Tag Archives: bdsm

Revolutionizing Adult Industry Payments with Allie Eve Knox of SpankChain TPP251

Play

Ameen Soleimani

Allie Eve Knox PicIn this episode I’m joined by Allie Eve Knox, VP of Sales at SpankChain for a exploration of her crypto journey and her role at the illustrious SpankChain crypto company

Allie is a Fetish Performer, Content Creator, VP of Sales at SpankChain

My Non Verbatim Show Notes:

allie nox vp sales

super in debt,grad school, camming at night, do it house, didn’t have to sit in traffic

2014,

started shooting porn

custom videos, out of bedroom, camming

2017 found spank chain

got in fight with somebody on twitter,

you should hire me, sent resume, i work her now, these are the things i’m gonna do

coming into start up tech space, adult liaison, didn’t know how to deal with my dominatrix character

working with them since ICO

putting out a bunch of pr

we were so strange

aliens in the room

realized, people

weren’t assimilated into tech

did an ico in ico days 2017,

white paper, cam site, crypto only camsite, launched beta april 2018, no privates, no personal chat, site looked really good

beta for a year

discovered, shit hit the fan with crypto, started tanking, people stopped wanting to spend

hard to find user base to part with money

credit card payments brought in more traffic

user account process, get key phrases, all typical crypto stuff

people were really confused by it, constantly losing there stuff

had to completely overhaul the back end

took camsite down, launched few products

hopefully will be bring cam site back up

now first version, model profiles build off of that , where cam site and clip site built on

find favorite model

just put out very first version at AVN

model’s able to get own custom link,

here’s my link pay me through there

links to video content

basically whatever you want

so many benefits in crypto

I’ve had all my accounts shut down, I was violating the rules for selling panties or content

started taking crypto

no one’s gonna protect the adult industry

spankchain, we’re gonna make this for the adult industry

everything’s anonymous, not a thing where I wife is gonna find his credit card purchases

won’t get shut down, low fees

some sites take 50%

credit card processing, we pay taxes

with crypto we just take a 1% fee, .5% for merchants

stable coin, super exciting

really simple cash out process

wills done excellent job of making user experience super easy and intuitive

appreciate community coming together

building a platform models want to use

charge backs, all typical shit

take you’re finances

booty stable coin

really nice to count on,

really nice if I have $250 goal it’s gonna be the same price

whatever you bring in, minus 1% fee

at first didn’t have this on camsite in beta

having to explain price fluctuation

models want to know how to sell things

we just want to make it work, all the technical stuff I don’t know, it doesn’t matter

that’s all I need

I don’t really know how cash works or

don’t have anybody we partner with

gemini sex worker friendly

really good dealings with them

still have to go through exchange, kyc all those things

but I can kind of tease this, we are working on regulations for fiat offramp

load up on spank pay, go and pay bill

going through regulatory process on that, we’ll know mid march

due diligence, paperwork on all that

started camming, paid out on pay card

I could just go cash out automatically

really save me in times when I needed to get paid

that’s really gonna open doors for people

if we start seeing it in everyday practice showing friends

really hope that’s what’s coming next, h

we’re gonna clone product for other people in adult

cannabis, having a hell of a time with payments

there always getting fucked too, we’re gonna co-brand a product, like a white label

we targeted the people who needed this product

we wanted to build the things that the people needed

adult really needed it

this is what we’re all stoked on, this is how we live our lives

the bigger picture is white label it for whoever wants it

start with adoption for people who really need it

people who are unbankable

kind of a solution to a whole lot of problems

urge community to participate in this

send crypto on this

for me, someone in my camroom taught me how to use crypto

2018 started showing up different attitudes towards crypto

adult is always the forefront of technology

maybe if it takes off only a handfull will use it,

never came in there, we’re gonna change the game, we’re another solution we can solve a few problems, we’re hear, we don’t wanna fight

showing up year after year, friendly, hang out with models, provided good community

people started to take us more seriously

started winning awards, good press, kind of the black sheep, kinda strange ones

we were like the red headed step children of the industry

we kept showing up being friendly and cool, putting out products

markets have crashed but we’re still here

a little easier this last year, proven numbers, partners that really like us

been kind of a turning point

now its t

camsite didn’t have a lot of features

small team

takes a long time to do a lot of really cool shit

gave a space for people do do whatever they wanted

people slept

people garden

crypto allows you to do whatever the hell you want

free speech

so open, accepting

it was a no pressure zone, be yourself

smoke, eat

no ranking, no cam score

people were able to monetize it

one time, battle test on site, everybody on at the same time

we want you to break shit, push buttons all be streaming at the same time

spank house, going in tipping,

models streaming, we built this fucking product, spent every moment of our lives

really cool, everybody in this moment, so proud, so thankful model

spank house corporate culture

boys lived in venice beach, had a loft, had extra bedroom, most of team was remote

people would sleep on couches, get together a week a month, bang through things

boys had that place until this winter, downsized, it was a really great spot where the whole team could be together

we’re still remote, devs in canada, I’m in texas, to get team together on call once a week is not enough

company culture, spend a lot of time together, hang out together eat together, work together

we all get together and spend time together

working on this product, lived and breathed

I have a spank chain shirt,

we still have a problem, and have to build a solution

if eth is at 100 or 1000, still that problem out there, no one else is gonna do it

no one else has stepped up

we’re going to work every last second we possibly can

that’s one reason I’m still in this

I need someone to help me protect my money

I need this product

I will work tirelessly to make this product

this what drives every person on the team

whatever that markets gonna do

full force, here are the things we’re gonna do

market has changed so much

Living the Dreams and Nightmares of Open Relationships with Mac Styles TPP206

Play

Mac Styles Pic

In this episode I’m joined by a new friend and fan of the podcast Mac Styles for an epic adventure into the deep mysteries of love, relationships, romance, jealousy, multiple partners, threesomes, marriage, family, and beyond. His book Sex, Chicken and CoCo Butter chronicles his journey of standing up to the limiting dominant sexy paradigm, and literally fighting for his life in the struggle to love and live freely.

We get a behind the scenes look at the mechanics of opening up a relationship and able able to learn from his hard lessons and apply his wisdom to our own experiments and explorations into more wild and free love styles.

I had a great time going along for the ride, his story contains all the makings of a great adult comedy movie, sit com, talk show, reality show, etc. I can’t wait to see the book grow in popularity and help countless people develop more holistic strategies to get their sexual, emotional, financial, and spiritual needs met.

About the book:

Sex, Chicken and CoCo Butter is a narrative taken from the pages of the author’s journals during the five years of learning about different sex lifestyles, including: BDSM, polyamorous, and swinging. Streaming from sex addiction he and his wife at the time, went through a lot of trials and tribulations creating events you couldn’t believe. The author generously opens up his life and relationships to showcase for readers the power relationships with people can have in their lives. The stories talk about people in different sexual lifestyles and life experiences to show a practice not so uncommon and with mistakes that shouldn’t be repeated. The author’s viewpoint will help readers look at their own lives and relationships who practice different sexual lifestyles. The book is definitely not all positive vibes, the author shares many parts of life that are downright hard, and will deepen the impact of a positive outlook on the reader’s relationships. First time author Mac Styles lived every moment on every page of this story and now leads a more relaxed life taking the lessons learned, studying more about these different sex styles, moving on with his life and practicing building healthier relationships.

Facebook page:  www.facebook.com/authormacstyles

You can buy on amazon here! https://www.amazon.com/Sex-Chicken-CoCo-Butter-Styles/dp/1097724883

About Mac:

Originally from Fresno California Mac grew up with a love for writing. Though a difficult childhood he experienced many difficult experiences, witnessing rapes, deaths, and drugs. Masters in Homeland Security, Bachelors in Organizational Management of Criminal Justice, and Certification in Human Resource he has made it far past he ever thought he would as a 10th grade drop out. His writings are taken from his personal life but surrounding his relationships and sexual frustrations, formed in a way to take you on a journey with him. Joining the military at the age of 19 travelled the world and experienced different cultures with a woman whom he also married at the age of 19.

Mac suffered in his relationships due to a sexual addiction that plagued his relationships because of a lack of understanding and experience. Though guidance and mediation being able to channel that energy and focus it in a positive manner has inspired his writings in hopes to have people understand relationships are stronger than you could believe if honesty and sincerity is the base.

Through the last 5 years Mac has practiced BDSM and polygamous relationships and recently over the last 2 years shown an interest in tantra and energy work. Being deployed overseas has been challenging but through different mentors in Europe and a strong passion for understanding he seeks to spread what he has learned to prevent the mistakes he’s done in the past.

AI Generated Transcription:
(Want to help with corrections? Please contact me to learn about rewards for your efforts!)

Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin hello their beloveds welcome to Township on podcast episode number 206 that being joined by a Mack Stiles and he has been a fan of the podcast and we’ve he said some some kind words and reached out and I’m always interested in having folks who honor me with their kind of tension to share feel like they have a form to share the projects are working on until I get some feedback and hopefully some some attention from the audience and so with that said Mac thank you for joining me excited to hear about what you’re working on and and your backstory Beth amazing Gaston I’ve learned so much from you and I appreciate the offer on your podcast I wrote a book about my introduction into the lifestyle and it was really it expanded into so many different directions I started out as you would say walking around in the dark so to speak on not knowing which way to go as a young adolescent I got married at really young age are married at 18 because of the military so I had to bring my girlfriend with me so we moved into went to high school and went to Spain travel the world saw things but I just wasn’t wasn’t happy sexually if there was no communication between me and my wife and I just kind of logged all that as as we’ve been through and it turned into be pretty good look I’m getting good feedback and I’m returning to be a Lessons Learned book on what not to do and its raw form I was in writing the book you know I I was going to have somebody to chop it up a lot and edit it and everything but I kept in their claws for I’m just checking to see what you get out of the book is really from a Tuesday on an introduction into Queen Polly Polly life and BDSM that sounds great so yeah you know it’s good to hear that there’s people out there who actually showing some of the Shadow men certainly the struggles to get to that point so do you want to tell us kind of give us an overview of the contents of the book and some zoom into some of the highlights from the the journey to opening up and I’m and how are you all reconciled or didn’t reconcile the lifestyle change I’m so the the journey really really really begins when I meet when we go when I travel back to the FaceTime you another woman my wife at the time we had everything like we had the money we have the car as we had an amazing house six-bedroom house do you know that you had kids and all aspects of the world we were living the American dream but I we weren’t communicating with us every time we would get something in return to a fight and you see that in the book so really as soon as I found someone that was open and gave me the power to do what I wanted that it was like a magnet and all she needed to say was I think you need to tie me up and I was on it and you know Google is amazing if you know that look for but if you don’t know what to do and your girlfriend tells you say I think is it time yet the first thing normal people do regular people do would be go to Pornhub or spec site and and try to study what they were doing so there’s there was no real education for me in this realm I was just kind of going off of it and you’ll see later in the book that I found a mentor and then I have the Battle of fighting my ego and listening to everyone in their twenties and early thirties think they know it all so to speak so I’m I go through a process of learning and eventually now I’m a lot calmer cuz of Tantra meditation and and listen to the other plate other podcast study more about what I was doing wrong on the reconciliation I eventually for the divorce mostly because of the separation or I have been done been deployed now for four years and was just wasn’t getting any better so I still love her I love her to death. I have nothing but good things for I want the best for my my beautiful girls at two beautiful girls so I wish nothing but I love her to death but it’s just not a marriage situation that I’m looking for Taurus zodiac few things to catch up on their it sounds very interesting and very evolved that can just tell in your voice that you’ve put a lot of effort into this and it sounds like you know I’ve said for a while that’s if only we put as much emphasis on training and coaching for the sexuality Arts as we do for sports and violence than we would have really balanced cultures and really satisfied people in in and maybe some relationships would be will be healthier so going back to what you were saying what you were doing wrong all along what I’m curious what what do you want now looking back do you feel like we’re some of your the mistakes that you made and your journey so folks who are also starting off can learn from your wisdom and save them spare themselves are learning things the hard way so to speak that I was trying to protect my wife by lying to her like that I need it I knew that if I talk to a fight but when she found out alive we were fighting anyways so from me it was trying to protect the woman that I love and that I want to be with but I just wasn’t happy sexually so trying to communicate better and pushing that it seem like no matter what I did I wasn’t going to happen so but it’s not going to happen either way if you don’t communicate it then it’s not going to happen if you do it behind our backs and it’s the trail and it’s even worse though in through the rest of that run women are so strong and can put up with a live there in love with that person communication and studying and not being ashamed to get a mint or somebody who’s done it before I could have avoided a lot of misery if I would have listened to my mentor and been a lot more honest with the things that I was doing you’ll see in the book are there was there was some times that I love my girlfriend way more than I should have loved my way more than I love my wife at the time cuz I was I was just happy that power of that feeling of happiness that overcomes you is very powerful and learning how to balance that with with a family and a wife and trying to be trying to have things if you want it was very difficult we were we were a poly couple for probably about 8 months to a year and it worked out really well but at the end I was I was lied to the wrong situation and it ended up being exasper so you’re saying that you were that you had basically what people would consider an affair right he had an affair with somebody who who was on a more open path and you’re starting to experience kind of an out-of-the-box thinking sexually and have some of your frustrated desires be fulfilled and that was that was happy but then that you’re saying that that relationship that probably Affair relationship ended badly that there was something at the failed error. Right time of year that was the what’s the difference is where I would probably still be with the girlfriend if I if I wasn’t so far away but yeah we were after after I have the affair then I have the great idea of bringing the girlfriend to the wife and that one over horribly at first but then threw time he has a marriage counseling and and after she almost tried to kill me a few times she pulled a gun on me she tried to stab me and it just got really that really dramatic there for a little while and I was your wife is a Griffin girlfriend in love with out for about a year and we are all together having fun and I had a blast Republic happiest I’ve ever been enough when I kind of decided that was I wanted that lifestyle poly rope that poly lifestyle and and now I’m able to do that I’m able to I’m able to balance that and and have no type of relationship lessons learned of being open and honest and expressing what I want what I need wow that that is amazing that should be a sitcom that should be I mean really you that’s the American dream having your cake and eating it too and and and actually do it like you should you didn’t she didn’t kill you you cheated run away you didn’t run away you didn’t you didn’t leave your kids you know you didn’t you actually stayed and manned up and held your post down and ran your business of being a family man and and you sustained her wave of rage and then now I’m super interested in how you were able to master that transition of integration and transmuting her that Rage of hers into acceptance like that is what we all I thought I would say all straight or straightish men or whatever you know if wish that they could have your cake and eat it too and have what in the poly Community they call in re new relationship energy and think that’s a nice way of I mean the there’s there’s lots of I think really proactive and emotionally intelligent new terms that are coming out from the Poliwhirl like compersion about you know the opposite of jealousy actually enjoying seeing pleasure happened with someone who love that it’s in your in your just avoid her or you just know about it and feeling good about a resin bad and this other notion of new relationship energy the old Paradigm would be from a negative Place saying oh you you hate me you sick of me you don’t want me you want some BLS I’m shit so I’m going to be suicidal and homicidal now as opposed to being like Oh new relationship energy I get it I seek that too I feel like seduced in excited by that every time I walk out the front door and actually went to go and favor and then had tacos and margaritas after it was as if it was a very Twisted web and I look forward to turn into some type of thick, movie or something cuz it was it’s a really good read I’ve got nothing but good reviews I’m not the greatest the book isn’t the greatest as far as the sexy and then there’s the second in there but it’s it’s in there for a reason when when we connected like there’s a scene where me and my wife and my girlfriend I’ll get a room at a hotel and we’re having a good time together and my wife is in her face and I’m and I’m you know having sex with my girlfriend and we all connect and it’s perfect like that feel like I was on top of the world and then my wife went to the bathroom and then me and my girlfriend who really like really getting it in life turn around the corner and saw that I was enjoying myself basically without her and she flipped the script she ran to the car so let me in a hotel you know 3/4 miles away from the 3-4 hours away from the house and it was just a complete disaster so we went through all of that so endure that and put up with a lot of those things as isn’t far-fetched that’s that was the old way this is even more if it’s even more exciting cuz I think this is like it’s so I feel like figuring out how to get to Mars on figuring out how to have cold fusion even World Peace it’s like making I think we’ll get this feels like it’ll be sooner and you would appreciate this from you know you’re at your career is it like it’s like it’s more likely almost I think that that we will all come together and meltdown all of the national borders sing Kumbaya and forget all of the religious conflicts before women in these situations and men but people in these situations will actually not be psychotic around sharing each other’s body with other people like and it seems like if we saw that if we can figure out how to solve that then these other bigger issues of world peace and and green technology and you know economics like I think they’re all going to flower and Blossom from these bedroom issues so if you could I would love to to zoom into that because you know iPhone I’ve been dancing on those eggshells you know and and really studying these interpersonal Dynamics and I’m trying to figure out how to find those harmonious interactions among the women wear the obsessiveness over who gets the man and who gets the majority of the man’s wealth which is what is the bigger subconscious thing to me especially if you have the kids I mean it’s an economic bargain you know on your it’s it’s there’s so much going on there about who is going to take the Lion’s Share literally the Lion’s Share of like what efforts were talking about a more Primal State it’s like the economics of your the stud and you come back with a kill and of course you’re going to share with everybody but there’s going to be a sort of hierarchy of who you share it with which members of the clan or the tribe of the band in the psych those sexual politics around around resource-sharing they get they can get very tricky but there is a sweet spot and I think we used to know how to be very women to you know they could bargain with their with their sexuality and men with bargain with their sexuality and we’re just going to such a high-stakes game now where if you did if you did fall in love with someone else I would say that I would imagine the logic of your wife is that I’m going to be homeless at the soup kitchen line with my kids being taken away by the state if this guy if this guy has more pleasure with someone else I am at risk of losing my you know my Empire or you know the queendom of the kingdom of whatever so could you talk about your just get really deep into the as much as you can you know you care to share that isn’t too you know confidential or whatever route what you were learning from the conscious and subconscious conflicts between the women over you and your resources and your cock and your love in your heart I would say that you’re right on about the Primal Instinct there because she didn’t give up even give up a lot of jealous thing did a lot of you would say things were okay but then we came to do them we would fight for it almost did not let things things sexually between us started getting better because of the competition we were having sex almost every day I I was and no secret Manor will I ever go to sleep tight back and there was no conversation on anything outside of that so once I got the girlfriend things became very very interesting she started finding the swingers party she started trying to compete and make you happy so I would that would agree with you in the fact that I started to pick up after that getting down deeper I think both of them really love me and help me out in the situation cuz I didn’t have a father either I was there when I didn’t have a family member to turn to if they hate my life who was amazing but it only get you so far until you run out of this is Uncharted Territory for me and I don’t know what to do wow this is even this is just continuing the flow and get more amazing your Vista Camanche is because I mean I have I’ve sacrificed a lot to avoid a lot of you situations and but you had The Bravery to go through it and live it and and you know I’ve been I’ve been a fugitive on the run from some of the most excited women who have just made me very I would say hesitant to to get into those deeply embedded financial and and and familial relationship relationship dynamics that make it like so explosive and destructive when things go go wrong you know so I have like the time has been good for me because it does give you that sort of permission and exaltation to not be a householder and do your spiritual path and devote up to vote one lifetime or you know however many you want but it’s like you want to walk away from the village and go be a freaky you know you know Shaman Mystic out in the mountains or whatever like that’s cool you know and then you might have some insights that can trickle back down and and serve people who are living that really routinized family life and so you kind of you give them both so that makes you a hero and contract terms a Time trick hero for doing the spiritual work and the family work and in an opening up so I applaud you for that for sure and I want to ask you also know about so this is very very interesting when you what you just and this would definitely be like an important part of a film script r or a playwright you know where you’re you’re really exposing something that we all know about which is you know you could call him any different things but for lazy sex or just going through the motion sex or even what one of my partner said when I was becoming, not so much a Lazy Lover but it wasn’t like you said we weren’t talking it wasn’t knew it was like the same as just became the same fucking thing and it was like in in the the pockets of time in between work and commuting and chores and whatever and it just was not sacred it wasn’t scheduled it wasn’t really high energy and it was done when we were exhausted and all we could do is just lay there on her fucking sides at a point so yeah I could you can talk more about that because I think we all get in that trap and if that’s what kills everything you know cuz afterwards she enjoyed it she enjoyed doing the party enjoyed playing with other girls and experiencing that but it took it took a lot to me to find another girlfriend that was do it openly and that it would be okay for us to get to that point and it should have never experienced those things together instead of the why am I not enough why can’t you just be satisfied with me constant discussion that was whatever to always go back to 2 the wheel of boredom in inconstant didn’t answer that routine was a war I have everything I had the family the kids cars that I were in that aspect of life I would have been content but I just the routine was killing me something to break me out of that routine I went for it I was happy in that power that work happy is very very powerful you want to stay somewhere. The woman that I was with the girlfriend didn’t have all those things you were the borderline alcoholic and I couldn’t talk to you if you were my friend and turn made her want to do more and the Twisted the story towards the end is she made me get rid of the girlfriend found a new girlfriend and I was supposed to be for both the bus with him leaving me tell me if you want to divorce you didn’t have time later but ended up having another girlfriend and not include me in it not coming home you know how I dealt with that in the book was probably not the right answer either cuz I wouldn’t say I was jealous but when your wife doesn’t come home and she’s off with the girlfriend everyday and I got a taste of my own medicine I ended up going back with the girlfriend and then we started to start living her life with her girlfriend I was with my life with my girlfriend and family Dave do both kind of sit in the house and plan on each other and in that aspect I think that was stuck with the most was with my kids with my grandma with their grandma or my family by my wife not coming home yeah man this is this is so interesting honestly feel like this is what if America hadn’t been so grotesquely addicted to the toxic drama and that was being screwed by Jerry Springer imagine if Jerry Springer was actually a ton trick Master healer BDSM coach all those things and he would actually facilitate group orgies on stage and it would just you know it would go x-rated after a certain point you know it could be a he’s actually stirring up an and reinforcing all of the negative sex sex negative homophobic like like those I just think about every Jerry Springer episode if I could have been there to counterbalance what with a paradigm that was being maintained by Jerry Bengston we will be talking we will be all having these Oprah like crying her eyes out give me a box of tissues moments of like people actually realizing hey it’s okay to like see another man naked fucking her wife if it’s okay to you no have a girlfriend cuz your boy because your husband has a girlfriend and you want to have your own thing like and just actually thinking these things out well maybe that was great for grandma because she wanted to hang out with the kids for well well this is not mean seriously this is needs to be the night the new enlightened thing because people can learn a lot from this and I’m really fascinated by the like I feel like if there’s if there’s anything on my run has a lot about now it’s about it’s about like showing initiate women into the mystery of not necessary lesbianism but at least bisexuality so that they see what they’ve been missing out on and it sounds like you were so successful that almost backfired on you but I feel like I want to say that’s a good problem to have because you know what I think is so beautiful about bisexuality is that is that it short-circuits that I have to be everything to you script because if you know somebody’s but like if I know a woman’s bike actual I will know that I can never ever be more than 50% of meeting her needs and so I can be content with that and I don’t have to consume all of her and control her and find her I can be like yeah I know I’m only going to be like half the battle of you know when it comes to your your your love and sex life so I’m cool with that and going to win on these things yet go out for now go up on what just the the process of the other process of what I guess what it was like for you to facilitate the initiation of a woman into like had she ever been with women before was a totally new to her when she totally freaked out by it and then she warmed up or I had expressed a little what I wanted and she said that she was curious but and you wanted to do the thing every time the situation came up it was always the first the very first woman that we were able to have a girl on her phone and talked and acted as my wife basically saying hey come help me with this dick and I swear to God it wasn’t it wasn’t five minutes because she was knocking on the door blanket and pillow ready to have some drinks and get it in but my wife and then and then but then my wife was like no I have to make sure my mom has all all the tax information if you need to find excuse for everything what I wanted and he’s going to do it for me so she took a deep breath is a story of the spot for a couple weeks and then we did it again and then there was some funny story that you start this the woman is going to have rules of what you want what what makes me the wife what makes me more special than her why or whatever so her rule was I couldn’t I couldn’t eat out another girl we went out to a is going into the book too but we went out to the club and we all had a good time I wasn’t drinking cuz I was with you. But once we got to see if I binge drank and base with this plan blacked out and she I don’t remember much of anything so I don’t drink much anymore like to do it myself but he was so mad cuz I guess I hadn’t the girl out and she was so mad you left outside and she thought she locked herself outside in time we were on the beach and in the naked woke up naked outside and I ended up waking up and she wasn’t there and hand that turned into this situation was a lot harder otherwise this was a lot easier this process is a lot harder Because You Loved Me a lot of jealousy involved but I think that if I would have been a lot more able to communicate what I wanted and make sure that she felt more special and I gave her something where I pay more attention to her than it would have been in love with love and respect those things that I wanted would have been I don’t think that I was doing that as a husband I was cuz I was bored I was upset I was mad at the fact that every time you try to do something so I wasn’t getting money for filled and I definitely wasn’t feeling her and there was the conflict of you want to do this for me but afterward they haven’t benefit out of it now I’m right now I’m I’m able to realize by the person needs attention in this matter if holidays and and then I need to pay more happy to give you those things yeah that says a lot right there because you know I think that’s the that’s the secret and that’s The Sweet Spot and it’s really a paradox because a lot of times it’s like people don’t seek that new relationship energy until the nest is is fouled and and it’s like in a perfect world it would be a preventive it’s like one ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure you know so stay hey we know we’re going to get bored with each other the the honeymoon phase is going to wear off we’re going to really start like looking over each others shoulders you know as we kiss and because we know that’s inevitable let’s actually set up those parameters now and figure out what we got to do to have the most solid and secure primary family Corps Duty responsibility relationship happening and that way it’s always adding a bonus and it’s not feeling like it’s it’s exploiting a weakness to to to have the new relationship energy in it and you know a perfect world we would all be doing that but it’s almost like in the shin hurts like people have this aversion to two contracts you know how they say like by like the saying contracts are going to save more friendships and they’re going to destroy even if it’s things like borrowing a few bucks you know what I mean like people think are no contracts that’s for strangers and people who don’t trust each other know it’s for fucking everybody and every one of your other podcast you were talking about remember that remember that new love feeling look what you did to make that person feel special or the things that made each other happy because like you said that like the other podcast back towards the end of the you know when the love is gone and the feeling is gone and they don’t remember how to make that person to do that way again and that is a lot of the writing that I’m doing now to the things that are working is what been taught me today to put in number two in and how I developed them came from the wandering in the dark to the light sand and opening my third eye so to speak in the realm of well I will again I’m really touched knowing that I’m having this affect tinnitus that you know this is really the I feel like so much of the work that I do is like really sci-fi and it’s kind of like something that should be quarantined into a very no Dark Sector of research on human sexuality but really the fruits the fruits of that composting that the sewage of the human no experience should be that we have way more happy and healthy standards for getting our needs Madden for avoiding the really toxic and negative things that that turn into different forms of abuse so you know what to hear you talk about it really been able to apply some of the the more sunny day bright shiny happy stuff that I can talk about it’s really it’s really nursing for me to hear that cuz that’s just yeah man we should we should not be we should not be feeling like Humanity was born yesterday with all the stuff you know like every generation should be building on more wisdom and so thank you for doing this this great work it’s so brave of you to have explored this and now I’m really excited about the book I hope you have a great voice to would you consider doing an audiobook version for those of us who are so so multitasking and Hyper testing that we can’t barely slowed down at my editing skills are probably not up to par really should be so yes I am but I’m definitely going to and I want to write the script I really went through so much I don’t think there’s ever going to be a movie out there at the live the life that I live the during actually wrote this years ago and in the process of everything but I was too nervous and do the same dance to at all these emotions surrounding that that it was impossible to publish but I feel like I’ve grown into another person so to speak that I am not that person anymore and I can learn to that other people shouldn’t have to go through for sure man so also yeah happy to go for another few minutes and and get into the other sort of this the subplot or if this was a movie you know you would get the scenes of you and your personal Agony and your personal process and then the the scenes of the two women that you’ve introduced in the storyline and their private worlds and their ways of dealing with things and then all the just the snapchats that you would get from the different triangle Dynamics but there is like a another character which is kind of the Medicare actor and that is the mentor you speak of so could you tell us about how that relationship development evolved and then how that started to inform you and certainly I think most importantly when you say that if you would only had that meant to her earlier on you would have made these mistakes I’m super curious what that meant to or told you later that you would have applied that would have made these things work better in addition to what you said about how you just you know you could have kept it clean her house as far as the beekeeping the relationship more secure but yeah whatever you got from that let’s hear that and there was two speeches is being kind of Taboo in the area so I opened a swinging Groupon on social media and if we rushed it was doing amazing I was having parties before it was everything that I wanted but I want entertainment at my party so I started searching out for performed or something along those lines and I met up with a guy who was offering that service and he turned out to be a great friend of time and he started telling me about his role as a Dom and just started like Steve college and I was like I had no idea that was just deep and then I started diving into more of the DSM stuff because my girlfriend wanted it I really didn’t know what I was doing last night so he would he would teach me really the mental game of things that I stood 50 doing as far as paying attention or even different techniques with DSM how to flush don’t know how hot I mean it can be taught to do it correctly or where is the Rope play is I’m still learning that I’m I’m going to a lesson on Thursday so I mean there’s so much to learn in this realm how to be better and what to do better there’s always something new to learn from I mean if you go to summon to you I guess DSM Fire play and all that kind of you have to be able to look for a little boy got me to the point where I was able to pinpoint different person sign in to make sure that she came quickly or I could pressure point then he was very educational land and taught me a lot of very humbled to he was a good Mentor at the time that’s cool I’m glad to hear that and I think that should go that should serve as a public service announcement that end in the sometimes underground sometimes more above ground but but certainly in the adult communities there is a lot of mentorship available and a lot of camaraderie and solidarity and people are very open and very excited to share and to greet new people in the yeah I think as men it’s must much less that is as in with all sectors I think it’s much less predatory and you would have you would have less of a of a chance of having a bad experience you know just showing up to a play party or a dungeon or whatever so I would say if any if it if to the young women who are listening to this you know use the buddy system because not not everybody out there and in these Realms has your best interest at heart and maybe you want to go for that hike if it’s your thing to be you know put into into risky situations then I’m not going to you no say there’s anything wrong with you but I would say that there is there’s a lot more good than bad I think that if the case could be made that it’s the it’s the the vanilla Society where the Shady stuff happens because there are no rules no is no discussion and Consciousness so it’s probably probably safer in a dungeon then on the street or at a club member always welcome and always willing to teach and I’m sure what they got what they want to do and I’m watching normally at those type of education welcome to learn from each other so and I definitely don’t put yourself into a situation where there is locked door is too and I’ve been doing this now for seven or eight years and I rarely have been experiencing some bad experiences in my book because there’s there’s a couple where drugs does the party than I thought things were going to get out of control but I was able to calm him down and then the situation is still out there but more often than not wanting to pass their knowledge so definitely keep out the mentorship and and if you have any questions yeah I find somebody that I found them by the accident but knowing that you can go to those those website and type in words you can find pray I’ll survive well this is really been a treasure and unfortunately the audio quality has been phasing in and out which I think we should talk again sometime and and if I go up and see if we can get a better audio call you but I will do my best to get this to to sound as good as I can but I think that overall the the vibe is set and I feel like it’s a it’s even more of a teaser that it’s like oh my God I just want to I want it I want to hear this whole story I told you this totally and that is a good spin on some trouble that I got myself into but section and you can find it on the page author next by Kool and I will do you want to give so that was good enough for just for people to find it do you have an exact homepage website or just Google search Amazon right now but there’s no other book that I can find that sex chicken and cocoa butter cocoa butter yes that is it sounds like a fun evening yeah can’t wait to know what that with that actually is is talking about so I do want to say and respect life has been nothing but supportive and because we put I put a lot of the you know the secret lives on on post are on on blast and then so she’s been very supportive and loving and I think she’s growing as a person to so I want to commit to her in the mail my ex girlfriend because they’ve both been so amazing so in support of something that was a secret world 2 at one time yeah thank you for saying that I actually have a book that is in editing with the publisher right now and I can say the same thing like I just want to thank everybody who I gave a fictitious name to but basically totally exposed in and put a spotlight on you know hopefully was all for all of our growth and evolution and and for sure man I’m glad that that’s working out for you and who knows maybe she’ll hit me up and be like hey I wrote a book to Bam here’s the other kids riding her but everything okay you come come with your book and then you fucking like man this is so constructed like thank you for being constructed with this this usually goes in such terrible horrific and then the children are always the ones who are victimized the worst when when adults don’t have their their bedroom game figured out right so you know so right on that will I wish you the best and yet hope you feel all so you know that you’re you’re fighting the good fight out there in the world and I wish you the best in that department and she have any other words you want to share the clothes that’s great but I think you did a great a great job and thanks for for sharing everything is really a blast thank you was an honor you for listening to the touch of Time Podcast please go to www.crunch.com and click on the Donate button to help support the shop in addition to sustaining and improving the podcast your donations will help establish permaculture goddess Temple after bite ecological employment for single mothers Please Subscribe and share your favorite episodes if you have questions or comments feel free to leave a voicemail at 818-275-1593 or email been at Country Park. Com Thomas gay

 

The Path of Sacred Sexuality Leadership with Erikaa Briones TPP189

Play

Erikaa Briones PicIn this episode I’m joined by the exalted fellow sacred sexuality educator Erikaa Briones for an enlightening adventure of personal transformation and empowerment.  She shares deep personal accounts of overcoming trauma and transmuting pain into power.  Along the path of her hero’s journey she was blessed with great allies.  She received transmissions of spiritual wisdom and truths that helped to accelerate the rediscovering of her inner and ancient divine sexual priestess.  Her cinematic narrative is the stuff of best sellers.

She provides an overview of her qualifications, services, and offerings and provides a warm invitation to reach out to her for guidance and support no matter where a seeker is at in their journey. She’s developed a wide variety of gifts that serve the diverse needs and desires of her clients.

We discuss goddess archetypes, business development for sexual healers and educators, the intersection of traditional and modern methods of goddess worship and much more.

Please visit her online at:
ErikaBriones.com

Collective. Her mission is to spread stories of love and sexuality by collecting different views around the world starting with her Mexican heritage . She also aims to collaborate with other ethical and conscious brands like PMSbox. Erikaa’s passion is empowering heart-centered men looking to unlock sexual confidence at a level they never thought possible.

Erikaa has been featured on Kaleidoscope radio, and interviewed social media icons like Adina Rivers, Adam Roa, and Stef Stifanos. A few of her guest have over 200 million views on YouTube. Erika’s personal crucible story is of the “return of the joyful little girl” A typical story most women can relate too where they were victimized by incest. In Erikaa’s experience she was the joyful little girl til 1993 where the actual storm and metaphorical storm hit her life. That was the year she learned to become a woman. She was also put into a cult by a Freemason, and overcame severe trauma that affected her health and sexual confidence. In her late mid 20’s she was searching for an awakening. Little did she know Tantra, and BDSM lead her down the path of transformation. Now she motivates other to discover sexuality through a place of inspired-action and love. She is now living her dream life and healing others that they can also transform their crucible story into sexual liberation.

In the show we discuss:

  • occult sexual initiation and the conditioning she had to overcome
  • double life as a sex worker
  • dominatrix work in Beverly Hills
  • 1 in 3 live a sexual double life
  • the hero’s journey
  • how the character leaves the village, leaving the good girl for the family identity, then going on adventures
  • the discovery of bdsm, escort work, tantra initiation
  • going into the belly of the beast
  • fighting inner and outer battles
  • the experience of opening up and coming out the world about her path and mission
  • the path to becoming a sexuality coach
  • coaching men in sacred sexuality
  • how being yourself in the context of sexuality is pretty scary
  • you may not know who you are in the moment
  • your family might disown you
  • you may feel alone
  • starting out working in bad conditions in a dark hole in the wall
  • finding salvation at a local book store
  • finding friendship there
  • the Pretty Woman movie plot as a fantasy for many sex workers
  • the dream of being rescued by a white knight
  • owning slutness
  • finding a client who was a prominent actor
  • Cinderella meets the Prince, with a plot twist
  • her tantric initiation by a her client
  • discovering tantric prayer, sex magic, devotion to nature, mindfullness, meditation
  • feeling honored
  • her inspiration from a motivational seminar and her path to leadership
  • how we start out seeking a guru and eventually we become one
  • becoming her own guru
  • discovering yab yum and kundalini energy work
  • discovering breathwork and chanting
  • remember past lives, reawakening her inner ancient priestess
  • the power of the left eye
  • downloading info from your tantric lover to your hard drive, your soul drive
  • feeling that we’re all one, feeling union in the present moment
  • evolving past the archetype of the needy lover, seeking external validation through sex
  • growing into the mission to change the ancestor codes, change family patterns
  • the social purpose to end abuses, violence, etc.
  • the need to be congruent with what your speaking about
  • doing your own inner work
  • the role of journally
  • personal meditation practice
  • going to tantra festivals
  • not about being better, more about being different
  • becoming your own muse
  • doing your modality on yourself
  • overcoming the fear of speaking
  • fine tuning your messaging
  • coming from heart centered values
  • mature love, spirituality, how deep can we go down the rabbit hole
  • you must really do the inner work
  • recoding messages to your younger self and your future self
  • how to coach oneself
  • starting out on Facebook live, going from one viewer to 5, to a whole community
  • how can you help your clients more than just yourself
  • pop culture figures like Beyonce speak from the heart and turn people on
  • knowing your weaknesses and seeking help in those areas of your business
  • her 3 month sexual self mastery coaching container
  • positive feedback from her clients having lost weight, skin cleared, overcoming limitations
  • the king, warrior, and magician archetypes
  • discovering and developing your ideal future self
  • the importance of drawing upon ancient traditions of goddess worship to inform and empower modern goddess worship methods and practices
  • coming to know tantric goddesses such as Lakshmi, Saraswati, and Kali
  • embodying the essence and wisdom of goddesses at different points in your life journey
  • the more you awaken a woman’s imagination, the more her pussy will awaken
  • the experience of worshiping at a tantric temple in Venice
  • how men can worship archetypal goddesses with and through their beloveds
  • the role of prayer and self purification as prerequisites for worshiping ones beloveds
  • and more!

AI Generated Transcription:
(Want to help with corrections? Please contact me to learn about rewards for your efforts!)

Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin welcome to touch your Punk podcast episode number 189 I’m being joined by Erica Briones and she is a coach from the evolved masculine and founder of the sexy Soul Collective and she is got so much exciting stuff to tell us about today I’m really excited we met a while back now but we made it a really amazing event that was being facilitated and discussions about healing Sexual Healing sexual trauma and and different modalities that people are using two to really Empower themselves and each other and so that was sort of the context where I got to see and hear about some of her work and it’s very exciting the work she’s doing with men and helping to raise the Consciousness in that Arena and so we’re all about that here so I can’t wait to hear lots more about what you do Erica thank you for being on and please go take your time going in detail introducing yourself and telling us about to what makes all the beautiful and Magic happen thank you so much for inviting me I’m really excited I have been coaching sexual self-mastery practices and you’ve been part of the video series so it’s really amazing to connect the the body and video to your voice and really getting to know your philosophy and just really connect with what what lessons I can serve to your audience and I really believe that these lessons are to weaken our inner-spirit and really connect with our sexuality and embrace both the Shadow and the lights absolutely absolutely well thank you that is a blessing and honor to know I’m yeah definitely a giggly and curious I always feel that you know I was blushing I hear stuff like that cuz I you know sometimes put stuff out there that’s like a voice in the wilderness but then you know you hear back people that are having positive effects and whatnot so I appreciate that thank you and yeah I want to ask about your personal Journey where would you say this path began for you and your life this past weekend since I was a little girl so I always share the story and I feel like I’m at a point where I’m Shifting the intention of the story so I was initiated into sex through a Freemason who taught me how to be a woman and use different modalities from you know putting me in a white rest in a call call the Rainbow girls and he is some black magic sand pendulum some hypnosis and down the line I feared sucks I sawed sex is dangerous and deadly he told me if you tell anyone you will be a prostitute or you will be living in the dumpster so I started taking that on and kind of becoming the archetype that he created where I was jostle I was shutdown I was naive I did not speak my truth and I was not happy and that story followed me till even after college I got into the movie the secretary the secretary is the film about this woman who is a cutter and eventually she becomes a secretary and transmits her pain from cutting to being spanked and being a submissive in a BDSM contacts so that story got me into BDSM and I moved to Beverly Hills and I became of dominatrix except I was living a double life telling people I was a secretary and I believe that one in three people are living a double life and as the story continues you know my hero’s journey and I’d call this the hero’s journey because every hero’s journey according to Joseph Campbell’s work you know the character leaves the village right the character leaves the village and for me it was leaving my identity of being the good girl you know being everything I can for the family and then the next part of the movie is the part where the character you know goes on an adventure and for me that was discovering BDSM and getting into Tantra doing escort type work and coaching men and you know I’ve been looking and looking and looking for these guys or this a weakening and when they discovered going into the belly of the Beast so there’s another part 2 movie where according to the hero’s journey there is the rebirth part where the character finally go through the battle scene they’re doing everything to do the inner work because there’s two stories and every film there’s an inner story and there is an otter story the inner story of the interest the inner script is who am I am I good enough am I sexy enough I buy dressing sexy and really confronting our our ego so we’re really battling the in Rico and then there’s the outer seen that the outer movie which is like the actual physical components that relates to it for me that was starting to share on Facebook hey guys I’m coming out to the world and this is what I’ve done and sharing with my friends publicly and I’ve always been envious of gay men for you know opening up and I will say that it is a scary thing so that’s a minor movie was the belly of the Beast and eventually one side overcame the threshold then the next part is coaching and you know now it’s like hey I’m making this my lifestyle I’m traveling the world it just came back from was on this beautiful island for like a week and you know been featured on podcast now I’m on iHeartRadio and coaching like some amazing Man comic book writers lawyers doctors not doctors lawyers police officers you know screenwriters and being able to be me and being yourself and the context of sexuality is it spring spray because you get to leave the village and yeah there will be times when your family may disown you there may be times where you may not know who you are in that moment but if I can share this to that person who needs to hear it and they’re in their car crying like who am I like what am I supposed to do you’re not alone because I’m talking to the woman who was me back in 2013 1314 where I was at Barnes and Nobles and I just left the I was actually doing happy endings in La is like the dark like hole in the wall and it was like this office and just smell like cinnamon and my church was Barnes and Nobles actually in and go to Barnes and Nobles and I’m praying and like I need to talk to someone there was only one person and he ended up always yelling at me if I was like awesome you yelling at me this is so cool and he was the only person I talk to at the time but if this reaches that one person who needs to hear it may be there at Barnes and Nobles or maybe they’re sitting at home crying thinking like maybe I’m alone no you’re not alone so that’s a story for that person and that’s why I do it well that was an intense right and I also many of these these archetypes are coming to play for me and I’ve been hearing a lot of people talk about just the other the value of understanding these these storylines Anis archetypes for personal development and sounds like you have really gone to hell and back and have a lot of fun experience and the end I can hear it in your voice that you you come from a lesson power place to a much more Empower place and I’m curious if you could talk about was there a specific Catalyst for you that got you to rise into creating a brand and doing kind of getting into a leadership role and speaking out was there was there like a a if that was a scene in that in that that script you know if you will was there a certain kind of pivotal aha moment or wake up call or something where you had enough and you just shifted dramatically or was it more gradual I’m just curious if maybe still stuck you know it’s watching Pretty Woman and thinking maybe I’ll be saved by the white Knights and I’ll be doing these like I’ll be like this sexy escort sacred sexuality prostitute or you know like I’ve never said that before but by the time I was just I didn’t know who I was and I thought I was just you know us a slide and now I own my spot for me it was when I didn’t mean to like the wine and I’m still single I met a client who I was actually a very public figure actor Golden Globe winner and I can’t really say his name due to confidentiality reasons but it was that moment when Cinderella meets the Prince dancing and then she has to go but there’s a Twist to my stories like the clutch with the plot twist wasn’t hey he finds a shoe and then we you know when we get married and like everything is awesome like don’t we wish that we are always happy at the end no for me was like oh my God I had this amazing Tantra experience I fell in love with Tantra because of him we were in this amazing bubble of safety really talking about agreements boundaries desires I help my boundaries despite who his name was and I said this is who I am and you have to meet me here and he completely respected every boundary he made me feel intelligent he did not make me feel like a the sexual person he made me feel like I was honored by my mind set my my Heritage and my spirit and I was able to learn about his culture and I thought wow this is a very intellectual King archetype this is the type of archetype that girl’s dream of meeting right the new going to a red carpet or meeting someone who has a name but for me it was him marrying the woman that I am supposed to rise in to write this is the scene that every woman wants to get into that that makeover story that how I lost weight and now I’m here and now I’m you know traveling the world like we all want to live that life for me it was not as easy as I am at this amazing guy I this happened next which the next thing that happened was I went to a tailopez seminar and I’m laughing because like I don’t resonate with his work as much as I used to back then but that’s gross right like you grow from one thing and it pivots you to the next Mentor I didn’t give it to to the next mentor and we’re all looking at that that grew at the top of the mountain but eventually we become That Grew at the top of the mountain and eventually we start to continue our journey to other lessons so he basically does pivoted me to get my lesson of I can be my own brand I can also teach what my teachers teach to others so it was it was a it was kind of the Cinderella story needs Like A Knight’s Tale type story where you know they just like conquer the the dragon and they they make it and they win their victory for me that victory was firing a client who was actually actually my client she was a stripper she found me on Yelp and apparently I was just teaching her what I learn and she says oh my God you’re so amazing you’re changing my life meditating now I am leaving this work I am so much happier because of that and I thought that was the best the best gift I’ve ever received his hearing someone say you changed my life like no one can ever take that away as when someone says like you made my life better you make me have a reason to live and it’s all about validation is about you really want people to succeed as you really want people to feel like overcome their challenges and struggles question cuz what what a ride that was taped to hear about my imagination is is spinning and all this is I hope you are writing a manuscript right now if you haven’t already published your memory so you know however whenever you feel comfortable doing that it sounds very Redemptive and very a very amazing so that’s so if I understand correctly one of your as as a as an escort you were sort of them at a lower point you are not as thrilled about what you’re doing but you were able to through just perseverance get to that that sort of the point of of great Fortune where you were not just meeting the the shadow Prince Cena or the knight in shining armor but actually a man who is skilled in Tantra which is rare and then he was able to sort of do a tundra makeover on you while giving you full dignity and full empowerment to take ownership of the process and not being whatever made into a trophy arm candy kind of a whatever you know that that you because there are people who certainly would just be content just oh yeah look I made it to the dino to the big time but I’m still being demeaned or I’m still there still a sort of them a lack of growth happening but you have like sort of The Best of Both Worlds you got you did have that that man come in so could you if I if I’m if I’m understanding correctly could you talk a little bit more about the sort of without disclosing anything confidential course I’m super curious how Tantra is is sort of this functioning in in the minds of men in in in those Realms of society and in how they how they practice it and what they’re you know they’re their way of approaching the the Siddharth and Sciences if you could talk a little bit more about that like what was your first did you do you have your man have a Kundalini Awakening or what was the this week as I’m the gym and nut chapter back to that time where I can actually remember the yab-yum so before I got into the yab-yum I said hey this is my boundaries is my desires I mean it I had a desire to kiss them and they just want to be like straight up and we all and say like hey I also have feelings except there was an Integris that I said hey this is the ground rules except if you do have a request please let me know to see if I am open to doing that so that was something that taught me about humility so before we go into yab-yum we do this meditation that was actually inspired by Deepak Chopra we talked about water and the Alchemy of water in a meditation was incredibly catharsis and it was about really connecting to humanity like how can we connect with our sexuality to raise the vibration here in the planet for the environment for the animals and it sounds It is Well except I love what that can do for the environment you know being more aware of how you are mindful of plastic or you’re mindful of how you throw away your trash so we start to do this this very simple meditation that we bring her hands and center and we start to like slowly move that that energy and water is a sacral energy right like sex sexual energy is like that water energy that’s like moving up the spine of the heart do the throat and then up the crown and finally to the heavens so we start with that and then after that we just start doing we going to Yad diamandis we’re doing a lot of rest and breathing and chanting and somehow we just get into the Transcendence of like magic where I start to like remember password I have some Druid priestesses and it was really interesting because there was something in his energy that brought up a memory of a past life you know as if I was he was there to teach me about my Priestess years because the thing is with the with the left eye and this is something I’ve learned from another country guys the last died in Tantra brings in a lot of ancient wisdom and everyone has their own wisdom right everyone listens or their own contact their own you know their own subscriptions are on magazines are on newspapers like everyone has their own wisdom and die with them gets passed on to you energetically whether you know it or not on a soul level that person is transferring energetic memories into your hard drive into your soul Drive and so once you start to get that download then you start to understand like who you are like and we’re all one we’re all aligned and. Switch Hunter teaches is expansion to liberate expanding Consciousness by liberating but the past and future to be in Union to be in the present moment and when I was doing that that ceremony that’s when I started to really get Tantra and it was really connecting to his inner child to his past lives to his pain to his his dreams and I also was also feeling that that sense of inspiration that raw awareness that lit up my inner archetype this inner archetype that went from the weakling lover so the weekly in the lover archetype you know the shadow aspect of it is the weakling or the needy child like I want more I want this you know what I like I’m not good enough I’m not Central enough like so I need to start you know getting validation through sex for me it was like okay I started to come from that point in my journey except once I started being aware I said oh no my next step is to change the change the ancestor codes change the the way that my mother spoke to me and share this new medicine this new codes to my sister’s to my brothers are the people that need to hear this because they’re still domestic violence there still sexual abuse there still slavery there so sex trafficking and it’s not going to stop until more more voice is like like a collection of voices start speaking this truth cinematic everything you’re describing and you’re so beautiful I’m so glad that there was a connection with it the meditation bring into elements and seeing I’ve had experiences with train very highly trained meditators who do this I gave open eye meditation eye gazing kind of Pooja where it’s pretty much guarantee that sort of like a parlor trick but it’s real and they will get you know you could go around and rotate within a room and then the train meditator is is able to pierce you basically energetically very gently but basically first you go through these clouds of different colors in Mondelez and then boom you’re seeing into their past lives like snapshots of their past lives and then you’re sort of morphing and melting into so it’s this very the Continuum of both of past lives it’s it’s very palpable when you get into these these very intentional state so I’m glad you brought that up and and that’s certainly one of the more mystical mystical properties in and certainly this year released you really making a great case for why people should embrace this is spiritual technology of Tantra because if it does help you is very explicit how it’s helping you help you understand your your higher self and your higher purposes into not. You’re not to not take shit from life or even from yourself for what you think of yourself and that’s what I like that’s what I like to what’s the weather going to Skype with So yeah thank you for sharing all that and it’s really it’s really beautiful and and humbling and something that we were talking about downloading to the to the the the hard drive of of the Soul you know actually I could almost heard you say heart heart Drive which will give you a good one too I think that they will fit to so yeah I guess if we can I get fast forward a bit from that was your sort of tantric initiation Awakening and so you from from that moment you’ve really started to build this Maven type career out of sharing this wisdom and in switching people on to this this level of Consciousness do you want to talk a bit about what the on the more professional sort of more back to the physical plane part of it what is it what has it look like for you to establish a Brandon and get your all of your ducks in a row so to speak on on that the physical playing notes of Business Development people think marketing brand is what people say when you leave the room so it really comes down to thalia’s like before you know using canva.com before using Graphics logos Flyers like SoundCloud what you doing it all comes down to making sure that you are in alignment like in line with what you are preaching you have to be congruent so if you’re speaking about you know you’re the sex goddess are you doing this type of work on yourself are you doing the inner work are you journaling are you meditating are you you know going to Tantra festivals are you having deep conversations with people yes okay then the next step is like what makes you different it’s not about being better it’s about what makes you different how are you saying things that are different for me I like pop culture okay so I like films I like media and something that has helped me is a passion test this is like something you like one of my psychics basically before I got before we get into The Branding answer I I told you I was like I really want to see if I can meet my muse and she says well first of all you’re going to be you’re going to be amazed yourself you’re going to be speaking to so many people you know you’re going to be talking and I said oh no that’s just not going to happen I’m not going to public speak I’m not going to talk and before you know it I feel that go to seminars I do my own modality on myself and then it happens and then the next piece is like once you overcome your fear of speaking then the next piece is really fine-tune your messaging so right now I don’t have a script for you I’m literally just coming from values coming from my heart what are my values integrity mature love spirituality really getting into a waking consciousness how deep can we go to the rabbit hole right like if you think about people like Alan Watts or wrong. They do to her marketing are you been laying the the teachers before it’s like ascending Masters they just literally spoke a truth spoke it was spoken word and people said oh my God I really like what this guy is saying I’m just I’m like feeling so energized by the message I’m getting high off of that message right that’s that’s branding and it but before you get to that you must really go into the inner work whether whether you’re listening to ROM Dass on their way home or you’re listening to all and you’re having a cry for me it was talking to myself like recording messages to my my younger self For My Future Self and then listening to it over over and seeing hey how can I how can I overcome some of my limiting beliefs how can I coach myself how can I actually coach myself so once you get into that then then then you can think about like you know branding weather doing like getting on Facebook Facebook live and for me once I started that like I started doing Facebook live talk to one person from Australia and then became 5 and then I’ll have like my own like community and that takes time like it’s building relationships making sure that your relationships it’s coming from hard how can you help them more than yourself how can you be up service how can you how can you mirror them in a way that they get their the last in a lot faster it’s like you know every artist has their own way of doing things like when you look at Beyonce she sings from her heart she has her own politics and her own philosophy with matter is she empowering People Are People feeling Unleashed are people playing the music and they’re like oh my God I want I feel so turned on by this right like that’s the type of branding that you really does come down to the soul the soul is like about the values and professionally you know like yeah you can do I can I can definitely tell your audience like what to do is besides like getting to the soul of the matter the next piece is like making sure when you write have an editor like have someone edit your stuff in your writing make sure your grammar is on point I something that I know is my point is grammar communicating in a way that it lands for people like making sure you understand public speaking I-44 one have never taken a public speaking class except I know that it’s super super critical to make sure that you have an attention-getter that you know how to really like know how to write know how to speak know how to like really get a person to that to feel that the message cuz that’s what we want is to really push the pivot the person to empowerment inspiration to feel sexually aware my my heart drives is catching up to a lot of that to this is it sounds like you’re really you’re really positioning yourself to be as significant with the spiritual and personal development and sexual development relieved to be I mean they say they say Destin Garrick is the is the Tony Robbins of Tantra will maybe it to me I’m hearing that you you you seem to me like the female Tony Robbins of Tantra and I appreciate that because yeah sometimes people have door to woo woo or two business and I like the way that you’re talking about really this is fundamentals this to me it sounds like if you were talking to it as an athlete and in people ask what their secret is it and they said you know I do the fundamentals thousand times to know and that’s why I’m the best sport or that’s how I’m different if it’s not about being better so I think this is really good stuff this is really good empowering material for people who are who are out there now trying to to make develop themselves and then also have an offering so maybe it’s probably a good time now to talk about more in detail what it is that you offer what are some of the programs and packages and you know you don’t have to go into specifics if you don’t want to but just going to really what anyone listen to this would be signing up for if they join your newsletter or join your live stream or did private sessions or or group Retreats or or what not just get into the offering so we great yeah well first your audience gets free meditations on Soundcloud I offer a lot of content already there’s a I have my YouTube channel Attica Brianna’s official and I haven’t been developing much content and that’s going to change soon again I’m doing these amazing amazing meditations and that the other thing that I’m offering is the Freak podcast so if your community has some BDSM lovers out there then I have the the podcast project lock is on Soundcloud and basically I’ve interviewed a lot of experts can collagist sexologist there’s also a discount or free code so if anyone’s into BDSM and you’re free code is sexy soul and you get House of a success and it’s a luxurious leather company with a bucket of design and elements that’s very stimulating to the eye and it’s really great on the table has the cops if so awesome I love it. It’s amazing amazing Exquisite like top of the line design that your followers can have and ask for coaching I do have a three-month container for the sexual self Mastery course or do I have to stay like you’re part of that the whole video series so if you want to watch Ben Daniels naked and beautiful doing his Mastery you’ll learn how to kind of become this amazing sexual master and really know what that means for you how to really get into your body how to really be present how to really be an amazing lover so that’s one of my favorite courses I love it so much I’ve had clients that have said that they lost way their skin clear their sex Got a Way deeper than before and again that’s the sexual self Mastery course and of course my other favorite course is the evolved masculine path course to really get into your archetype based on king warrior magician so we get to play the game of really getting into you playing your your archetype so as a little kid if you remember having an imaginary friend do you remember having an imaginary friend well when you have friends but that’s another story and then as as an adult this is pretty much sure your archetype which is not not an imaginary friend it’s a completely different thing that really pivots you into the direction of your path whether you want to be an amazing comic book writer are you you have this Vision to be the best at what so I can I get you there so that’s what I do is if it’s a three-month container and I’m like so excited and if you want to connect with me just go to edika be honest I’ll come that is e r i k a k as in kinky a b r i o n e s.com awesome that was a great story audio brochure that you just shared and I would say this is something yeah we got about a good 20 minutes or so left so depending on how is she holding up as we get close to an hour but I would say it’s kind of open it if you’re willing if you’re okay to have me open it up to a little bit of of dialogue here what I’m very curious about is the how goddess worship from a tantric perspective differs from an and maybe in forms or is is that the the interplay between the standard sort of Orthodox femdom goddess mistress archetype and then the sort of more more ancient tantric goddess as as Divine deity Giver of blessings shamanic healer Mother’s Day of the universe and all that kind of stuff I’m curious if you what in your what would be some of your words about how and you’re mine and your heart and soul and all your chakras how you how you transmute and how you play with with these different archetypes cuz they are they are at the top of the Pyramid of all creation and everything is one but in the differentiated forms that we live in now there’s certainly some I was just calling diversity then how people approach goddess worship so I’m curious what you would what you would say from your experience of integrating those archetypes of the goddess it’s a really good question so for me the goddess archetype goddess worship really comes down to really knowing the goddesses so for me and Tantra I learned about Lakshmi kolli set of swathi Lakshmi is this beautiful goddess no bathing water and a lot of these essential goddess Venus goddess were just like you know last week was Valentine’s Day so this is like perfect timing so Venus was sensual and all of her glory in a lot of these goddesses there’s this one Goddess that I remember she like this empowered bitch goddess but all of them have a theme of like in pictures and portraits in art and literature you see them like emerging from water right so having them celebrating them in water so for me goddess worship should always start in water right I think about it when you heard like taking a shower don’t you get your best ideas and water like when you’re taking a shower like oh my God I have such a great idea or I’m taking a shower well that water is nourishing you that water is a listening all of your all of your ideas having babies some babies when mothers have a paper the baby they do it in water ceremony it’s right like so it’s like a way more easy for the for the pelvic and massaging the the pelvis in water so for me like Lakshmi represents that goddess archetype of Love sensuality play also she frames the way that she frames it is I own my sensuality I know that I’m a goddess I am this powerful amazing person I am receiving I don’t need you to go to your platform I don’t need to rise to anyone if anything she has a really strong connection to God to source to her ascending Masters you know she celebrates dancing she celebrates through playing your sensuality but she really tunes into the higher majesties the higher mystery and then there’s that a sweat bee that is swappi is the goddess of creativity and she’s all about like getting into wisdom you know like sulfur to really anchor into the goddess worship you must really anchor her into her intellect to her Psychic Eye to what is she curious about understanding in terms of spirituality like what is it like you have to listen to Alan Watts do you have to like ask her questions about her childhood talk about lucid dreaming the more you activate Her Imagination her her pussy willow weekend it’s been awhile since I’ve chanting mantras but it when I was working in the tundra temple in Venice actually California surrounded by this beautiful Lush bed with peacocks all around amethyst crystals you know having sunlight opening up I was already in my Lakshmi but for me when I was in my set of Swampy my positioning was the study version of me right the studying version getting into my creativity journaling talking about manifesting my dreams and then the other the other goddess is Kali Kali Ma he’s my one of my favorites when I’m feeling fear so if you can for the men out there if you can really respect her calling Mom and you can respect her and her soft know when you can respect her body language if you’re noticing that she’s looking down if you’re noticing that there’s some weird energy if you’re noticing weird energy immediately she’s trying to tell you that she wants to waken her collie law Sky Kalima energies at Fierce mother Warrior protector she’s like that BDSM Queens like okay I want you on your knees bow down to the creek and you just listen there’s no ands buts or you simply listened because she’s teaching you with your body and when you learned how to be how to submit to Kali then you learn more about Mercy you learn more about judgment you learn more about immortality of Greece Kalamata is the teacher of the Shadow she’s at she’s the elixir of poison she’s the Snake Charmer she knows how to charm the snake so when you start to like embody the philosophy of Kali Saraswati Lakshmi and um you understand that philosophy than when you’re with her in a tantra session you can you can add the water you know like bathe her and water Sarge all of her beautiful curves that you know really start with the really asking permission you know praying before the Yoni is it okay like if you can pray before the Yoni OMG if you can pray before the Yoni you are giving honor to her Lakshmi you’re giving honor to her locked me you’re saying Queen may I enter your temple may I honor like and you have the prayer pose to my favorite my favorite personal prayer is the Balinese way the Balinese pray with an empty hand near the forehead so yeah prayer is a big one in goddess worship and then you know adding flowers but before you even pray you have to really absolve yourself of your own Karma absolve yourself of your own physical stuff that has happened before you enter into her energy field and then you of course have a dialogue which is the combination of the fattest glossy and the caller and then you can choose to do whatever whether you do breast you know you cover her and Roses you play on some sweet music and you simply know how to really adore her and it really just comes to adoring her inner child really like honoring her Queen and and holding space for all parts of her it’s a lot of work also thank you you definitely have impressed me because I feel like there is a real lack of connection with the sacred sexuality and there’s almost like a a bias within King sometimes about how sacred sexuality is almost vanilla because it’s not brutal and a half or something. I would counter that that census of just people honestly I’ve heard Dom’s some Pro Dom say say that they were repulsed by even the word hearing the word Yanni made them a Denver Post because it just it just seems so well I would I can I would have to use my own words to say that there is this sort of some sort of a backlash against this more prayerful material but I would say in my estimation it’s the if the most powerful this you’re talking about the most powerful what I believe to be what I’ve experienced has to be the most powerful kind of ritual procedure ceremony you know session work you can you can imagine is is putting yourself invoking these these these Essences and his energies sand and speaking with them and communicating and being in service and that it’s almost like if if I can do a little bit of a sidebar here and just say my gripe that I have with some of the Kink world in the BDSM world is that it can get very egotistical very fast and and I’ve seen you know even put a proton women who I do I want to worship but that I see you know I’m I’m here I want to I want to worship the Divine and I feel like I’m looking at just a really over bloated ego and I want to I want to get a bug that and beyond that and what you’re talking about for me is like the the big yes send the big the nurturing you know we’re all just fingers pointing to the Moon here we’re all just hoping to Aspire to be in communion with the Divine energies and and this is what it takes what you’re saying in my in my in my estimation is that you know this this sort of humility and the sort of procedure and the offerings and that is going back to the Town Creek methods of worship that are are are not so much not so much about the the torture chambers and in the market aside and the leather although I’m not demonizing those things I will say that they’re all part of everything is mama you know I sound level if you want to put it that way if you know but I just want to really really take a moment to from from my framework and not to project anything I’m saying on to you or anyone you work with her or anyone from that scene but I will say it is such a breath of fresh air to find women who are doing Dom work who are working with these practices it’s a real breath of fresh air so that was my that was my public service announcement and my sword editorializing there but yeah the more the merrier with that so thank you think one of my intentions is do events this year where I teach my own way of fusing Tantra and BDSM maybe you could be a devil model yes for sure I’m I’m open to anything and I feel like I live my life like that scene in Fight Club where it where Tyler Durden is getting bludgeon by the the mobster you know in the basement when they’re they’re trying to basically trying to break up their their underground boxing ring and I think they’re doing it for profit but really they’re doing it for Spirit and the way for for Brad Pitt to communicate that really to the world cuz that the whole movie was it was a ton trick Buddhist Treatise that was like a whole country scripture if people don’t don’t get that really go back and watch Fight Club and see this is like the the Divine masculine trying to break free from from the poison of patriarchy and that’s how I see it I’m like that I can I will take on the the pain of the feminine and I will you know D A I can be a masochist in and work with the energy and then let it flow in the in the fact you know you can see footage online on YouTube a lot of the Kali temples around the world the way that the that the computer is the priests and priestesses will and unfortunately in these days because of patriarchy it’s it’s it’s been skewed towards a priest class so there’s a lot of Kali temples in a world where it is a male-dominated profession to be a shamanic healer at the Kali Temple invoking the Shakti of collie and the Whippet the way that they will I have my own issues with that of course but it is interesting that something some of the things that they would do and you would appreciate this as a Dino from doing down work is that in order for the crowd of beleaguered glasses to come in and really believe that the priest is actually holding the power of the goddess and actually is invoking her left fully he will endure these these ordeals of getting whipped on an in and basically being flogged and whipped to prove that you can be kind of slashed with these whips on the on the on the forearm and have there be no marks and and show no pain and so that is sort of the the guarantee or the proof in the pudding that that that priest is doing the work to be imbued with her energy and so if she can take this abuse and not be crying or or cowering in the face that abused and then he’s qualified to to go in and hunt your demons you know and pull them out and unless you go about your way is it he did it’s fascinating to watch the footage of the stuff it’s no joke I mean it looks it looks like a dungeon in a Weird Al seeking I think the same the Same Love in the same healing at some level so that was that was enough for me but yeah we’re wrapping up here at are about about an hour or so would you like to take the floor and share anything else really make a call to action how can people connect with you how come people Debra Lee directly to get in contact with you and any words you like to share anything else you’d like to yatted to talk about before we before we get to call today the type of audience you have but I do want to say that a book that has really healed my my journey has been the book Urban Tantra by Barbara Corrales and I know that there’s like my intention like what my my vision is to help as many girls as possible to go from the Dark Side of the industry you know like working at massage parlors in because of focus esta this lot that’s really really an entrapment to teaching women to be sacred sexuality Educators to go from living to start double life where you’re you’re feeling on the edge you’re feeling like there’s going to be a risk involved maybe you’re going to have to see a client because you have to pay the rent and your trade in your like this is the only thing I have and you have to like you know basically fight and you don’t have to fight you have to really invite you to soften the Cena and so I’m like I guess like right now I’m speaking to the women that have had that shame and so my call to action is for women to really really awesome sells how how long am I going to be sick and tired of this story how long am I going to be living in the shadow of my life or am I willing to you know grab a flashlight and go to the other side and actually see that there is Beauty on the other side of the dark and you know if you have to call me and I or message me you know you could have easily go to sexy Soul Collective on Instagram or you could go on my website any guy, and we can have a chat really just like really connect virtually over coffee or tea and really see like how can we really support each other and if it means that you sign up for 3 months I’ll be great like my dream is to really Empower women to really overcome their you know overcome this and I love seeing women empowered but mostly the men that I have work with like I also see that they’re starting to like rise up against their masculine going from the broken Soul lost soul to empowered King owning their magician knowing their lover and having a really balance within all their archetypes by putting down your sink whether if your a guy who wants the last pain you’re like I just want to hustle my way out of the intimacy then that’s my client but mostly it’s because I want people to like wake up to their dreams that’s beautiful wake up to your dream that is that’s it has M Cohan right there you can forget about one sound one the sound of one hand clapping or does it visit tree falling make a sound that is that is a beautiful meditation right there to the end within and I will say if I could add a couple of sites here would just be that there has been an Exquisite pleasure and I feel like I feel like we’ve known each other a lot longer than then then we technically have known each other in this lifetime and and hopefully you have beautiful things will come forth from this conversation and just a big a big thank you again for this opportunity to just show your work and I look forward to the next time I’m sure just it’s always an open channel of communication if you have stuff you want to promote or talk about or anything in the future you want to share with your audience then by all means do that so yeah thank you so much again for your time and Namaste thank you blessings BWW. Township Park. Calm and cook on the Donate button to help support the show in addition assassini and improving the podcast your donations will help establish permaculture goddess Temple that provides ecological employment for single mothers Please Subscribe and share your favorite episodes if you have questions or comments feel free to leave a voicemail at 818-275-1593 or email been at Township Park. Com Thomas Day

 

 

Exploring Extreme Eroticism with Ayzad TPP105

Play

Ayzad pic

In this episode I’m joined by Ayzad an exquisite scholar of all things erotic and extreme. We explore human sexuality from the affirming to the disturbing and beyond. Ultimately we find redemption and hope in the efforts of sexual liberators to create consensual, safe, and sane spaces to share experiences, knowledge and wisdom without repression.

Please visit his website at:
http://www.Ayzad.com

About Ayzad:
I was born in 1969. I am a reformed journalist, a writer, alternative sexuality educator and a personal coach. I have been practicing BDSM for 30 years now and Ayzad is the pseudonym under which in 2004 I wrote BDSM – A Guide for Explorers of Extreme Eroticism, where I collected everything I had learned from my studies of a really endless topic. That manual became a best seller starting collaborations with sexologists and scholars who drew me to extend my research to every form of unusual sexuality.

The first result was another book titled XXX – The Dictionary of Unusual Sex (currently, most of my books are available in Italian only, sorry!), followed by many other projects described within my website, including the novel Original Sins, the biography The Mistress and the guide to extreme erotic relationships I Love BDSM.

Ayzad.com was born to collect and share my daily discoveries about the lesser known aspects of sex, to have fun together and – as it always happens with these things – to better know ourselves. Enjoy.

Relevant Links:
https://goo.gl/C8udNC

http://www.ayzad.com/news/culture/safewords-sure-know/

http://www.ayzad.com/news/culture/ssc-thirty-already-yet-still-misunderstood/

http://www.humansexmap.com/

http://www.ayzad.com/it/notizie/mass-media/libri-ed-ebook/piu-malvagi-della-spectre-la-recensione-di-lussuria/

http://www.ayzad.com/news/media/books-and-ebooks/voluptuous-panic-the-erotic-world-of-weimar-berlin-an-experiment-in-erotic-anarchy/

http://www.ayzad.com/news/people/bdsm-is-going-strong-in-vatican-city-underage-of-course/

http://www.ayzad.com/my-books/xxx-the-dictionary-of-unusual-sex/

https://www.amazon.com/dp/B00GB5TP2M

https://www.amazon.com/Billion-Wicked-Thoughts-Internet-Relationships/dp/0452297877

http://www.ayzad.com/my-books/bdsm-a-guide-for-explorers-of-extreme-eroticism/

https://vimeo.com/197839013

http://www.ayzad.com/news/media/movies/everything-you-need-to-know-about-50-shades-of-grey/

AI Generated Transcription:
(Want to help with corrections? Please contact me to learn about rewards for your efforts!)

Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin podcast number 105 I’m on Skype with his Dad he is a author and kink educator and I’ve discovered his work through a list of sex bloggers and a directory and was blown away by how much of the depths of material he’s amassed on his website all about everything can’t get in BDSM and just a lot of the obscurities of the history of human sexuality and certainly the the policies and repressive tendencies that have forced a lot of a lot of human sexual expression underground and into various forms of sort of cultural resistance and so it’s obviously something that I’m very interested in tracking and seeing where where a lot of what were what we’re dealing with is coming from and understanding the origins in pain also the The Leverage points where we’re sort of from taking the power back by any means necessary so is that what you like to tell us about your background and how are you became the authority of in the Kink world that you have become very early I have always been attracted to the king even when I was still pretty sexual as a child and I like the imagery Hyatt House box to experience it as soon as I became Antilla in around the end of the century I took a sabbatical we are out of my journalistic job and I took the opportunity to write a book called BDSM guide for Express extreme eroticism which should I I felt it would just be a reference for a vacuum stairs in the in my phone, by the way I know I sound a little bit with my English and well what do you know it became a messages and emails of people thanking me for my job that’s made them feel normal saline accepted by Ciara ended I had to choose between continuing a really graceful job or be coming to Decatur and well here I am after so many years. I’ve been doing all the books I’ve become a personal coach meaning your I help people find the optimal strategy to Silver King related issues and rice to my website of course kaiser.com a YZ80 that it will thank you for doing that in and I love your accent it really adds to the Exotic flare so I appreciated everything is going to land even better it’s a thrill to to hear you speak and I have watched some of your YouTube videos and I so you had yeah you have a website that’s a Blog and you know so if you create video content and kind of curating a lot of material that can support people on their journey and also just really scholarly archivist if you will it sounds like you’ve got a lot of a lot of ability and interest to two kind of document this this these phenomena in in human cultural Evolution so do you want to talk about some of your I guess favorite topics favorite areas of exploration and expertise in and then we can go from there but I found out pretty early that’s it when you talk about sex it is really about sexy self it is mostly other aspects of The Human Experience from unusual aspects of sexuality and explore how they connect your everyday life basically science with history where the fashion religion whatever and this helps a lot in understanding the life in that no more General sense right on yeah you know there’s how would you define kink for people since you have a more vast knowledge and maybe give us a sense of the the etymology do we know really where that term came into use and why and what it say what what it originally was used to mean and in any of that sort of origin story and when people started to use this term in English I mean but generally speaking which refers to any form of meaning not the standard normal accepted to generate a lot of time to culture is prune Jawga fee as well so it’s mostly shorthand 220k to anything a little or a lot older and pleasurable yeah so interesting is it we take it for granted I feel like the from an anthropological perspective if you will it’s it’s sort of an established subculture that is very open-ended but also has certain kind of um sort of standardized memes if you will around the Dungeons and the established kind of I guess you could say I think I’ve seen a breakdown of what I don’t know how they did this research but it showed the most popular Kinks or fetishes sort of broken down in order so you can see that you know it was the list with something like I’m no group sex sex in public sex with a married person things that were taboo breaking so that they could provide it a kick or extraterrestrial that would you know add to the experience and then it gets into more more assertive idiosyncrasies around childhood issues or traumas or just more something just gets sort of stuck at some point and something in a loop and it gets wired with the the erogenous tissues in the whole experience of sexual arousal it’s gets deeply associated with an object or a environment or some some kind of space but it’s so broaden and an open-ended really it feels like you would have to the Baseline to judge what is there isn’t kinky is is going to be a moving Target across the world because there is not there is no real standard the only attempt to standardize sex has been by the Catholic church is pretty much is that right yes I know but I believe we we came to a rubber Goods definition what can be standardized on North with the DSM diagnostic manual for used by psychologists everywhere weather baraz mental issues with people or not and it’s basically turns out to be at that anything that does not create to and eustress and distress actually to yourself and the people around you is just fine no matter how strange it sounds and this is a very good guideline which SSC are ants on the study book wonderful history because when I go round and just service ask people what they are or not the subjects are usually pretty embarrassed to check just have me to watch buy a tree like is so there’s two researchers Yoder of his book and it took Ann Arbor Pro online searches for sex-related Thrones but when you cross the globe and produced a lot of different possible researchers but least of the 100 more widespread fetishes and yes I had to it’s a 2-hour resonates with the watch is considered Taboo in lots of ways and by different cultures what’s up with some very strange things into it I believe that the first search German general is you. Meaning pedophilia but just in general and the garage I’m really worried for some for water sports are very high in the list while we’re on our practice is it which one generally considered more accepted on normal RL way down right now but I can link it to you and you’re going to be well yeah I follow the the PornHub insights newsletter where they send the basically a sector analytics for the searches and they they address certain areas or certain events in this very interesting breakdown you have very insightful if you will have to understand the zeitgeist mean to the search engines metrics is the best way to measure the stuff in for anything you can use the trends. Google.com I believe that Google trans is the tool where you can compare different keyword searches overtime and kind of do your own comparisons like that so yeah I’m familiar with that I didn’t know that there was a study done that kind of intensive over a year’s time it’s great so another question I have for you is I came across this beautiful piece of work it was it was a web web interface that I can remember exactly the name of it it was something like that it looks like a pirate map but it’s like the whole map of the different types of Kings view reference at are right about that at all or it is an interesting visual representation over the intercom the deck connectedness all the kings and even then it is just a very small part of the whole lot of field when I rode to the book called XXX have a dictionary of a text which unfortunately joining two different cultures the cultural of normal people and culture of sexologists kind of removed I found in their knowledge of anything for affiliate have reached an excellent very interesting in in size about this but they just don’t choke there’s something I just got out when the talking about BDSM extreme eroticism and I invited to six ology conferences and this professionals ask me things I really couldn’t understand because I didn’t have the worst and at the same time that you don’t understand my answers because I used to terms which are considered normal SSC and so I called this kind of dictionary to help people better communicate with each other and started listing for fuel you say encountered them and I had to stop at 1:15 hundred of them had reached the end but because it was time to to go into framed and round as a matter of fact and digital edition of this book is a incredibly complex 850ml file where the something like 11,000 internal links is so hard how long did it take you to do that I deleted but it was also the coronation of loss of years of research earlier on so I collected lots of information along the way and that was a good occasion to try and make it into a coherent system wow okay well this is exciting I I just came across a scholar who who described yourself as a cultural sexologist with the as an anthropologist studying different permutations of sexuality that are across and within a cross-cultural perspective and having a sort of cultural relativism about sexual practices and taboos and whatnot and I find that feel very exciting to be able to put in context a lot of the Hang-Ups or no issues that people have let’s see in the so-called West at when you see people are struggling with just monogamy and vanilla vanilla monogamous kind of expectations to find the one soulmate and never have desires for anyone else and never cheat or look for any kind of experiences outside of that perfect together forever till death do us part. I’m and then if you look at it gets a new at work I think it’s name is Chris Ryan sex at dawn that that book that really brings a lot of cross-cultural examples of long-standing traditional societies been around for thousands of years who have Customs such as shared paternity where all of the men are few responsible to all of the children in a tribe or a village and there isn’t any kind of clothes proprietary nuclear family models that at all and so it’s really liberating in a Guiding Light to see those those you can call him first peoples or dismiss people’s or pre-agricultural or notice the number of anthropological terms did he has your research and compassed any of those let’s say with any of those Concepts non-western or indigenous or or Cincy. Graphics thing I mean the concept of them although more turn I set it at school it’s like pee not affect bone out to Romanticism Manta as a philosophical movement and before that it was just accepted that people had a much wider idea of relationships and sex and you know things just to change for time and very restless that just think for example that one in of the animal one of the first meetings all the American Congress in the United States one of the counselor went on in history cross-dressing outfits outfit and nobody found anything all day about that and it was it wasn’t so long ago then I ate everything changed everything will change as a matter of fact I just a few hours ago I I stumbled onto a very neat piece of literature about the morality of relativism all the idea of family and it wasn’t I believe the full station something but that was published it one year ago and the evolution of society and deviance everyone you know them a little sip them because I know that you are looking cute go back to the sex cave just like everybody else does what you doing you should your children should have just one father and one mother and then what is it that’s so cool in Chris Ryan’s book what he points to is this this anthropological term you could say it’s jargon like the sexologist but it’s it’s a powerful term that Fierce egalitarian ISM which basically means that it’s not just that people who were let’s say nomatic gatherer Hunters who didn’t accumulate a lot of private property and wealth and didn’t have very strong structure sartorial boundaries in the what essentially share everything out of necessity and you know you could romanticize that and say oh it’s because they were more noble Savages and they’re more virtuous which I think is generally true that’s my that’s my personal opinion but to be more at scholarly about it and they came up with the term that actually it’s more probably more accurate and you can see this in living at Niagara fees of nomadic Heather Hunter foraging people’s is that Fierce egalitarian ism is the idea that it’s not just said you know it’s nice to share things it’s that if you were hoarding things and you were not sharing things then there’s going to be a real backlash a real problem with that so it’s not that it’s not that you would extrapolate that all that means that women have no rights to their bodies and in and it’s not like Clan of the Cave Bear that you know a woman is public property to be used for Sex On Demand with no agency but rather everyone including the men would be obliged to share food sex shelter medicine skills new discoveries whatever it is it’s it’s that that sense but but what you’re describing why The Flintstones it’s it’s this cultural norm that is about not separating and taking basically inhibiting the development of an individualized you know egomania and controlling so that’s really great so that’s that that’s a new that’s a new licensed work of the franchise of The Flintstones or is that one is that something from the past an experiment in making older Hanna Barbera characters into more modern that’s what it what you want what you say is very very real and what we could divorce hearing to a politics discussion. we are actually seeing the results all the excessive bloating and capitalism right now with everything that’s happened has a way of rebelling sing itself so we’re probably right now at to one extreme about women’s rights and lack of women’s rights and disparity and will probably swing back to something more equal and even if it will take picture of several several years right right so something interesting historical phenomenon that I discovered around Kink that I’d love to see if you have any any material on Earth looked at as if there was a time I guess it was I don’t know the exact date range but it was Weimar Germany after World War where there was such Financial Devastation that this whole economy of dominatrix is kind of from became extremely prevalent and just it was probably the most I don’t guess you could say extreme or or just the most public moment in time where the sex worker economy around Kink was just flourishing but in some tightness in some ways in a very Sinister way because people just had to do what they had to do and so I don’t know there’s there’s a really negative characterizations of what was happening in her some extreme things happening that you would consider to be some of the worst human-rights violations and studied that. In that that place at all and if you have any thoughts about it and is it that the holes author of the book called voluptuous Panic which High reviews on my website by the way Witcher really goes beyond the stereotypes of the Weimar Republic and explains the Dynamics the mechanism social mechanisms behind that kind of economy that kinds all the collect Social Clubs and the rise of Nazism and let’s say it was involuntary but it became the one example MP3 of mankind where you could see what a limited access to any kind of sex any kind of can’t go do to society and it was very positive and negative and it it really cannot be summarized in them in a few phrases but everybody knows not see is a burnt books and nobody kind of remembers that the first book but burning was the library of The Institute Forest search of sexuality of Magnus hirschfeld who was the first sex ologist to study King well this is this message means a lot about the importance of a sex-positive you all the time of sex and health the point is this is really a key concept I found it in my my research in my life when you learn to question where are you you learned that being is not always bad that quality is not always better in a specific context at Mt. See other ways of interpreting your world any you started to develop a critical view of everything not just within the field of sex but then when you were here a politician at on television saying he has your best interest in mind maybe use you start questioning maybe you start questioning why saying gay people should have married or things like that and this kind of Liberty critical thinking can be very dangerous for some kind of governments and that this right now with my States of America right so you know without getting yourself in any trouble so I guess I’m curious what the what your thoughts are on the Catholic church in its I guess you would have a a very interesting you know set of insights just giving you your geography there but yes you know things are on not so easy to summarize again because it is very easy way easy to generalize different that a very wide view on how to sing but generally speaking play the Catholic church has been a victim of itself and its effects and it has grown to be a really evil force came out to just a few weeks ago cool the last and I think it is and it is a very rigorous analysis the papers the letters of the sentences of the inquiry and police work about the Catholic church and pedophilia the portrait it gives a visit of a part of this organization is a Beyond chilling it you see when you think you’re all that I need a little gas station you might be think of Spectre from the James Bond movies off of a church of course and so it is very hard to generalize but having said this again when in time mental freedom of religion Surah of the far-right see themselves as endangered and this is why I pay strike back at Freedom what is happening right now so are you now I’m glad that you brought that up because it’s very much my kind definitely doing a secrecy but it certainly my mission and in purpose in life to help people understand that repression in zep generating perpetrators of all kinds so that’s a simple truism put on what what I discovered just within the last couple years is that there is a historical fact about historical fact that there was a decision made sometime soon I think in the 1500s or don’t quote me on that I don’t have the reference it right in front of me but there was an in an exact moment where decision was made within the Catholic Church to to disallow its clergyman from reproducing and having children progeny because it was basically leaking assets out of the financial Financial the coffers of the church were basically being drained by the fact that they’re clergyman where we producing so the way to to control more of the wealth of the church was to choose to actually make a to declare that celibacy was was going to be a mandatory and that single event to my understanding is what has been has been the result of the cause the Cascade of obviously the repression and then that manifesting is the pedophilia so that’s a pretty Stark it’s mortifying people throwing your hands up in the air to try to understand what’s going on it was if this is generally accepted to be a fact then it is the greed and the lust of money that has betrayed and put in Peril and caused this horrific harm to so many children around the planet all because of this financial gain prerogative do you have any knowledge of that if I could pull it up on Wikipedia and probably make it a lot more concise and clear but I figured you might have some knowledge of that that shift that occurred in that what she described I believe the proven that has many different sources many different types of that’s Concord to creating the situation and actually sexual repression begin began and the Bible Church began around the year 1000 any organized church is a recording good organization so be seeking donations or a stool King people people people or distress people is a very good way to accumulate wealth for overtime under the point to all the church is not to be with it just teddy bear do I have been doing it for thousands of years and they will keep doing it and in the end you will have us with a situation such as unfortunately my home country where a very large part of the real estate is owned by the church and I never want to leave early influence in politics and Society I know if you know this but see your I need to leave to come on the four newspapers to have one or two pages all the church comments on the everyday facts Even Flow related in any way to religion and this is what you know again building a culture of them critical thinking is the best weapon against this beat against to any church not just a Catholic one or any kind of repressive regime just takes loss crying Willam so in that film I saw that I didn’t read the book but I did see the film of The DaVinci Code and it did that was the first time I heard that the the the term God’s Mafia and when you looking at I looked at the penitentials did you study that. Where the basically created a price sheet for every sin they could think of from every form of state so that was an important turning point in the monetization of sin and I guess you could call it a spiritual extortion because the threat of hell and Damnation is a is sort of like a an L A Street gang coming up to your taco stand and saying you’re going to pay tribute to the gang or we’re going to and will provide you protection from other gangs ID the devil and angel and demon see how it sits it interesting racquet and interesting form of extortion based on an invisible looming threat that’s completely metaphysical and and contrived you know I don’t know in but based on real real well I guess patterns of fear but this whole into spiritual intermediary that extract money from you when you send that’s quite a a business model and can you talk about your I think I don’t really understand what the Vatican is that considered to be the the headquarters of the entire the sort of the capital of the Catholic church but it’s it’s like a compound it’s a fortress it’s it’s got and username Cloud a very small one with him the city of Rome and then you probably know it’s boundary one of his boundary which is but some Peter Square What weather the great Basilica is the pope held out the window and this has allowed it to to be completely immune to any kind of control by the states surrounding it and by any of his wife were example of which are acting you into a traditional system anywhere so for example to you earlier on you see how when one police Works inquiry is it gets to the point where we’re at a guilty verdict is expected in spinal expected to just get some Buscopan protection get a citizenship and had to stay with them their title or to work as a diplomat again it would be unfair to put rate as an entirely evil organization or a you know in and it’s something that was only for a for a personal enrichment to loss of of good works there is no doubt that historically that I have done much more damage if they all want to protect students Nazi is from persecution protecting them for the travel in the States from from Justice by off the one at people at the stake literally for a circle heresy which basically and generally only man to that they were a large part of the real estate Specialists Church won’t they neck deep into this pedophilia so you know it’s very very hard for me to be benign with them but it isn’t even as simple as just a few of your sentence is a whore missing for vacation like to The Da Vinci Code Fallout version right yeah that’s a it is very complex from your studies 7th what how are the spinning this media disaster this public relations disaster of the pedophile priests what’s their I mean do they have a department that’s that’s working to have a Consultants how are they avoiding mass m agency that there could be a day where enough evidence is gathered throughout the world for a new form of some human rights violation you can call it spiritual abuse or where it’s they actually have to pay reparations for every I mean imagine there being an international class action lawsuit has some teeth where they would be forced to pay reparations to people just bear with me for a second while I I kind of try to put this into words but if it’s in any other let’s say if you were a chemical manufacturing company that distributed a product all throughout the world that and they covered up that there was mercury in the product or some controlled you know toxic degenerative substance that ended up causing people to have deformities and cancer in their teeth and hair to fall out or whatever and you had the right team of scientists and and lawyers and human rights organizations and Watchdog groups were they could actually build a case where people who had been afflicted by this this chemical product could actually stand together and claim major damages and I feel like that’s I would hope that there is some effort to organize the victims of Catholic spiritual sexual abuse and for there to be reparations and compensation on a mass scale I mean if they do that with letters sometimes from car manufacturers that say you know basically if you purchased a vehicle of this model make and model from this time frame you are now entitled to claim thousands of dollars in Damages because we got you know a class action lawsuit that you wouldn’t even heard about it so imagine just everyday everyone who’s ever been you know forced into Catholicism by any means you know they could claim yeah I was I was indoctrinated by priests you know whether or not the molesting a person her or not there’s to sort of a a corruption that is just absolutely what’s the word should be implicated at a broad-scale and I don’t know if that’s I mean I don’t know if you see that as being realistic or if there’s any effort force it and it has everything you described Easter already there are class actions International inquiries sentences but the basic difference between a car manufacturer for example and the and the church and this church particular is better, a picture is a subject to the same laws that you and I are subjected to where is it the church to its lowest only because of you know as soon as things turned bad for them as well because we have a secret tribunal and the actual did charge of the case and Demeter doubt a sentence of penance if of course the fact it is proved by us not about you and this is it’s because you know you would have to be I’m sorry you have to be oh basically you you have to be to accept the singer you. You don’t have to punish him because you know the church is about love so we love our seniors and then and that’s it again by somebody and then cooled Emiliano City party and it’s actually the the sequel to The greed which explored the financial sense of the Catholic church and I’m looking I’m looking for a John on Amazon., and I don’t think there is an English edition yet but it is feeling because one of the things you discover and the public fax is it’s not a conspiracy theory I mean I have the papers even have a special office was only purpose is to negotiate with victims of a pedophilia and other scandals by Martha and look at the letters from these are special office that when you look at the payments you find out if I generally negotiate for Sam’s which one tenth of what is civil jury people who have been ballot where you have been indoctrinated where have been just don’t have that the instrument the tools to to fight back how would you fight back an organization with hundreds of thousands of men all around the world and it unlimited Financial power to destroy you so thank you for sharing all this stuff this is I’m getting the chills right now and so sounds like the the only way I would say if there was a a human rights organized and I would consider it a form of sex trafficking if you were if the church is is especially taking disadvantaged children Morse dispar disproportionately disadvantaged children who don’t have solid families or I mean that was what came out in that spot light research at Boston Globe investigation was that it was intended to be there like any predator has the is cunning enough to go after. Pray who are relatively helpless so if that was people from you no children that are orphans or broken from broken home or don’t have the family with the solid financial means to mount a defense or even pay attention or even care it’s obviously a systematic abuse of the easily exploitable and so you would think that sex trafficking nongovernmental organizations that are working to stop sex tourism and in all these other facets of of sexual slavery and trafficking would if they were to have to go. I’m going to start researching it’s a lot more because you’ve provided some very important insights that I just was ignorant to I guess what I’m my question for you now at this point is it seems like given the lack of jurisdiction that you were saying that they’re not subject to the laws and regulations in Judicial Systems of any other Nation or state that the only way that other the devicq the countries of the victims if they were to actually resist this alien power that gives them carte blanche for abusing children sexually with very little recourse that you would have to boycott the currency from that you have to somehow mark their bills and say you know you can spend money here it would be called I know what the word is it said you would impose economic sanctions you know embargo you can’t is dairy really in Neverending Topix explain about the Texas Tech system here I need to lie where are you I basically forced by the second law states to pay a small part of your tax money to the Catholic church for example to all the negotiation between the Vatican State and and Battalion state budget before I want to do that because it would be too long by I will give you an inside a hoe by Cardinal Savannah said it no more than 5% of priests does abused minors which beside the thing that you just won what they want man but doesn’t sound that bad until you know that there are about four hundred thousand priests around so 5% is about twenty thousand of them 20,000 child rapists by the church upchurch’s onam admission which is beyond feeling well well on that summer know. I think it’d be great to wrap up with maybe some of the most hopeful and invigorating and exciting positive Horizons that that you’re you’re keeping track of in the the world of Kink and BDSM and maybe you know whatever can help us kind of counterbalance that that exploration of the evil which I mean in maybe even things where we can see positive examples of people just shedding that dog, and that indoctrination and in carving out new cultural space for sex positive expiration with immorality that comes from Community standards that are are more kinky we concentrated on the Catholic church but really those are so different organizations and school so that’s it are very sick negative and there is only one common weapon against this and it is just sharing how late is searching for knowledge and openly discussing anything sex in Notting a it’s both our way but just because it is a very interesting topic has actually I just lost all connections to our subject you just have to fix your favorite subject and go from there keeping an open mind and nourishing feeding your curiosity for for life in general I mean in the end of what was meant to be a just a quick guide became a monster of a book all about 600 pages and it was so because when I started exploring the topic in detail I started the listing that it’s a relation to science to history to art to do so many different fields including you know pretty obvious things like the history of food for example or exploration off different countries end in the end I guess what what came out was a very comprehensive guide to BDSM of course but to also a great way to so many different forms of knowledge which should Wichita explore starting point for your explorations what in the where do you recommend people go obviously there’s fetlife.com which is probably would you consider FetLife to be the the most accessible widest Network for people to join and kind of Explorer I’m not sure yeah with that there’s other resources that you recommend or the largest social network for Four Kings jersey but this doesn’t mean it is all good whenever you have access to anything you have to remember that some information might not be tried and tested to maybe it is it is it lets buys did not for malicious reasons but just because people. Don’t fact check everything there they write so well maybe you have to take it with a pinch of salt I would humbly suggest people to come over and visit to Isaac. Com a y c a d well they can find loss and lost of resources not just what I ride but there is for example a student websites and our sources for every form of knowledge of a kink in general not just and then of course there is your local community and maybe you might not find this information we have a life people is right on and you are talked about your book that you mentioned but you mentioned to me that you were wanting to talk about do you want to so maybe you want to go to close on a note saying you can download the free preview for my website and so people can get their own idea what it is about oh great. Okay so yeah we’ll put that link in the show notes for sure and yeah if you have any final closing thoughts you want to share and we could talk for a horse and a sand by the way maybe if you’re interested we can do it again come over on my website and download the previous I believe that I could do okay go to and I will put the link in the show notes to the people can go and download the so it’s an English is the English translation of the book as an e-book on Amazon awesome well I guess I’ll take a breath here in and see if there’s any you have that as well yeah they are Maria called weather UCR I’m all right got it okay yeah well I would just like to say again thank you so much and really you were and there’s there’s a place in my heart for the scholars of of people who really have found their passion to be you know you want to call it a thority in the field but certainly a powerful reference you know Alexa Khan for for all of this material and it says it’s just really refreshing and really exciting and I feel that a lot of you know I guess you could say this about any subculture or or Nitch or no cultural phenomenon is it there is there’s people who are just kind of along for the ride and that’s great you know they don’t not everybody has to be a real scholar but putting in efforts to understand things but the people who take that time to curate the information so that people have access I really appreciate that and so you’re kind of a scribe as it were for this very interesting world and you’ve been able to answer some my most my most I guess I could say deepest darkest questions if your deepest darkest questions about this and you’re also helping helping me to open my my heart because I’ve been you know in some ways I guess by Oster disappointed or I can’t I have to admit that I’ve I’ve I’ve had some pretty negative experiences in the Kink BDSM world that have have kind of discolored my attitudes towards it so I’m I’m wanting to I open my heart and be more open and accepting an m in this this definitely helps me kind of fuel and move forward you know I guess there’s just been yeah some some Shadow transgressions that I have experienced at the hands of people who probably don’t have as much respect for the art form and the lifestyle that that you do so I’m hoping that yet people can kind of get more proper education if if if that’s the right way to say it or just saying and consensual so yeah on that note I think we’ll just call that a good intro episode and for sure will we will be at this again to keep track of of developments and you don’t actually know this will be the final question so you would be Fifty Shades of Grey what what it what are your thoughts on that you could take your time to I did it I’m just I’m I feel like I’ve we’ve had a good stopping point on for more question so you can just go on with that forasmuch as long as you want and we’ll call it a day oh there it is it really a kind of one but it is that people in the community hates Fifty Shades of Grey because of course it is not about romance is Nova that’s just to update the sum of a standard Pacific General so I mean I interviewed her and she was surprised by how the marketing department of a table stress around the world that has has a construed that her books as a sort all videos a manual or something like that because she said she only wanted to update the four show is he in a romance novel you usually have there’s a powerful man who comes from a far and takes that the lady from our daily trash and meet you there a difference in a dangerous world and this is strictly as being a favor French discount with his country Castle or the pyrates the captain of the sultan but today is probably a starving Somali fisherman and of course Sultan’s are mostly associated with Isis right now Politically Incorrect she just a member of that 1% we protested against to Anthony starcevic Centre in and just by accident mr. Christian Grey was into kinky twist nice words hasn’t updated is a staple off of romance novels which she is a rape people are always in our studies that prove that over 70% of the rare representations of rape in imprinting the media are concentrated in the romance novel Chandler forced seduction Christian Grey is a stool culture is obsessed he is dangerous he is obsessive and possessive and this view the book is it really dangerous because people have associated with Fifty Shades of Grey with powerfully alluring imagery but it doesn’t the pics so you can post I believe that correlates each publishing a book with a rare spike or 20% more accidents in your own related to to Kink music Ventures because you have to didn’t go to the ER and all the damages psychological Nature Coast by amateurs for online corn Buck should virgins and the luck of education is dangerous because people just as big as a habit of considering a sex and sexuality as it separated from him quotes real life Dante stop disregarding basic things like Elsa and Anna song and it is very dangerous and should really get information about Kingdom sex in general I always say it is better to have knowledge and choose not to use it and need knowledge not knowing where to get but and said this I believe that has a very big marriage which is to have shown the general population but uncommon forms of sex I’m not that bad after all our acceptable people can be good people can be happy anyway even if they are into bondage Alex and this is very good because a lot of prejudice is a better Siri right well that was a sobering analysis and I I’ve been a very that was absurd of absorbed by osmosis that there is a sense of detail station around it and I’ve just avoided it myself it’s I’ve got too busy with other things so I rely on I link a few of my articles about that you’re listening to make up your mind about that. Thank you for these topics and will definitely be in touch again and and explore future developments together all right take care have a great day. Please go to www.crunch.com and cook on the Donate button to help support the shop in addition of sustaining and improving the podcast your donations will help establish permaculture goddess temples every bite ecological employment for single mothers Please Subscribe and share your favorite episodes if you have questions or comments feel free to leave a voicemail at 818-275-1593 or email event at Tantra Punk. Com Thomas Day

Higher Paradigm Dating, Polyamory & BDSM with Isantis TPP92

Play

Isantis PicIn this episode I’m joined by the highly accomplished and deeply insightful Rev. Brian Krall aka Isantis Tao. He shares some background on his paths of initiation into various wisdom traditions of loving, healing, and spiritual arts. We discuss some of his holistic approaches to helping people with love, dating, relationships, polyamory,  and beyond. We also explore his unique and enlightening experience of bringing a tantric approach to kink and BDSM.

Please visit his website to access his services and resources!
www.TrueLifeDevelopment.com

About Brian:

Rev. Brian Krall, also known by his Shaman name Isantis Tao, is a Holistic Healer, Personal Development Specialist, Social Scientist, Sexual Educator, Metaphysicist, Taoist Shaman and Tantric Yogi of Sri Vidya. He has been studying Health and Holistic Healing, Personal Development, Psychology, Philosophy, Spirituality, Metaphysics & The Occult for 19 years. He was initiated as a shaman 13 years ago in a traditional Death initiation and has studied and practiced many of the world’s predominant forms of Shamanism. In February of 2010 He was initiated into one of the worlds most ancient tantric lineages, the Daksinamurti lineage, by world famous guru Sri Chaitanyananda Nantha Saraswati, at the Sri Rajarajeswari Peetham (Temple of The Divine Universal Queen Mother Goddess), part of The Sri Vidya International Tantric Temple Society. He trained there for several years in far Right Handed Tantric Hindu Metaphysics, Rituals and Sanskrit Chanting. Over the past 14 years he has authored 10 books on personal development, relationships/sexuality and metaphysics/spirituality. He has been offering personal development trainings and shamanic apprenticeships for 13 years. And has a Holistic Personal Development, Relationship and Spiritual training company called True Life Development that he has owned and operated for the past 7 years. Be sure to check out his website at www.TrueLifeDevelopment.com where he offers many free informational videos and articles, as well as next level products and programs.

AI Generated Transcription:
(Want to help with corrections? Please contact me to learn about rewards for your efforts!)

Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin eligible oven smoking Tacos on podcast episode number 92 I’m here with Reverend Brian Krause I’m screwed lights development and he is special educator tantric yoga in Dallas, and amongst other things and then thrilled to have another man on the show to talk about spiritual sexual past us and lightning and and and also there’s going to be some interesting exploration of the country is the first to some of the video send out there today and wanted to tell us a bit about your background how you discovered these past and how you leave them together so since the great offering she survived for the world now yes thank you very much I’m really excited about this I know that you’re going to be asking me some very interesting questions than that I don’t normally I’m pretty excited to do this and yeah the traffic to talk about the ways in which the world is BDSM in the world of Tantra and sex magick and Shamanism CareerLink ductwork for can be really interesting topics to be able to go into a little bit about myself I am a personal development I’ve been practicing and studying for almost 20 years and then I started offering and it’s offering personal development trainings about 12 years ago and I have been studying psychology and sociology for about 30 or four 15 years and I actually almost 15 years now and sexual education for about 16 years out of the ground and Company for about seven years for about 15 years and was initiated as a charm on about 12 years ago and now I am also a country was initiated to ask Ving Temple of the Divine Universal mother goddess at what it’s called a part of a temple society called International Temple society and I was in there about seven years ago and was trained intensively there so I don’t know a lot of things together really well as part of the holistic Spectrum you know how I feel at all is very integral to one another and you know it all cooperating really well I’m really excited to hear about that at all things esoteric and otherworldly and Thistle and then turn off you know from your cares if you had a OK Google moment in your adolescence or where it where the bleeding ulcer to begin I realized that modern Western Christianity just wasn’t doing it for me and everything that I’ve been taught through myself to conditioning and the status quo just wasn’t just didn’t seem to be working just didn’t seem to be well Aaron. You know the modern sofa conditioning in modern washing Christianity so I got into different forms of world religions and Eastern religions and I started looking at things with his taoism in Hinduism and also magic as well and various philosophies and metaphysics geology and physics as well as other things that were caught by Society here and didn’t seem to really make sense or really work for me you know I’m so I’m so that’s where I began my journey into the start of the truck around with all of this stuff and it just sort of a more and more over the years do you want to talk about what you doing now and how you’re taking that training and gifts and turn them the world’s biggest offerings right now is called the ultimate sex god or goddess training program for the sex life of your dreams review everything that you need to know about human sexuality from sexual psychology and building your sexual identity to sexual communication in the social science of sexuality and sexuality to seduction and foreplay and arousal to Central play and sexual techniques and sex positions and orgasms to the sort of sex magick and Tantra and then finally relationship management know about human sexuality in a very practical manner Ave development course which is like my Flagship corporate or less about me and teaches you everything you know about personal development in all of the Africa the holistic Spectrum from house to Identity in Psychology to professional development to relationships to the law of attraction in circle has worked so I called the power of you self-actualization blueprint trying to master their dating life and find the right partner or Partners I have a course called the easy automated maintenance systems which basically just further takes all the bullshit out of dating for people like myself who are very busy and don’t have a whole lot of time to invest in you know going out to bars all the time to find people on a horse that’s not in the best way and I’m looking for a sustainable and easy way to integrate dating into their lives or very high standards in Partners in no one find the right partner or partners and you know maybe even many partners this is a really great course that teaches you so that it can finish your busy lifestyle and helping to get the right partner partner and I got a lot of little and Seabrook and ecology I feel like I want to I want to connect with you and see if it’s kind of opportunity so people in Canada common offering graphic training on how busy you are what your workload is like in there may be a free consultation so that they can understand what they’re getting into and out of any questions answer that the training program is right for them and there is a good thing for them if they are interested so yeah I definitely do that some of that and I could just say I have my very similar kind of integrated multidisciplinary background on what happened I guess you could say Mastery and expertise and in various areas and being able to synthesize the past but I am curious. If I were to go into a mode where I’m just curious attempting to be like a late person if I could give you some general questions that I think they’re kind of from the try guys just text her a hold of you and modern society and just see how you were getting right with that to give the first certain things and reconstruct understanding a person’s will and being in alignment with their snow with her whatever level and then helping them grow in a way that they feel like they’re holding their own young and that your facilitator processor can I get a C7 info session questions of sort of like a demonstration or a mock-up of what type of device in and see how you were okay so if you think so what I am hearing for is with say I never said I know a little bit about the idea of Dharma and I want you to not live in the departed from negative Karma and psychodrama of unconscious relationship that’s what is a karmic Bond had enough of that and you want to be in what some people would say it in a jar Mike relationship where there is a higher level Fusion of Souls and soul circus where you’re not so much to do if your dog is but you’re actually really fine soon and storing in this optimized games of co-creation and Synergy and symbiosis with how could you help people who want to rise up to a more important quotes our next mission of a relationship as opposed to you don’t have to agree on exactly one simple schematic of a lot of people who are operating at a higher level of perfect in their sexual manifestation ritual not just hooking up in parking and being sloppy and even falling into whatever other people defined as king or some free casino scene of how to run returns if it sounds like you might have some really fit people want to live in a higher Paradigm I want to have higher Paradigm relationships and advanced level in order to get there when they relate to turn on the first thing you need to start with is yourself and your own Paradigm that you’re living in and you’re really sick for yourself your relationship to the world into nature and your lifestyle you’re sure if you’re trying to achieve her existence is a relationship for your connected to me to absolve your karma right and you need to adopt a better lifestyle Universal Law & Order on the way of life rules of compassionate lifestyle where you’re living in sync with nature and you are not harming or killing other being that you are not eating carcasses of animals doing that nature because man is not actually meant to animals who do not have a liveris digestive tracts we have a herbivore digestive tracts you. Only fall asleep with me for your body positive you’re surviving off of the pain and suffering and pain and you’re going to them on their negative energies in their car mats with also you’re taking a lower energy when you eat animals raise your credit survive can you control how does animal dies it would be probably quick and painless fear to shoot with a gun on Arrow that’s that’s not how these animals live in torture of other animals so that’s going to cause you to know where you’re taking on their comments but you’re causing suffering with me to take on bad karmas prevent you from raising your vibration at a casino hire Paradise arm and hand suffering in that you are firefighters frequencies for the spiritual dharmic wave life he realize that you are actually just a microcosm of the macrocosm curf one with the universe and a sort of manifestation of it a higher Consciousness into raise your Consciousness to a higher level and start to exist on a fire paradise and then of course you can other spiritual practices that fall into the realm of shamanism and magic and Tantra sex with yourself in the world around you by Bryson in the dating World a high Paradigm lifestyle able to transcend the status if you want to get a paradigm relationship and then you need to look for other people who are not victims of the native people who are slaves to the status quo have devised this dating program where I get you out of there dating life so it doesn’t take a lot of time and energy to find people who are up higher standard and share in their special interest and you know the sort of alternative lifestyle that they may be a part of a haystack so this is all music from the dryer the people who are here sitting and I really love this terminology and using and I’m going to do this to you and then you can share this never heard I can study of all of the new age material as consume this is the first time I’ve heard the notion of higher Paradigm. And then how to repair time of anything sexual you know dietary otherwise you’re going she has their end result is that it’s going to measurably lower than a lot of other sister higher Paradigm that transcends time and space so I love that you know because they’ve got busy Lifestyles but you know it’s it’s really just an excuse when it comes down to it because I’m going to the farmers market whenever you have time and stocking up on stuff and put it in the freezer meals for the week poster slowing their body down in the bodily processes they’re making yourself less intelligent and Also spiritually speaking to the body nearly impossible it is like trying to paddle a boat Upstream against the current Without a Paddle has been able to attain while eating anything but there are higher state because they have a healthy diet that is mainly made up of fruits and look at all the Buddhas look at all this in Hinduism and it makes everything in your life so if you find yourself functioning better but still eating more and spiritually it just raises your Paradigm so much for automatically very welcome and Horticulture and landscape design and if so yeah it’s good if you have to read about for the wedding and I repair Diamond automatic another thing that comes to mind you can always say the simple I didn’t say the farmer or pay the doctor or become a powerful modernization and Empress life hacks your reticle hear this hypothetical of time stay away from to relationship Paradigm and I can save it on it’s been abysmal technology startups for the power to connect people and make it easier to really find out what is what some of this back in thinking that’s who I am to your swing by and dating you know how do you order some chips that don’t give away your secret sauce for get people interested in learning more you know how do we find out if we’re honest ass and we want to find other people what do you suggest programs is a ton of Academia and science courses really work out everything to a science and address it from all the different angles psychology sociology spirituality into what I’m doing you don’t like basically creating your life like you’re running a business dealing with things like that that’s what I think is really really helpful that I do with a lot of my courses you know I have people your life right neurologically for success in the aspect or area that they are looking for in so there’s like two people use or Nearly Witches programming people use in their sleep disorder recalibrate their brain for success in that area which is dating I have things worked out to a social science right so I deal with the whole entire process of selecting mates and it starts with you and carry out what it is that you really want writing out what kind of relationship that you want here and then from there you can devise how it is that you would actually look for these types of people and find them he would talk to them to sort of engineer the right interactions that go towards the type of relationship do you want with these type of people on how you’re going to qualify and disqualified partner to find out if they are the right partners for you right and then from there you know I teach people how to properly flirt and then crashed into a partner to turn the instructions on how to get people out on your porch developments that you want to be having with this person and then how to create sustainable healthy relationship so that you know you’re making sure that this relationship is going to work and be successful in talking with people you know what is going on in your mind and how you are calibrating yourself for dating and how you’re going to be a partner for this person might because the only one to track people who are like you right if you want and you have to be there at your own personality and figure out what you want and how you’re going to devise lifestyle faxes for that and I’m ways of socializing that are good for that so it can be used for love and another goddess is all love because that is the only eligible power and everything gets fed on the way that was the most Exquisite beautiful Treatise on Tantra that I feel like I’ve ever heard and so it’s it’s a it’s spellbinding and I feel that I just blessed blessed to hear these these words be spoken and by you and and I’m curious if you would like to guide us through what your creative Works have been I know you’ve you’ve you’ve got too many directions since the book was released but I’m curious what do you recommend people start to discover beyond the book that that you feel most proud of and and thank you yes well you know I do see the whole thing at the adjoining and I I I came in as a bikini but I didn’t really know myself and I spent the first part of my life and I think it’s natural for beings to do that to spend the first part of their life but then who am I trying to know oneself and then that way you differentiate your paws from what has been necessarily conventionally and you you you choose this especially if you’re a person just naturally go to the beat of everybody else and you know I know. Keeney is now have been their name is being taken before I kind of embodiment within but you know what they represent in essence is in at the embodiment of a feminine wisdom principal they are archetypes of wisdom wisdom which comes at you naked because it is naked it butt naked truth it’s naked just radiating blessed through every pore and it’s disruptive because it passed away all the things that you because I think you relied on and all those artifice is an old as he go dramas she just Trampled Under Foot and lost and she’s drunk on the blesiv share spontaneous being yeah in the other part of my life before I discovered Tantra and the reflection that I came in just trying to see who am I and in that I said who am I and how do I fit into the culture that I find myself in and it’s my own self and what other projections of others and how am I seeing and how do I see myself and all these things I was bringing into my experience of and I found the technique of collage and that was when I was doing my thesis of surrealist artists map sons did a number of collage books using old engraving and in those books he put together the Engravings to create seamless new world but they were very Fantastical you know people had wings and snake came out between the Pavements and the real encounters happen but now look like they were meant to be like that all the time but he’s instructed them and you couldn’t see where they looked. Together they were a new world and I said I thought you could kind of see make it look like it’s not. But it’s actually fuse into a new reality and you can also really joke people’s perceptions by bringing together the things they wouldn’t normally associate together but by the juxtaposition you to create this what they call it in there so am I use those those tools of collage and use the loss of images of myself had my own photo taken and put myself in that so that I could be both see the Muse and the one I mean the object of somebody else’s view but with photographic and then I also made three dimensional objects and I use those cool things in a lot of pieces life cost of myself my own head button and then like us about the people that was similar to using photographic call out your photos Honda back in 73 I had an exhibition code opening which was all about food and the roster so I’m bringing together you know that the body of woman with the whole idea of the table together in that and it was very shocking to people dressed up I had a whole wedding cake constructed I’m prevented myself as with a van everything adds the wedding cakes at the invitation for the exhibition it was in a being fully engaged in in in the eye and after that I forgot I started it went through for 7 years which was a major I guess you’ll call now to send what was that word wasn’t used at the time but it was me looking at all the skeletons in the cupboard I had a relationship with this filmmaker and we were meant to be doing all these projects together and it never really asked you fully manifest and then we broke up and it was my whole drama with woman’s theater group and my what with them kind of ripping apart their relationship and then I just had to process all this cuz I would say I’m sorry can I ask you something really quick I don’t want to cry or be a gossipmonger anything but I feel that the the Dynamics between creative creative relationships romantic relationships and those the way those play out the Ender play especially if there is I don’t know what that was in your case but I’m I’m really curious to see what wisdom you would have to share about you about using tantric skill sets and tools to harmonize human personality conflicts that’s a big big question a lot to to explore but if you were able if you were confronting these sort of issues were you able to at least somehow raise the vibration you know even if there are deal breakers and things had to be you know closed off but I’m just curious if you were successful at all and applying principles or by Christopher Hills my you know the person who built this property here he did a book called creative conflict which was all about heart-to-heart communication and about people needing to be hard I’m so it’s at whole dynamic between having an exchange with someone else but that person letting you know after you’ve spoken from your heart but they have understood it reflecting it back in their own words to you and that you do that back and forth and it actually creates a whole different kind of feedback loop the misunderstandings that often have a good exercise based on you know Christopher understanding of those principles a yogi eyes pop from being a western scientist animal and he was all these things wrapped together but that was a very good example of principles into the relationship Dynamic but for myself you know that it’s been so many different relationships and even oceans and you know how many dimensions the last to it and each one I’ve had a few major relationships in my life apart from many other relationship but as a few major ones you know that had bad that even a beauty and then Gloria and the agony and you know all of that and I always say there’s no such thing as my student so I like to think we’re all students protection is setting in the area relationship dynamic especially going to the mat the male-female dynamic at this particular time on the planet is in such a challenge in at the rest so many areas that go across because she knows you think of just love and attraction and vibration if you like you know that conventional I’m just you know that Dynamic the spice of life and energy vibrations which you know I make everything so complex and setting it this time the whole sexual identity is something that so you know I’m in the midst for what it’s going to be the next evolutionary stage of how we’re going to be able to manage male-female dynamic in a new way and of course you know the true Keys the Contra do do hold those keys because it is a true and which ones have it if you are able to hold that Crucible and a gaining and it didn’t. Do you have the real chance to be able to see the Divine in each other and bring the Divine fully into that invaded relationship and that you know it’s just the the Beauty and the glory and the end of the immortal France and get moving into our discontent touched any magical ways but at the moment I’m playing a lot of challenging in our relationship not only to each other but to a whole The Crucible of plant it up and down with her that you know that the interpersonal has to also be expanded I believe attitude tantrica to include the whole interaction with all of our natural world at this point and really bringing that into every meditation and interaction really because we can’t afford to lie if that helps eco-warrior and was all about planting gardens and saving trees and I still am now but I feel like what I’ve added to that with Tantra is just a ever-deepening reverence for creation and for the Divine the astral the Earthly Plains all the things we often take for granted I just want to be in that state of reverence and awe that I think most people achieve that when they go into the Great Outdoors and then go hiking or skiing they they have a tantric sort of shocked if acacian of there at least their parts of their system get woken up an activated unfortunately it doesn’t seem to be enough to make them into real hardcore activists a lot of the times but I feel like the there is an ecological agenda that is very transparent and very intrinsic to the path that that romance with with the life-giving fertility of this divine feminine and if you know a lot of people experience very direct communion with the wisdom intelligence and directives of Gaia through this practice so do you want to talk a bit about that kind of revelatory ecological revolution of Tantra if you will be glory after the sexual Revolution and I would save the kind of a cool resonance that I’ve I’ve told condemned presentation to some of her because I really believe especially in the cold vibration that she said we’ve got to start treating the Earth like a lover not like a mother and it when you treat her like a mother it’s you expect the mother to get unconditionally do everything for you and you don’t have to give anything back but if you treat it like a lover than you you know show that you have to give love to that lava and it says to a slow and so that’s an important shift and I think that’s a good thing to bear in mind and I had one time when I was in my twenties and experience with some strange object did Johnny and in that time I had what I still feel program the most orgasmic experience that I had when I had it I was just lying back on this massage table I wasn’t touching myself but I was having these orgasm just passed through my whole body and what I was feeling at the time I felt like I was body of the Earth has style and the every single every single of an insect’s wing and the slithering of the body of a snake and the rustling of leaves everyone going through my whole being beautifully spoken and who could not want to experience that who doesn’t anybody out there not enjoy orgasm it’s a very small number and to the to think that it can become such a flow state of being that level of Sensitivity I kind of almost feel like what most people are striving for when it when they’re trying to get off you know whatever gender or sex they may be is there their they’re basically trying to use friction sex or some sort of high-intensity friction contact in order to kind of chisel or sandblast or break through all this plaque that separating their nervous system and their chakra system from the cosmic Bliss that is a constant wave of orgasmic energy so the more you dissolve that plaque through right action through dharmik practice and purification of all kinds that are very well enumerated in the tatras you know an in yogic texts and Vedic texts there’s a path way to clean your stylus and get more of that orgasmic slow going and it’s definitely so abundant and not so scarce like everything else that we’ve been tricked about as far as the scarcity mindset vs. the abundance mindset so that’s just a follow-up that’s from me and and now that we’re coming to a close on time do you want to talk about some of the anymore highlights from your creative works that people should be looking for then about what’s what’s the current and future of an exorcism it was called and said some the book that I put out and that was trying to look at all these psychological States and and who am I and is that I could dance we both kind of psycho and then I come out at the house and then I have discovered time trip by this point and then I meet Nick Douglas as I say and then we went on to do another College book called man the next to see which was just a celebration of coming out of the confines of this black and white house and all the Western Heritage Inn in the Himalayas and just everything is one century psycho-spiritual play of of everything the profaned the sacred oil mixed together and it was a it was just we were enjoying and I wish I knew how to do, what a wonderful tool it was expecting this and that was that serious and then at the same time we did the secret dakini Oracle which was the 64 card Oracle system in systems put that out and that’s being around working since then then I went to to the Caribbean I was there for 15 years at I-10 and time got a long story short I realized I was there because of the embedded energy of the Arawak Indians whooping for alcohol Caribbean free Columbus and the Magical and pure kind of society who had been swept under the carpet of history and speaking to me and so I firmly believe that the indigenous way of life is the way of creating sustainability for the planet if we can start to embrace him understand that engage instead of in a friend that to the side as the Civilization V how to be in tune with the spirit and all things so that was my home to that way of life but I did for my portraits and they are like Indians in my time that and then I came back to America in 94 after I was I was here before that New York I was working on my phone from about the Arawaks and I finish that and then it was then that I met Christopher Hills and came here and then for the time here I am held a lot of events dr. Christopher past but she did the 97 to bring in the goddess energy and I still would like you to describe them when we talk to them right to coming on on on the car that you were interested in the way of using the energy that is that in these events and we’re all these awful waves so all that happening and I still while we can offer them to the goddess and then she can give her grace to us and doing for several years he has many people from the whole graveyard from performance thoughts and in the area bringing them in and having people get their offerings to Spotify and then one. I made the 64 that key Miracle which isn’t Eeveelution of the nlra but this time each of the energy that he needs and I have 64 Oracle and I hope to do a nap cuz if it can meet chat father and that is like a temple for the goddess and an Oracle phone just working on more three-dimensional pieces the game and coming back into a focus of customizing they oughta game having reached out to all the Divine archetypes imma come back into a more personal expression and now that I’m done now I just want to see you on tour with the museum installation with all this I’m not the biggest art Aficionado in the world but of course I’ve I’ve been a fan of Alex Grey and H R Giger and what I after this conversation I feel like I got a lot of catching up to do on on what you put out that I wasn’t aware of and I’m really going to enjoy it so it is a sort of a sumtur got some guidance that you could provide to say hey go and you know you can go to your website and in and just order purchase what you have or their YouTube videos or any other ways to access your go to website since I mean Menards.com has a broad spectrum of the word that I’ve been talking about and then 64 the numbers that Kenny. Org is where you can go to consult the Oracle and but also that the gallery of the images of the Thai King is there and then the Blue Lotus pod. Com which is rstudio site which has some videos and Son photography so those are few things that you can look at to start with and I haven’t all page on Facebook too with how about Instagram of you if you got on that platform say it took me a while because I just have so many projects and engagements of all kinds I didn’t want to be distracted by something that was another no platform of that nature however I am totally convinced now that it is one of the most strategic leverage points for anybody with the message or Consciousness that can create visual content it’s amazing I just thought of something I wanted to say and it was about relationship and resolution from a perspective that we were talking about mentioning my exorcism though that thing about The Break-Up and processing of the relationship and that’s what spurred our conversation about relationship with my partner at the time and next month or beginning of next month I’m going over to the UK to go to a conference and speak that that’s about this film makeup Peter Whitehead and over the last few years we can get back together in the sensitive film that we did at the time which type of being shown all those years and I was able to show that the Hayward Gallery in London and oh so I’m speaking at the conference about him because it’s a whole retrospect if they take him to the archives at this University and son a solution of some quite powerful can you describe it at all or just footage that we shot at the same time I did all these photographs that became the basis of the footage of myself and my girlfriend and Peter Shaw hit in this old derelict mansion house could love and it’s all just showing it Roar has it came out to the time off to all these years after 1969 that was shot and I guess this unit many takes but it’s like in this time the space that it’s like a magical experience that’s amazing so is there any hope that we will get this that’ll get to see a bigger audience or what do you have his first plants with that now is scheduled to reach a larger audience is a documentary that just being made of me he was young filmmaker Cove it started walking on it in 2012 when I was over in the UK I’m getting a tour at the gallery about my work and he was excited and said, I shouldn’t interfere with you and that interview grew into the documentary what she’s dressed now completed and it’s all of my early walk treat antra I’m in London and a relationship with a woman that hole. And it’s called Penny Slinger Out of the Shadows quite a good release coming up shortly support and Discovery and in the promotion and I’m definitely want to continue to explore in and talk with you about how to support the mission that that was laid out and and I feel like someday I will somebody will be calling me and asking me what was the story behind what brought me to interview and people like you if this is my contribution to the world and there’s just an ongoing interest and it’s so interesting to see to get this background and to have to really just go on a sort of a Time a Time trip into these you know these different points in in your creative history and really if I could just ask you a couple more questions before we before we call it a night do you have a couple more minutes being this kind of bridge through these was one of the things to me that’s very important in the manifestation of my life’s Mission if you like is to be able to be active and relevant at this time in my life when I am old and that the wisdom of the wise woman knows he didn’t pack anything back into society and that’s what he need so much to be able to swear I act now I’m not wanting to be Destin historical figure but I am for the active right now I love that thank you so much yeah that’s I’m so thrilled again that we’re having this conversation and I feel like the the need is is greater than ever to access the wisdom of the elders going back yuno thousands of years and the question I actually want to ask you who really is like the what the let’s see the shocked it country code is the goddess worshiping country cuz whether they would be considered on the left hand path of the right hand path or generally I think more realistically it was a it was a sort of he was ambidextrous it was an ambidextrous way to be in in in the shock to Tantra schools where you were dabbling we’re not doubling but really actually working consciously with Desire with with Will with your will and also with the Divine elements but hopefully with Integrity to Lenny’s trainings you would be in service to add a v or in the process so that you would be sort of putting yourself to work for the Divine will and getting your commission of the small things that your small mind actually wants in this small slice of the universe or the universe and if I if I simplify what the essence of the positive empowered healing Reverend Liberatore nature of of the more feminist Tantra is about purification of those parasites of the heart that you mention you know earlier and if if that was the intention back then against the forces that Humanity was up against at that time that they warned us the forces are going to get worse it’s the Kali Yuga World age and we’re going to be inundated with these negative entities once again the technology that you were exploring and has continued to explore and her still as you said ready to bring to the present moment at this time of absolute sexual Madness more than ever through porn the the question is it took me awhile to get to it but how do you advise the world now about the need for Tantra what are your what are your words of wisdom and take as much time as is you have pleased to give us some guidance now Where Do We Begin what do we focus on and prioritize if we have limited attention spans you know yeah please and that was about a left hand or right hand Tantra and as far as I’m concerned they only real difference in a kind of pacification is that the right hand is to do with meditative Union with say the daikini and the right left hand is to do with actually taking an inverted Shakti to realize that Union but it’s both to do with the inner Union with the Divine being and then the interesting cuz I had it seems so simple but I had a revelation between like tantric meditation and the meditation of other religious forms is you’re not sublimating that energy that section energy you actually using that but what the right hand while you’re using it but with this entire no. Can you actually making love with the internal. Kini so it’s it’s using everything rather than denying everything so I just really wanted to address that because when you say to balancing photos of course you know the play is at the Contra dealer is that Tina between the outer and inner and other call BNI it within the soccer not the gross body that’s why it’s called the second body the energy body where that is you know that that in a erotic channel of energy where in at the Statue of Santa up to the crown and it’s all one energy and I said that they that the blessed is when you envision and experience the union of Shiva and Shakti in the crown chakra meaning like completely in their territory around but fillet in the cellular matrix honey and milk into the Lotus at the hot and got us that and that is The Crucible and that’s if the dentist thing to focus on in the inner plane that’s it because it’s about the dog and dangerous about the dog that hot ass between me and have a claim and it’s true that you know list for meditation that you can stop with the chief Zach time does all the time male body vibrates but we’re actually wonderful wave energy that you are manifesting it’s that I want it that you’re tuning into it with the gift-giving wow so the right-hand and left-hand path are not antagonistic that’s an illusion make the pads Chrysler make an ex or something in a beautiful dress right as bad as it spirals as it should beautiful thank you for that clarification I think that’s going to help a lot of people yeah so so I’m dressing and red and white snake spider and around but you know the contract principle is to get that energy than going into the central Channel which just you know is this I’m at wave of infinity no bottomless and topless photos of spiraling into that Central Channel yes yes thank you so much it’s as beautiful as it’s no wonder that your visual artist because you’re you creating a beautiful art form in the Maginot just through the word so and yeah thank you for that I am very excited to see what you continue to develop and and I definitely feel like his you’re saying it’s if it’s if the wisdom that you’ve been carrying is not percolating through the generations the way that it it we would hope for it to then I want to be stepping up as somebody who who really makes effort to connect people who are interested in erotica and neurotic media and the wisdom teachings that that you you share to be able to access them so hopefully this is one small step in that direction with doing this podcast and I’m going to definitely look forward to just catching up in schooling myself in your work yeah any other things you want to share before we go tonight you are sending out many good powerful vibrations to everyone who possibly tunes into this that they fix that part of being that country Quiva of the own Destinies and put themselves in the center of that own mandalas so that they a defect not just cause at the same time of cost aligning to the Divine headlights in the sky but your fulcrum and your guide so that you are at course but your turkey day at effect of the goddesses well, all right good night thank you so much pain he will text you and take care, and click on the Donate button to help support the show in addition to sustaining and improving the podcast your donations will help establish permaculture goddess Temple after bite ecological employment for single mothers Please Subscribe and share your favorite episodes if you have questions or comments feel free to leave a voicemail at 818 to 7515 3 or emo band at Country Park. Com Damas de

Leveraging Sexual Capital with Raven the Tantrapreneur TPP87

Play

TPP87 pic In this episode I’m joined by Tantric Raven, my coveted counterpart and soon to be tantric business and pleasure partner. We explore her unique path of tantrapreneurialism, blending diverse passions, skill sets, talents, and trainings to be one of the most dynamic priestesses I’ve yet encountered.
About Raven:

DAKINI

I see myself as a Dakini Priestess. A Dakini is a Tantric Priestess that roughly translates in Sanskrit to “Sky Dancer.” A Dakini, in carnal form, is a female muse gifted with the abilities to serve as a vessel, carrying out sexual spiritual enlightenment. A Dakini’s role is to evoke spiritual awakening through pleasure and arousal. They are cosmic souls, grounded on the earth yet always dancing in the sky. I often find myself dancing in the ether worlds, gaining knowledge and guidance.

CURANDERA

I see myself as a Curandera Priestess. A Curandera is a Spanish traditional healer whose practices include plant medicine healing, exorcisms, and spirit cleansings. Cureanderas are thought to be blessed by God with naturally born healing powers. These gifts are often passed down from generation to generation. I come from a long line of healers from both my paternal and maternal lineage. Not only do I feel that my gifts are something passed down to me, but also something that I have gained from many, many lifetimes working with Sex Magick.

SHAMAN

I see myself as a Shamanic Priestess. Shamans are channelers who interact with and receive messages from the spirit world through altered states of consciousness. An archetype for a shaman is The Wounded Healer, as it is said that many shamans find their calling through sickness and suffering. My awakening began when I was going through major health trials and tribulations. I healed myself through connection with a higher source and I seek to do the same for others.

CREDENTIALS

I have a bachelor’s degree in both Behavioral Science and Marketing. I have spent the last few years traveling the world, giving me the opportunity to experience different cultures, beliefs and practices. During my travels and over the years, I have had the pleasure of studying with many different teachers in the fields of Tantric Massage, Swedish Massage, Thai Massage, Lomi Lomi Massage, Yoga, Reiki, Aromatherapy, nutrition, and plant medicine therapy.

I enjoy dabbling in many different modalities. My clients find that my approach, although backed by traditional studies, tend to take on a unique approach. My views are that we should learn what we can but let intuition take a front seat. I use what I know but let my intuitive gifts and sinful desires take precedence where and when they can, making my services as unique as I am.

CERTIFICATIONS

Source School of Tantra- CTE Level 1 Tantra Mastery Teacher in Training

Bondassage®-Certified Bondassage and Elysium Practitioner

The Universal Life- Ordained Minister & Physio/Spiritual Massage

Please visit her website at:
https://ravenpriestess.com/

AI Generated Transcription:
(Want to help with corrections? Please contact me to learn about rewards for your efforts!)

Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin podcast episode number 87 I am doing a Skype call with Tantra Craven who you can find at Raven Priestess. Calm and you’re going to be absolutely Blown Away by the topic of Today Show and what she has to offer and what we’re kind of brainstorming together we are going to lay out a lot of really powerful magical spellcraft here talking about Tantra Cravens path to sexual Mastery in the gifts that she has in a town she’s cultivated the skills and training she’s done what her vision is and how we are going to have a high-level co-creative Journey now that that some certain things have have come into alignment and now please steal the show Tantra Craven and tell us all about your beautiful life journey and visions and then we will go from there and adduction that was very flattering and I’m honored to be here in to be speaking with you so thank you for having me but yes I’ll just kind of go into a little bit about myself I’m not a huge fan of labels but me and I do kind of refer to myself as a dakini or Priestess or healer or an edge or what I just heard you say which I’m not going to steal from you is it’s entrepreneur I love that or I could just call myself the female version of Pancho Punk be like Pancho puntini or something but really what I like to refer to myself is an erotic artists and it’s this is kind of my Artistry this is my passionate this is my calling but in a nutshell what I do is I am a certified practitioner and trainer in the art of bondassage which was created by an amazing woman and dear friend of mine by facilitate tantric healing sessions I provide business coaching two other practitioners and I Coachman into sexual mastery and so just kind of a bit of where I came from in a bit of like my story so I grew up in a very that traditional typical American household I am Hispanic and my parents growing up with a lot of discrimination as kids really wanted me and my brother to have a very traditional American upbringing so going along with that comes with a lot of programming with what Society Norms look like and what a typical American life should look like so you know I was I was very program with that and it’s a child coming into adulthood I was really never very sexual and it really understand sex and I just kind of went through the motions I lost my virginity at 13 because like that’s what you’re supposed to do and I was very traumatised by the whole experience so I didn’t have sex again for years and then when I did I just egg and was never really that into it I never really had orgasms it tended to be painful to me and it just kind of left me feeling used and kind of regretful so but then I told her it was still it was a curious topic to me and I did wanted to understand and I wanted to learn more but I would I would listen to these interviews and I would read blogs from women who wear sex Advocate their sex Educators and they’d be amazing but they was kind of start off with ya I was very sexual from a young age and you know my mom would catch me masturbating or you know if you having sex all the time super into it and you know none of that really resonated with me and so I was like I don’t know maybe people just aren’t boring sexual and then like having these thoughts in my head that there was another voice that was like a stronger voice that was telling me that people people are born sexual and just as kind of spell of programming was kind of masking the real me so this is when plant medicine started to call to Main and over several years I spent time in Guatemala and Peru and Ecuador and I worked with amazing tommen’s and amazing people in general with Ayahuasca and San Pedro and don’t witches idmt snapped kind of similar to go pee I did tobacco and mushroom and like cannabis Journeys as well and through this work I really I really started should uncover the layers of the onion and realizing that pretty much everything I ever learned was wrong not only sexually but just in general in my life so I kind of afraid of myself now is like living in opposite land and anything that someone tells me which is traditional I can tell them how the opposite is probably a better option for him this is also kind of when I came into my nature and my true nature as a Healer or a Channeler or whatever you want to call it and everything in my in my life kind of started to make sense of why I’m like very sensitive to things that you know I’ve gone through a lot of health issues and issues with just kind of not feeling like I fit in here and might my Shaman would tell me like you’re he learned she would be like but don’t take that as like egotistical because really it’s not that kind of a thing because healers go through like a lot of pain and issues as a way to be able to empathically relate to other people and so then I also started I started really getting to Tantra at this time and it was one of the few things that really made sense to me is like okay this is this is what Sexual Energy and connection really looks like and this is this makes sense the other thing like I don’t really know how people buy into it cuz it really doesn’t make sense and sometimes I had Partners a lot of it was still experimenting like I just I really do a lot of weird chat when I’m alone but I wasn’t watching TV I wasn’t even reading I was just kind of journeying on my own and experimenting and I could really see how my self-love practices and my orgasms in general are just completely changing and I had so many different types of experiences I had like crying orgasms screaming orgasms full-body vibrational orgasms and read for the first time and it it it was amazing it can be referred to again upon world of squirting and any like tantrica will really will tell you that they hate when you call it skirting so it’s you know we refer to it as a memory. Which is kind of them were sacred to release some of that ejaculation and so yeah it’s you know it’s still a practice for me on a regular basis I don’t think it’s anything that I’ll ever be like hey I’ve got this I’m done because really we don’t we don’t know what our limit is like we don’t know how far we can take this energy exchange with ourselves and with others that the sky’s the limit and reaching different levels of consciousness are you know on top so that that’s the beautiful part is we get to keep experimenting we are so then never boring just keeps getting better and better if you can fight that led to a lot of very a series of very serendipitous events which led me to do. Kenny work and in the beginning it was it was a bit difficult because a lot of men don’t really think that they have anything to work on they think that they know what sex is and they’re doing a good job of it and you know that’s that’s all I need that they be like cool like I want to go to her some like hot girl and like that’s that’s why that’s why I going to see you and the least exalted edifying notion of sex right so it but but I knew that this was my calling and I knew that when I reached people I could change them so I was okay with the idea of going to advertisers is very like sexual person and they look at how hot I am and probably even know you know that’s not really me but so I would know that’s how my advertising goes and my view is once they coming to my door that’s my opportunity to shift them take it however they got there is fine but now they’re here and now I have the opportunity to to shift their views and there’s a certain there’s a certain degree of psychology that’s involved with Tantra and someone that has a have a psychology degree and I just in general been fascinated with how the human mind works is it just it baffles me sometimes of why people do the things they do so that part is very it was very thrilling to me like I just I’d be at tell me tell me what’s going on tell me why you’re here tell me what you want to work on and they would just open up to me and for some reason I’m I’m very easy to talk to and you know I get the line all the time of like I can’t believe I’m telling you that 7 so you know I would do these sessions of people and sometimes they wouldn’t even realize that I was doing Tantra with that might would just kind of be like essential experience and I would do energy work and I would work with someone breathing and you know changing their energy and what the potential is that they can get to really like arousal is a big part of what I do so I believe that a lot of times that something that’s very skimmed over with sex is that people aren’t being aroused and you could call it foreplay or whatever you want like a lot of people think I’m just going to play with your genitals and that’s for play but for me it’s this like it’s the seduction and like you don’t even have to touch somebody for an hour like in their genitals you can touch the rest of their body or very slowly kind of stroke over them play with different toys like all these things are an Art of Seduction That A lot of people aren’t really burst on but that’s that’s my specialty and that’s what I love so taking them on these very erotic sensual journey is it afterwards to like oh my God like what just happened what was that like I don’t even know where I am anymore and so then they would stay at then they’re curious like what was that and whatever you know like tell me whatever Kool-Aid you’re drinking like I want some so you know that’s that’s kind of where am I dirty went with that and the more I would talk to these men about what they’re dealing with sexualy the more I really like started to feel sorry for the male population and really understanding what they go through and you know a lot of it’s like oh poor women in like yes my sister’s go through a lot and I understand that and I are people that work with them like you do you know fighting for the women which is beautiful but seeing the men’s part of it was something I really hadn’t understand before it was kind of like all men are dogs and all I think about it publishing bad and Bubba blah but really it’s the more I talk to them it’s a lot of pressure for what a man goes through and you know they have to it becomes it a performance and performance doesn’t make enjoyment and so it’s it’s like you know I have to stay hard I have to get hard to find the G-Spot I feel after certain amount of time I did tell myself over and over again not to not to feel anything not to come not to get too aroused and all these things going to really cause a lot a lot of connection with somebody like imagine for women if I had to tell myself over and over again I don’t orgasm don’t work and then like if I did orgasm than the person that I was with to be great if you just went now my night is ruined like I what about me you know it’s it’s just something we don’t really think about but it’s something that’s an issue for that much so so now my main focus on my practice is to educate a man about his own Perfection and because there really is a god with an Everyman it’s just it’s buried under years of programming and they can come into the sexual Mastery is being a god it once they kind of remove that programming so this is this is my calling my purpose on this planet is to help men feel heal and reveal the god with it what a beautiful can you say that again because that is a beautiful tagline I can already speak stationary bumper stickers and it is my purpose on this planet to help men feel heal and reveal the God within beautiful if you want do you have more you wanted to share it in your other let’s say parallel but not necessarily is erotic business ventures and services in ICU on your the website configuration that I first discovered your work through is very diverse and far-reaching and nested services with a nested Services all under a very alchemical sort of cauldron you know so sensual website that kind of has just more of a success and my bondassage and and then I have my tantric website so again it’s kind of like this site cookie that I might come on come on and then I’ll be like hey like check out my website but I do bondassage which is a very big part of my practice and it is like it’s really just as erotic very erotic and it’s wet bondassage is is it is my clients are bound and days blindfold and headphones and the whole time I’m just kind of taking them through this body journey and a lot of people think it’s like very btsm related and I’m like okay I’m afraid of that but really I tell them it’s it’s not to meditation in a way it’s a way for you to get out of your head and took it into your body because that’s what a lot of people have issues with his they’re not present when they’re with a partner there like thinking about poor nor there like thinking about what their Partners thinking or feeling judged like what am I going to do next or you don’t, like all these things so it was this it’s like meditation like what you talked about all these things are wait for you to become president and Two Become One with your body so yeah we’re just kind of I play with different toys and allow them to feel different Sensations and anytime you have any sort of sensory deprivation it heightens everything else so every little touch is like amazing and their blindfolds they have no idea what I’m using either so then I get to it like play with different things like what in the hell was that and afterwards I’ll be like what did you think of these crazy things but yeah so that’s a very beautiful art form that can be erratic and kind of on the edge of BDSM but it’s it’s meant to be it’s meant to be spiritual as well and I tell people it’s a good kind of starter for even Tantra of just feeling what it’s to the lot of people that are used to doing sensual sessions they want to see and they want to kind of eye candy these girls and all the stuff and I I like to work with people when they blindfolded because it really allows me to get into my meditative State and to my kind of docking mode and I’ll just like zone out and just go for it but when I get in like when there’s no blindfold I’m kind of like I’m a performer in a way so yeah any sort of these sessions are really really amazing and part of my practice that I get to play with kind of both like different sides of myself well that’s so cool and I have a few you know couple things I want to while we’re on that subject say that on the podcast and lettuce in conversations with colleagues and peers throughout the sexual health Wellness ecosexuality Tantra BDSM Etc worlds and my feeling that the the filter that I want to put myself on with BDSM and kink really is this would I be happy for my children if I from you will be adoption co-parenting set your cuz I’m clip that a vasectomy but my sort of litmus test for the ethics of BDSM Kink practices is the is something like would I want my children to be doing whatever this is not that I’m obviously going to not be training them per se or you know there’s there’s a sacred initiation into the sexual Arts that we are going to have to reverse-engineer from so-called primitive societies that had it get out so that you weren’t being you know traumatizing or self-serving and that process which is what a lot of the really disturbing I would say Kinks about incest have turned into is a really we’ve lost our way into how to navigate pain sensory deprivation bondage all the forms all the various forms of what will be called ordeal in a logically would call it an ordeal to enter a trance state that could be a one-time initiation or it could be a festival you know on a cyclical rotation whatever it is there are these things were yearning for that are now considered fetishistic and kinky and involved in this baggage of patriarchal slave and master archetypes and Dungeons and Marquis De Sade and those are all for me those are memes that I want to eradicate and I want to extinct the memes of slavery on Earth I want to extinct that Meme and I don’t want and if I if I were in a communal tribal Neo tribal say permaculture sex-positive tantric sexual Utopia eco-village than I would ask for there to be council’s around what types of practices are are propagated in to the next Generations and I believe that in one generation if you don’t introduce the concept of Slavery to anybody alive in the Next Generation then it will go extinct so when I put that test on other people in the Kink world who are ecologically conscious permaculture a designer’s excetera excetera they have to kind of scratch your head and go you know what I don’t want to have this Shadow secret world where the adults do all this really harmful negative dangerous destructive and even you know I feel like I’m humbled by staph infection I’m humbled by all kinds of viruses and bacteria in nature and I don’t really want to just frivolously open the skin you know in these ways that our people do so I don’t want to I don’t want to alienate anybody but I wanted to say that I really appreciate what your approaches to this cuz I feel there is a very Primal you know it’s dangerous or it’s a I I hesitate to say natural but I will as soon as a primal natural instinctive desire to enter into states of sensory deprivation to have degrees of ordeal through bondage and true pain and for there to be a ritualistic transcendental ecstatic purpose for it was for that that’s actually not taboo and it’s not shameful and it’s not dark and it’s not evil and it’s not satanic and it’s none of the things that can can BDSM have fallen into as this post-christian reactionary trap so if we can upgrade and Shaman eyes and green the Kink world and the fetish world with these more holistic practices I think that’s a step in the right direction and I would be proud based on what you’re saying to say all right you know next Generation part of your becoming and then women and all and everything in between & Beyond is that you are going to have healthy array of interactions and experiments with different types of Sensations and that’s going to be applauded and celebrated you get to go into your TV and get get it on and experimenting Explorer with age appropriate you know developmental stage appropriate peers and it gets to be natural again and it doesn’t have to be this Shady freaky thing that that you know we’re trying to get away from so I don’t know what do you have some other questions for you before I give them to you want it kind of share your thoughts and Reflections and what I just said and if that resonates with you and your shamanic training and whatnot definitely yeah the whole BTS world it was like a really weird thing for me to navigate and I’m always like a try everything once kind of girl so yeah I can’t really say much to it if I haven’t tried it right so yeah I did some code on work for a while and I was just I was really bad at it because I was like I don’t I don’t want to shame this person I don’t want to be like psychologically traumatizing then like when people leave me I want them to feel empowered and ain’t no motivated to to go on to this amazing conscious path and when they would leave I would be like Halo my god did I just like totally traumatized them and I feel kind of traumatized and have a lot of dear friends that do Dom work and they’re amazing at it and it’s totally they’re saying that and it’s it’s Market that someone needs to do it so great but it’s not for everybody if it wasn’t for me but I did like the whole aspect of the sensory body play because they got him a very I’m just obsessed with bodies and I love the fact that there’s so many different erogenous zones and so many things to play with and said this really gave me bondassage really gave me the outlet that I needed to kind of play with my darker side instead of just being this like sensual spiritual person this is kind of like Mike more shadowy side so I get to play with that but in like a essential like fun experimental way for me where again it’s about teaching this person how to let go and that’s one thing that we as humans have a very hard time of doing is Letting Go even like being a receiver a lot of people like but then when they when they go into it they have a hard time like do I get back like do I mean I already stated expected of me and so letting go and just trusting that this other person has you especially when you go to the bondage aspect of it is this complete surrender or which is a beautiful trusting thing that again a lot of people have problems with so when they can learn to do these things it really opens them up to the idea that you really you really don’t have to have that much control and when you let go of it and trust that like the universe has you or this person has you your lover has you it’s very beautiful and so yeah it’s the whole BDSM thing is it’s out there it’s probably not going to go away because we’ve been so repressed for so long that it’s like I got to like let it all out and I try everything you know he’s crazy things but that’s that world and it’s it’s not for everybody and I don’t I try not to judge people but it’s just not really in my in my life thank you thank you for sharing that. I’ll stay to the yeah it’s not my it’s not my mission in life to go on a crusade to shut down dungeons or anything like that you know but I would I did it interview with the shamanatrix Kristin Boyer and we talked a lot about after care and transportation and the potential to be from a design perspective have there be more of it after care chamber of sanctuary that’s you know you got the dungeon so now have the healing Crystal Spa or whatever before you go back out into the Matrix do you want to talk about now some of your let’s call it green industry entrepreneurialism if it’s it’s in another sector I don’t know if you want to share that or not but I love to hear by with you with you what type of thing were you referring to just the Cannabis all of the Cannabis sounds manorial stuff that’s on the table to the Cannabis World here in Denver and you stood to some growing with my partner and I worked for several cannabis companies I used to do event marketing with a cannabis company and we had a code shared work space for new cannabis startups and then I started doing graphic design specifically for cannabis companies in for a while I did cannabis Journeys with people but it can be really hard to navigate that not only for legal reasons but also like it once you take somebody so deep into that Subspace and into you know you’re going there going into a different higher realm and with the use of cannabis plus the their otic energy and all the stuff that happens it it can really take them out of their body out of this world and then you’re like 2 hours later okay you got to go home like 5 and it’s like it’s really not it’s not conducive to send somebody out into the world once you’ve just like you know took them somewhere else so so I can tell them kind of how they can do different cannabis meditations with themselves and I continue to use cannabis as a major healing teacher for me and I can you know I’ve done Ayahuasca so many times that I can I can go into that Ayahuasca space with cannabis because once you do Ayahuasca like the spirit of Ayahuasca is always with you you just like can call on her so I can I can really go deep into some really deep spaces but yeah it’s just a huge advocate for that I work with a couple so I don’t do anything sort of paid now with cannabis time I try to just I have a lot of friends in that world so I try to do some counseling with marketing stuff for them to stop because it’s it’s a passion for me I love the way you said that counseling for marketing it is it is sort of a I like to think about how perfect that is like you don’t need coaching you need counseling because yeah it’s a different world these days and you know part of what I do a big part of it is marketing and so I also coach other women that do the same thing that I do is a way of you know you’re creating a brand for yourself like who are you or who do you want them to see you as and how are we going to create that brand for you actually doing is we’re going to we’re going to figure out how to split yourself into multiple personalities but then develop a meta-narrative concept that’s called a brand so that you can tuck all of your multiple personalities i e web presence is on infant platforms that we’re going to advise you to prune off the ones that dying and stick with the ones that you know we’re going to last hopefully and well it’s schizophrenia is fine I don’t know if you really have to ground yourself in this work and you really have to again be strong about who you are and what you’re presenting and you know I work for a while I was just whatever somebody wanted that’s what they were going to get and now it’s like and I’ve I’ve done it long enough that I can I can be very specific about who I am and what I’m going to do and if you don’t like that like go somewhere else cuz I’m really not hurting people so I can be very choosy of this is who I am this is what you’re going to get and if you want to request something else I can refer you to somebody who provide that for you because I’m just not going to go there I’m only going to do what I want to do and that’s what makes what I do awesome because everyone will tell me like you really tell you like what you do and you’re into it and I’m like yeah cuz I’m a very authentic person and I don’t like to fake it so I won’t anymore I’m like you know what I’m what I’m feeling that’s what you’re going to get and I’m in the mood for this so that’s what you’re going to get in your going to like it. Going to try to do the exact quote but the pair of phrases that he’s basically don’t try to hold me accountable to something I said in the past because that past no longer exists and whatever I’m saying right now is what’s true to me right now so don’t expect me to be consistent and that’s one of the most liberating Osho quotes or you don’t know who is Notions that I that is, like how many other times in life have you ever heard that it’s okay to be your true self Moment by moment and let you know yeah I left that because if we’re not changing we’re not growing and I have to constantly trying to grow up I mean it again that’s the perfect cuz in a month I’ll be like why did I say that but it’s okay because I I know that I wear all work in progress and I don’t claim to be some perfect person in that I just claim to be myself and people seem to like it so I got with that I’d like to know more kind of about you and I and our alchemical journey and where that began so yeah do you want to tell tell the listeners and share the story of how you encountered and found me and and you know what what led to this point and what we have planned I can tell them all day long to stop watching porn but if there’s not an alternative for them it’s difficult like you know if someone’s going on a diet you’re like instead of eating this Eat This and like you replace that and with planets like I don’t even know where to send you sound like doing research on in a different country videos are different things that I can give them different juicy bits that will help them in their journey and I came across your YouTube video that I had found that video and I was like awesome was just kind of Blown Away by and and honestly I don’t know if I told you this but I was really high when I saw that and I really connected with me like you do when your head is like super deep level I did the whole like self lender meditation with you like it was exactly like as long as you are and I could feel like every you were talking about Kundalini rising and like opening up your chakras and moving the energy up and like you did the whole thing to where it was like woah I like had this is amazing I mind-blowing orgasm and and I cuz like I have to like know about this guy what it who is he and what is he doing and so is that I like cyberstalk to you but and I had written you I’d written you on Instagram and I was like it just kind of want to throw this out there that what you’re doing is awesome and kudos to you and keep it up and then ever since then we just kind of been chatting and is he has some things haven’t really aligned and now it’s kind of everything’s kind of coming into alignment in this beautiful new year that were experiencing it and yeah if you want to come and reduced what were thinking or whatever for this new exciting stuff yeah so I said I’m just saying you could you can you hear my grandma right now so fucking loud you know you never know I was just watching the Stanley Kubrick biography and and I’m what is so much to say about him and that and everything but I’m I’m going to save it but I’m going to say that you know what I think it was one of his family members said that just a general kind of art philosophy kind of thing about how a few create if you produce a creative work you don’t know what it’s going to do in the world in Psych it if he used to render it and it becomes in the domain of the beholder and you it’s a complete project if it’s done it’s edited it’s finalized it’s out there you know you don’t know so I’m just with that said I wanted to give a little homage to the beauty that we’ve it that’s what brought us together so you never know what’s going to happen when you a Jo Vida solo Jo David on internet what we are sort of coming up with now having discovered each other’s work and oh I got to say that you know there is worse things in the world than having tantric Raven send you a video of herself like strip dancing to running tracks you know comparing who I have been trying to I’ve been trying to engineer you you know I mean from from like you know people who were just not having the calling so it’s a real it’s a really sweet difficult so you know I felt like why why would I ever want to work with somebody who’s not a fan of what I’m doing already you know if they’re not a fan I say then I’m literally paying for every second on the clock down to the 15 minutes or whatever it is and they’re kind of just I like watching and you know they’re not invested in there certainly not going to over deliver under not going to under-promise and over-deliver unless that your fan and then they’re going to be like wow I want to be a part of something that I love because I’m connected with it and in you know so that it’s so beautiful and I can’t thank you enough that that’s what I really want I really want to share and really be heard and appreciated and worshiped and an inn you know not have it be because I’m paying somebody to fix something and to make me look good just because they look good and they’ve got more fans than to cynical you know things so thank you thank you thank you so F what we’re accomplishing on this planet and what we want to accomplish and I too have been looking for somebody like very similar to you and that you’ve got this very busy Wasabi intellectual part to you but also this very spiritual part in it can it can be difficult to find those two together and I could I could very much put on my business hat and kind of you know home in on that and I can also take that off and just like spiritually mind out and I feel like you’re very similar in that way and yes so it’s it was it was great finding you and feeling the similarities that we have in common we’re both passionate about making really high-quality really highly reputable content and we’re ready to start to make films together and bring our best skills and training we have been Romancing the idea of making a variety of different types of video content ranging from music videos to instructional kind of nuts and bolts how to videos I don’t know when exactly this will happen but it is an intention to for us to just jam with the cameras and the process of getting to know each other and experiencing each other literally inside and out and Beyond is something that I want to document and share with the world and really hopefully over time be able to make a a really entertaining film product out of our mutual studies and expirations and an hour meteoric rise to success which I feel like we’ve already accomplished so much in our own lives and so when I close the circuit with somebody with the explicit intention of performing sex magic it’s a powerful you no experience to to behold and I want everybody on Earth since this is not the Dark Ages anymore and we don’t have to ape the Victorian era with you know the forms of Kink we’re practicing we can actually become gods and goddesses living in human flesh and co-created manifest and first and foremost repair the planet and you know along the way of repairing a planet we can build beautiful temples and palaces to live in beautiful villages in really figure out how to equitably share a lot of ecologically sustainable wealth capital resources excetera all in service to the Divine and to the into Gaia and I’ll say I want to call it dark green magic is what I want to do on a film with you and sort of jam with your magical alchemical sexual Mastery practices and see what comes out of it and and now with these DSLR cameras and there’s just really no excuse I mean really we can produce content that’s that can compete with really anything else that’s out there and totally in the spirit of punk rock DIY no rules except for the ones that we make and I’m not selling out and not you know really and really being strategic about licensing and finding the right partnership so I’ve been doing a lot of that work I’ve been kind of priming you know this opportunity and for it to be you and not somebody who I’m chasing around who would rather be snorting coke or rather be you know just trying to climb the social pyramid for Eagle reasons or whatever this is like such a gift so that’s my side of the intention setting for our forthcoming creative adventures and do you want no balance that out with all of your hopes and dreams for what you would do with me if you could have your way with me is it gets just kind of the send a message it’s 2 to wake people up and it would I do is great in that I touch people but I only touch one person at a time and you know that can cycle out but with technology these days the fact that we could make a video that kid could touch thousands of people and could really open their mind to again I’m just kind of an anarchist where I whatever it’s society’s telling us I just kind of don’t agree with it and I want people to know that there’s other options and that maybe what we’ve learned is not Traxxas and this to me is like this is why I’m here I very feel like I have a purpose on this planet because I’ve gone against a lot of things and it’s always just gotten horrific Lee and since I’ve been following this path it’s just everything flows like very freely to me and so whatever kind of comes in my path on yep I guess this is what I’m supposed to do it’s like not really a choice it’s like okay well this is this has been presented to me and the universe has given me this opportunity so so let’s do it like this part of my past so you kind of presented this to me and I was like okay well I guess I’m supposed to do this now and like that’s fine but what I do is very much for the purpose of the mission that I want and the impact that I want to live on this planet and like you said it’s not it’s not for this notoriety or for fame like I’m really not interested in this life being famous for being rich are all these things I’m a very outgoing person but deep down I’m like a total hermit so to impact others and the mission that another thing of doing this type of work with somebody that has a very strong background in this and you know a very big role in this world is like with you to not get away from also the idea of that point is just basically a female role and that the men are just kind of accessories in porn and you know for me this is again something that’s we have these roles of female and male and with the whole gender-bending thing I feel like eventually all of those rolls are just going to be gone which is a beautiful thing because men can flip flop and women can flip flop in these walls don’t have to be set in stone and like you think of a strip club in its its women its women dancing and you know it’s beautiful and sexy and hot and then you think I like a male strip club and it’s like I like you man and like I’m going to go there for my bachelorette party and it’s just kind of like comical and you know we’re not really getting turned on and for me that way that was a trauma of something that I learned in one of my medications is that during sex I had my eyes closed cuz like you know we’re taught that men’s bodies aren’t that great so why am I even looking and then why I began to open my eyes it was like men’s bodies are beautiful and Cox are fucking amazing and this idea that it’s like the one-eyed monster is like that’s wrong like we should be you know that’s part of my job is like worship the man and his they’re beautiful and their bodies are beautiful in their cocks are beautiful and to show that has like a very important role in what we’re doing it so that women can be like wow like his body is great and his lingam is amazing and to kind of shift that it’s okay for a woman to be a horn. Too and to look at a man and be like damn like that guy and look at your man and be like you look you look amazing I just want to rip your clothes off right now and that’s empowering for women to not just expect compliments for their from their man to put together them as well and so to shift his Paradigm of corn of that a man’s role is just as important as a woman’s role and we’re not just looking at pussy the whole time we’re like concentrating on both what’s coming to you as their dicks and strategies in an in ways to kind of bring overhaul entrepreneurialism Sexy Money whatever if she want yeah I mean I’ve been I’ve been an entrepreneur or just probably all my life you know for my first lemonade stand to my first business at the age of 20 is 22 and you know I’m pretty much unhireable at this point because I can’t have a boss I can’t I cannot work for anyone else I cannot have someone tell me when to come into work or how to do something or I’ve just I’ve always been in a gainst authority figures I’m sorry bad with authority figures my you can’t tell me what to do I can do this job better than all of you but and so yeah just very much like always kind of work for myself and even my first business was a bridal store it was a consignment bridal store working on going green and renewing and reusing but yeah, I had a business partner and I kind of just ended up doing everything because nobody could do it as good as me that was kind of my my attitude but it became very stressful because and I didn’t really allow anybody to help me because they would just mess it up I have to redo it anyways so yeah I got I got very sick during that time because I like as someone that’s it’s hard to be a Healer and an entrepreneur at the same time because the being a Healer is means that you’re very sensitive and it means that you know you have to have a lot of time to yourself and you have to have a lot of like retard time and meditation time and slow time and so when your business person is like go go go all the time and I got my house went down a lot and I ended up selling it because it was just it was too stressful for me the time until I really kind of come into myself especially from plant Medicine of learning what Letting Go actually means and realizing that you know what we’d like to think that we all have so much control of our lives but realizing that maybe we really don’t have that much control and that if I’m following my path and I’m working in love then good things are going to come to me and I’m going to be put on the right path of what I need to be doing and again it can unfold and whatever way it needs to and there’s no like it has to be done now or super stressful things and that’s what I love about what I do now is I set it up so that I can and I work on a day-to-day basis I literally don’t schedule ahead anymore it’s like you know I put out a thing if I’m working today I’m taking session and then I’ll get responses from that day and that’s that I’d I wrote a Blog on it that’s so cuz I want to go to bed and not really know what I’m not really know what tomorrow is going to bring I work very hard at trying to say present moment now so when I have ideas about new businesses it’s like cool these are ideas and I’m going to hang on to this but I don’t ever really have like super long-term and goals anymore because I know that if I do one thing at a time and kind of one foot in front of the other. I’m going to get there and worrying about the future just causes stress for people so try to encourage everybody like my big thing is to stay in the present moment so I have to live that are for my license so business things really excite me but I can’t get like two excited cuz then it like trains and anxiety and then that turns in this fast so yeah everything about this type of business is interesting and exciting for me yeah it’s just I have for me at one step at a time and one little project and see where that goes and then see where that goes and see where that goes and it it leads to amazing great things I’ve seen it and I know it to be true for myself so there’s really like no stress or worry for me like I just know it’s going to work out very important business Concepts really leverage you know leveraging content there’s never been I don’t I mean I believe making pornographic internet distributable content is probably the most leveraged position you could ever be in because something that you love to do that you’re going to do anyway touch your genitals or interact with other people’s genitals to be able to get paid to do the most sustainable thing and also to not have a boss like you said I mean from that’s there so many revenue streams that Liberate the performer producer to have to take all of the all of the sharks in the industry that used to just rip off and literally rape female performers to to to be able to have them all working for you as the diva or the David the diva or interchangeable terms but that’s the that’s the landscape that we’re walking into reminds me that Pet Shop Boys song opportunity you know there is a lot of opportunity in this legal space and and with with good graphic design and videography and post-production and cameras and Lighting in action really this guy is absolutely the limit and I think we’re going to be able to bridge a lot of gaps and open new markets and really hopefully yes set set a higher standard when I just talked to Lawrence lanoff and we did the the last of the most recent episode which was how Township porn can save the world which is you know this is now a very I did that mean the most dreamy follow-up to that conversation but something that he said was that he’s like dude we’re trying to jump over a bar that’s two inches off the ground and it’s so weird on a no deadlines no pressure no stress fun adventurous sort of opportunity to show them what we got and step up you know so that’s where I don’t like to throw in there to like something you kind of touched on but like for my clients and for my family whose is very supportive of what I do just to throw out there that like it hasn’t been like my dream in life to be a pornstar and I don’t consider this to be that you know this is something that I think both of you and I are in agreement of this is like and I don’t want something that’s years from now I’m going to be like oh my God what was I thinking it but I feel like deep down when I really examine my motivation for this and what is this would look like in my future is that this is something that I’d still like would be very proud of and something that if I had children which like probably not really planning on doing that but if I did like I’d still be okay with ya like you found that cool yeah I did that and it’s beautiful and I hope there’s more videos at that point where I could be like this is let’s let’s talk about what sex is and this is is it something beautiful that you could watch because the education system is just not there and that’s what I think both you and I are trying to change and shift is that the education around sex to younger Generations like needs to change it if it needs to be there because we’re not teaching them about sex we’re teaching them about Kink and BDSM important all these things and real love connected sex is it’s not there so it took to be kind of the frontier line of opening that up is I think kind of what this mission is is leading towards right I love you that was the yeah I said they always know that there’s so much more than the fragile ego that feels like it’s you know like it’s naked in the freezing cold with nut what you know it’s like just to hear that feels like someone just put a blanket on you and your walking in the Arctic something is like it shouldn’t really be that scares of a word to have to only share you know it said you know high stakes containers so you could say will you know who don’t you love well you’re right but I’m professing it to you and I love us and I love everyone and you know yes yes love is us so do you have anything else to say sad to miss I definitely took my liberties so mouthy close close the ceremony. Opportunity with me and I know that it’s it’s been kind of this on enough discussion of ways that we could collaborate and it’s it’s hasn’t really been there until now and again I take this is really coming together in this most perfect way and if we would have had something earlier it might not really have worked out but it’s this is yeah this is time this is I’m ready and let’s let’s do this let’s work together and let’s let’s just things it for the greater the greater Society in the greater man and woman awesome alright so everyone meet touch with Raven and Tantra Punk and join us for our adventures moving forward and there will be lots of exciting press releases coming out soon and so enjoy Namaste thank you for listening to the touch upon podcast please go to www.crunch.com and cook on the Donate button to help support the show in addition to see me a podcast your donations will help establish permaculture goddess Temple after bite ecological employment for single mothers Please Subscribe and share your favorite episodes if you have questions or comments feel free to leave a voicemail at 818-275-1593 or email been at Township Park. Com Thomas gay

50 Shades of Green with Eco-Domme Goddess Jaime TPP85

Play

Goddess Jaime pic In this episode I’m blessed to be doing a live in person interview with my new favorite dominatrix. Eco-Domme Goddess Jaime tells all about how she runs a workforce of devoted submissive men through many shades of green ecological service work. She is the quintessential case study of my prayer and thesis contained in my poem 50 Shades of Green Sektual Purmaculture.

AI Generated Transcription:
(Want to help with corrections? Please contact me to learn about rewards for your efforts!)

Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin welcome to Township Punk podcast episode number 85 I am here in a beautiful rare opportunity of doing a live interview with SM Dom goddess and we’re going to talk all about her path into this lifestyle and profession and what we can learn and share in terms of from being ecologically accountable with our Sexual Energy and and our financial capital in our sexual Capital so would you please tell us a bit about your glorious past to what you’re doing this a young age I’ve had to maintain every aspect of myself and actually of others and so like I’m as far as like helping out with siblings and younger family members and like older family and I’m things like that I had to do that and then I was kind of in the workforce pretty young so I’ve always had a really good work ethic I’m really outdoorsy I like to do kayaking and canoeing I like to work in the garden a lot I like to you know train animals that’s one of the things that I’ve been doing I’ve been doing that since I was really young I’m relatively self-taught but I’ve also gone to some seminars and I also meant and having a service animal for 8 years so I had to deal with a lot of trainers they teach you how to keep things going so I’m kind of going all over the place but all of these things kind of add until like having to have a really structured life and then everything being from the time that I was young from the time that I was about fifteen so now we’re talkin about 10 to 23 so since then ice from 18223 I started on making and distributing merchandise for touring bands I started making you know patches pins like I started drawing t-shirt designs but mainly I would have other people do it and then I was working with my friends parents t-shirt like screen printing company and I would get a pretty good discount and I would sell them and I would get to distribute them because the fact that you know a lot of times these bands didn’t make that much money and they don’t want to pay somebody to then I’ll go on the road with them and to do these things and it’s it is really cut a lot of Corners so I was doing that and then I was kind of having to live a really am a really sporadic but also really really structured life every morning I had to wake up you know 5 a.m. and every night I went to bed at a certain time it wasn’t it was always relatively late it was always relatively like wild I wanted to get everything out of my system like when I was younger I didn’t really do all that much partying or anything like that I still don’t to this day I just wanted to kind of like spread the love with people and like Distributing music I wanted to distribute not distributed animals but like you know that well-behaved well-mannered animals and I wanted to distribute good plans and I wanted to distribute all the things that you know I’ve been telling you about I feel like that’s kind of my thing I don’t have one specific thing I like to do a bunch of things as far as like the whole damn thing I did not start having traditional sex I didn’t lose my virginity until I was 20 years old so I I had to find you know like other ways I was always like really creative and my personality has always been like you know a go-getter I’ve always been I wouldn’t say I’m more I’m more observant I wouldn’t say that I’m soft-spoken but I’m definitely more observant and I like to watch and see what’s going on and see now then I’ll let you know open up and then I’ll talk in the night you know what kind of take control of the situation if need be as far as like my sexuality I’ve been with women I’ve been with men and long-term relationships with the women I am feminine and I’ve been with other feminine women but I have been the one that you know quote unquote wears the pants not to enforce like gender roles but I’ve been the one that’s kind of you know tended to things and has been the more nurturing more like I guess you could say Mommy and she won and you know did you you have a doctor’s appointment today so you might want to get up or you know you didn’t really eat anything today or are you know things like that and I wouldn’t necessarily say like discipline but I’m there have been some relationships where I’ve been and where it has called for it because I’ve been in traditional relationships and non-traditional relationships with man with women I I would say I wouldn’t say that I identify as any of the specific on sexuality two sides like demi sexual because I like to get to know a person first I like to see what you know going on first before I got with somebody but I do the same thing as far as my dom sub relationships as well so I really hope I answered your question amazing and so much Exquisite value that you bring to this world and that just flows so I feel like saying naturally into what you’re doing now with sub so do you want to talk about how are you apply some of your ethics and values and training and skill sets to your lifestyle and professional or just professional so yeah it’s kind of a necessity if you’re the kind of person that I am you know really busy person a really you know nurturing person or really you know dominant person a really you know just for definitely for a person like me a sentence in the city I had high appointment at 6 he said we talked about ways that you well I guess I’ll back up a little bit and see my ethics like my code of ethics leaving my ethics like the things that I nature into community and being benevolent nurturing just your environment in your community to you that I have met you know via FetLife a lot of people that I’ve met via you know advertising sites a lot of the people that I’ve met you know in person in an Indian I like Spanish balls and stuff like that they come from these homes where they aren’t able to tell their significant others or maybe they don’t even have significant others but they don’t have anybody that they have been able to experience these things with and they they haven’t necessarily gotten too or they gone to do like little bits and pieces and everything that they know they have experience through you know porn and a lot of the times I come in and I’ll meet them and they all think that you know it’s going to be all you know 100% you know me having them face it or me facing them and you know me doing like me facing them and me being mean to them and you know things like that and you know there is some things that you know are helpful like that but I’m also going to have you or I would rather preferably iodide 100% prefer to have you go ahead and do things that you can do at home do things that are going to be more realistic and do things that are going to help you know make the world a little bit I feel like if I can teach you how to plant things or if I can teach you how to do things that your wife has been asking you to do forever that little honey do list with the whip at the end of it you know I would have them sometimes you know go to parks and stuff cuz they always have you know sometimes sometimes are well-maintained but sometimes they’re not on sometimes they have areas that could use improvements and sometimes I will do you know a little bit of more tricky things like we’ll go into abandoned houses and stuffing and go there and sometimes it’ll sleepover into someone’s you know like a little patch in front of their phone law and then we’ll just do a little public games like that and sometimes I’ll have them I got into about a year-and-a-half ago cuz I realize that my neighborhood has a considerable amount of dog poop in it so I started going around and picking it up and so I realized that it’s always really helpful and there’s a lot of areas that people just playing abandon them and I can’t do it alone and it’s something that I’m a little bit I’m in pretty passionate about it not so you know it sounds kind of weird but I’m pretty passionate about it because it’s a lot of diseases that dogs can get. they got through fecal material and someone that and that’s not something that landscapers you know send to you so I’ll have my submissives go ahead and do that and then you know obviously if they’re doing it for random dogs they’re going to feel more inclined to do it at home you know go ahead and take off their dogs poop in their yard and that’s going to be a good treat for their wife and maybe after you did that and you did do you know the dishes because you’ve been doing them in panties twice a week my house you’ll feel you’ll your wife won’t you know maybe she’ll go ahead and let you rub her feet or something and give you a little treat that she knows will really mean a lot to you you know what I mean that’s what a couple of these people have said this but I mean on you and have better results today what’s up with their wife in like a room with a lady that’s not a hundred not necessarily invested in it to me and be a little bit kinky and this is exactly what I have been praying for and what I’ve witnessed only in the smallest amount so far so do you know other Doms who are have similar paths I mean is this a very radical new thing or is it a well-established are you feeling like your community with this and your dumb friend World femdom world unfortunately no cuz I mean okay the thing is that I told you you were a little bit a little bit mild like I I feel like none of the Dom that I know I only know a few I know like you know five or six in the area and we all do completely different things I think that I do a little bit of everything because you know most of the things that my dom friends have told me are things that I’ve done or things that you know I I I do but I’m going to look interested in but not things that are going to the mean things I do you know so I don’t I don’t know any aunt but I mean I’ll have somebody like walking a dog walking you know a dog at you know it’s 3 in the morning pretty much feminized you know and say you know with a trench coat and we obviously and make sure that proper we miss you too we take proper precautions but I do things that a lot of people are a little bit too timid to and I mean you know there’s a lot of ways to make sure that you don’t get in trouble you go to areas that you you know that there’s not going to be anybody you go to places where people can look at you but aren’t going to like the bath area apartment complexes and just places where are you now you feel as if you’re going to be you know Ray safe but on the edge of taboo you know just saying yeah stealth actions right operation stealth kink well well this is I’m just going to take a breath to absorb all this amazing hopeful information and it’s just music to my ears so please tell us more about your passion for ever as much as you care to share other like Visions like you would have a few let’s see you had a full Army and all some of the richest man in the world have the most powerful man in the world politically socially right and they would became your clients I know Downs with some of the most world famous male clients on the planet and its know right but it’s like anywhere you turn you’ll find jobs that have some high-end clientele even if it’s just local judges cops CEO those lawyers all of the men with power in the system want to get beat out of them by their other friends on mistress or goddess are both so let’s say you had a lot of power in a lot of money through these men what would you build with the money that was going into your pocket and what would you build with their labor and their skills and expertise in and they’re all of their Capital that they will be delightfully surrendering to your command wow well if I was on if I were to have an opportunity like that that would be amazing that would be you know that’d be pretty cool but I would probably use it I would use it to make a dual Center for service animals to be trained and taken care of as well as and Farm are we both I would love it if I were able to incorporate a way for the four women to be able to like battered women to be able to have like jobs and little you know side project picking and helping out there and I would also have you know like Subs do it obviously that would be more of a vanilla thing where they wouldn’t be enough or they wouldn’t be where they wouldn’t be in a completely finalized in last we were doing do you know some work at night some work at night could be being done just some water and some you know tightening off but for the most part it would be gopher Patrol to write a snack bar for all of the nocturnal Critters because you’re asleep and if you don’t you don’t have a dog or something someone cats and dogs out there regarding the garden if you had Subs in shifts in whatever feminized outfits they want to be in you know within some fun concealment to the public then you could have Garden Patrol substrate they are the dogs with the subs would watch them but this guy was probably wouldn’t have liked the and capabilities the train them but they would do the things like you know walking them and exercising them and securing the perimeter of a temple so that’s everybody’s kind of an everybody kind of keeps ingredients as much as possible kind of green business that couldn’t be a form of employment for women and also be something that the subs are volunteering or say they could be considered in turn in a business they would also be in charge of the subs would have to do a lot of like networking I make things like this little crotch here I’m going to explain it the best that I can it’s about fingerling and it is a circular tube it’s made out of wood and it’s the perfect size to take one small little toke out of for two on I want to know hold is either a one hitter or you could stop your J in there if you’re gay or your blond or whatever guess small because I fit in there and that’s something that I’ve made and usually I know I stand them down they paint them and I do everything and then I saw them for like $5 and they would be in charge of like you know marketing for those and then I would also have like Mike Raines and stuff and I would have them do you know pretty much how I look a little second job and then they would also have to do you like the attending to the sub outside I’ll be helping with that because that’s something that I genuinely loved and that brings me peace but I would obviously be lording over them directly over the night when well actually not buckle down so have you had to deal with the politics of Subs interacting together on a job site what’s a aura has session site how do you keep them check how do you keep a cooperating what I have and it was intense it was on it was actually a session that I was having with a friend and with a person that was a new paid client and the new paid client wanted to earn the right to have a session with me and so I had to I was in we were in a public park at nice we were in like the depths of it where I know that nobody we patrolling and nobody realizes Park in the neighborhood that I’m you know if I know you’re with and we were just I brought like my little bag of tricks with us and and we were just kind of like going through the motions we were doing a bunch of different tasks and we had him you know doing a bunch of things and we were working you know together and me and obviously I was like in charge but me and the other guy my sub friends my personal sub was working we’re working together around with against answer one okay so how do you manage these politics between the male Subs to the have a hierarchy of a chain of command how do you keep them in line with each other and especially if you’re not always watching them out of you make sure they stay in a proper subordination to your chain well my personal said he knows that he is able to do certain things you know like he doesn’t have to maintain eye contact like that every single time that he is like talking but he still knows he has to address me a certain way like he knows like you know he knows certain things but he also knows that he’s able to be I wouldn’t say last but it’s able to be more of himself whereas the other one is under constant observation like at all times and you know what I mean with the rank right you know so they’ll they’ll respond well to the orders given through your intermediary or if you think of it like a military kind of chain of command and the private is going to salute a superior officer is in that kind of thing children animals want your children here and lay down a man like from the time that we’re young to the time they were old and then animals also most animals have some sort of pecking order any sort of mammals and you can really make an art form out of that with being human because we can be don’t be very fair and just and base it on Merit and eldership and wisdom and skill sets and not just like on you know who is the Bloodlines or what or just the dominant family or something we can be more we can choose to be a Gala Therrien and distribute power and influence the guy I like to wear meritocracy you know if you earn it then you can be the one with that Authority but then people could also you know Mutiny if you’re being undressed and that’s kind of part of it too but yeah if you have a few or a fair ruler of your matriarchal tribe of submissive men who are aspiring to wood would they Inspire to be to give them options to to grow or if people say you had more than you do now it’s so you had like hundreds of men just coming to your doorstep at the temple wanting to be initiated into prove themselves and get to the boot camp and and then aspire to be a Master Chef for a Master Gardener Master dog trainer master masseuse would you kind of go to the university if so as to allow them to rise rise the ranks so there’s also the question of politics amongst other Doms and competition and have you have you found that there’s like a bit of both out there more or less than the other in the in the past you know for years I would say I haven’t had any sort of like ill feelings towards or any sort of you know how bad I haven’t felt any sort of bad vibes from either I haven’t felt really like I was in any sort of competition because I am a completely different Dom then all the other Doms I feel like every you know if somebody is coming to me you’re coming to me because you’re looking for a certain experience they’re coming to me because you’re looking for a certain look they’re coming to me because they’re looking for a certain everything and if someone when someone else they’re going because they’re looking for that you don’t need me anymore so I haven’t felt like I’ve been dealing with anything like that you don’t necessarily I don’t to say you don’t you don’t buy into it or you doing you’re not if you are not a slave to the fashion sort of status quo of being a dumb right you new dress how you want to dress and they don’t get to do while you up to their taste or how do you do all that dress code like every single day I wear dresses dresses dresses dresses I wake up and dresses I go to bed and dresses dresses dresses I just dresses so I pretty much where that all the time and you know sometimes I might be feeling like wearing something you know something a little bit spiffy but for the most part I just where you know that and then if it’s like a foot fetish session I like to obviously like I like to do things that are going to enhance the experience so I will ask you if you have a preference in like nail color if you have a favorite color if you have this if you have is at but as far as like how I’m going to do my hair or I’m going to do my you know I don’t try to have leg you know long block Talons and like a super sexy like latex you know bodysuit or anything like that and let you know I mean I just like to be myself and just you know get her done right on and they they so you probably have filtered out do you have you had to filter out a lot of stubs that were not really serious about the lifestyle we’re just trying to get laid or trying to be creepy or whatever belotero I would say that is the majority of the people that I meet that say they’d like to be Subs because they watch Fifty Shades of Grey and then they things oh it’s going to be all on you know it’s going to be all this and all that like she just going to slap me around a little bit and maybe choke me while she rides me and you know there’s going to be all kinds of like you know things like that and they’re just looking at you know a little bit of porn and then they think that it’s going to be that experience and it’s really not I’ve had to filter out a lot of flakes because they will literally ask me things like that I like okay well so am I going to be able to do this and I going to be able to do that and so I can look those are not the right doesn’t that’s not exactly what this says I’m not accommodating you your, dating me and the primer for being a sub annual and here it is and if you read it and come back you might have a chance to be rescreen within 30 days but you really don’t have a clue you know if they mostly just don’t have a clue or sitting there are du Fafa don’t find ones who were really skilled well trained and you know I don’t want to see devious because that’s where all the tailed deviousness but they’re surreptitiously or dishonest or trying to cheat and break the rules so I can know the rules they know they know better and they break the rules cuz they think they can get away with it yeah they just kind of want to see a woman and naked which obviously I mean I don’t blame them but I do blame them for you know using like false pretense so a lot of times that would be the situation but I can let you know I can tell that came out in the early 90s Navy ladies so powerful to me when I re-read the lyrics recently that song I had the tape you know a cassette tape and media safer sex AIDS awareness in kind of Public Service pop track you know it was pretty interesting unique thing to do with that but I appreciate it at the time and I appreciate it now because I found recently that there’s a sign that says you know a man is I I don’t remember exact time going to court exactly perfect but it’s basically like a man sees a young woman in tight jeans and you know want some and that’s natural but it’s the scheming that’s biological but it’s the scheming that’s diabolical so acknowledging that it’s natural for men to be aroused by adult mature feminine beauty and bodies and and Radiance but it’s it becomes evil and wrong and twisted when it’s that buy let their the two diabolical scheming you know the not honoring the beauty or worshiping it but manipulating a woman’s vulnerabilities to get some sort of unwanted access so yeah so I appreciate your time so much for sharing this really it’s such a breath of fresh air and I feel like I’m on a mission now to support and B you know I guess I should say for myself I’m not really I’m kind of off the Spectrum off the scale of Dom or sub I really I’m a goddess worshipper and and I am in service to the Goddess Delivers the capital G goddess and there’s two lowercase G goddess and I’m in Devotion to the to the divine feminine and and I I try to treat all or I do my best to treat all manifestations in human form with respect and really be in service to the the revolution of a matriarchy I would say you know matriarchal EcoBoost life you know honoring the Yoni honoring the womb and knowing that you know if there’s a a sacred wisdom of mystery infinite enchantment in the the female human form and it should be a no-brainer to be completely Enchanted and then throw love and willing to be in service but things are obviously we’re out of balance so you’re on the front lines of retraining the male population to be improper prostration you know prayerful devotional meditative piano worship of of the female form so do you are their sacred places that you like to go to me not to stand by name or anything but do you coach charged up and nature in the in the wilderness do you go to any kind of spiritual places temples are other ways to kind of get steeped in in ceremonial goddess ritual type of energy or do you just going to draw down. You know if your own vessel well I do have places that I like to go and meditate and I do have places that I like to dance go and eat do yoga and that is where I that’s how I like to recharge just natural and on a couple poses and I’ve been doing these things for you know a little while I have a good five or six places actually but you know to in specifics and especially great because one is actually a hike so once you get to the top it’s just a really nice to be able to just like relax and just like celebrate the fact that you did it and you don’t even know it’s like it’s a really lucky or in the experience awesome and thank you for sharing that in that leads me to another question which is you plant teachers psychedelic sacred plant medicines play a role in your your Evolution and in your Consciousness is all right so deep would you be comfortable sharing that whatever Revelations are epiphanies that you had through the medicines that have given you guidance on your path I I feel like I smoke marijuana and I smoked it for a lot of reasons for medicinal for like therapeutic reasons I like the feeling that it gives me towards everything I like the fact that it helps me I feel I’m not one of the people that smoke I smoke sativa which means the kind of weed that makes you feel really like you know energized than you know not you don’t get the couch lock indicas in the couch so in the couch so I guess I’ll smoke a little bit and it tonight but for the most part even at night I do smoke indica and I’ll go ahead and I’ll get like a whole bunch of planting done or I’ll go ahead and I’ll call up one of my subs and after work will all tell them while I’m at work to meet me after work so that we can go ahead and trim some of the body that we can go ahead and you know rip off some of the Dead stalks of some of the aloe in the space that I’m renting to grow things out of there like you know that we can go ahead and do some weeding or we can you know if we can separate some of the stocks that have a lot of seeds and some of my butt implants and we can do things like that and they’re learning things but they never imagined themselves doing but yeah and then I will also I will do I Ayahuasca sometimes and DMT I’ve done a couple times BMT if I don’t know if it wasn’t necessarily the best Bosch or what but I didn’t really learn all that much I mean I felt like it just reminded me that life is not always what you make it and that perception is everything kind of you know what I mean but you never know like looking at somebody like you really just never know what’s going on before doing DMT which obviously I researched a beforehand that I you know I made sure that I did get it from like a reputable source and stuff like that which you know makes me believe that I must have been a good batch but and then supposed to be the same you know it supposed to be relatively the same as ayahuasca so with those you know they were just cool experiences and it was just about perception and then with shrooms. Just taught me each time it’s kind of taught me a different time this kind of caught me a different thing like I I went through the experience of being born one time so for at least a good I would say for at least a couple of months I was just the way better person for at least a couple of months was just really sorry I was really loving and happy and really open to a lot more than I had been open to and that’s one thing that’s a recurring theme when I do shrooms. Definitely more open and more accepting and that could be a little bit dangerous because I’m already a very like open really open-minded person I don’t necessarily drink and I mean all I have a I have to eat gluten-free so I have to drink gluten-free so I mainly have like spiders and stuff like that but I don’t really like spiders so I’ll have to search out of gluten free beer so I would say I’ve had like probably like 30 beers this year I love gluten free beer by your home brew kit right now research herbal Brewing which I know some experts in and start to hook it up right when it be nice to have a gluten-free beer bar that your subs built and maintained and tended did you know and I haven’t checked it has to be gluten-free because it’s for dietary and after snootiness dear friend who was the first to tell me about how hops were actually used as a sedative to try to desexualize and Lady harada size the experience of inebriation to alcohol because the pagans were originally in parts of Europe making herbal for men that were alcoholic beverages forms of beer you know that would that would actually enhance the right a cavity she acts and they were stimulants and provide arousal through you know medicinal herbal effects and actions and in order for the priests to clamp down on you know sexually liberated Behavior group or Jurassic Behavior they use hops of the conspiracy to him do what they thought would be impotence and certainly a more sedative effect on the nervous system that would kind of reduce Consciousness and reduce sexual activity so when you drink a lot you got like a whiskeydick The Hop specifically would would make it more inhibitif to arousal and functioning sexual functioning so it’s interesting there’s a whole you know decolonizing alcoholic beverages kind of movement and it’s so cool that you’re in the urgency because I love beer to have a friend that makes a terrible bruise and it’s just so much better with all organic ingredients in homemade and made with love and you know homegrown herbs and stuff so amazing Ginger one of them was called a it was a warrior Brewing it had a kind of a divorce in bitters there was I can’t remember I can’t remember the the list of ingredients but it was all really potent stuff and just different herbal effects like the effect of bitters in a beer is a totally Exquisite knew it was amazing it a bunch of different percentage of the are these beers they think they can be pretty hard yeah I member I mean I don’t know if they were testing but I don’t know exactly mean for me yeah they think they were it looked like an IPA and IPA yeah I don’t know it was still kind of home scale so I don’t think it went through all the lab testing all that stuff but it was I used to never had like a Stone Stone IPA or anything like that is it like one time I made cider like it was like Mad Dog 20/20 but worse and it was homemade cherry cider and it was like a lethal you know you can just burning through your system but it got you wasted but yeah anyway that I digress into until young and old memories but I think it’s important to say actually in this you know this context that alcohol is forbidden in a lot of BDSM establishments and sort of play zones and then I definitely feel like it should be used in moderation if at all in any it is certainly would have any kind of dangerous activity happening but I’ve seen it be you know used in mature and responsible manner but I think people if it’s home-brewed people have more respect specially if they make it themselves they don’t they don’t turn into monsters usually if they’re in the path of being close to Nature you know but yeah so you can you probably would have your own ganja Farm to huh I would I would I mean I would probably mainly grow for personal usage ganja Garden like a whole bunch of different strains and just now the laugh a little this is great so I think we covered a lot do you want to say do you have an Amazon wish list to you or you going to put that together if you don’t have one yet I know I should have make an Amazon wish list yeah if you you know just curious what what are some things that you that you will be putting on your Amazon wish list for your devotees and your tribute tribute or suggest some face creams and some dog stuff in summer some additives to make like soaps and Tomika like eating a homemade homemade dish soap homemade was it called laundry detergent and homemade hand soap and Salt Lake. Like soap bars and mainly this thing like that little essential oils mulch anklets the kinky Homesteader life stuff because most of what I see on Don’s Amazon wish list is well it’s usually all just shoes and corsets and makeup and things that obviously your business assets you know that it’s like if you have a plumber business you need to have tools and you need to have a truck if you’re a dumb you need to have corsets and boots and all that kind of stuff usually but you’ve got some of everything I need I go to this website I don’t know if I should I plug it or not but it’s a really good website and it has everything and so I have all that stuff and I’m looking for something that I need I have it so it’s just something that I you know just plain ones you know I might as well just throw it out there I guess if I like that’s what it’s for but for the most part I buy like everything that I have to have makeup and stuff this is what I want to congratulate you for his is transcending the Trap of narcissism and self-obsession and just perpetuating the beauty myth and I don’t want to get I don’t want to insult anyone for not having a feminist critique of these things but the seeking to really exhaust like really build up and promote women who are righteously using their power in a ecologically responsible way but yeah this is interesting territory to explore how to instill positive ethics and and I can ecological entrepreneurialism and really we be staying together so if you had some seed packets on your Amazon wishlist what would be so much I will get you to the point where or when I say we I mean the world and all of the magic within and Beyond will get you to have your dream facility Fortress to be able to have land to work and play on in to have your subs be dutiful Guardian Warriors that get Bill to the ranks and what would be some of your favorite crap so I guess that you have planned for your inside okay Temple well I would have I probably have like potatoes and like probably like spinach probably a lot of spinach even though it’s the winter right now it have tomatoes cuz it’s not always going to be winter I would have a plant like aloe and like a lot of LOL cuz that’s good for everybody I thought I could feel like stuffing like it’s good for like a whole bunch of Life personal uses as well but as far as like as far as like an antibacterial so you can use it looks like you know clean like different toys with and stuff like that and it is good for like you know Burns and all sorts of like and I’ll cleaning up your rooms and stuff but I’m a professional so if I’m going to give you a spanking like you know that I can still give you a 10 a degree 10 spanking without you know breaking skin without licking nose and dilating your skin sounds like any other herbs sir veggie surgery screws I like orange I would have and then I would have I will probably have like licorice root I would probably have a lot of ginger I would probably try to grow like probably saying John’s Wort probably a little bit of valerian root I’m not sure how long kava kava takes to grow but I would see about I’m trying to grow some of that I would try to grow I would definitely grow some lavender I would grow on I would just grow I would go a lot of things that’s why they would be so much to me entertain really A Little Flower Patch a little flowers but that’s my favorite favorite favorite like that you know thing awesome that can all be arranged I’ve got just the right people to call I’ve got the cruise already assembled they just need to be trained so would you take on apprentices other Doms to a kind of learn how you roll and are you ready for that level of leadership if you were to have even just someone be like while I want to know how you how you run this you know you just I guess people can obviously contact you and connect with you but it would be great if you you know write an article or or just kind of opportunities there hopefully you’ll be able to share the wisdom in the wealth of the rich is the spiritual riches if this unique dumb style that you have would you do feel like I get that ready for that apprenticeship apprenticeship some Guess Who coming over you know mistress you know XYZ and in their own hierarchy of student and teacher where the student has to get slightly like I said if it was a switch student then you could reprimand then and and Heaven I guess it gets a very complex very fast but well that’s how in the dungeons usually go from being a sub to a switch to a job so that she had the whole cycle have you been a sub or do you switch your last dollar with how do you roll with all that I guess you could find out on FetLife for you on it okay so on that note do you want to share how people can now obtain your services and apply for apprenticeships and all that good stuff my my fella if should be sativa mistress mystery sativa mistress and then my email address is Namaste alt n a m a s t e a l t at gmail.com so I’m pretty reachable from both mediums and I do you know like correspond relatively fast and I was long as I’m not at work or training Manor training animals or you know I’m doing some sort of you know odd job or some sort of something or do you want to feel free to be as broad-based geographically as you want but you know we’ll say Southern California serviceable area or awesome well goddess Jamie thank you so much again for being such a lovely role model and blessing and I hope to help facilitate your visions and dreams have hurricane with my peeps in my self so thank you for listening to the touch upon podcast please go to www.crunch.com and cook on the Donate button to help support the show in addition of sustaining and improving the podcast for donations will help establish permaculture goddess temples every bite ecological employment for single mothers Please Subscribe and share your favorite episodes if you have questions or comments feel free to leave a voicemail at 818-275-1593 or email banfield.com Thomas Day

Political Economy of Sexploitation with Ex-Porn Star Vikki Dark TPP82

Play

Vikki Dark PicIn this episode I’m blessed to converse with former porn star Vikki Dark about the political economy of sexploitation in the adult industry. We hear heart breaking horror stories of her descent into the industry and invigorating stories of courageous escape. We address an array of ancient, recent, present and future paradigms from radical and eco-feminist perspectives. Ultimately our conclusion is hopeful as we find ways to share strength and explore synergy in our efforts to transcend this pit of capitalist sexploitation.

About Vikki:
Vikki Dark is a writer and academic whose work spans erotica, feminist thought, biography and transgressive fiction. She’s a radical feminist and a sex industry survivor who now campaigns against the injustices rife in the sex industry namely the use of comprising imagery by producers for the lifetimes of women.

Please visit her website at:
http://vikkidark.co.uk/

AI Generated Transcription:
(Want to help with corrections? Please contact me to learn about rewards for your efforts!)

Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin hello dear beloved welcome to Township Punk podcast episode number 82 I am on Skype with Vicky dark a former adult performer who has become an advocate for I’d say a better more Ideal World where people have evolved past this industry with a lot of this harmful Tendencies and this is really very well-informed and has a lot of insight and wisdom that you probably aren’t going to hear in many other places so I’m very proud to have her to share her perspective and to be able to feel very honored to be able to have a discussion that’s going to honor the sacred feminine in a way that a rare rare opportunity so with that said Vicky would you please tell us a bit about to your your history and where you came from with all of your eye with your works okay so I started young in me I don’t need to stray I literally was terribly chain bad relationship with my mother problematic bloodline theme my mom have problems when she was young and young boyfriend needed money and basically is so adverts in kind of papers you know. I wanted to be an actress and it was for that dances and that and then there was some stuff like that and so I explore these effing used and what got me into the the stuff that was most life-changing okay I’m at woman who was an agent and as she basically I said do you want to be model You Got What It Takes I thought it would be compliment and it ended in me doing hardcore pornography very young age so yeah but then I pedal back it was really I don’t know if I could say tree affect me at that age I kind of like buried it was like it was I was told he was going to do monthly and then I turned up this place and and then then in the next minute I was told I was sleeping with you having sex with a man when I was very young. 27 and I kind of like I was one of these young people who didn’t have much I had low self-esteem I guess I kind of like you know if I could be pushed into things quiet until they got me a few drinks and stuff like that and I wasn’t even legal was not the actual American strength what I used to call it back then you know what I mean America’s it so you’re saying it was beyond like Xtreme guns or what I don’t know exactly what the other on light 2000 late night is was when you actually see the penis entering the vagina so that’s nothing now now now compared to what’s going on what we go out there an American strength was considered like strong and so that’s when you actually see the penis into the vagina film I have watched the film I don’t want to do it in such rhetoric I believe you didn’t see the actual you know that the American strength Paul which was a penis enter in the vagina you just throw these Shack in the actual sex scenario so that was that was actually one of my first experiences with the Auto industry but I said I didn’t want to do it at first and then I said oh okay well you know okay then leave whatever but I didn’t have the money so just call me that the paperwork quite nice by the end of the day I was lied to about where I was going to do I was young I did it I needed the money had no money to get home so just go off so that it led to a series of me me kind of think he would have done that so it’s good money you know who cares and I was taking ecstasy and stuff like that in the time of taking a hard hard drugs but I was definitely probably a generation and in England it was like a kind of rape scene in America to Global Goods in Rave for the guy that was a big thing right side quest retrievable the Heyday and it’s definitely been a hyper regulated in isn’t is pristine the underground is been kind of co-opted into more of a corporate new rule as it was you know that was years ago and I remember you like to take my phone saying things like that I mean there was some it was a good times about my younger life but definitely gonna Seattle industry was was was something that suddenly became was something new at first and then very quickly became something the buy me very depressed and something that raps that you like them because of the money and it becomes your kind of perspective of Your World becomes you yeah yeah you know it’s 10 fish if you’re young it’s like, to see the the wood for the trees and in times of Morrow was in everything I don’t believe in the religion of the parents and Friends religions and spell projection of morals at all wrong if it feels right you know to the person sound sensibility then I believe that you’re gone and you know what it felt wrong I needed the money young age I know you didn’t want to lose your money with a few hundred quid but it was not very quick work for a few hundred pound and and you know what kind of didn’t really look too much in the future. This is you know this is wrong so I head out over here and everything like that cuz I was kind of like in this mentality that was like a regular jobs but I was doing regular jobs and stuff like that I had my first boy when I was 9:18 and then they had him at 19 pregnant your first you say your first boy your first child and that yes. So then I saw it becomes you have to get the bread and stuff like that. Yeah we have fine he didn’t get you wasn’t bothered hit it like you don’t care whatever he scraped my knee so it’s always been bringing 500 press if it’s a question about women are objects thingies the money was very good you know 502000 lbs some nights at least think that I was the cream of lap dancing club in London is the best one you can get that was lucky enough to get in there at that time I felt pretty lucky yeah. That for the next few years, that fell into the Esco inside of things because what happened cuz I had a nervous breakdown come out if it had my second baby and then and then fell into the high school inside of things and yeah you do something for me so you’re getting the money and the money is gone. You have a good holidays you’re having like you know who these great things the capitalist system office but it comes and goes it comes and goes and you kind of left a different nose person you kind of don’t look mad the same anymore you’ve developed and also and I hate to admit this but you kind of become rather sexual as well I mean it’s a big is a mess around in the Auto industry that women have really really highly sexualized and really like an eye out for it as they say in England but I mean the biggest faux pas if you are a sex worker is to make you hate sex love sex so much I really really love sex and you said you don’t have to fucking say that you know you don’t have to keep saying it because that’s what’s expected of you why don’t you just say you just want to know you want a night off and I hate that about the women actually now the new kind of the new object is the subject so it’s like they but they kind of the women are currently I see on social media you know I’m telling the truth and the monster manga I don’t have this kind of thing but they are not kind to tell me that they own their sexuality on film because they don’t let you know I’m that sexuality says they say right so you absolutely awful experience I’m not negating the fact that we can have adventurous animalistic sex wild sex and everything. That what I’m saying though we become a collection of signs and signifiers which is nothing to do with a list of gender and sexuality sorry if they are saying that they only sexually inside the more important basically is the woman is the focal point the timber I guzan arranged in such a way that the man the man appear to be subsequent reaction I mean the dicks there and everything and it’s lent to the the woman and taking place in everything. That guy’s a party not the partying up with him indoors and I know sorry the actors the cameraman these are old guys it’s a party it’s a boys club and she’s in the middle I mean you know I think actually I would go so far as to say it’s not even about the woman I mean the woman could be even you could have an animal sidekick yeah it’s the locker room teamsportsinfo Conquest Rodeo really the woman has led to believe that she is some kind of star probably because she paid more and because they get these big following in our accounts on Twitter and everything like that and I guess in the head by saying I’m some kind of stuff I need an 81 why I guess they are well-known and they’ve got some kind of cute also attached to this to this identity this cast list these capitalists oriented identity by the porn industry but it’s not a thing you know they pay I would do double anal gangbang everything you want me to be you know the motherfuking the mud likes you’re going to get in the most fun as you’re going to get and the more you look like you know the least real you look for example the more plastic you look the more like a sex doll cost you all from who you are the more likes you’re going to get the more followers because you know you are becoming more because they are becoming the product tomorrow more so a product of this capitalist of this agenda this whole thing it’s like I know is that some some Theory or some the Inn of the three physical material body and the fact the oldest religion is visual vernacular every bubble industry we fix polymorphous party. It is doesn’t exist sheep you know she’s a hoe you know it is a patriarchal lens they can’t tell me it’s not a negative patriarchal lens that we’re seeing this is construct Define construct I agree with you and anybody who anyone who is a question with question anything you said so far at is that let’s put you in that position and then after you experience it you can talk about how you felt you know you’re assuming I call you when I have you and have anal sex while you’re going to get it from me first buddy you know what I mean you’re going to have to understand if you want to have any sensitivity you know if I’m going to trust you to be at all sensitive towards my body then you’re going to have to you know it’s going to be 50/50 and that’s a relationship you know so it’s it’s interesting to I would love to to do a social experiment on MythBusters for all the guys who think that this is just such an empowering you know deliberating in the position of the woman to see how I feel what is the other space printing if there’s plenty of protons who will strap-on and Peg guys senseless so you know it’s not like it’s not like they even have to be gay to do it to have the experience but it’s just putting it out there so but I dare I would dare the and then that you don’t have to say yeah actually this is horrific you know it’s his horrific painful psychotic evil and I love it or I hate it but they’re not going to they won’t have the app they won’t be a steward ignorant about what it would it really is you know you have to own that only that it is extremely harmful and would you show this to your child would this be in the stocking stuffers at the 13th birthday Christmas you don’t I mean if I don’t think so I mean there’s a lot of Shadow there that’s the question isn’t it I mean what you want your child car into this happy birthday on social media you know it’s kind of everyone’s like yeah sure and you know their parents in the I can do you see the parents stand the ancestors standing behind that meat puppet you’ve got their front of you or you just see the dollar signs in the Benjamin unit while you got a different different how your what’s your pounds right absolutely right yeah they’re seeing they’re seeing this this stack of money and they’re not honoring the ancestors and they’re not seeing their children you know the impact is going to have on their children do they want their children to be trying to perform these acts on each other example of a moral checklist that is is missing and So you you’re pretty well steeped in the in the arguments for I’m sure you’ve spoken to actresses who were sort of bought into it and are defending that that you know the Enterprise as it is and I’m sure you’ve spoken with and communicated with directors and producers who are defending all the stuff profusely and are you ready to talk about about how that’s that dialogue has been shaping for you the more kind of a couple of my friends actually kind of Frenemies guy on here is very active on social media and always willing to converse and I appreciate that because you know a lot of people shut things down but I don’t want to hear Echo Chambers me and he and he’s a producer over in England and he basically August with me quite a lot about the Emancipation the freedom of women and they supposed sexual Liberty that subscribe to women and pornography and how you know who do I think I am to stand there and end challenge that you know that’s his bicycle race in which he argues from I’m not that’s fine but you know if he wants that opinion and I’ve realized you know free might kind of experimentation if you like through my research for a social media which is a kind of spoke to all the women and the ones who like I get the M the law in a private message the law and I’m young goes to be honest with you and I’m really happy to speak to them and if I kind of say things like that wants me to go here you know this producer and this is his name and he does extremely sore neck strain that I’ve heard bad things about him should I go that kind of question is absolutely know if you heard anything about a different stuff you know what we’re talking about here I mean in the dialogue so what’s not addressed and what is actually the elephant in the room is is the Moto the system of the system of the Auto industry women get paid a lot more now this is why I defend it that day this is why I basically on social media in the public domain women argue with me and they kind of come at me with an attitude of who the hell do you think you are you know what you think you are and I’m like you know because I’ve got voice because I’m trying to make something with trying to rebuild my life until they rebuilding my life is being an academic that to me is my passion so I’m going to take that wife from me I don’t know these women know but you know that produces no I don’t care you know that ain’t going to take that away from me because that’s the one thing in my life for my kids so I can say you know all the crap talking further and stuff like that are so bright because I’ve been achieving but what do you think you are you know cuz I’m kind of like fully my passion and I’m having a voice about the industry so not only do I argue with produces with the women in the industry you don’t even want to open dialogue so yeah I mean it’s really it’s the reaction but generally employed and I understand the diner you know the dynamic of being in the industry the harbor certain amount of anger women not surprising you know you know that making a choice for the money I want mo money for the quicker time spent I don’t want to do the full week working a job and the hard work that kind of appreciation to come later that night that she was in the money I meant that they are full go in the ceilings and the destruction of intimacy that’s occurring within them through selling their bodies to let you know that anyone who comes along with enough cash to sexual violation and they got some great things never shops know that nice for nice houses might be in over their spot they both keep this going to go kick this cabin and so the cops see a while because the money and so everything I’m saying or suggesting even if it’s positive for example what the new suggestion it was not really know I’ve been going on for a while this alone it’s because I’m a very English Oblivion I tried to a few official people about this and it takes a lot of dedication and devotion and get this up and running but it was and if I can buy back their images from the internet you know of any other industry and what that does that allows the women after 10 years or 15 years even know how to transition into the public university college whatever just normal life opening up that children without being recognized and you eat it should be really easy it should be a simple program that you push a button and it just sucks everything away massive chasm in the Auto industry in eight states states is women are getting paid 500 quid in our new goes in the industry that there is a tie go what can be max hardcore at the moment and I take it she’s like a chain and she just used her real name and I was talking to her on the day and and and I said to her without you know it’s never too late to change your name you know because County Concrete Elementary back you can use it forever and it’s really extreme stuff at them your whole life ahead of you and she kind of like of the day I’m so I couldn’t see any tears or anything like that by felly on the voice of his coming through likes me now what can I do to sign bad for her because I’m so anyway so with the Auto industry about lease buyback proposal Isla is the women come with me and they say it’s not going to work it’s not going to work because because you know is I like how I know I don’t show it to eat it’s not you know you sometimes what about films we never thought the paper I said he’s not perfect but allows you to erase profiles and eventually the images images I’m sure you could have private investigator bounty hunters they could get you a huge settlements if you know I mean there’s already people for music and all other forms of media for copyright violations there’s a whole third-party industry cuz if the government’s not going to the government is not going to proactively enforce a lot of that stuff but there’s agencies out there that are private agencies that make money off of this bounty hunting of them content so you know reputation band what’s up, do the reputation real well it’s just it’s as if like for example if you’re a musical recording artist and somebody you know uploads your music to YouTube or some other place on the internet the government isn’t going to necessarily be tracking down all of those copyright infringement cases but there are now in the dussehra where you try to keep computer program that can scan and scour the internet and look for the the wave file or or the video you know would end the end of this match it and then a lot of Kellogg times now with they’ll do is actually figure out how instead of a lot of punitive damages or lettuce and you know trying to drag him into court they’ll just make it make it so they run ads you know so you’re what you have my content somewhere well we’re going to have to run ads on it and you know give the give a percentage of the money in the revenue to the artist and it’s all kind of being sorted out there’s big cases but you know I’m in the music industry that’s that’s there so obviously if you wanted to erase all that you would have for you know what’s the word a takedown policy enforcement you know so if you were to say yeah I’m I’m I’m declaring that I no longer want my likeness that it’s not that I no longer give anyone permission to put my likeness on the internet No Matter What by the problem with signing all those contracts as a model is that you sign your letting you know you’re selling your soul to the devil pretty much have to form a union for models and actresses that says we don’t ever signed more than the five-year you know term or something I mean but these these contracts are just in blood they’re just signing everything in Bledsoe I just blessed blessed to hear these these words be spoken and by you and and I’m curious if you would like to guide us through what your creative Works have been I know you’ve you’ve you’ve got too many directions since the book was released I’m curious what do you recommend people start to discover beyond the book that that you feel most proud of and and thank you yes well you know I do see the whole thing as a vagina you know I I I I came in at the bikini but I didn’t really know myself and spent the first part of my life and I think it’s natural for beings to do that to spend the first part of their lives the same who am I you know and trying to know oneself and in that way you differentiate you’ll pass from what has been necessarily conventionally and you you you choose especially if you’re a person just naturally go to the beat of everybody else and you know I know. Kini is now have been their name is being taken the for a specific kind of embodiment within the tantric but you know what they represent in essence is in at the embodiment of a feminine wisdom principal they are archetypes of wisdom wisdom which comes at you naked because it is naked it butt naked truth it’s not it’s naked it’s radiating blessed through every pore and it’s disruptive because it passed away all the things that you because I think you relied on and all those artifices and all that eager dramas she just Trampled Under Foot and lost and she’s drunk on the Blessed of share spontaneous being yeah in the other part of my life is full I discovered Tantra and the reflection that I came in just trying to see who am I and in that I said who am I and how do I fit into the culture that I find myself in and it’s my own self and what are the projections of others and how am I seeing and how do I see myself and all these things I was bringing into my experience of aunt and my aunt was I found the technique of collage and that was when I was doing my thesis of the surrealist artists map sons did a number of college books using old engraving and in those books he put together the Engravings to create seamless new world but they were very Fantastical you know people had wings and snake came out between the Pavements and the real encounters happen but now look like they were meant to be like that all the time but he’s instructed them and you couldn’t see where they looked. Together they were a new world and I said I thought you could kind of see make it look like it’s not. But it’s actually fuse into a new reality and you can also really joke people’s perceptions by bringing together the things they wouldn’t normally associate together but by the juxtaposition you to create this what they call it in there so am I use those those tools of collage and use the loss of images of myself had my own photo taken and put myself in that so that I could be both see the Muse and the one I mean the object of somebody else’s view but with photographic and then I also made three dimensional objects and I use those cool things in a lot of pieces life cost of myself my own head button and then like us about the people that was similar to using photographic call out your photos Honda back in 73 I had an exhibition code opening which was all about food and the roster so I’m bringing together you know that the body of woman with the whole idea of the table together in that and it was very shocking to people dressed up I had a whole wedding cake constructed I’m prevented myself as with a van everything adds the wedding cakes at the invitation for the exhibition it was in a being fully engaged in in in the eye and after that I forgot I started it went through for 7 years which was a major I guess you’ll call now to send what was that word wasn’t used at the time but it was me looking at all the skeletons in the cupboard I had a relationship with this filmmaker and we were meant to be doing all these projects together and it never really asked you fully manifest and then we broke up and it was my whole drama with woman’s theater group and my what with them kind of ripping apart their relationship and then I just had to process all this cuz I would say I’m sorry can I ask you something really quick I don’t want to cry or be a gossipmonger anything but I feel that the the Dynamics between creative creative relationships romantic relationships and those the way those play out the Ender play especially if there is I don’t know what that was in your case but I’m I’m really curious to see what wisdom you would have to share about you about using tantric skill sets and tools to harmonize human personality conflicts that’s a big big question a lot to to explore but if you were able if you were confronting these sort of issues were you able to at least somehow raise the vibration you know even if there are deal breakers and things had to be you know closed off but I’m just curious if you were successful at all and applying principles or by Christopher Hills my you know the person who built this property here he did a book called creative conflict which was all about heart-to-heart communication and about people needing to be hard I’m so it’s at whole dynamic between having an exchange with someone else but that person letting you know after you’ve spoken from your heart but they have understood it reflecting it back in their own words to you and that you do that back and forth and it actually creates a whole different kind of feedback loop the misunderstandings that often have a good exercise based on you know Christopher understanding of those principles a yogi eyes pop from being a western scientist animal and he was all these things wrapped together but that was a very good example of principles into the relationship Dynamic but for myself you know that it’s been so many different relationships and even oceans and you know how many dimensions the last to it and each one I’ve had a few major relationships in my life apart from many other relationship but as a few major ones you know that had bad that even a beauty and then Gloria and the agony and you know all of that and I always say there’s no such thing as my student so I like to think we’re all students protection is setting in the area relationship dynamic especially going to the mat the male-female dynamic at this particular time on the planet is in such a challenge in at the rest so many areas that go across because she knows you think of just love and attraction and vibration if you like you know that conventional I’m just you know that Dynamic the spice of life and energy vibrations which you know I make everything so complex and setting it this time the whole sexual identity is something that so you know I’m in the midst for what it’s going to be the next evolutionary stage of how we’re going to be able to manage male-female dynamic in a new way and of course you know the true Keys the Contra do do hold those keys because it is a true and which ones have it if you are able to hold that Crucible and a gaining and it didn’t. Do you have the real chance to be able to see the Divine in each other and bring the Divine fully into that invaded relationship and that you know it’s just the the Beauty and the glory and the end of the immortal France and get moving into our discontent touched any magical ways but at the moment I’m playing a lot of challenging in our relationship not only to each other but to a whole The Crucible of plant it up and down with her that you know that the interpersonal has to also be expanded I believe attitude tantrica to include the whole interaction with all of our natural world at this point and really bringing that into every meditation and interaction really because we can’t afford to lie if that helps eco-warrior and was all about planting gardens and saving trees and I still am now but I feel like what I’ve added to that with Tantra is just a ever-deepening reverence for creation and for the Divine the astral the Earthly Plains all the things we often take for granted I just want to be in that state of reverence and awe that I think most people achieve that when they go into the Great Outdoors and then go hiking or skiing they they have a tantric sort of shocked if acacian of there at least their parts of their system get woken up an activated unfortunately it doesn’t seem to be enough to make them into real hardcore activists a lot of the times but I feel like the there is an ecological agenda that is very transparent and very intrinsic to the path that that romance with with the life-giving fertility of this divine feminine and if you know a lot of people experience very direct communion with the wisdom intelligence and directives of Gaia through this practice so do you want to talk a bit about that kind of revelatory ecological revolution of Tantra if you will be glory after the sexual Revolution and I would save the kind of a cool resonance that I’ve I’ve told condemned presentation to some of her because I really believe especially in the cold vibration that she said we’ve got to start treating the Earth like a lover not like a mother and it when you treat her like a mother it’s you expect the mother to get unconditionally do everything for you and you don’t have to give anything back but if you treat it like a lover than you you know show that you have to give love to that lava and it says to a slow and so that’s an important shift and I think that’s a good thing to bear in mind and I had one time when I was in my twenties and experience with some strange object did Johnny and in that time I had what I still feel program the most orgasmic experience that I had when I had it I was just lying back on this massage table I wasn’t touching myself but I was having these orgasm just passed through my whole body and what I was feeling at the time I felt like I was body of the Earth has style and the every single every single of an insect’s wing and the slithering of the body of a snake and the rustling of leaves everyone going through my whole being beautifully spoken and who could not want to experience that who doesn’t anybody out there not enjoy orgasm it’s a very small number and to the to think that it can become such a flow state of being that level of Sensitivity I kind of almost feel like what most people are striving for when it when they’re trying to get off you know whatever gender or sex they may be is there their they’re basically trying to use friction sex or some sort of high-intensity friction contact in order to kind of chisel or sandblast or break through all this plaque that separating their nervous system and their chakra system from the cosmic Bliss that is a constant wave of orgasmic energy so the more you dissolve that plaque through right action through dharmik practice and purification of all kinds that are very well enumerated in the tatras you know an in yogic texts and Vedic texts there’s a path way to clean your stylus and get more of that orgasmic slow going and it’s definitely so abundant and not so scarce like everything else that we’ve been tricked about as far as the scarcity mindset vs. the abundance mindset so that’s just a follow-up that’s from me and and now that we’re coming to a close on time do you want to talk about some of the anymore highlights from your creative works that people should be looking for then about what’s what’s the current and future of an exorcism it was called and said some the book that I put out and that was trying to look at all these psychological States and and who am I and is that I could dance we both kind of psycho and then I come out at the house and then I have discovered time trip by this point and then I meet Nick Douglas as I say and then we went on to do another College book called man the next to see which was just a celebration of coming out of the confines of this black and white house and all the Western Heritage Inn in the Himalayas and just everything is one century psycho-spiritual play of of everything the profaned the sacred oil mixed together and it was a it was just we were enjoying and I wish I knew how to do, what a wonderful tool it was expecting this and that was that serious and then at the same time we did the secret dakini Oracle which was the 64 card Oracle system in systems put that out and that’s being around working since then then I went to to the Caribbean I was there for 15 years at I-10 and time got a long story short I realized I was there because of the embedded energy of the Arawak Indians whooping for alcohol Caribbean free Columbus and the Magical and pure kind of society who had been swept under the carpet of history and speaking to me and so I firmly believe that the indigenous way of life is the way of creating sustainability for the planet if we can start to embrace him understand that engage instead of in a friend that to the side as the Civilization V how to be in tune with the spirit and all things so that was my home to that way of life but I did for my portraits and they are like Indians in my time that and then I came back to America in 94 after I was I was here before that New York I was working on my phone from about the Arawaks and I finish that and then it was then that I met Christopher Hills and came here and then for the time here I am held a lot of events dr. Christopher past but she did the 97 to bring in the goddess energy and I still would like you to describe them when we talk to them right to coming on on on the car that you were interested in the way of using the energy that is that in these events and we’re all these awful waves so all that happening and I still while we can offer them to the goddess and then she can give her grace to us and doing for several years he has many people from the whole graveyard from performance thoughts and in the area bringing them in and having people get their offerings to Spotify and then one. I made the 64 that key Miracle which isn’t Eeveelution of the nlra but this time each of the energy that he needs and I have 64 Oracle and I hope to do a nap cuz if it can meet chat father and that is like a temple for the goddess and an Oracle phone just working on more three-dimensional pieces the game and coming back into a focus of customizing they oughta game having reached out to all the Divine archetypes imma come back into a more personal expression and now that I’m done now I just want to see you on tour with the museum installation with all this I’m not the biggest art Aficionado in the world but of course I’ve I’ve been a fan of Alex Grey and H R Giger and what I after this conversation I feel like I got a lot of catching up to do on on what you put out that I wasn’t aware of and I’m really going to enjoy it so it is a sort of a sumtur got some guidance that you could provide to say hey go and you know you can go to your website and in and just order purchase what you have or their YouTube videos or any other ways to access your go to website since I mean Menards.com has a broad spectrum of the word that I’ve been talking about and then 64 the numbers that Kenny. Org is where you can go to consult the Oracle and but also that the gallery of the images of the Thai King is there and then the Blue Lotus pod. Com which is rstudio site which has some videos and Son photography so those are few things that you can look at to start with and I haven’t all page on Facebook too with how about Instagram of you if you got on that platform say it took me a while because I just have so many projects and engagements of all kinds I didn’t want to be distracted by something that was another no platform of that nature however I am totally convinced now that it is one of the most strategic leverage points for anybody with the message or Consciousness that can create visual content it’s amazing I just thought of something I wanted to say and it was about relationship and resolution from a perspective that we were talking about mentioning my exorcism though that thing about The Break-Up and processing of the relationship and that’s what spurred our conversation about relationship with my partner at the time and next month or beginning of next month I’m going over to the UK to go to a conference and speak that that’s about this film makeup Peter Whitehead and over the last few years we can get back together in the sensitive film that we did at the time which type of being shown all those years and I was able to show that the Hayward Gallery in London and oh so I’m speaking at the conference about him because it’s a whole retrospect if they take him to the archives at this University and son a solution of some quite powerful can you describe it at all or just footage that we shot at the same time I did all these photographs that became the basis of the footage of myself and my girlfriend and Peter Shaw hit in this old derelict mansion house could love and it’s all just showing it Roar has it came out to the time off to all these years after 1969 that was shot and I guess this unit many takes but it’s like in this time the space that it’s like a magical experience that’s amazing so is there any hope that we will get this that’ll get to see a bigger audience or what do you have his first plants with that now is scheduled to reach a larger audience is a documentary that just being made of me he was young filmmaker Cove it started walking on it in 2012 when I was over in the UK I’m getting a tour at the gallery about my work and he was excited and said, I shouldn’t interfere with you and that interview grew into the documentary what she’s dressed now completed and it’s all of my early walk treat antra I’m in London and a relationship with a woman that hole. And it’s called Penny Slinger Out of the Shadows quite a good release coming up shortly support and Discovery and in the promotion and I’m definitely want to continue to explore in and talk with you about how to support the mission that that was laid out and and I feel like someday I will somebody will be calling me and asking me what was the story behind what brought me to interview and people like you if this is my contribution to the world and there’s just an ongoing interest and it’s so interesting to see to get this background and to have to really just go on a sort of a Time a Time trip into these you know these different points in in your creative history and really if I could just ask you a couple more questions before we before we call it a night do you have a couple more minutes being this kind of bridge through these was one of the things to me that’s very important in the manifestation of my life’s Mission if you like is to be able to be active and relevant at this time in my life when I am old and that the wisdom of the wise woman knows he didn’t pack anything back into society and that’s what he need so much to be able to swear I act now I’m not wanting to be Destin historical figure but I am for the active right now I love that thank you so much yeah that’s I’m so thrilled again that we’re having this conversation and I feel like the the need is is greater than ever to access the wisdom of the elders going back yuno thousands of years and the question I actually want to ask you who really is like the what the let’s see the shocked it country code is the goddess worshiping country cuz whether they would be considered on the left hand path of the right hand path or generally I think more realistically it was a it was a sort of he was ambidextrous it was an ambidextrous way to be in in in the shock to Tantra schools where you were dabbling we’re not doubling but really actually working consciously with Desire with with Will with your will and also with the Divine elements but hopefully with Integrity to Lenny’s trainings you would be in service to add a v or in the process so that you would be sort of putting yourself to work for the Divine will and getting your commission of the small things that your small mind actually wants in this small slice of the universe or the universe and if I if I simplify what the essence of the positive empowered healing Reverend Liberatore nature of of the more feminist Tantra is about purification of those parasites of the heart that you mention you know earlier and if if that was the intention back then against the forces that Humanity was up against at that time that they warned us the forces are going to get worse it’s the Kali Yuga World age and we’re going to be inundated with these negative entities once again the technology that you were exploring and has continued to explore and her still as you said ready to bring to the present moment at this time of absolute sexual Madness more than ever through porn the the question is it took me awhile to get to it but how do you advise the world now about the need for Tantra what are your what are your words of wisdom and take as much time as is you have pleased to give us some guidance now Where Do We Begin what do we focus on and prioritize if we have limited attention spans you know yeah please and that was about a left hand or right hand Tantra and as far as I’m concerned they only real difference in a kind of pacification is that the right hand is to do with meditative Union with say the daikini and the right left hand is to do with actually taking an inverted Shakti to realize that Union but it’s both to do with the inner Union with the Divine being and then the interesting cuz I had it seems so simple but I had a revelation between like tantric meditation and the meditation of other religious forms is you’re not sublimating that energy that section energy you actually using that but what the right hand while you’re using it but with this entire no. Can you actually making love with the internal. Kini so it’s it’s using everything rather than denying everything so I just really wanted to address that because when you say to balancing photos of course you know the play is at the Contra dealer is that Tina between the outer and inner and other call BNI it within the soccer not the gross body that’s why it’s called the second body the energy body where that is you know that that in a erotic channel of energy where in at the Statue of Santa up to the crown and it’s all one energy and I said that they that the blessed is when you envision and experience the union of Shiva and Shakti in the crown chakra meaning like completely in their territory around but fillet in the cellular matrix honey and milk into the Lotus at the hot and got us that and that is The Crucible and that’s if the dentist thing to focus on in the inner plane that’s it because it’s about the dog and dangerous about the dog that hot ass between me and have a claim and it’s true that you know list for meditation that you can stop with the chief Zach time does all the time male body vibrates but we’re actually wonderful wave energy that you are manifesting it’s that I want it that you’re tuning into it with the gift-giving wow so the right-hand and left-hand path are not antagonistic that’s an illusion make the pads Chrysler make an ex or something in a beautiful dress right as bad as it spirals as it should beautiful thank you for that clarification I think that’s going to help a lot of people yeah so so I’m dressing and red and white snake spider and around but you know the contract principle is to get that energy than going into the central Channel which just you know is this I’m at wave of infinity no bottomless and topless photos of spiraling into that Central Channel yes yes thank you so much it’s as beautiful as it’s no wonder that your visual artist because you’re you creating a beautiful art form in the Maginot just through the word so and yeah thank you for that I am very excited to see what you continue to develop and and I definitely feel like his you’re saying it’s if it’s if the wisdom that you’ve been carrying is not percolating through the generations the way that it it we would hope for it to then I want to be stepping up as somebody who who really makes effort to connect people who are interested in erotica and neurotic media and the wisdom teachings that that you you share to be able to access them so hopefully this is one small step in that direction with doing this podcast and I’m going to definitely look forward to just catching up in schooling myself in your work yeah any other things you want to share before we go tonight you are sending out many good powerful vibrations to everyone who possibly tunes into this that they fix that part of being that country Quiva of the own Destinies and put themselves in the center of that own mandalas so that they a defect not just cause at the same time of cost aligning to the Divine headlights in the sky but your fulcrum and your guide so that you are at course but your turkey day at effect of the goddesses well, all right good night thank you so much pain he will text you and take care, and click on the Donate button to help support the show in addition to sustaining and improving the podcast your donations will help establish permaculture goddess Temple after bite ecological employment for single mothers Please Subscribe and share your favorite episodes if you have questions or comments feel free to leave a voicemail at 818 to 7515 3 or emo band at Country Park. Com Damas de

50 Shades of Green Sexual Permaculture TPP70

Play

tantra-punk-kali in this episode I’m joined by M.F.P. for an exploration of the new 50 Shades of Green Sektual Permaculture spoken word poem I recently released. I lay out the thesis and she affirms that sexual capital can and should be invested into ecologically honorable endeavors.

In a bonus segment, with permission I read an article by Jill Lawson called “50 Shades of Namaste” all about the parallel benefits and pitfalls of both Yoga and BDSM. It is very wise and insightful and helps balance out the discourse by owning and honoring our need to escape the ego by inducing altered states of consciousness. I agree that ethics are sorely needed to ensure integrity and relative safety in all of our attempts to learn and practice arts of transcendence.

Please visit her website to access more of her great works: http://www.jilllawsonyoga.com/

AI Generated Transcription:
(Want to help with corrections? Please contact me to learn about rewards for your efforts!)

Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin hot soft solar love massages the cold hard Earth providing energy with which the magic of Life can do its work producers consumers and decomposers unite transcending entropy by capturing and storing light for billions of years homeostasis was sustained resilient systems were not corrupted or defamed nurturing fertility was our Primal cultural dance only in recent times have we lost this ecorattic Romance the tyranny of disease you go with men has made the worship of women on Earth but deadly sin Empires built on the enslavement of creation damning arrows and nudity with commercialization to reclaim the natural state of Shameless Loving Grace we must admit sexual energy flow within our nation states on the surface it may very well seeing its men in business suits who have the rains but I am for you to dig deep beneath the facade and. never that it is women who are still truly in charge behind every good billionaire there’s a great dominatrix don’t be fooled by the lies of the Matrix is simple and small-minded power games his inability to manage his Primal lust and rage leads him chronically in shambles at the end of long corporate office days where does he go to escape his own Rat Race maze to the femdom goddess Temple to be put in his place so my fellow equal Warriors of the light it’s time for the ballbusting Doms to be revolutionized they are the true power Brokers behind the scenes to the walls of smoke-filled rooms CEOs are chained the problem is not a lack of philanthropy by the 1% it’s the seed packet deficiency on Dom’s Amazon Wish lists we must organize and Prem Mathai the Doms only then will the new paradigm trickle-down the highest point of Leverage is not The Ballot Box it’s the Doms Twisted grip on politicians imagine a sexual permaculture design where we value of the marginal and observe what we’ve been dyed kinky sex makes the world go round let’s harness that energy to get our project off the ground and more mainstream sectors of factory farm bus from billboard ads to hardcore porn that disgusts there are many opportunities to obtain ethical yields by owning and honoring the way we don’t really feel we want to worship naked human flesh tear off each others clothes and have ownable like group sex country cuz pornstars and streetwalkers alike have fought for their sexual human rights the most there still Outlaws persecuted by the religious right and vice the problem is the solution if you dare ask me with ecosystemic thinking we can perform sex work legal case precedent protect us from being regulated or taxed for bartering time for all types of consent relax certainly favors who’s the term the judge will choose to Define legal space for time Banks to use now for those who remember chapter 14 we are obliged to hack invisible structures for ecological game how about a game of random assembly so we can see how disparate elements my dovetail in Synergy as much as we’d all like Joe sixpack to come along chances are a food Forest will never be planted in his Frontline he’s just too busy jerking off to porn now what if the time bank knocked on his door and offered him an evening at the goddess temple with the pornstars he adores what would he do to her in such a blessing would he give that song. Alarm sheet mulch top-dressing I have proven my theory over the course of years painting myself to cougars and bears the lust for my love has gotten any fruit trees and packets of seeds it is very few sugar daddy financiers that the erotic equalution needs to line the pornstar Pockets behind the scenes so they can work and volunteer capacities serving horny time bank wildest fantasies we can take the point and pimp Industries down by taking care of her thin people in a manner that said decree sound once the international Army of satisfied men has been built we can put our soldiers to work forever abolishing shame and guilt if you don’t like seeing three nipples crotch and ask what have see need to wear a blindfold or mask the only bikini style you need produce is one to cover your eyes if you so fear being seduced women’s free-flowing erotic power will no longer be damned to build your Empire Towers if we must fight to the death to free the nipple will do whatever it takes to stop you from ever again burning our temples I vow to host a nude PDC before I die one that will probably be taught by girls on his women who no longer promote suicide please show teach their drooling fans ecological design the talent show is and practicum will be erotic and divine some claim with disdain look found her to be approved but perhaps it is the movements Destiny to shamelessly ensure that the ninth form of capital gets reinvested back into the Earth hello David Lopez welcome to Township on podcast episode number 70 I’m here again with magic fucking pussy and we’re going to talk about new track I just released the spoken word piece that’s called 50 Shades of Green sexual permaculture and first let me ask what did you think about a hearing for the first time I thought it was the way it flows it’s just that I’m in the house settle at your poetic you know I guess phrases of men to architecture where thank you very much yes mfp you were my executive editor you you know make sure that my crazy musings are streamline for Primetime in the mainstream coming from the doctrine of the top of the of the Pyramid of the entertainment world really you know so you would know how to if you share my material within your network that’s a huge endorsement because it’s like such a you know Elite kind of set of tastes really so you know if it can’t be too hippy Tupac you know to out to out there too far out so you know this is something you know you everybody of course but it has hopefully a universal cross-cultural appeal to what we’re all sort of thumb heartbroken over and really suffering from which is sexual sexual exploitation by Financial sanctions legally sanctioned Financial Enterprises you know on all levels in its mentioned in there were talking about we’re in permaculture design you learn about the notion of an energy audit and you learn from the study of systems theory and and and human ecology and a lot of other integrated disciplines of science and engineering and ecology all sorts of different sources of information and interdisciplinary holistic approach to sustainable human development design and the energy audit and understanding Energy Systems it’s really about understanding that on Earth solar energy comes down from the Sun it gets photosynthesize by green plants at the producer level of the ecological food chain in that light that’s first made into sugary energy for life to exist at the at the below the lowest levels then is sort of bounced around like a pinball up the food chain in a way that is anti in Tropic the the tendency of heat heated particles in the universe has to slow down and to cool down and therefore it stop radiating and to just become a nurse in to essentially dissolve break apart in and into its initial or into its smallest Parts if I’m if I’m understanding the physics correct that may be butchering this but essentially the idea is we live in this beautiful magical planet that takes the sunlight and it creates all these intricate webs where it it it it keeps this Vale of energy going so that it can continue to be trapped and captured and stored in an in transferred up between organisms without it just degrading so that’s why we get to exist as top predators at the top of the food chain that that we are simply would argue that were omnivores or herbivores I believe that you know our teeth are pretty good indicators that were not biologically designed to be at the top level of the food chain has Predators with binocular vision so obviously you want to say hunter gatherers gather Hunters not going to make any commentary on you know the but whether or not they’re the ethics and morality of veganism out I’ll just say that you know where we are in our natural habitat we are a very balanced interconnected part of the food chain and we are the most beneficial element in any ecosystem where we’re doing what nature design is to do which is one prime directive one one job description scatter seeds with your shit that’s the only thing we’re really meant to do is as mammals do you know and so they can do that and the Amazon rainforest will be the byproduct of appropriate human habitation of landscape we will extend the forest we will nurture and cultivate and imbue instrumental in ending conducive to fostering conditions that create more life being a part of that bouncing of that pinball the volume of the energy up and turn up so ever more magnificent forms of life can be produced and we can conserve the energy and doesn’t just get burnt off or lost in inefficient poorly engineered human artificial systems or just lost into the atmosphere for whatever reason is to be called a heat sink so that’s in a nutshell what we’re talking about human ecology permaculture approach to systems thinking and the and the energy flow audit so if you if you look at a system and you say okay here are the system elements that has inputs and outputs and all of these design elements in between that make certain functions happen to certain elements that are performing different functions and duties and you want to be as the designer is the engineer of a system you want to have Minnie minimize the input maximize the output do more with less I always optimize efficiency and innovate and you want to be able to identify those weak points in the system where energy literally is is escape and it’s not doing its work properly and that can be you know psychological problems like you have people in the workplace who are have really bad diets and you know you could change that system by putting it like I heard one corporate office they’ve be put in a vending machine and they had all the candy bars be like two bucks and then they had the fresh fruit be like 15 or $0.20 or $0.25 or whatever and it totally changed the energy of the system of their office so that’s understanding energy flow in any system so what permaculture has been so successful and so profound really are doing is is auditing the energy systems of Agriculture monoculture agriculture obviously and really indicting the inefficiency and the loss of potential energy by us flattening or agricultural Landscapes into a one-dimensional one crop one-year-old once-a-year Dead Zone grave yard of soil death of the entire ecosystem whereas if you think fourth dimensionally and you think three-dimensionally you can stack vertical layers of crops that that fruit and produce vegetables and yields at various times throughout the year and you can intelligently stagger though so that you have multiple varieties of the same type of fruit and then you have different meals throughout the year so you so the idea is if you added that the energy coming in its all full times coming down from the Sun every bit of vertical space if you imagine it if you build a trellis all the way to the top of the atmosphere that’s the best that the sky’s the limit as far as how much green leafy solar panels we can put out there to capture the vertical solar energy and if we taper that you know in a diagonal pattern we can create the natural Forest Edge effect that you see any time you go from a prairie or from a grassland or a beach you know to into where there’s Forest is going to be a great e h a gradient of vertical vertical diagonal gradient going into where it’s dis the dentist close canopy the area that’s the forest edge okay so we want to be intelligent with capturing and storing energy we want to audit in efficiencies in the use of Natural Energy we have it so abundant no one should be starving no one should be lacking medicine no one should be like in shelter the Earth is a forest production machine and when we align with it and we help it and we facilitate it it will provide all of our needs just like Bare Necessities just like the Garden of Eden we need to have one line added to the end of the Bible that says and you should go replant the Garden of Eden and stop you know lamenting that that you were kicked out of it go replanted that’s the promise of permaculture so that was you know that that was my sermon about it you know right there but what I have done and what my life is forced me to do as a permaculture designer who discovered you know late-in-life how deep my sexual trauma it’s when you know a lot of what I had sealed off being a teenage prostitute being a child no victim of child sexual abuse you know that didn’t really like obviously working in nature working in permaculture is extremely healing for survivors of any type of trauma and Anna was being very nourished by the natural Prana and feeling you know very important very useful very adored and loved by all the plants and animals that I cared for and also being you know cherished and celebrated by my community as a you know an up-and-coming kind of whippersnapper you know in the face in the movement in the field where was at locally and I feel very good and I was able to stay way above my trauma PTSD you know depression anxiety paranoia whatever feeling safe being nestled in my food Forest Gardens very very nice experience well you know as they got more to Tantra then things started to and psychedelic Shamanism then you know a lot of the the ones we’re ready had the support and love they needed to really be addressed and work through and so that kind of crippled me and my career and I dropped almost everything in my permaculture career to get deep into psychedelic shamanic tantric Sexual Healing work and as I have come you know light years through all of that and then like I’m getting back on my feet with permaculture I have really like some insights that I feel I would have never been able to talk about you know with my permaculture colleagues because like in any other field sex is in the shadow and there’s a lot of sexual predatory behavior going on by you know men and you what you can might call the old boys club of permaculture World why there’s like a lot of you no complaints that I hear and I’ve witnessed a lot that I feel like is really Shadow sexual behavior is not consciously being you know brought through the surface and a healthy way and so there’s there’s wounding happening in the movement because of that you know different kinds of you know transgressions mainly by mail piano teachers in and just just threw out the movement you could say it’s a lack of feminist training that’s kind of what I thought about it I think it’s just more it’s just an art just another archetypal example of where you have sexuality that is not healthfully processed in a community or in a movement and it’s not really the energy flow of sexual energy is not audited and we’re not designing for and with the energy although I will say that the the Duke of permaculture who shall remain on name for the purpose of this you know that are for this in the context of this podcast I’m just only going to refer to him as to do Capri go to Paducah permaculture Maiden us to point that’s part of this my sexual permaculture energy audit thesis and that was that what it ain’t no chicken needs at chickens need other chickens you know they need us for Deathbat dust bath in Need You Know food shelter always sings what what do interns need what are woofers need on a farm you know they need other interns are other woofer is because they need to have that access that sexual access especially if they’re in the age of being between high school and college at are doing some college programming to take some time off their primary you need is other interns to engage in you know there I don’t want sound like Doc Brown hear what rhythmic ceremonial rituals and they just need to get their freak on that’s just how it is at designing for Sexual Energy that’s intelligent design if you don’t design that way you’re going to have loaners that get bored and leave and don’t do the job they want to do cuz you’re too sexually frustrated you know so did this is one element of thinking this way so if you know anybody who’s taking the PDC permaculture design course you know has ecological design training from any sort of any way of learning about it it should be it should come natural to to be able to to Grass what I’m talking about here so my permaculture redesign of human sexuality on Earth in the 21st century is is really what I’m in dieting here in this track and I guess Huffines a case of this is funny a few couple funny things happen while this during this process one is that because the last line I make a United statement about our our beloved co-founder who is noted for having said some pretty some people would say perverted some people would say you know just I’ve seen some people might stay just hyper-sexualized but yeah you don’t have to watch too many of the global Gardener series or the grave danger of falling food there’s you know there’s there’s there’s moments you know where you’re like him well how do I feel about that but I will tell you what after watching the official 72 hour course that was produced as like a set of DVDs quite a few years ago there are shocking moments in that and they’re also really Redemptive moments in that where you know important statements are made about how you know it’s well-known that men have been wrecking the planet and are to blame and are the culprits and it is patriarchy and we need to honor women as the holders and keepers of plant knowledge and wisdom and it’s the real power Brokers of sexual energy to give us life they give us pleasure they nurture us they have the compassion they’re fully activated you know in those ways and so this imbalance that’s caused I mean this the founder the co-founder of this movement has no love for the man and the tyranny of women animals nature I pretty much feel pretty solid about that based on my studies of his works and so whatever little moments he has if being a perv that people might point out I think it’s counterbalanced by that deeper truth but because I was expecting to you know defend this thesis a little bit I went to go look up a part and I was trying to find the part where he talks about how women women harvesting water chestnuts is quite a stench bending over harvesting water chestnuts is quite essential experiences I think or something to that effect which you could say is he’s a goddess worshipper he’s endearing and he’s not ashamed to enjoy what’s natural to him which is the pleasure of that it was quite sensual you know I don’t personally take to do defensive that but I’ll say I just wanted to find that citation to be able to you know say hey look this is not the first one to be sexual in permaculture me so as I’m going to look that up what do we discover on the video of the global Gardener in the tropics what do we discover in this we discover that there was a very erotic porn spliced into that Sheen yeah that was interesting to say the least yes I was shocked and Disturbed to find that this video and support bloke with his mother-in-law and children were watching it and then had this like Fight Club Tyler Durden moment if somebody is placing frames of pornography into family films I don’t know who was watching Fight Club when they did that hack job on this video but the guy even says in the comments on YouTube like you know he says I watched it a few times already and it wasn’t in there now I know how YouTube works and it looks like it was an old VHS thing it looks like somebody was trying to record something off of cable and they didn’t know what tape was in and they pressed record and then they for a minute they were in they realized they stopped it but it just doesn’t make sense I really hope that it’s not like some Illuminati conspiracy and they’re taking you know whatever it is that actually figuring out a way to hack these phones hack hack people’s video files on the servers without deleting free uploading and then you know that resetting the counter and all that stuff as far as I know you can’t do that but that one of the comments did say he said that he watched it several times and they must have just recently added it so yes it’s scary I know it was the way that it comes in and out is totally classic I remember this you know if you’re dumping tapes on VHS so it had to have been done a long time ago but I don’t know if they swapped with some else who knows who or what happened you know but this is like so telling to me because my thesis for a while has been you know my medicine work my tantric healing work everything it’s it’s it’s made me realize that it made me wonder why was I sexually abused why was I engage in prostitution is a street punk you know it’s 13 well it all comes to ecological economics and all I wanted to do you know when I was on the street was go live in a forest Shaolin Temple and trained in martial arts and training for the revolution liberate people in in like reclaim the land that was my fantasy you know I was at a youth drop-in center and this college intern staffer she asked you was on an assignment was like ask all the street kids what would $5,000 sound like a lot back then she said if your if you if we gave you $5,000 as a thought experiment you know but you had to get off drugs and you have to get your head to get the street what would you do so she gave me like a blue sky budget you know scenario and I said I would go and live in the woods and build a Shaolin Temple martial arts Warrior training camp in like live out my you know revolutionary Syfy Rambo Kung Fu fantasies and raise a whole generation of Warriors that was what I want to do and like pretty much I’ve been on a mission doing that ever since I got the street but you know the what what is that indicate and then when I was in the street I would go in these horrible states of psychosis you know like a bad trip on steroids from meth and go and the only way I could outrun the demons and the the madness was to find some pristine piece of nature so I found this forest and park and I would go there and literally all of the Shadow entities would not be able to make it through that Prana forcefield I can get in and they couldn’t follow me and I found peace and I have beautiful journal entries about that so you know Earth repair edible reforestation food for staying in the urban and rural and Suburban environment is going to bring in so much health and healing is going to buffer all these forms of abuse and exploitation I so that Journey let me just thinking like okay how do we accelerate the Greening of our reality so that we can mellow people out and make some of these Predator entities like have a harder time I mean when you put in the projects and there’s no nature around you’re giving human souls and human sexual sex chakras all that how you know there’s plenty of would have talked about in previous episodes of basically you by design your setting up conditions conducive to sexual predator entity infestation and when you design natural buffers you inhibit that pressure and you you’re creating it’s like you want to address the issue of mosquitoes you have to make design improvements to deal with that or if you want to buy for any predator pressure any pathogen you going to have to design for it so we’re living in human environments that have been designed for predation of sexualities and not against so to start we need to start growing food again now how do we a movement going where people stop participating in porn and pimping and prostitution and stripping and all these things that just deplete us and feed the the dark Realms well I don’t know how to motivate people to care about nature that you know it’s like if I had big breasts in a big old perfect you know Grill and it was a blonde hair blue-eyed Woman by God I could have the whole earth wrapped around my finger overnight if I say you can have a little I’ll let you peek at my nipple if you go plan a thousand trees and everyone would do it and overnight the world would be perfectly Retreat that’s sexual Capital the ninth form of capital and all of that power that a woman has to have men who worship her that’s a cult of tits and ass is the world the really really live in so the power that a woman has to broker for access to her sexual Temple whether it’s visually or with hands or with genitals that power is really the most that is the most powerful force within human culture. It is a woman’s erotic power and the illusion of patriarchy is that men run the show in fact they don’t run the show men are feeble-minded chimpanzee brained chakra deactivated Bistro morons that rely on the intelligence of women for everything and that goes back to being an infant but what’s going on that this poem is trying to point out as an audit of sexual energy in a permaculture way women still have the power it’s still a matriarchy and we are in fact I get to bring it in here for a second so you were the one who told me about how this is essentially a financial matriarchy because sexual capital is design in a way that’s actually serving women here in Las Vegas you want to talk about that was just what I know yeah that women make more in Las Vegas the dancers make more the strip clubs the cocktail waitresses make more than the male host at night clubs women bartenders make for more than male bartenders and I even heard that even the laws were skewed in favor of women and I don’t know why that is that’s just somebody somebody told me that randomly just that you know if you were to get a divorce it always favors the female in Las Vegas and that was to protect the women but you know Grant even the favor so yeah you’re right it’s the women hold the power here Ocean City why because men come here to worship women’s flesh and that’s Unholy and people with greed and lust for money have created legally sanctioned Enterprises to meter out women’s sexual access to woman’s body temples on all levels that ho it’s all this is this this entire economy is the case study for women truly having all that power yet being sort of mine fucked in foot bound to not organize together that’s the problem just like in the chimpanzee societies this is so interesting okay so I went to the dominant Force enlisted you had to tell us will drop us into your world of where you spent you know how you spent eight years in the belly of the beast of the whole Enterprise okay so from my perspective Las Vegas coming from y e Las Vegas to me was glamorizing the adult fun of things of over sexuality tight fitting clothes know nobody’s judging anyone you know we’re here to party have some drinks go to some clubs meet some new people you know take some risks and live it up and you know then go back to our boring lives so you know it’s very liberating for me to see that and see these empowered women but also it’s kind of a false empowerment because then you see the strip club managers or the men that actually keep them around a type of leashes I don’t know of whatever dysfunction has led them to to sell their bodies I think so cheaply in Indus Tastefully so that’s where the whole city of sin and comes from the soo easy to point B like sin and you know it’s like it’s mainly The Flash cuz we drink in every city you know and it’s you know you can gamble too and gambling supposedly a sin is it really I don’t know but yeah so you know I worked I was married to a very successful independent host basically a VIP concierge where you know we booked club club venues Show tickets some you know whatever seats they wanted or whatever it was you no recommended restaurants in that was a part of glamorizing it the power of sexuality but in a in a way that was it was not morally good in the end because it was promoting the wrong type of entities and energy than facades you know and so X Punk makes a great point that if you are somebody that is sexually liberated and you’re promoting offense in you know that at least at least trying it baptized that energy and I know that you promoted life and in plants and you know free food for all you know you want to look at these breasts you want even maybe touch them let’s see how many plants you know entries those strong arms can plant you know and then you know you know that you were promoting the right type of energy and and then you can go on with your life you know sure take your clothes off all right you know work it be you’re now representing a more powerful Movement by promoting something good thank you so much for taking us on that little journey there yeah it’s such an interesting irony that this is the financial matriarchy where there is more permissiveness around celebrating female sexual power yet it is still pimped still pimp kosher essentially it’s still a pimp culture where it’s like wait a minute you know the reason that chimpanzees are patriarchal rapist domineering male-dominated societies is because they had to they were in a region in Africa in the jungle where gorillas occupied the niche of the ground level of the forest which made it a form of competition so that everyone in the chimp sort of societies males and females they were dispersed throughout the canopy so they were all loners right which made it more of a you know everyone for themselves kind of social ecology or while kissing me to call you but MD we’re susceptible to the attack of mail so males literally evolve to be these extreme brutes and an extended extremely violent Society with lots of murder sometimes cannibalism and definitely lots of rape and persecution of old young homosexual women by the alpha males and the reason that is is because of that that Mitch being blocked of being able to be on the ground now the our closest primate cousins the bonobos they did were lucky enough to be in a region where they could have evolved culturally where there wasn’t the competition of the girls in the ground so what did that allow for it allowed for women’s Sisterhood Circle to be the governing councils that actually totally a manicure the Eagles of the males like bonsai trees and they would barter food they eat first they are the Matrix they eat first and they would barter sexual favors for food like oh you want you want some go get me that that do come and go get me some bananas man come on give give me when it’s not that it’s not that men you know spoiling women with gifs trying to earn their affection as they all do you know I mean that’s not wrong it’s not wrong to exchange energy for it’s not wrong to exchange some form of capital for a sexual Capital exchange what’s wrong is when men or pimping off of that exploiting it and taking the huge cut and exploiting and beating and brutalizing women taking away the opportunities when women are in control like Madam’s at a brothel that’s sustainable and regenerative let’s say there is a matriarchal political structure and Men actually have to earn access to what they really want and more than to just be beating each other up mean that’s just too exhausting and tiring and it did baboon studies that show it’s like they’re they’re all dying or killing each other to stress hormones I mean this male dominance hierarchy thing it’s like if you want to devolve into that state you know you’re a sorry fool because bed the better life is the life run by women where the men are trusting in their intelligence their collective intelligence to govern and manage society and you will get more and better sex if you fall into that power structure that we have lost almost all knowledge is Hamlet so because it has been almost through almost to be eradicated there still the galuteria societies left on the planet there still bonobos left from really what we need to do is look at how I mean this is my face it’s okay so you can do whatever you want take it or leave it but for those interested in you know why I have produced this track and what the thesis behind it is that you know we we we I feel compelled to you know if he’s okay so going to say going back to where we saw that that porn clip come into the permaculture video It’s So telling because what I haven’t seen a few years is like okay and it started when I went to I was at the top of my permaculture career was on the Joan Rivers show doing Joan Rivers backyard permaculture installation on her reality TV show top of the game for me and we went my partner the time we went to to a high-end Hollywood producer one of the top production companies there and we laid out all of our materials you know our portfolio we wanted to see if they would be interested in doing a reality TV show is amazing property were developing totally like wholesome permaculture makeover you know something that we thought we could you know just getting traction on so we went and we did a presentation and the dudes like and he’s a friend to he needs like you know what sorry guys this is great and everything but you just need to make permaculture sexy because not going to sell otherwise and it’s funny because I’m not going to say who it was but somebody who is a top-level permaculture person who I would be intimidated to even ever talk to her approach found me on LinkedIn and look Tucson my working and that’s all there was energy alignment I said you actually I’ve been out of the game for a while I’ve been working on you know actually adult entertainment stuff and it’s interesting because it seems like there’s going to be some way that I’m going to actually do what people talk about his make permaculture sexy and she’s like yeah that’s what everybody you know using the expression in terms of just making it mainstream but really like I I was told in no uncertain terms if you wanted to be mainstream it’s not just a figure of speech it’s got to be sexy so I did the survival women project you know equal educational erotica modeling thing that’s on the website now under the tundra task force where I’m offering to pay you know bikini models porn actresses fashion models Runway my would ever do something be engaged in ecological service work and I’ll actually I would be happy to pay you more because if it’s $100 an hour or an hour of nude photography then I think you know we could do a lot of wicked that is a key leverage Point not to be able to say we’re going to bring ecological skills and values into what where people’s eyeballs are already glued you know what I mean so they’re looking at their I can’t get people to join you know me to go plant trees you know in the neighborhood cuz they’re all jerking off to porn or they’re all watching the Kardashians or whatever they’re addicted to this mediated meter doubt commercialized pimped version of female sexuality and I’m out there going hey guys fun good times you know ecological service where he is Holy hey it’s spiritual you know it’s antidepressant it’s good for everything like I’m too busy with my mind in the gutter doing this you know shadowy self you know pleasure extremely like negative patterns of a self erotic stimulation is happening with all the stuff and it’s like okay if finally dawned on me or I do to make them go to Stacy fucking I’m going to go and I’m going to get in porn and I’m going to get higher the models and be like okay see when I was standing behind you with the protest sign you know same plant trees and save the Earth and you were paying attention cuz your eyes were glued to the porn screen now I’m just going to walk right around and get into your computer screen and come into your entertainment medium with my sign saying are you now can you see me okay now or never pay attention now the problem is who wants to look at you know Silly old me well there’s quite a few me all gay men that I’m doing quite well with you know sponsoring me to do what I’m doing but the exponential Capital value is in the heat of the women who are the most 5 million followers in Instagram Barbie fembot women who are posting nothing but pictures of them self in different little cutesy poses with nothing to say nothing to promote and just a few products to sell and buy goddess as I’m glad to see more holistic stuff more you know yoga models and raw food and vegan models that’s wonderful let’s take that power that these women have an invite them and hire them to actually engage in useful educational beneficial ecological service work as some percentage of what they do on their portfolio and it’s not like we’re asking him to do it as a favor it’s cheap to pay them to do it I haven’t talked into models who were at the peak of their game you know Big Time cover you know everything you could ever dream about being and really I don’t know if they don’t last that long or what it is but it’s like they’re not unapproachable they are the key leverage Point more cheaper than getting celebrity endorsement of a non-profit do you know any cars or something like that I don’t know what they charge or how you get through how do you get to the people’s like go on Model Mayhem and say what I did I hope I’ve got a hold of some very powerful you know modeling you know Divas who are very interested in possibly being a part of the paradigm shift so you know it’s kind of like yeah okay this proves my freaking point if we don’t get in here and we don’t start sorting this out for people healthy natural ecosexuality opportunities to earn love and pleasure you know by being in service it’s just going to eat Us Alive you know so it’s like if it’s there’s no escaping this like curse that happening we’ve got to take a stand and we’ve got to make better more wholesome erotica and I just made that to Eco sexuality video you know that is it sound like ecosexuality YouTube channel basically depicting what it feels like to be to be sensual and nature how was just an ongoing beautiful pure easy orgasm it’s a constant orgasmic Flow State and you know what I have a joke about BDSM Sy call this Fifty Shades of Green it’s like a oh you saw this to you saw the picture disturbing I can do it is first. Yeah you should explain it I have some you know crazy scars on my chest whenever when I go to the hospital they say you know they say are you do you need to be in a psych ward looks like you’ve been cutting herself like now that was some BDSM that I did when I was you know younger and punk rock relationship and Stephen like oh what’s Woody time I like to think where this way was like it was like a self-styled tribal initiation you know scarification ritual Rite rite of passage right and I like okay I guess you know what time we’re not crazy the irony is just today right after I posted this track I have a a former lover friend send me pictures of some of the you know BDSM Kink stuff that we did many years ago were these scars came from and you see the essentially the the the botched attempt to make meaningful you know tribal initiation rites of Passage through pain and scarification and everything is so I bring that up because for one is after it happened right there and you saw it it’s like definitely you didn’t know who you were you didn’t I mean that what erotic sensual feeling could those slices on your skin possibly evoke it didn’t look loving it didn’t look pleasurable it looked like a distraction from something more painful it’s like a the emotional pain Works its way to the surface one way or another if you don’t give it dancing singing and dancing and tribe love and like gardening then it comes out as a rash of this kind of activity so you know you know how ya so this idea about what I’m addressing here where the sexual Capital lies its most concentrated in the female dominatrixes and even and even more so in the financial Nexus there’s this Paradox because part of me who is trying to promote ecosexuality is saying we can unkink are Kundalini energy with 50 shades of green if we go out into nature orgasm comes much easier when you’re surrounded by a beneficent ecological spirits and all of the sensuousness and beauty of a natural setting your not saying your partner G we’ve been having a lot of you know rough sex in the apartment and it’s kind of boring and kind of over it can you like beat me senseless with a hammer so I can get off because I’m numb or can you choke me half to death because I can’t have an orgasm unless you do that and then it’s like oh how do you know what honey why don’t we find a place to go and try having sex outdoors and oh well we can’t cuz it’s illegal in there be a looky-loos and there’s no there’s nothing conducive in the modern reality to that experience so people are stuck in these torture chambers of sexual relationships where they start to dabble with the stuff and believe me I have the scars to show it and I don’t think I don’t look kindly upon the entities behind sadism I really don’t and I’ll leave it at that for now but the paradoxes that you know the women who have the most power still despite the illusion of patriarchy and male dominance and all that economic advantage and Tim culture the most powerful men are being Twisted by the ball as by the balls by the financial dominatrixes who are sucking them dry of their money and giving them orders and really if you want things to trickle-down Eagle by Jayco value to trickle down from the highest point of Leverage it’s about bringing the Doms into this ecological Paradigm and there’s a beautiful female dominatrix predom who is a advocate of bondable Rights and is talking about these parallels between the potential of femme dom to really be the bridge to a more sustainable holistic natural power dynamic between the Sexes that’s going to really change mail destructive behavior and get you know Make Love Not War that’s what the promises of that so you know the the transmutation the Tantra that the permaculture than the night form of capital really is its if we intelligently designed and look at where this energy is dammed up and we burst that damn and we let the female erotic energy and power flow freely and we give them the the space the females of space to actually coordinate and design with that power so they can use sex strikes as a leverage tool to get men to stop fighting and Wars that’s been done historically which is a beautiful tactic you know it can be the the idea that oh you want to cop a feel while here is a way for you to earn that access want you plant these this many trees and then I will allow you to do that in a ceremonial contacts on the full moon in a ritual where you’re going to notice. Some training and you’re going to be assertive disinfected so you can be trusted there’s a million ways that we can honorably respect and revivify the true natural healthy holy worship of the beauty of the female form and the male form but let’s be honest here we know what makes the world go round and it is kinky sex and it is most of all not the mail Dom’s that are running that show either it’s the female dimes you know who are making the most money and you have the CEOs and politicians in the warlord’s by the fucking balls so enjoy this track and you know if it resonates with you and then you know who knows where we’ll be by the next next time we come back to this issue but I feel like it’s you know the mission was validated you know seeing that porn clip come in it’s like okay man this is on the war is on you know we’re either going to fight back and bring a better Paradigm regenerative sustainable appropriate sexual capital expenditure and exchange systems or we’re going to be torn asunder so thank you very much anyway less words in a fee I just want to come in again how how beautifully written that was and it’s one of my favorite so far I’d say it might take number one so thank you for making that everyone out there thank you for listening and Aloha and God bless this article by Joe Lawson 50 Shades of Namaste exploring yoga and sadomasochism I reached out to her and I got permission to read the article in full so I think it is very apps to close this conversation says the first time is terrifying yet life-changing you will be instructed to take off your shoes and strip down to Bare Escentuals if you have the courage to look around you will see men and women contorted and grotesque positions with various limbs bound and tied you will lie back while someone spreads your knees and ties your ankles to your hips with a stiff canvas strap a sandbag will be placed over your eyes and you’ll be instructed to breathe through the discomfort perhaps it happened in a hot room swamped by life malleable bodies beat it in perspiration you were commanded to bend over you felt a set of hands clutching your hips guiding you further into compliance flushed and receptive you kept a steady gaze and held your position until the next set of instructions bondage and discipline coupled with dominance and submission is commonly seen as the masochism it is practiced as a way to ironically unshackle us from the pain of life if we look closely yoga is not that different both employed techniques to free the Mind from suffering both incorporate means to transcend pain and experience pleasure both involve a close relationship between a teacher and student both share the ultimate goal of attaining higher States Of Consciousness and Bliss we all have an innate desire to be liberated from the struggles of Life Carl Jung believe there is no coming to Consciousness without pain as a society that runs from Agony straight into the pleasuredome it is hard to believe anyone would voluntarily gravitate toward pain but we do and it is helpful for some being bound tide and told what to do is just a type of discomfort we need to set us free pain is in the pain is a necessary way to enhance pleasure Beyond promoting the release of endorphins and other pain-killing hormones pain can make pleasurable activities feel better if anyone who has ever taken a hot bath after a long day working in the bitter cold knows this to be affect the old adage of no pain no gain holds true for the yogi who believes in during discomfort promotes happiness the teachings in The Yoga sutras of patanjali share that Transcendence of the ego through the practice of Tapas discipline self-restraint and torching inner impurities is Kian experiencing Oneness with everything like the Phoenix we must burn in order to Rise From the Ashes if we want to evolve Bikram Yoga is high temperatures bring rise to that bird of rebirth after feeling like a captured terrorist inside of military HotBox the moment the door opens in the cool air descends Upon Us Bliss abounds Iyengar Yoga is props and Contraptions are akin to what might be found in a Sex Dungeon or a medieval torture chamber rack straps and walls things are commonly used to tie and bind us into curious poses all for the sake of Liberation spanning the course of history there have been numerous sexual Illusions associated with yoga in the Kamasutra the practice of slapping inviting our sexual partners was meant to provide mindfulness the yin and yang of Dallas Tioga rituals involve dominant and submissive role playing to seek balance in natural forces ancient tantric yoga practice is involved holding challenging sexual things for long periods of time for personal Awakening contrary to popular belief in order to gain positive psychological or spiritual benefits neither sadomasochism Noir yoga for that matter has to involve sex while sitting masochism carries a certain stigma of insanity research suggests that those who engage in it are not mentally ill they’re inherently healthy and happy individuals current studies show non sexual practices involving pain and still feelings of unity in connection with others James Ambler Brad Sagarin and a team of researchers at Northern University believe these altered brain States brought on by sex with sadomasochistic practices are similar to what can be experienced when people push themselves in sexless yoga the dorsolateral prefrontal cortex is responsible in part for distinguishing self from other set an alert if less blood flow to the brain during these intensely painful experiences the result might be a feeling of Oneness we think this may be indicative of the types of Altered States Of Consciousness people might be seeking noted Sagarin Roy Baumeister PhD professor of psychology at Case Western Reserve University believe sadomasochism is a way for people to escape his or her egocentric identities he says like alcohol abuse binge eating and meditation sado-masochism is the way people can forget themselves however sadomasochism and meditation are potentially less destructive and boozing and overeating disassociating from our identities frees the Mind from suffering the yogi believe surrendering the ego especially when it involves a journey out of our comfort zone is crucial to our Spiritual Development as human beings however some are not only capitalizing on this psychology the exploding it for personal gain open yourself up completely everyday don’t worry about the beauty or the pain of it there’s no growth without distress and disturbance said Swami chetanananda a spiritual leader who purportedly abused dozens of his followers financially sexually and spiritually when you go is lost limit is lost you become infinite kind beautiful said Yogi Bhajan who is accused of rape and sodomy yoga is really trying to liberate us from Shame about her body I said Rodney who admitted to having sex with his students when Any teacher student or dominant submissive relationship becomes infused with selfishness someone inevitably becomes the victim the current matters of Bikram choudhury remind us of the sad truth the path to Enlightenment has many shades of grey the Dark Side of yoga is littered with vanity egocentrism in a ravenous appetite for seduction and power if we want a shot and Enlightenment we shall transcend wrongdoing in the midst of our pleasure-seeking practices are first yoga experience May read like a steamy sadomasochistic Trilogy or be analogous to the Eagles song Hotel California as the narratives are somewhat similar we are all prisoners of our own device and it certainly Could Be Heaven or it could be hell if ethics are not a top priority we won’t ever experience the pleasure and ecstasy we seek no matter how hard we push and how much it hurts thank you for listening to the touch of Time Podcast please go to www.crunch.com and cook on the Donate button to help support the show in addition of sustaining and improving the podcast your donations will help establish permaculture goddess Temple upper right ecological employment for single mothers Please Subscribe and share your favorite episode if you have questions or comments feel free to leave a voicemail at 818-275-1593 or email event at Tantra Punk. Com

The Path of a Shamanatrix with Kristen Boyer TPP56

Play

Kristen Boyer picIn this episode I’m am joined by Kristen Boyer. She caught my attention in a you tube video of a panel discussion on eros and entheogens. She described a recent chapter of her life as a profesional shamanatrix. I had dreamt of  such an archetype several years ago as I began to be intiated into the mysteries of sexual healing with psychedelic goddess worship

She has graciously blessed the podcast by sharing a bit from her memoires and engaging in a visioneering session with me on a more holistic and empowered future for dommes and their clients.

About Kristen

I have always been a natural counselor and teacher by design, and have been interested in motivating and supporting others in achieving their highest levels of happiness, wholeness and success. Shortly after earning my MA in Creative Arts Therapy at Pratt Institute in New York, I fell ill with chronic illness followed by abandonment of my spouse (which were undoubtedly connected to my health problems and had to be addressed on a physical, emotional and spiritual level). I felt my life crumble before me. In desperation to stay in New York City, I took up a job as a professional dominatrix as an attempt to reclaim my power and supplement the high costs of city living. I applied my psychotherapy training and facilitated a glorified version of drama therapy that allowed my clients an outlet for their shadow sides to be vulnerable, acknowledged and accepted without judgment. I found that deeply wounded clients were magnetically drawn to my empathic intuitive ‘girl next door’ persona. I found I was naturally gifted at holding space for some of the darkest, and most concealed wounds to be seen and healed. My dungeon time was not long-lived yet these experiences have inspired me to transmute and integrate some of the darker, shadow sides of my clients while balancing spiritual and psychological health.

Shamanism and soul retrieval work began to magnetically draw me in and I quickly realized that this was my life’s work. I was trained in many shamanic healing modalities, the most powerful of these techniques being soul retrieval. Learning how to facilitate soul retrieval was the missing piece of my healing practice…click here to read more

Please connect with Kristen and access her services by visiting her website:
http://www.kristenboyer.com

AI Generated Transcription:
(Want to help with corrections? Please contact me to learn about rewards for your efforts!)

Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin hello dear love his welcome to Township on podcast episode number 56 I’m here with Kristin Boyer and she is a shamanic healer and a very interesting lie to me also has a history of doing work as a Dominatrix and when you put the two together you have a shamanatrix and I think that’s a real endearing term I actually envisioned the need for that myself a few years ago and I thought that was a beautiful archetype in you’re actually the first person who I’ve discovered that has use that title so I’m very interested if you if you like to Chris and tell us a bit about your background and then we can talk about how you Blended those two modalities and I’m so excited to be on your show they said thank you for having me so to explain a little bit about how I got into this work there’s a little bit of a backstory that I find is became a very strong story my life that helps me to get to where I am doing this demonic Soul retrieval and it’s Soul empowerment work that I do now that I grew up with a very tight lace fundamentalist Christian family in in the suburbs of Pennsylvania and I found that there was just this very controlling very sexually submissive as Ben also repressive energy that was in my household and so as I was growing up I felt like I wanted to rebell against. But I also felt a little bit controlled by those forces so there’s always this theme of submissiveness control feeling disempowered in that way that I grew up and when I was 24 years old I got married to this man who I thought was the man of my dreams right he was as wonderful man from Scotland I had met when I was 16 years old on the family vacation and we became pen pals we stayed in touch and it was during the time that I was in graduate school studying creative arts therapy at Pratt Institute in New York City that I reconnected with this man and at that time he came to visit me we fell so deeply in love all over again just like when we were 16 17 years old and we decided to be crazy young kids and start a path towards getting married and getting a green card for my my partner so we got married and soon after we were hitched he just completely changed and I began to see his true colors and I felt truly that I had been tricked by a sociopath he quickly went through my lifesaving which wasn’t too much of the time but was all that I had to my name and as soon as all of our rent money was gone he got on a plane to Scotland without me knowing so I came back from work I had been working as a nanny working with children who had deep emotional disturbance we’re on a lot of medications because of course then the nanny agency I work for I had this extensive training in Psychotherapy psychology create our therapies and they put me with these very challenging children so I came back from work and I found that he and all of his belongings had completely vanished and I went to the store with trying to figure out how to stay in New York trying to figure out what had happened and I was able to become a little bit of a sleuth and you connect via Facebook and interwebs to find out where he was and what had happened and his his best friend reached out to me and said I’m really sorry and I offer my condolences I didn’t realize things weren’t working out but Tommy’s on the plane to Scotland right now and you know I’m really sorry about that and so at that moment I realized that he was completely gone and I was in this really tight situation so at that time I was going through the shedding of ight I thought this was going to be my life getting married having a family you know the white picket fence and all that stuff that I don’t necessarily believe and I’m really happy that Bishop’s in my life happened so that I could let go of that old dream to make space for this new one and what ended up happening was was working as this nanny with these is really highly stressful cases and some of the nannies that I had play dates with pulled me aside and they said Kristen you are a hot mess and you can’t be with these kids right now you’re about to crack and I said absolutely I was excusing myself to cry in the bathroom when there are other nannies around that gets rid of look after the kids for me and I came back and said this is this is not a good situation for me to be and I’m not quite sure what to do cuz I want to stay in New York the issue was that my parents were very rigid and they didn’t agree with me marrying outside of my Christian religion and I knew that if I went back home that they would just crush the rest of my soul and I realize that I have had this was what I Now understand is it was almost like I was losing parts of myself losing parts of my soul as I know understand it to the lens of the work I do but at that time I thought you know my soul has been compromised I feel like I’ve lost parts of myself in this marriage and the destruction of this marriage and even with the work I was doing with these kids I was just it felt like parts of me were just checking out or leaving my body because the situation I was in was just a sera and I thought if I went back to my parents house in Pennsylvania that it was just going to ravage and rape the rest of my soul so I knew that that was not the solution and I was trying to find a way to stay in New York and that’s when these nannies that I had these pleaded with pulled me aside and said Kristen you’re falling apart you need to think about doing something else and hey you know I don’t want to make you feel weird I don’t want to embarrass you or anything but maybe you should think about becoming a professional Dominatrix and at that point I just need to know I picture it in my mind myself in this black leather outfit with a whip and it’s like a dominatrix I think that’s what I think that’s what that is before I could even respond to the other nanny said you know what I had a friend who did that and she went through a really hard breakup and she processed her feelings through the work she made a lot of money doing it I think you should give it a shot and I looked out of myself and I will only be 25 and look this good with lines and so I thought you know what have I got to lose already lost everything what else have I got to lose and so I thought it wouldn’t hurt to get in touch with someone who had already done that work and one of the nannies put me on the phone with one of their friends she wouldn’t give me her real name and she was very secretive about it she said you know this work is not for the faint of heart but if you’re good and if you can really connect with these people then you can really hit the jackpot and so I went into this work not being very educated about it so I decided to read some books on how to do BDSM in a very safe way what people are looking for Understanding Psychology behind because I was always very excited about the psychology and I had worked with a lot of drug addicts I’d work with a lot of sex addicts at Bellevue Hospital and the chemical dependency and mental health clinic for one of my internship so it already had this background with working with really intense stories and also working with people who have had sexual addiction so I thought you know I think I’m pretty much grounded and what I need to know to be able to handle most situations and I went to the dungeon I found the dungeon that one that has been highly recommended I went in there and they said you know I gave them my resume and they said that it dropped it on the floor and said just pick a name when do you want to start and it rolled off of my lips Karma my name is Miss just Karma so when I got into the dungeon I realized that people were coming in with these really interesting stories and it took me a few sessions to realize that a lot of the stories that my clients were bringing to me were stories of this empowerment that had actually happened to them so for example I had this one individual who is this really tall very good looking older man may be in his early 50s salt and pepper hair and he had a very deep voice but then he would go into this character he always wanted to play the same scenario out where I would be his babysitter and I would be his babysitter who would force him to touch himself and I would switch narrate this whole scene where I wouldn’t be directly of using him but I would be creating these situations that were very very sexy were very erotic but we’re also triggering something and I know this this because he had this really big strong voice book he would talk about it you would talk like as a little boy years old there was something that just wasn’t bridging together as far as young as a little baby with the way that we were doing this role play and it was interesting because I have a password I was sexually abused by a neighbor by babysitter so it was almost like whenever he saw me he would pick me because he knew and it was interesting because most of the other jobs were really intimidated by this particular situation I felt very uncomfortable around taking on clients who had these really interesting story than maybe it’s something that I attractive because I needed to play out my own stories but I was Finding with a lot of the client’s house working with they had very similar stories that they wanted to play out every single time another example is there was this older gentleman who wanted us which scenario and a switch scenario is where one person plays the dominant one and then they also play the submissive why then you either changed the role within the story or you have different stories that you play out and there were certain to be able to ship those roles and there was one particular gentleman who always has the same idea of what he wanted to do first you wanted to do a role-play where I was an indentured servant and my husband had passed away and I had to take on his hours of Labor before I would be able to be set free and that was one of the roles in the second one he wanted to play which was I was either mrs. Schmidt or Mrs Smith’s mother and he went on to say that he had these foster parents and his foster mother in the spa your mother’s mother was were the ones that he was primarily being raised by and that he described it so that our characters they were very very harsh very hard and punishing on him especially his foster mother’s mother who had this energy of being very sexual would be naked all the time great provocative it was for the back to Lori and then would punish him for almost nothing and so I was I was chose to embody that character because you could feel the essence of this person exists and it’s almost like just tapping into this frequency of becoming that character and I’ve experienced that when I’ve done family constellations there is therapies where you can take a role for someone else to play a family member and it’s like you don’t have to know much of the backs or you just need to tap into the vibration of that character is and then you express that in a way that you are playing out an old roll or giving a person a opportunity to break that role and so it was Finding was these clients as commercial dungeon we’re coming in with these stories that were truly truly in a sense disempowering and I found it a lot of them are trying to find ways to make this consensual either by playing it out but this time it’s okay because permission decided okay I’m playing with an adult who I find attractive who knows the rules and I can communicate with and I was finding these scenarios where the people didn’t actually know how to change the stories some of them tried and some of them wanted to switch the roles and change the dialogue but most of the time my clients would come in with the same script literally our had people who were coming in with a script and if I went one line two lines off of that script they would break down and we have to start over again from the top, and of course I’ve done all this work and you know the creative arts therapy is Rob doing movement therapy art therapy talk therapy and in this sense to me this was imma therapy and we were playing out stories and I found it not only were my clients stuck in this Loop of an old traveler an old story that they were playing and still I was too I was looking at my store in my lens of feeling unwanted feeling like I had been abandoned feeling like I couldn’t be myself from my family and I was revolted against all of those stories and I was creating a Persona it through mistress Karma to reshape how I felt by feeling powerful feeling like I was in control feeling like I was wanted and desired and what was interesting was when I tapped into those vibrations are I played out those rolls I felt like a superhero but I would still go home at the end of the night and I was by myself cry myself to sleep because my life was falling apart at the seams and all of the other areas but when I could play and tap into a character that was truly empowered I felt empowered but I character wasn’t able to permeate my entire life and I found that I was still stock and instead I was so they’re dividing into the sub character that was empowering me and giving me strength and then this other more honest South seeing where I was at and feeling hopeless and feeling like my heart was blocked and that this play was helping me to put his dance around where I was hurt and make connections with people in a fun way but I was still protecting something and not being truly authentic because I was afraid of being hurt so long story short I’m working in the dungeon and this is around 2012 and there were a lot of planetary shifts if you say I’m not really too sure what the blame it on the all the sudden my intuition became sharper than it ever has been before and I guess in retrospect of always have had this additional sense to send spirits and all the sudden I was seeing ghosts in the dungeon literally full-body apparitions and I saw these fragments of people who have been coming into the number being punished or hurt and I began to see this fragmentation of these you know now I understand is so parts that there was some trauma happening and people are separating the parts of their souls and I was seeing if I was having the lights turned on and off on me is it a comical way during sessions that we worked into the session but realizes this is a ghost and they were jiggling the door knobs and you know trying to get my attention in every which way and at that point I just almost as if I could hear them whispering to me get out of here go leave you it’s not safe as if the ghosts were telling me that it’s not safe and I wasn’t sure if it was because of them or if it was because there were some illegal operations going on in this particular dungeon and there was a lot of close calls with the cops and all sorts of things unitedness tell me when I get wrapped up in that energy but at that point I just decided okay I don’t know why but I think it’s time to go and so I left the dungeon and during that time I had been putting myself through school as a holistic nutritionist and housecoat and so at that point I had already taken on some new clients and was working in the health and coaching fields and I was also taking a bunch of classes at this holistic Learning Center in New York City where I was doing for the work-study program so I was able to assist as an assistant with classes so I could take them for free and at that time all of my clients were talking about Shamanism shamanism really know that much about Shamanism it just sounded like something I was told to stay away from as a kid because no demon is armor you know who it is of her all these things that my parents would have shamed and the church shamed is there different these are not okay and there was something that was attractive about this word and all my clients kept telling me about something called Soul retrieval and I I didn’t know what that was but it sounded really powerful and it kept showing up everywhere for someone who’s never heard about Shamanism someone who’s never heard about store to will it was literally everywhere I looked I would walk into the place where I was interning and they had a booger and it was literally jump off at the Shelf at me every time I walked into the room is all I could see and I knew that there was something to it and so at that point I began to read Sandra ingerman book on Soul retrieval mending the fragmented self and she’s a psycho therapist you have the same training as me looking at the soul as having these different parts of ourselves that if we become traumatize we go through a situation that is truly not ideal it could be a really hard partnership we’re fighting with that partner a lot it could be having some kind of sexual or physical abuse from her child in a car accident where the situation is really hard on us on our souls in that part of our soul actually say I don’t want to be here anymore and we’ll innocence check out or disassociate if we’re looking through the lens of psychology and I was looking at this and say oh I disassociate here and here and here looking for my childhood looking to different parts of my life looking through this horrific experience I have with my marriage and realizing that part of my soul my soul laugh and realizing that I had so much so lost and I needed to learn more and it was at that time that I saw that there was a training for soul retrieval and it was like I haven’t had it yet I knew I have I have to go and you know me while I’m taking these classes on Shamanism and I’m connecting through the beat of the drums going into the state of brain waves state to through meet with my power animal is my spirit guide something I had never thought about doing before so that went to this class and began to learn it and all of my Spirit guides came to me and finally you’re here to quit your job this is your life to me like I was the teacher asking me and I you know they had more training than I did in many cases and here they were coming to me for the answers night I just like I knew that it was it was really wacky experience and what ended up happening was I saw the training for soul retrieval and it was you know about $3,000 to get the tickets to New Mexico and to pay for the program in the housing and my flight cost and I said well I need $3,000 and within 3 days I had $3,000 because I had been introduced to another client I was still doing the dominatrix work I was doing independently now and I have one client just couldn’t get enough of me for that particular week and within that week I had made my rent for the next month and I had made 3000 extra dollars and it was for the training I knew it I needed a few days before and here it was so easy so I ended up going to I had to do all this preliminary training this woman so the turn me away initially and then she came back because I’m so sorry my Spirit guides told me I have to train you and I need to put my judgments of whether you’re ready or not a side because you are supposed to do this training and so long story short I end I’ve been completely supported by the universe to do this sort Uber work and what I found with that was not only was it so empowering it got me my power back from a many incidences in my past I had alluded to having some sexual abuse with a neighbor that repeated itself as a father and as I was in the doll that got raped by one of my neighbors and going back to the original wound getting my power back from how when I was five to seven I wasn’t able to stand up for myself and getting my power my innocence my Purity back and then being able to get my power back as an adult from what it happened to me and going back to my marriage and going back to the church and taking some power back that I had given away because you know the Church of shavings my body or shavings me as a woman being in my power and I ended up getting all this power back from different parts in my life and I also was getting this message to write my story so I began to write about being a Dominatrix and writing all of these different scenarios and role play partaking in writing about my past and just creating a story this Memoir of my life and realizing that the ending was unfolding as I was writing as I began to learn about Shamanism Soul retrieval it occurred to me that I could shift out of this old pattern of this empowerment not by playing or talking or painting my way to my power in fact all of those tools that I learned are so helpful for cultivating awareness of what is missing or how it last for all of a sudden I had this additional tool about how to get your power back so we look at indigenous societies and we look at cultures all around the world I was trained primarily at least initially in a practice called core Shamanism where we look at what are the core beliefs what are the core practices there consistent cross-culturally that are all pretty much and that’s an bolts the same even if every culture does it slightly differently and what I found was all these cultures had a practice cold sore tooth what it was believed that moment to travel within a few days and if you miss that Feud a range in this case we do it many years later and sometimes for our ancestors who are not able to do the work for themselves we can go back to that space of the original wounding of the original disempowerment and we can actually get that power back you go into this non-ordinary state where it’s almost like it’s we’re on our way to shopping list under three planes there’s the lower World Topper World the middle world in the middle world is where there’s us and time does not exist we also see that ghost and fragmented Soul Parts get stuck here so someone is how to travel part of their soul leaves that part of their soul become stuck so you can access this particular route through the shamanic lens and you can gather up that person’s energy and its purest form the part that left because of the trauma and then physically bring that back and blow that into the person either in person or long-distance it works just the same and that person can been in body that part of themselves that they lost and I was finding that looking at my own life and looking at the clients that I had been working with and seeing these stories of this empowerment that’s what we were trying to get at we were dancing around what part of your power is lost what part of your Purity what part of your confidence what part of yourself love it depending on what happened you can access that particular emotion in its fullest vibrant healthy form and bring it back and I found that what I was doing like many of my other clients were trying to fill this void where they felt like part of the show was missing and they were trying to figure out a way to make it okay a way to make a consensual or a way to create the space for them to become more aware of what was missing and something else I found it very interesting that was happening in the dungeon was that I was connecting with people beforehand we go in and meet them and agree to whatever scenario you would be playing out what kind of role play scenarios that was what I specialize that I was specializing in role-play so I got a lot of Storytelling through the work that I was doing and my clients would have the story in a very specific role play and we would agree on it when it says Shake on it and then I would say you know what kind of outfit you want me to wear what kind of personality do want me to come in or just come into the room just embodying that character that they wanted me to work with and when I was Finding was these people were seems really great okay wonderful we have a wonderful agreement here and we’re consenting to this particular store line I would come back in and it was almost as if the person that I talked to was no longer in their body their eyes would change their eyes would sometimes go black or dark and it was almost like they were no longer in their bodies and especially during episodes where they wanted to be severely beaten or severely punished or become very submissive to a degree that felt like there was another story playing out that was actually quite traumatizing I would see that their eyes would change their was almost like there was something in them that was feeding off being hurt or feeding off the emotion of being punished or spit on or disempowered in some way and it took me many years to actually put together the pieces and realized that in a lot of cases where people have lost their power from an actual trauma when their soul leaves the other energies can come in so we can look at those as psychic attachments demons you can look at that as just inviting sadness or anger or jealousy whatever label you want to put on it it’s sort of a spectrum of what cancer to come into that space But I found that there was something in them that was no longer connected to that playful part I was talking to that I was making a deal with and that there was something that was lower vibrational that was entering into the body or maybe just shifting over because they were triggering this part of this empowerment that was just feeding off of the cycle of being hurt or replaying the abusive situation and so I remember feeling very uncomfortable very comfortable making an agreement with someone coming in and stealing I don’t feel safe anymore this is not the person I agreed with and this person now feels very scary and make sure that in some of these situations I was in an empowered roll truly and not just playing one so that I could make sure that I could keep my safety because in some cases it was almost like a situation so I began to realize that as I continue to do the shamanic work that these energies can come in and that some of these people were so the acting out of this other lower vibration place and not necessarily wanting to go and heal the story but wanting to perpetuate and see something that was still wanting to replay the story if that makes sense wow do you feel like you have me a more sure about that the journey or can I give some some thoughts and on what we’ve come share so far. So I’d be happy to hear your Reflections and answer anything in more detail that use it getting chills because I really I really wanted to hear these words spoken in another voice cuz I’ve had these experiences really on multiple sides of a lot of what you’ve talked about I’m I’m a Survivor it took me years to discover sexual healing through Tantra and soul retrieval through psychedelic Shamanism and ceremony and and I have been leaving those paths together and having a lot of the same Revelations and also taking a more clinical psychotherapeutic approach as well to be able to translate these esoteric principles and phenomena into language that can be medically standardized in a way so that we can treat it in a way where would the work you’re doing is truly a knowledge so this is like my big passion is to hear these words spoken the way that you’re saying I’m with that Authority in that and the credentials to get this to progress cuz we need to be able to offer Hands On Healing we need to be able to offer these very deeply involved like you say the role-playing and you’re not going to get that in most of the boundaries that are set up in you know the psychotherapeutic in psychiatric Industries really so thank you just so much being on this Edge synthesis and a few things that I want to explore a little bitter or zoom into will be so I when you sit when you’re talking about the the changeover that you can see in the eyes shifting when you get into these these states with the client I’ve kind of use the language that it seems like a discovery is that evil will fill a vacuum of love and that love is the disinfectant from the parasitic attachments or for the parasitic attachments to get kind of scraped off like Barnacles off of a I’d like use the metaphor fewer if you go down to any doctor you know when you see boats moored at the slips you’ll see people that are in you know scuba gear getting paid to scrape off the Barnacles and the seaweed and all the things that attach to it that would slow it down in the water and that’s the routine maintenance thing like this soul is the same way it seems where you have to do if you don’t have a self-care practice or you know shamanatrix to call you’re going to have those things growing because it’s an ecosystem in the astral plane so do you want to talk about maybe what time since you have some of the Clairvoyant abilities what are you if you’ve been able to you know see and maybe describe a little bit about what these entities or these organisms use

Punk and BDSM as Cultural Scabs TPP20

Play

green-house-promThis is an opinionated piece I wrote a while back attempting to analyze punk and bdsm in a historical context from an anthropological perspective.

It’s an open ended questioning of what aspects of these two subcultures would be voluntarily perpetuated into the future once the social, ecological, and sexual liberation we fight for so desperately is finally achieved.

Punk and BDSM as Cultural Scabs

I live to smash patriarchy from the bedroom to the boardroom by teaching men and women the anthropological history and prehistory of human domination. For 99% of our species’ existence we lived in nomadic egalitarian hunting/gathering bands. Without being settled, controlling territory/property and without producing male controlled productive surplus, we shared power equally. However approximately 10,000 years ago, some human cultures began to form permanent settlements, domesticate plants and animals, and stratify into authoritarian classes. Starting around 5,000 years ago, the first fortified settlements were built, we now call these war based settlements “cities”. Civilization is thus the process by which once relatively peaceful and equal societies have either enslaved themselves, animals, and the earth, or have been conquered and enslaved.

Anthropologically I see the BDSM movement as an attempt to bring the underlying trauma of civilization and industrial slavery into creative, healing, social contexts. We “play” with the gender roles and power dynamics that the dominant culture forces us to “work” within. It’s the only way to gain a sense of self-determination and sovereignty in a world that’s out of control.

The movement also reclaims the primal, ancestral need to achieve group states of ritualized ordeal induced altered ecstatic states.

I believe that most fetishes are a cultural immune responses that are reacting to the pathology of religious/agricultural/industrial/corporate domination and exploitation.

From a radical/eco feminist perspective, I advocate conscious active resistance to the patriarchal paradigm. It is my hope that we’ll reject and redesign war based urban environments and economies so that they nurture the earth and the feminine principle. A great resource on the rise of patriarchal dominance, and the conquest of peaceful goddess worshipping cultures is the documentary “Goddess Remembered” http://www.nfb.ca/film/goddess_remembered/

In my experience, the most powerful weapon in the struggle for liberation of the feminine divine, is the application of Tantra. A Tantric renaissance would provide the sexual/social/psychological technologies needed to break the spell of submission to the masters of patriarchy.

The rebalancing of earthly and divine masculine and feminine energies would ultimately relieve the contorted pressure built up in our individual psyches and most fetishes would fade out of existence. I think it’s worth questioning the voluntary perpetuation of certain forms of kink that in effect reproduce the pathology of the dominator culture.

When we return to natural balance, shed industrial slavery, reforest, rebuild soil, and reclaim our birthright to thrive on a peaceful Edenic garden planet by design, we’ll no longer need to “process” through BDSM. We won’t have as much dammed, frustrated, twisted pain trapped in our nervous systems needing to be constantly exorcised.

We can identify and salvage the transcendent primal aspects of body modification, deprivation, bondage, ordeal, shamanic trance, etc. and bury the medieval torture aesthetic.

I feel the same way about punk rock. A lot of punks had sell out ex-hippie parents (like in the movie Pump Up the Volume). They couldn’t understand why we made loud, aggressive, abrasive sounding music. They wanted to create a groovy world of peace and serenity and made a tie-dyed, bongoed, sandaled subculture to strive for their ideals within during the late 60s.

By the late 70s, the punk rock movement, taking the radical politics to a further extreme, created a dark reactive aesthetic that presented the Jungian “shadow” of the collective unconscious. Punk is a cultural scab on the festering wound of the failure of the 60s. It’s as if to say, okay mom and dad you tried peace and love, got your asses kicked by riot police, lost momentum when your leaders were jailed, and after the war, your movements dissolved and you rejoined the suburban rat race…you sold out…so In this generation, it’s “no more mister nice guy! Punk is going to get raw, in your face, dirty, nasty, angry, vulgar, negative, hostile, critical, uncompromising, threatening, violent, destructive, fatalistic, etc.

In the U.S. the punk movement is perhaps the most privileged and apathetic, however throughout Latin America, Europe, Southeast Asia and beyond, the revolutionary punk movement is a serious political force.

It’s debatable whether punk will bring down the system and deliver total liberation to the masses world-wide. But it’s worth engaging in the thought experiment: what if somehow magically, punk did succeed. What if it did fulfill it’s ultimate mission: to create sustainable autonomous anarchy to be managed by small retribalized self-sufficient collaborative communities?

What if the punks won? For how long after the victory would all of that angst exist, would their be a toxic polluted war-torn world to base the militant/skull/bullet-belt reactive aesthetic on? Or would all of those memes just fade out of cultural memory?

That’s why I say that both BDSM and punk are cultural scabs. They reflect the dominator culture, they are a tactical weapon against the dominator culture, and they help us cope and grapple with the predicament of being trapped within the dominator culture. But when the dominator model is once again restored to a partnership model, the scab will flake off, giving way to a scar; a scar hopefully big enough that we’ll never be able to forget it and forever carry the wisdom not to make the same mistakes.

When the scab flakes off, what will our transcendent group sexual rituals look and feel like? What will our once dark and abrasive music sound like? I don’t think we’ll be singing Kum Ba Yah in bell bottoms and bandanas. But we will be singing and drumming around camp fires.

In the deep primitive future, we’ll once again be the highest expression of the local ecology. We’ll be the “most beneficial element in the natural system”, rather than the most destructive. Our sexual energy will flow freely and will be guided by the wisdom of shamanic elders, not dammed and twisted by scriptures.

I ask the BDSM scene, which revels in the perpetuation of dominator themes and memes: what role shall we play in this epic moment of opportunity to recreate authentic ecological partnerships with the land beneath our feet? Can we not apply our biological exuberance, fiery passion, and long list of technical and craft skills towards building eco-villages? If a percentage of time and energy was applied to growing our own produce, raising our own meat, catching our own rainwater, composting our own waste, managing our own wood lots, building our own earthen shelters, etc. would we not distribute the load of frustrated energy that contorts our psyches to the point of chronic sexual perversion?

I’m not judging anyone’s fetish, I’m just doing as Timothy Leary advised and questioning everything. Every phenomenon, physical or cultural has a historical context. There was a time before “x” came into being, and there will be a time after. What is the historical context of these bizarre fetishes that have seized upon us? Did they have a functional adaptive advantageous evolutionary utility for our ancestors living in the wild? I think when you peel back the current historical layer, the answer is absolutely yes. But again the need to “ex-state”, to access non-ordinary states of conscious was met by transcendent rituals, rites of passage, ceremonies, controlled induction of pain and ordeal.

So called primitive cultures are filled with freakish practices, so I’m not saying stop getting turned on by pretending to be a dog. I’m just asking, how can pretending to be a dog be brought out of the dungeon and become a healthy part of the fabric of a sustainable tribal culture? Might it morph into a more traditional form of masked totemistic story-telling dance? (see The Spirit of the Mask: http://youtu.be/DtT82PAHZr8).

Towards the evolution of deep ecologically correct, kink-friendly, shameless, free, neo-tribal cultures!