and Eve his background includes all facets of public and media relations working with some of the largest businesses celebrities and music acts in the world Brian thank you so much for joining me on the podcast and please tell us all about your personal Journey how did you get into this position of such influence and expertise school is my senior year and I’m a I’m a big Sports person as well and I was not good enough to make the varsity basketball team but wound up helping out with the younger teams and I want to getting fired for verbally assaulting a referee who completely screwed up a game and all of a sudden I had free time and I literally took out my CD collection which I know that sounds so funny in this day and age but went through it and started calling record labels and pretty much got blown off by many of them because I was a senior in high school they were looking for college kids and one label an independent label def American the girl who answered the phone was in the PR department and she still one of my best friends to the stay cuz she called she I said come in for an interview and before I knew it I was driving after school three days a week from Newbury Park California to Burbank to make press kits and learn all about the music industry well that is exciting so what were some of the what what are some of the bands in an album is like what were you into at the time I was definitely a classic rock kid a NuWave and I just wasn’t you know I was sort of what the radio fed me so you know I hadn’t really branched out as far as my music likings were concerned and you know early 90s you know 90 to 91 92 you realize just how there was no such a divided because you know really popular stuff was extremely poppy you were on the end of sort of the metal era you had this grunge thing happening you had this sort of underground music thing happening you had punk rock obviously happening but I grew up in the suburbs and and it just didn’t resonate with me at the time you know then you go to a record label and you start going through the CDs and you just start this massive Discovery and bands walk in and you meet people and you spend time with artists and musicians and it just completely through open a world that I was you know I was aware but I wasn’t aware to that extent and it was pretty exciting to just see the variety especially at this specific record label the variety of of music that was being put out and and how exciting it was awesome so from there so what how to tell us the story of how you evolved from the doing stuff mostly in the music and more and more General entertainment business into the adult industry which I see you have a lot of accolades from so I I mean I work my way up in the record industry from 93 to 99 I I was took a couple internships than an assistant job than a West Coast tour tour publicist West Coast Regional tour publicist job and then I saw what Napster was doing and I realized you know as a as a low man on the totem pole in the satellite office for record label I better figure something out and literally fell in my lap where two people one of which had this specific that had this position and and the other was the brother of the owner of the company hit me up and said hey you know you should interview for this job that’s going to open up to be the head of PR and marketing for a company called Vivid which I was obviously very familiar with as a young male and so the money was a lot more and the opportunity was there and it was just one of those things I was 23 and I wasn’t going to say no I couldn’t pass it up so I became the head of PR and marketing for Vivid Entertainment in the spring of 99 while you were busy absorbing all of this until from the corporate world and very established Enterprises and then you’re building essentially what will become your your own personal company and brand can you tell us about some of the some of the lessons you learned some of the highlights of of your journey along that way if kind of building your own becoming an entrepreneur as opposed to an employee working for Stephen her she had a very hands-off approach you know he wanted me to practice the way I had learned doing publicity at the record labels and bring that same approach to the adult film stars that were under contract with this company and to the company itself so I really had this sort of open book of you no opportunities and and and really just publicizing a a massive brand his thing was don’t spend any money which you know you laugh at but it was pretty when you when you eliminate budgets and you have to be creative that’s that made you have to work relationships in and put ideas out there and look for opportunities that I think in this day and age we wouldn’t even think twice about it but at the time we’re pretty groundbreaking you know so you know what that in mind it just became abaa I learned so much from that that when I went on my own I took sort of his entrepreneurship of run Dino of starting and running a massive adult entertainment company with what I learned is being a publicist and I’m just sort of found my way I had some incredible mentors the forest publicist go ahead incredible mentors who you know I went to when I started my company said how to what am I doing how do I do this you know and they were so giving and and so just easy you know so open Armon and I’m just taught me so much in a really short. Of time to where I was just off and running and getting clients and doing what I’ve been doing what I could I mean for me getting up every day and doing my job isn’t necessarily hard and I think I’m fortunate that I have that s Ellison and work ethic that I know is very challenging for many people but you know I just learned quickly I could get a lot of clients and and synergize and and do a lot for them and and just sort of Broad and from there awesome yeah I’m having flashbacks to reading a book called guerrilla marketing back when I was doing start up stuff and and it really did get a budget mattered so you had to teach you had to be creative and you had to think out-of-the-box so I can I can resonate with that and I remember one of a CEO for a company I work for has said you know the difference if there’s a difference between marketing and PR and marketing is what you say about yourself in PR is what other people say about you and you really really want to have that that perspective that that’s where the third person perspective in your printing and copying in to have it buffering so that the artists and the company’s don’t aren’t doing all of that he’s some kind of damage control I guess you could say and sometimes they just that stuff that Shameless self-promotion that people people can see through it on the on the receiving end and then on the giving end you’d rather not be tooting your own horn so much so it’s a really vital function that you play in the in the ecosystem of have any kind of business and I love to hear about just soap for people who aren’t that well versed in what a publicist does it would appear our company does tell us about the sort of day today and I’m kind of break it down for people who might not know famous for a living right you know the longer sort of breakdown of that is you know celebrities Brands companies hire a publicist to get there messaging in there and what they have to sell out there to the media which is then you know red watched listen to buy hopefully millions and increases sales increases exposure and increases the the growth of of whatever the brand or the company or the person is so it’s an aspect of marketing but it’s solely deals with sort of the public Persona and then obviously the media which radio TV print and online are the four basics of that and obviously they in this day and age you know what you know podcast would kind of be filed under radio but it’s also online it’s audio but there’s there can be a video component that can be a a written component so you have a lot of Lines Blurred when it comes to the media nowadays and I just think for me it’s important for my clients in this day and age there’s so much opportunity there so many ways to get your message out there and you know me and you know my team and and myself we look to find those opportunities finals relationships and and do everything we can for clients to to accomplish the goals that they have female except for us how’s your job gotten more difficult at all or more challenging in the age of social media where you have the potential for celebrities to put their foot in their mouth to and create these Mega backlashes online that you kind of do have to do some some damage control on that do you have any thoughts what the the social media landscape has done for your industry herself you know social media gives you a way to do a more immediate Outreach but sometimes you have to be careful clients have to be careful what they say out there you know what I work more left-of-center stuff where you know I’m not working conservative projects that you know they have to be really careful what they say but certainly at I work with clients that you know we talked about messaging and we talked about what they put out there and make sure we’re on the right we’re on the right track and we’re in agreement and on the right path but I think social media you know I think it’s it’s positive it’s certainly a life-changing things it certainly has changed the landscape of society and and whatnot on a larger scale but you’re not the end of the day we all are just fascinated by other people and they do so it just open doors opens doors in that respect what do you know actually makes me think about how it made some sense you talking about Dimension to have the image of Tower Records on Sunset and I’m just the decline of the record industry and all of the digitization of all kinds of media and how that took a big chunk out of profits for a lot of folks in an industry but when I based on what you were just say no actually realized you might think that the same thing would happen to PR once people could become demigod celebrities on social media by themselves but the reality is they probably need to hire a publicist more than ever because you need that filter right you need that you need someone to advise you on on the strategies of how you express yourself because it’s so easy to just fire something off that just Neo take sweat they say it could take 5 years to build a career in 5 seconds to destroy rights and all I would add to it is you know you need you need someone in my position when you have something that is so public and you need someone that can help you because a lot of times there is a lot of Crisis and a lot of people don’t know what to do and we’ve certainly witnessed over the years when when things go wrong or how you know when things are handled poorly and you know we live at a time where the media is constantly attacked so they’re going to attack that so you want to be on the right side of things and you want you know if you want to handle your media aspect as professionals possible and it’s there are challenges you know I’m not a brain surgeon this isn’t brain surgery by any any respect but it’s an important part of the marketing and sales aspect and the overall brand awareness of who you are and what you’re trying to accomplish yeah I think that was a good real basic intro and overview and just kind of hammers hammers in that this part of the ecosystem of success as a creative artist is not is not going away in or should it and so it was it is a breath of fresh air and I think about it a lot I think about a lot how how to moderate myself and there’s a lot of fear and and hesitation in this climate of you know you can really you can really put your foot in your mouth so I I I think it says probably at yeah it’s it’s been on my mind you know this whole your sector of industry and where it’s at so this is timely for me until I guess I would say to be somewhat selfish for a moment here with the last few minutes I would say that I guess bringing this back to what my my unique value proposition is to the world as my representing myself and my brain really it is I guess it is kind of element in a way I’m saying sexuality and pornography and all forms of of music and art they can all actually be very healing and very therapeutic and there’s almost a bias against that because people sometimes in some sense people want to just have really either extremely kind of edgy entertainment that just gets them off sexually or titillates them or sort of just appeals to that Hollywood sense of just completely not necessarily that intentional or that healing or that spiritual and so there’s kind of a bias against what I’m offering which could be seen his kind of all you’re you’re just a goody-two-shoes you’re kind of a mama’s boy you want people to be meditating and doing yoga and actually it might my sort of reply to that that biases that actually know what what some of the practices that are done in shamanic Sexual Healing Sarah on your work are actually equally if not more extreme and in and actually riveting and and put you on the edge of your seat as is anything that would be considered danzo or Triple X Ino Xtreme Hardcore and it really is Hardcore to be doing some of the more spiritual aspects of sexuality so when I I put out a press release I don’t know if that was the one that you saw or if that was a wet what the time frame was around that but I would just say to you do you think there is a niche for what would I would call shamanic pornography or porn that intense did not only educate but also to promote healing and healing from trauma and and what not yours if not longer you know when I first got in the industry as far as adult entertainment goes is very one-dimensional especially the media coverage and it was all about getting eyeballs because you could use the word pornography in a way that you know people be like oh what what it what are they going to talk about and then then then there was a change in the change happened when media like Vice came along and media like BuzzFeed and and other media that said to a certain extent and we’re not going to just treat this as one-dimensional because it isn’t a one-dimensional discussion it is in a one-dimensional product you know as as the adult industry expanded I found it interesting that the media expanded in their coverage and you have certainly the negatives does the word in general is certainly looked at in a negative way and I rarely use it I say it because of that is once you say that word and it’s you know maybe one day it’ll be changed or looked at not as this glaring sing but as a form of entertainment form of Education a form of you know healing as as you as you work on but the media look to do more coverage and be more multi-dimensional and to what you’re trying to accomplish and what you’re doing what you’re doing and what you’re trying to accomplish to my point is you can find media that’s not easy but you can find people you can find writers you can find me there you can find public entities you can find people that will want to discover what you are doing and will want to make others aware and will want to build the foundation and build a fanbase in and build a unit around it so which is not the issue these days the issues speed of time and the issue is just sort of the you know overwhelming amount of media that we deal with everyday especially in our current political climate where we’re being overdosed with one piece of toxic news after another and end toxic not men the political fashion just met met you know we’re bombarded with different types of briefs and stories and just aspects of life that can that are just so fast and furious and you’re trying to fit in there you know you’re almost trying to swim upstream and place you know place your story on a rock while well water keeps hitting in the face so I I I constantly am taking on opportunities and clients and different types of niches and different types of products and different types of stories because I know who’s to say that I know what a media person will want to write about or not I don’t what I do is I give them the opportunity and I find out hey is this is this interesting do you want to do this do you want to cover this and it’s yes or no or mid might be a maybe or they’re on the fence or they’ll think about it and we did we discuss it and see what happens so it’s just a the media is a constant River at its its 24/7 its domestic and international you know stories can break anywhere in the world and then just travel the speed of light and around the globe and become as you know become viral so it’s just a it’s just the the effort and the Mine Song of people in your position as to am I ready to take this Challenge on I’ve something Niche I’ve something unique but I think it’s important and and how do I get it out there and and what you know how many people can I turn on to what I have to build from from where I’m at well those are profound words of wisdom and I’ve got chills because I know that at some point I have I’ve got two to cross that and make that leap of faith sand and be willing to be criticized and be willing to be sued and be willing to be all kinds of things and having that team and I feel like the podcast has been a tool to to kind of build that team and to know if there is a you know what keeps me up at night is what happens if there is an influx of capital what if there is a viral content piece that get 50 goes out and it’s not that you become rich and famous overnight at you is that you become suddenly under the microscope and you need to know about compliance with a lot of things and so that that’s my Virgo mind getting getting very sort of The Fearless aspect where I try not to overthink even though it’s impossible but I just I just try and push you know you just you know I I’ve constantly at a career of why not you know why not internet a record label why not internet another one why not drop out of school you know cuz it was just wasting time and money you know and then why not become an assistant why not become a tour publicist why not go to an adult entertainment company Why not start your own PR Company why not work with Gene Simmons you know it’s you know if you can answer why not then there’s no reason you know and you know we always I’m a Star Wars junkie and I think you might be in the same generation or not but we all sort of live by the the words until the age of of Yoda and so you try not you do or you don’t you do not but you just don’t try to go for it and you know there’s certainly you you think things out and they’re processing is calculated risk and what not but I’ve always another mindset where if you if you’re if you’re thinking too much about it then it’s just time wasted you know you’re not pushing forward and what you’re trying to accomplish but once you get past that you know and and you’re not going to know if I sitting around thinking you’ll never know if it takes off or not you just won’t it is the action and it is the risk that you have to eunos put out there and find out if you have something or not and you know I definitely I’ve had all kinds of clients I really have and I’ve had successes clients it succeeded sold our company and made lots of money and I have clients that failed you know but it just nothing worked and Company disbanded and I’ve got you know hundreds of files of clients over 19 years and but they all they all went for it you know wherever they are you know there’s somewhere you know that they took a risk and even when I produced a reality show you know what they say it was a risk I was a two-year process to even get to production but once you know once we decide we’re going to do it my partners and I at the time of that production company we just put her head down and we weren’t going to give up and we got the parties involved then it did well could have done better but it did well exist in there broke a lot of ground but it’s definitely important you know there’s just that dividing line of doing something and in what it is that hold you back from from going for it yeah I hear you there is just kind of wrap up here to respect your time and then I will just say that again More Chills and more of just that that cause mcnab’s you know there was there is one Flagship I guess I would say it was for me was like the pilot episode of the series that I’m doing now it’s called sexorcism the tantric Opera twitch wow Google Keyword that I want to fully on because a lot of without weather so I can get is an album is a band that did an album called sexorcism there’s there’s a kind of I don’t know if it’s play with the idea but but what I’m bringing to it is it is definitely from a pure-hearted place of sincere documentarian work and so hopefully that’s I think what’s going to be what I would put money into an invest in to try to get some some media coverage on and I’ve been a little bit shy about it now for a couple of years just wanting to not be the one to push that in people’s faces but that’s exactly the layer of buffer that I need of someone to say hey look take it or leave it this is what this guy’s doing here it is and if I can have that someone like you help me with that then I think it’ll be it’ll be a dream come true so we will we will talk offline about what your thoughts are for the trajectory of a project like that but I would love to discuss obviously well and I look forward to having that discussion and obviously I appreciate being on your podcast in and you know getting to have this kind of discussion I think I ain’t got to a certain extent I think people you’re right don’t really understand publicity and public relations and media relations and you know marketing to a full extent but I think it’s you know having the conversation and getting the opportunity to talk about it even one person goes wow that’s interesting I want to I want to know what that career is you know something I’m always interested in doing it you know making people aware of the career and path I chose the life I chose and you know going from there well I’m sure there’s a lot of people who would say as they received the rewards that they couldn’t have done it without you and so hopefully I will be able to join those ranks sooner rather than later and again and again thank you for reaching out to me as very synchronistic yeah let’s let’s be in touch do you want to tell people where to find where to find your work and just yeah side BSG pr.com and my Twitter and my Instagram RBS GPR and it’s financials at when I made the company name it was like well we’ll just Brian Scott gross of my name and BSG are my initials and public relations and it was just a simple as that so I guess I was another thing I learned of like trying to keep you know keep it linear and you’re hiring me and so that’s where a Vsepr came from awesome alright will Brian thank you again so much that I had a great time and can’t wait to get to know you better and move on from here so thank you so much again and have a great afternoon thank you you as well look forward to catching up with you again real soon all right take care of podcast please go to www.crunch.com and cook on the Donate button to help support the show in addition to sustaining and improving the podcast for donations will help establish permaculture goddess temples every bite ecological employment for single mothers Please Subscribe and share your favorite episodes if you have questions or comments feel free to leave a voicemail at 818-275-1593 or email bad at Tantra Punk. 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Sexorcism the Tantric Opera Episode 11 “Psychedelic Goddess Worship”


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Durga Mantra for the Distressed and Oppressed


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Sharannaagata-Diina-Aarta-Paritraanna-Paraayanne
Sarvasy-Aarti-Hare Devi Naaraayanni Namostu Te

Meaning:
Salutations to You, O Jagadamba) You are Intent upon Rescuing the Distressed and the Oppressed who take Your Refuge whole-heartedly,
and Remove All their Sufferings; Salutations to You O Narayani

Sexorcism the Tantric Opera Episode 10 “Warrior Goddess”


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She’s not easy prey
Holding pepper spray
Scanning her surrounds
Ready to stand her ground

Repelled by wild screams
Can’t get within arms reach
Rape artists beware
Fights like a momma bear

Predators
Will be on the run
Now that
She’s got a gun

You will learn
To stay away
Now that
Her dog is trained

Warrior goddess
Righteous rage, counter-offense
Warrior goddess
Fighting back, sacred violence

Our typical date
Is firing at the range
Then we hit the pads
And work on hand to hand

Fighting back to back
Loving eye to eye
Together we feel safe
Our love we fortify

Sexorcism the Tantric Opera Episode 08 “The Politics of Yoni Worship”


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Let the women lead
Worship their Yonis

It’s time for you to relinquish your crown
Your warriors must gracefully stand down
5,000 years of patriarchal rule
Make way for divine feminine renewal

Brothers now hear me
Let the women lead
Get down on your knees
Bow at their feet

Empires are infested with evil
Demonic realm disguised as your top people
You’ll be tied down for shamanic exorcism
You’ll surrender all your power back to women

Put down your war toys
Be men, not small boys
Learn to love like Gods
Violence must be stopped

Words of Praise for my First Tantra Initiatrix Rhoda Shapiro TPP154

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In this episode I read a guest blog post I wrote for my first tantra initiatrix Rhoda Jordan. She has been one of the most powerful and influential tantra teachers of my life and it’s an honor to share about the many ways that she’s informed and guided my path.

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http://rhodajordan.com/

About Rhoda:
Rhoda Shapiro is a Tantric Educator, a Spiritual Teacher, a writer, and a speaker. She teaches meditation workshops, seasonal rituals, and women’s circles in the San Francisco Bay Area.

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Daring to be Present with De Vie Weinstock TPP94

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In this episode I’m joined by de Vie Weinstock, a Consciousness Catalyst who teaches people to dare to be present with the wholeness of their being. We explore the vastness of ancient tantric lore and philosophy as well as the practicality of personal tantric practice beyond the genitals. Together we discover new hopes for positive transformation and conscious evolution!

About de Vie:

“What can be said about consciousness that has chosen to devote itself to an endless intimacy with presence? Devotion to the truth is not confined the stories of the world, or the stories of success. Who are we when we go beyond the stories —which are, after all, only stories? Then we are left with the conscious experience of this moment, whatever it may be. We are left with the unadulterated wholeness of the self, as it is, in ‘the world’ as it is.”

Under what conditions will you allow yourself to embrace truth? Through her Dare to Be Present® service, de Vie offers connection, support, & guidance on this path we are all on back to wholeness. Participants have experienced meditational inspiration and guidance as well as healing of chronic conditions such as stress and anxiety. In a world that still recklessly invests in the false appeal of endless stories, we have this opportunity to connect in reality, on the fertile ground of The Now. de Vie can be reached through her site at:

http://www.DareToBePresent.com/

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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin hello dear beloved welcome to Township Punk podcast episode number 94 I am on Skype with 2 V Weinstock of dare to be present. Calm and she is a Consciousness Catalyst and we have been dialoguing over various social media platforms for a while now and she’s blessed me to have listened to a number of my podcasts and I’m always open to especially folks who are for putting in some time to listen to The Back catalogue so to speak you have to actually bring perspectives and and really fill in blanks in and always just bring their own and treat it like an open Forum so I appreciate the vu4 for reaching out and wanted to share I’m not I will I will let you fully describe your intentions and first if you would just start off by telling us a bit about your background and and your offerings and then we can talk about your desire to bring some of your perspectives into this form so with that said please go ahead tiny here and what I offer it’s called dare to be present and I work with people in supporting them in their process of Awakening and I feel we’re all in some sort of process of Awakening cuz it doesn’t end and I feel it’s a kind of evolutionary imperative if we make it collectively revolutionary Drive evolutionary drive and I’m here to support people consciously and intentionally in that process and it grows out of my own experience in studies really extensive studies and very much my own experience which is relevant because I’m pointing people back to their own experience were in a culture that is extremely mind focused and it’s basically awarded to be disengaged from our own experience and get all kinds of book knowledge I went to Harvard so I’ve got that whole book knowledge academic first-hand story and that just being a peek example of where our culture is at of overvaluing the analytical knowledge part of the mind to the detriment of the absolutely essential lived experience so my lived experience beyond all the studies I’ve done relevant to what I offer is that I’ve literally been in a state of meditation for over 20 years so extremely deep immersion into meditation very extreme time I’ve been in the world through that I have not gone and become a Hermit in the Himalayas I am chosen to be on that path of meditation immersion in the world which is not easy but it’s also related to the topic of your podcast on your work of Tantra because Contra is the hole so the path of Tantra is not going to say oh well if you’re a spiritual person you should have been the world in terms of what I offer I work with people one-on-one I sometimes offer groups I work with them in person in Ohio or in the Ohio area sometimes in LA and also over the Internet with video or over the phone and it’s there’s talking there’s some meditation it’s basically giving guidance into what is the person’s next step and next steps in Awakening to their precious inner being around Tantra I’d like to say when I when it’s appropriate that the sexuality Pieces Just one-seventh of the major chakra pie so I think nothing it’s seems bloated or over-represented in the so-called West in some people would say it’s because people are obsessed with it and other people say it’s because that’s where the the triage of the wounding is most needed so that the sort of the healing of the second chakra is what the West needs more than other places that say in the world might need it or other cultures might need it so yeah you were you have some sort of feelings in in opinions and I guess I don’t know if it would be like a form of A Treatise but by all means would be great to have a new perspective on balancing the balancing of the did the different modalities in in currents of energy within the ton truck systems Stout is to talk for a perspective that isn’t necessarily focused on the sexual act like in the service I offer I don’t mention Tantra anywhere and it doesn’t get into sex at all unless it’s something that a person is concerned about her asking about in which case it’s simply talking about it so just to be clear in terms of how I work with people that being said why I reached out is because there is this understandable but none the less worth pointing out overemphasis in the West in terms of Tantra that well it’s like a special way by having sex right and as you’re pointing out yeah that is valid but it’s also leaving Chris Watts leaving certain people because if someone has that preconception which is very easy to have then they’re like well I’m single or I don’t have anyone to do this with or like there is a self-limiting thing based on that perception of well I can’t engage in the path of Tantra because sex is not available to me which is a lot of people even if sex is available then whether or not is Tantra good question so there’s this other piece which goes well what is Tantra regardless of whether quote-unquote physical sex is in the picture not not to dismiss physical sex but the one word that sums up Tantra is yes it’s like the simplest explanation of Tantra because it’s a spiritual path and it’s a spiritual path that is not going down the division trip and so many spiritual paths are still doing that plenty of yoga pass or doing that I mean I’ve been at these meetings at these circles and I see it first-hand of a spiritual trip of let be divided and at war with ourselves and so the largest view of Tantra is it’s all included we don’t have to try to cut off certain aspects of herself and that’s why sex is emphasized because historically it’s been so cut off it still cut off and still is still very cut off but I think that’s part of why it gets emphasized because it’s one of the most glaring examples of an aspect of ourself that has been demonized but one of the things I very actively right about and work on with my clients is something like emotions quote unquote negative emotions which is another example where angers bad lust is bad. A. A. Depression is bad and that’s another aspect we had a question be like wait a minute the whole point of the spiritual path is Unity is wholeness how do we get there how does that work if we’re trying to get to wholeness by trying to cut off basically essential parts of our self practices do you do teacher do you utilize for does integration Integrations of those repressed aspects and the demonized aspects first step is awareness cuz they are too taboo like like lust for example it’s a good example it’s considered taboo or anger anger is a really good wet like I’ve heard that so many times from people of they think not just stick but they believe that anger is not spiritual is this strong belief it’s like no anger isn’t spiritual what is that what is that belief why is that belief in there so the first step is awareness because with these embedded reactions with these embedded repressions there is a leap to just denying the feeling like it’s too hot it’s like too hot to touch you know and so that first step of a practice of becoming aware of them and going well what are the feelings and noting them so there can be something like literally writing down the feelings like just writing a word that like oh there is anger or is there is depression and something like that might look very simple or it might even look useless but it actually isn’t because it’s bringing in this new pattern workers I can notice something nothing bad is happening by noticing it so there’s a new pattern being created there by first just bringing awareness to whatever’s there in the Eastern country Traditions kind of give permission to express the various aspects of the human personality through these characters and the stories in mythological archetypes in different states of Consciousness in people may or may not actually feel in the ability to evoke or invoke or feel possessed by and therefore have a sort of thumb the patron saints of these different emotional Expressions is that something you you get into it either sort of symbolically or more literally I guess you could say bring two archetypes that embodies the emotions or what exactly are you referring to yeah just well for example I think probably the most well the most dramatic that Dede that that is used in a lot of just Neo Tantra and classical timeshares is to if you need to express rage in a healthy way than you would call upon the pooches and sudden the practices to bring yourself into the the field of the collie energy or the goddess Kali and that would be your sort of phone Serta prefabricated safe container to let all of that rage be expressed without the well without it basically sublimating into other more more well leaking out into other areas of your life where you’re not really conscious he’s fully present for it so that’s certainly a lot of what I’ve experienced and in workshops and in trainings and whatnot is just to be able to identify when you can make your own of course but the the sort of from the toolkit the township provides one of them and assorted Friday obviously permutations change across space and time but is I’m just wondering if that’s something you you say all right now get into your Kali Rage or if you need to you know if you’re feeling broke and hungry and homeless you need to invoke them or a goddess of abundance or a god of abundance or if I’m just wondering if you play with any of those those templates for someone who resume with it like it sounds like for you that my really resonate in which case it’s a meaningful safe container and medium and Kali the braids for that so is Shiva these archetypal energies symbols ever we want to look at them Daddy’s however they’re represented they can be exactly in the way you’re speaking of these meaningful channels so that being said if someone were to work with me and that angle it would depend on if if they’re sympathetic to that because my focus in the dare to be present work is to make it very accessible to a person where they’re at so I would only bring up that kind of method with someone to was predisposed to be into these archetypes and a lot of people aren’t a lot of people you’re about Daddy’s like that and they just think it’s mumbo-jumbo and I’m not at all going to go down that road with them because I meet people where they’re at so it does that totally depends on the person said that cuz that seems it seems like a in a way there’s a there’s a I mean I have I have ethical concerns with the the way that people would say that there doing Contour teaching Township but there really time tree is a it’s all about these specific practices of worshiping mostly the goddess originally and then that that sort of you could say got bastard has been corrupted and became a very patriarchal power over not really in greatest service to the goddess form of Steel spiritual practice but it’s just a shifted into a more picture cool pear diamond and then the the three historical roots of goddess worship have been marginalized and you know so that’s that’s really in a notice in a nutshell that’s how I’d see what what time she really is so when I see people saying that they’re teaching Township but they’re glossing over or sort of making making a just sleeping over that process that was the court process of spiritual relationship to a goddess of devotion then I got a question it to be able to like what you’re saying you’re not you’re not really guiding people there especially if they’re not ready for it or they’re not into it and you don’t even you’re not calling and Country so it’s I’m curious how your and I respect that so I’m curious how do you apply the sort of principles of Tantra to the modern world where people are not likely to buy into the notion of these you know very vast lineages of mythological deities that are just dizzying to try to even begin to understand you to be absolutely clear I don’t bring up the word Tantra at all in my work unless it’s somehow relevant it comes up in a few of my writings probably they’re not even on my website so it’s it’s not something that I’m using as a word explicitly but the other part of it is the question which is fertile ground right now if we want to go into which is what is Tantra and I don’t know if you and I ended up looking into that book and mention it to use absolutely one of my favorite books of all times and I recommend it to anyone who’s interested in Tantra it’s contract Quest and then it’s something like I forgot the subtitle at subtitle something like a journey to Absolute love or something like that tante request by Daniel o d a o d d i e r and it’s a true story of his journey to find a ton truck master and she goes on this journey in the Himalayas and she goes through all these tribulations and then he finally gives up like okay I’ve tried I’ve almost succeeded so he gives up and then he finds her and if I’m remembering her name correctly it’s something like Lalita Devi and she’s this Patrick Master living alone in the woods and it’s such a beautiful story and it really goes into what I consider to be Tantra witches I mean it goes into some of the sexual aspects to but in terms of how it talks about consciousness of a very embodied consciousness and a very very intimate relationship with the senses with being embodied in the sensual world so you know if you want to go into it is worth questioning and discussing of what exactly is Tantra because how I see it it’s not dependent on any sort of worship of an energetic archetype that we give a name like Collier Shiva how I see it it is first of all if the path to Total Awakening so it’s a certain kind of spiritual paths that emphasizes inclusion rather than exclusion where are some of the traditional things in many spiritual paths that are considered taboo or off-limits do not have to be off limits and Tantra and the signature and then is that if they’re engaged in very very consciously then they’re not us in that kind of language and so that’s how I view Tantra and I mean I’m not here to say my view is more right than yours that’s not the point at all but what I hear is that you’re feeling or believing that it rests upon worshipping a certain energetic form it’s interesting because you know I always enjoy the conversations because it’s it’s it’s kind of a archaeological Adventure I mean the the most I guess where I start in my inquiry with the available information we have is that there were a hunter gatherer or gatherer Hunter South Asian peoples who were who had black goddess figurines that are going back in the archaeological record at least 20,000 years and if yes if my sort of I guess I feel like what I’m personally feel like that everything that became organized scriptural do Orthodox Hinduism today that we would look at it it’s it’s sort of a an interesting the story the sort of natural history of of the dark goddess is one that goes back a long time in India before so many different waves of conquest and colonization and a word it’s often uses brown one is a Shannon and before the caste system before civilization before Agriculture and the way that if there to be some some story or movie that’s actually would be kind of telling that story of what happened to the primal practices of indigenous goddess worship and how all of these different trappings of of domestication really sort of from required of it a lot of different fractions fraction fractioning of archetypes you know before there was wealth and riches and a class and poverty in a class until before the caste system you didn’t have all these different permutations of of Glamour course we all want to be rich and glamorous and famous and we all want to be blessed by the the goddesses is a fortune in your fortune and wealth and we just take that for granted and also even the scriptures of the contras in the scripture did the all of this sort of Orthodox Hindu scriptures it’s very much based on a time of war and conflict and even is has a club to beat the Bison demon so because it was a threat to the crap so as much as we would take even jirga and believe me I I fear to say this but it but it’s just a detached sort of the knowledge and Analysis of it it’s everyday I guess everything before I before I dare say anything I regret I want to say that when we peel back the onion of archaeology you know there’s a different context for every story so I’m not I’m not pushing that it on anybody I’m just I feel like it’s it’s really the heart of Tantra that hopefully the benevolent this goal that that it has or that we hope it has you know which is to be to help us become the most compassionate benevolent loving wholesome Divine an Earthly connected Angel beasts animals that that’s sort of not everybody practicing these esoteric Arts has the best intentions and so yeah it’s it’s interesting dance with the light in the shadow and now we’re in the west just discovering that it’s possible for sacred sexuality to to exist in again that’s kind of why it seems like it’s the where Township where the sort of the vacuum of a lack of wisdom around sexuality that the tantric wisdom around sexuality is finding a a sort of being siphoned into the second shot and to get beyond that which is part of the division and it’s there still in segregating the Tantra to a sexual act is we are in a culture that you know this of course and probably most or all of the listeners Duty or your listeners do that it’s very very sexually repressed and so keeping Sexual Energy in the bedroom even if it’s Concord tantric Sexual Energy is still not going to this other dimension and this other dimension like one of the things I’ve explored for example I have plenty of practices that I do myself and for example this very basic beautiful fundamental and essential meditation on the brass is one of the most basic or possibly the most basic meditation basic not in a negative way but Central even just that can become a tantric exercise and it has nothing to do with the genitals I mean it could but in its purest form let’s just leave them out for now cuz it’s going to the store and direction of a difference I mention a larger hole where we can experience the brass as making love with the universe is easy to look at that logically even what does it do it moves in and without giving us life is giving us energy is this relationship with the hole with the Earth with the universe whatever the whole is I mean really it’s the Earth as far as we know it but we don’t know if the Earth would exist in a vacuum you know if the Earth was not in the universe we are not even be possible so something like that can turn into a deep meditation. it can be sexual without being genital because sexual and sexuality is not in any way limited to the generals and so that’s an example of a kind of practice where it can happen just through intention where it’s understanding the movement of breath as a kind of sexual act with the universe which is what I said it’s like really radical because if you take that to its greatest scope it’s like if we tune into that we’re walking around making love with the universe but actually I love that you’re saying that because I feel that every man who is homophobic and Spins I don’t know a huge percentage of his energy making obscene jokes with his other homophobic male friends who are all supposed to be straight and aren’t supposed to be thinking about sex acts with men however every other joke that they make is an explicit joke about how their friend is wanting to do some explicit sex act with another man so it seems to be this pattern of a lot of men who are fighting that Curiosity to explore the kind of contact and they’re constantly it’s it’s very it’s like usually you would call it a Freudian slip but it’s like it’s like a Freudian Niagara Falls there for 40 and Avalanche just every other line coming out of this jocular sort of mentality this jock mentality that I’ve distanced myself for homes in Retreat from but with all that said what I love about what you just said and you may never have thought about this but I think it lends itself to this is that they’re so afraid of the idea of being penetrated by anyting and they’re always saying you’re a cocksucker well you’re a breath sucker how do you like that you’re making love hilarious you taking in the breath in your lungs are being penetrated and you’re just yeah I mean all of that fear of penetration and exchange with their mouth and oral it’s it’s very interesting so I’m going to I’m going to have to find a way to use that to break some of these curses because of hottest women who are breathing in right all men are breathing and also and that’s the receptivity and it’s the vulnerability and part of what I’ve been looking at personally as well as collectively cuz I’m a woman is how does it become safe to be our full sexual beings in the culture as it is and maybe the answer is it isn’t. You don’t like me cuz I wouldn’t want to push it because safety is the really really important point but this thing about vulnerability right so it’s like in terms of the wholeness of okay well you know let’s still keep sexuality in this little corner over there okay well maybe let’s call this little corner Tantra and I’m not dissing in his just like I think it’s great that there’s this opening up in certain parts of the culture II spiritual sex and Tu Amor whole sexuality all that end as I go about my daily life in this world there still like oh yeah and it’s still there over in that little corner like it’s not safe as a generalization for a woman to have her full Sexual Energy has just talking about energetically it doesn’t look safe for her to have her. Actual energy activated in public and I don’t mean any kind of physical thing I don’t mean she’s he’s dressing differently I’m talking about purely energetically and maybe it’s a misconception maybe it is safe and I’m just not aware of that you know because I am speaking energetically but that is a really fertile question of how can it be made safe within the larger culture or needed answers a cat and we just need to focus on the subcultures I don’t know yeah well if it’s it you know if maybe you could spend some time speaking from that perspective about what I guess I’ll I mean I’ll say that if I were to be asked what what ways are are is the fullness of a woman’s sexual energetic Freedom collapsed in limited by this sort of pseudopod Victorian American sex phobic society would be you can’t smile it man because they might take it the wrong way certainly have to be aware of what your how how short your skirt is how open your top is an even how your hips are swaying and what message is that transmit and then the tone of your voice and also many other unconscious aspects of nonverbal communication with your taking his cues and course how much alcohol you drink what time what time of day it is when the sun’s coming down what neighborhood you’re in all of these are all just off the top of my head you know behind each one of those collapsed Expressions is a predator waiting to exploit that weakness or that of owner ability I should say not weakness so yeah that was what do you think what are you How would how do you help women with let’s say and Men navigate and create a safe safe for more sacred wholesome culture container for being able to smile and even give compliment I could imagine a woman give me a compliment to a man and him not having sexual fantasies immediately afterwards or if she if she were to say don’t take this the wrong way but I like what you’re wearing to are some things nice awareness and acceptance and on both parts both for men and women being able to become very aware of our sexual desire and awareness is a kind of meditation so just the practice of being aware there’s a pause there so for example personally one of the things I’ve recently on that subject is like how the hell do I feel safe with a lot of sexual attention being directed at me from guys who want have sex that’s been like so I’m like how it how can that feel safe while it doesn’t feel safe so even in that instance if for some reason I were to work with those guys when should be really funny and interesting but of work within meditative practices cuz none of my practice involves physical sexuality ever I don’t work on that level so anyway it would be to be able to first become aware of for example sexual desire because with strong emotions is a kind of emotion with strong emotions like that there can be a jumping to action where maybe the guy isn’t even fully aware of what he’s feeling that interest up of okay KO that’s sexual desire and for women to because that’s of course one of the stereotypes is like oh well the woman is just supposed to be wanted not what I mean yeah it’s been shipped at some but I still feel it I still feel that. It’s still there that the woman is supposed to be the sex object she’s not supposed to talk too much he’s not supposed to speak her mind too much and yeah there’s plenty of people pointing that out but look who’s President you know there’s plenty of people speaking to that but it’s and it’s still definitely in the culture if not it’s not obliterated yet where the woman is supposed to be the one who is desired the the recipient of male desire but women have desire to just like news flash news flash so anyway one of the first step is that inner looking right because the reaction can go oh I just want that person or I just jumped to some sort of outer activity whatever it may be no tender or whatever or calling or whatever and there isn’t that step of awareness of acknowledging oh I have sexual desire wherever it is the matter woman and said that again can be a first step cuz it’s bringing in a light of awareness before an action is taken so what are some ideas that you have if you are too if you were business and and labors of love and most altruistic your intentions were to scale what would be some of the Transformations that you would that you would say they call the Blue Sky budget if you had a blue sky budget and everyone’s attention or lots of people’s attention and how would you describe a more whole township-based world for us to work and play with in Envision on a regular basis what it would be like to be in enlightened culture in an enlightened culture what would that be I mean it doesn’t even have to be called enlightened how about just like very healthy but it sounds good and letting culture the problem with the word Enlightenment is that it’s all locked and stuff like that but there would be the principal of freedom where we can go around as our whole self as our whole selves where we don’t have to go out with all our masks on I don’t know if you’ve noticed this people walk around with really intense masks psychological masks that I mean I don’t even know if they let them down for people close to them I think some people do but it would be where we can go out in public and be who we really are which is including our sexuality including our natural being were absolutely nature bound and that if there’s issues that arise in that we can consciously work through them and so it would be a culture where first of all Consciousness is the centerpiece it’s recognized as the centerpiece that awareness is the golden key to reality beyond that it would be a playground really I mean like when we look at the Earth it’s so beautiful and I’m not talking about a Utopia I mean life has its work and its hardness so not envisioning a Utopia but when we look at the Earth it’s so beautiful and it’s just creating apparently effortlessly and the dirt is integrated into his creative process is essential to Shadows essential and we’d be remembering that total connection with life and co-creating that sounds good to me so do you want to talk a bit about your about Ohio if your if you’d be interested in that I don’t know much about it I’ve been there a few times and it it it seems like kind of a Haven for somewhere between back to the land and maybe just yeah it seems like a happy medium between really far out rule local food economy type of living in and the spirits it’s yeah like I’m or we’re all kind of Westside LA but not too remote and sounds like a lot of cool stuff is going on there and if you’re interested too kind of I don’t know if the spiritual Chamber of Commerce kind of thing is going on there but you know for you but I’m just curious what’s if you’re seeing if you’re there because more of this more of your ideal lifestyle is accessible there or if if not where have you found some of your ideals most exemplified in you recommend a tour guide of the new paradigm certain people and I don’t know if it’s localized here I mean I’m here because I happen to have falls in love with the place I’m not married to Ohio I’m here for now for the first table future I do love it I wouldn’t call Ohio and then light in town really what I see as hopeful in terms of really the new Earth is a good term for it is any of us who are aware of the darkness of the slave Matrix that so many people are mentally enslaved to and there’s certainly plenty of people enslaved here in Ohio so and realizing that humans we as humans have tremendous potential we really do like we we could have a really amazing earth culture that’s working well with the lands that’s not slowly killing ourselves off you know what that is really as possible so the Hope or where I see that new paradigm represent is really is in the people who are aware of it or wear it because there’s plenty of people who are not where is simply depressed and really really stressed out really really hooked into the mental slavery of the system and they don’t see it how it can be some other way but there’s some of us and I’m sure you were one of them we do see how it could be different and I don’t know if we’ll get there but the path is that if it’s our service so the path is okay well there has to be some kind of critical Awakening like maybe like a hundredth monkey kind of thing and that’s that’s the Cutting Edge that really is and part of and healing is part of it you know whoever’s doing meaningful healing work that’s absolutely serving it and the permaculture people you know the people who’ve got the Practical point of view of how do we have physical systems that are regenerative that’s totally part of it so there’s there are the people who are doing those different pieces so that’s rather than a specific human I like where I’m at but more than that it’s really it’s I see the Hope in nature and those of us who do clearly see that you know it is possible we could collectively awaken this is a possibility and what are some hopeful trends that you’re seeing you know anywhere locally or Beyond or online or yeah positive hopeful trends that she might p.m. reserving like I don’t have children but I love children I’m not going to have children but I love children and you don’t ever see a child I’m like you know they’re not coming out of the wound Shackled that the dark trajectory is that if it just keeps getting darker is like babies will come out of the room they’re already Shackled if you know what I mean but immunization should all the shots poisonings with that in a do you have a just wanted to take a side note here I feel like a lot of people don’t take pregnancy as seriously as they probably should as far as you know of distancing themselves from Psycho Drama and toxic relationships and unfortunately a lot of times it ends up being their baby daddy toxic relationship and yeah there’s there’s a lot of fun of child abuse going on in utero on every level so yeah that’s just it I guess a question if you if you do any work of that nature with clients or if you’re being a part of that movement 2 kind of buffer these toxic influences of all kinds to woman’s pregnant sore yeah when it when a woman is pregnant that’s I guess I just always feel really heartbroken when I see the whole cycle of that whole cycle just not well for one starting with not having a clear intention during the time of conception which is number one no error to be kind of frivolously copulating and not really having a strong attention doesn’t mean it has to be and I’m not I’m not saying it has to be with one person one married partner that’s governed by the Lord Jesus Christ or anything but certainly if your I mean well that’s kind of the most I would say some most ancient most the one of the most essential reasons for a sacred sexuality practice is to protect the the the conception the moment of conception and the process all the processes of development thereafter to invoke the right desirable protective energies and and I will go in on some coaches would have DD’s around that knowing that it’s not just the unless you’re a scientific rationalist atheist to believe that everything is just a did back in the spiritual I mean if your taking using the word sacred you can’t be an atheist because there is nothing sacred to an atheist. That’s what being an atheist is put on the sacred Pro pedestal in that case well yeah before I eat before I go on a soapbox I guess you know the more I guess a specific question would be how are you finding that your work or your studies are involving this this you know people were really wrecked you know if people are really wrecked in their life and they’re being Reckless about about the potential of being a container for life there’s a lot of not just your own car make purification but for your own sake but the responsibility to be a good ever purifying womb space vessel and I’m not going to be the guy to tell women how to do that so I need a safe container so of course a woman who’s pregnant that’s a very specific crucial Time end we’ve all been wounded and so absolutely part of the intention and part of the Derby present work is to create these safe containers where it’s a meeting where the meeting safe where the whole person is welcome so we all need that because of the culture were in and then be on the meetings be on the safe containers of the meetings where a person’s full self is welcome for the individual to be able to create safe containers for herself or himself and that’s important also and that’s different methods where for example creative methods can be a great way for that to happen where someone for example can do a creative exercise such as writing where they know they can destroy the writing afterwards if they want to and in that writing they can say absolutely anything at all they can say things they can write things that they would never tell another person. they would never repeat again but it’s a way of liberating certain aspects of themself and that becomes us a container that’s just one example there’s many others so that stays can container that safe container those safe containers of time and space which can happen through a method are really essential and then the other part of that is one of the things that I put out and things I share online occasionally is about overpopulation and conception things like that which is a really really really important Global issue so that’s part of the collective you is okay our population keeps going up we’re not in good relationship with our resources so that’s not a good equation like it’s like three new babies born every every second or something like that that’s not an exact number but it’s really really really high something like that like 1 2 3 every second and that has to be addressed on some level and as long as it’s still taboo on some level to talk about sex and how babies are made. Going to be a logical progression because so much of sex and sexuality is in the closet still and we’ll so you know we can’t talk about that we can’t talk about you know hey a guy doesn’t need to ejaculate to have an orgasm for example which of course you knew about and I mean that kind of thing that’s one of my other Visions for an unladen cultures that kind of thing it’s like everyone would know that and they would learn it in safe totally non perverted ways it would not be a perversion it would be like hey this is this is something that it’s really good to know and right now it’s like oh my God that’s you can’t you can’t change someone that it’s like you know that’s one of the Visions like imagine if from this point forward every conception was conscious intentional and wanted that would transform the world right there absolutely yeah that’s an interesting I get other so much in jio money spent and so many think tanks just grinding the gears trying to figure this out and it’s really scary man I was thinking about this just the other day was watching this documentary called the fourth world saying that the population the global population of people in slums is probably going to Triple in the next few decades so and I have to wonder why is that well it’s because of these the dogmas and limits around contraception in education and that’s a religious problem at the at the core you know the religious dogma and so I imagine it if the pope decreed that in jaculation is the only way to limit the profuse suffering of people who are born into extreme poverty in you know I mean that’s that’s that would be an interesting turn of events yeah but that’s why one of the reasons why this really really bizarre taboo against acknowledging what creates every single human being is so destructive it’s like it’s really crazy it’s really really really crazy and so in terms of the Times review and the wholeness of Tantra and Tantra leading the wholeness it’s great it’s fine it’s worthwhile that there’s more of a dialogue now about sexual practices of Tantra and that excellent one of Yes Men can learn to have multiple orgasm without ejaculation ejaculating is really really really helpful so that’s highly highly relevant and also in terms of respecting that sexuality I wouldn’t even say can be sacred I would say is inherently sacred so those are essential end we also absolutely need this broader piece of take away the taboo on the fact that we are all sexual beings . We are all sexual beings there’s no one who isn’t a sexual being there’s all sorts of sexuality but we all came out of it therefore we are all sexual beings and that taboo have to be with it it just has to it’s like one of those absolutely essential pieces if Humanity isn’t going to keep going down a really dark path on the the biomedical physiological side of this I just this is the first time thank you so much as a result of this conversation I know have taken this Great Leap Forward to find the actual clinical terminology for a phenomenon that I have been preaching about for a long time which is that if you want less unwanted children and less overpopulation you have to basically extend maternity leave so that mother is can breast feed on demand as long as the children want to because that is the Nature’s Best contraceptive so yeah so here’s that I’m going to read this right there I’m going to just read a bit of this right now because this is the perfect moment to to seed Consciousness with this idea is called lactational amenorrhea laminaria is the temporary post-natal infertility that occurs when a woman is Anna Maria not menstruating and fully breastfeeding breastfeeding and fertility so that’s the English translation I guess you’re calling and breastfeeding and fertility for women who follow the suggestion to meet the criteria listed below laam is 98% effective during the first six months postpartum breastfeeding must be the infants only or almost only source of nutrition feeding formula pumping instead of Nursing and feeding solids all reduce the effectiveness of Lan the infant must breastfeed at least every 4 hours during the day and every 6 hours at night the infant must be less than 6 months old the mother must not have had a. After 56 days postpartum when determining fertility bleeding prior to 56 days postpartum can be ignored and to take full advantage of L am at his best at the baby’s face not be covered when feeding what is that trying to tell us which Ian Lee covering the baby reduces the babies access to oxygen in visual contact with the mother which trains the baby to speed up the cycling process and this reduces the time. Rendering Less La and less affected I’m just going to break down and cry right now I can’t breasts in public call the police or whatever alerts a store manager or whatever they do yeah that’s so this is and and let it and let it think that it’s just died and gone to hell I’m okay so the next thing is even even more telling says if not combined with barrier contraceptives spermicides home if not combined with barrier contraceptives spermicides hormonal contraceptives or intrauterine devices lactational amenorrhea lactational amenorrhea method Lan may be considered natural Family Planning by the Roman Catholic church so it would be time to let maybe the pope is in his likely to agree that we must train men to withhold ejaculation however the the possibility is it stated here that a natural Family Planning method such as Lan would be Church approved not the current pope seems like actually a pretty good guy from what I’ve heard and leader of the free the nipple movement so that LAN show me the way he can do it is exactly the way your previously suggesting is women need to have full leave for a certain amount of time after they have a child and what are the things I’ve studied for years and they sure about with women on occasion is fertility tracking which is so is something that women can do so men can learn how to orgasm without ejaculation so they don’t need to ejaculate and what women can do is learn to we can learn to track or cycles and there is no drugs involved there’s no chemicals involved and it’s really empowering because we can do it’s really pretty simple we can do that with taking our temperature daily before getting up and then also by tracking our cervical fluid and it can be really accurate if it’s done properly and so for example like in college I want the morning after pill kind of broke and if I’ve been doing the tracking at the time is before I got into that I would have been able to know whether or not I needed to even do that because when women tracking mail Partners can do that along with them if they wanted but it’s really would be our responsibility as women we can know exactly how many days were fertile and it’s only going to be like it’s going to be like at most maybe a third of the month or if there is a cycle something like that something like maybe Max 8 days and that’s not an absolute quote but it’s something like that where I mean it’s just for the simple reason of like sparing a lot of stress of how many women of freaked out maybe pregnant and if we’re tracking we can know whether or not that even worth considering so it’s called the fertility awareness method and there’s some good books on it and I learned it on my own just from the books and it’s not the Rhythm method which is not accurate cuz that’s projected path Cycles on to Future Cycles which is not a good idea cuz the next cycle the next women cycle can be totally different it’s where you actually know the women will actually know what phase of fertility she’s in and then can choose more responsibly how to deal with pregnancy throw or if she wants to conceive it help conception to because then she’ll know I’m most fertile Denso it helps with with and then a really cool thing is even if a woman is sexually active she can know within a few days when she’ll get here her. Which is really is great to be an engine has no concern about pregnancy or if she’s not having sex is really helpful and cool to be able to know I know my. Is going to start within these three days or something so this is great fertility awareness method wow oh we have this has been quite an adventure with a lot of different inquiries in I just want to say is we’re getting close to a good time to wrap up if you have any other important messages you want to share and certainly you know feel free to promote your services and your website and everything and then I look forward to the next adventure I want to start just this mean point that inspired reaching out to you which is this view of Contra as a spiritual path to wholeness into Awakening that is not dependent on whether or not there is any physical sex happening it’s not dependent on that and it’s this invitation to allow ourselves this Consciousness that Embraces every aspect of ourselves and in turn actually every aspect of our existence where there isn’t any aspect of ourselves that we need to make evil or Macon to the devil and we can really embrace all of who we are whatever that may be so that’s the time trick message and then the other piece is that what I offer is called dare to be present and it is supporting individuals in being able to learn how to be with themselves and learn how to explore their inner being the thoughts the Motions the inner body how to bring awareness to this inner self. Has been massively neglected in a very extremely driven culture because that inner self is always there and it’s what gives meaning really is what gives any of the meaning in our life so if anyone wants to reach out about that the site for dare to be present my sight is dare to be present. Com present present and I got a newsletter a send out some inspirational writings so anyone is welcome to sign up for that and I offer a free connection call where we would chat on the phone for 20 minutes or so and just be able to connect in the moment in that time and there’s no further obligation beyond that and then I share a lot of presents perspectives on Facebook so if you go to my site there would be present. 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Designing a Tantric Future with Andrei Knight TPP22

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In this episode I’m joined by Andrei Knight for a collaborative free-style sci-fi/fantasy design charrette. Together we visioneer a variety of interwoven pathways to a tantric future that is rooted in permanent transformational festival sites that can flourish and overgrow the status quo.

He’s a meditation instructor, life coach, public speaker, tantrika, and transformational festival producer.

He began meditation training over 18 years ago under martial arts legend Stephen K. Hayes, and was initiated into the Diamond and Lotus tradition of Tendai Mikkyo Buddhism. He has also studied under Dr. Masaaki Hatsumi in Noda City, Japan, as well as the Dalai Lama, for whom he and Hayes serve as protection escorts and security advisers.

Bridging the wisdoms of both the East and the West, Andrei holds a PhD in Metaphysics from The Monastery of the Universal Life Church, and is certified as a Professional Life Coach by Fowler Wainwright International, as well as an NLP Practitioner. In 2010 he was inducted into the order of Hereditary Knights Templars of Britannia.

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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design a never more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin hello to your beloved’s welcome to Township Punk podcast episode number 22 I’m having a discussion with Andre night meditation instructor life coach public speaker tantrica transformational Festival producer and he began meditation training over 18 years ago under martial arts Legend Steven K Hayes he was initiated into the diamond and Lotus tradition of tendai mikula Buddhism he is also studied under dr. masaki hatsumi in notus City Japan as well as the Dalai Lama for whom he and Hayes serve as protection escorts and security advisors Bridging the wisdoms of the East and the West Andre holds a PhD in metaphysics from the monastery of the Universal Life Church he is certified as a professional life coach by Fowler Wainwright International as well as an NLP practitioner in 2010 he was inducted into the order of hereditary Knights Templars of Britannia and filled the speaker to you and do you want to give a bit of background how how did you arrive at this point in your life to where you’re doing all this great work in the world being led my friend to another really not started out Consulting in the financial World coaching Traders I’m one more I realized it wasn’t the tools they were using it but the lifestyles they were leaving and in the process of been transforming my own life restarting various things like martial arts meditation alternative spirituality Tantra and I saw that these people needed coaching and much more than their trading techniques overtime started coaching them more and more about their lives and Lifestyles I got certification as a life coach life coach is an NLP practitioner and boy just more and more got into that side of it and Beyond just leading a normal life with many people Define a successful but adding in the energetic and the esoteric element where a lot of people don’t look and as you well know a lot of problems and successes both can originate someone more started going that route met a fantastic young woman who’s also a meditation coach we kind of traded techniques combined to techniques and that’s helped me know by formed I found a really effective way to work on each other and then eventually started working with it on other people and the festivals kind of grew out of that we started with a simple one day one night events and eventually agree to producing weekend-long 3-day Festival is now because it’s the same kind of idea gets the light out but now two more people at a time awesome and Ira curiosity is that did that evolve into a romantic partnership as well or is that she’s happily in a relationship with her boyfriend got married and no okay well we energetic awesome lot of people are surprised to hear that but yeah potential for that kind of dynamic could go either really well or have life challenges so I was curious if it did if that was the dynamic if you have tips for how to have successful co-creative relationships on that kind of plane but you really got to feel it out and it’s Unique to every circumstance and in our case we were both happy and her present relationships and yeah anything physical could muck things up with you we kind of already got past all that and went straight to the energetic so I really didn’t see much point in Miceli taking a step backwards and don’t feel like we’re missing anything that’s awesome I feel that there’s an interesting concept that I was turned onto not too long ago from a scholar of Dallas sexual Kung Fu and other more of Chinese traditional stuff and introduced me to the concept of what he called spinal puberty where he said that once you really get into these more deeper and take practices will you bring the energy you know how to pass the genitals been working with this creative life worth energy and to the other and higher chakras then everybody gives you more dynamism with all of your relationships you know plants animals family Divinity soil solutely people forget that we have six other chakras to play with and that is no understatement I had some really intense and deep meditations with people but some of some of my favorite are with animals or what’s Plants because they’re in that state already most of the time in a friend of mine said absolutely no say things like get everybody out of there like we went out to dinner once and she is like I’m sorry you know if you think I’m crazy but I like to make love to my food so can everyone put a little bit of intention into their consume me know from all of the pantry classes and workshops have taken in my life by far the sexiest one I’ve ever attended was one called conscious eating oh my goodness look at your food and appreciate it and smell it and hold it in your mouth for a while before you start to chew it and take your time to chew it and it’s so erotic I mean people that rush through their day and kind of scarf their food down I mean they’re still kind of missing out I was missing out for years and has the analogy of junk food sex vs Gourmet Stacks in life how you practice your craft how you do your work you can do it on a very kind of surface superficial get it done get it out of the way level or you can really take time to Lose Yourself and savor every single task friends that is the weaving of the energy to send Pink Floyd prison and even when you’re dealing with some adversity you know they’re so I always have something you know I pop a tire or something or you know even even has been times for my car’s been towed because I thought it was a for no Tollway and it would be ended up being a three or something and that would just stop and breathe even go okay I’m going to look around cuz some gift is in this environment and I’m not going to give up waiting right around the corner if you only take the time to look for it to break down once by the side of the road before the age of cell phones and it was a beautiful night for a walk I found out gas station was only half of my luck sometimes it’s blessings in Disguise and I remember I was going through a tough period in my life and a friend of mine told me and it’s really stuck with me I know it’s hurts but relishing the pain because it highlights the spectrum of what you can feel as a human just like you can take pleasure to its intensity so you know if you’re in an unfortunate situation it’s experience it’s a chance to experience the depths in the range of what it means to be human integrating the light in the Shadow with this world I know Alex Grey I watch this really amazing documentary where he talks about his just a cosmology that he expresses to his art and saying that he sees it it’s it’s it’s definitely a swirl with a great when it comes to the dark in the light so it’s really gets it on the Deep level one of my favorite people I got the photographs and painting on one occasion play music for him while he was painting on one occasion so I got a pretty magical tell me about your music that you Creighton I do mostly I do mostly mixing and producing at this point not too much composing that’s been the area has been focused on just we’re hearing stuff in other people’s music and really bringing it out polishing and making it even better that’s what I’ve really been enjoying and what types of music movie the most I mean I’m generally tend towards electronic music I started out as a rock producer actually every once in awhile we’ll do the occasional Rock Records still but I like electronic everything some things that make you move and dance two things that are really ethereal and take you on a journey also bring it up for me one of the things that we have been chatting about little bit just starting to chat about which made me excited to talk more which is it all kind of introduced the idea and see what you think about it since I’ve been studying Tantra I just I had the blessing of I have my first instructor being a singer and actress and a really powerful and really smooth and eloquent speaker in answer to him see if he would conduct the meditation ceremonies which I’m sure you got to know us as an instructor you have to develop the skills you can’t you got to really be an MC with it to get people to drop in and it’s and also you do they mail piece of you know the Richard bandler kind of found tonality stuff instead of just feel many things that have to hurt when they are really coming together they just you really go there and it’s it’s night and day with people who are kind of awkward with their delivery so I I had experienced you know early on as I got into was getting the Tantra and and and I was I always thought I was getting into more electronic dance music that the Pinnacle of the potential of Contra guided meditation would be for there to be massive sort of Festival scaled crowds dancing that were actually being conducted almost like a symphony where a country would be designing the Shiva Shakti choose choose an energy to resonate with you know all genders welcome to choose for this moment you know for this track or whatever we’re going to get in these formations and actually that’s what I’m not just having a yoga Workshop or two going on in the sidelines but for example the last one we did this spring Cosmic Carnival that’s pretty much what we did, Donna was her headliner who you might know he’s a very very esoteric Leo rented DJ makes a lot of his own music and definitely that element is present in it we actually meditated with him before he went on stage we had five experience meditation structures on stage and that’s exactly what we were doing one mass-energy working over the whole crowd while he’s going to his set well and so were you were you were all in sync sort of on the stage projecting the group field energy field that I’ve heard that’s what we do meditation technique is somewhat grounded in white pants ride comes from that tradition but it’s it’s very much about connection we don’t do have any chance we don’t stare at mandalas we don’t look at a candle flame cuz we found you know if you’re counting your breath you’re counting your breaths do not meditating staring at a candle flame you’re doing all the work not the candle flame it’s possible to get there on your own doing it that way but it takes years and years and years of practice what we do is very different we in this is why I took meeting somebody else to really kick it into high gear we going to the meditative State for the student and then we simply projected out so everybody can focus not on doing some technique but literally I’m sitting back and experience fan that’s the whole idea and when we do it larger scale at a festival we use the music as a carrier weigh so yeah we’re totally in sync with each other that’s what we’ve been training to do for more than a year now we thinking to each other than we just blast it out into the crowd over the music that’s awesome do you have you seen any effects from that people reported or that you observed anything particularly absolutely and the brats and depth of the experience really varies from Individual to individual those who operate cash see what’s and get right away what’s going on and you know they go into it right away and they help the crowd around them go into its others might just feel really good happier than usual you know it really doesn’t matter if they’re into what’s going on or not some can get a really deep profound effect out of it something just leave feeling better than they did before doesn’t really matter if they understand why right you know what this is this is really going in a an interesting in an awesome Direction cuz I feel like I’m I guess I went from a rock background specifically punk rock and heavy metal with your some of the I mean not just heavy metal but Extreme kind of metal and modern extreme metal I guess and and it took meeting a guy who had to turn me on to the 4:30 to trip and show me cymatics videos and unless you got to as a musician you got to take more responsibility for what you’re doing to people with your music Marilyn Manson Nine Inch Nails and then kind of me like why do you feel yourself with such painful negative emotions and then worked so hard to cleanse yourself out of it and when I looked at it that way I was kind of like that kind of music genre of music I want to relax at home that usually doesn’t come up any more you know it was the same with food I grew up eating meat my background is Russian so we need like three times a day and for a long time I’ve wanted to go vegan because of you know how I feel about the treatment of animals and also what I read about the benefits of it healthwise every attempt always fail tell a teacher told me you’re thinking of it in terms of what you’re giving up think in terms of what you’re gaining and that really turned it around for me neuro associative conditioning is Tony Robinson call it right or so she did in the totally are you running from Pain are you running towards pleasure it’s a very very different effect hell yes it’s very much what you’re gaining I remember when I completed my first month I’m like okay I did it I’m going to go celebrate grab a burger from Jack In The Box I feel terrible in my stomach I couldn’t wait for my body process at 6 contrast yeah you know once you don’t do it for political view you don’t do it for some boy or girl you’re trying to impress you do it for you because because of what you’re gaining not because of what you’re giving up write the whole $0.42 for 32 thing absolutely I seen cymatics of both for 32 and a for 4440 is of course how modern musicians tune there a and every other string is usually tuned on a ratio off of that a432 is known as Verdes a and it’s actually how they used to tune their instruments in the old days the Practical upshot actually is very few of us have heard a classical piece of music the way the composer intended it’s because they simply tune their instruments differently back then and the time attic waves there’s there’s a reason these things form these patterns that tend to resemble sacred geometry once you get beneath matter Einsteins the MC squared shows with his energy there’s energy and light was quantum physics it’s trying to solve right now this riddle of how an electron can be in two places at once you know because when you look at the world energetically as opposed to physically based on the Newtonian model it behaves very differently it’s not subject to the same rules all matter originates as energy energy is what holds it together under the surface we now know that only 5% of our universe is actually matter 20% of Dark Matter 75% is this thing we call Dark Energy you know astronomy and physics fully acknowledged it but the moment we have human beings start talking about energy people look at you funny like you’re some new-age hippie but we know it’s 75% of the universe less than 5% of physical matter so how does this stuff get shell together will energy behaves in waves and when waste cross each other to standing points and standing waves that are created and that’s exactly what these geometric patterns Flower of Life and sacred geometry are trying to illustrate Forest highway is intersected behave together and through these crafts cross points create what we experience is physical matter knowing all that wow you have a frequency that’ll take a pile of salt on a dish and form a really beautiful geometric pattern or you have a frequency that totally scatters it it kind of makes you think yeah I know I know I’ve experienced the effect has several websites you can go online where you can hear a piece of music for a few minutes at 4:32 and then suddenly they switch to 4:40 I feel every cell in my body is upsetting my there is definitely a difference and anybody who dismisses it as though it’s just conspiracy theory tried out for yourself experiments that were done on water with the different words and intentions projected into them and how it changed their structure that is a great analogy because you have water that’s taken to the point of freezing and held there so it freezes slowly as it absorbs the vibrations of either the frequency or you know the word experiments are the most fascinating because they show that sought has a vibration to a retention has a vibration to it that can be felt the reason these crystals formed the way they do growing out their little tentacles is here against are responding to the frequencies that already exists the subtle energy that underlies everything they form according to those patterns to those vibrations all right so good-looking that for me I said that when I had this transformation going into more sacred dance music obviously I felt a few things were kind of obvious on the surface for one guy after being a musician who is inducing bloody drunken lazy mosh pits for in almost 20 or 15 years or something like that was my contribution to the world not that there wasn’t beautiful things like people being empowered inspired and and sort of awaken to political Consciousness in and joining movements then different kinds of Eric wasn’t much and I’m proud to have been a part of that but absolutely it’s a good way to get a message across to good way to release frustration as you said it does energize people but there are things if you didn’t have that contrast that you would think they would be left to be desired so I felt like an imbalance you know if after all those years and when I got into psytrance and I started to move me and I started to just surrender to the Shakti in before I even knew I get from a tantric perspective what that means to to to to be a man that becomes graceful because he moved by Angelic goddess possession you know if variable way to put it to the energy it feels amazing and it moves you to be grateful even if you’ve never been trained to dance and it’s just clothes and then you see the different kinds of patter set patterns that emerge on the dance floor where people or completely just so melted into Bliss and there’s no hostility and everyone is sort of I mean homophobia is just totally melted away and everyone should running me over by Care Bears there is just like this beautiful beautiful contrast Jimmy wants to try to get into it and then seeing things happen like people winding up with like snowballs a giant snowball is winding up these massive love energy balls and just throwing them at each other hurling hurling each other and just feeling explosions of a positive energy and I really thinking while I mean I know a lot of people from the darker the more you know how to spell sounding music on Earth it just killed him so to the route they’re raping people and beating each other up and that really sorcerer the quick for me that this is psychotherapy it’s it’s like purging demons it’s incinerating demons it’s doing all of this all these different things and always different levels and and I really feel like the the potential of it is let’s say I guess this is kind of throwing outside experiments in in visions that I’ve had that I’ve just imagine maybe this can kind of kick off for a discussion of how let’s say we had infinite funding and it was in and all of the patriarchal dominator Gatekeepers and holders of of wealth and power we’re just to surrender and say okay we need we need to have a new age of psychedelic goddess worship that’s what’s going to save the world and let Susan find some people who have been working with this and give them the resources to roll this out as a solution to solve The World’s problems get the feminine aspect expressed through all Sexes and genders the feminine aspect guide some political and technological decision-making and let’s clean up some of these messages that have obviously are bringing us to the point of Extinction and how do we ice I guess one of the one of the things that I would launch as an initiative with infinite funding and then I’ll hand it over to you for what it what comes to mind for you and we can you know hospice idea back and forth but I wouldn’t I feel like the most compelling kind of one of the most compelling projects that I’ve had in my mind was to see the potential of taking all of you know the people who are really suffering the masses who are suffering with all of the neuroses the mass Neurosis that’s been induced by all of these toxic inputs into our biological systems and all these toxic and harmful and puts into our mental psychological systems in all this stuff and just began to create massive group exorcisms basically that are happening with trained like you’re projecting the sake of geometrical sound patterns and having the Angelic trained country cos and and healers from different traditions and being able to have these sort of massive immersive experiences where the people who just have not had mystical experiences and it had been sold these horrible products and it just suffered for them to be able to go through the gates into a festival and just be in this massive shock The Vortex where they’re going to get to Stout and transformed and then sort of initiated into and given you no training and tools and all the things I feel like the the transformational festival movement has been like a think tank or laboratory doing the research to retool us as the white blood cells for human going to be able to all we need now really is sentenced to get these Laboratories to just roll out and execute efficiently and not an authoritarian way not in a cultural revolution kind of love are you touched on a key element I just read an interesting quote from Buckminster Fuller he said you don’t get there by trying to fight the existing system you get there by inventing a better system and the rest just takes over on its own there’s a very interesting effect I’ve noticed as a meditation teacher there’s more people than ever interested in the stuff I heard I can feel energy I heard I can see energy show me people from all walks of life not just yoga types there’s definitely been an increase the interest and also as an instructor I’ve noticed we’re shifting people much faster that used to take several classes several sessions the vast majority of people were Shifting the very first session we’re usually doing it within the first 5 10 minutes so not only are more people interested but it’s becoming easier and easier to shift them into that space are you familiar with the Schumann resonance that’s the Earth the natural vibration of the Earth’s electromagnetic field cry right it’s been measured at 7.86 Hertz and it’s been by the way also a sacred geometry number and it’s been at that frequency for at least 300 million years constantly as soon as we’re able testing made-to-measure it’s accelerating the last three years it’s been averaging 8.6 hurts it’s been reported to spike a ties 14 so there’s a very profound thing but that implies that more people that start taking on this work and working to better themselves reach deeper levels of understanding within themselves in the universe around them the Earth is responding and as the Earth response more and more people become interested in it and it becomes easier to make that shift so there is very much and accelerate Tori feedback loop at work that’s been tangibly metric and it’s very very exciting the revolution is happening is happening without anybody having to force it there’s simply a better way that’s been discovered and I would argue rediscovered if if we look at history at over the long-term and not just as far back as Egypt or Mesopotamia I would say rediscovered we rediscovered a better way of being of existing of relating to each other and it’s contagious you know it is spreading the Earth is responding and accelerating that change there’s a documentary being made about this very thing I called the shift you can go on YouTube and see a trailer of it it’s starting to happen yes there’s chaos and turmoil and wars and violence starvation and global warming in the world but there’s another change bubbling under the surface as well you know turbulent times are turbulence because change is happening and the cool thing is the hundredth monkey effect what we’ve observed first in monkeys learning to wash their food and it’s very quickly spreading and becoming a species y practice to the experiments been duplicated in England with birds learning to take the Caps off of milk bottles from the birds far away off the island was starting to do it in there was no communication between the two sets of words the exciting thing about this hundredth monkey effect is you don’t have to change the majority you don’t even have to change clothes to 50% in fact what are observation of other species in nature shows as you have to shift about 1% of the population and then suddenly the change rapidly spreads and become species wife silence so that there is the darkness there’s those that you don’t want it’s listening to 432 and being locked into it all the time I heard in the UK the government will provide you a radio if you can’t afford one that’s how important it is for them or 32 are they they bury it in fiction but it’s there you know there is a message behind every great work of fiction there’s the frequency there’s the corn syrup they put in our food at the fluoride in their water a lot of people are worried about chlorine the good thing about chlorine is let let your water stand for half an hour to an hour at evaporate at room temperature fluoride is actually the more dangerous wanted calcifies pineal gland and a meditation it’s all about the pineal gland of proverbial third eye it’s in the direct Center of your brain know it doesn’t sit on the surface of your skin the way it’s usually drawn in people if you were to take a cross section of the brain front to back and look at it from the side you would see the Eye of Horus the Ancients knew all about this stuff the the Vatican knows about the stuff you would think in their Courtyard there would be a big statue of Jesus or across or something but there’s a Pinecone the pineal gland have a kind of the key to this Awakening and we’re putting fluoride in our water which calcifies it right so let’s let’s get into well if I can ask you let’s say said that you know you had this infinite budget and we’re pretty we’re pretty keen on a lot of what these obstacles are and what the intentions are of what say we can use different words for put the evil eye like I said there’s no reason to feel great hope and just feel that the transformation is happening and it doesn’t have to be at or tearing or violent it can be beautiful and and a design Revolution is kosher folks but he don’t like to say so the pope actually just recently actually met face-to-face with some of the sexual abuse survivors been tried to control them and how good for him and throw it up in the air asking God essentially acting as though he is dumb very puzzled about what’s actually going on which would be obviously kind of a whitewash your PR stunt kind of saying thank you for criticizing and what is he really going to do and it’s much worse it’s has to be much worse than then what’s being admitted to but I thought let’s stay somehow he could be reached because if he’s clips that question out there what’s happening why don’t know I have God’s not telling me okay well I can think of a few goddesses who are Mighty pissed off that I have direct communication with through my journeying who would love to have a group of people sit down with this guy and this is just sort of sort of drinking kind of like a like a comic book or something you know what this come to Jesus effective what it what if the men who are who have been putting all the control an iron grip of domination that’s really resulting in just more Pathways of of the worst types of of abuse to just to just take hold so from of people on this planet it’s if they did have some Forest bring them to their knees to surrender that power to the authority of the Divine mother archetype of a goddess you know what what kind of Justice would would be meted out and if it were to just say okay all the gold in the Vatican its going to the Psychedelic goddess worshippers because that’s where the answer is that they’re looking for so it’s so it’s it’s like you want to know what to do with all that power to figure this out I say give it to the people who are who are working to restore the authentic relationship to the feminine aspects in and let’s build the sacred architecture and the agricultural systems in the music and build build culture from that place of of restoring that energy and not obviously persecuting it denying it and it burning at the stake and and suppressing it restoring it is the key word of it’s It’s Not A New Concept here again if we look before Mesopotamia a lot of these ancient civilizations were made sure I could matriarchs typically based you know Toby actually restoring what Humanity has already experienced stairs are very great documentary you can watch it for free on YouTube called the great year that talks about some of these larger Cycles 13th 2026 thousand year cycles of which 2012 was apart a lot of people think it just flipped like a switch it’s actually a transmission that will take us through 2160 the transition itself takes time 2012 just kind of kicked off the beginning of the transitory state but you look at the cycle and you overlay it over history use you start to also understand the balance between the patriarchal Societies in the feminine base so we’re just completing the loop as as cool as all this stuff we’re discovering about ourselves on an energetic level and quantum physics about the universe around us is we’re just starting to scrape the surface of this is the very beginning to touch on what you talked about the societies of the future the festivals are kind of an experiment at that but in the end you know we’re still find supplies from the outside world we’re still bringing them and we’re still packing our garbage and taking it out ideally you would want a permanent intentional community that grows its own food instead of bringing it in that live this kind of Lifestyle full-time not just a couple of weekends out of the year and I remember reading one study like you would think primitive peoples with having to hunt for their own food or grow their own food build your own shelter farm near crossed that they would have no time at all left to enjoy life but we work a 40-hour work week 8 hours a day 5 days a week that’s study concluded you granted you would work 7 days a week but about two to three hours of your day would be taken up with survival matters leaving the whole rest of the day to explore Consciousness art raising your kids properly instead of popping them down in front of the TV creating things building things discovering things and there’s already models in the world we can point to there’s an intentional community that was started in the 70s in Northern Italy in the mountains about Turin they have now been acknowledged by the UN as a model of sustainable living they were granted Federation Ship by Italy they circulate their own currency now and not only do they live a better healthier life but some of the research that’s been coming out of there is mind-blowing they’ve figured out a way to communicate with plants the electromagnetic waves not only encouraged them them them to grow bigger and stronger and healthier without the use of fertilizers but they’ve gone as far as doing concerts with bushes and trees where they take the electromagnetic field at these plants emanate and a Amplified and translated into an audio signal that we can hear and have it work it’s just playing along with it answers given by plants as they are working on growing meat right now you know maybe you won’t be able to convert the whole world to vegetarianism but maybe you don’t have to maybe there’s a way to grow the meat without the animal that’s much more Humane there’s no consciousness that your extinguishing so it’s it’s really mind-blowing and groundbreaking and they’re called down on her which is the Egyptian word for city of light and they’ve got a website at down on her. Or check it out it’s really inspiring and I’m wondering if there were more budgets if more of these communities sprang up all over the world wow what can we accomplished and there won’t be any need to convert those that hold the keys to power now there won’t be any of them to really punish them they once enough of us do this still have no choice but to go along with it and the worst punishment you can inflict on somebody that’s harm someone emotionally sexually energetically is to open up their capacity to feel because once you realize what you’ve done there is no greater punishment needed going back to the example of when I gave up meat that’s what really sold me the day I got sensitive enough to actually feel the last moments of the cow was the last hamburger I ate I didn’t need anybody lecturing me or listing the pros and cons once you feel it I believe human beings are inherently are good for lack of a better word not evil I view it in terms of not so much good and evil but maintaining the status quo there are those who are in power who fear losing that power they live in a world of scarcity that if they gave up there if somebody else was in power they would have to give up some of their powers they don’t live in a world of abundance where everybody can be empowered so they’re their battle their Quest is to maintain the status quo they’re not necessarily trying to do bad to us they just want things to remain as they are because they like where they’re at Naturally but once there’s a better way that’s clearly better and they see they’re not giving up any of their own power of privilege by letting us coexist it’s it’s kind of going to go from there on it’s own I feel yeah I have a lot of faith in that Tipping Point critical mass Hunters monkey stuff out of food that you picked in the Gardens at morning than you do out of food that’s been sitting in a truck for a week yeah that’s the key that’s the key I think leverage point is to plus I have so much personal faith in Ben permaculture design I feel like it’s the electricity bill in motivation for each person by if it truly is a better way of life it’ll catch on and if it’s not we’ll keep refining it still we’ve come up with something that is so do you you probably I’m I’m really we really don’t have a choice by the way right we’re running out of time civilizations watching from other dimensions are planets which I personally feel like they’re certainly are as they’re probably gambling some of them are just betting on us you know your mining up your own planet and polluting it when you have a helium Rich moon in you know what constant fear of synchronous orbit and Tesla hundred years ago gave you the means to project electricity wirelessly yeah it’s this is the B on the eleventh hour and I hit my I think they’re probably laughing their Glenn cash you guys you’re so close I have this I know I had this I had this Epiphany I I wrote about it and I’m kind of developing it is an idea to just an entertaining thought experiment about how I can imagine a key leverage point which would invert the pathology of arrows the sexual scarcity that’s imposed on people that’s making them become addicted to pornography and and now younger and younger males throughout the world as the Internet connected world or having erectile dysfunction and inability to function emotionally or sexually with with actual human partners because they become so desensitized to sensuality and just completely numbed and actually just deformed in many ways through this massive very recent high speed internet which is relatively recent for and end up extreme just that it’s being one one monstrous disordered disease of what’s happening on the on the planet and I’ve been deeply researching this and trying to find a way out of this disaster in MN try to analyze where it’s coming from and I believe there is a way out of it, it involves us getting past sexuality as this awkward taboo Ray we’ve been culturally conditioned for 5,000 years to think of it either and something for procreation or something really really dirty to not talk about in Barrie under the sheets you kind of touched on it yourself to getting desensitized by porn because they think that’s what sex is pornography and sensuality are actually pull it off if that’s the goal of pornography is to get off this very little sensuality in that right as you know from tantric practice particularly Dallas practice that it’s actually anti getting off you try to prolong it as long as possible literally are Polar Opposites but getting people to the point that they’re comfortable with each other and with themselves and with sexual energy as an energy is it is really where it begins a lot of Contra as you know is it is not even involving sex there’s a lot of gazing there’s a lot of breathing that goes into it and most people the form of meditation we teach is an open eye gazing meditation I can tell you first-hand people feel really really awkward just sitting in front of a person and looking at them it may feel really really weird so is it any Wonder we have all these hang up to when it comes to physically touching a person being also it really could learn to interact together on a different level as a species we kind of have to go back to and start with sex we got to get over these feelings of awkwardness write this it the scarcity in the articles are completely artificially imposed illusion of scarcity about the food supply right that we both know and Buckminster Fuller if you know we can be a human success or we can be a success on this planet and all of the ecological mechanical means technological means or are here it’s the matter of overcoming the opposition will and having a political will to take back the those the power to defeat ourselves and also so I I send that to this problem of how people are denied like you said shamed and while we’re this this sexual shaming culture that’s been imposed all across the world know I see that the the effective it has become quite consciously in it while I was conscious right word but very strategically is a business model get take away their sexual sovereignty and then sell nipples and you know fragmented two-dimensional images of it associated with products and essentially bottle stick human sexual activity even to the point where you’re getting turned on by things that are not even real or things that are actually really harmful and destructive and then people are it’s now stuck and he’s extremely like painful and debilitating addiction Loop and I feel that if you look at its you know that the effective the entertainment industry and I guess where I’m going to where I’m going with this idea of Leverage points for how to roll out a transformation now that I feel like we have we have a more compelling experience for people as cultural read designers you know we have Shakti we have high Neil Novation we have better food better music on the frequency level there’s all these things that I think her are powerful medicines that are bit really do lyrics just really compelling and when we went when we can demonstrate I think through you know through sharing a beauty of these fees for the ancient rediscoveries I guess then the aspiration of young men specifically throughout the world to become essentially rapists and pimps that that’s that’s the most glorious aspiration thanks to the modern pop of the music industry and the images that are being projected and what they think sex actually is which is this completely you know lower chakra reptilian get it over with and conquer the next potential mate so that this final puberty kind of thing of look let’s bring I want to see the that’s why I made that music video that that you seen you know since this is trying to redefine the potential of our potential for people so they associate that the tenderness and the focus in the attention can make spiritual transformation and growth happen and that is more more valuable and rewarding than being cool or tough or having well you can’t then you can’t conduct race that you can only lead them to experience at the end once you experience the alternative set this really no calling back and it’s not just the males that need to be re-educated obviously it’s a huge part of it but the females also they are either ashamed of or freighter feel awkward about their power once once a female really fully experience is what it is to be a goddess is magnificent transformation that takes place but there are a lot of Hang-Ups to work through to get to that point with a lot of people it’s amazing as you do a survey how many women have never experienced an orgasm even more how many women in general are just not interested in sex or view it as something they give to their men as some kind of reward you know the whole idea of Shiva and Shakti and dual circulating energy has just lost upon people really and it’s every bit as much I think a re-education that needs to take place with the wind as with the men make it simple for people when I say things like normal so I think most of the things that are wrong with the world are the result of people not spending hours and hours and hours completely in awe of each other in the bedroom there you go and are you going Waking Life really in love with your garden in love with your children in love with your partner in love with your definition of spirituality begin take this agitated the hyper the hyper masculine female and the hyper masculine male are out there cutting down trees and will they help because they’re not horizontal with take it back if you find me any any any woman that thinks of sex is something they do for their man has never really experienced sex of any man that thinks sex is something they get from their woman has never really fully experience it but once you do once you realize there’s a whole other way to relate to people in to connect with people you’ll you’ll see it not just that you’re a man with the females in your life you’ll find yourself relating differently to the men in your life and the women will relate differently to the women in their lives and it’s a sign of relating differently to plants and animals that will be much more difficult to cut down a tree when you view it as a living Consciousness and not just something that is in your way blocking your view I meant that’s really where it starts the fundamental level just like you know they know about frequencies that’s why 4:40 is so prevalent and not for 4:32 they know the profound effect of it they know the profound effect that a reawaken the age of sexuality would bring that’s why they want us thinking of it only in pornographic or procreational turns the way you bring about that Revolution. Gandhi told us you know be the change is very hard to change individuals it’s even harder to change a society but work on yourself start with yourself try how you relate to your partner or find a partner that you can relate to in that way make your focus studying yourself take up meditation take up a better diet become more conscious of what you put in your body and how you exist what frequency of a vibratory rate you spend the majority of your life in take on that work and you will see you know my relatives see me at Family reunions feel like my goodness Trey you haven’t paid and I’m like would you like to know why her whole lifestyle little pieces on Dell make little improvements and they will inspire their friends and neighbors and if that’s really how these things start be the change focus on what you can change which is yourself in your immediate environment around you your immediate relationship will you have the mainstream which is now projected all over the world. Just say the music industry in Hollywood the image factory of what of what human sexuality what the potential is about I had a very interesting experience about a year-and-a-half ago I got to interview Oliver Stone Son I was also a filmmaker and he told me about the origins of the word Hollywood there’s a certain kind of wood from the holly tree that Druids use to make their wands out of and actually very many spiritual Traditions used to use to carve their sacred relics out of and it is the the wood from the holly tree apparently that name was chosen Hollywood so that people the people in power would remember that their job is not just to entertain or tell stories their job is really to cast and maintain the spell over people we’ve got these two extremes it’s like that the cancerous disease of destructive shallow disconnected sociopathic are the majority right now but their time is numbered that’s what the great year shows us is civilization goes through cycles and chest they are in power now they are the majority but their days are numbered so let’s talk at more about how ice I would say or I want to act as soon as you a question let’s see I know I have you know this. I have much less experience on the ground in the transformational festival seeing in N circuit than you do so I’m curious is is he okay you’ve experienced it send it on a totally different level because you you felt the profound effects of it right we’re still we’re on the same page and I have some there’s things about I guess it’s so complex you can’t really make any generalizations about it looks fake but I’m curious from your perspective it would say let’s say that is a huge influx of of capital came into being able to roll the stuff out because that’s a people are just so fed up and Andrew just willing to have a major change and they’re like bring it on as soon as possible you know we’re ready and do you feel like V this movement worldwide movement and again it’s very diverse but is it ready are there is there enough training within it enough discipline and training within it to be able to mobilize really effectively and actually bring let’s say you know the best time to do something is when you’re not completely ready for it if you have to go through waiting for the perfect moment it’s in a used to keep waiting I wasn’t ready for my first meditation class when my teacher plus me down they just inform me once I will by the way I want you to sit in on tomorrow’s class I was scared I would didn’t know I was ready to go in front of a group of people especially the kind of work we do on an energetic level the best time to do something is when you’re not ready because you will rise and you will grow to the occasion and as far as the influencing the people with money and power it’s happening I read a very interesting article concerning this year’s Burning Man festival the reporter was really down on the fact that it’s becomes a new Silicon Valley hotspot everybody was there through kirberg Sergei from Google the founder of Twitter they were all there and they had kind of their own Elite rich people’s Camp they Park their RVs into and around it so nobody could get in inside they had servants they had celebrity chefs cooking their meals they had air condition and this article was really down on the fact of hey we don’t want these rich, this isn’t the Burning Man experience they’re changing it isn’t the point of Burning Man radical inclusion all the time it’s not just people that are like you and hate isn’t there now about 10 billionaires that experience to our way of life and our going home really thinking about it well yeah yeah yeah it’s so so maybe the idea where one of these guys funds either an ongoing festival or you know closer to home or maybe even one day a permaculture intentional Community along these lines I think as a result of this Burning Man that day just got a lot closer in a lot more possible and I don’t view them coming out and hang out doing their thing as a negative thing at all because they can’t help it they took home a piece of our culture and lifestyle whether they like it or not no matter how much they try to insulate themselves from it right at least people have the money in the power to start influencing people and hey you know what I’m glad it was the founders of Twitter Facebook and Google and not say you know the chairman of BP because these people are that much more open to what we have to offer a lot about the internet being being the feminine aspects coming to life and wiring Consciousness and empathy and compassion together it’s all about in their own activity isn’t it yeah if their hearts are cracked open and they see that future and they realized it be it would say they are total egomaniac send and I’m not I don’t like to judge anybody I think everyone is everyone is either a psychedelic goddess worshiper or they don’t they have lived in your life yet that’s my only judgment from New York lottery tickets they are in their own way and you know while I don’t necessarily condone it there they’re getting a taste of it and they’re going to be touched on some level even if it’s under the surface and subconscious for now they are being exposed to it and that little by little and that Trend can only continue while we’ve been talkin here I just saw the nearly full moon come out from behind the clouds so Gloria site that took my breath away for a moment I mean there’s going to be you know even if it’s a moment to look up at the moon and appreciate where you are in your place in the cosmos people are starting to have more and more of these kinds of experiences where they haven’t connected the dots yet like you and I have maybe but don’t get there right now we’re filling them with ideas and with experiences and with things that are bubbling under the surface and their subconscious and before too long these things will bubble to the surface this brings me back to finish what we started with which is a ritual design this has been happening even though it hasn’t been by conscious design it has been happening I remember 10 years ago when we were looking around for a place to hold a moontribe we talked to a Native American reservation and then like so you want to get a bunch of people together to stomp your feet of Mother Earth yeah we totally get it of course you can use our land we were doing rituals back then or anything sacred right over people that got the deeper meaning of it even if we didn’t and they let us do our thing and be transformed subconsciously by it even though we didn’t know what we were doing on the conscious level and look here we are now now we’re throwing these music events specifically for the purpose of people getting together experiencing a different frequency a different vibration a different way of living of eating of relating to each other even if for a temporary piece of time now it’s intentional now that’s exactly why we’re doing it you know and one one thing that I’ve had asked of me people are like what you’ve had enough have a diverse background you know you make something EDM music and you teach meditation you know that isn’t that kind of a dichotomy of sorts and I keep coming back to Tesla’s flotation if you want to understand the secrets of the universe look at frequency and vibration all frequency whether you look at how matter emerges from energy and is held together whether you look at music whether you look at meditation even an artist painting a canvas color is a frequency starts the colors they choose to use and how they make some together in the end it’s all frequency in all we’re trying to do is raise the vibration through whatever medium is available to us there was a kind of a Heyday of this reclaim the streets this is before occupied way before I can pee but there was kind of a Heyday of politicized ravers I don’t know how much of it was supposed to say psytrance or what I don’t know exactly what they’re what they were jamming but they would do these amazing events in I know in different parts of Europe where they would have these amazing Street parties anxious shut down City centers and have massive portable Raves that they would just throw and talk about vibration and is that any different than what Gandhi did Martin Luther King when people would walk down the street holding hands singing their favorite songs write a dimension that has not yet been may be tested or explored but you’re you’re on The Cutting Edge of this and I’ve got some ideas for what could be you know what potentials are but I’m seeing I guess this is to backup a second I feel I feel that there is a lot of what’s happening is the unconsciousness of people feeling there’s no they don’t have a card opening experiences so how if you can structure put a little bit more structure not you know nothing too heavy but a little bit more design and structure and form with this conscious conscious sort of design design elements so that I mean cuz I’ve had experiences where it was okay there no one who left this ritual can say that there isn’t intelligent life in the universe be on this planet, you can’t say that there isn’t divine feminine energy you can’t say there isn’t Divine masculine energy because we just sculpted a whole massive like Palace of Otherworldly healing nurturing energy that took very good took the form of the and the textures of the emotions that were guided through and it’s just a whole journey we’re your kind of leaving a leaving this some tangible energetic sculpture that is isn’t it it’s more than just sort of seeing people Groove and kind of jump around like popcorn you know just kind of hit me kind of morph into some sacred forms and stuff but for the most part people to music festival artists in their own world and sometimes or kind of Link arms and square dancing dosey doe and stuff around which is beautiful and like I said I’ve seen people just sex throw snowballs of Love energy at each other but I I really want to see the future of you know with this idea that looking at the electrical engineering schematics of the ancient concert pooches and going well will you scale this up and you’re going to have your going to like he’ll the chakras of the planet if you’re going to create these massive and if you were to stay connect on different latitudes or different times and do some of those 6 p.m. it’s like they did with the the global meditation for peace you know what is the earth dance and stuff like that but they have actual Tantra ritual design elements in Mass Massachusetts it’s coming it’s coming if you look at a map of where all these pyramids and sacred sites are located on the earth be at South America Egypt Bosnia now they’ve discovered pyramids that are even older than some of the others they’re not placed randomly their place to bury strategic points around the earth and these are devices for amplifying human energy you know this before it has happened and it will happen again and I believe extraterrestrial entities more so than a possibility I think being alone in the universe is a statistical impossibility and that’s just on this plane once you add all the other planes of existence laugh our own reality the universe is of very very populated place and there’s entities watching us who are just like here again not necessarily evil maybe just Pro status quo you know they’re watching us with fear and trepidation over what we may become and the same time there’s entities that are watching us maybe even helping us were excited about what we are to become because it’s necessary to be evolution of the universe we we play a much greater role in this than we realize and it’s not just us intuitive as individuals that sucks as a species it’s our planet as an instrument that was designed to collect and amplify and send this vibration out right it’s not just change on a planetary scale that we’re at the precipice of this this whole planet has a role to play I Believe In the galactic evolution these are exciting times my friend the reason we chose to reincarnate during this time that’s awesome bro I’m feeling I can feel the energy right now in this last five minutes I’m just standing in a ball of positive check the energy getting thrilled thinking about this do you have sex I’ve ever had my full body energetic orgasmic blast-off Third Eye Activation and and if I want to just hand it to you if there’s anything more that you feel like you want to explore and how do you feel do you think this is I would say if there was a message I wanted to leave people with its don’t be afraid of the unknown I spent the better part of my life having psychic and metaphysical experience isn’t being afraid of them either think of it as thinking of it as something is dark and spooky or being afraid of myself that I’m come freak my goodness inside only started this journey years ago I I Relish in and now my business card says metaphysical professional why why hide it if you have been having strange experiences explore them don’t be afraid of them dive headlong into it don’t be afraid of your sexuality either if your current partner is afraid gently lovingly encourage them and if they still won’t change find somebody who’s willing but explore what you’re capable of as a human being Explorer your Birthright become all that you can be and not just on a physical playing you know Gaius monetary success physical fitness all that stuff’s important but my goodness explore your energy side we when we say energy we save visualized as if it’s something you have to imagine energy is very real very tangible we think of air is nothing that says two people sit in front of each other we assume there’s nothing between us but empty space and yet if air is such a substantial force that it can move a 747 from one side of the world to another energy is just as substantial just as important and it’s time we stopped treating it as something we imagined or visualize and really start exploring it with ourselves with each other and seen what it can do seen what we are capable of as human beings and as a species it’s time to really reclaim our Birthright and all this other stuff we worry about how to change other people how to create this Global shift that will, sweet just start becoming what we were meant to be you know what the destiny thinking about set me free samples by Contra from the outside about it it’s daunting to think how complex the ancient life spiritual life path in life style was compared to what people have time to Connery data books or maybe maybe get initiated by someone from a lineage but maybe not but there are fundamentals for the simplest thing for example and I’m sure you’re thinking about it because it’s just talking about the Federal Energy and Aaron and what time if you think is if when people just do one thing quit and on one another’s heart just about to say that funky sexual position to get to get into sit in front of somebody you really love and respect just look at each other’s eyes really gave deeply into each other’s souls and put your right hand on each other’s hearts and just try that for 10 minutes and see what it feels like that’s as good a place to start as any you will be amazed by what you experienced websites project www.fashionnova.com is our meditation school we lift our classes workshops Retreats and also upcoming festivals there and you can also find us on Facebook if you know if i p h e n o v i d e if you search for that our group will come up and you can plug yourself in and hopefully attend one of our events or study was one of our teachers or here’s an idea get a group of people together and maybe create an event in your city we’d love to come to you so much and will definitely be in touch to your pleasure been putting this magic out there all right you have a wonderful night to you too sir take care thank you for listening to the touch upon podcast please go to www.crunch.com and cook on the Donate button to help support the show in addition is to see me and if you want a podcast for donations will help establish permaculture goddess Temple 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