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Defenses Against Sexually Transmitted Demons TPP14

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tom-denney-tposIn this episode my dear Vietnamese spiritual warrior goddess friend Maya and I discuss the biology and ecology of various types of demons, how they interact with humans, and how to defend against their transmission during sexual activity.

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Com and our journey together will begin hello dear beloved’s welcome to Township Punk podcast episode number 14 this is a conversation I had with a dear friend Maya who is a Vietnamese Warrior goddess spiritual Warrior goddess friend of mine who has a lot of very interesting insights into the Demonic realm and ways that we can have self defensive strategies for our bodies our minds and our Spirits welcome Maya we have a few questions for you about your insights into the Demonic realm and you have some interesting experiences that you share with me in the past and I would absolutely love to have you share those with the listeners and so I’ll just kind of go back over some of the stuff I remember we’ve talked about you have had have you had experiences that you would describe as feeling completely overtaken and sort of classically possessed okay so would you care to describe in whatever detail that you’re comfortable with it before New Year’s I was at the Santa Monica train station at a really late hour and at the wrong time because police officer who I think was also cuz that’s because he was on a lot of you must have been on a lot of medications but he just came in very roughly into the cafe I was buying food it and he put my hands behind my back and push my head near the ground and arrested me and in that moment a master who later healed me explain to me that a demon had stabbed my astral self with the really sick poll about 1 and 1/2 inch in diameter and since then my eyes were a little hazy I couldn’t see straight it was like I was always dreaming or just wanted to go back to sleep and I walked really stiffly it was like my joints were locked up and my head was heavy so there are certain times when I was driving my head would just Bob down because bob up and down cuz it was just so happy to hold left so that was my most recent 6. So what would you say that was the most extreme state where you feel like you’re not in control of yourself are there any have there been on any other instances where you felt completely unable to control your your body in your voice and are baby to that extent to that extent there any other instances where you felt like you were you we were purposefully possessed so what I’m trying to lay out is a sort of system for categorizing the various degrees of possession that there are where the extreme would be the mothers that stabbed and killed their own babies like that would be I would consider the most extreme some of the most extreme ancestors of this isn’t this woman also doesn’t say a say a career psychopath criminal either she’s a normal person with a normal life and for some reason with you know very little precedence for spontaneous violence in her own mind comes out of his way I don’t know what came over me of that was you know there’s that glazed over effect that happens if people you know even just people with anger management issues and they they go into a rage and they see red and then they don’t know what they did afterward so like that would be to me something that if we’re going to start seeing if we’re going to start if psychotherapist are going to take their system for categorizing pathological behaviors and they’re going to then have to do the match up game of species of demonic parasitic organism and its dominant mode of behavior once it gets control over a person so yeah so long story short the voices in the head in the impulses and just alien life-forms alien impulses that you yourself and your essence of knowing right and wrong and knowing you know your own sense of boundaries and sense of Ethics have you had experiences of feeling like there were alien thought-forms put simply which which we can say or demonic spam robot pop-up windows in the mine stream you know nothing unwanted unwelcomed fearful anxiety anxious any even like you know what whatever you have going on that you feel is like not serving you and not something that you asked for true to yourself if you have that type of a degree in your experience yeah I feel they were many times where I knew I knew it wasn’t my thought and to just end it all it always had to do with hanging with a belt or ropes somewhere in the closet or on the Rafters outside. Always appeared as well as a really strange thought of taking cleaver knife and just and just facing it towards your face and just cutting your face and 1/2 yeah things I just didn’t couldn’t make sense out of where is there any those alien produce Tennessee’s that you don’t feel come from your essence when you remember the events as they happen or the the imagination of the events were there any patterns in what happened in you internally or externally leading up to that so taking a pharmaceutical drug for example could be one thing that induces an increase volume of these things or being in a toxic relationship or being drunk or you know what I’m saying like is there have you noticed any patterns are like okay I will if this happens then this is trigger kind of a thing or is it just totally on a turn and spontaneous when I started taking the antidepressant then I would have increased thoughts about doing that and before that the thoughts would just come at random moments I could ever really predict him if you have these thoughts before you started taking medication and they increased as the result of taking the medication I would personally to do so that means that whatever alien attached parasitic organism that is hacking your mind stream and your visual field and your other like sensory inputs auditory and whatnot has already said that but there always waiting for the opportunity to exploit your weakness in the weakness in the Integrity of your field and that is built based built with love fundamentally that’s the building block of the field of protection your security perimeter around your fragile mind you know your fragile mind stream that pure river that should be flowing with no malicious creatures in there it’s protected by the Integrity of a field of love that is like created around it from utero from In Utero to death and if we were protected with Love by our communities and our families and our relationship to Nature then we will be impenetrable for the demands of the lower astral plane demonic creatures if that’s you know for is one way of thinking of it and we’re basically vulnerable to them so whatever had gotten into you earlier in life that would be responsible for projecting these things into your mind stream they did the application of that pharmaceutical drug is actually it’s it’s giving them more power over you in some way in that what we would do without the scientific research that’s needed you know we can only postulate that either it multiplies itself or it grows and it’s one organism that you know I’m saying like either either it has the the resources to create Offspring rapidly and reproduce like discrete units of itself or if we’re like it it’s like it it was small and so we can only put in this many minutes a day of unwanted thoughts you know when to you because it was like it didn’t have a lot of power but then something happens when you take the drug and then it itself as one entity grows and gets more power because it has more strength is in itself either that could be what’s happening or it can be that or did its reproducing itself some more of it or able to get in there and they take turns this is the kind of behavior analysis that was going to be needed to be able to know scientifically how to combat this infection is what’s happening on his level so that’s my commentary on what you described you know and that’s a good thing that I’m hearing and have you ever had met you. Dennis is going to but have you ever experienced methamphetamine that’s another question now okay good because it is that doorway opening to the max or that weakening of your field there is there there’s a has been popularized by Breaking Bad well I don’t know exactly what the effects are of that series I’m so disconnected from the TV world right now but I can as with anything and probably has effective Lee discouraged it but perhaps who knows what percentage it’s encouraged it I mean the movie why don’t I don’t I won’t say the name but I’ll say that it’ll be careful what you document because you could be responsible for glamorizing and replicating it but I don’t know what I don’t know anything about the show I haven’t watched it but I know there’s a lot of other films influenced me that were like kind of carelessly glorifying stupidity and drug abuse but anyways so next question is you’ve had the physical possession the mental possession how about like have you felt have you ever had any Outburst of like vocalisations or glossolalia you know speaking in tongues English none human language sounding Stuff vocal cords So Cal League vocal positions that perhaps I haven’t had that but I’ve experienced that with patients cuz I used to work at a mental or no I just I used to work at a convalescent hospital and one of the patients that was possessed he would actually that demon transferred to another patient after he left and she was a Spanish speaker and of course she was speaking to me about the bike that I had recently lost cuz it was stolen and she was like oh you want another bike just steal one but she said that all in Spanish and she just kept telling me like take me take me I’m yours if I should know my name but normally she doesn’t know my name that’s very very interesting so you’re saying that you had already sort of identified and been interacting with this like very let’s say unpleasant sort of character in a person that was previously much different so it was a sharp contrast so something is animating this human being to behave in this obnoxious Manner and you get to sort of get to know it a little bit and then the guy dies and then shortly thereafter coming through the apparatus the vocal apparatus of another living person in proximity seizes their vocal cords in speaks in their dominant language right or whichever in their language and you able to sort of recognize it is that you’re saying that’s fascinating okay I’m going to just meditate on that for a second and think about another question next week or that’ll be something for another that’s a whole I guess I’m going to say that’s a whole lot floor of the NASA of spiritual ecology that will one day exist will be dedicated to studying transference Hospital transfer yeah definitely so okay maybe now if you care to tell the story about you know the the dream in the ex-boyfriend deal or former lover is a taxi oh okay so I’ve been dreaming that this ugly demon with really big thing big mouth just took a big bite out of my neck and right shoulder and the dream also was well that was going on the demon was also penetrating me and I wake up and the ex-lover it turns out he had without permission you know just started the act of intercourse and and I asked if he did me but he was just like no no but I mean he could have been dreaming too and just starting it without realizing it but it was in that moment that I realize that he was most likely possess did you tell him that you had that experience and ever or you just how did you did you react uncomfortably when waking up and did he how did he respond to your describe how can I use very very Clueless you just kept denying that he had done anything wrong and just completely acted like nothing happened and it was okay to do what he did I’m sorry to hear that it’s on one of those degrees of violation that’s like very common so did you come to some kind of resolve with him where you just kind of like all that’s cool I mean where you like how I know it was is a strike against the whole relationship you know it’s three strikes and you’re out did you feel that tell me the attempt to make it up to you in any way or will he didn’t take any they didn’t apologize ever but you made it it was it was clear to him that you were with your body language in your verbal language that you were that that wasn’t cool and he was just like whatever oh okay but that was but were you able to then I guessed it the relationship continued and you were just like okay as long as he never does that again you know or kind of thing or from that point would you say that was his his Unruh remorseful response was sort of a breaking point that ultimately was like the a Breaking Point it was a Breaking Point yeah absolutely blacked out drunk sleeping with the partner you know if you don’t have those boundaries you know cuz I’ll speak from experience and say that I there is a susceptibility to possession during sleep for sure with you know Amplified with any alcohol consumption especially large you know alcohol consumption or to the point of being blacked out your sense of self is completely blocked in whatever you do is the behavior of of gremlins possess patience they’re possessed people that walk around the streets and their hands are usually in this formation which is I love you up right in sign language but upside down I’m told it’s a negative connotation they walk around with this hand gesture and they’ll touch almost every leaf that they can I seen it in two people but I’m sure that there’s more that do it but do you know what that means I don’t know yeah you know I’m glad you said that because part of understanding this fully would be I’m going to take most of the day to that’s going to be collected about the reality seriali the scientific phenomenon scientifically provable phenomenon of invisible intelligent entities able to basically hack into human nervous system and produce thoughts and in emotions and feelings and even on an advanced level it’s the ability to manipulate entire situations involving multiple people and inanimate objects at this fact of this forthcoming scientifically provable phenomenon of demonic possession so called her formerly called demonic possession Skid Row going to Skid Row or to the psychiatric of course that’s where the people who were the most possessed have ended up you know or they they they guess is probably like a few look at the the revolving door between the mental ward and the street so pretty much you’re talking about the same Keef either in or you’re out but you’re because it had turned subtle gestures have got to be an important indicator for distinguishing where is this who’s doing this and who’s not doing it and then her other patterns of behavior that are also in related is also patterns of their particular profile of abuse their particular medications how do you create these linkages to what’s a friend of the demon actually exist on a plane a reality where its ability to manipulate people is more like octopus tentacles where do you have the central bring you know unit of the body in one area but they’re able to actually use cord like tentacles to go into people and to have this effect so that it could be one multiple yeah so if you’re doing a specific pattern gesture could it be this Fred the demon have a carbon copy of himself in every single one of those or is it Fred has 50 million tentacles and every time every time the weekend person opens up in friends competing with John because John is work getting something else out of people and making them do Behavior X and Fred’s doing Behavior why what if you just did a study of people’s hand gestures and maybe give gave them like art supplies you know what I mean and then really see if there’s something else going on but all right we’re going to say that you’re here for you I mean I know you said technical but a few days ago like last week I was walking outside with my cousin out the Nae Nae in the neighborhood I know I felt like a Senegal reached inside my ear into the back of my brain but there’s it was just air but for the rest of the week or like a giant Q-tip and for that week is really just hard to think even though like you if I got a like a CAT scan or something in my brain nothing would come up like and also how I told you about how I think that it is my stuff mom or my my dad’s girlfriend has made a voodoo doll of me because there are certain times when I feel like a needle like a giant needle has gone through my ovary or just like certain parts of my head will feel really funny like that was very specific like I could pinpoint it down to someone’s punching me or something but I mean there must be a science in Voodoo in itself and how it affects other people and I still can’t solve it and I still can’t solve the how if it were you no confirmed how would I fix it yeah I’m glad you brought that up cuz we talked about that and there’s a lot of wealth in the world I think whatever problem is making somebody have ill will towards you could be solved with money like how would you like to live you know on the beach in Maui and have everything paid for in just sip coconut in or whatever you want to do it let’s just say what is it what do you really want like what would be the Fulfillment of your wildest fantasies I mean we can’t guarantee you the Ultimate Dream Lover per se but we can put you somewhere where people that you want to be around that you might be a good you know cool to select enter Find Your Dream Lover from anywhere in the world you go anywhere in the world this is the big prize you know on the game show and all you got to do is spend you know a few days in this laboratory experiment with your niece and you say cuz you’re at and and we’re going to sit down together and we’re going to see if you cooperate with the study then you get to have you know the money that will sell like a problem since like you’ll probably forget about making someone else’s life hell for a reason you’re doing it right you can be distracted by your own you know, so let’s say we have the power to do that and we could bring her into a laboratory and you you know I have some ideas about the kind of study I would design around that tube to be okay you can’t tell us that you’re not doing as you have busy part of the deal if you have to eat what you have to admit that you’re doing this and was assuming that that that it’s a certainty no religious your suspicion isn’t she she is going to see you go through with this offer you say hey are you doing voodoo on me for some reason and because if you are don’t worry about it I’m not going to be punished or actually going to reward you for telling us about how you did it and if they okay well yeah I guess I have to stop doing it and I will give you the surprise you take David surprise and go be distracted and do things to be happy and that would solve the problem and you know you can go on living your lives and no persecution know you know charges everything just be honest so let’s say we’ve got her a nut in you in the laboratory and we’re going to study what’s happening inside of you with instrumentation and we’re going to study what’s happening inside of her with instrumentation and have her do what she does you know would what from now if you can describe like you said the some of the things that you felt were happening that could be that could be being initiated or intended you know by her if the kids can you describe what you could imagine being the results of a study or how you would design what kind of what kind of procedure could you imagine having like let’s see if she going to sit there and manipulate an object and have that object be like a doll or is he just going to sit and pray and meditate what if we put stupid. All because all you really need is the most recent picture or a video of the person you want and there was this one time in a restaurant I felt really funny this older lady was there with her family and she try to take a picture with your phone and it was always so that I was in the background and I tried covering my face and everything but she still persisted in almost waited until I uncovered my face and from that point on that was when I was feeling a lot of pain in my in my ovaries in my uterus probably like wishing you ill will against like having any kids which is totally fine cuz I’m not going to have any kids and also my head like just felt like sometimes is being punched or squeezed or like something like the head of a needle is just being you know slowly poking into it is and also sometimes I felt like a marionette also with the even after the cop thing had transpired I would walk around like so like a puppet and almost and with one of my close friends whose very connected to me she started feeling the same things the same like chronic headaches in the marionette kind of walking sometimes when we would spend time with each other just cuz I think it affects it affects people you’re connected with as well not only yourself so how about if you can talk about the your understanding of how the chakra system is what what’s the where does the chakra system fit into this let’s say we’ve established so far in this conversation that so-called demons are real and that they behave a lot like very intelligent mind hacking parasites and seem to have an organism’s Make nature which means that they would have to reproduce somehow and they have life spans and they need to consume different inputs and have different outputs at their biological machine they’re not just a robotic machine and they’re not just a ethereal Vapor anatomically engineered you know biomechanical entities that are intelligent and have actually more dimensional in some ways we have more dimensional command in maybe parts of our realm and in other ways they have more dimensional commands in parts of the around that are inaccessible to us so I’m sure I kind of feel like there’s entities it that spend so many dimensions that you can’t even begin to Fathom it in and so they completely intersect everything here and they could you know pick up objects and make things levitate you know switch on and off lights and all that kind of stuff but that’s pretty rare you don’t every demon wishes I could have the power to do that everything rich is it has the power to like pick up that knife and put it in somebody’s hand you know what I mean or pull that trigger or whatever and some of them I guess it is a constant battle it is a constant resistance the will to not do wrong with the urge to do wrong is the Frontline Battlefield between the Demonic at the interface between your Essence which is everyone I believe you know Meme must have become really fully you know psychotically possess your pretty much resisting the urges that would make bad things happen resisting urges that would result in negative consequences are opening in strengthening your chakras to help others you’re leaving yourself vulnerable for like you know parasites to attach to so even the best healers are the most sick to the point we were talking about how they’re real and they’re biologically so what is the chakra system have to do with all this system each pertaining to a body system so that whenever say a possessed person injures someone else in a certain say they cut their skin then they it technically the Demonic parasite would be attaching to the 5th chakra so you can or you can relate when someone has a pain that’s annoyingly you don’t getting their organs or intestines you know that that’s a demonic parasite on the third chakra and so you can pinpoint based on a person’s injuries or pain which chakras they’re damaging and which ones you can heal can you describe a bit about your training in the system and specifically what have you been I sort of told I guess about mulatto people are taught about the chakra system but not a lot of people are taught and the most people chakras probably everybody’s chakras to one degree or another are actually habitat for malicious organisms that are constantly trying to get an ever-increasing foothold on you and will stop at nothing to get that if if you fail at being loved or your country Community feels that loving you you know if you you could have been love but then for some reason become an asshole and then you become susceptible and you get more chakra parasites what was explained to you in your friend that you found the research you know that that chakra parasite 101 outline of that module of learning the chakra healing I did was called human Universal energy and it basically says that when you have an illness or pain that means that that chakra system that certain chakra is damaged and because it’s damaged that also means or can’t mean it could be a physical pain and or spiritual pain that a demonic parasite has attached so our training was we would meditate for a long. Of time to strengthen and open your chakras and then from there we could treat strategically place their hands first on the 7th chakra to maintain their overall health and then to whatever other chakras or body areas that needed attention for certain amount of time and so we would be acting as the vessel for energy it’s not like the Chinese system where you use your actual energy to go through someone else but we’re just the middleman for the universal energy to go into us and into the person’s damaged chakra yeah so a lot of people would get demonic parasites there’s a two-part process where are you you identify you kind of pry it out and the second part is you pull it out and just release it from the system and last week when I went the first part of the the healing then they stopped early cuz they said I just had so much bad energy so I have to go in today but should be better in one of our conversations we were kind of comparing notes in on a parallel journey of experience and personal healing and then study and experimentation you know to degree in I think you were you’ve been experiencing things a lot more formally than we’ve been involved in different healing modality traditions and we’ve been DIY hacking around you know everyone has to be comforter online hacker you know you you’re being hacked so you better get in you know be able to hack them back and get your mind back so one of that one point we had this exchange where I have just about had just been doing somebody work where I was having this very extremely tangible feeling experience SimCity no sense that I mean it’s almost like being a mind you know what I mean like that I think about you see my name and you see a body worker in a sec if I told hey Ma hey mine come over here and in demonstrate to these people what I’m talkin about I want you to mine that your has someone is laying down their stomach and you were giving them a massage and then all the sudden as you’re massaging them you start to bump into the nest you know of creature and you deserve it and then you realize it’s a it’s an emergency this person’s under attack and you just discover this and you become the hero and you decide that the best thing that you should probably do is try to remove them and they don’t see that they’re like causing pain you know that they’re in a place where they’re doing something harmful and you start reaching into that mess and it’s like you’re reaching into a beehive pulling out trying to get them all out of somebody you know you like red ant hill or something like that but as the Healer you have the confidence that you will not be that you have the allies and the strength and sort of the armor you know I’m in the disinfectant spray and you know all of your all of your trinketry and what not that’s going to protect you and then gives you the ability to actually survive with your own like you said the best healer or something or the spiritual Cesspool Vortex so you better and I know that I’ve met a lot of psychotherapists who are so whacked out because of the work they do you know what I mean like they can’t keep a relationship they can’t they’re just neurotic about everything they start to become yeah like the transference happens and so anyway going back to what I experienced I care I pulled I was like I was having experienced okay I’m like actually in an in an ester of things been what have I wasn’t fruitfully sure the time it’s like I’m not seeing it I wasn’t medicated myself so you know we’ll keep that vague but I was let’s say third eye closed shut my third eye was shut you know relatively compared to be a relatively speaking I’m sensing with my intuition it’s only this should just throw this out there the sidebar it’s like intuition plus third eye being open means that you see more of the fabric or the what’s giving that it’s intuition like what the information that’s in those those higher Fields so I’m I’m feeling that I’m pulling something out I know I’m pulling something out I’m physically feeling it crawl into my arm and sees my muscles and try to Lodge itself like scabies you know what I mean it’s like scabies they Lodge themselves underneath the surface of the skin and they lay their eggs under the skin and their whole life cycle is occurring where you’re scratching to get below the surface of the skin where they’re burrowing all around in the place so you know that the burrowing nature of the Demonic organisms you know to do that and so but I wasn’t sure the time am I pulling out one long like giant like tapeworm kind of a thing or am I pulling out only a few at a time and let’s say in a patterned you know to see if the say it’s a mental disorder by neurosis and radek mental disorder caused a pattern behavior and you going to have to wonder if it’s like okay if if one engages in that pattern behavior every time they do that they’re out there giving a food pellet to the Demonic parasite writes like do this it’s going to make you feel bad about yourself and that’s what it’s really all about like eating disorders every disorder is like how to make how do I make a person feel bad about themselves because when they feel by themselves I get a food pallet so whatever they’re susceptible to do to feel bad about themselves I’m going to crank that up to the Max and then but so in that burrow where they’re doing that in their little nests the question is her my question has been like when I feed the koi fish the food pellets go out there and then it’s like a Feeding Frenzy of multiple fish trying to get at that that resource it’s not just like one big fish that’s sitting there by itself along with no competition and no Offspring and nothing no babies to feed and no it’s just like one thing that sits there and then it has the ability to manipulate your you in various ways and get you to do what it wants to do so it gets you to to put out this 2 to practice you old enough for its consumption I think more realistically that it is that there’s multiple like more of a freedom a Feeding Frenzy when you do something you wish you hadn’t done or you do something that makes you feel bad or you do something it’s like sexually pathological makes you feel good but it’s like a shallow good feeling you’re actually doing harm and but you’re feeding these things and I asked you on time cuz you were going through a sort of surgical extraction and an exercise in a surgical exorcism extraction procedure and asked you cuz I was curious and I was doing it for the second time is it one big one or it rots of little ones and you said both then if you want to talk a little bit about that like you were this will this anything you kind of know about like if you were a zoologist are you were you know you’re studying the distorted demon Kingdom like the animal kingdom and you be like yeah you know I’m out there doing my exploring and kind of identifying and making different the taxonomy kind of a thing right you see there’s ones like this didn’t want to look like that as long as it smell like this one it’s not like that and just things that differentiate them in your mind from all the different experiences you had personally where you be at what you personally how you would identify it if you were if it was a lineup for if I can’t see them the most strongest the biggest ones smell like sulfur and I’ve had certain like on a tip not typical but one night I had one follow me like on the road home at the parking lot and Ikea work usually people associate that’s not cemeteries but it was following me everywhere other than that the facial expressions of people are either blank with their eyes or you know almost pitch-black or smiling in a very Sinister way grinning I guess you could say summer angry out some life like non-stop the people under attack are constantly whaling cuz the pain never stops and yeah and another thing I noticed is the head movements head movements are very very quick almost unnatural you know like in the scary movies they always do that but they they really do that and they won’t really blink it’s almost as if the person forgot how to Blink cuz he’ll just stay open that’s what I noticed behind the scenes behind the mask of the human form the sort of the Matrix means what are the Men in Black plus the Matrix customer matrix totally sums up the world of interaction between human and Spirits degree any bumps as you had or like to say that you saw the demon of that X or the former lover can you describe an officer to schedule UPS cuz they were going to go and the demon was dark-skinned must’ve well when I say a big mouth with big fangs I’m saying like a circle and it’s like a circle mouth like a parasite with them really big razor sharp teeth and another one that my friends my girlfriend’s they’ve seen in their lives is a tall man with a hat and a trench coat in Carolee see his face is kind of like you know those people described him as the boogeyman but I mean they’ve seen him standing around just like in the midst of a crowd but no one else sees them or in their houses or you know in dark parking lots and when you get near you know there won’t be anyone there how would you describe the nature of what has do you feel like you have your chakras are infected with Paris theme demonic parasites my chakras are damaged cuz of demonic injuries and and black magic or so I guess I could say it does feel sometimes like there cuz my headache it shifts and it moves unnaturally in that could be parasites that are just moving and just trying to eat away at your brain you know what your spiritual rain so okay I never asked you when you were having your session or after such as they could you could you ask the healers to describe to you and then convey to me what they saw and there’s a new procedure so if you could like describe that one procedure just like as if I never heard of any of this stuff and you’re just now telling someone what the procedure was and then you’re like yeah it was mostly invisible to me but what they told me afterwards that they were doing this and they saw this well yet like I was saying with the power of intense meditation you start to see and feel things the pain of others so I think a lot of the healers have have treated for so long that by now they know which attack was from a demon or from a I’m pretty sure the master of the center knows I like exactly what happened see exactly what the demon looks like but I haven’t had a chance to talk with her okay I think that’s about it wasn’t any last things do you have any thoughts on or practice any form of goddess worship okay what do you do for defense and protection against now we have these categories demonic parasitic infection demonic attack or like assault like injury sorry Yet demonic injury demonic possession demonic infection parasitic infection those are good categories okay so I guess defense strategies and infection what I do when I feel not good or I feel like I have an infection I will you got a bunch of Rue you plug off the small leaves and you blend it and you filter out that water and you put it in a soap bottle and after shower you put it all over you for 3 5 or 7 days and it does make you feel a lot better and my aunt has a set of like it looks almost like Tai Chi exercises your breathing in and breathing out you don’t get a bad and good energy and I just haven’t remembered them and of course there’s meditation and the injury I mean you don’t know it’s so and so it happens really but I mean of course self-defense would help with that and of course infection probably lessen the number of sexual partners you have because you never know what sections you might be spreading down there not only physically but spiritually if someone has if you say you know someone has issues or someone has a lack of love and doesn’t display any respect or love towards you that and itself is bad energy and so when you engage with them you not only leaving with you know you’re not just leaving with your body you leaving with your body plus perhaps a couple of demonic parasites that afterwards you start feeling the same way of that person and it just continues on a chain okay and if we can just talk for a couple more minutes on this this is like yeah where I want to go for a minute for the men out there help help the men understand how important it is to conduct the the act of Love Making in a ritual and ritualized manner that really anchors in the highest intentions in and is about building honor and trust and respect and boundaries and communication like what I am trying to share with my being you know exposed to in a good way being found by and embraced by the sacred sexuality modern 66 Rowdy sort of movement and we have to like what you’re saying the advice is something would be something like first to be warned that this is happening you know exactly the way you described it would show a hundred percent agreement about and then knowing that now if you didn’t know that already here’s what you must demand from your you know lover male or female or old you know where any configuration before you allow your sexual intimacy to occur with one or more people you have to do X Y and Z to make sure that you’re safe and always you know and we can the STD stuff is we don’t have to go into the medical stuff of course it’s in the other conversation but the spiritual spiritually transmitted demons is there sexually transmitted demons are spiritually transmitted diseases I think they both do you know you can get make the point do you have advice for men and women or Crap wherever you want and are all gen I guess advice for a specific specific advice for men and any other advice you want to give because I think men need to have this ingrained how to conduct themselves using an ethical procedure and a sort of some skillfulness and some Artistry to be able to make someone feel safe and also the biggest challenge is going to be figuring out how you how the male who’s filled with the cultures demons you know where all carriers of the cultural demons you know and we could be saintly in our lives and saves like and still have pornographic programming and still have all of these issues that are societal and so to what I want to be able to master and teach is the ability to really conduct myself and in a state of grace that makes transference and possible because the the the the love lover of like shiv like unconditional real true Pure Love is something that that will incinerate these demons like you’re creating it when you effectively sort of Sakrete your own love biochemistry and you create this Cosmic energetic vibrational light Love Field of energy then you are effectively frying the demons and that that is the end of when the Kundalini plunger effect starts to happen and you get the coiled serpent actually like hydraulically douching out the chakra system and that’s being caused by this influx of it’s like you’re using each other’s bodies to open a valve to Divine energy and divine energy is what douches the chakras in a hydraulic peristaltic Serpentine movement kind of way so that’s I don’t know if that’s something that you have a answer that you practice and about me to see no give only as much detail as you want but he would like to be able to save somebody look how do you know I know you’re a sweetheart and I love you and that you’re loving me to the best of your ability and it’s cute and Charming that you fumble around and make mistakes and I forgive you cuz I know you’re trying and then I was at Centex so you have permission to enter me and and use are or share will share each other and experience pleasure for with and through each other for the purpose of pure hedonistic pleasure and the purpose of healing in the purpose of strengthening our bond as friends and you know this life journey together in and for relaxation for obvious reasons but I know that you are also as much as those intentions are there I also know that you are this entire reservoir of demonic entities what are the cultures programs that are living inside of you and trying to like transmit themselves so because that is a fact of your existence we need to engage in this procedure that’s going to guarantee that we have created the field of have fun of Love energy that will be that that they will have to evacuate from you they’ll have to Scurry away from because it will consume them in the fire you know and so do you have you effectively convey that how do you convey that knowing what you know which is what I like most women or not having a conversation anything like this with the people that they allowed to penetrate them right so how do you do that that’s really tough to bring up to the mail because a lot of males are not spiritually in touch with themselves are the subjects so you just usually not mention that part that just mention you know that you’re not emotionally ready for a stage like that and that our generation this culture kind of just throws away the sacredness of sex and you have to make that point clear cuz a lot of people forget that you and you can have to earn it you can’t just first date I paid for your dinner so yeah and it’s also a very tough to be sexually spiritual or spiritually sexual and a generation that’s like I told you before was so technological where we make every decision objectively when you know you need a little subjective to correlate with your heart anything more like have you had any can you recall any situations where you’ve been able to have satisfactory results with somebody because you train them to be the proper whatever you like you know like there’s no one way but it’s your way and that’s what matters right yeah there has been where I am we both meditated for bit and then you know the heat arrows and that we both decided you know it wasn’t the right time or place to go through with it and that’s success when you think of both of your priorities and if you’re both ready for it I saw yeah I do think meditation together with your partner is really essential in my life so I’m a bad example I guess because or I’m I’m like a Mite my case doesn’t count because I danced so much it’s almost like I don’t not dance ever since things like that like it’s happening while doing the dishes gardening watering plants something is wiggling cuz I’m usually listen to psytrance you know or podcasts are both in so I don’t have a problem with this but I feel like most people do have a problem with this and so I’m trying to think of how do I prescribe The Sweet Spot formula if I’m like an extreme case to one into the other and it’s like so here’s my thing dance at least three times the duration of the Intercourse that you have and you should have a healthy relationship or the potential they ever have the bishop dancing together and dancing especially you could I get supply that I mean doesn’t always have to be at 5 minutes I’m in you know it’s have a quickie you know in the in the the the the Janitor’s Closet you know in the office or what you’re obviously not going to dance for three times that 5 minutes before you do that but overall on average you know and and it should be the point should be made that dancing and meditating not everyone wants to dance which is a freaking problem I need the Tantra task Force’s going to solve that problem to visibility because if you don’t dance you can’t disinfectant purifying and he’ll in my and you can dance in whatever way you could answer your freaking toes I don’t care but do something that makes you feel good in your body and sharing that with somebody before before lovemaking yasso dance and sexuality any thoughts you know if you look at BM Tango salsa but you out the Motions of Love Making hand and hand but the problem is with a partner who has two left feet and just refuses to dance it’s okay it’s much more fun with than actual dance partner though dance to meditate and I made love or meditate and dancing meatloaf like we said regimented and restricted to eight counts them used dancing with a Goldman so it doesn’t lend itself to that or just freestyling but I’m just saying I guess the answer is no but I didn’t put them ideally yes I need to step up their game at 7 use you to step up on the dance floor at the game is on the dance floor not on the the TV it’s not on the TV or the console yeah so I was cool well I think that’s a great. I don’t even there right there thank you in whatever way you could answer your freaking toes I don’t care but do something that makes you feel good in your body and sharing that with somebody before lovemaking yeah so dance and sexuality any thoughts you know if you look at the Tango salsa but you out the emotions of lovemaking they go hand-in-hand with a partner who has two left feet and just refuses to dance free reduced Tina the type of dance where you just jumping up and down but that’s fine but it’s okay it’s much more fun with than actual dance partner though I meditated and I made love or meditated and dancing made love like we said regimented and restricted to eight counts and usually dancing with a gold men so it doesn’t lend itself to that could you imagine or just freestyling but I’m just saying I guess the answer is no but I didn’t but ideally yes ideally yes that means you to step up on the dance floor at the game is on the dance floor not on the with the TV it’s not on the TV or the console yeah so I was cool well I think that’s a great idea and they’re right there thank you. 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Pranic Healing with Carol Jenny TPP13

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tp-carol-jennyIn this episode I talk with the wonderful and amazing Carol Jenny, a former school teacher, cancer survivor, and multidisciplinary energy healer. She shares her personal journey of discovering her healing gifts after a medical and spiritual emergency.

We explore various integrative healing modalities and focus on Pranic Healing and Pranic Psychotherapy as forms of scientific shamanism.

You can contact her for in-person and distance healing at:

singingwhales {at} aol {dot} com
http://www.caroljennyhealer.com

Awaken the Kali Within TPP12

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awaken-the-kali-slideThis episode is an audio recording from a Kali invocation workshop in Los Angeles in January 2014

KALI- The Goddess of self Empowerment, of time, change, death/rebirth, fierce rage, annihilator of evil forces, the redeemer of the universe as well as the benevolent mother goddess…

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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin hello their beloveds welcome to the touch of Punk podcast episode number 12 this is a collie invocation Workshop called Awakening The Colony within that a different Sufjan it did in Los Angeles in mid January 2014 hope you enjoy it take care of Namaste is kombucha gastrica it is unfair to the Mount you breathe in through the nose and you breathe out through the mouth and wants traded to you keep your hands in the fridge so you could come inside and two fingers on top yet you take a deep breath driving up to breed everybody can join if you hadn’t breathing in every chapter has a sound attached to it a beach sound to awaken Equity project affects the 3rd so then we are chanting on think about you know that you are Awakening these to check on the 6th and 7th to Paris we can keep your hands comfortably like this or you can put it in the money whenever you can come do the OM chanting nine times breathing in read too much ego energy energy of manipulation of superficiality Lego it’s too superficial guarantee to get the hell out of here but you know it’s happening at such a large mass Consciousness that you’re moving away from truth of our inner soul and moving away from Soul itself all the manipulation and the superficiality and so we need goddess Kali the fears God is she gone to the sword of truth and she / is now all the infusions and I’ll get it to her story afterwards but before I share a story about her share another story so this separation comes from this Duality consciousness disqualifies that kind of the kind of selfishness and Eagle base behavior is causing this kind of Separation to the separation that we see in the outside world is also the separation within within us so first we’ll start with looking at the separation that is there within us to split that is there and then I’ll go on to tell the story about goddess Kali so this is a very short story and it is about a boy going to kill you Houston hundreds of years ago in a monastery in Japan in the village in the mountains very beautiful and his job in the ministry was to go and get the water so he would put a stick on his on his shoulders and Obi One for 2 and one for sure you would go down the mountain and Phillip water and he would go like you know singing his Mantra chanting and doing walking meditation or something like that so once was a sitting by the water and suddenly start tearing sound of crying one of the fox was crying so one of the fox was a crackpot in can cracks in it and the other part was home so the Crock-Pot was crying was really looking very depressed and miserable and you asked me why are you crying and the fox said I do feel guilty that because of because it mean you have to go up and down the hill extra because I cannot hold the water that you put in so I lose half of the water on the way and I feel like I feel so ashamed about myself for being so broken start smiling and laughing he said my dear you must be paying attention when you go back home I want you to pay attention and Libras and see what is around then it starts working again singing and then the crackpot notices that on the left side when the craft where the crock pot was entire body is green and filled with flowers and the other side was dry what is math the crockpot realises that my Brokenness you can’t do so many flowers so I would like to do an exercise have a short exercise if you all can you have your paper and then otherwise I’ll give you I want you to write down make a list of the whole part and the crackpot the positive qualities you think you have and the negative qualities so-called negative qualities that you think you have just a few and then I’ll tell you what to do around guys they just throw acid on their face and lose the entire face during hospital for sometimes traveling for months is when I saw she’s barely Fourteen and she can hardly breathe chest drawers in her nose and her mouth is mostly closed now so she has to only take liquor through straw in her mom her whole life is gone is that but still of course she’s alive and when I see something like that my black just wants to buy it and I feel like how is it possible that there are so many people in this country and such a small handful are being able to do what they are able to do so I personally feel that there isn’t enough rich in this world and the kind of Rage that is going to bring more like medicine in the world kind of races going to stand up and see that is enough these are our boundaries you cannot abuses like this Monsanto feeding people like crappy food and I’m sure he has a lot of many many people on his hands how is it possible that a little girl from Pakistan 14 years old where the girls are not even allowed in that Village to come outside their house she’s able to stay at gunpoint with Taliban and still say I am going to get myself education I support education for women she’s 14 she’s living in the country or at least in a village that they have no freedom and where is here in America we have like a million times more freedom than them and I’m sure it has its dark side and maybe Beyond on hundred percent free but we have so much freedom and why is it that in spite of the freedom that we have to go out and create an appropriate evaluation that this is not okay why is it that you’re still so complacent and that I feel is because there isn’t enough arranged so I would like to share the story of goddess Kali and she’s probably the word Golly means dark black so she is considered to be the dark goddess and ironically enough she is also considered to be the most compassionate goddess she’s really really fierce if the weapons and her hands were not in a she also has a tongue sticking out she has a Garland of head around her neck she’s wearing a skirt made with hands these are all of course symbolic of something so primarily she is the goddess a fridge she’s Fierce she stands up for justice she does not put up with bulshit she’s a lover of Truth and she wants to with her sword she has a sword in her left hand with her sword she wants to slash a weight cut off anything that is creating that is coming from the eagle that is created the separation and usion in us and that is going to violate the boundaries of her children that is going to abuse her children she’s going to say this is not okay don’t you dare come close to my little girl you’ll be so freakishly sorry so the mythological story behind the archetype of goddess Kali is very interesting so how’s it been millions of years ago and they were gone and there were demons and there was often fights Wars happening between gods and the demons and of course God would always with God’s word more powerful but there was this one demon his name was he was more powerful than any other demons he was infinitely more powerful and then on the God and all the demons saw the gods get really worried oh my goodness we’re going to be destroyed and then they decide oh my goodness will have to go to the most most most powerful one and that is goddess Durga goddess Durga is also one of the forms of goddess Kali and she’s very strong she’s a warrior she rides on a tiger and a she’s the warrior goddess but even she knew that truck to Beecher is very very very powerful so even I need a words in of me that is even more powerful than door. So from her eyebrow comes Carly and she is like this blood sucking blood hungry thirsty and she’s ready to slash down all the demons and her tongue sticking out so what happens with enough to BJ’s if you attack him he’s a demon to cut him when his blood clots and it falls on the ground every drop of blood is going to create even more of the pictures so he’s kind of he feels like he’s infinitely powerful and Lucas Bengali is even more powerful than him what college does is not only does she slay off all the demons she also brings up all the blood to the blood that drops she drinks up all the blocks are there are no more of the beaches and she destroys him but she gets so possessed so possessed by this mad rage but she’s becoming Unstoppable she just keeps on destroying so even after all the demons I destroyed she keeps on destroying so what happened is Lord Shiva who is her husband he goes down and lies down on the ground Belen chili kind of way and she was about to step on him and her mad friends and then suddenly she wakes up all of her state of possession and she realizes oh my goodness I need to stop so she stops so message is that why is it called me and she will always go hand-in-hand. Husband and wife Carly is this raw Untamed emotional power of the Senate is that all of us have and sheba is the masculine aspect also within all of us whether you’re a man or woman she buys the Consciousness she buys the truth when she was with self-awareness what’s the message here is when you let your rage Unleashed your Ridge to fight for justice to find the demons whether they are the internal or external demons but in combination with to do it in combination with Shiva means to do it consciously when anger comes I become present to that anger I don’t repress it I don’t go around killing someone from it of course this is more better for wrinkles what should I do instead anger consciously I use that anger with love like Foundation she was lying down she buys Consciousness true love compassion so the foundation on which I’m going to express my emotions to give me that far is truth I’m going to channel my anger in a way that serves the truth that serves Justice that serves and that is why this Fierce goddess the so-called fears angry goddess is actually one of the most compassionate mothers of autistic in Indian mythology so that is the Paradox that I find really powerful she buys the Consciousness she buys the light so you’re going into that dark space you’re going to the Shadow with this light by your side and you showing your throwing this light on these dark areas and you realized oh my goodness look there is that Billy from my childhood that says oh that is why I’ve been attracting all these terrible relationships oh my goodness and Scotty comes out during the full moon but very often during full moons I get very emotional and I heard from a lot of people they also get very emotional and then the veil between the unconscious world in the conscious world steripen search on the unconscious mind you’re able to enter into your unconscious but you know what is one of the most healing and Powerful things that you can do surrendering to that pain because when you’re crying it out maybe I’m crying out I don’t even know why I’m crying make him crying on the child with pain that when I still like oh my goodness I was rejected by my father by my by my mother or I was abused by this person so maybe I deserve to be abused so I’m dropping all these relationships but I’m getting abused so in that sense and the colony awakens within and when you do that journey into the deep deep dark with the presence of Sheba and is true and it’s love you put light in these dark parks and she’s / is a w with the swords the inner demons the inner dragons the inner Shadow so Liberation supports his powers second is Liberation towards the penta City fiercely honest and fiercely attending that I don’t be angry person I have a friend who has a line here has been angry since China he has a line cure and I see anger in his eyes but she never gets angry and he tells me I never get angry but do you know what I’m saying a joke to him sometimes love this is the very little laughter because his energy stuck in Anger which is not willing to feel and then anger comes from another child with abusive experience but instead he was willing to on this anger and feed it and process it he would not go around being angry all the time and he doesn’t even realize you know people can see it so when you own your anger when you own your fear when you own every emotion you grow in your attempt to sit in you can show up more as this you would like me to be and so nice wholeness the gift of wholeness is the same thing I think in some ways you know hold this is the marriage of the unconscious with the conscious the dark with light the Sheba which ft it’s the marriage so I’m boarding the Kali because bellettini patriarchal world and a lot of us have been so deeply condition by patriarchy that we don’t even know most of us a lot of things are running just masculine and feminine energy has to be depressed and like oh my goodness that’s not good enough you have to hide Your Shadow for the marriage of the Shadow and the lights that’s bringing us more into her holness afrezza creativity trust me when you do good in our journey into the shadow World you’ll need to find some of the most beautiful treasure is there your creative artist known as a creative artist and we all know that sometimes we create some of the most phenomenal art when we dive into those dark places and come back with the treasures that are there in in Hawaii like perfectly trained dancer but has never been through too much pain or suffering or this kind of you know as not Mendes Shadow sometimes you might find their dance to be like beautiful to your eyes but it does not touch you very deep inside your soul or when someone asks that depart within themselves the darkness and the suffering in the plane and the Brokenness and then me and you are comes from there within oh my goodness you might not have your PhD but your art is going to touch people’s Souls the deepest part of their souls so and fearlessness of course Carly McCauley for this is you your your rage brings so much courage and finally unconditional love because she cuts of the eagle because she cuts up the illusion that we are separate we start realizing our Oneness and right on the bush it has been released a funeral home the childhood you know the healing the the messages that come from the childhood trauma like I’m not good enough cutting out all those that shoot what’s Reigns is love you know so you’re growing and conditional love when you act when you’re willing to embody every every emotion how do I access the stating that the divine feminine has been suffering since a long time and she’s being depressed you don’t feel something from your personalized calling to directly you can think of Designing Women in Africa for being raped at 5 or 6 years ago is it happened in Delhi we should be together the second part worship worshipped as a god mother that is why I only change change change change. William Howard Holly energy but not loud as you can okay worship me a new life creation and yeah and cheese changed, it is. worshipped as a god I want to be a mother Osborn from me New Creation Jaden can also be forward assault I never have done this done I’m going through a few months of depression and like where the hell is my life going I do this done it’s a longer performance my bad my life just changes overnight everything looks so different but that is something about the metaphor of Breaking Chains open there’s something about Awakening or invoking the power of the archetype which is so infinite and that reminds me how infinite I am from inside why do I go around walking the Earth walking all over the Earth like feeling so limited Phoenix Artisan power just right so far as to get in touch with my nephew had to get in touch with this kind of animal is powered everyday in the morning how differently would we live our life you know somebody who was really depressed this would be if I was in boarding got a star. I’ll be the soft-spoken version of me Altoona right but I don’t want to stay stuck in this archetype on the timer like this all the time somebody wants to come in abused messages no somebody come shopping with me I do this what I do with my body becomes me because my psychology right so you change how you holding your body is going to change your psychology it’s going to shift your Consciousness it’s going to shift how you show up in the world whether it’s your work your personal relationships everywhere Sears Auto in the city if people Define people sometimes somebody stuck only in the victim archetype somebody step only in the Savior archetype want to see the word saving and I’m getting chronic fatigue syndrome because I’m like not taking care of myself so inviting all the different archetypes is also important sometimes we don’t know that we are running mostly like meet you know masculine energies or following masculine principles and there’s that kind of you know imbalance so how do you rehabilitate that balance between the masculine and The Feminine so how do you embody more in your day-to-day life collie Veronica shepsky so why don’t you must be more familiar with this name sexy because you know Shiva Shakti but these are all names of the same goddess the goddess of empowerment this is her even more Fierce part which gives debts and reboots and because she’s able to give death that is why you’re able to be reborn and that is why you become more free and become more creative there is nature the philosopher he shared very something very interesting about the Journey of human beings he called the three Metamorphoses of the spirit so he said that when the human being is born in the beginning as a child of course you have a creative and free and then of course the social conditioning starts but you have to do this job to live like this or like that so the first stage is you are a camel you know doing things that you’re supposed to be doing a lot to carry this way then walk okay and you know you’re working like the camel then the scammer gets an opportunity to fight these dragons and in order to fight these dragons this camel has to become the lion or the lioness so you need to find that Carly within or whatever so basically the Dragon City presents the shadow lot of people will just go on living this normal superficial life everything is fine in my life and all of a sudden one day cancer heart attack you know whatever in the hospital for a few years or the journey into the shadow is inevitable lot of people who resisted fighted deny it If you deny it and it probably wouldn’t be with you in some other way and it’s going to take you there it’s like if you’re going willingly with a smile with love then you’re going to be dragged there because everybody has shadow shadow is a part of life so sorry if I awakened the Lioness Within Myself and I bravely fight this Dragon which means I am willing to meet my shadow and dance with it and learn from it and grow from it I’m willing to meet my own death I’m willing to meet aspects of myself that need to be given death in order for me to be reborn which means the example that I gave that as a child if I was abused and if I’m constantly attracting abusive relationships as an adult and not looked at my shadow and I’m not try to him Buddyfight if polygons and possesses me and she has me going to the Deep darkness and he’ll that shadow of being wounded or abused as a child and I become free from it I become free from this dragon and lo and behold I can attract a new relationship that comes more from a place of empowerment that makes me feel more free that makes me feel more loved than Irish so if the Lioness or the line is able to fight this dragon and Tom’s Victorious then this lioness once again is turned into a child by a child transform ya and a child is creative child knows how to play you know a lot of times when you have too much trauma kind of makes you heavy Olympic stain the unconscious it makes you happy you cannot play you cannot love I’ve dated an american guy who is like emotionally Sonam down because of whatever he went through childhood that he could not laugh I could not laugh and I was like he’s such an awesome person but I cannot be with him because I’m not able to love with him you know cuz once you if you freeze one emotion if you freeze anger you freeze fear like you’re talking about the fear of facing the fear that was amazing what have you just shared with me so if you keep your anger Frozen and Hayden and say the photo I don’t have any anger it’s like only wish the garbage under the rug what happens is all the emotions come from the same space they’re all energy when during your fear you’re also going to repress your joy it also going to depress your creativity and you’re going to depress your ability to love freely so that is why the child is innocent child has free child can be creative but from my personal experience I can say that when I was a little girl I was of course infinitely creative you could just play a radio and I’ll just start dancing after song had been doing the last couple of years sometimes when people ask me to perform to a new song so that creativity is a treasure but I like a child that you become an even more because when this child or the Scandal goes to the process of facing his or her Brokenness you’re taken down deep into the dark you know and dad is where you meet your deepest treasure and then when you come and you share your heart with the world your art will have soul stories you aren’t will have messages that you channel from the Divine just because you became so broken open that Divine wisdom and Divine Light and Define creativity started flowing through you then the songs that you will right after going through your journey of Brokenness that will bring so much more healing and empowerment to the woods so that is why I appreciated my creativity is a child was really amazing but now I feel having gone to the journey of Brokenness and health issues and whatever now I feel that I am able to still share much more do persol Treasures through my heart now I’m able to stand up and say like you know what if my art is not going to elevate. consciousness of the society or leave the society this world a better place that I would rather not do it if it’s going to bring down the consciousness of the woods and I don’t want to do it not just for the sake of your entertainment she looks like a Demon Slayer she looks like she has this sword in her hand or left hand has been the sword and all of their things to destroy a lot of pictures that say that her right and is actually getting Boons and it is getting blessing and she’s telling people with this hand do not fear so she’s very paradoxical she comes in, so a lot of things out of your life you know what are you doing the past burden you’re carrying a social conditioning you’re carrying this, sounds very cold and heartless because she’s distracted because she comes to give that to you that is why she’s able to give you life I need to take a picture behind What is love Power Rangers happy birthday. Verizon nomura infinite power thank you for listening to the touch of Time Podcast please go to www.crunch.com and cook on the Donate button to help support the show in addition is to see me and if you want a podcast for donations will help establish permaculture goddess Temple that provides ecological employment for single mothers Please Subscribe and share your favorite episodes if you have questions or comments feel free to leave a voicemail at 818-275-1593 or email been at Tantra Punk. Com Damas de

Chakra Parasites TPP11

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2006-strongarmThis episode is a rebroadcast by permission from my dear friend and fellow spiritual warrior Tom Denney’s podcast. This needs to be a National Geographic cover story!

The original show description is as follows: Teaching psychic defense from parasitic pandimensional entities which feed off of negative human emotions. I talk with LA artist Joe Torres (Lefty Joe) about how to recognize these creatures in your own life, and how to deal with them. Exploring the possibilites of the unseen. The evil non human creatures that control Universal studios, the shadow network and the hat man. There are parasites on every level from the microcosm to the macrocosm with virus cells to ticks and mosquitos, why would we believe it stops there. The macrocosm is likely filled with these entities, as we observe in our conversation. The best and most effective deffense is staying within a positive and aware vibration. One can focus on the bubble of protective light that surrounds them, and emits from our solar plexus and heart chakras, the central sun of the human soul. When it emits negative energy, or negative emotions, we put a crack in this protective shell and energy escapes. Could there be creatures out side of our vision that feed off of this energy, and possibly implant thoughtswww.tomdenney.com in our heads to get us to feel these negative emotions. Recognizing alien thoughts is the key. Check out both of our art, as it reflects our own battles with these creatures all around us. An excellent hour long conversation intended to help people dealing with these issues and raise awareness that these beings exist and can be dealt with. They are likely from a different dimension, and very confused that they are here.

They have put on many scary disguises to protect themselves. We need to see through this and approach the subject with respect and confidence. Every thing in existence was created for a reason by source, respect that, and be reminded that every dark shadow was once a reflection of light that somehow lost its way. Be assertive that you do not have time for games, that you love them and they should return to the source from which they originated. Helping them remember that they do not belong in this world interacting with humans will also help. Never give into fear and depression. keep the energy white and flowing.This is your psychic defense. http://www.tomdenney.com, http://www.leftyart.blogspot.com

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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin hello dear beloved’s welcome to Tantra Punk podcast episode number 11 I am rebroadcasting a podcast interview that Tom Denney did talking about psychic defenses against chakra parasites and other negative energies and entities that our existing in the Unseen dimensions of reality his artwork which you’ll see in the show notes is really like the National Geographic of the Dark Realm within the spirit world and how it interacts with in this Ecology of of our larger Energy Systems in our chakras so I strongly recommend that you actually take a look at that artwork if he’s doing and follow his work because he’s I think absolute in giving us more tangible depictions ecological depictions of what we’re actually up against in this battle for our souls self Joe Torres the artist from Los Angeles tell us a little about yourself all right so I’m just going to expose my my heart and I know where the world would I do a good name for myself and start some new like art movement against along the way what’s your website is left. Com we met working doing cartoons together at Universal do you miss it there’s a little bit more to that place sucking than just the people who work there and the job oh yeah man like that okay so I guess we should preface this by saying that you have and a stronger sense and intuition how would you describe it let’s see I don’t know man like I think yeah I think I think that’s pretty much like this. Like I just might my skills my perception skills in my intuition and maybe like why my psychic abilities have always been around I just didn’t know what what it was but over time with like more would like more I guess more development on my end they just gotten stronger than gotten more to get up I can perceive like a lot more things what kind of things it’s like a little bit of everything man like little bit of everything like little like play sometimes I can hear what people are thinking you know it’s almost like I’m picking up there. So you guys are thinking of like get little flashes of memories from other people if I look at their eyes and a certain electricity just happens like moment there I mean the Saints internal Selena what is table to pick up these like he’s weird like entities I guess you can call them for now you know like people that aren’t there I know it’s late but it’s definitely like these energies and I love it and I would call like I would definitely call her and call the person in the bed more like that whatever whatever human soul is like inside of a human body like yours but I guess the song so we’re talking about a nonhuman soul that could pick up on yeah something like that so we talked about this in the past and they’re kind of like Shadows right and there are they everywhere or are they more negative energies right yeah like like in my experience like experience the Shadows they never come across sometimes the people who are truly as perceptive or I guess knowledgeable or our people are more like gullible they’ll try to know performance of The Office something something that are not but one of these energies and they try to pass themselves off as positive but you can tell that they’re negative Dollar Tree I know I kind of go with it it’s weird to take this long verbal transfer of information like it’s like why did I just revealing with what they have to like like they don’t even lie scanner huh to the OC you’re just picking up on it and so these these things they’re they’re screwing with people huh yeah I definitely man definitely I mean I have I have had like them or you know they do like flat-out communicate you know like where you’re where you’re like you’re filled with this instant like feeling better and all sorts of like you know what the whatever they’re trying to convey what it is a good try to communicate, but a lot of times. Yeah you’re right it’s like dark areas like like when you go to a drug users house for instance or the home of where two people might be in an abusive relationship you’ll find one of these negative entities being involved you don’t want to write like 30 Odyssey matter everywhere everywhere huh Lake from what I’ve experienced or like what I believe why they give to MacGyver Christian background like the background in like my religious like girls or whatever like all the other stuff is just going to make scare you kid weird like I get these weird things happen to me all the time when I was a kid like weird nightmares like I see things walking around in your home yeah just like all over the place I can on the street now and where they really dreams battery like foggy like figure have you ever have you ever seen him attached to people following him around call me when I was a kid I didn’t another kid it didn’t but as long as like my my like skills developed like I actually did like I said I didn’t necessarily see them but I sent them like I’m coming to contact that come here somebody and I’ll get this intense over the years I knew what it was and I’m going to freak people out cuz I would say Hey you know you got something following you NC Pre-K oh my God you’re like the 20th person that’s told me that you know what do you mean you know until everyone answered you know that always want to know what I meant and I would have yeah, sometimes sometimes over the course of my ass around people and Ed and you notice that person is acting like a bad person like up to nefarious activities or working on behalf of the Shadow not necessarily right you know what I mean and they can’t necessarily I mean maybe this is just a Christian be talking with something in your life but comes up whatever whatever it is you don’t like what it is you know if it’s convenient or drug abuse or depression like whatever whatever it is they’ve attached to learn that comes up that’s amazing that the may take like more of a home so. Like inside of you and the energy that you emit when you have those all all of those emotions you describe we we called negative and the addiction so there’s these things that trigger humans to have these emotions and go through the situations are right and so would you see one of these things hanging around someone who’s really depressed like bummed out over some girl or some silly thing that shouldn’t be you know that big a deal but they’re just totally devastated from a really long time please say that again so you would you would expect to see this around someone who who’s feeling an unnatural depression over something Petty and the person isn’t even aware of this thing some people that some people may have been told at some point in their lives by random psychics or like like religious people people that why do people have been told by other people other people that they have something attached to them so what do you do once you’ve been five people 10 people here like while you’re the 20th person at that point like what are you do you know what do I do if somebody told me that it was like 20 people told me that or if 5 people told me that I probably you know seek some like spiritual health whatever floats your boat I guess I mean on Christmas I go to like Christian thing no but everything else so are you familiar with the chakra system yeah yeah you you talk to me about that yeah so apparently you know we end this is proven by science that we have meridian lines and these electrical currents basically that run through our body and where they intersect along our spine is the same places are endocrine system so we have these different glands all throughout body that are associated with these energy vortices which the Ancients called the chakra system and it’s made of light it’s like a light board text you have seven of them and one is right over your third eye or your forehead but I hope the chakras anyway through one of your chakra systems depending on like the lower chakras are usually what’s involved with with sex and lower brain you know activities and so apparently these things could get in through sexual activity and through alcohol addiction and they’ll just put a cordon you and just come around whenever they need to feed wild and so another thing that the Ancients the Hindus we talk about is that you would have an egg of light around your body generated if you have a photon meter which photons are actually the particles of light that come off the Sun so this that make up the daytime or actually particles that are filling the air in filing through us and passing through and we actually admit small amount of this same particle from us from our what they would call the solar plexus and heart chakras and so it normally a healthy normal happy person it’s like an egg shape this energy you know below coming off of us but wouldn’t a person starts to feel the correction or anxiety or you know any kind of addictive or negative thing basically all the seven deadly sins all of those things put like a crack in your energy in it and it blows off and it sucked into someone else’s bortex if when I went to the conscious life Expo in LA and there was someone who had a camera that could read your tachyon feel so with this field in science and it just like a neat gag for all the new agers you noticed to look at their Aura but when you look at pictures of couples who got there or has taken was always one that was kind of like you know like a Whirlpool when you had the tub full and you pull the plug and it goes down and around it’s in the other person’s energy is coming off the top of them and getting sucked in and yeah and some pictures there’s like five pictures of couples up there you know to advertising and get your picture taken something but like in each one it was like the guy was getting sucked into the girls or the girls was getting sucked into the guys so and every relationship there’s like this one person is giving and receiving any you know back and forth and really healthy you know when you’re having a conversation you pass the NYC back and forth or when it’s a negative relationship all the energy is being taken kind of like when you got like the abusive parent and it just kind of like hitting the kid that parent is actually getting energy all this youth energy and she’s addicted to it subconsciously so she always see no goes off the deep end or it could be a father or any sort of abusive relationship and salt go ahead they have at least 50 Cent so let me know when people always refer to their energy being drained like that person shut the energy from home or so that you don’t have to worry about with any of yous from anybody with emotionally drained and it feel like so I think that happens a lot when I think that there are so many things in this world that if you look at her eyes are eyes are like only seen fragment of all the light that’s out there there’s so much stuff that exists with an x-ray In a Different Light spectrums if you look at this you know what the human eye can see strong Spectrum perceived and it’s like the size of a needle so 2% of what’s out there and when we look at nature there’s parasites from the microcosm up there is you know little water mites and end in viruses for every creature that has ticks there’s mosquitoes there’s always stuff feeding off of other beings so why would we assume that it stops you know at that level Bianca lip on to the next level you know we think we’re the top predator yet Perhaps there’s something well it’s obvious that there’s some sort of parasitic entities just out of our visible spectrum but we could steal it we know when we walk into a room you know or like when when people get drunk they said I don’t know what came over me you know I was just another get like a weird feeling about someone is on the back of the neck going in right now so that these things since they know we can’t see them maybe at one time we could see them and then you know something happened and we lost that ability that’s what the dogons talk about they talk about it’s weird because these ancient Indian cultures won’t will tell these stories but they’ll use weird metaphors for describing basically the same stuff we’re talking about you know the story every every culture has them in the shadow beings that come in the night if you just look up shadow man on the internet everybody’s posting you know stories and the main thing that people respond with is oh my God all these years I thought I was crazy cuz I think a lot of people oh and one level that they’re there but they can’t see him so they don’t want to tell anybody because everybody’s so conditioned on the television of what a reality should be and to laugh at anyone yeah outside of that agreed perception realm we’re going to think you’re going to keep those stories of yourself and so are you acting as soon as you start bringing Shadow or whatever but now I never told anybody yeah but you can find myself like you know people who are people who come in contact with me like in this respect you don’t like whenever I I sense like something metaphysical you say I like about it with those kind of people you know but like maybe like real close friends that have known me for years you know on the regular I really don’t bring it up too much until recently like I just decided to post something on my Facebook like I was alone and the lights turned on by themselves and literally almost like you know how some people I know either call me on my cell texted me or or commented on my Facebook saying yeah I have some crazy shit like that to or like my mom sees these things are or I remember and it’s fucking yellow is kind of what he’s trying to cool to email after you open up a new Bank of Clarke I’m not really crazy so there’s so many people who are off you know familiar with had their own experiences to so right so then we’re seeing here this pattern emerging of these unseen Shadow beings parasitically feeding off of our negative emotions so I guess the first step is awareness that there’s this problem going on and to see in your own life the patterns of your own depressions or you know if you feel these things coming around you think that they’re messing with you a lot with me just in case we have attached to me ever texted me in some some pretty modern me aspect of my life so I kind of don’t really even notice like my own personal demons because there’s such a part of me that you know addictions are certain character traits are the do like are in my mind ones that are just kind of stragglers their kind of look into to attach either to myself or to other people or Kay Jewelry outlet in Oconee Court visited by other you know other entities from other people that I try to help you know it’s like they trying to come after me and try to freak me out and So Gone I guess sometimes you respond to them negatively and you end up chasing them away but you know what like recently you know you know having having that you personally intend having talked to you and a couple other no religious friends you know it kind of clicked in my head but yeah I can chase these things away like if I if I Empower myself with certain like tools and change them before you know when I didn’t really know that I was doing I get free job just cuz I was afraid to be out like that with my biggest fear to be like completely possessed you bet. None of these things take over my brain break I’m going to come up around in like you some horrible things right because they would cost to put those thoughts in your head of hurting others oh yeah man and you could tell that those thoughts were your own exactly man’s like I can never be like you know we have our internal like okay I’ll just wait like this I know what my mind. Sounds like in my head nada mean I know the limits of my you know there’s a definite like nonverbal like I mean I don’t either it’s like in my head like as a voice like a schizophrenic with here but there’s like a definite nonverbal transfer of information and you say whoa whoa that’s nothing I would ever even think of doing so then obviously these parasitic creatures plant little seeds in our subconscious and get us to either act upon it or bummed out you know the biggest key to all this is when you said that if they get us to commit suicide they get a prize oh yeah so that way if the you know if the main goal is to push us and push and push us and feed off of us and maybe they’re not feeding off of it but there’s definitely a parasitic element going on where you know they’re antagonizing you on such a core level and this is if it’s happening everybody that you know half the people you know call you up as soon as you say something about then I’m pretty sure this is all a worldwide event happening to all sorts of people riding sure they’re getting and it’s just like in the movie The Matrix were batteries for these entities right and so who gives him this prize at the end when they drive us to our final you know cuz they say suicide is like the biggest offense you could ever commit because you’re killing the god inside of you and you don’t have to imagine you could never have permission to Snuff your own life right you know like you said something really cool and interesting that the day that I told you and that moment when your soul is about to leave your body they jumping know you know what I mean the story of walk-ins which supposedly is what happens to our leaders at cuz of course the conspiracy goes deeper that these shadow beings are also involved with the beings that have taken control of the hierarchy of our government’s that this the same Shadow that’s you know inside George Bush Senior that see no running the secret CIA missions is a walk-in of one of these things we’re like the so-called Illuminati families spend the initiation you is the children tormenting torturing them and reprogramming their minds and so at some point they torture them to a point where they’re near death and send this Soul Meets Body in this other thing comes in and then they proceed with the agenda write so and that that person that would explain what David Icke is talking about where you know he’s seen the people in the government being shape-shifting reptilians or you know another interpretation is that they are demon creatures that there cuz of the latest reality works because of the nature of light their true faces are able to superimpose over the face of who you’re looking at so you’re kind of looking at a play of light and you see them what you couldn’t call a shape shift so that is when they get to the high levels of masonry and they’ll get initiated into the secret rituals that that’s what’s actually going on that one order to become a 33rd degree Mason or whatever and I’m just speculating that the word squawking and then they make the decisions and that’s why the world is headed in the direction it’s in and so so everyone in the media is working with these things too and that’s supposed to tell when you look at Jesus you know throwing the sign of the Baphomet and talking about Rain Man is the universal time and you saw something really interesting which is that that can you place swamped with this thing Universal Studios yeah man you know like like I said in my opinion based on my experience like there was like a horrible feeling like the horrible feeling that I get when I coming come in contact with one of these things just imagine like I guess the amplitude or wavelength or frequency of the frequency of one of them like Darius from no depending on how experienced or how you know whatever the powerful they are whatever but like I spend more and more time at Universal Studios frequency of one of those things would just like off the charts man like what a Christian standpoint on a bike it to me like I mean like I guess or Christian you know like that you like that that was like a like a like a like a higher up like running the show and all the little minions were like running around like almost like a general like was in charge and he was like you know what I mean and so all the little people would come from all over the world to go to Universal Studios and get the tour and they’re making movies there and directors writing scripts and actors are reading lines and film is rolling and there’s this huge General Darkness looming over pulling the strings to all these little Shadow entities that are themselves for parasitic that’s what you’re telling me is going on this world what’s up that’s a different perspective than the one on television only what I’m saying no like weather whether or not anybody wants to believe that but I mean if you look at the logic behind what you and I are saying it makes perfect sense addicted to drugs right so many people addicted to food and Severus and everything that you could possibly become addicted to end their miserable and we’re running around in Loops playing the game of money you know paying or credit cards and when you talk about this stuff off mortgage today I got kids to take to school and it doesn’t matter because I drown myself in my work and I just worked at it was like that these guys were all the escaping by you know working and they were taking out you know you know Stitch distraction and then we come home and we watch all this TV and get entertainment and there was you know this thing feeding off of us would one other thing about like Universal Studios in that kind of like any kind of funny like I lost friendship at Universal Studios like a friend of mine that I’ve known for like me almost 10 years or something like that and then we both started working there. I have to get up and then I got this friend the job like spiritual kind of like a psychic a scary things and people that were just like horrible people like you know would sometimes get into my head is like being really good friends really weird breaking up in this in this God only knows her like no it isn’t all bad but you can a lot of help and you’re a cool dude that was relieved that you’re welcome I was really strange that one day you can come and talk to you about this kind of thing is right when like you would we’d only work together for like a few weeks and then you left and I didn’t see you for like maybe like 2 months and then out of the blue he called me and it was right when I was getting in contact with someone from Universal about having a glass life reading and I don’t even remember her name probably shouldn’t even say but so and I was really just because we were talking about Atlantis and she was saying how she remembered her our lives and I was just so random person added in getting a reading but it it it it it was going to involve hypnotism and when I told you about it you freaked out you like tell me why you had that reaction there’s something you don’t like put your yourself in like a like a like a like a like like things to get in when I mean like I mean even the Bible says you do not get drunk with wine and quench the spirit of God like wine to get drunk your brain starts to like not work properly you don’t you know who I like your brain is lacking oxygen so if your physical body is is weakening and your brain your little tenacity the electricity in the brain is has failed you basically breaking down your your your virus protection until your anti-spam antivirus you know so we expecting somebody that we can hear the sentence especially somebody with cyclic no can probably get you to spill some beans or somebody who looks like the pain become a medium that you know it’s basically a steak well well well versed psychic who’s working with Spirits in either implant one into you like well I mean you don’t get another one maybe a more powerful make them more no cutting demon or whatever and implanted into you like so that you now become your worst and that’s what kind of Africa freak me out like that I just got this real like a sense of urgency like in this like real like a bunch of Lights I don’t know what you want I don’t know why I had set up the the meeting I was like okay cool I’ll see you on this such-and-such day at such-and-such time and then I was telling you about it and you had this reaction and I was a shocking and it’s in masonry at people who come out of it have said that towards the the higher levels that that’s exactly what you’re doing you’re getting stronger and stronger demons put inside of you and it’s to the point where you’re not even in control anymore but you’re doing everything in your life is just Bliss on tap so they make it worth your while for a couple years and will they use you up or you’re already out of there they just get right wow how many people have you heard about like once they go into politics now they they end up changing so I did you ever get that feeling about Jamie Foxx are or who but some of them are too powerful for you to send some no man like okay like you know they can put a block like certain people have like a block if one of the really really colorful they can put a block you know that or they can confuse my senses you know right now I’m kind of dealing with it with something kind of like that like a my senses are being blocked from Reading certain person know right now yeah yeah in my life right now and it’s like I can’t read like usual people that do well right attached to them and be telling them that it’s a good spirit or it’s a spirit guide and I can’t even tell that they were under some sort of scrambler yeah exactly because like this is my this is my take on what you just said I mean these things have been following your great-grandfather you know your entire family history and I’m pretty sure we talk to each other. All-knowing All-Seeing all-knowing and it is one Consciousness these things are I’ve never heard of never ever ever thought they would be like that the other disconnected from each other but they also psychically connected you know what I mean that’s just kind of like their means of communication did they transfer information to each other like they have to cuz they’re not worth that one Consciousness know how many of them on these highways and you said you were going to be tormented targeted if you look up videos on YouTube used to be a Mason and got involved in witchcraft he has a lot of crazy stories but what he was involved in Witchcraft and then got into masonry and he said he already had these things inside of him that gave him power and I’ve known other people who have said that yeah these things you know they told me what to do and they showed me how do I get what I want yet shamans and other psychic people said no those are dark things inside of me that’s nothing good is that once you got involved with the Masons that each of their rituals were inviting more of these things into him and he loved it because by the time he grows up the ranks was imbued with so many things felt like he was invincible and then we can do anything ready but there’s a weird once you get to the higher levels you start to lose who you are and that’s when he turned to Christianity you turn in supposedly got these things out of him and now he spends all his time exposing the Nephilim in the sons of God in its prey videos I think that’s interesting and every psychic I’ve talked to says just focus on the light and focus on the light coming out of the chakra system and I are just scared because a lot of them are not from this dimension in there not supposed to be here but something happened on Earth long time ago that mess with the energies and things in and that’s why you said that thing at Universal Soul because it is and it’s been here with humans for a very long time building its Empire these little things that run around and feed off of us great. I’ll send it right to you huh really yeah yeah you know I’m not going to mention his name on there but I’ll tell you what is later but you know we both know drive at 6:39 to discuss the Christ Consciousness and telling the story of the Ancients that there was a misuse of the energies back then and it through all of us into Heroes like a psychic breakdown the CIA test for psychic abilities its 100% that everybody test is psychic but you know what degree it’s turned on is subjective and like things that you can do exercises to improve your psychic ability and I also think that there’s exercises to improve your protection from these things because it if they are alien thoughts you can recognize him as that and not act upon them that’s the that’s the real trick is to recognize what are your thoughts and what if thoughts that are coming into your head that are you know Horan and just not and it just start addressing once you start addressing the thing that’s attacking you and do it with respect but confidence and you just kind of blast it with the white light you just imagine it and believe in it because it is there and right that’s kind of like the love power the opposite of fear if you’re just happy and confident and that you’re always protected and that this same can’t hurt you right then it’s going to go away quickly you know nice to extra pan dimensional beings things tend to work out better for you but would not when you notice yourself getting depressed or just having suicidal thoughts just think wait a minute are these my thoughts or life hasn’t always like during the worst of times like everybody’s gone through some bad times and had some point while I’m going to kill myself but then then then the sun comes up the next day and and things always get better and we’re here to survive so right I was going to make it and I guess that’s the the main protection against service system that’s probably plugged into the media of the World Imagine Universal has a general I’m sure TriStar has a general in Disney probably has the biggest General everybody plugged in to the interesting thing about about the about Universal refill charm you like I mean your whole entire business it’s to call me Lynn Lowe you into a fault into your kid vacuums on a caricature of you and yeah I think that’s interesting and so yeah I didn’t in fact they used to bother me until I started to pay attention to them and employees techniques and they really haven’t bothered me and it is it takes dents but you seem to have your finger on all the different types of them that are out there and there’s one that actually I woke up one night in the bed was shaking and I was actually having a nice dream and all the characters in my dreams started to Decay and melts in front of me and it was in there was this horrible noise and the bed was shaking when I woke up and it took a minute as I can go is the bed really shaking like this what is going on and then it kind of settle down and went away and was morning and I went upstairs and I saw my roommate and you know how did you feel that earthquake and you looked at me like I was crazy and then you tell me that there’s ones that stand on the foot of the bed and shake the bed and other people have told me that to that or very attractive ladies seem to have this problem a lot in my experience so these things are attracted to about the angels from Heaven came to Earth and found you know the Earth women to be fair and bread with them and that’s what created the Nephilim or you know that the ancient it’s in the Bible there’s there’s there’s another thing in the Bible that talks about one of the sons of Abraham I think as long as sons of Abraham like was told not to marry a certain woman because she had in her face she had like certain genetic like no certain genetic features like that gave away that she was part of a lineage that was human and Demon bread like the doors distinct a very very faint traces the very distinct traces of like human demon interbreeding knows that all the elite families through all their symbols claim to be descended from if you follow the work of like Michael to sorry and and David Icke they Panda Jordan Max they point out that all these families are showing all the signs of being part of this demonic bloodline from the Egypt symbols of pyramids and and Dragons very very interesting in the blood so who knows and then supposedly there’s an actual physical reptilian that still lives on Earth so we’ve got a thing going on with people getting abducted you know but a very small number and everybody being plagued by these shadow people and hat men and a shadow person that people see a lot that in fact a lot of my friends have described as trench coat and we see that I’ve actually I saw that the kid isn’t that interesting when he’s a kid and they’ll see him in Reflections and dreams he’s chasing them he always is trying to get them at the new Nicolas Cage film he’s dressed like that and he’s wearing the total big hat with the trench coat and Nicolas Cage is actually he owns Saturn films and the connection to you know the dark energies and you see another movie forget but it would head that it turns out that that same character was like dumping bodies into a sewer and like sewing them up and stuff yeah he’s just is one of the higher key you said you actually saw some I don’t know if you want to talk when you’re at the hospital it was fucking nuts so like I had cancer back in 2001 and I done said might like but that was just like a quick surgery but then I had you know like like a cancer spread to my lymph nodes so I had to have you know like an $80 loss surgery like you know like take out like you know my lymph nodes from like my chest area and you know I’m like near near my armpit like this all over the place in my chest now so we’re going to be eating ours man like I remember like I remember like being out of my body and like watching like the surgery going on I also remember like when I was in intensive care like recovering I remember like drifting in and out of Consciousness and seeing like like like a movie Ghost Lego Movie codes for Shadows come for them and they drag them to hell or whatever. Like in the room with you that you saw that happening yeah man like that one of the people next to me at one of the people next to me was that they kept screaming and this is like this is not in the real world astral plane I guess you could say while they were working on you yeah yeah yeah okay this is like peeing out of my body watching my body being worked on like you know what I’m saying like as if I was like behind one of the surgeons walking around the room looking at things you know and feel like yourself no I just don’t like myself like I just felt as if I was just another person in the room I can touch anything I don’t remember trying to touch anything or just something you started seeing things yeah man that’s that’s kind of what I’m starting like the leaving more or less before I just I just thought like I was his nuts and I didn’t really walking around the hospital now they’re working on you exactly and what did you see in the hospital yeah like it like I said one of the one of the times where one of the times I was drifting in and out of Consciousness kind of like I just out of my body like I remember the person in the bed next to me like in intensive care like I remember the person next to me screaming like a horrible screaming like off the top of her lungs and these things come into the room and dragging this person away like like like this I mean it’s like the way you know I don’t know I couldn’t I couldn’t go I mean I do know that he was really scared to Live and Let Die I mean if if my if my instant already linked to that but will like when he’s alive call I remember one of the times coming back into Consciousness like a call later on this time you are asleep and wake cartoon about I’m at all so basically you know I was in an altered state of consciousness when these Shadows Dragon away and then I was also sleep when in the physical world a dragon body out you know what I mean so don’t get freaky at that point like I kind of started like later on like a kind of start dating this girl and she told me that she told me that she saw like to girl for my church she told me that when she became a Christian when she gave up her like bad life bet you No Ceilings like she was filled with like the Holy Spirit you know God whenever she accepted Jesus and God into a life and now she could see these things walking around and like and I can’t even laugh even though I had seen some things no I just I just thought of what I saw is as like this attachment reality or did you know how long surgery was like according to most psychologists that I thought I’d be there like oh you know you suffered something traumatic and and you know you made these things up in your head I’m like this surgery was a joke like I was like fuck it take this cancer out of me like I don’t even care so why would they seem like play psychologically for things that I didn’t even think of that big of a deal so if if I wasn’t traumatized by like my surgery into my brain and my psychological profile and all that whatever state you would have no reason to make up these fucking Shadow things in my head and then later on go and talk to this girl that said she saw them in the music and you fucking nuts or hang around everybody exactly man that’s exactly what you’re saying is places where we get intoxicated and write letters that would make your right and what’s really weird which Michael tesarion points out is that mall the beers and alcohol companies all have these Masonic symbols like pyramids and the compass and really weird symbols embedded within their logos and and even Budweiser uses the symbol of Saturn in their logo iuc whatever but you can look so weird and so they’re the ones feeding us substance that lowers our defenses and is a basically like a warrior race a warrior religion like a people that have been taught to to be like religious zealots and the husband showed how to fight the Shaytards how to fight these evil spirits in the least talk about them quite a bit you know that they have to push the enemy out of themselves that they have to fight these evil spirits he’s evil. thank you for listening to the touch upon podcast please go to www.crunch.com and cook on the Donate button to help support the show in addition to see me and if you want a podcast your donations will help establish permaculture goddess temples every bite ecological employment for single mothers Please Subscribe and share your favorite episodes if you have questions or comments feel free to leave a voicemail at 818-275-1593 or email event at Tantra Punk. 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Punks in Recovery with Craig Lewis TPP10

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tp-craig-lewisCraig Lewis is a Certified Peer Specialist living and working in Massachusetts. He has struggled immensely with mental health issues throughout his life; however he has successfully transformed this into a life of wellness. Craig is successfully working as part of an outreach team in Boston, Massachusetts. He also tours the country, speaking about his lived experience, sharing his struggles and triumphs to help others.

Craig has authored and published the Better Days – A Mental Health Recovery Workbook. Craig based the Better Days workbook on his personal life and recovery, and every page has been used successfully in peer group settings. A Better Days support group facilitation guide is currently being developed as are Spanish and French language versions of the Better Days workbook.

Craig also has edited and published You’re Crazy Volume One which compiles first-hand accounts of people from the punk rock scene who live with mental illness, addiction and trauma. A second volume of You’re Crazy is in the works.

Craig can be contacted at: betterdaysrecovery@gmail.com

Please take a look at Craig’s websites for more information about his books, projects and events.

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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin podcast episode number 10 I’m having a discussion with Craig Lewis who is very heavily involved in recovery from trauma addiction and other mental illnesses from punk rock perspective and he’s got a lot of great resources that he’s putting out and is really doing a lot of great work in the field so hope you enjoy the conversation and take care of Namaste welcome Craig to The Point podcast and meaning to connect for a while I’m really thrilled about the what you doing evolving in the punk rock movement and and mental health areas and if you want to introduce yourself what you working on your projects and give a little bit of background we’ll go from there my name is Craig Lewis and I live in Salem Massachusetts this is right outside of Boston Adam 41 years old I’ve been in and around the punk scene since 1988 when I was 14 as a young person my life was quite dysfunctional I didn’t really realize that at the time my parents really intent on having whatever issues we had in our family you know identified with me as being the issue on their parents went from Boston to talk to the doctor to try. has somebody agree with that I was I was meant to be unhealthy and ultimately I was put in the hospital and spent you know three plus years and Adolescent group homes in residential homes and hospitals and you know I got out of there really unprepared for the world and I spend time with me until my mid-30s really just very dysfunctional and and I know how unhealthy I was I was I was on vacations for many many years. Causing a reason why I was so sick and NetSpend spent so many years has Peyton laws assures and doing is Ian playing in bands and I was always chronically ill the entire time and not not not do to you my undoing I was I was I medication I now know I never should have been all that actually caused me to be unstable so it was it happened and I got some my mid-thirties and I really hate my life and I I’ve been working on it ever since so ask him and we haven’t played out yet or called rapid cycle and hopefully we’ll be recording and playing with the last couple months all the songs about recovery and wellness and fighting the good fight and I’m trying to be the change in the world that I had to desperately need for myself and that I feel is necessary to make the world a better place especially for my people who are people who really are marginalized to this will have identified personally at the margin life person and people will buy both of the struggles and I really getting a nice Matt so I feel myself very dedicated and committed to doing what I can to make the world a better place in that regard over the years I’ve become Michelle theer I went to school I became a peer counselor of a certified peer specialist which is the actual title that I have and I got a call to the green Human Services and associates degree and I’ve been feeling different jobs and I’ve been the same job now for almost 4 and 1/2 years in a couple months where I am working up here call Claire team helping other people with live experience with benzos drug addiction trauma learn to cope with their struggle so they can have a happier and healthier and more satisfying life and as I continued my attention toward improving the quality of my life and making more healthy and and really more informed choices about what’s right for me in what I need to be near happy healthy and and well and it’s a side of my life I realize that there was really in the punxsy in the country has been going on since I was 14 when I first got involved even dictionary, and really any issue you can imagine it’s really foggy that I was involved in all sorts of conflict and problems and I was really out of control and I realize now that I wish I had some understanding and empathy and where I was guided toward you know getting help that would be effective in and beneficial to me and so I would suffer last and have less conflict and ultimately I didn’t really get that and I was really nervous or to be dysfunctional Duty garage if you know poor living standards living in squalor you know how many years as I’ve been that was almost acceptable yet for me it was just contributing to my my chronic mental health El Hardcore Pawn Canoga Park whatever I don’t really care about the labels very much but it’s a lot of it but still had history and never at maybe I wanted to provide a forum for people to talk about their experiences so that they could really going to be understood be heard yelling and be treated with no epithelium and and patience and really and you know you have so many of us end up kicking around lives and so many of us end up self-medicating or guide used for a very long time and we lose lots of good people to you know suicide in overdose and and Reckless Reckless Reckless living that results in an acid issue that’s not it’s not been addressed and I feel like it must be talked about and I really I just came up with the idea to do the plug and go with a transient idea at first and now it’s a book and now I’m working on the second volume in the car for contributions is out now do I speak around the Country Inn & in Canada and hopefully I’ll be able to travel around the world speaking about my experiences and and if that’s off recovery and dealing with trauma and all of the important stuff to me in and they’ll probably be rain have going on as be better days a mental health recovery workbook which is something that I came up with a Spotify and internship when I went to school for to become a peer counselor and it was basically a support group curriculum that I have people responded to and people benefited from what I was going to bring him to the the group each week and they have really no training and I doing that kind of work I I seem to be a natural and as it as it worked out after usually given a group in different places United jobs in as of altering as an intern to try to put together and took book form so with the help of some. I get the book put into book form and now people are ordering and Beyond in the UK and Ireland in Canada and Australia can I see my life was worth the life of struggling and lack of opportunity that I really just not to come into my anger and I got a question is it it does exist within me and I really committed to doing my part to I don’t let myself up out of poverty in and lack of opportunity in and financial struggle but to also know my people my people are people who have been marginalized in whatever way they treated poems about society and and and denied it a Crime Stoppers in these are just treat dignity respect and I want to help those people make sure they send their struggles are there any cooking skills so that they can look happier healthier and more satisfying lives and it’s my life it’s what I do 24/7 whether I’m at work or not that is how I live my life and I try to have all my interactions you know the it potentially real vehicles for the moment sore I respectfully dignified and communication because I know how personally damaging to be treated like you’re not worth you know if I owe someone else and you’re not you know where the inside of respectful treatment stuff that’s really my life that’s what I do and you know punk rock and metal all of this stuff really comes together it as being the core of who I am and and and what I’m trying to achieve in this world to myself and also my community in the world in general and that’s my Direction that’s my drive and I’m going full steam ahead so I know they have it I left his hat thank you so much! I cry so beautiful and and I can relate to a lot of different aspects it makes me think I mean I went through the cool cycle running away I ran away when I was 12 and then I was in and out of institutions in became a ward of the court and bounced around to different homes in placements and whatnot and for a few years and yeah just long stretches in different places and would generally end up continuing to run away until they got me they got me locked down hard for about a year-and-a-half at one point and and I really got the gas before it LOL several times I was forced on medication and I luckily I was able to convince them that it was not helping me and I didn’t continue to force it down my throat but yeah absolutely being a victim not only has to societal like Mental Health crisis that produces the different types of problems people have but also be true caged in with with with other Pino’s like extremely extremely mentally disordered traumatized other other people other kids you know and then I was actually just I was not clinically myself anything other than just mildly depressed as a result of being stuffy nose like I didn’t I didn’t have any extreme conditions just at the time they they just wants everything everything if you’re a juvenile and you’re running away and you you have drug problems you’re just sort of put into the same funnel institutions as minors with severe behavior problems and stuff so I got to really yeah I have a unique insight into the policy and institutions in and all of the all that sort of stuff and I did a lot of work books and I was put to the 12-step program went to 90 meetings in 90 days in head sponsors in yeah was put through many many hours of of different types of as therapeutic modalities and most of them were pretty most of them has he was very critical is too interesting to be like an anarchists and a punk hypercritical nnn aware and being forced to say you’re never going to see the light of day again unless you completely can form the ultimate Conformity this isn’t just what your parents think you should do if you have parents which I pretty much didn’t miss my father abandon me and has there been in the family when I was three and my mother was pretty much so busy putting food on the table that she was so emotionally unavailable it was rough going through all that in the end going from a totally unstructured environment where there is no Authority and then getting into punk rock and going on the street and finding family and tribe and being really initiated into a tribal subculture and then unfortunately being dominated by severe addiction and violence and alcoholism and stuff like you’re saying it doesn’t it’s riddled with with pathology even though it’s our best hope in a lot of ways though it’s really important to be helping it evolve and grow to be more supportive than have more resources in interesting me it was people like you that had probably the most affect an impact on me when I was going in and out of Institutions that because they’re always seem to be like at least one post-punk angel that would be that would gravitate to they see my boots and my Mohawk and stuff and then they would they would kind of give me the secret knowledge that they said they were punks you know that had gone to school to get a social work degree and so they were working in these institutions to kind of get there a minimum hour requirements for certifications and stuff so they would always smuggle me in Punk record send zeins I say most of my in my most quality education and in in the punk rock movement was the CCM Elders that would that were working in these places that was secretly be able to pay myself have you found other like have you kind of built build some good networking done some good networking with other professional Punk oriented social workers and clinical psychologists in I’m not a social worker or counselor but I have gotten some great networking and I do know a fairly decent amount of social workers and I also know if punk rock to your counselor and also just threw out my travels and you know the website to track a lot of interesting people and the call for contributions for the book them doing brings in a lot of interesting people as well and you know my professional mental health workbook by many people in the severely jitomate you know you got this was one of us and that’s really a lot of people that they needed to show respect of us are considered mentally unhealthy cuz we’re inside sorry. Or because we are unique we have our own style of dress or own way we were here and so many people in the system especially going back to the past several decades now remember 25 raising their face so a lot of people are treated badly because they listen to Scott and they had their own beliefs that said a child that won’t inform them you know just simply telling you this information doesn’t make it true as punk rockers and people with with strongly develops a personal item has a run but how do we get out of society where people could be respected and treated with dignity that many people are just considered mentally unhealthy because they have is s r e l a lot of people do that and you said it talk about the vehicle cheats for their other the color of a year how they know that really pushes people the way so I’m sure if you have an experience that person you know what I’m talking about and medic medic see this is a chronic courses offered at 3 to do this kind of work and dye made from and being accessible on Facebook through anybody who wants to chat or talk if I have time and show me people who want to make the world a better place and you want to get back to have this this like this deeply rooted desire at your house from Concord to they got at the punk rock yes of course cuz I lied to her right difficult and Andy were looking for a place to be who he always loved being judged 11 also really have this desire in this need to help make the world a better price and summer squash down by Society in the system and and that it’s really hard to really good blossom into the person that you suggest Lee want needs to be and it’s not going to come across people like that all the time who really didn’t know that I could get better but you didn’t know that these kind of jobs exist and if you can get trained to do this kind of work is it absolutely amazing relationship and what I’m doing and yeah that that that in some ways that makes you sad that people have struggled so much just like I had struggled so much and I never been offered that information and then once I got even the tiniest bit of information that was possible I took that ball and Iran Iran Iran I’m still running and life getting better certainly You know what last step of this is that odd thing is that I do not get shocked by some of the very troubling things you see when you do some kind of Human Service work so it kind of gives us an advantage and you know be able to connect with people cuz we get the violence and we get the trauma we get to substance abuse and we get the the you know by the police or something it personally are we know of it in the other thing I wanted to say about that is that on McBride catch my train of thought War II was that people from the punk scene you know people who are who are in various police and police about you know turn is Amanda autonomy and mutual support I mean what is more punk rock and what is more alarm at those believe that having a role where you provide Mutual support to others who are struggling and to be able to have that in my professional life where I work as a peer mental health counselor but also have that in my personalized my social life when I meet people when I travel and whoever right she was on the phone and just got over being part of your people who described, and they actually what I’m doing is providing Mutual support for people when does Cabarrus situations where they can be really like I have a very very much in line with my beliefs of you know supporting each other and to Build a Better Community Building others better world so every day and it’s awesome and there’s way more than anyone knows and I want to help create strength in that community so we can all United in and also identifying the people out there who are allies to us whether they have the experience or not or whether they having to go help you know Spirits are trauma or addiction experience you’re not that allies the people who are also working Human Services many of them try to do this work a better place you know for their family member you know they make things better so I can also recognize that allies also that sometimes to a better because we protect ourselves and sometimes it’s because we we blocked at beneficial to us and I want you to just got back shed hear that that some allies or many allies are actually quite that they are allies to us and we can work together to make the world a better place and help each other and I aware of in the news or any you know anything going on so some people are just good people and whether there will come soon and not leave certain political ideologies or not they can be embraced and will want to embrace us and doing the work we’re doing and people here that because so many of us get pushed away and we naturally build up defenses to protect ourselves and it’s important to recognize that we do that could be of help to us and we should try to use our best to intuition I who those people are and see what we can come up with me see what kind of changes or improvements to our lives that we can wait and then approached with making the world a better place in different healthier for all of us right on. Yeah I totally feel that and if I’ve been on a similar path feeling like the nihilism and pessimism that’s sort of built into a lot of I mean if your punk that’s of a persuasion of just total apathy and eyelids and then you know when you come when you get into the the Revolutionary or insurrectionary activist modality of punk and then you get your ass kicked in the streets and you can’t be friends go to jail or you go to jail whatever you just get bludgeon and demoralized and disillusion and you said you had hope and now you’re actually more traumatized kind of like in The Matrix you know if The Cypher you know he wants to take back the disillusionment and just to be blissfully ignorant again and I think that we’re going to probably the punk rock element coming into does the social science in clinical psycho psychologie in of this kind of recovery and stare. Work I think they will end up introducing some sort of clinical terminology for the the condition that is becoming too too aware of the totality of if you when you start to look at the karmic consequences of living on the back being in the first row living on the backs of all of the ecologies and in economies as the other nations you know that are under the bootheel of of the West and all that you’re not just solving your own personal life family Karma and traumas that we’re actually living carrying the weight of the world here if you never if you’ve never cared about any of that stuff in your kind of just more of those completely apathetic Southampton pain it won’t heal still never affect you that that pain in that sense of responsibility and a sense of not being able to be content just fitting into society or just fitting into the sort of fashionable scenes and stuff because you’re like no I need to be resisting the size as my conscience has been awakened to the this expense entire Global disorder there’s so much additional, wounding baggage to inherit that that that disillusionment but then there’s also the gift within that of finding a sustainable way to be resisting and fighting back and you know but doing it figuring out a way to actually actually expresses your gift you know and end in from like a kind of typical spiritual kind of using thing as soon I was fine when you’re in you’re when you’re in the zone like if everyone who is fine is what puts them in the zone that’s a positive constructive creative self Transcendence you know purposeful activity weather is gardening or doing you know writting or writing poetry or doing volunteering or whatever it is if it’s something that’s not just serving your narcissistic ego I was just not going to get you very far but something that is help genuinely giving back in serving and it is something that you enjoy doing that’s where the real internal Pharmacy switches on and you become your own organic psychiatrist that medicine you know know and have a more and have a such a a reason to find those gifts in a reason you know to like we don’t have to pay once you get disillusioned and switch Sean you have to you can’t really sleep at night knowing that you’re part of this giant monstrosity of exploitation you got to figure out how to become more locally and regionally self-sufficient and sustainable and and how to make you said create Mutual Aid System all kinds of overlapping layers of mutual Aid so you can start to have more Independence and autonomy from the systems that are really perpetuating all this stuff so yeah I’m totally hopeful and in excited about about what is going to be like as you know we make the world a better place for everybody and his future Generations role in but also particularly with our own server tribe you know like I can imagine that honey I’ve started want to dedicate my life to making the next generation of people who do get disillusion whether to punk or whatever else give them more constructive and more sustainable ways to express that rage and to resist in ways that don’t you know get them in really trapped the way that I’ve been trapped in and peer pressure to do things that you say you know in certain ways unsustainable El Paso weather most people I believe who are being treated for mental health issues or trauma or addiction a mental health issues or addiction generally has to put a trauma either alongside what’s going on with them or has precipitated it and so when are the judges are made in the documents it written and diagnosis it diagnosis are given the trauma ask that’s what you may be the main source of the dysfunction or perpetuated or or or or Nursery in a negative way that the difficulties we were having or how we coach is often not even addressed during the whole truth, is the major component and often I just had precipitates you know the real the real I just kind of struggles who are basically labels and put in the box and told you this label this word is in this box and I’ll just medication in that this is your life is now it’s going to be and you know no one really care so that was my experience it’s a lot of parents that also wanted to say that I know we talkin about we we certainly have to acknowledge that this parts of the punk scene is people in the punk scene who absolutely have whatever reason I have a very apathetic stance I don’t care about politics are you know making a change in the world and in a way that maybe ice I might see our our our potential to do so however I think it’s also crucial pieces mind but also when we interact with others as far as finding common ground to meet at and not just compared to some people who are already feeling shunned or themselves from others for their own safety and that’s that these individuals to are very apathetic and you’d call him and get gas pump whatever we call them I mean something happened to them experience something like that maybe they were extinguisher made it more complicated for them really I mean we’re all the products of what we’ve experienced so individual for a community really must also be validated for the fact that they’ve experienced something real life most of what we don’t know about we have not had that conversation to add to this weekend we should be more empathetic and understanding understanding find common ground which would then reduce the result of individuals who are anti whatever it is we’re trying to do that you know Progressive so that are the way they are they do things the way that you would just say what they say because of their experiences and I would go very far as to say that in many situations are most people who acts in ways that are disruptive are or are against what is the collective real good reasons for doing that if if I don’t like it leave if you don’t like it or it’s not helpful to society they’ve experienced something in life that is informed them do to protect themselves or that manifest we have to acknowledge that that’s possible or potential explanation and when we do that we let me extend that massive amount of epithelia people instead of judging them in condemning them in and then you don’t know. and have their license because if that’s how it’s going to be and we can make that really at most empathetic wonderful decision to ourselves apart a to not engage that negativity cuz of that sells down and park Beauty must one another must one of us empathetic things we can do it’s not get into it with them and it is somebody is being destructive are there getting drunk out of his colon causing problems that are causing fights or whatever it is we get nothing out of it nothing out of well-being and wellness and Medical Health Center perpetuates already struggling struggling and suffering even if they’re wrong with me even if it’s wrong someone else do they care about that’s contrary to everything I believe in care about whether that means having really politics or whatever it is I understand that people are the products of their experiences and we do the things we do when we adapt and our brains and our minds how to defend ourselves to protect ourselves and I can get that I guess that very deeply as person lie and we will all be much happier if we eliminate some of that unnecessary conflict cuz it gets none of us are getting pissed off and alienated from our communities or from the community which really we all have a much more in common as to how she even with each other then the differences I wanted to make that clear that that’s really where I come from on that comment about you know that is this sustainable living and living a healthier Life by not impacting those who are less LIRR the providers of a lot of our services and and foods and ends in a situation that existed as many people want to be treated right in my my actions don’t always make decisions that are the life of those people who know I cannot directly speed at impact and I want to just put on the record here that I’m aware of that and I want to be better about it recovery of struggle and just keep myself going there today at the massive full-time job as I think you understand as well and maybe the listing will get and I have work to do to make sure that I can have left of an egg impact on those in the world that I can’t see your hair at night I think crucial to be accountable for our word that our actions and that’s something that overtime I hope I can make more adjustments to really be able to be more to adhere more to my beliefs of a really not harming anybody and I’m glad you brought that up because it made me realize that yes I have a lot of work to do as far as living that life that I believe would be beneficial to all of us if we’re able to actually apply it in the garage for our lives to thank you for bringing up that point and I’m grateful that you share that and it was in this conversation describe reconciling differences between the different camps in punk rock if that’s what’s so amazing in in in well stated and even going back to Axiom days and I was just like a teenager if your right eye it was a lot of lot of conflict a lot of some sort of psychic and even physical conflict in show environments and and scenes and stuff we’re more energy was spent fighting each other than fighting assistance in a lot of cases and I I think I honestly secretly was envious of the the Hedonism most of total telepathy and so there is jealousy there and envy you can’t be no be having a good time cuz I’m pissed off cuz I’m studying all this stuff about how the world’s screwed up and I’m going to make you more miserable and not acknowledge your the truth of your life experience and there’s this whole very malignant growth of the people that hyper intellectual elitist view PC vs whatever street punks are cast bunk’d whatever and then and then and then they rebelled against their like hey we got because we were sick of rules and now you’re telling us we have to have all these rules fuck you you know it’s Dynamic Anna and I really obviously I think she has somewhere in the middle is is is the middle the Watercourse Way you know it’s like between the extremes of Pleasure and Pain is you know where we want to have a baseline of homeostasis mentally and yeah I just wanted to throw out the or ask you if you have any thoughts about the pathology like the Psychopathology of of being the feeling like you know a lot of the more conscious or where people using that as a way to put people down and actually yeah add to their wounds not acknowledge where they’re coming from and I mean I don’t want to name name names of particular movements that I think has the issues very kind of full-blown but I think you can imagine how they’re are you know they’re really just morally Superior elitist and that is more division more ego foundries and stuff and not likely not actually changing either really engaged and lots of call clicks then it all back then what was called and that never should have been there really hard dry Community Honda other people I slid in the other than my spells and very very unfortunate and I really was desperate for percept insight as I said I grew up in group homes and I didn’t really have the kind of life that that would have really prepared me for the world appears and you know what I was very much my maturity level was was it over the years and I was traveling I really called by the barriers and tell the conflicts that didn’t need to be there and I suffered a lot and if you looked into it and and you know it to the late 2000s and what I really begin my recovery process and you know I miss you guys but hit rock bottom and it was either liver die and I chose to try one last time to get better and I’ll be starting to get better than me really struggling through it that I laid it happening is an interesting someone I want to share this cuz it won’t hear the last thing about that is that the with you that the people who buy and most in the most contempt from and the most abusive toward me what are the people who are the PC pumps and tanks and the elitist you know ya 2000 error get out new hardcore punk Center that pumps and I mean completely different person will not allow me when I when I when I really I recognize that the PC and all those people were not my friends at all and really did not give a crap about me except I was a good L I was just fodder for the for the internet message boards that the people who really embraced see people the people who are the people who you know you know we’re all grown up punk rockers and and and Let It Go who works in a PC who said things that like you know harmed and Ed Embrace fully and with no issue and many majority actually of the PC and just send me an actively participating and end in not treating me well and increasing with disrespecting a lack of understanding and it’s just that people who are you know very much in the PC crowd anarcho-punk crowd and all of those people that they have reasons why they stick together that way and that’s how they express myself and I think most of those people are very insecure and need to be a part of a pack to be able to feel feel like that’s what I don’t like how I’m treated sometimes and understand that people do what they do that kind of life and I’m not going to condemn them to it looks like good friends are not from the PT anarcho-punk Brad they are people that a lot of people might not necessarily has the best picture say about Grace to me I’ve been supportive and nurturing me it was there for me when the very people who like and I work really take responsibility for me what does beef to make peace and I’m really generally you feel pretty comfortable you know people don’t know who see my issue I don’t I don’t take it personally realize that people do and say what they do because they had experiences or whatever they had going on their life they haven’t spoiled them to act that way and I do my very best that I’m not perfect I make mistakes but I do my very best to embrace that reality that people act in certain ways into things to say things because of their experiences and then I’m not going to feel bad about it and lock it up. I’m going to try out that at the reasons why and I may not have any idea what those reasons are and they have to do with insecurities are or like mob mentality but really doesn’t matter cuz I know I’m better off into it and they want say what they want and you know what else we going to get up and be healthy life and grasses that those people left my life or are they want to embrace me wholeheartedly and it’s very interesting that that this is what I experienced as I continue to experience a punk rocker you can imagine and if you want to talk about giving the and that’s good enough for me and doesn’t matter to me is there a PC pong or chaos pong or a skinhead of whatever variety or whatever because whatever reason walk up to that talk Siri speak about my experiences of what I’ve been through and I like them in my life better that tells me that they get it we have something in common and that even a society as often to devenish answering people for certain things that they say and do I don’t want to do that I want to stay on estate I embrace you because I recognized that whatever it is that would also saying about your battery this is that is that really you just suffered he had a tough life and things weren’t fear and you just do the best you could you survive and treating people badly or say horrible things but I understand all that stuff all over here is all those decisions are directly impacted by Twila Paris and at things that happened that I can’t possibly know about and I’m not going to condemn. Just like I don’t want to be condemned by others as I felt so much in my life being torn down by others and other people so very complicated social life is complicated your boss seems a very specialized Punk scene that is pretty much you have to understand that you can have a cheer like crust punk shows and whatever they called TV now and I will spare part of this crew in this guy’s not so often is so sexualized but I try to get the gauge of anybody who wants to talk and I don’t really care healing moments of the saying yeah I get it you’re fucked up I get it it happened so you want to do what do you want to go from here to honoring appreciating sake so cold so cold more like Street Punk kind of Cloud V I was just checking with anthropologically studying different shows and you know during all over and stuff and there is something sacred about the circle pit and that that that’s Been to Spain by Spinoza different more old-school types of pumpkins where you were there and that’s like a really it’s like a it’s like a putting the the mind on spin cycle in a washing machine is this total punk rock group exorcism I study Tantra and and different Pharmacy you know spiritual Traditions from India and China and stuff and it’s like purification and releasing you know the the energies that are negatives that attach to a sin that act like vampires and want to create more misery and suffering in the world and our happy tooth are you happy to disguise themselves in a variety of different ways people are just accepting and tolerating this extremely toxic amount of negative emotional poisoning that is going on in them in their bloodstreams constantly with all of the Slime Wars on forms and stuff just all of this on cerebro and disconnected from the heart like just noise of conflict that that that just becomes this norm and you go into like an activist meetings or even like a house meeting at a supposedly enlightened you know Community House Savannah kiss or a ton of people and people are just waiting to tear each other apart and just create more more hell and more suffering and and Mori girl in more Agony and around all that stuff and it’s nice since I’ve gotten into more different esoteric Traditions that acknowledge you know that John the human psyche is so sort of inhabited space where the things that are making our lives hell or actually like discrete entities are organisms that are subsisting off of our energy and functioning on a plane of existence that are not visible to our to our normal five senses so with psychedelic Shamanism in different forms of deep meditation and even like with Tantra is it did the use of sexual energy as as a medicine for purification and in as a way to like this loss exercise these energies these entities Better Living inside of our energy Fields this is an interesting Dimension that I’m really getting deep into bringing back I think both of us have spray and stay out of the sort of punk rock ghetto to seek answers and health and healing for Purcells and now we have gifts that were bringing without any agendas or authoritarian elitism with it but it’s hey this work for me check it out less judgment Less elitism in criticism and write this is the scientific directions that I’m trying to take the clinical psychotherapeutic or psychological approach to a lot of healing traditions of the East that are more symbolic and not even just be supposed to say traditional pre-modern shamanic modes of healing where there’s an understanding of the spirit world and that human beings are basically extremely vulnerable and extremely defenseless especially alone if a human being who is estranged from the orb of healing love light energy that is an intact tribe or Village of people living in Us in an intact natural habitat that’s the molecules of human mental health a baseline of mental health and it’s it’s maintained by shamanic practice tennis go to mediation between the negative forces in the spirit world and his desire of human populations to maintain a state of homeostasis where we’re all loving each other from birth to death know everyone has a purpose everyone is is given sexual access and affection this age appropriate and is abundance throughout their life and then the physical materials security and ecological security is there because in our traditional past as hunter-gatherers you know and then and its various forms of Horticultural societies you know there was at intactness and a couple minutes and then you just literally don’t see the some massive pathologies of organized Warfare and violence then suicide and incest and all these horrific pathologies to the shaman it’s the infection of weekend populations and weekend individuals of these demonic entities that are always there and always Genetically speaking cracks and fractures in our population has been in our individual minds and when drama happens cultural trauma or intergenerational trauma of all kinds we basically become so weak and in so susceptible is like we have psychic HIV or psychic immune deficiency and we’re overrun by these demonic entities that it’s just they’re just happy to disguise themselves as as our personality so we identify with them and say yeah I am this label and the the really hyper elitist intellectual cerebro activist movement people and I was one of them I was really like sharp so I could really hurt people with my voice you know I could really make people feel bad about themselves and so I I was addicted to that and I was totally ignorant and in delusion about it because I thought ya and this is how I’m healing the planet and I’m making a little better place mean well I’m basically becoming an instrument of that same negativity going to like you said and you know some of the stuff is like really complex or esoterica you have to I mean I don’t think you need to face to explain the spirit world I think you can you can have a second traditional psychedelic shamanic ceremony of experience and and have a have a complete visual understanding of the impact of of different of these different things that are attached to a string attached to her thinking and basically pushing Us in farming or negative emotions and that’s getting closer through this Renaissance Inn in clinical psychedelic research studies for the restore of the medical youth legal category 4 for II LX has a different kinds we’re getting closer to this sort of new germ Theory which with which wood with when a microscope with able to with able to discover basically and implicate microbes as the source of of infectious disease the Psychedelic perspective is like the microscope for the for the psyche and for the the sort of structure of the invisible structure of the larger human energy field and being able to look into that and study and explore that with this cool as the Psychedelic medicine is giving giving us an understanding now that can be really revolutionize the the mental health industry and be able to say this word for instance when you have that perspective you can actually see that these medications that people being drugged on the pharmaceutical industrial complex is like spelling and pushing people are actually weakening people’s physical and mental immune system so that they become susceptible to even greater degree of infection and that’s where all this really extremely psychotic side effects are coming in and because we still are in a medical cert is impurity that it ignores the spirit world biggest say that all those are just eating disordered neurons that are somehow being bumped into by this chemical but in fact there’s too much more Sinister thing going on and that you wouldn’t the punk rock mix. Silver Lake West Bismark fist anti-religion anti spirituality total denial of the spirit world because we’re so traumatized by religion you know it’s taking me a long time to relieve have to get a new education on like what what mental illness it really actually is in it and how Commons in various cultures traditional look at these issues in and crying your help for them I see now that what I was blind to for many years that I just accepted because it was I was so blind and so diluted like everyone else in the PC World in the activist communities words if you bring a shaman into an activist meetings in and just have that woman or man with a sketch pads close their eyes scan the room with their third eye and make a sketch of what they see well all these people are just fighting over these Petty semantical things just extremely nasty Eagles assert assertion that is not connected to the heart and not acknowledging the the Oneness and this connectedness that a deeper level that everyone really has not really listening to people when they talk and just waiting till like Karen down with that actually appears like from a higher dimensional space with the people who are trained to be able to operate as surgeons like surgical Exorcist in that space with are going to see is that these people have become habitats for extremely nasty creatures that are able to hack into and spam their mind stream like you said and I need that negativity that grows it’s alive and it and it has is a dimension of an organism make a live Anna Sun another another dimensional plane of reality and so if you have zits and we just don’t we because we don’t normally see that we just take it for granted and just let it run everything and that is exactly what its agenda is and I love what you said about how like yeah you when you when you get so brutalized by that experience that you seek the heart and you go and find the people who didn’t have that type really Destino way of being and they are the ones with Open Hearts that are actually creating space or people that sit to accept each other and like not Take On The World and unsustainable Morley ABY this way but just try to be good people and try to do less harm and be present I had the same the same Journey I really appreciate that and I’ll come full circle back to the end yeah and it’s a PC struggling because people just really want to feel strong and secure and empowered and and this country through all that different things that happened with the military being in Syrian control and and media control and absolutely true pharmaceutical companies which you know I’m not I’m not going to I’m not going to sit and some people benefit from their medication and some don’t know I’m very careful to not say you like I’m either a medication because I I do take the summer off and not entirely sure that I needed and stirring trying to taper off and I’ve already had two doing up sometime but I want people to be able to feel I want to hear that it’s okay to take steps to help yourself and you know our society has is very much very pressuring and very forceful and raised. Smells like Menthol and very unforgiving and I want to get people to know that you know when we are faced with the trauma and addiction that we can serve ourselves and support those around us and helping others make the most informed decisions about how to deal with what they’re struggling with and I wanted people to be careful but can getting medication cuz some people may benefit from it and others can disagree or other and that’s fine I respect those people to a lot of people the reason are Jarritos hurt less than that and feel better and be more stable and successful in life in life and it’s really important for me to know what it is and just because I believe one thing about how to deal with things with my life doesn’t mean that’s right for someone else and get the best thing we can do for those people and I spell it does appear as a friend as a community member I thought you would make the most informed decisions about what to do about their struggle what to do about their information possible to decide to make an informed decision on what they want to do and what major should I choose may be different than another that person might choose to take medication and and meditate and exercise and another person might choose to you no good acupuncture and swim 5 miles a day in only eat a certain specific diet and and go to your house with another person like say I want to see a therapist but I want to only see a psychiatrist who is under the age of thirty who’s recently trained at school and University of the newest techniques has been informed about recovery and information possible which will result in a much better prognosis I think I don’t want to say that take religion III come from a fairly impressive religious background night my feelings Jewish and you know I’m always going to recognize that is 70 benefits from being religious spirituality and of course we recognize that our religion can include spirituality and not be religious so I do respect this Puppy Bowl at my work if you believe in God and pray and you know what I validate that and that’s going to help him get through the day even if my opinion of that help or not may be different it’s irrelevant because my job is to be supportive and helpful. I was really like to believe that God was just this thing I was going to help me and gave me a Higher Learning very much the hard way that that wasn’t the case I’m an atheist now or maybe more like a tent again you know I respect that people do what they do for whatever reason and I don’t want to condemn anybody for making a decision this different than what I believe as far as will you take medication or not you believe in God and not for you or you just help yourself or not even say it was that you mentioned a few minutes ago about your Chanley aware that you’re into that could be used to really cost I don’t want the one I used the wrong word but harm to others and I’m well aware that I also have that similar but I know that intellectually I could use my knowledge and and words to just guesstimate somebody because I am as you can probably tell from this interview station skills that I understand this stuff and I have in it select that will that will allow me to really be that way and I have to work very hard when I’m upset at people or angry people to not use that that little part of my brain that to be so Sinister and malicious because that’s not how they had to live my life and I have to be aware that I fixed her and think sometimes there’s a person with trauma in the struggle that I’ve had that it could be easy to let go and just want somebody to what I consider valuable in my life preserve and including must not in anyway you don’t go looking for complex and must not in anyway participate or feed the fire of a college because just because intellectually I could be an ass yeah man oh well yeah I think we definitely has a lot more to cover and will continue you know what other dialogue I’m going for sure and yeah I think I really like the inclusive shirt of the words you’re using I really empowering to to you know open-hearted and inclusive and accepting I want to acknowledge it is as you said very important to accept everyone where they’re at and I like what you said just getting to the Dayman really that that is what we’re all trying to do and and I see it’s the under that they say namaste acknowledging the Divine and everyone you see and and your similar likeness to them and really speaking at Divine and all things and in keeping your mind open to the truth it’s difficult when free sample we’re taking on these things the pharmaceutical. Show complex yet there’s the Paradox that you can’t just take it away in and have nothing there and you can’t make someone feel bad if they don’t have an alternative and maybe you know it’s it’s it’s a transitional saying it’s going to take a long time to take still took ten thousand years to create this absolute planetary disaster it’s not going to be fixed overnight going to take a long time to heal and and I think the the best thing that we with the punk rock ethics can bring to all forms of whether it’s psychiatric or do differences as a therapy and healing and Recovery is bringing the ethic that itch I think your people should professionals who are providing service should make a living and should be and should be to make it an honorable and decent living that Society acknowledge is the value of and help support and and that ultimately with Society valuing the work that you’re doing and the stuff that I do and other people then it can become more accessible and more available and with more severe access and it’s me know if this capitalistic hierarchy of wealth and privilege and access you know everybody is suffering we all need love and so there’s no so there’s no substitute for Love Is No Love in a pill form the love has to be through the relationship with your community and your family and your you know your romantic Partners in a nature and spirit and you know the divine all that stuff and there’s many different from weight Pathways and cultures are actually like bun all these different ways to have a have entitlement to access love and meaning in connection to the things that are going to keep us happy and healthy and yes we can bring more access than more fair opportunity resources It Whatever all this interventions that that are maybe transitional that we’re having to work with you know whether it’s the pharmaceutical medications or like you know for example you’re flying to Peru to go to the Amazon to spend weeks or months then beeps your vacation ceremony with Ayahuasca shamans and stuff like that that even as transitional because that’s not really sustainable or or local for people and it’s very limited access to people with privilege the punk rock’s. Let’s hack this stuff and Liberate the Technologies and make people in power with DIY Solutions you know and and and just make make it so there’s there’s that we provider on alternative options that are more affordable and and more you know have have integrity to whatever we choose minimizing the feeling of spelling out to anything that we don’t feel like we have integrity with everybody’s fighting a battle and we’ll all be a lot happier when we don’t contribute to perpetuate to that person’s battle or the suffering and instead if we can be understanding and empathetic and choose to not further their own suffering at you not bring us something to the effect of suffering you know we have that control and we must make that choice for her to do what’s right and I’m trying to help bring that that that that way of thinking around and make you go to listen because I believe that happiness and satisfaction for everyone in the world I mean I just wanted to ask if I could is there a website for people before we say goodbye today yeah please do and how come people follow up and get ahold of you thank you about one of my books is called better days and mental health recovery workbook which is a pump that you just people coping skills and the other is a book called you’re crazy which has the first volume at 27% accounts of people from the pump being who you are talking with her experiences with mental health drug addiction and Trauma currently have to call the contribution volume to are you crazy I just have to include people first hand accounts being mean and dealing with addiction and Trauma www.com Center calvary.com so www.bunk1.com and other coping skills workbook can be found at BWW bettordays recovery.com but it is recovery.com and there are sample worksheets and. Seuss on that pays you can download and see for yourself in if we might benefit from coming off my benefit from it at least turn them on to it thank you so much for this opportunity that has been great to speak with you definitely look forward to speaking with you again soon in the future and I’ve been my honor and pleasure to speak with you as much love and respect and up the punx else will talk to you next time to the touch of Time Podcast please go to www.crunch.com and cook on the Donate button to help support the show in addition is to see me and improving the podcast for donations will help establish permaculture goddess Temple every bite ecological employment for single mothers Please Subscribe and share your favorite episodes if you have questions or comments feel free to leave a voicemail at 818-275-1593 or email event at Township Park. Com namaste

Egoitis TPP09

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tassalli_shamanThis is a spoken word recording of one of my “Holisticore” column entries in Profane Existence Magazine. I address the pathological state of “egoitis” where many modern/western people end up stuck for most of their adult life. It’s indicted as the cause of the failure of most of our relationships and the cause of our misery. It’s not an abstraction, it’s a living parasitic amalgamation that disempowers us when we think, speak and act unconsciously.

Smashing States of Mind TPP08

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tassalli_shamanThis is a spoken word recording of one of my “Holisticore” column entries in Profane Existence Magazine. It deals with the reintegration of hippie into punk and the reconciliation of spirituality, positivism, and nihilism, light and shadow, wellness and disease.

Permaculture and the Future of Punk TPP07

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md16This was one of my columns in Profane Existence magazine addressing the need for punks to study and practice permaculture as a revolutionary praxis. You can read the text of the column here:
https://tantrapunk.com/permaculture-and-the-future-of-punk/

Intro to Radical Spirituality with Reena TPP06

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sidenoteThis is an interview with Reena, one of my tantra teachers/mentors. We discuss how activists can benefit from a path of spiritual development that will enhance our health, wealth, power, and visionary consciousness to apply towards all the good causes we fight so hard for.

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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Com and our journey together will begin hello dear beloved so welcome to Tantra Punk podcast episode number 6 this is a conversation that I had about radicalism activism and spirituality with a dear friend and Mentor Arena so I hope you enjoy it and learn a lot and I mistake I’m going green now is especially my talk to her mainstream Consciousness from buying green products to trying to get more to this abstract concept is Mother Earth where you know it’s kind of a whereas from a more traditional cultural perspective it’s actually experiential and something is very real and very different types of feminine energies and all of that I think it’s becoming more apparent green Consciousness and you know the re-emergence of the goddess in a in a very abstract symbolic an on-and-off and commercialized way you know what this better nothing great but there’s a different deeper need to to go back further in time and to reconnect with deeper roots of connectedness I think you know to to the planet and Consciousness and energy and Divinity and there’s definitely a lot of time-tested methodologies and techniques and kind of sacred modalities to for people to in modern modern people who are there ways you can teach people in modern society how to find that within themselves within the plant cells have a long introduction but I just wanted to tie in the context of why this is relevant to going green and I think it is important to I look at things in this way so do you want to kind of give him the directions yourself what you’re involved in a little bit about your your background and and then we can get into some pointed questions sure my my name is Rita Desai I know my background is in social justice organizing my my academic back on his in economics and politics and I was organizing mainly in the area of workers rights and and anti-corporate campaigns and it’s something I mean social transformation social justice is something that I am very very passionate about I mean I can talk a little bit about this later but my most fertile rewarding work was in India where I was coordinating a campaign that was resisting the rise of corporate retail chain you know because of the destruction of could have on agriculture sector in India and also because of their wave of Twitter material culture that is that it is bringing currently and that it would it would just reinforce and you know it was through 2006/2007 an end and working on the campaign and I’m meeting with a large amount of success in this campaign that I realized will external at the end of a year-and-a-half I was completely burnt out and and stressed out and just not really a nice person which is when I came to realize that something needs to change because if I’m really hoping to build no transformation in the world that have to be sustainable so it’s through through through my head of organizing pass into what I called in a lot of ways external organizing that I came to realize I can’t do this without putting myself in my own self development my own well-being into this work until I so and so I am now doing what I call Inner transformation linking inner transformation to social transformation work where I am I’m bridging spirituality with social justice and within this process really going down going through my own spiritual path which you know which you brought up sort of the rise of the Goddess now this is something that’s something that I’ve been studying something that I’ve been teaching in terms of reconnecting to you know my feminine power and and and helping to teach women to connect to their feminine power as one of the greatest sources of Our Own Strength confidence Health Vitality connection to the Earth and also a power of 4 for social transformation what I’m doing now is is is is consciousness-raising and in personal personal transformation for this larger social transformation now that was great that was perfect thank you for sharing all that and down actually one or two before moving on I think you mentioned before that you hadn’t been able to work with friend on Toshiba is that correct oh yeah when in India we it was a campaign ad campaign is called India FDI watts and so we worked we assembled a pretty broad constituency of groups individuals that were either directly or indirectly affected by the country of a multinational corporation still Vandana Shiva was definitely a big partner in in the campaign and Lord of the work that she has been to bang around you know around fighting corporations and agriculture sector of the WTO and various other trade agreement that and also genetically modified seeds as an Arbiter had a lot of respect for her work and I’m also the fact that she so commonly on they’ll promote the concept of egocentrism which is something you don’t think that we hear the women’s lives after the sixties and if it kind of subsided in the main thing before before I became to sleep with a clear we’re even had the sensitivity to be looking for it I think that’s a huge issue and you know kind of set up Helsing Academia and hasn’t had a lot of water but I think one of the people who really put that to the end of Praxis and release you know Alexa Hands-On practical application and wanted to give you a few questions here and we Define spirituality for people who literally have just lived their whole life and I left brain and everything comes wrapped in a package and goes into a garbage can or recycling bin and very thin rational linear reality that you know the Matrix and that doesn’t separate or seperate holy place to experience you have a quick definition of spirituality that you can use to get people dancing well I guess for me spirituality is in the broadest and maybe in the most basic sense is is turning inwards is you know is turning inwards and recognizing that we have an inner life you know that that isn’t necessarily all based in the brain and an in a lot of ways to connect connecting to the heart and understanding you know the truth and of the heart and listening and understanding what it means to actually live through the heart you know I I’ve been thinking about this a lot in terms of how to talk about spirituality with people involved in social justice movements and involved in the last because it because it’s interesting that that in a lot of circles and definitely in a lot of circles that I was a part of you know it’s part of the labor movement and producer organizing there is this this this notion that you know that going inwards that’s that personal transformation that spirituality is something that is only for the elite to do when you know when in reality it the entire all of the structures that we’re sort of critical of you know capitalism is based on materialism the entire structure is based on finding fulfillment from material objects and and everything that is external to us we do we don’t need that I mean this is something that that we’re actually turning away from in Western culture right now this this constant consumption is constant need to find happiness in something external ourselves and so for me I mean spirituality is really just to to turn to turn inwards in to find you no understand what happiness is from within 2 2 too costly open to Greater levels of love and you know and truth from within ourselves and really sort of transcending the ego and and and and examining you know what examining you are how we have been taught and programmed in a lot of ways by Society by the media buy our parents you know and so for me it’s too sweet to go inwards and to really find Freedom by coming to higher levels of consciousness that come from inner truth as opposed to the outer truth and so I mean that’s and in the end you know what it really practical terms that means it means personal growth and I’m committing to one’s personal growth so you know there’s they ancient Priestess traditions in India and the goddess traditions in India what they would say that you know these bees were women who devoted their lives to to God or to a higher power and really that that means what it means to devote yourself to God or to vote to devote yourself to you know a higher power and means nothing more than to devote yourself to your own personal growth and to always you know understand that that that this life is it’s for for for growth is it for development you know we’re not perfect none of us are perfect and so-and-so spirituality for me as understanding this end and constantly you know developing ourselves I’m going into work to do this Slavic radio going inward Guided by the heart and grows in Kirkland almond overall pretty comprehensible 14 I like working definition Cosmic Dimension but it’s not a sort of like point A to point B with here in a spaceship and go to the other side of the Galaxy it’s like lit murder Consciousness into higher dimensionality so that space and time the way we can see them in four dimensions you know it’s transcended in and there is no attic of the cosmos end of reality that include and get transcend space and time and figure out a way to making music people to understand I think from what you’re saying experience and going inward your body into like a vehicle to travel through Dimensions early and have greater access to knowledge and greater access to healing energy and insights and all kinds of things that coming through from different song more than more than what we you don’t scientifically except to be the physical limitations of putting two ancient teachings of Tantra are our bodies are microcosms of the universe you know within a sweet contain the the greater universe and so we have tremendous. Tremendous capabilities within us if we if we are if we actively to tap into this and work with the energy that we have are the energy of the universe that we have within us but for most of us if we don’t do that you know and I mean it really is I mean you’re able to reach higher higher levels of consciousness and and you know interconnectedness in and and different dimension at the same time I mean from it from the perspective of you know actually creating real change I think spirituality is that what should also be looked at it something very practical you know in terms of spiritual tips to do physical exercise to take care of yourself to take care of your body to live healthy you know to to be a happy in relationships tune to know how to rid had to know how to have healthy healthy and happy relationships a lot of the teachings that that I am learning that I transmit are based on ancient sword of principles and ancient wisdom how to how to how to live and how to live happy you know and then of course you know as you know to sort of one piece with one piece of the Baseline things are are taken care of cuz we need a strong Foundation to be able to reach them of the higher-level dimensions because if you don’t have a strong Foundation if you’re not able to actually live in the world you know I’m function in the world then there’s also not it is supposed to be coming store that’s it it’s very hard to put practice into action it’s hard to bridge the spiritual with the social you know if it’s all up in the sky yeah I think it’s like at all I mean some of that Carly Ln truth but like what I Look At You No Going Back even before civilizations emerged to be able to create text and writing systems and to be able to go to fight and reproduce culture in anything but a oral traditional way I mean cuz I said for the 99% of human history we all lived in tribal shamanic cultures where medicine men and women wood would they would keep a lineage of teaching and wisdom of thicker plants and sacred rituals and chanting and techniques to enter into ecstatic altered state and be able to see the future or be able to harness some sort of healing energy would be able to direct healing energy and agricultural portal into these other dimensional so what other types of things another current running through it and running through ecology in the earth’s ecosystems yeah it’s really nice you’d like for modern society to not have you know either the demonic and under more different ways in in City culture I’m interested in like ways that people can see there’s not and really like to disconnected from the daily you know Community either they’re sort of religious or spiritual person on your like separate from the community in it true in some cases with the people that like you know really what the reason it does not receive any of this is so that they can maintain I was thinking of the teachings in the traditions and that sort of Doorway to the portals but they’re their function is to be Distributing that that information and energy and wisdom throughout the whole culture that everybody has some you know practical means to have access to these things that are beyond our normal sense isn’t our normal day-to-day life and fill I said you as an instructor and cuz I know I experienced the workshop and I was blown away because a lot of stuff that I hadn’t courtesy erratically believe in or around her stood or heard about functional experiential physical reality for my body and my spirit in the moment this time I really love to for you to just kind of briefly outline some things are not necessarily because things out the top of your head where you could just say like at 5 tonight or whatever but you know way antenna count liquid calendar do this gesture whatever anything like that. well I think it’s very important for it has been a very important for me to have to have sort of like a daily practice that I do every morning and then I should have that I’m just a planned and doing for me you know and and and for women and for men definitely for women and dance is is one of the best way to start to open your feminine energy you know it’s it’s it it’s a great way to sort of to get the energy up I mean at the end of the day everything that that I’m doing you know is about increasing our energy is about getting like raising our energy so that we have more energy to email to do what we want to do to most of the people are listening to this are engaged and you know social transformation or activism so even physical exercise if people are in exercising physical exercise anything that is really going to hurt to get your energy up your your body even in shape this is this is important sort of a more mental maybe psychological level two to start to examine just to start to to try and stay in a state of observations you know I exist as I think it’s and might be easier said than done is it comes with practice you know but two try to someone says if you’re watching your thoughts you’re watching your emotions you’re watching what’s going on in your life to try and stay in the state where your observe bank and it allows for this sort of space or the scats of Detachment that allow that that’s allowed for Freedom you know in in store in the way that that you actually that you react in a certain situation so and you know along with this to to examine the deeper sort of roots the root the roots to various situations I think a lot of times you know we can get caught up in the story if you know this person did this or that did that happen and I felt like this and I bet you know whatever it mean to not to sort of break out of this pattern of the stories we have to really get to the routes of what the issues are in a lot of us are carrying around you know deeper a karmic issues block that would carry from childhood that are the roots of a lot of the experiences that we have in our daily lives today especially if we haven’t gone back and heal this or examined this you know this is being tired process of self-transformation it’s healing and when we talked about so do you know this new era of Consciousness that is coming with new paradigm that with that we’re entering into it’s very important that we ourselves are healing the past you know that there was that were there were breaking from the past that were within us you know asking. So that’s possible to sort of embody light and love and an end and some so we can bring in this sort of in-body the new Consciousness bring in the new Consciousness and so I mean just being active about your own healing process your own to the growth process in out so I’m very you know this is this is sort of people feel differently about these things I have a spiritual teacher you know I study with Master’s and Anaya this is for me my past and I think you know it’s it’s it’s a huge huge resource to to go out and seek teachers and see communities of people who are also on you know a spiritual journey it’s it’s because it’s it’s very you know it’s a very it’s a new way of living in a lot of ways we’re not we don’t live in a spiritual society and culture right now so so to sort of open up to a lot of maybe they were the resources that exist in your own community and I’ll and find something that resonates with you one thing I would say is that a lot of times when we talk about spirituality we think that spirituality is meditation and it’s it’s not just meditation and in fact meditation is sometimes the last stage of a very deep spiritual path because it takes a level of deep concentration to to read some of sight some of these higher States and meditation for me I mean a lot of What I Do Is Dance Dynamic meditation these practices about her I said that I said it showed which I can’t really demonstrating over the phone but you know why would you knows I would I would just emphasize I mean art is healing spiritual so so yeah I mean I would I would I would I would I would you know today is is for everybody to come out the most important thing is if you are open and you want transformation and you want changed to open to it and to trust the process and to trust that you you know we’ll find what resonates most with you but you no interest in terms of started the basics I mean it’s it it it it dies at the beginning it it boils down to living a healthy life you know taking care of yourself taking care of your body taking care of your emotional states you know so can you give a brief rundown of I need the first time I think I got really in touch with it on a experiential level not like a very open-minded I’m very one of them out there people that I actually know but for some reason I had like for a long time since elected to do the work to try to connect with the experience of that other truck assist on and it was a having a thing double jointed or not it was like what it means to me or how I can tap into it and you know it was in your Workshop believe in it but the other for the whole point of the movie of you know there’s a lot of religions that are based on beliefs but there’s a lot more don’t it’s not like oh you’re you’re lucky to have a once in a million years once once in a million lifetimes like Vision or something that’s what I like more about the sort of holistic open field of spiritual practice and development is it that are okay and that aren’t like it’s okay for a new spiritual experiences for people to write their own and then also youth borrow from traditions and try to instead of traditions in Italy like in your case if you’re able to you know find Masters that you resonate with so that you can start on a path cuz I mean you know you don’t want to be a jack of all trades and master of none and I think that’s like in California like everybody’s like fraction of a thousand different you know that’s a really modern Western sort of the highest states are the ones that put themselves to the most action you know you can find out if you it makes sense and then you show me some pretty quick way to get in touch with that I’m thinking like that Morristown luminous color settle energy field yeah it’s based on the the chakra system in the chakra system is one of the most ancient sources of knowledge of how you know the energy that exists in the universe and how we are connected to it to the energy that exists in the universe we have seven basic chakras and each of these suckers for the vibrate at a different at a different frequency and they’re all connected to to a certain energy in the universe is the root chakra muladhara chakra it’s it’s it’s between the believe the anus and the forgetting that it is basically there are genitals and this is the the chocolate that’s connected to the Earth to stability it’s the color is red it’s considered ones out it’s all so this is where a lot of our health issues facing this chakras right below the belly button this is called Succasunna chakra it’s orange the element is water it’s more of a male chocolate such a girls sexuality of passion at the at the at the belly button this is our solar plexus this is fed to pigs called money put a chocolate that check up fire it some or other personal power these passages about her at The Witcher based you know in martial arts they’re all for the focus on this chakra building confidence power this is our ability to live in the world are ability to make money the people who are ruling the world have very strong money put a chakra the above that is at the Heart Center is on a hot the chakra this is such a higher emotions of love it’s also consider more female chakra at the throat is sore should the chocolate is a chocolate creativity of our inspiration and it’s it’s more of a female chocolate let me have a vaginal check where this is at the third eye this is intuition it’s also Focus concentration the check up higher purposes and then above this we have the crown chakra which is our connection to Universal energy sew in they took the different levels of the chocolate cancer the position is is closed where they’re blocked they’re not functioning and then they’re open which means they are functioning and under emanating which means you can actually give me through through your chakras cuz they’re operating at such a high level by and large amounts of us in society today live at the like the first two chakras you know a lot of the spiritual work that’s out their focus has an opening that’s at the higher chakras but but but lacks in front of the ground it like that the lower chakras and it’s very important to to have to be operating at the lower chakras in order to be living and in the world and functioning in the world so a lot of the work that I do and you know that and also the teachings of the school Universe energy Arts it’s based on first making sure that our lower three chakras are clean their functioning and you know that we have a solid Base by which to work from for higher-level Spiritual Development and it’s always let me know we’re always liked working with all of them too so do you know to 2 to be balancing but it is right now and especially for especially for activist that especially for Spiritual people activating funny porchuck Road that’s what I’m working on a lot and I think that’s the checkered to live in the world to have power to have to make money in a lot of us think that money is bad when money is just really energy and it you know an end with it I mean an ancient civilizations with you to do math and that’s a good for people that shift in this society and culture has become so corrupt you know so to be able to sort of transform the world to really transform the culture of of money and and within a lot of us is it sits in his opening up to our own personal power own ability to attract you know situation then and then careers or you no work that that we can live on so this is everything all the practice as a visualization meditation they’re all based on on opening to these chakras having a rigorous schedule of initiations and exercises and things to do, push pushing to the limit so that you can find yourself but I might the path that I’m on is not the spiritual path of you know taking it slow it is definitely when you need to but it’s also very much about raising energy concept of increasing our energy that I were able to do more in the world that were able to be more highly effective but at the same time we’re in alignment with the highest good with ourselves in a with universal energy and the idea is to to build community you notice to build spiritual communities and it’s the school’s very well-established in Russia they have you know they have thriving communities of all throughout Russian and South America and Europe but to start to build you know this this Consciousness in a sustainable way in El Sol so in a way that it is it is in a holiday and really seeing results in your daily life and it’s you know it’s it’s work to Spiritual Development personal personal growth it’s work you know and it does take willpower and and should have disciplined action to do it that doesn’t mean like I don’t want to give the conception that you don’t have personal power and it because it’s all driven by yourself by your own sort of willpower you know that you you you get what you want what you are what you want to put into it and it’s always a self-driven process and it’s not based on Doctrine or Siri it’s always sort of operating in the Universal thanks you know so it’s always changing and Dynamics with sometimes drives me crazy when we have when we organize something like two days before you know two weeks before something but it’s it’s it’s a beautiful process yeah it does look like the Exxon Valdez oil spill and just like thinking of that the spiritual oil spill in the last several thousand years of patriarchy and it ain’t no expansion of Empires and weapons technology horrible things that had spilled site toxic horrible toxic violin the karmic ocean of our Collective human existence on this planet and night you know it’s easy I think for people to seems easy for people to just continue to live their life in the latter in the rat race and Yelp bear the saloon and just kind of keep moving along and it never that never really knowing what what it was like before you know what we’re an island called a dominator culture before that emerged you know if he has no perception of it out of sight out of mind and it just becomes and there’s a whole story of how we really being not to be a part of a harmonious and peaceful. Is it called you know reconciling this destructive negativity Southwest 2000 years ago extreme destruction and Corruption it just seems like I believe in the idea of progress linear progress so that while we started out as primitive Savages and we’re only you know we’ve gone through some dark times but we’re only getting better but become more alienated for myself and for my community through more devices and more interfaces that are totally artificial and antithetical I mean I think I definitely do know the internet spiritual communities to find each other in Tukwila link for the inlet in a competition the Ecology of competing ideas like we have we now if if if we can sell something better to people so then the system sell a product to their material appetite then we can really think do this massive cleanup jobs of Karma and do this massive play crafted like you said like a lot of the reason that we need to be Warriors in the you know I’m going to put the ice I’ve heard that word in the end I’m I’m putting I’m saying it in a conversation out idea of becoming more using spiritual power and power a lawyer for the past to be able to do this work of cleaning ourselves and cleaning the planet and cleaning our values that really like you know materialistic values it’s really important that we we do like Master the stuff and and and really apply the time to ability spiritual communities in spiritual culture so that we can opportunity to what do you think about starting to wake up. I think it’s the cool thing about to come out of the coma of consumerism of the responsibility to participate in not just stopping things that actually healing things and doing that like literally on all levels to know what do I think about that process yeah I mean just the idea we haven’t talked to you much about like that Karma and the ice that idea of it but you know the spiritual this Collective karmic not or like why should people get spiritual just so they can you know cuz a lot of people are selling that angle you know but have a better more fulfilling personal life vs. the people start the grass that scented like yeah I am I need to take responsibility for like the last several shutting down either so you know if it’s such a cutie ask and but the more Synergy we create together on these in a spiritual community I have a rapid impact female quickly I mean I I think we’re approaching a time where we are changing as a resolving as you know a race or as a species where it will require healing our past or passed our individual paths and also of you know of of the of the world today I mean that’s the thing is once you want want it does go down the path has appealing and and transforming and does go down the path of having healthy relationships and more success and you know an dentist in her happiness it’s a natural process that you want to give that that you want to do you want to have other people live in this and it’s it’s kind of death it’s almost like Maslow’s hierarchy of needs and self-actualization you want to start getting back it’s just a natural process the reason that we don’t have that right now you know the reason you can see this clearly in like it with all of the stuff that came out about George Bush’s daddy complex when was carrying so much baggage so much you know pain within ourselves then this manifests in what we protect in a world so and this is also why a lot of people don’t want to open up to it you know don’t want to go down the path so so really too I mean it’s completely it’s very connected to enter into this new era to enter into a new era of Peace of love will require that we are healing our past to embody in for the greatest level of peace and love within ourselves so that we are creating we want to see an end when we were us when we’re talking about stealing I mean this does going to take it we we heal our family, we go back in two generations and he’ll you know and break out of the cycle that is that has been carried over from our parents from our grandparents and really start to break even come into a new way of existence you know this is the sort of deep healing that happens by Ice it’s kind of like I asked you feel it do you feel the changes that are happening to feel the shift in Consciousness with new energies coming cuz a lot of people feel it a lot of women feel the rise of the visit of the divine feminine it’s it’s something just that should resonating with people because it’s how the Earth and the energy of the earth is Shifting because who knows male energy has become is it and it’s not specific to manage mail energy within men and women has has reached its point that they can’t go any further and so naturally to rebalance we have you know the feminine energy that is coming back and we feel the Swiss ourselves cuz we’re connected to the universe you know and then we’re a part of bringing this back to the universe so so it’s so sudden I disable just become harder and harder and you’ll see it when people don’t commit to their own personal healing and fur it’s going to become harder and harder to exist in this world because because the world is changing because the energy of the earth is changing the energy of the universe is changing it’s getting it’s it’s it’s it’s getting it’s increasing basically which is why I threw you know the spiritual practice we’re increasing our energy to be able to be in alignment with this and is and is part of that it requires it requires you know examining and healing our karmic blocks and and everything that we carry from childhood and NBN before so sore families the beginning think you for listening to the touch upon podcast please go to www.crunch.com and cook on the Donate button to help support the show indigenous sustaining and improving the podcast your donations will help establish permaculture goddess temples every bite ecological employment for single mothers Please Subscribe and share your favorite episodes if you have questions or comments feel free to leave a voicemail at 818-275-1593 or email been at Township Park. 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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Calm and our journey together will begin welcome to the township Punk podcast episode number 5 this is an interview I did a couple years ago on a Volvo Planet radio talking about the concept of what it would take to build permaculture goddess temples and some of the anthropology and Eco feminists thinking behind it so hope you enjoy it take care bye Rolex I’d jump into the giant MIND Institute on what is the idea of the brain behind it where that stem from and where you guys at looking to do in 2012 well it goes back officially to the founding in 2005 myself and a fellow Eco Punk survivalist Gardener and eco-feminist Emily a different environments and she grew up in Southern California and we both ended up finding a new tribal family in the punk rock subculture and there is a lot of transformative energy and ecological Consciousness that eventually LED both of us to become tree sitters at the Northwest and we in the tri-states we we basically experienced the kind of Primal eco-energy and living in these kind of Ewok Villages and having to work out a lot of different issues among genders and luckily you know that the legacy of the Eugene area in the University of Oregon and all of the the post 60s do activists that had that kind of live in that region there is a lot of oysters and there was a lot of Consciousness and there was a really amazing symphysis eco-feminist Siri and politics and the practice of wilderness survival going on out in the easy walk Teresa Villages so we ended up crashing past their years later found each other again in Southern California where I moved in 2002 and started playing music and weary line in Southern California and wanted to bring a little bit of that conch City especially because he’s in Southern California are coming to my shows you know and they’re also playing in bands and so I was just in a lot of environmentally conscious use work reading music in a punk bands and we felt that it was important to facilitate their their good work some recognition for their parents in the school dropouts and not recognizing you know all of the contributions that they’re making artistically and you know Visionaries that I’m pretty glad you called sanity and community center Art Space Art Gallery preschool and kind of brought a lot of that stuff you know from the Northwest that we experience to into the inner city and had a community center space in Long Beach for about a year-and-a-half and then kind of depressed City pressure in zone violations worstest out of there and we’ve had several different to a project basis around Southern California since then right now we’re actually really trying to Anchor a vision in for 2012 for building a permaculture goddess temples with the we were both really be influenced by a documentary film call the goddess remembered and if not if it really goes into the history and a patriarchy and the prehistory of what riane Eisler in chalice and the blade refers to as partnership societies versus the later you know Dominator societies that we’re currently living in the in the legacy of so that’s really gave us directions as far as what kind of especially when it comes to sustainability and survival and food production we want to create sacred spaces that are functionally practically robe has been resilient you know on the material physical security just really having a more secure email exploring Ascend to the higher chakras Safeway where we have our physical security in our basic survival needs you know Food Water Energy security taking care of shelter as well the emerging that the goddess Temple archetype which goes back thousands of years like I think the oldest one the oldest is in malta and there’s tons of goddess figurines is Monumental architecture and stonework which actually in terms of transferring your ear message to the Future Stone Engravings are the longest and preserve medium so all the stuff the closest create really if you don’t like it into stone is not going to be part of the future so yeah 2012 potential for catastrophic Earth changes to happen will there’s kind of I don’t know I guess we’re thinking love of averages are probability that if we spring up enough permaculture goddess temples around the world that actually have you know perennial food system built-in will not just see the ruins of you know Stone cities that that have no fees goddess figurines which tells us the potential of using this is before permaculture even existed as a word but it’s definitely one of the one of the pillars of the inspiration for the potential of creating regenerative food production systems that actually are you plugged in you know the variables in a seven-layer you know Forest ecology system where you have all the different you know dynamics of the species working together so they provide their own hydration their own fertile fertilization and they received themselves so I just encourage people to have to look into permaculture and she understand the concept of the craving food forests that will pretty much perpetuate themselves and only after several you know months or years of intensive she couldn’t have her to get them once they established you know they will last for a long time and I really just kind of feel like whatever you know what answer is that you know this year if it is validated activity and modern ideas about what can happen you know around this time could be next year, who knows when but but the idea that you know it’s possible that the lights may go out on our modern civilization in at the information age may end that really compels me to try to spread the meme of permaculture goddess temples worldwide so that whatever happens you know deserts maybe oceans and valleys maybe Peaks and all of that kind of stuff but you know properly dispersed throughout the globe at least a few of them will last and and the whole book would be they will stand as symbols to 22 really promote all and reverence for the sacred feminine and I’ve been doing a lot of timeshare work recently there’s a couple of folks in town Reena Desai in Rota Jordan to do amazing work to help people connect with Earth energy into understand the power of of integrating goddess energy or divine feminine energy into our lives as males and females there’s an amazing healing effect of that of those practices and and I just cannot tell you how much through the work that I’ve done with them and I really think that yeah that’s the kind of guidance that I’m looking for in that there were looking for as far as I know getting the energy that we need to do this kind of work and have some counterbalancing on the imbalance of masculine energy which has been really corrupting and destroying life on Earth last five thousand years and I really both you know Emily and myself you know we had very similar Paths of encountering eco-feminist scholarship in our Career College experiences Anthropologie students there’s an essay by one of her professors Novotny very very short and concise way for people to learn about the egalitarians gather Hunter societies that for 99% of human history you know actively maintain a horizontal axis of power between genders and there was respect and reverence of all types of animistic spirits and and and and a real understanding of the life-giving and nurturing power of the of the female and that was you know obviously transposon to a cosmology of nature that where it where the female principle was honored and it was considered sacred and if you study how exactly that if you study how exactly that got perverted and destroyed you will really understand the importance of reclaiming the Monumental architecture because that’s what was destroyed in that was what was changed from you know the the the life-giving mother goddess to the warrior code of the the you know the Conquering lands and all that kind of stuff you know there’s there’s really a lot of people you know even radical people and spiritual I think don’t really get into as far as their study of the history of patriarchy and I I really don’t think without that understanding there’s going to be a way out of this or you know whatever system whatever name is call Reno feudalism to capitalism are symptoms of a deeper crisis which is that loss of the reverence of the feminine Divine that’s in legacies of Priestess classes in in just a passing down generation to generation the culture the coastal tools to be able to access that stuff I think you know for us today now you know getting into what what is probably one of the fastest tracks to understand that because if you can see what these people can do with the room of of willing and there’s an all we know people have you know maybe a misconception that it’s all about sexual work but it really it transcends that it’s about all areas of life and understanding you know our our ability to draw from both masculine and feminine energy and to really refine and cultivate and balance them internally within our relationships you know our intimate relationships and with their relationships with the and the way that we make a living in the world and all that kind of stuff so I think it’s just a lot of solutions a lot of things that were excited to work on and you know Emily’s is working on this this kind of creating this kind of goddess worshiping Sacred Space with permaculture the Northwest and I’m I’m always doing projects here and we have you know just various ways to plug in for anybody who’s interested and go to our website. Dash mine. Org and contact us if this is something that you’re interested in and contributing to at the physical energy or with any kind of other resources were always looking for help to interview what you have going on with the guy MIND Institute currently what is a permaculture goddess word for something that has like a two thousand-year-old or down by an archaeologist today don’t have no permaculture and what not but the real conscious you know design implementation of of permaculture regenerative Design Systems has not to my knowledge been done in in this in association with with goddess temples and I really think that I’m a few look at Amanda stages artwork she’s really pulling down that futuristic vision of reaffirming the divine feminine energy in the goddess and sculpting land the land and sculpting are human settlement design and RNR don’t work too actually to be conducive to permaculture you know regenerative design installation and Monumental architecture and that’s really why I love her stuff so much as it’s all there you know the artist in like Terence McKenna said it’s the responsibility of the to the tap into the sort of future slowest of energy and information coming in kind of feeding back get feeling back to us from the future in the artist of the ones who are tuned into that and able to see that and yes man credit for the antenna of the race yeah very cool actually yeah we just picked up some feed and must be all these solar flares today we’ve been having crazy feedback today at the station are all really as well let me see if I can yeah it is going to be at the urban permaculture house on Saturday February 4th from 1 to 3:30 p.m. I’m not looking at the the address in front of me right now definitely go to our website guy mind. Org for that and basically something that we’ve been working on with the guy MIND Institute for many years and it is I think one of the most important ways that we can Bridge the chasm some really dark times food shortages you know skyrocketing prices inflation economic collapse dollar store all that stuff you know there’s quite a bit of it that isn’t you know speculation or prediction requite a bit of like a crunch that people are feeling feeling now just financially there’s a lot of facts about sprouting the people I don’t think they’re aware of one being for example that buy sprouting grains and seeds and legumes before cooking them you’re actually increasing the bioavailable nutrients to 225 hundred times the vitamins and minerals divided availability of them I’ve experienced an amazing feat like super powers of clarity and energy and insight and and just physical robusticity that just from like you know the half a cup of that you are a cup or two of a Sprouts in sand some you can eat raw some you can you know you can you want to cook special are legumes but really and it’s dirt-cheap so you can get 25 bags for 50 pound bags inside of the seed stalks from you know if you want to go organic there are some options but I really recommend a place called Torn & Glasser for people in Los Angeles where you can get a bulk health food store for you know half the price you know half to two-thirds the price and you’re getting him in bulk quantities which will actually force you to to do what I think is appropriate language is to have a reserve of this stuff on site do you know what your house you don’t get 5 gallon buckets mylar bags and oxygen absorber packets and you can create you know food Security in an insurance policy for your own survival with sprout sprout seeds and Dandy’s kit with the buckets this is a big thing in the survivalist movement studying very very experienced I’m a culture and also with this server Consciousness Evolution movement which I find is is is very very healing and very empowering but often times it’s focused on higher chakra work and not as considerate as giving as much consideration to the nuts and bolts as physically surviving in the physical plane which is going to become harder and harder as we move forward from this point preparedness and I know it’s a more of destructive process where you have to fend for yourself we’re going to check out guy and dash mine. Org resources there it’s an awesome sight yeah. I just want to say bend that I I love what you’ve been saying that the whole time that I decide right loving and stuff like that is not going to do the water supplies and stuff like that when something to happen so you know preparing for the physical is just as important as preparing for the spiritual and I’ve always been a big player on that grounding yourself because we do have graduation day is coming in a bit definitely definitely I like the same tie up your horse before you pray that kind of says it all right thank you for listening to the touch upon podcast please go to www.crunch.com and cook on the Donate button to help support the show in addition to see me a podcast your donations will help establish permaculture goddess temples every bite ecological employment for single mothers Please Subscribe and share your favorite episodes if you have questions or comments feel free to leave a voicemail at 818-275-1593 or email event at Tantra Punk. Com Damas de

Sexual Pathology: Demonic Possession or Parasitic Infection TPP04

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Yalila1This is a discussion with Yalila Espinoza a PHD scholar and spiritual counselor who has been studying psychedelic shamanism and sexual healing.

“I am a spiritual health practitioner who integrates art, music, dreaming, movement, ancestral rituals & sacred plant teachings into dynamic embodied explorations.  I received a PhD in Consciousness and Transformation and Spiritual Counseling training at the California Institute of Integral Studies in San Francisco. My studies focused on indigenous shamanistic practices, sexual and reproductive health, and dreaming.

Academic studies, Amazonian shamanism using plant teachers, and many other trainings, such as the ISIS wheel approach with Gina Ogden, have nurtured my own spiritual-erotic awakening.  All of these transformative experiences have inspired my forthcoming book titled: ‘In The Belly of the Serpent: Sensual Wholeness with Plant Consciousness’ focused on how the purification and guidance of plant teachers are vital for sexual/spiritual health and liberation.”

Visit her website here:
http://www.yalila.com

 

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Tantra Punk your guide to sexual Liberation healing and empowerment as a certified Tantra counselor and certified permaculture designer I’m here to help you grow spiritually sexually and ecologically my online and in-person counseling sessions and training programs are price to fit any budget I’m looking forward to helping you design and ever more Divine Life Path please send me an email to Ben at Tantra Punk. Calm and our journey together will begin hello dear beloved is welcome to Township on podcast episode number for I am interviewing alila Espinoza at the California Institute of integral studies in San Francisco she has a PHD and Consciousness and transformation and spiritual counseling and she integrates art music Dreaming movement and social rituals in the sacred plant teachings into Dynamic and body Explorations and the reason that we connected is that she is doing some groundbreaking work in the field of psychedelic Shamanism and Sexual Healing which is my personal life path at this point and so I consider her to be an authority in this field and someone that all survivors really hopefully can start to look too as soon as someone who’s leading this this this Research into understanding what’s going on in the spirit world when it comes to the pathogenesis of sexual predation so hopefully you learned something from this and we can all be working together to further the knowledge and understanding and do more research and really support his efforts so thank you very much and enjoy and hope you learned something to cure okay so in your talk you Lila at the horizons who is a conference right in New York in the video I saw or I heard a reference to it was also reference Pablo amaringo book Ayahuasca Visions I was intrigued by the phenomenon that you that you touched on which is this potential for entities otherworldly entities that appear in the Ayahuasca state that have the potential for Legend has it but they have the potential to use the human body or subtle energy field or however whatever level maybe have more insight to actually implant their own species as like a it’s a way to to grow their eggs or something like do you have any more detail on that kind of phenomenon that you can share their Pablo amaringo reference is just one of many so so from what I’ve read that there are many ways that that the transmission of of information from Alien beings that that can actually be penetrated into a zsar settle field and so you know obviously there’s no research on his precise and eat some people call it folk lore and the the beauty of the ayahuasca ceremony is that our site and perception is opened up in a way that we can actually get a glimpse into what I believe is actually going on it is the truth and that really in the Waking Life we have so many blinders on and we never saw a thousand so many ways to actually just survive and so we do not want to be aware of what’s going on and and if we did then for some people it’s very difficult to walk between the worlds so I do believe the phenomena that does happen and yet I’m not able to say scientifically like here is the person that I met his mean I’ve heard experiences from other people I’ve had my own experiences I don’t know in particular if you mean by the actual implantation of make a bean in ones that actually is reproduced to labor it’s so here’s an example I don’t know if you’ve heard of the Pleiades talk about the Anunnaki yeah and so if if we use that as an analogy in terms of these other beings that are implanting information into us and it could be a lot of the time and saw patterns and so we wonder why we’re doing certain things and thinking certain things that are not congruent with her what we consider to be our own Consciousness and so the specific a situation that I’m thinking of is around the Greek mythology and how they were actual ritual practices where groups of priestesses were actually welcoming in the trend these impregnations of other beans and the gods and that they were they were actually wanting to be impregnated and to be host for these other energies and so something important frases humans to learn about Anne and really focus our skill building is Discerning when is it harmful implantation and when is it actually a benefit and when are we welcome mean in these energies and I think a lot of the focus so far has been on the dangers and that the shadow side of it and it actually makes sense because as humans we are not actually remembering our wholeness in our integrity as conscious beings we are very unconscious and so it makes sense because our alignment is very skewed and turns over energetic bodies and an awareness of her settled body that then we have these areas of wounding the weaknesses where beans like the Anunnaki some Shadow and some light that they can be either at that you are able to penetrate and certain areas of the body and because we’re skewed then we’re we’re going to experience more of the Shadow side of this transmission and and it’s unfortunate because I believe that we are so ignorant at this point and so much fear is perpetrated in our culture that we don’t even yet want to learn how to actually be in harmonic a relationship with all these other beings and so we’re were walking around in this weekend State most of the time and then people call it attacks you know the black magic which I do believe is real yeah I’ve been I’ve been studying a lot about how like the Luminous energy field or the egg or the disk protective shielding around us that is like built by appropriate familial love and connected connectedness with a flourishing wild natural habitat and appropriate people logic relationships and all the things that go into building what like a hunter gatherer Shaman would be working on to preserve this orb of like of them energetic shielding around every individual and then around the village of the tribe of the camp maintenance of that field of protection is valued position in society understand that they need for that and fractures in that through trauma I agree that it’s like that’s those are the entry points for dark energies parasitic organisms alien races to have the more negative types of predator-prey or parasitic parasite-host type relationships to swear it’s not consensual or it’s not erotic like in a pleasurable way it’s not like inviting in like I was just reading Fiona Holmes book about she put it she put a slug on her neck during a 6 gram mushroom trip and had full-body slug as in it that’s like one way to invite in Gmail of the strategically open and expand that field and you know beer on Diplomat of what’s out there but we’re definitely yeah like I think very by Design very kind of strategically and tactically technically put into these I mean just architecture civilization to me is like to be in prison in a state where you’re going to be bewildered in an aqueous acceptable and it’s as if to me this whole thing is like actually I think I think it is the Romans were messing around like this is all Urban Design template that came from them and they were the ones who were like the most hell-bent on rape culture and it’s like higher intelligent entities organisms on some plain or multiple planes that have as much of that where is dumb to them as we think you know feedlot cows are to us in his manipulable and it is his you know what we poke and prod them and you know a factory farm animals and milk them and inseminate them and do all this traffic in on all the vivisection. Stephanie say it’s interesting when people have these spontaneous cycling abduction sequences that also match like a 50% rate of the Rick Strassman DMT study subjects who reported like flashing into this like operating table with insectoid aliens poking and prodding them and then matching that with the UFO Abduction stuff with me is actually they’re actually having random spontaneous DMT releases in their sleep and they feel like they’ve been taken through the tunnel that’s the light is you know how it is I was just paralyzed but from the permaculture design perspective for me it’s like you can’t torture has this Integrity about not teaching mystical things but teaching scientific things in and it has to be scientifically provable to be like considered within the design from system of human culture and for me I see that as much as I want to do biological Pest Control in the garden and protect my beautiful you know livelihood of plant ecology and animal called you that I’m designing I’m going to have to understand the Predators and the parasites and the ecological world of what causes disease and weakens the plants if if it’s like I’m planning something in wrong place and it gets weekend by lack of sunlight or moisture poor soil conditions then all the Predators and pests come in to devour it because I’ve been weak and if there’s this pressure coming from whatever order of predatory or parasitic specifically of the sexual nature that’s family assigning ruining life on the reservation delete ruining people’s potential to enjoy the most beautiful gift that we as human animals have in the planet enjoy their sexuality this erotic gift in and so if I’m designing with permaculture communities are going to be sustainable and there’s already a 50% divorce rate and then there’s this invisible sector of energy which is this pressure of sexual pathology that’s ruining families like how am I going to build I could build the most beautiful Garden of Eden and not have protected that Garden of Eden from these invisible entities that are causing possession to the in the form of sexual abuse by family members against other family members and obviously alcohol is a huge factor and just a fragmentation of will the lack of shamanism if you take away the shaman you put in alcohol and you really want to study incest on the reservations is where it’s like I don’t know what the percentage is but it’s extremely high and I think that we probably share the opinion that a tool set of clinical application of the Ayahuasca magic is that it can bring that sort of Shadowmere up for creditors to see themselves and we know that all the kinds of healing is happening and people are approaching the memories of the abuse since it is all this victims or or are seeking a medicine and finding great healing through it but there doesn’t seem that I know of or I guess I shouldn’t say but I guess my dreamer my goal would be to as a permaculture designer know that I can design safe communities because we’ve we have this magical medicine that we can apply in a clinical way that will screen disinfect purify you know give us this ability to have to protect our communities from this invisible alien pressure this like that that seems to be everywhere in the world all skills of a concentrates obviously in the more and the more and less educated the more drug and alcohol abuse among populations in the lower socio-economic conditions but it also will be no rich and Powerful lawyers and doctors are artist raping your children any thoughts you have in your experience of working with the medicine and of the potential for it to be used in that way to like purifier to disinfect and purify and I release these things so this is basically what I research for my PhD he is interviewing women around North America about their sexual healing in Ayahuasca ceremonies and with the other Master plants and so that’s exactly what I’ve experienced and what these women have reported in that the first step in their healing was a purification who says not just as Ayahuasca with tobacco with Sasha Rosa cook it like other plants Valeska is really important for the reproductive organs and so that the purification began on a physical cellular level actually purging the trauma held in their cells and then being shown how it was causing emotional disturbances and purging that out and then you know the next levels seem like how it change their perception of reality and that they were looking through many Legend lenses of trauma so they that their lens was Fuzzy and they asked it was distorted and they actually couldn’t see what was what and so there was that level of her genes which then connected them to the spiritual trauma and that disconnection and really the fear that has been program indoctrinated into us and so purging that fear and then having a reconnection with their the spirit allies that are actually and plants me one of them are allies that are actually looking out for us and wanting the best for our soul journey and so it sounds really simple and it’s time for some people very challenging and also takes time that there are these layers of here if acacian and literal extraction of the demons and other parasitic entities that have been in them and also passed through generations is there DNA so there is a mean for us living in this time right now it’s a really big role that we’re playing in our own families in our ancestral lineage is that we are clear cleaning house for thousands of years and for the collective for our society in general which is shocking to me but as I started to know on this path if I can personal healing and researching it was like okay I thought women were so Divine and so Sanctified and that they could never be pushed by any any impulse inside of them to do that behavior and then it turns out that it does happen this keeps me thinking more and more than like what’s happening is that humans are basically being made into these shells like your hollowed out your if you become a sociopathic sexual abuser than you have been hollowed out of your moral compass your social accountability know we don’t you think no one’s looking and we’ve someone designed human settlement design pattern where everyone’s private little individual fi films are locked and no one really tears in to see what’s going on unless there’s like pawriffic screams the Demon World sexual abuse is something that they want to push any Wii console to the point of doing that and interesting like so in that under that is a family close to me with it where there’s a pattern of abuse I’m kind of studying the way it reverberates and how this monster is like jumping generations and kind of jumping around the different opportunities it has to operate in the shadow and like where the children are vulnerable when the parents are at work or whatever and if I go there happens to be schizophrenic man who is like sort of being care taken by the family over all he gets bounced around so wherever he ends up because he’s like with his children around 4 then report start coming out so I think the week of the more we can do the person is play drugs alcohol and lack of authentic religious community and othentic spiritual community and disappear fication and dancing and transit to all the things that any traditional culture would be doing too but for themselves against the pressure of all kinds of disease just regular infection and I like their level of vigilance against any inter-penetration of unwanted entities on any level of their physiology or spirituality was like an art and science of shamanism and you take that away you put people under these horrible living conditions I like what you said about the process that a victim goes through to purchase things and also connecting with the Vista generational entered multi-generational patterns that you know these things I think of any I am my own these things I’ve seen that the family molecule DNA thread kind of thing as we live or a little short lifetimes but the DNA continues as an unbroken biological entity of form going back to the beginning of life on Earth and you know who knows what happened before that but at least that’s if you’re let’s say an immortal or at least your urine in an organism identity that creepy calls the underside of power under the hood who believes human consciousness they’re crawling through the generations bone this murky kind of almost like aquatic I don’t see isn’t either I see the the hyperspace is sort of like a deep-sea kind of environment with all kinds of different organisms and all kinds of food webs interacting and so like it from their perspective where are this our families are like these these threads that they’re kind of crawling along and just what one person pops up into it from their perspective they’re just like doing a little poking and prodding and manipulating and sucking and you know with whatever means they have to check into a nervous system and create impulses and and like I sound accounts we’re through hypnosis demons were speaking about how they function in the human biological system the kinds of Highly articulated anatomical tools they have to do the things that they do like pincers and pokers and thing here had things you had mine is seeing so and I and I think you know when somebody proves is I heard someone say that this person was not a I don’t think there was sexual pathology in the family or anything but just you know for example somebody who had suffered maybe as an emotional psychological abuse casually says I think I just I’ve had the experience of vomiting out an alien fetus you know like something that looks very much like a Giger painting and someday I hope there’s like a National Geographic devoted to of the taxonomy of the spirit world and so we can understand these things like okay that’s how you would identify it and that’s how you would get denied work as a school bus driver if you were scanned and you miss things were seen inside of you know you’d have to go to the island and om Spinderella and unfortunately this there would be unnecessary would be necessary do this and it’s hard though for families cuz if it is somebody that everybody to family does authentically love but he has been infected and he has done these Deeds then what are you do you know once he becomes out into the open and I think that you know they’re there would have to be some sort of place where they go and have dinner with this not prison Chino that’s like a prison camp but is like a more enlightened sort of place where and I think that bill find that authentic remorse and they will they take the the potential for what you would call a cure is this application is medicine which would actually rid you of this Parasect let’s say let’s say if you had a grant you know a blue sky budget and it was just like all of your Survivor respondents you know had had your back in like you do you have the ability to say okay I’m creating a task force now to go to the other side of this and now I know you’ve had such a disgusting repulsive revolting look into the victim side of this that your unshakable and not afraid to like take this medicine in the people qualified to administer it into psychiatric prisons and replace the chaplain of the prisons with the Psychedelic Simon said there were actually rebuild hitting people for real with a strict you know honestly so if I had a grant with Limitless potential and I could create a team what I would Envision is a place where people could go Fort Pierre fication and realignment and then fortification so they can actually step out into the world as a new person I would build a team with as you say psychedelic shamans and I had to leave that all the sacred plants have their place I particularly love Ayahuasca and then that’s just my focus for this lifetime and and so I would build a team with the V I was scared of adjective Lisa along with body workers like acupuncturist the people who can lead Body Talk sessions I believe that the body is the way to Healing as opposed to talk therapy I believe talk therapy has a little bit of helpfulness in terms of cognitive behavioral changes so really billina integrative tea and then there is just a equal amount of focus on the integration piece of prepping people for ceremonies and then post-ceremony invited exercises and then giving people tools to actually and purify themselves and protect because even when people go through an intense healing process which could be anywhere from one week intensive the plant diets to one-year Rehabilitation that it takes time for us to build ourselves up so you know what we can have a one-level healing and then we’re still vulnerable woman like me one baby so we need to be taken care of and being shown taught tools had had to be in this world in and be between worlds and and so also the importance of integrating in a reconnection with the elements and with the learning how to be in harmonic relations with all beans including other dimensions so as you mentioned permaculture so really I’m back to land like what are the beans here what are the plants I’m in our Gardens like that reintroduce introduction and just like emphasizing that nurturing that relationship and and then really focusing on community so as a community what can we build together what are these different paradigms you different structures that needs to come into being for us to collectively evolved and part of this of retreat program you know including the the educational component the ceremonies the integration support and the permaculture that would be some kind of initiation process cuz I feel that that’s a huge piece that we’re missing I’ll talk about it later tonight but that there is a way traditionally where perpetrators have been brought into Community where they are initiated sometimes it’s life-or-death kind of scenarios and they go through this process of their own purification and coming out Reborn only Alive by the blessing of their allies keep me on keeping them going to the arduous test really and so that there is a sense that the community is tending the nurturing the survivors and then also allowing for perpetrators to go through their healing process where if they if they do get through and they are alive then they’re considered pay their dues so instead of executing them or having them spend 5-10 years in jail maybe it is a year program where they go through and if they are committed to it and they actually do what is required and which means a lot of ritual ceremonies gardening whatever you know whatever that may be that there is a forgiveness and forgiveness is a strange word but there is a rate out of how they were carrying that they parasite you know the half of their family and then we’re weekend to estate of acting unethically and and harmful and that if they get through the rehabilitation that they’re eat the community sees the big picture and is willing to let that person be reborn and go into a new phase of your life is supposed to always having this attach a label of perpetrator and evil which I don’t believe is true and we all carry something to different degrees and we’re all responsible for the collective and that’s a really hard one to swallow and this is like you asked me big vision and this would be something that I believe is possible it and there were aspects of it that existed in the end our past and that we will be at a turning point based on are the ecological changes and shifts that are happening that are out of the human control that will actually promote that the urgency of this change and end this Paradigm is possible and will come into place because it it’s going to be necessary for the survival of whoever is still existing on this Earthly plane thank you for listening to the touch upon podcast please go to www.crunch.com and click on the Donate button to help support the show in addition to 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How to Love Like a God

Why Get Off When You Can Stay On and Get High?

Everyday we wake up with renewed sexual energy, and we’re driven by the need to do something with it. What does it want to do? It wants to connect with other consenting age-appropriate human beings in as free, open, loving, and wild a way possible. It wants to get us high, heal our bodies, blast us into hyperspace, take us for a trip across the astral plane, keep us peaceful, careful, loving, and kind, bind couples and communities together, drive procreation, and more.

Unfortunately the dominant culture has denied this energy, dammed its flow, and damned its spirit to hell. Virtually everyone in our culture is sexually dysfunctional, physically, mentally, and spiritually. The resulting sickness manifests subtly and overtly in all domains. Much of what is toxic, unsustainable, and harmful in modern civilization can be thought of as the physical manifestation of misdirected sexual energy. When we train our minds and bodies to embrace and cultivate this energy we can build more ethical economic systems, more sustainable infrastructure, and have more compassionate public policy and diplomacy. Instead of trashing the finite planet to build empires of ego, we can build palaces of transcendent pleasure in infinite spiritual realms, right from the comfort of our own bedrooms. Frustrated, angry sublimation can be transmuted to blissful flowing superlimation.

Here are some practical steps for men:

Self Love
Without self love, most people are love deficient, they have a hole that they’re trying to fill, rather than an overflowing abundance that they’re eager to share.

For most of my life I lived without self love. I didn’t think it could be cultivated from within, I thought I needed it to be imported from the outside. Through serious pain, heart-break, and study I learned how and why to self-love. From compliments to the mirror, to medibation (masturbation + meditation), to getting fit, to eating right, to educating myself, I learned to take an active interest in myself so that when I hear the song “Enjoy the Silence” by Depeche Mode, I sing “All I ever wanted, all I ever needed…” to myself, “here in my arms”…me! Without that glowing self love, where you stand tall, with good posture, happy for no reason, content, calm, peaceful, energetic, you can’t attract what you really want. Attraction is a factor of energy. You can be skinny and be unattractive if you’re spirit is faded and you don’t love yourself. Conversely, you can be large and be an electro-magnet because you love yourself and it excites and turns people on. It’s not a matter of how tight the skin is to the bones, it’s a matter of how tight the spirit is to the flesh. The spirit’s food is love, feed it everyday with a life-long romance with yourself, your body, your mind. Your spirit will stay with you and turn heads for you. Crouch like a pretzel in the corner, let your spirit fade, and dwell in the shadow of negative self talk, and self-conceived ugliness, and you will not attract anyone, or whoever you do attract will be of like-vibration, you’ll attract another pain-bodied self-hating energy vampire and you’ll perpetually make life hell for each other.

The simplest way I can put it is to use the cultural construct of the “dream man” or “dream woman”. At one point I said to myself, wait a minute, if I’m this toxic mess of deprivation and clingy, needy desire, and I want some angelic princess to come along and rescue me and make me happy, and be perfect, and never upset me, or change, well, only change to be exactly the way I want her of course…isn’t something missing from the picture? That’s an ugly picture, beauty and the beast! I realized that, the dream love I wanted was a two way street. I had to love myself just as much, I had to be my dream self, or at least know what that was and be working towards it. So I built the vision in my mind of my dream self, and without waiting for someone to rescue me, I went to work, broke out of my shell of self-pity and started to build the dream me. I’ll never be done, because as I grow I want to grow more, but as long as I’m growing, I’m not dying and the mirror gets more and more forgiving and loving. Not just because of physical work, but because of spiritual, intellectual, and emotional work.

In this heart-broken and self-esteem broken society, the mirror is your worst enemy but it can become your best friend no matter what anyone else says about your appearance. It can be a tool to develop a relationship with yourself, your first and only truly life-long relationship. You can go through a million partners, but you’ll always have to face yourself, sleep with yourself, argue with yourself, put up with yourself. The mirror can be a tool for building that abundance of love, from the inside out that you can share with the world.

Training/Practice
By training I mostly mean masturbation, or preferably medibation (masturbation + meditation). For men, if you’re not “getting laid” you better be staying in shape by masturbating not just to get off and get on with life, but rather to make love to yourself with similar time, focus, and attention, as you’d give to the act of love with a partner. Not only is it necessary to maintain “stamina” by mastering the art of riding the edge of climax and drawing the energy through the body with breath and self massage, but it’s necessary to keep your body lit up with erotic energy.

If you’re not in a partnership where sex is shared regularly, maintaining a healthy regular loving relationship with yourself keeps your wiring and gears from rusting and locking up.

Also the power to do sex magic is as potent (though perhaps not as powerful) alone as with a partner. Think about it, when stimulating yourself you’re raising all of this energy into and through your system, whatever thoughts/visions/ideas/desires are in your mind can and should be energized as well. Whether you need to psyche yourself out to remember the study questions for the mid-term, of you’re trying to manifest a new job, or a new lover, why waste the energy by just consuming porn or fantasizing about some cover-girl?

The Love of a Lover
I think you can have great sex with strangers, it’s not very safe, fulfilling, or sustainable, and it can’t get you as high as with a true lover. Developing love first is always a better way to go in my opinion because there can be trust, comfort, relaxation, safety and other ingredients listed below.

So here are few notes on the love of a lover. It’s actually easier to love oneself it seems because you’re in total control of your decisions (unless you’re dominated by addictive behavior, then you’re basically in a toxic relationship with yourself). In relationships, a tension builds over time around all the resentment over little things, the disagreements, power struggles, compromises, annoyances, etc. If that energy isn’t carefully managed and flushed properly, it can back up into the bedroom and toxify the sexual environment. Even worse, sex can be manipulated as a weapon to seek justice or revenge for problems in other domains of the relationship. It can be withheld, or faked, or just done without passion or spirit and be lame. Either partner can find ways to poison the sacred union both intentionally and unintentionally.

In my experience and study, there are a few key patterns in relationships that have to be carefully guarded against. And there are a few practices that have to be religiously maintained in order for healthy, ecstatic sex to be shared.

First I want to describe the typical love curve. For most couples, high states of ecstasy are easily achieved early on because the love is fresh, exciting, and new. There is heightened curiosity, passion, romance, and both partners are on their best behavior, they haven’t yet fought, their lives aren’t yet entangled, they haven’t had to work through issues or compromise on much. This “Cloud 9” high, is great, but it doesn’t last. It’s a true neuro-chemical drug-induced state that sooner or later you “come down” from and reality comes crashing back in. True mastery of love would be to know how to re-access these chemical states and actually enhance them over time as the relationship grows. The difference after the initial free high wares off, is that you have to give more energy and attention to sustain it, and consistently purify the relationship with fun, adventure, novelty, creativity, and most importantly, open hearted communication.

In our culture of instant gratification, cheap thrills, and no work ethic, most people stay perpetually stuck in the “thrill of the chase” stage where you play “the game” of building up a flirtatious and seductive fling. You’re getting high on the excitement of pursuit, there’s uncertainty and the possibility for failure which keeps you on your toes. You play the game and once you win, that is, once you actually hook up, have sex, and start hanging out, the excitement disappears. It becomes easy, mundane, expected, the chase is over, the thrill is gone. So what do you do, you trail off in communications, you stop being responsive, you fade away and begin again with another prey. Men and women do this all the time, usually leaving a broken-hearted victim.

It makes sense in a way because once that 2 week to 2 month easy high wears off, building a lasting love requires disciplined effort, and all of the ugliness of each person starts to creep out. It makes perfect sense, but it also keeps people in perpetual immaturity. Why do people get stuck in the addictive “chase” cycle, because they lack the patience and discipline to really apply themselves to build real love. The lack of true love, and shallowness of constant flings means ultimate lack of fulfillment and unhappiness, and often the inability to experience the highest states of ecstasy.

I’ve basically tried to establish this phenomenon of the love curve. We’re all some where along it. The goal I think should be to understand it, and find ways to healthily work through it so that it’s more evenly spaced. For example, in a long term relationship, when the initial spike drops, expect it, be aware of it, and don’t think that the love is dead, just know that like a garden, it will die if not properly maintained with TLC. So many couples are sexless for decades, then shell out thousands of dollars to therapists just so they can re-ignite that initial romantic passion. The next time you fall in love, keep a dairy together and take good notes on what felt the best so you’ll have a bread crumb trail to follow when times get tough.

Every person has certain stimuli that make them feel loved the most. It could be a word, a voice tonality, a touch, a place to visit, whatever it may be, the point is we need to know things like this about ourselves and our lovers, and we need to upkeep the practice of making one another feel loved. And we need to learn how to clear emotional space so that passion can be kept alive.

Again, like a garden, if you don’t properly bury the weeds and their seeds in sheet mulch, all the nutrients will be robbed and your crops will be grown over and buried alive. It’s easy to get lazy and let the weeds grow in relationships, so that you can’t even see what you originally planted. If you’re lucky it’s still there, but it’s going to be a hard job to clear it up and bring it into full production if you’ve let it go for a while. That’s why simple, steady, low-level maintenance is so important in love. Going back to the self love component, the more inner prep work you’ve done while alone, the less weeds will sprout in the garden of your love with a partner. With the right amount of preparation and maintenance you’ll be spending more time smelling each others flowers and tasting each others fruits than pulling each others weeds.

Just try to set the intention with yourself and your lover to keep a burning desire for each other alive, and make sure to have combustible chemistry always. It’s not easy, don’t blame yourself or your partner if it fades. The dropping off of the curve is natural, accept it and put effort into pushing it up to ever-higher levels! I great formula for sustaining healthy long-term relationships that I’ve learned and practiced is: daily affection, weekly date-nights, and monthly romantic adventures. I’ve added a couple bonuses: on demand 5-10 minute cuddle breaks and on demand spontaneous dance breaks.

Selectivity
Your sex partner should be someone with whom you share similar life goals. The more aligned your ambitions are the more stable and fruitful the relationship will be. Falling in lust and building a relationship without a foundation of purpose can often be a recipe for disaster. Co-creative synergy should be as important in selecting a mate as sexual chemistry and physical attractiveness.

Prayer and Intent
Before love making verbalize a shared intention, it could be to honor each other as divine beings, to deepen the love, or to achieve a specific outcome such as manifesting a promotion at work. Sacred sexuality involves sexualizing prayer and overcoming religious shame of carnal pleasure. Whatever names you use to call upon your God(s)/Goddess(es) of choice, addressing them in your love making ritual is essential. Many people exclaim “Oh My God” unconsciously throughout the act. In my experience, sexual energy is an amplifier of your prayers. If you want your prayers to make it to the top of the stack, state them clearly and believe fully that whatever request you make will be best received when packaged in a container of pure loving grace.

Time
This is very subjective and variable. But to be safe, my experience and study tells me that for intercourse itself, 30 minutes or more is the optimal range for the magic to really happen. There are so many energetic and chemical currents, some raging, some very subtle, but they’re all epic in their development. The more time they have to flow, the more merging of consciousness can occur so that you become one unified vessel of blissful consciousness able to soar through higher dimensions.

Sacred Set and Setting
Creating a magical altar, lighting candles, burning incense, playing music, wearing sensual clothing, etc. can anchor a sacred mindset and on a metaphysical level, serve to disinfect the environment. Ritualizing the build up to union creates an atmosphere where consciousness is focused, attention is undivided, and the body has the cues it needs for juices to flow and for arousal to occur gradually from a deeper level of being. You may choose to burn sage and call in by name whatever spiritual allies you are close to and command that all things that don’t serve the highest good be banished, be they negative emotions, energies, or entities. If this sounds too occult or hippie-ish, it’s easy enough to simply verbalize that you intend to create a field of pure love where nothing but the truth of bliss is welcome.

Bathing
Bathing is one of the most sensual activities you can share together. It’s always recommended from a sexual health and hygiene perspective, beyond that it effectively sets up the “take turns” approach to giving and receiving pleasure.

Physical Energy
Energy comes from proper eating habits, hydration, regular exercise, rest and the right attitude. Poor diet, dehydration, lack of movement, sleep deprivation and a negative attitude will rob you of energy. Huge meals before love making can obviously sap energy. Light meals at least a couple of our before love making is recommended and trays of fresh fruit, berries, nuts, chocolate, and other healthy sensual foods to snack on throughout a love making session are quite nice and help sustain energy levels.

Dance
Dancing is the art of making love before or without having sex. If you haven’t danced with someone, how can you trust them with your heart and your sexual health? Dancing is an essential part of maximizing the potential of foreplay. It’s what starts all of the engines in the charka system. It gets the blood flowing, detoxifies the lymph system, and gets you energetically prepared for long lasting, full bodied, transcendent orgasms. It also creates a field within which only blissful emotion can survive, it makes the past dissolve, and allows smiles to bubble to the surface uncontrollably.

You can roll on top of each other at midnight after you click off the TV, knowing you have to get up at 6:00am, and the love making will most likely leave much to be desired. A better approach would be to shut off the TV a couple hours earlier and pretend you and your lover are the TV stars, act out and role play your own script, be your own entertainment, and make it a dancing musical while you’re at it!

Relaxation with Massage
When people rush to sex, they’re not taking the time to shed the energetic tension of the day. Massage is an exquisite means to bring the body to a state of complete and total relaxation. If lovers gave each other even a five minute coconut oil massage before intercourse, they’d experience exponentially more pleasure and satisfaction.

Full Attention and Presence with Meditation
Meditation is the key to focusing your full attention and into the body and the present moment. It can be as simple as closing your eyes and focusing your attention on deep breaths. There are infinite ancient and modern techniques from all over the world. It’s best to try a variety and decide what works best for you and your partner. Whether you’re sitting still, stretching, or dancing, the goal should be to quiet the mind.

Breathing, and Conscious Energy Circulation
Breathing techniques are extremely important. There are all kinds that should be studied and experimented with. According to Tantric and Taoist traditions, the breath can be the most powerful tool to circulate energy. It’s critical that the men master breathing techniques so that the high voltage sexual energy can be drawn up from genitals and  circulate internally throughout the body, and externally when with a partner. There are many detailed diagrams of energy flow within an individual’s sexual energetic circuitry and the same for couples. I won’t describe these in detail here, but it’s enough to know that when shared sexual energy is built in a couple, it has to go somewhere. For many men who don’t consciously circulate their sexual energy with breathing, meditation, and visualization techniques, premature ejaculation is a lifelong curse.

If the energy is not consciously cycled within the individual or couple, it will get jammed in the genital area and eventually explode in the form of a fleeting orgasm. But when circulated, it can result in waves of multiple orgasm for both the female and the male, and thus push the couples unified consciousness into ever higher and deeper altered states of ecstasy.

Warning: breath and energy circulation techniques should be practiced only with the guidance master. Extremely powerful waves of energy can be released that require advanced methods of preparation to be able to safely endure.

Eye Gazing
Eye gazing, or sustained eye contact is one of the most intense forms of intimacy. It comes easily in the early stages of love and when practiced regularly during sex can play an important role in sustaining true love. Having sex in the dark or with eyes closed, or astray, allows the mind to wander. Consciousness can leave the moment, whether it’s to fantasize about someone else, or go over the shopping list, without eye contact, there’s no guarantee that quality attention is shared. It doesn’t have to be constant, but it should be regular, and it should be what starts the sexual session.

It’s not desirable to be fettered with all kinds of formal procedures, or to keep count of this or that, the point is to train in these things so that they become effortless and automatic. It’s just like martial arts, you train to learn the skill and eventually like magic the skill performs for you without arduous effort. Your consciousness is free to just be fully present in the experience as your body dances with the energy using the tools and techniques you taught it.

Basic Anatomy and Stimulation
Developing an understanding of female anatomy is so important. The dominant culture has trained men to believe that 100% of a woman’s pleasure is a direct result of his size when in fact the majority of erogenous tissue is in and around the clitoris. And only certain positions actually allow the penis to reach the G-Spot.

Sadly, porn cinematography favors the visually dramatic deep thrusting pattern which is typically the least pleasurable for the woman, and the most overstimulating for the man. The key is to balance the stimulation, so excitement builds steadily for both partners. Keep the thrusting pattern at a ratio that favors shallow over deep. This will protect you from overstimulation and keep her in a positive feedback loop of building anticipation and reward.

Another vital strategy to prevent premature ejaculation is to do what boxers do when they get exhausted. You know how they burrrow themselves into each other as though to hide from their opponents punches by limiting their range and velocity? Well you can achieve the same effect by thrusting all the way in and holding on tight with a bear hug so that the range of thrusting motion is limited and your stimulation is decreased. You’ll discover that being in deep for longer periods of time actually benefits your partner because she’ll be happy to grind on your public bone while you whimper and pant while regaining your strength for continued thrusting action.

Direct manual clitoral stimulation should not be done immediately, rather, slow caressing of the pelvic area should be gradually built up. Packed in the clitoris are as many nerves as the entire penis, and there’s a “circuit overload” phenomenon that can be quite uncomfortable and inhibit arousal.Direct manual clitoral stimulation should not be done immediately, rather, slow caressing of the pelvic area should be gradually built up. Packed in the clitoris are as many nerves as the entire penis, and there’s a “circuit overload” phenomenon that can be quite uncomfortable and inhibit arousal.

There is also the G-Spot, which is just behind the pubic bone in the inner vaginal wall. Insert one or two fingers and do the “come hither” motion to put pressure on the dense sponge-like tissue. Once you and your partner have located it with fingers and she can identify the sensation, experiment with various positions of intercourse and become more conscious of how to stimulate it with the penis.

The male anatomy is pretty self-explanatory, however most straight folk are unaware of the male G-Spot, which is the prostate. It’s about the size of a dried apricot and it can be stimulated from the outside by applying pressure between the testicles and the anus, or for the slightly more adventurous, from within via insertion of body parts/objects of your choice into the anus.

Everyone is different, everyone’s wiring is different; that is what’s fun about getting to know someone sexually. For someone to share with you what makes them unique and for them to train you to play them like a musical instrument can be a true joy.

I won’t go into detail about positions, oral techniques, thrusting patterns, etc. here, just study, experiment and keep in mind the principles of spontaneity and diversity.

Consider how when you put your clothes on, your body registers the sensation, but once it’s registered, it doesn’t keep sending you the same signals. There’s a trailing off of sensation once your body gets used to something so the changing of position, rate, depth, patterns, etc. often keeps the body guessing and the signals are more intense.

Climactic Equality
So how does the average American male understand his sexual energy and its application with a sex partner? Generally, like most things in patriarchal culture, it’s understood within a construct of goal oriented sports. Hence the metaphors, “Did you score?, “No, I only got to third base,”… Guys are culturally taught that the objective is to score, first by getting a woman in bed, second by performing athletically so that she reaches climax during or before his climax. No surprise that the locker-room wisdom for guys to keep from ejaculating prematurely is to “think of a sport where you haven’t shot the ball yet…”

The primary goal of simply having sex is far more rewarded and tallied in the locker room than the secondary goal which is to perform in a way the satisfies one’s partner. So although all men know they’re supposed to be able to “go all night long” most don’t bother to learn how. The average American married couple’s sex lasts for 3-5 minutes.

This tragedy is one of the main reasons why countless American women have never had an orgasm during intercourse, and if shamed away from masturbation, have never had an orgasm at all.

So what’s really going on here? There’s an orgasmic economy that’s very unequal. The untrained man is quickly overwhelmed by stimulation while his female partner is consistently underwhelmed. The man gets off and passes out leaving the woman teased and dissatisfied. This cycle repeats again and again until they cheat, divorce, or die.

Balancing sexual energy requires increasing duration and can be achieved with a variety of trained/practiced techniques and fundamental understandings.

For sexual union to bring both male and female partners into altered states of ecstasy, this balance has to be achieved.

Because of the physiological differences between women and men, it’s easy for a man to simply get aroused physically whereas a woman’s arousal originates from a deeper place physically and spiritually. It’s like building a camp fire, it has to be done according to certain principles. If you light a match and drop a log on it, it won’t burn, you have to take the time to make the perfect little nest of tinder, build a perfect cone of kindling, and in stages build up to a roaring fire.

The problem with most men is that we’re not aware of this because, it’s not required for us to climax. A minimum 30 minutes of intercourse is a lot to ask as many men can’t survive the intensity of stimulation more than a few minutes. Or if they can last for 30 minutes or longer, if their heart isn’t present, they’re not going to bring their partner to climax, hence the faked female orgasm.

Without becoming distracted or anxious by having a goal to perform perfectly, couples can work over time towards the ability to increase duration and heartful presence.

The real goal should be to focus full attention on your partner and the pleasure itself, it’s only with this full presence that the doors to higher dimensions open. However many men regularly project their attention elsewhere and thus never let their full energy, spirit, and consciousness fill up in the moment. That’s truly what builds female arousal, the physical aspect is secondary to this primary need.

With the understanding that in order to “satisfy” a woman, a man must last longer, what can he do? One way to visualize male physiology is to imagine a circuit breaker. When the circuit is overloaded it breaks and the lights go out. Ever plug in too many appliances at once, and everything shuts off and you’re standing there like a fool in the dark? Welcome to the bedrooms of millions of couples across America.

A man has to learn to distribute the high-voltage current throughout his whole body, this is the only way he can survive the intensity. First he must know that it’s possible to withhold ejaculation yet have multiple and continuous full body orgasms. Many men haven’t ever been introduced to this idea. In many cases, masturbation in adolescence was done quickly, secretly, and in a state of shallow rapid breathing under the stress and fear of being caught. That doesn’t set up a good neuro-physiological template for long, relaxed, sacred love making later in life.

Once the idea is learned, the art and science has to be studied, practiced, and mastered. There are many books, websites, videos, classes, etc. on ejaculation control, or as some people like to say ejaculation “choice”. Just Google multiple male orgasms, Taoist Sexual Kung Fu, and Tantric Cobra breath.

Another training technique that both men and women should do on a regular basis is kegel exercises where you repeatedly contract the “PC” (pubococcygeus) muscles on the pelvic floor in various intervals. They’re the same muscles used to stop the flow of urination. If you haven’t identified them, next time you urinate, do what you normally would to stop the flow and you’ve found them. When men regularly contract these muscles, they condition the ability to withhold ejaculation by contracting them as the urge to ejaculate arises. For women, the main application of conditioned PC muscles is to create more tightness and muscle control during intercourse.

Non-goal Orientation
Going back to the sports analogy, if the man is distracted and caught up just trying to make the woman climax, he’s not fully present, not fully being in the experience. If a woman is feeling anxiety because she wants to force herself to climax so she can make the man feel like he’s not a failure, and protect his fragile ego, she’s not fully present and enjoying the experience. Yes the climax of both partners is desirable, but as long as there’s mutual effort put in by both parties to develop the skills to have a general equality of climax over time, it won’t be the end of the world if the male either loses an erection, or prematurely ejaculates during one session. So the goal should be to not have a goal and to just feel as freely as possible, but to have done the homework to make disappointment the exception not the rule.

Have fun, be safe, be sacred. You are already a God, you just need to train and condition your sexual Godhood so that you can rise to the built in potential of your Goddess.

Sexual Healing with Psychedelic Goddess Worship TPP02

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tantra-punk-kaliThis podcast is a lab report documenting an experimental Goddess Kali worship ritual conducted in January 2014.   It was co-designed and advised on by clinical sexologists, tantrikas,  shamans, and spirit guides to help me overcome PTSD symptoms resulting from sexual trauma in my adolescence.

Beyond my personal sexual healing, the objective was to collect data that would help build an explanatory model of the “ecology of the soul”.