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My First Vedic Astrology Chart Reading with Arun TPP290

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In this episode I’m blessed to have my first vedic astrological chart reading by my new brother in tantra, Arun!

About Arun:

I am an Engineer professional and the founder of Successful start-up called eduladder.com

Born in Vedic astrology family Kerala. Travelled across the country and got lucky to meet and live with a lot of masters from different disciplines matha Chaithanyamai on Narayanagurukula and Sahadev.

My spiritual therapy and teachings are mostly based on Vedas and astrology this video is describing what and all you can get to know from an astrological chart and its basic ideas.

I also use Crowley tarot card.

These data can be used to reveal more about your relationship status your career choice and much more if you want a personalized reading and increase your energy based on that to live your life in the fullest then you could connect with me by both online and offline.

https://arunsyoga.in/

My Non Verbatim Show Notes:

A:

4th path of tantra, vedic astrology, energy transcendental state, shamans, herbs, help to reach particular state, without medicine or drugs can reach point

social conditioning

truth nature of human, true nature

some conditioning, social issues, not able to reach true potential

sometimes using drugs without the advice or true shaman or tantrika, drugs can push you back down, have to take again and again in order to stay here

TP: 4 paths of tantra, in order in a health y path, resonance with astrological energies, mindful, holistic, use of substances, stay sharp conditioned

A: exactly

here have natal chart, scroll down,

see

TP: 12 numbered titles,

A: all the rectangle, each on we call houses, 1st, 2nd,3rd, etc.

each house will be having 30 degree each,

center is where you stay, your soul, which got a body, stays in your body, that is ready to be expanded to the ultimate, through your body, that is the reason

while ..birth, planets positioned in particular part of the sky,

in 4th house, venus,…

5 th house sun moon jupiter

TP: if we’re taking the indicator being the location and time of birth, certain quality or state of gears, of the planets of universe, stars, a certain measurable quantifiable, state of energy is directly making a point of contact to space/time coordinates

scientific manner, if other babies born in that location, not exact point, vicinity, at the same time, we’d all have the same chart?

Scientific, a way to explain that, what is the external world, what is the process if you could put it on a flow chart, animation or something, beam of light from galaxy, unfolding from within, what’s happening, doesn’t start in womb, it’s at that moment

A: there is no possibility of the same chart for two people, not possible to birthed in same place at same time, taking, lines in globe,

TP: longitude and latitude

A: different from person to person, time moves, planet also moves, two different chart for two different people

TP: one more question, makes sense, perfectly, one question, don’t say to be a troll, trying to understand the logic and math of it,

what case would be made if twins born?

A: there will be seconds between, twins can’t come out at the same time

TP: math, fascinated by it, after studying crypto, map mathematical proofs onto nature, find confluence of where you have spirals, interesting patterns that actually scale, fractals,

also from natal chart,

15 degree more, 15 degree less, correcting, sometime human error can happen, half a day, one more chart

human error

understand everything from the links

in your chart I can see,

saturn is dominant energy

as planet, prominent planet

energy has a problem, it will make you to work very hard, look at your life, you can see, hard working scenarios, dragged into , even though you don’t want to, some kind of push, that happens, pushed into hard working scenario, happen because of saturns prominent energy

venus, is staying on the bindu, the planet, associated with sexual energy

actually helping, the way you have started, the way you are into, basically you are in transcendental state, capable to transcend sexual pleasure, into wisdom and understanding

as you start to evolve,

start to understand different dimensions of existence, able to go through dimensions

there is some scenarios, force you to do hard

TP: recap, saturn and venus, so if i understand, saturn energy has the effect of causing episodes of hard work that sort of abnormally hard work, certainly had long chapters of life, pushed to work harder than necessary, hopefully made me a better person, sexuality, transcendental quality, something transmutation, extra sexual alchemy power by nature?

A: venus is friendly planet for you,

sexuality you have, help you to transcend yourself into something better

also you could help others to transcend themselves through sexuality, in built quality

previous karmas, had on previous birth, thing which is helping you to use the sexuality to transcend yourself into a better your

immense power, use that to transcend yourself and help others to transcend themselves

karma, very young, something to do with sexuality, past karmas, nothing to be worried about,

helps you to reach higher state of spirituality

TP: compelling, that would validate the path that i’m on,

preset

astrology, in the west, the cards you’re dealt in this lifetime, born,

may be very attractive, or smart or both, or strong, everybody has different cards they get

in that sense, it’s god or its random, in astrological sense, cards you’re dealt, in this life time, chosen by karma, forces interplaying, free will, gods, demons, goddesses, factors, choosing very intelligently what cards you’re dealth

one of those cards, increased sexual alchemical potency, from karmas in past life, card dealt to me through karmas of past life

A: dharma house, 9th house,

dharma, clear in your chart

mars, staying on 7th house

what i can see, you like intellectual and creative women as partners

met a woman from 2011-2018

she can help you more deeply

TP: lovely question, no pun intended, constellation of shaktis, who i love dearly and i call myself a heart gardener, there’s never just one, maybe a little bit, ensemble cast, movie of my life, women are ensemble cast, not one lead role character

who ever’s in the best mood and being nice gets my attention

i chase some of them and some of them chase me, and i run away from some of them and some of them run away from me, nature of life

A: you met a woman, who can help you more deeply

if you contact with her again, you could talk with her, or she could help you more,

something, i feel there is some energy blockage, which i can feel from your presence over the phone, she can help you to release it completely

if you can do it also it’s fine, as you evolve in your life, jupiter comes

TP: you can sense blockage, if i find the smart lover she will be able to help me unblock my energy

A; deep something you feel, that can be released by lover, that lover you met already, time period 2011 to 2018

TP: so there’s a woman i could have met between 2011-2018, has the keys to unlock my energy

A: yes

TP: alright, cool, i have a few suitors in mind, be nice to know i can stop looking there, i have to go through my phone, hey i just got a reading are you the one

A: you can feel actually, somebody came into your mind, crowley tarot,

TP: exciting, why not, roll the dice

A: i can give you clue,

TP: big bucks no wammies

A: card came out, indolence and oppression

8 of cups, 10 of …

TP: don’t know if i should be elated or deflated

A: what i can see, sunset, and water, this is a clue

how to carry this heaviness, until 2036, organically it will go out

TP: 2036, 16 years from now, what happens then

A: this blockage will automatically dissolve

if you want to dissolve it before, you have to get that woman which you met, from 2011-2018, one of the lovers you had, and the clue is, sunset and water

TP: wow, okay, well i have some fantasies brewing in that department, i don’t want to wait 16 years, so i guess, i’m gonna explore that much more, yeah

A: you have venus, you could transcend this energy more deeply, you can do that

TP: awesome, appreciate that, very interesting, exciting

A: you have the shakti power, power of shakti, so whatever reason you put forth yourself as shakti worshiper, that reason will get dissolve, and you will become the shakti alone, feminine path, spirituality

one of the power, this is something which will happen to you, yoni worshiper, i have send you sexual posture for you, this posture can help you to connect more intimately with your lover, that is there on the link which i have sent you

TP: exciting, don’t think you get assigned a sexual position in a normal astrology reading

A: 2000 years of reading history in my ancestors, exactly the path of tantra, is a science which helps you to have the materialistic pleasure also the spiritual ecstasy of spiritual liberation, only science gives you both things

other religions, sexuality is a sin, something wrong, only can do spiritual practices if you have money

tantra helps you evolve self, a very wealthy person, as well as very mindful, spiritual evolved person, science help you reach that

this is the path of that, nothing wrong in that

picture i have shared you will give you more deep intimacy, lover would like to see you get excited

TP: that’s very beautiful,

made very good argument for what’s missing in the western culture, separate sexuality from spirituality, health, medicine, from personal development, intellectual/emotional

one of my tantra teachers, initiated by indian tantric priestess, talk about, everything has to go through all the chakras,

another teacher said, all paths go through the sexual chakra, there’s no way to bypass the second chakra, for purpose of circulating kundalini energy

if you want to go from root to crown, no detour, if you’re messed up sex chakra, distorted or blocked path to higher consciousness

other religions anti sex, detours, get lost, never find way to destination, in tantra, it’s a well defined path, greeted and welcomed through it, love to hear you talk about maybe next time, talk about the primal, shaktism of indigenous tribal south asian villagers, held tradition of goddess worship, no shame about nudity, lightness of skin, no bramin, no sanskrit, no rigid traditions, uncontaminated, indigenous, shaktism, where the energy flows naturally and was never disrupted by colonialism

can you find people now?

A: there are 2-3 communities, existing in india, one is in kerala, some tribes in north east, 2 things i got chance to live in these two places, basically what they’ve done, there will be hut , all the people live surrounding the hut, when woman wants, goes to hut, stays here, men will come and she will have sex with who ever she likes, no shame about what is happening there, don’t have that kind of consciousness, sexuality as a sin

no marriage problem

no son who don’t have father, everybody don’t know who is father

TP: shared paternity

every man feels responsible for children of village, no body considered an ophan

A: yeah exactly

existing still in india, north east, and south east part of india

TP: definitely a topic we’ll have to explore more deeply on another episode, right now, looking at rat yoni position, wildest position i’ve ever seen, gonna have to be practicing some serious…

made a joke, people think i’m a little bit too..people who are ascetic and pious about asexual yoga, i mock them

seems like yoga, stretching, flexibility, so you can be still, meditate longer periods without aches,

i imagine, i would want to have all this flexibility and strength, postures so i could have more fulfilling love making sessions, be in love making positions for longer,

sexual yoga, control ejaculation, not be unconscious about that, maintain erection, control ejaculation, strong, stable in positions, graduate in level of adulthood, sexual mastery, i’m seeing here

can’t wait for the world to see

now foregone conclusion, this position will have to be in tantric porn videos

you’re now a coproducer, in your chart to be a porn director?

A: thing is like people can have more deep intimacy through sex, its the other way around, dogma, sex is really fun actually

TP: playtime for adults, can you speak to , what’s your analysis of why and how the forces against freedom of sexuality, what is there logic

A: sexuality may connect you with somebody else which may not be welcomed into the family, wealth

TP: that’s very astute, exactly what i believe also, male patriarch control transmission of wealth, control sexuality of daughters, they would make illegitimate heirs, political between families, arranged marriages

A: exactly

TP: in your words, love to hear you describe what is going on in this rat yoni position, i thought i had a wild sexual imagination, i was underestimating the potential, can you describe the position

A: man is laying, holding the woman upside down, his tongue is on the vagina, of the woman, same time, woman is on the mans cock

this is kind of very deep intimate play, where you could have really deep exchange of energy, for this, both of you has to be a yogi, otherwise you’ll fall

TP: yeah, i want to describe in my words

most auspicious number is 69

so basically for those who can imagine, i have made very explicit xxx hardcore tantric porn about 10 years ago, first professional production, still well kept secret, doubt anybody will find that, in that we did various, some 69 action, what typically happens, the male is laying on back, female on top of him, they’re head and feet are inverted towards each other, achieve access mutually to engage in oral pleasure, seeing in this yogic, adaptation is that the male is sitting upright with an erect spine, legs out in front, its like you’re taking the normal 69, on the dial of a clock, that would be, basically if you were laying flat together, male suddenly sat up, 180 degrees laying flat in 69, then male partner sits up to 90 degree angle, woman is lifted up into the air, looks like head stand

what is yoga posture, woman by herself, inverted posture, legs spread freely, wow

A: don’t remember that name from that particular yoga, this don’t have a name actually, this is basically, each yoni is a representation of one animal, elephant, horse, mongoose, monkey, each yoni has one sexual posture, something which helps them to connect more deeply and intimately

you can perform this position, perform womans other position

this would be two positions will be there when sexual act happens,

TP: i don’t want to dwell on this, we can move on, definitely feel like, what you’re opening up, a lot of things i’m unaware of, notion that your sexual organs have deep personality, and preferences, better alignment with other people, match making, compatibility, like dating, tastes, eat, music, movies, if you understand scripts and patterns for sexual energy, the personality of your second chakra, how could avoid, getting to know that, if this helps you to understand that, very interesting

A: intimacy will take you more deeply, actually reach the core with sexuality, match making very important, taste in sexuality, partner some other taste, no fun

4 important planets: venus, mercury, saturn, mars

venus associated with sexuality, saturn with hard things in your life, capability to transcend sexuality to wisdom, important things which will guide your life, reduce the bad effect of the saturn,

yoga, kriya, see particular yoga posture, done, practice kriya, automatically eliminate bad effect of saturn from you, can help you decrease the hardships, being given to you by existence

TP: exercise i can do to optimize and to correct these issues, resolve with certain postures, mudras,

A: yeah like mudras, you can follow, to reposition all these energies into proper places, saturn energy, what is happening, whatever comes out of life, thought process, pushes, that will become like something else after some time

this is how life will evolve, if you can control that thought in the way you want, hardship, your life can be reduce, some postures will help you to remove those problems, you can see in my video, youtube channel,

if your practice well, reorder energies residing in you, sharper life, sharp sexual ejaculation, go really deep as well

posture which have shared with rat yoni, something a normal personal can’t perform, have to be a kind of yogi in order to perform those postures, evolve you as a being like that

TP: training and practice

A: everything require training and practice otherwise 5 or 10 minute job

TP: 5 pump chump

A: that kind of sex actually elevate energy, higher state, higher state is natural state of human beings, because of other things we came down to be, nothing like higher state, organic state of human being

TP: this is a lot to make one very good, in depth podcast episode, we’ll consider this to be one very good overview

got me as a client, excited to share this, second indian man vedic astrologer who has piqued my interested in why it’s not enough just to go to yoga studio with mat, pants, fitness routines, more deep interlocking gears of spiritual technology, machine, machine, clockwork, soul, mind, karmas, all interconnected, holistic, more holistic than being presented in the west, all mysticism beyond the yoga studio experience

i’ve been yoga classes where all they do is tell you how to move your body and breathe, then been in classes where they optimize your as radio transciever for signals from all over the cosmos, fine tune yourself

like a radio handset, all devices have programming that you have understand, or you can’t interoperate, what if you bought an internet connected device, no manual, couldn’t get it to turn on or connect

preconfiguration, customize, settings of your own device, powered by electricity, connected to signaling networks, to far reaches of universe,but not configured, yogis/tantrics developed training technology to understand, configure, connect to divine, planets, connect more deeply, with a lover, or family, or community, or farm animals, plants in garden, cycles of nature, a built in infinite capacity to optimize dynamics, you just are not gonna encounter that in the west, even by going to a yoga class

one other indian astrologer, who left an impression on me, explaining to me, possible, devadasi, consort, astrologically born, preconfigured to have voracious appetite for pleasure, be happy, not sex slave, almost volunteering to do craft she was born to do, very interesting precedent, astrologically proven to be born, happy fulfilled, dharma, exalted sex worker, i could imagine there being legal protections, if my dharma astrologically is to be a sexual worker, it’s my dharmic civil rights, astral human rights

A: everybody is different, each one is different, only thing i feel is morality, whatever you do for your happiness should not be disturbed another, violating somebody else, that is something immoral, doing whatever you want to do for your own happiness that is good, that will not disturb anybody

astrology is like blueprint, these are teh energies working on you, make stronger, very indepth life, tantra is all about, everybody has to live life deeply and intensively, get something out of life, other wise life looks very blank

A: this is like therapy, if somebody wants to get involved in intensity of life, through tantric practices, astrology is gateway, the opening, truly get connected deeply, could drop me email, i can work on chart, almost 3 hours to derive all datas from chart, take another 2-3 hours to explain everything to somebody

Joel Brierre yoga

The Taboo Bending Path of an Entheogenic Yogi with Joël Brierre TPP282

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In this episode I’m joined by my new entheogenic yogi brother for an exploration of his radical personal journey of transformation, and his taboo bending offerings spanning diverse wisdom traditions both ancient and modern

About Joël

Joël Brierre is a Yogi, teacher, psychedelic integration specialist, and IMHU trained spiritual emergence coach. He began his relationship with psychedelics as a teenager in an exploratory manner. Marveling at the chance to explore the unexplored, Joël began training with Curanderos in Peru in 2001 where he further pursued these heightened states of awareness. Eventually shifting his focus into a deep and devoted yoga practice, he began teaching yoga and meditation and soon moved on to India to study in an ashram setting in Rishikesh. From there he traveled all around the world, soaking up knowledge and sharing what he’d learned. He was reintroduced to plant medicine in 2009 while living in the Caribbean, and began to incorporate this into his yoga practice. From there he went on to study with various guides and facilitators of differing lineages and practices With this combination of knowledge, Joël now leads retreats and workshops around the world on the plant medicine and yoga connection. With over 10 years of teaching and multiple teacher trainings, Joël is certified at 500 ERYT. Joël mainly works with the compound 5-MeO-DMT in it’s pure form as well as in the venom of the Bufo Alvarius toad. This compound is said to be the most powerful entheogen on the planet, allowing participants to experience a non-dual state of awareness in which they cease to view reality as an individual and are completely absorbed into the infinite. Joël believes the toad medicine’s effect of a non-dual experience is congruent with the Samadhi states that can be attained through yoga. He assists individuals through pre and post integration using a program he derived from the Yoga Sutras of Patanjali.

Please visit his website at:
https://www.itsallsource.com/

 

My Non Verbatim Show Notes

JB: originally from washington dc, growing up, crack epidemic, crazy

turbulent time

awesome parents, parents, new age practices, yogic practices, experimenting in modalities

spiritual lifestyle

knucklehead, learn lessons head on, take longer to learn up

after quite a few life lessons, stints in jail,

2003 moved to Virginia

started bartending

couple years, did nothing

didn’t want to be in scene from before

over it, over drug addict/dealing lifestyle

no idea what to replace with

excessive drinking, eating, working day and night

eating and drinking a lot, very angry person

had been slim, got into heavier set around that time, above 200 lbs, miserable

felt no power to change, no will to stop the way I was eating, drinking

didn’t enjoy it, toxic relationship,

one day re-read, book, way of the peaceful warrior

first time, good book, second time, hit like ton of bricks, ready for it

what am I thinking

took reigns, took control of self

inspiration, determination, got out of relationship

exercising, eating more healthy

different relationship,

young lady decided to get me to go to a yoga class

laughed off idea, man who works out going to yoga class, even knowing what it was all about

still ingrained toxic masculinity, felt triggered, wanted to reject

got me to go, lay semi conscious

fed humble pie

I felt it, lasted for weeks after class

physically and mentally

started pursuing deeper,

bikram yoga, going to a couple classes every week, enjoying it, feeling lacking something

other modalities, hatha, vinyasa,

taking practice deeper

2008 moved to virgin islands

things started to unfold

st. john,

caribean, fathers haitian

took me right in, 2/3 national park

tree house resort, around since 70s

lived in a place, lived like never never land from Hook

tree houses connected to each other like ewok village

lived with 2 teachers, practicing everyday

a few spiritual awakenings seemed like psychotic breaks, could only relate to psychedelics

refraining from substances, little cannabis here and there

abstain from alcohol

had experiences that reminded me of psychedelic experiences

in 90s, really into psychedelics

parents got me casteneda books, leary, huxley

deep thirst for adventure into unknown

virgin islands, experiences, more than slightly psychedelic

kriya yoga, kundalini

3:30 get up, practice from 4:00 to 7:30

reintroduced to medicines by two teachers

trepidation at first, had a lot of bad trips

hardcore psychonaut, 15-20 tabs of acid,

¼ ounce of mushrooms

go hard back in the day, medicine would always try to show me things I wasn’t prepared to see

issues, things gone unnoticed, present, front and center

lot of anxiety, jump back into realm of oddities

this time different, sacred setting, meditations, chants, opened the space

found myself in this beautiful space

anxieties, using breathing, surrendering, finding this is a whole different game

spiritual practices, geography to make my way through this much

looking through emotional patternings

why they were there

ego attachments

contacted dad, develop relationship with him again

lot of pride, identified with previous criminal drug dealer self, wanted to get as deep into it as I could, glorified, process of letting go of story

after out of business for years, convicted felon, see how holding on to story, speak for present life

re-introductions to psychedelics and medicines, catalyst to take everything to where it is now

traveling, lived in india, ashram, few awakenings

wasn’t working with any medicines in india

move to australia, sydney, opened studio

powerful urge to work with medicines

seeing shamans faces in meditations

mom and I went to peru, worked with san pedro cactus, mother tried to bring healing to 18 year old self

see, introduction to that lineage, re-introduced in australia, deep calls,

message to peter gorman, put out book,

sapo my soul or something like that, contact him, very connected down in amazon, asked if still had connections

next day, young lady, gf of a friend, from mexico, bringing curandero from peru, coming to do sacred ceremony

fell right in, started working with him, became fire guardian, sweat lodges, learned what I could from him

moved back to carribean

moved back to states

all of that still churning, evolving

manifested in combining medicine into yoga retreats, had been holding retreats for 10 years, started in bali

6 years ago, bringing medicine in

wasn’t confident to serve professionally

serving dmt to friends

bigger ceremonies, facilitating

evolved to integration

put there for a reason

psychedelics are deeply rooted in hindu mythology and in yogic philosophy period, what is soma, entire passages of vedas, singing worship to goddess of soma

agreed to be psychedelic potion of some sort, which substance not agreed upon yet

understood that connection

started using patanjali’s 8 limbed path of yoga sutras, direct application for psychedelic integration

extract juice, extract message from abstract experience

helping your growth

re-introduced to 5me0 dmt

first tried back in 2000, don’t remember

this time, ahhh

experience was the culmination of everything I’d every learned and studied

pure full body, full spirit understanding of samadhi, full cessation of self

god molecule

draw within for few weeks

stopped teaching for a while

ceased to teach classes there, let go of slots

something wasn’t fitting anymore

wasn’t feeling I was doing what I was here to do by teaching a 90 minute vinyasa practice

still beautiful, wasn’t want I was interested in teaching

more satsangs, lectures, workshops

call to take medicine service deeper

trained to serve with Shipibo tribe

clear message, no, this isn’t the medicine you came here to serve

5me0, fear

not sure if you’ve seen someone on 5me0 , very strong experience, has resulted in death

tried to resist, push out notion, no no, creep its way in,

I realized, I needed to learn more

reached out to quite a few other known , respected by me or peers

talk share notes, information

trial and error

help self and beautiful wife,

retreats, focus work on retreats

idea, taking someone out of daily life, growth seldom happens in comfort zone, but make sure they’re comfortable

make sure they’re received very lovingly/warming

prep with participants weeks before retreat starts, online meetings

individual prep work

seeing where holding resistance, suffering

5 yogic principles of suffering

holding container, holding space for whatever they need

making sure nothing for them to worry about or think about

everything taken care of

scary or daunting deep work, feel supported, feel held

get to feel into themselves, expansiveness, great mystery

support of group, support of us, tools at our disposal to handle anything that comes up

purging experience, things need to come up to be released

solid warm safe container, face what they need to

after that, setting in place what they’d like to see in their daily life

doing this work is process of elimination

what do we put in its place

how do we want to operate, respond to loved ones

taking advantage of state of neuroplasticity

using very very well defined system for psychdelic integration, tryptamine sutras

using this system of self inquiry

each participant gets own practice, prescribed daily session

instead of getting swept back up in old routine, have something they can do everyday 10-15 minutes, piece of reading, something to draw back to experience

nurture what is growing

integration very hands on

there for all participants after experience

touch in personally afterwards

about creating lasting change

TP:

amazing, I could listen to you talk forever, every rabbit hole, exquisite, connecting dots

have a lot of catching up to on systems you’ve woven together

what comes to mind is my first, broad set of questions

I just imagine, I’m listening to your story, fuck yeah, amazing, what we gotta do, positive side of postmodernism, syncretism, fusion

mixed martial arts, what about mix healing arts

haters on cultural appropriation, fallacy of appeal to tradition, taboos

hearing voices, indigenous or non indigenous

you have this integrity, hear it in your voice

testimonials will be where it all shakes out

positive life transforming experiences, speak highly of you, that’s what matters at the end of the day

to bring to question

I’m sure you’ve had some push back along the way, wondering if you could talk about strategies

to keep bringing it, integration of different modalities

JB:

to be expected, only came out of psychedelic closet about 4 years ago

social media, caught kick back from yoga community first

came to realized, system of yoga, far more riddle with dogma that I ever thought possible

push back, you don’t need foreign substance to show you enlightenment

all in you

yes true, but always bring up fact that this substance already exists within us, endogenously

believe responsible for mystical experience

in dark, after day 5 or 6, pineal gland will secrete Pinoline, in turn that will secrete down

lungs are main factory of dmt

no science to show from pineal gland

simply means to bring vision

vehicle of mystical experience

ego loves to advance itself in spiritual practice

it will make its way up just with awareness

attaching to progress, lineage, paradigm

take something outside of that paradigm, receive it as attack on world view, views on life, start to lock up there

all paths lead to source

spiritual practices are like thorns used to remove other thorns

they’re all systems and we have to accept that any spiritual practice is by definition a system of the ego

individual

pure source can’t come through as undifferentiated word

filtered through subconscious and minds of humans

analogy bling monks feeling elephant

all feeling small part of big mystery

when start thing that ways not right to do it, that’s when things get questionable

holding on too much

challenge people who say psychedelics are a short cut

may be lessor in time, but not a short cut

are we gonna limit to fabricated experience of time

where our awareness goes there is no time

experience by time shorter, a lot of experience in one

responsible use/proper integration

extremely powerful tool for self inquiry

used for millenia in every different culture

we like to identify with image of enlightened one, pure one, noble one, the yogi that does not need to seek happiness, unswayed, impervious to emotion yogi

I feel this archetypes no longer serves its purpose, drive for rishis mystics and sages, to get consciousness to where its at

hardcore discipline

eventually spiritual practice becomes our own prison, our own maya, just as quick as a shopping mall can

our practice can take us to the top of the mountain, but if you want to

jump into cave, real wholeness, pure mystery, let go of everything, including your beliefs, including spiritual practice

great saying, if on your path to enlightenment you encounter the buddha, kill him, cut him in two

any systems, any time we create systems around spiritual practice, we are both helping and inhibiting ourselves, a bit of a paradox

these systems are needed are for the ego, not bad not a wrong thing to work with and use the ego

whole movement, kill your ego, crush the ego, ego’s not amigo

have to have ego to have human experience

ego is necessary

ego wants to hold on to its identifying with spiritual practice

not bad to play with the ego, have systems for the ego

not like we can jump straight from here to enlightenment, we’ve gotta get there

ego’s gonna fight us every step of the

way if we don’t give it some sort of system

mantra is essentially a way to keep the mind focused on one thing while our awareness can simply merge into the everythingness

have to let go of even that

real myster, true mystery, source itself, beyond our understanding

beyond words, language, can’t be encompassed or understand within any practice

that’s really why I resonate with vedanta, spiritual practice but without walls…but they all have their own walls at the end of the day

TP: wisdom, best peaceful arsenal of tactical concepts, approaches to these issues

people held back by rigidity of dogma, could be from any of these traditions/modalities

amazing neurolinguistic ninjitsu tactics

can’t think of too many instances heard accounts of yogis, spiritual masters, very anti entheogen, can’t think of many accounts of people who were experienced with it, its usually people who are not experienced who want to say I’ve already been there, I’ve already been there, wink nudge, I’ve heard that one before

interesting where that bias comes from

counselor for someone exploring entheogens, irrelevant to their life if you can’t talk about the same landscape, can’t just assume that you’ve been there

straussman came out

had more time ahead in career, after a certain point, the longer you live, that’s less you have to lose

quite a grace

get to a certain age stop trying to impress people

different life stages

different thought forms around relaxing and finding your path

sample different things, duty of care, safety, being held

opportunities to find your path

not first person I’ve heard say, they felt intuitively called to explore serving aya

it’s not most scalable medicine

applaud you, you’re called to serve dmt,

shamans of global village

rak is dear friend

takes em on a ride

I think I found the one, you’re one who’s gonna devirginize my 5me0 virginity

bufo toad tattoo, bucket list

you got a new client

JB: we call them participants

5me0, in sync with the evolution of consciousness

been around, remember, it was legal until 2011, ordered off internet back in 2000

church of toad of light, 80s

being used, wasn’t catching like it is all the sudden

dr jerry, dr octavia, toad blew up

it is, reminder for us

if we look at whats alive in the meme of society right now with consciousness

big questions being asked

AI, singularity, roots of consciousness, where we’re going in evolution of consciousness

no dual experience

other entheogens can

this is a real non dual full immersion into the infinite

complete cessation of self

into wonder of existence

loosen grip on control of it

to allow us to begin to see what we really are

showing, the toad is reminder that we are the medicine

work with the pure molecule, synthetic, less harmful to toad population

not presence of addition 11 alkoloids,

7 of which cardio toxins, know to harm elderly

drama in sonoran dessert

toad is reminder that we are the medicine, don’t feel we need to continue pillaging toad population, toad goes underground for 9 months out of the year, the only toad that produces 5me0dmt in its secretion, believed because it does go into the dark for 9 months

shows us if we go into the dark we can start producing this medicine ourselves which we do

medicine is reminder we are the medicine

making lasting change

having an experience, using responsibly working into daily life

TP: what’s process of getting to the pure molecule, fascinating, all about protecting threatened and endangered species when they become fad psychedelic experiences

JB: made in lab

people say oh that’s not natural, that’s fake enlightenment

over attaching to specific idea

shulgin, I’m I not a manifestation of god, am I not a fraction of the infinite, I’m making these with beautiful intention, am I not nature creating, so I really agree with that

all about where it’s coming from

we know where it’s coming from, it’s made with love, tedious process to make

becoming more widely available

disappeared for a long time

TP: more on naturalistic camp in general, but if it can protect wildlife, probably the way to go

I’ve had beautiful experiences

permaculture, every plant is native, it’s native to planet earth, a lot of bias

fascinating, sounds like you can feel better about

with a bit of time left, kind of journey personally, kind of going with flow of initiations, initiatrixes, initiators,

transcend trauma, be in recovery, I don’t have a very othodox path, with yoga

felt natural for me to gravitate towards unorthodox tantric

open minded, open ended

now I’m kind feel like I didn’t do the

like go to college take fun electives first, gonna have to catch up on more orthodox yogic practices

getting older, landscaping, taking its toll

at a point where it’s important to have asanas, daily practices, haven’t disciplined myself to do

going for sexier stuff

how you frame, language around sexual yoga, tantra, different currents of thought

JB:

funny you said with asana, something, more than a few months, kinda stop practicing more than a year ago,

body kept telling me, stop doing this

cut it down

kept getting injured, mind keeps making it goal oriented practice, opposite of what yoga should be

cut it to very classic simple, basic poses, hold for long time, deep breathing

disagreeing with body, tried adapting in every way

trying to identify with being a yogi so much that I felt I had to hold on to asana, if I wasn’t practicing then I wasn’t a yogi

very odd part of unfolding

comfortable with in last few months

take care of body, exercise, trying to get exercise from asana

no longer resonating with me

not serving me

might again at some point, my real philosophy, keep your practice fluid, don’t hold on to something too much, fine balance to be found between discipline and holding on to a practice that’s not serving you

discernment

sexual practices

experience with classical tantric lineages

studying there, sexual part of tantra, shut that out, my sexuality was an issue with me my whole life

early bloomer, experiencing desires at young age, most people at that age don’t experience, tormented by them

when I became age to be practicing, there wasn’t a whole lot of control,

committed relationships, step outside of relationships in sneaky ways, cause pain cause hurt suffering, I’d feel guilty and wrapped into so much shame

with yoga practice eventually drank kool aid, yogi should suppress all sexual desire turn it into creative energy, draw upwards the spine, yogi doesn’t need sex just a distraction

I really ate that up, put sexuality and urges, completely rejected them almost

so many practices to draw that something up for something different, that wasn’t sexual instead of just understanding its something that’s very alive in me

opening up far more recently

shedding off shame

how much shame around sexuality did I have

trying to hold myself to that monk image, when it just wasn’t me

sexuality and intimacy is a spiritual practice itself

observing oneself in the midst of those, some of the deepest works I’ve ever done in life

investigating that, how it’s making me feel, wonderful

lineages

haven’t been working with

interesting, I am feeling drawn to investigate classical tantric practices again

growing aversion to structures out of fear of dogmatic tendencies

now its just having to find that balance remembering the structures are there for a reason

not over identify with practice, don’t take in everything hearing, swallow it whole

TP: meta narrative neo tantrikas, path to total liberation, embodying all the chakras, kundalini shakti, towards total freedom, have to build to the fire to have the fire burn, it is those practices, you can want there to be nice big celebratory bonfire, but it doesn’t come out of nowhere, this dance you’re talking about

can drive self crazy as man, with the whole when to ejaculate

sometimes the most liberating thing is to not fuckin care

JB: online people post/comment, only way is semen retention anything else is just being dead

jc it must suck to be you

we get in our heads so much get militant about spiritual practice, only path for everyone

what’s working for me right now at this moment must be the only thing that can work for everybody

because somewhere in their head they are bitter that other people are having orgasms and they’re not

animosity, oh you’re just wasting your energy

of course wonderful peak orgasms can be come to without ejaculated

something to be said for that release as well

I don’t think we always need to hold everything in, I don’t think we need to torture ourselves, like these yogic teaching and disciplines taught us for so long, no longer feel it’s necessary

relax in certain areas, does not mean cease to use critical thinking, tools

wounded healer archetype no longer serves its purpose, we no longer need to beat ourselves down to rise our selves us, no longer need to take from ourselves and exhaust ourselves to serve others,

beginning to slowly remember and realize we draw from an infinite well

TP: invite you back sooner rather than later, zoom into more of these topics, really well spoken, a lot of stuff we could commiserate about

if I could put in a bit of commentary to close my thoughts

the opportunities that we have to experience all kinds of different extremes

if your’e adventurer, seeker, psychonaut, yogi, tantrika, why not explore extremities of different practices

cave divers, have a line to follow back to a point

not get lost in someone elses trip

hold on to that

powerful aspect of mind hacks

if you’re a trip reminder yourself you’re on a substance and it will wear off

be flexible to embrace different aspects

sounds really healthy

applaud efforts to dance with different modalities

appropriate experience for folks

final thoughts direct people offerings

JB: in closing I would say, line to hold on to, engaging in exploring into the unknown, line we hold on to is the stillness at the center, learning to cultivate awareness of that stillness ability to navigate through spaces

get back to eye of storm

cultivate, always there to drawn on as we engage in wild wild adventures

email joel (at) itsallsource (dot) com

itsallsource.com

retreats on website

kaivalya kollectiv, beginning of a mystery school based around everything we’ve just been talking about

hope to see you all soon

Ixchel Sandivel in the forest

Seeking the Soul of Local Tantric Energy with Reverend Priestess Sandivel TPP240

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In this episode I’m joined by iX-Chel

For a conversation about what she’s been up to of late, her new insights into male sexual continence and energy cultivation, her thoughts on sex workers’ empowerment, her upcoming retreat, and much more!

About iX-Chel:

Reverend Priestess Sandivel, best known as iX-Chel Sandivel, is an intimacy mentor and guide. An Elite Tantra Educator and former Nike Elite Sponsored Runner, she was born in Mexico City and raised in Southern California. She is passionate about creating safe and expansive experiences that allow the human spirit to evolve with ecstatic awareness, confidence and self-love through her mentorship programs, personalized retreats in the tropical jungles of Mexico and playshop events all over the world.

Though movement practices, cultural experience, tantric breathing techniques and ceremonies, Sandivel supports others to discover a profound, ever lasting and orgasmic love within.

Adoring the Beloved Within: www.sandivel.com/retreat