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Ashley Manta Smoking Cannabis

Best Practices for Sexual Healing Using Cannabis with Ashley Manta TPP283

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In this episode I’m joined by the world’s foremost expert on the use of cannabis for sexual pleasure, exploration, and healing

About Ashley:

Ashley Manta is an award-winning sex educator and coach and has become a leading authority on mindfully combining sex and cannabis as part of her CannaSexual® brand. She recently completed her certification as a Bodysex® Facilitator after studying with legendary pleasure pioneer Betty Dodson. Ashley was named Sexpert of the Year at the January 2020 XBiz Awards. Her work has received recognition in Forbes, The London Times, Newsweek, Rolling Stone, and more. She is a brand ambassador for Sybian and Foria. Her book, The CBD Solution: Sex will be published by Chronicle Books and Merry Jane in September 2020.
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Podcast: www.elevatedintimacypodcast.com (Also available on iHeartRadio, Spotify, Apple Podcasts, and Google Play)
Online courses: www.elevatedintimacy.com

My Non Verbatim Show Notes:

AM:

buffet of me

am sex and relationship coach

sex ed 13 years

start out of college, sexual violence prevention education

rape crisis counseling, victim advocacy

sexual assault awareness prevention

high schools and colleges

women’s center on campus

well rounded approach in trauma

such powerful work

healing for me as survivor, helping other survivors

high burn out

pivot, sex ed on health and wellness

planned parenthood,

in PA

moved to CA

ceiling on how high I could rise on east coast, sex negative attitudes

CA, openness around cannabis, alternative forms of sexuality, holistic wellness

2013, access to medical cannabis

changed game for me, dispensery, want to feel this or that

watershed moment

pain with penetration as result of trauma

product, thc infused oil for vulvas/yonis

decrease discomfort, increase pleasure

product changed my life

penetrative sex without pain first time as adult, game changer

started writing, speaking at events

one of leading experts on sex and cannabis in the world

TP:

amazing, feel you on all that stuff, listening and appreciating you have taken up that roll, surprising for me, and others

earth’s best kept secret, topicals, more herbal alchemy to get some of the places where its needed most, different kind of experience psychologically, different strains, stereotype around edibles making you crazy, body highs, different textures, how do you speak/present, what you should expect, absorb through tissues, nerve endings through those pathways

AM:

botanical ambassador, speak for the plants

one of most pervasive myths, sex and cannabis, you have to be stoned, stoned sex,

if you apply to body, it’s not gonna get you high, really useful, some folks don’t want to be high

flexibility, interact with plant medicine without intoxicating effects

things that will get you high, inhalation, ingesting, sublinguals, be mindful of smoking

effects rapidly 5-15 minutes, edibles, up to 2 full hours to feel effects

digestive track

thc goes through digestive system turns into 11 hydroxy, sedate, body focused version of thc, edible high different

edibles aren’t gonna make you crazy, however very very easy to overdo

guestimating, story dispensary, start too high

10mg take you on quite a ride

be very mindful about ways in which they interact with any kind of plant medicine

feel in, be present with experience, always add more later, impossible to subtract

TP: edibles face, I’m thinking everything at once, had some doozies, myself, took long time to realize, shouldn’t be potent, in something you’re gonna wanna take whole bites of and scarf down, cookies and brownies, should stuff a chili

how you describe effect of sensations apply to very sensitive genital tissues, how does it alter sensitivity of areas

AM: multifacited approach, everybody experiences differently, depends on how your body interacts, tolerance body chemistry, hormone levels

anything I’m gonna tell you, effects to look out for, grain of salt, mileage may very

broadly speaking thc is vasodialator, blood vessels capillaries to expand

more blood flow to area, mimicking arousal

swelling, in a good way, erections, notice tissue, blushing, thc when applied, kind of an important thing

more blood flow, more responsive tissue, hightened sensitivity

cbd, all the rage, cool, useful, not quite panacea, placebo, marketing, is helpful, manage expectation

cbd good for anti inflammatory, helpful if you have swelling that’s not good

inflammed tissues from trauma

if you’re playing with body chemistry do talk to doctor

due diligence

for me been to dozens of doctors, pain with penetration, no one could help me

thc reduction of discomfort

thc/cbd work well together

absence of discomfort, diminished discomfort

hightened sensitivity,

stamina, multiple orgasms

increased production of vaginal fluids, wetness from topicals

vasodialation, top reason

kick off lube centers

I’m a fan

TP: thanks so much, first time I thought about how it seems like the more holistic approach to erectile dysfunction, people might try this before they try something more big pharma-ish

something you’ve researched with clients

ED issue folks?

AM: I take a very holistic approach to ED, in my work with clients, really like to decentralize the phallus, sex can occur at different levels, less of I’m not hard so we can have sex, mouths, hands, toys, …

cock rings, reach for help create harder more sustained erections

with cannabis and erections very much, be very careful, threshold helpful, increase blood flow, very easily cross into “stoner boner” you can’t

erections more active process, if really distracted, really stoned, may not be able to focus enough on erection

try small small doses, see how works for you, holistic approach, dick doesn’t have to be hard to have a good time sexually, all these other things I can do,

TP: to your point, you’ve mentioned this before, decentralize the phallus hashtag,

from my experience I could see that decentralizing the phallus process, a lot of other folks like myself, working with other men, teach to have more mastery, awareness, stages of arousal, more in control of premature ejaculation, maintaining erections, arch of testosterone

can definitely bring attention, through self pleasure, more of a tantric lingam massage experience, wouldn’t want to have to maintain an erection to get someone else off, if just doing you or someone else just doing you

on that note, don’t know if something you administer, knowledge/experience

sexological body workers

pelvic massage work

AM: haven’t interfaced directly in formal sense, I do some hands on work in my practice

oils to play parties, tends to go really well

these oils are meant to be a marinade, don’t work in real time, actually much more effective for vulva/yoni more so than penises, unless you stick dick in jar for 20 minutes, don’t have some absorption as vulva

TP: enter the mangina

AM: certainly do anal absorption, suppositories, rectal absorption, very effective great for prostate, anal play,

penises, inhalation, ingestion, method more effective with regard to sexuality and pleasure, topicals for penises not super effective, a few folks works awesome, others, makes it terrible

TP: eventually formal studies, I am myself uncut, uncircumcized, can’t really compare in one life time to either, a plus for my absorption, this makes me also wonder if you have advice for strains for either smokable or edible that would be more exciting, stimulating for maintain erections, fun to have a stoner boner that works

AM: nice when that works out, not able to give specific, how going to work for you and body, everybody’s different strain that works for you and your body not work for someone else

strains can be different

things that make a different, even indica sativa

have to put on science hat, read lab results

turpines end up shaping experience

completely subjective

not exact science, not as easy as oh yeah smoke this and that will work for you

TP: emotional labor of doing trauma advocacy work, curious if you have adapted the cannasexual practices/teachings/offerings, for people who, physical pain, pathways advise people on to integrate different forms of cannabis in more psychospiritual healing tool kit for sexual trauma

AM: examine what’s getting in the way, pain, stress, stuck in head, flashbacks, disconnected from body, try different cannabis products see what’s useful in that area

random strain, gambling, don’t know how it’s gonna hit you, intention

more effective to get clear on what it is that you’re going for

for me, pain with penetration, topical really useful

injury from accident or trauma, knee, wrist

mental block, getting triggered, feeling disconnected from body, things you can inhale, different strains, which one is helpful to quite down voice in head

feel sensations in body

no one thing is gonna heal your trauma

not gonna be cannabis, or session with healer

awareness around body needs, communicate in real time

therapeutic professional

trauma healing journey, not just one shot, did this now I’m fixed

never want someone to say ashley said I can help my trauma with cannabis

it can help, it’s a tool

diagnosed ptsd

TP:

I’ve had to go through this initiation with cannabis over the years, life hacker, bio hacker thing, figuring out how to mitigate and minimize episodes of paranoia, don’t want to say overdose

gardening, green thumb/brown thumb

start with mint, rosemary, vs tomato, dries out, get triggered traumatized, brown thumb, a lot of times cannabis, negative formative experiences, sets them up for continue failure,

general advice around mitigating bad trip for smoking or eating weed

AM: overconsumption issue, thc has biphasic effect, opposite effect at high and low doses, subjective, broadly appropriate doses for you body, chemistry, likely to feel euphoria, relaxation, pain relief, hungry, social, spacey overall pleasant

when crosses over level, transitions into paranoia, nausea, dizziness, panick attacks, rapid heart rate, threw up once after a dab, more than system could handle

avoid that, low and slow

if somebody’s handing you something you’ve never had before, what do I need to know about this

cannabis events, last few years, stations set up people walk up and do a dab, vaporizing cannabis concentrate, 50-90% thc, average flower strain smoking, between 10 and 30 % thc, way more than would normally get in just a breath

way too much, have a bad time

or take an edible wait 30 minutes, don’t feel anything, take more, then 1.5 hours later, regretting all life choices in order

on that ride for 4-6 hours with edibles, can’t over stress importance of low and slow, think microdosing

TP: so useful, pivotal bit of insight

overdosing it’s that simple

you overdosed, if you drank too much alcohol the first time…

AM: usually don’t say overdose, OD means you’re gonna die, you’re not, even if you consumed shit tons of thc, you may wish you were dead, but you will not die, you cannot toxically overdose on thc, you can over consume

TP: overconsume, psychological stomach ache

AM: or actual stomach ache, small dab take me into next year

TP: kids these days, ok boomer, I filled in for somebody at a booth, trade show conference, everyone smokin themselves silly, all the people half my age, dabbing like it was going out of style, I didn’t take anything, just sitting there, worst splitting headache, chemical, felt like inhaling burnt tires

studies, is there any other words of caution around dabbing, vaping,

AM: dabbing and vaping, both vaporizing, vaping referring to vap pens, typically people seem to not get as, potency scale, flower not as potent as vape pens, not as potent as dabs, potency spectrum

very limited studies, require money, people not putting money into any of those things

lot of fears last year, vape pens issues with lungs, vap cartridges not idea method

problematic companies, putting bad products on market, cutting with vitamin e oil, counterfit products,

buying vape cartridge from gas station, think about what you’re buying

5 star restaurant or fast food, pay for quality, price point

do research on companies that are reputable

lab results, show they don’t have pesticides, microbials, savvy consumer, go low, less processed the better, organic lifestyle, closer it is to coming out of the ground, pesticides, molds, read lab results, be a savvy consumer

vaping flower is arguably the best way to inhale cannabis, because you are getting the cannabanoids at lower temperature, more effective, opposed to 1000 degree lighter, smoke in lungs, not great, be easier on lungs, may be better choice to consider

vaping flower

dabs be mindful of extraction method, butane, c02, heat and pressure, called rosin, my fav, very holistic, very nature, flower squish between 2 hot pieces of metal, organic, yummy, preserve turpines, broad spectrum flavor profile, do research

internet is vast resource a lot of shit out there, good stuff too

sex and cannabis professional alliance

articles all about sex and cannabis, one member is harvard md, two members, colleague sex educator, product formulator, robust group of experts, tips and insights

TP: awesome, in general from horticulture, eating utensils, moving away from heating up plastic in all sectors of life

old fashioned, I know about water pipes and chillums, one hitters, roaches, blunts, don’t know about high tech stuff millenials running around with, do like the notion of vaporizing, old giant magic ball looking things

opportunities to say, glass and metal only, very few plastic parts, for burning mechanism, imagine people are heating up a lot of plastic, I’m a wrong

AM: don’t see a lot of plastic in materials, in terms of the was in which you would consume, don’t see a ton of plastic, doesn’t stand up to heat, metal, glass, ceramic,

fav vap, vap exhale, desktop vaporizer, outside is plastic, never gets heated, everything that gets heated is either metal or glass, convection vaporizer, set temperature, lot of those on the market

ghost vaps, dozens, possibly hundreds

find the ones that are most inline with your values

TP: that’s a great introduction to cannasexual expertise, want to spend time talking about general sex coaching

certain modality traditions, how would you introduce that sector of the buffet of you

AM: not like most people, a little different, trauma informed, queer, body positive, inclusive coach, intend to be as thoughtful about things like trauma, body dysmorphia, gender, …as possible

masters program, philosophy, existentialism, western philosophy, inform the way I approach issues, question assumptions, reframing limiting beliefs

recommend folks have therapist and a sex coach

coaching if future oriented, solutions focus, where are you and where do you want to be and what’s getting in the way

opposed to how did you get this way, how do you want to integrate that into your narrative

TP: interesting, rebel, alternative, do you have advice for people who, its interesting when you have a client who is walking between worlds of orthodox therapeutic offerings and then having to reconcile 2 different voices and influences, do you feel like you ever clash with the mainstream therapeutic modalites, or stay in a lane where there’s no friction, is that possible

AM: so many varieties of mainstream, not all align with my values, from tantra, sex education, things I don’t agree with

I diverge, very inclusive don’t rely on gender binary, people with vulvas and people with penises, to not gender

hippie woo-woo witch, lot of focus on crystal healing, egg crystals in pussy

dangerous to be putting porous materials

toxic shock

TP: I don’t know enough about, I refer people out, to zoom in on that a bit, do you feel like, I’m sold, reports of women, as a penis having person, the experience of making love to a vulvaed person who has a yoni egg of some variety of material, their dexterity with pc muscles sense of awareness of themselves, nothing comes close and I never want to go back, the egg thing is something I’m sold on, still confused around what is safe or unsafe, to what degree, could we zoom in on that

AM: its a materials issue, there have been kegel balls, yoni egg is fancy hippie woo woo word for kegel balls, putting circular shaped item into vagina, using it to focus on clenching and releasing pelvic muscles, nothing wrong with that, that’s great, mindful in development, really great, no issue

it’s a material issue, crystals are not things you should put into vagina, however if you want a kegel ball made of silicone, of which there are many, or glass or metal or any other nonporous material, you’re golden

against idea, new age, rose quartz, heal me from inside, if we’re talking about energy, doesn’t have to be touching, it’s all magic, put on pubic mound…should have same effect

crystal healing, I use…i’m a fan…i don’t put them inside, porous material, can get bacteria embedded you cannot cleanse away, even soak with alcohol, soap and water, can’t completely sterilize them

bacterial vaginosis, yeast infection, reinfect yourself,

not supposed to leave it in for 6 hours a day

not good, to keep pc muscles clenched all day long

you have to relax, and contract, important to be able to both

most people with vulvas have too much tension

missing from yoni egg conversation, I’m gonna put this rose quartz in my pussy and it’s gonna heal all my shit…no no no, let’s not get carried away

TP: happy medium, just be mindful about mitigating risks, not going all in or all out, interesting

AM: you could put in condom, crystal core in middle of metal or silicon toy, but just throw a condom on it, that’s fine

TP: keep it simple stupid

AM: don’t over think it, rectally, don’t want to put anything in your ass that doesn’t have a bass

TP: sidebar, I’m good to go, coming close to good hour, feeling like, plenty for people to take notes on, give you some time to get back on track with exploration of your general sex coaching offerings, tell people how they can find you

AM: sex coaching primary work with women identified folks and couples, client based presently, all my sessions via zoom, don’t have to worry about vicinity, every once in awhile, in person, vip clients,

clients all over the place

coaching is definitely premium for good reason, really work hard with clients, give all tools at my disposal, resources, books I’ve read, things I’ve gathered into professional tool kit, offerings if coaching is not in your financial purview

podcast, free, access to my brain, not able to work with me

elevated intimacy, everywhere podcasts are available, really really great opportunity to get access

destin gerek on a few episodes ago, his new book, great opportunity for folks to get free knowledge

elevatedintimacy.com

hand sex master class

dirty talk quick start guide, email list

first to hear when dirty talk course is available for purchase, excited to offer online courses, privacy, own time, exciting offering

couples retreat in Jamaica, plan, end of october, over halloween weekend, sex and cannabis couples retreat, at cannabis friendly resort

lovedirtytalk.com

phone sex operator for a year, very much my wheel house, teaching dirty talk, easy for me, want to make it easy for other people

TP: I’ve been phone sex operator myself, should be general requirement for any sales, marketing, college track to be able to speak with confidence

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Ben Tantra Punk in the Garden in front of the Pond

Ecological Security, Treeage, Self Quarantine, and more Land Lessons TPP271

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In this episode I share more land lessons and updates focusing on a tree care, self care, overall resilence

My Non Verbatim Show Notes:

Last night, dancing in the night, warm and dry, seizing the night, before pouring rain, but still coming down, went out and planted an array of different varieties of seeds, mostly annual herbs and veggies, to be an understory guild around fruit and nut tree plantings

its been a couple of months, phase in and out of blocks of time doing this rehab on this project, that has had exquisite design implementations, that have just been, when you dance and have romance with nature, things can get ahead of you pretty fast, takes people power once established to do maintenance, more or less light, head, cold, moisture, aspects can be set and forget, stuff that needs to be maintained

I’m coming in as reinforcements, do feng shui, rehab, text book permaculture design system, my triage/treeage, set foot on this property I bow to the ground first evening, celebrating the union, faceplant to the earth, made vows, spirits of the land, ancestors, I will do my best to take care of you if you take care of me, never want to set foot off this property again, not wanting to re enter the mix of the matrix, was barely becoming aware of that thing in china, yeah they’re probably gonna lock it down pretty hard, it was one my radar as a prepper, had been since early stages, now it’s exponentially increasing, I’m piping in the up to the minute facts,

prepper fantasy come to life, first days I was here it was quiet, too quiet, picking up from the colony reality tv show, ran a drill of what is exactly happening right now, both seasons of the show, everyone should watch that to see how to navigate the social politics of extreme austerity, they nailed it, a lot of the social dynamics, check it out

this feels like that situation where you’re gonna have to take inventory of what you can mcguevyer and a-team together, food, shelter, water, etc.

its a fucking miracle, all the stars aligning to put me where I’m at now

tragic irony, paradox, you could be doing everything, could still be infected, its a mind fuck, I feel blessed to at least have for myself the optimism of feeling like I have a survival retreat, if I have to go out and do missions into the matrix I have a place to go back to

I’ve done self quarantine already, have the means to extend that for a long time, financially and with preps stored, continue to cycle through

that sort of recap on this last couple of months, getting on to this land and saying to myself, you better maximize the ecological security, resiliency, and productivity of this land now, so you’re not struggling later in more austere times, so filling up every possible container with water

strategizing on rainwater catchment, looking at overgrown system and having to train the eye and the mind and the deeper settle aspects of intuition to feel into where on this design are the places that need the most love and attention and get the most yield, could be immediate, long term, that’s the triage

that’s the training from first aid in cert, community emergency response team training, anyone who understands triage in a mass casualty event, this site is a mass casualty event for trees that have been chewed bare at the base by adorable critters that I will not by any means ever poison, but will have to develop strategies of what’s gonna make it on its own, war metaphors, if you’re gonna survive here, you’ve got to determine systematically, what gets primary care immediately, literally tagging, this tree’s dead, pull it out, chop and drop, mulch in place, so it doesn’t confuse us as we’re going to find the trees that will make it and then sorting the efforts into what needs the most care now, what is doing okay and can wait a little bit longer, what is barely hanging, maybe a goner, lost cause beyond the point of no return, we’ll do a little bit to keep it alive but can’t over extend resources, sorting the efforts into what needs the most care now, and what is doing okay and can wait longer

may look fine today but need to be maintained to keep that level of vigor

that has been the name of the game out here, stacking sats, hodling crypto, dollar cost averaging, smart trading, holding, risking exposure, social distancing, sanitation, strength of immune system

lot of different rodents, trash heaps, places that need tlc, cautious about dust, stirring up a lot of dried rodent feces and urine, dust masks for that, praying hard, really really meditating on the throat and lungs, not gonna go into my herbal remedy approach

don’t want to make any mistakes in any medical advice or natural medicine remedy advice

so that’s the zone that I have been in, meditating on my health, if you don’t want to end up in the hospital, better not be stupid, careless, move to fast, do something mindless to end up in a hospital where they feed you dead toxic food which lowers your immune system, trapped air flow, you’ll be exposed to virsuses, every pathogen on earth cohabitating there, you don’t want to take the space from someone who needs it, slow the fuck down, mindful slow down, don’t get snagged on rusty chicken wire, don’t stomp on rusty nails move slowly, deliberately

had a few nicks, have strategies for maintaining the surface of my skin, phased there immune responses to various stimuli, various symptoms, I feel like a million dollars right now

not medical advice, timely spiritual practice revelations, maybe things happening for a reason, maybe things being synchronistic, some exciting news

its been a wet dream come true to get the fuck back here from mini mission to babylon, before the rains to get dense polyculture seed mix planting into these large donuts of semi composted wood chip mulch around 20 or 30 beautiful trees, need to be cared for, protected, there needs to be a design consideration for anchoring the human activity to regular maintenance of these young developing trees so they don’t get neglected

treeage pulled out a lot of dead twigs, like profusion test, check of consciousness, methodology of steps to determine the vital signs, without equipment, say you’re in a battle field or disaster situation, doing triage, system of tagging and sorting people who are ambulant, can get up and move, put in an area,people who are alive but can’t move, people in critical state of blood loss or other things, can’t speak but conscious, a whole process, not an expert, doing that with trees, which are dead which are alive, you can slowly apply pressure to tips that look super dry, without ripping off more than necessary, take a dry tip, does it flex, bend, snap off, more resistance there, tiny little scratch test, be careful, mindful, scratch a tiny bit, moist green life, interesting practice of shit, if there is any life left, it may be all the way down in the roots, and not know

don’t yank it out, kick it over, or stomp on it, it will have a chance

is there growth below the graft, we go through that process, determine which as salvageable, probably about 20 cubic yards of wood chip mulch, remnants of a bigger load, composted nicely, it was a good mix, cycling through

full disclosure, went to psytribe valentine’s day party knew at that time it would be basically risking death, if I go to that social event, breaking what I had already been feeling was a need to maintain the social distance

everybody elses winter funk, I felt like a million dollars, but everyone drinking sweetened cocktails, smoking cigarettes, lots of love, like clockwork and orgy of viral spread, as far as I can imagine, at that time no indication of a corona virus case in california, no one in state of panic or alarm, in my heart of hearts with or without corona, you better be self inquisitive, is this something that is going to possibly, its the cost benefit, I gotta see my tribe, I gotta see my people

I thought to myself I could pass on this party, but no I need it, I want it, I will be sad if I don’t go,

so I went I danced all night, best party, best vibes, so much to celebrate, for me, global pandemic looming, we were blissfully ignorant for the most part at that point

or course, like clock work, little scratch in the throat be morning, and also when I slept, I felt like there was a bit of a draft I didn’t account for, oh shit, good thing I’m gonna bug out to this land and be totally isolated, and have practically zero contact with anybody for almost 2 weeks, and that was the drill, that was the self quarantine drill and I went through a bizarre fever, and very very mild upper respiratory, pseudo,, proto coughs that didn’t really take hold

as soon as I got tiny tickle in throat, I said battle mode, self quarantine, no more solid food, not gonna say the herb I used but basically did what you would consider like a ayahuasca dieta, I wanted to connect with some of the herbs of this land and say already, take me I’m yours, if I’m goin out, I’m going out in a beautiful nature place, romance with this new to me herb, highly potent and medicinal and I’m not trying to start an mlm taking about it, also placebo effect, okay, I love myself, I do my absolute best to nurture and support and boost my immune system, this is a test, no fear, no worries, just soldier on, about 36 hour period where I was pretty incapacitated with fever, boiled from the inside out, lymph nodes didn’t swell, wasn’t miserable, almost had no mucus, maybe one night I put some very gentle soft, natural soaping solution onto a bit of paper towel, and inserted to stop one night of a bit of a faucet out of one nostril, then it was fine, little bits of phelm over the course of a couple of weeks, I never get sick, hardly ever have fever, keto paleo, no added sugar, no processed foods

a lot of confidence in my immune system, knowing I’m not constantly inflamed, eliminated grains, legumes, dairy, sugar

we’re talking, fruits, nuts, seeds, berries, mostly fish, some poultry, lots of herbs, not gonna get into specific choices of things

I hunkered down, self quarantine, bona fide drill, real threat, I swabbed that whole party, water filter, washed hands but so much hugging and talking, everybody spraying particles

fever was its own psychedelic experience but I would say over all on scale of 1-10, I was surprised by how mild most of the symptoms were, how limited in duration, whatever it was, there’s no reason for me to believe I had exposed to corona virus, it was more lik ea drill, what was off though is that I wouldn’t normally get sick, I wouldn’t normally be getting sick, I would expect ot be fine, novel, no precedent in the immune system, you don’t get any freebees from immune system, you’re fighting a new…

I don’t have mastery of virology, been studying it, I out on the other side of that, no residue phelgm, I feel this more today like a billlion dollars, not selling any herbal secret, I had a profound experience last night out there, seizing the night, humbled by cold and rain, dry with multiple layers of tactical casual gardening clothes and rain gear

and also knowing you don’t want to be out here to long but you gotta stay warm, you gotta dance to live, dance to stay warm, get seeds in ground before you miss the rains, living on the edge, some people are raiding walmart, I’m out there dancing to stay warm and dry and get seeds in the ground, healthy panic mode

win/win, force multiplier, to say to these trees, you take care of me I take care of you, I love you, this is a beautiful romance, I will nurture you, nourish you, and cherish you and be shaded by you and fed by you and you will be the habitat,

as zanzibar said in a recent podcast, polywombic, helping to create habitat fro wildlife, the frogs and toads, almost to tears, so heart melting, I’m just bumping into them, got my light on, actually squared off with one, I got out of its way, the power of this being in front of me, wow, amazing

a beautiful realm, thrilled to be here, I hope I survive everything, a stay strong, do the ecological magic to work this land, make it abundant, build on the strategy of these trees, we’re gonna guild plant around these trees, establish for myself a daily ish route that are dispersed around

keep fertigated, keep moist, rather than orchard over there that does its thing, irrigated, integrating human pathway daily commute, walking through it, gotta go out to where the trees are, kitchen garden growies, overlaying zones 1 thourgh 3, comingling them

small enough to all be convenient to access not so dispersed that its a big chore, you should be walking, hiking, creating a bunch of mini zone one plantings that will be stitched together through earth works, ponding, fertigation, candy land game board

to me that’s been the most important objective, get to that point, so many critters, no mercy, don’t just get ot have a little raised bed box, your veggie garden nope, it will be pulled from underground, checked from above ground, slithered on, grubbed on, little stems

doesn’t work in this level of wilderness, going to have to plant a huge diverse array of sacrificial planting,s

okay with attracting competitors, be happy they are coming around doing their bits, if you go from seeds, the key leverage point of that is that a lot are dirt cheap you don’t need to be that extravagant

I was thrilled to get to that point to have survived that period of self quarantine, to bond with the herbs o the land and to at the moment of the rains beginning have had the hard and soft scaping rehab triage, new where to go int eh dark, with a headlamp those mulch donuts were my tags on the tree age, visual ques, very systematically, need to draw them out on a pirate treasure map for now its in subconscious

don’t want to forget the ones off the path, have a route that trains me to get to all of them incentivize that habit, bend the rules of permaculture zonation, stretch, this tree needs treatment, or pruning, care, change contours so basin is gonna hold water,

all the care you gotta have a reason to care, go out there, planting things around it, things I’m gonna harvest quickly that’s the name of the game,

what was put into action last night

many reasons in spite of whats happening in the world, to be ecstatic and celebrate in the bitter sweet glory of having earned the privilege and luxury to have at least 75 to 85 percent buffering ot be able to follow the best practices, not have to compromise to much

the worse things get, I can scale into and scale out of the official protocols and restrictions and just try to keep myself on a tight leash to this property

the most tragic irony would be to have done all this work, my lifes work to be

secure ecologically and have this opportunity and then be swept up in net, or do something stupid end up the hospital and then be exposed

whatever I’ve done to build my immune system to this point, it’s all nullified by being hospitalized

this is what’s real, this is as fucking real as it gets part of my strategy to adapt to his moment is to really do the triage on making sure the people I love in the world really know it, making the amends, we don’t know who could be next

instead of worry, do the lower chakra things, focus on security, get that squared away and then really carefully feel into who needs to be reminded of your deep and true love for them

a lot of them are coming to me in my dreams, bubbling up to surface of inbox on their own

this is advice, make every day like valentines day from now until the vaccine an effective vaccine and beyond

no matter what your relationship is to a financial crisis, an epidemic, a pandemic, treat every day like valentines day, say namaste, every day and mean it