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Alien Lover Goddess: Behind the Track Commentary TPP273

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In this episode I share the backstory of the soon to be released track Alien Lover Goddess

My Non Verbatim Show Notes:

This new thing, which is a track that I produced, that I am madly in love with, and I’m gonna give the back story now, the dual serpenting, kundalini timelines of creativity and magic in a time of chaos

going back to late december I get a text from one of my dearest beloved brothers of punk, metal, and psytrance

been in the trenches in metal and punk, the real trenches of madness and violence and alcohol abuse, bad, crazy madness, chaos, we survived that in those trenches together in band, then reunited on the dance floors of psytrance

both of us discovering that this medicine of a music is so healing for us, a lot of refugees from punk and metal, transcended and ascended from the mosh pit to the stomping of the psytrance experience

magical bond with those who have the background, went through 80s and 90s era punk and metal debauchery, not spiritual, political but disembodied

shamanic trance, sonic driving, how beautiful the transformation, bromance, with dear beloved brother in musical combat

he one day sent a text, want to produce a track for compilation of california psytrance producers, fuck yeah

unprofessional, amateur attempts at making beats and tracking, mentor, nuno cabral of ninesense and manipulation, a cofounder, angel investor of spiritual capital into tantra punk

back bone, co producer, his efforts along with calvin from photon AD, those two men…if tantra punk is the feminine shakti, they were the shiva that brought form,

all in the romance of myself and sufiana, build sonic temple for the vibrations of her sanksrit singing and bollywood dancing,the beauty and magic

tantra punk has been not without this musical romance, musical adventure story of the worship of the goddess sufiana, goddess in the flesh

I want to be careful not to over deify, or devi-fy, but what is a horny geek boy to do with what’s ever left of my horny geek boy hanging on to the last vestiges of that youthful enchantment with the female mystique, before it’s more and more of a struggle to maintain testosterone, and feel the newness of new relationship energy, excitement and love, and romance, to not take it for granted, to not take women for granted, to feel in love all the time

psytrance is a huge part of sustaining that love, that bass, powerful way to keep romantic love alive, story of me and sufiana

the story of tantra punk, the woman the myth the legend, and the man who humbly worships that woman, that is the story of sufiana and tantra punk, it’s laced in the sexorcism the tantric opera documentary series

all in devotion not just her, but the teachings and the wisdom of the ancient shaktism path of tantra that she exudes and represents and brings into modern times with a beautiful voice and humanness, human frailty, imperfections

all that said I was ask to make a track, and building upon the successes of and failures of 3 albums, after 3 albums of proto, like garage days type albums, hope I can say garage days are over-ish, hopefully have matured in still very early stages of being a wanna be psytrance producers, aspirant, with help with real wizards of this tech

I did make a track for this compilations, in the words of osho, wildly possessed

my holidays were spent in a beautiful sacred place

I broke a taboo, my toes were touching a beautiful kali painting that a friend made while listening to one of my podcasts, I was giving deep report on my union with the goddess kali, while listening she painted the most exquisite wild orgasmic depiction of Kali ever and that’s saying a lot if you know what I’m talking about

she made this piece sent it to me for safe keeping, had it as the center piece of whatever environment I’ve been in ever since

I’ve been told you’re not supposed to even point your feet at the goddess altar, but I accidentally broke that taboo and noticed it and thought whoa, this could be very assuming and potentially narcissistic to say, but we all want to be loved on the by the goddess when we discover her and chant to and invoke and sing the praise and hymns to her,

the most endearing moment, at a beautiful kali temple, one of the most charming devotees, I had to discipline myself not to fawn over, was saying good bye to everybody and leaving after the puja, having just a slight bit of technical difficulties with the mechanism of the door, she said something so beautifully, “i believe that ma does not want me to leave yet”

I’m like oh my fuckin god you, I know the feeling where you just want to have this pronoiac, conspiracy theory where she’s there with you at all times, thick and thin, good and evil,

you could say the same thing about christers, jesus freaks, everything is the wrath or the blessing or whatever,

its sweet and charming and endearing for me as mostly a skeptic, and having been secular most of my life to be like okay, I love that feeling of like, yeah maybe there is goddess watching over us from a distance, goddess in us, invited to possess us, and what sufiana brings which is the genuine article, I can only be like Indiana Jones marveling at the work of art, revelations, or shit

in the words of a great black magician, the ah ha quickly becomes the oh shit

under estimated the truth of these ancient wisdom traditions

we have those types of experiences all the time

priceless moments

so I admit that I maybe over extrapolating my union and connectedness when I say I’m starting to dig into producing this track

channeled felt the flowing through, have felt like a ouija board effect, what is moving my hand, cadence of notes something I’ve never heard before, but later find a chant online, they’re singing the notes and cadence of notes of what I was possessed to produce on the fl studio platform, melody beats, been there, I am opening up , I am a devotee, this is my sonic goddess temple

the experience of being, opening up allowing this to happen, feeling being animated, sort of like the calypso in beetle juice, not scary, fun, bizarre, anchor into that moment, the dinner party, possessed, making beats for the goddess and loving it,

intoxicating otherworldly melody, notice oh shit my toe is touching this painting

benevolent version of ghost busters 2, art is magic, painting she produced will be unveiled at some point, sacred and private to me

for whatever it’s worth maybe maybe not, it was exquisite to feel I’m here by the cemetery, auspicious time of year, heart energy into his track day after day after day, artist zone, tuning everything else out, kind of a loner, solitary sovereign person, didn’t feel deprived of human connection, happy to go deep with track go deep with goddess, attempting to create this cartography of the beautiful flesh of the goddess, her heart of hearts, her layers of beauty, density, wisdom, ability to elucidate and shed light on demon nests in chakras and soul, simultaneously overtake them, consume them dissolve them, emboss herself out into these beautiful blackberry feminine alien insectoid black widow, dragon fly, queen bee architectures of aliennes and beauty, and that is what my attempt with a number of my kali puja on psytrance tracks have been an attempt to do, enjoying cannabis in the process

fun part of psychedelic trance when you’re not on the psychedelics when you’re producing it, you’re almost like painting in the dark because you kind of know okay I want this to harmonize with this and I want this to collide with this and create an emergent property of

vibrations and sound and percussions , don’t know exactly how all

you’re building that ride, can only imagine from futile state, designing sonically in a soberish state, with the thrill and excitement of what magnificent mystery is gonna unfold when you can enjoy it and go for a ride

after you do some solo beta testing, refine revise, how you need to garden and design, adapt and refine it through iteration

timeline, not too much of a deadline, let it flow natural phases bass tracks, melodies

calvin, his method of producing a track, the heart of the track a million things layered on top of each other, the most dense experience, you’ve been entraining to trance loops, the kundalini starts to move through ear drums, you’re buckling up into this astral vessel, getting acclimatized tot he sound of the thrusters, the rudders, however you want to think of it, percussions, lower frequencies, then you’re moving, then the melodies is whats coming through your field while you’re going into hyper drive, through worm wholes, through vortices, designing a theme park ride of inner journeying, outer worlds, inner worlds

heart of track, not always, advice I took to hear,t at least know where to start, you could, just have melody come to me, humm it record it, then map it out on to melody, keep dressing it up, to where all layers are happening, continue to add a few, most intense points, most intense passages, build all that up, then it’s a graduated experience, drops, build ups, lazers, effects, you strip them down, then you’re basically doing, when you’re making love, as per my how to love like a god training course, theirs a beauty in teasing a vagina with your penis, varying the strokes, speed, thrusting patterns, phasing in and out, of more and less stimulation

peak of psytrance experience, I’m making out , both of my nipples are being sucked, being enveloped/penetrating, something’s tickling or penetrating other parts of me, and I’m getting a foot massage, and I’m under a water full, orgasmically, creating this massive big bang ultimate experience, approaching those vistas, high points of these mountain tops, peaks of the psytrance experience if you just throw that in someones face, it doesn’t work the same

that’s the whole dance,,the foreplay, in a track the intro is the foreplay, and outro is the after glow, the climax is somewhere and there may be multiple

having those heart thumping eargasmic experiences, I strive to achieve that with better form, structure, sound engineering, mechanics, this track at this point is the crown jewel of my productions

maybe it will be the last I’ll ever do because I get wiped out with corona, or the internet gets wiped out because of collapse, whatever the case may be as of last night I’m reassured that my union with the spirit of the dark goddess through the process of creating the track, through the beta testing on myself, also testing with dmt, chanting the mantra of the track through the dmt samples, the simulator, the flight test, can I break through event horizon, terminal velocity, get into orbit, if I can hold on with this track through the turbulence, breaking through, mantra protects me as I get into the orbit, habit of flight testing tracks, so many subtleties, things out of tune, out of phase, still learning, things out of whack, mixing, the deepest bows ever to nuno, this time I went ahead and paid extra, still gave a sweet deal, please is surrender, I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing, just the thesis, the concept, I gave him the stems so that he could mix them in his own way, did some real fuckin wizardry to save my ass and make this digestible to the ears to engineering specifications that I could only ever dream about understanding, the best thing I’ve ever done

I do want to say, my goal my aspiration is to be like I could play my favorite psytrance producers tracks in a playlist with one of my tracks and have it not be a real fuckin disappointment

doesn’t have to shine any more than that

5 years of feeble attempts moving at least on the right direction

its gotta be a monster,

my intention, a beautiful divine feminine monstress

we deliberated about whether or not the chanting in my other tracks, there’s people who might absolutely love this experimental project of vocal psytrance, some people hate, continuum, sweet spot we agreed on, I’m maybe done doing vocal psytrance using the english language, I don’t want to denigrate previous works

in order for me to have any real acknowledgement or hope to be spun by djs on dance floors, it can’t be a sing along pop duet, rarely you see that fly

trance people aren’t into weirdness of psytrance, dark psy

most positive sense, tantra punk music is ahead of its time, in a cynical sense, dear brother said, I love you dude but it’s too much to ask for people to vibe with this, yeah you’re right, I enjoy its for myself, why don’t you do real psytrance, skip the vocals, release instrumental tracks

all tracks were stories to tell

now I can produce instrumental psytrance or just try

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asked to produce something, accountable to design of a producer,

work with those design constraints

sweet spot that was agreed upon

get away with thrive, I want to produce tracks where I’m integrating mantras because I feel and experience the power of what mantras do to purify the mind, heal, magical powers, invoke goddess, cultivate mastery of love, choose your own adventure, design your trip, more of lucid dreaming experience of psychedelics with mantra

terrence mckenna gets into that, books on hidden psychedelic history of yoga

modernization of these ancient harmonics

exquisite vocalist, prolific bollywood film soundtrack singer, look at her discography, beyond profound

almost infinite, goes to show how much love and devotion there is to these traditions

I’m chanting one of her mantras every day, spiritual practice wake up spend 15-30 minutes with her production of a vedic mantra, fierce form of shiva, effect of please heal me, liberate me, pluck me like a melon from a vine, how permaculture can you get

with fierceness of the 3 eyed one, fierce form of shiva, and there’s deep story and mythology behind it, I’m just a rocker, a hesher, metal head, loves metallica, loves slayer, wore patches, went to shows, worshiped the albums

journey as musician, feel into amazing exquisite intoxicating dark riffs

sacred geometrical sonic forms, ancient mantras sung by priestesses, this is a deep death metal groove, melody that I was shredding on in basements as a teenager with my bc rich warlock, spider looking, kali looking guitar, shredding on these dark enchanting melodies in c#, though not in 432, next best thing, jamming om frequency death metal, now tuned to be dead on

transcendental death metal love, death, cynic, disincarnate, arch enemy, in flames, evolution fo crude trash death to transcendent death metal so deep in my heart, these are my roots

played track for my homie, listen to the harmonies, these are death metal harmonies, death metal channeled from these places

tantric mysticism, homage to the hell realms, you can’t fight your demons without going to where they live, visiting with them ,hanging out, partying and dancing, giving love and nectar of the goddess, bring the goddess to your demons, for them to be transformed and evolved and for them to be released

visions, what if demons, as miserable as you are, doing the drudgery, do they really i want to be imprisoned in your chakras, making hell for you, we think that’s what they want, the hierarchies of the demonic realm, a lot of the ones, larval pests being farmed, maybe enslaved by more insidious masters of them as puppets, sad but true metallica demonology, all the death metal album covers, alien giger, landscapes of living hell, very tantric, described in tantric scriptures and hymns and chants to goddesses, seek goddess, beauty in darkness, reason to apply yourself to inner heal realms, explore, bring shakti love to them

this track, sometimes I ask myself, I could wake up in the morning and say is it possible to love the goddess too much ever, today will I be excessively exerting myself beyond reasonable limits, to try to seduce, impress divine goddess energies, forms of goddess I’m so enamored by, is it possible to over love somebody, not in possessive way, manipulative, controlling, jealous, a way of true giving a good way to approach life

love embedded in this track, is it her love is it my love is it our love is it divine cosmic love, is it a love that invites and creates seats at a table of a feast of divine loving energy

allowing demons into the ceremony, been a practice for me and transformation for me,

ask demons wearing the masks of my traumatic memories, to put down their masks, observe order of ceremony, take seats in amphitheater of goddess worship so that we can all be blessed, transformed, divined by her presence, chant together in this invocation, form an alliance, discover that we want the same thing

we don’t want ben to suffer, we don’t want to live in ben’s traumatic history forever, we’re bored with that, that’s an old story, we want to collaborate to be in a state of grace and meditation

kali mandir, where else do you want the demons to be, out there wreaking havoc like loose rabid dogs, maybe not be lap dogs, be gargoyles, train them, we feed you but you obey us

opportunity and challenge of this realm, massive infestation fo demonic entities, will borrow in, take possession, do harm, don’t know another way, same you could say about slums, given no other alternatives/opportunities you have criminality, decline in compassion, increase in uncompassionate self serving, I can see the faces of the rapists and molesters that attacked me throughout my life, there was a quality of love they were deprived of and they went septic inside, but my goal and hope is that by feeling into the healing energy of the goddess, nectar of healing love and abundance can be rained down upon all of these beings

so the first mushroom trip with this track, hell froze over, exquisite journey and experience to see this frost, entered this realm with the track

psy salon, listening to someone talk about their trip is about as interesting as listening to some talk about there dreams, you do you, but place for trip reports

build theme park, build ride, don’t know how its gonna feel what needs to be tweaked, don’t have all the lights wired up, don’t know what its gonna look like, test with magic mushrooms, use mantras to invite deity of devotion into the ceremony, that’s when the all the lazer light show, astral 3rd eye lazer light show, other worldly realms

getting first nintendo game tantra, snow field realm, insectoid alien larval multiheaded monster realm, gargoyle, monstrosity, infinite, kaledescopic, growing, the way you look at a mold, infinite interwoven textures, matt of black old, millions of snarling gargoyle heads bat faces, in your face, growing, expontentially increasing in number and size, getting in your face, trying to gross you out, being obnoxious

goddess comes down, removes them, dissolves them, some of the mantras, seeing with mushrooms, potential for these wild evil beasts to become tamed, disciplined, in formation, a mercenary army retrained, re organized, incentivized, not to work for demon lords, but to work for humbling power of the goddess in trade for her love

that’s a take on militarism that is the warrior goddess mystique of tantric shaktism par excellence, that is the chandi, whatever you think about time and culture boundness, martiality, divine feminine goddess, reformed demons, counter intelligence to get evil demon armies to not work for gold, booty, rape and pillages that the kings of the demonic realm would give them, she offers a better form of payment, which is the intoxicating love of her shakti, it’s a fucking beautiful sexual erotic love that you don’t get from the bible, too sex phobic, homophobic, eroto phobic, no offense intended to people on that path, pray hard, have a sexual relationship with jesus christ, if you’re mature, an erotic being, haven’t sexualized your spiritual practice told not appropriate, taboo, out of the box thinking that you can do

experience of having gone to these places, first experience, hell freezing over, I’m in this normally really nasty place of my inner demonic realm, over grown from all the punctures of my astral body, rape and abuse of childhood and teens, being breached and over grown, festering, snarling, frothing, beastial, then this track as soon as it comes on, this frost, ice age comes over the hell realm, I see all these demons shivering cold, frozen, start to feel affection, maybe you didn’t mean to do all that harm, didn’t know what to do with yourself, or maybe enslaved, against your better nature, yearning to evolve into a divine nature, transmute and alchemize from larval demon to butterfly angel, transformation comes form shakti nectar, tantric scriptures

you’re welcome here, put down your masks, be your true self reveal yourself as you truly are, we will honor the beauty of your form, the texture of your face, the ferocity, oh wow how many teeth do you have in there, even if they appear deformed, sit back and watch you zoom in around my 3rd eye I see the sacred geometry of the hell realms, I bow down and say that is your domain, how about if I honor you as a work of art of creation that you are, you stop tormenting me, and we dance together come out and show me your dance, dance for the goddess we want the same thing, we want to be saved feel the salvation of the goddess, we want the same thing, more I talk dirty to these foul creatures, the more liberated they become, and so I’m freeing the demonic slaves trapped within my sold, watching them break free like rats escaping a sinking ship, they want freedom to, do you want to be consumed by the goddess, be loved, be transformed, who the fuck am I, young middle age man, coming from the cutlure of wayne’s world, what do I know about any of this stuff, that the ancients studied and marveled over for millennia, I’m just this american dude on a bogus journey, excellent adventures, I don’t know how it all works

provision interpretation, the demonic realm wants to be a invited to a party

kali mandir, welcome them into the ceremony, quarantine them, you can be here, you will be fed by the goddesses love, if you want to sacrifice yourself to be consumed by her, you’re welcome to do that, be in observance to the structure of the ceremony, don’t be biting peoples heads off, keep your nastiness in check, come and do the yoga and meditation prostration, mudras, everyone is ever more blessed

its an armistice, what needs to happen between all the warring religions and cultures

watching star trek, undiscovered country, way they depict the klingons, that fanged, sharped edged, the classic dante’s inferno esque aesthetic of warrior, people who I know have called out potential underlying racist tones around some of star trek species if you will, shelve that for this moment for this art history of sci fi, acknowledge that, not the biggest trekkie, when I was watching that, the work they did with lights and shadows, even conan the barbarian, war lord, temples of toxic masculine, evil violent, warlike, armored, that whole barbarian mystique, aesthetic, there is beauty to it, art form to it, look at all the creatures in nature that have defensive anatomical structures, is that evil, scorpions, bees, is that evil or just survival, adaptation, evolution, ecology

appreciate the beauty of parasites as freakish as they can feel , as threatening as they may be, be in balance with them, indigenous cultures have struck a balance, most resilient, have worms in them, genetic coevolved balance with dark evil creepy crawly, taking that into psychedelic journey, tantric mantras, warrior goddess tradition, a matter of a dance with war, not a genocide, not a massacre, not a kinetic warfare of bombs, bullets, fires, all of that decimating death, colonization, but a dance

primitive warfare, stages of ritualized symbolic warfare, put on beautiful battle regalia, steeped in shamanic mystique, all symbolic, like historic reenactments

looks like combat but not killing each other

sweet spot, that was in ishmael, and movie instinct, zooms into those boundary assertions of tribes doing symbolic warfare, applying that anthropoogy to these trips

can we dance rather than being ripping each other apart limb from limb and chewing each others heads off, and infecting each other with poison, a lot of animals that are predators, they would rather flee, choose their battles, mortal combat is a last resort, I eat you or you eat me, not a lot of frivolous energy wasted in violent combat in nature, food chainy

back to first trip, hell freezing over, frost coming over being,s I see you out there freezing, in this frosted over hell realm,

almost like say you were at war with another nation, natural disaster, all the sudden become refugees, look at them, what were we fighting over, you’re so vulnerable, so in need of the shelter we can provide because we were hit by calamity, light and dark, inner battle field

another memoir from the astral battle field

if I can put this cryogenic spell on these nasty gnarly demons so they can be chilled so I can invite them, now you are in a state where you’re willing to negotiate, I’m not just cowering and letting you destroy me and devour me, superior adjudicating power of the goddess invoked through this track all here hanging out, now can welcome your ceremony can really begin, come up one by one come up drop mask like getting a hug from Ama, getting loved on by erotic goddess who has been traditionally named Kali, a bring a bit of my own anthro informed politically spiritually correct informed spin on things

it struck me that there are people who are going to question me, hate me doubt me, want to troll me, because I’m a white man in romance with hindu tantric goddess kali, I have done the work to prove that you can be a cultural appropriator, not a cultural mis-appropriator, paid the devotional dues to be able to parade and prance around proudly to wear the kali yantra on my neck, have it on my logo, benefit corporation of giving back and being in service in her name, continue process of navigating, enjoy, struggle, suffer in pursuit of acknowlegement and success, appreciation for my story, if I can help people, be of service, great, earned the right ot use her name, those who are very possessive of her, and want to tell me the correct version of her story, what she is and what she is, how I’m permitted or not permitted to interact with her, or talk about her, or be in love with her, or kiss and tell about her

I’ve been scolded cursed, endorsed encouraged for my use of the word goddess kali in my works, she’s central to it, the heart of tantra that I know, what else can I do but get up in the morning and say is it possible to over love, her the women, and men and all the demons who want to be in that energy field of her as an invoked deity

haters of that, is it possible to not hide her, not through any form of trickery

considering this time of great peril, spiritual correctness, cultural appropriation,misappropriation, take an approach of wayne’s world, bill and ted, unassuming, the less pias that I am about this and the more, whoa radical dude, did you see the goddess, she was fuckin hot, what a babe, I’m a just a bro dude or whatever, rather just be that, or I’m the most evil twisted insidious, mansplaining, entitled, toxic masculine douche bag ever, can I just start there, and there’s only one direction to go from there, I’m a gonna claim that, that’s me, can’t do much more harm than that

if I say oh I’m the saint, I’m the priest, I’m the shaman, I’m the chosen one the blessed, bestower of wisdom, shit doesn’t stink, guru,

tantric training, supposed mythical elder of the lineage, legendary dude, he was the mystic guru who did not luxuriate in the hero worship, was opposite, deliberated left fish guts hanging in his beard, to turn people off at his hideousness so they would not bother him, could just enjoy blissful samadhi meditation state, free of shackles of other peoples hounding attention, attitude, there’s always gonna be more grace in the humility of hermitage, build your temple on the highest most hard to access cliff, mountain, so that only the most devoted will distract you from your studies and meditation, practice of divine loving making with, don’t want to say dakini consort, because of the gender politics I’ve discovered, but saying your beloved

if I go around as I have, what are the limits of me representing kali, a lot of share holders have stake in the corporation of the zeitgiest of the archetype the mythology, everybody fights vover the direction everybody wants to be the CEO of Kali, ceo of the worship of kali, want their brand, lineage to be supreme and reign above all others, less violent subsects of hinduism than other religions, but same fight, she’s mine no she’s mine, this is how she is dressed, this is what that scripture meant, academic to non academic struggle, then me in the mix, I’m just a bro dude, wayne and garth

at a certain point some of us in the anarchist movement started to favor words like autonomy

same way government doesn’t want to invoke the magical powers of the word crypto, because it sounds cryptic and criminal and surreptitious ninja, you can feel the tone when only government agencies white wash and euphemize ther term crypto currency by calling it virtual currency, easier to embrace, far less threatening, don’t look at the crypto math, crypto wars are still raging, we don’t want you to know when we have back doors, powers that be, powers that be, super threatened by crypto, popular implementation fo strong public key cryptography applications, aka bitcoin, aka everything else that has been a tool of empowerment and sovereign, financial technology, file storage

fear of crypto is why you hear governments saying virtual currency

appropriate spin doctoring, good euphemisms, and evil euphemisms, staters gonna state, non staters are gonna have to adapt ot that fact of life

anarchist movement, certain point, that word has been so trashed so abused so misused, can’t get over the stigma, too strong, energy required to try to restore a state of grandeur, was a state back in early 20th century, anarchism was household name thanks to labor movement, huge percentages of the working class, meant a lot to have a movement of anarcho syndicalists

anarchism as a word, anarchy, phases but ultimately demonized, the shadow of lawlessness chaos disorder

temporary autonomous zones, autonomy, expresses self governance, autonomy is proactive, anarchy is negative,

when hyper intellectual, anarchist intelligensia, writer, speaker, collective member, semi prominent for a time in global anarchist movement as a thinker, wouldn’t say thought leader, tiny little moment of my life where it meant everything to me, clawing my way through the establishment to install my brand, height of college years, toxic male ego, mansplaining, terrible I was so bad, but had a bit of charm, people handed me the mic, assignments to write, had a bit of a niche, come from those trenches of discourse, forced to contemplate things like, do we rebrand anarchy to autonomy, lot of places it felt like that was the way to go

in perfect world you wouldn’t have to water down or white wash the intensity of a word that you love that represents something fiery and passionate, to tame that, socially acceptable, new word, loses some fire and passion but could be appropriate strategy, without being too much of evangelist, to on board, rather than convert, at least invite people, not hiding/tricking, duped into letting defenses down to be seduced into an anarchist cult which did happen, on guard against that as well

applying this all to the goddess kali a lot of titles, people believe that they hold the deed to the canonical origin stories of appropriate dress, sexuality, taming the goddess, domesticating the goddess, discourse of feminist tantrikas, the goddess was captured and trafficked into the bramanical priest cults of orthodox hinduism, made into royal figure, fitted with modern, ancient now, modern then taking ancient primordial, 10s of 1000s of years old, tribal deity, dragging her out of her wild ferocious naked sexually voracious state of nature, forcing her to be a devadasi in these king built empire temples where she becomes a museum artifact, told to shut up and stop being as wild and free as she is, cultural engineering, social engineering, spiritual engineering to tame the goddess and make her into this demure, over clothed docile mother, take away her sexual potency, irrepressible sexual potency that was etched into the deepest tantric scriptures, etched into iconographic, burning coal that could never been fully grabbed and control, that’s the beauty to me of what persists of her wildest, not fundamentalist, student of anthro of most primordial, premodern, jungle based, pagan shamanistic roots of goddess kali, connecting with deep nature, deep astral nature of this foce, deity, presents herself to me, whether you like it, or are repulsed by the sexual nature,

unless something or someone stops me, or if she abandons me, I’ll probably shut up because I’ll know I pissed her off

while she continues to bless me with her beautiful presence in the ceremonies I design in honor of her, go to temples where people are worshiping her in her fullness, and she blesses me I will continue to feel like my compass is pointed in the right direction, on the right path, she is my north star, if that disappears I know I must change something

one foot over the next

not going to say that she guided me to make this semantic manuver

you want to impose an authoritarian dogma of what I can or can’t say or disclose or express about my experience with this deity there are people who would like to kill me, cut my tongue out, sew my mouth shut, I go to the extreme telling my truth about my experiences, cats out of the bag, jenies out of the bottle, can’t undo that, live with that, hopefully remain graceful enough so I don’t undermine or discredit myself in a major way that can’t be forgiven

it’s not for the people who are already haters, I’ve done this manuver, it came to me, what is a classification of the goddess that does not bind her to time space and cultural biases, in a more benign sense, styles and preferences, principle over preference is one way to think of it, other people another time another place, had their own pathways of discovery of her as a phenomenon, goddess is relative to god, word games, semantics, very tricky, what’s the most generalized, non denomination, not dogmatic free from all culture boundedness to describe what I was experiencing, as if I never knew that kali existed, she appeared to me before I knew what to call her, that’s what you’re seeing, oh that’s that, chicken and egg

what if all historical references to describing this force of nature that can be accessed through various means, what if there was no name, and I had to come up with not a name, a classification a taxonomy, a plant has a latin name that describes something about what it is, describes what its related to, how its structured, there’s an elmetn of what its most closely related to, how it’s differentiated from other similar related plants, edible quality, the most distinguishing characteristic that’s encoded to the latin, not a cutesy name like we have common names

plants with so many different folkloric names who’s gonna fight over which is most popular at a given time,m power struggle, tug of war, which of names of a plant are gonna be in vogue, very fleeting,

felt an inkling to say, if kali is just the common name what would be the scientific, more taxonomy based latin type name that when you hear it and when you read it and use it, you’re actually descriptive more than it is a sort of term of endearment or a way to just reference somebody, what if instead of frank, more like a native american name, relative to clan, now names, smith, chandler, shoemaker, there were names that had partial significance and meaning relative to your clan, family, lineage, descriptive of what trade you were in, what is the macro nature of this deity I’m experiencing, how can I put into some words

I love this track, I can’t say which artist produced it, graham handcock, alan watts, one of those epic voices sampled in psytrance, one of the most epic moments, there are many and we all know in the movement the most exquisite ones that we connect with , track where sampled english vocal phrase is the world “alien god” the way it’s built up, the craftspersonship of how it’s installed at that moment, fucking awesome and when I think about that world alien god, immediately removes the all the bullshit baggage that I get when I think about jehovah all the horrible deeds done in the name of jesus, I think of god, least interesting, most tired stale, unenchanting word, goddess for me is a sexier sounding word, I love women, I’m most hetero, I love that goddesses can be adored for their sexual aspect, disdain I feel, as a punk, no gods no masters, still repulsed by word god, rarely say it, if that’s your thing live it up, more power to you, but when I hear goddess I instantly for get about the negative feelings of god, beautify, gorgeous, enchanting, as a molecule of sound, frequencies and syllables, resolves that conflict in me, soothed by it, dissolves negativity

alien god, that’s interesting that’s cool, qualitative, shift opens up to be more than one, more far out, anybody could say there was a time before monotheism, very mundane, many pantheons swapping god goddesses, sprites, angels, demons, height of greco roman domain, all religions allowed to persist so long as there was some altar devoted to the deities fo the roman state, tolerance

hyper centralization around monotheistic concept of god, unheard of, violently resisted and faught against, don’t want to pick a side in that battle of the first few hundred years of the christ movement

but alien god, that’s cool, being with wherewithal beyond mind, father is god to child, as gods of sky that we believe are creators, cocreators with divine consort, mrs god, duality form, shiva shakti, it’s a like a fractal ratio of wherewithal, insights, omnipresence, more compelling to think there’s an ecology of empowered being with different, like animals different eyes, hearing, everyone is a god of their domain, dogs are the gods of smell, humans really arent’ the god of that much, hopefully compassion at our best, kind of rounded off, no defensive tools, not fastest, not strongest, mediocre, averaged out relative to goddess of gifts bestowed upon almost every other animal

relative to humans, it’s not hard to be a god among humans

funny thought experiment, union article from years and years ago, science proves that human infants less intelligent than slugs, slugs have consciousness to be completely masterful within their environment, funny intuitive, pulp comedy thing, of pulp humor, but its just interesting to think about, hierarchy, layering of goddness, and goddessness, the gendering of higher dimensional entities, the word alien we all have a romance with that world, a real fetish for it, whether an abductee, whole life wrapped around the true belief that whatever happened happened, the mystique of alien, the word, sci fi, sector of human consciousness, world is magical and alluring, terrence mckenna alien love, we all yearn for that, seeking, humanity wants to connect with this higher dimensional, thing, distraught with existential crisis, artisans of sci fi, had their way with the dance of that world

alien love, alien god, psychedelic journey otherworldly places, dimensions, exciting, stuff of enigmatic, explorations of a more adventurous psyche, the pursuit of alien is like the fountain of youth, endless curiosity, hopefully doesn’t result in becoming super neurotic shut in conspiracy theorist or cult that kills themselves, extreme opposite end of what I’m talking about, healthy romance of alien love and alien gods

thought form birthed out of enchantment with that track, how come I’ve never heard anyone say alien goddess, what is my whole trip about, its about exploring loving being loved on being a naturalist explorer, exploring new species, drawing them, documenting them, as simple down to earth humble as I could really be, I’m a like a supernaturalist, there you go, no longer in search of but in the deep study now having discovered, and having created a pathway of access to alien goddesses, astral dakinis, sky dancing shamanistic, sexy the pole dancers of the stars, the pole dancing of the cosmic galactic forces, alien goddesses that have been written about, painted about, fantasized about, mythologized about for millennia, transcendent power of me saying wait a minute I’m not gonna stop talking about kali, not gonna forget about her,e bu I can get a little chuckle from her, get a little wink from here, what would be a latin taxonomical name, a few iterations, back of a napkin, formulas of words coming out, alien lover goddess, what is kali, if kali wasn’t named, if I never heard that word and someone said what are you fucking doing over there, dancing smiling, blissful grin, then going and being ravaged by this divine beautiful erotic being, what are you experiencing over there, I don’t know if she’s ever had a name or in history or ever been spiritual worked into a religious pantheon, if I had to describe what I experience, otherworldly beyond anything on earth, comprised of organic architectures, alien insectoid, black widow dragon fly, queen bee, anti black soldier fly, shape shifting, beautiful goddess of love, alien lover goddess

it is not just an otherworldly alien to this dimensions, not just female alienness, she is not just an alieness, a powerful creatrix alieness, ie goddess, power to create, power above us, above myself, bow down to, prostrate to this higher goddess, otherworldly, supernatural, powerful, divine in terms of higher intelligence, not just divine as in maternal love, you have lover, as in erotic

sex\y warrior goddess, alien dakini, numerous ways you can encode, enscribe these experiences, elegant simplist, psychedelic goddess worship is a compression, simplification common denominator, distillation of a lot of complexity in 3 words

a similar spell word craft magic, , power of transcending culture boundness of word kali, very contentiousness, no contentiousness around what I describe as my epxerince of an alien lover goddess take her or leave her, love or hate, dismiss pursue, I’m just doin me over here, im open enough I’ll make pornography showing this action with myself with others of pure heart who are seekers and believes, conduct shamanic pornographic ceremonies, operating in a manner of highest integrity to avoid cults of personality, and exploitation and abuse, and be in constant study of those patterns and pitfalls shadow of all gurus, reading up, not trying to rubber neck

innocently stumbled upon accounts of the shadow the hugging saint ama, could be total inflammatory, exaggerated fake news, but somebody has put out extreme accounts, unknown to public and devotees, secret transgressions of hugging saint ama, no grounds to believe or disbelieve endorse or not endorse, even if completely fabricated, as much as we can hate on osho for his misdeeds and misconduct, or defend him like a kool aid drinking brain washed devotee

no where to hide from potential to have success as a spiritual leader, tretcherous thing to happen I want to be the dude, geoffry labowski, wayne and garth, unassuming bro dude, keanu reeves as neo the chosen one, ultimate warrior or all time, humble shy, doubtful hesitant, had to overcome to self into power and mastery, wasn’t a cocky john wayne, prick, the way thiat the spoof satire genious of kurt russell, jack burton in big trouble in little china, he went out of his way to spoof the impotency of a cocky american western sort of cowboy attitude that was the whole tongue in cheek joke of that movie, to make fun of that, the less of a piased proud priest shaman, spiritual authority I can be, the more of a keenu reeves, not necessary with the looks, I don’t claim that, but hey why not for him to be a default role model for me growing up, of course I was a devotee of him,m growing up

I could choose to have the douchy cockiness of action here archetypes or the more down to earth types I’m gonna stick with that and see if I can continue to pursue my love of the alien lover goddess, kiss and tell, make the art, encourage people to explore these pathways in ways that wont’ get us in trouble with those who want to fight over these words

elegance of phrase, alien lover goddess, be free, free here, tug of war, pulling hair, pulling her legs, ripping clothes off putting clothes on, the telephone game of cultural history

reboot rebrand for my own enjoyment own sense of freedom from those judgments

alien lover goddess, it just rolls off the tongue doesn’t it

make psytrance, sans english, use sanskrti instead

so I took tot he interwebs and thought okay what is the sanksrit word for alien, is there such a word, that would suffice, squirrely language I know very little about

first started out with totally minimal knowledge, escalated my support ticket to interwebs, then to sufiana, bona fide sanskrit, writer, speaker, scholar,, going back to childhood, then her studies at university

dancing on the backs of giants, adapt alien lover goddess to neo tantric mantra

these building blocks of sanskrit sacred geometrically sound forms, because of advancement of global literacy and the interwebs, anybodies perogative, studied morphemes in college, don’t know what percentage, words that have none of the latin based descriptive elements, prefixes suffices, cool to learn at ripe age in college, learn to parse words, you can create your own words, create neologiisms, language as extensible technology, make new words to suit discoveries

mckenna new words to describe new experiences, to grapple with hem in discourse, constantly need to be creating new words to expand to the envelope, phenomenological categorying of experience

be an archivist of their own journey, podcast, music, poetry books art, so other people can connect with that we have a common language even if its brand new, we can build on top of that

sanskrit, interchangeable, interoperable, I’m just hacking, when a hacker starts out barely able to logon get online make a network connection, that’s me with sanskrit, moving slow and breaking things

patching together piecing together, arrived upon, goddess is devi, love or desire as kama, as in kama sutra, one of the several fundamental elements to the experience of human life, its element to human experience in sanskrit, hindu tradition, tantra, not so celibrated, not necessary carnal pleasure, kama is the mortal enemy of othordox sex negative sects of christianity, yet core opportunity and engine of tantra in that its your furnace, first and second chakra, the energy the creativity you want to design with that, flow with that, dont want to hate on, shame or trap lest you have big problems in culture, abuse trauma all that bad stuff

kama devi, no brainer, finding the appropriate word for alien, when you watch ancient alien series you see how sophisticated the sci fi of the vedas gets vimanas, flying space ships, wars in the sky, there’s gotta be a perfect word for the what terrence mckenna describes, organico-metallic, you go on these mushroom trips, super advanced hyper space age architectures, hypermetallic forms, cybernetic alien organism, mechanical machinery feels very elegant, well designed, sustainable, green, earth friends, space, friendly galactic friendly something about it, the futuristic elegance of ecological design, using resources that are abundant and sustainably harvested from outer space

new I was gonna score the appropriate sanskrit word, magical mystique of we what we hold for the word alien in english

sufiana helped with translations, don’t know how to describe, might have two dots here, dot on the bottom, transliteration, she was the one who could interpret that in seconds

she could do the computation, to produce, she may have never encountered that sanskrit word ever, not a common word, cited, we know or guess that the context of the use of this world, arcane scripture, one word out of a million verse, may have ben used in common language in oral space, studying ancient texts approximation of what I would want to describe, the word thanks to sufiana: antariksam

she was on board, contracted with her to record some melodious singings and chantings of the phrase, not the proudest thing, whoa dude, check out this riff, alien lover goddess, om namah, I bow down to, kama devi, the pleasure lover goddess, antariksam, from outer space, alien lover goddess

om namo kama devi antariksam

melody of mantra that came to me, emergent property after layering the track

more primitive in most of the tracks I’ve done, I had not had the multidimensionality in the design of the music to decouple the melody of the words or the chants or the mantras from the lead instruments basically they were just matched, had people say its kind of obvious you’re stuck in this pattern, make up a melody, words or vocals are totally its like two guitars doing the same thing when they could be doing something at least slightly different

as emergent property, coincidence, synchronicity, layered over mantra, unexpectedly it clicked in, didn’t knowingly anticipate, dumb luck, smart luck, seemed to work, layered it over, don’t know until you turn the lights on, run the medicine, immersion experience, never thrilled with early mixes, nuno mix, happy with it, thrilled by it, can’t promise anything

I get more than a wink from dare I say goddess kali, when I sing this hymn and mantra to her in the medicine space, the loving on that I experience with this track and this mantra, its beyond anything ever up to this point, a lot of other tracks have been yes devotional but also in combative mode with demonic realm, fighting the nasties with full force and ferocity, there’s big love from her in those sonic journeys you’re also on the battle field, sex on the battle field, okay,

gay lovers of historical warrior clans, having massively glorious orgies after surviving a battle, gotta be some of the most passionate sex that’s ever happened, contrast that to rape on the battle field, notion of okay up to the point of this track, the sexual romance on the astral battlefield with the goddess, I’m fighting demons, she’s the reenforcement, air strike, big guns, coming into love me, make love to me, while we’re both in vicious combat with demons who will not succumb to her power, and would rather fight than surrender

this track is about the surrendering demons, willing to be enlightened by her presence, disciplined, not converted, counter intelligence operation, be successful

when you have people who are turn coats who join forces with you documentary, 3rd eye spies, different informants, double agents, if you successfully turn an asset from a foreign intelligence agency to spy for you, because double agent, secret agent, how do you ever trust that that they’re not tripple agenting

so laughable, revolving door of allegiance, it’s a fuckin shit show

we’re going to so far what’s happened demons on this battlefield, this track seems to have an effect of titling the fuck out of them, like footage when they tested LSD on soldiers, acted like bonobos, turns them into cuddly, peaceful, care bears, it backfired, the psychedelic experiments, mk ultra, whatever, these chemicals are supposed to create these bezerker warriors

this track, of all the journeys that were so combative, there’s a time and place for them, they got me to this point, they saved my life, those astral battle field wars had to be fought, goddesses had to do their slaying

cost benefit of peace vs war, in the wild, violence in the wild, among proto neolithic tribes, wouldn’t you rather just dance this off, have a dance a thon, less blood, death, disease, tragedy, all that hell

important achievement in herstory of psychedelic goddess worship, there is a promised land, dimension of the astral plane, an armistice, a treat, a peace, the undiscovered country of peace, alignment of incentives, perhaps once you kill off the hawks, you’re left with the doves,not gonna say this track is gonna unite the religions of the world

at this time of apocalyptic end times zombie apocalypse mystique

last night having gone into this beautiful redemptive peace play, parade of home coming demons who’ve been enslaved to be soldiers against me and my chakras, watching them come out of these fox holes and having them surrender, and their surrendering is being embraced and celebrate, provision trust that they will not abuse, they will be allowed under supervision to set up their new demon state in a more democratic manner, blossoming

anybody could say new world order conspiracy, illuminati, spirit, UN does acknowledge very orthodox religious figures for their peace work

really vibing with the experience of the arc of the star trek film, the undiscovered country all about the different approaches to peace and conflict and warfare, that’s what we all hope for, a humbling, a tolerance, ability to have lasting peace and tolerance that is strong and sturdy and stable, alignment of incentives, peace love, tolerance, ability to live abundantly and have adequate resources, tragedy is when warlords, barbarians, toxic male egos take over and pervert balance, endless combat, waste of energy we could be doing more fun things

if we lose track of fun, bliss, magic, glory of harmony, lose memory of that, ala archaic revival, lost in seemingly infinite war, I’m not so utopian to believe we can achieve infinite peace

psychedelic goddess worship, alien lover goddess more lasting inner peace with more love if you like this music and you sing this mantra

what I experience in these journeys, experience such a revelatory, palpable, embodied, multidimensional visual experience of what’s not acknowledged in monotheistic abrahamic religions

this moment, there was a time 5 years ago, last moments of my warrior energy to fight the glorly of revelation on earth of goddess kali, that was my braveheart, my own feeble and humble attempt to aggrandize and decorate my journey with this fight to liberate myself, and liberated the stories of the goddess, the revivification of witch craft and goddess temples, battle to reclaim space for the goddess on earth, is a fight, can’t just be prayed for, has to be prayed and fought for

tantra teacher, Shawn Roop, ex-military, jedi combat training, stuff of men who stare at goats, that was his real deal

the last thing he said to me, at the end of that training was to the effect of, don’t lose your masculine sharpness, penetrating warrior spirit, acknowledges that in me, don’t let anyone take that away from you, don’t be afraid of it, don’t lose that

I appreciated that acknowledgement, I think I saluted him too, that’s why I wanted to train with him, he’s the warrior tantrika

if you didn’t want me to want to be macgueyver, the a-team, gi joe, you reep what you so, say that not in a threatening manner, but as a patriot to the spirit of all life from the forces of enslavement

prominent black magician, uses every tool in the tool box, says there’s no such thing as black magic, if you were a true white magician you would do nothing, because you would surrender to the divine intelligence of higher entities would not claim your own godhood on earth, and you would not defend yourself through astral combat and you would not oppose your enemies and manuver around your enemies using craft, be able to heal life with one hand and take it from the other, ambidextrous between the left and right hand path of tantra

and it is only people who have that depth of understanding and who aren’t bliss bunnied out, and totally delusional about utopian pacifism

I listen to field craft survival podcast, mike drop podcast, I would have joined the military, would have been some form of warrior, but thankfully I’ve chosen my own path, less like commandos and navy seals and rambos, more like the pliskins, more ending up being like a warrior who chooses my own battles

don’t have official training, regalia, equipment, of those enlisted, Shawn Roop acknolwedged in me the spirit of warrior defender of the divine feminine on earth

in that grey swirl between yin and yang, attempt to show there is the seed of darkness in light, duality merges, Alex Grey says its more like a spiral, sacred hall of mirrors, documentary, tantra, tantric soup that we’re in

not gonna be a, utopian pacifist, and also not a soldier in any one else’s army, not taking orders from anyone or anything but the dark green magician witch priestess and the goddesses who they have introduced me to

that’s me doing me, you to do, thanks to Vanessa Soulxo, Voodoo you and voodoo me

the sacred dance of being a spiritual warrior in pursuit of peace and not afraid to choose your battles and choose them wisely

with love and a big heart, desire to see maximum surrender, maximum alignment of incentives

Sex, Drugs & Mostly Yoga with Kara Leah Grant TPP211

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In this episode I’m joined by a brave and courageous tantrika who shares a love for psychedelic spirituality and has been on a path of evolution set in motion by powerful transcendent drug experiences.

She shares her intense story of spiritual growing pains, navigating love and relationships, tantric initiation, and ultimately owning her power to teach and transmit the practices of tantra.

We talk about the differences between Yoga and yoga, the role of asanas and tantric practices in the path of self-realization and liberation, neo-tantra vs. classical tantra,  the role of psychedelics in aging and maturing spiritual practice, the interplay between the chakra system, the nervous system, and the endocrine system, the intersections of biomedical science and tantric art and science, and much more!

About Kara-Leah:

Born and raised in New Zealand, Kara-Leah is an internationally-renowned retreat leader, teacher and author. She has impacted millions of people over the last decade through her articles, books, videos and teaching. Passionate about liberation in this lifetime, Kara-Leah practices and teaches an every day path of awakening – the path of the Awakened Heart Warrior. This path is grounded in Tantra and focuses on dissolving layers of the conditioned mind into deeper and deeper heart-felt presence. Kara-Leah’s work, through her teaching, writing and retreats, focuses on using the process of compassionate inquiry to reveal conditioned mind, and so help people to drop down into being-ness and presence. She is the author of two previous books, Forty Days of Yoga and The No-More-Excuses Guide to Yoga. She can often be found dancing in her living room for no reason at all.

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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin hello David Lovitz welcome to Township on podcast episode number 211 I am here with Carly Grant and she is a touch of teacher and author and we’ve been connecting by social media and my interest is piqued with the title of her book sex drugs and most of the yoga field notes from a Kundalini Awakening has a very similar structure and and serve residents with the title of my forthcoming book and looking at so far the outline of the book I haven’t had time to fully enjoy it but to be able to get a sense of what How Deep The the rabbit hole goes it’s really exciting and I can’t wait to hear more about it in this will just kind of be the the primer and the incentive to go deeper in the future with her works better love to have you tell us kind of all about your personal background and then we can get into the evolution of this this writing that you’re doing and what you have offering what you working on the future gifts from my ex and a background I’m in my early forties now and then finally experienced in my life and for the Whistler ski Town it was an impact time of dance holidays and club and working and Hospitality sucking out the Mountain hiking in the mountains around America convergence are included to the practices and tell me if it’s a nightclub that may just like all of my possessions if I didn’t have enough self a wenis or knowledge to work with what was coming up so those things also. and I was at 4 time music please to Ocean blonde with my partner engaged in my fiance I just took me to the edge we took on the Friday night not a whole lot you know what your headaches to see on Friday night and then I may be going to a yoga class on acid which is doing mines post three times and is it a super teacher kind of looking at me funny and that just began this is skating unfolding shift in my perception of reality that long story short went from Bliss Wellness instant downloads of everything to eventually starting to go into deep trunks where I was speaking a foreign language my fiance he we can do it like I lost touch with reality and waking up in the psych ward guy what the fuk just happened to me inside that it was like trying to psychosis and then life post psychosis where I’m coming from that is very interesting and exciting and I’ve certainly had wow definitely profound otherworldly experiences where I was completely disconnected with consensus reality and ended up in some very bizarre situations in can commiserate on that as well but it sounds like also somewhat glorious do you want to talk about what insights that were happening and how long was it last thing in and just yeah can you can you even almost in a way channel the that you were at that time to to give us some some fun insights about the other side yeah absolutely on the fishing on his side so that happened was right on the new moon that experience and it was a Sunday morning that it began on Friday and sedated the Friday night and saw it was about five day experience to those who are astrological things happening in the sky and then a month later to my fiance ended up breaking up with me right side face before and that triggered a stick and experience of psychosis so I had two experiences and what was you gave me an opportunity to see how the stick and experience is triggered by my own emotional defense mechanisms and the way that I couldn’t handle the grief and I ended up disassociating and because I’d already my psyche was already right John is already to reduce a multi-dimensional reality inside that stick in his time there was a list of the translate State Police of the crate is coming through the wasn’t the language Exeter so going back to the experience it was extraordinary how to put it into words we just kind of go back and feel it was it was as if I dropped into knowing you know it just old things worth knowing is one way to describe at like anything that I needed to know I was at my fingertips I could just reach out and it was like I knew every witch every song every book dissolve at one point in the journey but it was also via quite strongly and other points and because the experience was being held by the the challenging relationship I was in a lot of ciaran Tiara coming up going to couldn’t communicate with my fiance cuz I was so worried or afraid of what he might think of what I was going through and he was looking at me like I was crazy and I can feel that so the whole experience was are the light with all of this fear of speaking truth and this way that I was kind of responding to his description of me as such so the where lots of different visions that came around the nature of reality and it was it was so the child that the world is different from what we told school and what we told and Society was being confirmed and just a little Winston’s to like it’s never about what we want and it’s always about what we need that I need for always be Mitch witch simplistic or like me what does it mean it’s not really a big deal everything just seems so important and so profound and so when I was trying to communicate this with my pain. He was just my voice doesn’t make any sense in like one thing I remember quite clearly as he was wearing glasses he needed glasses and I was trying to tell him that in the future we wouldn’t need to wear glasses that we were shifting into the what I was saying in the future and what was actually happening now and so I keep trying to take his glasses off him and tell him he didn’t need them of course he saw he needed them so it was like I had an ability to steal through time but it was very hard to ground that into recognize what was actually real for right now since I was really confused child and suddenly having all of these talents will gifts or abilities, and have no understanding or no way to put them in context or to ground them or two to use them it was incredibly confusing and since you’re fine and you’re very Blissful at the same time in like a deep sense of relaxation is well it was all happening at once interesting very time shake that distinction contrast between the Bliss and the terror and it’s a magician that I follow sometimes online and and he’s talking about really deep really edgy taboo kind of exploration spiritually and he says he’s a one-time very often you know the aha moment turns to oh shit and like I can I can get that sense xhilaration but also that the terror and so wild so cheap do you feel like you had any Transmissions from beings or entities or deities or anything of that nature any kind of like encounter type moments now there wasn’t any specific mbodied other beings that came true it was more like just the same to the wholeness of the Wonders and just knowing that would come through around like I knew that I had to return to New Zealand and I knew that I knew that was related to my mother and I related to my life Jenny what was required. The whole time. To really encourage my memory as much as I could with what I had to see it and then when I begin to do is to attempt to pass out to determine would like to see been truthful Vision or was that psychosis was at the the same scar I mean I was so laid him down with him scar is still so they will what was coming through so it was a real challenge for me to go right what was real and what was just the delusions that I was still laboring under and can I tease out the gold while sleeping the wrist and so it was more so in any language is a particular form of breathing like a hissing where I was speaking even as I was inhaling and exhaling and I had a beer and I was I remember quite clearly watching that passion and the other language that was coming through very much later like last year when I went and saw hitchhike on a hooptie section when she went through things was that I was missing a past life that I’ve had in the Egyptian mystery traditions in so that life was getting confused with me being here and now and now but if we not still. Join us we buy different lifetimes will bleed into the apparent here and now in a way that’s not useful because we haven’t eaten most of the ability to walk in those different Realms 2 walkthrough time whilst leaving things with a minute today yeah that’s very interesting actually was in a meditation group but I went to the one I think maybe just one time I went to this one particular group where they had this skill said that they would apply which was basically this really intentional really highly focused laser focused rotational I gazing where the train meditator would do the sort of left eye to left eye eye gazing with everybody who came to the meditation Circle and there were also practicing or tradition of meditating with your eyes open but they the masters of this path or the adepts of this path they would cultivate I can’t remember the exact methodology that they were following but it was replicable and it was it was very reliable that they could do this in and they would basically be able to once you lock into the eye gazing with them within a few may be a couple minutes of intense eye gazing you start they start to melt away and you start to see them change colors and phase through various genders and and and personalities and and and bodies and faces from there multiple lives and they’re basically scanning and seeing you so it’s almost like you’re you sure it’s almost like you just wear like a deck of cards you know or a deck of it and you just have whatever is in the current consensus reality on the surface of it but if you have one of these meditators going to shuffle your your lifetime Persona ask you no cards and then it’s a real powerful experience so I’m very much in a position to to validate your experience has it in for people who are I don’t know I don’t know how busy I’ve been such a Believer for so long now I just can’t even imagine people who would say that multiple lifetimes or reincarnation is is to woo woo or you out there just makes total sense to me and I’ve had enough I haven’t had what I think some people mainly love Ayahuasca people I know they will the ones who who are the sort of facilitators of Ceremonies some of them I just say a number of them who I know they kind of report this pattern of them if they do the medicine path you know rigorously honestly for however long it takes basically they will start to get through their get through the Karma’s of the current lifetime start going back to previous lives sequentially and then also I think can currently doing work for on behalf of the people that they’ve had car make and take them it’s with over multiple lifetimes so it’s kind of like a you just start polishing one layer after next you know going to this is so anyway that’s very just saw my thoughts to it to validate that experience and I could see how you know that I mean I would like to ask you if it was LSD that cause disorder abrupt jarring Rift and so having comparing your other mainly psychedelic experiences and Explorations do you feel like how do you personally feel in your heart about LSD is that your friend is it your enemy is it your lover is your Trickster yeah I know it was my initial instincts is it was the only state that hit that had triggered at but it’s just so I can go by myself feeling like that differently united life with my partner and I wasn’t going I didn’t think again really into the spice when juicing translate state tax return connect Museum to wake light on after the second episode I didn’t say I would just stop drinking so I can place on anti-psychotic medication so she created Everything Gold fangs because I was really we are you doing anything that might trigger I was seeing a man and he hit some ice and he was going to type it and at that stage in relationship I was still quite greater than my share of triggering my psychosis again triggering psychosis again so I chose to take some don’t much like really small dice it enabled me to really witness and hold the intense emotions that would trigger it and that relationship was a very intense challenging relationship gave me the ability to witness and feel emotion and why I hadn’t even had prior and not react to it was I watching the rolling waves coming and fully feeling of adjusting out in it and so that’s when I started to realize I yeah I see that the usefulness of at least a. At this point in time when it’s not something that I just feel like I need to do any more percent but I have used it again and it has thing fascinating to see what unfolds in the nature of the psyche and your reality I’m sorry I just feel like it’s definitely my friends and I’m curious about it but it’s it’s not one of my allies necessarily oh thank you for sharing that yeah I kind of feel like when I was more of Gonzo psychonaut in early stages in my life and I will go pretty far out with that luckily unlike some of my friends who who had the the misadventure The Misfortune to over like literally not to point of causing any physical damage but overdosing on LSD can happen easier than people anticipate and it can have dire long-term consequences and I’m glad that you obviously reconciled and in and had the other skill sets going to worry didn’t just cause long-term issues but I know people certainly and I think we all probably know some people that they weren’t intending to but it’s easy to overdo it and so yeah I’m glad that are you able to to get to where you’re at but I would save myself to I just I learned a lot from it but but as a I guess I’m way more interested in the time-tested shamanic guided and I would say like I I I don’t feel I like to ask you if you feel like this comparing to the other medicines really I think it’s more of a it’s like the nuclear option you know of and it has a lot of risks associated with it I was saying beautiful things can happen but I just don’t feel like there is a a a spirit guide that’s assigned to that medicine from the greater sort of bureaucracy of Spirit guides and I’ve obviously mother Ayahuasca the sort of Grandfather peyote and grandfather which Yuma and then maybe you know giggly Elvish alien creatures for the mushrooms or whatever but still whatever it is there’s some sub something usually there according to my experience is another people were at work but it just feels like with acid there’s just not there’s not a a sheriff of that realm somehow there’s not right it’s just kind of like you’re on your own I don’t know if that’s it maybe you meet God or you get to see the guide her you’ll meet the deities that you studied if you’re very religious but but you could also get jumped by demons and not get your mind back for like this lifetime so my students it’s worth noting went to when I did at the at least I think I had a quarter for 10 it wasn’t even strong stop imported tonight interesting take at it feels like the whole structure of it and it doesn’t feel like there’s any particular guy with it where is cannabis and mushrooms and it was very much feels like I am communing with a being the plant you know I feel that being with me with the communication begins with the intent and withholding the material which is very different psychedelic Jenny it’s the container and the context and the intention and integration the goal of these things that we wreck around it a crucial and we are so many people that have just taken it with what do none of that so that way they do start to encounter these more terrifying aspects of the psyche of the archetypes of the underworld and what if they don’t have a framing or ways to work with it inside that’s when things can get really not like exploring Consciousness even a ground of a triangle that is safe for a psychic how to manage Instagram those are very good points and I actually it makes me think that we have a lot of a lot of policy and a lot of I think good wisdom that says that you should probably not be drinking alcohol or taking hard drugs or psychedelic set at early stages in life before your brain starts to fully mature and what not but this gives me a sort of food for thought that something I’ve never considered that there be like an age range were there be an upper limit bracket is well aware it’s like okay you have to wait till your message to start doing it but then at this age later you better stop doing it cuz it will be more trouble the FBI could do more harm than good I feel like if there’s one substance that for me it’s kind of like yeah have your fun with acid when you’re when you’re invincible and you’re in your you know late teens or early twenties and what not and taper it off over it’s over time because it can be you can be destructive I think more than the necessary and safe I think safer and and as we’re agreeing both have any more guided more support experiences that have been nurtured for thousands of years with you know even if we’re not in the Amazon or in the the traditional ceremony I still feel like the relationships that previous human beings have built have created a sort of like a landing pad pad for those those helper spirits on Earth and who knows with where we’re at with acid maybe maybe that will eventually happen but but it’ll be up to the youngins is there any way not to put it that down hopefully if anybody’s listening this and they are there really strong Advocates of a regular ongoing serious LSD used and then by all means come and represent that that side of things but with all that said I’m curious now can you tell us about how how did the Tantra proper come about into your journey yoga was going to be cheap out of my recovery let me know when the doctors to speak to a concert with some kind of spiritual experience and then I needed to really deep in my yoga practice I did that and ended up teaching started teaching in 2006 when I was asked to teach inside I didn’t get no matter what because I felt that Judy an obligation to my students and I started reading into studying the traditions of John cheever Ray that I really felt like all that’s woman I can learn from because the way that she taught there is something spontaneously in my practice around that time I went to LA in 2010 to do my teacher training was Sheba and she had Christopher Tompkins who was a tantric practitioner in Scola come on that training and Cheech the Tantra philosophy and practice portion of it and that was when I was introduced to Tantra and it just felt like coming home and Chris he gave us this particular practice which is just a daily a very simplified version of a daily practice that he found and he has been collecting from Kashmir primarily like literally hundreds and thousands of tired so he told us his practice and then he also initiated us and at the time I didn’t realize the importance of that I didn’t you know it was just to make it just a site this thing it wasn’t really a big deal so I came home and just keep doing that practice sporadically for about five years still not really going into 6th until I didn’t want people to think that’s what I was doing so I just quietly and I decided I wanted to do a thousand a practice practice to become a master serious as I want to master and ask legal commitment to show up every single day and then I dropped the ball for various reasons. I made it to 617 days and then drop the bull and I’m now on my 15000 days in a row and today is his it’s just revolutionize my experience of yoga my understanding of it of Tantra and it’s initiated such a date process of literally burning through some scars in, like I feel and about a year ago they internal guidance is like a Caillou really stinks this down time for you to step forward and teach it which not quite scary actually because it’s a whole different way to teach it’s a whole different thing that I’m teaching and then I’m transmitting and because I hadn’t had any contact with Chris and I don’t have it at 8 to hear and use a lymphocyte a big part of me was like can I do that if I can get my hands on and studying and living it I guess but I’m not sneaking with a lineage at this point in time but it’s time you need to skip forward again this side over the last year my experience has been enormously and I will and I have been reading every book I can get my hand on on edits it’s been an extraordinary experience to to Really grasp what it was where it came from how is lost as such and what it means to us and a modern lives now how can we practice the coordinates of the tundra Traditions arrives sorry it’s on you being the last stand up and say I know this stuff and I’m teaching the stuff that I’m bringing it through that’s what I’ve been doing to the last how to use well yeah this is very interesting I find it at it’s is I guess it shouldn’t be a surprise but it is it is a surprise I mean I guess the only way I can kind of reconciled is that the Wilderness is a beautiful documentary called yoga woman and it goes into just how much effort women had to exert resisting patriarchy in order to establish schools led by women to teach yoga around the world like it wasn’t it wasn’t it was a man’s a very patriarchal very hyper masculine secret control thing for a long time and then I don’t know why you wouldn’t expect that you would most people not like in the west they think o yoga that’s that that’s that thing that chicks do you know where something is like actually know I was a super you know control tightly-controlled Cult of male priests that were doing this so that they could you know experience forms of advanced practice that required bodies they were basically able to endure these extreme austerities and his extreme really religious Pursuits but it wasn’t necessarily that was very it’s in the very closed off and I I wasn’t too aware of that history somewhat somewhat sensitive to it knowing a bit about tantric history but just that film yoga woman puts a lot of perspective or you’re like while we take a lot for granted about how westernized things have got but I bring that make that point about that film because it’s it’s it what seems to have happened and I love to have your perspective on this but it seems like this false dichotomy between Tantra and yoga or tantric yoga or yoga or however however people want to mix it up it’s basically that the the more fully integrated Township practices for one within Tantra you have a lot of Shadow work a lot of left hand path a lot of black magic and so when I miss my understanding is a basically Christians and Muslims Came In Waves over the course of centuries and in the process of wanting to colonize and take over and exploit the people in the land of course they’re also having this moral Crusade against the darker forms of Tantra and then now in the modern world of India is the more sanitized versions of yoga are all that really remain above ground and then this country scriptures in the country practice is most of the darker practices have been have been at least band and there’s anti black magic legislation that I’ve read about and a lot of the that the Tantra Mantra practitioners are just selling black magic Services as a sort of snake oil saying in the Glorious more profound shaktism and goddess worship and what we would consider to be the more benevolent and benign path of Tantra that we I think in the west kind of whitewash the darker side of it but it’s it’s like it’s like it’s the whole thing was made Taboo in the whole thing kind of got tainted I suppose in in Worcester wrist and the Glorious aspects of it were sort of sanitized and so like I would just keep saying things like the modern yoga that we know on the in the west is basically the the kids version of Tantra because you’re not caught the whole set of teachings that go along with all the chakras in your not taught taught about the sexual aspect of Awakening Kundalini and the end of the ritual worship of the Goddess that like it’s funny because you say I mean I’m just looking at this in a macro sense of the telephone game at the store should a happens with coaches over time and what we end up with in the modern world in the west and it’s like the the yoga that that I have experienced in yoga studios in classes and with the yogis that are really a bad that I’ve met like again as you mentioned you could go almost decades in yoga and never even hear the word Tantra once and you could also and then even more disturbing to me when I did find honcho is that you could go years into Tantra and never hear the word goddess or Shakti so it’s like now I’m very curious and I know this was kind of a soapbox a little bit for me but I’m also just kind of it’s always interesting to me that moment where are Yogi discovers Tantra and then realizes wait a minute what what why was this why was this in the track at the at the at the movie store it’s like behind the curtain that you’re not allowed to go into and then you discover your like wow I’ve been I’ve been missing out or I’ve been I’ve been denied access somehow so I’m curious just if you could talk about with your mind you reconcile these two words and and in your studies what you feel like is the now that you’re teaching how it how do you tell people ask you what’s the difference between yoga and Tantra I mean the first thing I always wanted for defined as what do they mean by yoga do they actually mean Asuna what do they mean by liberacion this is Chris thing I always wanted to clarify mean someone uses the trip between yoga which is half ways to self-realization alliteration and the tools of yoga which included Asana pranayama chanting meditation but deliberation and if it’s basically a phone or text or identified with doing the perfect posture the very thing that’s me to deliver I do is actually taking you deeper and delusion and illusion Chandra is a methodology or an approach to yoga so if y’all get is self-realization Tantra is an approach to self realization and it’s the fast way it’s like the way that cuts through the bullshit need the thing that is most effective most powerful most recent and my I only do it now for physical reasons it’s like there’s no need for any any other capacity Liberation in so yeah can someone asking me about what’s the difference between a month is not a difference between tantrum you’re the one that it’s an approach to yoga and then I also want to clarify that means you’re actually interested or are you interested in joining us because but it’s not Liberation so don’t confuse I really appreciate that you mention how this is the the way to cut through the bullshit and also that it’s the antidote to living in the Kali Yuga because that’s something that I read in very scholarly works on classical Tantra and the you are very rarely hear people talk about that in Neo Tantra workshops that this is a very tactical and strategic set of really designer tools that that are specifically designed in the way that I liked reading about it was this point being made exactly to your point it is for this time that were in which is extra delusional and extra demonic and just as bad as it can possibly be and maybe it’s going to get worse before it gets better so you better have these very effective tools and basically it’s almost it’s it’s the way that I’ve read about it is that I mean to be a little bit rude even I would say that in the the happier go lucky or Golden Ages in the other wheels of the cycles of time they could be lazy and get away with it because they didn’t have as much Flack and they didn’t have as much resistance and they didn’t have to fight back as much so but from those time more more abundant Divinity on Earth and more benevolence in the cycles of time and then they had the time and they had the luxury to cultivate the tools get the tool kit that they were creating for us to use in this time to fight back in to defend ourselves spiritually so it’s kind of like if we can find this stuff on Discover it and work it and put it to use then we can get through this like karmic swamp that were in now and then if we can survive it as a species that we will have as according to the prophecies according to the this this way of thinking is cosmology then you know our progeny will really inherit a more beautiful time of your more beautiful more Golden Era and but it’s cement what we’re just in the the bottle next year we’re in the in this this Dark Age and so it’s just that he has an interesting concept that all this is a gift that we need to unpack you know it’s basically like a it’s like a time capsule or not Time Capsule but it’s basically like a it was as if they they buried these these these caches for us in the scriptures for us to discover and Unearthed and then apply them almost like we’re you know where Navy SEALS or special forces or something of that nature is kind of way I see it so I appreciate that you that you said that for us cuz I think a lot of people they don’t want to acknowledge they don’t that’s too it’s too much Shadow work for them or they don’t want to I don’t want to kill the five or killed be a buzzkill talking about that that part of it or are you using yogurt to liberate yourself right United Liberation is not about making life better it’s about Liberation to about truth about realization and what I’ve noticed is I need a cheap knowledge he’s for working directly with Consciousness so as one’s a wenis and ability to sense the subtle becomes more more refined prices began working with Consciousness for the someone who’s coming into practice who is living there and then in order to become aware of what is happening in Chinle for themselves I guess it’s just an assignment of being able to be a weird one securing on the inside me and I can start to do the most subtle practices near me because of the point that we apply the practice itself is not the thing the print just simply create the conditions needed for the process of dissolving and unwinding to begin to Heaven prices of dissolving unwinding samskaras in comas and that will happen when we learn how to get out of the way and hold the space which is the whole point of the practice the same as the process that creates the conditions for the process of Liberation to be put into action if you will and then we just have to keep showing up and surrendering rating go and letting it happen and there’s something else that is it in the contract that I just come across recently that like because these practices were secret they weren’t in the cheeks the written down but the chicks are only a loser and describe some of the practices they don’t describe the real secret the real case that was just like you said that they would come a time when it was necessary for these practices to no longer be a secret and actually to be spread far and wine and I feel like we need those who actually care about Liberation most secure about waking up they need to know what’s going on for the my need to know what tools to use I need to know I had a navigate there in the world have never got Consciousness and they need to understand what happens psychologically when people begin to dissolve the SAS guys and comments from previous in this lifetime of course as well and that knowledge I think is it just not out there very much at all okay now I think for anyone listening who hasn’t read it acquires many books or baby hasn’t been down this path so far I could imagine that you’re wondering that you would love to hear now I would love to hear can you go into detail about you know if it’s not too much of a secret now that we’re talking about kind of open sourcing this technology and in the modern world so it’s what is your what is this daily practice look like that you’re doing and then you could go to go from there and say describe I would love to hear in your words what is the outstanding difference in the the the tantric practices that that for Liberation that you are teaching that you have learned in your practicing now cuz it’s 8 for me it’s so interesting every time I try to explain what this is I have to start almost from scratch it’s just like such a naturally kind of elusive infinite con concept and so are every person who brings it brings their definition to me I feel like I’m that that blanks later that that empty cup you know so I don’t so I’m not projecting my headline ocean. It is very obvious just reeling to hear how other people articulate this bass you know a very personalized thanks so please but I’ll meet you before we doing this practice at that rate and so the practices is to warm up links with a blockages are for the brace retention and then it moves into a clearing and a diagnostic running a diagnostic in the clearing on the system using State exams at the chakras and placing them placing the Munsters The Sounds in that area is another way inside its checking in to see what’s clear once blocked what’s going on what’s Happening stage three is the disorder of the dates of the practice and this involves mujras and involves Chun Chang and involves visualization and involves invoking the chassis Shakti and Shiva and uniting them in the hospice and that’s the third stage what I’ve noticed is it’s it’s not super intense car has like three things. I’m out of the system out of the field when that is happening which is simply sitting back and watching what unfolds now that you’ve laid the foundation and done all the other stuff so watching the movement of Shakti Kundalini Prana watching at move around your body watching what the bridge does watching the thoughts of flight paths watching the feelings that come out and staying the witness or consciousness of that important really win the dissolving and the release saying in the unfolding that’s when Visions come through strong emotions in Cecil line healing deep trauma order that stuff will unfold and that last part of the practice so it’s so powerful that mean to keep Knology in the more you do it the more it will be in trigger the prices which is the road to innovation it’s beautiful and it brings me back to my first Tantra classes with Rhoda Jordan who is my initiatrix into Kundalini Shakti energy and rotating the spine and using the Moochers and mantras and movements that were dance movements and various expressions and also the guided visualization so I feel like you could come in off the street and have no esoteric leanings be a total skeptic be a total materialist rationalist agnostic atheist whatever and you could have this very palpable introductory-level I call it like a chakra tune-up a chakra tune-up you know like you were getting your Prana oil changed in your getting your. You know your chakra spark plugs kind of reline and what episode people have this and it is it can I think the the Austin is can be like a good warm-up or a good cool down but in the center or the heart of of a tantra yoga experience it is this massaging and moving of the Kundalini Shakti energy and using the sound to activate and facilitate like a a very unrestrained and very unrestricted flow of a tenor he’s so everything seems like it’s some working in concert in harmony to allow that energy to flow with his little obstruction is necessary it goes to the places where it’s needed most and isn’t just being wasted trying to blast through your stiff neck or something like that you know so I’m feeling just to get for people to get a visual of what were what were you talking about what this what all this is like if you had to if you had to explain it to explain this stuff to somebody who is it super scientific rationale extended believe in any of the magical or mystical or Cosmic elements how would you describe the you note to a doctor what what it is that you’re doing or if you had to do you were doing a corporate retreat in there like we need to know what this is going to entail on like a biomedical level could you translate it to those terms could I change my nothing that right b i g u is a lot to do with that option within the sound is vibrational I mean I really just want people to try it to do it but if I needed so I wouldn’t be able to but it also takes medical terms that I do feel like that’s possible now when it probably wasn’t possible 20 30 40 years ago with the way that science is advancing and quantum physics in particular in their understanding of Neuroscience in the wedding Neuroscience is beginning to understand the brain in different ways and met mystical experience and understand that how to change your mind by Michael Pollan and he’s got some great Bryant Brian science in there that looks like it’s just you know the way that people are frightened the world normally feel like science is stronger and stronger and stronger people just going to get on that label is which is going to really help with the spread of these practices when people start to realize how powerful they are as Technologies for working with Consciousness with working with the Brian working with the nervous system all of us. Will you articular that very well yeah thank you I don’t get it I think it is important cuz it said put some point I’m 100% in agreement with you and the way I would wear that to it is to say that it hits the the woo-woo and esoteric and far out practices of acupuncture and acupressure they’ve been completely accepted into the fold of Western medicine now it will at least to the extent that you can you can put that on your you know on your standard American list of therapeutic things that are basically covered with your help with your health insurance is not considered too far out as alternative medicine and so you know if we can take those Meridian is in those energy lines in if there is also the data backing it up because if there’s enough research done in besides that using the scientific method and they can say well even if even if the actual mechanics of it the quantum mechanics are still somewhat elusive at least we know that there are results in those results are measurable and so it can be validated and and recognized and acknowledged and so I think that the tantric healing particula. The trauma healing modalities will eventually get to that point that acupuncture acupressure is and there will be charts of the chakras in next to the anatomy charts in in the doctors every doctor’s office will just have the sound and I think the only thing that I would add to what you said about just trying to bridge that gap for people who may be total Skeptics is that I was fascinated when it was brought to my attention that the the major are crows and there’s obviously debates about exactly how many there are some people say there’s multiple third eye permutation chakras is obviously just as is many different maps of the chakras is there are lineage is a tantra almost but we’ve kind of mostly agreed upon their being seven major ones but basically it’s it’s it’s been noted in end hypothesize that there actually is situated literally on top of or within or basically at least in terms of the the Distribution on the body there pretty much right in alignment with the endocrine system glands and so the pineal gland that all of that basically going going up and down the spine of the endocrine system and that makes a lot of sense because if in the in the chakra system teaching country you’re talking about these essential personality and information processing organs that the truck was our will that’s exactly what these glands are doing or 10th processing intense amounts of information and also really defining and in programming our experience of reality on a chemical level so that’s that’s definitely very interesting to think about that enter play and so this was a really really awesome expiration and just kind of bringing it accident the fundamentals of Tantra but also helping to to put into context the need for a think you’ve given one of the best polemics so far that I have heard on this podcast about why to get deep into the deep the practices and and really the case for taking yoga to that taking the Austin is to the next level of the tantric practices and so appreciate that and I want to say yes so do you want to just spend sometime kind of giving us if you like to share a sort of closing meditation walk us through some of what you would have to offer an in it in a a training you know take your good however many of you several minutes or more you like to give a sort of either a signature meditation or something just completely spontaneous that would be great but and also either before or after give us your final words in your website links and where people can go to get the book and also anything else you want to say about the book anything else UTI you care to say I’ll let you just take over from here yes it’s Six Flags in my siaga it’s a meanwhile of my recovery from that experience Awakening / psychosis and and understanding of what a treaty was so that’s available on Amazon only online book stores you can get on my cell as well and I have a I have a retreat coming up in Mexico September 29th to October 4th at so I can Hotwire it activation plaid Entre for the modern world I will really be able to join this practice we’re going to take him to practice and really looking at how do we embody unconditional love right that’s the awakened heart Unconditional Love and Truth which is the warrior standing in truth and bringing that 4th and 2 + communities because my senses this world is that the more of us that are able to embody unconditional love in penis after the shift will be on the planet and nothing feels more important than that and grounding it and Tantra practice in an understanding of time should I visit a solid foundation the people to take that understanding and stick back into the communities of one of the limitations to do wish I could. Pointed a wenis one that just came through spontaneously once upon a time that I’ve been using for number B is now so whenever you want to have you sitting and standing with driving how if you’re listening to this podcast just bring your awareness to your breathing just starting to notice what it feels like to breathe really noticing the feel of the breath and your nostrils you might feel it down the back of your throat maybe you feel it under your collarbone so and your rib cage possibly all the way down into your pelvis even your tailbone just noticing nursing what it feels like to braid what does it feel like in your body when you breathe you keeping your wenis on your breath also become aware of your whole body whole body awareness in the crown of your head all the way down to the soles of your faith goodnight is saying what the brakes feels like in your body but all such feeling your whole body front of the body back of the body right side of the body left side of the body and just noticing you noticing any Sensations any pain need a duplex for Delaware to bring the way of your whole body Men start to become aware of the ground underneath the Earth maybe getting a sense of sending root down into the ground just feeling what it’s like to sit on the ground on the Earth getting a sense of the soils underneath you maybe having a sense of the Bedrock with a water table deep it down still aware of your breath we are of your whole body Rosa down three play aware of the earth ground feeling yourself reaching down into as deep as you can go and then retaining awareness of breath awareness of body weenus of ground expensive opening up towards the sky beginning to expand your wenis outwit and upwards all the way to all the way to the Earth’s atmosphere beyondmenu all the way to the Moon Beyond maybe all the way to the planets to Sun and even issue expand outward upward to the sky to the infinite Universe still aware of the ground still aware of your whole body and still aware of your breath holding all of them New Orleans Saints All Saint Grant body sky now you sound tourist center of it all even as you remain aware of it all sending out so much love to you all thank you so much being for this opportunity to stake into share thank you so much yes I was beautiful and always appreciate meeting new folks doing this great work and learning new ways of articulating this mysterious technology but this was one of the best one of the best times I’ve had learning and getting acquainted and appreciate it so much and hopefully we will be in touch and you always feel welcome to come back anytime you have things you like to share updates and yeah looking forward to turn off Liam’s sharing and in supporting each other’s efforts I’m going awesome again for you feel free anytime to reach out in the future and I wish you the best of luck in all of your endeavors and will talk to you hopefully soon thank you so much I took care that is a r a l e a h. 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